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["GIRL" PLAYING]
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♪ Girl ♪
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♪ Perfectly her ♪
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[GRUNTS]
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♪ Broken and hurt ♪
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[PAULA LAUGHING]
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♪ Soft and asleep in the morning gray ♪
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♪ Shake off the night
And don't hide your face ♪
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♪ The sun lights the world
With a single flame ♪
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♪ I want you to see this ♪
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♪ I want you to see this ♪
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[ENGINE STARTING]
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♪ Today ♪
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♪ And all of your days ♪
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♪ I'll wear your pain ♪
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♪ Heal what I can in your troubled mind ♪
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♪ Sometimes our bodies
Will hurt for some time ♪
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♪ And the beauty in that
Can be hard to find ♪
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♪ I want you to know this ♪
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I'm Denise.
I'm a survivor of domestic violence.
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ALL: Hi, Denise.
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Hi, Denise.
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Does anyone want to share anything today
before we start with our special activity?
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Okay. Then I'll turn this over to Alex.
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Let's give her a warm welcome.
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[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
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Thanks, guys.
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I'm Alex and I am a survivor
of domestic violence.
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ALL: Hi, Alex.
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I asked Denise
if I could do some volunteer work and...
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I meant cleaning the toilets, but...
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Denise said that I should do this instead
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and I said "no," and she said "yes,"
and here we are.
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Show them your serial-killer notebook.
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She says my writing looks like
a serial killer's, so...
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Damn, you wrote all that?
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I did. Yes. I wrote this just
since I've been at McMullen House.
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Do any of you guys write for fun?
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Brandi, you do not need
to raise your hand.
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I had a diary in 5th grade.
It was furry and pink.
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It had a little lock on it.
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- Yeah. Me too. I had one of those.
- Mm.
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ALEX: Here's the hard question.
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Who were you writing to when you wrote?
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Nobody. Just myself.
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Yeah, same.
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Writing is where I go to be honest
about how I feel.
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Sometimes it's really the only way for me
to know what it is that I'm feeling.
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Like I have to write
in order to see what I'm gonna write.
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If that makes any sense.
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But...
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I find that it's a lot easier to write
the truth than it is to say it out loud.
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Nobody can take writing away from you.
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Nobody can tell you that you're wrong,
or your words are wrong.
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Because they're not.
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You're right,
and your words are fucking right.
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Because they're yours.
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Anyway, we all have notebooks and pens.
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Are we gonna read this out loud?
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You can if you want to, but you definitely
don't have to if you don't want to.
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Okay, so I brought some writing prompts
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that I got from a real professor
from the Internet
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that is qualified to be teaching things.
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Okay. Describe a day in your life
that you were really happy.
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It can be a real day
that actually happened.
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Or an imagined day
that you wish would happen.
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I'm gonna put ten minutes on...
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the clock.
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There's no pressure, we're just
writing for the sake of writing.
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DENISE: That was great.
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- Can I ask something? You have a minute?
- Of course.
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I know the answer to this already,
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but we're not allowed to have
any visitors at the shelter, are we?
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No. I'm sorry, baby girl.
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We can only have individual victims
and their children in shelter.
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- Figured.
- Why?
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Um, I just found out
that my mom's living in a car.
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Sorry to hear that.
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Thanks.
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Is she a victim of DV?
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She's a chronic victim of DV,
but she's also in complete denial
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and delusional and unmedicated, so...
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Is she over 55?
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Mm-hm.
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They have a program called SHARE that
puts homeless folks at senior centers,
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but she has to enroll.
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Yeah. Ah...
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She really hates
everything government-oriented
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and she's on the lam from a psych ward,
so that's not gonna work out.
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Thank you.
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Is there anyone else that
can look after your mom?
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No, I've been taking care of her
since I was 6.
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What would happen if you didn't?
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PAULA: I think I'll do something,
I don't know,
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something spectacular when I walk in.
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They come in really strong. [LAUGHS]
Yeah, that's a good idea, so...
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Oh, shit, man.
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- Hey, Mom.
- Alex, hey.
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I thought that was you, I was just driving
home from a clean and I saw your car.
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She's hard to miss.
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- What are you up to out here?
- Oh, well, look at Her Majesty.
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Spring has sprung.
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It's gonna be a cotton-candy sunset,
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and I'm gonna watch
every sugar-coated moment of her.
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Looks like you were talking to the birds.
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Oh, no, honey.
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I downloaded that
dictation app onto my phone.
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Because I'm giving a lecture
on the Neolithic concept
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of the solar barge to the collective.
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And, um,
I would write this one, but I can't.
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Because my fucking arm's killing me.
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Oh, where's your cast, Mom?
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Where did your cast go?
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Oh. [CHUCKLES]
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It was plastered to your wrist.
Where did it go?
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Uh...
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I had a terrible itch,
so I had Micah saw it off.
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I have to say, it was oddly erotic.
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Are you kidding me?
The cast has to be on for six more weeks.
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- It's fine.
- No, that's not fine.
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You have a severed tendon and now
your tendon is not gonna heal.
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If you're gonna ruin
the cotton candy, you're gonna have to go.
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I'm, um...
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I'm glad that I ran into you.
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I know that you have a great
living situation in your loft
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with your collective, but, um...
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I told you I'm moving to Montana.
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What if you came with me?
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I've got a place on campus.
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You could hang with Maddy
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and you could go on walks
and you could paint all day.
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Watch Maddy start kindergarten.
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Oh, babe, that's not me.
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Why not?
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Because I'm not boring.
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I've got a big life.
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I can't be galloping off behind you,
being a tag along.
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No, Mom. I'm really serious.
I'm inviting you.
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My blood's here, honey.
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My mama's buried here.
Her mama's buried here.
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The Langley women are here.
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I am a Langley woman and I am going.
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I know, baby, and that's you.
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But, uh...
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I can't leave.
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Okay.
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Go to some appointments before I leave.
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- Like the wrist doctor.
- Hard pass.
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I'm making you an appointment
for tomorrow, okay?
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You're gonna meet me there.
Nod that you hear me.
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I don't wanna have to worry
about you when I'm gone, Mom.
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PAULA: Look at that. Cotton candy.
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We're starting here, and then
we're gonna go over some mountains.
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We're gonna go to Spokane,
which is a really big city.
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Then we're gonna go over more mountains.
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Then over some more mountains.
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All the way to Missoula.
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- Mm-hm.
- Right there.
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Missoula.
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Missoula.
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It's gonna take us this many hours.
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Two. Three. Four. Five.
Six. Seven. Eight. Nine.
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Nine hours.
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- MADDY: And "Shoop."
- Exactly.
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["HELLO HELLO HELLO" PLAYING]
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♪ There he go, my baby
Never answers in the room ♪
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♪ Steps outside or puts it on snooze ♪
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♪ He just do whatever he do ♪
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♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪
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♪ How's my little lady
In the New York snow?" ♪
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♪ Yeah, he says
"I love you, I love you loads" ♪
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♪ We got a certified gambler
Messin' with me ♪
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♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪
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♪ I got one foot in and one out the door ♪
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♪ I think it's 'bout time
That I take control ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm a certified gambler
Fuckin' with three ♪
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No!
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♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪
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[GROANS]
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♪ But my baby miss me more
Than he misses his job ♪
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♪ Makin' pizza in the Bronx ♪
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♪ He just has to call me up ♪
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♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪
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♪ How's my little lady
Playin' rock 'n' roll? ♪
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♪ Or maybe these days
You like pop and soul?" ♪
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♪ He's a certified gambler
Messin' with me ♪
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Hi, I'd like to place an order
for English 102, Block 5, textbook.
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For books?
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Do you have any used copies?
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Great, um, would you mind
setting one of those aside?
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I can be there on Tuesday.
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Thank you.
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[CELL PHONE BUZZING]
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- Hey, Tara.
- TARA: Oh, good, hi.
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Just a quick update for you.
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I just got back from the clerk's office.
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- Uh-oh.
- No, it's fine.
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They objected to the notice of relocation,
which we knew,
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but the motion for the ex parte
emergency custody order
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has been filed and I also slapped him with
a temporary no-contact order,
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so that ought to make a point.
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- So he can't contact me?
- Correct.
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The sheriff should be serving him
with the restraining order
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and the ex parte motion this morning.
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Okay. Uh...
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- So, what happens now?
- We wait.
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I left word for Sean's attorney.
We should know more soon.
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Okay, thank you so much.
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Yeah, no problem, bye.
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Brandi, I think you were next, right?
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I don't know if this
is my happiest day ever,
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but it's what came to my mind during then.
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Perfect.
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"I used to go on these walks
with my dad as a kid.
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We'd go in June before
the sticky late-summer heat.
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I'd get one of those Flintstone
orange popsicles from 7-Eleven.
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The kind you have to use
all your might to push up.
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We'd walk along the ocean
looking at the Virgo constellations,
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since my birthday is four days before his.
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My dad would point to the sky and tell me
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he was the Big Dipper
and I was the Little Dipper.
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[VOICE BREAKING] We stopped
going on our walks when my dad got sick.
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But I went back recently with my son.
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Got him a Flintstone orange popsicle.
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They're much easier to push up now.
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I looked up at the night sky,
and there it was...
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as if zero time had passed.
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The Big and Little Dipper."
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That's it.
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[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
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So of course we wanna keep
everything that we say positive,
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but I was hoping that
we could say some of the images
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that are gonna stay with us
from Brandi's story.
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"Sticky late-summer heat."
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"They're much easier to push up now."
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[ALL LAUGHING]
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"Zero time had passed."
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"Big and Little Dipper."
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Does anybody else wanna share?
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[LINE RINGING]
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[AUTOMATED VOICE]
Please leave a message after the tone.
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[VOICEMAIL BEEPS]
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[PEOPLE CHATTERING]
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Mom.
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Mom!
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Hey, honey.
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Don't. We're going to the doctor.
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- What doctor?
- The doctor that you just stood up.
249
00:15:01,942 --> 00:15:04,403
She can see you at 4:00,
but we have to leave right now.
250
00:15:04,486 --> 00:15:06,447
It's Thursday. I didn't say I was going.
251
00:15:06,530 --> 00:15:08,991
We have the booth on Tuesdays,
Thursdays and Saturdays.
252
00:15:09,074 --> 00:15:10,784
And I'm not abandoning Micah.
253
00:15:10,868 --> 00:15:13,871
- Come meet my daughter.
- We met the other day.
254
00:15:13,954 --> 00:15:14,788
Oh.
255
00:15:14,872 --> 00:15:17,041
Mom. Please, can we go?
256
00:15:17,124 --> 00:15:20,920
Uh, why have you got glitter all over?
Did you go to a rave?
257
00:15:21,003 --> 00:15:23,422
- I cleaned a playroom.
- PAULA: You know what glitter is?
258
00:15:23,505 --> 00:15:26,842
- It is the lice of the art room.
- You gave me your word. Come on.
259
00:15:26,926 --> 00:15:29,511
- You spread it wherever you go.
- Would you grow up?
260
00:15:29,595 --> 00:15:31,388
- We gotta go.
- You're the one with glitter.
261
00:15:31,472 --> 00:15:34,099
Get in my car and I'm gonna
drive you to the doctor.
262
00:15:34,183 --> 00:15:36,560
You're not the boss of me. Okay?
263
00:15:36,644 --> 00:15:38,062
It's my arm that hurts.
264
00:15:38,145 --> 00:15:41,982
I'll take CBD or go to the doctor
or I'll cut the fucker off.
265
00:15:42,066 --> 00:15:44,610
Just because you're on some timer
because you're leaving,
266
00:15:44,693 --> 00:15:46,737
doesn't mean I am. I am fantastic.
267
00:15:46,820 --> 00:15:49,531
For God's sake,
just worry about somebody else. Please.
268
00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:51,367
- MICAH: Babe.
- Oh, sorry, honey.
269
00:15:51,450 --> 00:15:54,161
I'm working. I've got a job here, okay?
270
00:15:54,828 --> 00:15:55,828
Hi there.
271
00:15:55,871 --> 00:15:57,081
[CELL PHONE BUZZING]
272
00:15:57,164 --> 00:16:00,376
You got a nice smile. Look at your smile.
273
00:16:01,043 --> 00:16:02,878
- Tara?
- TARA: Uh, change of plans.
274
00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:05,506
Do you think you could meet me
near my office on Whitby?
275
00:16:05,589 --> 00:16:06,840
Is everything okay?
276
00:16:08,050 --> 00:16:09,677
I spoke to Sean's attorney.
277
00:16:09,760 --> 00:16:13,097
They are moving to reject
the ex parte motion altogether,
278
00:16:13,180 --> 00:16:15,140
citing lack of evidence of abuse.
279
00:16:15,224 --> 00:16:18,394
And Sean is unwilling
to revise the parenting plan
280
00:16:18,477 --> 00:16:20,813
or give up any of his custodial rights.
281
00:16:22,856 --> 00:16:24,566
Okay.
282
00:16:24,650 --> 00:16:25,776
Thanks.
283
00:16:25,859 --> 00:16:28,779
I'm sorry. So, what does that mean?
284
00:16:28,862 --> 00:16:31,657
It means that he says you're lying
about being abused.
285
00:16:31,740 --> 00:16:34,827
So there will be
an adequate-cause hearing in 14 days
286
00:16:34,910 --> 00:16:38,038
to determine the validity
of your claims and appropriate custody.
287
00:16:38,122 --> 00:16:41,959
And it's gonna be
what we call a win-loss case.
288
00:16:42,710 --> 00:16:45,713
If you lose,
you can't take Maddy anywhere.
289
00:16:47,965 --> 00:16:49,049
Uh, ever?
290
00:16:49,133 --> 00:16:51,552
Washington makes it very hard
for victims of DV.
291
00:16:51,635 --> 00:16:53,303
Particularly in cases of emotional...
292
00:16:53,387 --> 00:16:56,890
I'm aware, I've been through this and lost
because I didn't have any bruises.
293
00:16:56,974 --> 00:16:58,559
You're not gonna lose.
294
00:16:58,642 --> 00:17:00,936
We have 14 days to make a solid case.
295
00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,731
Someone must have seen this guy
emotionally abuse you.
296
00:17:03,814 --> 00:17:06,233
I don't have 14 days.
I leave for Montana on Monday.
297
00:17:06,316 --> 00:17:09,028
Legally, you can't go anywhere with Maddy.
298
00:17:09,111 --> 00:17:10,487
Not before the hearing.
299
00:17:14,783 --> 00:17:20,289
I am gonna lose my family housing
and my spot in school. I'm...
300
00:17:20,372 --> 00:17:22,541
- Yes.
- Another one.
301
00:17:23,417 --> 00:17:26,003
I have to leave the shelter this weekend.
302
00:17:26,086 --> 00:17:29,631
What do you think that I should do?
I don't have a backup plan here.
303
00:17:29,715 --> 00:17:31,133
We're gonna fight this.
304
00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:33,844
I'm gonna get you there by fall semester.
305
00:17:33,927 --> 00:17:37,556
I just took out a $9000 student loan,
$9000.
306
00:17:37,639 --> 00:17:40,184
I don't know if you realize,
but this is my fucking life.
307
00:17:40,267 --> 00:17:42,686
I'm not rich like you and Regina.
I can't repay this.
308
00:17:42,770 --> 00:17:43,896
There's more.
309
00:17:43,979 --> 00:17:46,565
Sean is demanding visitation with Maddy.
310
00:17:48,150 --> 00:17:51,070
No. We have a restraining order, so, no.
311
00:17:51,153 --> 00:17:53,030
It only applies to you, not to Maddy.
312
00:17:53,113 --> 00:17:55,783
The court has approved
a four-hour visitation.
313
00:17:57,534 --> 00:17:58,660
When?
314
00:17:58,744 --> 00:17:59,744
Tomorrow.
315
00:18:00,245 --> 00:18:03,290
They will appoint a third party,
neutral supervisor,
316
00:18:03,373 --> 00:18:05,626
unless you have someone you could use?
317
00:18:05,709 --> 00:18:07,211
- A grandparent?
- Not doing that.
318
00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:08,670
I can't do that to her.
319
00:18:08,754 --> 00:18:11,924
If you don't comply, you will be
in violation of your parenting plan,
320
00:18:12,007 --> 00:18:16,345
which will not look good
for the hearing in 14 days.
321
00:18:16,428 --> 00:18:18,722
Alex, I'm sorry that
this is happening, but...
322
00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:21,183
it's not over.
323
00:18:21,266 --> 00:18:22,643
It's just a speed bump.
324
00:18:27,981 --> 00:18:29,983
[EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING]
325
00:19:09,106 --> 00:19:11,233
- Oh.
- It's just me.
326
00:19:11,316 --> 00:19:14,027
Alex. Shit. Good God.
327
00:19:16,738 --> 00:19:18,532
You scared the shit out of me.
328
00:19:18,615 --> 00:19:20,242
What are you doing here?
329
00:19:21,285 --> 00:19:23,078
I need your help.
330
00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:24,413
What are you doing here?
331
00:19:24,496 --> 00:19:30,085
Oh, I had one too many margaritas
and I just pulled over here to...
332
00:19:31,253 --> 00:19:33,172
sleep it off on the way home.
333
00:19:34,089 --> 00:19:36,884
- Mom.
- I know this doesn't look good.
334
00:19:36,967 --> 00:19:37,967
It's just, um...
335
00:19:39,011 --> 00:19:43,098
the collective gets noisy
and I come here...
336
00:19:43,932 --> 00:19:44,932
to nap.
337
00:19:46,101 --> 00:19:48,687
I know you sleep here,
you spend all day in the park alone,
338
00:19:48,770 --> 00:19:50,689
and that there's no collective.
339
00:19:56,320 --> 00:19:57,321
Well...
340
00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:03,035
maybe "collective" isn't the right word.
341
00:20:04,828 --> 00:20:10,334
You know, we've really got
a nice group of people here.
342
00:20:10,417 --> 00:20:11,460
Honestly...
343
00:20:12,085 --> 00:20:15,422
We've got the Flores family over here,
in the van.
344
00:20:15,505 --> 00:20:17,966
Billy and Anna. I just love them.
345
00:20:18,050 --> 00:20:21,845
You know, we look out for each other
and it's like a...
346
00:20:21,929 --> 00:20:26,350
I don't know, a big sleep-out
or a drive-in movie theater.
347
00:20:26,433 --> 00:20:27,935
We just need popcorn.
348
00:20:29,603 --> 00:20:31,271
Why can't you take care of yourself?
349
00:20:32,022 --> 00:20:35,359
What do you mean?
You know, I've got my cooler in here.
350
00:20:35,442 --> 00:20:37,819
I've got my vitamins, baby.
351
00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:40,197
Cozy blanket and my fucking good weed.
352
00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:42,074
- I'm fine.
- You're homeless.
353
00:20:42,157 --> 00:20:43,700
You're living in your car.
354
00:20:43,784 --> 00:20:46,036
- Would you just stop?
- No. Please.
355
00:20:47,204 --> 00:20:48,622
I love my car!
356
00:20:49,456 --> 00:20:51,375
She's my cobalt bitch.
357
00:20:51,458 --> 00:20:53,460
- We're like family.
- You're homeless, mom.
358
00:20:53,543 --> 00:20:56,588
- Would you please just stop!
- You're homeless.
359
00:20:56,672 --> 00:20:58,882
I'm under the stars. I'm independent.
360
00:21:01,510 --> 00:21:03,679
And it's not all the time. I mean...
361
00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:06,265
sometimes I stay with Micah.
362
00:21:07,641 --> 00:21:09,309
When Alaina-May's not there.
363
00:21:09,393 --> 00:21:13,981
- Who the fuck is Alaina-May?
- I told you. His wife.
364
00:21:14,064 --> 00:21:19,820
They broke up, but she still stays there
because she's a feral dumpster fire.
365
00:21:19,903 --> 00:21:21,822
The point is, honey, I...
366
00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:28,370
You know, I like being a gypsy.
I like being mobile. Okay?
367
00:21:28,453 --> 00:21:29,955
You know me. I'm scrappy.
368
00:21:30,038 --> 00:21:33,917
I don't know. I can't afford to put you
in a motel or bring you to the shelter.
369
00:21:34,001 --> 00:21:35,168
I don't know.
370
00:21:35,252 --> 00:21:37,838
I am not your problem, Alexandra.
371
00:21:37,921 --> 00:21:40,257
- Yes, you are.
- No, I am not.
372
00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:42,092
- I'm your mother.
- You're not.
373
00:21:42,175 --> 00:21:43,260
Yes, I am!
374
00:21:44,219 --> 00:21:45,721
I am!
375
00:21:45,804 --> 00:21:48,849
You said you needed my help.
376
00:21:48,932 --> 00:21:49,766
I do.
377
00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:51,893
So how can I help you, madam?
378
00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:54,980
Can you supervise a playdate
between Sean and Maddy?
379
00:21:55,063 --> 00:21:58,150
He gets visitation
and a third party needs to be present.
380
00:21:58,233 --> 00:21:59,526
Can you do that?
381
00:21:59,609 --> 00:22:01,278
Yes, I can.
382
00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:05,240
- At what time should I be there?
- 12:30.
383
00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:06,783
Don't you worry.
384
00:22:07,409 --> 00:22:09,202
I will take care of your girl.
385
00:22:12,998 --> 00:22:15,792
- You're going to the doctor.
- Over my dead body.
386
00:22:15,876 --> 00:22:17,753
You're going. Everything isn't all right.
387
00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:21,214
Everything is fucking shit
and you need to be a goddamn adult.
388
00:22:21,298 --> 00:22:23,675
Your hand looks terrible. You're going!
389
00:22:26,261 --> 00:22:27,888
Do I get a lollipop?
390
00:22:31,516 --> 00:22:32,934
[MADDY GIGGLING]
391
00:22:38,356 --> 00:22:40,776
Jesus Christ! [LAUGHS]
392
00:22:41,443 --> 00:22:43,820
What's that smell coming from your car?
393
00:22:43,904 --> 00:22:46,490
- It smells like burnt turds.
- You went to the doctor.
394
00:22:46,573 --> 00:22:49,284
Yeah, look. My finger still works.
395
00:22:49,367 --> 00:22:50,452
Hey, pumpkin pie.
396
00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:53,538
You ready for a playdate
with me and your daddy?
397
00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:55,457
We're gonna have fun.
398
00:22:55,540 --> 00:22:58,835
I've packed a snack and a change
of clothes and she's had lunch already.
399
00:22:58,919 --> 00:23:01,546
We've got this. Hi, pumpkin.
400
00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:05,675
Oh, I know.
401
00:23:05,759 --> 00:23:08,637
I guess I'll wait here, because I have to.
402
00:23:09,513 --> 00:23:12,099
Okay, Maddy. So you're gonna be
with Dad for four hours.
403
00:23:12,182 --> 00:23:14,184
Thanks for sending the cops!
404
00:23:14,267 --> 00:23:15,267
Very classy!
405
00:23:15,811 --> 00:23:16,811
And then...
406
00:23:17,521 --> 00:23:21,108
[WHISPERING] we'll go and get an
ice cream together. Does that sound good?
407
00:23:21,191 --> 00:23:23,318
Do you want to get ice cream? Okay.
408
00:23:25,529 --> 00:23:27,405
- I love you so much.
- Oh!
409
00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:30,575
- Thanks, Mom.
- Yeah, we're gonna have fun.
410
00:23:34,746 --> 00:23:39,209
Get your Mad-dog.
You're about to see your daddy.
411
00:23:39,292 --> 00:23:40,127
Hey!
412
00:23:40,210 --> 00:23:44,131
Sean-y, you've got your Mad-dog girl here.
[LAUGHS]
413
00:23:44,214 --> 00:23:46,174
- SEAN: Oh!
- PAULA: Hey, Sean-y boy.
414
00:23:46,341 --> 00:23:48,552
- She's heavy.
- SEAN: You're getting big.
415
00:23:48,635 --> 00:23:50,137
PAULA: She's getting so big.
416
00:23:51,596 --> 00:23:55,016
We've been swinging
and she can go so high.
417
00:23:55,100 --> 00:23:56,100
Mad-dog!
418
00:23:56,852 --> 00:23:58,854
[PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYING]
419
00:24:02,023 --> 00:24:03,316
Thank you for coming.
420
00:24:03,942 --> 00:24:04,942
Of course.
421
00:24:06,236 --> 00:24:10,365
I was worried about you falling
off the face of the earth like you did.
422
00:24:12,117 --> 00:24:13,117
You look okay.
423
00:24:14,995 --> 00:24:16,204
I am okay.
424
00:24:17,205 --> 00:24:20,542
Good. Where's Maddy?
425
00:24:20,625 --> 00:24:22,752
I thought maybe I'd get to see her.
426
00:24:24,838 --> 00:24:29,259
She is at the domestic violence shelter
where I'm living.
427
00:24:30,468 --> 00:24:32,637
They have a daycare
for their victims, so...
428
00:24:32,721 --> 00:24:33,930
Oh, okay.
429
00:24:34,014 --> 00:24:38,018
Well, did you, um...?
Did you order anything yet?
430
00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:44,524
This is my second time at an emergency
shelter for abused women this year.
431
00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:51,031
It's the second time
that Sean sent me there.
432
00:24:55,577 --> 00:24:56,578
[CLEARS THROAT]
433
00:24:59,289 --> 00:25:01,499
Do you hear the words
coming out of my mouth?
434
00:25:02,125 --> 00:25:03,460
Yes, I hear them.
435
00:25:06,755 --> 00:25:07,755
And?
436
00:25:10,967 --> 00:25:13,386
I wish you would have reached out to me.
437
00:25:14,304 --> 00:25:17,307
Before taking my granddaughter
to a place like that.
438
00:25:17,390 --> 00:25:19,184
You guys have a place to live.
439
00:25:21,144 --> 00:25:23,104
I would do anything to help,
you know that.
440
00:25:23,188 --> 00:25:26,191
I'd give you the shirt off my back,
all right?
441
00:25:26,274 --> 00:25:27,692
But instead you make me worry.
442
00:25:29,236 --> 00:25:30,612
You make Sean worry.
443
00:25:32,113 --> 00:25:34,866
I've been searching
the ferry station floor
444
00:25:34,950 --> 00:25:36,117
for you guys, Alex.
445
00:25:36,952 --> 00:25:37,952
Okay.
446
00:25:39,329 --> 00:25:40,580
Maybe you can help me now.
447
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,084
Because I do. I need your help.
448
00:25:45,335 --> 00:25:46,335
Okay.
449
00:25:48,755 --> 00:25:51,591
I filed for full custody of Maddy
450
00:25:51,675 --> 00:25:53,885
so that I can take her
to Missoula with me.
451
00:25:53,969 --> 00:25:55,929
And Sean is objecting to it.
452
00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:57,806
Yeah, I know.
453
00:25:58,765 --> 00:25:59,849
Sean told me.
454
00:26:00,767 --> 00:26:01,767
You know...
455
00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:04,938
Sean's not doing too good right now.
456
00:26:05,021 --> 00:26:06,815
I don't care how Sean's doing, Dad.
457
00:26:07,607 --> 00:26:12,070
My lawyer is building a case to prove
that Sean emotionally abused me.
458
00:26:13,822 --> 00:26:18,451
And I have to provide evidence,
testimony from people that have seen it.
459
00:26:21,329 --> 00:26:22,329
Dad...
460
00:26:23,999 --> 00:26:27,210
will you testify that you saw Sean
emotionally abuse me?
461
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,006
- When would I have seen that?
- At the trailer.
462
00:26:31,715 --> 00:26:34,551
- No. That's not what I saw.
- I saw you see it.
463
00:26:34,634 --> 00:26:37,846
- No, Alex, that's not what I saw.
- You sat there and didn't do a thing.
464
00:26:37,929 --> 00:26:40,849
If I saw anything,
what I saw was a young couple
465
00:26:40,932 --> 00:26:42,684
going through a rough patch.
466
00:26:43,852 --> 00:26:46,688
Sean is struggling
with his sobriety right now,
467
00:26:46,771 --> 00:26:49,190
and what he needs is empathy.
468
00:26:49,983 --> 00:26:52,444
You're walking away from him
at the exact wrong moment.
469
00:26:52,527 --> 00:26:54,571
I can't be responsible
for Sean any more, Dad.
470
00:26:56,281 --> 00:26:59,534
I have to do what's best for me,
and I have to do what's best for Maddy.
471
00:27:00,618 --> 00:27:01,786
He's an alcoholic.
472
00:27:02,912 --> 00:27:04,247
Okay? He's...
473
00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:08,877
He's got a disease
that turns him into a monster.
474
00:27:09,502 --> 00:27:12,047
It's the booze that's the enemy, not him.
475
00:27:12,130 --> 00:27:14,090
Okay, is it the booze that hit Mom, then?
476
00:27:19,054 --> 00:27:20,055
- Okay.
- Don't walk out.
477
00:27:20,138 --> 00:27:21,556
Are you fucking kidding me? No!
478
00:27:21,639 --> 00:27:23,600
Alex, what do you want me to say?
479
00:27:23,683 --> 00:27:25,185
I want you to say, "Yes."
480
00:27:25,268 --> 00:27:28,355
I want you to say,
"Yes, I did hit Mom. I'm sorry."
481
00:27:29,898 --> 00:27:31,316
I don't remember that.
482
00:27:35,028 --> 00:27:37,739
You've never been here for me
once in my entire life.
483
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:42,202
But I'm asking for you to be, right now.
484
00:27:49,918 --> 00:27:52,712
I'm always there for you.
For you and Maddy.
485
00:27:52,796 --> 00:27:53,796
It's just it's...
486
00:27:54,923 --> 00:27:56,132
Then do this for me.
487
00:27:57,300 --> 00:27:58,510
Stand up for me.
488
00:28:00,053 --> 00:28:01,471
Help me protect Maddy.
489
00:28:05,350 --> 00:28:06,851
Write a testimonial.
490
00:28:15,151 --> 00:28:16,569
I can't do that.
491
00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:20,532
[EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING]
492
00:28:33,294 --> 00:28:35,672
Then I guess we don't have much
to say to each other.
493
00:28:39,175 --> 00:28:40,175
Can you just...?
494
00:28:47,100 --> 00:28:52,105
DENISE: "My happiest day is the day
my daughter touched me for the first time.
495
00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:54,941
I remember it like it was yesterday.
496
00:28:55,608 --> 00:28:57,235
She was nine weeks old.
497
00:28:57,902 --> 00:28:59,863
She didn't know I was in hell,
498
00:28:59,946 --> 00:29:02,949
terrorized day and night by her father.
499
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:08,496
To her, I was just the warm,
nice milk lady.
500
00:29:09,581 --> 00:29:13,042
But this one morning,
when she was nine weeks old,
501
00:29:13,543 --> 00:29:17,172
we were napping on the floor and I woke up
502
00:29:17,255 --> 00:29:19,257
because someone was touching me.
503
00:29:19,799 --> 00:29:20,967
It was her.
504
00:29:22,260 --> 00:29:26,389
This tiny baby hand
was holding onto my arm.
505
00:29:26,931 --> 00:29:28,975
She was looking at me,
506
00:29:29,726 --> 00:29:33,396
expressing unfiltered affection for me.
507
00:29:33,938 --> 00:29:36,733
This look of trust on her face...
508
00:29:38,359 --> 00:29:41,946
she saw me and loved me.
509
00:29:44,449 --> 00:29:46,910
It was the happiest moment of my life.
510
00:29:47,952 --> 00:29:51,456
That I could be that for someone."
511
00:30:00,590 --> 00:30:01,966
[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
512
00:30:10,558 --> 00:30:11,726
Thank you, Denise.
513
00:30:13,186 --> 00:30:16,189
You guys want to say
what images stood out to you?
514
00:30:16,731 --> 00:30:18,107
"Unfiltered affection."
515
00:30:18,817 --> 00:30:20,860
"Warm, nice milk lady."
516
00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:25,281
"Terrorized day and night."
517
00:30:30,286 --> 00:30:31,788
"Tiny hands."
518
00:30:35,875 --> 00:30:38,002
Does anybody else want to share?
519
00:30:41,005 --> 00:30:41,840
Trina.
520
00:30:41,923 --> 00:30:44,968
Mine's about a girl's night out.
Is that weird?
521
00:30:45,051 --> 00:30:47,303
- It's... No.
- [ALL LAUGHING]
522
00:30:47,387 --> 00:30:50,223
I didn't write about my kids
like you guys did.
523
00:30:50,306 --> 00:30:53,059
It's your happy day.
You can write about whatever you want.
524
00:30:53,685 --> 00:30:54,685
Okay.
525
00:30:57,230 --> 00:30:59,941
"I was at the bar
with my usual wrecking crew.
526
00:31:00,024 --> 00:31:01,818
[ALL LAUGHING]
527
00:31:01,901 --> 00:31:04,070
Liv, Amanda and Davina.
528
00:31:04,153 --> 00:31:07,407
We were slamming drinks,
celebrating something,
529
00:31:07,490 --> 00:31:08,950
I can't remember what.
530
00:31:10,201 --> 00:31:14,122
But I'll admit it, I wasn't mad about
how I was looking that night.
531
00:31:14,998 --> 00:31:19,586
Then this incredibly hot man
came up from behind. His..."
532
00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:21,921
I'm sorry, I just have
to step out for a second.
533
00:31:22,005 --> 00:31:24,005
- Keep reading. Thank you so much.
- DENISE: Okay.
534
00:31:24,632 --> 00:31:27,135
TRINA: "His name was Neil.
He was dressed very nice..."
535
00:31:27,218 --> 00:31:29,888
It's okay. It's okay.
536
00:31:29,971 --> 00:31:31,931
Are you okay? What's going on?
537
00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:34,392
She just got a little upset, that's all.
538
00:31:34,475 --> 00:31:38,313
She had a little meltdown
and couldn't recover.
539
00:31:38,396 --> 00:31:39,939
Isn't that right, pumpkin?
540
00:31:40,023 --> 00:31:42,275
She just really wanted her mommy.
541
00:31:43,276 --> 00:31:48,281
Um, Alex, Sean-y dropped us off,
and he wants to talk to you.
542
00:31:53,161 --> 00:31:54,495
I'm in the middle of class.
543
00:31:54,579 --> 00:31:57,332
Honey, you need to go talk to him.
544
00:31:57,415 --> 00:31:59,125
Things did not go well.
545
00:32:04,714 --> 00:32:05,714
What happened?
546
00:32:06,966 --> 00:32:10,470
When I told her to get off the swing,
she had a tantrum. She was screaming.
547
00:32:12,889 --> 00:32:16,559
- She never wants to get off the swings.
- I know, but I fucking couldn't handle it.
548
00:32:17,310 --> 00:32:19,938
I... I lost my temper, and I yelled at her.
549
00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:30,490
I haven't had a drink in 24 hours.
550
00:32:30,573 --> 00:32:33,826
I was trying to be straight
for Maddy, and, uh...
551
00:32:37,997 --> 00:32:39,332
I'm irritable.
552
00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:42,085
My skin fucking crawls.
553
00:32:43,419 --> 00:32:44,587
The sun hurts.
554
00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:46,547
I'm just rubbed raw.
555
00:32:49,717 --> 00:32:53,638
I was pushing Maddy on the swings.
She kept saying, "Higher, Daddy, higher."
556
00:32:56,015 --> 00:32:57,225
And it was nice.
557
00:32:58,768 --> 00:32:59,978
She was giggling.
558
00:33:01,896 --> 00:33:04,524
But even then, I was still planning
my next fucking drink.
559
00:33:04,607 --> 00:33:08,194
I was trying to find some... relief.
560
00:33:08,903 --> 00:33:12,615
And she had the tantrum,
and I knew that if Paula wasn't there,
561
00:33:12,699 --> 00:33:15,201
I'd have found a drink with Maddy in tow.
562
00:33:18,913 --> 00:33:20,415
Just like my fucking mom.
563
00:33:26,254 --> 00:33:28,089
I don't wanna do that to Maddy.
564
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:34,971
I'm signing over full custody to you.
565
00:33:37,223 --> 00:33:38,641
I just called my lawyer.
566
00:33:46,607 --> 00:33:48,568
Sorry I'm such a piece of shit.
567
00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,239
You're doing right by her.
568
00:33:56,576 --> 00:34:00,246
You can come whenever you want,
and get her stuff. I'll box it up for you.
569
00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:04,959
Thanks.
570
00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:07,045
[EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING]
571
00:34:18,222 --> 00:34:20,475
Do I have the DTs, or are you sparkly?
572
00:34:24,729 --> 00:34:25,729
I'm sparkly.
573
00:34:39,118 --> 00:34:40,411
[CELL PHONE BUZZING]
574
00:34:49,962 --> 00:34:52,215
DENISE: Nice. Thanks for sharing.
575
00:34:52,298 --> 00:34:53,466
[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
576
00:34:57,762 --> 00:34:59,305
That was so awesome.
577
00:34:59,388 --> 00:35:02,183
"Fuck Murphy's Law." I like that line.
578
00:35:03,518 --> 00:35:06,687
"Punched him like a boxer."
That stood out to me.
579
00:35:06,771 --> 00:35:08,356
KYLA: "The cracked nightlight."
580
00:35:09,357 --> 00:35:10,983
Black, not blue.
581
00:35:11,067 --> 00:35:12,902
I just loved the whole thing.
582
00:35:12,985 --> 00:35:15,363
You're a great writer, Edith.
583
00:35:15,446 --> 00:35:17,031
- Esther.
- PAULA: Oh. Yeah.
584
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,450
Well, I'm next, right?
585
00:35:19,534 --> 00:35:21,369
Mom, you didn't write anything.
586
00:35:21,452 --> 00:35:22,954
Well, I can recite it.
587
00:35:23,037 --> 00:35:25,706
I'm a great... I'm just great at oration.
588
00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:26,790
Mother.
589
00:35:28,376 --> 00:35:29,376
Aww...
590
00:35:29,961 --> 00:35:31,629
Oh, well. Okay.
591
00:35:33,714 --> 00:35:36,509
- Will you wait outside? I'm almost done.
- Okay.
592
00:35:36,592 --> 00:35:39,137
- Bye, ladies.
- Bye.
593
00:35:39,220 --> 00:35:42,181
- Peace out.
- You're welcome back any time, Paula.
594
00:35:42,265 --> 00:35:43,766
Oh, thank you so much.
595
00:35:43,850 --> 00:35:44,976
[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
596
00:35:45,059 --> 00:35:46,394
PAULA: Oh! [CHUCKLING]
597
00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:47,477
Yeah.
598
00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:50,731
PAULA: Oh, man.
599
00:35:51,274 --> 00:35:53,151
Here's to getting out of Dodge.
600
00:35:53,234 --> 00:35:54,485
[PAULA CHUCKLES]
601
00:35:55,945 --> 00:35:58,072
My man Sean-y looked like shit.
602
00:36:00,825 --> 00:36:02,869
Your dad shook a lot like that.
603
00:36:06,831 --> 00:36:08,875
Do you want to tell me your happiest day?
604
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:11,960
What?
605
00:36:12,753 --> 00:36:14,255
The thing we were doing in group.
606
00:36:14,922 --> 00:36:17,800
You have a day
you remember where you were happy?
607
00:36:18,759 --> 00:36:19,760
Oh.
608
00:36:21,971 --> 00:36:25,766
Hands down, our first morning in Alaska.
609
00:36:27,226 --> 00:36:29,437
We got into Anchorage
in the middle of the night,
610
00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:33,566
and you were freezing
because I forgot your coat.
611
00:36:35,109 --> 00:36:37,737
We left your dad's in such a panic.
612
00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:44,118
I had this cabin for us,
and it didn't have any furniture.
613
00:36:44,869 --> 00:36:46,078
So, uh...
614
00:36:47,079 --> 00:36:50,333
I just dumped all the clothes
from the suitcase
615
00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:53,377
in the middle of the floor
and made us a bed.
616
00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:56,672
And we slept there, snuggled up.
617
00:36:59,342 --> 00:37:02,762
The next morning,
while you were still sleeping,
618
00:37:02,845 --> 00:37:04,722
I tiptoed outside,
619
00:37:04,805 --> 00:37:07,016
and I just dove into the snow.
620
00:37:08,226 --> 00:37:09,393
And I lay there,
621
00:37:10,269 --> 00:37:13,147
and made a snow angel. [CHUCKLES]
622
00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:16,275
Because nobody was there
to tell me I was crazy
623
00:37:17,360 --> 00:37:19,195
or suddenly explode on me.
624
00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:21,656
It was just me...
625
00:37:23,199 --> 00:37:24,784
the sun and the snow.
626
00:37:29,664 --> 00:37:33,000
Anyway, in less than a year,
we were back here,
627
00:37:33,084 --> 00:37:35,419
and I was broke as shit.
628
00:37:35,503 --> 00:37:38,172
The whole trip was just dumb.
629
00:37:39,173 --> 00:37:40,174
No, it wasn't.
630
00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:41,550
It wasn't dumb.
631
00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:45,012
You got me away from Dad,
and you never went back to him.
632
00:38:01,529 --> 00:38:02,530
Uh...
633
00:38:03,864 --> 00:38:04,864
So, uh...
634
00:38:09,453 --> 00:38:11,539
So am I still invited to Montana?
635
00:38:13,249 --> 00:38:14,292
You want to come?
636
00:38:15,918 --> 00:38:16,918
Yeah.
637
00:38:19,714 --> 00:38:21,507
Hell yeah, why not?
638
00:38:22,133 --> 00:38:25,970
I can get a job painting murals,
639
00:38:26,595 --> 00:38:28,514
find me a mountain man.
640
00:38:28,597 --> 00:38:30,349
[PAULA LAUGHING]
641
00:38:30,433 --> 00:38:31,934
Plus, Maddy needs me.
642
00:38:32,018 --> 00:38:33,853
She's an artist like me.
643
00:38:33,936 --> 00:38:35,980
Can you be ready by Monday?
644
00:38:36,814 --> 00:38:38,941
[LAUGHING] I'm ready.
645
00:38:39,025 --> 00:38:40,526
I'm packed, baby.
646
00:38:40,609 --> 00:38:43,404
That's the nice thing about living
in your car, you're packed.
647
00:38:43,487 --> 00:38:45,740
I don't know if she's going
to make it to Montana,
648
00:38:45,823 --> 00:38:48,075
I might have to sell her for parts...
649
00:38:49,952 --> 00:38:52,330
but I could hitch a ride with you, yeah?
650
00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:54,248
Yeah.
651
00:38:54,332 --> 00:38:55,833
- Yeah?
- Yes.
652
00:38:55,916 --> 00:38:57,501
- Really?
- Of course.
653
00:38:57,585 --> 00:38:59,462
Oh, my gosh. Yes?
654
00:39:00,504 --> 00:39:01,504
Maddy!
655
00:39:01,547 --> 00:39:03,215
Maddy girl, guess what.
656
00:39:03,299 --> 00:39:05,301
We're going on a road trip!
657
00:39:05,801 --> 00:39:08,220
Do you want to go
on a road trip with Grammy?
658
00:39:08,804 --> 00:39:10,556
We're going to go on a road trip!
659
00:39:10,639 --> 00:39:14,310
Oh, my goodness,
we're going to go on a road trip!
660
00:39:14,393 --> 00:39:15,728
["WE GET BY" PLAYING]
661
00:39:15,811 --> 00:39:17,396
♪ On love and faith ♪
662
00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:24,904
♪ We get by with a smile on our face ♪
663
00:39:27,114 --> 00:39:32,078
♪ We get by with help from our kin ♪
664
00:39:34,205 --> 00:39:39,043
♪ We get by
Through thick and through thin ♪
665
00:39:41,295 --> 00:39:42,671
♪ We get by ♪
666
00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,300
♪ We get by ♪
667
00:39:47,176 --> 00:39:50,971
♪ No matter what happens
I'll be there for you ♪
668
00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:53,349
♪ We get by ♪
669
00:39:55,184 --> 00:39:56,811
♪ We get by ♪
670
00:39:59,063 --> 00:40:00,189
♪ We get by ♪
671
00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:04,985
♪ No matter how long
I'll be waiting here for you ♪
672
00:40:05,069 --> 00:40:07,655
♪ We get by ♪
673
00:40:08,155 --> 00:40:11,867
♪ No matter how long, I'll come running ♪
674
00:40:11,951 --> 00:40:14,578
- ♪ We get by ♪
- ♪ I'll be waiting ♪
675
00:40:14,662 --> 00:40:15,662
♪ Oh ♪
676
00:40:15,704 --> 00:40:18,791
♪ No matter what happens
I'll be there for you ♪
677
00:40:18,874 --> 00:40:22,294
- ♪ I'll be there for you ♪
- ♪ Oh ♪
678
00:40:22,378 --> 00:40:25,089
♪ Oh, oh, yeah ♪
679
00:40:25,172 --> 00:40:26,632
- Is that it?
- That's it.
680
00:40:38,894 --> 00:40:41,021
You can come see her as much as you want.
681
00:40:43,023 --> 00:40:44,900
Yeah, I'm going to get myself cleaned up.
682
00:40:48,863 --> 00:40:51,115
And then I'll come visit all the time.
683
00:41:00,666 --> 00:41:02,418
I'm really going to miss her.
684
00:41:25,441 --> 00:41:26,650
Good luck, Alaska.
685
00:41:29,653 --> 00:41:30,988
[ENGINE STARTING]
686
00:41:32,656 --> 00:41:34,658
[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]
687
00:42:01,227 --> 00:42:04,104
- MADDY: Save the black ones.
- Yes...
688
00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:06,649
Yeah, and black ones are nice.
689
00:42:07,316 --> 00:42:08,316
Come on, Maddy.
690
00:42:35,469 --> 00:42:36,469
This way.
691
00:43:15,926 --> 00:43:17,052
All right, honey...
692
00:43:18,929 --> 00:43:20,055
I'll be right back.
693
00:43:22,474 --> 00:43:23,767
[DOORBELL RINGS]
694
00:43:28,939 --> 00:43:31,066
I didn't know you were coming by.
Come on in.
695
00:43:31,150 --> 00:43:32,901
I can't, I've got Maddy back there.
696
00:43:34,028 --> 00:43:35,904
I just wanted to come say goodbye.
697
00:43:36,488 --> 00:43:38,699
I also have been meaning to give you this.
698
00:43:38,782 --> 00:43:43,162
I'm not sure if I stole it
or what happened, but I had it, so...
699
00:43:44,246 --> 00:43:46,915
I saw you had it on. Thanksgiving, right?
700
00:43:46,999 --> 00:43:48,125
I'm really sorry.
701
00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:50,794
Nah, can't blame a girl
for putting on a little cashmere.
702
00:43:53,339 --> 00:43:55,758
- So next stop Montana?
- I'm, uh...
703
00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:00,304
going to pick my mom up
in Port Winslow and get on the I-90.
704
00:44:02,514 --> 00:44:05,976
- Thank you for being such a good friend.
- You too.
705
00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:13,192
- Keep the sweater.
- No, no, I'm going to buy my own one day.
706
00:44:13,734 --> 00:44:15,569
It was $1400.
707
00:44:16,612 --> 00:44:17,612
I'm keeping it.
708
00:44:20,616 --> 00:44:22,701
[EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING]
709
00:44:59,947 --> 00:45:01,782
- Mother?
- Oh!
710
00:45:02,408 --> 00:45:03,992
Hi. Hi, hi.
711
00:45:04,576 --> 00:45:05,576
Oh!
712
00:45:07,871 --> 00:45:10,332
Oh, honey, you must be so excited.
713
00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:14,962
- You said you were going to sell your car.
- I was. I mean...
714
00:45:15,045 --> 00:45:17,214
I am. But, baby, honey,
715
00:45:17,297 --> 00:45:21,093
I just have the most incredible news.
716
00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:24,971
What?
717
00:45:25,013 --> 00:45:28,016
Micah threw Alaina-May out.
718
00:45:28,100 --> 00:45:30,811
He threw that feral bitch
to the curb for me.
719
00:45:30,894 --> 00:45:34,231
And I slept in his bed
last night, in his arms.
720
00:45:34,314 --> 00:45:37,025
And I'm telling you, honey,
there's sex and then there's...
721
00:45:37,109 --> 00:45:39,736
Oh, my God, this was on a whole new level.
722
00:45:39,820 --> 00:45:41,405
Even for me.
723
00:45:43,866 --> 00:45:45,284
Are you not coming?
724
00:45:45,909 --> 00:45:48,662
Sweetie, you know, just not right now.
725
00:45:48,745 --> 00:45:51,540
I mean, I... I can't leave Micah right now,
726
00:45:51,623 --> 00:45:53,959
I mean, what's going on
between us, you know, baby,
727
00:45:54,042 --> 00:45:56,253
it's just so powerful and...
728
00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:58,296
It's just really...
729
00:46:00,048 --> 00:46:01,717
I can't wait on you, Mom.
730
00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:04,428
No, you're not.
Of course you're not going to wait on me.
731
00:46:04,511 --> 00:46:05,721
This is your moment.
732
00:46:05,804 --> 00:46:10,350
You go, baby doll, and I'll tell you what,
give me the address,
733
00:46:10,434 --> 00:46:13,061
and I'll be right behind.
734
00:46:13,145 --> 00:46:15,189
I just... I'll follow you, okay?
735
00:46:16,273 --> 00:46:19,151
- I don't want to leave you here.
- I know.
736
00:46:19,234 --> 00:46:21,111
Isn't it funny how these things work out?
737
00:46:21,195 --> 00:46:24,198
I mean, as soon as I told Micah
I was leaving,
738
00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:26,366
he realized he had feelings for me.
739
00:46:26,450 --> 00:46:28,202
I mean, baby, it was, "Boom!"
740
00:46:28,285 --> 00:46:31,497
And he told Alaina-May
about me and everything.
741
00:46:33,123 --> 00:46:34,123
Just...
742
00:46:34,833 --> 00:46:36,126
be happy for me.
743
00:46:40,506 --> 00:46:41,673
I'm gonna go without you.
744
00:46:41,757 --> 00:46:44,218
Yes, you're going to go.
Of course you're going to go.
745
00:46:46,929 --> 00:46:49,848
Sweetheart, this is your adventure.
It's not mine.
746
00:46:54,895 --> 00:46:56,188
You going to be okay?
747
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,109
- Come on, you know you love me.
- I do love you.
748
00:47:01,193 --> 00:47:04,655
- I know you do. Give me a really good hug.
- Okay.
749
00:47:04,738 --> 00:47:05,822
[PAULA LAUGHING]
750
00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:07,324
Oh, God.
751
00:47:07,407 --> 00:47:08,742
Oh, sweetie.
752
00:47:08,825 --> 00:47:11,119
- I love you, Mom.
- Yeah, I know, baby.
753
00:47:15,374 --> 00:47:16,625
[ENGINE STARTING]
754
00:47:16,708 --> 00:47:18,710
[PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYING]
755
00:47:48,782 --> 00:47:51,368
[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]
756
00:48:10,053 --> 00:48:13,098
ALEX: Do you guys want to do
a round of snaps for everybody?
757
00:48:13,181 --> 00:48:14,558
[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
758
00:48:21,398 --> 00:48:24,276
I just want to thank you guys
so much for doing this with me.
759
00:48:25,027 --> 00:48:26,236
It's been a real honor.
760
00:48:27,779 --> 00:48:29,031
Thank you.
761
00:48:29,114 --> 00:48:30,616
Thank you, Alex.
762
00:48:30,699 --> 00:48:33,410
Wait, we didn't hear your happiest day.
763
00:48:33,493 --> 00:48:34,745
[LAUGHS]
764
00:48:34,828 --> 00:48:36,079
[ALL SNAPPING FINGERS]
765
00:48:39,666 --> 00:48:42,294
"My happiest day hasn't happened yet.
766
00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:45,297
But it's about to.
767
00:48:45,380 --> 00:48:46,798
["LET GO" PLAYING]
768
00:48:47,841 --> 00:48:52,137
On that day, I'm going to get in my car
769
00:48:52,220 --> 00:48:54,389
that smells like old tuna...
770
00:48:55,349 --> 00:48:58,060
which will be packed
with all of my belongings
771
00:48:58,143 --> 00:49:00,312
and my amazing daughter.
772
00:49:00,979 --> 00:49:04,983
And I'm going to drive
the fuck out of this town. [CHUCKLES]
773
00:49:05,067 --> 00:49:07,611
I'm going to drive nine hours,
774
00:49:08,612 --> 00:49:13,825
566 miles to Missoula, Montana...
775
00:49:15,202 --> 00:49:18,497
where I'm going to spend
the next four years...
776
00:49:19,289 --> 00:49:21,041
learning to be a writer.
777
00:49:22,417 --> 00:49:26,505
Hopefully, there will be a lot
of happy days during that time.
778
00:49:28,173 --> 00:49:30,759
And I know there will be some hard ones.
779
00:49:33,637 --> 00:49:37,933
Most people would bet against a single mom
putting herself through college.
780
00:49:40,185 --> 00:49:42,396
But they don't know
what it took to get here.
781
00:49:45,357 --> 00:49:48,402
Three hundred and thirty-eight
toilets cleaned...
782
00:49:50,987 --> 00:49:53,407
seven types of government assistance...
783
00:49:55,075 --> 00:49:57,035
nine separate moves...
784
00:49:58,995 --> 00:50:01,331
one night on the ferry-station floor...
785
00:50:02,708 --> 00:50:06,837
and the entire third year
of my daughter's life.
786
00:50:09,005 --> 00:50:11,299
But, when we get to Missoula...
787
00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:14,845
I'm going to take Maddy
up Sentinel Mountain...
788
00:50:16,054 --> 00:50:19,516
which looks over the town,
and show her our new home.
789
00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:23,395
♪ Ripped apart by albatross ♪
790
00:50:23,478 --> 00:50:25,981
ALEX: I've been telling her
all about the giant M
791
00:50:26,064 --> 00:50:27,899
that's at the tippy-top of the mountain.
792
00:50:33,989 --> 00:50:37,743
That the trail up there
is long and zig-zaggy.
793
00:50:37,826 --> 00:50:41,121
♪ What's in a name? ♪
794
00:50:41,204 --> 00:50:42,247
The hike will be hard.
795
00:50:44,958 --> 00:50:46,877
But we're going to make it to the top.
796
00:50:49,254 --> 00:50:50,589
And when we do...
797
00:50:52,799 --> 00:50:55,927
I'm going to tell her
that the M stands for 'Maddy.'
798
00:50:59,097 --> 00:51:01,558
That this whole new world is for her."
799
00:51:01,641 --> 00:51:07,022
♪ Down on the other side ♪
800
00:51:08,231 --> 00:51:13,487
BOTH: Whoo!
801
00:51:18,950 --> 00:51:23,872
♪ Looking up to let go ♪
802
00:51:27,417 --> 00:51:33,340
♪ Now I'm letting go ♪
803
00:51:37,761 --> 00:51:43,600
♪ Now I'm letting go ♪
804
00:51:46,394 --> 00:51:53,360
♪ Now I'm letting go ♪
805
00:51:54,528 --> 00:52:01,528
♪ Now I'm letting go ♪
806
00:52:06,289 --> 00:52:11,086
- ♪ Let it go ♪
- ♪ Let him go, let him go ♪
807
00:52:11,169 --> 00:52:14,631
♪ Let him go, let him go ♪
808
00:52:14,714 --> 00:52:17,300
♪ Let it go ♪
809
00:52:17,384 --> 00:52:20,971
♪ Let him go, let him go ♪
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