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I caught you.

Oh, I saw you looking.

Do you want to sign up?

Oh, no.

I'm not qualified, or I'm just not really 12 -week challenge material.

That could change.

So are you a student or staff?

I'm a MS1, yeah.

Hannah.

I'm Melania.

This is all for my psych MA.

Oh, so you're looking for guinea pigs.

What are you saying? You don't want to be my guinea pig?

No.

Well, maybe... Maybe leaning towards the F?

Maybe, depending on the scientific figure of the study.

Hmm.

Well, why don't you come by and find out?

The dead teach the living.

For the next 12 weeks, these generous donors will be your teachers and your

first patients.

You'll have the opportunity to honor their lives at semester's end, but until

then, let's remember to proceed with dignity and care.

Oh, we got a hefty one.

Let's start with our first incision down the sternum.

My eyes are burning from the themes already.

Let's hope for the sake of your future patients that the rest of you have a

delicate touch than this hitching here.

I got it.

Happy birthday, baby.

Thanks, Nikki.

This is for you, birthday girl.

Strictly speaking, it is a re -gift. What is it? Do you lack all self

with your heart?

Then let this card also help you out.

I don't know. How does it work?

Oh, like this.

This re -gift is backfired.

Okay, um, don't panic, but I think that girl's checking you out.

The hot one at the bar. She keeps looking at you.

You should go for it.

Go for what?

Don't get all pissy.

Come on, you're always talking about how you're all theory, no practice.

Like you're waiting for an invitation to some kind of initiation party.

I'm not.

I'm not waiting.

Well, then.

Here's your chance.

To put your theories into practice?

Fine.

I need the bathroom.

Oh, you are such a team. This is initiation day.

Hannah.

How have you been?

Good. I've been good. How about you?

How many years has it been?

Oh my God, Melissa.

Yeah. Hi.

I know there's something different about me.

You were really nice to me in high school.

A lot of people weren't.

A lot of people were assholes.

You can ask, you know.

What? How I lost the weight.

It's not that impressive.

There's these new pills called Grave.

A supplement.

Kind of pricey, but it makes you drop the weight like crazy.

Grave. It's not TGA approved.

Strictly speaking.

I was doing it too, but then I started taking the pill and no matter what I

the weight just melted off.

Do you want to try one?

I don't really... Do you remember this girl?

The girl that had bloody pads stuffed in her bag?

She doesn't exist anymore.

I'm a completely new person and it's thanks to those pills.

I'll take it back.

Take this one tomorrow.

My treat.

And tell me if you notice a difference.

It works that fast.

You'd be surprised.

Here we are.

Oh, no. There you go. Oh, yes.

Cheers, Chris.

you

I can't help but notice some people not using the potato masher correctly, so I

thought... just jump on and show you how it's done.

Dad? Mom?

Honey?

No flour, no sugar. I used beetroot instead.

No butter.

Can you tell?

It's yummy.

You don't like it?

You were too smart to be this stupid.

Some box doesn't just fade.

No, I'm hoping it's something a little more run -of -the -mill.

Seriously, though, I mean, this is all just, like, a bit gross.

You're banging.

Uh -huh.

Thinking of signing up to do this thing.

What thing?

Oh, just a gym program thing.

That's what all this, uh, diet pill bullshit is about.

That bouncy head trainer, Alana?

Alanya?

Huh.

Have you figured it out yet?

Getting there.

Not that.

Have you figured out whether you want to be with her or just be her?

Come on, let's go.

This one's eating itself.

Huh. High sodium, high potassium, mostly calcium phosphate.

What?

I think it's a hash.

What? Human ash.

Melissa's probably eating someone's grandpa.

Oh, ew.

Wait, are you going to report her?

It's just the sodium content alone should make you hungrier. If anything, a

of phosphate would be more likely to cause weight loss.

Okay, but, I mean, if you can't make it, who cares?

And not too deep. Make sure not to puncture her lungs.

It's too weird to think of her as a real person.

Well, we could name her, like the other groups did.

Guys, what about Big Bertha?

Maybe her family will show up when we do that memorial service.

Nah, Big Bertha's definitely unclaimed.

They'll be rolling her out for years.

Why would you assume that?

Oh, look at her.

You're a dick.

All right, ready?

Three, two, one, smile.

Last thing for today. Come on, finish strong.

Good job, everyone.

um um

One more.

Me?

Flatten the back, sink deeper.

Your progress is... I'm impressed with you.

You should be really proud of yourself.

Would you mind if I made a post about this?

Okay. Sure.

Let's take a photo.

Smile.

Here you get your lunches.

I wish you would tell me if you were coming to visit.

How could I tell you if you're not answering my calls?

Um, you don't have to do that.

Are you going somewhere?

I booked it.

Tonight? What?

Hana -chan, you were the one who told me I should go. No, no.

I'm happy for you. I just thought you... You said Dad couldn't be left alone.

I can't help him, Hana.

You don't know how hard it is for me.

I've been waiting to see that he was forced for twenty... Five years. Okay,

okay. But then... You'll check on him, won't you?

Yeah. Yeah, of course.

Once a week?

You know, your father won't.

We don't want to attract any hungry ghosts.

Hey, Dad, it's me.

Mom just came by on the way to the airport.

Do you think it might be a good idea to maybe just...

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We're still here.

Right. Look.

That's it. Push.

Push.

amazing.

All right.

Really nice, everyone.

Let's warm up with 1K on the rose.

Can I chat to you for a sec?

Yeah.

Hannah,

I'll be honest.

I'm a little concerned.

The rate that you're losing.

Have you been following the diet guidelines?

I'm following the guidelines.

How closely?

You haven't been skipping meals or anything.

Do you want an adherence percentage?

I have a duty of care to everyone in the group.

You know that, right?

Yeah, I'm sorry.

Whatever you're doing, whatever...

shortcut you think you've found, I promise you it is a bad path.

I'm not doing anything. Hannah.

I'm not doing anything.

That's bullshit.

Do you even realize the damage you could be doing to yourself?

All that I've done is exactly what you've asked me to do. I've been killing

myself for weeks because I thought that you would be...

Hannah, I'm not trying to make you feel bad.

Yeah.

Talk to me. You... You thought I'd be what?

Impressed?

Okay, should we join the others?

Come in.

I need to tie my shoes.

you

Not camp going well?

I quit.

Why?

Whoa.

Is it cancer?

Must be.

Looks fucking cool.

Professor?

Can you come look at this?

Wow.

Pretty advanced.

See this?

It metastasized to the abdominal wall as well.

Terrible way to go.

Grab yourself a plane.

Actually, I can't stay.

After bed press, in barbell squat.

Then one minute on the rower.

Then we'll be doing everybody's favorite, treadmill sprint.

Moving into boxing pad workout.

And then we'll be finishing up with some shadow boxing.

Any questions?

Let's get into it.

Hey. Heading home?

Hey. Yep.

Uh, sorry.

It's okay.

No, really.

About the other day, I... I wasn't trying to be harsh, but...

I know I came on too strong.

At least you weren't the only one.

Anyway, I, uh... I have this bad habit of telling other people how to live

lives.

But it's meant with love.

You have bad habits?

Yeah, I feel a little betrayed.

Wild, right?

See you tomorrow.

Thank you.

I'm so happy for you, Hannah.

Does this mean you got your hands on some grey?

Ash.

You know that's what it is, right?

Human ash.

What? Mel, who were you buying the pills from?

What do you mean human ash?

I tested it.

Did you notice any other side effects?

Like, um, nightmares?

Weird visuals, I guess.

Technically blackouts.

Blackouts?

Nightmares.

Well, sometimes I'd wake up in the middle of the night feeling really

Like... Like someone was watching me.

I had a similar feeling.

One time I was in bed and I heard someone whistling in the hallway.

Like this old timey tune and I thought it was my housemate but I got up to

and she wasn't home.

Spooky.

But I haven't had it since I stopped taking the grey.

Not at all?

Maybe you should go get yourself checked.

But honestly, you look amazing.

It's kind of worth it, right?

wouldn't recommend it.

Why is that?

Well, you see these smooth ridges here?

The tumor in your pancreas is benign and small.

It's an unnecessary risk.

What about the other symptoms?

Is it sleepwalking?

Well, I can see here that the results of your sleep tests were inconclusive.

I think we need to factor in other causes.

Diet, fatigue.

Drugs and alcohol.

I remember how much pressure I was under in med school.

On the oncology side, my recommended course of action is watchful waiting.

Yeah.

Can someone take over?

Whoa. Are you okay?

Hey. Oh, yeah. No, I'm fine. I just need a minute.

Come on.

Where are we going?

Have you eaten anything today? I am fine.

Just, I'm having a bad reaction.

To what?

Hannah, please tell me you aren't actually taking those diet pills.

You really, you really can't lecture me on pills. You look sick, Hannah.

This is like those scam -tastic cleansers that we used to make fun of,

worse. Way worse.

It is not a bad thing for me to want to change myself for the better.

It's my body. It is.

It is your body. Yeah.

But do you really think that you're going to magically feel better when you

reach a certain number on the scale?

Because if so, you're f***ed. Fucking deluded, Hannah.

I know you wish I were fat and miserable forever.

Oh my God, you use the word fat like it is a dirty word. Okay, that is the whole

problem.

Hannah, if you don't stop punishing yourself, you are going to destroy

everything.

Come in.

You okay?

Yeah. Yeah, of course.

You just seem a bit off.

I think off might be my equilibrium.

Okay.

Have a seat. Oh, you don't have to indulge me, by the way. We can go out.

Oh, no.

This is great.

Promise to keep my hands to myself this time.

I mean, are we committed to that plan?

Or is there some latitude?

Hannah?

Annie, I'm so sorry.

It's fine. It's fine.

Are you okay?

Leave it. Leave it. I can do that.

Really?

Dad? Anna?

Uh -huh?

Everything okay?

Everything's fine.

I just felt like a little trip.

I did what you wanted.

Are you okay?

Oh, fine.

I just, um, my pen.

Thank you.

Oh, dare I ask about the glass?

What is this?

What for?

I made you breakfast.

Not you feeding yourself.

I didn't even know you could cook.

Well, you think I can synthesize complex compounds? I can't.

I can't follow that simple recipe.

Are we fighting?

You've got to tell me if we're fighting, otherwise I'm just a little foolish.

It's only a meal, Hannah.

I'm just getting cold.

It's never just a meal.

Not with either of you, not ever.

Well, donate it then.

What's the matter? It matters.

You always pretend like it's nothing, but it has always mattered.

if you don't care about yourself that much, fine.

But why did you have to care so little about us?

Your mother is the one who's left. You left us a long time ago.

I'm still here. Until when?

Until when?

You can't sit by yourself like this in the dark forever.

I'm not going to sit with you here until the end.

You can say it.

Just say it.

I don't know what you're talking about. I'm sorry.

And you are right.

I need help. I am losing weight way too fast.

Jesus, Anna.

I told you not to take Melissa's pills.

They're not Melissa's pills.

I actually made them myself.

What do you mean?

You made them.

Like you stole an urn or something?

Please tell me you have not been eating all the cadavers.

One cadaver.

My God.

Hours.

Bertha. What the fuck?

How?

fucked up i know what you said about me the other day it is true i am fucked up

sometimes i feel like there's this like bottomless pit inside of me and

everything just keeps getting sucked into it and i thought that if i changed

myself then it would go away

You did fuck up.

Yeah. Like, catastrophically. Yeah.

But you're not fucked up.

There's a difference.

But you've stopped taking them, right?

The pills?

Yeah.

Um, there is one more thing.

Spiritually.

I can prove this to you, okay?

Look into this.

Just have to do this.

Just take a look into the reflection and tell me what you see.

I see myself.

Okay, Hannah.

Seriously, what are you doing? I'm measuring my blood sugar.

I have this theory that she calms whenever my glucose levels drop below 6

millimoles. I've been microdosing on bees to keep my blood sugar up.

Just keep looking.

What? At what?

All I can see is my face looking a bit freaked out, frankly.

There is nothing.

There is nothing, Hannah.

There.

What?

There.

You can't see that.

Hannah.

She is right there.

Okay, okay, but listen, because you are saying something that I can't...

Oh,

thank God. Thank God the fu -

So I've been keeping track, and there is a direct correlation.

The more calories I consume, the more weight I lose, and the larger she gets.

It's like she's devouring me from the inside.

I talked to Mel.

She said that she felt a presence at times, but it was nothing like this.

And everything stopped when she quit taking the pills.

Well, then what makes Bertha different?

What does she want?

Professor, I had a question for you about

the moment.

We were inseparable as teens.

She was the kind of sister who'd buy you booze.

Show you how to shove a tampon up your vag.

She worked in disability.

That was good for a bit.

And then the diagnosis.

Yeah, we saw.

In her liver.

Yeah.

Started small.

Just a tiny speck on her pancreas.

Grace spent her whole life taking care of other people, but she wasn't really

for taking care of herself, you know?

I think she carried a lot of pain.

And eating had always been her way of coping.

But it got really bad.

She stopped seeing everyone.

I don't think Grace ever made peace with herself.

She was so good.

And she never saw it.

And I couldn't help her.

You can't love someone into getting better.

Are you okay?

Think I understand why she latched on to me.

I need to return everything I took from her.

I have to head home for her ash, but could you pick up a few things for me?

text you a list.

Hannah, wait.

Mom.

Mom. You scared me.

What's happened?

Mom.

You're here.

Of course I'm here. I sent you my flight details.

I just, I didn't, I didn't think you were coming back.

You are being silly.

What about Dad?

He called just before?

We'll see.

You're so skinny.

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

You're not fine.

Is it a stress?

I told you not to study too hard, Hannah.

You always overdo it.

What are you looking for?

Did you go through my stuff?

Hannah, maybe we need to put the food on hold for a bit.

I asked you not to clean.

When I am not here.

You need to come home and rest.

I've never seen you so thin.

Oh, my God, Mom.

But that's what you always wanted.

Of course not, Anna.

You look like a different person.

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

What did you do with it?

What? The powder that was in the Tupperware.

The dust?

Yeah.

I was just trying to help you, Hannah.

What's going on?

Anna, stop!

Why didn't you tell me about this?

Is this bad?

Is this why you've been up so much to wait?

Are you dying? No, no, no, no, no. Look at the smooth borders, Mom. It's benign.

Soft as you see.

Someone's at the door.

Mom, wait. Don't!

Stay in there.

Uh, charge me whatever, Chris. Yeah.

Josie, hi.

Have you got any more of that ketamine?

Oh, right, you want to fill me in because I figured the cat wasn't for

celebrating. Think I figured it out?

Where the hell did you get that, Hannah?

Hannah, I just need you to trust me. Jules, can I see your phone?

Here.

What?

What the fuck are you doing?

I'm so sorry.

Just trust me, okay?

Oh, my God. Wait, are you already high?

Hannah, what?

Hannah?

Hannah, that is way too much.

I only need 20 minutes. Ha.

For what?

Hannah, 20 minutes for what?

I have a theory.

I told you it was a dead end.

But when I got the test done, they found a growth on my pancreas in the exact

same spot as Bertha.

What if the ash is what caused the tumor and I need to remove the growth to

break the connection?

That is not a theory, Ash. That is like far -fetched speculation at best,

Hannah. Please think about this clearly, okay? You can't just cut yourself open.

Elective surgery would be months away.

There's no way that I can last that long.

Hannah.

Hannah, no. No, this is... This is not cool, okay? You cannot put this on me. I

swear I will make you pay for like 20 years worth of therapy. Fucking decades

it, Hannah.

Look, I'll do all the work.

All you have to do is make sure that I don't bleed out after.

blood sugar.

What the hell were you thinking?

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

I'm gonna get you out of here.

we gather to honour the silent teachers who have profoundly shaped our

understanding of the human body and the art of medicine.

Each donor was a person with dreams, fears and stories of their own.

We do not know all the details of their lives, but we do know this.

In their final act, they chose to become our teachers.

They chose to leave a legacy of learning, compassion and healing.

To the families of our donors who have done today.

Your presence may help you.

Your love, love, love, love, love.

Hey.

Hi.

Come on in.

What's all this?

These are for you to replace what I... last time.

You really didn't have to. Right, sorry.

I couldn't remember everything you had, so I just went off of... The program

list, but if there's anything missing, I can just... Hannah, I don't need

groceries. Sorry.

You said.

I'm sorry for disappearing.

I was a little screwy, evidently.

But I really...

What were you doing at the gym before exams?

I wasn't at the gym.

I saw you go into the locker room. I called you, like, right after.

I should probably leave you to it.

Hannah, come on.

I want to understand.

Clever Completely

Thank you.