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=Go Back Lover=

=Go Back Lover=

(January 2016, second semester of
sophomore year)

Your mother and I were both 20
when we first met.

At that time, we truly loved each other.

Truly love each other?

Then why did you do that to her?

The thing about love is

it won't always stay the same.

We have indeed loved each other.

But our feelings have faded.

That is also a fact.

Everyone has the right to pursue love.

It has nothing to do with status, age,

or any other differences.

As for whether a couple
can make it to the end?

Only time can tell.

Then have you considered my feelings?

I am your daughter.

I have always thought

you have a heart-to-heart connection
with me.

If you can calm down

and think about this carefully,

you'll definitely be able
to figure it out in the end.

I don't think you are worried

about my remarriage.

You are worried

that my love for you
has diminished, right?

Xingruo.

Well.

Let me send you out.

That's unnecessary.

=Episode 19=
(Forget the past, cherish tomorrow.)

(Year 2024. Outpatient Clinic,
Xingcheng People's Hospital)

Lu Xingyan.

If you don't want me to hate him,

over his dead body.

Why?

Why are you so stubborn?

Because my mom didn't die of sickness.

She was killed.

She was killed my dad.

Are you satisfied with this answer?

Shen Guangyao

is a murderer.

Why do you say that?

Because my mother's death

has everything to do with him.

Shen Guangyao,

if you ever mention divorce to me again,

I will die in front of you.

Do we have to get into
such an ugly fight?

It's not ugly at all.

Why would I want a divorce?

I have such a nice home

and such a lovely daughter.

Why would I want a divorce?

How many times have I told you?

There is no love between us anymore.

Could you please,

for the sake of our daughter,

keep our separation civil?

Our feelings are no more.

You said you would only love me
in your life!

Why would you want a divorce?

I admit that I loved you.

But the one I loved

was that dazzling pianist.

Do you think I wanted
to give up the piano?

Do you think I wanted to stop playing?

I had to give it up for this family!

You want to hear the piano, don't you?

Stop talking.

I'll play it for you.

I don't want to listen!

I know you like me playing the piano.

I know you like it.

Listen, I'll play it for you.

Listen to me.

Listen, I'll play it for you, Guangyao.

How can this be?

That's enough! Stop playing!

Guangyao.

I've said everything
that needs to be said.

It's over.

Guangyao!

Don't go, Guangyao!

Don't go!

Guangyao!

(Xingruo, Mommy loves you.)

(But losing Dad's love,
I can't live anymore.)

(Xingruo, )

(Mommy loves you.)

(But losing Dad's love, )

(I can't live anymore.)

I've told you everything now.

Are you satisfied?

Tell me, how can I forgive him?

Sorry.

I'm really sorry.

I didn't know what you've been through.

All these years,

I refused to see him

because I didn't dare to see him at all.

The memories

are like a thorn in my heart.

I tried so hard to pull it out,
again and again,

but it pierced deeper and deeper
into my heart.

Teach me.

What do you think I should do?

I'm exhausted today.

Just leave me alone for a while.

Alright.

I won't bother you anymore.

Contact me if you need me.

I'll always be here.

♪ The overwhelming tide of memories ♪

♪ Piece together ♪

♪ Every scene of what we belonged ♪

♪ How I wish in the future ♪

♪ Longing could turn into
staying together forever ♪

♪ At that time ♪

♪ The overlapping silhouettes
of two people ♪

♪ At the end of the world ♪

♪ Holding you in my arms
just for that one second ♪

♪ Time pauses forever ♪

♪ It turns out ♪

♪ Every profound moment
is related to you ♪

♪ From the beginning to the end ♪

♪ It turns out ♪

♪ You've always been a part of my life ♪

♪ As if you've never left ♪

♪ I still remember loving
each other deeply ♪

♪ Searching for what you like ♪

♪ Getting used to your habits ♪

♪ The feelings I can't let go the most ♪

♪ I wonder if you, too ♪

♪ Are trapped by the same longing ♪

♪ And haven't moved on ♪

♪ Can we return to the origin ♪

♪ At least you still have me ♪

♪ We have got each other ♪

♪ It turns out ♪

♪ Every profound moment
is related to you ♪

♪ From the beginning to the end ♪

♪ It turns out ♪

♪ You've always been a part of my life ♪

♪ As if you've never left ♪

♪ I still remember loving
each other deeply ♪

♪ Searching for what you like ♪

♪ Getting used to your habits ♪

♪ The feelings I can't let go the most ♪

♪ I wonder if you, too ♪

♪ Are trapped by the same longing ♪

♪ And haven't moved on ♪

(Lu Xingyan)
(If you have time, )

(can you check out Xingruo for me?)

(Outpatient Clinic,
Xingcheng People's Hospital)

Why are you here?

Can't I come?

I heard from Lu Xingyan that the hotel

was in a chaotic mess yesterday.

Someone was even injured.

I'm worried that she won't eat well,

so I came to take a look.

As a bonus, I get to witness

her embarrassing moment.

I was wrong to expect something nice
from your foul mouth.

Is your head alright?

I think it's fine.

Are you okay?

Lu Xingyan caused such a big trouble
this time.

Do you still plan to forgive him?

He didn't cause any trouble.

This is just between me and my dad.

He just happened to be caught up in it.

I don't know what happened between you,

but to me,

you stayed beside him

and got hurt once again.

Your heart was hurt the last time.

Now, you are hospitalized.

Don't you think it's serious?

Look at me now.

Aren't I fine?

I'm alright.

Stop it. I know you well.

You say you're alright.

You put up a tough face.

But that's all on the surface.

The more uncaring you look,

the more you care deep down.

Shen Xingruo,

can you stop acting tough?

I really don't want to see

you get hurt again.

Did I hit my head

or did you?

Why are you saying these to me?

What if I say it's because

I like you?

Ever since "Race Against Time",

I fell in love with you.

At that time, you were emanating
a chilly aura.

But when you were answering
the questions,

your concentration and seriousness

attracted me deeply.

I marveled at that time.

How could there be such a wise girl?

But not long after,

Lu Xingyan proposed to you on the show.

I thought I had no more chances
in this life.

Such a wonderful girl

appeared in front of me
just like this.

And then what?

(Shen Xingruo WIN)

She immediately became
somebody else's bride.

Then, in Munich,

unexpectedly,

we became roommates.

Did you know

how happy was I back then?

Yu Si?

I didn't expect that
my new roommate would be you.

Yeah.

What a coincidence.

What a coincidence.

I didn't expect that we'd
become classmates here.

Why did you come here to study?

Didn't you get married?

When I knew you and Lu Xingyan

did not get married,

I was actually relieved.

But when I saw you and Lu Xingyan
were still together,

I didn't take that step.

Because I could feel

your happiness back then.

I didn't want to ruin your life.

I continue liking you in my heart

while silently blessing you.

I really hope

that you will always be happy.

But Lu Xingyan let me down.

After you broke up,

I saw how Lu Xingyan hurt you.

I saw your sadness and pain.

I was anguished at that time.

I was in pain.

I started to hate him.

I hate him for leaving
such a good girl alone

and not cherishing her properly.

I hate him for hurting you like this,

but I didn't dare.

I didn't dare to take that step,

because I know
he is still in your heart.

I thought I just wanted

to guard you silently.

I would wait for the day

he disappears completely from your heart

before taking that step toward you.

I didn't expect

after everything,

both of you to meet again.

Why are you here?

I'm here to take some more footage.

I'm going to take a call.

Hello, Zhang Xu.

When you were away that day,

I told Lu Xingyan that

I liked you.

So Lu Xingyan was jealous

because he knew you liked me then.

I misunderstood him for so long.

I know that doing so

is very dirty and terrible.

But when you like someone

there's really no way to control

the possessiveness in your heart.

Shen Xingruo,

can you please stop being trapped
with your dad

or Lu Xingyan?

If you want to,

we can leave here anytime. At any time.

I can take you away.

We can go to Munich.

Or Berlin.

Anywhere.

All the conditions I offer you

remain valid.

You can keep making your TV shows

or go back to direct documentaries.

No matter what, I'll be with you.

We just have to reach that place

where we will never have to

worry about those things.

Alright?

You don't have to answer me immediately.

I'll give you some time

to figure it out.

You know better than anyone

that the two of us

can only be friends.

I know.

But I want to give myself a chance.

A chance to protect you

and to be by your side.

Thank you for your concern,

but I think

I can handle my own matters.

It's true that there were some
minor conflicts between me and him.

But your appearance

calmed me down instantly.

I wasn't thinking about

how to reply to you at all.

Instead, I blamed myself

because I misunderstood Lu Xingyan

for so long.

His existence

is essential to me.

If I, Shen Xingruo,

can only have one person in this life,

he must be

Lu Xingyan.

Bed number five,

you have a meal sent to you by Mr. Lu,
a family member.

Are you here to send Xingruo a meal?

What a pity. I already gave mine to her.

Lu Xingyan,

Xingruo has agreed to go
to Berlin with me.

Are you afraid?

Impossible.

There's no way she will go with you.

Why are you so sure?

I believe she is the same as me.

In this life, other than each other,

we just can't fall in love with
anyone else.

Do you know why your show

is so boring?

It's because your relationship
is too stable.

There are no ups and downs or suspense.

Congratulations.

Your love is more solid than gold.

Thank you.

Please come in.

Xingruo.

Why are you two here?

We've come to see you.

How are you?

Are you feeling better?

I'm fine.

The doctor will observe me
for a few more days.

I think I'll be discharged tomorrow.

That's good.

How are you doing lately?

I'm fine.

You don't have to worry about me.

The moment I heard you were hurt

I was shocked,
so we came here immediately.

Don't worry.

But why did the two of you

bring so much food?

We were entrusted by somebody.

Let me be clear,

I'm not Lu Xingyan's stooge.

I, Chen Zhu, swear to the heavens

that I will stand by my sisters
to the death.

Lu Xingyan said he was wrong.

He said it was all his fault yesterday.

He's afraid that you'll be angry
and won't want to see him.

That's why he asked us

to bring so many things.

He's worried you might be hungry.

How could I be hungry?

Isn't he thoughtful?

Also, he hasn't returned to the hotel
for the past two days

He has been waiting downstairs
every day.

Are you sure you don't want to meet him?

Let me take this.

Hello.

Ms. Xing.

How are you feeling?

When will you be discharged?

Tomorrow.

That's great.

The Love Special of
Evergreen Clinic's Dr. Wang

is finished.

You are just in time for a look.

Sure, no problem.

Do you want to ask Mr. Lu to join us?

I'll send him a message.

Okay.

(Shen Xingruo) (The video of
Dr. Wang's wedding is done.)

(Let's go to the computer room
to watch it together tomorrow.)

(Lu Xingyan)
(Okay.)

(Happiness)

These "Happinesses"

are for those girls.

When they get married,

(Happiness)
they can put them up in the house.

Looks good, doesn't it?

You've been busy all morning.
Let's take a break.

Come, have some water.

Who are you?

Who am I?

Don't you remember?

Think, where have you seen me before?

You are Shenzhi.

Yes.

You wanted a wedding ceremony
to make up for the one we didn't have.

I thought it was meaningless then.

But now,

whenever she can't remember me,

I will let her watch this video.

It's all thanks to you all.

Thank you. Thank you very much.

Thank you.

Shenzhi.

You drink some water too.

Ms. Xing,

are there any problems?

No problems.

I think the edits are pretty good.

How about you, Mr. Lu? Any opinions?

No, I'm good.

If there's no problem

I will get started on
the title sequence.

Okay, thank you for your hard work.

It's pretty good, right?

Let's go out for a walk.

Sure, no problem.

Hello?

Hello, Mr. Lu.

I am Chen Fei.

Xingruo's father is dying soon.

What's wrong?

Chen Fei said that

your father is dying.

Is there no other way?

The patient's various indicators
are not very good.

He hasn't eaten much
in the past two days.

There is no point in continuing
the treatment here.

While the patient is awake now,

shouldn't you take him home?

He probably has two more days.

Alright, I understand.

You are here.

My dad's condition is so terrible.

Why are you only telling me now?

Because he thought that
the farewell party

caused you trouble.

He thinks you probably
don't want to see him.

He saw how sad you were that day.

He regretted what he did

and felt guilty.

He said he shouldn't have appeared.

He asked me not to disturb you.

But today, in this case,

I really have no choice.

My parents know several cancer experts.

Let me contact them.

No.

In fact, at the beginning
of this year, Shen

was diagnosed with
late-stage lung cancer.

He had his left lung removed
at that time.

Half of his right lung was also cut off.

He has been hospitalized after that.

He had several close calls.

You all heard what the doctor said.

We have used all available treatments.

Even he himself said

he doesn't want to suffer anymore.

Xingruo.

This morning he was calling your name
in a daze.

I don't have your phone number.

That's why I had to call Mr. Lu.

Your dad's clock is ticking.

Don't you want to go in and have a look?

Shen.

Shen.

Xingruo is here to see you.

Don't get excited.

Go get a pillow.

I thought I would

never see my daughter again in my life.

What are you saying?

I am your daughter.

No matter what

blood is thicker than water.

Actually, now that I think about it,

when I was still a kid,

I was pretty happy.

When you were a kid,

you were always pestering me,

running after me,

and even learned painting from me.

I thought my daughter would
become a painter when she grew up.

Actually,

thinking about it now,

as a child,

I didn't like painting itself,

but just recording my life
in that moment.

Later,

I studied how to film documentaries

and realized that

painting was my inspiration.

Dad,

thank you.

If I didn't do those things,

our family could've

stayed happy forever.

If we stayed happy forever,

my dad wouldn't be

the great painter Shen Guangyao.

You have grown up.

My daughter has grown up.

You can see it now.

I remember all the words you said

during my farewell ceremony.

Deep in the soul,

we are tightly bound together.

Many things

have already happened.

I won't ask for your forgiveness.

But you coming to see me today

and talking it out,

I am contented.

I hope your life will be

easy

and happy.

Why is there a light?

Light?

It feels so warm.

Xingruo.

Go and take a look for me.

It's dazzling.

There is no light.

I'm leaving.

I'm here today

to say goodbye to you on behalf
of your dad.

This is the memorial diamond
made from your father's ashes.

He ordered it when he was still alive.

He said

this is how he will
stay with me forever.

What about my dad's memorial service?

Memorial service?

Are you talking about
the farewell ceremony?

Hasn't it already been done?

At that time,

everyone thought it was
a performance art.

In fact, Shen wanted a reason

to meet his friends one last time.

And to meet you.

Okay, that's enough talking.

From now on,

I want to show him the world.

Goodbye.

I have always thought

of myself as a child.

But now,

my parents are gone.

It's as if in a flash,

I saw the end of life.

The wall that once
separated me from death

has disappeared.

Lu Xingyan,

you are all I have left.

I will always be with you.

Forever.

Does your head still hurt?

It stopped hurting a long time ago.

Why did you think I was discharged
by the doctor?

By the way, I want to tell you something.

That day, Yu Si came to see me.

He said that actually,
he has always liked me.

I know that.

I met him in the parking lot.

What did he tell you?

He said his confession was successful.

No way.

I rejected him outright that day.

Of course, I know.

I'm sorry.

I was wrong.

When I didn't know the truth,
I shouldn't have

criticized you like that.

No, it's not your fault.

In fact, in these two days,

I gave it a lot of thought.

I also recalled a lot of things
between us.

I have some new insights now.

What insights?

For example,

I am giving you a cup of milk tea.

In my world,

I may have poured all my care and love

into this cup of milk tea.

But in your eyes,

it might just be a cup of milk tea.

So,

our understanding of the same matter

may differ.

Thinking about it now,

I was really naive.

But now I understand.

The right way to love someone

isn't to be moved by oneself.

It's to be in your partner's shoes

and feel the world from their view.

So,

I set a small goal for myself.

What small goal?

I will constantly adjust my perspective.

Be empathetic.

I will take your angle
more when looking at issues.

Moreover,

I will know a little more
about you every day.

Get closer to you every day.

Are you willing to give me this chance?

Yes, I am.

Lu Xingyan,

I seem to

love you more and more.

Thank you for loving me.

Shen Xingruo,

Thank you for accepting my love.

("Go Back Lover" post-episode interview)

What do you think
a good relationship is like?

I think it's like two people
seeing the world side by side.

It's not abandoning the whole world

for one person's sake.

A good love

is not necessarily about
pursuing a specific outcome.

What's more important

is experiencing the sweetness
of the moment.

=Go Back Lover=