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Andrew: Do you love me?

You can't even say it.

Hi, Mom.

Andrew called me
and told me what happened.

Maggie——

What did he say?

Just that he doesn't
understand what's going on

and he's heartbroken.

Did he also say what he did?

Phoebe:
Oh, he loves you, Maggie,

and he's worried
about losing you.

That would make anyone
act a little crazy.

What if the shoe were on the other foot?
How would you feel?

I don't know.

You've been
pushing everyone away

ever since this lawsuit started,

and you've let your emotions
cloud your judgement.

Andrew has always been
the perfect match for you.

I don't know. Um... I...

I just need some time
to think about things.

Phoebe: Well, I'm here if
you need to talk, okay?

Maggie: Thanks.

Thanks.

I heard what
happened at the bar.

Glamping.

You know, I didn't like
that guy the first time

I laid eyes on him.

I heard she's back at the house.

That's a good sign.

Would be, but, uh...

...she's not talking to me.

Why not?

I painted over her mural.

After all these years.

Why would you do that?

Well, I thought she was
gone for good this time.

You know, I really could
use a ride to the meeting.

What's wrong with your truck?

Edna. She might need it.

Well, I guess I could
give you a lift.

You're a good man, Sully.

Sydney:
Thought I might find you here.

Hey.

—What's in there?
—I'll give you one guess.

Jelly donuts? Oh, my God.

I've been craving these
since I got here.

Can't believe you remembered.

How could I forget?

It was third grade,
Trevor Kinney broke your heart,

and you were so sad my mom
took us to Fortune Donuts.

I think I polished off,
like, four that day.

Thank you.

—I always loved this view.
—Mm.

I still can't understand how you
didn't miss it all these years.

I did. Every day.

Why'd it take you
so long to come back?

I came back.

The summer I was 15. Remember?

But you didn't stay, did you?

That was a difficult
time for me.

What now? How did you
leave things with Andrew?

He made up his mind and he got
back on a plane this morning.

Sounds like
he's got some trust issues.

Yeah, his ex—wife
cheated on him.

He's been jealous before,
but never...

never like that.

What he, uh, said last night
about asking you to marry him,

was that true?

Why didn't you tell me?

I didn't know what
my answer was going to be.

Do you love him?

I don't know how I feel
about anything right now.

Yeah, I know. I know
how hard it is when it feels

like everything
is falling apart,

and that's probably not the best
time to be making big decisions

—in your life.
—Exactly.

Oh.

Um...

Have you heard from Cal?

Seemed like Andrew hit him
pretty hard last night.

Yeah, yeah. He was pretty sore,
but we got him some ice.

He'll be fine.

I was thinking I'd maybe stop by
and see how he was doing later.

Well, if you're good,
I'm going to head out,

head back to the diner.

I got my jelly donuts.

Call if you need anything, okay?

Thank you.

Hey.

Hey.

Are you just gonna stand there
or are you gonna help me?

Pass me that one.

Na.

Sully's going to
drive me into town

for the meeting this afternoon.

And while you're there,
you can break the news to him.

Maybe now is not the right time

for us to be leaving.

I already booked
the plane tickets, Frank.

I need this. We need this.

So, we're going.

He's not going to like it, Edna,

and I'm not sure

if now is the time
we should leave him alone.

He's not alone.

He's got Jackson,

and it looks like Maggie's
going to be here for a while.

So, maybe those two will get
a chance to sort things out.

Could be right.

I'm always right.

You know we sell
firewood at the Outpost.

Yeah.

Blowing off a little steam.

I can see that.

Thought I'd come by
and check on your jaw.

Thank you.

I just iced it last night.

I don't think it'll bruise.

May I?

Sure.

Does it hurt?

A little.

What's the prognosis, doc?

Looks like you'll live
to see another day.

Thank God.

Oh, you know,
Andrew sure can throw a punch.

I thought surgeons were supposed
to be precious with their hands.

We are, normally.

Can't believe he did that.

Ah, I just think
he had too much to drink.

Yeah, well,
that's not an excuse.

It was way out of line.

I can see how he would
have misunderstood my texts.

Why was he going
through my phone

and then erasing the messages?
It's just...

It's crossing a line.

Um...

I could go over there,
try to smooth things out.

Uh, no, it's okay.

He left.

Oh.

I'm really sorry about that.

Yeah, it's probably
for the best.

I do push people away
when they get too close.

Why?

I don't know.
My mother says I've been

doing it since I was a kid.

So, what now?

Stay here until I have
to head back for the trial.

I have to see how that
plays out before I can

make any other plans.

They find me negligent,
then they'll have

a strong case for
going after my license.

I mean, I have worked so hard
to become a surgeon.

You don't have to
do this alone, Maggie.

Come on. Let's talk about it.

Help you feel better.

You're different, aren't you?

How's that?

I don't know.

In my experience,
most of the men in my life

aren't that big on listening.

Yeah, I helped raise my
two sisters and younger brother.

So, I guess
it's second nature to me.

Looks like being an only child
had its drawbacks, then.

Well, what about your parents?

Yeah, I mean, they tried,
but they were so busy.

My stepfather had his practice
and my mother was always

wrapped up in her charity work.

So, you had nobody to talk to.

Maybe that explains
why it hasn't been

so easy for me to open up.

Repressing your emotions is only
going to make it worse, Maggie.

I mean, yesterday is
a prime example of that.

It's always been
how I've coped with things.

It's not healthy, Maggie.

You might want to think
about making a change.

Wouldn't even know
where to start.

Come on.

Where are we going?

I think I know something
that could help. Come on.

Alright, don't you two
be getting into any trouble.

Eat healthy. No fish and chips.

And no fried foods!

He's a grown man, Edna.

I know.
Doesn't mean I can't worry.

I'll be good.

Really?
I'll be waiting by the truck.

And don't forget to
tell him about our trip.

Rafe. Hey, buddy.
What can I get you?

Oh, just a cup of coffee.

You're not working today?

No, day off.

Hm. You have plans?

Not really, no. Why?

I'll be right back.

Okay.

Hey, Sydney. Take this to Rafe.

Why can't you do it?

What is up with you two?

What do you mean?

I saw you last night.

You obviously like the guy.

He clearly likes you
for some reason.

He's got the day off.

Why don't you
take the afternoon

and ask the guy out already?

I can't. What about Finn?
Who's going to watch him?

I'm perfectly capable
of entertaining my son.

Besides, we can use some
quality time together.

What about the diner?

Stop with the excuses.

I got it under control.

Okay. Okay.

Thank you.

Hey.

Hey...

Saw you leave the bar
with Lola last night.

Yup. We, uh,
split a cab back to Timberlake.

Oh.

I texted but you didn't reply.

Uh, Rob mentioned that
you have a day off.

I thought maybe, if you wanted,

we could do something later?

I'm sorry,
are you asking me out on a date?

What if I am?

I asked yesterday and you said
you weren't interested.

A girl can change her mind,
can't she?

Okay. Cool.
What do you want to do?

Surprise me.

Yeah, alright. I'll pick you up
in a couple hours, okay?

'Kay.

This is good.

I don't understand.

Why are we here?

I want to show you something
I learned to help me cope

when Lynne got sick.

Okay. What's that?

Well, maybe you've heard of it.

It's a technique called
the primal scream.

You want me to scream here,
in the middle of the forest?

Help you deal with
your repressed emotions.

I prefer my treatments
a little more grounded in science.

Maggie, you have to
let your guard down.

It will help you
with your anxiety.

How's it work?

It's about yelling, deep down
from your inner core

and truly allowing
yourself to lose control.

Let me show you.

Okay, your turn.

I'm good. Thanks.

Come on.
What do you have to lose?

Maggie, stop thinking.

You need to learn to
get out of your head

and just let go!

I'll give it a try,
but I'm not going to do it

if you're just
standing there staring at me.

This better?

Okay.

Go for it whenever you're ready.

Um...

Did you go?
I didn't hear anything.

No, I just—— One second.

Hey. Just breathe.

Focus on your feelings, okay?

Maybe something from
way back in your past.

Something you
haven't dealt with.

That shouldn't be too difficult.

—Young Maggie: Daddy!
—Phoebe: Come on.

—I don't want to go!
—Phoebe: Maggie, stop it!

Stop pulling. Let's go.

—We have to go, sweetie.
—I don't want to leave!

—I don't care!
—Daddy!

Phoebe: Get in the cab. Come on.
Get in the car. Let's go.

—Get in the car.
—Phoebe! Don't do this!

—I have to! Go, go!
—Don't do this!

—Maggie!
—Daddy!

Maggie!

Young Maggie: Daddy!

No!

Sorry.

I don't know
where that came from.

Oh, that's so embarrassing.

Hey, you have nothing
to be embarrassed about.

That reaction's
perfectly normal.

Let's get you back.

Get you all cleaned up.

Come on.

Hey.

Hello.

—How's it going?
—Good. How're you?

You, uh, ready to
give this another go?

Absolutely. Just one sec.

Looking to switch my
Intro to Philosophy

for Anthropology.

Oh, what's your major?

Undeclared for now.

Thought I'd have
a little fun first,

maybe join a fraternity
or something.

How about you?

Oh, my dad's on the force.

My grandpa was, too.
It kind of runs in the family.

That's pretty cool.

So, when did you decide
you wanted to sign up?

Just been the plan
since I was a kid.

Really?
What about your drawings?

Yeah, I wanted to
be an architect,

but, uh,
school's kind of expensive,

and my parents are going through
a separation at the moment.

Yeah, parents are splitting up.
That's tough.

Mine almost did.

They ended up
going to counselling.

That helped them.
Yours could give it a try.

Yeah. Uh, I don't think so.

They, uh, they can't
even be in the same room.

What're they fighting about?

My mom doesn't want me
joining the force,

and my dad thinks
she's overreacting.

Well, what about you?
What do you want?

Uh, I just wish
they'd quit fighting.

Hey, how about after
the lesson we hang out?

You know, do something fun,
take your mind off all that.

That'd be awesome.

Okay.

You ready to go?

Let's do this.

Okay.

Frank: I wanted to talk
to you about something.

Ah. Oh, geez.

Well, now you've gone
and done it.

We're dead.
Edna's going to kill us.

Not if she doesn't know, and
we're not going to tell her, right, Frank?

—She's going to know.
—How?

Well, that woman,
she's got the sense of smell

of a gypsy moth.

Moths don't have noses, Frank.

They use antennae.

What'd you want to
talk to me about?

Well, I noticed you didn't
say much at the meeting today.

Because you spoke enough
for the both of us.

Sully, if a bird wants to fly,
let it spread its wings.

Where'd you get that?
From a gum wrapper?

I'm not the one chewing gum.

Alright, I'll admit.

When you were
in the hospital it...

it threw me a little,
but I'm good now.

You sure?

Absolutely.

I got you and Edna to lean on.

Maggie: I actually think
I'm feeling a little better.

Can't believe
that really worked.

Yeah, that was pretty intense.

Um, you know,
not to pry, but, uh,

what was
the memory that took you there?

Uh...

Well, for me it was, uh...

it was the worst day of my life.

The day Lynne died.

Yeah.

I mean, just watching
her suffer,

and knowing there was
nothing I could do.

I'm sorry, Cal.

You know, the crazy thing...

...is that even after
she was diagnosed...

...I still believed
that we'd grow old together.

It was only after
she died that...

I finally understood that
we'd never be together again.

False hope...

...can really do
a number on you.

Yeah.

When my mother first
took me away from here,

she never told me why,

and, you know, somehow I just
thought that it was my fault,

that I'd done something wrong.

Even still, I waited for
Sully to come and get me.

You know, but he never did.

Letting go of someone's hard
when your whole world

revolves around them.

Do you mind?
I'm waiting for someone.

What is your problem?

Rafe?

I didn't know
you owned a motorcycle.

Or did you rent this
just to impress me?

No. No, not quite.

My dad taught me
when I was a kid.

Saved up, bought my first one
at 17.

—Uh—huh.
—What about you?

—You like motorcycles?
—I don't know.

I've never been on one before.

Oh, well. You're in luck. Here.

Today is your lucky day.
Come on, hop on.

Yeah, I don't know about this.

You won't know until you try.

Okay. What the hell?

There you go.

Rafe: Alright, you ready?

Sydney: I think so?

Rafe: Hold on.

Wow. Okay, so you were right.

That was incredible.

Maybe we should, uh, skip lunch,
and just go back to your place?

Nice try. You said
you wanted to go on a date,

and that means
taking the time to

—get to know each other better.
—I work at the diner.

—I live with Rob and Finn.
—No.

—There's really not much else——
—You said you wouldn't do that.

I want to know
everything about you.

Okay, fine.
What do you want to know?

Jackson: There you go.

It's a pretty easy climb.

Kaleb: That looks pretty high.

I'm not so sure about this.

It's going to be fine.

Just remember to
keep looking up.

Kaleb: Whew, I don't feel so
good, Jackson.

—You okay?

Everything is spinning and I——
I feel like I can't breathe.

Okay, um,
why don't we just sit down

and, like,
take a couple of deep breaths?

I'm so dizzy.

I think I'm going to be sick.

——Ooh. Oh.

Kaleb, are you okay?

Oh, my God. Are you alright?

Kaleb.

Has—— Has this happened before?

——There's no signal.

I'll go get help.

Favourite movie.

Mm.

City of Angels.

Favourite book.

The Thorn Birds.

I haven't heard of that one.

It's only one of the most tragic
romance stories of all time.

They even made
a miniseries out of it.

Okay, cool.

How about team Wonder Woman
or Captain Marvel?

Lasso of Truth, definitely.

So, is it my turn now?

Shoot.

Have any brothers or sisters?

Yeah. Yeah, I'm one of five.

Well, six if you count Connie.

Connie?

Yeah, she moved in
probably early high school.

How come?

Ah, she had a falling out with
her parents and stuff. So...

I didn't know that.

Is that why you two
are so close?

Yeah, she's always been
kind of like a big sister to me,

you know? Always there when
I needed her kind of deal.

Mm, that sounds a lot like Rob.

It's actually why I came back
to help when Sarah died.

But, I mean...

Modelling. New York.

It's a tough decision. I mean,

coming back to a
small town like this.

Yeah, actually it's not
as hard as you might think.

Really? I mean, I don't know.
The way I see it,

the glitz, the glamour, the
travelling. The parties even.

There's a lot more to
modelling than that.

—No, I didn't mean——
—Can we just drop it, please?

I don't want to talk
about this anymore.

I don't think
I ever asked you how long

you were planning
on staying here.

When I first arrived
I was thinking

it'll only be a few weeks, yeah.

But then this little
place started to grow on me.

But didn't you say you
took a leave of absence?

Won't your work be
expecting you back?

I'm not sure I will go back.

What about all those
years of law school?

Losing Lynne, it really made me

realize how short life is.

And I don't want to spend
another minute doing something

that doesn't make me happy.

You know?

Mm—hm.

Jackson: Cal! Is anyone home?

Cal! I need help!

—Cal!
—Jackson?

—Hey.
—What's wrong?

It's Kaleb! He's, like,
really, really sick.

—We just started climbing and——
—Just tell me what's going on.

He's really dizzy
and he can't stop throwing up.

Jackson, where is he now?

It's not far.
Come on. I'll show you.

Lead the way.

Did I say something wrong?

No. It's not you.

I just get anxious
talking about New York.

What happened?

Nothing I want to
get into right now.

Thought we were supposed
to be having a nice time.

Tell you what? How about I stop
asking so many questions,

and we'll go get a nice lunch?

Sounds like a good idea.

Come on.

Jackson: He's over here.

Hey.

Hi. I'm Dr. Sullivan.
I'm going to help you.

It's Kaleb, right?

—Yeah.
—Alright, can you tell me

—what's going on?
—Uh, every time I move

I feel like I'm going
to be sick,

and it's like the whole
world won't stop spinning.

Okay, um, I just need to
ask you some questions first.

Are you on any medications?

—No.
—Have you taken any drugs?

—No.
—Any allergies or pre—existing conditions?

No, no, no. That was bad.

What were you doing when
you started to feel sick?

We were just about
to start climbing

and all I did was look up.

Okay, I'm going to need you
to sit up to examine you.

—Oh, no. No, I can't do it.
—No, you can.

We're all going to help you.
Ready? On the count of three.

One. Two. Three.

Is he going to be okay?

Yeah, let me just take a minute.

Okay. Alright. Now.

I'm going to need you
to turn your head to the side,

and I'm going to sit you
back really quickly. Ready?

One, two, three.

—There.

So, I think Kaleb here is
suffering from a severe case of

benign paroxysmal
positional vertigo.

Vertigo. So, he's got
an inner—ear problem?

That's right.

I think you have some loose crystals
in your right ear, Kaleb.

So, that's what's
making me feel so sick?

Mm—hm. Vertigo causes
dizziness and nausea,

which trigger the fight
or flight response,

causing feelings
of extreme anxiety.

I'll roll you over.

Okay.

Just gotta finish moving
the crystals back into place,

and then all the feelings of
dizziness, nausea, anxiety

should resolve.

Ready?
We're going to sit you up.

Nice.

And head straight.

And try not to move it too much.

I feel better already.

I can show you how
to do this on your own

in case you start
feeling this way again.

You alright?

Yeah.

Ah, you're back. Good.

What's that smell?

Malt vinegar.

You weren't kidding
about that nose on her.

Sully's idea.

Nothing but salads
for you while we're away.

Edna——

What do you mean
"while we're away"?

Frank and I are
going on vacation.

You didn't tell him, Frank?

Vacation?

We're taking a trip to Alberta.

Who told you
you could go on vacation?

Frank and I don't need
your permission, Sully.

So, when is this trip happening?

—Tomorrow.
—Tomorrow?!

How am I supposed
to find somebody by tomorrow?

I talked to Maggie
and Jackson about helping out

and it's all sorted.
So, there's nothing for you to worry about.

Fine. How long you
gonna be gone?

—Just a few weeks.
— "Just a few weeks."

Maggie: You didn't need
to go to all this trouble.

We could've just
grabbed lunch at the diner.

After what you did?

Ah, it really wasn't
anything special.

It was for Kaleb.

Now, why don't you let someone
do something special for you,

hm, for a change?

Can't remember the last time
anyone took me on a picnic.

Oh, this isn't
just any old picnic.

I'm taking you to
my favourite spot.

You coming?

Mm—hm.

I know that this
is last minute, Sully,

but we really need to take this trip
after everything that's happened.

I know. It's alright. I'm fine.

Bookings are down anyway, so...

At least one of us
should have some fun, right?

You sure?

Like I said,
it's just a couple of weeks.

What could go wrong?

I can't believe this is
your favourite spot, too.

I used to come here
all the time when things

between my parents got bad.

It was really that bad, huh?

Yeah.

My mom wanted me to
go to the top schools,

and she thought that
being here would limit me,

and—— and Sully thought
that there was more to life

than just money.

They were just different people
wanting different things in life.

Well, how'd they
end up together, then?

Ah, my mother came back on
a summer vacation with a friend

and met Sully, fell in love.

Ah.

And she told me he was like
no one she'd ever met before.

They eloped.

—Mm—hm.
—Whoa.

But her parents hated him.

They said he'd never be able
to give her the life that she wanted,

and I guess she finally
decided that they were right.

So, that's why
she moved you to Boston.

Mm—hm.

That's a big change.

Leaving all this
for the big city.

It was.

But I mean,
after a couple years,

Boston grew on me.
Once I was in med school,

I was so busy I think I forgot
how much I missed this place.

So, why a neurosurgeon?

Uh, watching my stepfather.

All his accomplishments

and the way people
looked up to him.

I guess I...

I wanted to prove that
I could do that, too.

Glad Maggie was
there to help you.

Yeah, me too.

So, uh, did you still
want to hang out tonight?

Uh, I'm actually kind of tired.

Yeah, I get it. It's a long day.

Well, I guess that's it for
our climbing lessons for now.

Well, I was thinking,
if you're up for it,

we can go for
a real climb tomorrow.

See if I'm still
afraid of heights.

Cool. Well, I'll see you
tomorrow morning.

Hey, Jackson.

You should tell
your dad the truth.

About wanting to
be an architect.

No. He wouldn't understand.

You can't live your life
making other people happy.

You have to do
what's best for you.

I'll think about it.

See you tomorrow for that climb.

Yeah.

"Heaven is under our feet
as well as above our heads."

Henry David Thoreau.

Alright, well, I grew up here,
so it's clear

why I love the woods,
but what about you?

What was your childhood like?

My parents, they were nomads.

They actually converted
an old school bus for us

to travel across the country.

What'd you do for school then?

They didn't really
care too much about

the idea of a formal education.

But you went to law school,
though, didn't you?

I did. I moved in
with my grandparents for

a few years during high school.

I had to leave my brother
and my sisters behind.

Hm.

It was hard.

But now, here...

Sullivan's Crossing...

It's the first time in a really
long time that I've felt...

Peace.

I know what you mean.

I could use a little peace
in my life right now.

You ever think about staying?

—You ever jumped?
—No! No, I'm too scared.

Dr. Maggie Sullivan?

Mm—hm.

Scared?

I don't believe it. Nope.

Alright, we need to remedy this.

What are you doing?

Well, you don't expect me to jump in
with my clothes on, now do you?

Come on. I dare you.

Okay.

After you.

Hey. So, how'd it go?

Fine. What about you?

Did you have
a good time with Finn?

—Okay.
—What happened?

We got really busy
after you left.

So, what did Finn do?

He played video games
on my phone.

The whole time I was gone?

Please don't make me feel
any worse than I already do.

Where is he now?

He's in the back,
playing video games on my phone.

I'm going to
take him to the park.

He needs to get some fresh air.

Come on, Finn.
Let's get out of here.

Maggie: I don't know about this.
Are you sure it's safe?

You trust me?

Yeah. It's a pretty
big drop, Calamity.

I wouldn't let you do it
if it wasn't safe, Maggie.

Besides, I thought you
told me you like adrenaline, hm?

I do, when I'm in control.

Stop thinking. Come on.

Stop thinking. Gimme your hand.

You got this.

On three?

Alright. One.

Two.

California.

What?

You wanted to know my name.

California Jones.

—Three.

Maggie?!

Oh, my God!

Oh, that was incredible.

Whoo.

I don't think I've ever
felt that brave before.

I knew you could do it.

Um, I'm sorry.

Um...

I shouldn't have done that.

It's okay.

I should head back.

Yeah.

Thought you'd come by
the Outpost to say goodbye

to Frank and Edna. They're
leaving early in the morning.

Didn't realize they
were leaving so early.

Where were you?

Out.

Thought maybe this'd
be a good time to talk.

There is nothing to talk about.

Look, I know I hurt you
and I'm sorry about that,

but to be fair, I really didn't
think you were coming back.

So, you just decided
to erase me out of your life?

You're my daughter, Maggie.

Painting over a mural
isn't going to change that.

Nothing will.

Did it turn out so bad?
I mean, would you have become

a neurosurgeon
if you'd stayed here with me?

Is that what you think?

Everything just turned out fine?

Yeah, what about all
the years I spent wondering

—why my father replaced me?
—What are you talking about?

I come back for summer vacation
to find another family

living in our house. You'd moved
Lola into my room, Sully.

How'd you think
I was going to feel?

—That's not how it was, Maggie.
—Wasn't it?

Lola's mother was sick.
I just let her stay in my room

until she got through chemo.
What was I supposed to do?

Turn my back on them?
They're my friends!

Where did you even
get an idea like that?

Oh. Of course. Walter.

He put that thought
in your head.

He's always causing trouble.

This isn't about Walter.

It broke my heart when your mom
took you away from me,

and then she went off
and married a man like that.

No, you don't get to talk
about Walter like that.

He is the only one
who has been there for me.

Not you.

I'm going to go to bed.
I have a headache.

Just, uh...

Just lock the door
and turn out the lights, okay?

Maggie: "Final notice."

——Sully.