All language subtitles for My 600-lb Life S08E16

Leneatha: I'M GRATEFUL
THAT I HAVE A JOB,

BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE CARE
OF MY DAUGHTER,

BUT I DON'T THINK ANYBODY
UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS

BECAUSE OF MY SIZE.

Woman:
SOMEWHERE IN ME IS
THIS LITTLE GLIMMER OF HOPE.

I JUST WANT TO BE
A NORMAL PERSON.

YOU CAN'T DO IT,
AND THEN I JUST GET MAD.

Woman #2:
IF I DON'T MAKE A CHANGE NOW,

I'M SCARED
IT'S GONNA BE TOO LATE.

IT HURTS!

Woman #3:
I REFUSE TO STOP FIGHTING.

I HAVE TO DO THIS
FOR MY CHILDREN.

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Dr. Nowzaradan: BAD NEWS IS
YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING.

FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

I DON'T, BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING,
AND I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE

TELLING ME THAT I'M EATING,
BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING.

THE FIRST THING THAT I WOULD
THINK ABOUT

WHEN I WAKE UP
IN THE MORNING

IS I WISH
I COULD GO BACK TO BED,

BECAUSE I DREAD HAVING
TO FACE REALITY

AND I JUST WANT TO CRY

BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH PAIN THAT
I'M IN, THE SIZE OF MY BODY,

AND HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO DO
MY DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITIES.

WHEN I GET UP TO GO
TO THE BATHROOM,

I KNOW THAT I'M GONNA BE
OUT OF BREATH, AND I DREAD IT.

WHEN I SIT ON THE TOILET,
I HAVE TO BRACE MYSELF

AND MAKE SURE I DON'T
FALL INTO THE TOILET

BECAUSE BEING MY SIZE,
YOU BREAK TOILET SEATS.

AND BATHING IS A CHORE
BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE

THAT YOU GET EVERY CROOK
AND CREVICE THAT YOU HAVE.

AND SOME DAYS IF I FEEL LIKE
I CAN DO IT,

I'LL GET IN THE SHOWER,
BUT I'M AFRAID TO GET IN IT

BECAUSE I'M AFRAID
I MIGHT SLIP AND FALL.

AND SO I MAINLY USE MY TOILET
TO TAKE A BATH

AND IT'S HARD TO MAKE SURE
THAT I'M CLEANING VERY GOOD.

SOME DAYS I JUST,
I PRAY AND I SAY,

"LORD, WILL YOU JUST MAKE IT TO
WHERE I DON'T SMELL?"

AND I DON'T THINK ANYBODY
UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS

AND HOW HUGE OF A STRUGGLE
IT IS FOR ME TO DO ANYTHING.

AND I'M AFRAID ONE DAY

THAT I WON'T BE ABLE
TO LEAVE THE HOUSE TO WORK

BECAUSE MY MOBILITY
IS DECREASING OVER TIME NOW,

AND A LOT OF THINGS
THAT I WANT TO DO, I CAN'T DO.

MY BONES ARE ACHING
AND SOMETIMES MY LIMBS HURT.

SOMETIMES I HAVE TO HIT MY KNEE
TO GET UP OFF OF THE COUCH

BECAUSE MY KNEE'LL GIVE OUT.

SO I LIVE IN FEAR EVERY DAY
THAT I'LL BE BEDBOUND

AND WON'T BE ABLE TO LEAVE
MY HOUSE OR DO ANYTHING.

AND THAT'S THE MAIN THING
THAT REALLY STRESSES ME OUT

BECAUSE I HAVE TO WORK.
THAT'S MY LIVELIHOOD

AND THAT'S HOW I TAKE CARE
OF MY TWO-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER.

GOOD MORNING.

I'M THE SOLE PROVIDER
FOR HER.

SHE HAS ASTHMA,
AND I HAVE TO GIVE HER HER

BREATHING TREATMENTS
THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

SO WE'LL COME IN THE LIVING ROOM
AND I SIT ON THE COUCH,

AND I GET HER PREPARED TO GET
ALL OF HER BREATHING TREATMENTS

AND HER MEDICINES
FOR THE MORNING.

AWW.

AND I GIVE HER ANYTHING I CAN,
BECAUSE SHE'S MY HEART.

AND I CURRENTLY WORK
A FULL-TIME JOB

THAT I'VE BEEN ON FOR 23 YEARS.

SO WE'LL HEAD OUT THE DOOR
AND I DROP HER OFF AT DAYCARE.

AND THEN WHEN I LEAVE,
ALL I WANT TO DO

IS GET ME SOMETHING TO EAT
AND THEN I'LL GO ON TO WORK.

AND I'M GRATEFUL
THAT I HAVE A JOB,

AND I'M GRATEFUL
THAT I CAN STILL WORK,

BUT I KNOW THAT
I'M GETTING TO THE POINT

THAT I WON'T HAVE
A JOB MUCH LONGER

IF I KEEP GETTING BIGGER,

BECAUSE IT'S HARD FOR ME
TO DO MY JOB WITH MY WEIGHT.

MY AUNT KEEPS MY DAUGHTER FOR ME
WHEN I'M AT WORK,

AND I'M VERY GRATEFUL
BECAUSE HAVING HER IN THERE

IN THE DAYTIME MEANS
I CAN KEEP UP WITH MY ROUTINE

SO THAT WE CAN HAVE A ROOF
OVER OUR HEAD.

BUT IT FEELS LIKE EACH DAY
I'M ONE STEP CLOSER

TO FALLING APART,
BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT,

AND BECAUSE EATING
IS MY HAPPY PLACE.

Woman:
CAN I TAKE YOUR ORDER?

YES, CAN I GET THREE GRIDDLES,
ADD CHEESE,

AND THEN A HASH BROWN
AND A ORDER OF YOUR COOKIES?

WILL THAT BE ALL?
YES.

THERE YOU GO.
THANK YOU.

WHEN I'M EATING,
I'M NOT STRESSED ABOUT EATING

OR ANYTHING ELSE

BECAUSE EATING TAKES THAT AWAY
AND JUST MAKES ME HAPPY.

BUT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T AFFORD
TO KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS

AND IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE.

I JUST DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA
BE ABLE TO CHANGE

AND I REALLY STILL DON'T KNOW
HOW I REALLY GOT HERE.

I JUST KNOW, I NEVER THOUGHT
MY LIFE WOULD END UP LIKE THIS.

GROWING UP,
I HAD A HAPPY CHILDHOOD.

I HAVE FOUR BROTHERS
AND FOUR SISTERS,

SO I WAS THE YOUNGEST OF NINE.

MY PARENTS WERE VERY STRICT,
BUT THEY WERE VERY LOVING.

AND WE NEVER HAD A LOT OF MONEY,
BUT WE WERE HAPPY.

MY DAD WAS
THE SOLE PROVIDER IN THE HOUSE,

SO MY DAD WORKED ALL THE TIME.

BUT WHEN HE WAS HOME,
HE LIKED TO SPOIL US.

MY DADDY WOULD HAVE SNACKS
IN HIS ROOM

AND HE'D HAVE HIS COKES
AND HIS CAKES.

I REMEMBER HE WOULD BRING ME
IN THERE

AND LET ME PICK
WHATEVER I WANTED.

I'D EAT SOME OF DADDY'S CAKES

AND DRINK SOME OF DADDY'S COKE
AND ICE CREAM,

SO I STARTED LOVING SWEETS.

BUT AT THAT TIME,

IT WAS NEVER SUCH A BIG DEAL
THE WAY I WAS EATING

BECAUSE I WAS STILL
A PRETTY NORMAL SIZE.

AT THE AGE OF EIGHT I WEIGHED
MAYBE 80 OR 90 POUNDS

AND IT WASN'T A PROBLEM.

WHEN I WAS AT HOME,
I WAS A HAPPY KID.

BUT I HATED TO GO TO SCHOOL
BECAUSE I ALWAYS GOT TEASED

FOR BEING SO DARK SKINNED,
AND I HATED MY SKIN COMPLEXION.

IN HIGH SCHOOL I GAINED WEIGHT,
BUT ONLY A LITTLE.

I WAS ALWAYS ACTIVE
AND MOVING AROUND.

AND THEN PROBABLY BY THE TIME
I GRADUATED,

I WAS PROBABLY ABOUT 180.

I DIDN'T EVER FEEL MY WEIGHT.

I WAS 18 WHEN I STARTED WORKING
AT MY CURRENT JOB,

AND IT FELT GOOD TO BE WORKING.

BUT WHEN I WAS 24,

THAT'S WHEN THINGS STARTED
TO GO WRONG WITH MY BODY.

IT STARTED WITH ME
HAVING THIS PAIN IN MY SHOULDER

BECAUSE MY BREASTS WERE HEAVY.

I HAD HEAVY BOOBS THAT DIDN'T
SYMMETRICALLY FIT MY BODY,

AND THEY WERE HAVING ISSUES

AND THE RECOMMENDATION
WAS TO HAVE THEM CUT DOWN

AND REDUCED IN SIZE
TO FIT MY BODY.

BUT WHEN THEY WENT IN TO DO
THE SURGERY, SOMETHING HAPPENED,

THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS,
AND MY LUNGS COLLAPSED.

AFTER I GOT OFF THE VENTILATOR,

I STAYED BACK AND FORTH
ON STEROIDS

AND IN AND OUT THE HOSPITAL

TO TRY TO KEEP
MY LUNGS STRENGTHENED.

IT WAS HELL.

THIS PROCESS LASTED PROBABLY
ABOUT FIVE TO SIX YEARS.

I COULDN'T AFFORD TO KEEP GOING
BACK AND FORTH TO THE DOCTOR.

AND THEN I DIDN'T
HAVE PRESCRIPTIONS TO GET

BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE MONEY
TO GO TO THE DOCTOR.

SO I STARTED USING FOOD
AS MY PRESCRIPTION,

AND OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS

I GAINED ALL THE WAY UP TO
400-AND-SOME POUNDS.

SO IT WAS A DARK TIME,
AND FOOD AND SWEETS

WAS ALL THAT WAS
GETTING ME THROUGH IT.

AND THEN FINALLY,
THERE WAS A LIGHT

AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

WHEN I WAS 29, I MET A GUY

THAT I THOUGHT WAS
MY PRINCE CHARMING.

AND HE WAS JUST
A LITTLE CHARMER.

HE TOLD ME HE DIDN'T CARE
ABOUT MY SIZE.

HE WOULD SAY THINGS LIKE, "OH,
I LIKE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE,"

AND, "I LIKE BIG WOMEN,"
AND, "YOU'RE OKAY TO ME."

AS WE STARTED DATING,
HE WAS LIKE,

"WELL, I LOVE YOU.
WE'RE GONNA GET MARRIED."

I WAS LIKE, "WELL, OKAY."

SO WE WERE MARRIED,
AND I WAS HAPPY

BECAUSE I THOUGHT WE WERE
GOING TO START A FAMILY,

AND THAT'S WHAT I REALLY WANTED.

BUT IT WASN'T LONG AFTER
WE GOT MARRIED

THAT HE STARTED TO SHOW
HIS TRUE COLORS.

HE WAS AN ABUSIVE MAN,

EMOTIONALLY
AND VERBALLY ABUSIVE.

HE WOULD ALWAYS TELL ME, "NOBODY
ELSE WOULD WANT YOU," AND...

CALLED ME FAT AND STUPID
AND SAY THINGS TO ME

THAT YOU SHOULD
NEVER SAY TO ANYONE.

BUT I PUT UP WITH THE WAY
HE TREATED ME FOR A LONG TIME

BECAUSE I MADE A VOW.

AND SOMETIMES,
IF HE GOT REALLY BAD,

I KNEW I COULD FEEL BETTER
IF I HAD MY SWEETS,

SO OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS
I WAS GAINING BUT NOT TOO BAD.

BUT I GOT UP TO 500
BY THE TIME I WAS 35,

AND THEN CAME THE LAST STRAW.

I FOUND OUT ABOUT
THE OTHER WOMAN

AND HE HAD BROKE OUR VOWS,
AND THAT'S WHEN I WAS DONE.

AND I GOT OUR DIVORCE,
AND I DIDN'T LOOK BACK.

AFTER I GOT MY DIVORCE, I SAID,

"WELL, I GUESS NOBODY'S GONNA
EVER COME INTO MY LIFE

THAT'S WORTH ANYTHING."

AND THEN ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO,

I MET MY DAUGHTER'S DAD
THROUGH A MUTUAL FRIEND.

WE GOT ALONG GOOD TOGETHER, AND
WE HAD SOME ROMANTIC CHEMISTRY.

BUT AFTER TWO MONTHS OF DATING
MY DAUGHTER'S FATHER

I GOT PREGNANT,
AND IT WAS VERY UNEXPECTED.

TO BE HONEST, I ALWAYS PICTURED
STARTING A FAMILY,

BUT NOT LIKE THIS,
SO IT WAS HARD.

AND AT FIRST, HER FATHER
WAS GOOD ABOUT IT.

THE WHOLE TIME THAT I WAS
PREGNANT WITH OUR DAUGHTER,

HE WAS THERE.
HE DID FOR ME. HE CARED FOR ME.

WHEN I GOT PREGNANT
WITH MY DAUGHTER,

I WAS WEIGHING AROUND 560 POUNDS
AND I WAS VERY HIGH RISK.

HE WAS THERE FOR THE DELIVERY.

HE WAS THERE THE FIRST YEAR
OF HER LIFE.

I DIDN'T KNOW IF WE WERE GOING
TO MAKE IT FOREVER,

BUT I WAS HAPPY
WITH THE SUPPORT,

AND I WAS PROUD OF HIM
FOR BEING A GOOD MAN ABOUT IT.

BUT THEN, RIGHT AROUND
HER FIRST BIRTHDAY,

IT WAS LIKE A SWITCH
JUST FLIPPED IN HIM.

IT WAS LIKE, IN HIS EYES,

HE DIDN'T WANT NOTHING
TO DO WITH ME.

HE JUST LOOK AT ME
LIKE I JUST DISGUSTED HIM,

AND HE LEFT US AND WALKED OUT.

AND THAT HURT ME A LOT.

WHEN I LOOKED AT MY DAUGHTER
I SEE

THAT THAT'S THE ONLY BLESSING

THAT I GOT
OUT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP.

SHE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AND I
WOULDN'T TRADE ANYTHING FOR HER.

I KNOW NOW
THAT I'M OVER 600 POUNDS

BECAUSE THERE'S A SCALE
AT MY WORK,

AND I WEIGHED MYSELF
NOT TOO LONG AGO

AND I WAS OVER 600.

YES, LET ME GET TWO OF YOUR
DOUBLE CHEESEBURGERS

WITH NO ONIONS.

LET ME GET A 20-PIECE NUGGET
WITH A LARGE SODA WITH NO ICE.

AND THEN LET ME GET
YOUR FOUR-NUGGET KID'S MEAL.

AND THEN LET ME GET A ORDER
OF YOUR CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES.

THAT'LL BE ALL.

BUT HAVING KENLYN WAS A WAKE-UP
CALL, AND I WANT TO DO BETTER.

BUT EVERY TIME I THINK
I'M DOING GOOD,

ALL IT TAKES IS ONE TASTE
OF SOMETHING MY BODY WANT,

AND I LOSE ALL MY PROGRESS.

AND SO NOW I'M RESPONSIBLE
FOR A LIFE

THAT DIDN'T ASK TO BE HERE.

AND I DON'T WANT TO
LET HER DOWN,

BUT I'M AFRAID
THAT I ALREADY AM

BY NOT TRYING TO DO BETTER
FOR MY HEALTH AND MYSELF

BECAUSE I EAT TOO MUCH.

SOMETIMES I ASK MYSELF,
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?"

BECAUSE NOW I HAVE A LITTLE
PERSON THAT'S DEPENDING ON ME,

AND I STILL CAN'T STOP.

BUT I CAN FINALLY ADMIT IT
TO MYSELF

THAT I'M ADDICTED TO FOOD.

SO WITH EVERY DAY
THAT GOES BY,

I KNOW
THAT MY DAUGHTER NEEDS ME,

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY MORE
DAYS I'M GONNA HAVE WITH HER.

THE THOUGHT OF BEING GONE,
WITH HER AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE,

IS ALMOST TOO MUCH
FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT.

SO I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN.

I GOT TO FIGHT NOW
FOR BOTH OF US.

HELLO, AND HOW WAS YOUR DAY?HI, BOO-BOO!

WE HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY.
WHAT ABOUT YOU?

Y'ALL HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY?WE DID.

TELL TEE-TEE, SAY,
"WE'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW.

GET YOUR HAIR BOW.LOVE YOU TOO.

ALL RIGHT, TEE-TEE.
SEE YOU TOMORROW.

OKAY, NOW.
YOU ALL TAKE CARE.

YOU TOO.
BYE-BYE.

YES!

YOU READY?

COME ON.
YOU HAD A GOOD DAY?

YOU DID?
YEAH.

MY ADDICTION WITH MY FOOD
AND SWEETS IS KILLING ME

AND ROBBING HER OF HAPPINESS,

AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE
I'M A BAD MOM.

BECAUSE SHE'LL SAY,
"MOMMY, CAN YOU HOLD ME?"

AND I CAN'T BECAUSE MY BODY
WON'T PHYSICALLY LET ME DO THAT.

SO I FEEL LIKE I'M LIMITING HER
OF HER CHILDHOOD.

THAT'S WHERE THE SADNESS
COMES IN.

AND MOST OF THE TIME
I FEEL LIKE I'M WEARING A MASK

TO COVER UP HOW I REALLY FEEL
AND WHO I REALLY AM AT HEART.

THAT'S THE MOST
HEARTBREAKING PART FOR ME

IS THAT I WANT TO BE MYSELF
FOR MY DAUGHTER.

BUT I HAVE THAT MASK ON SO THAT
SHE WON'T SEE UNDER THAT MASK

IS JUST A REALLY
SAD PERSON THAT'S HURTING

AND WANTING TO LOSE WEIGHT,

AND SOMETIMES
SHE'LL SEE ME CRYING,

AND SHE'LL GET TEARY EYES
AND SAY,

"MOMMY!
MOMMY, I LOVE YOU."

AND JUST TO HEAR HER VOICE
AND TELL ME THAT,

IT REALLY TOUCHES
MY HEART

THAT A TWO-YEAR-OLD
KNOWS WHEN AN ADULT IS DOWN.

BUT I DO FEEL LIKE
IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT,

THEN I'M FEARFUL
THAT I WON'T BE HERE FOR HER.

I'M AFRAID ALL THE TIME,
I WILL PASS AWAY BEFORE

I'M ABLE TO ENJOY
SEEING MY DAUGHTER

WITH ANY OF HER ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

AND THEN, "MOMMY'S NOT HERE

BECAUSE MOMMY
WAS ADDICTED TO FOOD.

SHE COULDN'T LET IT GO TO MAKE
SURE THAT SHE WAS HERE FOR ME."

TAKE ANOTHER BITE.
YOU CAN GET SOME MORE.

I DON'T WANT THAT.
THAT'S WHY I NEED TO CHANGE.

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT
FOR MY HEALTH

AND I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT
FOR MYSELF

AND I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT
FOR MY DAUGHTER.

BUT IF I DON'T GIVE UP
THE WAY THAT I EAT,

THEN I'LL SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL,
AND THAT WILL BE MY DEMISE.

BUT I HAVE
MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER.

I'M TRYING TO BE
AN EXAMPLE FOR HER

AND I JUST WANT HER TO KNOW

THAT IF YOU GIVE IT YOUR ALL,
ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

SO I JUST HAVE
THAT FAITH AND THAT HOPE

THAT I CAN GET HELP.

Leneatha:
TODAY'S A BIG DAY FOR ME

BECAUSE I'M GOING TO HOUSTON
TO SEE DR. NOW.

I GOT AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE
IF HE COULD HELP ME LOSE WEIGHT,

AND MY APPOINTMENT IS TOMORROW.

SO MY SISTER CAME AND PICKED UP
MY DAUGHTER, KENLYN,

AND I'VE JUST BEEN PACKING
AND GETTING READY FOR THE TRIP.

BUT I'M VERY NERVOUS

BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ON
A LONG DRIVE LIKE THIS IN YEARS,

AND IT'LL PROBABLY TAKE AT LEAST
SEVEN TO EIGHT HOURS.

IT'S REALLY HARD FOR ME
TO SIT IN MY VEHICLE FOR LONG.

I'M JUST GLAD THAT I HAVE
A HUGE SUPPORT SYSTEM,

BECAUSE TWO OF MY SUPPORTERS
ARE GOING WITH ME.

FRANK IS GOING WITH ME.
HE'S A FRIEND OF OUR FAMILY.

AND THEN MY SISTER PAM
IS GOING AS WELL

AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT'S GONNA
REALLY PUSH ME THROUGH IT.

KNOCK-KNOCK.
KNOCK-KNOCK.

HEY, Y'ALL!
COME ON.

OH!

GOOD MORNING.
GOOD MORNING.

MORNING!MORNING!

HEY, HEY.
YOU READY?

MIGHT AS WELL BE.

ALL RIGHT. I'VE BEEN UP.
YOU SLEEP OKAY?

Leneatha: I DID.
I SLEPT LIKE A BABY.

ALL RIGHT!
NO FEARS?

-I THINK I PROBABLY
THREW THAT UP LAST NIGHT.
-OKAY.

I'M JUST SCARED TO SEE
WHAT HE GONNA SAY, THOUGH.

WELL, WHATEVER HE SAYS,
IT'S ONLY FOR THE GOOD,

SO IT'S OKAY.
AND IT'S OKAY TO BE SCARED.

YOU KNOW, FEAR CAN BE
A GOOD THING. IT WILL PUSH YOU.

YEAH.
BUT I'M READY.

WHAT MAKES TODAY IMPORTANT
FOR LEN IS THAT

SHE'S EMBARKING
UPON A JOURNEY.

SHE'S FEARFUL,
BUT SHE REALIZES THIS JOURNEY

IS NECESSARY TO GET HEALTHY
AND TO BE HERE FOR HER CHILD.

SO I'M HER CHEERLEADER.
I AM HER SUPPORT SYSTEM.

AND I'M IN THIS
FOR THE LONG HAUL

BECAUSE SHE NEEDS THAT.

SHE WANTS TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.

SHE WANTS TO GET HEALTHY,
AND I WANT TO HELP HER DO SO.

OKAY,
GOT MY COAT AND MY PURSE.

AND THESE ARE MY BAGS
AND THIS IS MY BAG.

WHAT'S IN THE SMALL BAG?

MY BREATHING MACHINE.
AIN'T NO SNACKS IN THERE.

OKAY.
JUST CHECKING.

WE CAN STOP
AND GET SOME, THOUGH.

OKAY.
WELL, FRANK, GET THEM BAGS.

YEAH, YEAH, YEAH.
LET'S GET IT, LEN.

LET'S GET IT.

GOT A LONG RIDE.

GOT TO PUT MY COAT ON.
IT'S COLD OUT THERE, GIRL.

THE THOUGHT OF GOING IN A CAR
ALL THE WAY TO HOUSTON

IS TERRIFYING.

THERE'S PART OF ME THAT WANTS
TO JUST FORGET IT AND STAY HOME.

ALL RIGHT, Y'ALL.

BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT.

WATCH YOUR STOP GOING DOWN.
WATCH YOUR STEP.

I REALLY NEED THE HELP
TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF,

AND I FEEL LIKE
IT'S NOW OR NEVER

BECAUSE IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING
ABOUT IT NOW,

I FEEL LIKE I WON'T BE AROUND
FOR MY DAUGHTER.

BECAUSE I'VE TRIED
TO LOSE WEIGHT ON MY OWN,

AND I THINK THE ONLY THING
THAT'S REALLY GOING TO WORK

IS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

AND SO I'M JUST REALLY GRATEFUL

THAT PAM AND FRANK
CAME THROUGH FOR ME,

BECAUSE I'VE HAD A LOT
OF ANXIETY ABOUT THIS TRIP.

I'M BEHIND HER.WHEW!

DON'T FALL.

I'M JUST SCARED.

HOLD UP.
LET ME GET IN HERE.

I NEED YOUR HELP OVER HERE.WHICH WAY?

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PULL
MY LEG UP ON THIS SIDE.

GO BACK AND COME AROUND.

YOU'RE GONNA BE IN THERE.
IN THE BACK.

THIS LEG RIGHT HERE.

READY?ONE, TWO...

GO.PICK IT UP.

I GOT YOU.

YOU GOOD?

YEAH.

YEAH.

YOU GOOD?
YEAH.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING?
YOU ALL RIGHT IN HERE?

YES, AND OUT OF BREATH.

JUST OUT OF BREATH?
YEAH.

I KNOW THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE TO
CHANGE MY WAYS,

BUT IT'S HARD TO KNOW
HOW THAT'S GONNA WORK.

AND IF DR. NOW TURNS ME AWAY,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO.

WELL, WE MADE IT TO HOUSTON,
AND MY BODY IS ACHING.

BUT OVERALL,
I'M PROUD OF HOW I DID.

YESTERDAY I WAS TIRED
AND HURTING

FROM GETTING IN
AND OUT THE VAN.

BUT TODAY I'M READY.

I'M RECUPERATED AND REFRESHED,

AND I'M READY
TO GET TO MY APPOINTMENT.

BUT AS I'M GETTING CLOSER TO IT,
IT'S BECOMING MORE REAL.

BUT I'M JUST GETTING
MORE ANXIOUS BECAUSE MY HEALTH

AND REALLY MY LIFE IS DEPENDING
ON WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY.

IF HE TELLS ME NO,
THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO.

I DON'T HAVE A PLAN
WITHOUT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

SO I HAVE TO GET DR. NOW'S HELP.

I FEEL LIKE DR. NOW'S
MY LAST HOPE

TO GET HELP
WITH THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY

BECAUSE MOST DOCTORS DON'T WANT
ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU

IF YOU'RE TOO HIGH-RISK.

SO I KNOW HE DOESN'T
HAVE TO HELP ME,

AND HE MIGHT NOT
BE WILLING TO

IF HE FINDS OUT ANYTHING ELSE
THAT'S WRONG ABOUT ME,

AND THAT'S WHAT
I'M SCARED OF THE MOST

BECAUSE I CAN FEEL
MY BODY'S GETTING WORSE

AND I KNOW I DON'T HAVE
MUCH TIME LEFT

BEFORE THINGS GET
REALLY BAD FOR ME.

LEN.

SO I NEED THIS
NOT ONLY FOR MY DAUGHTER

BUT FOR MYSELF AND MY HEALTH.

AND RIGHT NOW I'M JUST PRAYING
THAT THE NUMBER THAT COMES UP

IS SOMETHING THAT DR. NOW
CAN WORK WITH

AND THAT I'M NOT SO FAR GONE
THAT I CAN'T GET HIS HELP

AND TURN MY LIFE AROUND
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME.

Leneatha: I'M HERE AT DR. NOW'S
CLINIC IN HOUSTON

TO SEE IF HE'LL TAKE ME ON
AS A PATIENT.

SO I'M JUST PRAYING
I'VE LOST A LITTLE WEIGHT

SINCE THE LAST TIME
I'VE WEIGHED,

SO THAT I MIGHT
EVEN BE UNDER 600.

WAS THAT
WHAT YOU WANTED TO SEE?

NOPE.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT
WE'RE HERE FOR.

WELL, THAT COULD HAVE BEEN
WORSE, BUT IT'S STILL NOT GOOD.

PART OF ME WAS WORRIED
THAT IT WOULD BE HIGHER

BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED
MYSELF AT THE HOSPITAL,

I WAS UP AROUND 615.

SO I'VE ACTUALLY LOST
SOME WEIGHT, WHICH IS GOOD,

BUT IT'S STILL HUMILIATING
TO SEE THAT NUMBER COME UP.

AND NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAIT
AND SEE WHAT DR. NOW HAS TO SAY,

AND I JUST REALLY HOPE
THAT HE CAN PUT ME ON THE PATH

TO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

-HELLO.
-All: HELLO.

HOW YOU ALL DOING?

-FINE.
-Pam: ALL RIGHT. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M DOING GOOD TOO.
OKAY.

I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
AND YOU?

LENEATHA.GOOD TO MEET YOU.

SO WHO HAVE WE GOT HERE
WITH YOU?

I HAVE MY SISTER PAM
AND OUR FRIEND FRANK.

HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING?

I'M FINE, THANK YOU.FINE. HOW YOU DOING?

SO HOW CLOSE YOU ARE,
AND ARE THEY YOUR ENABLER

OR ARE
THEY GONNA HELP YOU?

WELL, THIS IS
MY BIG SISTER PAM,

AND SHE DOESN'T REALLY ENABLE
BECAUSE SHE'LL PUSH ME OUT,

AND SHE DOESN'T CARE
IF I GET UPSET.

SHE'S GONNA SUPPORT ME
BECAUSE SHE'S ACTUALLY

ONE OF THE COOKS
IN THE FAMILY,

SO SHE SAID SHE'LL HELP ME
WITH THE HEALTHIER ALTERNATIVES

AND HELPING ME PREP
MY FOOD FOR THE WEEK.

AND THIS IS FRANK.

I MET FRANK BECAUSE I'VE BEEN

TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT
BACK AND FORTH

AND HE ACTUALLY OWNS A GYM
BACK HOME.

AND HE WOULD MAKE ME WORK OUT,
AND THEN I JUST QUIT GOING.

HE TRIES TO BEAT ME
TO GET THERE,

SO HE'S GONNA MAKE ME
GET INTO THE GYM AND WORK OUT.

ALL RIGHT,
AND YOU HAVE DIABETES

AND HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE

AND SLEEP APNEA?

YES, SIR.

SO YOUR WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN TO A
CRITICAL POINT WITH YOUR HEALTH

AND YOU
WANT TO CHANGE THAT?

YES, SIR.

OKAY, SO, WHAT SEEMS TO BE
YOUR CHALLENGES

FOR GAINING WEIGHT?

SUGAR, SWEETS.

SUGAR,
AND YOU'RE DIABETIC

AND YOU HAVE AN ISSUE
WITH YOUR SUGAR?

YES, SIR.

SO, WHAT DO
YOU USUALLY EAT?

A LOT OF SNACK CAKES
AND SODAS.

SO YOU HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT
THAT YOUR DIABETES

GETS YOU TO CRAVE SUGAR,

AND ALL THAT DOES
IS TURN TO FAT.

YES, SIR.
I KNOW.

ALL RIGHT, SO DO YOU EAT AT HOME
OR DO YOU GO OUT TO EAT?

MOSTLY AT HOME.

SO WHO ELSE IS AT HOME
BESIDES YOU?

MY THREE-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER.

OKAY, SO NO ENABLERS
IN THE HOUSE.

NO, SIR.

OKAY. SO, FOR BREAKFAST,
WHAT DO YOU EAT?

MOST OF THE TIME
I'LL STOP AT FAST FOOD

AND GET SOME BREAKFAST
AND THEN I'LL GO ON IN TO WORK.

AND THEN AT WORK I'M BASICALLY
OUT ON THE FLOORS ALL DAY,

SO MOST OF THE TIME
I DON'T GET TO EAT LUNCH,

OR IF I EAT LUNCH
I'LL GO TO THE CAFETERIA

AND GET SOME CHICKEN STRIPS
OR EITHER A BURGER.

AND THEN WHEN I GET HOME,
I'LL EAT SNACKS AND CAKES AND...

I'M NOT REALLY HUNGRY,
I JUST CRAVE THE SWEETS

AND I JUST SIT THERE
AND JUST EAT IT

BECAUSE I HAVE IT
SITTING THERE.

SO IF THAT'S THE CASE,
WHY BUY IT, THEN,

IF YOU KNOW
IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOU?

THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION.

OKAY.
DO YOU DO ANY EXERCISE?

NOT ANYMORE.
I HAVEN'T BEEN.

SO IF YOU ARE EATING SUGAR
SNACKS FOR NO REASON

THAT YOU DON'T KNOW
WHY YOU BUY,

AND YOU DON'T EXERCISE AND
DO THINGS TO GET YOU HEALTHY,

WHAT DO YOU EXPECT US
TO BE ABLE TO CHANGE FOR YOU?

I'M HOPING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY
WILL HELP ME CHANGE.

REALLY?
YES.

OKAY, THE SURGERY IS NOT
GONNA BE A SOLUTION

FOR YOUR EATING DISORDER.

THE SURGERY IS GOING
TO PHYSICALLY LIMIT YOU

FROM EATING A LOT,

BUT THAT EFFECT IS GOING
TO FADE AWAY IN FIVE YEARS

AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE
A LONG-TERM RESULT FROM THAT.

AND SO FAR YOU HAVEN'T
BEEN ABLE TO CONTROL IT

OR YOU HAVEN'T HAD A DESIRE
TO CONTROL IT.

WHICH ONE?

I THINK IT'S MORE,
I HAD THE DESIRE TO DO IT,

BUT I THINK IT WAS THE WILLPOWER
TO STAY AWAY FROM IT.

I DON'T...

SO THE WILLPOWER
IS THE ISSUE.

YES, SIR.
OKAY.

WELL, I CAN GIVE YOU
THE ROAD MAP

TO HELP YOU DO YOU
WHAT YOU NEED,

BUT IT'S NOT GONNA MATTER UNLESS
YOU MAKE THE CHOICE TO DO IT.

AND THAT'S NOT SOMETHING
WE CAN DO FOR YOU.

BUT AT THIS POINT
IN YOUR HEALTH,

YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME
TO DO THAT.

SO IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT
YOU START TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT,

AND THAT MEANS THAT YOU NEED
TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABITS.

YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?

YES, SIR.

OKAY, I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU
SOME READING MATERIAL

THAT HAS A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY
DIET IN IT.

THAT FOCUSES ON PROTEIN
AND AVOIDS CARBS.

AND GIVE YOU HOW TO EAT
THREE TIMES A DAY,

LIKE 400 CALORIES PER MEAL.

AND IF YOU DO THAT, YOU CAN LOSE
50 POUNDS A MONTH, OKAY?

BUT THE GOAL I'M GIVING YOU IS
TO LOSE 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS.

SO THAT SHOULD BE
VERY EASY FOR YOU

IF YOU DO THE DIET, OKAY?

AND IF YOU DO THAT,
THEN WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

BECOME AN OPTION FOR YOU.

BUT IF YOU HAVE THIS SORT OF
LACK OF WILLPOWER

TO IGNORE YOUR EATING HABIT,

YOU CAN
GAIN YOUR WEIGHT BACK.

YOU GOT THAT?

YES, SIR.
OKAY, GOOD.

BECAUSE RIGHT NOW YOU'RE 40.

I GUARANTEE YOU,

IF YOU DON'T TURN
YOUR SITUATION AROUND,

YOUR HEALTH
IS GONNA GO DOWN

AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA SURVIVE
A COMMON COLD

OR EVEN FLU
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.

THERE'LL BE NOTHING ANYBODY CAN
DO TO SAVE YOU AT THAT POINT.

SO THIS IS VERY
DANGEROUS SITUATION YOU'RE IN.

YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT, AND
YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE CHANGES.

WHICH ONE
IS MORE IMPORTANT?

BEING A LITTLE BIT HUNGRY
OR SAVING YOUR LIFE, OKAY?

SO, WHICH ONE
IS MORE IMPORTANT,

SAVING YOUR LIFE
OR BEING HUNGRY?

SAVING MY LIFE.

SO REMEMBER THAT WHEN
YOU'RE HUNGRY, OKAY?

YES, SIR.
OKAY.

I'M GONNA GIVE YOU READING
MATERIAL THAT INCLUDES THE DIET,

TO START THAT ALONG
WITH SOME EXERCISES

I WANT YOU TO DO
EACH DAY.

AND I WANT TO SEE YOU
IN TWO MONTHS

WITH A WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL
OF 60 POUNDS BY THEN.

DO YOU THINK
YOU CAN DO THAT?

YES.
OKAY.

BUT I KNOW I CAN DO IT.

OKAY,
SO WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING,

DO NOT BUY STUFF
ON THE LIST TO AVOID.

OKAY.
OKAY?

THAT INCLUDES
SUGARY STUFF, OKAY?

OKAY.

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY,
EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU.

YOU'RE THE ONE
IN THE DRIVING SEAT.

AND YOU'RE THE ONE
THAT YOUR GONNA HAVE

CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOR.

AND NO MATTER WHAT EVERYBODY
TELL YOU,

THIS WON'T WORK
UNLESS YOU TAKE THE FIRST STEP

AND YOU DECIDE
TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE.

AND THERE'S TIME
TO DO THAT.

BUT IT'S NOT
GONNA BE EASY.

NOBODY SAID
IT'S GONNA BE EASY,

BUT YOU HAVE TO BE DETERMINED
TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO,

TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND.

AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE
THAT DETERMINATION

TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE,
NO MATTER WHAT WE DO,

IT'S NOT GONNA BE
EFFECTIVE, OKAY?

BUT IF YOU COME BACK
IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS

AND YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT
OR YOU LOST A FEW POUNDS,

THEN I KNOW THAT WE'RE NOT GONNA
MAKE ANY HEADWAY WITH YOU.

BECAUSE THAT WILL SHOW ME
THAT SAVING YOUR LIFE

IS STILL NOT
A PRIORITY FOR YOU

TO THE POINT WHERE YOU'RE READY
TO DO WHAT DO YOU NEED.

YOU UNDERSTAND THAT, RIGHT?YES.

OKAY, SO THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT
FOR YOU TO MAKE THE CHANGES NOW

BEFORE YOU RUN
OUT OF TIME, OKAY?

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT.
ANY QUESTIONS?

NO, SIR.

OKAY.
SEE YOU SOON.

NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU.

AND NICE TO MEET YOU.YOU TOO.

AND WE'LL SEE YOU
ALL LATER.

Frank: ALL RIGHT.
OKAY.

THANK YOU.OKAY.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
HOPEFULLY, LENEATHA IS
TELLING ME THE TRUTH.

WHEN SHE SAYS SHE'S READY TO DO

WHAT IT TAKES
TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND.

BECAUSE AT HER WEIGHT AND AGE

AND WITH ALL THE HEALTH ISSUES
SHE'S STARTING TO HAVE.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE LONG
TO CHANGE THINGS

BEFORE HER BODY
GETS TO A BREAKING POINT

AND HER HEALTH STARTS
TO DETERIORATE RAPIDLY.

AND MY CONCERN IS,
FROM WHAT SHE DESCRIBES

ABOUT HER EATING HABITS,

SHE DOESN'T REALLY THINK
SHE'S OVEREATING.

SO THAT'S CONCERNING,
AND IT'S ALSO VERY CONCERNING

THAT SHE'S WILLING TO EAT A LOT
OF SUGARY FOOD AS A DIABETIC

WHEN SHE KNOWS THE RISK
AND DANGERS OF THAT.

BUT HOPEFULLY
SHE GOES OVER THE DIET

AND STARTS TO UNDERSTAND
THE DIFFERENCE

BETWEEN WHAT SHE'S BEEN DOING
AND WHAT SHE NEEDS TO DO

AND SHOW ME SHE'S WILLING TO TRY
AND MAKE SOME OF THOSE CHANGES

BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T,
THEN THERE WON'T BE MUCH

WE CAN REALLY DO FOR HER,

AND WE WON'T
MOVE AHEAD WITH HER.

Leneatha: I DON'T KNOW
HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW.

I APPRECIATE DR. NOW
AND THAT HE'S GOING TO HELP ME,

AND I'M EXCITED ABOUT THAT.

BUT TO LOSE 60 POUNDS
IN TWO MONTHS.

THAT SOUNDS LIKE A LOT,
AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO IT.

AND HEARING THE DOCTOR SAY
THAT I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME,

THAT TAKES IT TO
A WHOLE NEW LEVEL,

BUT I GUESS
I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE.

SO, THE ONLY THING TO DO
IS TO HEAD BACK HOME

AND WORK MY HARDEST TO MEET
THAT GOAL

AND SHOW DR. NOW THAT I CAN
DO IT NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES.

I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU.

YOU HUNGRY?
YES.

YOU WANT TO
HELP MOMMY COOK?

YES, PLEASE, YES.

COME ON.

Leneatha: IT'S BEEN ABOUT
A MONTH SINCE I SAW DR. NOW,

AND I'M DOING MY BEST
TO FOLLOW HIS PROGRAM,

BUT LIFE HAS BEEN
MAKING IT HARD.

AFTER WE GOT BACK FROM HOUSTON,

IT JUST TOOK A LITTLE WHILE
FOR ME TO GO SHOPPING.

BETWEEN WORKING
AND TAKING CARE OF MY DAUGHTER,

EVERY ONE OF MY DAYS IS FULL,

AND SO IT'S BEEN HARDER
THAN YOU WOULD THINK

TO EXERCISE TWO TIMES A DAY

AND DO ALL THE SHOPPING
I NEED TO DO TO DO THE DIET.

AND THERE'S BEEN SOME DAYS
WHERE MY SCHEDULE WAS SO TIGHT,

THAT FAST FOOD WAS
THE ONLY THING THAT MADE SENSE.

BUT I KNOW MY NEXT MONTH
HAS TO BE BETTER.

SO I'M TRYING TO MAKE
MORE MEALS AT HOME

AND GET USED TO
COOKING FOR MYSELF

SO THAT I CAN CATCH UP TO THE
GOAL THAT DR. NOW GAVE ME.

MOMMY?
YES, MA'AM?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I'M COOKING.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I'M COOKING.

ALL RIGHT, YOU READY?
HUH?

IT'S DONE.

EVERY DAY I SPEND
WITH MY LITTLE GIRL

IS JUST ANOTHER REASON
WHY I GOT TO GET MYSELF RIGHT --

SO I CAN BE THERE FOR HER.

I DO FEEL LIKE WE'RE TAKING
THIS JOURNEY TOGETHER

BECAUSE I WANT TO SET
THE EXAMPLE FOR MY DAUGHTER

THAT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING
YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO.

SHRIMP TASTE GOOD.

LOOK.

MMM!
MMM-MMM!

AND I'M DOING OKAY.

I DROPPED A FEW POUNDS,

AND I'M MOVING
A LITTLE BETTER, I THINK.

SO I JUST HAVE TO BUILD
ON THAT FOR NEXT MONTH

SO THAT WHEN I GO DOWN
TO HOUSTON NEXT TIME,

DR. NOW
WILL BE PROUD OF ME

AND HE'LL APPROVE ME
FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

LET'S BLOW IT.

SEE? BLOW IT.

I HAD EVERY INTENTION
ON MAKING THIS MONTH

THE ONE WHERE I GOT ON
THE RIGHT TRACK.

I HAD A PLAN TO DO
THE HEALTHY SHOPPING,

TO LEARN THE HEALTHY COOKING,

TO FIT IN THE EXERCISE
TWICE A DAY.

AND AT THE FIRST OF THE MONTH,

THERE WAS MAYBE TWO
OR THREE DAYS,

WHERE I WAS DOING REALLY GOOD.

AND I DIDN'T EVEN MISS
ANY OF MY HOURS AT WORK.

WELL, WOULDN'T YOU KNOW,

THAT SAME WEEK
WHEN I WAS FINALLY FEELING GOOD,

MY WORK GOT UPSET WITH ME

FOR HAVING TO TAKE OFF
TOO MUCH TIME.

SO HERE HERE I AM
PUSHING MY HARDEST

TO GET ON THE RIGHT TRACK
WITH MY HEALTH,

AND IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING THAT
I WOULD GET PENALIZED FOR THAT.

I'M GRATEFUL
THAT I HAVE A JOB,

AND I'M GRATEFUL
THAT I CAN STILL WORK,

BUT I DON'T THINK ANYBODY
UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS

AND HOW HUGE OF A STRUGGLE
IT IS

FOR ME TO BE AT WORK
AND TO DO WHAT I DO.

I DON'T THINK ANYBODY
REALLY THINKS ABOUT IT.

SO ALL THIS STUFF
THAT'S HAPPENING AT WORK,

IT'S NOT GONNA BE A GOOD TIME
FOR ME TO LEAVE AGAIN

TO GO TO HOUSTON
FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT.

I CALLED DR. NOW'S OFFICE

AND TOLD HIM
THAT I NEEDED TO PUSH IT BACK

BECAUSE I CAN'T RISK
TAKING THE TIME OFF OF WORK.

BUT I'M STILL DETERMINED TO MAKE
MY APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH.

I'M STILL DOING THE DIET.

ONCE I CAN PUT
THIS MONTH BEHIND ME,

THEN I HAVE AN EXTRA MONTH

TO GET MY WEIGHT DOWN
TO WHERE A DR. NOW NEEDS IT.

BUT IT'S FRUSTRATING
BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE

I'M BACK WHERE I STARTED,
AND THAT REALLY STRESSES ME OUT.

AND THAT CAN'T BE GOOD
FOR MY HEALTH EITHER.

I STILL GOT MY GIRL.
SHE'S MY GUIDING LIGHT.

IN THAT WAY SHE'S HELPING ME

BECAUSE SHE'S MAKING ME ASPIRE
TO TRY HARDER AND KEEP PUSHING.

SOME DAYS I FEEL HELPLESS

AND LIKE I'LL NEVER BE ABLE
TO TURN THIS AROUND,

AND I JUST WAIT A MINUTE
AND SHE'LL MAKE ME SMILE

AND REMIND ME
WHAT I'M FIGHTING FOR

AND THEN TELL MYSELF I CAN DO IT

SO I CAN TELL HER
WE'RE GONNA DO IT.

I'M STILL FOCUSED ON GETTING
THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

NEXT TIME I SEE DR. NOW.

IT'S JUST TAKING LONGER
THAN I WANTED

AND WE'RE HITTING
SOME BUMPS IN THE ROAD.

AND SOME DAYS I DON'T KNOW
QUITE WHAT TO BELIEVE.

BUT IF I'M GONNA
MAKE IT OR NOT,

I'M GONNA MAKE SURE
MY DAUGHTER SEES ME FIGHTING.

AFTER I RESCHEDULED
MY LAST APPOINTMENT,

I GOT A CALL FROM
DR. NOW'S OFFICE TELLING ME

HE WANTED TO DO
A VIDEO CALL WITH ME,

SO THAT'S HAPPENING TODAY

AND I'M NOT REALLY LOOKING
FORWARD TO HAVING HIM SEE ME

BECAUSE I'M JUST NOT FEELING
GREAT ABOUT WHERE I'M AT.

TIMES HAVE BEEN A LITTLE TOUGH

BECAUSE KENLYN HAS BEEN
STRUGGLING WITH HER HEALTH

AND HAVING
A TOUGH TIME BREATHING.

WE'VE BEEN GETTING HER
TREATED FOR THAT

AND TAKING HER TO THE DOCTOR

AND IT HURTS MY HEART
TO SEE HER LIKE THAT,

AND I KNOW SHE GOT
THOSE PROBLEMS FROM ME.

SO I HOPE DR. NOW IS
UNDERSTANDING OF THE SITUATION

I'VE BEEN IN AND THAT
I'VE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING.

HI, LEN.

HEY, DR. NOW.

HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

I'M DOING GOOD.
AND YOU?

GOOD. IT'S BEEN A WHILE
SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU.

WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU?

I'VE BEEN HAVING
SOME ISSUES GOING ON

I'VE BEEN HAVING TO DEAL
WITH MY DAUGHTER

AND TAKING HER BACK AND FORTH
TO HER APPOINTMENTS

AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE
THAT I CAN BE OFF AT WORK

WITH BEING
THE ONLY ONE AT WORK.

SO IT'S BEEN
KIND OF CONFLICTING,

SO I'M HAVEN'T
BEEN ABLE TO GET OUT TO HOUSTON.

WELL, I'M SORRY
TO HEAR ALL THAT,

BUT IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE
YOU HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT

SINCE I SAW YOU LAST,

EVEN THOUGH YOU TOLD ME YOU HAD
WHEN I CALLED YOU.

DO YOU FEEL LIKE
YOU'VE LOST MUCH?

I'VE LOST A LITTLE,
BUT NOT AS MUCH AS I NEED.

WELL, IT'S BEEN
SEVERAL MONTHS,

AND WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO GET YOU TO LOSE WEIGHT,

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK
THE SOLUTION WILL BE?

DO THE DIET LIKE
I'M SUPPOSED TO DO IT.

YEAH, BUT THAT'S
A FIGURE OF SPEECH.

IT NEEDS SOME ACTION
BEHIND IT.

WHAT HAPPENED
WITH THAT?

I DIDN'T DO
THE ACTION BEHIND IT.

WELL, BUT YOU'RE
RUNNING OUT OF TIME,

AND THIS IS
SEVERAL MONTHS

AND WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO GET YOU TO LOSE ANY WEIGHT.

SO CAN YOU TELL ME
WHY YOU'RE OVEREATING?

BECAUSE YOU'RE HUNGRY
OR WHAT?

NO, I DON'T FIND MYSELF
BEING HUNGRY,

AND LIKE I SAID,

MY ISSUE IS THE PORTION SIZE
THAT I OVEREAT

WHEN I DO SIT DOWN
AND EAT A MEAL.

INSTEAD OF HAVING ONE PIECE
OF CHICKEN, I HAVE TWO.

IT'S NOT AN ALL-DAY THING

BECAUSE I DON'T EAT
ALL DAY LONG.

IT'S WHEN I SIT DOWN
AND I DO EAT THE PORTION SIZE

OF WHAT I'M EATING

BECAUSE I HAVE MADE
THE DRASTIC CHANGES

IN THE SWEETS
AND THE SODAS

BECAUSE I STILL
HAVEN'T HAD THAT,

BUT IT'S STILL PORTION SIZES
OF WHAT I'M EATING.

EXPLAIN TO ME WHY YOU'RE EATING
WHEN YOU'RE NOT HUNGRY.

I GUESS I FEEL LIKE I HADN'T
EATEN YET, SO I BETTER EAT.

THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE,

BECAUSE YOU SAY
YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF

AND FOOD
IS DOING THAT TO YOU.

SO YOU DON'T NEED TO EAT
ALL THE TIME.

YOU FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

NO. YOU'RE GONNA STARVE
TO DEATH IF YOU DON'T EAT.

EVEN IF I AM FAT.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN,
YOU'RE GONNA STARVE?

YOU STILL HAVE TO EAT
FOR NUTRITIONAL REASONS.

IT DON'T MATTER
HOW BIG I AM.

I UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING,

BUT YOU'VE
STILL GOT TO EAT.

LEN, IF YOU PUT THE MATH OVER
AND LOOK AT THE FOOD

THAT YOU HAVE EATEN SO FAR,

YOU HAVE EATEN THE FOOD
THAT BELONGED

THE NEXT FOUR YEARS
AHEAD OF TIME.

AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU
HAVE TO EAT, BUT NOT YOUR WAY.

YOU'RE NOT GONNA STARVE
FOR A VERY LONG TIME.

I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING,
BUT EVERYBODY'S GOT TO EAT.

AND I FOLLOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING
ABOUT STILL OVEREATING

BUT NOT THE FOOD
FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS

BECAUSE THAT DON'T
EVEN MAKE SENSE.

BUT I UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.

OKAY, LEN,
DO YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE?

I DO.

IF YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE,
THEN YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND

THAT YOU'RE PUTTING YOUR LIFE
IN JEOPARDY WITH YOUR WEIGHT

BECAUSE IT'S GONNA AFFECT

EVERY ORGAN AND SYSTEM
IN YOUR BODY,

AND ALL THAT IS BECAUSE
YOU'RE OVEREATING

AND THERE IS NO REASON
FOR YOU TO OVEREAT NOW,

AND THERE NEVER WAS,
BUT NOW YOU HAVE A DIET

AND ALL KINDS OF INSTRUCTION
THAT WE GIVE YOU.

TO UNDERSTAND
THE CHANGES YOU NEED TO MAKE

TO LOSE WEIGHT
AND SAVE YOUR LIFE.

YOU KNOW YOU'RE DIABETIC AND YOU
HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE

AND ALL KINDS OF ISSUES.

ONE OF THESE DAYS,
YOU'RE GONNA RUN OUT OF TIME.

IF ANYTHING
GOES WRONG WITH YOU,

THERE'S NOTHING ANYBODY
CAN DO TO SAVE YOU.

YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?

YES, SIR.

SO WHICH ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT?
THE FOOD OR SAVING YOUR LIFE?

WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT
IS MY LIFE.

OKAY.

SO WHEN ARE YOU GONNA
MAKE THOSE CHANGES

THAT WE'RE GONNA SEE
SOME ACTUAL WEIGHT LOSS

AND IMPROVEMENT
WITH YOUR HEALTH?

I'M GONNA START
MAKING THAT CHANGE TODAY.

ALL RIGHT, SO TODAY IS THE DAY
AFTER A FEW MONTHS

YOU FINALLY DECIDE YOU'RE GONNA
MAKE THE CHANGES.

YES, SIR.

YOU UNDERSTAND MY STRUGGLE

TO BELIEVE THAT RIGHT NOW,
DON'T YOU?

BECAUSE I NEED TO SEE
SOME ACTION,

NOT JUST WORDS
THAT YOU TELL ME.

OKAY.

AND THE ONLY WAY WE'RE GONNA SEE
THAT EVIDENCE IS ON THE SCALE,

AND YOU STILL
HAVEN'T DONE THAT.

SO FAR, I'M NOT VERY HAPPY
WITH YOU NOT LOSING WEIGHT

AND TELLING ME
AFTER THESE FEW MONTHS

YOU'RE GONNA CHANGE NOW,

THAT YOU JUST REALIZED
WHAT YOU WERE DOING WRONG, OKAY?

EXACTLY.
THAT'S WHAT I SAID.

I WASN'T DOING WHAT I WAS
SUPPOSED TO BE DOING.

MY PROBLEM WAS NOT
SITTING AROUND EATING.

I WORK ALL DAY.

I'M ALWAYS CONSTANTLY GOING
AND ACTIVE AND GOING.

SO I DON'T SIT AROUND
AND JUST EAT.

IT'S WHAT I EAT
WHEN I DO EAT.

THAT'S MY PROBLEM.

AND I UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING,

BUT I DON'T JUST
SIT AROUND AND EAT.

JUST LIKE TODAY,
I HAVE NOT EATEN.

I'M WAITING TO EAT
SO THAT WHEN I GET THROUGH

WITH THIS CONFERENCE CALL
WITH YOU

THAT I CAN SIT DOWN
AND GO AND FIX SOMETHING TO EAT.

I HAVE NOT ATE TODAY,

AND THAT MAY BE HARD
FOR SOME PEOPLE TO BELIEVE,

BUT NOT ALL FAT PEOPLE
SIT AROUND AND EAT.

LEN, WE TAKE PEOPLE
IN THE HOSPITAL,

WE PUT THEM FOR THREE DAYS
WITH NO FOOD, OKAY?

AND AFTER THREE DAYS

WE DETOXIFY THEM FROM
TOXIC FOOD FOR THREE DAYS.

THEN WE START THEM
ON LIQUID DIET FOR A WEEK

BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH
IS STORED UP IN THE BODY

TO WHERE THEY DON'T NEED FOOD
FOR A LONG TIME.

SO IF YOU DON'T EAT FOR A DAY
OR SKIP A LOT OF MEALS,

AT YOUR WEIGHT
YOU'RE GONNA BE FINE.

SO YOU'RE OVEREATING,

YOU COMPARE LIKE
YOU'RE GONNA EAT TODAY.

NOTHING IS
GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU

IF YOU DON'T EAT
FOR A WHILE

AND YOU'RE NOT
GONNA BE MALNOURISHED

OR STARVE
LIKE YOU SAYING, OKAY?

YEAH, RIGHT.

IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT,
THEN HOW DO YOU THINK

THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS
GONNA MAKE YOU LOSE WEIGHT?

WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, TO ME,
IS A MECHANISM.

I'M NOT SAYING
IT'S A MAGIC PILL

OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.

IF IT'S TO THE POINT
WHERE IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE

THAT IT'LL HELP,
THEN THAT'S FINE.

I UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.

BUT IT DOESN'T TAKE
ALL THE BEATING DOWN

AND THE CONSTANT ASKING THE SAME
QUESTIONS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.

I UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.

BUT IT'S TIME TO MOVE
FORWARD FROM THAT.

I TOLD YOU
WHAT I WAS GONNA DO.

WE'RE GONNA DO IT OR NOT.

SO IF YOU THINK WEIGHT-LOSS
SURGERY IS GONNA HELP,

THEN WE'LL MOVE FORWARD
WITH IT.

IF YOU DON'T THINK
IT'S GONNA HELP, THEN FINE,

BUT I'M ON THIS JOURNEY
TO LOSE WEIGHT.

I'M NOT ON THIS JOURNEY
TO KEEP GETTING BADGERED

AND PUSHED DOWN

BECAUSE YOU DON'T BELIEVE
THAT I'M GONNA LOSE IT.

ALL I CAN DO IS SHOW YOU
WHAT I'M GONNA DO.

THAT'S IT.

I'M NOT FOR ALL THE,

"YOU CAN'T EAT FOR
FOUR MORE YEARS," AND ALL THAT.

I'M NOT FOR THAT.
IT'S NOT A JOKE TO ME.

THIS JOURNEY IS NOT FUNNY TO ME.
I'M NOT LAUGHING ABOUT IT.

I UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID
TO GET TO MY SIZE,

AND I'M TRYING TO WORK ON THAT
AND I DON'T TAKE IT LIGHTLY

AND THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING
TO GET THE HELP.

I DON'T TAKE WHAT THIS JOURNEY
IS LIGHTLY

AND I DON'T TAKE
WHAT I'M DOING LIGHTLY,

BUT I'M TIRED OF IT.

I'M READY
TO MOVE PAST

ALL THE "DON'T EAT
FOR FOUR YEARS" CRAP.

I'M TIRED OF IT. IT'S TIME
TO MOVE FORWARD FOR ME.

ALL I CAN DO IS SHOW YOU
WHAT I CAN DO.

AND FROM THIS POINT FORWARD,
THAT'S ALL I CAN DO.

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

OH, DON'T YOU THINK THAT YOUR
PERCEPTION IS HOLDING YOU UP

TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON?

THAT'S RIGHT. AND THAT'S WHAT
I TOLD YOU EARLIER.

I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS
THAT I WAS DOING NOW.

IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT,
THEN THAT'S FINE.

NOT EVERYBODY GRASPS THINGS
AT THE SAME TIME

THAT EVERYBODY ELSE DOES.

I UNDERSTAND WHAT MY PROBLEM
WAS, AND I UNDERSTAND IT.

YES, IT TOOK ME LONGER,
BUT NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME

TO SET THAT IN MOTION
TO GET WHAT I NEED TO GET.

IF YOU BELIEVE IT,
YOU BELIEVE IT,

IF YOU DON'T, YOU DON'T,
BUT IT'S UP TO ME.

LIKE YOU SAID,
IT'S IN ME TO SHOW WHAT IT IS

THAT I'M TRYING TO ACQUIRE,
SO WHEN I COME IN

AND I LOSE THE WEIGHT,
THEN YOU WILL SEE.

BUT UNTIL THEN
I'M DONE WITH

ALL THE "YOU DON'T NEED TO EAT
FOR FOUR MORE YEARS."

IT'S NOT FUNNY TO ME,
AND IT'S NOT A METAPHOR.

MY HEALTH IS NOT
A METAPHOR TO ME.

LEN, YOU'RE OVEREATING.
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT.

I UNDERSTAND THAT,
BUT I'M TIRED OF HEARING THAT.

YOU JUST KEEP SAYING IT.

BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN
THAT YOU HAVE TO EAT AGAIN.

RIGHT. I UNDERSTAND THAT.
I SAID I UNDERSTOOD THAT.

NOW IT'S TIME
TO MOVE FORWARD PAST THAT.

SO, WHAT ARE YOU GETTING
UPSET ABOUT?

FROM THIS POINT FORWARD,
THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING,

SETTING MY FOOT IN MOTION
TO DO THE JOURNEY

LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO
BE DONE,

TO DO THE WEIGHT LOSS
LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE.

IT IS WHAT IT IS.
THAT'S ALL IT IS TO IT.

WE'RE TRYING TO EDUCATE YOU TO
UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PROBLEM IS,

WHAT THE SOLUTION IS,
AND YOU'RE GETTING DEFENSIVE --

I KNOW WHAT THE PROBLEM IS.

THE PROBLEM
WAS ME OVEREATING,

AND THE PROBLEM
WAS ME NOT BEING DEDICATED

TO WHAT IT WAS THAT
I WAS SUPPOSED TO BEEN DOING.

THE SOLUTION WAS
TO CHANGE MY EATING HABITS

AND TO CHANGE MY MINDSET

AND MY MIND FRAME TO LET MYSELF
KNOW THAT I CAN DO IT.

THAT'S THE SOLUTION,
AND THAT WAS THE PROBLEM.

LEN, IF YOU THINK YOU'VE
FIGURED OUT THE SOLUTION,

THEN WHY ARE
YOU ARE TALKING TO ME?

IF YOU ALREADY -- THAT'S WHY I CAME TO YOU.

YOU HELPED ME
FIGURE OUT THE SOLUTION,

AND NOW I'M TRYING TO
GET ON THE JOURNEY

SO THAT
I CAN DO THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

TO HELP WITH THE SOLUTION.

THAT'S WHY I CAME TO YOU.

BUT MY CONCERN IS THAT
YOU ARE NOT UNDERSTANDING

WHAT WE'RE TRYING TO TELL YOU

AND YOU'RE NOT FOLLOWING

WHAT WE'RE TELLING YOU.

YOU JUST KEEP REPEATING

WHAT YOUTHINK
THAT IS THE SOLUTION FOR YOU.

OKAY, BUT I'M HEARING
WHAT YOU'RE TELLING ME.

YOU KEEP TELLING ME
THE SAME THING,

YOU'RE REPEATING TO ME.
SO WHAT IS IT THAT I'M MISSING?

WELL, ONE IS THAT YOU DON'T NEED
TO FEEL COMPELLED

THAT YOU HAVE TO EAT

BECAUSE NUTRITION
AND ALL THAT STUFF.

IF YOU DON'T EAT ONE DAY,
IF YOU DON'T EAT TWO DAYS,

IF YOU DON'T EAT THREE DAYS,
NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN

BECAUSE THE BODY OF HUMAN

STORES THE CALORIES
AND NUTRITION IN THE LIVER

FOR BEING USED
FOR SEVERAL DAYS.

OKAY.

SO IF WE GET IN THE SITUATION
THAT WE HAVE A PATIENT

THAT GOES COMATOSE
OR BROKE THEIR LEG

WILL PUT THEM IN THE HOSPITAL
FOR ONE WEEK,

YOU STILL GOT A STORAGE IN YOUR
LIVER TO SUPPLY THAT, OKAY?

SO DON'T FEEL COMPELLED
TO EAT FREQUENTLY.

SO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE
TO KEEP NUTRITION

AND EAT MORE OFTEN,
EAT AT LEAST ONE OR TWICE A DAY.

NO, YOU DON'T.

IF YOU'RE NOT HUNGRY,
DON'T EAT,

BECAUSE YOU GOT ENOUGH ENERGY
STORE IN YOUR LIVER

THAT IS GONNA SUPPLY THAT.

SO THIS IS WHAT WE WERE
TRYING TO TELL YOU

BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE
NUTRITION IS,

IF YOU DON'T EAT, SOMETHING BAD
IS GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU.

OKAY?
YES, SIR.

SO ALL YOU NEED, MAKE SURE THAT
YOU DRINK PLENTY OF LIQUID,

MAKE SURE YOU TAKE
YOUR VITAMINS,

AND ANYTHING YOU EAT
MAKE SURE IS A PROTEIN,

AND THAT --
THIS THE KEY ISSUE.

BUT I THINK YOUR PERCEPTION
IS GETTING YOU IN TROUBLE

BECAUSE, IF YOU OVEREAT,
THE ENERGY FROM THE FOOD

IS STORED IN YOUR BODY
IN THE FORM OF FAT

AND THAT'S WHAT YOU NEED TO TAP
INTO BY NOT EATING AS MUCH.

SO YOU CAN TAP IN
USING SOME OF THE ENERGY

THAT YOU STORE IN YOUR BODY
IN THE FORM OF FAT

AND UTILIZE THAT,
AND THAT'S THE KEY ISSUES.

WHAT I'M TELLING YOU --
FOR FOUR YEARS, WHAT I'M SAYING,

YOU HAVE ENERGY STORE
FOR FOUR YEARS

IN THE FORM OF FAT
IN YOUR BODY.

OKAY.

YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT I'M SAYING? OKAY?

IT WAS JUST WHEN YOU KEPT
SAYING, LIKE, "FOR FOUR YEARS,"

I'M LIKE, "NOW, HOW HE THINK
SOMEBODY GONNA GO

FOR FOUR YEARS
WITHOUT EATING?

YOU KNOW, I WAS LIKE,
"THAT AIN'T EVEN POSSIBLE."

SO I'M THANKFUL FOR YOU
EXPLAINING AND BREAKING DOWN,

LIKE, YOU INTAKE LESS CALORIES
THAN YOU PUT IN...

WELL, YOU KNOW
WHAT YOU JUST SAID,

I CAN'T REPEAT IT BACK
LIKE YOU SAID IT.

AND THEN THAT'S WHERE
THE WEIGHT LOSS COMES IN.

YES, SO YOU NEED TO GET AWAY
FROM THIS IDEA

THAT YOU'RE OBLIGATED
TO EAT ALL THE TIME

OR AT LEAST
ONCE OR TWICE A DAY.

IF YOU GO WITHOUT FOOD,

NOTHING'S GONNA
HAPPEN TO YOU, OKAY?

OKAY.
ALL RIGHT?

YOU THINK DO YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT

AND HOW WE'RE GONNA CHANGE
YOUR EATING HABIT

AND LOOK AT THE CALORIE CONTENT
THAT YOU'RE TAKING EVERY DAY

AND KEEP IT DOWN
TO 1,200 CALORIE?

YES, SIR.
OKAY.

SO I WANT YOU
TO WORK ON THAT,

AND I WILL GIVE YOU
THE SAME GOAL.

LOSE 60 POUNDS
IN TWO MONTHS FROM NOW.

YES, SIR.

SO THIS IS GONNA BE
A GOAL FOR YOU.

AND, YOU KNOW,
IT'S BEEN SEVERAL MONTHS

AND WE HAVEN'T MADE
ANY PROGRESS WITH YOU.

SO WE'LL START THE CLOCK AGAIN.
OKAY?

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT.
ANY OTHER QUESTIONS?

NO, SIR.
THANK YOU.

GOOD LUCK,
AND NICE TO TALK TO YOU.

AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING,
GIVE US A CALL.

YES, SIR.

ALL RIGHT.
BYE, LEN.

BYE-BYE.

Dr. Nowzaradan: HOPEFULLY
WITH THIS CONVERSATION

I GOT THROUGH
TO LEN ENOUGH TODAY

TO WHERE SHE UNDERSTAND
HER SITUATION A LITTLE BETTER.

SO SHE FINALLY STARTS TO MAKE
THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS

INSTEAD OF CONTINUING TO JUSTIFY
HER CHOICE TO OVEREAT

AND THEN GET DEFENSIVE
ABOUT THINGS.

BUT WORDS ARE EASY,
ACTION IS HARD,

SO IT WILL COME DOWN
TO THE PROGRESS

SHE MAKES WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS
WHEN SHE COMES BACK,

BECAUSE AS MUCH AS SHE SAYS
SHE WANTS TO LOSE WEIGHT

AND DO WHAT SHE NEEDS,

FOLLOWING THROUGH
WITH WHAT SHE DOES NOW

IS WHAT'S IMPORTANT

AND WHAT DETERMINES
WHERE SHE GOES FROM HERE.

Leneatha:
I KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT

THAT I NEED TO WORK
TO DO BETTER,

BUT IT'S JUST HARD TO HEAR

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING
REALLY HARD,

AND I'VE ALSO BEEN FACING
SOME DIFFICULT CIRCUMSTANCES

THAT ARE OUT OF MY CONTROL.

BUT I DID GAIN ANOTHER CHANCE
TO QUALIFY

FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY
WHEN I GO BACK IN TWO MONTHS,

AND I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING
I CAN TO MAKE THAT GOAL

BECAUSE I KNOW
I NEED THIS SURGERY.

Leneatha: IT'S BEEN A MONTH
SINCE MY CALL WITH DR. NOW,

AND I'VE BEEN RELYING MORE
ON THE SUPPORT OF MY FRIENDS

AND FAMILY TO GET ME THROUGH.

AND NOW, TODAY,
FRANK IS STEPPING UP

AND MAKING GOOD ON HIS PROMISE
TO WORK ME OUT AT HIS GYM.

HOW YOU BEEN?GOOD.

YOU READY?YEP.

STOP RIGHT THERE.

ALL RIGHT,
DO FIVE JUMPING JACKS. LET'S GO.

ONE...

Leneatha:
HE'S BEEN TALKING ABOUT HAVING
ME IN HERE FOR A WHILE,

AND TODAY
IT'S FINALLY HAPPENING.

SO, IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO BE
CHECKING SOMETHING OFF THE LIST

THAT WE'VE BEEN SAYING WE WERE
GONNA DO FOR A LONG TIME.

BUT STILL, IT'S BEEN A WHILE
SINCE I'VE WORKED OUT MY BODY,

AND I'M NOT SURE
HOW IT'S GONNA GO.

LATELY I'VE BEEN FEELING
MY STAMINA GET A LITTLE BETTER,

SO I'M TESTING THAT OUT TODAY

AND WE'RE
GONNA SEE HOW MUCH I CAN DO

AND JUST TAKE IT FROM THERE.

AND IF I CAN DO GOOD TODAY

THEN I CAN BUILD ON THAT
BY COMING BACK AGAIN SOON

BECAUSE I REALLY THINK
I NEED SOMETHING LIKE THIS

TO TAKE MY JOURNEY
TO THE NEXT LEVEL.

I'VE BEEN THINKING THAT
IT WAS GONNA BE

THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

BUT IT TURNS OUT IT'S A JOURNEY
JUST TO GET TO THAT PART.

ALL RIGHT,
JUST GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT.

YOU READY?
LET'S GET IT.

GO.
COME ON.

MY LAST WEIGHT LOSS ON
THE WORK SCALE WAS SEVEN POUNDS,

SO THAT'S BETTER,
BUT IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH.

SO THAT'S WHERE FRANK COMES IN,

AND I THINK THIS IS REALLY GOING
TO HELP HAVING HIM WORK ME OUT

IN A SAFE
AND COMFORTABLE ENVIRONMENT

WHERE I CAN PUSH MYSELF A LITTLE
WITHOUT BEING SCARED.

THREE, TWO...

COME ON, ONE MORE, ONE MORE.
AND RELAX.

THAT GETS YOU OUT OF BREATH.

THAT'S THE POINT.

THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF IT,
TO GET YOU OUT OF BREATH.

ALL RIGHT,
THIS ONE, ALTERNATE.

LET'S GET IT.

20, 19...

AND I'M REAL HOPEFUL
THAT THIS

PLUS ALL THE CUTTING BACK
THAT I'VE BEEN DOING

IS GONNA BE THE CHANGE
THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR,

AND THAT I'VE BEEN NEEDING
FOR SO LONG NOW.

THROW THEM DOWN.

WHEW!

WHAT I EXPECT OUT OF
MY TRAINING SESSION TODAY

WITH FRANK
IS A BRUTAL WORKOUT.

HE DOES NOT CARE
IF YOU'RE TIRED.

HE DOES NOT CARE IF YOU SAY
YOU CANNOT BREATHE.

HE DOES NOT CARE IF YOU SAY
THAT YOU'RE ABOUT TO PUKE.

HE SAID, "PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS
LEAVING THE BODY."

HE SAYS, "IF YOU CAN TELL ME
THAT YOU CAN'T BREATHE,

YOU'RE BREATHING."

MY STAMINA IS
A LITTLE BIT BETTER

THAN WHAT IT WAS
WHEN I FIRST STARTED

BECAUSE I COULDN'T EVEN MAKE IT
LIKE ONE OR TWO MINUTES,

REALLY,
STANDING TO DO ANYTHING.

THAT'S MY INDICATION THAT I'M
GETTING BETTER DAY BY DAY.

ALL YOUR FRUSTRATION,
ALL YOUR ANGER

AND YOU CAN TAKE IT OUT
ON THIS TIRE.

GOT IT?

OKAY.

LET'S GO.

A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO,

THERE'S NO WAY
I COULD'VE DONE THIS STUFF.

SO I'M WIPED OUT
AND I'M IN PAIN NOW,

BUT IT'S A GOOD PAIN.

I THINK I FORGOT THERE WAS
A GOOD KIND OF PAIN

THAT YOU CAN GET
FROM WORKING OUT.

SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF

BECAUSE THERE'S BEEN
A LOT OF STUFF

TRYING TO SLOW ME DOWN LATELY
AND PUSH BACK ON ME.

LAST ONE, LAST ONE.
ALL YOU GOT.

GOOD JOB, GOOD JOB.
COME ON BACK IN.

SO NEXT TIME WHEN I GO BACK
TO SEE DR. NOW IN A MONTH,

I'M REALLY HOPING
TO GET MY WEIGHT DOWN AROUND

WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE

BECAUSE I'M CERTAIN THAT DR. NOW
WILL BE DONE WITH ME

IF I DON'T MAKE IT THIS TIME,
AND I CAN'T HAVE THAT HAPPEN

BECAUSE THEN I WON'T HAVE
NO MORE HOPE.

ALL RIGHT. WHAT'S YOUR PLAN
ON EATING TODAY?

I'M GOING
TO THE SANDWICH SHOP

BECAUSE YOU CAN TURN
THE SANDWICH INTO A SALAD.

AND INSTEAD OF IT BEING LIKE
500 AND SOME CALORIES,

IT'S LIKE 270 CALORIES BECAUSE
I DON'T EAT THE SALAD DRESSING,

SO I JUST GET THE CHEESE
AND MEAT AND THE LETTUCE.

THEN, FOR SUPPER,
I TOOK OUT SOME TILAPIA

THAT I'M GONNA BAKE
AND SOME BROCCOLI.

REMEMBER, WHATEVER YOU EAT,

WRITE IT DOWN
AND BRING IT TO ME.

OKAY.

I'M TIRED. I DON'T FEEL LIKE
GETTING UP RIGHT NOW.

OH, WE CAN WORK OUT AGAIN.THAT'S OKAY. BYE.

WHEW!
I CAN'T FEEL MY BUTT.

I'M NOT A QUITTER.
I'M A FIGHTER.

AND THIS JUST REMINDED ME
OF THAT TODAY,

THAT I CAN TAKE
WHAT COMES AT ME

AND GET THROUGH IT
FOR ME AND MY DAUGHTER.

AND A LITTLE HELP
FROM YOUR FRIENDS NEVER HURT.

I'M BACK IN HOUSTON FOR
MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT

WITH DR. NOW,
AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO SEE

IF THE WEIGHT LOSS I DID
WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.

AND I'M GRATEFUL TODAY
I GOT MY SISTER KIMBERLY WITH ME

TO LEND HER SUPPORT.

BUT I'M KIND OF NERVOUS
BECAUSE IT MATTERS A LOT

WHAT THAT SCALE SAYS.

AND IF THE RESULTS TODAY
AREN'T GOOD,

I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH PATIENCE
DR. NOW WILL HAVE LEFT WITH ME.

BUT I KNOW HOW MUCH WORK
I PUT INTO IT THIS TIME,

AND IT'S STARTING TO FEEL LIKE

I'M RUNNING OUT OF MORE THINGS
I CAN DO TO DO BETTER.

LEN?

Leneatha: I KNOW I LOST WEIGHT,
BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH

BECAUSE THE LAST TIME
I WEIGHED MYSELF AT WORK

I STILL HAD A WAYS TO GO.

BUT I'VE BEEN
WORKING HARDER THAN EVER,

AND I'M FEELING LIGHTER
AND BETTER AND MORE FOCUSED.

AND I'M JUST HOPING THE SCALE
TELLS ME SOMETHING GOOD

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DOING
EVERYTHING RIGHT

WITH ALL KINDS
OF STRUGGLES FACING ME,

AND IT'S ABOUT TIME
I HAD SOME GOOD NEWS.

Leneatha: I'M AT DR. NOW'S
ABOUT TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT,

AND I'VE BEEN WORKING HARDER
THAN EVER TO GET

THE FULL 60 POUNDS OFF

DOWN TO TODAY'S WEIGHT
I GOT TO BE AT OF 544.

Woman: 575.

I SHOULD HAVE LOST MORE.

BUT, YOU KNOW,
IT'S STILL A GOOD LOSS

AND THERE MIGHT EVEN BE
A CHANCE THAT DR. NOW

WILL BE HAPPY WITH THAT,

BECAUSE IT'S A MUCH BIGGER LOSS
THAN I'VE HAD FOR HIM BEFORE.

SO HE MIGHT DECIDE THAT I'M
READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

TODAY AFTER ALL.

HELLO.

HELLO.
HELLO.

HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING?

FINE.GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M GOOD, THANK YOU.

ALL RIGHT, LEN,
SO TODAY YOU'RE DOWN TO 575?

YES, SIR.

SO YOU LOST 29 POUNDS,
ULTIMATELY, OVER FIVE MONTHS?

BUT EVEN JUST FOR TWO MONTHS,
IT'S NOT THAT GREAT.

SO YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING.

YEAH, I DON'T SEE HOW
I'M OVEREATING

BECAUSE ALL I'VE HAD WAS SALAD,
MEAT, AND THAT'S IT.

YOU ARE GOING TO KEEP
REPEATING THAT

AND YOU'RE GOING TO BELIEVE
EVERYTHING YOU SAID?

-YES.
-ALL RIGHT, LET ME MAKE IT
VERY CLEAR FOR YOU, OKAY?

SO, RIGHT NOW, NO MATTER
HOW LITTLE YOU'RE EATING,

IT'S STILL TOO MUCH.

OKAY.YOU FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

OKAY.
OKAY.

SO, RIGHT NOW, TO THE STANDARD
THAT YOU WERE EATING BEFORE,

YOU'RE EATING LESS,
AND YOU'RE HAPPY WITH THAT.

BUT THE BAD NEWS IS,
IT'S STILL TOO MUCH.

YOU FOLLOW
WHAT I'M SAYING?

I REALLY DON'T. I DON'T.
'CAUSE I'M NOT EATING.

THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING.
I DON'T KNOW.

AND I'M NOT GONNA CHANGE
WHAT I'M SAYING,

BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING.

OKAY.
OKAY.

I'M NOT.

AND I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE
TELLING ME THAT I'M EATING,

AND I'M NOT EATING, AND NOBODY'S
SITTING THERE WATCHING IT.

BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING.

I MEAN, I KNOW
YOU'RE NOT EATING.

OKAY, BUT PEOPLE TELLING ME
THAT I'M EATING, AND I'M NOT.

CALM DOWN.
CALM DOWN.

IF YOU'RE NOT EATING,

YOU'RE GONNA LOSE
MORE WEIGHT, THOUGH.

OKAY, WELL, I WISH SOMEBODY
COULD BE WITH ME 24/7

SO THAT THEY CAN SEE.

I KNOW
YOU'RE NOT EATING.

ALL RIGHT, I WANT TO GET
SOME TESTS DONE

TO UNDERSTAND THAT,
OKAY?

RIGHT.
OKAY.

I WANT YOU TO GO ON A LIQUID
DIET FOR THREE DAYS.

I CAN DO THAT.

OKAY.
NO SUGARY DRINKS.

I DON'T HAVE
SUGARY DRINKS NOW.

OKAY, YOU CAN HAVE
SUGAR-FREE JELL-O,

AND YOU CAN HAVE BROTH,
AND YOU CAN HAVE TEA, COFFEE,

AND JUST STRAIN THE SOUPS
AND HAVE THAT,

AND SEE IN THREE DAYS HOW
MUCH WEIGHT YOU CAN LOSE, OKAY?

I THINK IT'LL BE BETTER
WITH THE LIQUID.

YOU ARE CONFUSING YOURSELF
AND YOU'RE GETTING AND REPEATING

THE SAME THING YOU'RE SAYING.

YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF,
OKAY?

BECAUSE THERE'S NO MAGIC
IN HERE.

-RIGHT.
-THIS IS
ALL SCIENCE AND PHYSICS.

YOU CAN'T GAIN WEIGHT
FROM THIN AIR,

SO IS IT MAD THAT WE USE
THE SCALE TO MEASURE?

AND YOU THINK YOU'RE NOT
EATING A LOT, BUT YOU ARE.

SO IF I PUT YOU
IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW

AND I PUT YOU
ON A CONTROLLED DIET,

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WEIGHT I CAN
GET YOU TO LOSE IN ONE MONTH?

I CAN GET YOU LOSE
A HUNDRED POUNDS IN ONE MONTH.

I'D BE GLAD TO SEE THAT.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?

YOUR PERCEPTION IS JUST
YOU'RE CONCENTRATING

ON WHAT YOU'RE SAYING,
THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING, OKAY?

YOU'RE STILL EATING
TOO MUCH,

BUT YOU'RE NOT SEEING THAT,
OKAY?

SO, YOU'D BE SURPRISED
IF YOU START WRITING

AND KEEP THE DAIRY
OF WHAT YOU'RE EATING.

AND I DO THAT.
I DO KEEP A DIARY OF WHAT I EAT.

THAT'S WHY I KNOW THAT I'M NOT
EATING. THAT'S WHY I KNOW.

YEAH, YOU ARE EATING, OKAY?
YOU ARE EATING.

YOU'RE NOT EATING COMPARING
TO WHAT BEFORE, OKAY?

AND BEFORE I WASN'T EATING.
BEFORE I WAS EATING JUNK.

I WAS EATING SWEETS
AND CAKES AND DRINKS.

I WASN'T EATING FOOD.

THAT WAS THE PROBLEM.
IT WAS SWEETS.

YOU'RE EATING TOO MUCH NOW
IN COMPARISON,

GIVES YOU THAT ILLUSION
THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING.

RIGHT.BUT THAT'S NOT REALITY, OKAY?

SO YOUR WEIGHT IS DICTATED
BY THE FOOD YOU EAT

AND WHAT THE SCALE
TELLS YOU, OKAY?

BECAUSE THIS IS THE REALITY
OF THE SITUATION.

YOU GOT TO SEE
THE REALITY

AND NOT BE CONFUSED
BY WHAT YOUR PERCEPTION IS.

OKAY?
THAT MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU?

IN A WAY, BUT IT'S JUST -- IT'S
HARD TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT

BECAUSE I KNOW THAT
WHEN I SIT THERE THAT I'M --

BECAUSE WHEN I LOOK
AT WHAT I'M EATING,

I KNOW THAT I'M NOT,
AND THAT'S THE THING ABOUT IT.

THAT IS NOT FOR YOU --
THAT SEEMS NOT VERY MUCH.

AND IT SEEMS LIKE IT'S HARD

BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I'VE HEARD
SINCE I'VE GAINED THE WEIGHT

IS PEOPLE
JUST BEATING ME DOWN.

NOBODY SAID
IT'S GONNA BE EASY.

YEAH, BUT THAT'S THE HARD PART,
IS PEOPLE LOOK AT YOU

BECAUSE YOU'RE BIG

AND THINK THAT YOU'RE JUST
SITTING THERE JUST EATING

AND THAT'S NOT IT
WHEN YOU KNOW

THAT YOU'RE NOT
SITTING THERE EATING.

BECAUSE I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME
TO SIT THERE AND EAT LIKE THAT.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT'S
HAPPENING HERE.

BUT I KNEW I HADN'T BEEN EATING,
AND I EVEN SAID,

"LENEATHA,
YOU'RE NOT EATING ENOUGH

AND MAYBE YOUR BODY'S
HOLDING ONTO IT

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT
EATING ENOUGH."

BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN
EATING ANYTHING.

IT'S JUST LIKE YESTERDAY,
ALL I HAD WHEN WE CAME DOWN HERE

YESTERDAY WAS AN EGG
AND A PIECE OF BACON.

AND I GOT HERE LAST NIGHT

AND I GOT TWO PIECES
OF GRILLED CHICKEN FROM KFC

AND A COLESLAW AND TWO WATERS.
THAT'S ALL I HAD YESTERDAY.

SO WHAT I'M SAYING IS,
I'M NOT EATING

AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE.

YOU ARE, OKAY? YOU ATE THE EGG,
YOU ATE THE BACON, OKAY?

I KNOW,
BUT I'M NOT SAYING THAT.

I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT, LIKE,
I'M NOT EATING.

I'M SAYING I'M NOT OVEREATING
IS WHAT I'M SAYING,

AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE
TO ME.

IF I'M NOT OVEREATING,
WHY IS WEIGHT NOT COMING OFF?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT.

AND THAT'S WHAT MAKES
YOU WANT TO GIVE UP,

BECAUSE WHEN YOU'RE TRYING
AND YOU KNOW THAT

YOU'RE DOING IT RIGHT,
IT'S STILL NOT WORKING.

OKAY, WE ALL THINK
WE DON'T EAT VERY MUCH,

AND, YOU KNOW, WE GET PEOPLE
IN A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT

AND WE GET THEM TO EAT ONE DAY.
AT THE END OF THE DAY,

WE GET THEM
TO WRITE DOWN WHAT THEY EAT,

THEY COULDN'T REMEMBER ABOUT 10%
OF WHAT THEY EAT, OKAY?

SO YOU JUST --
KEEP JUST COUNTING

WHATEVER YOU'RE EATING --

"OH, YEAH. I HAD THAT.
I HAD THAT. I HAD THAT.

OKAY, THAT WASN'T MUCH.
THAT WASN'T MUCH."

SO IT JUST ALL BUILD UP.

SO YOUR PERCEPTION IS LIMITED
BY THE INFORMATION YOU HAVE.

UNLESS YOU HAVE
THE RIGHT INFORMATION,

YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE
THE RIGHT PERCEPTION.

SO KEEP A FOOD JOURNAL
AND TAKE ACCOUNT OF EVERYTHING,

AND ONE DAY A WEEK, WITH THE
SAME CLOTHES, CHECK YOUR WEIGHT.

IF YOU HAVEN'T LOST 10 POUNDS,

YOU'RE STILL GETTING
TOO MANY CALORIES.

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIME YOU
PUKING OR NOT HAVING AN APPETITE

OR NOT ABLE TO EAT
DOESN'T MATTER.

WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU,
IT MATTERS. OKAY?

BECAUSE IN FIVE MINUTES
YOU CAN CONSUME ENOUGH CALORIES

THAT WILL BE ENOUGH
FOR 24 HOURS, OKAY?

SO YOU NEED TO SEE THE REALITY
OF THE SITUATION, OKAY?

THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION IS,
NO MATTER WHAT YOU'RE EATING,

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE
TO LOSE WEIGHT, OKAY?

YOU WANT TO GET A TOWEL
OVER THERE?

JUST...

SO, START WORKING ON THAT

AND SEE THE REALITY
OF THE SITUATION.

PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT
THE SCALE TELLS YOU,

AND ADJUST
YOUR EATING HABITS

ACCORDING TO WHAT
THE SCALE TELLS YOU,

NOT WHAT YOUR PERCEPTION IS
OF OVEREATING.

AND YOU NEED TO EAT LESS
AND LESS

BECAUSE AFTER SURGERY

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE
THE SAME STRUGGLE

THAT YOU'RE HAVING NOW,
OKAY?

BECAUSE AFTER SURGERY,
ALL THE PEOPLE,

THEY COME IN AND TELL ME,
"I DON'T EAT VERY MUCH,

BUT I GAINED 10 POUNDS
IN ONE MONTH," OKAY?

SO BASICALLY WHAT YOU'RE
BASICALLY SAYING IS,

JUST BECAUSE YOU SAY
1,200 CALORIES A DAY,

THAT DOESN'T NECESSARILY MEAN

THAT THAT'S GOING
TO WORK FOR ME.

I MAY HAVE TO HAVE
LESS THAN 1,200 CALORIES?

YES AND NO.

I'M SAYING THAT YOU'RE EATING
FOUR TO FIVE TIMES THAT AMOUNT,

AND YOU DON'T REALIZE IT.

BUT EVEN IF YOU WERE
JUST EATING 1,200 CALORIES,

IF YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT,
THEN EAT LESS.

YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?

OKAY.
THAT MADE BETTER SENSE.

BECAUSE IT MADE IT, THAT MADE IT
MORE UNDERSTANDABLE

BECAUSE YOU MADE IT
TO WHERE...

NOT EVERYTHING WORKS
FOR EVERYBODY,

AND I MAY HAVE TO
ADJUST THINGS TO MAKE IT FIT

WHERE MY WEIGHT WILL COME OFF.

WHATEVER IT TAKES
TO LOSE WEIGHT

AND REDUCE THE STRAIN
ON YOUR BODY, YOU NEED TO DO.

BUT UNFORTUNATELY,
THE ONLY WAY WE CAN COMBAT THAT

IS TO REDUCE
THE CALORIE INTAKE, OKAY?

OKAY.

AND YOU CAN CHANGE THAT,
OKAY?

SO DON'T ARGUE
WITH YOURSELF.

OKAY?
JUST TO ARGUE WITH THE SCALE.

SO YOU'RE GONNA HAVE
TO DO MORE

AND TRY HARDER
AND PAY MORE ATTENTION

TO WHAT THE SCALE
TELLS YOU, OKAY?

AND DON'T GET UPSET THAT
YOU'RE NOT LOSING AS MUCH WEIGHT

AS YOU WANT TO.

TRY HARDER.
OKAY?

YES, SIR.

ALL RIGHT, AND WE'LL GIVE YOU
SOME INSTRUCTION

TO DO A LIQUID DIET
FOR A FEW DAYS

SO YOU CAN SEE
HOW MUCH YOU LOSE WITH THAT.

AND KEEP DOING
THE DAILY FOOD JOURNAL

AND WRITE EVERYTHING
YOU EAT DOWN

SO YOU CAN ADJUST
YOUR PERCEPTION

OF WHAT YOU'RE EATING,
OKAY?

OKAY.

IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY,
BUT YOU CAN DO IT, LEN.

AND YOU HAVE YOUR TEAM THAT WANT
TO SUPPORT TO HELP YOU, RIGHT?

YEAH,
YOU GOT SOME WORK TO DO.

AND YOU GOT TO
STICK TO IT.

I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE HARD,
BUT...

IT CAN'T BE HARDER THAN
IT'S ALREADY BEEN FOR ME,

WITH HOW YOU SEE ME STRUGGLE
MAKING CHANGES.

WELL, YEAH, THAT'S TRUE, NOW.
THAT'S TRUE. THAT'S TRUE.

BUT IT'S GONNA BE
A LOT STRICTER NOW

AND THE AMOUNT
HOW YOU DO,

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
TWEAK IT UNTIL IT WORKS.

THAT'S WHY I'M DOING
THIS LIQUID DIET.

YOU HAVE A BETTER
UNDERSTANDING NOW

SO YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO
AND WHAT NOT TO DO.

UH-HUH.
YEAH.

NO EXCUSES.

ALL RIGHT.HE MADE ME CRY.

WELL, I MEAN, UM...

IN A GOOD WAY.

NO ONE SAID
THIS WILL BE EASY,

SO CRYING WHEN
YOU'RE UPSET IS FINE.

BECAUSE A LOT OF PEOPLE
WHO TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT

DON'T UNDERSTAND THINGS
TO START

AND ALSO STRUGGLE
WITH WHAT OTHER PEOPLE

SAY TO THEM
THAT IS MISGUIDED.

AND I THINK THAT'S
WHAT IT REALLY --

BECAUSE HE TOLD ME,
LIKE WHAT YOU SAID,

YOU CAN'T WORRY ABOUT
WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK.

AND THAT'S MY HARDEST THING,
IS PEOPLE'S PERCEPTION

OF LOOKING AT PEOPLE
WHEN THEY'RE BIG.

THEY JUST THINK
PEOPLE OVEREAT,

AND THAT'S WHY I HATED
GOING TO THE DOCTOR

AND STUFF ALL THE TIME,
BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS SAY,

"WELL, JUST PUSH BACK
FROM THE TABLE,"

INSTEAD OF SITTING DOWN
AND TALKING TO THAT PERSON,

TRYING TO FIGURE OUT
WHAT'S GOING ON

OR, "LET'S GET THIS PLAN GOING,"

OR, "WHAT IS IT?"
OR, "WHAT'S WHAT?"

IT'S JUST, "OH, YOU EAT."

AND I'M LIKE, STOP LOOKING
AT ALL BIG PEOPLE AS ONE BIG --

AS A WHOLE,
AND IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT THAT.

ALL RIGHT, IF YOU READ THE BOOK,
YOU'LL SEE I ADDRESS THAT,

THE SITUATION
THAT THESE ARE THE PEOPLE

THAT ARE MOST MISUNDERSTOOD
BY THE GENERAL PUBLIC

AND BY EVEN
MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL,

AND THE PEOPLE
NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT.

AND THAT'S THE ONLY REASON
I'M DOING THIS,

TO MAKE THE PUBLIC AND
MEDICAL COMMUNITY TO UNDERSTAND

PEOPLE STRUGGLING WITH OBESITY
THAT ARE IN YOUR SITUATION,

BUT THE ISSUES LEADING TO THIS
IS NOT GONNA GO AWAY.

BUT NEVERTHELESS, IN ORDER
TO HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO SHOW ME
SOME LEVEL OF EFFORT

THAT YOU'RE WILLING
TO DO THE WORK

TO BE SUCCESSFUL
IN THE LONG TERM.

OKAY?

AND THERE'S NO WAY AROUND IT,

THAT YOU'RE GONNA
HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT.

AND THAT'S GONNA BE
THE HARDEST PART TO DO,

BUT NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS,
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO IT.

RIGHT.
OKAY?

OKAY.AND THAT'S TOTALLY UP TO YOU.

AND NOBODY SAID
IT'S GONNA BE EASY. OKAY?

WELL, I'M GONNA DO BETTER
NEXT TIME, DR. NOW.

THAT SOUNDS GOOD.
ALL RIGHT.

ALL RIGHT,
NICE TO SEE YOU GUYS,

AND HAVE A SAFE TRIP
BACK HOME.

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING,
LET ME KNOW.

Dr. Nowzaradan: UNFORTUNATELY,
LEN IS STILL BELIEVING

HER OWN PERCEPTION
THAT SHE'S CREATED,

WHERE SHE DOESN'T THINK
SHE'S EATING THAT MUCH

AND THAT THERE IS NO REAL REASON
FOR HER LACK OF PROGRESS

AND WHY SHE'S
NOT LOSING WEIGHT.

BUT ONCE AGAIN, I'M HOPING

THAT SHE UNDERSTANDS
A LITTLE MORE NOW,

AND THAT SHE WILL TRY TO DO
THE LIQUID DIET FOR A FEW DAYS

AND THAT HELPS OPEN HER EYES
TO HOW MUCH SHE CAN LOSE

IF SHE CUTS BACK ON HOW MUCH
SHE'S TAKING IN EVERY DAY.

BUT SO FAR, SHE HASN'T BROKEN
THE CYCLE OF CONVINCING HERSELF

SHE'S NOT REALLY EATING A LOT.

AND UNTIL SHE CHANGES THAT
AND SHE SHOWS ME

SHE'S TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY
AND UNDERSTANDS WHAT SHE NEEDS,

WE'RE NOT MOVING AHEAD
WITH HER.

Leneatha: MY APPOINTMENT TODAY
DIDN'T GO AS GREAT

AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD GO
WITH DR. NOW

BECAUSE DR. NOW
STILL DOESN'T SEE

HOW I'M RISING TO HIS CHALLENGE
THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW.

BUT I CANNOT ARGUE
WITH THE FACT

THAT THE WAY TO AVOID
THIS DISAPPOINTMENT

IS JUST TO DO BETTER.

SO THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO.

BECAUSE AT THIS POINT

I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING
DR. NOW SAYS

UNTIL I HEAR HIM SAY
WHAT I WANT TO HEAR,

WHICH IS HIM APPROVING ME
FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

THE ONLY OTHER OPTION
IS TO JUST GIVE UP,

BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT.

Leneatha:
IT'S BEEN A LITTLE WHILE

SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOW,

AND THINGS STILL HAVEN'T BEEN
GOING QUITE AS GOOD AS I'D HOPED

BECAUSE I'M STILL STRUGGLING
TO FIND WORK-LIFE BALANCE.

AND SO FAR THE LIQUID DIET
HAS NOT BEEN A PART OF THAT,

BECAUSE I HAVEN'T
HAD THE TIME YET.

BUT I'M STILL LOOKING AT WAYS
TO MAKE DR. NOW'S PROGRAM

MORE COMPATIBLE
WITH THE REAL WORLD I LIVE IN.

AND TONIGHT MY BROTHER LAMAR
IS COMING OVER TO EAT WITH ME

BECAUSE I HAVE THE IDEA

THAT I'VE BEEN EATING IN PRIVATE
SO LONG

THAT MAYBE IT WOULD BE GOOD

TO BRING
THAT OUT INTO THE LIGHT.

BECAUSE IF I'M ACCOUNTABLE
TO EATING IN FRONT OF SOMEONE,

THEN MAYBE I WILL EAT LESS.

KNOCK-KNOCK.

HEY.
HEY THERE.

GUESS WHO'S COMING
TO DINNER.

WHAT?!

DID YOU HAPPEN TO BRING
THE SEASONING

I ASKED YOU TO BRING?

YEAH,
I GOT YOU HOOKED UP.

GUESS WHAT I'M FIXING?

MY FAVORITE?

MM...

I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S YOUR
FAVORITE OR NOT. WHAT IS IT?

SPAGHETTI?
NO.

NOW, YOU KNOW
I CAN'T HAVE SPAGHETTI.

I'M TRYING TO EAT RIGHT.YEAH, YEAH.

SO, I GOT SOME TILAPIA
AND SOME BROCCOLI.

MM, TILAPIA'S NOT SO BAD.

IT'S NOT.

IT'S ALL IN THE WAY
YOU COOK IT ANYWAY,

WITH ANY FOOD, I THINK.

SO YOU SEE HOW NEAT
I GOT THIS PREPARED?

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO COME BACK
A LITTLE MORE OFTEN.

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU,
BUT I LOVE MY BROCCOLI.

I EAT MORE OF THE GREEN
THAN THE PEAS.

COME ON, LET'S GO RIGHT HERE
AND EAT.

GOT A COUPLE
OF GOOD STUFFS.

WHERE YOU WANT TO --
WELL, I'LL SIT ON THIS SIDE.

YOU CAN COME ON AROUND.
HERE'S A LITTLE COASTER, BOY.

I TRY TO KEEP MY LITTLE TABLE
A LITTLE, YOU KNOW...

YEAH.

YOU PROBABLY DON'T EAT
MUCH HERE

WITH YOUR DIET
AND EVERYTHING GOING ON.

I DON'T.

BUT SITTING HERE
TRYING TO EAT THIS RIGHT HERE,

JUST LOOKING AT IT.

YOU KNOW,
I'M STILL TRYING TO LEARN,

LIKE, PORTIONS
AND ALL THAT AND STUFF.

AND THEN LOOKING AT THIS,
I STILL SEEMS THIS RIGHT HERE,

IN MY EYES,
BACK THEN WOULD BE LIKE,

MY BURGER AND FRIES
WOULD BE MORE THAN THIS.

BUT THIS STILL SEEM LIKE
IT AIN'T NOTHING,

AND I'M GONNA
BE HUNGRY AGAIN.

BUT IT'S FULFILLING.

AND SOMETIMES I WANT TO GIVE UP
ON THE JOURNEY

AND SAY,
"DR. NOW, FORGET IT."

BECAUSE IT'S HARD,
AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE

I'M NOT EVEN DOING GOOD
WITH MY CHILD.

YOU'RE A WONDERFUL MOTHER.

I LIKE THE WAY
THAT YOU'RE RAISING HER

AND BEING INDEPENDENT,
YOU KNOW?

THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS
YOU GOT TO LET GO.

IT'S HARD, THOUGH.

BECAUSE I'M GONNA TELL YOU,

I WANT TO LET GO
OF THIS JOURNEY SO BAD.

JUST KEEP DOING WHAT
YOU'RE DOING. STAY ON THE PATH.

THAT PATH IS HARD.
IT'S A WORN PATH.

IF ANYTHING ELSE FAILS,
YOU KNOW,

YOU ALWAYS GOT
YOUR BABY BROTHER,

WHO'S ALWAYS GONNA BE
BY YOUR SIDE

NO MATTER
WHAT ANYBODY SAYS ABOUT YOU.

OKAY.I'M JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY.

OKAY.

WHATEVER IT TAKES,
YOU KNOW, TO HELP YOU ALONG...

OKAY.
...I'M HERE FOR YOU.

OKAY.

GONNA MAKE SURE
YOU DO THIS.

WELL, AT LEAST THE GOOD THING IS
WE DON'T HAVE TO WASH DISHES.

Leneatha: THIS IS REALLY HARD
BECAUSE I'M STILL HUNGRY

BUT I'M TRYING ALL
I CAN TO LOSE WEIGHT

AND I'M GONNA KEEP TRYING
AND PUTTING IN EFFORT,

AND I'M GONNA KEEP HOPING

THAT THERE'S SOMETHING GOOD
FOR ME

AT THE END
OF THIS STRUGGLE.

WELL, WE MANAGED TO MAKE IT
FROM BAD TO WORSE

BECAUSE KENLYN HAS BEEN
REALLY SICK LATELY,

AND SHE'S BEEN HAVING
REALLY BAD ASTHMA ATTACKS

THAT HAVE BEEN REQUIRING
A LOT OF BREATHING TREATMENTS.

AND IT BREAKS MY HEART
TO SEE IT HAPPENING,

AND IT THROWS A WRENCH
INTO EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE.

I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE
FIRSTHAND KNOWLEDGE

OF THESE TYPES OF TREATMENTS,

BUT I DO BECAUSE I WENT
THROUGH IT MYSELF.

BUT WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH IT,
I WAS ALREADY AN ADULT.

SO I COULD DECIDE ON MY OWN
WHEN I RAN OUT OF MONEY

THAT I WAS GONNA
TAKE A BREAK ON TREATMENTS

AND DOCTORS
AND PRESCRIPTIONS FOR A WHILE.

BUT HOW DO YOU DECIDE THAT
FOR A TODDLER CHILD?

YOU DON'T.
YOU PAY WHATEVER IT COSTS.

SO THAT MEANS I GOT
TO PICK UP MORE SHIFTS.

BUT TO DO THAT,
I GOT TO LEAN ON MY FAMILY

TO HELP ME WITH KENLYN.

BUT THERE'S A LIMIT ALSO TO
WHAT YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS

CAN DO FOR YOUR CHILD.

SO, YEAH, I'M DROWNING.

Leneatha: IT HAS BEEN
A ROUGH COUPLE MONTHS.

IT FEELS LIKE IT'S BEEN
ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER,

WHERE EACH NEW THING
IS JUST WORSE.

SO I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT
AND I PRAYED ON IT,

AND TODAY I'M TALKING
TO DR. NOW

AND I'M TELLING HIM
THAT MY JOURNEY IS GOING ON HOLD

AND THAT I'M NO LONGER GONNA
BE CONTINUING WITH HIS PROGRAM.

MY DECISION IS BASED ON MY
DAUGHTER AND HER SICKNESSES

AND MAKING SURE THAT SHE'S OKAY,
BECAUSE PROVIDING FOR HER,

THAT'S MY BIGGEST
PRIORITY IN MY LIFE.

BUT JUST BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE
THAT JOURNEY RIGHT NOW,

DOESN'T MEAN I WON'T BE ABLE
TO MAKE THAT JOURNEY IN MY LIFE.

AND I REALLY WOULD PREFER
FOR DR. NOW

TO SEE WHERE I'M COMING FROM,

AND I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE
TO REMAIN IN HIS GOOD GRACES.

BUT IF HE DOESN'T OR I DON'T,
THEN I'M OKAY WITH THAT TOO.

BECAUSE I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT
I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING FOR ME

AND MY DAUGHTER.

HI, LEN.
HOW ARE YOU DOING?

HEY, DR. NOW, I'M DOING GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?

I'M DOING GOOD.

SO, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU

SINCE YOU MISSED
YOUR LAST APPOINTMENT AGAIN,

AND YOU DIDN'T SHOW UP.

IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS
SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU,

SO WHAT'S GOING ON?

I'VE BEEN KIND OF BUSY TRYING
TO TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER

AND TAKING HER BACK AND FORTH
TO HER DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS

AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE
THAT I CAN BE OFF OF WORK,

SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO MAKE IT DOWN.

OKAY, SO EVEN THOUGH YOU
HAVEN'T MADE IT DOWN HERE,

YOU STILL NEED TO
WORK WITH YOUR DIET

AND KEEP LOSING WEIGHT.

BUT ONCE AGAIN, YOU DON'T LOOK
LIKE YOU LOST ANY WEIGHT.

SO IS YOUR EXCUSE FOR THAT STILL
THAT YOU HAVE TOO MUCH GOING ON

THAT YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH?

YES, SIR.

SO HOW DOES HAVING TO DO
ALL THAT

MEAN THAT YOU CAN'T
EAT HEALTHY?

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DEALING
WITH ALL THE STRESS

THAT'S BEEN GOING ON WITH ME

HAVING TO STILL
CARE FOR MY DAUGHTER

AND NOT REALLY FOCUSING ON ME
TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.

I JUST -- MY FOCUS
JUST DISAPPEARED

FROM THE WEIGHT LOSS.

SO I'VE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING,
BEING A SINGLE PARENT

AND TRYING TO CARE
FOR EVERYTHING

AND KEEP EVERYTHING GOING

AND STILL TRYING TO WORK
AND KEEP

JUST DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITY
GOING IS THE MAIN THING.

I GET THAT YOU HAVE A LOT
GOING ON.

BUT DO YOU REALIZE
YOUR RESPONSIBILITY

WOULDN'T BE ANYTHING
IF YOU'RE NOT ALIVE?

SO YOU UNDERSTAND
THAT THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT THAT

YOU STAY HEALTHY
FOR YOUR FAMILY, RIGHT?

YES, SIR.

AND THIS REQUIRES
THAT YOU EAT HEALTHY

AND TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT

AND NOT
JUSTIFY THE STRESS TO OVEREAT.

OKAY?

WELL, DR. NOW, YOU'RE RIGHT
ABOUT MY HEALTH COMES FIRST.

BUT AT THE MOMENT,
I PUT MY DAUGHTER

AS A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE

AS FAR AS HAVING TO
TAKE CARE OF SOMEBODY.

AND I KNOW THAT I STILL NEED
TO TAKE CARE OF MY HEALTH

TO BE ABLE TO
TAKE CARE OF HER,

BUT SHE'S NOT WHERE
SHE CAN TAKE CARE OF HERSELF.

SO I DO HAVE TO
PAUSE MY LIFE

TO MAKE SURE THAT
SHE'S TAKEN CARE OF,

EVEN IF IT MEANS
STOPPING MY JOURNEY, SO...

I'M HAVING TO PUT A HALT TO IT
RIGHT NOW.

I SEE.

SO IS THAT YOUR WAY
OF TELLING ME THAT YOU QUITTING

AND YOU'RE DONE
WITH THE PROGRAM?

I'M NOT DONE
WITH THE PROGRAM,

BUT AT THE MOMENT I'M PUTTING
MY FOCUS ON MY DAUGHTER

AND THE ISSUES
THAT I HAVE AT HAND,

SO I HAVE TO STOP
AT THE MOMENT.

ALL RIGHT, LEN,
BUT IF THAT'S THE CASE,

EVEN IF YOU CANNOT
COME DOWN HERE,

YOU NEED TO STICK WITH
THE HEALTHY EATING HABITS.

SO YOU NEED TO STICK
WITH A 1,200-CALORIE DIET

NO MATTER WHAT

AND TRY TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN
UNDER 500 AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

BECAUSE IF YOU WANT TO
BE AROUND,

THEN YOU'RE GONNA
HAVE TO FOLLOW THE DIET

AND CONTINUE LOSING WEIGHT,
OKAY?

YES, SIR.

SO DON'T USE WHAT'S GOING ON
IN YOUR LIFE

AS A STRESS TO OVEREAT.

YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT I'M SAYING, RIGHT?

I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING
ABOUT TAKING CARE

OF MY HEALTH FIRST, DR. NOW.

BUT I PUT MY DAUGHTER
AS A PRIORITY

AND SHE'S NOT OLD ENOUGH
TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF.

SO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF
MY DAUGHTER FIRST AND FOREMOST,

EVEN THOUGH IF THAT MEANS
PUTTING MYSELF AT A HALT.

AND I'M DISAPPOINTED
THAT I CAN'T DO THE PROGRAM

LIKE I WANT TO DO THE PROGRAM

'CAUSE I HAVE TO PUT MY DAUGHTER
AT THE FOREFRONT OF MY HEALTH.

SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA
WORK ON DOING.

ALL RIGHT, LEN,
IF YOU'RE TELLING ME

YOU'RE NOT COMING BACK DOWN
ANYTIME SOON

AND YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT,

THEN IT LOOKS LIKE
YOU'RE DONE WITH THE PROGRAM.

BUT IN THE MEANTIME, MAKE SURE
TO GO TO A DOCTOR THERE

TO KEEP TRACK OF YOUR HEALTH
ON A REGULAR BASIS,

AND IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTION
OR CHANGE YOUR MIND,

YOU CAN GIVE US A CALL,
OKAY?

YES, SIR.

OKAY, GOOD LUCK
AND TAKE CARE

OF YOUR FAMILY, AND JUST TRY
TO LOSE YOUR WEIGHT.

YES, SIR.
THANK YOU.

ALL RIGHT.
BYE, LEN.

BYE-BYE.

Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S UNFORTUNATE
THAT LEN HAS DECIDED

NOT TO MAKE HER HEALTH
A PRIORITY,

BECAUSE I DON'T THINK SHE FULLY
REALIZES HOW FAST HER TIME

IS GONNA RUN OUT IF SHE KEEPS
GOING DOWN THE PATH SHE'S ON.

BUT SHE HASN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET
PAST THE HURDLE IN HER MIND

WHERE SHE JUSTIFIES
HER RESPONSIBILITIES

BEING HER EXCUSE TO OVEREAT
AND CONTINUE LIKE THIS.

AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH
WE TALK TO HER TO TRY

AND HELP HER UNDERSTAND THAT,
SHE CHOOSES TO IGNORE IT

AND JUST KEEP SAYING
THE SAME THING.

SO THE NEXT STEP WITH HER

WOULD BE THERAPY
TO TRY AND BREAK THROUGH TO HER,

BUT THAT WON'T BE THE CASE
SINCE SHE DOESN'T FEEL

SHE CAN CONTINUE ON
WITH THE PROGRAM FOR NOW.

BUT HOPEFULLY THERE WILL COME
A POINT WHERE SHE WAKES UP

TO GET THE HELP SHE NEEDS,

AND IF SHE COMES BACK
TO US FOR THAT,

WE'LL BE HERE TO HELP HER AS
LONG AS SHE PUTS IN THE EFFORT

TO SHOW ME SHE'S SERIOUS

AND READY TO START MAKING
THE CHANGE SHE NEEDS.

BECAUSE THERE IS NO MAGIC FIX
THAT IS GONNA SOLVE

ANY OF HER PROBLEMS FOR HER
AND TURN HER SITUATION AROUND.

SHE HAS TO DO THAT
AND SHE HAS TO DO IT

BEFORE IT GETS TO A POINT
WHERE SOMETHING HAPPENS

AND IT IS TOO LATE FOR HER.

Leneatha:
CHECK, CHECK, CHECK, CHECK.

-CAN YOU HEAR ME?
-YEAH.

WE'RE GONNA
SING AFTER SHE GO.

ONE VERSE
OF "AMAZING GRACE."

♪ AMAZING GRACE ♪

♪ HOW SWEET THE SOUND ♪

♪ THAT SAVED A WRETCH... ♪

AFTER MY TALK WITH DR. NOW,

I DO UNDERSTAND WHAT HE'S SAYING
ABOUT MY HEALTH

AND HOW IMPORTANT WEIGHT LOSS
IS FOR ME.

BUT IF I CAN'T DEVOTE MYSELF
FULLY TO THE PROGRAM RIGHT NOW,

I KNOW THE BEST CHOICE FOR ME
IS TO TAKE A BREAK.

AT THIS MOMENT
TO MAKE THIS DECISION

IS HEARTBREAKING FOR ME,

BECAUSE TO TRY TO GET
THIS WEIGHT OFF

IS SOMETHING
THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO.

BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE
I'VE DISAPPOINTED MYSELF,

BECAUSE I KNOW I TRIED MY BEST
GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES.

BUT I DO FEEL LIKE
I PROBABLY DISAPPOINTED DR. NOW,

BECAUSE I CAN SEE IN HIS EYES
THAT HE TRULY SEES

THAT I'M SINCERE ABOUT
THIS JOURNEY

AND HOW HARD THAT I WANT IT.

BUT IT'S JUST, AT THIS MOMENT,
I CAN'T DO IT.

SO RIGHT NOW
I NEED ALL MY FOCUS TO BE

ON TAKING CARE OF MY DAUGHTER
AND HER SICKNESSES

AND MAKING SURE THAT I GET HER
TO HER APPOINTMENTS,

MAKING SURE THAT SHE'S OKAY,

AND THEN TRYING TO MAKE SURE
THAT I'M PROVIDING FOR HER.

AND I FEEL LIKE DOWN THE ROAD
THAT I CAN CONTINUE STICKING

WITH EATING RIGHT,
AND WHO KNOWS?

DOWN THE ROAD, I MAY NOT
EVEN NEED THE SLEEVE SURGERY --

I CAN JUST LOSE WEIGHT ON MY OWN
NATURALLY AND WORK OUT,

AND I CAN JUST SEE DR. NOW
FOR SKIN-LOSS SURGERY.

SO I'M NOT GIVING UP,
AND JUST BECAUSE

I CAN'T MAKE THAT JOURNEY
RIGHT NOW DOESN'T MEAN

I WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE
THAT JOURNEY IN MY LIFE.

BECAUSE I KNOW THAT
I DESERVE A HEALTHY LIFE

AND I'M PROMISING MYSELF
TO MAKE IT THERE ONE DAY,

WHERE ME AND KENLYN
CAN BOTH BE THERE,

TOGETHER, BOTH OF US HEALTHY.

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT.