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(Go Back Lover)

(Go Back Lover)

(October 2015. First
Semester of Sophomore Year)

Is this mine?

Yes, I saw it when I went to the
post office to collect my package.

I brought it back for you.

Okay, thank you.

I'm going out to eat.
Do you want to join me?

No, you go first.

Okay.

(Sender: Shen Guangyao
Receiver: Shen Xingruo)

(Double Happiness)

(Double Happiness)

(Xingruo.)

(Long time no see.)

(Madam Fang and I have decided)

(to get married on November 6th.)

(We hope you'll give us your blessing.)

(You'll always be my dearest daughter.)

Have you eaten?

No, I'm not hungry yet.

What about you?

I'm walking back now.

Today's class was really difficult.

I wish you were by my side.

This way, I don't have to pay attention.

You'll give me extra lessons anyway, right?

Is that thing on your
desk a wedding invitation?

Someone wants me to attend their wedding,

but I don't want to go.

Why?

No reason. I just don't want to go.

You can go and have a look.

Gain some experience.

This way, it'll be much easier

when we get married.

What's the matter?

Nothing, I'm just a
little tired from class.

I'll call you back later.

Okay.

(Episode 18) (I've always
been waiting for you here.)

(Year 2024)

What's this?

I saw you didn't eat anything,

so I ordered wonton skin and filling

to make you some wontons.

I'm not hungry.

Do you know

that the stomach is not
only a digestive organ,

but also an emotional organ?

When you take good care of it,

your mood will also improve.

I'll go cook for you first.

You can eat it anytime you want.

Rest first.

I'll let you know when it's done.

Go.

(Xingruo, long time no see!)

(I've seen your music variety show.)

(I'm proud of you.)

(Xingruo, I feel happy that
I have a brilliant daughter.)

(Don't exhaust yourself.)

(I'll always have your back.)

(I recently attended an
art exhibition in Germany)

(and saw a wonderful artwork.)

(It reminded me of how I
taught you to draw an apple.)

(Xingruo, I'll always support you.)

(I'm waiting for the day
when we'll be together again.)

(Xingruo, happy new year.)

(Xingruo, what are you busy with recently?)

(How are you and Lu Xingyan doing?)

(Aunt Pei told me that you're
busy with something recently.)

Try it.

It's a little hot.

Let me guess. This was
you when you were little.

Did someone give this to you?

My dad

secretly stuffed it into my luggage

when I moved to your house.

Your dad drew you so beautifully.

He must love you very much.

But what's this?

(Dear Xingruo, you'll
always be my dear daughter.)

(Dear Xingruo, )

(you'll always be my dear daughter.)

Who are you?

Lu Xingyan.

So you wanted to burn
this painting that day.

After all these years,

this is the first time I hear
you talk about your dad.

My relationship with my dad

is quite complicated.

That's why

I never want to mention him.

It's because whenever I think of him,

it makes me miserable.

So what happened back then?

Can you tell me about it?

When I was little,

my family was happy.

My dad

is a famous artist,

so we're quite well-off.

My mom

is a famous pianist.

But she never played the piano again

after getting married.

I'm done.

Here, let me see.

Am I not very good at drawing?

Of course not.

You did such a great
job that you surprised me.

I don't believe you.

If you don't believe
me, show it to your mom.

Look.

Baby, don't come over. My hands are dirty.

You don't need to do the chores.

We can just hire cleaners.

Cleaners won't clean
as seriously as yourself.

I clean the house thoroughly

so that you feel comfortable.

Go play with your dad. Hurry.

Ignore your mom.

She doesn't know anything.

Let me explain.

Sit.

What you drew

is called Cubism.

This is a painting by Picasso.

Don't you think your
drawings are exactly the same?

You're amazing.

(I thought)

(our family could live
happily like this forever.)

(But I didn't expect)

(that there were cracks)

(in my parents' relationship)

(that I couldn't see.)

Shen Guangyao.

How could you say that to me?

I quit my job

and became what I am today.

I did everything for you and this family.

I never deny

what you have done for this family.

But how come

you keep finding fault with me?

Either this is wrong or that is wrong!

Where's the person who used to sit

at the piano?

How did you become someone who only cares

about the daily necessities of life?

What do you want?

Daily necessities of life?

Are you telling me about
daily necessities of life?

Okay, let me ask you.

Someone has to buy the food in this house.

Someone has to cook the daily meals.

You know Xingruo only likes to eat

the food I cook.

Aren't I

the only one

who's taking care of this family?

Enough!

Guangyao.

Stop living in your own world.

We need to take care of the family

together.

Can you understand me?

Dad and Mom.

What's going on with you two?

Nothing. Do your homework.

- I'm talking to your mom. - Nothing.

Nothing, Xingruo.

Nothing.

Nothing, baby. Nothing.

Here, do your homework first.

You must be hungry.

I'll make you

your favorite hot pot later, okay?

Here, go upstairs.

I'll call you when I'm done.

After my mom died,

I felt like the sky was falling.

I'm sorry for your loss.

My condolences.

(But to my dad, )

(it was a relief.)

(What I couldn't accept the most)

(was that my dad)

(got together with my head teacher, )

(Ms. Fang.)

(You know what happened later.)

(I went to Mingli.)

(Then I went to university.)

(My dad tried to contact me a few times, )

(but I never met him.)

(I never reply)

(to the text messages he sent me either.)

Hello, welcome.

Why are you here?

I have an art exhibition here.

So I stopped by to see you.

Let me buy you coffee.

Why didn't you use the money I gave you?

I think I'm doing pretty good.

I make my own living.

Didn't I say

I don't need you?

Why don't you understand it yet?

The fact that you are my daughter

can never be changed.

Many years have passed.

Shouldn't I move on?

Shouldn't I have my own life?

I beg you. Don't hate me.

You haven't changed

in all these years.

You're lenient with yourself
and strict with others.

You have the right to choose your life.

I have the right

to choose my life too.

I hope you don't exist in my life.

Please don't bother me anymore.

Do you get what I mean?

If I knew

that was the last time I would see him,

I wouldn't have been so harsh.

I think my dad probably hates me.

Why do you say so?

If he didn't hate me,

why didn't he tell me

he was sick?

Why didn't he let me see him one last time?

No matter

what the relationship between us was like,

I felt guilty

for not saying goodbye to him properly.

It's my regret.

Mr. Shen

might not be a good husband

or a good father,

but I think

you don't have to hate him that much.

After all, as an adult,

he does have the right
to choose his own life.

I think

it's time to let go of your hatred.

Whether I let it go

or hate him

doesn't matter anymore.

I don't have a chance anymore.

You actually have one more chance.

Want to hear it?

We went over the procedures
for the farewell ceremony today.

Before your dad died, he specifically asked

that you

be the speaker at his farewell ceremony.

Don't you have a lot of
things you want to say to him?

This is a good opportunity

to tell him.

I'm sure

he can hear it from up there.

Will you do it?

Hello, this is Mr. Shen's portfolio.

Hello, Mr. Shen's portfolio.

Have a look.

Hello, Mr. Shen's portfolio.

Have a look.

Mr. Shen's portfolio.

Okay.

Why are you standing
there? Continue distributing.

Who's that woman?

How come I haven't seen this
relative in Xingruo's family before?

She's Mr. Shen's girlfriend.

She looks about our age.

Are you sure?

I'm sure.

We checked out the
venue with them yesterday.

Well... Mr. Shen is quite capable.

No wonder Xingruo
doesn't get along with him.

Look, there are so many
cameras at the funeral.

Gosh. You don't say.

She brought her own cameras,
saying she was going to film everything

and rewatch it at home.

Isn't that...

Rewatch it?

Who is it for?

Who would rewatch funerals?

It's kind of scary.

I wouldn't do this if I wasn't paid.

It's a pity for Guangyao.

I thought he was working on
something these past two years.

I didn't expect news like this.

Yeah.

Where have you been? Why are you so late?

There's something

I think I should talk to you about.

What is it?

Hello.

Are you Mr. Shen Guangyao's daughter?

Yes.

The second part of the farewell ceremony

is the speech.

Get prepared for it.

Thank you.

Are you ready for your speech?

I'm ready.

After you talked to me that night,

I thought a lot about it.

I

Finally have the courage to say it now.

I'm tired

harboring all this resentment

for so many years.

It's time to let it all go.

Lu Xingyan.

Thank you for giving me the courage

to say all these.

Speaking of which,

what did you want to tell me just now?

I wanted to say

if...

If your dad were still alive,

would you be willing to do this too?

I know you're trying to comfort me

that the dead can't be resurrected.

I think

it's not too late for me to do this now.

Dear guests,

ladies and gentlemen.

It is with deep sorrow that we gather here

today

to bid farewell to Mr. Shen
Guangyao together.

Mr. Shen Guangyao was born in 1970.

In 1990,

he began studying at the Art
Students League of New York.

He started creating artworks in 1993.

In 1995,

he held his first art
exhibition in New York.

Mr. Shen Guangyao

was deeply influenced

by Jackson Pollock's action painting

and incorporated his
artistic characteristics

into his own creations.

His works use bold colors

and are good at describing the
emotions of a certain moment.

They have distinct abstract
expressionist characteristics.

Next, we'll move on to his
family members' speeches.

Let's welcome Mr. Shen Guangyao's daughter,

Ms. Shen Xingruo.

My father

is an outstanding artist.

His artistic achievements are remarkable.

I believe everyone here knows.

As his daughter,

I want to say a few words

to my father here today.

Actually, before today,

I didn't get along with my father.

We haven't contacted each other

for many years.

I always thought

that our bond

could be so weak

that it could be ignored.

But the moment I knew he was dead,

I suddenly realized

that the two of us are
tightly bound together

in the depths of our souls.

We have very similar personalities

and ways of doing things.

Whether I'll admit it,

they all left deep marks

on me.

My father once said something to me.

He said

I'm his daughter.

This is a fact that can never be changed.

I was very repelled by
this sentence at that time.

It's only now

that I understand the
meaning of this statement.

I thank my father

for giving me life.

All the right and wrong

have vanished.

I hope

he can find eternal peace here.

Good!

What's going on?

Shen Guangyao?

Xingruo, well said!

Isn't he dead?

- Who's this old man? - What's going on?

What's going on?

I don't know.

My daughter.

Mr. Shen?

Isn't he...

What's going on?

Shut up.

You're all here.

I was able

to meet so many old friends in one day.

I didn't hold this ceremony in vain.

I always wondered

what are people's comments about me

if I left this world one day,

so I held this farewell ceremony

to hear what everyone have to say.

I was supposed to make a grand entrance

at the end of this farewell ceremony.

But I was particularly moved

by what my daughter said just now.

So I couldn't control myself

and showed up earlier.

I'm thankful for my daughter.

She

gave today's farewell ceremony

a new meaning.

I'm also very happy

that she can let go of
her previous resentment

and give me a brief new life

in the last stage of my life.

Xingruo.

Thank you.

I would also like to thank

the owner of this resort,

who is also my daughter's boyfriend,

Lu Xingyan.

He helped me

with the whole ceremony.

Most importantly, I want to thank him

for creating such a rare opportunity

for me and my daughter

and gave me no regrets

in the last stage of my life.

- Good! - Good!

Amazing. How amazing.

Xingruo, let me explain.

You already knew, didn't you?

I wanted to tell you this just now,

but I didn't have time.

Is something wrong with you?

Don't follow me.

Xingruo!

Xingruo!

Xingruo.

Don't you have something to tell me?

I already said

what I wanted to say on stage!

I know

I'm wrong for lying to you,

but

I've been thinking
about you all these years.

This is the only way for
me to get close to you.

You're really eloquent.

A leopard never changes its spots.

You made

habitual lying so high-sounding.

Ms. Fang?

What are you doing here?

We're husband and wife after all.

You're dead.

I should come over to
pay my respects, right?

I've told you clearly

that I don't love you anymore.

It's over between us.

Why do you keep pestering me?

You were sick for years.

I did so many things for you.

I even lost my job.

When I took care of you,

why didn't you say you
don't love me anymore?

Now great.

You said you're going
abroad for medical treatment,

but you found someone new in half a year.

Is your love that cheap?

I'm your wife.

Can you take some responsibility?

We're in public.

Can you shut up?

Why should I shut up?

Which part of what I said isn't true?

Is this your new lover?

I would like to see

your rapid yet sincere love today.

Shut up!

You're a young lady.

You can do anything you want,

yet you did such a nasty thing.

Don't listen to her.

Who are you calling nasty?

What are you talking about?

You two have broken up.

Guangyao and I are true love.

What's wrong with that?

When Shen Guangyao was dating,

you weren't born yet.

How much true love did he give you?

Two minutes or three minutes?

Shut up!

Aren't you just after money?

I'll kill you!

Chen Fei!

Madams, calm down!

Who are you calling Madam?

Miss, calm down.

- Enough. - Calm down.

- Stop fighting. Don't use violence.
- Who are you calling Madam?

Miss.

- Calm down. - Let go!

- Enough. - Miss, calm down.

Madam, Miss.

(Outpatient Clinic,
Xingcheng People's Hospital)

You're awake.

How do you feel? Are you okay?

Drink some water.

How did I get here?

This afternoon,

Chen Fei accidentally hit you.

But don't worry.

The doctor said you're fine.

You just need to stay in
the hospital for three days.

I'm sorry.

It's all my fault today.

I really shouldn't have hidden
your dad's stuff from you.

When did you

find out that my dad's alive?

This morning.

I was checking out the setup

and I ran into him.

He said he wanted to see for
himself the ceremony's setup.

I was also shocked.

Mr. Shen, I really can't help you.

I can't lie to her.

I know what you're worried about.

I beg you.

My health

is getting worse day by day.

I don't know how many
more times I can meet Xingruo.

If I had any other ideas,

I wouldn't come to you today.

I only have one daughter.

I need this chance.

So you knew everything

and teamed up with him to deceive me.

When you saw me saying
those words of gratitude on stage,

did you feel a sense of accomplishment,

Lu Xingyan?

No, of course not.

You told me so much last night.

I thought you wanted to make up with him,

so I thought it's a good opportunity.

Why do you think I want
to make up with him?

Why do you think this
is a good opportunity?

Why did you make decisions for me?

Sorry.

Calm down.

I was presumptuous.

But I think

as adults,

when love vanishes

and when two people

can't get along anymore,

separating

isn't a bad decision.

If you bind two people

who don't love each other,

it's a form of torture for them.

Just because your dad
stopped loving your mom,

don't hate him because you think

he's a bad person.

It's torture for you too.

I don't want it to trap you.

Lu Xingyan.

If you don't want me to hate him,

over his dead body.

Why?

Why are you so stubborn?

Because my mom didn't die of sickness.

She was killed.

She was killed my dad.

Are you satisfied with this answer?

Shen Guangyao

is a murderer.

(Go Back Lover Interview Time)

Why did you leave Shen Xingruo's mom?

(Why did you leave Shen Xingruo's mom?)

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