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Robin Williams: Ladies and gentlemen,
it's time to pump neurons.

We are about to enter the
domain of the human mind.

James Lipton: How do you
explain the mental reflexes

that you deploy with such awesome speed?

Are you thinking faster
than the rest of us?

What the hell is going on?

Jesus.

"What is it
about your mind?

"What is it that does
this thing to you?

Try to explain yourself!"

Comes from a deep
part inside myself

that was actually looking
for my mother,

but yet I saw that moment
when she looked up there,

and I went, "Okay,
I'll be funny for her.

Okay, that's fine,
work that way."

Come back from that,
realize after a while

that I want to be accepted.

"You like me.
You really like me."

No, it's not that.
I can be trained.

I can show you
how intelligent I am.

I can use a word
like "delicatessen"

and know
what it means.

Or "invertebrate."

Or "inveterate."

Or "degenerate."

But all of that...

...is all part of it, because
it's all part of the mind

that actually flows like
that, because I realize

that the human mind is a
three-and-a-half pound gland

that pumps neurons constantly
and deals with itself

by responding to stimulus. That's
what we're designed to do,

evolving slowly. Even Darwin's
going, "I have hopes!

I had such high hopes!"

It's all part of it,
because I believe

the human mind is adapting and
evolving slowly but surely

but I'm trying
not to speak that fast,

because eventually,
you have to catch up.

Lipton:
Wow.

Larry Grobel:
Do you have any fears?

Robin: I guess it'd be that
fear that if I felt like

I was just becoming...
not just dull, but a rock.

That I still
couldn't spark.

Then I'd start
to worry.

Where are my glasses?

-They're on your face.
-Oh. Thank you.

Robin: What you do is kind
of keep yourself fresh.

You don't burn out.
That's a never-ending struggle.

-We didn't have water when I was growing
up, Dave. -Letterman: Is that right?

My mother and father would have to take
hydrogen and oxygen and shove it together.

-Made your own water. Wow.
-Made our own water!

Isn't it interesting in the '80s,
you meet someone you like,

you say, "Gosh, Helen, I...
I really care about you.

Can I have
some blood and urine?"

And you think eventually... you
think sex will eventually be...

"Uh, Helen, I'm
in the airlock now."

"Fine, Harry, leave the sperm in the tray.
I'll get it tomorrow."

Inappropriate anecdotes
on a celebrity talk show.

So I said, "Get off me,
Grandma. I'm done."

Famous Hollywood roles
as played by Carol Channing.

"Well, surely
you must be the Son of God."

Robin:
This is Elmer Fudd

sings Bruce Springsteen.

Robin: Risking, for
me, it's always been

kind of part of the thing of
just trying different things.

It's the process of the work
peeling away again,

you think you're great, and
then something comes along

and goes,
"You're not that hot."

But it's always that thing that
keeps you moving forward.

Cameraman:
I'm sorry, you have two hairs...

There's... hairs are
sticking up.

Oh shit, man.

How fucked up is that?

Hair is sticking up?

Shit. We have
to do it all over now.

This is bullshit.
Two hairs?

Fuck you, man.
We were into a groove.

Two hairs.
Blow me, dude!

Two hairs. I can see you
looking at the monitor going,

"Can someone..."

Bob, normally, it's usually
like a mic shadow,

but two fucking hairs?
Jesus Christ.

Is it okay now, Bob?
Now, we'll start again.

It's better that we go again.
Take two...

without
the two hairs.

You want to start again?

Shall we go from the top?

I was so fucking quiet.

My father was
kind of very intense.

He was always on the road, because he
was working for Ford Motor Company.

He had to go back and forth
all over the Midwest

to take care of all
of these dealerships.

But every time
he came back,

he would bring me
some kind of...

like a small car
or a tank

or something, and I'd
be like, "Dad's home!"

So that was
my connection

with my father.

My mother was
a comedy maven.

She was very entertaining.

Just seeing her being funny
with other people.

I think that was
the major thing.

We were moving a lot
because of my father.

We lived in this big place
for a while in Detroit.

This huge house.

I was lonely.

There were
no friends around.

I was an only child,
raised by,

basically, the maid
for a long time.

- Some toys to play.
- Look at me!

-One for the campfire.
-I want the green planet.

-Mine! -Give it to me!
Give it to me!

-Help me! Help me!
-Come along, dear.

Daddy, I can't carry bags.
Bags heavy.

I went to an
all-boys private school.

I was as serious
a student as you could be,

you know, cum laude society
and the whole thing.

And an athlete.

I remember the motto
of my private school was

"In sound
mind, in sound body."

It's a bit like the school
in Dead Poet's Society,

and I was one
of the students going, yes.

Jack Parr : The wild, wild
man, my friend Jonathan Winters.

Robin: I saw my father
watching The Tonight Show,

with Jonathan Winters.

My dad was a sweet man
but not an easy laugh.

Jonathan Winters:
I did a thing that, uh,

a lot of us... probably
would like to do.

Maybe a few
of us don't.

I don't know.
I'll just have to ask you:

Did you ever undress
in front of a dog?

Robin: My dad lost it, and
I went, "Who is this guy?

You made the great
white father laugh."

Do something with a stick.

Watch him do
a routine with the stick.

You can give him anything.

Well, that was a pretty
good cast, wasn't it, Bob?

I think we're onto something
this time. Mm-hmm.

I'm sorry, Margaret.
Try to swim in.

Doctor, I'm not kidding.

I seen them beetles,

and this is one
of their feelers.

Thoop.

The United Nations...

now recognizes the delegate
from NASA-Land.

-Oh! Mr. Williams!
-Elmo.

What are you gonna
do with that stick?

Oh, there's lots of things

you can do
with a stick, Elmo.

Hey, you maybe could be
playing hockey with it.

Yeah, I been goalie now

for about three years,

and it hasn't affected me.

Maybe it could be
like a baton.

There you
are, conducting a full orchestra.

Thank you, Madonna,

for that lovely lingerie melody.

I better go back. We'll
never be able to do that.

I realize.

Or it could be a cane.

Well, Nancy and I

are just happy
to be here.

Or you can play Pinocchio:
The Home Game.

I have two
Academy Awards, Elmo.

Stuff like that, Elmo,
just simple things.

-Ah. Uh-huh. Oh.
-Yeah.

And I'll tell you what I'm
gonna do with this stick.

-What?
-I'm gonna give it to you.

Oh. Thank you,
Mr. Robbins.

Mr. Robbins?

I'm taking
the stick back, Elmo.

Elmo:
I only had three lines!

Robin: When I was 16, we
moved to San Francisco.

Robin: Boom! Everything opened up.
The whole world just changed.

Robin: Everything was
loose, sexually loose,

everything, and I was
going, "Well, okay!"

From yin to yang
in 24 hours.

We were going from Detroit,
Middle West, all-boys school,

to an open-ended
San Francisco high school.

It's this incredibly
relaxed thing.

There was
no discipline at all.

It was like we had
gestalt history classes.

"Can you see Lincoln? He's
in the back of the room."

Robin: I was in a
senior class parody

of all of the stuff that was
going on at this school.

I did an impression of a teacher
who was pretty out there.

His name was
Mr. Lavezzo.

- Tino Lavezzo and his
lovely dystopic... -

Enacting history,
actually having

the Battle of Hastings.
It's everywhere, behind

the chairs, chanting
"We knew we were there!"

Robin: That was the first time
I really had a performance.

You're my
friend, come on over here.

Robin: I never really
started to even

be funny openly
on that level.

We as human beings, we are driven
by the same sexual desire.

Men, you know you have a tiny
creature living between your legs

that has no memory and no conscience.
You know that.

You have no control!

It should be
a separate creature.

You should be able
to take it off,

poom, put him
on the ground.

Take him for a walk.
He's got the rollers.

He'll be like...

Make it
a different beast!

Wouldn't it be nice
if you could go into a bar,

buy him a drink
once in awhile?

There'd be a big bar up here,
a little bar down here for him.

Go into the bar,
yeah, put him out.

He's looking up at you
with that one good eye,

like, "How ya been, baby?

"Sorry about last night.
I guess I got nervous,

"fired off a couple
of warning shots.

"What the hell?

"If you didn't try
and strangle me,

"I'd have had
a better chance!

"What the hell? I can't
go back in there, man!

"That's some scary stuff!

"I'm not going back
without a wetsuit

"and a mining helmet.
I'll tell you that.

"You better work on that!
I'm not going back!

"Hell no, I won't go! I...

"Hey, forget what I said.
Who's that?

I'm going down here. You talk to her.
Down scope."

My first year at college, I
went to Claremont Men's College

to study Political Science.

It's an all men's school,
and the only girls

are at this other school
called Pitzer,

and the only classes where you
can be with girls are there.

They had an improvisational
theater class,

and I went, "That's
where the ladies are."

Was not going to any of my
Political Science classes.

My father said, "I'm not
paying for this shit anymore."

Come back home to Marin, and we'll
go to the local junior college."

That was the beginning of studying
acting and taking that path.

Mark Rasmussen: Robin Goodfellow,
a fellow of infinite jest.

He had to be told to
shut up once in awhile

because we never could
get through rehearsals.

We had been invited to do
Taming of the Shrew,

a western version of it,
at the Edinburgh Festival.

He went to Edinburgh with us
as a late replacement.

It was fantastic,
and we had a great time.

And I really got
to know him in Edinburgh.

We had a lot
of great press.

We got the gold. We were the
best production at the festival.

We did a royal
command performance,

and Robin's eyes
were this big, you know?

For all of us,
I think, at that time,

there was nothing on the blackboard.
We were young.

There was nothing written,

and... that kind
of experience in life,

you only go through...

you know,
once if you're lucky.

Stanley Wilson: I met Robin the day he
came to New York to come to Juilliard.

My dear friend
Mark Rasmussen,

who was a good friend
of his, introduced us.

He just stood out in a way
that nobody else quite did.

John Houseman:
An actor is an actor!

At the Juilliard School,
people ask,

"Why don't you
have a course

in movie acting or
television acting?"

And that's nonsense.
An actor is an actor.

Wilson: John Houseman was
running the school then.

Robin and Chris Reeve
came in

as advanced students
in our third year.

Christopher was, you know,
a preppy from New England,

and Robin was kind of a crazy
hippie from Marin County.

Robin:
First day you know,

I'm wearing, like,
sandals and shorts...

pretty obvious
where I'm from.

I'm like, "So this
is really interesting.

There's a certain intensity."

I knew that it was supposed
to be this incredible

kind of English training
in America.

Attention on
a different level...

movement, vocal, acting.

Getting this great set of
tools that you can work with.

Rasmussen: We didn't have a lot
of things, and we didn't care.

We had our art form.
We had the work.

That's where our focus was,
and that was demanded.

You know,
Houseman really worked

the hell out of all of us

all the time, thank God.

Robin: Moments of "Great.
Oh God, this is amazing,"

and moments of
"What the hell am I doing?"

I had this schtick that I worked
out with a little stocking cap.

It was very tight,
but if I moved

my eyebrows,
the thing went, "Boop!"

I remember it was the first
piece of physical business

that I saw Houseman
laugh, and I went,

"Buddha laughed."

Being trained
as an actor...

that helped me
a lot just to play.

Hello. Who's got a scene idea for us?
Right over here.

Man: Somebody having
a close encounter.

Okay, just a close
encounter of any kind?

-Any kind.
-Right. Good. Okay.

Robin: When I came
home from Juilliard,

I started doing
improvisational comedy

as kind of a response
to not finding acting work.

Yo, mama.

Robin: I started to be able to
do comedy based on suggestions,

which is this idea of, "Wait a
minute, you're creating it."

-And that was addicting. -Do
you want to play a game?

Sure, let's play
Scrabble, okay?

Okay. You want to be
the board or the pieces?

-I'll be the board.
-Robin: Freeze!

- Esmeralda, why do you only
visit me on Sunday? -

The feeling, the rapport
was incredible.

The instant meshing
with the audience.

It's like sex
without the guilt.

And God created man.

I feel better now.

And then you went from the
workshop to actually clubs.

I can't sit down!
I'm too excited!

I drove all the way from
Squealer, Idaho, to be here.

Well, I drove
my truck, Mary Beth.

--It's a
big ol' sucker. It's huge.

Valerie Velardi: He was at the
Holy City Zoo, bartending.

He filled in as a bartender so that
he could get up on stage and play.

He had
a French accent,

offered me a drink,
chatted me up,

and was absolutely
delightful.

He asked me
for a ride home.

He was speaking French,
I was teasing him,

and we had a kiss,

mmm, and I just knew
I was going to see him again.

I was just finishing up
my masters degree

at Mills College in Dance.

So I was free,

and I was supporting
myself as a waitress.

He was always looking
for a connection,

And if he needed to pull out
another character or an accent,

he was shameless,
he would just do it.

Robin : America,
beach and balls country. Thank you.

Fuck a duck!

Thank you,
cheap shot, no way.

Some of the
characters people really love.

A character can be a comic
actor more than a comedian.

I don't tell jokes. I just use
characters as a vehicle for me,

but I seldom
just talk as myself.

I was his personal audience,

and I would help him
hone material.

Robin: A soviet poem
of pain and suffering.

"Little Robin,
upon my windowsill

"with tiny breast of red,

"I brought the window
slowly down

and crushed
the sucker's head."

Velardi: After being in San
Francisco for six months,

it was so clear that he
was developing his talent

and growing in a
particular direction.

Letterman:
I had moved from Indiana

and went immediately
to The Comedy Store.

Here's what I loved
about California then:

Governor Jerry Brown was
dating Linda Ronstadt.

That's the California you want.

That's what California
is supposed to be,

and it was exactly that.

Letterman: It was dynamic, it
was creative, it was exciting.

We were kids, it was
silly and it was fun,

and it was
the best time of my life.

My name is Dave Letterman,

and originally, I am
from the State of Indiana.

And you know,
when I was growing up,

the one thing
that I'll never forget,

what I'll always remember
as long as I live,

is when Dad used to tease
me with the power tools.

Did that happen to you folks a lot?

Letterman: When we first
saw Robin on stage,

we were skeptical,

and we made
it kind of a project

to keep our eye on him.

This is a quick
suppression, a Spanish fly.

Are there any Spanish
people here tonight?

Okay, we can do it!

Here we go,
the Spanish fly.

In my head,
my first sight of him

was that he could fly

because of the...
the energy.

It was like observing
an experiment.

Something special.
First a little toot for me.

Okay.

We are ready.

Everybody, shake from side
to side, come on, now.

What's the matter? You would
do it if I was blind.

Here we go.

One of the
first paying gigs I had

was this place called
The Laugh Stop.

It's their opening night.

The mics go down, they die,

and they're going
"What the fuck do we do?"

I think,
"I don't need a mic."

I just started
fucking around.

I'm going
in the audience,

and I was loud enough
because I'd been trained

to be loud that
I could survive.

I see a sister.

Do you feel the need
to be healed?

-Woman: Yes. -I know you can
walk without that chair.

Dear sister,
give me your hand.

I hope to God
you're not a real cripple.

All I could really do was hang on
to the microphone for dear life,

and here was a guy
who could levitate.

Are you ready now
to walk for Jesus?

Can you do it?

Oh my God!
Over here boys!

It's incredible!

Letterman: We knew that whatever
it was Robin was doing,

we weren't gonna
get close to that.

And we were frightened
that, "Oh my,

"maybe we've come out here
at just exactly the wrong time

"when everything was changing,

and all we had was
our stupid little jokes."

Come inside my mind
and see what it's like

when a comedian
eats the big one.

Don't be afraid.

Come on in.

Phase in Amrac, opening sequence B.
Amrac phase-in now.

Hey, nice to be here.

Easy audience! Move on to
dynamite second routine 1B!

Phase in now.
Amrac phase-in routine

"Open Response" 1B.
Amrac C and sequence A.

How 'bout that Oaxacan, eh?

Mayday!
Mayday! Mayday!

All systems overload!
Anything goes!

Phase in sequence 2,
Vegas pity response 1B.

Not buying the bullshit!
Career really over now!

All systems overload!
Ego check!

Everything failing! Lips?

Amrac, phase in now!
Relieve subconscious.

Mayday! Mayday!

Well, fuck you! What do
you want from me anyway?

Man:
Yes!

Good evening.
People ask me,

"Is comedy as much fun
as I say it is?"

--You know,
I'm wondering...

Bennett Tramer:
Are on you on wide shot?

-Woman: No. -Tramer:
You should zoom back.

You know, people wonder,

comedy and television...

Woman:
Ooh! Oh, I'm sorry.

Tramer: Being a writer
for Robin's standup

is like being a pinch
hitter for Barry Bonds.

You're not necessarily needed,

except for special
circumstances.

But it's interesting to see
how he would build a bit.

He had a lightning-fast mind,

but it wasn't like everything
he did came to him that night.

There was real work
and preparation.

There was a real thoughtful,
analytical process behind it.

It probably took him longer
to explain it to me

than coming together
in his mind.

Excuse me, sir, we'd like to
buy your right front tire.

Tramer: Stop, we'll
take it right off here.

Excuse me, we're
conducting an experiment

in accidents on highways
caused by distractions.

Tramer: He used to introduce
me as his best friend,

and I hadn't known
him that long.

I think he needed
a best friend.

Robin:
Madam please, please.

I'm making a plea for love.
Please, madam.

Larry Grobel: Early in life, did
you have a fear of abandonment?

Robin: Oh yeah. It's a
primal fear for any child...

and then it dictates a lot
of how you deal with life.

McLaurin Smith-Williams: My students
know that he was my brother,

and they
always have.

I've never tried to hide it,

but I also
don't try

to advertise
it either.

Robin and I shared a mom.

I was my mother's son
by her first marriage.

Shortly after I was born,
I was sent to live

with her parents
in the South.

My grandparents, who had been
raising me as their child,

suddenly informed me that I had this other
family and a brother that I didn't know I had.

And when we met,
we met as strangers.

He was eight.

He was probably not quite
sure what to make of me.

He was showing me all of his little toy
soldiers and everything like that.

I believe Robin
already knew about Todd.

Marina Zenovich: Tell me how you
are related to Robin Williams.

I was married to Robin's
brother, Todd...

for nearly
30 years.

Todd's mother was
married to Robin's dad

for only a couple of years.

Todd was a very little boy
when they divorced.

Mac, he and Robin had
the same mom, different dads.

Todd and Robin had
the same dad, different moms.

All three of them had
some things in common

and just loved the fact
that they were related.

McLaurin: Even though there
were three brothers,

we were all raised
as only children.

To be honest, I think that none of us
would have turned out the way we did,

had it been...
had we grown up together.

Growing up
by yourself a lot,

you can either
kind of go nuts

or you have a very comedic
attitude toward it.

When you're in school and you
don't have too many friends,

or this, that, and the other, that's
a way of kind of circumventing.

There's a flip side to that

because there's
a depressive side to that...

that kind of personality too.

There's a strong element
of that in our family.

Robin: My mother, she
would do weird things,

like cut a rubber band,
stuff it in her nose,

- and be at a dinner party, and go..
- . "Oh dear."

And my dad would go, "Great,
Laurie. That's really funny."

Oh my,
you're gonna do this!

Oh no! Oh God!

You know, we embarrassed your dad.
I did for years.

Yeah, that and me making
this noise at dinner.

-Yeah. No.
-He didn't like that either.

He doesn't
take lightly to our...

And the whoopie cushions.

-Fun too. -You remember
whoopie cushions?

We had a couple of those
that we'd bring in.

They've been going strong
for 50 years,

-and they're still funny.
-They are.

Nothing like a good
whoopie cushion

before a press conference, right, Mr.
Reagan?

That's right. Put a little water
in it, too. It's really effective.

Oh, God, Ma!

Put a little water in it
and then watch!

Not only does it make
a noise, it stains!

Oh, there's a fun one.

Laurie: I think Robin
had a happy childhood.

I hope.
You never really know.

He was very isolated,

so he had to entertain
himself a lot.

Elayne Boosler: I don't
know when I met Robin,

but the next thing
I knew was

he lived in my
apartment with me.

He had an apartment,
I never went there.

I didn't even
know his address.

He lived
in my apartment.

Robin started
pursuing me.

I had never been
so pursued in my life,

and he would not
leave me alone.

and I thought, "Okay,
well, I'm in for fun."

He was very quiet
in real life.

You wouldn't know, if you had
just met him in the daytime

and spoke to him,
what he became at night.

Robin: This is the hormone blues-in.
Here we go.

Yeah.

Boosler: I knew that
Robin was running around

when I wasn't around,
but I didn't care!

It didn't bother me.

But all the comics were
so caring for me,

and they said,
"You know, we think he has

a girlfriend
in San Francisco."

And I said,
"Well, I'll ask him."

And I said, "Do you have a
girlfriend in San Francisco?"

"Oh no." I said,
"Listen, don't lie to me.

I hate lies, tell the truth.
I don't mind."

"Oh no, oh no."

So we're in
The Improv one night,

and Jay said, "Robin, you
should be honest with Elayne,

tell her if you have a
girlfriend somewhere else."

And he said,
"Look, man. Look, man."

"I'm just looking
for a little bit of balance.

I'm just trying to find
a little bit of balance."

And Jay Leno said, "Yeah, but you're
using your dick as a fulcrum."

After we broke up,
he married his girlfriend.

Velardi: We jumped on
each other's bandwagon.

We were a good team.

We were having an adventure.

And then, everything changed.

Scott Marshall: Growing
up, I loved Happy Days,

loved Fonzi.
In 1977,

I was eight years old, and
Star Wars came out...

and I stopped
watching Happy Days.

My dad said, "Why don't you wanna
watch Happy Days anymore?"

And I said, "There's
no spaceman on it."

He went to the writer's
room on Happy Days

and said, "Scotty
wants a spaceman!"

And all the writers rolled their
eyes, "Oh, what a great idea.

A spaceman, okay,
how can we do this?"

My Aunt Ronnie, who was
in charge of casting,

told my dad
about a comedian

doing stand-up on the
street corner, with a hat

that people
put money in.

My dad said, "You want
me to hire a kid,

"who stands on the
street corner with a hat

"on a primetime network
television show...

"a hit show, number
one in the ratings...

"I'm gonna put
a kid who stands

"on the sidewalk
with a hat,

that's who
I'm gonna put on?"

And Ronnie said...

"It's a pretty full hat."

What do you do, you just use
that to scare people with?

No, keeps the rain
off my head.

Are you
Richie Cunningham?

Oh yeah. Yeah, that... that's me.

-Is this your house?
-Uh-huh.

Ee-ee, Ee-ee.

Wait a minute.
Who are you?

I am Mork from Ork.
Que pasa?

Marshall: The episode, in
front of the live audience,

it got a standing ovation.

All 300 people stood up
and applauded Robin

when he finished
that episode.

Robin: ABC has a
commitment to Paramount,

and they have
to honor it.

If they have a series
that falls out,

they have to put something
on the air from Paramount.

No pilot, just...
you gotta put it on.

And they went, "Oh fuck,"
so they scrambled.

They'd say, "Okay,
we have this character,

Mork, which tested very well,"

and they had Pam, a series
where she played a nun...

Pam Dawber:
Called Sister Terri,

who had been
a gang leader,

and kind
of talked like this.

And she was
a little tough,

but she was a nun.

And it was terrible.

Marshall: My dad took footage
of Pam Dawber from the pilot,

in the nun outfit,
cut it together

with Robin
on Happy Days--

just literally
spliced it together...

and that was the pilot.
It was a $63 dollar pilot.

Robin: And they went, "Fine,
whatever, just throw it on the air."

They didn't think it had a
fighting chance of ever living.

They're announcing
the fall line up,

and it says,
"ABC announces

"Mork & Mindy, starring Robin
Williams and Pam Dawber.

Spaceman lives with
girlfriend in apartment."

And I went, "Oh my God!
This sounds terrible.

Who is this
Robin Williams anyway?"

Howard Storm: Robin's
manager called Robin.

He said, "Robin, we got
22 shows, guaranteed,

and you're gonna
get $1500 a week."

And Robin
went, "Wow!"

And then Buddy said,
"Schmuck, $15,000."

Robin was happy
with the $1,500.

He never made
that kind of money.

Nanu, nanu.

Shazbot!

Tramer: Robin was
a little nervous.

"All of that energy
is sure to translate.

"My comedy
is so big, and...

you're sure it'll translate
onto a small screen?"

Necrotons! Warning!
Mayday! Mayday!

Red alert! Dive! In the
bunker, in the bunker!

Hit 'em up. We're going to Missouri.
Whoo!

Marshall: He would run
around the stage, you know.

He would run around and do
crazy things all the time,

and there was
union cameramen.

He would do something
great, my dad would go,

"Did you get that?
Did you get that?"

The cameraman would say,
"He didn't come by here."

"You gotta capture this.
He's a genius."

And the cameraman said,
"If he's such a genius,

he could hit his mark."

And so my dad said, "Wow, this
is... gotta figure this out."

The sitcom, up until then,
always three camera.

So he brought in
a fourth camera,

kind of a handheld camera,

just to follow Robin.

And that became
the standard.

Now, every sitcom

has four cameras now
because of that.

Well, this week, sir,
I learned that on Earth

things aren't always
what they appear to be.

Orson:
What does this...

You've got the script
in your hand,

motherfucker,
and you're blowin' it?

Tramer: The taping of Mork & Mindy
became like the show to go to.

It was like a three-hour
Robin Williams marathon.

Care for some
iguana jerky?

No, asshole.

Hey, it's a
self-improvement course!

"Evelyn Wood
Speed Orgasm."

Says if you've read this by
now, you've already come.

Why'd you laugh at me?

You were gonna say,
"What an asshole."

Now, I didn't.
I let you say it!

Storm:
Robin was just flying,

I mean, he was
the hottest ticket in town.

Storm: Whatever makes
you happy, monsieur.

Well, we can't
do that now.

So many lines going
through my mind.

I don't know who I am!

Look! And...

Storm: All of a sudden, he was
getting all this attention,

making money, and doing
whatever he wanted to do.

-Action, baby.
-Oh, I got...

-Oh, I'm sorry.
-It's happening.

Boy, have I got a subtext
going, you don't know!

Okay, wait, wait. Wow!

4.5 on the Richter scale!

Hi, Mr. Houseman.
Juilliard really paid off.

Until next week,
Orson, knock knock.

Orson: Who's there? -Cohen.

Orson:
Cohen who?

"Cohen" fuck yourself.
Good night.

Eric Idle: I first clapped
eyes on him in 1980.

He came on stage,

and it was just like

he took
the place apart.

He just absolutely...

I've never seen
anything like it.

He just completely
commanded it.

He just made them all laugh
and laugh and laugh,

and he had
one persistent heckler.

And he made the entire
audience pray

for little Timmy at the
back, that he might die.

And it was
just so hilarious.

He just... the entire audience
praying for the death

of this heckler
at the back of the room.

Storm: And keep your hands
away from your wiener.

Yes, sir.

You're an adult, Howard.
You can say "penis."

Robin:
I'd go from doing the show

and then coming
to The Comedy Store

and then go
to The Improv.

He would do five,
six sets a night,

and just keep going.

Robin: And now a native
New York impression,

a New York echo.

"Hello!"

"Shut the fuck up!"

Velardi: We were just
playing, you know?

We were out and about.

Velardi: It was wonderful
being in Hollywood.

You know he's the star of the very
successful Mork & Mindy show,

would you welcome,
Robin Williams.

Momma, I'm on TV!

For my friends
in San Francisco,

how are you?

Storm: He started hanging out
with a lot of major stars.

He was hanging out
with De Niro,

he was hanging out
with Belushi,

and they were impressed

that they were
hanging out with him.

Robin: There was one crazy
night where he took me

to a series of clubs
to see different bands.

He'd just put you
in a headlock and say,

"Come on, we're going
to this place."

Storm: In the second
year of the show,

Robin was doing drugs.

Robin: It was part of the
whole scene at that time.

There was just
so much of it.

There were even some clubs that
used to pay in white or green.

You'd go hang out at clubs,
and then, um, end up

in the hills, in some
coke dealer's house.

Everyone used to just give it to
you, because if you're famous,

you know, it was just a... like a thing.
"Hey, come here. Take this."

You know, you'd get phone calls that
say, "Yeah, Robin left his car."

It's found
some place on Sunset.

Dawber: I climbed out
of a bathroom window

at Imperial Gardens,

because Robin
was there with people

that he didn't want anybody
to know he was there with.

No! Everyone
I've ever known!

There are people here
I've slept with twice.

Boosler: He would just sometimes
at the end of an hour

just pick a gorgeous woman
out of the audience

and walk out, and
never saw her again,

and her boyfriend would
go, "I guess she's gone."

Velardi: He loved women.
Loved women.

And I got it.
And I understood it.

And I wanted him
to have that,

but I also wanted him
to come home.

You know, after a
night of partying,

we'd couldn't find him
many times.

Dawber: He'd come in
looking pretty burned out,

because, you know, he was out
till 3:00, 4:00 in the morning.

You've had
all week to do this.

Look at him.
He's so pitiful.

'Cause I feel
like shit, that's why.

I'm looking at you.

I'm not really
looking at you.

I'm looking at the back
of my mind going,

"There's gotta be
another line.

Someone back there,
send another line forward!"

Storm:
He was drinking and coke.

It was like him jumping
into a giant cake.

You know, your most delicious
cake ever, and he could eat all...

anything he wanted, 'cause
that was what he was doing.

I believe that cocaine is God's way of
saying, "You're making too much money."

Idle: He got really
into it, a lot.

And I would follow him around
to these various places,

and he'd be funny
and then we'd move on

and then he'd be funny
and move on.

It's not a funny drug.

It just makes you want more
and more and more of it,

and it doesn't
make you funny.

It would just be
interesting to me

that he would cease
to be funny

the later the evening
went with that drug.

Do you have
any fears, anxieties,

or questions about going
into a film... now?

Some of them,
yeah, it's scary,

because you
realize one wrong...

you can be doing great,
everyone would go,

"Hey, fantastic!
Brilliant.

We'll have breakfast,
lunch, dinner."

Then all of a sudden,
one bad film,

"Oh, excuse me
will you hold?"

Okay. Stand by.

Action!

What am I?

I ain't
no "physi-kist,"

but I knows
what matters.

What am I?

I'm Popeye
the Sailor.

Robin: We had the dailies, they
showed them to my manager.

He called back and said,
"Robin, I saw the dailies.

Could you open
your other eye?"

"Charlie, he doesn't have another eye.
He's Popeye."

Robin: As I'm walking
outside after the movie,

the paparazzis saw
that everyone

was kind of walking out
a little nonplussed,

and I think one guy turned to me and
went, "Welcome to show business."

And the illusion
that I was gonna be

a movie star really
quickly diminished.

Dawber: It was really near
the end of Mork & Mindy.

And he came
to work he said, "Wow.

"I went over to the
Chateau last night.

I was supposed
to meet with De Niro."

He said, "De Niro had a
couple of girls in his room.

He wouldn't let me in."

"So I decided to go
to Belushi's bungalow."

And he said,
"He was so stoned,

he could
hardly stand up."

And then just before
our dinner break,

the producers came to me
and they said, "Pam...

"John Belushi... they...
he... he OD'ed last night."

And I went, "What?"

John Belushi died today
at 33 years old.

He was a comic actor
best known

for Animal House,
the film,

and his years on the television
program Saturday Night Live.

Belushi died
in a bungalow

at the Chateau Marmont Hotel
in Hollywood.

Later, Los Angeles police...

Dawber: I said, "I have something
really terrible to tell you."

He said, "What?"
And I said...

"John Belushi's dead.
He died. He OD'ed."

He said, "I was
with him last night!"

And I said, "I... I know."

He goes, "I was
with him last night!"

And I said,
"I know, Robin.

I know you were."

And so, we just walked
together towards our trailers

and...

just before he went
into his trailer

and I said... this is
gonna make me cry.

I said, "If that
ever happens to you,

I will find you
and kill you first."

He said, "Dawbs, that's
never gonna happen to me."

Newswoman: A Los Angeles
County grand jury has begun

its investigation of the death
of comedian John Belushi.

Newsman: Comedian Robin Williams
was the grand jury's star witness.

Williams was one of three
people with Belushi

the night before he died of an
overdose of cocaine and heroin.

His attorneys said Williams was
cooperating in the investigation

and did not have to be
subpoenaed in order to testify.

Robin: Here's this guy who was a
beast, who could do anything...

and he's gone, and that
sobered the shit out of me.

Dawber: And that's
when Robin stopped.

Storm: He backed off for
a while and cleaned up.

Pardon me.

Could you not
make so much noise?

You're scaring away
all the flies.

I directed him once,
in The Frog Prince.

He's dressed as a frog.

He just learned
in the papers

that they'd canceled
Mork & Mindy.

He gathered
a crowd around him.

He just went
into a rant about ABC

and all of the people who ran it

and all of the people
who had the shows

and how awful
they were.

Robin: Just going,
"Fuck these people."

Oh you mean from inside the
Frog... "Fuck these people,"

inside this giant frog head.

-It was crazy shit. Painful.
-Man: Oh yeah.

At that point, everything
is like, "Fuck, it's over."

Robin: "What's gonna happen next?
What are you gonna do?"

There was fear.

Velardi: Hollywood
was eating us up.

Robin and I
decided to leave

and come back
to Northern California.

Velardi: We just
wanted to be together

where we didn't have
all that noise coming in.

Robin: It's the idea
of "This is it.

I don't need to live...

I can't... I mean,
I don't do well in LA.

Velardi: And we wanted
to have children

and have
a life together.

You go... you're a good boy.
Hey, Zachary.

Today, we're going
to have the baptism.

Christopher Reeve
as the godfather,

and Valerie
and Robin Williams

as the proud parents.

Should we button
that top button?

-You want this on too?
-Yeah.

Now we can do Superbaby.

Velardi: No. Oh yeah, he
can fly into his baptism.

No, I don't
want to fly him any place.

We gather to say thank you
to God for the gift of you.

With your wishes come
on from your heart.

What would you share?

That... that comes
with the package.

Pastor: To follow
his inner self. Beautiful.

Robin: You just have to be
prepared when you have a child.

Must prepare yourself.
Get ready.

You get this feeling
of like, "Okay.

"Okay.

Series has been
over for a while, okay."

That's so hard.
I gave up the series.

I didn't want to make that much
money for no reason anymore.

Really does sober your
ass up when you realize

you'll have to, six years
from now, be going,

"Daddy doesn't really knows
what he does for a living.

What do you want
for your birthday?"

"Power of
attorney." "Okay!"

Stand up is a great
survival mechanism.

For me that's a joy,
that's jazz.

That's what
I have to do.

That one-on-one thing.

Maybe... maybe millions of years
ago, there were people...

instead of clubs, there was
somebody at a cave door,

going, "Two rock minimum."

Some guy stood up in front of
the fire going...

"How many Neanderthals
does it take to light a fire?

Come on. None!
They don't know!"

Two guys in the back
with a big rock going...

"I'm really
fucked-up. Here."

Talk about your life,
talk about drugs,

talk about the things in the
country, talk about anything

and not have some network
executive going,

"God, we're excited
about some of the things,

but can you
just tone it back?"

You ever think that God
might get stoned?

Look... look at it...
oh, a strange thing.

If you look at a platypus, I think
that you think God might be stoned.

Think that God's up there
in heaven going...

"Okay.

"Let's take a beaver...

"let's put on
a duck's bill, okay?

"Hey, what are you
gonna do? I'm God!

"Okay. Uh... it's a mammal,

"but it lays eggs.
What the hell!

"- Hey, Darwin!
- Okay.

I don't know."

Velardi:
Robin loved working.

He was working
on a national tour,

and he made films.

and we oftentimes
would come

on movie sets
with Robin.

But for the most part,
he would come back

to the ranch
and be with us.

He was quiet.
He was very quiet.

When he was home, he would
shut off and recharge.

I was supposed to be
making a home

and taking care
of my son,

but I had
no sense of order.

I didn't know how
to manage a household.

So, I interviewed
Marsha as a nanny.

She was
very organized,

and she took very
good care of Zachary.

She was organized
the way we weren't.

And so it was good to have
that kind of "tuck-tuck."

It worked.

Robin's managers were
now taking care of him.

I was no longer involved with
his day-to-day material making.

He would spend more
and more time away, working.

Arthur Grace: I got a call from the
director of photography at Newsweek

to do a cover story on Robin.

They just sent me
out on the road

to be with Robin
Williams for a month.

He was on the road
working on his material.

We traveled together in lousy
little cigar-tube planes.

He was not getting quote
"first-class treatment"

in travel
or anything else.

He was in the airport
terminal like everybody else,

and he was
always polite

and always talked
to the people.

I couldn't believe they were
paying me to hang out with him.

Grace: Before the
show, he would go

into his private room
and get ready.

Robin would stand there,

looking down,
his arms hanging loose,

completely quiet,
completely silent.

The first time I saw it,
I thought he fell asleep,

and I almost went over and
said, you know, "Robin."

He was just quiet
and still, Zen-like.

Announcer:
Ladies and gentlemen,

Robin Williams!

Let's go! Let's move it!
Let's move it!

And then, like he was...

...somebody
launched him out of a rocket.

He put so much energy
into the show,

so much of himself
into the show.

When he came off stage,
he was just dripping...

exhausted, mentally and physically,
emotionally exhausted.

He left it all on the stage.

After we'd check
into a hotel,

he was full
of energy again.

He didn't wanna go to sleep,
so, okay, so it's midnight,

and there's
this after-hours place,

and out into the night
we'd go.

And then the next day,
get up, go again.

Robin: There's a real
incredible rush, I think,

when you find something
new and spontaneous.

I think your brain rewards that with
a little bit of endorphins going,

"If you think again, I'll get
you high one more time."

Grace: The cover
came out, did well.

And then I got a call
from him saying,

now he was at the
Metropolitan Opera House.

He's actually gonna
step out on that stage,

in this environment,

in front
of 3,800 people,

and make them laugh
for 90 minutes?

This is like
being a gladiator.

Whoa-ho-ho!

What the fuck
am I doing here?

This is incredible.
I'm scared shitless.

I can't lie.

How do you get to the Met?
Money. Lots and lots of money.

God damn.
I wonder if Pavarotti's

at The Improv going,
"Two Jews walk into a bar.

Yes."

We'd done... I don't know...
20 or 30 shows on the road

for six months,
maybe eight months.

We had really
worked on this.

The show that we taped at
the Night at the Met...

there was 25% that I'd
never heard before.

The whole country's intense.

You wanna know why
the police are intense?

Because we're intense.

We're armed
and they're armed. Yay!

God, in California,
everybody's got handguns,

even ladies who are
just carrying .22's,

just makes a small hole.

Ah!

I got tired of carrying my mace
'cause I used to mix it up

with my breath freshener
and go, pssh,

"Oh, there goes the day."

It's to the point in California
where we're gonna come home and go,

"Honey, I'm home!"
"Easy, dear."

"Hold it, honey."
"Dad, I gotcha."

"Hold it, boy."
"Watch out, dear."

It's Family Feud:
The Home Game.

There are guys who won't go on
the stage at The Comedy Store...

unless they have their
eight minutes written out.

Robin did
a two-hour show.

A nuclear bomb...

it's basically
a man's way of saying,

"I'm gonna fuck up
the Earth, yeah."

A woman would never
make a nuclear weapon.

They would never make
a bomb that kills you.

They'd make a bomb that makes
you feel bad for a while.

See? It'd be
a whole other thing.

That's why there should
be a woman president.

Don't you see?
That'd be a wonderful thing.

Be an incredible time
for that.

There would
never be any wars,

just, every 28 days,
some intense negotiations.

That'd be
a good thing, yeah.

This is Carlos,

who for years was my
stand-in when we made...

We... he and I are like this.

We are.
Which one is me?

I love you so much.
I love what you stand for,

-even when you're sitting.
-Thank you very much.

Robin and I both
did sets at Catch.

He had rented
a townhouse.

and I didn't
know him very well,

but I wanted to.

And he said, "I'm gonna go home.
Do you wanna come by?"

I say, "Sure."

So I walk him back
to his townhouse,

and Zak,
he's crying like crazy.

Robin's... you know,
he's trying...

so I was like,
"May I? Can I?"

Simple little effleurage

with the index finger

on the base
of the skull of the baby,

and Zak starts
to quiet down,

and he quiets down and he
falls asleep in my arms.

And then I handed him
back to Robin

and he just looked
at me like I was...

you know,
like this genius.

And that was the first
time we connected

in a different way that
wasn't about comedy.

It was about... being a
father and being a friend.

It was really... yeah,
I remember that so well.

Everybody wanted
something from him.

I had no agenda.
I just liked him.

Velardi: Oh, here's Robin!
He's used to this.

-A piece of cake.
-You know...

You know...

It's a strange sorta thing.
Won't you follow me?

Grobel: The end of your
first Playboy interview

you spoke of your
future, and it said,

"I'll settle for Valerie and me
living on our ranch in Napa."

And it's like... so much for your
seer-like qualities, you know?

Robin:
Yeah. Yeah and that...

you know, obviously that
fell apart, again,

'cause it wasn't
strong enough to hold.

I had this wanderlust,
you know, and so did she.

Velardi: Robin and I
had drifted apart.

I wanted out.

I no longer
wanted this life.

It's not what
I had signed up for.

I wanted Robin
and the fun that we had,

and then it turned
into an industry,

and I was less
and less a part of it.

Robin wanted
to further his career,

and I wanted that
for him too.

I didn't want
to hold him back.

So... we...
gave each other up.

The saddest thing
in the world is life, man.

-You telling me?
-Mm-hmm.

It gets so bad sometimes,
I don't think I'll make it.

I ever tell you
I had a kid?

I got involved
with this girl, man,

and she got pregnant, went
on back home to Alabama.

Thomas Ava Witherspoon,
five years old.

-I think of that kid, I want to cry.
-Oh, that's wonderful.

Well, why don't
you cry, man?

It's good for you.

Oh, I don't have to cry.

I don't need to cry.

Lionel. Lionel.

You know...
I have whole family

I will never
ever see again.

Velardi: Contrary to what
national papers said,

Robin and I had ended
our marriage...

and then Robin and Marsha
started up a relationship.

That story of him
running off with the nanny,

everybody got carried
away with it,

and because
I didn't counter that,

because I don't talk
to the press...

they got skewered,
and I was sorry for that.

And I'm sorry
for Marsha,

that she had to start
her adventure

with Robin in such
an unpleasant way.

Robin: It was a year after
I had been separated.

And she only took care
of Zachary for a short time

and then became
my assistant.

When I was on the road, she
would help me write material.

I started to get
my life together,

I fell in love
with Marsha.

I started
to just go, "Wait,

I don't have to live this
kind of madhouse existence."

And that's when my life was saved
by her, not ruined by her.

She's real honest about
things, about everything...

in terms of work,
in terms of life.

If I start to get
a little kind of like this,

she'll say, "Wise up."

If I start to get
too insecure,

she'll say,
"Stop it. You're great."

She's really grounded
in that sense.

Someone who was very
childlike in a lot of ways

was awesome to have as
a dad as a young kid.

He would set up
a whole yard

filled with,
you know, toys.

My dad wasn't afraid
to get his hands dirty,

and jump in and play with
kids but on their terms.

Man: B28 take 2, "A"
and "B" cameras.

Barry Levinson:
Action!

Good morning,
Vietnam!

Hey, this is not a test.
This is rock 'n' roll!

Time to rock it from
the Delta to the DMZ!

Is that me, or does that sound
like an Elvis Presley movie?

"Viva Da Nang."

Hey, is it a little too early
for being that loud?

Hey, too late.

In those days, television and
film were two different worlds.

It was rare that you had
crossover TV people

doing film and film
people doing TV.

Good Morning, Vietnam! was the
first real commercial hit,

and it established Robin
as a real actor.

And he suddenly was
becoming a movie star.

Steve Martin: I don't
remember when I met him.

You know, we would brush
up against each other,

but we got to know each
other a little bit better

when we did
Waiting for Godot.

He was debating
whether to do it,

and I said, "We do
Waiting for Godot,

I mean, who...
who could touch us?"

You know, who's... who's...

What comedians are doing
Waiting for Godot?

-Moron!
-Vermin!

-Abortion!
-Morpion!

-Sewer rat!
-Curate!

-Cretin!
-Critic!

Robin: I was learning
from him physical comedy

and just the nuts
and bolts of timing.

Because obviously when I do
my act, I don't have timing.

Oh!

Robin: And he is just literally
about the comedy of pause,

you know,
holding back.

-Ack!
-Didi! Didi!

Didi! Didi.

No, it's... it's...
it's definitely theater.

Martin: I-I... I don't
know how to answer that.

The differences are
obvious to me.

And to do this play, it's one
of the most powerful pieces

of literature
in the 20th century.

I think it kind of helps.

Martin:
Except for Cruel Shoes.

Cruel Shoes I think was

one of the second most
powerful pieces of literature.

You know, it really helps
to do something

that's so amazing,
that every night

you can do it differently,
but yet it's the same.

You can get deeper
and deeper within this play

and find things,
every night you can change

because it's so amazing.

Funny. For me,
I figured it out

on day one,
and it never changed.

Your turn.

You think
God sees me?

You must close
your eyes.

God, have pity
on me.

And me.

On me. On me.

Pity on me!

His character
was interestingly...

hurt, and he played it
very vulnerable,

as I think
he was in life too.

Onstage he was
the master and in charge

and funny and quick.

And in life, you know,
he wasn't onstage anymore.

I just felt a little bit of...

I think he was really
comfortable onstage

and less comfortable offstage.

Always felt him holding...
holding himself together.

It was at a time
I think he was...

clean... and...

and it was
a very difficult... clean.

You know, it's hard,
it was hard.

I don't mean that he slipped
or anything like that.

He didn't. I just think he really
had to concentrate... on that.

There you are. You've become
a reformed alcoholic.

You've got a steaming
glass of Perrier, going,

"I feel so much better
about myself! God damn it."

"I feel really healthy now!

"No, go ahead,
have your cocktail.

"I'll be over in the
corner hurting the cat.

Oh God damn!"

Man: Do you know of any other people
whose minds work faster than yours?

Robin: Mm-hmm. Yeah, I'm
starting to meet them.

Oliver Sacks, playing
him in Awakenings.

Man:
Right.

Robin: He's such a
compassionate man,

and the idea
of treating the brain

as a subjective subject.

This is the idea
of the brain

can be one thing and then
the other simultaneously.

What about this?

What do you mean, this?

It's a strobe.

You're wrong.

All of this before
is the strobe.

This is me saying
his name to him.

Excuse me.

Robin: Oliver is
someone who thinks

on... on levels that
I've never dreamed of.

Man: He introduced you to a guy with
Tourette's syndrome named Shane.

It had a profound
influence on you.

Robin:
Definitely.

I-I began-began
touching-touching,

you know,
touching-touching things.

You know, touching,
you know.

Robin: Here's a disease
that basically makes you

do, physically, things
you have no control over.

Along with it comes this
incredible mental acceleration,

lets you think faster
than most people.

Pardon me?

Oh yeah, sure.

Robin: And the price you pay is

that you can't control
a lot of those movements.

The complexity and
the total unpredictability

of the human brain, that's what
I learned from meeting Shane.

The brain is one thing that
controls bodily functions,

and then there's this other thing
which is divine, called the mind.

There is deity within you,
there is that... that spark,

that divine thing,
that thing that is soul.

And that's what's exciting,

the idea you could explore
creativity at any price

is like... this is what
we're kind of dealing with

as artists, comedians,
writers, actors.

You're going
to come to the edge,

you're going to look over,
and sometimes

you're going to step
over the edge,

and then you're going
to come back, hopefully.

Parry!

What are
you looking at?

Parry.

Help!

McLaurin: Robin could
never let go of a role.

He would become
the role he was playing,

and then it'd become

another part of his...
his personality.

Come along!

Driver:
Holy shit!

Jack:
Parry!

Robin: Now when I see
someone on the street

ranting at the world,
it isn't just lumped

into "There's a generalized
crazy person."

You know that they're suffering
from something specific...

and that they have
a life, a past...

and... you know,
and a present,

and it gives you
a different point of view.

Won't you join us for a
once-in-a-lifetime comedy event?

-As some of today's...
-And yesterday's...

-And tomorrow's... -Funniest
stars come together

for an unforgettable
night of laughter.

-Comic Relief.
-Live!

Crystal:
It was our Farm Aid.

The three of us hosted
these comedy telethons

to raise money
for medical aid

for the homeless on the
streets of America.

--I'll take these.
You take those.

We would like to say how
happy we are to be here.

Oh, sorry.

All right.

It was a great way
for all the funny people

to join in to... not only be
funny but be compassionate.

The only reason that I am
not running for president

is... I swear to God...
I have this fear

no woman
would come forward

to say she had sex with me.

I would be doing one of
those interviews on CNN,

looking into a camera, going,

"Come on, Susan!
You know you fucked me."

Robin: We had just
amazing people come on

and raised that much
money and used comedy

as this vehicle
to change a world.

Yes, God made babies cute,
so you don't eat them.

How many people do you know
that you would let shit on you,

piss on you, keep you
up all fucking night?

Woman: Whoo!

They wake up
at five o'clock the morning,

and I don't know
what drug they are...

is there some sort
of Fisher Price cocaine

- that they're in there going...
- "Ah!"

Goldberg: Great people
make you better.

You got over the fact that
it was Robin, and then

you went to work, you did
what you needed to do,

because you wanted
to be up to speed.

It's just like, "Oh no, you're
not leaving me in the dust.

I'm going to be right here,
right next to you, running."

You wanted to be able
to play and keep up.

-But seriously, there'll be more.
-Okay, so taking care

of Bill and the big chubby
jokes have begun.

This is a penis thing.

-I didn't... -It's all a...
Did you never notice that?

Wait a minute! Let him
talk for a moment!

Oh!

-Put that thing away!
-Ow! Ow!

-Put it away!
-No, no, no.

-You know, Whoopi.
-Yes?

-I... -Robin: Nice
to see you, Whoopi.

You didn't see my lips
move once, did you?

-No, but I never do. -Whoopi,
I have a confession to make.

Yes? -Robin: Me too.

I am not what
I appear to be.

I am a Jew.

And I'll tell you
something else.

Is it me or is it
cold in here?

Yeah, it's... it's very
convenient, you know?

This is...

It's already...
you know, it's not like

I could come out and I do,
"So, guys, what's up?"

-It doesn't...
-Hey. What the hell?

-Robin: So, guys, what's up?
-Are you kidding me?

What's happening?

Priest: We commend
into your hands

the spirit
of your servant,

Ronald Wilson Reagan.

Crystal: I'm watching
Ronald Reagan's funeral

and the phone rings.
And I go, "Hello?"

"Bill? Hi, its Ron Reagan."

"So... what a coincidence.

I'm watching your funeral."

"Well, I just want
to tell you that I'm in heaven now

and I'm at a party.
I'm having a wonderful time."

I said "Oh Really?
What's heaven like?"

"Well, it's a lot
hotter than I thought it was gonna be."

"Oh, really? You know,

"you may not be
in heaven, sir.

You may be
in the other place."

"Oh! That would explain
why I'm in a hot tub with Nixon

and his balls are resting
on the bridge of my nose."

Wherever I was,
when the phone would ring,

I'd look at it, and I'd
see the 415 area code,

I knew it was him.

I knew it was gonna be
something really good.

Answering machine:
Sunday, 1:21 p.m.

Crystal: As the friendship
really grew and grew,

we kind of needed
each other more.

Should be very simple. I think
I shouldn't expand too much

with that one,
should just, "Hell!"

Do you want to talk about when
she goes off, and she's...

We did that one where we thought,
"Oh, I'm not doing this.

"I can't do this.
How can you do this?

You fickle creature."

Man: And then you catch onto the
fact that she's performing.

"She's acting!"

I have decided
to make my final wish.

I wish
for Princess Jasmine

to fall desperately
in love with me.

Uh, Master,

uh, there are a few addendas,
some quid pro quos.

Don't talk back to me,
you big blue lout!

You will do
what I order you to do!

I am unable to do
what you ordered me to do

at this present point,
because that is not part

of my programming.
Warning, warning!

Come on kid, see?
Gotta get the snake, see?

I promoted the fight. I'm
hoping it's gonna be as best it can.

The horror.

The young boy
up against a giant snake.

Idle: He would just take a
thought and improvise on it.

It might just dinner
or it might be 2,000 people,

it's the same improvisational
thing that goes on.

-Man: Set.
-Man 2: Action.

Miranda:
When did he pass on?

Eight years ago, dear...

this November.

Miranda:
What happened?

Oh, he was quite fond
of the drink really.

'Twas the drink
that killed him.

Miranda: How awful.
He was an alcoholic.

Oh no, dear. He was
on his way to the pub

to have a drink,
walked in the door,

and someone
had spilled a beer

and he slipped
and broke his neck.

He was on his way
to the pub,

and a Guinness truck
was passing by

hit a bump,
and six kegs fell off.

He finished
the first three,

but the last three got him.

He was hit
by a Budweiser truck.

First time in America too.

"This Bud's for you."

Oh God,
so it was quite literally

the drink that killed him.

Get it together, asshole!

Sorry, man.

Man: And... -

Even Sammy's
behind us going,

"Come on! I'm here,

waiting,
decomposing man."

Clear!

What happened?

I'm waiting!

Idle: It was vital for
him to have an audience.

And he was hilarious,
but it was a need,

very needy for him to... to
communicate and be funny.

Yoshi:
Hey, Mrs. Yorkin.

Nina: Hey, Yoshi. How are you?

Yoshi: How have you been?
Long time, no see.

Mark Romanek: He gave
such a detailed,

focused performance,

but the second
you said, "Cut,"

he would be back
to the crazy,

insane, psycho
Robin Williams.

Hi, I'm Sy
Parrish, the photo guy.

--It plays
with the hard drive.

I can't help you,
it's not really my section, but...

-You're Will Yorkin!
-Oh Jesus.

Oh, ho ho!

Romanek:
The urge to be funny

and to make people laugh
was so innate in him

and so, like... almost
like breathing for him

that if he didn't get
that out of his system...

it would've infected his
performance in a bad way.

Fu! Boy.

You're here in the flesh.
Woo hoo!

Not often I see
you in here.

Yeah, you...

Hi.

Romanek: So I would just let him
go, as long as it was reasonable

for time in the day

to just get
it out of his system.

And then,
actually, I realized

that when he makes
people laugh that hard,

he used to kind
of get high from it...

you know, like an endorphin
rush or something.

And so if he was being really
funny one second before the take,

I would... he would,
you know, quiet down,

and I'd say, "Action,"

he almost had
this like glow of joy.

Even though he was playing
this very serious scene,

that also kind of gave
this patina of weirdness

to the performance.

Will: Oh excuse me, I
need some help here.

I'm trying to figure out if this
will work with my Mac.

I'm sorry,
this isn't my section.

You're Will Yorkin.

Cheri Minns:
Robin would just be...

whatever the person
he was with,

he'd be what they
wanted him to be.

He just didn't operate
like normal people.

He was very vulnerable
that's for sure,

He held
onto a lot of things

and internalized
a lot of things.

He felt everything.

Crystal: He needed that little extra hug
that you can only get from strangers.

It's a very powerful thing
for a lot of comedians.

That laugh is a...
is a drug.

That... acceptance...

that thrill is
really hard to replace...

with anything else.

Miranda: Why do you always
make me out to be the heavy?

Oh, lighten up,
will ya?

Just realize you're
spending too much time

with those corporate clones
you used to despise!

I spend too much time
with you, Daniel!

It's over!
It's over!

Come on, Miranda.

Listen, we've got problems,
but who doesn't?

We could work 'em out. What are
you talking about, "It's over"?

We've been trying
to work them out for 14 years.

Come on, please. Listen.

Maybe we need
some help, okay?

Maybe we can go
to a family therapist.

They'll help us
through this together.

We have nothing
in common.

Oh, sure we do.
We love each other.

Come on, Miranda.
We love each other.

Robin: I don't know the
great secrets of acting.

It's like some sort of Zen
concept where you finally say,

"Okay, what you
think is acting,

don't do that anymore
and... and stop."

If you just relax,
listen, be in the scene,

you won't have
to worry about finding

that one funny line
or... acting.

If you just don't
interfere with yourself,

you're quite interesting.

People will register
your thoughts

and they will pick up
on what you're going through

because your face
is accessible.

And you'll be
in character,

the audience
will be following along,

And the most important
thing is for an audience

to follow
the character through.

Don't do anything and you'll be
amazed how much you're doing.

Don't do anything.
Just talk.

My wife used to fart
when she was nervous.

She had all sorts of wonderful

little idiosyncrasies.

You know what? She used
to fart in her sleep.

Sorry I shared
that with you.

Ah, but, Will,
she's been dead two years,

and that's the shit
I remember.

Wonderful stuff,
you know,

little things like that.

Ah, but, those are the
things I miss the most,

those little idiosyncrasies
that only I knew about.

That's what
made her my wife.

Oh, and she had
the goods on me, too.

She knew
all my little peccadillos.

People call these
things "imperfections,"

but they're not.
Oh, that's the good stuff.

And then we get to choose who we
let into our weird little worlds.

You're not perfect, sport.

And let me save you
the suspense:

This girl you met?
She isn't perfect either.

But the question is whether or not
you're perfect for each other.

That's the whole deal. That's
what intimacy is all about.

Robin: Every person is driven
by some deep, deep, deep, deep,

deep, deep, deep,
deep secret,

and finding that
for a character

gives you that
which drives it through.

You look for it and then you
try and find that essence,

what drives them.

If you can find it,
if you find the right one,

you'll know it.

Idle:
He had a restless mind.

His thing was
physical exertion.

He'd go for 60 miles,
70 miles on his bike.

I think that stopped
the thoughts...

'cause the thoughts
can be... disturbing.

I think
he didn't feel worthy.

There's no "I'm wonderful."
No. It was...

it's lack of self-worth
somewhere in there, too.

Announcer: Welcome to the
2003 Critics' Choice Awards.

The nominees are...

Daniel Day-Lewis
for Gangs of New York...

Jack Nicholson
for About Schmidt...

Edward Norton for...
no, I'm just kidding.

Um, Robin Williams...

for One Hour Photo.

Drama.

There's been a tie.
I swear to God.

Daniel Day-Lewis
for Gangs of New York...

and Jack Nicholson
for About Schmidt.

Nicholson: Well, I don't
usually get this baked

when it's on television.

Robin, would you
come up and give...

Would you... would you give the
funniest acceptance speech ever?

What Jack is
trying to say here...

is he's so happy
to be here,

he could drop a log, really.

Nicholson: Until he got here, I
couldn't think about anything

but spanking Jillian Hall.
I don't what happened to me.

-I could do that all night.
-Robin: Ho, ho, ho, ho!

-Let's do that for the deaf now.
-Yeah, yeah.

Whoo!
Whoo. Whoo.

I really wanted to say
how grateful I am

to the film critics
for honoring Robin, and...

Yeah, thanks for nothing!

-It's a tie with three people!
-Yeah.

You pretty much said,
"you, Robin."

Thank you,
I hope that's televised!

For those
of you at home...

Jack is getting ready
to bring out a five iron.

Robin, since they didn't
give you an award,

-you can have...
-Oh, thank you.

...both of their names
in the tie.

Thank you. I want to
thank Jack Nicholson

and Daniel Day-Lewis for
giving me this piece of paper.

Has their names
on it, not mine.

And I'm glad to be left out
of this incredible group.

I want to thank Jack for... he
is, to me, the greatest actor,

and Daniel Day-Lewis,
the greatest actor.

And... I'm just
a hairy actor.

And it's been
a wonderful evening

for me to... to walk
away with nothing.

Coming here
with no expectations,

leaving here
with no expectations...

it's pretty much been
a Buddhist evening for me.

Thank you.

Zak: His pathos was seeking
to entertain and please.

And... he felt...

when he wasn't doing that,

he was not succeeding...

as a person.

And that was
always hard to see...

because in so many senses, he is the
most successful person I know...

and yet he didn't
always feel that.

Good morning in Kandahar!

Uh-oh!

I'm not gonna forget that.

I've never had
an entire audience just go,

"Forget you!"

"You have no idea!"

I was also wondering,
"What's coming from that way?"

When an entire...

Lewis Black: He actually
called me and said,

"Do you wanna go
on a USO tour?

"A Christmas tour,
just like...

just like Bob Hope?"

Robin's energy was like
nothing I'd ever seen.

You'd touch down
in the Middle East,

then you're going bam,
bam, bam, bam, bam, bam.

It becomes
a complete blur.

-Get in over here.
-Woman: All right.

Black: He hits the ground
running and whosever's there,

getting ready to greet us,
he's already doing a show

and giving them a sense of how
important they are to him.

Announcer: Give it up
for Robin Williams!

I hope this shirt says
"I love New York"

and not
"I Lick Camel Balls."

I'm really hoping so.

Black:
And it's every day.

Wherever we are, doesn't seem
to be any down time for him.

I wish you
from my heart

a Merry Christmas,
Happy Hanukkah,

Happy Kwanzaa
for my brothers.

You know who you are.

Black: He finishes this,
and he flies immediately

to Vancouver
to start a movie.

And I thought, "Wow.

"Wow. That...

that's... that's hard-core."

He gave you
a photo? Good.

Merry Christmas, fellas.
Thank you.

Black: I mean, he
was like the light

that never knew how
to turn itself off.

Zak: When you have a parent

who's so giving,
so generous,

and wanting
to give his time

and effort in terms
of entertaining,

but also to causes
and to people...

that was challenging.

That was
really challenging...

sharing and watching

my father give
his time to others.

The selfish part of me

wanted me to keep
our relationship to myself

and, you know, have us
just spend time together.

Half of the year
we'd see him.

Some years
might not be half.

Some years
we'd see him more.

It-it... it's just the nature

of the business
he was in.

So... yeah.

That's something that
we got used to over time.

Robin: Sometimes, indirectly,
you're talking to people,

you'll just talk
about shit that...

you would be amazed.
But when in therapy,

when you're talking
to a shrink,

he said,
"Sometimes be careful

"about what
you talk about...

"because you may be
in front of a stage,

"in front
of so many people

"and start talking
about something

you're not ready
to deal with."

There's all these drugs...
Zoloft, Prozac.

I want to have one drug
encompassing it all.

Call it "Fukitol."

I don't feel anything.

I don't want
to do anything.

Fukitol.

The closest thing
to a coma you'll ever be.

Fukitol.

I'm sitting here
in my own dung.

Fukitol.

Man: What were you
doing up there?

Robin: This movie
called The Big White.

Just thinking, "What
am I doing here?"

This is crazy and feeling
kind of isolated.

And all of a sudden went,
"Well, there's one cure.

I could drink!"

Ready for a refill?

Does Mrs. Kennedy
have a black dress?

All righty.
Coming up.

Robin:
It went quick.

I started drinking the tiny
little bottles of Jack Daniels

-the little ones you get from the...
-Interviewer: Oh, yeah, yeah.

-And I thought, "This is fine."
-Yeah, it's a small bottle.

And a week later
I was hiding them,

a big bottle of Jack
Daniels, and just, "Fuck."

It was, you know,
either fear...

sometimes just the sheer wanting
to run away from it all,

sometimes to run into it all,
and just go, "Fuck it."

Hey, I just went
through the cue cards,

and I'm telling you,
you're gonna kill.

It's gonna work
like a charm.

Don't worry
about a thing.

Black: When we were
doing Man of the Year,

he was drinking
around me.

At the bar each night,

usually just before close,

I'd have a couple
glasses of wine,

and then Robin
would come down...

and have a tequila and...
and an espresso.

And he said to me,
"I think I have a problem."

Robin: I did three years
of just insane shit...

just getting worse
and worse and worse.

We have these things called "blackouts"
as alcoholics. It's not really blackouts.

It's more like "sleepwalking
with activities."

Kind of strange.

I believe it's
your conscience

going into a witness
protection program.

It's your conscience going,
"You're about to fuck a hobbit.

"I gotta go. Good luck.

"I'm gonna leave the dick on,
then after an hour

"I'm opening up the asshole,

"but that didn't
stop you Tuesday.

Good luck. Take care."

Zak: The struggles that
my father dealt with

I think is really
a symptom of...

just other things
that underlie... the why.

But he would talk
about his...

his addiction... issues.

He'd be pretty
open about it.

Robin: As an alcoholic, you
will violate your standards

quicker than you
could lower them.

You will do shit that even
the devil would go, "Dude."

And alcoholics,
we're like assholes,

we can't wait to shit
on everybody...

family, friends.
We'll be like,

"Fuck you! Fuck you!

"Fuck you!
Fuck you!

"Go fuck yourself!
Fuck you!

"Fuck! F...

I'm fucked."

They tried to send
my ass to rehab

and I went,
"Yeah, yeah, yeah."

And I went to rehab
in wine country,

just to keep
my options open.

Zak: Being sober and embracing
his sobriety was great...

and he did lean on us
when he needed...

to talk through stuff...
but it was hard.

There's no crutch
in his circumstance.

You can't rely
upon, you know,

a bottle
to comfort you.

Interviewer:
Divorce done?

Robin: Done and, you
know, dealt with,

I mean, I think
as much love

as we can do
with that situation.

Being around my kids is
really much more like,

"I love you guys. I live
separately, but I'm okay."

It's difficult for them,
but they're all like...

they've dealt with it.

And I'm, you know,
pretty much like,

"Okay, it's a different game."

Is there
a deaf signer here?

Oh, how cool is that?

Blow me.

Thank you.

It takes...

It takes big balls
to do that in my act.

Thank you.

What a great fucking night.

Wow.

This is gonna be
like Deliverance

with Helen Keller,
this is...

Thank you.
What a wonderful idea.

I'll give you
a break right now,

'cause there's
more shit coming.

Good luck.

Nice to be here
in Washington...

I was on the road,
I was performing,

and all of a sudden
I noticed things...

I was just starting
to run down.

I'd finished a show
going, "Oh God."

I was in Miami, I was about
to do this show, and I said,

"Maybe we should have
a doctor look at this."

I went to do
a stress test,

and I was on the treadmill
for one minute,

and the doctor went, "Okay,
we got what we need."

My heart was beating
like Tito Puente, like...

Even the cardiologists said,
"It's off the charts!

It's either an earthquake
or he's fucking dying!"

When he was in the hospital

and they were shaving him
and everything like that,

he was making jokes
and everything,

but it was obvious that he
was very, very frightened.

Crystal: It was more of a repair
than they originally thought,

it was more complicated,

and it was
really dangerous.

When the operation started,

I started leaving
messages on his phone

as this guy,
Vinnie the valve guy,

who was like
a mechanic character,

who apparently
supplied the valve

and the... and the mechanics
who were gonna do

the work on him,
like he was an old car.

So when he woke up,

he'd have 15 messages
to laugh to.

Day and half later,
you know, he was in pain,

he'd just gone through
this massive surgery.

He called me.
"Oh God.

"Oh. Oh hilarious.

Can I talk to Vinnie?"

I want to thank everyone
for all your kind letters,

prayers and thoughts.
I just want to let you know

I'm doing better.
See?

Thank you.

How long ago
was the surgery?

-Eight weeks ago.
-Eight weeks!

Man, remarkable.
Good for you.

Yes, sir. You and I...

You and I are now
Brotherhood of the Zipper Chest.

That's right. We got it.
Now... there must...

My relationship
with Robin only grew bigger

and stronger
as we grew older.

We were no longer...
kids hanging

around the back
of The Comedy Store.

Did they give you
that button

-where you can medicate yourself?
-Yes.

Oh, that's a good one
to have, isn't it?

Yes. I still have it.

In the middle of the show...

Letterman: As you grow older, different
things become more important

and the humanity
of life...

is the great guiding light,
and it was...

it was nice to be able
to share that with Robin,

who was a different guy
by then, you know.

Robin: I ended up
getting a bovine valve,

which is a cow valve,
which is kind of cool,

'cause you can shit
standing up. That's great.

Great to be here.
Nice to be here.

Crystal:
Suddenly he was mortal.

Suddenly life was different.

Suddenly things
got more precious.

Do you feel
it affected you

in terms of your comedy
any differently?

Robin: You know, I
graze once a week.

I don't think
it affected the comedy.

I think it...
a little bit of terms of...

slightly, I just enjoy
life a little bit...

-you take things a little bit slower.
-Right.

You don't rush...
stampede as it were.

After the surgery,
you get very emotional.

It's like... it's like weird.
People go, "How are you?"

God! Thanks for asking.

And I got so emotional,
I thought instead of a valve,

they gave me a tiny vagina,
which is like, "What?"

"How are you?"

"Much better now,
thank you!

"Oh God!
Don't use the paddles.

Just rub me here.
There we go."

Hey, listen, I'm going
on a date tonight,

and...
if you're hungry,

I could fix you some
food before I go.

You're going on a date?
With who?

Ms. Reed. Hmm?

Really?

You're going out
with the TILF?

-That's great!
-The what?

TILF.
"Teacher I'd Like to Fuck."

Nice mouth.

Robin read
the screenplay...

As a favor, initially,
'cause I thought,

"Well, maybe I'll play
a small part."

Yeah, I didn't know this,
like he thought,

"Well, he wrote it,
he's making another movie.

Maybe I'll-I'll...
I'll help him out."

And then he asked
if he could be the guy,

which was
really awesome.

Robin: I've been through
it with... over the years,

and you kinda come through
it out the other side.

It was like,
"Wow, you're alive."

Robin: "You're still here, homey.
Let's see what happens."

Robin: Initially, it was
just supposed to be

diving off the board
fully clothed.

I went, "I'm
shedding everything.

"It's all gone. This is...

I'm... I'm freeing
myself totally."

And all day long,
I was like,

"Hey, how you doing?
Holy crap."

Hello,
Mr. Diggler.

I do not understand
why you could be...

-Insecure?
-...insecure.

I don't even know
how you...

I just thought you were
bow-legged all these years.

Interviewer: We're just waiting
for Popeye 2, the nude version.

-That would be scary.
-Interviewer: The Nude Naps.

"It eats the spinach. Oh.

Olive, you got no tits
and a tight box."

Did you just say, "It eat...
it eats the spinach"?

Is that Popeye in
Silence of the Lambs?

-Yeah.
-"It eats the spinach."

You're throwing spinach
down the hole.

"It eats the spinach."

Craig Ferguson: Congratulations on
getting married. That's lovely.

-It's wonderful, isn't it?
-Yeah, it's very nice.

Getting married
for the third time,

my best man,
Bobcat, said,

"It's like bringing
a burn victim

to a firework show."

Did he say that
during his speech?

-Yes. -God Bless him.
Isn't that lovely?

Three strikes, you're out.
That's it.

Yeah. I wouldn't
do that again.

No, if you do it again, that's...

you have to give up
a body part. That's it.

"How many times
you've been married, Bill?"

"Four times.
Four times."

Years went by,
maybe 20 years...

and I just didn't see him.

So...

that's why I agreed
to do his show.

I wanted
to see him.

Dad?

Oh!

Hey, gang!

May I present
Ms. Lily Schecter?

Dawber: I could just tell something
was really just not right.

He wasn't that happy
soul that he had been.

His body was stiff and
he wasn't super sharp.

He looked like
a wax figure.

-Simon?
-Mmm?

Where are you?

You're really
different tonight.

Is there
something wrong?

Dawber: So I started
questioning him.

No, everything
seemed great.

"The new wife,
she's wonderful.

I want you to meet her,
and everything's great."

And he said, "But I'm
really freaked out,

"because I'm...
I'm losing weight

and I don't know why,
and I'm having tests run."

Idle: He was here
doing his sitcom,

I watched him once,

and I thought,
"Oh, he's so uncomfortable."

And I invited him
to dinner...

you see, I heard
he was so down...

and then we just made him
laugh and laugh and laugh,

and he just... "Oh, thank you.
I really needed a laugh."

Romanek: He came to visit
us and just hung out

at the house all day.
He was shooting

that sitcom
he was doing.

Sort of a sparkle
had gone out of his eye.

And I, you know,
when I said goodbye,

he said, "Thanks, I had
a really nice time,"

which I think he did, there
was kids running around,

new people to meet, and
he talked to everybody.

But I said,
"Are you all right, Robin?"

And he said,
"Yeah, I'm fine, boss."

And I... I knew
it wasn't true.

And I... I don't think
I even said, "Really?"

I just let... you know,
he didn't want to go there,

and so I gave him a hug.

He didn't really like to talk
about his issues, you know.

Crystal:
We met at a movie theater.

I was
a little concerned

because I felt
he was very quiet.

When we left each other,

he started to cry.

And I said,
"What's the matter?"

And he said, "Oh, I'm just
so happy seeing you."

And then he told me that he had
been diagnosed with Parkinson's.

And when he told me,
I never heard...

I never heard
Robin be afraid...

except for that moment.

Couple of months later,

we were going on vacation,

Janice and I, to Europe.

And... I called him to say

I was gonna
be away, and...

but I'm reachable on...
I said my phone,

I have my computer,
so whatever.

And he says, "Okay. And...

you know I love you." And I
said, "I love you too, pal."

And... that was the last time
I spoke to him.

Newsman:
We have just received word

that the Academy
Award-winning actor

and comedian
Robin Williams has died.

The sheriff's office says
that suicide is suspected.

"God, no.
No, no, no, no.

Can't be.
Can't possibly be."

And so, I just, like...
I lost it at that point.

I really did, so.

Oh.

Can't talk about it.

Joe Rogan: A lot of people
were trying to attribute

all sorts of reasons
for why he did it.

Goldthwait: Yeah. You know,
Robin was my best pal

and... and his
coroner's report came out,

and he had
Lewy body dementia.

-Oh. -Goldthwait: And
I-I witnessed this.

I witnessed his processing
reality completely different

than the way
everybody else does.

And so when
I think about that,

I think about
how strong he was.

You know he would
have like some days

where he was doing
kind of OCD stuff

and-and-and... and processing
things incorrectly,

but then you'd have
a day when he was back,

so you go,
"Oh. Well, maybe it's"...

Rogan:
He just had a bad day, or...

No, maybe it's
the Parkinson's drugs,

and they've gotta
get those dialed in.

He was going to doctors.
He was in therapy.

He was doing...
and it just...

the only reason
I talk about that is...

is his brain was
giving him misinformation.

He really was getting
misinformation from his own brain

and was suffering
from this disease.

In the weeks following
my father's passing,

it was really hard
to kind of... feel anything.

Everything felt very...

raw, and it was hard

to kinda put
everything together.

Bobcat came and visited.

We felt like it would be
a good idea to...

jump in the ocean.

And it turned out to be
a really nice thing to do.

It was good to...

jump in, and...
and actually...

kinda know that...

my father's presence
and spirit was around.

Robin as John Keating: I would like
you to step forward over here.

Peruse some of the
faces from the past.

You've walked
past them many times,

but I don't think you've
really looked at them.

They're not that different
from you, are they?

Same haircuts, full of
hormones, just like you.

Invincible,
just like you feel.

The world
is their oyster.

They believe they're
destined for great things,

just like
many of you.

Their eyes are
full of hope,

just like you.

Did they wait
until it was too late

to make from their lives
into even one iota

of what they were capable?

Because, you see,
gentleman,

these boys are now
fertilizing daffodils.

But, if you listen
real close...

you can hear them whisper
their legacy to you.

Go on, lean in.

Listen.

You hear it?

Carpe...

Carpe diem.

Seize the day, boys.

Make your lives
extraordinary.

Robin:
You've got to be crazy.

It's too late
to be sane. Too late.

You've got to go
full-tilt bozo.

'Cause you're only given

a little spark of madness,

and if you lose that...

you're nothing.

Note, from me to you...

Don't ever lose that,
'cause it keeps you alive.