All language subtitles for Party of Five s04e15 Here and Now

I'm just saying

vivace, prestissimo-

who cares?

your music appreciation

professor.

ok. Besides her.

ha ha!

look, it's about tempo,

right?

right? So why don't you

just take the words

and apply them

to a physical activity?

like, say...

well...

kissing, for example.

you know, andante.

it's a normal pace.

go with the flow.

and adagio,

well, that's, you know,

slow with feeling.

what about andantino?

that really

confuses me, 'cause-

well, see, that one's

up to the conductor,

because andante

is a little faster,

like-like this.

(quick kisses)

and adagio is

a little slower

like this.

(slow kisses)

so it totally depends

on your mood.

Sarah, uh, moderato?

Elliot...

it's ok.

it's ok.

we said that we

were going to wait

until the time

was right.

you know?

until it just

kind of happened

in the moment,

like now.

and I know

that it's scary,

but if we do it

together...

well, duh.

what I mean is-

oh.

hey.

I just have to grab

my workout gloves,

so I'll just-

do it in a hurry?

excellent suggestion.

so, uh, hey,

where do you work out?

'cause I never have time

to get to the gym.

I threw a bench

down in the laundry room.

oh, cool.

free weights?

yeah. I got this new book,

the 30-minute workout.

it's awesome.

Bailey, you were

in a hurry.

right.

wow. 30 minutes, huh?

is that full body?

yeah, full body.

it's pretty intense.

well, maybe you

could show me.

sure, man. Anytime.

just let me know.

how about right now?

right now?

right now?

well, if it's ok

with you?

actually-

I mean, you need

a spotter, right?

well, yeah, but-

great. Great.

so I'll just be

a half-hour.

wait. A half-hour?

Elliot-

hey, don't worry.

I'll be prestissimo.

very fast.

whatever.

Elliot: Maybe

you can show me

something for my delts.

Bailey: Yeah. Sure, man.

(door closes)

? Everybody wants to live ?

? like they wanna live ?

? and everybody wants to love ?

? like they wanna love ?

? and everybody wants to be ?

? closer to free ?

? closer to free ?

Griffin?

hey.

I was thinking

about making us

dinner tonight.

you know,

just the 2 of us,

and we have

a TV at home, so-

no, no. It's not that.

it's-look at this.

they're running

a commercial now,

that place up the street.

like it's not enough

they're killing me

already.

wow. That's bad.

what are you

going to do?

I'm going to have

one of those grand

re-opening things.

you know, like Charlie

did with salingers'.

that's a good idea.

you could do fliers

and an ad

in the weekly.

no, uh-uh.

you're thinking

too small, jule.

if I'm going to compete,

I've got to get

a commercial, too.

do you have any idea

what something

like that costs?

it's got to be,

like-

really expensive.

I've got no choice,

all right?

not if I'm going

to stay in business.

I made some phone calls,

and I found this guy

that can do the whole thing

for, like a couple of grand.

and the air time's

not that much on some

of the channels.

we don't have money

like that.

they take credit cards.

all right. All right.

I know that you think

that sounds stupid.

it's just

another stupid idea

that Griffin came up with.

no. Griffin-

but it's not, ok?

I've got to do this.

I can't let them

just run me out of business

without at least trying.

I've got to try.

ok.

Lower.

lower so the bar

almost touches your chest.

feel the burn.

back up.

so, you and Sarah,

you guys dated for,

like, a long time, huh?

yeah, I guess so.

and still, you guys

never, uh-

we never what?

well, you guys

were, like, this

really big deal,

but Sarah's still

you know, a virgin,

so-

oh, yeah. Yeah,

we never, uh-

we didn't-

why not?

if you don't mind

me asking.

it was-

it was complicated.

the first time we tried,

man, she put so much

pressure on me.

you, too?

yeah. I got you.

whew! Nice.

whew!

I'm sorry.

I mean,

she's your ex.

I probably

shouldn't have-

no. Hey, no, man.

anything I can do

to help you

survive Sarah.

us guys got

to stick together,

right?

Sarah: Ahem!

Elliot?

oh, hey.

I though you said it was

going to be a half an hour.

yeah. We just kind of

lost track of time.

right, El?

right, bay.

well, it's been

over an hour, and, El-

we're almost done.

Bailey's got 2 more sets,

and then he's going to

show me some

lower-body stuff.

so another half?

Bailey?

is he still down here?

oh, yeah.

right here.

I thought you were

going to play

the Madeline game

with me.

oh, no, they can't,

sweetheart.

2 more sets, lower body,

another half an hour

at least.

Bailey: Yeah.

so what do you do

for cardio?

I run 3 miles a day.

(Footsteps)

Kevin. Hey.

how'd it go?

what-what'd

the doctor say?

I don't know yet.

what do you mean

you don't know?

they did the tests,

didn't they?

yeah, sure.

they just, uh-

I told the doc,

whatever the results,

I wanted them

in writing,

'cause there was no way

that I was going to sit

across a desk

and get more bad news.

you know.

and you haven't

opened it yet.

this is the rest

of my life here, Charlie.

in an envelope.

either the radiation worked,

or I've still got cancer.

I was thinking I should

go someplace beautiful,

you know,

like Drake's beach

or someplace

and open it

and, um, jump for joy

or walk into the waves,

whichever seems

more appropriate.

man...

you want some support?

why do you think

I came here first?

just promise you'll do

the same for me.

it's got to be

something simple,

like come on down

to holbrook's

and then throw in

some oil change

specials and stuff.

damn it.

yeah, but you got

to have a hook,

and you don't want

to advertise prices.

I don't?

no. No, because then

the place up the street

will undercut you.

you want to sell

something they can't:

that you're the mechanic

people can trust,

that you're the little guy,

not some huge company.

wow. You're

good at this.

I'm sorry. Do we

have any magazines

from this decade?

what?

who cares anyway?

well, excuse me for living,

but it's my

homework assignment.

since when are magazines

homework?

since we have to do this

stupid time capsule

for the class of 2001.

we're supposed to bring in

something that represents

this year.

yeah. Well, can you do it

without talking?

what was I saying?

oh, yeah.

you've got to be

friendly and honest,

you know, sell yourself.

oh, yeah, but if I

say all that stuff,

nobody's going

to believe me,

but if you

say that stuff,

say, wearing some

really sexy outfit-

what?

you wear a sexy outfit.

oh, come on.

motorheads

dig 2 things:

chicks and bikes.

excuse me. Chicks.

come on.

you said you'd help.

oh. Oh!

oh, you want help.

yeah.

I'll help you.

oh! Ah, you're good.

ha ha ha!

good help.

"canned spaghetti,

save $.59?"

nat's favorite.

your arm

still sore?

no, I'm fine.

Elliot's the one

who can barely move.

how much can you

bench press?

I don't know.

how much can you?

so is it weird for you,

like, hanging out

with Sarah's boyfriend?

no, he's cool,

and I'm glad

she's got somebody.

at least she seems like

she's in a better mood

now that they're dating.

mm-hmm.

maybe that's 'cause-

you know.

you know.

Natalie: What do you do

for cardio, man?

I don't think that's

the case actually.

they're both still...

the big "v."

oh.

yeah. They've

never actually-

really?

hey, what are

you guys doing?

pumping iron, man.

I know she definitely

wants to lose her-

(whispers)

virginity.

and he's obviously

thinking about it, too.

what possible reason

could they have

for wanting to wait?

? Bailey and Elliot

sittin' in a tree ?

? k-i-s-s-i-n-g ?

? first comes love ?

? then comes marriage ?

no way.

then comes Bailey

pushing a baby carriage.

no way!

no way.

I feel like a groundhog.

like-like if I open this

and see my shadow,

I'm going to have

6 more weeks of radiation.

well, even if I'm cured,

I'm still going

to have 6 weeks

of follow-up radiation

just to make sure

they got it all,

so it doesn't-

maybe Hemingway

had the right idea.

what was that?

soon as he found out

he was sick,

he blew his brains out.

Kevin, god, come on.

you-you haven't

even opened it yet.

you open it.

I'm a coward.

no.

i-i don't want

to be the one

that tells you.

what if it's good news?

then you should

read it yourself.

I'm just-I'm here

for moral support,

either way,

no matter what happens.

If it's bad news,

there goes my hairline.

chemo-that's brutal.

if it's good, it means

radiation works.

you know, I got a lot

riding on this, too.

ok.

here goes.

"Results of cbc, negative.

"esr, normal.

neck and chest

cat scans, negative."

negative. That's

positive, right?

god. I'm-I'm, uh-

look at this.

remission. It says, uh-

"you are-"

that's-

I'm ok.

you're ok.

I'm ok!

you're ok.

radiation works!

radiation works!

Yes!

yes!

Hi. Do you, uh-

want, like,

special attention

when you bring

your bike in to be

you know, uh, serviced

and repaired?

'cause if you do,

then-then, like,

you should bring

your bike on down

to-uh-

to holbrook's.

no.

no, no, no, no.

I'll let you cut it.

what's with the ums

and likes?

it's just how we talk.

it's real.

it's unintelligible.

whew. Let's go again.

give me a slate.

so if you want

friendly service

when you get your,

um, bike repaired,

bring it to holbrook's...

at filth and fifthmore.

ha ha ha!

what?

at film and fifthmore.

filmore.

filmore and fifthmore.

so hurry on over

to holbrook's!

we're at...

fifth and filmore.

yes!

and...cut!

ahh!

about time.

photographer:

ok, we'll, uh,

edit this down,

slap some titles on.

you'll be in business.

thanks.

that's great, man.

hey, I'm just glad

to be doing a shoot

where the actors

keep their clothes on.

Charlie, you've

got to see this.

hey.

that's my chair.

cool.

you bet. Sit down.

what's all this?

our future, Charles,

that's what.

I mean, hell,

we're both going

to be fine,

so now's the time

to start thinking ahead

and making some

serious plans.

well, that's, uh-

what kind of plans?

you and me

in business together.

now, this is primitive

compared to what

it will be

once I customize

the software,

but look at this.

say you want

to change something.

just click and drag.

no more erasing.

wait, wait.

software?

a program

for furniture design.

I did my homework.

do you know how much

manufacturers

could save

if they had

virtual prototypes?

well...

yeah, I guess.

who is better qualified

than you and me

to create the program?

I mean, we've got

our own think tank

right here.

do you really think

we could do that?

for real?

I am telling you,

Chuck,

we are retired,

sitting on a beach,

sipping mai-tais,

checking our stocks

within 5 years.

look at this.

say you want

to change woodgrain.

we can make a template.

sort of like mixing paints.

how far did you say

we were going?

3 miles.

you're doing great.

so, Elliot...

I was thinking

of maybe, uh-

redoing my bedroom.

you mean like paint

and stuff?

yeah. You know,

maybe carpet

and-what

do you call it

for the windows?

there's a word

for it. Window...

treatments?

right.

treatments.

you knew that.

you wouldn't, uh-

you wouldn't have

any ideas about that,

would you?

yeah. Throw a sheet

over them.

ah. Hey, I hadn't

thought of that.

hey, you catch any

of that sharks game

last night?

no, I was listening

to turandot.

who's that?

it's an opera.

oh.

I didn't know that

you were into...

opera?

are you kidding?

I had to listen

for this stupid music class

that I have to take.

I couldn't believe

I had to miss the game

to listen to a bunch

of people scream

at each other.

have you ever

seen cats?

excuse me?

cats. You know,

the musical.

Sarah dragged me

to see it last year.

have you?

ever seen it?

I hate musicals.

really?

yeah, and, uh, what's up?

you're acting kind of wacko.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm just-

I was just

making conversation.

this is a picture of me

as mother death

from the vampire festival,

and it should definitely

go into the time capsule,

'cause, well,

I really like the idea

of burying myself

and then rising

from the dead

in 25 years.

end of the world,

the game.

maybe by 2026,

when we open up

the time capsule,

it won't just be

a game anymore.

I made this videotape

of life at Grant high.

we can watch it

at our 25th class reunion,

assuming vhs is still

a viable format

and the tape

hasn't oxidized, that is.

not a clue.

Claudia, everyone

has to contribute.

yeah, but this

whole thing is just...

stupid.

there's nothing you can

put in that capsule

that says what life

is like.

I mean, who cares

about comic books

or cds or whatever.

those things don't

even matter now.

really?

ok.

then what does matter

to you?

like I know.

how's this for an idea?

why don't you

figure it out?

on paper.

excuse me?

I want you to write

a letter to yourself,

and I want you to tell

that 40-year-old you

what life was like

at Grant in 1998.

I'm sorry.

a letter?

to myself?

5 pages, typed,

tomorrow.

ha ha ha!

no! No.

I'm just saying

that you looked great.

you sounded great.

I was very proud

of you. That's all.

oh, yeah.

well, you weren't

so bad yourself.

yeah, well, you're the one

that's going

to have them lined up

around the block, not me.

I wouldn't be so sure.

hello. We're

in San Francisco.

you think I should pursue

a career at it,

become like a spokesperson

or something?

well, you can do

whatever you want.

whatever, huh?

you mean like anything?

well, within reason.

Charlie?!

what?

Claudia?!

Owen?!

what are you doing?

whatever I want.

mmm!

oh!

our first job,

comfortable hospital chairs.

we'd make a killing.

Mr. quass?

right here.

I need your signature

on some insurance papers.

whatever it takes

to move this along.

oh, I see you're starting

your final 6 weeks.

you got it.

doc says I'm

out of the woods,

but, of course, they got

to milk 6 more weeks

of medical bills

out of me.

ha ha ha!

well, congratulations.

yeah, I beat the odds.

I'm thinking maybe

I should go to Vegas.

well, make a bet for me.

'cause I tell you,

cancer-you think

you're a goner,

but modern medicine,

it's amazing.

75% right?

that's 3 out of 4.

I'm one of them.

I mean, how lucky

can you get?

hey, 10 minutes

to the first reservation.

put the romance mix on,

and somebody hit the lights!

hey, Bailey?

hey, man.

what's going on?

you meeting Sarah here

or something?

what? Oh, no.

I just, uh-

listen, I hope

you don't mind

me dropping in on you

at work like this,

but can we talk?

um, yeah. Yeah. Sure.

here.

come on over here.

what's going on?

well, it's

about this morning.

you know, jogging?

what? Did I

run you too hard?

no.

no. Just, uh...

you were, like, weird

with all those questions.

yeah. I know.

I'm sorry.

I was just-

it's stupid.

no. No. Don't apologize,

'cause I just, uh...

I know what you were

hinting around at.

ok?

and I want you to know

that I am, like,

so relieved.

relieved?

yeah, 'cause...

I think, uh...

I think maybe I am, too.

you think maybe

you are, too, what?

well, you know.

gay, like you.

man!

ok. I said it.

it's like you've been great.

bay, this has been-

you've made this

so much easier for me,

and, I mean, I thought

Sarah was going to be it.

you know, prove to me

that I wasn't.

and then-

then you came along,

and it just felt-

it was different.

you know?

like, I got that vibe,

and it just seemed right

or something.

and now, it's like

I am sure.

in fact, I've never been

more sure about anything

in my life.

the whole Annie thing

kind of threw me at first,

but, duh, you must feel

the same way about her

that I do about Sarah,

so I get that.

look, Elliot...

it's totally cool

if you're-

(whispers)

if you're gay.

i-i have no

opinion about that.

um, but...

I think that maybe

you got the wrong-

i-i know that you

definitely got

the wrong idea

this morning,

because...

I'm not.

I was just-

I'm-I'm sorry,

but I was just trying

to find out if you were.

oh.

oh, man.

well...

then maybe

we should, uh...

maybe I should...

I'm going to go.

Oh, my god.

No. I mean it, Bailey.

I mean, Elliot's

coming over tonight.

I'm making dinner,

and tonight he is mine.

you know?

tonight is the night.

no more waiting,

and I don't want

you 2 running off

so that you can

pump iron or jog or

whatever the hell it is

that you do

when you get together.

don't worry.

Annie and I are going

to the movies, so-

well, good, 'cause

tonight you can't steal

my boyfriend.

you can count on that.

you have to tell her.

no. It's not my job.

Bailey, her boyfriend

is-she should know.

yeah, you're right,

she should,

and he should tell her.

I'm not going to be

the one to hurt her

like that.

and if this

is on the doorknob,

do not enter. Ok?

'cause, Bailey,

I made up my mind.

tonight is the night.

yeah...

you keep saying that,

Sarah, but are you sure?

yeah, I'm sure.

god, Bailey,

Elliot called me, ok?

he said that he

had to see me,

that it was, like,

really important.

why am I even

telling you this?

I mean, it's so

none of your business.

Bailey, do you have to

keep everything that

you own on this couch?

Bailey.

what? What?

maybe he's

gonna tell her.

which is not exactly

what she thinks she's

in for this evening.

yeah, well-well-

how can you do this?

what's with

all the whispering?

(sighs)

nothing. Nothing.

we were just...

look...

you should be careful,

Sarah.

I mean, how well

do you really know this guy?

no, no, Bailey.

I am not gonna stand here

and listen to some

safe sex lecture, ok?

nobody is gonna

spoil this for me.

what?

nothing.

then don't forget.

I mean it.

ok, we are looking

at 3 months

to design

a prototype.

that's without

all the plug-ins,

but enough flash

to get some serious

seed money.

hey, you dozing off

on me?

no, I'm just listening.

and while we're

inputting

all the manufacturing

specifications,

we start contacting

some of the bigger

software companies,

because I don't think

we're gonna go

indi-prod, you know?

yeah, probably not.

we want this

in every major

software catalog

by next spring.

then we can kick back

and watch the tidal wave

of money

just come rushing in.

brrrraaaaaa! Ha ha.

what's the matter?

you tired?

because we can park this

till tomorrow.

no, I'm not tired.

ok, I'm just, um...

I'm just thinking

about this whole thing,

and I'm listening

to you, and...

I don't think

this is gonna work...

this whole

software idea.

what, are you crazy?

of course it'll work.

no. I mean,

it's too expensive,

and who's gonna use it

anyway?

it's not like

people sit around

and design furniture.

Charlie, what are

you talking about?

I pulled the figures

off the Internet.

it's not gonna work, ok?

it's a really bad idea.

'cause you know what?

you design furniture

with a pencil

and a piece of paper,

and you build it

with your hands,

not with some virtual

cyber whatever it is.

just forget it, Kevin,

all right?

it's a waste of time.

Charlie, whoa-

I mean it.

it's a really bad idea,

and I'm not doing it.

Well, I took a look

at your little "commercial."

great. So what

do you think's

more important,

the rating

or the share?

because we

didn't know

whether to run it

during

the kung fu

festival-

or cartoon carnivals.

that's cute.

just tell him he wins.

excuse me?

'cause this is

the funniest damn thing

I've seen in a long time.

funny?

come on.

Manny arbowitz

put you up to this,

right?

who?

I mean,

this is a joke, right?

no.

you seriously want me

to air this?

of course we do.

I'm sorry, but...

this tape...

the picture's

full of snow.

it sounds like you're

at the bottom of a well.

I mean, we're not

public access here.

it's funny as hell with

the stammering, but-

wait a minute.

I paid 2 grand

for this thing.

you have to run it.

2 grand?

you can't do

a decent commercial

for 2 grand.

I'm sorry, but...

can I still keep

a copy, please?

it's just, we get

a kick out of it

around here.

Hey.

(Sighs)

you ok?

peachy.

it's ok if I turn

on a light?

Oh, man. Ok...

what happened?

he just-(Sob)-

he broke up with me.

he came over, and-

and he was acting

all weird,

and then

he started crying

and apologizing,

and he wasn't making

any sense, Bailey,

so just I asked him

to just sit down

and talk, and...

he couldn't stop crying,

so he ran out.

god, Bailey, what

is wrong with me,

nothing.

nothing. That's not...

I mean, he told you why,

right?

no. No, he didn't.

he just said

that this wasn't right

and that it was

his problem,

and that's it.

so he never told you?

told me what?

wait a minute.

Bailey-Bailey,

you guys didn't-

oh.

oh, well,

that's humiliating

that you guys-

Bailey, did he

tell you why he was

gonna dump me?

because if he did,

Bailey, you owe me

that, ok?

you owe me

the truth.

I mean, it's something

that I did, right?

or the fact that he

finds me repulsive?

no.

what is it, Bailey?

tell me.

Claudia: Hey.

hey.

believe it or not,

there's actually

some sort of cool news

around here for a change.

what is it?

well, you remember

that essay I had

to write?

you know,

it's a letter to class

for when we're all

like 40 years old,

but Mrs. ryerson

liked it so much

that it's going

in the time capsule.

really? That's-

that's great, claud.

but, Charlie,

that's nothing.

she said I did such

a great job on it.

it's...it's called

here and now.

she wants me to read it

during the assembly

while we bury

the time capsule,

and then she wants me

to read it again-

and get this-in 2026

at my class of 25th

reunion.

it's pretty cool, huh?

anyway, I was, um...

I was just wondering

if you'd come

to the assembly.

it'd be really great

if you were there

when I read it.

Claudia-

think about it.

really, Charlie.

think about that.

this is so weird.

I'll be...

I'll be 42

at the reunion.

I might even be married,

might even

have some kids.

I mean, who knows?

it's-man, isn't that-

isn't that weird

to think about?

god, Claudia...

what's the matter with you?

what?

what? Charlie, I was

just saying that-

I know what you

were saying, all right?

and how the hell

could you be so insensitive?

well, what did I say,

Charlie?

I can't believe that

you're just yammering on

about being 40

and about how all this stuff

that you have to

look forward to

and all these plans

that you're making.

no, no, no, Charlie.

that's not what I meant.

I can't think

about the future, ok?

How'd it go?

same thing

at every station.

basically, they all

think it sucks.

oh.

yeah, well,

why should that come

as any big shock, huh?

nothing I do

is good enough.

I'm never going to

be able to compete.

I'm just, what,

small potatoes

or something.

I'm sorry. I know it's hard.

yeah, well, I've gotta

come up with an idea.

just one good idea.

if I'm still having

this reopening thing,

I don't know how

to get people in there

if I have to go

up the street and steal

the customers from them.

I'm not giving up.

I can do this.

I know I can make this work!

Griffin, we just lost

$2,000 on that commercial.

that's $2,000 that we're

gonna have to pay back,

plus interest,

and that's just more money

that we owe.

I'll make it back,

all right? I'll figure

something out.

god, Griffin, don't you...

every time

we get a bank statement,

every 4 stupid weeks,

it's like,

"what happened to it?

where did it all go?"

and it's killing us.

it's killing us, and...

you got to get rid

of it, Griffin.

you've got to get rid

of the shop.

what? No, no.

I can save it, Julia.

you just gotta

believe in me.

that is not-

stop doing that, Griffin.

stop making this

about whether or not

I believe in you,

because it's not fair.

because it's about...

look at what

it's doing to us.

we're broke,

we're living hand-to-mouth,

we're arguing all the time,

and look at our life.

Griffin,

you got to let it go.

no, I won't.

well, then, uh...

you should know that, um...

I'm not doing this anymore.

I'm not gonna keep

working crummy jobs

so that you can...

I'm done.

How could you?!

Sarah!

what was all that, huh?

with the making out

and the "I'm a virgin, too,"

the chocolate shavings

in my coffee

and the "you smell

like my childhood" crap?!

I mean, what was that, huh?

just some kind of big act?

did Bailey-

yeah, he did,

but you know what?

he shouldn't have

because you, you should

have told me, Elliot.

I mean, god, that's basic.

Sarah, wait, please.

I was just trying

to figure everything

out at once.

no, you know what?

you made me feel

like there was something

wrong with me.

you made me feel horrible,

and the whole time,

you were just lying to me.

no.

ok, yes, but it's

not that simple,

because I just...

I wasn't sure.

I didn't want it

to be true,

and when I met you,

and when I realized

how I felt about you,

I thought you were

like my salvation

or something.

I thought...

I thought, if I can

love this woman,

then it'll make it

all go away.

you made a pass

at my ex-boyfriend.

god. God, could somebody

just please tell me why

things works out this way?

I finally meet this guy.

god, Elliot,

I finally meet you,

and you're smart

and sensitive.

you have great taste.

you actually know

who dinah Washington is,

and...

ok...

well, ok, maybe

I should have seen it coming,

but you know what?

it's not fair, Elliot.

believe me, I know.

it's not fair.

Wait.

wait, no. No, you know what?

hang on. Are you sure?

(groans)

no. I mean, how do you know

that you're actually gay?

that doesn't just happen

to a person overnight.

I just know, ok?

I mean, god,

it doesn't exactly take

a genius to figure it out.

yes, but, Bailey,

I mean, you're attracted to-

could we not talk

about that?

wow.

whew. Ha.

I just don't get men,

like, at all.

yeah...

well...

welcome to the club.

(Sighs)

it's the business, Griffin.

it's not you.

you have to know that.

I mean, what else

could you have done?

it's so not your fault.

I had $100,000,

and now I don't.

how's that

not my fault.

(Sighs)

Hey.

hey.

weekly got wet.

ah.

did you ever

read the personals?

excuse me?

you know, right after

the phone sex ads.

some really nice people.

I think if maybe

I ran an ad,

then that would mean

that there were other

nice people

out there, too, right?

I'm gonna die a virgin.

Sarah-

no, I mean it.

it's just never

gonna happen for me.

sure it is.

ok, ok, look...

I know that this

has to be...

well, weird,

frankly, but...

don't you think it's

a little early in the game

to be giving up?

Hey...

how about a movie?

let's just go see

some stupid movie

and laugh

our asses off.

look at

all these movies.

when was the last time

we saw a movie together?

the night before

you told me you

slept with Callie.

that long?

wow.

um...

look, Bailey,

it's really sweet.

it's very sweet

that you want

to spend time with me,

but I kind of

already have plans.

Elliot and I are

going to see Oliver!

well, you know,

just because he's gay

doesn't mean we don't

have things in common.

Elliot said

he hates musicals.

guess what.

he lied.

hmm.

hmm.

Sorry. Um...

Claudia said it was ok.

yeah, sure. I didn't...

Uh, you gotta tell

me why, Charlie.

why are you

doing this?

because this

could be great.

it could give

you something

to look forward to,

to hold onto.

no.

you see, it's not...

you don't get it,

Kevin. I...

it's just...

you're making these plans,

are you're laying out

the future,

and you can afford

to do that now,

and that's great

for you. It is.

but I can't.

so what are you saying,

that you're giving up?

no. I'm just saying that...

that-that thing

that we had in common,

the sickness

and the treatments,

that's...

that's all gone now,

and...

and what, Charlie? What?

you're cured.

you're cured,

and that's amazing,

and the truth is,

it makes it easier

for you now,

but for me, it just...

I know this is crazy.

I know this is crazy

and unfair, but...

you're one

of the 3 out of 4.

you got well.

and I can't help it.

I just...

all of a sudden, I feel

like my chances got worse.

and I want to be bigger

than this. I swear I do.

but it just...

I can't be around you

anymore, man.

'cause when I look at you,

all I keep thinking is...

you took my place, man.

you took my place.

All right. Now I'd like

Claudia salinger to come up

and read her essay.

Claudia.

Claudia?

I thought she was-

well, I'll read it for her.

"to the class of 2001

in the year 2026

"from the class of 2001

in the year 1998,

"hi. How's it going?

"I thought this whole

time capsule assignment

was kind of lame

until I actually started

thinking about it..."

Claudia: "And that's

when I realized something.

"it really doesn't matter

what we put in here

"because I can't remember

stuff that was important

6 months ago,

"let alone 25 years.

"I mean, man, I can't wrap

my brain around 25 years

"'cause I haven't even been

around that long yet, so...

"it seems to me

the only thing that matters,

"the only thing

that's even-

that's even real,

"is the here and now.

"and some stuff

is important,

and some stuff isn't..."

oh, god.

"and I guess time

is the only thing

that can sort out

which is which."

ow.

"and that just means

the more we live

in the present,

"the more we store up

all the memories,

"good and bad.

"the more we have

to hold onto

once people, places,

and things are gone."

"'cause, believe me,

I speak from experience

"when I say

things can change forever

with, like, no warning."

"so no matter how much

you love something

"or no matter how much

you take it for granted,

nothing lasts forever."

"so for now...

"all we can do is hang on

"and wait and see

and hope...

for the future."

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