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♪ I'm free and wild
for feelings just like this ♪

[upbeat pop music playing]

♪ Oh ♪

♪ You're staring like you think
You've not got your eyes like this ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ I'm going down
And I can't get up ♪

[indistinct chatter]

[Marie] What a lady.

[laughs]

-Goodness.
-[AJ] Yeah, I know, right?

[Marie] Jeez, okay. Am I kicking you?

No, I'd prefer if you did.

-[Marie] Wanna play footsies?
-Yeah.

[both laughing]

-Hello!
-How are you?

Ready for your order?

[both] Yes.

May we please do oysters and octopus?

And then, a rib eye.

-[man] What temperature for the rib eye?
-Mid-rare.

[man] Medium rare?

[Marie] And then… linguine or bucatini?

-[man] Bucatini.
-Yeah? Okay, let's do that one.

-[man] Trust me.
-I trust it. Yeah, we'll do it. Thank you.

-[man] I'll be back with the water.
-[both] Thank you.

-That was sexy.
-Yeah?

-Yeah.
-Wow, why?

Because for you to order for me
is like, wow.

I like it. That's all you need to know.

[laughing]

Okay.

-I'm happy we're doing this.
-Mm-hmm.

[AJ] I just see so much good in you.

And just knowing what it is
that you know you deserve,

the right person will show you
everything that you need.

[Marie] We are all growing up at a pace

where all of my friends
are getting married and having babies

and, like, just buying houses
and just doing these really big things.

-Absolutely.
-And it's very frustrating.

Yeah.

You know what I want
to name my first child?

Jewel.

Would you be willing to compromise
in making that a middle name?

And then we could do
the first name with an A.

They could be AJ the second.

[both laugh]

You've been very great.

-You'll make me blush.
-I'm trying not to.

I very much appreciate you.

-[AJ] Okay, let's see what you got.
-I'm excited.

These are our bestsellers, patatas bravas.

-Thank you.
-Thank you.

Cheers to me and you.

[AJ] Tell me something.

Is there anything that scares you
about being with me?

-Whoa.
-You want me to say this at dinner?

Yeah.

You're great.
I don't regret my choice at all.

Like, I'm really proud
to have walked out of there with you.

Like, are you kidding?

-Are you not?
-So nothing scares you about us?

-Back to that question.
-Yes.

Um, I don't know yet.

Okay. I'll answer my own question.

There's nothing that scares me about you.

-Not yet.
-Like what?

Everyone's on their Ps and Qs right now.

I think you will find that that's just me.

I'm so happy to be
in this moment with you.

When I tell you, I absolutely… And I would
say it till the cows come home,

I absolutely could not have chosen
a better person to do this with.

Oh stop.

I've picked a lot of wrong people,
but with you, I haven't.

I'm so appreciative
of just who you are as a person.

Seeing how caring you are
in just, like, the finest details.

Something that you did
you don't even realize

that was such a huge deal for me was,
like, you put chai tea next to my bed.

No, I wasn't smiling in the moment 'cause
I'm a groggy-ass bitch in the morning.

-A groggy-ass bitch in the morning.
-But I was smiling

ear-to-ear on the inside.

That's good!

Because that started my morning
in such a fantastic way,

and I'm very, very grateful for you.

♪ I wanna run with you ♪

My worst fear in this process is
if my partner falls in love.

I never really thought if I fell in love
that that would be my worst fear.

-Cheers. To…
-Cheers.

-New beginnings.
-New beginnings.

Oh!

♪ 'Cause I can run with you ♪

♪ Forever ♪

♪ We'll do it together
Let's make your move ♪

[bouncy pop music playing]

♪ Gonna hit you like
Wow, oh, wow ♪

♪ Let me see the way you work it out ♪

[Bridget] I'm back with coffee
for my beautiful wife.

Thank you. Best wife ever.

[both laugh]

[Bridget] My wife is
such a hard-working girl.

Just providing for this family.

[Marita] How's the world?

[Britney] Um…

Lay it on me.

[sighs] A lot.

I do miss AJ.

-Yeah.
-Do you regret coming here?

No. This will benefit me in the long run.

I just need to get through
this, like, hurdle right now.

I want to be here for you in any way.

-Yeah.
-Thank you. That really means a lot.

I don't feel like it's a safe option
to pick someone so

-similar.
-Yeah.

-I feel like this was the ideal thing.
-The ultimate pick.

-The ultimate pick. Yeah.
-Yes, I agree.

[Magan grunts]

-[grunting contentedly]
-[Haley laughs]

♪ Boom, boom, boom
Gonna make you move, move, move ♪

Let's go.

I need to pee.

-Do you want me to get out for a sec?
-No, I kind of want you in there.

-[Mel laughs]
-You want me in here?

-Is this growth you're having right now?
-We're there. We're there.

♪ We onto something new, yeah ♪

[Pilar] There you go.

[Kyle] Wow.

How cute is this?

Our first picture.

[laughs]

What time is it?

Nine.

I'm actually feeling pretty good
for sleeping for five hours.

-I normally am very grouchy.
-Mm-hmm.

Do you have stuff like that?

Yeah, for sure. If I'm around people
that are annoying,

-then I…
-[Pilar laughs]

I, like, can't tolerate it for very long.

-Yeah. Is Bridget like that?
-Oh, for sure.

Sometimes I never am really sure
what's going to come out of her mouth.

-[Pilar laughs]
-But that's kind of entertaining.

I remember, like, we were at a party once

where she thought
the conversation was boring.

And she just, like, started humming.

And I'm like, "You can't hum…"

"You can't, like, start humming
when we're, like, with people."

-You know, things like that.
-That's so funny.

Which, like, I love,
but also, like, not me at all.

This is your first healthy relationship?

[Kyle] Mm-hmm.

And that you're so sure that
you want to get married of your first…

-I don't--
-How are you so sure?

I just am. Like, I don't really get that…
that, like, questioning.

Like, it's not like
grass is greener syndrome.

I am personally not trying to find

-something better.
-Mm-hmm.

-It's just the finality of it all is…
-Right.

-…scary.
-Yeah.

I get that. It's like you're eating,
like, a good piece of cake

and you're like, are you sure this is
as good as you think it is? Yeah, I am.

Well, it's like you're gonna eat
that cake for the rest of your life.

Yeah, and I love it.
Why do I need something else?

-You've had bad cakes your whole life.
-Uh-huh.

And then you have a good cake
and you're like,

"I'm gonna eat this cake
for the rest of my life."

That sounds, like, insane.

You would want to try and be like,
"Oh, this is a great cake."

"I'm sure there's other great cakes
in the world."

"I want to try great cakes."

"I love cakes now."

Really? That's how you would think?

-If you were to simplify it like that…
-Mm-hmm.

…if something was bad

and then you have one good thing
and you're like, "That's it,"

that sounds,
for a realistic person, crazy.

Does it not?

-I don't think so.
-Really?

Yeah, because you have it,
and it's really good.

Why do you need another one? You know?

It's not that you need another one.
Why is that the only one?

How… how are you so sure?

This is the one time
I think you should be very selfish.

-I guess.
-Yeah.

♪ If I fall in love with you
I need to know ♪

♪ That you're scared of you falling too ♪

Yeah. I'm so hot, I feel like
I have to turn the air down.

-You asked for it to be hotter.
-I was freezing.

-But now… it's…
-This is directly because of you.

Hey, Pilar, can you help me?

[Pilar] No, I taught you.

Oh no, I just set it to 85--
Oh, wait, I figured it out.

[Pilar laughs]

Sixty-nine. Excellent.

[giggles]

♪ I wanna know the deepest struggles
and the deepest ♪

♪ Tell me all your secrets ♪

[AJ] Over by me?

All right, I'm on my way.

♪ Deep, deep ♪

♪ Lead me to the deep
Show me where you're weak ♪

♪ Even if you're healing me 'cause ♪

♪ I need you to feel it ♪

♪ Tell me all your secrets ♪

♪ All of your knowings
All of your codes ♪

♪ All of your mystery
Under your folds ♪

♪ Just how deep
How deep does it go? ♪

[door unlocks]

[dog barks]

-[barking continues]
-[AJ] Shh.

Dukey, relax.

You're gonna wake up Marie.

Are you awake?

You scared the shit out of me.

I'm so sorry.

-Are you okay?
-Yeah.

You've been up this entire time?

Yeah.

You okay?

Ugh. I'll live.

It's a lot.

-[AJ] Yo.
-Hello.

There's a new volleyball team in Orlando.

-Shut up, for real?
-Mm-hmm. They're called the Valkyries.

Orlando needs a WNBA basketball team.
I would go to that.

[laughs softly]

I did want to tell you,
because it's kind of been looming on me.

I wasn't, like, completely
100% honest with you.

I just wanted to come clean with you
and tell you I've seen Britney twice.

And hung out with her,
and I wanted to be transparent,

clear with you, clarity, everything.

And just wanted you to know,
like, I'm sorry.

Moving forward, like, that…
that's not my concern.

So… I just wanted to, like,
put it out there and let you know,

from here on out I'm completely invested
and dedicated in this,

and I want you to feel that
and know that every single day.

I appreciate that.

I mean, you're in charge
of your own grief.

You'll deal with it in whatever way
that you think is manageable.

I appreciate that though.

And if there's anything that I can do
that I'm not currently doing for you,

I hope that you are able
to express that to me

and make sure, like, you know
you're getting what you need as well.

Yeah.

♪ Broken stories ♪

♪ Fallen glories again ♪

[Marie] I feel like a fool, honestly.

I thought there was actually
a connection there with AJ,

and now I'm shutting down
because I do not trust her.

[AJ] Oh my God.

Work is working my nerves today.

I would do anything
to be in your position currently.

I bet you would.
[chuckles dryly] Mm.

I've never felt so betrayed,
and it's very lonely.

[Dayna] I think you got, like,
seven seasonings today for one meal.

$25 for fricking truffle,
and I don't even know what it is.

-[Mel] Oh.
-It's wild.

[Mel] I want you to smell it, actually.

-Oh!
-[both laughing]

Why didn't you tell me
not to smell it that close?

-[Mel laughs]
-Why would you do that?

-[Mel] Clear your sinuses.
-You're terrible.

Oh my God.

-It's very intense. You don't use a lot.
-God damn.

-Does it always smell like that?
-Yeah.

[Mel laughs]

I feel like we've been so, like,
"protect our peace"

since we've moved in together.

Like, we want to stay
in our little bubble.

-[Mel] Just padlock the door.
-[Dayna] Literally just me and you.

So I feel like it does show for both of us
that we have that same mentality.

[Mel] Yeah.

[Dayna] Wow, you're so fancy.

[Mel laughs]

♪ I can't describe how I'm feeling ♪

I don't want your dirty fingers
touching my food.

Where would you like me to put
my dirty fingers?

You're so insane. [laughs]

♪ It's just you and I
Your hand in mine ♪

[Mel] Come on, let's go.

[Dayna] Holy cow, Mel, look.

[Mel] That is insane, bro.

-Is that the sun? What am I looking at?
-That's the sun.

Wow, how gorgeous.

You're like a little chef.

You literally are a chef.

I feel like food is just… universal.

Food and music
are what bring people together.

Facts.

That's just one of those things.

-And alcohol.
-[Mel laughs] Valid.

I'm having a great night.

-I'm always having a great night with you.
-[Mel laughs softly]

I feel like we're, like… very close

and, like, sure of each other.

We're, like, invested in this.

Did you think
we'd like each other so much?

-[chuckles] Honestly, no.
-Yeah, me either.

-[Mel] I thought that we would…

-fight a lot more.
-Yeah, me too.

But other than that, I really thought,
what am I going to talk about with Dayna?

-For 24 hours a day.
-Twelve… yeah.

Every day. I know.

I don't think we've ever had
a moment of silence though.

-[Mel laughs]
-Probably 'cause of me.

-I don't let you stop talking to me.
-Cheers to that. Cheers to that. [giggles]

[Dayna] I thought trust
was going to be probably

the thing I felt the least towards you.

And it's the thing I have the most.

Like, I trust you so much,

and I didn't think
I'd trust you even a bit.

I have mad trust issues.

I truly believe you care about me.

-I do.
-Do you know what I mean?

I think a lot of trust is built in, like,
knowing how much you mean to someone,

or how much you don't mean to someone,

or measuring where you mean to somebody.

The more I think you care about me,
the more my trust builds.

I like that you still are going on
about how much you trust me.

So I'm gonna let you keep going.

[laughs]

♪ I think I'm fallin' ♪

♪ Oh, I might need someone to lean on ♪

What?

♪ Maybe that somebody is you ♪

I believe in you.

I believe the things you say to me.

Your actions align
with the things you say.

♪ It's hard to breathe… ♪

Stop smiling at me like that.

Like, I don't question you anymore.
You know?

Oh, I know.

You said, oh, you know.

[both laughing]

Oh, I know.

Um, all right, so, Brussel sprouts,
what were your impressions?

The truffle…

-Different? Definitely different.
-They were fire. Yeah.

It smells exactly like
what I thought it would taste like.

[Mel laughs]

Um, I literally made it for you,
'cause I don't like truffle all that much.

Why make it for me?
What if I didn't like it?

♪ It's got me over the moon ♪

You spent $25 on an oil
that you don't even like?

-For me?
-Yeah.

Wow, you love me.

[Mel laughs]

-Yeah, don't go dropping words like that.
-I knew it.

♪ So tell me when your heart is ready ♪

♪ I'll give you my all if you let me ♪

♪ Love you ♪

-[Haley yawns]
-[Magan laughing]

[Haley] Oh.

I feel like… we take turns
taking care of each other,

and I feel like very, like, catered to.

You're always, like,
grabbing me water, or, like,

you waking up, making me breakfast.

That's really nice.

Really. Makes me feel very, like, special.

You are very special.

[Magan] Thank you.

It's just crazy to think how far
we've come along, and it's just like…

We still don't know where this is gonna go
in terms of, like, growth.

I think for a long time,
I wasn't taking myself seriously,

so my family wasn't taking me seriously.

-I was unsure, so they were unsure.
-Mm-hmm.

Now I don't feel unsure.

I feel confident.

Like, I know that they love me,

and they, like, want to support me
with everything.

It's just… I don't know. I mean…

I do think they're having a hard time.

I'll keep, like, initiating
as long as, like,

I'm getting respect in return,
as long as my partner's getting respect.

I think that's a big one.

In the past, I would always give them,
like, a free pass

to just do things however they wanted,

because, yeah, it's just, like,
it's okay because they're my family.

But, like, at a certain point…

I had to put my foot down.

Honestly, it's not fair.

Why does somebody deserve
to be treated that way?

Why do you not give them a chance?

And then you expect everything
to be the same with me.

-[Haley] Mm-hmm.
-It's very hurtful.

[Haley] Yeah.

You have to build… courage and bravery

to bring somebody around,

and for them to not even be, like,
taken seriously,

that's not something
that I want for myself.

I get sad about it.

It's like, could I have done
something better?

I don't know.

I'm just going to keep crying
so you can do that. [chuckles]

-Is that your pick-up move?
-Yeah.

I think they're going to come around.

I think they will take you seriously.

-I think that…
-Yeah.

…now you… I see how much, like,
your confidence has grown.

-And, like, your confidence in yourself.
-Yeah.

And… I think that's a big part
of why my family takes me so seriously,

is just because I make a decision
and, like, that's what I'm going with and…

It's my way or the highway.
They can take it or leave it.

-[Magan] Yeah.
-So they take it.

And I think you have that power too.

Thank you.

So I got to put it into play…

-Mm-hmm.
-…when I get back home.

[sighs]

You will.

Anyways, you mean a lot to me,
and you're so special.

-Sweet.
-[Magan laughs]

No, for real.

Meant a lot to me. Mm.

♪ You picked me like a wildflower ♪

♪ Steady as the sun does rise ♪

♪ Dancing in a golden hour ♪

♪Now I'm alive, yeah
I'm alive, yeah ♪

-Is this shirt new too?
-No, I've had this.

-I like it.
-Thank you.

You really didn't think
you would find a connection with someone?

No.

-Really?
-Yeah.

-Wow.
-Mm-hmm.

I feel like you're not the typical person

I would talk to at a bar.

How so? Thank you.

I don't know,
because you are more quiet than me.

I usually gravitate towards people

that are a little louder and boisterous.

Okay.

-You're just so eclectic, eccentric…
-[Kyle laughs]

-…just like, free, vibey…
-Mm-hmm.

…so you… that I've never been
with someone like you,

and I think it's so… refreshing.

I don't know.

But I feel like
I'm still learning to read you.

Well, earlier today,
sorry if I seem in my head.

Are you okay or…

I think I'm feeling better now.

What was going on?

I think it's just so many new things
all happening so fast.

-New environment, new partner.
-Sure.

-It just set in to, like, have someone…
-No, I feel you though.

…that I feel chemistry
or something with this person…

You feel chemistry with me.

Yeah.

Then it's like, "Oh, now you're going
to have a trial marriage together."

-I know, like, logically, I know…
-I know.

-…that's why we're here…
-Yeah.

…but still, like, emotionally I'm like…

-I know. No, I know.
-It's weird to, like, flirt with someone.

It's weird to, like,
indulge in this thing…

Do you feel like you're flirting?

[both laughing softly]

Yeah.

[laughs]

You don't feel that way?

-No, I know you were.
-Yeah.

[both laughing]

-How so?
-[sputters]

-You need me to say it?
-Mm-hmm.

-Okay.
-Maybe.

[both laughing]

I just think you are.

[Pilar chuckles]

I'm just curious how you aren't dealing
with the same inner turmoil that I am.

-I am.
-You are?

-It seems, like, much easier for you.
-How so?

To like be, like, flirty and affectionate,

and, like, attentive.

You never seem like
you're in your head about it or something.

I'm feeling it too.
And, like, it's so hard to articulate.

-Like, we've been having this chemistry.
-Yeah.

And I didn't expect this either.

It just makes things more confusing.

Yeah. I didn't come here
to just hook up with someone else.

Same thing for me--

Does it feel weird
that you're with someone

that you have some sort of, like, thing?

Yeah. No,
that's what I'm saying, like 100%.

[Kyle] Same.

There's a lot on the line.

-There really is. I think that…
-For both of us.

-Like our own entire lives.
-…it's scary.

But if I can feel
some type of way with someone,

and then forget,
and see my life with a new person,

that's more telling to me
than the situation that I'm in.

♪ I feel alive ♪

♪ When I'm in overdrive ♪

♪ When I'm in overdrive ♪

[Mel] I'm definitely going in the pool
at some point.

-Yeah.
-It's too hot to not.

No, it is too hot to not.

Do you want to know something
really funny that you did yesterday?

-You wanted gum.
-[Mel laughs]

And you took the gum
out of my mouth and ate it.

[laughing] Do you remember that?

At least I didn't take it
off a park bench.

[Dayna laughs]

That would have been
probably the best gum you ever had.

-Ew.
-It'd have been reflavored and everything.

Ew! You're so gross.

So I feel bad because I feel like I'm
being a bad influence on you right now.

-I'm a rider, Dayna.
-You are a rider.

-We'll make the bad decisions together…
-We do.

-…and then regret it later.
-Yep.

I have very strong feelings for Mel.

-You want to get in the pool?
-Yeah.

I don't process things quickly.
I have to think and feel things

to figure out where I'm at
and understand them.

And I finally let that hit me.

Mel tells me every day, like, let go.

I'm like, okay, I'm letting go, Mel.
We're not going to have a single regret.

This experience forces you
to, like, such a level of vulnerability

and closeness with someone.

It's so real.

[both laughing]

Yeah.

♪ I don't wanna take
More that you can give ♪

I ran into Mel and Dayna at the pool.

I know that Mel saw me,
but there was zero eye contact.

After that, I was feeling so much panic.

♪ Will I ever be satisfied? ♪

I feel like I'm losing Mel.

And AJ and I are not aligned…

on anything.

This experience is just
harder than I expected.

I stand to lose everything.

My relationship,

my business,

the person who I…
wanted to be with forever.

♪ I don't wanna take
More than you can give ♪

♪ And I don't wanna blame you… ♪

[Magan] Haley and I
saw Mel and Dayna at the pool.

Cackling. They were,
like, splashing really loud.

They both look at me,
and Dayna doesn't say hi.

She didn't say anything.

Instead, she looks over at Mel,
and she's just like,

like, you know, like,
"Oh shit, like, she's there."

I can't believe that.

That's fucked up.

If the person that I thought I was
gonna marry can't come up to me

and just treat me the way that I deserve,
then I don't want it.

With Haley, she just always makes me feel
protected and cared for.

It's just so different.
It's what I want for my life.

♪ Thought I knew love before ♪

♪ I never knew how close I was ♪

[Mel] I think right now
what's most confusing for me

is the fact that we both have exes
that we care about,

but at the same time, it's like
my feelings have grown for Dayna.

Now we're kind of just seeing, like,

"Okay, what does this mean?"

♪ Thought I knew love before ♪

♪ I never knew how lost I was ♪

Dayna has showed me

that Marie could possibly not be

the right person for me.

♪ If this is forever ♪

It's really scary, honestly.

♪ Forever ♪

♪ Thought I knew love before ♪

♪ I never knew how lost I was ♪

♪ If this is forever ♪

♪ I will feel forever ♪

[Marita] I got you something.

You got me flowers?

[Marita] Yeah.

Oh my God, they're so pretty. Thank you.

Of course.

You like them?

I love them.

They're so frickin' pretty.

They go perfectly
with the flowers I got you.

I know.

Oh my gosh.

I meant to ask you, actually,
what's your favorite flower?

I just… hoped you liked roses.

-[Marita] Oh, yeah.
-Roses are your favorite flower? Okay.

Look at our roses together.

I did see my ex briefly.
I don't think Marita knows.

I do feel, now in hindsight, bad.

It just was a human moment.

Closure, I feel like that's warranted.

-I have to sneeze.
-I'm about to massage this chicken.

Like, how do I go from caring
1000% about somebody

and then, yeah, it's abrupt breaking up,
and now I'm living with my new wife.

I just needed to, like, talk to her.

We talked in great lengths, and really,
how this would really benefit us

or change our relationship.

And that's what I needed
to start my trial marriage.

-Just go for it. Yeah, just run in.
-[Marita squeals and giggles]

Yep, you're doing good.

-[Marita] Feels weird.
-I know, it's weird.

I feel like I don't do this at home.

-I do this every day.
-I'm more of a Door Dash-er. [laughing]

I will be no AJ, no ex,

just completely dedicated to Marita.

Marita wanting romance, that is valid.

I'm gonna show her a little bit
of my daddy energy tonight.

[Marita] We gonna do
a date night in our living room?

-[Britney] Yeah, let's do it.
-Yeah?

Okay. Wish we had a tablecloth.

Wait, I have an idea.

[laughing]

[Marita] When I say I'm a romantic,
this is the type of shit I mean.

-How cute.
-[Marita laughing]

So, now that we've…

been married for a week…

-Mm-hmm.
-…how do you feel?

Honestly, going to bed, waking up,
and being around you all day is…

I couldn't ask for a better day.

-Truly, breakfast in bed…
-Aw!

…we have amazing,
just… our schedules align.

I don't feel like we have any type
of, like, conflict with anything.

Even just in general,
I feel like you've taught me a lot so far.

Just live life to the fullest.
Like, don't stress about little things.

Like, let's go with the flow.

-Yeah.
-Honestly, you're doing shit

that I didn't even think I was gonna get!

Here we are. Cute little dinner.

-Like, you stepped up.
-I know!

I'm cooking,
you set the table and the vibe,

like, no, I couldn't honestly ask
for anything better.

Aw.

That's so sweet.

Of course.

I don't have to ask you
to do anything or, like, be attentive.

You're just… doing it.

And it's so cute!

-Aw.
-[Marita giggles]

It's just natural for me, like,
I don't feel, like, bothered or feel,

"Ugh, I gotta do this."
Like, no, I just want to.

So I couldn't have
a better trial marriage wife.

I'm gonna take a peek.

[Marita] At the chicken?

Still covered, but I just wanna like,
hear how it's cooking.

[Marita] Did you say,
"hear how it's cooking"?

Like, I know that doesn't make sense,
but it, like, makes sense to me.

Like, if it's like, I hear, like, just
like, cooking, you know, like… [laughs]

Yeah, literally!

Is there anything I can do?

-No. Sit pretty and…
-Just sit back and enjoy my wine and…

[Britney] Mm-hmm.

Take in this romantic atmosphere. [laughs]

♪ Don't slow down ♪

♪Na-na-na, na-na-na ♪

♪ 'Cause I like it
What you're doing, doing to me ♪

-Do you wanna do outside?
-[Bridget] Yeah.

-It'd be kind of fun.
-Let's do it.

-Okay, I'll bring your plate.
-Oh, thanks.

You're welcome. The things I do for you.

I know, my wife is already so considerate.

I'm glad it's not a tense time for us.

-I feel so good
-Me too.

-I'm so happy.
-I'm, like, so happy right now.

I've been told I'm not really, like,
a sensitive, romantic person,

and I've been told that in not just
Marita and I's relationship, but, like,

-literally every other girl I've dated.
-Yeah.

One of my very first relationships
in college,

it was like, the worst relationship
I've ever been through.

I couldn't have any friends,
because if I did,

she would think
that I was, like, cheating on her.

She just was, like, toxic as hell.

Like, she actually physically,
like, abused me.

-I'm so sorry.
-And there was a lot of

screaming and yelling at me.

The cops got called

because she was, like, trying to throw
a Jack Daniel's bottle at my head,

and so my roommate
was obviously freaked out…

That's so messed up.

Yeah. The cops got called, and I was like,
"No, I'm good. Like, I'm not hurt."

Like, I just, like, lied for her.

'Cause you loved her, probably.

And then I thought they left,
but they were still outside of my house

with my roommate watching in…

And we were arguing,
and then she ran at me

and, like, shoved me to the ground,

and then they came bursting in the door
and, like, arrested her.

And I was, like…

Oh my God, I can't imagine
what went through your head.

"I can't believe
they're arresting this person,

but also, she did shove me to the ground."

And I had to go in court,
and I just, like, lied for her,

so that she didn't get a charge.

-So…
-Did you keep dating after that?

-Um…
-It's okay.

Yeah, not too much longer though,
because then I, like, ended things.

Yeah. That had to be hard.

I don't know.
There's just a lot I've gone through.

-Sounds like it.
-And that has really scarred me.

And, like, so I feel like that's why,
you know, the way I come across now

-is, like, not like a big romantic.
-Yeah.

I want Marita to understand that

-we're two different people.
-Yes. Yeah.

-It's okay for me to show my love one way…
-How do you show your love?

I'm gonna, like, pick up after you
and take care of you.

Like, I want to carry everything for you,
and like…

I know. You just carrying
my groceries today.

I was honestly like,
that feels really nice.

-Yeah, like--
-It's, like, so sweet.

♪ Time's changing ♪

[Ashley] I have my moments.

♪ It's not what it used to be ♪

-Thanks for sharing, and…
-Yeah. I just like…

You can tell me anything, obviously.

♪ Light's fading ♪

I honestly don't know
how you are so strong.

-I get a sense of confidence from you.
-Yeah.

I just don't know how you've gotten there.

I never talked about it to anybody.

♪ Ooh ♪

I don't know if I would be this open
with most other people.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Together again ♪

[Magan] Is it a paper towel?

[Haley laughs] Smell.

Oh!

-A rose.
-Yes.

-Okay.
-Yeah. [laughs]

♪ Tell me what you want
Tell me what you need ♪

♪ I can make you feel ♪

[laughs nervously]

♪ Everybody, left
Everybody, right ♪

-[screams]
-[Magan cackles]

Magan!

You want to tongue before we leave?

♪ When I'm in the mood
When I'm in the mood ♪

♪ When I'm in the mood
I can make it weird like a one to ten ♪

[Marie] Will you marry me?

Yes! Yes!

[Magan] I never really expected a lot
of intimacy until I started getting it.

I was like, this feels nice.
Like, I like to, like…

If we're sitting down,
and just, like, a little… Like that.

-Yeah.
-That's nice. Or, like, hand on the thigh.

I do like that.

You know?

I do think eye contact is very intimate.
[laughs]

[laughs]

-Same.
-[both laugh]

I like a little cheek graze.

I like a little bit of kisses
not on the lips.

-Yeah.
-Like on the cheek or on the forehead.

Or like, you know,
something cute like that.

Like an act of love, you know?

I like a good amount
of, like, spontaneity.

Mm-hmm.

I definitely like to, like, try new things
and keep things interesting.

Would you say
that you would like to initiate,

or would you like
your partner to initiate?

I think it does depend.

I definitely don't want it to be
one way or the other

-all the time.
-Mm-hmm.

[Haley] I just think
sex is really important in a marriage.

A lot of the time,
it also can be, like, an indicator

of, like, how things are going.

-Yeah.
-And if you're having sex regularly, like,

not that everything's fine,

but, like, I would say more, like,
if you're not,

that's when, like, there is probably
something, like, going on or an issue.

I agree.

As important as it is to, like,
have conversations and check in,

I think it's also important to have sex.

♪ Say it again ♪

-Agreed.
-Yeah.

♪ Go ahead
I know you ♪

♪ I know you want ♪

♪ I know you want to ♪

♪ I know you ♪

You make your life intentionally complex.
And I can simplify it.

-Like what?
-Lose the luggage.

You gotta start carrying my shit.
Why don't you bring a bigger bag?

[Dayna] I hate being in our apartment,
but I also love being at home with you.

I feel like…

I need you too much right now,
and that worries me.

I'm becoming too dependent
on how you feel,

and we're literally sharing
a brain cell at this point.

-The last one that we both have.
-Yeah.

I do sometimes worry
we spend too much time together.

'Cause even the times
we could do things apart, we don't.

If you have an errand,
I want to go with you.

So I just wonder if that would create
too much codependency,

-which is something I'm working on.
-Yeah.

-[Mel] I don't think we spend enough time.
-But I'm not happy went we don't.

-We don't spend enough together?
-We could spend more together.

When? Maybe if you took less showers
we could spend more time together.

[Mel laughs]

I think I should just wait outside
the bathroom door every time you pee.

-I feel like you do.
-[both laughing]

I don't think I'm ever apart from you,
other than when you're in the shower.

Yeah, I know.

I also am really starting to decide

that, like, I just think I'm not accepting

not being in each other's lives
after this.

Not the unacceptance.

Like, whoever's in our lives has to accept
that we're in each other's lives.

I just think
it would be so crazy to develop

this close of a relationship with someone
just to never speak again.

That sounds insane to me.

So, after this, potentially,
we're all engaged to be married.

[Dayna] Slow your roll.

How long would you plan your wedding,
then wait to have kids?

I want a really big wedding.

It's one of those
once-in-a-lifetime things, hopefully.

-[Mel laughs]
-Um…

I want it to be something
that not only me and my partner remember,

-but, like, everyone remembers. You know?
-Yeah.

[Dayna] It's super special.

I'd say at least a year.

-No. More than a year. At least a year.
-At least a year?

-Probably two years. I don't know.
-Okay.

From this experience, I've truly learned

that I never want to guarantee anything,
'cause it's so crazy

how much a small amount of time
can change how you view things.

I totally agree, because you came in here
ready to get married right now.

I know.

And so…

It's not that I'm not so ready
to get married.

It's, like, more than ever,
I doubt myself.

Am I good enough to be a good wife?

[Mel] Absolutely. I think so.

Has your mind changed about anything?

I think that…

Um…

I'm more open to the idea of…

-possibly getting married.
-Mm-hmm.

What at all has changed for you though?

If I really had someone who, like,

truly just understood me
and saw me and heard me,

why wouldn't I want
to be with them forever?

-So.
-Yeah.

Yeah.

♪ …scares me, scares me ♪

♪ The universe
It scares me, scares me ♪

♪ The universe
It scares me, scares me ♪

♪ The universe
It scares me, scares me ♪

[Pilar] I'm sorry.

We went out dancing, and…
she was trying to kiss me,

and I was like,
"I don't want to do that right now."

And then when we were about to leave,

she just walked up
and started making out with me.

I could have stopped her. I didn't.

But I just didn't love how it went down,
and it was just, you know, a mistake.

I just…

wasn't, like, comfortable…

making out.

And then that did happen,
and it was fine. It was fun.

But I just, like,
don't want anyone to get hurt.

I feel terrible about that.

And I really don't want you to.

I did not come in here with the intention

to, like, light shit up, and…

This is, like, a terrifying experience.

And…

I just feel a lot of, like, guilt.

It feels like everyone's like,
"Why are you so okay with this?"

[Kyle] No, no, no, no, no.

-[Pilar] And I'm not!
-I know you're not.

-I just feel stupid, you know?
-Why?

Like I'm, like, losing myself,
like, in this.

I just feel…

like, more guilt.

I'm like, "Am I not thinking
of, like, Haley, like, enough?"

"Like, what am I doing?" Like…

That's not what I'm here for,
is to, like forget her, you know?

I'm trying not to, you know,
overthink things.

I'm trying to embrace what this is,
and, like, be open.

-Sorry.
-No, don't be sorry.

I don't want you to feel… stupid.

I just, like, don't know how to…
proceed, really.

[Pilar] Yeah, me neither.

There's just a lot of feelings.

What, like, can stress me out is

if we're wanting two different things
from this experience.

You know, I was trying to make it clear
where my line was.

-Yeah.
-I didn't feel like that was respected.

It takes two to tango.

I've been consistently
respecting your boundaries,

and trying to check in
and make sure a line isn't crossed.

Then it's like,
"How did you feel about cuddling?"

You're like, "That's normal."
And then… It's clearly, like…

You're feeling some type of way, or, like,
you're thinking that I'm… wanting more,

trying some things,
that I'm like, okay, then…

-Saying you're not trying something?
-No.

Okay. I just think you're, like, extra…
affectionate in your words,

and you just were saying a lot of things.

I was like, "Wait, what's going on?"

I know you express that, like,
you like words of affirmation.

I'm gonna give them words of affirmation.
You know, like…

So that's what you're doing?

I feel like I'm trying to, like, be…
you know, just, like, show up for you.

-Playing the game or something?
-Oh wow.

-Okay, like…
-I mean, that's what you're saying.

Don't get it twisted.
I dunno what you think I'm here to do.

If you think I'm trying
to flirt with you or lead you on…

-Yeah..
-…or do something in the moment,

that's incredibly hurtful.

If you feel differently
about this relationship than I do,

then I don't want to somehow…

-What, like, hurt my feelings? Yeah. No.
-Yeah.

You think I'm in love with you.
That's not how I feel about you either.

Like, I care for you.

I thought this was
a mutual attraction thing.

Like, I am not trying to make you
do something that you don't want to do.

I acted on impulse
because I thought it was mutual.

You know, it's not like
you haven't been giving anything,

and you're saying no,
and like I came on to you.

Like, I feel like that's incredibly unfair
to paint it that way, and that hurts me.

-I'm not saying that.
-That's how you're making it out to be.

I can take the brunt if you don't want it
to look some way,

-which is fine.
-Oh my God.

♪ Oh, in my… ♪

♪ I fight so violent ♪

Come on. I know that it's not just you.

Like, obviously, I've been cuddling.
We've been affectionate.

-Pretty sus on you now. I don't know.
-Why? Like--

-I just… need a second to…
-Okay.

…to myself.

Ugh.

Can we be done?

[dramatic music playing]

[Pilar crying] "Playing a game," I'm like…
it's just an attack of my character.

[sniffles]

[music fades]

♪ Deny the truth ♪

♪ Avoid the blame ♪

♪ But he's clearly holding onto shame ♪

♪ I see right through ♪

♪ And from today ♪

♪ Your illusions are
Your only claim to fame ♪

♪ You'll never change ♪

[music fades]