All language subtitles for My 600-lb Life S07E08

Maja:
BECAUSE MY HEALTH IS SO BAD NOW,

I NEVER KNOW WHEN MY BODY'S
GONNA HIT ITS LIMIT,

AND IT'S ONLY GETTING WORSE.

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Woman: HE CAN'T STOP.
HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW.

Woman #2:
IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK

THAT AT ANY MOMENT
YOUR HEART CAN EXPLODE.

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Woman: I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN
TO LIVE YET.

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WHY ARE YOU
JUMPING ON MY CASE?

YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU'RE
YELLING LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT.

I KNOW THAT I'M DYING.

I KNOW THAT I'M NOT
GONNA MAKE IT.

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I [BLEEP] HATE YOU!

I [BLEEP] HATE YOU FOR
DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN!

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Maja:
WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING,

THE FIRST THING I DO
IS I THANK GOD THAT MY BODY

DIDN'T GIVE OUT
DURING THE NIGHT.

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BECAUSE MY HEALTH IS SO BAD NOW,

I NEVER KNOW WHEN MY BODY'S
GONNA HIT ITS LIMIT.

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AND IT'S ONLY GETTING WORSE.

AND THERE ARE A LOT OF DAYS

WHERE I DON'T EVEN THINK
I CAN PUSH MYSELF TO SHOWER.

BUT I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS
FOR ME TO KEEP MY BODY CLEAN,

BECAUSE AT MY SIZE, THERE'S
A VERY HIGH RISK OF INFECTION

BECAUSE OF ALL OF MY FAT
RUBBING AGAINST ITSELF.

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SO AS HARD AS IT IS TO DO THIS,
I JUST HAVE TO.

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BUT I CAN ONLY STAND
FOR AROUND 10 MINUTES

BEFORE IT GETS TO BE
TOO MUCH FOR ME.

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IF I WERE TO SLIP AND FALL
IN THE BATHTUB,

I COULD EASILY BREAK BONES,

AND THEN I WOULD NOT BE ABLE
TO GET OUT OF THE BATHROOM.

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BY THE TIME I'M DONE,

IT'S LIKE I'VE DONE, YOU KNOW,
A 20-, 25-MINUTE WORKOUT.

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I'M SO WIPED OUT AT THIS POINT
THAT ONCE I GET MY UNDERWEAR ON,

I HAVE TO HAVE MY BOYFRIEND,
CHRISTIAN,

WHO LIVES WITH ME,
HELP ME WITH MY SOCKS AND PANTS.

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IT'S EMBARRASSING
TO HAVE TO EVEN ASK.

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-CHRISTIAN.
-YEAH?

WILL YOU PLEASE
COME HELP ME?

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SORRY.

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THANKS, HONEY.

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SOON I'M GONNA GET SO BIG,
I'M GONNA BE BEDRIDDEN,

AND I KNOW THE ONLY WAY
TO PREVENT THAT

IS TO STOP EATING LIKE I DO.

BUT FOOD IS SOMETHING
I CONSTANTLY CRAVE,

AND I'M ASHAMED
ABOUT HOW MUCH I EAT.

WITH CHRISTIAN, HE DOESN'T KNOW
WHEN I GO TO GET FOOD

BECAUSE I GET DRESSED TO GO OUT
AND I TELL HIM IT'S FOR ERRANDS.

[ SIGHS ]

BUT IT'S A LIE, BECAUSE THE ONLY
THING I'M GOING TO DO IS EAT.

-I'LL BE BACK SOON.
-ALL RIGHT.

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FOOD FULFILLS ME IN A WAY
I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE.

THERE'S NOTHING IN MY LIFE

THAT CAN EVEN COME CLOSE
TO MATCHING IT.

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AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT WHAT
CHRISTIAN WOULD THINK OF ME

IF HE KNEW HOW MUCH
I ACTUALLY ATE.

SO I JUST TRY TO HIDE IT
AND GO OUT ON MY OWN.

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I'LL GO TO TWO, THREE,
FOUR PLACES,

BUT THE FIRST MEAL IS ALWAYS
THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE

BECAUSE I ALWAYS GET
WHAT I'M CRAVING FIRST.

CAN I TWO SAUSAGE BURRITOS,
A BACON-EGG-AND-CHEESE,

AND A SAUSAGE MUFFIN WITH EGG?

Woman: $9.31.
First window. Thank you.

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THANK YOU.

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THERE'S NO WORDS
FOR THAT FEELING

WHEN YOU TASTE
SOMETHING YOU LOVE.

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IT'S INCREDIBLE.

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BUT IT FEELS LIKE THAT MEAL
IS GONE IN A SECOND.

SO I MOVE ON TO THE NEXT THINGS
I'M CRAVING.

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CAN I GET
A BEEF-AND-CHEDDAR SANDWICH,

A JALAPEÑO ROAST-BEEF SLIDER,
AND YOUR ULTIMATE BLT SANDWICH?

Woman: We will be happy
to help you out at the window.

THANK YOU.

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-THANK YOU.
-HAVE A GOOD ONE.

YOU TOO.

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MY LIFE COMPLETELY REVOLVES
AROUND FOOD.

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WHEN I'M GOING TO GET IT,
HOW I'M GOING TO GET IT,

HOW MUCH I'M GOING TO GET --

IT NEVER STOPS.

AND IT'S BEEN THAT WAY
FOR SO LONG NOW,

BECAUSE FOOD HAS BEEN THE ONLY
RELIABLE CONSTANT IN MY LIFE.

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I'VE NEVER KNOWN A LIFE
OTHER BEING OVERWEIGHT,

AND THAT'S BECAUSE
FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN

A VERY IMPORTANT PART
OF MY LIFE.

MY PARENTS MOVED FROM SERBIA

WHEN MY MOM WAS PREGNANT
WITH ME, AND I WAS BORN HERE.

BUT A BIG PART
OF SERBIAN CULTURE IS FOOD.

IN OUR CULTURE, BASICALLY,
TO SHOW LOVE

IS TO HAVE A LOT OF FOOD
ON HAND,

AND IF A CHILD WANTED TO EAT,

YOU KNOW, YOU GAVE THEM
A PIECE OF FOOD

OR A PIECE OF MEAT
OR A PIECE OF SAUSAGE.

Maja: SO I ALWAYS HAD
SOMETHING TO EAT,

AND MY FAVORITE TIMES WERE

WHEN WE HAD THESE LARGE FAMILY
FEASTS WITH ALL MY RELATIVES.

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I LOVED THE FOOD AND
BEING AROUND ALL MY FAMILY,

BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET A CHANCE
TO SEE MANY OF THEM A LOT,

ESPECIALLY MY MOM.

MY MOM AND MY DAD GOT DIVORCED
WHEN I WAS 2,

AND BECAUSE MY MOM
HAD TO RAISE ME,

SHE STARTED
HAVING TO WORK A LOT.

AND SHE WASN'T ABLE
TO BE HOME MUCH,

SO I HAD TO STAY
WITH EITHER MY GRANDPARENTS

OR MY AUNT MARGARET.

Ana: BEING A SINGLE MOM,
I HAD TO GET TWO JOBS

IN ORDER TO SURVIVE.

THAT'S WHEN MY MOM
AND MY WHOLE FAMILY, YOU KNOW,

JUMPED IN AND HELPED ME OUT
WITH RAISING MAJA.

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Maja:
SO IT WAS A LOT FOR MY MOM.

AND SHE WOULD BE DRAINED
FROM WORKING TWO JOBS

AND NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY,

AND WHEN I WOULD GO
SPEND TIME WITH HER,

IT WAS NEVER AS ENJOYABLE

AS IT WAS WITH MY AUNT
AND MY GRANDPARENTS.

AND I WOULD TELL HER BEING
WITH HER JUST WASN'T FUN AT ALL,

SO THERE STARTED BEING THIS RIFT
IN OUR RELATIONSHIP,

AND SHE WAS ANGRY A LOT
OF THE TIME WITH HER SITUATION.

I NEVER FELT TRULY LOVED
BY MY MOM, AND THAT HURT.

IT HURT A LOT.

AND WHEN I ATE, I FORGOT
ABOUT HOW I FELT WITH MY MOM,

SO I STARTED EATING A LOT.

AND BY THE TIME I WAS 5,
I WAS ALREADY OVER 100 POUNDS.

BUT THAT WEIGHT GAIN

MADE MY RELATIONSHIP
WITH MY MOM EVEN WORSE,

BECAUSE SHE STARTED
CRITICIZING ME A LOT,

AND SHE WOULD CALL ME NAMES
AND SAY, "YOU'RE TOO FAT."

YOU KNOW, "YOU'RE TOO BIG.
YOU CAN'T HAVE THAT."

AND THEN IT WAS
LIKE PUNISHMENT TO ME.

SO ALL THAT JUST ENDED UP HAVING
THE OPPOSITE EFFECT ON ME,

AND I KEPT EATING EVEN MORE.

AS LONG AS MAJA'S BEEN
OVERWEIGHT, ANA'S ALWAYS LIKE,

"YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT.
YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

YOU NEED TO DO
SOMETHING ABOUT IT."

THE WAY SHE ENCOURAGED HER
WASN'T HELPFUL.

IT JUST SHUT HER DOWN. IT JUST
MADE HER MORE EMBARRASSED

AND MORE SELF-CONSCIOUS
OF HERSELF.

Maja: UNFORTUNATELY, MY DAD
WAS ALMOST AS BAD AS MY MOM

WHEN IT CAME TO HIS
DISAPPOINTMENT ABOUT MY WEIGHT

AND MAKING THAT KNOWN.

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MY DAD REMARRIED,

AND THEY PROCEEDED
TO HAVE TWO CHILDREN TOGETHER,

AND THEY WERE THE IDEAL FAMILY.

THEY ALL WERE THIN

AND BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT.

BUT THEY NEVER INCLUDED ME
IN A SINGLE FAMILY PHOTO.

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SO I KNEW WHAT THAT MEANT --
MY FATHER WAS EMBARRASSED BY ME.

BUT I DIDN'T HAVE TO DEAL
WITH THAT FOR TOO LONG...

BECAUSE HE GOT SICK OF
HAVING TO DRIVE THREE HOURS

TO PICK ME UP
FOR MY WEEKENDS WITH HIM,

SO HE DECIDED
HE WASN'T DOING IT ANYMORE.

SO MY FATHER STOPPED BEING
A BIG PART OF MY LIFE THEN.

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BUT I JUST TOOK ALL THAT PAIN
AND KEPT GOING TO FOOD

TO HELP ME FORGET IT.

AND WITH ALL THAT I WAS GAINING,

I ALMOST DOUBLED IN SIZE
OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS.

AND I WAS OVER 175 POUNDS
BY THE TIME I WAS 8.

EVENTUALLY, WHEN I WAS 10,
MY MOM GOT REMARRIED, TOO.

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AND MY STEPDAD, ZACH,

WOULD TRY TO MAKE THINGS
A LITTLE BETTER AND INTERVENE.

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BUT HE COULDN'T HELP
TAKE AWAY THE REJECTION

I STILL FELT FROM MY PARENTS.

FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING
THAT EVEN REMOTELY

HELPED ME FEEL BETTER.

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SO I KEPT GETTING BIGGER,
AND BY THE TIME I WAS 14

AND STARTED HIGH SCHOOL,
I WAS APPROACHING 300.

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BUT WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL

IS WHEN THINGS GOT EVEN WORSE
WITH MY MOTHER,

BECAUSE THE BIGGER I GOT,
THE MORE SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE

I WAS JUST THIS DISGUSTING THING
THAT REPULSED HER.

SO I JUST KEPT EATING
TO TRY AND BLOCK IT ALL OUT.

AND BY TIME
I GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL,

I WAS OVER 400 AT THAT POINT,

BUT I WAS STILL ABLE
TO STAY ACTIVE.

I MOVED OUT OF MY MOM'S HOUSE,

SO I HAD TO START PROVIDING
FOR MYSELF AND GET A JOB.

BUT FOR THE NEXT
FOUR TO FIVE YEARS,

I MOSTLY WORKED AT PLACES
WHERE I WAS ALWAYS AROUND FOOD,

LIKE A FAST-FOOD PLACE.

SO I JUST KEPT EATING
AND PUTTING ON WEIGHT

AND HIT 500 WHEN I WAS 24.

BUT I STILL MANAGED TO WORK
AND PROVIDE FOR MYSELF,

AND I EVEN STARTED DATING
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.

I WAS IN MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP
WITH A MAN,

AND WE FELL IN LOVE.

AND AFTER TWO YEARS, WE DECIDED

THAT WE WERE
GOING TO GET MARRIED,

AND IT WAS THE HAPPIEST TIME
OF MY LIFE.

BUT AS WE WERE PREPARING
FOR THE WEDDING,

MY WEIGHT BECAME AN ISSUE
IN A LOT OF WAYS.

FIRST, I WAS TOO BIG
FOR A WEDDING DRESS,

BUT THEN I LEARNED THAT I WAS
PROBABLY NEVER GONNA BE ABLE

TO HAVE KIDS AS LONG AS I WAS
AS BIG AS I WAS.

WHEN THE DOCTORS TOLD ME THAT,
IT WAS VERY DISHEARTENING

BECAUSE I COULDN'T HAVE THE
FAMILY THAT I WANTED TO HAVE.

AFTER BEING ENGAGED
FOR FOUR YEARS,

MY FIANCé DECIDED
NOT HAVING KIDS WAS TOO MUCH,

AND HE MOVED ON.

SO MY RELATIONSHIP ENDED
BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT.

AND IT DIDN'T HELP MUCH.

I WAS STILL GAINING
AND GETTING EVEN BIGGER.

I WAS 29 THEN
AND OVER 550 POUNDS,

SO MY HEALTH
WAS WORSE THAN EVER.

THE ONLY GOOD THING
THAT HAPPENED TO ME

AROUND THAT TIME IN MY LIFE

IS THAT MY MOM AND I STARTED
TO GET A LITTLE CLOSER.

SHE HAD HAD A STROKE,
AND, I THINK, FOR HER,

THAT HAD CHANGED
HER PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS.

SO IT ENDED UP OPENING A DOOR
FOR US TO FORM A RELATIONSHIP,

AND WE STILL SPENT TIME
TOGETHER.

BUT OTHER THAN THAT,
NOTHING ELSE

WAS GOING EVEN REMOTELY RIGHT
FOR ME THEN,

BUT I STILL KEPT TRYING
TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE.

SO I TRIED TO GET
BACK OUT THERE,

AND I GOT ON A DATING WEBSITE,
AND THAT'S WHEN I MET CHRISTIAN,

WHO'S BEEN THE BEST RELATIONSHIP
I'VE EVER HAD WITH ANYONE,

AND WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER
FOR ALMOST THREE YEARS NOW.

Christian: WHEN I MET MAJA,
FIRST THING I NOTICED

IS THAT SHE'S VERY KIND,
YOU KNOW, EASY TO TALK TO.

I DON'T JUDGE HER ON HER SIZE.

I JUDGE HER ON HER PERSONALITY
AND MENTALITY.

Maja: SHORTLY AFTER
WE STARTED DATING,

HE OFFERED FOR ME
TO MOVE IN WITH HIM.

SO I DID, AND MY RELATIONSHIP
WITH HIM HAS BEEN GREAT.

MY WEIGHT NEVER BOTHERED HIM.

HE SAYS IT'S NOT
A BIG DEAL TO HIM,

BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE IT IS.

SINCE I'VE BEEN WITH HIM,

MY HEALTH HAS JUST GOTTEN
WORSE AND WORSE,

AND I FEEL AWFUL

BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE
CHRISTIAN IMMEDIATELY

HAD TO BECOME A CARETAKER
IN A NUMBER OF WAYS.

I JUST CAN'T DO A LOT.
IT'S HARD.

HE REALLY WANTS CHILDREN,
AND I CAN'T GIVE HIM CHILDREN

BECAUSE OF MY SIZE AND WEIGHT.

AT THIS POINT,
I'M NOT SURE WHAT I WEIGH.

I HOPE I'M STILL
IN THE LOWER 600s,

BUT I KNOW
I'VE STILL BEEN GAINING

BECAUSE I'M STILL
EATING WORSE THAN EVER.

SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY
TO LOSE WEIGHT,

AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY
FOR CHRISTIAN AND I TO HAVE

ANY CHANCE AT A FUTURE TOGETHER.

MY DREAM FOR CHRISTIAN AND I
IS FOR ME TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT

SO WE CAN HAVE CHILDREN

SO WE HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY
TO PROVIDE A LIFE

THAT IS FULL OF LOVE

AND HAPPINESS AND TRUTH,

THAT THEY DON'T
HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT --

NOT APPRECIATED AND LOVED
FOR THEIR LITTLE BODIES.

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BUT I'M NOT EVEN LIVING
AT THIS POINT.

I KNOW I'M GETTING
TO MY BREAKING POINT

AND THAT CHRISTIAN IS, TOO.

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IT JUST SEEMS LIKE WE'RE
FIGHTING A LOT MORE NOW LATELY,

AND I FEEL LIKE HE'S GETTING
MORE AND MORE DISTANT

BECAUSE THERE'S NO INTIMACY
IN OUR RELATIONSHIP,

AND THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HIM
SCARES ME.

-HI.
-HEY.

-HOW ARE YOU?
-TIRED.

WANT TO TAKE A BREAK WITH ME
ON THE COUCH?

YEAH.

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Christian: I WANT TO HAVE
A FUTURE WITH MAJA.

I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN,
I WANT TO HAVE A FAMILY,

BUT IF THE WEIGHT GETS TOO MUCH
AND SHE DIED IN HER SLEEP

OR HAD A STOKE
OR A HEART ATTACK,

IT'D BE DEVASTATING TO ME.

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-YOU WANT TO EAT?
-I GOT A SNACK ON MY WAY HOME.

MAYBE WE CAN GO GET
ICE CREAM LATER.

ALL RIGHT.

Maja: WE KNOW
I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING NOW

BEFORE IT GETS TO BE
A VERY BAD PLACE FOR US.

SO CHRISTIAN DECIDED
TO REACH OUT

TO DR. NOW IN HOUSTON FOR ME,

BECAUSE HE'S ONE
OF THE ONLY DOCTORS

WILLING TO DO WEIGHT-LOSS
SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE.

DR. NOW MAY BE MY ONLY HOPE

TO GET ANY SORT OF HELP TO TRY
AND GET MY WEIGHT UNDER CONTROL

AND SAVE MY LIFE
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

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CHRISTIAN AND I ARE HEADED
TO HOUSTON TODAY,

BUT WE'RE BOTH REALLY NERVOUS
ABOUT THIS WHOLE TRIP,

SO WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING
FOR MOST OF THE MORNING.

OH, MY GOSH. MY LEG IS SO
SWOLLEN RIGHT NOW, CHRISTIAN.

DO YOU THINK THEY HAVE,
LIKE, URGENT CARE

AND STUFF DOWN THERE
I CAN GO TO?

MAYBE.
I'LL TAKE A LOOK ONLINE

TO SEE IF IT'S
A THIRD-WORLD COUNTRY.

I'M GETTING REALLY
STRESSED OUT, CHRISTIAN.

I DON'T NEED YOUR ATTITUDE.

I DON'T GIVE A [BLEEP].

Maja: I DON'T FEEL LIKE
HE'S EVEN TRYING TO UNDERSTAND

HOW HIGH MY ANXIETY IS.

MY MIND IS JUST RACING ABOUT
ALL THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG.

♪♪

OH, YOU KNOW ONE THING
I'M WORRIED ABOUT?

THOSE DAMN BEDBUGS.

ONE OF MY FRIENDS
RECENTLY WENT ON A TRIP,

AND WHEN SHE CAME BACK,
SHE HAD THEM.

NORMAL PEOPLE CAN GET THEM.

WELL, IF WE FIND ANY,
I'LL CALL THE FBI.

CHRISTIAN! STOP!

♪♪

I DON'T FEEL LIKE HE'S TAKING
ANY OF THIS SERIOUS AT ALL.

I'M JUST TRYING
TO KEEP AS CALM AS I CAN

AND WORK UP THE COURAGE
TO DO THIS.

SO A LITTLE HELP WOULD GO
A LONG WAY RIGHT NOW.

I NEED MY PHONE, PLEASE.

WHERE IS YOUR PHONE?

IN MY PURSE.
I NEED TO CHECK MY FLIGHT.

Christian:
WHERE'S YOUR PURSE?

CHRISTIAN! REALLY?
GET OFF YOUR PHONE...

I DON'T KNOW WHERE
YOUR PURSE IS.

...AND BE A PART OF THIS!

WHERE THE [BLEEP]
IS YOUR PURSE?

IT'S RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.
I LEFT IT RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.

YOUR PURSE
IS NOT RIGHT HERE.

[ SIGHS ] HERE.

♪♪

I REALLY WISH CHRISTIAN
WOULD TAKE THIS MORE SERIOUSLY.

COME PICK IT UP.

♪♪

I JUST HOPE THAT
CHRISTIAN STARTS TO GIVE

A LITTLE MORE SUPPORT,

BECAUSE IF HE DOESN'T,
THEN MY FEAR IS THAT THIS TRIP

TO HOUSTON
COULD BE TOO MUCH FOR ME,

EITHER PHYSICALLY
OR EMOTIONALLY,

AND I'M SO CLOSE TO NOT
BEING ABLE TO TAKE IT.

♪♪

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Maja: SO FAR, THIS TRIP
HAS BEEN ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE.

I'VE BEEN ON THIS PLANE
FOR ALMOST FOUR HOURS,

AND I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN.

WALKING THROUGH
THE WHOLE AIRPORT

TOOK ALMOST ALL MY ENERGY,

AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO RELAX
OR GET ANY REST ON THE PLANE

BECAUSE OF HOW CRAMPED
AND UNCOMFORTABLE THIS IS.

I JUST HOPE WE LAND SOON

AND IT DOESN'T TAKE
TOO LONG TO GET OFF.

CHRISTIAN HAD TO SIT IN THE BACK

'CAUSE WE COULDN'T
GET SEATS TOGETHER,

AND I HAVE TO HAVE HIS HELP.

♪♪

SO I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG
I'M GONNA HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIM,

AND I JUST WANT THIS TO BE OVER.

♪♪

[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ]

♪♪

HI.

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Maja:
I HAVE TO FIND A PLACE

I CAN SIT OR I CAN REST
COMFORTABLY FOR A MINUTE.

MY HIP IS IN SO MUCH PAIN,

AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO MAKE IT IF I CAN'T.

♪♪

OKAY.

♪♪

PEOPLE ARE JUST EVERYWHERE.

I FEEL LIKE A SPECTACLE
RIGHT NOW.

♪♪

AND IT'S ONLY GONNA GET WORSE
IF I END UP ON THE GROUND.

♪♪

ALL RIGHT.

-THE CHAIRS DON'T MOVE.
-HOLY [BLEEP]. THEY DON'T.

♪♪

OH, MY HIP.

[BLEEP]

IT HURTS SO BAD.

LET'S TAKE A BREAK.

♪♪

MY LEGS HURT.
THEY'RE SO SWOLLEN.

AND MY HIP IS OUT.

JUST TAKE A MINUTE.

IT'S UPSETTING ME THAT
I'M NOT BEING ABLE TO DO

WHAT I WANT TO DO,
LIKE JUST WALK TO THE DAMN THING

AND GET MY STUFF
AND GO ON WITH MY LIFE.

IT'S A BIG AIRPORT, MAJA.

IT'S SOMEWHERE NEW.
IT'S BIG. IT'S A LOT.

♪♪

ALL RIGHT. [ GROANS ]

♪♪

Maja: ALL THIS ACTIVITY'S
MORE THAN I'VE HAD IN YEARS,

SO IT'S A LOT FOR MY BODY.

I JUST NEED
TO GET THIS OVER WITH,

AND ONCE I GET TO THE HOTEL
AND HAVE A BED,

I CAN FINALLY LAY DOWN AND REST.

♪♪

[ MAN ON P.A.
SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ]

Maja:
THIS IS SO MUCH MORE WALKING

THAN I EVEN REALIZED
I WAS GONNA HAVE TO DO.

AND HOW FAR EVERYTHING IS,
IT'S REALLY FRUSTRATING,

'CAUSE I CALLED BOTH
THE AIRPORTS BEFORE I LEFT

AND ASKED THEM ABOUT
HOW FAR EVERYTHING WAS

AND HOW MUCH WALKING THERE WAS.

SO I'M UPSET RIGHT NOW
BECAUSE MY LEGS HURT

AND THE LADY LIED TO ME
ABOUT HOW FAR IT WAS,

BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE MADE
OTHER ARRANGEMENTS

FOR ME TO GET HERE
IF I KNEW HOW FAR IT WAS.

I UNDERSTAND
THAT I'M A BIG PERSON,

BUT IT DOESN'T GIVE PEOPLE
THE RIGHT TO LIE TO ME.

I JUST NEED TO GET
ALL THIS OVER WITH.

IF I COULD JUST
MAKE IT TO GET THE CAR,

IT SHOULD BE EASIER FROM THERE.

-THAT'S THE RENTAL-CAR SHUTTLE.
-OHH!

AND THANKFULLY THERE'S A BUS TO
TAKE US TO THE RENTAL-CAR PLACE.

DOES THE BUS GO DOWN?

OH, NO, THAT'S OKAY.
THAT'S OKAY.

-OKAY.
-OKAY.

ALL RIGHT. HERE WE GO.

♪♪

SO I'M HOPING I ONLY NEED
TO PUSH MYSELF A LITTLE FURTHER,

AND THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE
AND TRIP WILL BE OVER FOR TODAY.

BUT IT'S HARD TO DESCRIBE
JUST HOW MUCH PAIN I'M IN.

-THAT'S IT.
-YEAH.

♪♪

-GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?
-GOOD. WELCOME.

-YEAH, I HAVE ONE.
-YOUR LAST NAME?

RADANOVIC.

♪♪

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.

THEY DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT CAR
RESERVED FOR US.

THIS IS COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS.

I LITERALLY CANNOT BELIEVE
HOW MUCH WRONG INFORMATION

HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME ABOUT TODAY

AND HOW SO MANY PEOPLE
CAN SCREW UP.

WE HAD A LARGE S.U.V. RESERVED,

AND THEY SAY ALL THEY CAN
GIVE US IS A REGULAR-SIZE CAR.

BUT IT'S NOT AN ISSUE
ABOUT WHAT I WANT.

I MAY NOT EVEN BE ABLE TO FIT
IF IT'S TOO SMALL.

♪♪

OW.

-ARE YOU GONNA FIT?
-OW. OW! CHRISTIAN.

[BLEEP]. NO.

-I CAN'T GET UP.
-OKAY, HOLD ON.

-DON'T STRESS.
-[BLEEP] [BLEEP]

I'M SCARED. I'M SCARED.
PLEASE.

-DON'T BE SCARED.
-PLEASE.

-COME ON.
-HANG ON, HANG ON.

HANG ON.

♪♪

-HELP ME.
-WHAT --

JUST HELP, PLEASE.

OW! OW! I CAN'T.
HANG ON.

I CAN'T --
I HAVE TO GO DOWN.

I CAN'T.

[BLEEP]

-LET GO.
-OKAY.

♪♪

MY [BLEEP] LEG GOT STUCK.

♪♪

Maja:
THIS IS EVERYTHING I FEARED.

IF I CAN'T GET UP,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

MY [BLEEP] LEG GOT STUCK.

Maja:
I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW,

BUT I DON'T WANT
TO HAVE TO CALL FOR HELP

AND HAVE TO GET
THE FIRE DEPARTMENT HERE.

SO I JUST HOPE I CAN GET UP.

♪♪

-CHRISTIAN.
-YEAH, WHAT DO YOU NEED?

PLEASE. YES! YES.

OKAY?

OKAY. [ SOBBING ]

WHY ARE YOU CRYING?

'CAUSE THAT WAS REALLY HARD
AND EMBARRASSING.

[ SOBBING ]

YOU DON'T KNOW
HOW EMBARRASSING THAT WAS.

♪♪

I'M SORRY.

DON'T MAKE A SCENE.

THIS ISN'T ACCEPTABLE AT ALL
FOR THEM TO DO THIS TO ME.

I HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING
I CAN FIT IN,

OR WE'RE GONNA HAVE
A BIG PROBLEM.

♪♪

I'M ALREADY COMPLETELY WORN OUT,

AND IF I HAVE TO DO THIS
MUCH LONGER,

I'M GONNA PASS OUT.

THIS HAS TURNED OUT TO BE
THE WORST DAY EVER,

AND I JUST WANT IT
TO BE OVER WITH NOW.

Christian: WE NEED
SOMETHING BIGGER, SEAT-WISE.

LIKE A JEEP?

[ SNIFFLING ]

-NO REASON TO CRY.
-I'M UPSET.

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME.

WELL, I GOT TO USE THE RESTROOM.
JUST HANG OUT FOR A SECOND.

[ SOBBING ]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN.

MY LEGS ARE SO SWOLLEN,
AND I'M REALLY WORRIED

THAT MY LYMPHEDEMA
WILL SWELL EVEN MORE.

I FEEL LIKE MY JEANS
ARE ABOUT TO RIP OFF

BECAUSE THEY'RE SO TIGHT
ON MY LEGS.

I'M SCARED ABOUT MY LEGS,

AND I JUST DON'T WANT
TO GET ANOTHER INFECTION

AND END UP IN THE HOSPITAL.

♪♪

I'M SO SCARED.

♪♪

♪♪

THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE MOST
HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES OF MY LIFE,

AND I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER.

♪♪

♪♪

I JUST WANT TO GET
TO THE HOTEL NOW.

I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT EATING,

EVEN THOUGH I'VE HARDLY
HAD ANYTHING ALL DAY.

I NEED TO HAVE SOMEWHERE
WHERE I CAN LIE DOWN

AND ELEVATE MY LEGS

SO I CAN TRY TO GET
THE SWELLING TO GO DOWN.

WHEN I PUT TOO MUCH PRESSURE
ON MY LYMPHEDEMA,

IT CAN MAKE IT FLARE UP
AND SWELL A LOT.

AND IF THAT HAPPENS AND THE SKIN
STARTS TO CRACK AT ALL

OR IF I EVEN GET A SMALL CUT,

I CAN GET AN INFECTION
THAT CAN BE REALLY BAD FOR ME,

AND THE LAST THING I NEED
RIGHT NOW TO END THIS TRIP

IS TO END UP IN THE HOSPITAL
FOR MONTHS.

THAT WOULD BE JUST
THE PERFECT CRAPPY ENDING

TO THE WORST TRIP OF MY LIFE.

♪♪

THANK GOD WE'RE HERE.

IF I CAN JUST GET SOME REST
AND RECOVER SOME,

TOMORROW WILL HOPEFULLY
MAKE THIS ALL WORTH IT.

Christian: IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING
TO SEE MAJA STRUGGLE.

IT MAKES ME FEEL REALLY BAD.

BUT I'M HAPPY
THAT MAJA'S TAKING THE STEPS

AND GONNA GO SEE
DR. NOW TOMORROW.

♪♪

I NEED THIS OPPORTUNITY.

I CAN'T FALTER ON IT.

MM-HMM.

Maja: I JUST HOPE I CAN GET
THE HELP I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE.

♪♪

CHRISTIAN AND I ARE
HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW

FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT.

AFTER RESTING SOME,
I'M FEELING A LITTLE BETTER,

BUT NOT A LOT, TO BE HONEST.

♪♪

MY LYMPHEDEMA
IS STILL A LITTLE SWOLLEN,

SO I'M NERVOUS THAT MY SWELLING
WAS GONNA MAKE

MY WEIGH-IN HIGHER TODAY,

WITH ALL THE FOOD
I'M RETAINING IN IT.

SO I JUST HOPE DR. NOW
TAKES ME ON AS A PATIENT

AND THINKS I'M SOMEONE
HE CAN HELP.

BUT THERE'S ALWAYS THAT FEAR
THAT HE COULD FIND SOMETHING

THAT MEANS
HE CAN'T HELP ME.

MAJA RADANOVIC.

AND I'M ALSO NERVOUS
TO FIND OUT HOW MUCH I WEIGH.

IT'S BEEN YEARS
SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A SCALE,

AND I KNOW I'M AT LEAST
IN THE 600s.

I'M JUST HOPING IT'S NOT
A LOT MORE THAN THAT.

♪♪

IT'S REALLY EMBARRASSING
TO SEE A NUMBER LIKE THAT

AND TO KNOW
IT'S MY ACTUAL WEIGHT

AND TO REALIZE
JUST HOW OUT OF CONTROL

I LET MY WEIGHT GET

AND HOW MUCH FURTHER AWAY I AM
FROM BEING WHERE I NEED TO BE.

SO I FEEL AWFUL RIGHT NOW
AND LIKE SUCH A FAILURE.

AND I KNOW
I DESPERATELY NEED HELP,

BECAUSE MY BODY CAN'T TAKE
IT GETTING ANY WORSE.

[ KNOCK, DOOR OPENS ]

-HELLO.
-HI.

I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
HOW ARE YOU DOING?

-GOOD. HI. I'M MAJA.
-NICE TO MEET YOU.

-CHRISTIAN.
-NICE TO MEET YOU.

ALL RIGHT, SO, WHAT
BROUGHT YOU DOWN TO HOUSTON?

-YOU.
-ME?

OKAY. LET'S SEE WHAT
WE CAN DO FOR YOU.

SO, YOU ARE 33.
AND YOU WEIGH 689.

YES.

WHAT IS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT
YOU HAVE BEEN?

THIS WEIGHT.

-THIS IS IT?
-YES.

OKAY, THEN, HOW DO YOU THINK
YOU GOT TO THIS WEIGHT?

PROBABLY LARGE PORTIONS
AND NOT EXERCISING.

OKAY.
SO, YOU TELL ME THAT'S IT --

JUST LARGE PORTIONS
AND LIMITED ACTIVITY?

NOTHING ELSE?

-NO.
-OKAY.

SO, WHAT IS YOUR
EATING HABIT LOOK LIKE?

TWO TO THREE
LARGE MEALS A DAY.

-AND ANY SNACK IN BETWEEN?
-NO.

-WHAT DO YOU DRINK?
-WATER, JUICE, COFFEE.

SO, ACCORDING TO WHAT YOU
TELL ME, YOU DON'T SNACK,

YOU DON'T EAT JUNK FOOD,

YOU DON'T REALLY DRINK
ANYTHING BAD.

YOU JUST OVEREAT SOME.

AND SOMEHOW THAT GOT YOU UP
TO BEING ALMOST 700 POUNDS.

DOES THAT SOUND LIKE IT
MAKES MUCH SENSE TO YOU?

BECAUSE IT'S NOT MAKING
MUCH SENSE TO ME.

SO, PART OF YOUR PROBLEM
IS THAT YOU'RE USED TO LYING

ABOUT YOUR EATING HABITS.

BUT THE SCALE DOESN'T LIE,
SO YOU SHOULDN'T, EITHER.

THIS ISN'T GONNA WORK
IF YOU'RE NOT HONEST WITH ME.

GOT IT?
OKAY.

HOW ABOUT CHRISTIAN?

IS HE HELPING YOU
WITH EATING HABIT

OR IS HE ENABLING YOU,

OR HE'S SUPPORTING YOUR
WEIGHT LOSS OR WHAT?

OH, HE'S 100% SUPPORTIVE
OF ANY WEIGHT LOSS.

SO YOU'RE A CLOSET EATER, THEN,
IF HE'S NOT BRINGING YOU FOOD.

AND YOU LIE ABOUT WHAT YOU EAT,
AND THAT HAS TO STOP HERE TODAY

IF YOU'RE TRULY READY
TO GET HELP AND CHANGE.

OKAY.

SO, DO YOU THINK YOU'RE
CAPABLE OF BEING HONEST

ABOUT THESE THINGS?ABSOLUTELY.

ALL RIGHT, THEN.
NO MORE LYING.

IF YOU DO THIS,
WHAT IS YOUR GOAL?

I DON'T REALLY HAVE
A PHYSICAL NUMBER GOAL.

I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE
TO EXTEND MY LIFE

AND MY QUALITY OF LIFE
AND TO BE HEALTHY.

WELL, THAT IS A GOOD GOAL.

I'M GONNA START YOU
ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY,

HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET,

AND I'M GONNA GIVE YOU
A LIST OF FOOD

THAT YOU NEED TO AVOID,

AND THE ONES YOU LIKE TO SNEAK
ARE NO LONGER PART OF YOUR DIET.

AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE
AT LEAST 100 POUNDS

OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS.

YOU STICK WITH
THE 1,200 DIET,

YOU'RE GONNA LOSE THAT
IN NO TIME.

YOU THINK
YOU CAN DO THAT?

-I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST.
-OKAY.

WELL, YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND
IF YOU DON'T DO THIS

YOU'RE LIKELY
NOT GONNA LIVE FOR MORE

THAN TWO TO THREE YEARS
AT THIS POINT,

SO THIS IS
LIFE-AND-DEATH FOR YOU.

OKAY.

SO IF YOU'RE GONNA DO YOUR BEST,
I SUGGEST YOU TRY HARD.

-OKAY.
-OKAY.

YOU CAN DO THIS, MAJA, IF
YOU'RE REALLY READY TO CHANGE.

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO CHANGE
AND YOU EXPECT US

TO DO ALL THE WORK FOR YOU --
NEVER GONNA HAPPEN.

-MM-HMM.
-THAT MAKE SENSE TO YOU?

I HOPE SO.

NO, I'M READY TO PUT IN
THE WORK, DR. NOW.

OKAY. WELL, THAT CAN BE
THE IMPORTANT FACTOR, OKAY?

I HAVE A REALLY GOOD
SUPPORT SYSTEM.

CHRISTIAN -- HE'S THE ONE
WHO EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT,

LIKE, HAVING ME CONTACT YOU
AND REACH OUT FOR HELP.

WELL, THAT'S GREAT.

CHRISTIAN, MAKE SURE YOU
SUPPORT HER HOW SHE NEEDS.

YOU GOT IT?

-I GOT A QUESTION.
-YEAH?

WHAT'S THE MOST WEIGHT
YOU'VE SEEN SOMEONE LOSE

ON A 1,200-CALORIE
IN ONE MONTH?

-120 POUNDS.
-REALLY? IN ONE MONTH?

-YEAH.
-WOW.

-YEAH.
-THAT'S -- WOW.

BLOWN AWAY BY THAT.
THAT'S CRAZY. YEAH.

SO 100 POUNDS
IN TWO MONTHS

SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM
FOR YOU, MAJA.

YOU CAN LOSE THAT.

WILL THERE BE A SHOCK
TO HER SYSTEM?

LIKE, JUST IMMEDIATELY --
JUST --

LET'S SAY SHE JUST IMMEDIATELY
GOES IN 1,200-CALORIE.

THE SYSTEM IS PUSHED
TO THE LIMIT,

AND THEN WE'RE GONNA
TAKE A LOAD OFF OF IT.

-OH, ALL RIGHT. OKAY.
-OKAY?

-I GET IT. YEAH.
-IT'S IN REVERSE.

-YEAH.
-SO, STICK WITH THIS DIET, MAJA,

AND I'LL SEE YOU BOTH SOON,
ALL RIGHT?

-NICE TO MEET YOU.
-NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO.

-NICE TO MEET YOU.
-THANK YOU.

ALL RIGHT.

♪♪

I'M REALLY HOPING
THAT MAJA IS AS SERIOUS

ABOUT HER HEALTH AS SHE CLAIMS.

BUT I HAVE A LOT OF CONCERNS
ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.

SHE'S CLEARLY USED TO LYING
ABOUT WHAT SHE EATS,

AND IF SHE INTENDS
TO CONTINUE DOING THAT

AND TRIES TO LIE TO ME AGAIN,

THEN THERE WILL BE NO POINT
IN HER DOING THIS PROGRAM.

BUT HOPEFULLY
SHE WILL SURPRISE ME

WITH HER PROGRESS
WHEN SHE RETURNS.

BUT IF MAJA SETS HER MIND TO IT,

SHE'S MORE THAN CAPABLE
OF HITTING THIS GOAL

AND LOSING THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDS
OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS.

I'M HOPING HER BOYFRIEND,
CHRISTIAN,

IS ACTUALLY THE SUPPORT
SHE CLAIMS HE IS,

BUT HE SEEMED A LITTLE
DETACHED AND SKEPTICAL

THAT MAJA WOULD BE ABLE
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDS.

SO IF SHE HAS SOMEONE AT HOME
WHO DOESN'T BELIEVE IN HER,

IT'LL BE A WHOLE LOT HARDER
FOR HER TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS.

♪♪

Maja: I FEEL NUMB RIGHT NOW,
BECAUSE I WANT TO DO THIS

AND I'M WILLING TO TRY,

BUT MY FEAR IS THAT
THE GOAL IS JUST TOO BIG

AND THAT I CAN'T DO IT.

SO I FEEL DOOMED
BEFORE I EVEN START...

AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO
OR HOW HARD I TRY,

I'M JUST GONNA END UP
EATING MYSELF TO DEATH.

♪♪

♪♪

Maja:
IT'S BEEN A WEEK SINCE I HAD MY
FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW,

AND FOR THE FIRST FEW DAYS
AFTER I SAW HIM,

I WAS FREAKING OUT A BIT,
TRYING TO WRAP MY HEAD

AROUND THE 100-POUND
WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL

HE WANTS ME TO LOSE
OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS.

IT JUST SEEMED IMPOSSIBLE.

BUT AFTER WRESTLING WITH IT
A LITTLE BIT,

I DECIDED I'M GONNA WORK
AS HARD AS I CAN TO LOSE

AS MUCH AS I'M ABLE
BEFORE MY NEXT APPOINTMENT.

SO I'M EATING HEALTHY,

BUT IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE
EVEN THOUGH THESE AREN'T MEALS

THAT I'M EMBARRASSED ABOUT,
I'M SO USED TO EATING ALONE,

AND I'M WONDERING HOW HARD
IT'S GONNA BE TO CHANGE THAT.

♪♪

SO I'M PLANNING TO START
HAVING MEALS WITH CHRISTIAN.

BUT I THINK IT'S GONNA TAKE
A LITTLE TIME

FOR ME TO MAKE THAT ADJUSTMENT,

BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE ALL
THE CHANGES I NEED OVERNIGHT.

SO I MAY BE TAKING BABY STEPS,

BUT AT LEAST I'M MOVING
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

♪♪

WALKING THROUGH THE AIRPORT

SHOWED ME JUST HOW
OUT OF SHAPE I AM,

AND THAT'S DEFINITELY ONE THING
I WANT TO MAKE SURE I IMPROVE.

SO I'M GONNA GO START
TO DO WORKOUTS AT THE GYM

WITH THE GROUP OF LADIES
I'VE KNOWN FOR A LONG TIME.

SO, THAT'S EXCITING
BUT ALSO A LITTLE SCARY,

'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO PUSH
MYSELF TO MY LIMIT AGAIN.

SO I KNOW
I JUST NEED TO BE CAREFUL

AND NOT OVERDO IT RIGHT NOW.

♪♪

♪♪

-HELLO.
-HI, MAJA!

-HI! GOOD TO SEE YOU.
-YOU TOO.

THANKS FOR COMING.
THANKS FOR COMING.

-OF COURSE, OF COURSE.
-THANKS FOR COMING.

-YOU'RE WELCOME!
-THANKS FOR HAVING ME.

-ABSOLUTELY.
-I'M SO GLAD YOU MADE IT.

THANKS FOR COMING.
SO PROUD OF YOU.

-ALL RIGHT.
-LET'S GET INTO IT.

-IT'S BACK HERE.
-ALL RIGHT.

♪♪

Maja: THIS IS WAY OUTSIDE
MY COMFORT ZONE --

NOT JUST TO DO SOMETHING ACTIVE
LIKE THIS,

BUT TO BE DOING IT IN PUBLIC.

I THINK IT JUST GOES TO SHOW
HOW DETERMINED I AM

AND HOW FAR I'VE ALREADY COME.

Woman: ONE MORE, MAJA.
LET'S DO IT.

AND...TEN.

-YAY!
-GOOD JOB. GOOD.

THAT WAS GREAT.

-FOR REAL?
-YEP.

Maja: THIS ISN'T AS BAD
AS I SAW IT IN MY HEAD.

IT'S ENCOURAGING TO FEEL LIKE

I CAN DO THINGS
LIKE A NORMAL PERSON

AND TO SEE MY HARD WORK
PAYING OFF.

♪♪

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

YEAH, I NEED TO COOL DOWN.
LIKE, MY HEART'S REALLY RACING.

MM-HMM.

WHERE SHOULD I SIT?

YEAH, 'CAUSE I'M FEELING
NOT SO GOOD.

OKAY, LET'S GO.

I NEED TO SIT DOWN.

♪♪

I FEEL REALLY DIZZY.

I THINK I WENT TOO FAR,

'CAUSE IT FEELS LIKE
IT WAS TOO MUCH.

I THINK I'M GONNA PASS OUT.

♪♪

THIS IS REALLY DISCOURAGING NOW.

I WAS SO OPTIMISTIC.

AND I'M SCARED I DID SOMETHING
TO MYSELF,

BECAUSE I'M HAVING
TROUBLE BREATHING

AND MY HEAD IS KILLING ME.

I JUST WANTED TO WORK MY HARDEST

BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE A MONTH
LEFT UNTIL I SEE DR. NOW AGAIN,

AND I'M REALLY HOPING I DIDN'T
SERIOUSLY HURT MYSELF TODAY.

♪♪

♪♪

ME AND CHRISTIAN
ARE BACK IN HOUSTON

FOR MY FOLLOW-UP WITH DR. NOW,

AND IT'S HARD NOT TO BE
EXTREMELY NERVOUS RIGHT NOW,

BECAUSE SO MUCH DEPENDS
ON HOW THIS GOES TODAY

AND WHETHER I SUCCEEDED
OR FAILED.

♪♪

BUT THE HARDEST THING
IS THAT I HAVE NO IDEA

HOW I'VE DONE
THESE PAST TWO MONTHS.

I FEEL LIKE I'VE WORKED
AS HARD I POSSIBLY COULD.

I HAD SOME SETBACKS AT TIMES,

BUT I'VE ALMOST COMPLETELY
STUCK TO THE DIET.

SO WHATEVER HAPPENS TODAY,
I CAN AT LEAST FEEL GOOD

ABOUT KNOWING I DID MY BEST.

♪♪

MAJA RADANOVIC.

AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT,
MY WEIGHT WAS 689.

AND DR. NOW TOLD ME
I NEEDED TO LOSE 100 POUNDS

OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS.

SO IF I DID THAT, I'LL BE
AT LEAST DOWN TO 589 TODAY.

BUT IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME
SINCE I'VE BEEN IN THE 500s.

♪♪

♪♪

THAT'S AMAZING.

I'M IN DISBELIEF
THAT I ACTUALLY DID IT.

I KNOW IT'S NOT EXACTLY
100 POUNDS,

BUT LOSING THAT AMOUNT
HAS TO BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW

TO SEE HOW COMMITTED I AM.

SO I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW

♪♪

-HELLO.
-HI.

-HOW Y'ALL DOING?
-GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M GOOD, THANK YOU.
ALL RIGHT.

SO TODAY,
YOU ARE AT 596, HUH?

-YES.
-YOU'VE LOST 93 POUNDS.

NOT QUITE YOUR GOAL,
BUT NOT BAD.

AND THAT AMOUNT STILL SHOWS
SOME DEDICATION FROM YOU.

WAS THAT EASY?

NO. NOT AT ALL.
IT WAS VERY HARD.

WELL, DESPITE THAT,
YOU STUCK TO IT, HUH?

-MM-HMM.
-WHICH IS GOOD.

WITH 100 POUNDS OFF YOU,
CAN YOU TELL ANY IMPROVEMENT

IN YOUR BREATHING
OR WALKING OR ANYTHING?

YES. UM, WHEN I WALKED
IN THE AIRPORT,

I DIDN'T STOP THIS TIME.MM-HMM.

UM, AND I DEFINITELY
FEEL LIGHTER ON MY FEET,

AND I FEEL LIKE
I HAVE MORE STAMINA.

OKAY. GOOD.

SINCE YOU LOST
THAT WEIGHT,

WE'RE GONNA APPROVE YOU
FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

-SOUNDS GOOD.
-BUT TO DO THIS PROGRAM,

YOU WILL NEED TO MOVE DOWN
TO HOUSTON FOR AROUND A YEAR.

SO, ARE YOU READY
AND ABLE TO DO THAT?

-MM-HMM.
-THAT'S GOOD.

SO, IS HE GONNA MOVE
WITH YOU TO HOUSTON?

-YEP.
-MM-HMM.

HE DIDN'T SOUND
VERY SURE.

HE'S NOT EXCITED
FOR THE WEATHER.

UM, WHAT'S WRONG
WITH THE WEATHER?

IT'S VERY HUMID HERE.

-AND HOT.
-AND HOT.

YOU GET USED TO IT,
TO HEAT.

AND WE HAVE
AIR-CONDITIONING.

IT'S GONNA BE
A BIG ADJUSTMENT FOR US.

WELL, IT'S NOT FOREVER.

AND THIS IS TO SAVE
YOUR LIFE.

SO I THINK
THE SOONER YOU MOVE,

THE SOONER WE GET YOU
STARTED ON THE PROGRAM.

SO, ONCE YOU BOTH
MOVE DOWN HERE,

AND AS LONG AS YOU
KEEP MAKING GOOD PROGRESS,

WE WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH
YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

-I'M READY.
-ALL RIGHT. THAT'S GREAT.

I'M READY TO COMMIT
TO EVERYTHING, SO...

OKAY, WELL, DON'T TAKE A VICTORY
LAP AND START GOING BACK

AND EATING UNHEALTHY FOOD
AGAIN, OKAY?

-MM-HMM.
-ALL RIGHT.

GREAT. WELL, NICE
TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

NICE TO SEE YOU.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

AND YOU'VE DONE GREAT JOB
ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS.

-THANK YOU.
-SEE YOU SOON.

OKAY.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: MAJA'S PROGRESS
THESE PAST FEW MONTHS

IS A VERY PLEASANT SURPRISE.

BUT THE FACT SHE DIDN'T
QUITE MAKE IT TO HER GOAL

MEANS SHE STILL HAS
SOME HESITATION

ABOUT GIVING UP FOOD,
LIKE SHE NEEDS.

SO PSYCHOTHERAPY IS GOING TO BE
VERY IMPORTANT

TO START WITH HER
SOON AFTER SURGERY,

AND I STILL HAVE SOME CONCERN
ABOUT HER BOYFRIEND, CHRISTIAN.

I'M GETTING THE IMPRESSION
THAT HE THOUGHT MAJA WOULD FAIL,

AND HE WASN'T EXPECTING HER
TO MAKE IT TO THIS POINT.

AND IF THAT TURNS OUT TO BE
THE CASE, THEN MAJA'S SITUATION

AND HER MOVE DOWN
MAY GET MORE COMPLICATED.

BUT HOPEFULLY,
THERE WILL BE NO ISSUES

AND MAJA WILL BE ABLE
TO STAY ON TRACK.

Maja:
THIS HAS ALL JUST BLOWN MY MIND.

BUT TO BE APPROVED
FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

IS INCREDIBLE,
AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT.

SO ALL THE HARD WORK AND PAIN
HAS BEEN WORTH IT,

BECAUSE I DID IT.

I KNOW MOVING DOWN HERE
IS GONNA TAKE A LOT,

AND IT WON'T BE EASY TO DO.

BUT I'VE BEEN WAITING
MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS,

SO I'M READY TO DO WHATEVER
IT TAKES TO GET US DOWN HERE.

AND THE SOONER WE DO,
THE SOONER I CAN GET SURGERY

AND START THE WHOLE NEW LIFE
I'M WORKING TOWARDS.

AND I REALLY CAN'T WAIT.

♪♪

♪♪

Maja: CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE BEEN
WORKING VERY HARD

TO GET EVERYTHING IN PLACE
TO MAKE THE MOVE TO HOUSTON,

AND WE'RE FINALLY
HEADING THERE TODAY.

AND RIGHT NOW, WE'RE HEADED OVER
TO MY GRANDMA'S

SO WE CAN LOAD SOME STUFF
UP ON TOP OF THE CAR...

AND THEN SAY GOODBYE TO MY
GRANDMA AND MY MOM AND HEAD OUT.

I'M WORRIED SEEING THEM
RIGHT NOW

IS GONNA MAKE LEAVING
EVEN MORE EMOTIONAL FOR ME.

MY GRANDMA, MY AUNT,
AND MY MOM

HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE THAN
10 OR 15 MINUTES FROM ME.

SO LEAVING THEM IS A LOT HARDER

THAN I REALIZED
IT WAS GOING TO BE.

IT'S BEEN STRESSFUL.
FOR ME AND FOR CHRISTIAN, TOO.

WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT,

AND THAT HASN'T MADE IT
ANY EASIER, EITHER.

SO I'M JUST TRYING
TO HOLD IT TOGETHER,

AND I JUST WANT TO GET THE WHOLE
MOVE OVER WITH AT THIS POINT.

-HI.
-HI, HONEY.

HI, GUYS.

-HOW ARE YOU?
-WHERE'S CHRISTIAN?

-HE'S COMING.
-THERE HE IS.

-OH, OKAY.
-HI, CHRISTIAN.

SIT DOWN.

-WELL?
-WELL, WHAT'S GOING ON?

-WE'RE OUT OF THE APARTMENT.
-OH, THANK GOD.

CHRISTIAN,
YOU READY TO GO?

-YEAH.
-OKAY. THAT'S GOOD, THEN.

GOT IT ALL SQUARED UP, PACKED
AWAY, GOT THE CAR PACKED.

I HAD THAT STUFF IN STORAGE.
I HAVE THE ROOF RACKS.

WELL, I WISH YOU THE BEST.

♪♪

MAJA GOING TO HOUSTON
IS DEFINITELY GONNA BE

VERY DIFFICULT ON ALL OF US.

IT'S GONNA BE THE FIRST TIME
OUR FAMILY'S GONNA BE APART.

BUT I KNOW SHE'S GOING TO
GET THE HELP THAT SHE NEEDS,

SO I'M VERY HAPPY FOR HER.

-DRIVE CAREFUL, YOU GUYS.
-YEAH.

-OKAY. YEAH.
-ALL RIGHT.

YEAH, WE GOT TO PUT
THE ROOF RACK ON NOW.

Ana: OKAY.

-ALL RIGHT.
-GO DO YOUR THING.

Maja: I NEVER REALLY KNOW WHAT
TO EXPECT WHEN I SEE MY MOM.

OUR RELATIONSHIP HAS GOTTEN
BETTER OVER THE YEARS,

AND SHE'S ACTUALLY
GIVEN CHRISTIAN AND ME

SOME MONEY
TO MAKE THIS MOVE HAPPEN.

SO I'M THANKFUL FOR HER SUPPORT,
BUT I STILL NEVER KNOW

IF SHE'S GONNA SAY SOMETHING
TO ME TO HURT MY FEELINGS

AND WE'RE JUST GONNA
END UP FIGHTING.

AND WITH HOW EMOTIONAL I AM,

THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN
TOO MUCH FOR ME.

♪♪

Ana: HONEY? I DON'T THINK
I WANT TO STAY TILL THE END,

BECAUSE THEN
I'LL BE A BLUBBERING FOOL.

WE'RE ALMOST DONE!

HONEY, YOU STILL GOT STUFF
IN THE HOUSE,

AND IT'S GONNA
TAKE A WHILE,

SO I WANTED TO SAY
MY GOODBYES NOW.

I CANNOT ACCEPT THEM
RIGHT NOW. I AM BUSY.

I HATE DOING
MULTIPLE THINGS.

I MEAN, I HAVE TO FOCUS ON THIS,
AND YOU'RE DOING THIS NOW.

YES, I'M DOING IT NOW BECAUSE,
THAT WAY, YOU'RE NOT GONNA CRY.

AND YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY, AND
YOU'RE GONNA GET THE BEST HELP,

AND I WILL SEE YOU
IN A FEW MONTHS.

AND YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.
STOP.

I CAN'T DO THIS
RIGHT NOW, MOM!

-OKAY. IT'S ALL RIGHT.
-I REALLY CAN'T.

I'M LEAVING.
[BLEEP] YOU.

BECAUSE ALL SHE --
SHE CAN'T LEAVE!

THIS IS NOT THE PLAN!
WE DIDN'T PLAN THIS, MOM!

MAJA, IT DOESN'T -- NOT
EVERYTHING HAS TO BE PLANNED.

-THIS IS NOT THE TIME!
-LIFE IS NOT PLANNED.

WE'RE DOING THIS NOW.

[ SPEAKING
FOREIGN LANGUAGE ]

Ana: LIFE IS NOT PLANNED.
THINGS HAPPEN.

MOM, STOP TALKING.
JUST STOP TALKING.

YOU KNOW, THIS IS WHY
WE HAVE FAMILY FIGHTS.

IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU.
YOU WON'T CHANGE.

YOU'RE THE ONE
MAKING IT TOUGH.

-NO, YOU --
-YOU ARE.

YOU'RE ALWAYS SAYING YOU HAVE
TO WORK AND IT'S ABOUT MONEY.

Ana: DO YOU NEED MONEY?

MOM, YOU CAN'T JUST WAIT FIVE
MINUTES FOR US TO GET THIS DONE?

[ SIGHS ] MAJA. NO.
I GOT TO GO BACK TO WORK.

IT'S TIME TO GO TO WORK.
SO YOU'LL BE OKAY.

-BE A BIG GIRL.
-OKAY.

YOU'RE GONNA BE
MY BIG GIRL.

OKAY.

CHRISTIAN?

IT'S AN ADVENTURE
THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE ON.

Christian: YEP.

THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR TAKING CARE OF MAJA.

-YEP.
-TIME TO GO TO WORK.

-I GOT BOTH JOBS TODAY.
-ALL RIGHT.

-SO...
-ALL RIGHT. BYE, MOM.

BYE, HONEY.

Maja: I SHOULD JUST
KNOW BETTER AT THIS POINT.

THIS TYPE OF STUFF
JUST MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I DID

WHEN I WAS A KID
AND ATE TO FEEL BETTER,

SO THIS IS THE LAST THING
I NEED.

-WE'RE ALL PACKED UP.
-OKAY.

♪♪

-WE'RE ALL DONE.
-OKAY. IF YOU'RE READY.

-YEAH.
-GOODBYE.

BYE, BAKA.

[ SOBBING ]

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

[ Crying ]
I AM SAD BECAUSE SHE'S GOING.

♪♪

I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA
BE THERE, BUT SHE NEED TO GO.

♪♪

I LOVE YOU.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

-GOOD LUCK.
-OKAY.

-GOODBYE.
-BYE.

BYE, BAKA.

[ MAJA SOBBING ]

♪♪

Maja: THIS IS SO MUCH HARDER
THAN I REALIZED IT WOULD BE.

-BYE.
-BYE.

♪♪

BUT I KNOW THIS
IS THE RIGHT CHOICE,

BECAUSE I CAN'T
KEEP GOING LIKE THIS.

EVEN RIGHT NOW,
WITH HOW I'M STRUGGLING

WITH WANTING TO GO EAT SOMETHING
I SHOULDN'T JUST TO FEEL BETTER,

SHOWS ME HOW MUCH
I NEED TO DO THIS

AND HOW IMPORTANT IT IS
I GET SURGERY.

THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE
TO GET HELP,

AND I HAVE TO TAKE IT.

♪♪

♪♪

Maja: CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE
MADE IT TO HOUSTON.

♪♪

IT TOOK US THREE DAYS
TO GET HERE.

AND TO MAKE THAT TIME
DRIVING 2,300 MILES,

I PRETTY MUCH DROVE
ALL DAY NONSTOP.

SO I'M REALLY SORE
AT THIS POINT.

BUT I JUST WANTED TO GET HERE
AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE.

BUT AFTER THIS TRIP,
I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED

BECAUSE IT WAS REALLY HARD
TO STICK TO MY DIET

WHILE TRAVELING,

AND I ATE A LOT OF FAST FOOD
I SHOULDN'T HAVE.

IT WAS ALREADY GETTING HARDER,

BUT THE FIGHT WITH MY MOM
RIGHT BEFORE I LEFT

WAS NOT WHAT I NEEDED
BEFORE DOING SOMETHING

AS STRESSFUL AND SCARY
AS MOVING TO A WHOLE OTHER CITY

HALFWAY ACROSS THE COUNTRY.

AND TO MAKE IT ALL EVEN WORSE,

ME AND CHRISTIAN
HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT --

THE WHOLE WAY DOWN, PRACTICALLY.

I DON'T THINK
HE'S BEING VERY SUPPORTIVE,

AND HE KEEPS MAKING COMMENTS
ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING.

BUT RIGHT NOW MY PLAN IS TO GET
SETTLED INTO OUR NEW APARTMENT.

WE HAVE A COUCH AND BED
BEING DELIVERED

SO WE HAVE PLACES TO REST,

AND WE DON'T HAVE A LOT WITH US.

Christian: SOME DELIVERIES?
ALL RIGHT.

Maja: BUT ONCE I CAN REST
AND COLLECT MYSELF,

I'M JUST GONNA TAKE TWO OR THREE
WEEKS TO FOCUS ON THE DIET,

TO MAKE SURE I CAN UNDO
WHATEVER PROGRESS

I MAY HAVE MESSED UP RECENTLY.

♪♪

THEN I'LL CALL DR. NOW
AND LET HIM KNOW

WE'RE HERE AND I'M READY.

I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING
TO RISK LOSING MY SURGERY,

SO, THIS WAY, I'LL BE READY
FOR THE WEIGH-IN

AND TO SHOW DR. NOW
THAT I'M STILL WORKING HARD.

I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE
TO HOLD OUT

AND KEEP RESISTING
ALL THE TEMPTATION UNTIL THEN,

BECAUSE IT'S GETTING SO HARD.

OHH! OH, MAN!

♪♪

CHRISTIAN AND I ARE HEADED
TO SEE DR. NOW AT HIS CLINIC.

AFTER STRUGGLING
WITH THE DIET SOME,

MY PLAN WAS TO TRY AND WORK
REALLY HARD FOR A FEW WEEKS

TO LOSE AS MUCH AS I COULD.

BUT IT HASN'T GONE
EXACTLY AS I HOPED.

IT'S JUST BEEN A LOT HARDER.

ME AND CHRISTIAN
HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT.

HE'S NOT HAPPY HERE,

AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND

WHY HE CAN'T FOCUS
ON WHY WE'RE DOING THIS

AND SUPPORT ME
LIKE I NEED RIGHT NOW.

BUT HE FINALLY TOLD ME
THE TRUTH.

HE NEVER THOUGHT
I WOULD MAKE IT THIS FAR

AND WE'D HAVE TO BE DOWN HERE
FOR A YEAR.

♪♪

SO HE WANTS TO MOVE BACK,
AND I FEEL DEVASTATED

BECAUSE IT'S LIKE
HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE

THAT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE.

SO WHEN DR. NOW CALLED
TO CHECK ON ME,

I TOLD HIM WE'D BEEN STRUGGLING

AND I'VE HAD A HARD TIME
WITH THE DIET.

SO HE SAID HE NEEDED
TO CHECK MY WEIGHT NOW.

BUT I'M SO SCARED
ABOUT GETTING ON THE SCALE

AND THAT I MIGHT HAVE
MESSED EVERYTHING UP.

♪♪

MAJA RADANOVIC.

♪♪

AT MY LAST DOCTOR'S VISIT,
I LOST 93 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS

TO GET DOWN TO 596.

AND WHEN DR. NOW
APPROVED ME FOR SURGERY,

HE JUST TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED
TO KEEP MAKING GOOD PROGRESS,

BUT HE DIDN'T GIVE ME A GOAL.

SO I REALLY HOPE I'VE DONE THAT.

BUT I AM SO SCARED TO FIND OUT.

♪♪

AT LEAST IT'S A LOSS,

BUT IT'S NOT ANYWHERE NEAR
WHAT I WAS DOING.

SO I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS GOING
TO BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW OR NOT.

BUT DESPITE
ALL I'M GOING THROUGH

AND THE STRESS OF EVERYTHING,
I'VE STILL MADE SOME PROGRESS.

SO I FEEL LIKE
THIS SHOULD BE ENOUGH

TO SHOW DR. NOW
THAT I'M READY TO GET SURGERY.

[ KNOCK, DOOR OPENS ]

-HELLO.
-HELLO.

-HOW Y'ALL DOING?
-GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M DOING GOOD.

BUT, MAJA, YOU WERE CONCERNED
YOU WEREN'T DOING SO WELL

AND THAT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS
MAY HAVE SLIPPED

BECAUSE OF HOW
YOU HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING.

AND THAT LOOKS TO BE
EXACTLY THE CASE.

YOU'RE DOWN TO 587 TODAY,
SO IN ONE MONTH,

YOU ONLY LOST 9 POUNDS.MM-HMM.

SO YOU HAVE GONE RIGHT
BACK TO YOUR OLD WAYS.

SO, WHAT HAPPENED?

IT'S JUST BEEN
A REALLY HARD TIME.

CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE
BEEN FIGHTING A LOT.

AND GETTING DOWN HERE, DRIVING,
WAS JUST REALLY STRESSFUL.

BUT I'VE BEEN TRYING
TO EAT AS HEALTHY AS I CAN.

WELL, I UNDERSTAND
THINGS ARE HARD.

BUT IF YOU USE THAT
AS AN EXCUSE TO OVEREAT,

THEN YOU'RE NEVER GONNA LOSE
WEIGHT, BECAUSE LIFE GETS HARD.

SO AS SYMPATHETIC AS I AM
TO THAT, IT'S STILL NO EXCUSE.

SO AT THIS TIME, I'M CANCELING
YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

BUT IF YOU WANT TO SHOW ME

THAT YOU'RE NOT GONNA
MAKE ANY MORE EXCUSES

AND YOU'RE READY
TO WORK HARD AGAIN,

THEN I WANT YOU TO LOSE
50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH.

OKAY.

IF YOU DO THAT,
I WILL APPROVE YOU AGAIN

AND WE WILL MOVE AHEAD.

BUT AT THIS POINT,

WITH HOW YOU'RE JUSTIFYING
YOUR LACK OF PROGRESS,

YOU'RE NO LONGER
IN A GOOD PLACE TO DO THAT.

GOT IT? YOU GONNA KEEP
WORKING TO CHANGE THAT?

-YES.
-I HOPE SO.

AND I HOPE YOU'RE GETTING
ALL THE SUPPORT YOU
NEED FROM CHRISTIAN.

HOW ABOUT IT? ARE YOU
THERE FOR HER, CHRISTIAN?

HE'S HERE.

I'D RATHER
HEAR IT FROM HIM.

YOU DON'T WANT TO ANSWER
MY QUESTION, HUH?

ALL RIGHT. IT LOOKS LIKE YOU
BOTH HAVE A LOT TO FIGURE OUT

IF YOU'RE GONNA
GET BACK ON TRACK, MAJA.

AND I SUGGEST YOU TWO TAKE THIS
FAR MORE SERIOUSLY,

BECAUSE YOU ARE
AT THE CROSSROADS.

AND HOW YOU HANDLE IT ALL
RIGHT NOW

WILL DETERMINE THE COURSE
OF REST OF YOUR LIFE.

ANY QUESTIONS?
ALL RIGHT.

I HOPE TO SEE YOU BOTH
IN A MONTH.

AND 50 POUNDS LIGHTER,
MAJA.

OKAY.

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING
BEFORE THEN, LET ME KNOW.

-THANK YOU.
-ALL RIGHT.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan:
I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED THAT MAJA
FELL BACK INTO HER OLD HABITS

AND THAT SHE'S BACK TO USING
FOOD TO COPE WITH HER EMOTIONS

SO QUICKLY
AND AFTER DOING SO WELL.

IT'S CLEAR SHE'S STRUGGLING WITH
A NUMBER OF THINGS RIGHT NOW,

BUT I THINK THE ISSUES
BETWEEN HER AND CHRISTIAN

ARE WHAT'S AFFECTING HER
THE MOST.

HE IS CLEARLY NOT VERY ENGAGED

AND SEEMS TO HAVE NO DESIRE
TO BE HERE WITH HER RIGHT NOW.

SO THEIR RELATIONSHIP
IS EXTREMELY STRAINED.

BUT AS HARD
AS THAT MAY BE FOR HER,

MAJA IS GOING TO
HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE.

WHETHER SHE'S GONNA DO
WHAT SHE NEEDS

TO CONTINUE MOVING FORWARD,

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS
IN HER LIFE,

AND HOW SHE CHOOSES TO RESPOND

WILL DETERMINE HOW SHE COMES OUT
ON THE OTHER END OF THIS.

♪♪

I HAVE TO LOSE
MORE WEIGHT NOW.

Christian: MM-HMM.

AND NOW I HAVE A WHOLE
NOTHER MONTH OF [BLEEP]

I HAVE TO DO.

THIS IS YOUR FAULT!

"OH, YOU HAVEN'T
LOST THAT MUCH."

YEAH, BECAUSE OF THE STRESS
OF YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS!

[ CRYING ]

I'M ABOUT TO
[BLEEP] MELT DOWN!

DR. NOW ASKED YOU
A SIMPLE QUESTION.

I'VE ANSWERED QUESTIONS
IN THE PAST.

I CAN TAKE A DAY OFF.

I [BLEEP] HATE YOU!

I [BLEEP] HATE YOU FOR
DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN!

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ANSWER
THE [BLEEP] QUESTIONS?!

UGH!

YOU'RE COSTING ME
MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

AND YOU'RE RUINING
EVERYTHING!

NO.

DAMN IT, CHRISTIAN!
STOP! STOP.

♪♪

I'LL ANSWER QUESTIONS
ON ANOTHER DAY, BUT I JUST --

I HAVE THE RIGHT
TO NOT ANSWER QUESTIONS.

NO, YOU DO NOT HAVE THE [BLEEP]
RIGHT WHEN IT COMES TO MY LIFE!

-OKAY.
-MOM!

CHRISTIAN'S [BLEEP] EVERYTHING
UP IN THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE!

WELL...

NO! MOM! MOM!

[ SOBBING ] MOM.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

HE'S [BLEEP] WITH MY LIFE.

YES, MOM.
HE'S -- YES.

HERE. MY MOM WANTS
TO TALK TO YOU.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK
TO YOUR MOM.

TALK TO MY MOM,
CHRISTIAN, PLEASE.

-NO.
-PLEASE TALK TO MY MOM.

-UNH-UNH.
-CHRISTIAN.

MOM, I'M PUTTING IT ON --
IT'S ON SPEAKERPHONE.

DO NOT HANG UP
ON MY MOM!

OKAY.

NO. NOBODY HELPED ME
WHEN I WAS ON THE STREET.

YOU GOT TO DO IT
ON YOUR OWN.

NO.
THIS IS QUITE NICE.

-IT'S YOUR FAULT.
-I APPRECIATE THIS.

YOU'VE DONE THIS, CHRISTIAN.
NOBODY ELSE.

YOU KNOW WHAT?
WHATEVER.

Maja: I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE
DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN!

♪♪

♪♪

Maja:
I'M IN TOTAL SHOCK RIGHT NOW.

I WAS ON MY WAY
TO THE GROCERY STORE,

AND I GOT A TEXT FROM CHRISTIAN
THAT JUST SAID HE WAS LEAVING.

AND HIS MOM GOT HIM
A BUS TICKET BACK,

AND HE'S LEAVING
TOMORROW MORNING.

SO I JUST WANT TO SEE HIM
AND TALK TO HIM.

♪♪

I DON'T KNOW
WHY HE'S DOING THIS

AND TEARING DOWN EVERYTHING
WE'VE BEEN WORKING HARD FOR.

I KNOW WE'VE BEEN
FIGHTING A LOT,

BUT I NEVER THOUGHT
HE'D GO AS FAR AS ABANDON ME.

SO I DON'T SEE
HOW HE COULD BE SERIOUS

OR HOW HE WOULD BE WILLING TO
RUIN EVERYTHING AT THIS POINT.

AND I'M JUST TRYING
NOT TO FREAK OUT,

BUT I'M COMPLETELY HEARTBROKEN
AND DEVASTATED.

IT WAS NOT PART OF OUR PLAN.

I DON'T KNOW WHY
HE'S CHOSEN TO DO THIS.

BUT I AM STILL HOPING
THAT IF WE CAN JUST TALK,

WE COULD WORK THIS OUT

AND THAT HE'S NOT
REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THIS.

BUT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN
OR WHAT TO TALK ABOUT.

♪♪

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE
THIS IS HAPPENING.

♪♪

SO, YOU TEXT ME THAT
YOU'RE LEAVING TOMORROW.

YES, I'M LEAVING TOMORROW.
I GOT THE TICKET.

AND WHY ARE YOU
CHOOSING TO LEAVE

BEFORE I GOT THE SURGERY DATE,
TWO WEEKS BEFORE RENT'S DUE,

BEFORE ANY OF MY FAMILY
MEMBERS ARE HERE?

AND YOU'RE ABANDONING ME.

WHY ARE YOU CHOOSING TO DO
ALL OF THAT RIGHT NOW?

-IS YOUR STUFF PACKED?
-MM-HMM.

AND YOU'RE DOING THIS?

YEP.

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?

-I DID.
-NO, YOU DIDN'T.

YOU TOLD ME IN A TEXT MESSAGE
WHEN I WAS GONE FROM THE HOUSE.

WHY DID YOU NOT TELL ME,
LIKE, BEFORE?

CHRISTIAN.

CHRISTIAN. CHRISTIAN.

PLEASE PAY ATTENTION
TO OUR CONVERSATION.

CHRISTIAN.

SO, ARE YOU GONNA TALK?

NOT REALLY.

YOU DON'T HAVE THAT OPTION.
YOU DON'T HAVE THAT LUXURY.

THIS IS PART OF OUR LIFE.

ACTUALLY, I DO.

-NO, YOU DON'T, CHRISTIAN.
-YEAH, I DO.

CHRISTIAN, STOP.

CHRISTIAN?

PLEASE.

CHRISTIAN, YOU NEED --

YOU OWE ME AN EXPLANATION
OF WHAT'S GOING ON.

♪♪

♪♪

IT'S BEEN A MONTH
SINCE CHRISTIAN LEFT,

AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO PICK UP
THE PIECES OF MY LIFE

SINCE THEN.

I HAVE NOT COME TO TERMS YET
WITH THE SITUATION.

IT'S STILL VERY FRESH,

AND I HAVE NOT BEEN
FOLLOWING MY DIET.

IT'S JUST BEEN TOO MUCH FOR ME,

AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO DO IT.

AT THIS POINT, IT'S BEEN
TWO MONTHS SINCE I SAW DR. NOW.

I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD
TO GETTING ON THE SCALE

AND HEARING WHAT DR. NOW
IS GONNA SAY.

AND I HAVEN'T TOLD HIM
WHAT'S HAPPENED

BETWEEN ME AND CHRISTIAN,

BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO GET ANY OF MY FAMILY

TO COME DOWN YET TO HELP ME.

MY AUNT SAID
SHE'S TRYING TO COME DOWN.

BUT I'M WORRIED IF HE FINDS OUT,

HE'LL SAY I CAN'T DO
THE PROGRAM WITHOUT SUPPORT.

I'VE GIVEN UP EVERYTHING
TO DO THIS,

SO I CAN'T LOSE THIS CHANCE.

♪♪

MAJA.

AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT,
I WAS AT 587.

AND DR. NOW
WANTED ME TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

OVER THE NEXT MONTH.

BUT IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS,
SO I'M NOT SURE IF THAT MEANS

HE'S EXPECTING ME
TO LOSE DOUBLE THAT.

BUT IF IT'S JUST THE 50 POUNDS,

IT WOULD BE MEAN
I WOULD NEED TO BE AT 537.

BUT I DOUBT I DID THAT.

♪♪

♪♪

I FIGURED I WAS GAINING AGAIN,

SO THAT'S NOT MUCH
OF A SURPRISE.

I DON'T THINK DR. NOW IS GONNA
BE HAPPY ABOUT IT, THOUGH.

BUT HOPEFULLY,
HE'LL BE UNDERSTANDING

OF WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH
AND WON'T BE TOO MAD.

-HELLO.
-HELLO.

-HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
-GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M DOING ALL RIGHT.

BUT I'M CONCERNED
ABOUT YOU

BECAUSE YOU MANAGED TO GAIN
5 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH.

-MM-HMM.
-SO WHAT HAPPENED?

WELL, I'VE BEEN
EMOTIONALLY EATING.

I NOTICE CHRISTIAN
ISN'T HERE.

DOES THAT HAVE SOMETHING
TO DO WITH ALL THIS?

YES. HE DECIDED
TO LEAVE ME.

I'M VERY SORRY
TO HEAR THAT.

SO YOU'RE BY YOURSELF
IN HOUSTON?

YEAH.

WELL, I KNOW THIS
MUST BE HARD FOR YOU.

YEAH.

SO, HOW ARE YOU
DOING NOW?

-NOT VERY WELL.
-OKAY.

SO I TAKE IT YOU'RE
STILL USING FOOD TO COPE.

WELL, I WANTED
TO FEEL BETTER.

SO I WENT TO SUSHI,
AND I WENT TO PIZZA,

AND I WENT TO PASTA.

SO, DID FOOD FIX
YOUR SITUATION?

NO.

SO WHAT'S THE POINT, GOING BACK
TO WHAT YOU KNOW IS HURTING YOU,

WHEN YOU HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY
TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND?

THERE WAS NONE.

I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY TO JUST
SAY NO TO YOUR OLD HABITS.

BUT YOU DO HAVE OTHER OPTIONS
EVERY SINGLE TIME

TO MAKE THE CHOICE
NOT TO GIVE IN.

YOU CAN CALL US
IF YOU NEED OUR HELP,

AND WE'LL GIVE IT TO YOU.OKAY.

YOU ALSO HAVE AN OPTION
TO MAKE A CHOICE

THAT DOESN'T DAMAGE
YOUR HEALTH.

SO NONE OF THIS
IS AN ACCEPTABLE EXCUSE.

[ Crying ] I'M SORRY.

BUT I AM JUST...

♪♪

...STUPID.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
AS SORRY AS I AM ABOUT
WHAT MAJA IS GOING THROUGH,

MY CONCERN RIGHT NOW
IS THAT HER CRYING

HAS LITTLE TO DO WITH ANY REGRET
OVER THE CHOICES SHE'S MAKING.

IT'S SIMILAR TO
WHEN YOU CATCH A KID

WITH THEIR HAND
IN THE COOKIE JAR.

THEY MAY CRY, BUT IT IS
BECAUSE THEY'RE UPSET

ABOUT THEIR SITUATION AND THE
CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR CHOICES.

BUT THERE IS NO REGRET

OVER THE ACTUAL CHOICES
THAT LED THEM THERE.

SO RIGHT NOW
I DON'T SEE ANY EVIDENCE

THAT MAJA ACTUALLY WANTS
TO CHANGE HER BEHAVIOR.

ALL RIGHT, MAJA, WHEN YOU
TELL ME YOU WANT TO CHANGE,

ARE YOU TELLING ME
THE TRUTH?

ALL RIGHT. THEN I'LL
GIVE YOU ONE MORE CHANCE.

AND I'M GONNA SET YOU UP
TO SEE A THERAPIST, OKAY,

TO SEE IF THEY
CAN HELP YOU.

PSYCHOTHERAPY ISN'T GONNA
TAKE AWAY ALL THE PAIN

AND STRUGGLE OF WHAT YOU'RE
GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW.

BUT IF YOU'RE
TELLING ME THE TRUTH

AND YOU'RE TRULY
READY TO CHANGE,

THEN THEY CAN START
TO GIVE YOU THE TOOLS

TO HELP YOU FIND
HEALTHIER WAYS TO COPE.

THIS IS A PROCESS YOU'RE
GOING TO NEED TO DO ANYWAY,

BUT WE'LL START IT NOW
AND SEE HOW YOU DO.

BUT IF DON'T START MAKING THE
PROGRESS YOU NEED AFTER THIS,

THEN I'LL KNOW THAT YOU WEREN'T
REALLY TELLING ME THE TRUTH

ABOUT WANTING TO CHANGE.

YOU UNDERSTAND?
YEAH.

SO THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE.
AND YOUR GOAL IS STILL THE SAME.

LOSE 50 POUNDS
OVER THE NEXT MONTH

IF YOU WANT TO SHOW ME
YOU'RE SERIOUS

AND READY
TO DO THIS AGAIN.

YOU HAVE TO DECIDE IF THIS
IS WORTH YOUR LIFE OR NOT.

OKAY.

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING OR YOU'RE
STRUGGLING, CALL ME, OKAY?

-OKAY.
-I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS.

I HAVE ALREADY SEEN
WHAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF,

AND SO HAVE YOU.

-YES.
-ALL RIGHT.

-I'LL SEE YOU IN A MONTH.
-OKAY.

ALL RIGHT.

♪♪

HOPEFULLY, MAJA
IS TELLING ME THE TRUTH

ABOUT BEING READY TO DO
WHAT SHE NEEDS

AND WILL TAKE THIS
OPPORTUNITY WITH THERAPY

TO START MAKING BETTER CHOICES

WITH WAYS TO DEAL AND COPE
WITH HER EMOTIONS.

BUT IF SHE DOESN'T START DOING

WHAT SHE NEEDS
TO GET BACK ON TRACK

AND CONTINUES TO CHOOSE
SELF-DESTRUCTIVE WAYS,

THEN THERE WILL BE NOTHING MORE
WE CAN DO FOR HER.

♪♪

Maja: I'M THANKFUL DR. NOW WANTS
TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS.

BUT I STILL DON'T THINK
HE UNDERSTANDS

HOW HARD THIS ALL IS FOR ME,

AND FOOD IS THE ONLY THING
HELPING ME HOLD IT TOGETHER,

WITHOUT COMPLETELY LOSING IT
AND FALLING APART.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Maja: I'M HEADED
TO MY FIRST APPOINTMENT

WITH THE THERAPIST DR. NOW
WANTS ME TO START SEEING.

I'M NOT SURE
WHAT TO REALLY EXPECT,

BUT MY EXPECTATIONS ARE LOW.

I HAVE NO PROBLEMS DOING THIS,

AND I ACTUALLY THINK IT'LL BE
GOOD TO TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL.

SO I'M FINE WITH DOING THIS,
BUT WHAT I DON'T REALLY SEE IS

HOW THIS IS GONNA MAKE MUCH
OF A DIFFERENCE RIGHT NOW.

♪♪

-HELLO, MAJA?
-HI. I'M MAJA.

-HI. NICE TO MEET YOU.
-NICE TO MEET YOU.

I'M LOLA. WHENEVER YOU'RE READY,
YOU CAN GO RIGHT ON IN

AND HAVE A SEAT ANYWHERE
YOU'RE COMFORTABLE.

THANK YOU.

OKAY.

SO, MAJA, IT'S SO NICE
TO MEET YOU.

IT'S A PLEASURE
TO MEET YOU.

SO, TELL ME A LITTLE BIT
ABOUT WHERE YOU'RE FROM.

WELL, I'M FROM PORTLAND, OREGON,
BORN AND RAISED.

-MM-HMM.
-UM, MY FAMILY IS SERBIAN.

AND I'M FIRST-GENERATION
AMERICAN.

MM-HMM.
WHAT BRINGS YOU IN TODAY?

WELL, I MOVED TO TEXAS TO BE
A PART OF A WEIGHT-LOSS PROGRAM.

AND I MOVED DOWN HERE

WITH MY SPOUSE, PARTNER,
BOYFRIEND, WHATEVER.

-AND WHAT'S HIS NAME?
-HIS NAME IS CHRISTIAN.

AND HE JUST COULD NOT
TAKE THE PRESSURE,

AND HE DECIDED IT WOULD BE BEST
FOR HIM TO, UH, GO BACK HOME.

SO, MAJA,
WHAT'D YOU FEEL LIKE

IN THE INSTANT WHEN CHRISTIAN
MADE THE DECISION TO LEAVE YOU?

I FELT...

ANNIHILATED AND CRUSHED

THAT SOMEBODY I LOVE
WOULD ABANDON ME LIKE THAT.

AND IT DID LEAD ME
TO BE DEPRESSED,

AND I DID FEED MY DEPRESSION
WITH FOOD.

AND THEN WHEN I HAD A DOCTOR'S
APPOINTMENT, I GAINED WEIGHT.

SO, MAJA, IT SOUNDS LIKE
I'M HEARING YOU SAY

THAT FOLLOWING
CHRISTIAN'S EXIT,

YOU MINDFULLY
AND WILLFULLY DECIDED

THAT YOU WOULD ENGAGE
IN A BINGE.

-MM-HMM.
-OKAY.

SO, MAJA,
I'M INTERESTED TO KNOW,

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR
BEHAVIOR IN ADULT RELATIONSHIPS?

THERE'S A LOT OF MOMENTS
WHERE I'M NOT PROUD OF THE FACT

THAT I CAN BE
VERBALLY ABUSIVE.

AND THAT ALSO -- THAT STEMS,
I GUESS, FROM MY CHILDHOOD.

SO, MAJA, WHEN YOU WERE A CHILD,
HOW WERE YOU TREATED?

THAT'S A LOT TO GET INTO.

UM, I HAVE A LOT OF ISSUES
WITH BOTH OF MY PARENTS.

UM...

I HATE MY DAD.

[ SNIFFLES ]

SO, "HATE" IS
A PRETTY STRONG WORD.

MM-HMM.

AND SO FOR YOU TO HAVE
THAT DISTINCTION,

WHERE DOES THAT EMOTION COME
FROM IN RELATION TO YOUR DAD?

HE WOULD COMMENT,
"YOU'RE GETTING BIGGER."

IT'S LIKE, "WHAT IS
YOUR GRANDMA DOING?

ALL SHE DOES IS FEED YOU."

AND AS TIME PROGRESSES,

IT'S LIKE, "ARE YOU
GONNA FIT IN A CAR?"

YOU KNOW, THE QUESTIONING
OR THE COMMENTARY FROM HIM

WAS JUST...

BRUTAL?

BECAUSE IT SOUNDS BRUTAL.

AND IT'S REALLY DAMAGING

FOR ANYONE TO BE RIDICULED
ABOUT THEIR WEIGHT,

AND IT DIMINISHES
YOUR SELF-WORTH.

AND SO HERE'S WHAT
I WOULD SUGGEST.

YOU NEED TO HAVE A CONVERSATION,
CALMLY AND RESPECTFULLY,

WHERE YOU TELL YOUR FATHER
HOW HIS MALTREATMENT

HAS IMPACTED YOUR LIFE
OVER THE YEARS...

AND OUTLINE FOR HIM

THE TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP
THAT YOU DESIRE MOVING FORWARD.

I'M GONNA STRUGGLE WITH THIS
BECAUSE IT'S LIKE,

WHAT BENEFIT WOULD I HAVE
WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP?

AND YOU DON'T
HAVE TO KNOW THE ANSWER

TO THAT QUESTION
RIGHT NOW.

WHAT YOU WANT
THE CONVERSATION FOR

IS SO THAT YOU CAN DEVELOP
YOUR SELF-ESTEEM

AND DEVELOP A NEW WAY OF SAYING,
"THIS IS WHAT I'M WORTH."

DO YOU FEEL LIKE THAT'S
SOMETHING YOU CAN DO?

YEAH? OKAY.

SO, MAJA, FOR HOMEWORK,
I WOULD LIKE TO SUGGEST

THINKING OF WAYS TO REPLACE
EATING WITH DOING SOMETHING ELSE

TO REPLENISH YOUR SELF-WORTH
AND BUILD YOURSELF.

WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS
ABOUT THAT?

I CAN HANDLE THAT.

-YOU CAN HANDLE IT?
-MM-HMM.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO GIVE
BACK TO MY COMMUNITY, YOU KNOW?

-SO YOU WANT TO BE A VOLUNTEER?
-MM-HMM.

MAJA, I THINK THAT'S
AN EXCELLENT IDEA.

SO IF IT'S SOMETHING
YOU'VE ALWAYS WISHED FOR,

YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF
TO EMBARK ON THAT.

BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY WAY
YOU'RE EVER GOING TO KNOW PEACE,

IS IF YOU LEARN
TO LISTEN TO YOUR HEART.

MAJA, I FEEL
REALLY ENCOURAGED.

♪♪

-REALLY?
-YEAH.

I FEEL REALLY ENCOURAGED
YOU'RE GOING TO BE JUST FINE.

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

I'M REALLY GLAD THAT YOU CAME
TO SPEAK WITH ME TODAY.

MM-HMM. ME TOO.

-SO, THANK YOU.
-THANK YOU.

♪♪

Maja: THAT WAS BETTER THAN
I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE.

SHE HAD A LOT OF GOOD INSIGHTS.

BUT THE PATH SHE BASICALLY
DESCRIBES IS SCARY,

BECAUSE I'D HAVE TO DO THINGS
THAT I'VE NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED.

AND TO BE HONEST,
I'M JUST NOT SURE I'M READY

OR CAPABLE
OF SOME OF THAT RIGHT NOW.

BUT IT WAS ALL
VERY ENLIGHTENING,

AND I DO WANT TO GET
TO WHERE I NEED

AND CHANGE THE DESTRUCTIVE
PATTERNS I KNOW I HAVE.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I'M WILLING
TO DO THAT RIGHT NOW.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Maja: I'VE BEEN THINKING
ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS

LOLA AND I TALKED ABOUT,
AND IT'S OVERWHELMING.

BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I'M OPEN
TO THE POSSIBILITY

OF BEING ABLE TO CHANGE,

THE THINGS I NEED TO DO
TO GET THERE ARE TOO HARD FOR ME

AND ARE THINGS I'VE NEVER
EVEN CONSIDERED DOING

IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

BECAUSE WHAT LOLA SAID LEADS
TO ME HAVING TO TALK TO PEOPLE

WHO HAVE HURT ME IN WAYS
I'VE USED FOOD TO DEAL WITH.

♪♪

AND I'VE DECIDED
IT WOULD BE TOO MUCH FOR ME,

BECAUSE I'M NOT CAPABLE OF THAT
RIGHT NOW.

♪♪

IT JUST MAY TAKE TIME
FOR ME TO GET TO A PLACE

WHERE I CAN TAKE
SOME OF THESE STEPS.

SO I'VE BEEN THINKING
A LOT ABOUT IT,

AND I JUST NEED TO FOCUS
ON MYSELF RIGHT NOW.

AND THAT MEANS I'VE DECIDED
I'M GONNA TAKE A BREAK

FROM DR. NOW'S PROGRAM.

I TALKED TO DR. NOW,
AND HE WAS NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT.

BUT I'M GOING TO
KEEP WORKING HARD,

AND I TOLD HIM
I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP.

THAT'S NOT WHAT THIS MEANS.

I STILL WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT
TO SAVE MY LIFE.

I JUST KNOW I CAN'T DO
WHAT'S EXPECTED OF ME,

AND I NEED TO FIND A WAY
TO GET TO THAT POINT.

THE FIRST BIG STEP I'M TAKING
IS DOING VOLUNTEER WORK.

♪♪

-HI.
-THANKS FOR HAVING ME.

OH, I'M THRILLED
TO HAVE YOU HERE.

-YEAH.
-YOU BROUGHT PRIZES.

THAT'S AWESOME.
THE KIDS LOVE THEM.

THE PRIZE BASKET'S
OVER HERE,

AND WE CAN JUST KIND OF
TOSS THEM IN THERE.

THE BIGGEST THING LOLA SAID
THAT RESONATED WITH ME

IS OWING IT TO MYSELF
TO LISTEN TO MY HEART

ABOUT HOW I'VE ALWAYS
WANTED TO GO DO THINGS

THAT GIVE BACK
TO THE COMMUNITY I'M IN.

LOLA SAID I CAN FIND PEACE
BY LOOKING OUTSIDE MYSELF

AND DOING STUFF FOR OTHERS,
AND I WANT TO DO THAT.

I'D LOVE TO HELP BLOW UP
BALLOONS AND TIE THEM.

GO FOR IT.
HERE'S MS. TRISH.

HI, TRISHA. I'M MAJA.
NICE TO MEET YOU.

SO I'VE BEEN VOLUNTEERING
TO HELP OUT

AT A LOT OF THINGS IN MY AREA,

AND TODAY
I'M GOING TO HELP A GROUP

THAT THROWS BIRTHDAY PARTIES
FOR KIDS WHO ARE HOMELESS.

AND I'M REALLY EXCITED
ABOUT THAT,

BECAUSE WHEN I SEE
OTHER PEOPLE'S STRUGGLES,

NOT ONLY DO MINE FEEL SMALLER,

BUT I ALSO REALIZE
THAT I'M NOT AS ALONE AS I FEEL.

♪♪

THIS IS YOUR WAY,
YOU SAID, OF GIVING BACK?

-YEAH.
-THAT'S AWESOME.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE
KIDS HAPPY, YOU KNOW?

YEAH.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE
MY OWN KIDS, BUT I CAN'T.

-RIGHT.
-AND I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO,

LIKE, FOSTERING
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

BUT MY SPOUSE
LEFT ME, SO...

-OKAY. OH.
-SO NOW I'M SINGLE.

OKAY.

Maja: IN A WAY,
WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER,

NO MATTER WHAT WE'RE FACING.

SO SERVING OTHERS LIKE THIS

HAS BEEN AN INCREDIBLE
AND WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE,

AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S HELPED ME
IN A LOT OF WAYS.

BUT I KNOW I STILL HAVE
A LONG WAYS TO GO

BEFORE I'M READY TO TAKE
OTHER STEPS LIKE LOLA SAID.

I KNOW I CAN GET THERE,

AND I PLAN TO
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

BUT RIGHT NOW I NEED TO FOCUS

ON DOING WHAT I NEED
ON THE INSIDE.

AND I DON'T WANT
TO HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT

WHETHER I'VE SUCCEEDED
OR FAILED

AND IF I'M GONNA HAVE A GOOD
WEIGH-IN FOR DR. NOW OR NOT.

THIS ISN'T HOW I SAW IT
IN MY HEAD --

MY LIFE AND WHERE IT WAS GOING.

NONE OF THIS TURNED OUT
LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD.

MOVING TO HOUSTON WAS NOT
JUST TO GET MY LIFE BACK FOR ME,

BUT TO HAVE A FUTURE
AND A LIFE WITH CHRISTIAN.

BUT THAT'S NOT HAPPENING,
EITHER.

SO NONE OF THIS HAS TURNED OUT
LIKE I PICTURED IT.

THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR HAVING ME, YOU GUYS.

IT WAS WONDERFUL.
THANK YOU AGAIN.

-IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU.
-THANK YOU.

Woman: WE REALLY
APPRECIATE YOU COMING.

YES, IT WAS WONDERFUL.
THANKS, GUYS.

-THANK YOU.
-THANK YOU.

-GOOD LUCK TO YOU, HONEY.
-THANKS.

♪♪

Maja: I KNOW I HAVE
A LONG WAYS TO GO STILL.

AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE
WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME,

EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT
WHAT I PICTURED IT WOULD BE.

BUT I'M READY TO KEEP WORKING
AS HARD AS I HAVE TO

TO GET TO WHERE I NEED,

SO I HAVE TO DO THIS

AND MAKE IT THERE,
NO MATTER WHAT.

SO EVEN THOUGH I DECIDED
THAT IT'S NOT RIGHT

FOR ME TO BE IN DR. NOW'S
PROGRAM AT THIS POINT,

THIS IS NOT THE END.

I'M NOT GONNA REST
UNTIL I GET THERE,

BUT IT JUST MAY TAKE TIME
TO ULTIMATELY GET THERE.

BUT I AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP THIS
WHOLE PROCESS OF LOSING WEIGHT,

BECAUSE I KNOW MY WHOLE LIFE
DEPENDS ON IT.