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[♪ Hope Watson sings "Let You Go"]

[insects chirping]

♪ Just because ♪

♪ I'm not enough ♪

♪ for you ♪

♪ doesn't mean ♪

♪ I'm not enough ♪

♪ I feel kind of...

[Charlie] What the fuck were you thinking?

What happened to
"we're never gonna tell Sam"?

♪ You'll never...

I had to tell him.

Why? So you could ruin his life?

No. You don't understand. He-he came to me

and had broken up with Taylor.

He was talking about second chances.

He ended things with her because of me.

I-I couldn't let him do that
without knowing the truth.

If he has any chance
of happiness with Taylor--

So then, I'm just collateral damage?

I know how complicated
this makes your relationship--

Do you actually? Because I'm pretty sure
Sam's never gonna forgive me.

You swore this was gonna stay between us.

I'm so sorry. I really am, but...

I-I just need to know, is-is Sam okay?

If you truly care about his well-being,

you'll go back to Seattle. Today.

You're fucking selfish, Percy!

♪ I'm not sure ♪

♪ if love has ♪

♪ a name ♪

♪ Mm ♪♪

♪ We're cool for the summer ♪

[♪ Demi Lovato sings
"Cool for the Summer"]

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Take me down into your paradise ♪

-♪ Don't be scared ♪
-♪ Don't be scared...

Whoo! I've never been happier!

I can't believe
this is gonna be our whole summer.

I can't believe you got Dad's boat
working again.

It wasn't that hard, really.
Just a few repairs here and there.

I know it looks like shit
from the outside now,

but I figured we'd sand it down
and put on a fresh coat of paint.

Yeah, we're here to help. Right, Sam?

[engine sputtering]

♪ We're cool for the summer ♪♪

[engine stalls]

[Percy] Uh, guys?

-[Sam] What's happening?
-[Charlie] Oh, shit.

Okay, maybe I didn't fix Dad's boat.

[laughs] Yeah, what gave you that idea?

So we're trapped out here?

Well, good thing we got oars.

Ready to get your workout on?

I'll be coxswain.

[laughs] She said "cock."

When will you ever grow up?

Hopefully never.

[Sam] All right, come on.

[Percy] All right,
put your back into it, boys.

[gentle music playing]

[Charlie sighs]

I'm guessing the engine's flooded.
I'm gonna go get some dry spark plugs.

I'll be back in a minute.

That's some impressive rope action.

[chuckles] You are easily impressed.

Cleat hitch is pretty much
day one boat stuff.

How lucky am I to have a boyfriend
who is both hot and smart?

Yeah, you are very, very lucky.

Master of maritime knots.

Full scholarship to Stanford.

Valedictorian.

How does one address
a boat expert valedictorian?

-Captain.
-Oh, so Captain Valedictorian.

No, no, no. Captain's just fine.

Will you still love my little,
old U-Dub state school self

when you're hundreds of miles away
at fancy Stanford?

Always.

[sentimental music playing]

I can't believe this is our last summer
before college.

We need to make it epic.

You know, revisit all our greatest hits.

I think we start with a rewatch
of the entire Halloween series,

but this time, we start
with the H2O timeline.

You hate this idea.

No, no, no. I think it's great.

It's epic, for sure. [chuckles]

Okay, something's going on with you.

So, spill. What's up?

I got into that summer intensive.

No way.

Okay, I'm officially changing
your boyfriend position

from "hot and smart"
to "hot and genius."

Didn't they only have room
for, like, ten people?

Yeah, and I get, like,
six hours of college credit.

I knew you'd get in. I'm so proud.

The only thing is, it...

starts in two weeks.

Wait, for how long?

For the whole summer.

Hold up, so...

So you're telling me, in two weeks,

you're leaving for good and we won't
see each other until winter break?

Maybe Thanksgiving. I know your parents
said they might want to come into town.

-Five months.
-Yeah, but we still have two weeks.

Look, we can fit everything in
on your list.

How long have you known about this?

I found out end of April.

So for the past six weeks,
you've been hearing me talk

about all the things we were gonna do,
and you've been pretending?

-I wouldn't say pretending.
-But you knew they weren't gonna happen.

Yeah, I guess I did.

Kind of makes me feel stupid.

I should've said something earlier,

but you were so excited and cute
with all your ideas.

I didn't want to ruin
what little time we had left.

So, you'll ruin our last
two weeks together instead. Cool.

I also sort of knew
you might react this way.

Oh, so you're blaming me
for you not telling me?

No, I j-- I was just dreading telling you.

Look, I know we don't have
the entire summer, but...

I promise, we will make
these next two weeks as epic as possible.

Twenty minutes max,
and we'll be back on the water.

Yeah, maybe tomorrow.

[somber music playing]

Finally told her, huh?

♪ ♪

I'm really gonna miss you.

I promise I'm gonna miss you even more.

I don't think that's possible. [chuckles]

Hey.

Look, we'll FaceTime every night.
And text.

I'll even record all my lectures, so
you can pretend like you're there with me.

The perfect bedtime stories.

I'm gonna be asleep in mere minutes.

I don't know, organic chem
sounds pretty riveting.

I mean, the structural properties
of carbon-containing compounds?

Come on, right? [laughs]

Hey, we're gonna talk so much,
you're gonna think I'm right next door.

Except you'll be nine hours away.

Why does this goodbye feel so final?

Hey, look at me.

We got this.

Okay?

[older Percy] I'll say goodbye
in my own way.

I can't show my face at the funeral.

Charlie's right.
It'll just complicate things.

Since when does Charlie Florek
decide what you do?

He doesn't. I think he's right.

Look, if you don't want to go
to the funeral, I get it.

We can leave whenever you want.

Thank you.

But what happened between you and Charlie
is not just on you.

Charlie was a part of it, too.

Look, he... he probably
leaned in first to kiss me,

and then, even if the kiss didn't even...

Leaned in to-to kiss you first,
is, uh... [sighs]

I'm just saying,
it's-it's probably his fault.

You okay? About the Jordie of it all?

Yes. Sure. Yeah. I...

[sighs] I don't know
what's happening with me.

If Charlie hadn't walked up,
I think my almost-kiss

would've been not so almost.

Are you... into Jordie?

Maybe?

I don't know. No. No, I'm not.

I can't be. I-I barely know him.
No. No, I'm not.

Okay, well...

Coming from someone
who made a rash decision

that affected the rest of their life,

just take a beat

before you blow up
your relationship with Drew.

I am nothing if not rational.

Beats happening in perpetuity.

-I don't want to talk about this anymore.
-Aw.

No. I don't want to talk about this. I...

-Let's just talk about you.
-[groans]

I prefer to be the cross-examiner
in this relationship.

Yeah, of course you do.

Charlie is acting like you're the bad guy
here, and-and it's not fair.

I hate that he won't admit
his part in this.

I'm not sure he can. It's too painful.

For who?

Percy, you cannot leave here without
telling Charlie what he needs to hear.

What-what is the point?

I just want to forget
all about Charlie Florek.

No. No, that-that-that's
one of the reasons

that you're here in the first place.

Your whole life was torn up by this, while
he went off and made a shit ton of money,

with a good job, in a gorgeous apartment.

The watch that he wears is 50K, while you

have spent the last decade stagnating
in a dead-end job with

hot but painfully stunted hookups
in a shitty fourth floor walk-up.

Hey. My apartment's cute.

The point is, you have lived with regret
for the last ten years.

Maybe confronting Charlie will
help with some part of that.

Help you move on. Get un-stuck.

What do you want me to do?

What, yell at him
on the day of his mom's memorial?

No. I want you to yell at him today.

Tomorrow, we're gonna be gone, and

you cannot let him
push this false narrative.

If it were me, I would rip him a new one.

[quirky, upbeat music playing]

You know what?

I will.

Yeah?

I'm gonna yell at him, and then, I'm gonna
leave here with my head held high.

Or at least less filled
with shame and regret.

-Good. Good.
-Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Okay. I'm gonna... I'm gonna go
get your stuff from Delilah's room...

-Mm-hmm.
-...and then, I'm gonna pack the car.

-Okay.
-Okay.

Um, oh, just, uh... tread lightly.

She was pretty fragile last night
after Whit kicked her out.

Good morning.

Um, h-hi.

Please come in.

Feel like I'm, uh, walking
into a Jordan Peele film.

Um, there's no basement in here, right?

You want a espresso?

Whit had this shipped from Milan.
It was, like, one of his favorite things,

and now it's mine.

[espresso machine whirring]

Uh, I actually just came
to get Percy's stuff.

Are you, you okay?

I am...

...making myself okay.

Right.

-Oh, you got the cups, too. Good job.
-[chuckles] Thank you.

Learned through careful observation.

My dad was married three times,

so I've seen every variety
of post-divorce meltdown.

That's helpful, I guess.

Oh, beyond. First was my mother.
She fell apart, cut all her hair off,

gained 20 pounds, and I'm pretty sure
has never had sex again.

-Rough.
-Mm-hmm.

Yes, and that will not be me.

-Of course not.
-Number two went scorched earth.

Bashed in the windows
of his mint condition 1967 Porsche Spyder.

Wow. That's very Britney Spears.

-I found it delightful.
-I agree.

And then wife number three.

-Masterful.
-Mm.

Just stuffed her anger and sadness
and hatred just way, way, way, way down.

Oh, that's healthy.

Always in a full face of makeup,
clad in tasteful clothing

with just a hint of sexiness,
and it drove him crazy

that she seemed like she was doing better
without him. And you know what?

What?

She walked away with half of his money,

the house in Bellevue, and both dogs.

Wow.

So, if I just keep it together
like Shannon...

Or I think it was... Sharon?

Shonda. I don't...

If I keep it together like her,
I'm golden.

-Another espresso?
-Yeah. Thank you.

I, uh... pulled out
some of Dad's old ties.

[somber music playing]

Maybe we could both wear one
to the memorial tomorrow?

Think Mom would've liked that.

I know you might never forgive me,

but I need you to know
that I did not set out to hurt you.

My whole life was spent
trying to protect you.

And... I blew it all up in one night.

Everything you're thinking about me,
I've thought of myself, only worse.

-So you're just gonna ignore me?
-Yes, I am.

Jordie said I could stay at the motel
until after the funeral.

[Charlie] No. Don't do that.

This is your home.
You were the one who always came back

-and took care of Mom when I--
-Selfishly lived your life

exactly how you wanted,
no matter who got hurt.

Like you always have.

I'll go.

Good.

[Sam] Hey.

I came by to see if you needed help
setting up for the memorial.

Is everything okay?

Yeah. Fine.

Perfect.

Okay, 'cause you just seem like--

Like someone who's looking
for the teal tablecloths

that I ordered for
your mother's memorial? Yes.

Can you look in that box, please?

I think they're on the table.

Those are aqua.

-Are those not the same color?
-No, they're not.

To a discerning eye,
they're very, very different.

Okay, look, I appreciate everything
you're doing here,

but I wouldn't stress.
I think those are just fine.

They're not fine. [scoffs]

Just, details are very important,
and I ordered teal, so...

Hey, I think maybe you need to relax
for a second.

[chair drags across floor]

Come sit down.

[Delilah] Wow, I had no idea.
That must... yeah, that must really hurt.

You know, when my dad died,
all I wanted was to be a cardiologist

so I could fix people's hearts, but...

...after all the studying,
I finally realized that...

...you can't really save someone
from heartbreak.

Nope, you can't.

I had worked so hard
to forget about Percy,

just to get out of Barry's Bay, but...

...you know, I really think
that I-I was just...

...trying so hard not to admit to myself
that this...

big, adult life that I'd sacrificed
so much for just wasn't working.

So I threw myself into taking care of Mom,
and I don't regret it.

Obviously, I'll always cherish
the time I had with my mom, but...

I do think that it was a little bit

of a noble excuse
to ghost the rest of my life.

Well, ghosting is kind of your MO.

I had a front-row seat to your breakups
with Percy, all of them.

Yeah, you did. [sighs]

She took it really hard, Sam.

[power tool whirring]

[whirring stops]

We were supposed to have the whole summer,
and now it's just gone.

You're being dramatic.

I can see why you and Sam work.

And you still have the whole summer.

Just not with him.

Yeah, I'm stuck with you.

Tragic, but this is my last summer
before I have to put on a suit

and rot in some corporate office that'll
hopefully pay me a fuckton of money.

I'm not going to waste it
watching you mope about Sam.

[whirring resumes]

Empathy is really your strong suit.

I'm just saying,
don't let him ruin your summer.

Or mine.

[whirring stops]

[music playing faintly]

You need to do something very un-Sam-like
to get out of your funk.

Why don't you help me fix the boat?

Yeah, manual labor is definitely not
Sam's first choice in summer activities.

Cool, meet me here tomorrow at 8:00 a.m.

I didn't know your species
could function before noon.

Only for you, Pers.

[sighs]

Have to go to a clambake tonight.

Oh, a clambake?

Where are we, the Hamptons?

[laughs] Yeah, I know.

These Seattle tech girls are throwing it.

I didn't have the heart to tell 'em
that up here we're all about the oysters.

Well, we all know you don't have
a heart, Charlie Florek.

[older Charlie] Goddamn it.

[door opens]

How'd you even find me?

Tried calling,
and it went straight to voicemail.

Figured this is where I'd find you.

Why are you even here?

We have nothing more to say to each other.

Well, that's just not fucking true, is it?

You may have nothing more to say,
but I do.

Know what?
I don't want to hear it.

You know what?
You don't have a choice.

[Charlie sighs] Percy, just go.

[Percy] No, I'm gonna say
what I have to say,

-and you're--
-No, don't let it...

...shut.

-Fuck.
-Wait, wait,

it still has the outdoor lock thingy only?

Mm-hmm.

-[handle rattling]
-So we're locked in here?

You mean you locked us in here?

[Percy] Don't you dare blame me for this.

Yeah.

No, I'll see you in the Keys.

Thanks, Liam. Okay, bye.

Uh...

I just closed
$40 million worth of business.

-Congrats?
-Yeah.

Uh, we-we bonded
over our mutual love of fishing.

You mean what you did
for the first time yesterday?

Yeah, it turns out that having interests

outside of work is actually an advantage,

like maybe there's something
to this work-life balance thing.

You want work-life balance
so you can get more work?

Exactly.

You're leaving?

Oh, uh, yeah, no, I can...

I... I've-I've got it.

Yeah, I was going to come by
in a bit to check out.

You can't.

I can't?

-No.
-Why?

-Oh, did Percy already do it?
-No.

Uh, yeah, okay.

[sighs] Jordie, about last night--

Yeah, uh, no, it's not about that.

It's about your final task of the official
Jordie Wirth Lake Life Seminar.

Well, tasks are my happy place,
as are seminars.

Mm-hmm.

Assuming certificates of completion
are also your thing?

Maybe with a little bit of calligraphy
and maybe a gold seal?

Okay, what is the final task?

You got to jump in the lake.

Oh, no, no, no, I-I, I don't do water
that is below 95 degrees.

-Can you give that to me in Celsius?
-You know,

I may have a, uh, brilliant legal mind,

but, uh, no, I could not give you your
temperature if my life depended on it.

Suffice to say, though,
I don't do water that's warm.

It has to be scalding hot.

You know, that certificate might even come
with some sort of frame.

Mm, it's tempting.

You know you want to.

Uh, maybe.

The lake is calling.

Me, you, the water.

Just us, no distractions.

[door opens]

-[door closes]
-[footfalls approach]

Hey, uh, Delilah.

Jordie and I were just talking
about going to the lake.

Would you want to join us?

The more the merrier, right?

You should just come with us.

[Delilah] That's a very kind offer.

No, I have a lot of organizing to do.

I have to get more hangers
for my more delicate fabrics.

Although I agree
that the hangers here are subpar,

because, well, they are,
you should just come with us.

[intriguing music playing]

Okay, yeah.

I'll just get my bathing suit.

-Great.
-[door opens]

[door handle rattling]

Help! Hello!

No one's coming.
You know that, right?

You could at least try calling someone.

With what service?

[Percy] Help!

-[banging on door in video]
-[man] What the hell's that, Ernie?

Front door.

[man] What the fuck are they doing?

-[Ernie] I'll find out.
-[paramedic] Listen...

-Oh, man, yes.
-[Sam] Oh. Oh, oh, no.

No, that is, that's beyond disgusting.

How are you gonna be a doctor if you can't
watch someone get their face eaten off?

Okay, that is not in the purview
of a cardiologist.

This is pretty much
a face-eating-free zone.

Hey, uh, Derek, hold up.

Did you finish that stats problem set?

It was gnarly, right?

Hey, uh, I got to go talk
to my buddy for a sec.

-Can we finish this tomorrow night?
-Yeah, sure.

Although you might have to...

-[horn honks]
-[siren wailing]

[tires screech]

[Percy] Hello.

I got your black, extra hot coffee.

Do you realize this is the order
of a 75-year-old man?

Shh. Caffeine first, talk later.

Okay, but it's, like,
third-degree-burn-inducing hot.

Mmm.

It's just how I like it.

All right. [exhales]

-You ready?
-Yeah.

Socket wrench.
It's the one with the round--

I know what a socket wrench is.

You're a cool girl.

Thank you. I know that, too.

[♪ Foster the People plays
"Sit Next to Me"]

♪ Yeah, it's over, it's over ♪

♪ I'm circlin' these vultures ♪

♪ Got me prayin', man, this hunger ♪

♪ and feelin' something rotten ♪

♪ Last time I saw you, said "What's up?" ♪

♪ and pushed right through ♪

♪ Then I tried to catch you ♪

♪ but we're always on the move ♪

♪ And now it's over, we're sober ♪

♪ Symptoms of the culture ♪

♪ And the night ain't gettin' younger ♪

♪ Last call's around the corner ♪

♪ Feelin' kind of tempted ♪

♪ and I'm pourin' out the truth ♪

♪ Just fadin' out these talkers
'cause now all I want is you ♪

♪ I'm sayin' ♪

♪ It's all right ♪

♪ Yeah, it's all right ♪

♪ Yeah, it's all right ♪

♪ It's all right ♪♪

[line ringing]

[Sam over phone] Hey, it's Sam.
Leave a message.

[Charlie] Let me guess.

My doofus brother
isn't answering the phone.

No, I was just calling my mom.

-Oh, really?
-Mm-hmm.

Isn't she teaching a seminar today?

Okay, fine, I'm pathetic.

You're not pathetic.

He is.

He's just really busy right now.

Too busy to call or text?

Sometimes.

And what's the ratio for
"I can't talk now" to not talking at all?

Pretty high.

Seriously, has he spoken to you about me
or about what's going on?

Come on, you have to know something.

Like, at least just from being a guy.

I don't know what's going on with him.

I don't know what's going on
in Sam's head.

But he shuts down when things get hard.

[♪ The Head and the Heart plays
"Rivers and Roads"]

♪ A year from now, we'll all be gone ♪

♪ All our friends will move away ♪

♪ And they're goin' to better places ♪

♪ but our friends will be gone away ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Been talkin' 'bout the way
things change ♪

♪ And my family lives ♪

♪ in a different state ♪

♪ Then we will not relate ♪

-[shouting]
-♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Rivers and roads, rivers and roads ♪

♪ Rivers till I reach you ♪♪

[banging on door]

[Percy] God, how the hell
are we gonna get out of here?

You know, at some point
Chantal will realize I never came back,

but that could be hours.

Yeah, and Sam doesn't give a shit
where I am. No one does.

Oh, boo-fucking-hoo.

You have nobody
'cause you're a selfish asshole.

-You did this to yourself.
-I did this?

You did this.

-You happy now?
-No.

I will not let you do this to me.

I may have shut that door today,

but how we got here, that's on both of us.

I spent the last ten years
beating myself up,

and I sure as hell am not gonna...

[tense music playing]

[panting rapidly]

I'm not gonna...

[groans]

[Charlie] Pers?

-[mutters softly]
-[banging on door]

[Charlie echoing] Percy, you okay?

What's happening?

Are you having a heart attack?

-[banging on door]
-Help! Somebody help us!

Help!

[shouts] Damn it!

-[gasping softly]
-Okay, just breathe.

I got you. I got you.

[Delilah] I can't. I can't.

I actually don't think
I've ever really been in the lake before.

How is that even possible?

-Hmm?
-You've been coming here for years, right?

I basically only really waded in 'cause
I wanted to seem like the cool, fun girl,

but my priority was looking cute.

For Charlie.

Well, and having wet hair
wouldn't have accomplished that.

I also don't think that any
of my bathing suits can actually get wet.

They're strictly decorative.

[Chantal] Yeah, um,

I have a rule where I don't swim in places
where I can't see the bottom.

Yeah, it's a lake.

I understand that.
I just don't know what's under there,

and it, and it's murky,
and murky scares me.

[stammers] Which is why I like the law,
because it's clear-cut.

[Delilah groans]

-Well, I'm going in.
-Uh...

-Oh, and he's, uh, he's off.
-[Jordie] Whew.

[grunts, laughs]

We're not really doing this, right?

Screw it.

-[Delilah chuckles nervously]
-[Jordie laughs] Yes!

-[Delilah groans]
-[sputters]

Well, you got to come all the way in,
otherwise it doesn't count.

-[Delilah] I'm scared.
-Come on. You, too, Chantal.

[Delilah] Yeah, you better.

[sighs] Fine.

[vibrant music playing]

-Oh! It's cold!
-[laughter]

Oh, my God, how did you just do that?

-[Chantal] It's cold, it's cold.
-[Jordie] Wow.

Just give in to the water.

-[chuckles] Are you ready?
-No.

Yes. Come on. On the count of,
on the count of three.

-[Jordie] You've got this, Delilah.
-Ready? Yep.

One, two, three.

[inhales]

-[panting]
-[Jordie] Whoo!

[whimpers softly]

-[Jordie chuckles]
-[grunts]

[Chantal] Delilah?

Are you okay?

[pensive music playing]

-[Chantal] You sure you're okay?
-[Delilah] Uh, yeah,

I-I just need to find my phone.

I-I'll catch up.

[Chantal] That was a delightful afternoon.

Almost as delightful
as that moment in a negotiation

when the lawyer across the table
realizes that I have him by the balls

and then he caves.

[Jordie] I think I'm glad to hear that?

Yeah, you would be if you were my client.

Okay, so where's this, uh, certificate
that you told me about?

I'll do you one better.

How about we go get drinks?

D, you okay?

Hey, what's wrong?

[crying] Stepmother number three
actually, um,

she ended up in rehab.

And her name was Siobhan,
it wasn't Shannon or Sharon,

it was Siobhan, and I...

I don't know, I just,
I should have remembered that

because she deserved a lot better.

[♪ Naomi Jean sings "Walk Away"]

And I, I should have remembered it.

[Jordie] Come on.
Let's get you back to your room.

♪ I shouldn't stay ♪

I really don't know what I would do
without you, Jordie.

Come on. You'd just have a golf partner
worthy of you.

♪ Shouldn't stay ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ It took all of my courage ♪

♪ to walk away ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Took all of my courage ♪

Hey, it's me.

♪ To walk away ♪♪

I think we need to talk.

You sure you're okay?

Yeah.

I'd offer you some water, but...

-don't have anything in here.
-[chuckles]

I'll be okay.

What just happened?

A panic attack.

Do you get those often?

Often enough.

They started after...

-I...
-We...

...ruined everything?

It was both of us.

I'm sorry that I wanted to just blame you.

I guess I just didn't want
to admit my part.

'Cause then I'd have to admit
why I did it.

And why did you?

Beside the fact that you've always been
the coolest girl I know?

[young Percy] Three, two,

-one.
-[engine starts]

[laughs] Yes.

-She lives.
-[shuts off engine]

-We did it.
-[laughs] Yeah.

Tomorrow we'll set her free.

Hey, should we smash
a bottle of champagne on the hull?

Fuck yeah.

You know, most people
wouldn't have stuck with this all summer.

Yeah, well, I'm not most people.

No, you're not.

You know, this has ended up being
a really good summer.

[atmospheric music playing]

[Sam] Percy, I've been thinking
about you so much,

but this summer's been hard.

When we talk, I can hear your
disappointment in me, and I hate that.

I hate disappointing you, but I have
to succeed here and I need to focus.

This is so much more challenging
than I thought,

so I think it's best if we stop talking.

Otherwise you'll be all I think about.

I'm so sorry. I thought I could handle it.

[line ringing]

[Jo laughs] Sam's phone.

-Who is this?
-Uh, Jo. Who's this?

I'm Sam's girlf...

-Where's Sam?
-Uh, he just went to get us some beers.

-He'll be back.
-Just give him this message for me.

Tell him this is Percy, his ex-girlfriend,

and you can't break up with someone
over fucking email.

-[shouts]
-[phone clatters]

When Sam hurt me, I would lash out.

I would kiss other boys

and shove a new boyfriend in his face.

Sleep with his brother.

I did this to you

because I was too insecure--

Stop beating yourself up.

We made a terrible mistake.

And I'm still trying
to figure out why I did it.

Was I jealous of Sam?
Of what the two of you had?

And that I couldn't
truly commit to anyone?

I don't know.

And I might never know.

But one thing I am clear on

is that this was not your fault

because you weren't
the only one who was there that night.

[radio static]

-[♪ Alyssa Trahan sings "Out of the Blue"]
-♪ Let me be the one...

[Charlie] Hey.

You're never gonna believe it,
but I actually got the radio to work.

-[turns off radio]
-Oh, shit.

What happened?

[somber music playing]

Sam broke up with me.

[♪ The 1924 Project plays
"I Hate to Lose You"]

-Cool.
-I mean...

Wow.

-Cheers.
-Cheers.

Hmm.

You know what gets me?

He robbed me of my last summer.

Our... last summer.

I know he's my brother,
but fuck him for that.

An email breakup?

I mean, that is
a total cowardly dick move.

You deserve better.

And when he's back in town,
I'm gonna kick his ass.

Fuck him.

Know what? If it wasn't for you,
I would've spent this entire summer

obsessing over him,

parsing every email
and checking every text,

checking my phone constantly.

So, thank you

for saving me from myself.

I try.

No, really. I had fun.

You're fun.

I mean, it's kind of my thing.

And you're annoyingly good at it, too.

[laughs softly]

♪ Its petals close, dear...

Sam and I,

we weren't fun.

We used to be.

♪ And I'm so used to your kisses...

But lately
everything's been so heavy and serious.

"Summer" and "serious"
should never be used in the same sentence.

Agreed.

And this summer,
for the first time in a long time,

I remembered what it was like to just...

...be here.

And to be fun.

I'm glad.

I'm glad, too.

♪ You're all I've ever been thinkin' of...

So, thank you...

...saving my summer.

♪ Just like the rose,
dear, that's used to sun ♪

Percy.

♪ Its petals close, dear ♪

♪ when summer is done ♪

-What about--
-I don't care.

♪ And I'm so used to your kisses ♪

♪ All the others seem strange ♪

♪ Used to your lovin',
and I don't want to change ♪

♪ I hate to lose you ♪

♪ I'm so used to you now ♪♪

I left the next morning.

Pretty much didn't come back for years.

I missed so much time

with Sam...

...and my mom.

I'm sorry.

[sniffles]

I just didn't know how to cope.

And so I threw myself into work

and convinced myself
that if I supported Sam and his dreams,

that... it would make up for what I did.

I found it pretty hard to cope, too.

It's why my parents sold the house.

What happened?

I...

I don't know. I don't... know.

[♪ Anthony Lazaro sings "My Bride"]

I started having these... episodes

where I felt like I couldn't breathe.

And then my mom had these pills,

and I thought, maybe if I took a bunch,

I wouldn't feel so much,

so I...

My parents were terrified. They thought...

this place was bad for me,
you know, dangerous.

This place?

Or us?

I guess both, you know?

Um, so we left, but the panic never left.

And I guess it's 'cause I never really
dealt with what I...

did, I never--

Percy.

You have to forgive yourself.

How can I ever forgive myself
when I know Sam never will?

How can I ever move on when I love him?

When I've... I'm always gonna love him.

Okay. Okay.

It's okay.

[exhales]

♪ And my heart will learn ♪

♪ to love you more ♪

♪ with every turn of summer ♪

♪ My arms will learn to hold you still ♪

♪ Fight the winter and help you heal ♪

♪ Oh, my heart will try to love you more ♪

♪ with every turn of summer ♪

♪ My arms will learn to hold you still ♪

♪ Fight the winter ♪

♪ Oh, my heart ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ My heart ♪

♪ My heart ♪

♪ My heart ♪

♪ Oh ♪♪

♪ ♪