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(SPEAKING FRENCH)

NOW TELL ME, DO YOU HAVE
ANY PROBLEM ABOUT FOOD?

GOD, I FEEL
UNCOMFORTABLE.

THIS IS NOT
EASY STUFF.

WELL, I THINK...

I REALLY THINK
I'M OUT OF IT NOW,

BUT I'VE BEEN
THROUGH A LOT OF IT.

AND I STILL
DON'T UNDERSTAND

COMPLETELY WHY.

AND I THINK I'M
ALWAYS SCARED

THAT IT COULD
HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN.

AND UNTIL I REALLY HAVE
THE FEELING THAT I HAVE

THE ANSWERS I WILL
NEVER FEEL SAFE BECAUSE

I WILL ALWAYS THINK
THAT IT CAN HAPPEN AGAIN.

AND I THINK THAT'S WHY
I'M DOING ALL THIS STUFF

- TO FIND OUT WHY
IT HAPPENED TO ME.

HI CHIPS.

'MORNING.

I TOLD YOU NOT TO BRING
THAT RABBIT IN THE HOUSE.

I GOT RABBIT
FUR ALL OVER ME.

AREN'T YOU GOING TO
WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY?

OH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU.

WHAT YOU GOT?

WELL, I DON'T KNOW.

THIS ACE IS UPSIDE
DOWN - CHECK IT OUT.

IT'S NOT
VERY GOOD.

I WANTED SOMETHING
GOOD TODAY.

LET'S SEE...

"TAKE STOCK,
HAVE A SECOND LOOK,

DON'T GIVE UP,
JUST TRY AGAIN.

LACK OF INITIATIVE,
SIMPLY NOT TRYING.

THAT'S NOT YOU.

"MAY BE
NECESSARY TO DELAY

OR TEMPORARILY
CANCEL PLANS".

"NO NEED TO
BE DEPRESSED".

NO NEED TO
BE DEPRESSED.

HI.

BONJOUR.

HELLO HELENE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

WHAT ARE
YOU DOING?

"CLINGING TO OLD GOALS
WILL PREVENT YOU FROM

ACCEPTING NEW AND
WONDERFUL OPPORTUNITIES".

THAT DOESN'T
SOUND SO GREAT.

I DON'T WANT TO
RELEASE MY OLD GOALS.

I'M DOING THE TAROT,
I'M TRYING TO SEE

WHAT'S COMING UP
FOR THE YEAR.

AND SO?

AND SO "BEING TIMID
WILL ONLY EMPHASIZE

YOUR WEAKNESS".

"TAKE THE BULL
BY THE HORNS".

DOES YOUR FATHER RUN
AWAY ON BIRTHDAYS OFTEN?

I LOVE
YOU, CHIPS.

I'M GOING TO GO
DO MY EXERCISES.

YEAH, DO
YOUR EXERCISES.

YOU BELIEVE IN
THESE THINGS?

YOU KNOW, I
REALLY DO, ACTUALLY.

I DO BELIEVE THAT
SOMETHING COMES DOWN

FROM THE
UNIVERSE.

SO WHAT DO
YOU HAVE TO DO?

TAKE THE BULL
BY HORNS?

I HAVE TO TAKE THE
BULL BY THE HORNS, YES.

(PHONE RINGING)

HELLO?

HI!

OH, THANK YOU.

YEAH.

I'M VERY HAPPY.

I WISH YOU
WERE HERE.

THE PARTY'S GOING TO BE
OVER AROUND 6:00, OKAY?

I THINK ALL THE
WOMEN WILL BE GONE

PROBABLY
6:30-7:00.

IT'LL BE JUST
YOU AND ME, BABE.

YOU READY
FOR THAT?

STILL READY AFTER
ALL THESE YEARS.

I LOVE YOU TOO.

I LOVE YOU
A LOT.

OKAY, 7:00
ON THE DOT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

OH, KATE, I'M SO
GLAD YOU'RE HERE!

NOBODY ELSE
IS HERE.

OH, GREAT!

NAOMI IS
NOT HERE YET

AND I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO WEAR.

CAN YOU HELP
ME DECIDE?

SURE.

SADIE'S HAVING
HER 50TH

SO I INVITED
HER TO JOIN US.

WELL, YOU COULDN'T HAVE
HAD A MORE PERFECT DAY.

WHAT ARE YOU
GOING TO WEAR?

I'VE GOT THIS FRILLY
THING WHICH IS SORT OF

STRANGE BUT WHAT THE
HELL, WHY NOT TODAY?

I'M GLAD
YOU'RE HERE.

I'M GLAD WE'RE SHARING
THIS DAY TOGETHER.

THIS IS SO
PRETTY, I LOVE IT.

SHOW ME WHAT
YOU'VE GOT.

OKAY, JUST
WAIT RIGHT THERE.

SEE, THIS IS WHAT I
GOT - I DON'T KNOW...

I JUST DON'T LIKE
THIS DECOR AT ALL!

NO, NO, NO, NO!

THESE DEAD PLANTS
JUST DO NOT DO IT.

I HAVE ALL SORTS
OF THINGS HERE.

I THINK I CAN
SQUEEZE INTO SOMETHING.

HELLO? HELLO?

I JUST GOT THIS.

I LOVE THIS
MATERIAL.

AND THE BLACK IS
VERY SLIMMING.

NO, MM MM.

HELENE?

THIS IS
LOVELY TOO,

I THINK THE MATERIAL'S
VERY FLATTERING.

BUT THE BLUE
IS VERY SEXY.

IT'S REALLY NOT
QUITE ME, BUT...

YEAH, IT ZIPS
UP THE FRONT.

IT'S PRETTY
HOLLYWOOD, ISN'T IT?

IT'S A LITTLE
HOLLYWOOD...

I NEED, LIKE,
A NAIL.

WHAT ABOUT
THIS THING?

(GASP!) WHO
IS THAT? LYDIA!

WHAT?

YOU'VE GOT THIS
NAKED GIRL BY YOUR POOL.

I KNOW.

WHO IS SHE?

A GUEST.

HER NAME'S
MARTINE.

WHAT'S SHE DOING?

MARTINE, COME
ON OVER HERE.

ICI.

COME ON, I
WANT TO SEE YOU.

I'VE HAD A
HORRIBLE MORNING.

YOU CAN'T PUT THIS
UP, THERE'S PLASTIC.

THIS IS A CRYSTAL I WANT
YOU TO MEDITATE WITH.

OH, THAT'S
BEAUTIFUL.

IT SEEMS TO HELP A LOT
WHEN YOU'RE STRESSED.

AND THE SAGE, IF YOU
GET CRAZY AND YOU BURN IT

IT'S SUPPOSED TO GET RID
OF ALL THE NEGATIVE ENERGY.

THE INDIANS
USE IT.

CA VA?

CA VA BIEN.

YOU LOOK
FANTASTIC.

THANK YOU.

YOU'RE GOING TO DRIVE ALL
THESE WOMEN CRAZY TODAY.

ARE THEY COMING
IN RIGHT NOW?

YOU THINK I SHOULD
GET DRESSED ALREADY?

NO, DRIVE
THEM NUTS.

WHY IS IT EVERY
WOMAN WHO'S FRENCH

HAS A
FANTASTIC BODY?

I DON'T THINK I HAVE A
FANTASTIC BODY AT ALL.

I DON'T THINK IN FRANCE
A WOMAN WOULD SAY

TO ANOTHER WOMAN "YOU
HAVE A FANTASTIC BODY".

THEY THINK IT, BUT
THEY WOULDN'T SAY IT.

WHERE'S FRANK?

HE'S IN SAN
FRANCISCO.

HE'S AT A
CONFERENCE.

WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING
THERE ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?

HE'S COMING
BACK TONIGHT.

AT LEAST YOU
GET HIM TONIGHT.

SO HOW
CAN I LOSE?

A LUCKY HORSESHOE,
A CRYSTAL, SAGE -

YOU'VE GOT
ME COVERED.

I'VE BEEN WORRIED
SICK ABOUT HELENE.

WORRIED ABOUT
HELENE, WHY?

SHE'S GOTTEN FAT, I THINK
SHE'S GAINED TEN POUNDS.

YOU'RE CRAZY.

SHE'S NOT FAT,
SHE'S PERFECT.

NO, SHE'S GAINED WEIGHT
AND SHE ONLY GAINS WEIGHT

WHEN SHE'S
REALLY UPSET.

I'M GOING TO
PUT THESE THINGS

OVER BY THE
BOOKSHELF, ALRIGHT?

EVERYTHING'S
SO NICE IN HERE.

LOOK AT HER!

WHO IS SHE?

HI.

HI, HOW ARE YOU?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OH, THANK YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY?

IT'S YOUR
BIRTHDAY?

I THOUGHT IT WAS
HELENE'S BIRTHDAY.

IT'S BOTH OF
THEIR BIRTHDAYS.

THE BIG 3-0.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

YOU GOT A PERM.

I WAS TELLING
MARTINE THAT I WAS

VERY WORRIED
ABOUT HELENE.

I MEAN, IT'S HER
40TH BIRTHDAY,

MY GOD, SHE'S SO BRAVE.
CAN YOU IMAGINE

SHE'S GIVING A PARTY
FOR HER 40TH BIRTHDAY?

SHE'S ANNOUNCING
TO EVERYONE

THAT SHE'S 40
YEARS OLD?

I WOULDN'T EVEN
TELL ANYONE I WAS 30.

I'M GOING
THROUGH AN EXPERIENCE.

HMMMMMM.

(WOMEN ALL
TALKING AT ONCE)

HELLO?

DARLING?

WHERE'S THE
BIRTHDAY GIRL?

WHERE ARE YOU?

HI.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

WHAT IS
THAT OUTFIT?

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO
WEAR THAT, ARE YOU?

WE'RE 40
TODAY, NOT 14.

LET'S NOT
FORGET THAT.

ARE YOU GOING
DOWNSTAIRS?

NO, I'M NOT
GOING DOWN.

WHY?

I'M JUST
NOT GOING.

COME ON. COME
DOWNSTAIRS WITH ME.

NO, I WANT TO
STAY UP HERE.

HELENE?

YES?

COME ON.

SOPHIE...

IT'S YOUR
BIRTHDAY.

WHAT'S WRONG
WITH YOU?

I'M SITTING HERE,
I'M EATING MY MUFFIN

AND I'M HAVING A
DELICIOUS TIME.

I CAN DO ANYTHING
I WANT TODAY

'CAUSE IT'S
MY BIRTHDAY.

AND I CAN EAT
EVERYTHING I CHOOSE.

WELL, I'M
GOING DOWN.

I'M GOING TO HAVE
A GOOD TIME TODAY

WHETHER YOU
WANT TO OR NOT.

JUST FAMILIARIZE YOURSELF
WITH THE KITCHEN.

WHERE ARE
THE TOWELS?

THEY'RE IN THE CORNER
IN A DRAWER OVER THERE.

SO, HOW
DOES IT FEEL?

TO TURN 30?

I DON'T REALLY
KNOW YET.

IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN
TO ME VERY SOON,

SO I WANT
TO KNOW.

I HOPE YOU LIKE
IT BETTER THAN I DO.

IT'S A LITTLE
WEIRD RIGHT NOW.

NAOMI, I'M SO
GLAD YOU'RE HERE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OH, THANK YOU.

THIS IS A BIG
ONE, HUH?

HI.

CONNIE,
THIS IS HELENE.

DO YOU
LIKE THIS?

DO YOU THINK
THIS IS GOOD?

IT'S NOT
MY FAVORITE.

DID YOU
REALLY FORGET?

WELL, I
HAVE SO FAR.

I DON'T KNOW.

KIDS ARE - I THINK
I HAVE TO GROW UP

BEFORE I
DEAL WITH KIDS.

YES, THAT'S WHAT
I THOUGHT ALSO.

IT'S A LITTLE
OVERWHELMING.

AT THIS POINT THAT'S A
COMMITMENT FOREVER

AND EVER AMEN AND I
FIND THAT TERRIFYING.

YOU HAVE THE MAN
TO DO THEM WITH?

YEAH, I HAVE A
REALLY GOOD MAN.

THAT'S A
GOOD START.

YEAH, HE'S
A GOOD START.

(KNOCKING AT DOOR)

AHH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ISN'T IT
DEPRESSING?

I ALWAYS THOUGHT
WHEN I WAS 30

I WOULD REACH
MY PERFECT AGE.

I'M VERY CLOSE
TO IT NOW

AND IT DOESN'T
SEEM ANY BETTER.

I WISH YOU LUCK.

THANK YOU.

I HOPE YOU'RE
CLOSER TO IT THAN ME.

YOU SEEM VERY
CLOSE TO IT TO ME.

YOU ARE HAPPILY
MARRIED, AREN'T YOU?

YES, VERY
HAPPILY MARRIED.

IT'S NOT ALWAYS
THAT SIMPLE.

I STILL HAVE
QUESTIONS AND DOUBTS.

EVEN THOUGH HE'S THE
MOST WONDERFUL MAN

IN THE WORLD.

I'D LIKE SOMETHING
SORT OF LOW

BUT MY NECK IS
JUST, YOU KNOW...

I'VE GOT ALL
THESE VEINS.

YOU LOOK LIKE
A BABY TO ME.

I WISH I WAS
BEING 40 TODAY.

SADIE, YOU'RE
SO SWEET.

AND LOOK AT THAT -
YOUR HAIR LOOKS LIKE

WHEAT AND STRAW
IN THE SUNLIGHT

THE WAY THE LIGHT
IS HITTING YOU.

I'M SO
DEPRESSED.

YOU'RE SO
DEPRESSED?

GOD, HONEY, I JUST HATE
TURNING 50, I JUST HATE

THIS GETTING OLD, I HATE
HAVING TO STAY THIN

SO IT'LL MAKE
ME FEEL YOUNG.

MAYBE I'LL GET A
MAN IF MY BODY'S...

WE ALL HAVE TO LOVE
OURSELVES, SADIE.

I HATE THAT MY
TITS ARE SAGGING.

I THINK YOU NEVER STOP
QUESTIONING, YOU KNOW.

WE ALWAYS HAVE DOUBTS
WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE.

SOMETIMES I JUST
THINK THAT MAYBE

I WANT TO
SCREW IT ALL UP.

YOU KNOW, FOR
FUN OR SOMETHING.

I DON'T KNOW, I
DON'T LIKE THAT CRACK.

I'M JUST HOPING
FOR A MIRACLE.

LYDIA, I WANT YOU
TO LIGHT THIS ONE.

LIKE THIS COLOR?
YOU LIKE THE BLACK?

I SORT OF LIKE
THIS ONE.

YOU LIKE THE
BLACK BETTER?

I LIKE
THE GOLD.

I LIKE THE GOLD
ONE, TOO.

DON'T YOU THINK THE
BLACK IS MORE THINNING?

MOTHER!

WHAT ARE YOU
DOING HERE?

I DIDN'T KNOW YOU
WERE BACK IN TOWN!

I WANTED TO
SURPRISE YOU.

I HAD TO COME BY AND
WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

YOU DID
SURPRISE ME.

I'M SO SORRY, I ORDERED
SOMETHING REALLY

SPECIAL FOR YOU AND IT
JUST HASN'T COME IN.

WHAT IS IT?

IT WOULDN'T BE A
SURPRISE IF I TOLD YOU.

I DIDN'T KNOW YOU
WERE HAVING A PARTY.

I'M JUST HAVING A
FEW FRIENDS OVER -

KATE AND SADIE
AND THEIR FRIENDS

SORT OF WISHING EACH
OF US INTO A NEW DECADE.

OH, GOOD. YOU
HAVE A GOOD TIME.

GO BACK TO
YOUR FRIENDS.

NO, NO, I WANT
YOU TO STAY.

I TOLD SUE I
WOULD DROP BY.

OH, CALL SUE.
I'LL CALL SUE.

YOU PLEASE STAY.

YOU'VE GOT IT ALL.

YOU'VE GOT THIS
FABULOUS HUSBAND

WHO WORSHIPS YOU AND
WHO'S TOTALLY SPECIAL

AND AMAZING WITH WOMEN
AND OPEN TO EVERYONE.

HERE WE ARE THE REST
OF US AND WE'RE IN THIS

ABSOLUTELY HOPELESS
POSITION WITH MEN

AND YOU'VE GOT
THE WHOLE PACKAGE.

DO YOU KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU
ARE ABOUT YOUR MARRIAGE?

(EVERYONE TALKING)

YOU HAVE A
GREAT BODY.

WELL, THANK YOU.

I DON'T KNOW.

I DON'T KNOW,
TWELVE YEARS.

I DON'T THINK I COULD
BE WITH SOMEONE

FOR 12 YEARS.

I DON'T THINK
I CAN TAKE IT.

I JUST HAVE TO
MOVE ON AFTER ABOUT

A YEAR AND
A HALF.

DO YOU MAKE
FILMS OR SOMETHING?

YES, I'M DOING A
DOCUMENTARY HERE.

I'M DOING A DOCUMENTARY
ABOUT CALIFORNIA.

DO YOU DO IT
WITHOUT YOUR TOP ON?

I WOULD DO IT
IF I COULD.

SHE'S THE FIRST TOPLESS
FILMMAKER FROM FRANCE.

I'M FILMING - ACTUALLY,
WOULD YOU MIND

ANSWERING SOME OF MY
QUESTIONS ON CAMERA?

WHY ARE YOU DOING
THIS? FOR WHAT?

I'M DOING IT FOR
FRENCH TELEVISION.

FRENCH TELEVISION?

IT'S ABOUT SOUTHERN
CALIFORNIAN BEHAVIOR.

BEHAVIOR - WE
SOUND LIKE POODLES.

YOU CAN TALK
ABOUT EVERYTHING

YOU'RE
INTERESTED IN.

WHAT ARE YOU
REALLY INTERESTED IN?

I WANT TO KNOW WHEN
WE'RE GOING TO EAT.

I'VE BEEN HAVING
THIS AFFAIR

WITH THIS
YOUNGER GUY.

HE'S 34 YEARS OLD.

WHEN HE WAS SIX
I WAS IN COLLEGE.

I SEE THE WAY HE
LOOKS AT JENNIFER

AND I GET
JEALOUS.

AND I TRY TO HOLD IT ALL
IN AND I FEEL LIKE I'M

GOING TO BURST, I
FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE

AND I THINK "I'LL EAT
SOMETHING" AND I THINK

"IF I EAT SOMETHING
I'M GOING TO GET FAT

AND IF I GET FAT
THEN HE WON'T WANT

TO BE WITH AN OLD
BROAD LIKE ME".

I'M HUNGRY, I WANT
SOMETHING TO EAT.

I'M JUST
STARVING.

EVER HAD
ANY DIETS?

I'VE BEEN ON EVERY
DIET ON THE PLANET.

AND RIGHT NOW I'M ON
THE "I'M ALLERGIC TO

EVERYTHING ON
THE PLANET" DIET.

(PHONE RINGING)

HELLO?

FRANK, HI!

I'M JUST IN THE
MIDDLE OF EVERYTHING.

YOU KNOW,
MOTHER CAME.

I USED TO LIKE TO SIT IN
FRONT OF THE TV WITH A

BIG BOWL OF OATMEAL AND
SIT THERE WITH A BUNCH OF

BROWN SUGAR WATCHING
TELEVISION AND JUST EAT.

I LIKED TO EAT ALL OF
THE TIME AND SOMEHOW

IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE
I WAS FULL INSIDE

BECAUSE IT WAS SO EMPTY
WHEN I WASN'T EATING.

IT WAS LIKE THERE WAS
THIS BIG BLACK HOLE

AND SPACE THAT
WAS INSIDE OF ME

THAT NOTHING
COULD EVER FILL.

I WAS JUST
DEPRESSED AT FIVE BUT

THERE WAS THIS CANDY STORE
RIGHT DOWN THE STREET

FROM WHERE I LIVED,
THAT WAS FREDDY'S.

NOT TIL LATER?

BUT I MADE
THIS RESERVATION.

WELL, I GUESS
IT'S OKAY.

ALRIGHT, WELL,
I'LL CALL BERNARD.

I'M SURE
IT'S FINE.

I THINK WOLFGANG
MADE A LITTLE CAKE.

YEAH, IT'S GOING
TO BE SPECIAL.

YEAH, IF YOU CAN COME BY
9:30 THAT WOULD BE GREAT.

OKAY, 9:30 IT IS.

OKAY, DARLING, I'M
SORRY BUT IT'LL BE GREAT.

IT'LL BE
PERFECT.

I LOVE YOU TOO.

YOU KNOW WHAT
HAPPENS TO ME

AFTER A YEAR
AND A HALF?

I JUST CAN'T HAVE
SEX WITH SOMEBODY

AFTER A YEAR AND A
HALF. I GET BORED.

I MEAN, DO YOU
HAVE GREAT SEX

WITH YOUR HUSBAND
AFTER 12 YEARS?

I HAVE THE BEST
SEX AFTER 12 YEARS.

I JUST
GET BETTER.

YOU SLUT!

GOD, HE'S
SO MUCH FUN.

HI.

NOTHING'S READY YET BUT
CAN I GET YOU SOMETHING?

I'VE NEVER BEEN
ABLE TO HOLD A JOB,

A BOYFRIEND,
NOTHING.

MY FATHER'S
ATTENTION...

AND FOOD IS THERE, IT'S
ACCESSIBLE, IT'S EASY.

WITH MEN I HAVE
TROUBLE EATING,

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
I COULD GET VERY SKINNY

IF I'M IN A LONG
RELATIONSHIP.

I HAVE TROUBLE EATING IN
FRONT OF PEOPLE I LIKE.

SO I MIGHT HOLD
SOMETHING IN MY MOUTH

FOR A LONG TIME
BEFORE I CHEW IT.

OR I MIGHT
NOT EAT.

IF I'M HAVING DINNER WITH
SOMEBODY AND THEY'RE

LOOKING AT ME AND I
HAVE FOOD IN MY MOUTH,

YOU KNOW, MM HM...

AND THEN I MIGHT
TRY AND SWALLOW IT.

I THINK
IT'S EROTIC.

IT'S SAFE SEX, I MEAN
IT'S THE SAFEST SEX

YOU CAN HAVE
IS EATING.

I'M SO WORRIED
ABOUT THIS CAKE.

THEY HAVEN'T COME.

I SHOULD HAVE
MADE A CAKE.

I'M A GREAT CAKE MAKER, I
WENT TO SCHOOL FOR THREE

YEARS TO LEARN HOW TO
MAKE CHOCOLATE TORTE.

THE LAST TIME I MADE
A TORTE FRANK SAID

'CAUSE THE SUN MELTED
A TINY BIT OF IT,

HE SAID "THAT
LOOKS AWFUL".

HE PUT IT IN THE TRASH,
HE WENT TO THE BAKERY

AND HE GOT ANOTHER ONE
THAT LOOKED GOOD.

I VOWED I WOULD
NEVER MAKE ANOTHER

CHOCOLATE TORTE.

I HAD SO WANTED TO GIVE
THIS PARTY TO GIVE MYSELF

A GOOD SEND-OFF, TO GIVE
YOU A GOOD SEND-OFF

AND SADIE A
GOOD SEND-OFF

INTO OUR NEXT
DECADE OF LIFE.

AND NOW, I
DON'T KNOW WHY,

I JUST FEEL
LIKE I'M CRAZY

AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GOING TO HAPPEN

IN THE NEXT
FIVE YEARS.

I FEEL LIKE I'M JUST
A SHIP, KIND OF LOST.

OH, WELL.

SO, MY HAIR...

I WISH I COULD GET NEW
HAIR FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

I WENT FROM
COCAINE TO WHEATGRASS.

FAT IS BAD,
THIN IS GOOD.

SOMETIMES
I FEEL FAT.

I DON'T KNOW, I TRY TO
THINK THAT BEING ROUNDER

IS BEING FEMININE AND
BEING A STICK FIGURE

IS FOR DRAWINGS
AND NOT FOR PEOPLE.

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT
I WOULD EVER HIT 40.

I JUST NEVER THOUGHT
I WOULD GET HERE.

WHEN MY MOM WAS
40 IT SEEMED LIKE

SHE WAS SO OLD.

IT SEEMED LIKE THE
END OF THE WORLD.

OH, GOD.

YOU THINK WE'LL
LIVE THROUGH THIS?

I'M GOING TO CHECK
EVERYBODY, OKAY?

IS THERE ANYTHING
WE CAN DO TO HELP?

NO, I THINK
JUST HAVE FUN.

SHE'S COMPLETELY
HYSTERICAL.

POOR BABY,
WHY NOT?

SHE'S DOING THIS
INCREDIBLE PARTY.

WELL, SHE'S GOT
SOME REAL PROBLEMS.

YOU'VE GOT A VERY
LONG LIFE LINE.

I WANT TO THINK THAT
MY FUTURE IS OPEN.

IT IS. YOUR PALM CHANGES
WITH EVERYTHING YOU DO.

REALLY?

YUP, YOU MAKE
YOUR OWN FUTURE.

THAT'S GOOD.

YES, IT
IS GOOD.

HOW LONG HAVE
YOUR FATHER AND

YOUR STEPMOTHER
BEEN MARRIED?

OH, TEN YEARS.

THEY GOT MARRIED WHEN
I WAS NINE YEARS OLD.

YOUR STEPMOTHER
IS WONDERFUL.

YOU LIKE HER?

OF COURSE,
I LOVE HER.

SHE'S WONDERFUL.

I WAS NEVER CLOSE
WITH MY FATHER.

IT'S A SHAME.

WHAT KIND OF
MAN WAS HE?

WELL, VERY KIND OF,
YOU KNOW, COLD MAN.

HE WAS NICE, I MEAN,
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG

ABOUT HIM BUT JUST
HE WAS VERY REMOVED.

HE WAS JUST VERY COLD
AND HE WAS WORKING A LOT

AND I DIDN'T SEE
HIM VERY MUCH.

WHEN I WAS GROWING UP I
WAS DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL.

MUST BE VERY NICE TO BE
CLOSE TO YOUR FATHER.

YEAH, I JUST HAD TO LEARN
TO WATCH OUT FOR MYSELF

BECAUSE I WAS
ALWAYS THERE FOR HIM

AND HE TOOK
ADVANTAGE OF THAT.

DO YOU LIKE
MY DAD?

YES, I THINK
HE'S REALLY NICE.

YEAH, YOU TWO SEEM
TO REALLY GET ALONG.

MY FATHER HAD BEEN
TALKING ABOUT HIM SO MUCH,

HE REALLY
LIKES HIM SO MUCH.

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY, SIS!

I CAN'T BELIEVE ALL
THESE PRESENTS!

I DID A LITTLE
SHOPPING, YOU KNOW ME.

(LAUGHING)

IT'S SO NICE
TO SEE YOU.

LOOK AT ALL
THESE PRESENTS.

I HOPE YOU LIKE THEM.
I THINK YOU WILL.

YOU LOOK SO
WONDERFUL.

DO YOU
THINK SO?

YOU HAVE SUCH
PRETTY HAIR,

YOU SHOULDN'T PUT IT
BEHIND YOUR HEAD.

IT SHOULD BE
AROUND YOUR FACE.

THAT'S SO
KIND OF YOU.

ALWAYS A
KIND WORD.

AND YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'VE
GOTTEN A LITTLE PLUMP.

HOW CAN YOU
SAY THAT TO ME?

YOU KNOW HOW I AM
ABOUT THESE THINGS.

BUT THANK YOU, THANK
YOU. YOU ARE RIGHT.

DO YOU KNOW HOW
MANY TIMES A DAY

I ASK PEOPLE "DO
YOU THINK I'M FAT?"

AND THEY SAY "NO".
YOU'RE RIGHT.

GRAMMY...

HI SWEET THING.

I'M GLAD TO
SEE YOU.

I MISSED YOU.

I MISSED YOU.

DARLING,
MOTHER'S HERE.

I DO WANT YOU NOT TO
MONOPOLIZE HER TODAY,

PLEASE. JUST FOR
ME, JUST FOR ME.

I KNOW THAT YOU
WANT TO TALK TO HER

BUT IT'S MY
BIRTHDAY.

OH, I KNOW. I WON'T,
I REALLY WON'T.

IT'S MY
DAY, OKAY?

I KNOW. BESIDES
IT WON'T MATTER.

SHE PAYS MORE
ATTENTION TO YOU ANYWAY.

SHE DOES NOT.

ALWAYS HAS.

SHE HAS NEVER.

HOW ARE YOU DOING
WITH YOUR DIET?

YEAH, MY DIET.

I MEAN YOUR
WAY OF EATING.

WELL, I STILL CAN'T
EAT WITH CHIPS AND DAD.

I STILL CAN'T SIT DOWN
AT THE TABLE WITH THEM.

WHY CAN'T YOU
EAT WITH THEM?

THEY WANT EVERYTHING TO BE
PERFECT AND EVERY TIME

I TAKE A BITE OF THEIR
FOOD IT'S LIKE EATING

WHAT THEY BELIEVE, DO
YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

IT'S LIKE SITTING
DOWN TO A TABLE

AND EATING THEIR
IDEALS AND WHEN I

GET UP FROM THE TABLE
IT'S LIKE, UH...

I JUST CAN'T DEAL
WITH IT, YOU KNOW?

IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE
I'M A CORNERED ANIMAL

IN A CAGE JUST GOING
ROUND AND ROUND.

ARE THESE FEELINGS
ALWAYS PRESENT?

NOT WHEN
I'M DANCING.

BUT IT'S LIKE ONLY WHEN
I'M DANCING, NOT BEFORE

AND NOT AFTER, BUT WHEN
I'M DANCING, YOU KNOW,

IT'S WHAT WE CALL
FINDING OUR CENTER.

AND WHEN YOU HIT
THAT ARABESQUE

AND YOU HAVE
IT, OR A TURN,

WHEN YOU TURN AND YOU
HAVE THAT CENTER AND...

WHAT KIND OF A
BIRTHDAY PRESENT IS THIS?

THEY'RE BATACAS.

WHAT'S THAT?

THEY HELP YOU GET
OUT YOUR ANGER,

YOUR SUPPRESSED
ANGER, YOUR RAGE.

COME ON, HIT ME.

NO, HIT ME!

HIT ME, HIT ME
LIKE THIS. SEE?

SOPHIE!

I HATE YOU,
I HATE YOU!

SAY IT BACK!

I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU, I HATE
YOU, I HATE YOU!

BOTH: I HATE
YOU! I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU! I...

(LAUGHING)

IT WORKS,
DOESN'T IT?

LET'S HOPE
IT WORKS.

I BEG OF YOU,
DON'T DO THIS TO ME.

PLEASE, BABY,
I LOVE YOU.

DON'T DO
THIS TO ME.

LISTEN, I WANT YOU
TO HAVE A GOOD LIFE.

I WANT TO BE
AN ACTRESS.

OH, GOD, DON'T WANT
TO BE AN ACTRESS.

WITH ALL MY HEART I
WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS.

PLEASE HELP ME.

HI!

PIG!

(LAUGHING)

"TO PIG, LOVE
ALWAYS, WHALE-TAIL".

WE WERE
DEBUTANTES TOGETHER.

I'M GOING TO TELL
THE WHOLE PARTY.

YOU KNOW WHAT
SHE DID WHEN WE

WENT OFF
TO SCHOOL?

SHE RODE A BUS ALL
THE WAY TO SCHOOL

'CAUSE SHE DIDN'T
WANT ANYBODY TO KNOW

SHE WAS RICH ENOUGH
TO TAKE AN AIRPLANE.

SHE DIDN'T THINK
ANYONE ELSE

COULD AFFORD TO
TAKE AN AIRPLANE.

REALLY?

I REMEMBER
THAT EXPRESSION-

WHAT'S THAT, MORE THAN
A HANDFUL IS A WASTE?

QUALITY
NOT QUANTITY.

HI.

IS THE
WATER COLD?

IT'S A
LITTLE CHILLY.

HI.

YOU LOOK
SO BEAUTIFUL.

THANK YOU,
SO DO YOU.

I LIKE THAT DRESS.

YOU DO?

GOT MY FAVORITE
COLOR IN IT.

CAN I GET
YOU ANYTHING?

NO, THANKS.

YOU DON'T THINK I
LOOK A LITTLE FAT IN IT?

OF COURSE YOU DON'T
LOOK- OH, YOU GIRLS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
WE LOVE YOU.

OH, THANK YOU.

IS SADIE HERE?

YES, SHE IS. SHE'S
IN THE LIVING ROOM.

HERE, I'LL
SHOW YOU.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO
DO WITH YOU GIRLS ABOUT

THIS FOOD BUSINESS
AND ABOUT FAT.

I KNOW, I KNOW.

YOU HAVE A
LOVELY FIGURE.

I KNOW, BUT
NOT LIKE THEM.

YOU'RE ABOUT THE SAME
SIZE AS A MATTER OF FACT.

YEAH.

HI.

WELL, THAT'S
EXCEPTIONAL.

BUT SHE PROBABLY
STARVES HERSELF,

OR SHE DOES THAT AWFUL
THING SOME OF YOU DO

- YOU DON'T DO
THAT, DO YOU?

I MEAN, YOU EAT A LOT TO
MAKE YOURSELF THROW UP

SO YOU DON'T GAIN WEIGHT
- YOU DON'T DO THAT.

YOU DON'T DO
THAT, DO YOU?

NOT CHRONICALLY,
NO, BUT I HAVE.

YOU HAVE?

YES.

OH, NANCY,
THAT'S KIND OF SICK.

I KNOW, IT IS, I
DON'T WANT TO DO IT

AND I DON'T DO
IT VERY OFTEN.

IT'S JUST THAT I'M
JUST TOO BIG AND,

YOU KNOW, JIM
LIKES ME SO THIN.

OH, NANCY,
YOU'RE NOT BIG.

THERE MUST BE SOMETHING
WRONG WITH YOU AND JIM.

ARE YOU
HAVING PROBLEMS?

WITH MR.
COMMODITIES?

(LAUGHING)

IT'S GETTING A
LITTLE DULL, MA.

WELL, AT LEAST HE'S
SUCCESSFUL AT IT.

AND HE GIVES YOU
A GOOD LIVING,

THE WAY YOU
LOVE TO SHOP.

I KNOW BUT I'M JUST
SHOPPING THRIFT STORES

FOR FUNKY CLOTHES AND
HE THINKS I SHOULD BE

SHOPPING AT CHANEL
AND I DON'T KNOW...

ARE THOSE NEW?
THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL.

EMERALDS
AND DIAMONDS?

I DON'T CALL
THOSE "FUNKY".

I KNOW.

HI!

HELENE?

I'M SADIE'S
FRIEND,

YOU CALLED ME
ABOUT HER BIRTHDAY?

OH, YES!
JACKIE, HI.

SHE'S IN THE LIVING
ROOM. PLEASE GO IN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU.

YOU ALWAYS THOUGHT
THAT HELENE WAS PERFECT

BECAUSE SHE
WAS SO THIN.

SO IT'S THE
SIBLING RIVALRY.

MOM, IT'S TRUE.

IT'S HER
BIRTHDAY TODAY

AND SHE'S THE
FOCUS OF ATTENTION.

NO, THAT
ISN'T IT.

I'VE NEVER
BEEN LIKE THAT.

IT'S JUST THAT SHE'S
ALWAYS BEEN THIN

AND SHE'S ALWAYS
BEEN PERFECT.

OH, I'M SORRY
TO DO THIS.

I'M NOT
GOING TO DO IT.

I REALLY MISS YOU AND
I LOVE SEEING YOU AND...

I WOULD LOVE TO BE
AS THIN AS HELENE.

WHY IS THAT SO
ALL-IMPORTANT?

YOU DO THIS, OKAY?

(SCREAMS)

TRY IT, TRY IT.

(SCREAMS)

GET IT OUT,
GET IT OUT!

YOUR CHEEKS ARE ALL PINK,
DON'T YOU FEEL BETTER?

(SCREAMING)

GO WITH IT, HONEY.
GO, GO, GO!

MY AGENT, SADIE.

NICE MEETING YOU.

HERE'S YOUR GIFT.

A GIFT FOR ME?

ANOTHER
TCHOTCHKE?

I JUST WANT YOU
TO READ THE CARD.

LET ME SEE WHAT
YOU HAVE TO SAY.

ALRIGHT,
WHAT'S GOING ON?

WHY ARE YOU EATING OUT
OF THAT TACKY CONTAINER?

WOULD YOU
LIKE SOME WINE?

NO, THANK YOU.

MY DAUGHTER HAS SOME
VERY ATTRACTIVE CHINA.

IS SHE SERVING
FOOD IN THIS?

NO, THIS IS SPECIAL
MACROBIOTIC FOOD

THAT I HAD SENT IN
SO THAT I COULD HAVE

SOMETHING TO EAT HERE
BECAUSE I DON'T EAT

THIS HORRIBLE FOOD
THAT SHE SERVES.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN
BY "HORRIBLE FOOD"?

IT'S GREASY AND IT'S GOT
SUGAR IN IT AND BUTTER

AND THAT KIND OF
FOOD MAKES YOU OLD

AND UGLY LOOKING
VERY EARLY ON, QUICK.

NOW WAIT A MINUTE.
YOU'RE DIFFERENT.

YOU ARE BLESSED
WITH THE MOST

PERFECT CONSTITUTION
I'VE EVER SEEN.

"YOU CAN BUY A HOUSE
AND I'LL TAKE A TRIP

TO A FAR OFF LAND WHERE
MEN LOVE WOMEN WHO HAVE

MEAT ON THEIR BONES
AND ROOM IN THEIR HEARTS

FOR SOMEONE
BESIDES THEMSELVES.

I CAN'T DO THIS ALONE,
SADIE MY SWEET,

STAY BY MY SIDE.
I LOVE YOU. ELOISE".

ALRIGHT!

YOU'RE WONDERFUL,
WHAT A SWEET THING-

I'M GOING TO
OPEN IT NOW.

NO, I WANT TO
TAKE YOU SOMEWHERE.

WHERE?

WHERE DO YOU
WANT TO GO?

I WANT TO GO SOMEPLACE
WHERE THE MEN ARE.

JUST LIKE YOU
WROTE ABOUT.

WHO LOVE WOMEN WITH
MEAT ON THEIR BONES.

TELL ME WHERE
YOU WANT TO GO.

UH, LA COSTA.

I'M VERY
WORRIED ABOUT HER.

SHE'S OBVIOUSLY
HAVING PROBLEMS WITH

THAT HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE
HUSBAND OF HERS

WHO THINKS
HE'S A FEMINIST

AND REALLY
CAN'T BEAR WOMEN.

I'VE NEVER BEEN THAT
CRAZY ABOUT FRANK,

BUT IS HE THAT,
I MEAN...

HE'S TERRIBLE.

AND HE'S BEAUTIFUL, HE'S
GORGEOUS AND CHARMING,

BUT HE NEEDS
TO CONTROL.

SHE LISTENS TO HIM,
SHE THINKS THAT HE HAS

THESE ANSWERS - WHY?
BECAUSE HE'S A THERAPIST?

DOES A THERAPIST
HAVE ANSWERS?

HI, CAN I
JOIN YOU?

DARLING, DO
YOU MIND?

I JUST WANT TO TALK
TO HER FOR A MINUTE.

OH, I'M
SORRY, SOPHIE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OH, IT'S HER
BIRTHDAY TOO?

SHE'S STILL
CUTE, ISN'T SHE?

ADORABLE.

SHE'S GOT A FEW YEARS
MORE LOOKING LIKE THAT.

SOPHIE,
EVERYTHING YOU SAY,

THERE'S SUCH A
NEGATIVE CONNOTATION.

OH, YOU'RE
RIGHT,

I SHOULDN'T BE
THIS NEGATIVE.

I REALLY DON'T
WANT TO BE

AND FROM NOW ON
I'M NOT GOING TO BE.

YOU'RE RIGHT, BUT
I'M REALLY CONCERNED

ABOUT HELENE AND I THINK
THAT'S WHY I'M THIS WAY.

IT'S EATING
AT ME.

THAT'S SWEET,
I LOVE IT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU, I
HATE THIS BIRTHDAY.

MY BABY!

(KNOCKING)

HELENE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

DARLING, THESE
ARE MY NEW MODELS.

AND THIS IS ONE
OF THE OLD GIRLS.

YOU'LL RECOGNIZE HER
AS SOON AS YOU SEE IT.

OH, I CAN'T WAIT! CAN
WE OPEN IT RIGHT HERE?

I'VE GOT TO
TALK TO YOU.

HONEY, PLEASE, IT'S BAD
ENOUGH I'M TURNING 50.

NO CONFRONTATIONS
TODAY.

PLEASE, NOT NOW.

HONEY, YOU'LL
GET OVER THIS

AND WE'LL
TALK LATER.

GOD, I LOVE HER SO MUCH
BUT THEY DRIVE YOU CRAZY.

HOW OLD IS SHE?

TOO OLD.

YOU KNOW, SHE
WAS AN OLD WOMAN

FROM THE MINUTE
SHE WAS BORN.

SHE CAME OUT OF THE
WOMB AN OLD WOMAN.

SHE'S ALWAYS HAD
THE BEAD ON ME.

NO, YOU DIDN'T
UPSET ME.

IT'S JUST THAT
I'M A LITTLE UPSET.

I'VE BEEN HAVING SOME
FUNNY THOUGHTS LATELY.

I'VE BEEN KIND OF
RESTLESS, YOU KNOW,

ABOUT JIM
AND EVERYTHING.

I HATE
TURNING 50.

I'M SO DEPRESSED.

YOU DON'T
LOOK 50.

I MEAN... HOW
OLD DO I LOOK?

LET'S NOT
TALK ABOUT IT.

I HAVE A NEW DEAL
COOKING FOR YOU.

WHAT?

I'M NOT GOING TO
TELL YOU ABOUT IT.

IT'S SO EXCITING.

IT'S JUST THAT LIFE WAS
GETTING SO DULL WITH HIM

AND I MET THIS
MAN AT A PARTY.

YOU DID?

YES, AND HE'S AN ACTOR
AND HE'S REALLY POOR.

AND I'VE BEEN HAVING
THESE SORDID FANTASIES

LATELY THAT,
I DON'T KNOW,

MAYBE WE COULD
STARVE TOGETHER.

KATE, YOU
LOOK ADORABLE.

OH, THANKS.

GOOD COLOR TOO, BUT
DON'T GET TOO MUCH SUN.

HOW'S THE WATER?

IT'S GREAT.

HELLO MRS. WILLIAMS,
MY NAME IS MARTINE.

NICE TO MEET YOU.

OH, YOU'RE
STAYING HERE WITH...

YES, I'M STAYING HERE
BECAUSE I'M MAKING

A DOCUMENTARY FOR
FRENCH TELEVISION.

OH, ARE YOU?

YES. WHEN HELENE AND
FRANK WENT TO FRANCE

AT THEIR WEDDING THEY
STAYED WITH MY PARENTS -

MR. AND
MRS. MOLNIERE?

SO THEY ASKED ME TO
STAY AT THEIR PLACE.

YOU'RE A GORGEOUS YOUNG
FRENCH LADY, I MUST SAY.

THANK YOU.

IT'S TRUE.

I WISH I
COULD FEEL THAT.

I DON'T FEEL
GORGEOUS.

YOU DON'T
FEEL GORGEOUS?

NOT AT ALL.

LOOK AT YOU, YOU'RE
JUST PERFECTION-

I WISH YOU COULD
FEEL WHAT I SEE.

WELL, THIS WHOLE THING
MAKES ME SO NERVOUS.

THIS ALL-WOMEN PARTY,
IT'S SO STRANGE.

I'VE ALWAYS FELT VERY
UNCOMFORTABLE WITH WOMEN.

AND THREATENED
FROM OTHER WOMEN?

I DON'T KNOW
IF IT'S THREATS,

IT'S JUST THAT
I DON'T FEEL...

THEY LOOK AT ME
AND I JUST FEEL BIG

AND I DON'T
FEEL SECURE.

I FEEL - I DON'T KNOW,
BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE THE

WAY I LOOK I ALWAYS
FEEL VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.

WHEN I'M WITH MEN
SOMETIMES I CAN FEEL

BEAUTIFUL BUT AMONG
WOMEN I ALWAYS FELT LIKE,

BECAUSE I'M BIG.

DON'T TELL ME
EVEN IN FRANCE

YOU HAVE THIS
THING ABOUT FOOD.

EATING FOOD?

OF COURSE YOU HAVE SUCH
WONDERFUL FOOD IN FRANCE.

HI!

HOW ARE YOU?

I BROUGHT YOU SOMETHING
IF YOU NEED CENTERING.

I HATE MY CHEEKS.

I ALWAYS WANTED THIS,
THE CHEEKS LIKE THAT.

I WANTED SO MUCH TO BE
THE HIGH-FASHION MODEL

WITH THOSE SUNKEN CHEEKS
YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT.

THE EDITORS AT VOGUE
FELT I LOOKED SO HEALTHY

AND NOT SUNKEN CHEEKED
SO INSTEAD OF DOING

HIGH FASHION I ENDED UP
BEING A PERSONALITY MODEL.

USE IPANA
TOOTHPASTE.

SMOKE
CHESTERFIELDS.

I GOT SO
TIRED OF SMILING.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OH, THAT'S SO
SWEET. THANK YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HI.

THIS IS THE
KIND OF WOMAN

I WOULD LIKE TO
BE, YOU KNOW?

THE KIND THAT'S
SKINNY, THIN, TINY.

SAYS SHE WITH LEGS
UP TO MY SHOULDERS.

SEE? SHE SAID SHE'D
LIKE TO HAVE YOUR LEGS

UP TO HER
SHOULDERS.

WHEN I WAS DANCING
I DREAMED ABOUT

LEGS LIKE
THOSE.

THEY WERE MY
GREATEST FANTASY.

GREAT
DANCER'S LEGS.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
ANY OF YOU EXPECT.

YOU'RE JUST
PERFECTION.

I WANT YOU
TO READ THIS.

I'VE READ IT.

ROBERT REDFORD HAS THE
RIGHTS TO IT AND I JUST

WANT TO PLAY THE PART
OF MILA, IT'S WONDERFUL.

WELL, I'LL
SEE IF YOU CAN.

YES, BUT I WANT YOU TO
GET IN TOUCH WITH HIM.

I'LL HAVE THE LITERARY
DEPARTMENT CHECK IT OUT.

SADIE, I DON'T WANT
YOU TO HAVE THE LITERARY

DEPARTMENT GET A HOLD
OF HIM, I WANT YOU TO.

THIS IS MY
BIRTHDAY PARTY.

WHY DO WE HAVE TO
DISCUSS ROBERT REDFORD

AND THE RIGHTS
TO THIS MOVIE?

FOUR YEARS AGO I LET
GO OF MY MOTHER -

WHO'S EXACTLY LIKE YOURS:
EVIL, TOXIC, DESTRUCTIVE.

MY MOTHER'S
NOT TOXIC.

SHE JUST DOESN'T
REPRESENT ME.

I WANT HER TO
REPRESENT ME.

SHE'S AN AGENT.

YOU DON'T
NEED YOUR MOTHER

TO MAKE IT
AS AN ACTRESS.

YOUR MOTHER
DOESN'T EVEN WANT

YOU TO BE
SUCCESSFUL.

MY MOTHER
DOES TOO WA-

YOUR MOTHER
HATES YOU.

YOU DON'T EVEN
KNOW MY MOTHER.

JENNIFER, I HAVE
THE SAME MOTHER.

NO, YOU DON'T.

OH, YES, I DO.

I HAVE THE EXACT SAME
MOTHER AS YOUR MOTHER

THEY'RE BOTH
VULGARIANS.

DO I GET PAID
FOR THIS?

(LAUGHING)

DR. BENSON, ISN'T
THERE SOMETHING

YOU CAN DO
TO HELP ME?

WHAT'S
BEEN DONE?

WHAT WAS
YOUR PROBLEM?

I'VE HAD THEM
DONE EVERY WAY.

WHAT DID YOU
HAVE DONE?

WHAT WAS THE
PROCEDURE?

BIGGER, OKAY, AND I HAD
THEM DONE THE FIRST TIME

AND THEN WITHIN
THREE MONTHS

THEY WERE
LIKE THIS.

BASEBALLS, I WAS
SLEEPING ON BASEBALLS.

DID YOU
MASSAGE AFTERWARDS?

YOU DIDN'T
MASSAGE?

DID YOUR DOCTOR
TELL YOU TO?

NO. I JUST HAD
THEM REDONE.

THEN I HAD THEM
REDONE ANOTHER WAY,

THEN
ANOTHER WAY.

THIS HAS BEEN
GOING ON FOR 12 YEARS.

SAME SURGEON?

NO, I WENT TO
DIFFERENT ONES.

I NEVER DID GO TO
A WOMAN SURGEON.

MAYBE THAT'S
WHAT I SHOULD DO.

WELL, YOU JUST NEED TO
GO TO A GOOD SURGEON.

I'D HAVE TO SEE EXACTLY
WHAT THE PROBLEM IS.

YOU'D HAVE
TO COME IN.

OKAY, ALRIGHT.

DO YOU THINK I
SHOULD HAVE A FACELIFT?

LET'S DO ONE
THING AT A TIME.

GET THAT PART
HANDLED FIRST.

FACE DONE?

MAYBE. DO YOU
THINK I NEED IT?

NO.

JUST A
LITTLE HERE.

WHERE?

NO, NO, NO.

YOU THINK SHE
NEEDS ANYTHING?

SHE HAS OTHER THINGS
TO DEAL WITH FIRST.

YOU COULD USE YOUR
EYES, YOUR LOWER EYES.

FORTY IS FABULOUS.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU.

I SHOULD BE TAKING
PICTURES OF YOU.

YOU'RE ACTUALLY
QUITE WONDERFUL

WITH THAT CAMERA.

GREAT, GREAT.
KEEP IT MOVING.

YOU COULD NEVER KEEP
OUT OF THE SPOTLIGHT.

OKAY, SADIE,
HERE YOU GO.

GREAT, GREAT, WE'VE
GOT A SESSION HERE.

MY MOTHER'S HAVING THIS
AFFAIR WITH THIS MAN

AND HE REALLY
LIKES ME.

HE'S YOUNG, HE'S LIKE 35
OR YOUNGER, AND HE REALLY

LIKES ME AND HE SNEAKS ME
FOOD AND STUFF LIKE THAT.

WELL, THAT'S
NOT THE ULTIMATE

ROMANTIC
GESTURE.

HE LIKES ME,
HE FEEDS ME.

WHEN MEN FEED
YOU THEY LIKE YOU.

SHE TOLD HIM
SHE WAS 40.

SO?

I THINK SHE'S GOING
THROUGH MENOPAUSE.

SHE'S REALLY
AFRAID OF BEING 50.

AND HE LIKES ME AND
SHE THINKS HE LIKES HER

AND WHEN HE LOOKS
AT ME... YOU KNOW.

HAVE THERE BEEN
ANY ADVANCES?

BESIDES FOOD.

WELL, HE JUST DEVOURS
ME WITH HIS EYES.

HE LOOKS OVER
THE TABLE AT ME.

WELL, YEAH, BUT
LOOKING IS DIFFERENT.

YOU CAN LOOK AT
HORS D'EOUVRES

AND NOT
TASTE THEM.

I'VE GOT TO ACCEPT THAT
I'M 50, I'M GETTING OLD

AND LIFE, THE
PARADE'S GOING BY.

STOP IT. YOU DON'T
SMOKE, YOU DON'T EAT,

YOU'VE GOT
A GREAT BODY.

LOOK AT THOSE
ANKLES, SWEETHEART.

DO YOU LIKE
MY ANKLES?

THEY'RE HOLDING.

I THINK YOU'RE IN A
HOLDING PATTERN MYSELF.

WE'LL SEE WHAT
HAPPENS NEXT.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S
GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT.

I'LL PROBABLY
DIE BEFORE I'M 51.

WHAT HAPPENED TO
THAT LITTLE FELLOW

YOU WERE INTO?

I'M NOT INTO LITTLE
FELLOWS ANYMORE,

JUST BIG ONES.

IS HE SLEEPING
WITH HER?

THAT'S THE
QUESTION.

WELL, I DON'T
LISTEN AT THEIR DOOR.

WELL, DOES HE
STAY OVER?

YEAH, HE
STAYS OVER.

BUT THE
LIGHTS GO OFF

AND THERE'S NO
MUSIC FROM THE ROOM

AND SHE DOESN'T LOOK VERY
HAPPY IN THE MORNING.

SHE'S ALL GROWLY AND
CALLING HER CLIENTS.

I THINK HE'S WITH HER
'CAUSE HE'S AN ACTOR

AND HE THINKS HE'S GOING
TO GET WORK FROM HER.

I DON'T KNOW
WHY I DID IT

BUT I TOLD HIM
THAT SHE WAS 50.

HE ASKED ME, I
JUST HAD TO TELL HIM.

HE SAID "WHAT'S THIS
PARTY ABOUT TONIGHT?"

AND I SAID "WELL, IT'S MY
MOTHER'S 50TH BIRTHDAY".

AND HE JUST LOOKED
AT ME LIKE "WHAT?"

DON'T YOU THINK
THAT'S SABOTAGING HER?

LISTEN, IT'S
THE FACTS.

SHE SABOTAGED
MY LIFE.

I DIDN'T MEAN TO.
I JUST SAID THE TRUTH.

HE'S YOUNG ENOUGH
TO BE MY BOYFRIEND.

I'VE GOT GREAT NEWS AND
I'M TOTALLY DEPRESSED.

DON'T TELL SADIE.

SAM COHEN WANTS
TO HANDLE ME.

SAM COHEN WANTS
TO HANDLE YOU?

YEAH, YOU SAY
THAT SO SURPRISED.

ARE YOU SERIOUS, HE
WANTS TO HANDLE YOU?

YES!

WHAT ARE YOU
GOING TO DO?

I GOTTA
MAKE A MOVE.

SO MOVE, THAT'S
WHAT YOU DO.

SAM COHEN IS THE BIGGEST
AGENT IN THE WORLD.

I KNOW, YOU PUT ONE FOOT
IN FRONT OF THE OTHER

AND THEN YOU'RE
OUT THE DOOR.

HOW DO I
TELL SADIE?

YOU WRITE HER A LETTER,
YOU GIVE HER A PRESENT

AND YOU GO WITH SAM COHEN
AND YOU TAKE ME WITH YOU.

I ALWAYS DREAMED THAT ONE
DAY I WOULD GROW A FOOT

AND HAVE LONG
BEAUTIFUL LEGS.

I ALWAYS DREAMT TO BE A
TINY DELICATE YOUNG GIRL.

YOU KNOW, THE ONE PEOPLE
WANT TO TAKE CARE OF.

BECAUSE NOBODY
EVER WANTED

TO TAKE
CARE OF ME.

I ALWAYS WAS SO
BIG AND SO STRONG.

I WAS THE ONE WHO
CARRIED THE SUITCASES.

NOBODY WOULD HELP ME
BECAUSE I WAS SO STRONG.

AND I WANTED
TO BE PROTECTED

AND BE TINY
AND DELICATE.

I WAS SO INTO BEING
STRONG THAT IF THEY WANTED

TO CARRY MY SUITCASE
I WOULDN'T LET THEM.

DOCTORS ALWAYS
HAVE TOLD ME-

HOW DO YOU
SAY THAT?

"YOU'RE DESIGNED
TO BE A MOTHER.

YOUR BODY'S MADE
TO BE A MOTHER".

'CAUSE YOU'RE
SO FEMALE.

I'VE GOT
THESE BIG HIPS,

JUST PERFECT
TO HAVE BABIES.

I DON'T LIKE
BIG HIPS.

THIS IS FOR YOU,
THIS IS FOR SADIE,

THIS IS FOR SOPHIE SO SHE
DOESN'T FEEL LEFT OUT.

THIS IS FOR THE
GIRL I DON'T KNOW.

THIS IS MY
FRIEND LESLIE.

MY MOTHER TOLD ME
OVER AND OVER

WHEN I WAS GROWING
UP, SHE SAID

"DARLING, IT'S SO
WONDERFUL BECAUSE

YOUR GENERATION DOESN'T
HAVE TO HAVE CHILDREN".

IT JUST MADE ME
FEEL LIKE SHIT.

I UNDERSTOOD THAT WE
WERE SOMETHING THAT

SHE FELT SHE SHOULD DO,
AND DID BEAUTIFULLY.

BUT THE END RESULT WAS
THAT WE RUINED HER LIFE

IN SOME WAY THAT
SHE SUBLIMINALLY

RESENTED
US FOR.

AND I JUST KNOW
THAT IF I HAVE KIDS

I WANT TO WANT
THEM SO MUCH.

HAVE YOU EVER
BEEN PREGNANT?

YEAH, I GOT PREGNANT WHEN
I WAS 18 WITH MY HUSBAND

WHO WAS THEN MY BOYFRIEND
AND I HAD AN ABORTION

BECAUSE I KNEW I WASN'T
READY AND SO IT WAS OKAY.

BUT I REMEMBER IT BEING
THE STRANGEST EXPERIENCE

BECAUSE HE WAS THERE
HOLDING MY HAND AND

THE DOCTOR THAT
GAVE ME THE ABORTION

WAS A WOMAN AND HER
NAME WAS CHASTITY

AND SHE WAS ABOUT
SEVEN MONTHS PREGNANT.

AND SHE WAS WEARING
THIS LITTLE PETER PAN

COLLAR AND WHEN SHE
GAVE ME THE ABORTION

SHE SAID "THIS
IS JUST POTENTIAL.

THIS IS NOT LIFE,
THIS IS JUST POTENTIAL".

I KNOW THAT
IT WAS RIGHT.

I KNEW I WASN'T READY
BUT IT WAS SO STRANGE.

"POTENTIAL".

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

WHEN I HAD MY
ABORTION IT WAS TERRIBLE.

I SPENT TWO WEEKS
WAKING UP IN THE MORNING

SAYING TO MYSELF "I
WILL KEEP IT, I WANT IT".

AND THEN I WAS AT MY
PARENTS' AND MY MOTHER

KNEW ABOUT IT AND
ONE DAY I ASKED HER

- AND THEY WANTED ME
TO HAVE AN ABORTION -

AND I ASKED HER,
"BUT MOMMY,

ONCE THE BABY'S BORN YOU
CANNOT REGRET TO HAVE IT"

AND SHE SAID "I'M NOT
SURE, MAYBE YOU CAN".

AND IT DESTROYED ME,
MY MOTHER SAYING THAT.

AND THEN I HAD THIS FEAR
OF GETTING PREGNANT

ALL THE TIME.

EVERY TIME I
APPROACHED A MAN

I WAS SCARED OF
GETTING PREGNANT.

IT WAS COMPLETELY
CRAZY AT ONE POINT.

I WAS FEELING I
WAS GAINING WEIGHT

AND IT WAS BECAUSE
I WAS PREGNANT.

I BEGAN TO
STARVE MYSELF.

I HAD THE FEELING THAT MY
STOMACH WAS GETTING BIG

SO I BEGAN TO STARVE
MYSELF AND I GOT

VERY SKINNY BUT
THEN MY PERIOD STOPPED

SO IT WAS LIKE BEING
PREGNANT AGAIN.

I ALWAYS THOUGHT I
WOULD GET MARRIED

AND HAVE
CHILDREN.

I ALWAYS WAS
SURE OF THAT,

AND NOW I KNOW I
WILL NOT GET MARRIED

AND I KNOW I WILL
NOT HAVE CHILDREN.

HOW CAN YOU
KNOW THAT?

IT'S THE WAY
I FEEL.

I DON'T FEEL I WILL
EVER HAVE CHILDREN.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT
I WANT TO DO FOR YOU?

I WANT TO DO FOR
YOU WHAT THEY DID

FOR SHEENA EASTON
WITH MIAMI VICE.

YOU'LL MAKE
SO MUCH MONEY.

I NEED TO
CHANGE AGENTS.

I NEED SOMEBODY-
I'VE WORKED SO HARD

WE'VE WORKED
SO HARD

GETTING ME TO
A CERTAIN SPOT.

I COULD CALL
THE SAME PEOPLE

THAT YOU CAN
CALL NOW.

I NEED SOMEBODY THAT CAN
TAKE THE BALL FROM ME.

I DON'T WANT TO MAKE
THIS MISTAKE AGAIN.

WE ALMOST GOT THERE ONCE
BEFORE AND I DIDN'T LEAVE

BECAUSE I FELT THIS
FAMILY CONNECTION.

YOU KNOW YOU'RE
LIKE FAMILY TO ME.

YOU'RE KILLING ME, I
CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.

MICHAEL JACKSON
CAN FIRE HIS FATHER

I'VE GOTTA BE ABLE TO
DO THAT, I'VE GOT TO!

WHEN I WAS A KID MY
BROTHERS HAD MY PARENTS

AND I ALWAYS GOT THE
NANNIES AND SO EVERY TIME

THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH
ONE OF THEM THEY LEFT.

AND THAT'S WHY EVERY
SINGLE DAY THAT I'VE BEEN

WITH THIS MAN AND
EVERY SINGLE YEAR THAT

CONTINUES TO BE
JOYOUS AND WONDERFUL

IS SUCH
A MIRACLE.

I'M REALLY AFRAID IF I'M
NOT INCREDIBLY CAREFUL

I WILL FUCK
IT ALL UP.

AND THAT WOULD
PROBABLY BE

THE SADDEST
THING IN MY LIFE.

SO I DO HAVE TO BE
CAREFUL AND I DO HAVE TO

PRETEND THAT I BELIEVE
THAT I CAN GROW OLD WITH

THIS MAN AND THAT I CAN
BECOME GROWN UP ENOUGH

TO MAKE CHILDREN WITH
THIS PERSON AND TO GET

UGLY AND OLD AND DIE
WITH THIS PERSON.

YOU KNOW, I REALLY
THINK YOU SHOULDN'T

TAKE A CHANCE
OF RUINING

YOUR RELATIONSHIP
BY QUESTIONING.

LIKE, QUESTIONING
TOO MUCH.

I REALLY
THINK THAT.

COME ON, LET'S GO
GET SOMETHING TO EAT.

* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU *

* HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR
(HELENE, SADIE, KATE) *

* HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO YOU *

(CHEERING)

MAKE A WISH!
MAKE A WISH!

(CHEERING)

(TALKING AND
LAUGHING)

NO, NO, NO.

NO THANK YOU.

IT'S CHOCOLATE,
YOUR FAVORITE.

THANK YOU, NO.

I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE
CAKE AT MY SON'S WEDDING.

SADIE, IT'S BAD LUCK;
YOU MUST HAVE IT.

NO, YOU
CAN'T HAVE IT.

I DON'T WANT
YOU TO GET FAT.

YOU CUT YOURSELF
A PIECE OF CAKE.

PLEASE, YOU MUST.

I'LL CUT THE CAKE
BUT I REALLY

DON'T WANT A
PIECE RIGHT NOW.

(TALKING AND
LAUGHING)

(TALKING AND
LAUGHING)

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT
NO ONE'S EATING CAKE.

I JUST CAN'T
EAT IT AT ALL.

THE LAST TIME
I ATE SUGAR

I ATE IT FOR FIVE
DAYS STRAIGHT.

MMM, YOU DON'T KNOW
WHAT YOU'RE MISSING.

AT LEAST HAVE A
PIECE OF YOUR OWN CAKE.

CHEERS.

ALRIGHT!

THERE WE GO.

WE NEED
ANOTHER NAPKIN.

OH, MY GOD,
HONEY.

OH, WELL, YOU WON'T
LET ME EAT ANYTHING.

MOM...

MOM, DON'T CRY.

I'D MUCH RATHER
BE ME THAN YOU.

BECAUSE WHEN I'M FAT I
ALWAYS THINK I'M THIN

AND WHEN YOU'RE THIN YOU
ALWAYS THINK YOU'RE FAT.

IT WON'T
TAKE LONG.

JUST RELAX AND
ANSWER A FEW QUESTIONS.

THANK YOU.

SO, YOU'RE
EATING RIGHT NOW.

OH, ALRIGHT.

DO YOU HAVE ANY
PROBLEM WITH FOOD?

NO, UM,
NOT REALLY.

BUT YOU KNOW
SOMETHING?

I LIKE THE
FEEL OF FOOD.

I LIKE TO
FEEL IT.

I DON'T LIKE TO EAT
WITH FORKS OR KNIVES-

I LIKE TO
TOUCH IT.

LISTEN, HONEY.
I'M 50 YEARS OLD

I'M YOUR MOTHER
AND I LOVE YOU.

BUT I'M TELLING
YOU, SWEETHEART,

YOU CAN'T GO
ON LIKE THIS.

I WANT YOU TO
HAVE A NORMAL LIFE.

YOU WANT ME
TO BE SKINNY.

WE USED TO HAVE THIS BIG
BLACK RESTAURANT STOVE

THAT WAS ALWAYS KEPT
WARM AND I REMEMBER

CURLING UP ON THAT
WITH MY TWO BEST FRIENDS

WHICH WAS FOOD
AND A BOOK

BECAUSE I WAS ALWAYS
LOUSY WITH PEOPLE.

AND I REMEMBER
THAT BEING

SUCH A
COMFORTING FEELING.

IT WASN'T UNTIL LATER
THAT WHEN I MADE THE

MISTAKE OF THINKING THAT
FOOD WAS THE ANSWER TO

ALL OF MY NEEDS THAT IT
WOULD COMPENSATE FOR

MY LONELINESS, MY FEARS
AND MY LACK OF LOVE.

IT WAS MY ONLY WAY
TO CONTROL MY LIFE.

MY PARENTS WERE VERY
STRICT AND IT WAS THE

ONLY WAY I HAD TO SAY
THIS IS MY BODY AND I'LL

DO WHATEVER THE
HELL I WANT WITH IT.

YOU'RE REPRESENTING
THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE

GOING TO DUMP YOU WHEN
THEY GET BIG ANYWAY.

I'M GOING TO BE A
STAR, AND WITHOUT YOU.

IT'S THE LAST THING IN
THE WORLD YOU NEED TO BE.

YOU NEED TO BE A HUMAN
BEING WHO GETS MARRIED

AND HAS CHILDREN
AND DRESSES UP FOR

HER MOTHER'S 50TH
BIRTHDAY PARTY.

WHAT'S GOING
ON HERE?

WELL, MARTINE'S
GIVING US AN INTERVIEW.

I WANT TO
DO ONE.

PLEASE, TAKE
MY PLACE.

I HAVE TO GO
CHECK ON PEOPLE.

ANYWAY, I HAVEN'T
FINISHED WITH KATE YET.

NO, LET
ME DO IT.

HAVEN'T YOU
ALREADY DONE ONE?

WE SORT OF
HAD A START.

LISTEN, DO SOPHIE
AND I'LL BE AROUND.

YOU CAN DO ME
LATER, OKAY?

THANK YOU.

SHE'S VERY
GENEROUS.

OKAY, NOW, WHAT DO
YOU WANT TO TELL ME?

I'M A LITTLE
NERVOUS.

I'VE NEVER
DONE THIS BEFORE.

JUST RELAX AND
ANSWER A FEW QUESTIONS.

DO YOU HAVE
ANY PROBLEM-

HOW DO I LOOK?

DO YOU HAVE ANY
PROBLEM WITH FOOD?

NO. WELL, I DON'T HAVE
A PROBLEM WITH FOOD,

I HAVE A PROBLEM
WITH SUGAR. I MEAN,

I'VE NEVER OVER EATEN
A VEGETABLE IN MY LIFE.

DO YOU REMEMBER ANYTHING
ABOUT SPECIFIC FOODS?

OATMEAL.

SUGAR SMACKS.

CAVIAR - OH,
IT'S SO SPECIAL.

CHOCOLATE
CHIP COOKIES.

HAMILTON'S
CANADIAN BACON.

SABAR'S RAISIN
PUMPERNICKEL BREAD.

FOR YEARS I
WOULD EAT IT RAW.

I'D PEEL OFF
THE CRUST,

WHICH I WOULD EAT
VERY CAREFULLY.

THERE WAS SOMETHING
ABOUT THE SALT AND THE

GREASY KIND OF OILY
TEXTURE OF THE FAT.

AND IT WOULD ALMOST BE
GONE AND THE MEAT WOULD

STILL BE LEFT AND IT
WOULD BE JUST THIS -

THIS SENSE OF FAT.

THEN I WOULD BURROW
IN THE LITTLE HOLES

AND GET
THE RAISINS.

EACH RAISIN WAS COATED
IN A SUGAR COATING.

IT WAS THE MOST
INCREDIBLE SENSUAL

SENSE OF FAT WITH A
LITTLE BIT OF RIND,

JUST THE TEENIEST
BIT OF RIND LEFT.

I HAVE A MEMORY OF ON
SUNDAY EVENINGS WATCHING

OLD, OLD MOVIES WITH MY
MOTHER AND WE'D SIT AND

CUDDLE AND HAVE A QUART
OF MILK AND A 5-POUND BOX

OF SEE'S CANDIES
THAT WE'D EAT

AND WE'D EAT
THE WHOLE BOX.

I LIKE ITALIAN FOOD
AND MEN TOGETHER.

BLACK-EYED PEAS
AND MASHED POTATOES

AND CORN ON THE
COB IN BUTTER.

GRAPES.

GRAVY AND BISCUITS
AND FRIED CHICKEN,

ENGLISH PEAS
AND FRUIT COCKTAIL.

HALF A GALLON OF
COFFEE ICE CREAM.

BRUSSEL SPROUTS.

CHOCOLATE
CHIP COOKIE.

YOU KNOW THAT
WHITE BREAD,

THAT CHEAP
WHITE BREAD...

YOU'D PUT IT IN THE
BROILER AND THE BUTTER

WOULD MELT AND IT WOULD
GET CRISPY ON THE OUTSIDE

AND IT WAS SO
GOOD AND SO WARM.

I'M REALLY NOT INVOLVED
WITH FOOD ANYMORE,

YOU KNOW, I'VE FOUND A
LOT OF DISTRACTIONS.

LIKE WHAT?

CLOTHES.

MEN.

ACCESSORIES.

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR
CHILDHOOD AND FOOD.

CHILDHOOD
WAS GREAT.

MY PAPA
WAS THERE.

I HAVE WONDERFUL
MEMORIES OF CHILDHOOD

BECAUSE MY GRANDMOTHER,
SHE BAKED BREAD

TWICE A WEEK AND
I LOVE THAT SMELL,

THAT YEAST AND
BREAD FERMENTING.

HE USED TO SIT ME ON
HIS LAP AND HE LOVED TO

WATCH ME EAT AND MY MAMA
LOVED TO WATCH ME EAT

AND THEY LOVED
TO COOK FOR ME.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL,
PRIVATE SCHOOL,

THE TEACHER WAS STANDING
THERE WITH A DONUT.

IT WAS WONDERFUL.

I WENT OVER AND
STOOD BY THE TEACHER

AND JUST ATE IT RIGHT
OUT OF HER HAND,

WHILE IT WAS
HANGING DOWN THERE.

AND ALL SHE HAD LEFT
WAS THIS LITTLE PIECE

IN HER HAND.

AND I SPENT MY FIRST DAY
OF SCHOOL IN THE CORNER

'CAUSE I ATE THE
TEACHER'S DONUT.

AND SOMEWHERE ALONG
THE LINE I GOT TO FEELING

LIKE EVERY TIME I WANTED
TO FEEL WONDERFUL

AND WHEN LIFE
DISAPPOINTED ME,

I THOUGHT "I'LL
EAT SOMETHING

AND THEN I'LL FEEL
WONDERFUL AGAIN.

EXCEPT I GOT FAT.

WHEN I WAS TWO AND
A HALF YEARS OLD

MY SISTER
WAS BORN.

UP UNTIL
THAT TIME

I WAS THE APPLE OF
MY FATHER'S EYE.

THE FIRST THING
I CAN REMEMBER

IS PLEASING MY FATHER
AND EATING A LOT

AND THEN HE TURNED
ON ME AND TOLD ME

I WAS A BULL IN A CHINA
SHOP AND A LUMMOX.

IT'S NOT THAT HE DIDN'T
LOVE ME, IT'S JUST THAT

HE THOUGHT I WAS UGLY
AND HE LET ME KNOW IT.

I'M NOT A BULL
IN A CHINA SHOP.

I FOUND A LETTER
FROM MY MOTHER.

WHEN I WAS TWO MONTHS
OLD SHE WROTE A LETTER

TO MY GRANDMOTHER
SAYING I ATE LIKE A PIG.

MY MOTHER DRANK ABOUT A
SIX-PACK OF COCA-COLAS

EVERY DAY, I HAD COCA
COLA IN MY BABY BOTTLE

AND I'M FROM THE SOUTH
AND THAT'S WHAT YOU DID,

YOU JUST GAVE
YOUR KID SUGAR.

THESE CAKES THAT
WERE BROUGHT IN TODAY,

THEY SORT OF EPITOMIZE MY
MEMORIES OF CHILDHOOD.

AND THAT SUGAR WAS SWEET
AND THAT SWEETNESS WAS

SOMETHING I BECAME
VERY ADDICTED TO

BECAUSE I DIDN'T
HAVE THAT IN MY LIFE.

A BIG TO-DO ABOUT
CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY

AND ALL THE PEOPLE AND
THE GIFTS AND STUFF,

AND THEN THIS GREAT
SENSE OF LONELINESS.

JUST THE WANTING TO
CONNECT WITH SOMETHING.

IT JUST MADE ME
FEEL CONNECTED

FOR VERY FLEETING
MOMENTS, BUT DURING

THAT TIME I WAS EATING
I FELT CONNECTED.

I THINK IT WAS JUST FOOD
AND ME, YOU KNOW,

AS A KID I THINK I
WAS LEFT ALONE A LOT.

I THINK.

AND I WAS LEFT
ALONE WITH FOOD.

AND IT WAS
VERY COMFORTING.

I'M NEVER GOING
TO EVER BE ABLE

TO BE LIKE NORMAL
PEOPLE WITH FOOD.

I'M ALWAYS GOING TO
BE AT THE MERCY OF IT.

AND IT'S A VERY,
VERY SCARY FEELING.

IT'S VERY,
VERY POWERFUL.

AND I HATE IT.

AND, UH, AND
YET I CAN'T STOP

AND I CAN'T
LIVE WITHOUT IT.

AND THAT'S
TORTUROUS.

MARTINE.

HI.

HI, I BROUGHT
YOU THIS.

THANK YOU.

SO HOW'S IT GOING?

I THINK IT'S
WONDERFUL.

THE PARTY'S
GOING VERY WELL.

IT'S GREAT,
ISN'T IT?

YOUR FILMING, HOW ARE
YOU FEELING ABOUT IT?

I'M JUST AMAZED, I
MEAN, I'VE GOT SOME

SUCH AMAZING
THINGS.

YOUR FRIENDS
ARE WONDERFUL.

THEY ARE, THEY'RE
REALLY GREAT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU.

DR. LORENZ?

HI, IT'S SOPHIE.

I KNOW,
I'M SORRY.

I'M AT THIS PARTY AND
I THINK I'M IN TROUBLE

AND YOU TOLD ME TO
CALL YOU WHENEVER

I THINK THERE'S GOING
TO BE A PROBLEM.

WHY AREN'T
YOU FILMING?

I JUST STOPPED FOR
A WHILE, YOU KNOW,

I'VE HEARD A
LOT OF THINGS

AND I'M
JUST THINKING...

YEAH?

YOU LOOK, UH...

I LOOK WHAT?

YOU JUST LOOKED
UPSET FOR A MOMENT.

I'M NOT UPSET, NO.

I JUST- THERE'S
A LOT GOING ON.

HI.

IT'S TOO CRAZY
IN THERE FOR ME.

YOU TAKING
A BREAK?

IT GETS A LITTLE TOO
EMOTIONAL SOMETIMES.

BUT I HOPE YOU DON'T
MIND MY DOING THIS.

IT'S SO INTERESTING
FOR ME TO CAPTURE...

TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH,
MY WHOLE DOCUMENTARY

IS ABOUT THAT -
WOMEN AND FOOD.

THAT'S REALLY
WHAT I'M HERE FOR.

REALLY?

WHY THEN DID YOU
SAY THE DOCUMENTARY

WAS ABOUT WOMEN
IN CALIFORNIA?

ACTUALLY SOUTHERN
CALIFORNIAN BEHAVIOR

IS MORE GENERAL.

IT SEEMS AWKWARD TO
PEOPLE WHEN YOU SAY

WOMEN AND FOOD.

THEY JUST START WONDERING
WHY WOMEN AND FOOD?

WE DON'T TALK ABOUT
THESE THINGS IN FRANCE.

THE FIRST TIME I HEARD
"BULIMIA" WAS JANE FONDA

WHEN SHE SAID
THAT ABOUT...

BUT WE DON'T
DISCUSS THAT AT ALL

SO I FELT
SO ALONE.

DID YOU
THROW UP?

WELL, YES.

THE FIRST TIME I THREW
UP ACTUALLY I WAS

THINKING I WAS DOING
SOMETHING REAL SMART.

I REMEMBER IT WAS WITH A
FRIEND AND IT WAS LIKE A

VERY GOOD IDEA: YOU EAT
SO THEN YOU THROW UP.

IT WAS A VERY SMART IDEA,
I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS

GOING TO LEAD TO ALL
THAT TERRIBLE THINGS.

THE DOCTOR SAID A LOT OF
WOMEN DO THAT TO CONTROL

THEIR WEIGHT AND IT'S
NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT.

YOU KNOW, 20 OR 30 YEARS
AGO I THINK SEX WAS THE

SECRET SUBJECT OF
WOMEN AND NOW IT'S FOOD.

IT'S SUCH A -
OOH, UNATTRACTIVE.

AND IT MAKES
YOU FEEL AWFUL.

IT'S TERRIBLE.

YOU KNOW, YOU CAN SAY
"I'M AN ALCOHOLIC"

OR "I'M A DRUG
ADDICT", THAT'S OKAY.

BUT IT'S LIKE, YOU KNOW,
KIND OF INTERESTING.

BUT SAYING "I HAVE
AN EATING DISORDER.

I JUST WANT
TO EAT",

THAT'S SO UNATTRACTIVE,
IT'S SO DISTURBING.

I WAS NEVER ABLE TO
TELL THAT TO ANYONE.

THE OTHER NIGHT I
FOUND THIS WHOLE

EMPTY QUART OF ICE
CREAM BY MY BED.

I COULD NOT BELIEVE- I
HAD WALKED IN MY SLEEP.

I COULDN'T
BELIEVE I'D DONE IT.

YOU DIDN'T
REMEMBER?

I DID NOT REMEMBER, IT
WAS LIKE A BLACKOUT.

HAS THAT
HAPPENED TO YOU?

IT HAS?

I'D WAKE UP AND REALIZE
I HAD BEEN EATING

DURING THE NIGHT
AND... I DON'T KNOW.

MARTINE,
YOU'RE UPSET.

I'M SORRY.

IT'S JUST LISTENING TO
THESE WOMEN, I DIDN'T

THINK IT WOULD GET SO
MUCH STUFF OUT OF ME.

I DON'T...

YOU THINK I SHOULD
TALK TO SOMEBODY HERE?

BUT I'M AFRAID IF I TALK
TO SOMEBODY THAT I'M...

I'M AFRAID I'M GOING TO
DO SOMETHING VICIOUS.

MY MOTHER
DOESN'T UNDERSTAND

THAT IT'S
OKAY TO EAT.

WELL, AS A MOTHER I
WOULD SAY YOU CAN EAT.

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT
EATING THAT, THOUGH.

THIS IS
LIKE MOZART.

THAT'S A LOT OF
CARBOHYD- MOZART?

I THINK FOOD
IS LIKE MUSIC.

I'M CALMING
DOWN A LITTLE.

BUT I DON'T KNOW
IF I CAN DO THIS

IF YOU'RE NOT ON
THE PHONE WITH ME.

I THINK YOU'RE AN
INCREDIBLE ACTRESS AND

I KNOW YOU HAVE IT ALL
TOGETHER AND YOU DON'T

HAVE ANY PROBLEMS AND
I JUST WANT TO BE YOU.

I COLORED MY
HAIR LIKE YOURS.

YOU JUST WANT
TO BE ME?

BEETHOVEN IS BEEF,
UM, STRAVINSKY, SALAD.

YOU KNOW, MIXED
SALAD WITH PICKLES.

VIVALDI'S FRUIT
- FRUIT SALAD.

WHAT'S THAT?

THAT'S TCHAIKOVSKY,
THAT'S TRAGIC.

I WANT TO ASK
YOU A FEW THINGS

'CAUSE YOU
KNOW SO MUCH.

YEAH.

DO I HAVE TO SLEEP
WITH SOMEONE

IN ORDER TO
GET A PART?

HOW BIG A PART?

(PHONE RINGING)

HELLO?

OH, FRANK?

WHAT'S IT LIKE
BEING MARRIED

AS LONG AS
YOU WERE?

WELL, IN MANY WAYS
IT WAS WONDERFUL.

I GUESS MOST OF
IT WAS WONDERFUL.

THE ONLY THING
IS I WAS MARRIED

WHEN I WAS SO YOUNG I
FEEL LIKE I WAS MARRIED

FOR THREE-QUARTERS
OF MY LIFE.

MY LATE HUSBAND
WASN'T THAT MUCH

IN ACCORD OF MY,
YOU KNOW, CAREER.

BECAUSE I WAS A SINGER
AT THE TIME WE MARRIED

AND SO THERE WERE SOME
REGRETS ABOUT THAT.

BUT HE WAS SO
TERRIFIC THAT...

IT'S GOOD.
OR IT WAS GOOD.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU
CAN'T COME HOME TONIGHT?

DARLING, BERNARD
CHANGED THE RESERVATION

SPECIALLY.

I WANT MY HUSBAND
ON MY BIRTHDAY.

IS THAT SO
MUCH TO ASK?

YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY
THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

ALRIGHT, OKAY. IT'S
JUST THAT I'VE GOT

ALL THESE
PRESENTS HERE AND...

YOU'RE THE ONE
I REALLY WANT.

ALRIGHT.

I MEAN, I'M FINE,
I'M JUST FINE,

I JUST MISS YOU,
THAT'S ALL.

OKAY, TOMORROW.

YES, DARLING,
I UNDERSTAND.

BYE.

I LIVED WITH MY
MOTHER UNTIL I WAS 18.

I WENT TO NEW YORK AND
I MOVED IN WITH A GIRL

IN NEW YORK WHEN
I WAS MODELING,

AND THEN I
GOT MARRIED.

IN OTHER WORDS I SORT
OF LOST TRACK OF ME

ALONG THE WAY

BUT YOU DON'T SEEM
TO HAVE DONE THAT.

I DON'T KNOW.

I GUESS MAYBE THAT'S
ONE OF MY QUESTIONS.

BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN
ALONE SO I DON'T REALLY

KNOW IF THE ME THAT I
THINK IS ME HAS TO DO

WITH MY PRINCE CHARMING
ON THE HILL AND MY HORSES

AND THAT LIFE, OR IF
IT'S SOMETHING ELSE

THAT I JUST HAVEN'T
EXPLORED. YOU KNOW?

IF YOU HAVE WHAT
YOU SEEM TO HAVE

I'D GIVE A LOT OF THOUGHT
TO TRY TO SQUELCH

SOME ANTSY, RECKLESS
OR RESTLESS FEELINGS.

I LIKE TO EAT.

I LIKE TO EAT FOOD, I
LIKE TO HAVE DINNER.

I DON'T LIKE
TO SKIP MEALS,

I DON'T LIKE
TO FAST.

I'VE ALWAYS
LOVED TO EAT.

I LOVE EATING. I
WAS BORN TO EAT.

I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT MOVING
TO EUROPE SEVERAL TIMES.

I WOULD GO TO ITALY
AND I WOULD BE THIS

ZAFTIG WOMAN THAT
THE MEN WOULD LOVE

AND I COULD EAT
WHATEVER I WANTED

AND DIVE INTO
BOWLS OF SPAGHETTI.

I WANT THE PEOPLE THAT
ARE IMPORTANT TO ME

IN MY LIFE TO
LOVE ME WHETHER

MY FANNY IS PERFECT OR
MY THIGHS ARE PERFECT

OR WHETHER WHEN I WAVE
GOODBYE MY ARM SHAKES.

NOBODY HAD EATING
PROBLEMS WHEN I WAS

GROWING UP.

I DIDN'T KNOW ANYBODY
WHO HAD EATING PROBLEMS

SO IT'S JUST NOT PART
OF MY VOCABULARY.

I THINK I'M OVERWEIGHT
BECAUSE I LOOK

IN MAGAZINES AND I SEE
PEOPLE WITH NO BODIES.

WHEN I WAKE UP
IN THE MORNING

I DON'T FEEL LIKE,
OH, I'M SO FAT.

BUT WHEN I TURN ON THE
TV OR IF I LOOK AT ADS

IN VOGUE I'LL SEE THE
BAIN DE SOLEIL WOMAN

AND THINK "I BETTER
GET TO THE GYM".

IT'S OKAY,
EVERYTHING'S ALRIGHT.

YOU LOOK
GREAT TODAY.

IT'S JUST A GROUP OF
WOMEN. IT'S OKAY.

HOW LONG HAS
THIS GONE ON?

I DON'T
REALLY KNOW.

IT'S LIKE HE CALLS
AND SAYS HE HAS TO

WORK LATE
AT THE OFFICE

AND OF COURSE I
HAVE TO GET UP EARLY.

I FEEL I
NEVER SEE HIM.

I DON'T KNOW, I
JUST DON'T KNOW.

ALL I KNOW IS HE'S
SPENDING NIGHTS OUT LATE.

I JUST DON'T
KNOW, MOM.

I JUST
DON'T KNOW.

MAYBE HE CAN'T FACE
THE FACT I'M GETTING OLD.

OH, COME ON.
IF YOU SAY THAT,

WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT
MAKES ME FEEL LIKE?

A DINOSAUR.

IT'S GOING TO BE
OKAY, ISN'T IT, MOM?

OF COURSE IT IS.

OF COURSE IT'S
GOING TO BE OKAY.

FOOD IS THE ONLY THING
THAT I CAN COUNT ON

FOR
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

FOOD IS THE ONLY THING
THAT WILL COMFORT ME

AND LOVE ME AND BE GOOD
TO ME AND SWEET TO ME

24 HOURS A DAY.

I CAN GO INTO THE
KITCHEN, I CAN OPEN THE

REFRIGERATOR AND I CAN
HAVE A MUFFIN WITH JELLY

OR WHATEVER I WANT ON IT
AND IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD

AND GIVES
ME LOVE.

I THINK THERE HAVE ONLY
BEEN TWO THINGS THAT HAVE

EVER INTERESTED ME AND
THAT'S FOOD AND MEN.

THE ONLY MAN WHO HAS EVER
LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY

WAS MY
GRANDFATHER.

IF THE FOOD DOESN'T
WORK THEN I GO TO MEN,

SO I'M EITHER
HUNGRY OR IN LOVE.

HE WOULD HOLD ME IN
HIS ARMS AND HE'D SING

"OLD TIME RELIGION",
YOU KNOW,

* GIVE ME THAT
OLD TIME RELIGION *

AND THAT IS THE LAST
MAN THAT HAS EVER

LOVED ME
UNCONDITIONALLY.

I THINK I'M STILL
LOOKING FOR A MAN

WHO CAN EXCITE ME AS
MUCH AS A BAKED POTATO.

DO YOU KNOW ANYTHING
THAT'S GOING ON

THAT I DON'T KNOW?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN
"WHAT'S GOING ON?"

I JUST HAVE THIS FEELING,
THIS KIND OF PSYCHIC

FEELING THAT SOMETHING'S
NOT RIGHT WITH FRANK

AND I DON'T
KNOW WHAT IT IS.

I DON'T WANT TO BE
PARANOID ABOUT IT

BUT SOMETHING
DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT.

ARE YOU AT THIS POINT
IN YOUR LIFE WHERE YOU

ABSOLUTELY DON'T
TRUST YOUR FEELINGS?

I DON'T WANT TO
TRUST MY FEELINGS.

WHAT IS GOING ON IS
THERE IS THIS TERRIBLE

CONSPIRACY OF SILENCE
AND I'M SICK OF IT

AND I'M ANGRY
ABOUT IT.

EVERYONE AT THE
PARTY KNOWS ABOUT IT

EXCEPT YOU.

AND I DON'T BELIEVE
THAT YOU DON'T KNOW.

WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN?

FRANK IS
HAVING AN AFFAIR.

IT'S NOT TRUE,
THAT'S NOT TRUE.

HELENE, I HATE
TELLING YOU THIS.

I JUST HATE IT.

I DON'T WANT TO
HURT YOU ANY MORE

THAN YOU'RE
ALREADY HURT.

JUST BECAUSE HE'S
CALLED ME THREE TIMES-

JUST BECAUSE HE'S CALLED
ME AND JUST BECAUSE

I HAVE A FEELING
INSIDE, JUST BECAUSE

HE'S NOT COMING HOME
FOR MY BIRTHDAY-

MAYBE IT'S JUST FROM
SOMETHING ELSE.

MAYBE IT'S JUST
FROM MY OWN CRAZINESS.

I'M SORRY I
ASKED YOU OUT HERE.

I REALLY THOUGHT YOU
WERE MY BEST FRIEND.

SIT DOWN AND
DEAL WITH THIS.

JUST CALM
DOWN, PLEASE.

LOOK AT ALL THIS
FOOD, THIS EATING.

YOU'VE BEEN EATING
NONSTOP SINCE I GOT HERE.

YOU'RE MAKING
ME EAT, SOPHIE.

YOU'RE MAKING ME EAT,
YOU'RE MAKING ME SICK.

HE'S HAVING AN AFFAIR
WITH SOMEONE HERE.

SOMEBODY HERE?

THE WOMAN'S A BRUNETTE -
I DON'T KNOW FOR SURE

IF SHE'S A BRUNETTE BUT
THIS IS WHAT I THINK.

HOW DO
YOU KNOW?

I'VE HEARD IT.

I'VE HEARD THAT HE'S
HAVING AN AFFAIR

WITH A BRUNETTE
AT THE PARTY.

WHERE DID YOU GET
YOUR INFORMATION?

I'M NOT GOING TO
GET INTO SOMETHING

GOSSIPY WITH YOU.

SOPHIE, PLEASE.
DON'T DO THIS TO ME.

TELL ME WHO IT IS.

HELENE, IT'S
A BRUNETTE.

THAT'S ALL
I HEARD.

NOW YOU CAN
DEAL WITH THIS.

OKAY. A BRUNETTE.

HALF THE PEOPLE AT
THE PARTY ARE BRUNETTE.

GO AND FIND OUT WHO IT
IS AND CONFRONT HER.

GET IN TOUCH WITH YOUR
RAGE AND DEAL WITH THIS.

WHAT ABOUT SEX?

I CAN'T HAVE
SEX AFTER I EAT.

I HAVE TO BE
THIN TO HAVE SEX.

I ALWAYS FEEL BETTER
WHEN I HAVE SEX.

I HAVE TO HAVE SEX
BEFORE I EAT BECAUSE

IF I HAVE SEX AFTER
I EAT I FEEL FAT.

AND I DON'T WANT TO BE
TOUCHED WHEN I FEEL FAT.

BLACK MEN
LOVE HIPS.

THIS USED TO DRIVE
MY BOYFRIENDS CRAZY.

WHEN I'M WITH
A BLACK MAN,

THE MORE THE MERRIER,
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

AND WHEN YOU'RE WITH A
WHITE MAN, AN AMERICAN

WHITE MAN, THEY DON'T
PARTICULARLY, YOU KNOW,

LIKE A WHOLE LOT
ON A WOMAN'S HIPS.

I'D WANT TO MAKE LOVE
EARLIER AND THEY'D WANT

TO MAKE LOVE LATER AND I
WOULD NEVER TELL THEM.

I FOUND THAT I
HAD SHAPED MYSELF

TO WHOEVER I
WAS GOING WITH.

MY CHILDHOOD
AND EVERYTHING

WAS PRETTY
SEXUAL.

I WOULDN'T SAY "I CAN'T
MAKE LOVE AFTER DINNER",

THAT SOUNDS
RIDICULOUS.

ALWAYS THINKING
ABOUT SEX,

SEXUAL FANTASIES
AND EVERYTHING.

I USED TO JUST TRY
AND MAKE LOVE EARLIER

AND THEN WE'D END UP
EATING DINNER ANYWAY

'CAUSE I
WOULDN'T TELL THEM.

IN MY 20s GOING INTO MY
30s MAYBE 80% OF MY TIME

AND ENERGY WAS ABOUT
FOOD, DIETS, BEING THIN.

AND THEN WE'D GO
TO BED AND I DIDN'T

WANT TO MAKE LOVE
'CAUSE I FELT FAT.

I FOUND MYSELF HAVING
A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP

A COUPLE OF TIMES WHEN I
DIDN'T WANT TO BE THERE

AND I DIDN'T WANT
TO BE HAVING SEX

AND AT THE TIME IT
DIDN'T OCCUR TO ME

THAT I HAD THE
OPTION TO SAY NO.

I THINK ABOUT SEX
AND FOOD OFTEN.

AND I BEGAN
TO EAT.

I HAD A LOT OF
CATHOLIC INFLUENCES

WHEN I WAS LITTLE.

ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT
WAS WHAT I COULD EAT,

WHERE COULD I EAT IT
AND WHEN COULD I EAT IT.

I STILL RELATE TO
FOOD VERY MUCH

PERTAINING TO
THE CHILD IN ME

AND SEX AS BELONGING
TO THE ADULT IN ME.

I LOVED THAT I
WAS GETTING FAT.

EATING AND BEING
GOOD, THAT'S OKAY.

I GOT VERY
UNSEXUAL.

SEX, I HAVE TO TALK
MYSELF INTO IT, ACTUALLY,

AND THAT IT IS OKAY.
AND THEN IT'S OKAY.

I MADE MYSELF
UNATTRACTIVE ENOUGH

THAT MEN DIDN'T
APPROACH ME ANYMORE

SO I COULD NEVER
BE IN THAT SITUATION.

I WAS SAFE.

YOU BASTARD.

I WOULD LIKE TO ASK
YOU A FEW QUESTIONS

ON CAMERA IF
YOU DON'T MIND.

I CAN'T, NO.

I'D FEEL REALLY
UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THAT.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK
ABOUT WHAT WE WERE

TALKING ABOUT.

WHY ARE YOU BRINGING
ME UP HERE, MOTHER?

I HAVE A PARTY
GOING ON.

I KNOW YOU DO.

THERE'S SO MANY
PEOPLE WALKING AROUND.

WHY ARE
YOU SMOKING?

YOU'VE GOT TO PUT
YOUR CIGARETTE OUT.

I WON'T HAVE IT.

IT'S NOT
GOOD FOR YOU.

AND THAT'S NOT
GOOD FOR YOU.

YOU HAVE HAD
SO MUCH TO DRINK

AND IT'S EARLY
IN THE EVENING.

I KNOW, I KNOW.

HELENE,
WHAT IS WRONG?

I THINK THAT FRANK IS
HAVING AN AFFAIR AND

THAT'S THE ONE THING
I REALLY CAN'T STAND-

I WON'T
STAND FOR IT.

MEN ARE JUST
BASICALLY THAT WAY.

THEY GET BORED.

YOU KNOW
THE CLICHE

"FAMILIARITY
BREEDS CONTEMPT"?

IT TAKES A LOT FOR TWO
PEOPLE TO STAY TOGETHER

AND ANYWHERE
NEAR HAPPINESS,

THAT'S A MIRACLE.

IF YOU ARE SMART,
YOU LOVE FRANK

AND YOU WANT TO HOLD
ONTO HIM, DON'T DO THIS.

DON'T JUST CLOSE
THE DOOR NOW.

PLEASE TRY TO
MAKE UP YOUR MIND

THAT YOU'RE GOING
TO HANG IN THERE.

THAT'S THE
WAY WE DID IT.

WE TURNED OUR BACKS
AND WE ACCEPTED IT

AND WENT ON.

AND EVERYTHING
WORKED OUT JUST FINE.

YOU WANT TO BE ALONE
THE REST OF YOUR LIFE?

IT'S NOT EASY
OUT THERE TODAY.

THERE ARE SO MANY
ATTRACTIVE, YOUNG,

BEAUTIFUL,
SUCCESSFUL, TALENTED,

BRILLIANT WOMEN.

MOTHER, I KNOW,
BUT THIS IS A TRUST

THAT'S
BEEN BROKEN.

I CANNOT PUT
UP WITH THIS.

I CANNOT
HIDE ANYMORE.

I AM TOO
OLD TO HIDE.

I'VE HIDDEN HALF
OF MY LIFE, MOTHER.

I MUST FACE THE TRUTH,
I'VE GOTTA FACE IT.

IT SEEMS LIKE YOU
MAKE MORE OF A MESS

OF YOUR LIVES TODAY
THAN WE EVER DID.

YOU WILL REGRET THIS FOR
THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

YOU'VE GOT
TO COMPROMISE,

YOU'VE GOT TO BE
UNDERSTANDING.

IT WASN'T THAT EASY
WITH YOUR FATHER BUT

FORTUNATELY MY MOTHER
WAS WISE ENOUGH TO

TELL ME TO HANG IN THERE,
TURN MY BACK, IGNORE IT.

IT'S JUST A NATURAL
TRAIT OF THE MALE ANIMAL.

OH, MOTHER...

I DO LOVE
YOU, MOM.

I TRULY WISH I COULD
DO WHAT YOU DID

BUT I JUST CAN'T.
I CAN'T DO IT.

WHAT DO YOU
THINK ABOUT FRANK?

FRANK?

HELENE'S HUSBAND.

I LIKE HIM, WHY?

HE'S
ATTRACTIVE, NO?

WELL, YES,
I SUPPOSE SO.

HE'S MY FATHER'S
BEST FRIEND.

I STARTED EATING ICE
CREAM, YOU KNOW,

WITH MODELING AND
OF COURSE I BLEW UP.

THEN I GOT INTO DRUGS
WHICH WAS WONDERFUL,

YOU KNOW, UNTIL DRUGS
STOPPED WORKING.

AND THEN WE
WENT INTO MEN.

BUT THEN I HAVE THIS
THING FOR JEWISH MEN

AND ALSO JEWISH MEN
WHO DON'T SMOKE.

SO WE'RE INTO A REAL
PROBLEM WITH THAT.

SO EVERY FOUR MONTHS
I'D START SMOKING AGAIN.

I'D GET FOUR MONTHS IN
AND THEN GET A BREAK UP

AND I'D GO INTO GRIEF
AND THEN I'M THIN AGAIN.

I BREAK UP RELATIONSHIPS
SO THAT I CAN SMOKE.

HE'S VERY
CHARMING, ISN'T HE?

YEAH.

AND ATTRACTIVE.

WELL, HE IS.

DO YOU THINK
HE'S SEXY?

OH, MY GOD, YOU'RE
SO OBSESSED WITH IT.

YES, I SUPPOSE
HE'S SEXY.

MY DARLING,
YOU KNOW...

WHEN I MARRIED
YOUR FATHER

YOU WERE NINE
YEARS OLD.

I KNOW.

AND I FELL IN
LOVE WITH YOU THEN

JUST LIKE YOU WERE
MY OWN LITTLE GIRL.

YOU KNOW I LOVE
YOU LIKE A MOM.

I STILL FEEL THE
SAME WAY ABOUT YOU.

NO MATTER WHAT
HAPPENS, NO MATTER

WHERE ANYONE GOES I
WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN?

I'VE BEEN DOING PRETTY
GOOD ABOUT MY FOOD.

IF I JUST DON'T EAT UNTIL
AROUND 11:00 AT NIGHT

I'M ALRIGHT. IF I
START EATING EARLIER

I JUST KEEP EATING AND
EATING AND I CAN'T STOP.

DO YOU LIKE
OLDER MEN?

WHY ARE YOU
EMBARRASSED?

I'M NOT
EMBARRASSED.

YOU ARE, YOU PUT
YOUR HEAD DOWN.

WHY ARE YOU
EMBARRASSED?

I LIKE OLDER
MEN, YES.

I JUST WONDERED
HOW IT SHOWED.

BECAUSE OF YOUR REACTION
WHEN I ASKED YOU.

YES, I DO. I DO
LIKE OLDER MEN.

DO YOU ONLY GO
WITH OLDER MEN?

MOST OF THE TIME.

I LIKE OLDER
MEN TOO.

THEY ARE SO
COMFORTABLE.

YOU KNOW
HOW I DID IT?

WHEN I STOPPED THOSE
DRUGS IT WAS SO TRAUMATIC

THAT I GOT ON MY KNEES
AND I TOLD GOD THAT

I'LL DO ANYTHING IF HE
DOESN'T STRIKE ME FAT.

AND IT'S WORKED.

ONLY YOU WOULD
TALK TO HIM THAT WAY.

OH, HONEY...

WHAT?

DO YOU HAVE
ANYTHING TO TELL ME?

YEAH, YOU'RE
EATING TOO MUCH CAKE.

YOU'VE GOT IT
ON YOUR FACE.

YOU DON'T HAVE
ANYTHING ELSE TO TELL ME?

NO. NOW WOULD YOU
COOL IT ON THE CAKE?

SECRETLY IN MY DREAMS I'D
GO TO BED EVERY NIGHT AND

DREAM ABOUT WAKING UP
AND LOOKING IN THE MIRROR

AND BEING
ANN-MARGRET.

WHEN IT CAME TO
DESSERT I THOUGHT,

WELL, I'M NOT GOING
TO HAVE DESSERT.

NOT FOR THE
FIRST DATE.

I'VE GOT TO SHOW
SOME RESTRAINT.

SOME GIRLS HAVE
HUSBANDS AND BOYFRIENDS

AND LOVERS AND
EMPLOYERS AND HOUSES

AND I HAVE RYE BREAD
AND CREAM CHEESE.

BUT HE INSISTED THAT I
HAVE DESSERT IF I REALLY

WANTED IT AND I SAID
"I REALLY DO WANT IT"

AND HE SAID
"HAVE DESSERT".

SO WE BOTH
HAD DESSERT.

I'VE LOST
50 POUNDS

TEN TIMES IN THE
LAST EIGHT YEARS.

IT'S NOT A REWARD, IT'S
JUST IF I HAVE DESSERT

IT'S BECAUSE IT'S
A NORMAL THING

TO WANT DESSERT.

I WANT A GUY WHO'S
GOING TO, YOU KNOW,

LIKE ME FOR WHAT I AM
AND WHO I AM AND THE

FACT THAT I HAVE A LITTLE
MILEAGE, AND IT'S OKAY.

AND THEN HE SAID "WOULD
YOU LIKE ANOTHER DESSERT?"

AND I SAID "NO, I REALLY
DON'T WANT ANOTHER DESSERT.

ONE DESSERT
WAS GOOD".

BUT THE FACT THAT
HE OFFERED ME

ANOTHER DESSERT
AND IT WAS OKAY JUST,

AH, IT WAS JUST
REALLY GOOD.

IT'S A
WONDERFUL PARTY.

I THINK MY DOCUMENTARY'S
GOING TO BE TERRIFIC.

ALL THOSE
GREAT INTERVIEWS.

YOU HAVE NOTHING
TO SAY ABOUT FRANK?

NO, WHY?

I'M JUST CURIOUS.

IS THERE
SOMETHING WRONG?

CAN I HELP?

IS THERE NOTHING
YOU WANT TO TELL ME?

I HAVE HARDLY SEEN
FRANK THE PAST FEW DAYS.

IS HE NEVER
AT HOME?

HE COMES HOME LATE,
YOU STAY UP LATE.

I GO TO
BED EARLY.

I MAY HAVE MET
HIM A FEW TIMES.

HAD A FEW
TALKS BUT...

ARE YOU SURE
YOU'RE OKAY?

I LIKE YOU,
I REALLY DO.

HEY, BABY.

GOD, I MISS YOU. I
JUST WISH I WERE HOME.

OH, GOD.

IS THERE ANY
PARTICULAR REASON

YOU WANT TO ASK
ME ABOUT FOOD?

IS IT BECAUSE
YOU THINK I'M FAT?

FOOD, FOOD, FOOD.

THAT'S ALL I
HEAR IS FOOD.

I REALLY ENJOY EATING,
I ALWAYS HAVE,

BUT IN MY TIME WE'D GET
TOGETHER TO HAVE A DRINK.

COCKTAILS AND HORS
D'OEVRES, THAT WAS A MORE

DESIRABLE INVITATION
THAN GOING TO DINNER.

NO, I JUST WANTED
TO SEND YOU A HUG

AND TELL YOU
THAT I MISS YOU.

I JUST WISH I WAS HOME
HIDING IN YOUR ARMS.

I DON'T THINK
HELENE EVER REALLY

HAD A PROBLEM
WITH FOOD.

AS A CHILD
THERE WAS CERTAINLY

NO OBSESSION WITH IT.
SHE LIKED FOOD

BUT SHE WASN'T EVEN
THAT CRAZY ABOUT IT.

MAYBE I'M JUST
MID-VICTORIAN SOUTHERN.

I JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND
THIS CRAVING,

THIS OBSESSION
WITH FOOD.

I WISH I DID.

OH, MOTHER...

HEY. I DON'T KNOW
WHAT I'M SAYING HERE.

OR WHY SHE
WANTS THIS ON FILM.

COULD YOU PLEASE...

LET'S NOT DO
THIS ANYMORE.

THANK YOU.

WELL, OKAY. GET
BACK TO THAT.

I JUST WANTED TO
SAY THAT I LOVE YOU.

I CAN JUST REMEMBER
IN GIRLS SCHOOL

THAT WAS ALL
WE DID WAS EAT.

IT WAS JUST THE BEST
THING IN THE WORLD.

IT'S JUST THAT MY
METABOLISM CAN'T TAKE IT,

I JUST GET REALLY HUGE
AND I'VE WEIGHED AS MUCH

AS 200 POUNDS IN MY LIFE
AND I THINK THAT, UM,

ONCE YOU ARE
THAT HEAVY

IT'S VERY HARD FOR
YOU TO EVER FEEL THIN.

I GUESS YOU NEVER KNEW
THAT I HAD A PROBLEM

WITH FOOD.

THAT'S WHAT'S
SO FUNNY.

YOU SEE, WHEN
YOU SAID I NEVER-

I ALWAYS HAD
A PROBLEM.

BUT YOU DIDN'T.

MOTHER...

WHEN DID
THIS START?

WHEN YOU SAY "ALWAYS"
WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

WELL, NOT ALWAYS BUT
WHEN NANCY WAS BORN.

YOU DON'T REMEMBER
I ATE MYSELF SICK?

THAT I HAD TO PLAY A
PUMPKIN BECAUSE I WAS

TOO FAT TO BE
ANYTHING ELSE

- YOU DON'T
REMEMBER THAT?

YOU WERE
NEVER REALLY FAT.

I KNOW THAT'S WHAT
YOU ALWAYS SAID.

I WEAR CLOTHES
TO CONCEAL IT.

I HAVE THIS JACKET ON
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU

TO SEE MY
FAT ARMS.

NOT LONG AGO I TOOK AN
LSD TRIP AND I THREW UP

FOR EIGHT HOURS STRAIGHT,
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

I FINALLY THREW
UP NANCY.

OH, MY GOD. I
JUST CAN'T...

I JUST CAN'T
UNDERSTAND THIS.

I JUST CAN'T
FATHOM IT.

I KNOW,
IT'S HARD.

IT'S MY PROBLEM,
I'M NOT BLAMING YOU.

I KNOW BUT I FEEL
SO SORRY FOR YOU.

DOES THAT MEAN I
WAS SO UNAWARE?

MEN THINK THAT I'M CRAZY
BECAUSE I'M OBSESSED

WITH MY WEIGHT
AND THAT I'M ALWAYS

VERY PARTICULAR
ABOUT WHAT I EAT.

I WAS SO
SECRETIVE.

EVERY TIME I OPENED
THE REFRIGERATOR

I'D THINK "WHAT ARE
YOU GOING TO EAT?

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO
EAT AGAIN, ARE YOU?"

"YOU BETTER
BE CAREFUL".

"ARE YOU
EATING THAT MUCH?"

I'M SO UNCOMFORTABLE
BEING HERE.

WHAT ARE YOU
ANGRY ABOUT?

HELENE'S
HUSBAND, FRANK.

DO YOU
KNOW FRANK?

OH, HE DRIVES
ME CRAZY.

I HAD AN AFFAIR
WITH HIM YEARS AGO.

IT WASN'T
EVEN AN AFFAIR.

HE FUCKED ME
AND LEFT ME.

HE DIDN'T EVEN FUCK ME,
HE JUST KIND OF LEFT ME.

WAIT A MINUTE,
WHEN WAS THIS?

THAT WAS ABOUT
15 YEARS AGO.

15 YEARS AGO HE
WAS A THERAPIST

AND YOU FUCKED FRANK
AND THEN HE LEFT YOU?

I FUCKED FRANK
AND HE LEFT ME

BUT HE WASN'T
A THERAPIST YET,

HE WAS STUDYING
TO BE A THERAPIST.

HE WAS GOING THROUGH
A REALLY HARD TIME,

HIS FATHER HAD WRITTEN
HIM A LETTER ABOUT

HOW TO BE A GREAT
GESTALT THERAPIST

AND HE COULDN'T
SLEEP AT NIGHT,

HE HAD MATTRESSES
ON THE FLOOR,

BLANKETS ON
THE WINDOWS

AND HE HAD BLINDERS
AND FANS ROLLING.

I MEAN, I HAD TO FUCK
HIM, HE COULDN'T SLEEP.

MY DADDY ALWAYS WANTED
MY SISTER AND ME TO BE

REAL PRETTY AND THAT
MEANT TO BE REAL THIN.

WHEN YOU HAVE A MOTHER
THAT HAS A WAIST

THAT'S 21 INCHES...

WHEN WE'D SIT AT
THE TABLE HE WOULDN'T

LET ME EAT BECAUSE
I ALWAYS WANTED TO AND

HE WOULD MAKE HER EAT
BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T WANT TO

SO SHE'D SLIP ME
BACON UNDER THE TABLE.

A MOTHER WHO GLIDES INTO
A ROOM LIKE LORETTA YOUNG

SHE COULD HAVE ANYTHING
SHE WANTED BECAUSE SHE

DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING BUT
I COULDN'T HAVE ANYTHING

I WANTED BECAUSE I
WANTED EVERYTHING.

WE'D HAVE A MARS BAR AT
THE TABLE AND SHE WOULD

CUT IT IN FIVE
LITTLE PIECES.

DADDY GOT ONE, I GOT
ONE, MY SISTER GOT ONE,

THERE WAS ONE
FOR MOTHER

AND THERE WAS
ALWAYS ONE LEFT OVER

SOMEWHERE HIDDEN
IN A BAG IN THE KITCHEN.

AND MOTHER WOULD MAKE
ME RUN AROUND THE BLOCK

TWO OR THREE TIMES
BECAUSE I'M HIGH STRUNG.

I NEVER FOUND
THE OTHER PIECE.

I HAVE A LITTLE EXTRA
BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR YOU.

DO YOU REMEMBER
HOW I USED TO SING

"THE WAY YOU
LOOK TONIGHT"?

LIKE A LOT?

OKAY, LET
ME SEE...

* SOME DAY WHEN
I'M AWFULLY LOW *

* AND THE
WORLD IS COLD *

* I WILL FEEL A GLOW
JUST THINKING OF YOU *

* AND THE WAY YOU
LOOK TONIGHT *

* OH, BUT
YOU'RE LOVELY *

* WITH YOUR
SMILE SO WARM *

* AND YOUR
CHEEK SO SOFT *

* THERE IS NOTHING FOR
ME BUT TO LOVE YOU *

* JUST THE WAY
YOU LOOK TONIGHT *

* WITH EACH SMILE YOUR
TENDERNESS GROWS *

* TEARING MY
FEARS APART *

* AND THAT SMILE THAT
WRINKLES YOUR NOSE *

* TOUCHES MY
FOOLISH HEART *

* LOVELY, NEVER,
NEVER CHANGE *

* KEEP THAT
BREATHLESS CHARM *

* WON'T YOU PLEASE
ARRANGE IT? *

* 'CAUSE I
LOVE YOU *

* JUST THE WAY YOU
LOOK TONIGHT. *

TO MOMS.

GOD BLESS YOU.

SHALL WE MAKE HER
SING ANOTHER ONE?

YES!

I PRACTICED THIS
SPECIALLY FOR YOU, MOM.

(PIANO MUSIC)

HI, WHAT ARE
YOU DOING?

EATING.

IN A BATHROOM?

I DON'T LIKE TO
EAT IN PUBLIC.

I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE
SWALLOWING.

I'M MORE
COMFORTABLE HERE.

THERE'S A SEAT.

YOU BINGE,
DON'T YOU?

NO, I'M JUST...

I'VE BEEN BINGEING
SINCE I WAS YOUR AGE.

I KNOW
ABOUT BINGEING.

PLEASE DON'T TELL MY
MOTHER I'M EATING.

SHE'LL JUST
GO CRAZY.

SHE'S REALLY
NEUROTIC ABOUT THIS.

ALL SHE CARES IS
THAT I'M SKINNY.

SHE DOESN'T CARE
ANYTHING ABOUT ME

AS LONG AS I'M SKINNY
'CAUSE SHE DOESN'T

WANT ME TO LOOK BAD
FOR HER, YOU KNOW?

AND IT JUST MAKES
ME WANT TO EAT MORE

'CAUSE SHE DOESN'T LET
ME BE WHAT I WANT TO BE.

MAYBE IF SHE WOULD
LET ME BE WHO I AM

I WOULDN'T
EAT SO MUCH.

NO, IT'S JUST
AN EXCUSE.

NO, IT'S
THE TRUTH.

SHE MAKES ME
FEEL SO MISERABLE.

I'M GOING TO
TELL YOU SOMETHING.

WHEN I CAME
HERE TODAY

AND I SAW MARTINE
IN A BATHING SUIT

I WAS SO JEALOUS I
COULDN'T STAND IT

AND SHE MAKES ME FEEL
LIKE I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH

AND THAT EVERYONE
HERE IS SO PRETTY.

THEY HAVE THE PERFECT
BODY, PERFECT FACE,

PERFECT HAIR, AND I
FEEL SO INADEQUATE.

YOU'RE CRAZY.

BUT THAT'S
HOW I FEEL.

AND YOU DON'T WANT
TO END UP LIKE ME.

EVERY TIME I SEE FOOD I
SEE IT AS THE ONLY THING

THAT MAKES
ME FEEL HAPPY.

I FEEL LIKE I GET SO
FULL I JUST FEEL SICK

AND IT'S THE ONLY
TIME I FEEL GOOD

IS WHEN I FEEL
SICK LIKE THAT.

HAVE YOU EVER
THROWN UP?

NO.

I DON'T
BELIEVE THAT.

YOU HAVE,
YOU'VE THROWN UP?

OH, NO.

YOU'RE SO YOUNG.
YOU'VE GOT TO STOP.

I KNOW. I JUST GET
SO SICK OF FOOD.

DO YOU KNOW HOW
YOU'RE GOING TO STOP?

I'M GOING TO QUIT
EATING ALTOGETHER.

IT'S THE
ONLY WAY.

I USE FOOD FOR EVERY
EMOTION I CAN THINK OF.

INCLUDING
STUFFING ANGER

WHICH IS A BIG
ONE FOR ME.

INCLUDING STUFFING
MY OWN POWER.

I DON'T LIKE THE
FEELING OF BEING

OVER
COMMENTED ON.

I FEEL LIKE MY BODY'S
BEEN COLONIALIZED

AND I RESENT IT AND
I REBEL AGAINST IT.

THE SCARY
WORLD IS OUTSIDE

AND I HAVE MY FOOD,
I CAN JUST REST

AND BE WITH GOD
AND GO TO SLEEP.

I FEEL LIKE I
NEVER HAD ENOUGH.

I DON'T WANT TO SAY I
HAVE A FOOD PROBLEM,

I FEEL LIKE I WANT
A LOT OF FOOD,

I FEEL LIKE I WANT
A LOT OF MUSIC,

I FEEL LIKE I WANT A LOT
OF FEELINGS IN MY LIFE.

SO I DON'T HAVE A FOOD
PROBLEM, YOU KNOW,

AND I RESENT ANYBODY
TELLING ME THAT I DO.

(PHONE RINGING)

(PHONE RINGING)

OKAY, EVERYBODY.
EVERYTHING'S READY,

THE FOOD'S OUT ON THE
TABLES IN THE DINING ROOM.

DON'T YOU EAT ONE.
JENNIFER MINKIN.

HELP ME UP.

NOW THAT YOU'VE
STABBED ME IN THE GUT,

LEAVING ME
LIKE THAT.

I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU TOO.

(EVERYONE
TALKING AT ONCE)

WHERE ARE YOU?

LOOK, I CALLED
THE FAIRMONT.

YOU ARE NOT AT
THE FAIRMONT,

YOU'RE NOT EVEN
REGISTERED AT THE FAIRMONT.

WHAT DO YOU
MEAN "FOGGED IN"?

THE AIRPLANES
HAVE INSTRUMENTS,

THEY'LL LAND.

WHAT DO YOU
MEAN "FOGGED IN"?

WHERE ARE YOU?

LOOK, FRANK, I WANT YOU
TO TELL ME THE TRUTH.

YOU TELL ME
EXACTLY THE TRUTH.

WHAT IS GOING
ON HERE?

I WANT TO KNOW EXACTLY
WHAT IS GOING ON.

YOU TELL ME.

WHAT?

(EVERYONE
TALKING AT ONCE)

OH, FRANK.

HOW COULD YOU
DO THIS TO ME?

HOW COULD YOU
FUCKING DO THIS TO ME?

PLEASE, FRANK,
LISTEN...

PLEASE
COME BACK.

PLEASE DON'T DO
THIS, NOT TODAY.

FRANK, I LOVE
YOU. I LOVE YOU.

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

OH, GOD.

OHHH.

OH, GOD.

(EVERYONE TALKING
AT THE SAME TIME)

(EVERYONE TALKING
AT THE SAME TIME)

I DON'T KNOW.

I WANTED TO
FIND ANSWERS.

AND DID YOU
FIND ANSWERS?

NO. JUST "I'M
OKAY, I AM OKAY,

I FEEL
PERFECTLY FINE".

YOU DO?

"YES, I DO."

YOU WANT TO TELL
ME WHAT'S WRONG?

HE, UH... HE'S
NOT COMING HOME.

HE'S JUST NOT
COMING HOME.

AND WHY
IS THAT?

IT'S BECAUSE HE DOESN'T
WANT TO COME HOME.

IT'S BECAUSE HE'S
FUCKING TIRED OF ME!

IT'S BECAUSE
HE'S HAD IT!

IT'S BECAUSE
HE HATES ME!

I DON'T KNOW WHY
IT IS, I JUST DON'T!

MY STORY IS ABOUT
STARVING AND BINGEING

AND STARVING
AND BINGEING.

MY LIFE IS ABOUT
STARVING AND BINGEING.

THAT'S IN
EVERY AREA -

WITH FOOD AND WITH
MONEY AND WITH LOVE.

LOOK, I'VE JUST GOT
TO GET SOMEBODY

TO BE WITH YOU, HONEY.
FOR MY OWN REASONS

I CAN'T DEAL WITH
THIS RIGHT NOW.

OH, GOD,
OH, GOD.

OH, PLEASE.

I WOULD TAKE BOXES
AND BOXES OF LAXATIVES

AND IT WAS A
PROGRESSIVE THING.

IT STARTED OUT WITH
TWO OR THREE LAXATIVES,

THEN IT GOT TO
100 AT ONE POINT

AND I WAS KILLING
MYSELF IN THE PAST.

IT'S A MIRACLE
I'M ALIVE TODAY.

THE ONLY TIME I
EVER STOPPED EATING

WAS WHEN I
WAS MOLESTED.

I WAS 15, I WAS
GIVEN A RIDE HOME BY

A BUSINESS MAN, I DIDN'T
THINK ANYTHING ABOUT IT

AND WHEN HE FORCED
ME TO DO SOME THINGS

I WAS TOO
SCARED TO SAY NO.

AND I DIDN'T FIGHT,
I DID EXACTLY

WHAT HE TOLD ME
'CAUSE I WAS SCARED.

AND I
STOPPED EATING.

I GOT VERY THIN, VERY
THIN, AND THEN PEOPLE

REALLY WERE REACTING
TO ME DIFFERENTLY

AND I COULDN'T
HANDLE IT.

I WAS ASHAMED
OF BEING THIN,

I WAS ASHAMED
OF BEING PRETTY

AND I ATE AGAIN.

NANCY SAID
YOU NEEDED ME.

WHY DID SHE
SEND YOU?

BECAUSE I'M
YOUR FRIEND.

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I DON'T KNOW.

I FEEL COLD.
I FEEL SO COLD.

WHAT HAPPENED? WAS
IT THOSE PHONE CALLS?

YEAH. SOMETHING TO DO
WITH THE PHONE CALLS.

OH, KATE...
OH, KATE...

WHAT ARE YOU
TALKING ABOUT?

I THOUGHT YOU
WERE MY FRIEND,

HOW COULD
YOU DO THIS?

WHAT ARE YOU
TALKING ABOUT?

I'M TALKING ABOUT
YOUR AFFAIR WITH FRANK.

WHAT ARE YOU
DOING, SOPHIE?

I THOUGHT
YOU QUIT THAT.

STOP IT,
I'M SICK.

I'VE GOT THE
STOMACH FLU.

YOU ARE SO
FULL OF SHIT!

YOU'RE
THROWING UP.

I'VE GOT THE
STOMACH FLU!

I'M SWEATING AND I'VE GOT
A FEVER, CAN'T YOU TELL?

I DON'T
GIVE A SHIT.

THAT'S NOT WHAT
I'M HERE FOR.

I JUST FINISHED
TALKING TO HELENE.

SHE SAID YOU TOLD HER
I'VE BEEN FUCKING FRANK!

I DID NOT.

YOU KNOW I AM NOT
SLEEPING WITH FRANK

SO WHY WOULD YOU
TELL HELENE I WAS?

I DON'T GET IT.
JUST TELL ME WHY.

I INSINUATED.

WHY WOULD YOU INSINUATE
IF IT'S NOT TRUE?

BECAUSE I'M A BITCH
AND I DO HORRIBLE,

EVIL THINGS AND I DON'T
KNOW WHY I DO THEM.

WOMEN DON'T TREAT EACH
OTHER LIKE THAT NOW.

WHAT KIND OF A
THROWBACK ARE YOU?

YOU'RE LIKE SOMETHING
OUT OF ANOTHER AGE.

WOMEN DON'T STAB
EACH OTHER IN THE BACK!

THEY DON'T LIE AND THEY
DON'T CHEAT ON EACH OTHER.

WOMEN AREN'T
SUPPOSED TO NOT INVITE

THEIR BEST FRIENDS OUT AND
NOT TO RIDE THEIR HORSES

BECAUSE YOU INVITE
EVERYBODY ELSE

TO RIDE YOUR
HORSES EXCEPT ME.

YOU AND HELENE GO OUT
FOR LUNCH ALL THE TIME

AND YOU
NEVER INVITE ME!

IT'S BECAUSE
YOU'RE A BACKSTABBER.

IT'S BECAUSE YOU DO
JUST WHAT YOU DID TODAY.

IT'S BECAUSE YOU
DON'T LIKE ME.

GUESS WHAT? YOU'RE
RIGHT. I DON'T LIKE YOU.

I KNEW IT.

I DON'T HAVE TO LIKE YOU
THAT MUCH AND YOU DON'T

HAVE TO LIKE ME, BUT YOU
DON'T MIND-FUCK HELENE

LIKE THAT BECAUSE
YOU'RE HER BEST FRIEND.

WHAT MAKES YOU
DO THESE THINGS?

YOU'RE SUCH
A GOOD GIRL

YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING
WRONG, DO YOU?

YOU NEVER DO
ANYTHING LIKE I DO,

YOU'RE
NEVER A BITCH.

YOU JUST HAVE
EVERYTHING, DON'T YOU?

YOU'VE GOT THE
HUSBAND, PERFECT HOUSE,

PERFECT RELATIONSHIP,
PERFECT SEX.

EVERYTHING'S
PERFECT, ISN'T IT?

AND I'M THE ONLY ONE
WHO'S NASTY AND MEAN

AND A BITCH AND
YOU'RE JUST PERFECT.

WELL, IF YOU'RE SO
PERFECT WHY HAVE YOU BEEN

TELLING EVERYBODY TODAY
HOW CONCERNED YOU ARE

ABOUT YOUR
RELATIONSHIP?

IF IT'S SO GOOD, IF IT'S
SO PERFECT, IF THE SEX IS

SO FABULOUS AND YOU HAVE
A MILLION WAYS TO DO IT,

THEN WHY ARE YOU
GOING TO RUIN IT, HUH?

YOU TALK ABOUT HIM BEHIND
HIS BACK ALL THE TIME

TO EVERYBODY.

DON'T YOU THINK
SOMEBODY'S GOING TO

TELL HIM HOW
UNHAPPY YOU ARE?

I'M JUST SO JEALOUS OF
YOU I CAN'T STAND IT.

YOU HAVE EVERY
SINGLE THING I WANT.

YOU HAVE THIS HUSBAND WHO
COMPLETELY WORSHIPS YOU

AND LOVES YOU AND
YOU DON'T EVEN CARE,

YOU'RE GOING TO THROW
THE WHOLE THING AWAY.

SOMETIMES I WANT TO
CHOKE YOU TO DEATH.

I DON'T TALK ABOUT
HIM BEHIND HIS BACK.

I LOVE HIM
AND HE KNOWS IT

AND EVERYBODY
ELSE KNOWS IT.

YOU QUESTION YOUR
MARRIAGE TO ANYBODY

WHO WILL LISTEN.

ALL YOU TALK ABOUT
VERY MELODRAMATICALLY

IS HOW UNHAPPY YOU
ARE IN YOUR MARRIAGE

AND YOU DON'T
KNOW IF IT'S RIGHT

OR IF YOU WANT
TO HAVE CHILDREN.

YOU'RE SO FUCKING BORING
I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE IT.

AND EVERYBODY THINKS
YOU'RE THE SWEETEST,

MOST TOGETHER, MOST
SANE PERSON HERE.

WELL, IF YOU
WERE SO SANE

YOU WOULDN'T
HAVE TO DO THIS.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED
SOMEBODY TO LOVE ME

THE WAY HE
LOVES YOU.

KATE, PLEASE HELP
ME. I'M SO SCARED.

I CAN'T STOP
THROWING UP.

I THINK I'M
GOING TO DIE.

I JUST DON'T BUY
IT ANYMORE, SOPHIE.

YOU'VE DONE THIS
TOO MANY TIMES.

I DON'T CARE
ANYMORE, SOPHIE.

JUST DON'T MESS
WITH MY LIFE.

(SOBBING)

WHAT DO YOU
THINK IT'S ABOUT?

LOVE.

SURVIVAL.

AFFECTION
AND POWER.

AND ATTENTION.

IT WAS MY PAL.

MY BEST FRIEND.

IT KEPT ME SAFE,
IT KEPT YOU AWAY

IF I WANTED
YOU TO BE AWAY.

IT FEELS LIKE THERE'S
LIFE IN THE HOUSE.

IT FEELS LIKE THERE'S
SOMEONE TO COME HOME TO.

IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE'S
COMING HOME TO YOU.

IT FEELS LIKE A HOLIDAY'S
ABOUT TO HAPPEN.

I EAT A LOT OF FOOD
BECAUSE I'M PISSED OFF.

FOOD FOR ME WAS LIKE A-
WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT NOW

IT'S LIKE AN ANGRY
LOVER, AN ABUSIVE LOVER.

AND FOR THE MOMENT
I GOT OFF ON IT

AND THEN AFTERWARDS
I FELT HORRIBLE.

FOOD IS
CONTROL TO ME.

CONTROL.

CONTROLLING MY RAGE
AND CONTROLLING ANXIETY.

SOMETHING INSIDE ME
THAT CAN'T BE SATISFIED

THAT ALWAYS NEEDS TO BE
COMFORTED AND SEDATED.

IT'S THE
FLOW OF LIFE.

DADDY APPROVAL.

FOR ME IT'S
QUITE NATURAL.

A SILENT
COMPANION, YOU KNOW?

IT'S HUNGER, IT'S
SATISFACTION, COMFORT.

PROTECTION.

LIFE.

COMPANY.

EVERYTHING.

ARE YOU OKAY?

YES.

I REALLY AM.

WHAT ARE YOU
GOING TO DO NOW?

EVER SINCE I WAS A CHILD
I'VE LIVED WITH OTHERS.

MY FATHER,
MY BOYFRIEND,

MY FIRST HUSBAND,
MY SECOND HUSBAND.

I DON'T THINK I'VE SPENT
THREE DAYS IN MY LIFE

WITHOUT A
RELATIONSHIP.

BEFORE I
MARRIED FRANK

I ASKED HIM FOR
A MONTH ALONE

BUT HE SAID NO, HE'D
WAITED LONG ENOUGH.

IT WAS NOW
OR NEVER.

WELL, I GUESS I
GOT MY WISH AT LAST.

TO BE ALONE, TO
SEE WHAT IT'S LIKE.

AND IT'S
EXCITING.

SCARY, BUT
IT'S EXCITING.

I STILL HAVE NO IDEA
WHO FRANK IS WITH.

HOW ARE YOU
GOING TO FIND OUT?

I'M NOT.

I'VE NEVER LIVED WITH
ANYONE IN MY LIFE,

YOU KNOW? I
MEAN AS AN ADULT.

LATELY I'VE BEEN THINKING
I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO

BECAUSE I WAS SO STUCK
ON MYSELF AND MY PROBLEMS

AND I THOUGHT I WAS THE
ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD

WHO WAS GOING
THROUGH THESE PROBLEMS.

AND SUDDENLY TODAY I
OPENED UP A LITTLE BIT

AND I REALIZED THAT
ALL THESE PEOPLE,

ALL THESE
WONDERFUL WOMEN

ARE GOING THROUGH
THE SAME QUESTIONS.

OR OTHER QUESTIONS,
BUT THEY'RE ALL

GOING THROUGH
SOME QUESTIONS.

AND I FEEL SO
CLOSE TO THEM.

AND IT'S SUCH A
WONDERFUL FEELING.

IT MAKES ME FEEL I DON'T
WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE.

I WANT TO BE ABLE
TO SHARE THINGS

WITH OTHER PEOPLE,
YOU KNOW?

I THINK I'M
READY NOW.

I THINK I DON'T HAVE
TO BE ALONE ANYMORE.

* SOME DAY WHEN
I'M AWFULLY LOW *

* WHEN THE
WORLD IS COLD *

* I WILL FEEL A GLOW
JUST THINKING OF YOU *

* AND THE WAY
YOU LOOK TONIGHT *

* OH, BUT
YOU'RE LOVELY *

* WITH YOUR
SMILE SO WARM *

* AND YOUR
CHEEK SO SOFT *

* THERE IS NOTHING FOR
ME BUT TO LOVE YOU *

* JUST THE WAY
YOU LOOK TONIGHT *

* WITH EACH WORD YOUR
TENDERNESS GROWS *

* TEARING MY
FEAR APART *

* AND THAT LAUGH THAT
WRINKLES YOUR NOSE *

* TOUCHES MY
FOOLISH HEART *

* LOVELY, NEVER,
NEVER CHANGE *

* KEEP THAT
BREATHLESS CHARM *

* WON'T YOU
PLEASE ARRANGE IT *

* 'CAUSE I LOVE YOU

* JUST THE WAY
YOU LOOK TONIGHT *

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