All language subtitles for blue_ecstasy_usac_leslie_bovee

In the years since I've moved to New
York.

God, how I still miss the simple life of
New England.

Everything is so fast and callous here.

I'm not sure if it's right for me.

I suppose I'll just have to grin and
bear it.

Everyone says it always takes a few
years, then it's all right.

I guess the same will happen to me.

Ronnie is still with me.

Little did I imagine that when I made
her up as a child, she'd still be with

at 26.

Lately, she's appearing more and more.

She also seems to be becoming more
lascivious.

I thought at first.

Ronnie, what are you doing here?

I just want to have more fun for both of
us.

Would you go away? I want to write.

No, I want more.

More.

Ronnie!

Sometimes I wish she'd finally go away.

I'm going out with David again tonight.

It's been three months that we've been
dating.

And every time he tries to make love to
me, the old -fashioned New England girl

in me says no.

A woman should keep her virtue until she
marries the man she loves.

In the meantime, I guess I'll just let
Ronnie do it for both of us.

Hello. Hi. You got ready?

Uh -huh. Great. Got a terrific movie to
see.

Meet you downstairs in 20 minutes.

Okay. See you.

Bye.

So sexy, V.

Now I think about him all the time.

I think about him... I just

like to explode. Oh, God.

Beanie's the best, you know.

Won't you come to me, please?

Baby.

Beanie's the best, you know.

Best you've ever found.

I want him.

Veronica, I want him more.

You sure you don't want one?

Or some wine, maybe?

Positive. I have to get up early.

How about my staying over tonight?

No, David.

And I wish you would stop asking.

Look, it would just make things easier
for us.

No, David, I can't.

And I do have to get up early.

V, let me make love to you. David,
please don't. Will you just relax and go

it? David, would you just please stop?

Don't fight me, V. I can't, David. I
just want you to go.

Please.

You know there's something wrong about
you. You know that.

Something's sick.

I'm not sick.

I'm just different.

Different from other women.

Go to them if you want sex.

I don't want them.

I want you.

Because I love you.

David, I want you to go.

If you love me, please, just go.

I'm not like that. Don't you understand?

We've got to get one thing straight
between us and get this settled once and

all. I'm not going to wait around for
you to change or grow up or whatever it

you're going through.

Would you just please go?

Yeah.

I'll see you around.

I'll call you.

Bye.

Buh -bye.

Hello?

Hi. Did I wake you?

No, no, no. I was in bed.

Oh. How did it go with David?

The same.

We'll talk tomorrow.

Will you come by?

Yes.

Stay young and beautiful, you.

How are you?

Want some super breakfast?

No, thanks.

I heard you went out with David last
night. Tell me about it.

Can you imagine?

He took me to the pool.

I think that's sexy.

My God, is that what everyone thinks
about?

Sex, sex, sex?

No, people think of lots of things.

Dancing, going to the beach.

Spending time together on a vacation,
but you have to be with someone you

dig before, during, and after.

Well, why can't he just accept me for
what I am?

Not always trying to get me into bed.

You two sure do carry on.

It's not me. I'm perfectly happy to just
go out and talk, and all I want is a

good time.

You mean to tell me you never thought of
sleeping with him?

I don't think about things like that.

You never have any sexy thoughts?

Yes, of course. I just don't dwell on
them. Well, then David's probably not

right guy for you.

No, it's not that. I like him. I just
wish he would just... Oh, I know, I

pal. It's you against the world.

What's so wrong with someone with
independent values?

Nothing's wrong with that as long as
they're happy. Personally, I'd go stark

raving mad.

I'd kill myself if I didn't have love.
Oh, that's ridiculous.

Dipping strokes.

Nikki, am I so off the wall?

Just because you're the only non -sexual
person in a population of 10 million...

I'm not that bad.

No, you're not that bad unless you're
trying to hook a man.

I don't understand him.

Nor do they understand us.

But nevertheless, we flip and slide and
get our rocks off.

You know, V, I think you should go to
bed with him.

Let's go out, take care of our cleaning,
then go out through the park, maybe get

a bit of lunch.

Come on, it's a nice day out.

Just give me a minute to change into
some jeans.

Hey, have I got something to show you.

Good, huh?

Look at this.

What is it?

Oh, it's the best friend a girl can have
when there's no men around.

Look.

Nicky, would you stop?

Nicky, just stop. We have to go. I was
just trying to cheer you up.

I'd love to go back to Vermont,
especially this time of year.

I could walk in the woods, sit by a
stream, be alone, you know?

What do I feel about Arizona?

Oh, God, that desert is so beautiful.

Yeah? I really miss it.

What was your reason for leaving?

I needed to get away.

All towns, they really get in the way.

Nobody lets you go.

And someone told me New York.

You've got to get involved.

I've done that.

While you're here, you should make the
most of everything.

Tell me how.

But you know, why don't we go away
someplace?

I could show you Vermont.

You could show me Arizona.

Sounds great.

Just one catch.

Wherever we go, there have to be lots of
men.

That was the problem with Arizona.

it here best of all why it's crazy i
don't know it keeps me from going insane

i suppose that's why i wish sometimes i
could be just like you i

wish i was like you too mysterious

alone private but we all have our own
road to hoe i'll go with

that i just remembered I've got to make
a phone call.

Want to help me find a booth?

Sure. I think there's one right there.

Who?

No, I don't know him.

Well... Ah, well, maybe.

Wait a minute. Hang on.

V, hey, V.

Listen, remember my friend Danny? Yeah.
Oh, he's got some fabulous coke and he's

coming over later.

Listen, he's got a friend. He wants to
bring him...

You know what was ready for you.

I would imagine I would.

Nice.

Put it in.

It's still alive.

I know we are like the same kind of
people, but I know they're almost alive.

Really? Yeah.

Okay, Nikki.

It's your line.

Oh, fantastic.

Nikki. Is it all right?

All right. This stuff is dynamite. Come
on. You try.

I call you V.

Veronica's better.

Veronica.

Very good.

Pizza? Right.

So, uh, you live around here?

Mm -hmm. Oh, pizza.

Square business.

What?

Oh, no.

You like him?

What? You like him?

No. He reminds me of someone I knew.

Okay, good.

Well, you know, we've been friends for
years.

I know they're really an unlikely
couple.

Here you go, Bob.

Hey,

aren't you guys going to leave the
place?

It's just fine, honey. Don't worry about
it.

Jackie, please, don't trouble yourself.

Oh, God, you're all a bunch of slobs.

Hey, tell us something we don't know.
Come on, dig in, slob.

of Colombia.

Easy, don't let it, don't drop it.

Oh, it tickles.

Nice.

Okay, who wants to start snorting?

She's my old lady, I think I ought to go
first.

All right, go on.

Me? I don't know.

Come on.

No, I can't.

Come on, she wants to tell you. No,
really. No, I have to get up early.

I'll see you later. Come on, lie down.

I've got bath.

Is she all right?

Sure, I guess so.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Hello.

Thank you.

I better split and leave you guys alone.

Hey, come on, asshole. I'm not asking
you a bitch. It's the other one I want.

So how do I get her?

It beats me. Sometimes she's a little
weird.

Listen, you know what?

Why don't you try the off -the -wall
approach?

If she's straight, be weird.

It works all the time.

I think you're wrong in this case.

Do what she's up to now.

She's probably just sitting home alone,
reading.

Maybe I ought to go knock on her door.
Oh, no, no, you can't do that. She's got

an old man.

But it's not going to last.

And I'll let you know when it's over.

I hope it's soon. See what you can do.

Did you like that?

He was young.

I love them when they're very young.
Don't you?

Oh, yeah.

That's great. All our fantasies,
everything we've ever thought of.

What?

You liked him, didn't you?

Mark.

Mark?

No, I just thought he was very
interesting.

Honey, you're headed for trouble.

What do you mean?

What kind of trouble?

Oh, no. Just trouble.

I can't. I don't know.

But I'll be there when you need me.

What do you mean?

Don't worry. I'll be there.

Ronnie.

I'll be there.

Ronnie.

Ronnie.

What a pain.

I get all the heartache.

The guy above me, Arthur, he doesn't do
shit. It all gets dumped on me.

That's all right. You'll be in his place
one day. Yeah, if I live that long.

Dee. I finally got this friend of mine
to let me have his place up in the

country for the weekend.

Now, why don't you and I go up? I know
how much you love the woods.

David, you know I can't.

Veronica, you're being ridiculous.

We could have a beautiful time together
and you say you can't?

I'm sorry.

And I just wish you'd stop pressuring
me.

Look, just come up, all right? We'll
have a good time.

I've made plans with my sister.

Oh.

How's she doing?

She's fine. She says hello and sends her
love. Look, V, you can see your sister

some other time.

Just come up to the country with me,
okay?

I can't.

Do you love me?

At least I think so.

You don't know?

David, please.

Look, either you come up to the country
with me or we can just forget it.

Oh, forget what?

All of it. You and me.

You are being ridiculous.

I'm being ridiculous? You're being a
prude. Now come off of it. Be a woman.

And fuck you. Is that what a woman does?
She fucks you?

The way you say it, it makes it sound
like torture. No, no, just be with me.

Walk with me. Make love with me. Sleep
with me.

Sit by the campfire with me. I can't. I
can't. I can't.

All right.

I meant what I said.

Think it over.

I'll be at the office late if you change
your mind.

I'll be at my sister's.

Veronica, I couldn't hear you. Are you
coming?

Oh, that's okay, hon. You know where the
key is.

Uh -huh.

Okay, good. See you in the morning.

Bye.

What did Veronica want?

She's coming late.

Oh.

That's too bad.

I thought you'd be upset.

and I'm watching the game.

I tell you what, they can watch the game
with me. How's that?

Oh, that's real exciting.

Why don't you play baseball with them
for one?

Later. Bye.

Oh, hi, Nikki. Hi, Pierre.

Hi.

Good to see you. You too. How are you
doing today?

Great. Want some coffee?

Yeah, I'd love some. Why don't you go
outside and I'll bring you some.

Becca said she was coming over.

And so I thought I'd drop by. Where is
she?

Oh, David called her up and they went
for a walk in the park.

Seems like a nice day for a walk.

You look upset.

Are you and Ed fighting?

Oh, no. It's just our way of having a
normal conversation.

I was just trying to get him to spend
more time with the kids.

You're bored here, aren't you?

Well, I'll tell you, if it weren't for
Ed and the kids, I'd move back to the

city. There's nothing to do out here.

I miss this.

In the city, I never get any peace and
quiet.

Want to trade places?

It almost sounds tempting.

Hey, I'm about due for a visit to the
city to see you girls again. I could use

some of that city energy.

Any time.

How about two weeks? I should be good
and fed up with this place.

Melissa, I think you like this place
more than you think.

Yeah, but what's life if you can't bitch
a little?

Hi, Melissa. I just had time for a quick
run.

I've got to go watch the game. How are
you, Nikki?

Hi. Oh, look, do me a favor. Fix me a
cup of coffee. I've got to go take a

shower. Sure.

Anything as Lordship wants.

I just felt like I had to see you after
that lunch.

So I came out here.

I was looking for your sister. That's
when I ran into her at the gas station.

I just think it's better that we talk.

I want to know why you're so distant
from me.

I've tried to reason it out, but I don't
have the answers you do.

I don't know myself, David.

Is it me?

No.

No. See, you must know what you're
thinking about, and about me.

I don't want to think.

Look, you've got to tell me what's going
on. You've got to tell me what you're

thinking about.

David, would you just stop pressuring
me?

Please. You're really strange.

Probably because I love you.

Come on, let's take a walk.

I wonder if I can still shinny up a
tree.

David. Damn it.

Are you all right? Damn it. Let me see.

Are you okay?

I want you. I want you now, damn it.

David, get up.

God, do I want you.

And now I'm looking forward to Melissa's
visit.

I need someone close to talk to.

I can still feel the pain and
humiliation of what David did to me.

I still can't understand what made him
attack me.

Ronnie insists that it's his nature of
all men to rape and hurt women.

But for some reason, I can't believe
that.

Some men, like David, can't control
themselves.

Lately, after David, I've been feeling
different about men.

I've even thought about having an
affair.

It's funny how David's violence three
weeks ago seems to have changed how I

feel.

It's only lately that I've even felt
like talking to anyone.

Well, other than Ronnie.

I know what you're thinking.

I'm thinking about men. What's wrong
with that?

It's not a very good idea. You should
leave the men to me.

What if I want to find out for myself?

Keep the strings, Oliver.

That's on your face, though, only.

Okay, do what you want.

But remember, I warned you.

Come here.

Yes, of course. Come in, please.

I was over at Nicky's. She suggested I
stop by. She did, huh?

Come on in. I was just doing some
dishes.

Would you like some coffee or some tea?

No, thanks. I'll just stop by for now.

Actually, Nicky asked me to stop by.

She thought if you weren't doing
anything, maybe you might want to stop

Another wild card?

Well, it's a Nicky party, that's all I
know.

And tell me, do you use drugs all the
time?

It's a business like any other.

Yes. I keep a little profile.

I have mostly established type clients.

Of course, I...

Rub it on my clit. Rub the head of that
cut on my clit.

Oh, yeah. That's ridiculous.

Oh, you're hurting my cut.

You should take her to the opera.

The opera?

You're not serious.

Wait a second.

That would make a big impression.

You sure?

Possibly.

Okay.

Want some more Coke?

Sure.

Why don't you wait and see if she gets
there first?

Remember the last time around?

She'll come. What makes you so sure?

When I ask them, they come.

Ask me.

Come.

I'm coming.

I'm coming.

Oh, shit.

You guys want some more coke?

Definitely. It's starting to go soft.

Wait before I blow the night.

Here, blow on this.

You guys been around Eddie's place
lately?

Yeah, we were there the other night.

How's the stash holding?

You know, you ought to visit him. I
think he's ready to buy.

Yeah? Thanks for the tip.

Mom, I think I know somebody who'd be
interested.

They cool?

Oh, very. Super rich type. The woman's a
lawyer.

Always good to know a lawyer.

You want to put me in touch?

Yeah.

Come join us.

I'll pass on the sex. I'm in love.

You never.

That's my home.

Really? What's she like?

I'll see you soon. She's coming over.

Fresh meat.

Don't get any ideas. She's very
straight. She's just for me.

Damn. Damn.

Who invited you?

Hey, you made it. Great. Hi.

Yeah, well, I forced myself.

That's the last time. I really wasn't
sure, you know.

Yeah, well, brace yourself. This one's
even worse.

Worse? Better, depending on your point
of view. Shall we take a look?

more conservative.

Nick,

I've got that big prick inside me.

Good, huh?

Yes, hot looking.

Where are we going?

Well, I think I'd like to go back to my
place.

Okay.

Alone?

Fine. Okay, I'll give you my excuse to
get out of here. Let's go.

Is this the fall of a Western
civilization?

Well, let's forget about that.

Tell me something.

Yes? You like opera?

Yes.

Would you like to see Tosca?

Tosca?

Sit them in.

Oh, I would have thought that you
preferred something more like disco.

a pretty strange business which requires
me to hang around some pretty strange

places, but my own personal tastes run
to the higher forms of art.

Really? Yeah, like opera.

Like opera.

Yes.

Oh, except maybe for an occasional jam
in the game of billiards.

Ladies excluded, of course.

But in the meantime, there's the opera.

I'll pick you up Tuesday night at 7 o
'clock.

Tuesday at 7?

Yeah. I'm really glad I came.

Me too.

See you.

Bye.

One of those things you have to get over
on your own. You know, I never could

have imagined that David could have done
something like that.

But you never know with men.

What was it like?

Nikki, it was awful.

It was like a crazed animal was on me.

Seriously.

How are you feeling now?

I'm fine. I survived it.

But I think I learned something.

What do you mean?

About David.

I like him.

I don't think I love him.

Maybe that's why I don't want to go to
bed with him.

Oh, but you are considering sleeping
with someone else.

Oh, yes.

Oh, that's wonderful.

Well, enough of this. You know what you
need now?

What?

First thing on the list is some new
lingerie.

And there are new stores that I've
opened up downtown.

Want to check it out?

Yes, that sounds good. Before I do
anything, I'm going to have my fruit

It should be useful and vibrant for when
I masturbate. Of course.

Care to join me?

I'll pass.

I think I'll go home, put on a stare,
and come back in, what, 20 minutes?

Okay, see you then.

Enjoy yourselves.

Mark will love it.

Mark, what are you talking about?

Don't play innocent with me.

I know what's going on in that brain of
yours. Oh, you're just incorrigible.

Oh, how beautiful.

Oh, that's pretty. Look at this.

That's beautiful. How embroidered is it?
I think so.

Yeah. Oh, I've got to try this one on.
It's just marvelous.

These are long, so mature.

Sexy. Listen, what does it matter what
I'm...

I love this stuff. It drives me mad. And
if you're with someone that doesn't

turn you on, you just go over to Mary
and you get so wet all by yourself.

And men like this.

You bet they do.

I'm going to give you something else to
try on. Try that one on later. Oh,

that's fine. Okay.

Here. Oh, God.

That's when we poke it.

First, let's do some coke.

Okay. All right? Let me try that on
music. Okay.

We'll be right back.

Mark is on my mind constantly.

I worry about him while he's away.

How I've changed.

From David to Mark.

Maybe that's what I've been wanting all
along. Someone the opposite of me.

I just hope everything works out with
Mark.

It won't.

What are you doing here?

I told you I'd be there when you needed
me.

Well, I don't need you now.

Now more than ever. No, I came here to
be alone.

You can't get involved with Maul.

Yes, I can.

Come with me. I want to show you
something.

What?

Something you can't have without me.

All I want is something real.

The only real thing you're going to get
is betrayal and pain.

No, that's not true.

Look, I can't be betrayed.

And I can't be hurt. I'm past that.

And you will be too.

But not with Mark.

Only with me.

So come now. Come.

Lonnie. Come. This is very special.

Good little pig.

Good.

That's a good cat. Look at the balls.

That's a piggy.

Good. Look at him up there. Come on,
come on.

That's a good one.

That's using you to train the pig. You
know that, isn't it? Yeah.

That's it. Suck him up.

Thank you.

Pick it, pick it.

Pick it, pick it. Come on, come on.

Pick it.

It falls.

Come on, come on, come on.

Come on, come on.

That's right.

That's a good little... Come on.

Eat that fucking pig. Come on.

Eat it, pig.

Are you certain she's not going to come
home?

Not for hours.

Positive.

Oh, that feels good.

If Bea ever finds out about this, she'll
die.

She's not going to find out.

You men, you're so immoral.

I still love her.

How can you say you love her when you
like this with me?

Tell me about her.

Veronica?

Oh, that feels good.

Was she always such a prude?

I could count the number of affairs
she's had. And don't ask me why.

I've tried to figure it out, but you
won't discuss it with me. Are you going

change it?

I hope so.

Good.

She deserves it.

Mark, I just want you to leave.

Run. No, don't touch me. Get away.

You were here earlier?

Yes. Yes.

Why? Why did you do it?

It had nothing to do with you and me.

Really?

What are you saying? What?

Tell me something.

Did you ever imagine yourself making
love to your sister's husband?

What?

No.

Never.

Never?

No, of course not.

Never.

Mark, she's my sister.

Never imagine yourself lying next to his
naked body, huh?

His cock slipping into you. Mark.

Hmm?

Stop it.

Never.

I'm alone now.

No thoughts to guide me.

I miss her.

She was special.

If you fuck with your mind, I fuck with
my body. Does that make you better, huh?

Better? No.

Who told you all this?

You did.

Me? Yeah.

I can see right through you.

I can look in your eyes. I can read your
thoughts.

I know just what you're thinking.

What?

It's true.

I want you just the way you are.

Perfect, just the way you are.

I love everything about you.

But there are others.

Others who would imagine and dream.

I'll wait.

Not afraid.

No, not anymore.

I'm going to take you to Columbia
tomorrow.

Get some business there. We'll have a
nice vacation.

For my job.

Quit.

You're my partner now.

Forever.

Fred.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

I love you.

Okay?

I'll wait for their fantasies to call
me.

Fantasies of uninhibited lust, of
powerful men with unrelenting passion,

orgies, rapes, perversion.

Well, they'll come.

Somewhere there's someone who needs me.

Perhaps it's you.

Or your wife.

Or your girlfriend.

Or maybe your sister.

Someone needs to be free.

Someone who wants to experience the
ecstasy of their minds.

Someone who wants to do what their mind
wants and their body won't allow.

Is it you?

Or is it you?