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>> That's the last of it.

Do I get a hello?

Hm.

Oh wow. You hung those, huh? You

wouldn't let me hang them.

>> [sighs]

>> Kev help you get all this packed up for

me? Oh, I'm perfectly capable of

Never mind. Uh hi. Hm.

You doing okay?

Yes.

No.

Maybe. You?

Fine. Yeah.

No, I certainly didn't expect a pandemic

and then

a divorce. The timing sure isn't good

for me.

For you?

Really, Bill?

This can't come as a big surprise. You

haven't been in this marriage for a very

long time.

Yeah, I know. No, it hasn't.

It took both of us to get here, but you

know what?

I'm going to start over.

Okay.

Okay.

I get it.

Look, where's Kev? Grocery store.

Well, like it or not, we have a child

together. I'm going to see him.

Of course. This is between you and me.

You can see Kev whenever you want,

whenever he wants. He's almost 17. He'll

come to you.

Listen,

my friend Wanda is on her way over.

Okay. Well, you know, I just wanted to

end on an okay note, but

You take care.

I just need you to be here for Kev. This

isn't easy for him.

Yeah, I know.

I know.

Look, you know, in spite of what's

happened,

I'm here for you and Kev. Always.

Can't pretend 20 years was nothing.

>> [snorts]

>> Who's this?

Hi.

Hey.

Hubby?

Soon-to-be ex-hubby.

Honey,

I'm really not in a very good place

right now, Wanda. I know, my friend.

Just

I love it. I do.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Sit. Let me sit for a minute.

You got somewhere to be? Hot date or

>> [laughter]

>> something? No, that's not true.

Okay, you know,

the timing might be really off.

Or maybe it's perfect. I

I've been planning a road trip up north.

Want to come with me?

Oh my goodness.

I'm not up for a vacation. I've got

Kevin to think about and it's a

pandemic.

>> No, no, no. I'm not thinking vacation.

I'm thinking journey

in my RV.

Sort of a quest. Like Monty Python and

the Holy Grail.

Kind of. You're serious.

Yes, absolutely.

And I have all these amazing places I

want to show you.

I bet your mom would stay with Kevin.

Again, it's a pandemic. Yeah, but they'd

be totally safe here. You wouldn't have

to worry about them at all. And his

dad's close by. Don't remind me. Though

my mother thought he was a great catch.

A great catch?

Like a prized trout?

Oh,

sorry. It's

not a good time for jokes.

It just sounded so archaic.

Not archaic.

I grew up in a small Midwestern town. It

came with expectations for your daughter

manual.

It included grandchildren, of course.

Best part of all of this is Kevin.

I envy you.

Me?

I know you, Mary Beth, but I don't

really know you.

I know what I see on the outside.

You're calm,

poised,

supermom.

I envy you.

You're so self-assured and gutsy.

I've forgotten how to be a

badass woman.

Come on, I am. I bet there's still a

badass inside there. I know there is and

she's just itching to get out and go on

a road trip. Oh, hey.

You told me that you used to be a

professional fashion photographer,

right?

Well, I pulled this off the wall the

laundromat and I think

you ought to do it.

A photography contest?

Ugh.

Me, taking professional photos again.

You are out of your mind.

>> Oh, come on. Don't give me that I can't

do it stuff. Of course you can. And you

should.

On our journey. What are we we heading

to the set of a vogue shoot? Oh, be

open, Mary Beth. Have I ever steered you

wrong?

Okay, the 5K was something I thought you

could handle.

You did come in 25th.

There were 26 runners.

To be fair, I really don't like to run.

It is all in the journey, Mary Beth. You

got to trust me.

You know, we may not find the Holy

Grail, baby, but we'll have a hell of a

good time looking for it.

Come on.

Go pack a bag and call your mom.

Okay.

I'll do it.

Yes.

I'll I'll do it. Yes.

I'll

pack my camera and see what happens. How

did I let you into my life?

Well, as your loyal and trusty delivery

person, I did deliver about a package a

day to you for over 2 months.

Did you ever use all that toilet paper,

by the way? You said RV, I'll supply the

toilet paper. It's the least I can do.

I'm going to go get the RV ready. This

is going to be so much fun.

Wanda.

Yeah.

Thanks.

For what?

Just

thanks.

>> [laughter]

>> I'll put this in your room for you.

I still have no idea why you want to do

this.

Thanks, Kev.

I'm thinking of this as me being brave.

New beginning and all.

>> Before Wanda burst into my life, it was

like I was swimming in mud.

Slowly, backwards, actually, with very

little oxygen.

But then,

she delivered this teapot from a long

ago lover named Barbara, and

it was like I woke up.

I felt alive again.

And it made me realize that I had to get

out of the mud.

Wanda,

you ready to rock and roll?

Hey, don't back out on me now. You know

I need this as much as you I'm getting

there. I'm not really sure if I'm

packing the right stuff. You know, you

do realize we met because of all the

various things that you purchased online

when this pandemic started, and that I

delivered to you.

I know. I did kind of get crazy.

I'll finish packing. You ready? I'm

always ready.

I'll see you soon.

Wanda? Yeah. I'm glad you were literally

delivered into my life. Funny.

At your service, ma'am. And right back

at you.

I'll see you soon.

>> [laughter]

>> This is going to be so much fun.

This could be a terrible mistake.

Woohoo!

>> [music]

>> Barbara,

look at what you started all those years

ago.

When you sent that teapot a few months

ago, [music]

every memory came flooding back.

London,

and then [music] those weeks at Big Sur.

What could have been.

You and me.

Hi, Mom.

Have you completely lost your mind? Oh.

Good morning to you, too.

You You do realize that this pandemic

isn't over. Yes, of course [music] I do.

Why do you have a mask on? Because they

say a mask protects you. You're sitting

outside on your patio. It's It's [music]

going out among other humans that you

put a mask on.

I'm making a point.

So, why the hell would you go on a

well, a vacation?

It's not a vacation.

Thanks for coming to stay with Kevin.

[music] Bill's going to be around, but

says he'll be doing his own traveling.

Oh. What does he think about your little

adventure?

I haven't told him yet. I'm [music]

going to tell him tonight.

Well, if he says okay, then I'll come.

Mom, you You do know I don't need his

permission. I'm Our divorce is final in

a few weeks. I'm I'm telling him. I'm

not asking him.

My mother is a combination of unbridled

adoration of me, her only child,

>> [music]

>> and undisguised judgment of me, her only

child.

But if you asked her, she doesn't have a

judgmental bone in her body.

I just have to say [music] I think this

is a terrible idea.

Mom, I would expect you to say nothing

[music] less.

Well, I've got to get going. Lots to do.

See you tomorrow. But

Bill, I'm just letting you know so that

you can check in on Kevin once in a

while.

Mom will be here.

Kevin will be fine.

Couple of weeks.

No plan.

They'll survive.

I know.

This is so not me.

Thank goodness.

Mom.

I left early. Thought I had better see

you one last time in case you end up in

the hospital or have some

enlightening epiphany that changes

[music] you forever. Leave it to you to

leap to the worst possible scenario.

I'll be back.

I

I just hope you find what you're looking

for.

You know,

it's

it's not really a good idea to travel

alone, especially for a woman. I'll do

both, and

I'm not traveling alone.

Oh.

With who?

Um It's a long story, but with Wanda,

that delivery person that convinced me

to do this. Oh.

So, you are traveling with a virtual

stranger. Oh my god, Mary Beth, what do

you even know about her?

Everything that I need to know.

I am completely baffled by all of this.

People get divorced all the time, but it

doesn't mean that you should put your

health at risk or start acting foolish.

Foolish was putting my life on hold for

20 years. That was foolish.

You know what? I'm not even going to

talk to you about this. Have you been

tested? Has this Wanda Yes, and we're

both negative, so stop worrying.

I'm going to worry.

It's my job.

Speaking of jobs.

Kevin!

A food truck?

RV. Uh-huh.

Surprise!

>> [laughter]

>> Hey, I'm Wanda, former delivery person.

But you can call me

the navigator. [music]

Or Wanda. Wanda. Wanda works.

So, you must be her mother.

Good job, Mom.

So, what do you think? I love to take

[music] off on the weekends, so I just

turned this into a food truck. Actually,

a soup truck. And it pays the expenses.

[music] You know, I washed the whole

thing before I came over here,

and then bugs on the freeway decided to

die on my windshield.

This Wanda, not exactly as I pictured

her. Not like your usual friends.

I know.

Maybe that's why I like her.

Yeah, but there are two of us in this.

You and I

there?

Yeah.

Oh, I slept here so many times. It's

really comfy.

I don't snore.

Oh, and I

You know, I can sleep on the edge. I

usually sleep like just on the edge.

Actually, here.

Sometimes on this edge I just sleep like

this. And you can have

or

You know what? Sometimes I can sleep in

the driver's seat, too, because I'm

really flexible. Just

I just do that like

you know, like this. And I just get into

a really small

ball, and then just like, you know,

Right.

Mom,

take care, and and I'll call you soon.

Don't let Kevin get away with anything.

Oh, you He would be hard-pressed [music]

to try to pull one over on me.

Okay.

Time to roll.

I didn't think a lot of this through.

Chalk it up to

expect the unexpected and go with it. So

not me.

Isn't that the point? To try on a new

you.

Wear this.

Good vibes. Yep. I don't know.

I don't know, Wanda. Is it supposed to

sink through the cotton or something?

Just put it on.

Holiday Inn.

How long do you think it'll take before

she calls?

About an hour.

That's what I'm thinking.

>> [music]

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>> Hello.

Ever pee in the forest?

First time for everything.

You know, when I was a kid,

my mom used to put this

pot in the back of the car for us kids

to pee in when we were traveling.

Prefer the woods.

You know, the boys still miss,

even when the hole is a foot wide and 12

inches away.

I have a boy, remember?

That's right.

>> [laughter]

>> What's the

What's

What's so funny?

>> [laughter]

>> I love the added flair to your wardrobe.

Oh, jeez.

It's part of my comedy routine.

Beautiful, isn't it?

Just freaking beautiful.

Sure is.

So, tell me about the garden.

You know, I sort of happened upon it one

weekend a long time ago.

I was traveling and got lost.

Pulled over at this cabin.

Person who lived on the property took me

for a walk through the gardens.

And it was this

beautiful,

peaceful,

calming place.

I thought it would be a great

new beginning for our journey.

You know, something to get our heads in

a different place.

I've never asked you, but have you ever

been married? Uh, no. No.

I've had a few relationships with women.

Nothing super long-term.

Nobody broke my heart or anything.

Although, one or two came close.

Women?

Come on, Mary Beth. You haven't figured

that out by now?

Yeah. Didn't cross my mind.

Oh.

Just well.

Hey, I don't care or anything if that's

what you're thinking. But

you didn't think maybe I was You? No.

No, we're just two

badass women on a mission.

On an adventure. [music]

On a journey.

You and me?

No.

Uh, that never crossed my mind.

Wanda, this is absolutely gorgeous.

Wasn't expecting this.

Yeah.

So, this is the main house where the

spiritual leader and his students, I

guess you call them, live. And then back

there through uh that gate back there

is a

gorgeous gardens like you have never

seen. An orchard and everything.

>> Oh. An orchard. I hope they have an

orange tree.

I think they do.

You know what? I'm going to get us a pot

of soup made. Something

uh

to awaken our spirits.

Ginger, curry, turmeric. Good for new

beginnings. Why don't you go take a

walk? I'd love to. Yeah. I'm so excited.

I'll see you in a bit. Okay.

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>> Hello. Hi. How are you? Hi.

>> [laughter]

>> I Oh.

I'm sorry. Um

habit.

Uh, I mean, with this thing out there, I

find breaking old habits really really

hard.

You? Yes. Yes, I I I do. I'm Mary Beth.

Such beautiful gardens you have here.

Laura. Me.

Yes. Well,

thank you.

They aren't my gardens, actually. They

just They belong to my teacher, Daiku. I

just have a room in the big house.

I've been here a few months.

So.

You know, I'll introduce you. He's right

over here. Great.

>> Yeah. Come meet Daiku. Thanks.

Daiku.

Let me introduce you to Mary Beth. Uh,

Mary Beth, um Higgins. Hello. Welcome.

And no need to bow. I'm not royalty.

What brings you here? Where'd you come

from? Uh, sort of southwest of here, a

few hours away.

I'm with my friend Wanda. She's back at

the RV making soup. It's doubles as a

food truck. Her business.

Weird, huh?

Yummy. Not weird at all.

Enjoy our gardens. The beauty and

tranquility, the peace.

And please, have your friend come join

us here.

All are welcome.

We don't get many visitors here, so it

is a treat to have new faces and new

conversations.

There you are. Hi. Oh, it's just as I

remember. Isn't it wonderful? Hi.

Hi. Um, I'm Laura, and this is Daiku.

Oh, hi. Hi. Uh, listen.

We had rapid tests today and we're

negative. How about you guys? Oh, we we

test every day at the retreat. So. Yeah?

Should we take off our masks? Shall we?

Let's keep our distance.

Welcome. Oh, thanks.

>> [snorts]

>> Ah, so, you've been here before. Yeah.

Yeah, about 5 years ago.

I didn't stay on the property, but I

walked through with a friend and

it was so peaceful. It was beautiful,

calming place. I just knew why my friend

would love it here.

She's

finding something that's missing, you

know? Or something lost.

I'm looking for um

Well, uh

I don't know.

Peace,

calm,

direction,

purpose.

All can be easily lost, but they're hard

to find again.

You're seeking.

You nailed it.

I am seeking.

It's how to find it.

Maybe I never had it.

Wow.

I'm talking to a complete stranger.

Oh, hey. Hey. A stranger is just a

friend you haven't met yet.

Oh, hi.

Just the two of you here? Uh, hey,

Chris. Join us. Oh, thank you, but I

need to go back to my cabin.

As you can see, there are a few others.

There are tent cabins down that hill.

I prefer a few people who come truly

dedicated to making changes in their

lives.

Oh, and please, enjoy the pool. It's

spectacular.

Would you guys like to see the house? I

have a room there and Daiku lives there,

too.

Please go. Enjoy. It's getting late.

Nice to meet you, Wanda.

Mary Beth.

Shall we?

This way.

This is amazing.

Warm and

cozy.

The art. [music]

This is a great house.

I mean, I mean great.

I know. I [music] love it.

How Daiku's decorated it.

You know, most come from his travels or

gifts from students. This is beautiful.

Does it have a special meaning?

Ah.

Yeah.

She is the green goddess [music]

Tara.

She symbolizes compassion and

liberation.

Revered as a woman who brings healing

and serenity. [music]

Hey, can I use your bathroom? Of course.

It's just down there.

Well, hey. Why don't we provide dinner

tonight? I have a big pot of soup I made

out in the van. Are you a vegetarian?

Mhm.

Daiku?

Yes, but he won't be joining us. He eats

alone. His thing.

All right. Just checking.

Wanda's famous butternut squash soup.

Little ginger. Ah, so good.

Caring is sharing, as they say. Or

sharing is caring. Or I don't know.

Something like that.

Um, you know, I'm going to go change.

Um, have a look around.

And I I like your friend.

Just be.

Okay. Can I get you something to drink?

You want um

orange juice, [music] carrot juice,

celery juice? No, thanks.

A glass of wine?

No, I don't take. You get wine here?

Um

No.

We don't get wine here.

Our secret.

Okay. So,

tell me all about Mary Beth Higgins.

Who are you?

The big question.

Just say the first thing that comes to

mind.

Wash them.

Squeaky clean. I'll go get the soup.

Give me a few.

So,

when I left the house this morning, I

was um

a mom,

a daughter,

a wife,

though soon to be ex-wife.

I meditate, too, like you.

A meditator.

That's all.

Well, that's actually just a list of

titles.

Jobs.

Seriously, who are you?

Or is it too soon to pry? I'm sorry. I

just

I'm just always so curious as to why

people are seekers.

What makes them wake up in the morning

and

decide to do something like

Well,

like show up here.

Be open.

Be brave, Mary Beth.

In a few weeks,

my divorce will be final.

20 years and

voila,

a marriage over.

Mhm, it's tough.

Your choice?

My choice.

And did he find someone else or did you?

No,

no, I nothing like that.

I received a gift from an old friend, a

teapot and

and a cup.

A memory from a very close relationship

20 years ago.

It was a wake-up call.

My life has been very predictable that

wrote and not bad

very lucky in a sense. Just

not

fulfilling.

Worth rolling out of bed in the morning.

A teapot

and photos of of my life before it all

just became

decades of going through the motions.

The memories came flooding back.

I took a very good look at my marriage.

So did Bill.

It's over.

I'm still processing that.

And this memory?

Was he a lover?

She.

Yes.

Oh.

I'm not gay or anything, just to be very

clear.

It was a short thing, a fling.

Mhm.

Not a fling exactly.

I was married very soon after it and it

was the right thing to do.

For who?

For me.

My parents,

society.

I can't believe I'm saying this to a

complete stranger that I slept with a

woman.

And now that she's she's going to think

that I'm gay or or

or that I'm in a relationship with

Wanda.

Oh, come on, Mary Beth. Not everyone is

so judgmental.

You know, in just a few sentences, you

told me who you are.

A woman

a woman who is changing her life,

being single yet bound to a child,

a woman who questions her desires,

and for whom

a woman who makes a decision once

and decides to never look back. I'm

back. Oh, this pot's hot. I'm just going

to go put it down. You know, I splashed

most of this down my leg and into my

shoe. I got a lot on the driveway, too.

Woo.

I just wanted to put that down. There's

a hose out there. I can go wash it off.

Mice or ants or something will come and

eat that stuff.

>> No, no, no, stop. Even ants and mice

need a gourmet meal. Ugh.

>> [sighs and gasps]

>> Really?

>> Yeah, it smells wonderful. Oh.

Thank you.

You know, my RV doubles as a food truck.

Mhm. I just pull into a parking lot

somewhere, slap the sign on the side of

the van,

and then I sell soup. One soup, whatever

soup I've made that day. Pays for the

gas, pays for the food. A true, genuine

free spirit.

>> [laughter]

>> That's me.

Me and my sidekick.

Oh, well.

You certainly don't like energy, do you?

>> [sighs]

>> Is that a gong?

What a great dinner bell. Go for it. Hit

it.

>> [laughter]

[music]

[laughter]

>> Did you feel that?

Yes.

Ooh, that's addictive.

Did you get a hold?

Delicious. I might stay in the bath.

So good.

I mean, it's in the bath.

Girl time.

Girl time.

Ooh. My favorite kind of time.

>> [laughter]

[laughter]

>> I'm just going to run this pot out to

the bath.

Ew, what?

I'm actually really tired. I think I'm

just going to go to bed. You can come

out when you're ready.

I'm ready. Okay.

I'm going to take out my sleeping bag

and sleep on the floor. You take the

bed. I just toss and turn when I'm

napping.

>> what? Just stay here.

I mean, Wanda, you get a good night's

sleep in a real bed. And Mary Beth, just

sleep here.

Both of you can get a good night's

sleep.

Oh, um

Okay, well, if you if you're sure about

it.

Actually, I think it's a great idea.

You've done all the driving and cooking.

Get a good sleep.

Okay, yeah.

You want your bag?

Nah, I'll sleep in my t-shirt.

Right.

Okay, well, I'll see you in the morning

out in the gardens.

Sleep well.

I will.

Wanda loved the soup. Yes, loved it.

Thank you so much. Good night.

Ah, nectar of the gods.

Let's get some sleep.

All right.

Extra pillow? Thanks. And it's pretty

comfy.

And help yourself to anything.

Appreciate it.

You know, it's still early.

You want to get in the hot tub?

I go every night before I go to sleep.

No swimsuit.

Well, if you're shy, just

go in your underwear.

Personally, nude works for me.

I don't know.

Come on.

You'll sleep like a baby.

And I can go underwear, too, you know.

Come on.

What did I get myself into?

Ooh.

It's nice.

So, I have a question for you.

Why did you come here?

Well, um

My mom died a couple months ago.

Not

COVID-19, but

died in a hospital.

She went into the hospital and

the last time I was near her was as they

lowered her casket into the ground.

No people at her funeral.

No closure.

So.

I'm still working through my grief and

being okay with being alone.

I'm getting there.

I'm getting there. I am. And Dyku helps.

He helps me cope.

Thank you for sharing [music] that.

I love the water.

It heals me.

And when I'm in it, I feel

a peace,

cleansing.

My heart slows down and

my breathing quiets. Here.

Come here, here.

Feel.

Can I photograph you?

Why?

I used to be a photographer and

I'd like to enter this contest. Well,

actually, Wanda would like me to enter

this contest.

I would like for you to be my first

subject.

Well, then sure. Yeah.

Wonderful.

This was a good idea.

Oh.

Hi ladies. Good morning. Did you have a

nice evening? It was very good. Yeah,

good. Hey, he's a way cool guy. He just

told me to quiet my mind.

Please, sit.

Oh.

Hey, um you know, I I've never meditated

before. Do we say the ohm thing?

And um uh

and how and how do we how do we sit?

I think uh is it palms down? No, no, no.

No, sorry. I saw a photo palms up,

right? Palms up. And

and how do how do I sit? Is

is it leg the legs are is it right over

left or is it the left over the right

because well, you know, I could do both.

Relax. There are no rigid rules here.

In fact, rigid isn't part of this at

all.

Just try to relax your mind.

Relax. Okay. Relax my mind.

>> [cough and clears throat]

>> Ohm.

Ohm.

No ohm. Just

quiet.

Quiet.

Yeah, I'll give it a whirl.

Okay, sorry.

My students come here with many

questions.

But at the core is one basic question.

Who am I?

Then come the others.

Am I truly living my best life?

Will I find love and peace?

Let go of the phrase I am. I'd love to

photograph Laura. She's stunning.

>> thinking that you must define

yourselves, but you cannot.

>> ever changing.

Ever floating.

Ever learning.

Just

be.

Just

be.

I hope your journey brings you

everything you're looking for.

This is just the beginning for you, you

know.

Be open to

peace,

love,

now-ness.

Love?

Not right now.

Someday.

Love will come.

I think you'll be with a

a sharing

kind of person.

Not a certain gender or age

or expectation.

Hey. Hey.

That's your camera.

All right, you got your first photo

shoot today, huh?

You go, girl. I'll see you guys later.

I'm going to go take a walk and got to

get some soup on. Bye.

>> See you later. Have a good time.

Thank you [music] for letting me do

this. Of course. I'm having a wonderful

time.

You're so easy to photograph.

You're natural.

Gorgeous.

Just going to make some few adjustments

here and then eyes to me. [music] Now,

I'd love for you to extend your arm so I

can see the length of your body. Yeah,

beautiful.

Now, if if you if you don't mind, I'd

like to go over here to the stool so

[music] I can get the sunlight on your

face coming in through the windows.

Okay. Okay. Great. So,

Beautiful.

I like that.

I love that expression. Yes.

That's lovely, Laura. Really nice.

Oh.

Sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

I can't find my lucky ladle. I think I

probably left it in here somewhere.

I don't know. Let's try this drawer.

I'm not interrupting, am I?

We were just finishing.

Oh,

you know, I probably already packed it

up in the RV and just forgot.

You know how that goes.

Nice robe.

Photos will be gorgeous. I'll send you

copies.

Thank you for letting me photograph you.

What was that all about? You spying on

me?

No.

No, of course not.

I I was just curious.

I'd never seen a fashion shoot before.

Well, this isn't Paris. I was just

getting some pics for the photo contest

you convinced me to enter. Oh, yeah.

Laura, what a beauty, huh?

I bet those shots are damn good.

Did you get any of the naked ones?

Are you a 12-year-old boy? No, I didn't

get any naked pics.

Come on, I'm tired.

And I'll bet you do snore.

Why'd you say that?

I I hope your few days with us

opened up your heart and mind to

possibilities.

Definitely.

Definitely did.

Come back again and stay a while.

Oh, hey.

I'm sorry about that whole meditation

thing.

No ohm for me.

I'm not making fun of it. I you know, I

just

how do you sit still like that?

I like it. It helps me.

You helped me.

Daiku, too.

I couldn't. It should be with you. Mhm,

no, it should be with you.

Just be.

Remember, just

just be.

Hey.

While you're just being,

how about a parting gift? This is

Wanda's new famous clementine spice

soup. I know it sounds weird,

but trust.

>> [music]

[music]

>> Hey, did you just love it?

How about that, Laura, huh?

Yes

and yes.

And how about Daiku? What a cool guy

that is, right?

He's like the Dalai Lama but with cooler

clothes.

Way cool guy.

God, I didn't mean for any of this to

make you sad.

I'm not sad at all at all, Wanda.

For the first time in

a very long time,

I feel like [clears throat] me.

Not me as someone living in someone

else's life.

Just

me.

So sad.

Absolutely [music]

not.

How about I fix you a cup of tea?

I have the water on already.

Yeah, I got your

little teapot back here.

Is your lucky pot, huh? I mean, who

travels

with a tea Uh it's a long it's a long

story, but I'll share it with you

sometime.

Let's just say that the teapot is from

one journey and

we have started a new one.

Cheers, my friend.

Cheers.

To you. To you, Wanda. Thank you.

I think we need to go camp.

Camp out under the stars, find the

quiet.

Although the woods are never really that

quiet, you know, mountain lions and

bears and such.

>> Yeah, that's the beauty of it.

Surrounded by nature. We'll head up

north for a few days and sleep in this

baby. I got a great camping spot up

there.

I was thinking maybe we could rent a

cabin in the woods with running water

and a bathroom and then

sit on the porch and take in all that

nature.

Be brave, girl scout. Wanda will protect

you from all the scary creatures in the

forest.

Well, I haven't been camping since I was

a kid and I didn't like it. Well,

you'll like it now.

Okay. Okay. Okay. Yes. Yes. Absolutely

yes.

Yes. Wait, did you say mountain lions? I

did.

I also said bears. Wanda, Wanda, what

are you getting? Mountain lions and

bears. Okay, yes. I'm on the journey.

>> [music]

>> Finally. Can you hear me? Yes. Yes, Mom.

You and Kevin hanging in? Where are you?

Uh Wanda and I are camping. Wanda does

know that roughing it for you is a

Holiday Inn, doesn't she?

You couldn't even stand summer camp.

Creepy crawlies, owls in the night.

I'm excited about this, Mom. Sleeping

under the the stars, skinny dipping in

the lake, telling ghost stories.

>> Oh my god.

>> What? What What What's the matter?

You've become 12 again.

Is Kevin around? He's in his gym.

If you can call tonight, he'll be

around. Any good news about the virus?

It is far from over. You know, people

just don't take

precautions and all of us suffer.

Why on earth you'd want to be out in the

world ripe with disease, I'll never

know. I'm in the middle of the woods. No

one else is around. I'm probably in one

of the safest places in America. Hey

Mom, I've got to go before Wanda hurts

herself putting this tent up. Have fun.

Stay safe. Bye.

How can I help?

Hey, you can blow this up.

Okay. On it.

By the way,

love this place.

I'm okay.

You keep up doing yourself here.

I don't feel like I'm making any

progress.

Want to use this?

You have a pump?

Yeah, I want to die. I'm so dizzy.

Here.

I'll do it. Go sit. All right. Go sit

down.

Ugh.

>> [laughter]

>> I wonder who lives there.

That's another little surprise I have

for you.

Surprise?

I'll introduce you once I get all this

stuff set up.

To whom?

You'll see.

>> [screaming]

>> You're here.

Did you get everything

I've brought you my newest creation,

clementine spice soup.

Divina,

this is my friend Marybeth Higgins.

Marybeth, this is Divina.

>> you. You're Divina Moonbeam.

I was at one of your events in San Diego

a few years back.

Well, I know.

I really don't. [laughter]

Everyone expects a psychic to know

everything and

I don't. Come on in.

Make yourself at home. We hug here.

Oh, such a pleasure to meet you.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Hi. This is Carl.

Uh he lives mainly in the trailer you

probably saw when you drove up. He helps

me around the ranch. I do.

It's a pleasure to meet you, ladies. Oh,

this is my long-time friend, Wanda.

And her friend, Marybeth.

You uh you camping?

Oh, yeah. Sure are.

Really?

>> [laughter]

>> Well, I got to go fix some loose boards

out on the bridge and feed my horse

blaze, but uh if you need anything,

you know where to find me. You guys have

a good day.

Bye, Carl. Bye. Doodles.

You are something else.

>> [laughter]

>> Well, um homemade apple cider.

I don't drink alcohol, that is. So,

drink up these.

You will soon be delivered a tall, dark,

handsome, charming someone.

I think I must have got your cookie.

>> [laughter]

>> Ooh, let me help you. This is

So,

let's use this

to officially welcome you

and

offer a wish for a successful awakening

on this part of your journey.

Wanda filled me in a bit.

I can't believe you already know who

Divina is.

And here I was thinking I had this great

surprise for you. It's a surprise, all

right.

Are you retired? From events, yes.

Oh, the mind never sleeps, but until I

die, oh, hmm,

who knows?

Maybe even beyond. I'll still see things

and know things.

It's the gift that keeps on giving.

And it's the gift that I want to give to

you.

What?

I came here purposely because I know

that Divina can help you figure out

where you're going.

You know, what's next.

Oh, uh

I don't know.

Who really wants to know the future?

Everyone.

>> [laughter]

>> So? Come on, Marybeth.

You've got nothing to lose.

Just be open.

I'm going to wait outside.

Leave you two alone.

>> [music]

[bell]

>> You are at

the crossroads in your life.

More like a big X.

>> [music]

>> So many choices, which

path to take is

constantly on your mind.

Something happened to

awaken

your desire to figure out your life.

No kidding.

Plus, I'm sure Wanda told you all about

our journey.

I was told nothing personal

about you.

Everything I see or hear

is new to me.

Your son. You have a son.

Oh, young, smart.

He will keep well.

You worry about him now more than ever.

I

I see him leaving with

a relative to go stay with them while

you're on your quest. A quest?

Yes.

That's what this is.

But you don't know what you want yet.

Oh.

I see a

a separation.

Oh,

a permanent separation.

>> [sighs]

>> It will be

It will be easier for both you and your

partner. No,

your husband.

He wants this as well.

I

I see a book.

A book on a table. Inside are your words

and your photos from this time in your

life.

Oh, you have much talent, creative

talent.

Your time to show the world has arrived.

A book?

My photos?

>> [snorts]

>> Oh.

>> [snorts]

>> I see a new love in your life.

Someone you know

or have known a long time.

You will know who

when you are ready

to let this someone

>> [music]

>> in.

She does know I'm still married.

At least another week or two.

I can't imagine

>> [music]

>> having someone new in my life right now.

I see no time there.

Time is

something made [music] up by man.

It's My minutes could be your hours, my

days your months. I am here

in the now as you are.

>> [music]

>> You need to open up.

Take risks.

When you open up,

people, possibilities,

changes, they all come.

Watch for the signs.

They are all around.

Just know this.

What I see in your future

is not easy.

Leaving one life to start a another. But

in the end [music] you will find you.

Right now just

be in it.

Present.

Daya who said [music] to just be.

Laura said I'd find me.

Davina.

Wanda.

Be honest with people. Don't hold back.

And those that love you will still be

there.

And those that walk away

you don't need.

Hey.

Just came to walk you back to the tent.

Thank you, Davina.

You're welcome, honey.

Good to meet you.

Well.

I mean, want to see amazing or

Do you ever question who you are?

Yeah, sure. Like daily.

That's an elusive answer.

Can I just have a few minutes?

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, sure. Yeah, of course.

Hey, how about hot dogs for dinner?

Wanda.

Was Davina's reading upsetting?

I know that things in my life are coming

to an end.

And

she said new things are coming.

How she knew about Bill and Kevin, I

have

I can't figure it out.

Did you? No.

No, not at all. Zero. I swear.

What she say?

It wasn't what Davina said. It's

she made me realize that change is

coming.

It's going to be hard.

But eventually it'll be good.

In the end.

Well, that's good, right? That's the

right attitude.

Just once.

Just once.

This is

all I ask the universe.

Just once I'd like to feel like

like I'm first or

equal.

I want to feel that passion they talk

about.

Passion for

career.

Passion for another person.

Yeah, I

I don't know what to say about all that.

I do know that Davina knows her stuff.

And you know, I'm here for you.

I'm always here for you to to talk or

whatever.

Did you want to go home?

Absolutely not.

I need this time with you.

I have a lot to think about.

You hungry? We got to eat.

Why don't I get you a glass of wine?

Wine.

I'll take the wine.

I thought you might.

[ __ ]

Ah.

Oh.

Oh.

Here's some of your favorite.

Oh my

Oh.

Oh, and it's cold. Okay, let me help

you. No, I got I got it. No, okay, don't

look. Don't look.

Oh. Come here. Come here.

It's so cold.

Thank you.

I

I know.

>> [music]

[music]

>> Morning.

Yes, it is.

Want some coffee?

Creamer, sugar?

Relax. Black is fine.

This looks wonderful. I'm starving.

>> Mhm.

Me, too.

After wrestling with that tent and

blowing up the air mattress.

Burned a lot of calories.

I was up really early this morning.

And I went to

scouting out the place.

Some really really beautiful things to

see.

You want to go exploring today?

Do you Do you hike? I do.

You're a really good snuggler.

I was um

protecting you from the mountain lions.

That's all.

Yeah.

Well, I can report that I was not

attacked.

So, good job.

So, a hike would be

great.

And a shower afterwards, I guess.

Is there a shower? No.

I usually just take a couple of buckets

of water and pour it over myself.

It works.

I'll get my shoes.

And about the shower, might have to help

me with that.

>> [music]

>> So pretty.

Okay. It's the rain. Yeah.

>> [snorts]

[laughter]

>> You draw?

Yeah.

I've been sketching a little bit since I

was a teenager.

Like an escape, you know?

You're full of surprises. Morning. Hi.

He's beautiful.

>> [laughter]

>> Is he gentle? Always.

I've got a puppy.

When do you want to hop on him?

I'd love to. But I haven't ridden in

years.

Get in here.

>> [gasps]

>> Just bareback, huh?

Why not?

See I see it all.

Yep. You going to give me a push?

>> Yep.

There you go.

You're a natural.

>> [laughter]

>> Natural. [snorts]

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

>> [laughter]

[music]

>> Hold on.

>> If you're going to be around a while, I

could

saddle them up. You could go for a ride.

I don't know how long we'll be here.

Thanks. You're welcome.

Thanks, Blaze. Beautiful. Thank you.

>> [music]

>> Have a good day.

You too.

Was that fun or what?

Oh, I haven't been on a horse in

years.

It makes me feel so alive.

Doing these things that I haven't done

in

so long.

Starting to feel the joy I haven't felt

in a very long time [music] now.

Thank you.

I've been with a woman.

Just one.

Long time ago.

I've been with a few women.

I'm not a womanizing type of person or

anything like that.

I don't even go to bars.

I'm not a cheater.

Never cheated.

I'm not either.

I was

faithful to Bill from the day we were

married.

Now I'm I'm on the market. She has

Kevin, of course.

Free to choose whatever and

whoever I want.

And I'm scared of both.

Make sense?

So, tell me about this one and only

woman experience that you had.

Was it one of those college things?

Right after.

I was

my first professional photo shoot.

What a coup.

I was all of 20 or so and

and I got to go to London and shoot this

beautiful model.

London.

Tea on the River Thames. Very romantic.

Hence the teapot. Oh, see I knew there

had to be some special meaning there. I

mean, who brings a ceramic teapot on a

road trip?

We met on that photo shoot.

The model.

The model?

I fell in love.

That lose-your-breath kind of love.

She was

beautiful,

sexy,

funny.

I was absolutely lost in her.

For a month.

Just a month.

Then

Bill,

my parents,

my fears.

I felt that way.

In a small way.

But you know, like you, I wanted more.

Having my life be my life for the first

time in forever

feels good.

You okay hanging out with me?

I love hanging out with you.

You're

you're funny and

curious and a little crazy.

>> [laughter]

>> We're good.

We're very good.

>> [music]

>> You've never had s'mores? I'm sheltered.

Okay, so

it's time for you to have your first

s'more. Ooh. I'll build a fire and we're

going to get everything all hot and

gooey, but first I want to introduce you

to the ingredients. You got your trio of

ingredients here. You got your

chocolate, [music] then you got your

graham crackers, and then marshmallows.

I usually I put these on a skewer and

get them really burnt and gooey, but the

That's my favorite ingredient.

Wow!

Was that a good s'more

or what? Incredible!

You know I ordered that up just for you.

Knowing you, I believe it.

Ah, that was amazing.

Hey, can I have some of that? Can I

trade you No, give me that. chocolate

for the

You know what?

You know what? Um I don't even need to

melt it anymore.

>> [music]

>> It did.

That subject.

[ __ ] I I shouldn't have done that. I'm

so sorry. I'm so sorry. I I shouldn't

have done that. I

>> [screaming]

>> What's that?

That was something really big. It sounds

like something's coming. Okay, get in

your sleeping bag.

Oh my god, Davina, you want to kill me.

I thought you might like to come up to

the house for some homemade apple pie

and a cup of cocoa before you

Oh, were you sleeping? Did I wake you

up? I'm sorry.

No, no, we're just

relaxing, listening to

wild animal sounds.

What time is it? 9:00.

I would love apple pie and hot cocoa.

We'll be there.

Let's go!

Oh good, you got here before Gus got

you. Gus? The mountain lion. Oh my god,

you named him.

>> [laughter]

>> Cougar. Whatever you want to call him.

He's been here for years. I don't bother

him, he doesn't bother me.

>> [laughter]

>> Oh, you guys remember to zip up your

tent and lock up your food, right?

Thanks for the heads-up, Davina.

Not exactly.

>> [laughter]

>> Sweet ladies.

It's my mom. I I have to take it.

Please.

Is everything okay? Did something

happen?

>> No, no, nothing happened. I just wanted

to let you know I'm going to head home

tomorrow. Kevin's going to come with me.

He can do his remote school stuff from

my house and I get to go home. Oh, I'll

be home in a week. Are you sure? I need

my own space. I can get my pooch out of

the kennel.

Hope she talks to me again.

And Kevin could use a vacation after all

these months. I have a pool. Okay, I

understand. Just make sure you lock up

the house before you leave. I thought

I'd leave the front door wide open and

put up a welcome thieves sign. Mom.

Anyway, thanks for taking care of my

boy. I'll come pick him up as soon as I

get home.

I'm actually loving having him to

myself. You know, I get lonely, too.

As a matter of fact, one of the things

that I'm learning from all this is that

we need to be around the people we love

so much more.

Let's make you and us a priority from

now on. Sounds like this trip and your

friend have been good for you. Yes.

Both.

Well, you two have fun and I'll call you

soon. And

Hey Mom, if I haven't told you lately

that I love you, um

I do.

All of me.

>> [laughter]

>> Everything okay? Oh yeah, Mom and Kevin

are heading to her house. She's anxious

to get back and it's fine. Really, it's

it's okay. Oh, want to have a warm up,

huh? Oh no, no, thank you.

Oh

boy, this doesn't happen to me very

often.

>> What? What is it?

Uh well, I'm having a déjà vu again.

I'll share it with you if you want to

hear it.

Yes.

I had a dream last night.

And Mary Beth, you were in it.

Really?

Yeah, it wasn't anything terrible.

But it came with a word of caution and I

wanted to share it with you, but I feel

like I might be jumping into something

that I shouldn't, but you know what? I'm

going to do it anyway. Now you got me

really curious.

I know that you two

have gotten

close.

I knew something was coming.

But now I see something else

coming.

What?

History.

I don't understand.

I saw you

running away, Mary Beth.

You've done that before.

The time to stop

running away

is now.

Now is the time

to run to people, places, things with

your eyes open.

And your heart open.

Wanda, I have I have to go back to the

tent now.

I better go.

Hey. Hey.

Love is there.

Love is there.

What happened?

She knows.

She knows that I

I ran away from Barbara.

That's what I do when I'm scared.

I run.

I don't want to.

I don't plan to. [music]

No more hurting anyone.

>> [music]

>> Deep thoughts.

Hey, it's Wanda. How deep can they be?

>> don't

Remember it's me. Yeah.

Yeah.

It's just that I have been thinking.

You know, thinking a lot.

Maybe too much.

About her.

About her.

Her. No.

You went on this trip, this journey

to open up her world.

My dear friend,

she has opened yours.

When we were in the meditation gardens,

I just saw this light come over.

There was this woman there, Laura, who

gave her a statue of the Green Tara. Do

you know it? Oh, I do.

A powerful force.

The great protectress, compassionate

force,

who fuels all life,

addresses all your fears.

I'm afraid to be that.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid I've already let her in.

And then we'll go home and this trip

will end and I'll just

I'll have misread all the cues.

And then I'll just be alone again.

You've only known her a few months.

And how long have you been on this trip?

What? A a week?

>> [laughter]

>> I'm

>> [music]

>> not putting my psychic hat on.

>> [snorts]

>> I'm putting my friend hat on.

>> [laughter]

>> Just

be.

Just

sit in the now-ness.

You're ready to let someone into your

life

fully.

It scares you. No,

it does.

She is on the cusp.

She is still getting used to her own

aloneness, her own fears.

She runs deeper.

Let it unfold.

>> [snorts]

>> Just let it unfold.

You should have waited so I could help

you. Oh, it's no problem.

You have a nice bath?

Wanda, I have to say something and I I

need you to listen to understand.

Oh.

Okay.

When Barbara sent me that teapot, it was

like

someone

turned the lights on.

It was a much

needed light

in the middle of everyone having to stay

in their homes and

Bill and I splitting up.

Time to think. Way way too much time to

think.

I think I know what you're trying to

say.

You need to get home now. You need a

little space for me. You need time for

yourself.

>> Listen, stop.

I'm saying that this quest with you has

been like

the door slowly opening up to reveal the

light again.

There's just a lot of pieces in the air

and

I need to see how those pieces land.

It takes time.

And one of the only things I have is

time.

And if you're in my life and you're here

to stay now, that's all that matters.

We are friends.

It's not going to change.

Let's go home.

Having home has a nice ring to it.

>> [snorts]

[music]

[music]

[music]

>> Hey, you know, you didn't say a word all

the way home.

Thinking.

Listen, I'm going to take my bags in the

bedroom.

Yeah. Oh, yeah.

Yeah, you need to be home now.

See your kid.

Sleep in your own bed.

Sing real loud in the shower.

I've uh

never been inside your house before.

It's warm.

Spotless.

That's a relief.

You know what? I'll go get up the

surplus of toilet paper you left in my

van.

>> Oh, Wanda, you don't need to do that.

>> Nah, I'm going to go get it. Cuz if I

don't, you'll just order more online and

I'll have to deliver it later anyway.

Fair enough.

Get settled.

Settled?

Will I ever be settled again?

Actually,

I hope I never settle again for

anything.

The only thing I want to go back to is

Kevin and

and now.

I'm back with your TP.

I will trade you this TP for a glass of

wine.

I'll take that trade.

House is really great.

>> [music]

>> A musician, too.

Like, no.

Thank you.

To the journey.

Thanks.

You know, you just drove 8 hours. I'm

tired. You have to be exhausted.

Won't you stay?

Stay here? Yeah, get some sleep.

Like a topping it off with a slumber

party?

>> [laughter]

>> Okay. Yes.

You know,

if someone would have told me a month

ago that we were going to go on this

grand adventure and

and I was going to experience that

gorgeous meditation center and camp with

mountain lions and

have a psychic reading and watch a

shooting star, I would have thought it

was

the makings of a

an epic novel.

But,

Mary Beth, you are back home again and

uh

I need to talk to Kevin.

Assure him that he'll be okay and

and I'll be okay.

Why me?

What do you mean?

Well, you

thought about me and

planned this

this journey and cared for me.

Why?

Mhm.

I know what it's like to feel lost.

You know,

years ago

I met someone who taught me that life

is actually pretty simple.

It can be quite joyous if we just let

joy be.

She taught me to stay present.

Be kind. Do no harm.

And to never look back. Above all,

not to look back.

Plus, I just love being with you.

I love being with you, too.

On that note, I am going to top us off

with wine.

It was Davina, wasn't it?

It was.

Were you lovers?

No, she

took me in when I needed taking in.

Hey,

why don't we get into our jammies and

get this slumber party started?

Oh, Wanda, only you. Jammies? Yeah. O-

Okay.

I'm going to get mine from the RV.

I'm going to get my jammies on.

Get your jammies on.

>> [laughter]

>> Hi.

Hi.

Bend your knees.

What?

Just

Yeah.

>> [music]

[singing]

[music]

[singing]

[music]

[singing and music]

[singing and music]

[music]

[music]

[singing]

[music]

[singing]

[music]

>> Just be.

Your love is rare.

Time to share. Just be.

Just shine your light.

>> [music and singing]

>> Let it shine bright.

Being in love is a beautiful thing.

[singing] You can do anything.

>> [music]

>> The journey [singing] of knowing

that you can just be.

>> [music]

>> You can see love is love is love.

Why can't it be all that we speak of?

The light within you beams outside

to everyone worldwide. Be

you.

>> [music]

>> Be free to live your life.

The light within you beams outside

>> [music]

>> to everyone worldwide.

Be you. Be free to live your life.

>> [singing]

>> Be you.

Be free

>> [music]

>> to live your life.

>> [singing and music]