All language subtitles for Nurses (2020) 1x02 - Undisclosed Conditions (English)

People say you're
only as sick as your secrets.

And hospitals are full of secrets.

Some are harmless, but others...

Whispered in the wrong ear,

well, they can be fatal.

- Whoa!
- Whoo!

Did you just run up
five flights of stairs?

Oh, God, you did that for fun!

You're one of those people.

Heard you'll be back in OB-GYN today,

I guess you're doing something right.

Alright, listen up! There
are actual people dying

and I don't have time
to spoon-feed any of you.

Assignments: Wolf, Pediatrics; Ashley,

Grace start at the
St. Mary's fundraiser;

- LeBron James, OB-GYN.
- Football.

Don't care. These should be
your assignments,

but one of you is getting a treat.
Sinead needs an assistant.

So... sorry.

Stupid subway. Am I right?

Congratulations! You just volunteered.

Those are your postings.

Do not screw them up. Do
not hurt your patients.

Do not disappoint me.

Guys, what did I volunteer for?

- Do you know?
- I'll be gone

- 20 minutes max.
- 30 if you bring back canap�s.

Aw, lunch is for spenders.

I hate leaving the persons
who actually need help to go

- fluff donors.
- Rich people need help too.

Must be paying for being
constipated with cash.

Glory to us, we'll never know.

Code brown, north elevator.
Code brown, north elevator.

Oh, Red! I need you to transfer

the patient in 36 for a marrow biopsy.

I hope you don't need
it in the next hour.

I gotta flip a bed in Oncology,

I gotta sponge the whole
Recovery, and then there's the...

code brown in the north elevator.

PSW to emerg.

- PSW to emerg.
- Go stay in the ER.

The other units will
just have to pick up

the slack as usual.

I'm not hiding. I... It is just

the first time all week I've
had the chance to drink coffee

while it's still hot and no one's dying.

Okay, I'm hiding.

Aww, must be hard being
ER's most eligible bachelor.

Only when women my
mom's age pinch my butt.

Hi, Mrs. Stevens.

Oh, it looks like your butt's up, chump.

I see a big cardboard cheque
up there just waiting for you.

Give me a gushing chest wound

any day.

Oh, hi! I'm sorry to bother you.

I'm trying to find some water.

Oh yeah, I can go grab you a bottle.

That's so helpful, thank you.

What?

Good morning! Good morning!

I'm Maki Yamato, and I am thrilled

to announce that the auction
for Hope and Mercy

by my husband Tomo Yamato

has raised $300,000 for St. Mary's.

It's been difficult times
for all downtown hospitals...

cutbacks, amalgamation rumours...

but Tomo and I believe so much
in the work being done here

that we decided to match that donation.

- Synced and corrected by Firefly -
- www.addic7ed.com -

- This is silly.
- I just forgot to eat,

I was a little lightheaded.

Well, we'd be bad hosts if
we didn't at least feed you

and check for a concussion.

Any other symptoms? Weakness? Dizziness?

Well, I've been tired, but who hasn't?

- Between work and my son...
- Oh, how old is your son?

- Uh, 7.
- I'll send your blood

for a full workup, but your
fatigue could be from anemia.

Let's have a listen to
your lungs. Do you mind?

- Yeah.
- Ahem.

- Lost any weight recently?
- Oh yes, but it's just

- the stress of Tomo's new show.
- Another deep breath for me.

Oh, the logistics, my
stomach's been in knots.

In knots or pain?

Pain, I guess, but it's like bad cramps.

We should check your abdomen.
Do you mind lying down for me?

We're gonna take this up.

- So, when's the new show?
- A month.

Tomo still hasn't finished his pieces.

Lucky jerk gets to be the flaky artist

while I have to manage worried sponsors.

Maki, I'm feeling a lump here.-

- What does that mean?
- I'm not sure,

but I'd like an ultrasound to find out.

I can take you to Radiology.

And do you want me to
call your husband for you?

No. Tomo still has to finish his pieces.

He's procrastinated on
the show enough already.

Are you okay?

It's all over Twitter
that you collapsed.

See? Anything to avoid painting.

- Well...
- I'm fine.

For the last time,

I'm not sick, I am just dying.

And I can walk. My lungs
are toast, not my legs.

Gabby, you were coughing,

you know it's easier
when you get that way.

Hi, I'm Wolf.

- Pediatrics sent me down.
- Hi. Jorge.

We called Dr. Gilmore's
office, but he's away,

- so they said to come here.
- And who's this?

Not expected to make it past 20.

Gabriella, she has cystic fibrosis.

She was doing better until
a couple of weeks ago,

and then she dropped a bunch of weight.

Well, that's not CF,
that's just high school.

I'm worried she has another infection.

- Okay, we'll have a look.
- This is dumb.

I can just get my weight back up

- after the school trip.
- Gabby, we can't risk an infection.

She's top of a transplant
list. She needs to stay healthy

to be ready for when
lungs become available!

Hey, I'm fine!

Oh, uh,

looks like Freddie Mercury
disagrees. You have a fever.

So how are we doing, Becky?

Getting pregame nerves?

Nope. My husband's the
nervous one. I'm excited.

This endometriosis is so bad

I'd pay someone to just rip it out.

Well, I'm sure Dr. Banks

will be a little more
considerate than that.

- Colby!
- Trent?!

- Dude, are you serious, man?
- Whoaaa!

- How are you doing, man?
- It's good.

- How are you doing, brother?
- What, you're a doctor now?!

- I'm a nurse.
- A nurse?

Baby, you know who this is?
Mustangs' three time MVP.

- We all thought he'd go pro.
- This is the guy you married?

I think you could have
done a lot better.

Whatever, man, you're just jealous.

I hate to break up this huddle,

but I think I have a patient in here.

Hi, Becky, how are you feeling?

- Ready to get this over with.
- I bet.

I'll cauterize as much
of the tissue as I can.

And that will help when we want
to get pregnant too, right?

I don't see any recent vitals in here.

- Just getting into that.
- Please.

The anesthetist isn't expecting
Becky until... five minutes ago.

I'll see you guys soon.

So you're like really not a doctor, huh?

- What do you need, Mr. Woods?
- I really need to, uh,

go, you know, but I
don't think I can make it.

- Let me grab a bedside commode.
- Wait, it's a...

Is there an old nurse or something?

I really don't want to do
that in front of someone

- whose number I want to ask for.
- Please. If that bothered me,

I wouldn't have gotten into this job.

So, uh, I can get that number then?

Ha-ha! Let's deal with
this other number first.

Okay.

Oh! I guess I didn't have to go.

Mr. Woods...

All this cleaned up, please.

We're short PSWs today.

Sorry.

And just for you, Becky, I'm gonna
grab one of the good stretchers

and then get you prepped for anesthesia.

- Are those Becky Green's vitals?
- Yeah.

Take good care of this
one, Doc, she's a friend.

I treat all my patients like they are.

Huh, she's been waiting for
this surgery a long time,

I hope she can finally get some relief.

Man! I went to college with that guy.

- Mm-hmm.
- And now he's married

and talking about starting a family.

Do you ever feel like somehow

the people around you suddenly
became adults overnight?

Not really because I am an adult.

Wow! I can't even keep

unexpired milk in the
fridge for my Fruity Pops.

Which are very high in fibre.

Why don't you get Becky up to the
OR, I'm gonna start scrubbing in.

Oh, and I usually like
Candy Crisps myself.

Is that right?

I need a clean cup, Wool.

Yeah, you got it. And it's Wolf.

Where is the ice?

And I want a butterscotch
pudding from the cafeteria.

Hey, you know, we're gonna
get you all fixed up in time

- for those new lungs, right?
- Did I say "pudding"?

I meant vegan meal and a chocolate bar.

Can you just clinch your fist

for me? Thank you.

Ouch! Hmm...

Your veins are pretty hard to find.

Give it here, you've blown it twice.

You missed the vein,

everybody gets two tries.

Sit tight, Keith.

Ashley, if I wanted your help,

I would have asked for
it. This isn't my first IV.

Oh, that's right, I forgot. You
were a big OR nurse at the General.

- What does that have to do with this?
- I was just trying to help.

Okay, well, don't.

You know what? You want to do
that IV? Knock yourself out.

Maki's ultrasound
results are ready anyways.

You know, if you side eye any harder,

they're just gonna spin
the whole way around.

Huh? What? Ashley, I
was just, you know...

The, uh...

Ash, you're the kindest, most
loyalest person I know,

- but when you don't like someone...
- Look, I do not have

to be nice to her just
because she's your new bestie.

Are you jealous? Come on, you
know I'll always love you first.

- Come, hugs.
- No, no. You are so lucky

it isn't possible to give
someone a wedgie in scrubs.

Come on. Grace is smart,

and she knows stuff. This
is not her first rodeo.

You know who else knows stuff?
My friend who works

at the General. Yeah, I had
drinks with her last night,

and guess what? Your
new BFF Grace got fired.

I guess everyone's favourite

saint isn't so perfect after all, huh?

There's a mass

in your bowel. It's bleeding.
That's why you passed

out earlier. You're anemic.

Now, the ultrasound indicates
that the mass is operable,

but I am worried about those
cramps you've been having.

It could mean it's
obstructing your bowel.

There's an opening in surgery,
I'd like to get it out today.

- Then I guess I'm having surgery.
- I'll let Dr. Ramjet know,

get things started.

Thanks.

Are we sure about this?
Shouldn't we get a second opinion?

Grace? What do you think?

Well, I can't tell you what to do,

but if it were me, I would have it out.

- But is it safe?
- Tomo's second job is worrying.

It's laparoscopic, which
is good. Less invasive,

faster recovery. I
used to work in the OR.

Basically, we'll make a
couple small incisions,

insert a tiny camera,
make its way to your bowel,

and then we'll remove the mass.

Barring any complications,

it's actually a pretty
straightforward procedure.

I would feel so much more comfortable

if you came into the surgery with me.

Would you, please?

But I'm not an OR nurse anymore.

And I'm not a lab
technician yet here we are.

I haven't been in the OR in over a year.

This hospital wouldn't
survive without donors,

and my paper cut is still
bleeding from the giant cheque

the Yamatos just gave us.

If she wants you in the OR,
you go in the OR.

Did you know you needed to
special order vegan meals?

Takes like half an hour.

You're okay?

Just waiting for a text.

Supposed to go into
surgery with my patient.

Wait. No, you should eat.

You might not get another chance today.

Thanks, Wolf, but I'm... okay.

I've got 30 minutes to kill

if there's anything
you want to talk about.

They're actually ready for me.

You're the new surg nurse?

I'm just filling in.
You're the resident?

We don't have time to
train one-offs in here.

Dr. Ramjet is very
particular about his OR.

You need to wash under your nails

and between the fingers for two minutes.

I usually do three.
I used to work in the OR.

Not Ramjet's. He's the best at St. M's.

There's a waiting list to work with him.

I'll do my best to keep up.

Hey, Camilla, I've got an emergency

abdominal aortic aneurysm,

but I'll get back here as soon as I can.

So you go ahead and start,

I think you're ready.
Mobilize everything

and I'll be in by the time
you're ready to resect.

You got it, Doctor.

You heard him, let's go.

Abdomen is inflated.
I'll take the camera now.

Camera is inserted.

Camera is inserted.

Are you ready for incisions
for the 5mm trocars, Dr. Rossi?

Yes, yes. The trocars.

Blade, please.

After the small trocars,

are you ready for the grasper
and hook to be inserted?

Yes.

Still pop in to visit Coach
every once in a while.

All he ever wants to talk about is you.

Still brings up that pick
you made against the Yeomen.

"Hands like those
should have played it all".

- Hahahaha!
- Hey, you know what though?

I thought you got it
the worst against Queens.

Remember that game? Your legs

cleared that other guy's head, dude.

- Cleared my head.
- Yeah, you still walked away

with a championship MVP though.

I don't know why you didn't
come back for the senior year,

could have had a hell of a season.

I wanted to focus on school.
Can't play football forever.

Oh! Ah!

Hands like that, you could have.

Whatever just happened
here better not have.

You had the sauce, man!

Come here, man.

That Queens' game, that insane tackle...

... I walked away, the other guy didn't.

He doesn't walk at all anymore.

Spinal cord injury.

Damn. I didn't... I didn't know.

That was the angle.

Hit him just right to
fracture a C5 vertebrae.

It was just a routine play for me,

but changed his life forever.

That's not your fault, man.
You know that, right?

I quit football because
I wanted to be a nurse.

I don't want to hurt people
anymore; I want to help 'em.

Dr. Banks needs me.

Was it... Is it about Becky or... ?

Okay.

Oh, looking good so far.

I think we're, uh... we're
ready to remove the mass.

- Good job, Camilla!
- Thank you.

You kept up well.

I learned from some skilled residents.

That colon is wonderfully immobilized.

Let's get this sucker out.

Didn't I send you to the ER today?

Naz paged me, said this was urgent.

I told you to mop up
the vomit in room 14,

why was Red doing it?

Oh, uh... I needed to find Dr. Geller.

After Chris's ankle
surgery, Geller put him

- on the Broxine and morphine.
- It's standard protocol.

Except Chris has a
family history of ulcers.

Those two drugs together
were too hard on his stomach.

Which would have made
him puke his guts out.

Geller must have missed it.

I stopped the anti-inflammatory

and just followed up to get
him on proton-pump inhibitors.

Good catch! That could have ended

in a bleed or perforation,
but in the future,

you need to do what I tell you

and leave the PSWs
where I tell them to be.

Oh! And, Naz,

Code Brown Bandit struck again.
12A needs a bed change sharpish.

I brought her things from home

but she won't come out of the bathroom.

I could take care of that for you.

You know, every time

I drag this thing in here,
I'm hoping it will be the last,

but this damned thing never goes off.

It's been almost a year in, and...

You should go grab something to eat,

give Gabby time to cool off.

Thanks.

Why are you going through my stuff?!

Dude, are you smoking? You could
get kicked off the transplant list!

Like that matters.

Pretty sure a fresh pair
of lungs isn't coming

any time soon.

Here, here.

Don't forget, Dr. Rossi,

you've told me to remind
you to take a look around

- once we were finished.
- Yes.

Why don't I know you? Are you new?

- You don't seem new.
- I used to work

- in the OR at the General.
- Under Dr. Hamilton?

Oh, that explains it. Hell of a surgeon!

I've been trying to get him
to come over here to train

some of our people. And we
were lucky to have you with us.

Oh, I'm only in the OR for
today. I'm just filling in.

That's a shame.

Okay, all staples in.

Now, let's take a look at the liver.

Damnit! Look at the right hepatic vein,

section 7 of 8.

Are those metastatic deposits?

Yeah. Close her up. There's
nothing more we can do here.

We removed the primary mass

in your abdomen, but there were
unexpected secondaries in the liver.

The cancer is stage 4.

Oncologists can recommend

chemotherapy or radiation treatments;

it'll slow the growth
for a period of time.

I'm so sorry, Ms. Yamato.-

Hal...

Hal is still so young.

What will he do without me?

_

- Cutie pants Aiden is 17
- Dude!

- and Aquarius and lives in Ottawa.
- Privacy!

So, is that a site for kids with CF?

You weren't going on a school
trip; you were gonna visit some guy!

Hey, he's not just "some guy".

Look, I'm all for teenage
rebellion, but that's a bad idea.

CF patients, they shouldn't intermingle.

You guys can cross-infect
each other with a super bug.

- You could literally kill him.
- He's the only person

who knows what I'm
going through right now.

I mean, we can't be together
because CF freaking blows,

and now I can't even talk to him

because the Wi-Fi in this
stupid hospital's crap!

Okay, look, I know
you feel alone right now...

I am alone!

All my parents care about

is when that stupid pager will go off.

Guess what. It's not
gonna freaking happen.

I have an idea.

Let's go boogie.

Let me go get Tomo
for you. We can discuss

- what's next together.
- I know what's next.

My father died of lung cancer.

- I'm sorry.
- It was awful.

My family, we...

we watched him suffer through so much.

Doctors make a lot of promises about

buying time, but the time
they buy is miserable.

I won't put my son through that.

I don't want him to have to see...

I know how hard this is,

but I can help you
have the conversation.

You can't tell him.

- About your wishes?
- About the cancer.

As far as he needs to know,

I had a benign mass removed
and I'm going home tomorrow.

Maki, you're... you're
gonna need his support.

No. If he... if he knows,

he'll want me to get
every treatment possible.

He can't understand what
that does to someone.

Look, I just...

I want to make the most of my...

... of my last few months at
home with my family. Okay?

- Okay.
- Thank you.

Thanks.

Best Wi-Fi in the hospital.

You can hang out here, talk to Aiden.

- Thanks.
- Yeah. I'll be back soon

with your next dose of antibiotics.

Say hi to cutie pants for me, okay?

You look like you could use this.

Hmmm...

It's cold.

It was hot before I got paged

to deal with a kid who
shoved half a box of crayons

up her brother's nose.

Wow! That is ambitious.

I have something better.

Kid last year had out
most of a remote up there.

TV remote pow!

I saw the surgical report

- on Maki Yamato's chart.
- Yeah.

She doesn't want treatment.

And I get it, I totally do.

You know, a lot of people
don't like working in the ER.

It's too hectic, too risky, but me,

I like how simple it is.

No matter who or what
comes through that door,

I have one job: just keep them alive.

Yeah.

Feels weird not to do that.

Doctors and nurses
practice different medicine.

I can stitch them up,

send them off to surgery,
even... restart their heart...

... but once they make the
choice to refuse those options...

... my work for the patient is done.

Yeah, but mine isn't.

Thanks for this.

I should go check on
Maki, finish my charting.

Oh, hey.

Why are there

discharge orders written
for Maki Yamato for tomorrow?

She just had a colon resection
and has stage 4 cancer.

She's refusing treatment.
She wants to die at home.

But she doesn't know
for sure that she will.

Nobody can be sure,
not even the doctors.

- If she had treatment...
- It's not what she wants.

Okay. Wouldn't be my choice.

Also, she doesn't want her
family to know about the cancer.

Oh, you're serious?

Official story is she's
spending the night

after having a benign mass removed

- and she's leaving tomorrow.
- So, she wants us to lie for her?

She's worried about how
her husband will react

to her decision not to do treatment.

He's supposed to leave
here thinking that

she is fine when she's dying?

Legally, we cannot tell him
anything she doesn't want us to.

Hey, man, where you been at?
What did the doctor say?

Becky's fallopian
tubes are badly scarred.

They shrink when that happens,
that's why no one caught it

on the ultrasounds before the surgery.

So, what does that mean for Becky?

Dr. Banks is gonna try to save them...

... but if she can't...

Becky really wants kids, you know?

She wanted to try a year ago,
and I convinced her to wait.

You can't think about the what ifs, man.

I'm scared, Colby.

- How do I do this?
- I don't know.

I gave up on my dream,

gave up on everything
'cause I was afraid.

But you gotta figure it out, man...

... because you gotta be there for Becky.

Romeo and Juliet...

Oh, hey, hi. I would like to call...

I'd like to call code yellow.
I have a missing patient.

- I'll be back.
- Attention, code yellow.

Attention, code yellow.
Attention, code yellow.

Hi. I just looked in on Maki,
and she looks really tired.

Yeah, she's had a really big
day. She just needs to rest.

I did some research online;

- did they biopsy the mass in her bowel?
- Who's this?

This is our son, Hal.

Hi!

How long will we have
to wait for the results?

It's a good question.

When do you think the pathology
will be in on that, Grace?

You know, Tomo, no news is good news.

- But what about...
- I know you have

a lot of questions right now,

but your wife just needs you
to be there for her tonight.

You guys can do that, right,

and just be there?

Of course. Anything Maki needs.

You do not get to tell
someone else's secret.

Oh, come on, I wasn't going to.

Someone should tell
him, it's cruel to lie.

We don't get to make
that decision, Ashley;

people keep secrets for a reason.

Like when they don't
want everyone to know

they almost killed
someone at their last job?

I heard you left sponges
in a patient after surgery.

Whatever you think you know,

whatever you think that I am,

you're wrong.

She can't have gone far.

Thanks, guys.

Okay, so obviously, a
code yellow is not good,

- right, but in my defence...
- This one is just a formality.

Correct? Because you know
exactly where your patient is.

Correct? Because you
are an attentive nurse.

You would never leave a sick girl alone

long enough to try something
as stupid as running way.

Correct? And you will have
her sick butt back in that bed

before her parents even
notice she's gone. Correct?

- Definitely. Tot... tot... Correct, yeah.
- Get off my face!

Something's wrong with that boy.

Red! What are you doing here?

- Naz paged me.
- Again?

Every shift I've been changing her beds,

bathing her patients, shaving them.

I thought you knew.

Thank you, Red. You can stop now.

Okay.

Are you leaving?

Nope, I'm just taking
a quick walk around

the loading bay, the laundry
room and the roof...

Oh, dear, no!

The code yellow was
yours? Who did you lose?

Yeah, I'm looking for a teenage girl

with a raging lung
infection who's a danger

to herself and the boy
she's secretly dating.

Hey, Wolf. We're just
going upstairs to see Gabby.

- How are you doing?
- Hopefully, she's had

enough time to cool down and talk to us.

I'm, uh, glad to see you guys.
I was just looking for you.

Uh...

Gabby, she's really, really upset.

She forgot her iPad, and it
works better on hospital Wi-Fi.

Yeah, you know, um, Wi-Fi
has actually been proven

- to soothe any teenagers.
- That's a really great idea.

Thank you!

- You're welcome!
- You did nothing.

This is your mess, and
you're gonna clean it up

if I have to watch you do
it! Go on then, get to it!

You think changing a bed or
cleaning up puke is beneath you?

This is nursing, this is what we do.

When the patient is sick
or scared, we reassure them

that someone sees them, lets them know

they are more than their illness.

I'm not ashamed to make
a bed, I'm ashamed of me.

When I grew up in India,

my family is wealthy,
like crazy wealthy,

we had servants for everything.

I never... learned to
make a bed or to do laundry

or change anything other than myself.

I charmed my classmates
into doing that stuff

for me in school, and
I got Red to do it now

because... I never learned how.

I want to be a good nurse,

but now that you know my secret,
I'm obviously fired, so...

Or...

... we could just fix the problem?

Get those sheets, wipes.

Corners are key,

but there's a trick.

Wow!

Hmm... those lines,

interesting use of negative space,

and do I sense an
impressionistic influence?

You've really captured the...

The Sistine Chapel. We're
going to see it this summer.

Mom and Dad met there,
and they gotta have gelato.

I didn't expect this to hurt so much...

... but the surgery got
rid of the endometriosis.

I'll take it.

Hey,

there were complications.

Is the surgery gonna
get rid of the scarring?

Your fallopian tubes are really scarred.

They had to... they had to remove them.

Does that... mean I can't get pregnant?

I came in for pain, and now I can't

- have a baby?!
- You still have both ovaries.

- Doctors can retrieve your eggs.
- I'm sorry,

but you're talking about IVF.

- We can't afford that.
- Hey, let's not worry

about that right now, okay? Okay.

Don't worry about that.

Okay, great.

Thanks.

The sitter will drop Hal
off at school tomorrow,

so I can pick you up
first thing. I'm gonna

pop out now to grab you
something decent to eat.

Hospital food will make you sick.

What about you? Want me to
bring you something back?

Oh, no, I'm good. I'm all full

on tiny sandwiches from the luncheon.

So, Tomo seems really on top of things.

He can be strong
tonight because he knows

I'll be home tomorrow,
and he won't have to paint.

He may be able to handle
more than you think.

- Maybe if you just told him the truth...
- Don't.

I know you think you're
helping, but you're not.

Before today,

I hadn't been in the OR

in over a year. Last time
was a routine surgery,

but I made a mistake, a big one.

And I had a choice:

I could either keep
quiet and protect myself

or I could tell somebody.

It's the scariest thing that I ever did,

but it saved the patient's life.

- And I got fired.
- Do you regret it?

Not for a second.

Having those hard
conversations matters, Maki.

What if this is all my fault?

I knew something was wrong, but I...

I didn't do anything
about it because I was...

I was so afraid that what happened
to my dad was happening to me.

So I ignored it.

I thought it would go away.

Maybe if I'd gotten help

- sooner, it...
- No.

Something bad happened to you.

That isn't your fault.

But what if it is?

How may I look at my
family and tell them that?

None of that matters.

The only thing that matters

is what you do now.

Gabby, don't!

Wonderful.

Is this the part where you give
me a pep talk about how life

- is precious or something?
- Nope.

This is the part where I tell you
to stop being such a selfish dick.

Can you even say dick to a minor?

You want in medical terms?
You're risking the life

of the guy you say you
love, plus your own.

That is a dick move. I get it,
you're sick and you're pissed,

but that doesn't mean
you get to pull whatever

- bullshit stunt you like!
- Screw this,

I'm walking.

I have leukemia.

I was 12.

Spent the next six years
in and out of hospital

watching kids around me die,
knowing that I could be next.

And you know, I have to still
take these pills to prevent

reoccurrence. They're
expensive, they're not covered.

The "Oh God, how
will I pay my rent" pills.

I have to order them off these
dodgy websites just to swing 'em.

How are you not super pissed?

I could be...

but no one wants to spend
time with an asshole, Gabby...

... no matter how sick you are.

Get your act together...

... and be ready when this goes off.

The mass that they
removed from my bowel...

... was cancerous.

Why? Why are we only hearing this now?

We're not.

I'm...

not.

I... I...

Maki has bowel cancer,

and it's spread to her liver.

There are certain
treatments that we can do

to prolong the remainder of her time,

but those treatments can be

uncomfortable and invasive.

Maki doesn't wish to move forward

with any of those treatments.

- Oh!
- Ohhh!

- Hey!
- I'll leave. I was just, uh...

It was the only quiet place
while the gym's being renovated.

Right...

Today, Becky's surgery.

I know, it, um... it didn't
go as well as expected.

In school, they teach you
about risk. You think you know

everything can change in a second,

but you don't. Not really.
Not until it happens.

How do you do it?

How are you not afraid all the time?

You are.

You're afraid so much

it becomes a part of
the air you breathe.

You feel it,

and then you push through anyway

for your patients.

I've got a consult waiting in
my office for like 15 minutes,

so I gotta... tchk-tchk.

You're only as sick as your secrets.

They can isolate you...

... or leave you paralyzed.

If you're not careful,
secrets can become

your entire identity.

But you only have to be brave enough

to tell one person, and then

- it isn't a secret anymore.
- Hey!

I'm only going to say this once:
I don't owe you an explanation,

but I want you to leave me alone.

So you want to know why I miscounted
the sponges and got fired?

I really don't care.

Because there was a hand down
my pants while I was doing it.

Dr. Hamilton,

chief of surgery, just
couldn't keep 'em to himself

no matter how hard I tried to avoid him.

Especially in the OR
where I couldn't get away.

So yeah, I miscounted.

- Grace...
- Don't!

It happened, and there's
no point in reporting it

because he's a big deal
surgeon and I'm just a nurse.

I've moved on, and this
will never come up again.

Got it?

I was just gonna say I'm sorry.

I don't want your sympathy,
I just want you off my ass.

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