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Original subtitles

Whoa.

what are you

doing up?

it's-it's late.

I figured

you'd have-

where you been?

um...just...saw this

b-bad double feature...

Tony picked.

hmm.

I, um...

(clears throat)

I found this

in your jacket pocket.

"something's happening."

what does that mean?

I don't know. Hmm.

I don't know.

let me see.

I don't know. It's-

looks like it's...

piece of paper,

I, uh...

I must've found

somewhere and put it

in my pocket.

it's a girl's

handwriting, and someone

drew a flower on it.

yeah?

so?

what movie did you see?

what?

tell me the name

of the movie

and where it was playing.

I might want to go

see it tomorrow.

piece of advice.

tell your friend Tony

not to answer the phone

if he's supposed

to be your alibi.

(sighs)

Julia...

who wrote you

this note, Griffin?

who wrote you

this note?!

Rosalie.

Rosalie.

the girl from the shop?

god! That's where

you were tonight?

we're-

we're just friends.

then why would you

lie to me? Huh?

why would you lie

about where you were

if you're just friends?!

what are you doing,

Griffin? Are you

cheating on me?

no!

I don't believe you.

I mean-she's

a little flirtatious.

I mean, I might've

flirted back, but-

until 2:00

in the morning.

nothing happened!

I'm not sleeping

with her.

I swear to god!

get away from me. Go away.

I don't want to see you.

come on.

we were just spending

some time together.

things have been going

so bad around here,

it really just kinda...

(sighs)

happened.

Oh.

the nurse said

that you guys

were...

oh, that's ok.

we're finished

here.

this was tough.

go home.

get some rest,

ok?

yeah. Like I'm gonna

sleep tonight.

look. I'm gonna tell you

what I tell everyone

in your position.

this is not

the final answer,

Charlie.

I could call and say,

"we still haven't

gotten everything."

but that's not

a death sentence.

we just...

redouble our efforts.

meaning...chemotherapy

and a lot more radiation.

let's cross that bridge

a little later.

right.

heh.

there's no way I'm

gonna sleep tonight.

when will we know?

mmm, tomorrow.

day after.

look. Take him home.

pamper him a little.

rent a ton

of movies.

I'll call you

as soon as I know.

ok.

(sighs)

keep your fingers

crossed, ok?

all right.

? Everybody wants to live ?

? like they wanna live ?

? and everybody wants to love ?

? like they wanna love ?

? and everybody wants to be ?

? closer to free ?

Hey.

how's he doing?

is he-

tired. He's tired.

well, what'd

the doctor say?

look, I don't want

to talk about it, ok?

ok.

so how're you doing?

I mean I don't

want to talk.

(sighs)

Julia-

I mean I don't want

to talk to you.

I just came to get

some of my stuff.

he's gonna be ok,

Bailey.

god. Listen to me.

I mean...

how do I know that?

right? I mean,

i-i don't.

I don't have anything

to base that on

except how much

I want for it

to be true.

thank you...

for saying that.

I'm gonna head upstairs

and check on-

(knock on door)

hey. I was just

on my way up-

god. You're here?

i-i thought you

said he wasn't here.

well, he wasn't

when you called.

you called?

why? What's-

you said

you'd be home

by 5:30.

well, I just-

I got home a few

minutes ago,

and I came to get

a shirt for work.

what's wrong?

I've been up there

watching the hands

go around the clock,

and I've just been

thinking I just

had to make it

until you got home.

my god, do you have

any idea how much people

drink on soap operas?

and it's, like...

I was just waiting

for...you to come home

so that you could-

what?

I don't know.

like, take the cash

out of my wallet

so I can't go to a bar.

you can't do that.

you can't put that

on me.

I can't need you?

look, let's

go upstairs-

no! Answer me!

I'm not allowed

to need you?

you can't need me

to stay sober...

because what if Charlie

gets bad news. Huh?

what if

those test results

come back

and they say

that the cancer

is still there?

what then? Huh?

when-when

I can't be with you

because I have to be

there with him?

look, I just, uh...

(sighs)

I can't do it

without you, Bailey.

listen to me.

you have to.

you have to because

I can't make you

better, Annie.

yes, you can.

no, I can't!

that isn't

the way it works,

so stop

asking me to!

I just-

just stop.

(door closes)

knock knock.

who's there?

me.

you? No. See, Owen,

the whole point of

knock-knock jokes is...

(ring)

knock knock.

Owen, cut it out.

who's there?

rabbits.

(chuckles)

rabbits.

very funny.

hello.

oh. Dr. rabin. I-

An irregularity? What-

what does that mean?

it means we have to

run a gallium scan,

run a few more tests to

get a clearer picture.

no. I mean...

what-what could a spot

on the cat scan indicate?

well, it could be

evidence of some

remaining scar tissue-

the tissue that held

the tumor in place

before it was radiated.

or it could mean-

the cancer's still there.

the radiation didn't work.

it would be premature

to conclude that.

but it's possible.

Charlie, there's

no point going down

that road until-

I'm asking you.

is it possible?

it's possible.

but it's unlikely.

(sighs)

I'm 28 years old,

doctor.

getting cancer

in the first place

was unlikely.

unlikely's not much

of a comfort anymore.

what are you

doing here?

what?

I...i don't want

to see you right now.

(sighs)

gotta go

to the bathroom,

Julia.

what do you want

me to do, pee

out in the backyard?

hide in the shed?

hey, I'm hiding

in the house. You

can hide in the shed.

I have to eat.

I have to shower

and do my laundry.

right. Right.

that's true.

so I don't know,

um, maybe you

should...leave.

(sighs)

leave.

well, I can't be

in the same room

with you right now,

and you're right.

you can't lock yourself

in the shed, so-

wait. Aren't-

aren't we even gonna

talk about this?

look, I want you

to know what happened

with me and Rosalie...

and why.

you're the one

that's always saying we

should talk things out.

please?

don't!

don't touch me

after you've been

with someone else. God!

why are you

doing this?

'cause I have got...

there is too much

going on right now.

all of this stuff

with Charlie,

and I have to worry

about that.

and I have to

take care of myself,

and being near you

makes it so much worse.

so, what? What,

we're just done?

I have no idea.

I can't think

about that.

all I want is for you to

leave, and I'll figure

the rest out later.

Bailey: Hey, man.

Claudia:

where you been?

noplace. Just...

out.

so...you hear anything

from the doctor yet?

what?

no.

it's pretty late.

guess you're

gonna have to wait

another day, huh?

yeah.

so are you

ok with that?

no, I'm not.

I'm going crazy.

I just...I gotta...

I don't know.

I gotta do more

than just hang out

and wait for the phone

and sit up in that room

all night long.

so why don't you get

outta here then, man?

why don't you

go see a movie or

take a drive

or something?

I'll stay here.

besides,

Julia and Griffin

will be here.

what?

I was just telling Charlie

that he should get

outta here for a while

if he wants...

take a night out.

that's not what I mean.

that's not enough.

I mean, I need

to really get away.

away away, like,

just drive until

I run outta gas.

you know? Go someplace

in the middle of nowhere.

yeah, like that cabin

we used to go to when

we were kids, outside Tahoe.

oh, man,

that's exactly it.

well, so?

you should go.

if you want, I'd go

with you, 'cause

I'm with you, man.

I would love

to get outta here

for a little while.

me, too. Somewhere

where no one can find us

in, like, a second.

ok.

(chuckles)

so, let's...

let's just do it.

that cabin's gotta

still be there, right?

yeah. Start

packing, claud.

no. I mean, I can't.

I mean, I'm busy.

I've got lots

of stuff to do.

claud, come on.

Charlie, we talked

about this.

now I...Need

some time to myself.

you guys should definitely

go. I'll get Kirsten

to stay with me and Owen,

and...i don't care.

actually, I might

kinda like it.

So? We going away?

far away.

Whoa. Blast

from the past, huh?

god. It is

exactly the same.

actually, I think

the couch is new.

nope.

ha ha! Look at this.

monopoly, parcheesi,

scrabble.

I bet you they

still have, um...

yep. Valley

of the dolls.

my introduction

to adult fiction.

you didn't come

out of your room

for 3 days.

(chuckles)

ok.

groceries,

beds, firewood.

who does what?

uhh!

You gotta pack it

down real hard.

yeah, like that.

that's good.

that's really good.

ha ha ha!

ahh...

(kids laugh and chat,

indistinctly)

oh, yeah?

(panting

and chuckling)

Owen, you want

to help me open

the mail?

hey,

anything for me?

uh...I'll check.

an application to own

a new credit card...

an application

to refinance

your home...

"Phillips academy."

that's for me.

andover, huh?

isn't that

a prep school?

uh-huh.

that looks like

an application.

it is. I, uh...

I sent away.

thanks.

Massachusetts, right?

yep.

what kind of nimrod

names a food product

"gorp"?

like, that's supposed

to be appetizing?

I might as well just

have just named it...

"zard" or...

"quif."

hell, "barf" would be

a better name than-

wha-hey!

Charlie.

wasn't me, man.

you hooked it.

I did?

yeah. See, it's

all in the wrist.

you gotta...

aah! Oh, that's

funny, that?

that's very funny.

hey, hey, hey!

bay, bay, bay,

bay, bay!

she started it. I

was just helping her

with her technique.

no! Aah!

some big brother

you are. You

are gettin' it.

no fair. No way! No way!

you can't hit me!

I've got can...

cer!

ha ha ha!

ow!

ha ha!

aah!

(all laughing)

aah!

ha ha ha ha!

ohh! Ha ha ha!

aah!

aah!

uhh!

ha ha ha!

ha ha ha!

ha ha ha!

(knock on door)

uh, it-it's Sarah.

i-i was just-

well, I had some-

some rent notices

to deliver on this

floor, so I just

thought I'd...

you thought

you'd what?

check up on me?

uh, no. No.

why would i-

Bailey's gone. I know.

I called the house,

and Kirsten told me.

ok, so I just wanted

to see how you are.

can I, um...

can I come in?

n-no.

Annie, look, I'm-

I'm worried about you...

and about Natalie.

no, Natalie is fine.

look, I do have some idea

of what you're going

through, you know.

I mean, i-

I was with Bailey

all last year

through pretty much

everything.

and I know that this is

something that you can't

fight all by yourself.

that's not

what Bailey thinks.

look, can I just, um...

at least drive you

to a meeting?

or something, you know?

or look after Natalie

while you're there?

no. Look, why don't you just

go find yourself some other

little project to do?

ok? Like help somebody

with their lock or...

or their plumbing

or something? Ok?

(sighs)

could I, uh...

hi.

so I didn't really

know where else to go.

what's going on?

I've just...

just been walking.

been walking

around all night.

I haven't sle-

I haven't slept.

(sighs)

she kicked me out.

what?

yeah.

Julia. She, uh...

(sniffles)

she found that thing,

that note you wrote.

oh, man. Wow.

I don't know how

to make her understand

what's going on here...

with you and me.

and I told her it's not

what she thought it was,

but she-she didn't

want to hear it.

it's like she-

she wants to believe

the worst.

so she thinks that

you and me are-

no, it's not like

she hasn't done

some things, too...

things that

I forgave her for.

or at least...

tried to understand.

nothing's entirely

the other person's

fault.

(sighs)

god.

she hasn't wanted me

in such a long time.

(sighs)

and then there

you were, and you-

you...

and I did.

and I do.

want you.

(sighs)

yours good?

really good.

yours?

great schlock.

(chuckles)

the schlockiest.

mm-hmm.

time check.

7:00.

it is not.

yeah!

it is not 7:00.

it is.

it's 7:00?

where did the day

go, huh?

it's dinnertime.

mmm.

(sighs)

(sighs)

you think we should

call home...Check in?

I don't know.

they've got

the number here.

don't they?

so if there's

a real problem,

somebody could

call. Kirsten

would call.

definitely.

so...

let's not call.

let's just

leave it alone

for a little while.

that's not

so horrible,

is it?

Charlie: No.

that is

a good fire, bay.

(chuckles)

43...

44...

45...

46...

I don't see why

47...

you're making such a

big deal out of this.

I just-i want to understand

why you're applying now.

'cause now's when

the applications

are due.

50! Time's up!

ready or not!

you know what I mean.

here I come!

why are you making plans

to leave before we know?

before we know what's

gonna happen with Charlie?

where are you? You

better be upstairs!

Charlie'd

want me to go

to a good school.

not one that's

3,000 miles away.

am I getting hot...

or cold?

I can't help it it's

in Massachusetts.

unless

that's the appeal.

I mean...There's

going away to school,

claud...

and there's

running away...

which is what you might

do when it's too scary

to stay here

and not know how things

are gonna turn out...

not know

if your brother's

gonna be ok.

where'd you guys go?

Claudia.

where are you?

We're in here, Owen!

(knock on door)

my mommy

fell asleep...

on the floor.

she fell asleep, and

I can't wake her up.

so?

what? This

as good as dad's?

better,

if you ask me.

twice the garlic.

you guys

want any more?

uhh, pass.

(sighs)

(sighs)

you ok, Charlie?

just...

getting tired,

that's all.

yeah? Well,

then we're gonna

have to do something

to wake

your butt up, then.

how about

a game of risk?

no. You guys play.

the whole reason

for coming up here was

to get your mind off stuff.

yeah, but I'm just...

I'm just not really

feeling that great.

I got it.

remember the first time

Charlie baby-sat for us?

the snowstorm.

10 minutes after

mom and dad left,

it starts

blizzarding out.

and all the lights

went out. Where

did they go again?

to the movies.

and we couldn't

reach them, remember?

and we freaked on you.

and you tried everything

to distract us.

you tried food,

stories, everything.

you remember what

you finally did?

mm-mmm.

how about a little

indoor laser beam

snowball war?

the cabin was

a soaking mess,

but we laughed

till the electricity

came back on.

(sighs)

I'm just-I'm just

not really in the mood,

you guys.

I know. Well, maybe

this'll change your mood.

it's not that simple.

well, can't you just try?

I mean, it worked before.

it's not like before.

ok? It doesn't-

it doesn't work

like it worked

when we were kids.

you can't-you can't

just distract me. I-

I'm sick now.

we know that.

no, you don't.

(sighs)

no idea.

I got some bad news.

the, um...

the test results.

(sighs)

they found something.

they don't know

what it is,

but it's something.

and...

it could be bad.

what?

so I don't want to play

any more games. Ok?

I'm not some little kid

who's afraid of the dark.

I mean, I wish...I wish...

I wish that's all there was

to be afraid of.

wouldn't that

be simple?

(sniffles)

Annie.

mommy, please

wake up.

sweetheart. Do you know

how to make coffee?

instant.

ok. Make some.

a whole pot. Lots

and lots of scoops.

and, Natalie,

get some towels.

why? What

are you gonna do?

this.

uhh!

aah!

stop!

uhh!

Claudia?

Claudia?

I'm sleeping.

go away.

I know you don't

want to hear this,

but...

I'm going to set up

another appointment for

you to talk to someone.

I'm already

doing that.

I know.

I think

you need to see

a new therapist.

yeah, well...What's

this new therapist

gonna do for me?

talk, mainly.

about whatever

you're afraid of.

about Charlie dying?

maybe.

probably.

talk about how

I'm gonna handle things?

you know, how I'm gonna

cope with things

if-if he dies?

yes.

maybe even make me

ok with it?

in time, claud.

I hope so.

well...

I don't want

to be ok with it.

'cause it's not ok.

and it's never

gonna be, so...

I'm not just

gonna sit there

and let someone

try and tell me

that it is,

so you can just

forget about it.

That's exactly what

everyone said when

my mom and dad left.

"try and get back

to normal, Claudia."

so...so I tried that.

I mean,

I really tried that,

and I was doing

pretty good at it,

but...that's it.

that's...that's it.

I'm not doing it

anymore.

I'm not gonna try

and be ok with people

leaving me...

ever again.

(Sighing)

(sighs)

how is he?

is he asleep?

drifting off.

bay, did you

know about this?

about

the cat scan?

no.

did you?

(sighs)

god, what was he thinking?

that he could just

walk out of the house

and get in the car

and drive away

from all this?

just leave it all behind?

hey, I thought

the same thing.

idiot.

like, a change

of scenery was really

gonna change anything.

what did you want it

to change?

what do you mean?

all this stuff

with Charlie.

but you just said

you didn't know

about that till now.

Bailey?

we need some

more firewood.

Bailey?

bay.

what's going on

with you?

nothing.

(sighs)

Annie's drinking again.

oh, no.

bay.

yeah, and...

and it's bad.

it's really bad.

and...look at me.

I'm up here.

I just-i just...

left.

yeah, well, come on.

it's a lot to handle,

especially for someone who-

no. I know. I had to

get outta there.

it was self-preservation

for me to get outta there.

and I was taking

care of myself...

which is a good thing.

only...

only?

only why do I feel

like I did

something wrong?

'cause that's you, bay.

why?

why is that me?

because...

I wasn't always

like this...Jule.

I mean, you remember.

when I was, like...

when I was, like,

15 years old,

I was getting in trouble

all the time...

blowing off

my curfew...

well, that's

just being a kid.

you were a kid.

right.

and then they died.

they checked out,

and the next day,

I was...

I was this...Adult.

I went from being

15 one day

to 45 the next.

Bailey...

and you know what?

to hell with them.

because maybe I could've

been someone else.

and then maybe I wouldn't

be beating myself up

over this thing...

over leaving her.

and-and maybe...

for a second...

I could actually believe

that it's ok for me

to take care of myself.

I get

what you're saying.

I do.

I mean, maybe it's

the same with me.

maybe if they

were still here,

I wouldn't be

in such a rush

to do everything.

a rush to do what?

anything.

everything.

and how

did that happen?

huh?

I mean, god,

do you remember me

in junior high?

I was always

looking 5 years ahead.

and now...

now it's like even

immediate gratification

takes too long.

I want what I want

now, today,

'cause who knows

what's gonna happen

tomorrow?

so it's like...

I stopped thinking

things through.

you know?

I went off to Europe...

turned down Stanford,

I got married.

you don't regret that,

do you?

I did that...

(sighs)

so fast, Bailey.

too fast.

so what are you saying?

do you think

you made a mistake?

I didn't ever think of what

it would really be like...

what it really meant

to get married.

I just...

loved him.

so I said yes.

so...

I guess me and Charlie

aren't the only ones

running away...Huh?

Look, Annie, it's

not like I wanted

this job, ok?

but now I kinda feel

like it's mine

by default.

yeah, well-

are you gonna

promise me

you're not gonna

get in a car

with Natalie?

you gonna promise me

that you're not gonna

go to light up the stove

and cook something

and pass out

like you did tonight?

'cause I'm scared...

for Natalie.

you need help.

I know that.

you don't think

I hate myself for that?

you don't think

I hate myself

for being this way

in front of my daughter?

but all that does

is make me want to drink

so I can stop

that feeling.

and all that does

is make me want to hate

myself even more.

I can't even get myself

to a meeting.

well...

well, then you need

to go somewhere.

you know? You need

to...i don't know,

check yourself

into one of those

programs or something.

you really think so?

yeah.

absolutely.

well, that's great.

I mean, where am I

gonna leave nat?

home...alone?

or maybe I should

just send her off to be

with her alcoholic father.

maybe I should

just check her

into a hotel.

god.

you...

you think everything

is just neat and simple,

don't you?

no, I don't.

listen to me.

there are good answers

for people who have money.

and there are good answers

for people who have people

to take care of them.

but there are

no good answers for me.

it's cold.

you barely

touched it.

you want me to,

uh, reheat it

for you?

what? Uh, no.

no, I, uh...

it's-it's late.

I better get going.

where are you

gonna go?

I don't know.

I gotta find a place.

why? Why do you

have to find a place?

(chuckles)

no.

I am not staying

here with you.

why?

because. Uh...

forget it.

'cause I don't

trust myself.

why?

what don't you

trust yourself

about?

come on.

Oh...

oh, Rosalie, I...

what?

what are you

afraid of?

(sighs)

hurting her?

I don't know.

well...i don't know.

it's...

it's crazy. I mean-

i-i didn't do anything,

and she's treating me

like I did, right?

right.

I mean,

she kicked me out,

right? I mean...

she kicked me out.

she knew where

I was gonna go.

I mean, she already

thinks that we're

doing it, right?

so...

so?

so...

mmm...

Mmm...

(Telephone rings)

(gasps)

it's 3:00

in the morning.

who could that be?

something's happened.

Charlie, you

gonna get it?

hello?

I'm sorry. Who?

Bailey?

no. There's no one

here by that name.

what number were you

trying to call?

you have

the wrong number.

yeah.

wrong number.

(sighs) My heart

is pounding.

god. Phone calls

in the middle

of the night, huh?

the phone used

to ring all the time

in the middle of the night.

just meant...

dad was hung up

at the restaurant

or mom's car battery

died after rehearsal,

that's all.

till that night.

Charlie: Some...

police officer...

sergeant dubrowski.

Darryl dubrowski...

saying...

"there's been

an accident, son."

saying it real slow.

saying it twice.

march 22, 1994,

at 11:45.

(chuckles)

that's when phone calls

in the middle of the night

stop being nothing.

and nothing's ever

been nothing since,

you know?

don't see your brother

when you pull up

to daycare.

he's been kidnapped.

your sister gets home

late from a-

from a music lesson.

she got hit by a bus.

doctor tells you

your test results

turned up

an irregularity...

and you're gonna die.

'cause that's the way

life works, you know?

I know that now.

Charlie...

come on, man.

don't do this

to yourself.

did I do it

to myself?

I don't know, bay.

for 24 years,

I believed that

everything always

turned out ok.

and then

march 22, 1994,

happened.

and now I don't.

Paper got wet.

says it snowed

in Tahoe last night.

5 inches.

I bet you it's

pretty up there,

don't you think?

(sighs)

you know what,

Claudia?

I spent 5 years

doing graduate work

in child psychology.

and I have no idea

how to make this

better for you.

I've been doing

this thing lately.

I wake up

in the morning,

and I tell myself...

that he's gone.

Charlie.

I tell myself

that he's dead.

(chuckles)

then I go

about my day...

seeing how that feels.

yeah.

yeah, I do that

all the time...

every day.

it's like if we get

to that bad place first,

we can get used

to how it feels

to be there.

we can prepare

ourselves.

the truth is...

(sniffles)

we can't.

we can't know

how it's gonna feel

until it happens.

the only thing

that's...

that's gonna

make it better...

is if we know

that he's gonna be ok.

but you can't say

that he will.

no, I can't.

so I won't.

Bailey:

that's everything?

it's everything

we came with.

what's he doing?

he's making

one last check.

oh.

well, we really

crapped up our memories

of this place, huh?

mmm.

mom and dad

would be pleased.

yeah, well,

it serves 'em right.

Bailey, enough.

let's stop

doing that, ok?

I don't want to-

I don't want to feel

that way about them.

I'm tired of it.

aren't you tired

of it?

I don't know.

you know what

I've always thought?

I thought that

when I get to be

30 years old,

I will have been alive

as long without them

as I was with them.

and then everything

will change...Because

all of a sudden,

my life will be

about what happened

after they died,

not about losing them.

and then after that...

then whatever happens

is up to me.

but that's...Stupid.

I mean, what am I

waiting for?

(door closes)

it's empty.

I checked.

so you ready

to take off, man?

yeah.

hey.

I'm sorry about this.

we shouldn't have

brought you out here.

come on. That's-

we had great

times here.

so...we went

for it again.

I was into that.

just...just won't

come back here anymore.

(chuckles)

it's weird, huh?

it's like you have

this-

this great time

in your life

before the first

really bad thing

happens.

and you have that...

that kid feeling,

like the world

is completely open

and...and safe.

once you lose that,

once that first

bad thing happens...

you never get it back.

I guess everybody

loses it sometime.

yeah.

we just lost

it sooner

than most.

I'll drive.

(sighs)

(Motor starts)

(Children's voices, indistinct)

ow!

(laughing

and chatting)

(knocking on door)

Annie.

(knock knock)

Annie, it's me.

are you there?

come on, open up.

(sighs)

ok, look, Annie,

I'm back.

I'm back, and

I'm not going

anywhere,

so let's just deal

with this, ok?

(keys jingling)

Annie?

Annie?

Hey.

hey. You're back.

yeah.

Sarah. Do you have

any idea where-

Annie?

yeah.

she left about

an hour ago.

she left.

left for where?

to haledon.

you know,

down the coast?

it's supposed to have

a really good in-patient

program for alcoholism.

she checked herself

into a rehab?

ohhh...god.

that's...

and-and without-

she took Natalie

with her?

no.

n-

no? She-

She conked out

kinda early.

she's had a rough

couple of days.

Annie asked

if you'd watch her?

actually...

I volunteered.

can I help-

is he here?

he's in the back.

Julia.

what are you-

I don't, uh,

know what I'm doing,

ok? And, um...

I don't know how I feel

about anything,

but I've been thinking a lot,

and I think that whatever

happened...

it's complicated.

it's probably not

just your fault.

oh, Julia-

no, let me finish.

it's probably

my fault, too.

I don't want to keep

blaming everybody

for things

that happen to me.

I do that too much.

anyways, um...

heh...

I'm not saying

I forgive you...

but you said you didn't

sleep with her, so...

I want you to

come home with me

so we can figure stuff out.

come home with me.

please.

Charlie: Hey, I'm home!

Kirsten: Hi, Charlie,

if you're beeping in,

I took the kids

for Chinese.

we should be back

by 7:00. Owen, no,

don't play with the-

the least you could've done

is remember the doggy bag.

Charlie.

hey.

you're back. Wh-

is everything ok?

everything's fine.

we just, uh, decided

it was time to come home.

answering machine:

hello, Charlie,

it's Dr. rabin.

it's, let's see,

5:45,

and I just got

off the phone

with the lab.

now you can reach me

at the office until 6:30,

or, uh, tell you what,

let me give you my home number

if you're back after that.

it's 555-6827.

6827.

you gonna call?

Kirsten: Do you

want us to...

no. Um...

I'm gonna...

Dr. rabin, it's, uh,

it's Charlie salinger.

yes, i-

uh-huh.

mm-hmm.

I'm sorry. Could you, uh,

could you say that again?

(stifling tears)

no, it's just, um...

right. Right.

could you...

(sniffling)

I'm sorry. C-could you

just give me a second here?

I'm back.

no, it's-I'm ok.

in fact, uh, never better.

never better.

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