All language subtitles for My 600-lb Life S07E02

Brianne: I CAN FEEL
MY BODY GETTING CLOSE

TO ITS BREAKING POINT,
SO I AM JUST WAITING TO DIE.

♪♪

Man: AT THIS POINT,
I'M KILLING MYSELF.

Woman: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK
THAT AT ANY MOMENT,

YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE.

♪♪

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Woman: [ Voice breaks ]
I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN
TO LIVE YET.

♪♪

[ CRYING ] WHY ARE YOU
JUMPING ON MY CASE?

YOU ARE WAILING AND YELLING,
LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT.

Woman:
I KNOW THAT I'M DYING.

I KNOW THAT
I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT.

♪♪

Brianne: IT FEELS LIKE MY WHOLE
WORLD IS JUST FALLING APART,

AND I'M NOT SURE THAT
I'M GONNA SURVIVE MUCH LONGER.

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[ GRUNTS ]

[ SIGHS ]

Brianne: IT'S SO HARD TO FORCE
MYSELF TO GET UP IN THE MORNINGS

BECAUSE WHEN I FIRST WAKE UP,
I FEEL MISERABLE

AND I FEEL DEPRESSED

BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS
A STRUGGLE NOW.

AND IT'S, LIKE,
HERE COMES ALL THE PAIN.

HERE COMES ALL THE EXHAUSTION.

BUT I KNOW IT'S JUST THE START
OF THE MISERY

TO GET THROUGH THE DAY.

AND EVERY DAY,
IT GETS HARDER TO BREATHE,

HARDER TO MOVE, HARDER TO LIVE.

I HATE IT.

WHEN I THINK ABOUT HOW BAD
THINGS HAVE GOTTEN,

IT JUST DEPRESSES ME,

BECAUSE MY WEIGHT ISN'T
JUST DESTROYING MY LIFE.

IT'S AFFECTING THE PEOPLE
THAT I LOVE

BECAUSE OF THE BURDEN
IT PUTS ON THEM.

HEY, BABE?

YES, HON?

Brianne: ESPECIALLY MY HUSBAND
BECAUSE HE HAS TO HELP ME

DO JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING.

OKAY.

Brianne: RICK'S OLDEST DAUGHTER
LIVES WITH US, TOO,

BUT I DON'T WANT MY WEIGHT
TO MESS UP HER LIFE

AND HER OPPORTUNITIES,
SO RICK IS THE ONE

WHO HAS THE BURDEN OF CARING
FOR ME ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.

BECAUSE I CAN BARELY MAKE IT
A FEW FEET

JUST TO GET SOMEWHERE
WHERE I CAN SIT DOWN.

GO.
-READY?

Brianne:
IT'S ABSOLUTELY HUMILIATING

TO HAVE TO RELY ON SOMEONE ELSE
JUST TO DO BASIC THINGS,

LIKE GETTING UP
OR USING THE BATHROOM.

BUT THE SCARIEST PART
IS SITTING IN SOMEWHERE SMALL

AND REALIZING THAT I'M ALMOST
TOO BIG TO FIT IN THOSE PLACES.

[ CRYING ] AND I'M WORRIED
THAT ONE DAY,

I'M GONNA GO TO THE BATHROOM,

AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO FIT IN THE TOILET.

BUT I HONESTLY DIDN'T EVER THINK
I WOULD BE THIS BIG.

I THINK I'VE EVEN
SAID TO MYSELF BEFORE

THAT IF I EVER GOT THAT BIG,
EITHER I'D KILL MYSELF

OR I JUST --
IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN.

HEY, BABE?

YEAH?

OKAY. COME ON OUT.

Brianne: AND I'M ASHAMED

OF HAVING TO HAVE MY HUSBAND
HELP ME WIPE.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE LET
MY WEIGHT DESTROY MY LIFE.

AND IT'S ALSO PUTTING A STRAIN
ON MY MARRIAGE,

BECAUSE I KNOW THIS ISN'T WHAT
RICK THOUGHT HIS LIFE WOULD BE

WHEN HE MARRIED ME.

Rick: IT'S DIFFICULT TO HAVE
TO TAKE CARE

OF BRIANNE
DAY IN AND DAY OUT,

BUT IT REALLY KILLS ME TO SEE
HER IN THIS CONDITION SHE'S IN.

SO I GET VERY FRUSTRATED
AT TIMES

BECAUSE SHE SEEMS LIKE
SHE'S ONLY GETTING WORSE

INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GET BETTER.

ALL RIGHT, YOU'RE GOOD.

AND IT'S LIKE I'M TAKING CARE
OF A CHILD.

♪♪

Brianne:
I'M NOT EVEN LIVING ANYMORE

BECAUSE THE SIMPLEST THINGS
COMPLETELY WIPE ME OUT.

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AND ON DAYS THAT I TAKE
SHOWERS, IT'S LIKE,

I FEEL LIKE
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE.

IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF ME,
AND AFTERWARDS,

I'M SO TIRED AND SORE
BECAUSE IT'S A LOT ON MY BODY

TO TRY TO BE ON MY FEET
FOR THAT LONG.

♪♪

I CAN'T JUST GO IN THE SHOWER,
DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO, GET OUT.

I HATE TO STOP AND TAKE BREAKS.

SO I HAVE A CHAIR THAT I SIT ON,
BUT I ALSO LEAN ON IT.

BECAUSE THERE'S JUST
SO MUCH WEIGHT

PULLING DOWN ON MY BODY
THAT IT GETS REALLY PAINFUL.

AND MY BACK FEELS LIKE
IT'S GONNA GIVE OUT.

♪♪

BUT WHEN IT GETS TO THE POINT
WHEN I CAN'T STAND ANY LONGER,

I KNOW I HAVE TO HURRY.

♪♪

SO I TRY TO CLEAN MYSELF
QUICKLY.

♪♪

BY THE TIME I'M DONE,
I JUST HAVE TO LAY DOWN...

...BECAUSE I FEEL EXHAUSTED
IN EVERY WAY.

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AND ALL I WANT IS
TO GET ALL OF THIS OVER WITH

SO I CAN FINALLY EAT SOMETHING.

BUT I HAVE A LYMPHOMA MASS
UNDER MY STOMACH

THAT'S GOTTEN REALLY BIG
THAT WEIGHS A LOT, AND IT HURTS.

IT GETS IN THE WAY ALL THE TIME,
AND I HATE IT.

BUT IT RUBS UNDER MY STOMACH
AND CAUSES ME THE MOST PAIN,

SO I HAVE TO HAVE MOISTURIZER
PUT IN BETWEEN MY FOLDS,

OR I'LL STILL CHAFE AND BLISTER
IN THOSE SPOTS.

SO RICK HAS TO HELP ME AGAIN.

SO MY LIFE IS VERY EXHAUSTING,
AND IT'S JUST HARD FOR ME.

♪♪

I'M REALLY MISERABLE.

READY?

OKAY.

AT THIS POINT, FOOD IS
THE ONLY REASON I GET UP.

♪♪

AND I KNOW AS SOON AS I MAKE IT
TO MY RECLINER,

I DON'T HAVE TO GET UP
OR DO ANYTHING ELSE

FOR THE REST OF THE DAY,

AND I CAN FINALLY REST
MY BODY AND EAT...

[ GRUNTS ]

...BECAUSE RICK BRINGS ME
WHATEVER I WANT.

AND I CAN'T WAIT
FOR THE FIRST BITE OF SOMETHING

THAT WILL MAKE ME FORGET

ALL ABOUT THE PAIN
AND MISERY OF MY LIFE.

[ LINE RINGS ]
-Woman: Good afternoon.

HI, IT'S BRI.
CAN I PLACE AN ORDER?

-Yes, you may.
-LET ME GET A LOADED FRIES.

Uh-huh.

UM, WE'LL TRY
THE BARNYARD SANDWICH,

DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER.

The double cheeseburger,
uh-huh.

YEAH, WITH CHEDDAR.

THE BRISKET SLIDERS.
AND CAN YOU ADD BACON?

-Plus bacon, uh-huh.
-YEAH. OKAY.

-Thanks, Bri. Thanks a lot.
-SEE YOU IN A LITTLE BIT.

THANK YOU. BYE-BYE.
-Okay, bye-bye. Bye.

GETTING THE FAST FOOD FOR BRI,

IT'S KIND OF LIKE
A DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD.

I WANT TO MAKE HER HAPPY,
BUT I WANT HER TO LOSE WEIGHT.

SEE YOU IN A BIT.

I WANT HER TO BE HEALTHY,
BUT, YOU KNOW,

IT'S THE INSTANT
WANTING TO MAKE HER HAPPY

AT THAT MOMENT
THAT I THINK OVERRIDES A LOT.

AND I'M SURE I COULD PROBABLY
SAY, NO, LET'S NOT DO THAT.

LET'S HAVE A SALAD."

BUT I KNOW IF I PUSH HER ON IT,

SHE'S GONNA GET ANGRY,
ND WE'RE GONNA FIGHT,

SO I JUST DO IT.

♪♪

Brianne: FOOD HAS CAUSED
ALL THE THINGS

I HATE ABOUT MYSELF,
BUT IT'S THE ONLY THING

I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE THAT
HAVE HELPED ME DEAL

WITH THE THINGS
THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME.

AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO EVEN
BEGIN TO CHANGE THAT.

♪♪

WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG,

I DIDN'T REALLY STRUGGLE
WITH FOOD.

AND MY EARLIEST CHILDHOOD,

I WAS JUST A HAPPY BABY,
HAPPY KID.

THINGS WERE NORMAL,
FOR THE MOST PART.

BUT THAT CHANGED AS I GOT OLDER.

♪♪

MY DAD WAS IN THE AIR FORCE,
SO HE WAS GONE A LOT.

SO MY EARLIEST MEMORIES
ARE MOSTLY OF ME AND MY MOM.

AND IT WASN'T UNTIL I WAS 5

THAT MY DAD
STARTED BEING AROUND MORE.

BUT THAT'S WHEN MY MOM HAD
MY YOUNGER BROTHER.

AND THE NEXT YEAR,
SHE HAD MY SISTER.

AND WITH TWO NEWBORNS IN A YEAR,

I REMEMBER IT FELT LIKE MY DAD
JUST DIDN'T HAVE TIME FOR ME.

AND AS THEY GOT OLDER,
IT SEEMED LIKE

THEY HAD THIS CONNECTION
THAT MY DAD AND I DIDN'T HAVE.

SO MY DAD AND I REALLY DIDN'T
GET ALONG.

AND I ALWAYS FELT LIKE
HE DIDN'T LOVE ME,

THAT HE LOVED MY BROTHER
AND SISTER MORE THAN ME.

AND WHEN I WAS 13,
ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER

ALL WENT FOR A BIKE RIDE.

AND FOR SOME REASON,
MY DAD WAS UPSET ABOUT IT,

SO WE ALL GOT SENT TO OUR ROOMS.

AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER
GOT A SPANKING,

AND THEN HE CAME TO MY ROOM.

AND HE WAS JUST, LIKE,
TELLING ME, LIKE,

I'M AN AWFUL PERSON, LIKE,
CALLING ME A FAT [BLEEP].

[ INHALES SHARPLY ]
AT THAT MOMENT,

I REMEMBER FEELING LIKE
HE REALLY HATES ME,

AND I WAS JUST HEARTBROKEN.

[ INHALES SHARPLY,
EXHALES SLOWLY ]

WHEN WE FOUGHT, IT FELT LIKE IT
WAS MY WHOLE FAMILY AGAINST ME,

EVEN WITH MY MOM BECAUSE SHE
NEVER STOOD UP FOR ME OR HELPED.

SO AROUND THAT TIME IS WHEN
I STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT,

BECAUSE WHEN NO ONE ELSE
WAS THERE FOR ME, FOOD WAS.

AND IN JUST A YEAR'S TIME,

I HAD GONE FROM BEING
A LITTLE OVER 100 POUNDS

TO BEING AROUND 180 POUNDS.

BUT BECAUSE I WAS STARTING
TO GET A LITTLE CHUBBY

AND OVERWEIGHT,
MY DAD FIGURED OUT

I WAS STEALING FOOD,
AND HE WAS FUMING MAD.

SO MY DAD TOOK HIS GUN LOCK
AND PUT IT ON THE FRIDGE.

AND MY WHOLE FAMILY HAD A KEY
TO IT EXCEPT ME.

AND HE EVEN TOLD MY SIBLINGS
NOT TO LET ME IN THERE.

BUT THAT ALL REALLY MADE ME
WANT TO EAT MORE.

SO I WAS STILL GAINING
A LOT OF WEIGHT.

AND I WAS ALREADY ALMOST
300 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 16,

AND IT KEPT CREEPING UP
HIGHER AND HIGHER.

BUT MY WEIGHT GAIN MADE MY DAD
EVEN ANGRIER WITH ME.

SOMETIMES HE WOULD CALL ME NAMES
LIKE "FAT ASS,"

AND IT REALLY HURT MY FEELINGS.
[ SNIFFLES ]

SO I COULDN'T WAIT
TO GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL

SO I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM HIM.

BUT THINGS GOT WORSE FOR ME
BECAUSE AS SOON AS I TURNED 18,

I MOVED OUT OF MY PARENTS' HOUSE
AND I WENT HOG WILD.

I DID WHAT I WANTED,

AND I STARTED PARTYING
AND DRINKING A LOT.

AND ONE NIGHT, A GROUP OF GUYS
WHO I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS,

THEY KEPT, YOU KNOW, TRYING
TO GET ME INTO A ROOM WITH THEM.

AND I KIND OF DIDN'T WANT TO.
I WANTED TO STAY

WITH EVERYBODY ELSE
AND DANCE AND HAVE FUN.

BUT THEY ENDED UP
PUSHING ME INTO THE ROOM

AND THEY RAPED ME.

♪♪

AFTER I WAS RAPED, I DEFINITELY
STARTED EATING MORE.

THAT ALL HAPPENED WHEN I WAS 19,

AND I WAS ALREADY
OVER 350 POUNDS AT THAT POINT.

BUT AFTER THAT,
I STARTED GAINING EVEN MORE.

AND I WAS WELL OVER 450 POUNDS
BY THE TIME I TURNED 20.

BUT MY LIFE CONTINUED
TO GET EVEN WORSE FROM THERE.

AND ONE NIGHT AT A PARTY,
I MET A GUY,

AND WE STARTED
SLEEPING TOGETHER,

AND I WOUND UP PREGNANT.

AT FIRST, I WAS SCARED
ABOUT BEING PREGNANT,

AND THEN I WAS REALLY, REALLY
EXCITED AND I COULDN'T WAIT.

I THINK BECAUSE IT WAS
GONNA BE SOMEBODY

THAT WOULD ALWAYS LOVE ME.

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

♪♪

BUT I TOLD MY MOM
THAT I WAS PREGNANT,

AND THAT'S BASICALLY WHEN MY DAD
CUT ALL TIES WITH ME,

AND HE HASN'T SPOKEN TO ME
IN ABOUT 11 YEARS.

BUT I HAD A MISCARRIAGE,
AND THEN AFTER THAT,

THE GUY THAT I WAS PREGNANT WITH

DIDN'T REALLY WANT ANYTHING
TO DO WITH ME ANYMORE.

I WAS REALLY DEPRESSED
AND I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE.

AND MY GRANDPARENTS
LIVED IN VEGAS,

AND SO I CALLED THEM

AND I ASKED IF CAN MOVE IN
WITH THEM, AND THEY SAID "YES."

AND SO MY MOM BOUGHT ME
A PLANE TICKET,

AND I LEFT TO GO TO LAS VEGAS.

BUT I THOUGHT WHEN I MOVED THERE

THAT IT COULD BE
A CLEAN START FOR ME.

I WAS 21 AND GETTING CLOSE
TO BEING 500 POUNDS,

SO I KNOW MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING
TO GET OUT OF CONTROL,

BUT MY EATING DIDN'T SLOW DOWN.

AND I ALSO FELL BACK
INTO PARTYING A LOT, TOO.

BUT THERE WAS ONE REALLY GOOD
THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME

BECAUSE OF MY MOVE.

I STARTED WORKING
AT A CONVENIENCE STORE,

AND THAT'S WHEN I MET RICK.

HE WAS MY SECURITY OFFICER
IN THE STORE,

AND WE WORKED
EIGHT HOURS A DAY TOGETHER.

SO WE NATURALLY STARTED GETTING
CLOSER AND CLOSER.

AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN,
ONE DAY, HE ASKED ME

IF I WANTED TO GO OUT ON A DATE,
AND I WAS, LIKE, "SURE."

WHEN I FIRST MET BRI, WE GOT
TO KNOW EACH OTHER A LITTLE BIT,

AND WE WOULD FLIRT
IN THE STORE SOMETIMES.

YOU KNOW, I WASN'T NECESSARILY
ATTRACTED TO HER BODY,

BUT BRI IS A FUN-LOVING,
BIG-HEARTED PERSON.

Brianne: I WAS 22 AT THE TIME,
AND RICK WAS 52.

BUT I JUST
FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM,

AND I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT
THE AGE DIFFERENCE,

AND THAT HE HAD A DAUGHTER
FROM A PREVIOUS MARRIAGE

NAMED CATRINA
THAT HE WAS RAISING.

IN FACT, WHEN HE INTRODUCED ME
TO CATRINA, WHO, AT THE TIME,

WAS 12, I SAW MYSELF IN HER,
AND I WANTED HER

TO HAVE SOMEBODY
TO LOOK UP TO AND TO LOVE.

HAVING RICK AND CATRINA
IN MY LIFE MADE ME FEEL LIKE

I FINALLY HAD THE FAMILY
I ALWAYS WANTED.

IT WAS WONDERFUL.

BRIANNE STEPPED UP
AND BECAME THE PERSON

THAT I NEEDED TO BE MY MOM.

AND HER WEIGHT
DIDN'T REALLY MATTER TO ME.

BUT SHE STARTED SLOWLY GAINING
MORE AND MORE AND MORE

AND GETTING HEAVIER
AND HEAVIER AND HEAVIER.

♪♪

Brianne:
OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS,

I GOT SO BIG THAT IT STARTED TO
AFFECT MY ABILITY TO GET AROUND.

AND I REMEMBER IT WAS
SHORTLY AFTER I HAD TURNED 25

THAT I CROSSED
THE 600-POUND MARK

AND HAD TO START USING
AN ELECTRIC SCOOTER

WHEREVER I WENT

BECAUSE I COULDN'T WALK
ON MY OWN FOR VERY LONG ANYMORE.

♪♪

AND THAT MEANT I HAD
TO QUIT MY JOB,

SO THEN RICK HAD TO SUPPORT
ALL OF US.

AND AT THAT POINT IS WHEN WE ALL
DECIDED TO MOVE TO OREGON

BECAUSE IT WAS MORE AFFORDABLE.

AND I ENDED UP
SITTING AROUND A LOT,

DOING NOTHING EXCEPT EATING,

AND THAT'S PRETTY MUCH BEEN
MY LIFE FOR THE LAST FIVE YEARS.

♪♪

I SPEND MOST OF MY DAY
IN MY CHAIR

BECAUSE IT'S TOO HARD
TO DO ANYTHING.

SO MY WORLD JUST KEEPS
GETTING SMALLER

AS I KEEP GETTING BIGGER.

I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS,
BUT I CAN'T STOP EATING.

♪♪

FOOD IS LIKE WHAT I LOOK
FORWARD TO EVERY DAY

BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING
THAT MAKES ME HAPPY

IN A WORLD WHERE I CAN'T
GO OUT AND BE HAPPY.

AND WHAT I LOVE ABOUT EATING
IS IT NEVER LETS ME DOWN.

AND I FEEL LIKE WHATEVER MOOD
I MIGHT HAVE BEEN IN

BEFORE I STARTED EATING,
IT'S GONE, AND I FEEL HAPPY.

SO I NEVER WANT TO STOP.

Rick: WHEN I WATCH HER EAT,
IT BOTHERS ME.

I FEEL SAD FOR HER,
AND...I DON'T KNOW,

MAYBE A LITTLE BIT OF DISGUST
EATING THAT MUCH.

Brianne: I KNOW MY EATING IS
AFFECTING MY WHOLE FAMILY NOW.

I'M ESPECIALLY WORRIED
FOR CATRINA

BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN
GAINING WEIGHT.

SHE MIGHT NOT BE EATING AS MUCH,
BUT SHE DOES EAT WHAT I EAT,

AND I DON'T WANT HER
TO END UP LIKE ME.

♪♪

Catrina: WOULD YOU LIKE
ANYTHING TO EAT? ARE YOU HUNGRY?

[ YAWNING ]
I'M REALLY HUNGRY.

I LOVE MY MOM SO VERY MUCH.

SHE IS MY ONLY MOM,
AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.

Brianne:
I MIGHT HAVE A BURRITO, TOO,

WITH THE TAQUITOS,
IF YOU DON'T MIND.

WITH CHEESE AND SALSA, TOO.
-OKAY.

AND I'M SCARED BECAUSE SHE IS
EATING HERSELF TO HER GRAVE.

AND... [ SIGHS ] IT HURTS.

I'VE ALREADY HAD
MY BIOLOGICAL MOM LEAVE ME,

AND SO IF SHE DIES,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO.

♪♪

Brianne: WHEN I GOT MARRIED
TO RICK,

I WANTED TO BE THERE FOR CATRINA
AND BE THE MOM SHE NEVER HAD.

BUT I'M NOT ABLE TO DO THAT
BECAUSE I WON'T STOP EATING.

AND I'M DEFINITELY HURTING RICK

BECAUSE HE DOESN'T NEED
THE STRESS OF WONDERING

IF HE'S GONNA WAKE UP
AND FIND ME DEAD.

AND LAST YEAR, HE ACTUALLY
HAD A HEART ATTACK

AND HAD TO HAVE
OPEN-HEART SURGERY.

SO HAVING TO DO AS MUCH AS
HE DOES PHYSICALLY

IS HARD ON HIM.

SO I KNOW,
I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE

I'M LETTING MY EATING HABITS

DESTROY EVERYTHING
THAT'S PRECIOUS TO ME.

BUT WHEN I'M EATING,
I JUST DON'T CARE.

-WELL, I'M GONNA GO.
-HAVE A GOOD DAY AT WORK.

ALL RIGHTY. I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU, TOO.
I'LL SEE YOU WHEN YOU GET BACK.

Rick: I NEED BRIANNE MORE THAN
SHE KNOWS.

I CAN'T IMAGINE BEING
WITHOUT HER.

SHE'S MY SOUL MATE.

AND MY WORST FEAR IS THAT
IF SHE DOESN'T GET

THE HELP SHE NEEDS,
SHE'S NOT GONNA LIVE.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO THINK
OF HAVING TO BURY HER.

[ GROANS ]

AT THIS POINT, I AM DEFINITELY
PUTTING NAILS IN MY COFFIN,

SO I AM JUST WAITING TO DIE

IF I DON'T FIND SOME WAY
TO CHANGE.

♪♪

♪♪

[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

♪♪

Brianne: ME AND RICK ARE
PACKING RIGHT NOW

BECAUSE WE'RE GOING TO HOUSTON
TO SEE DR. NOW.

I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING
DRASTIC AT THIS POINT,

OR I WON'T BE AROUND
MUCH LONGER.

BUT IT'S A LONG TRIP
FROM OREGON TO HOUSTON,

SO I HAVE TO GO BY PLANE.

THERE'S JUST NO WAY
I'D MAKE IT IN A CAR

FOR THAT LONG ON THE ROAD.

SO I'M TRYING TO MAKE THIS TRIP
AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE.

SO I'VE GOT YOUR TICKET...

MY THREE TICKETS. [ CHUCKLES ]

IT'S BEEN OVER 10 YEARS
SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A PLANE,

SO I'M NERVOUS ABOUT
HOW IT'S GONNA GO

AND IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE
TO EVEN DO IT AND FIT.

♪♪

SO, WE'RE, UM, FLYING IN TODAY
TO HOUSTON.

UH-HUH.

TOMORROW, WE'LL MEET
WITH DR. NOWZARADAN.

AND THEN
WE SHOULD BE HOME...

IT'LL BE REALLY, REALLY EARLY
FRIDAY MORNING.

-OKAY.
-SO JUST PRAY

EVERYTHING GOES GOOD
WITH DR. NOW,

'CAUSE HE'S MY LAST SHOT.

YEAH. WELL, I HOPE
YOU GET APPROVED.

ME, TOO.

I THINK I MIGHT HAVE
SOME OF THAT LEFTOVER PIZZA

FROM LAST NIGHT.

CAN YOU HEAT UP
THAT PIZZA FOR ME?

-YEAH.
-MIGHT EAT SOME OF THAT

AND THEN TAKE SOME OF IT
FOR THE ROAD.

OKAY, I'LL DO THAT
FOR YOU.

-THANKS, SWEETIE.
-ALL RIGHTY. LOVE YOU.

LOVE YOU, TOO.
E[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

Brianne:
I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO DO THIS

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP,

NO MATTER HOW HARD
OR SCARY THIS IS GONNA BE.

I WANT TO BE HERE FOR RICK
AND CATRINA,

AND LOSING THE WEIGHT
AND GETTING MY LIFE BACK

IS THE ONLY WAY
I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THAT.

BUT IT'S ALL JUST GONNA BE
REALLY HARD ON ME PHYSICALLY.

YOU GOT 'EM IN THERE?
-YEAH. YOU READY?

SO I JUST HOPE I CAN ACTUALLY
MAKE IT ALL THE WAY THERE.

AND THAT THIS ALL ISN'T
FOR NOTHING

BECAUSE DR. NOW ENDS UP
TELLING ME THAT HE CAN'T HELP.

I LOVE YOU, SWEETIE.
-I LOVE YOU, TOO, MAMA.

-HOLD DOWN THE FORT.
-I WILL.

Catrina: THERE ARE A FEW THINGS
THAT HAVE ME A LITTLE WORRIED

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
SHE'S PSYCHING HERSELF OUT,

AND THAT SHE MIGHT LET HER
ANXIETY GET THE BETTER OF HER.

AND I'M AFRAID THAT SHE'LL SEE
ALL THESE PEOPLE LOOKING AT HER,

AND SHE'LL GET DISCOURAGED
AND BACK OUT LAST MINUTE,

OR SHE'LL BE IN SO MUCH PAIN

THAT SHE'LL DECIDE MAYBE
THIS ISN'T GOOD FOR ME.

I LOVE YOU, DAD.
-I LOVE YOU.

-LOVE YOU, MOM.
-LOVE YOU, TOO, SWEETIE.

-Rick: TAKE CARE.
-Catrina: SEE YOU GUYS LATER.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

I DO FEEL LIKE MOM HAS
THE DETERMINATION TO DO IT,

AND I KNOW
THAT SHE CAN DO IT.

BUT SOMETIMES SHE TALKS
HERSELF OUT OF STUFF.

SO I'M WORRIED
THAT SHE WOULD GIVE UP.

♪♪

SO HOW ARE
YOU FEELING, BABE?

I'M PRETTY NERVOUS.

AND THEN I THINK
I'M A LITTLE BIT WORRIED

ABOUT GETTING A WHEELCHAIR
AT THAT AIRPORT.

THAT'S ALWAYS BEEN
A PROBLEM FOR US.

YOU GET SOMEWHERE,
AND THEY'RE LIKE,

"YEAH, WE GOT WHEELCHAIRS."

AND THEY'VE GOT, LIKE,
TINY WHEELCHAIRS

FOR PEOPLE THAT, LIKE,
YOU CAN BARELY SIT IN.

IF NOT, WE'LL GET
A BAGGAGE CART. [ LAUGHS ]

THAT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY,
'CAUSE WHAT IF WE DO?

JUST KIDDING.

WHAT IF WE DO HAVE TO GET
A BAGGAGE CART?

JEEZ, BABE.

♪♪

Brianne: I HOPE THAT THIS
WHOLE TRIP ISN'T A BIG MISTAKE.

IT'S NOT JUST GETTING TO HOUSTON
THAT HAS ME ON EDGE, THOUGH.

MY MOM AND DAD ACTUALLY
MOVED DOWN THERE

AROUND EIGHT YEARS AGO,

AND MY MOM SAID SHE'D
COME WITH ME

AND HELP ME GET TO DR. NOW'S
ONCE I GET THERE.

HI. I NEEDED A PLUS-SIZE
WHEELCHAIR OVER IN VALET.

Woman: Okay,
we'll send someone out there.

-THANK YOU.
-Mm-hmm. Bye.

BUT IT'S BEEN FOUR YEARS
SINCE WE'VE SEEN EACH OTHER,

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA
REACT TO HOW BIG I AM NOW.

SO, I'M REALLY NERVOUS
ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF,

AND I JUST HOPE
I CAN MAKE THIS TRIP.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
IS THIS...

Man: YES...

[ WOMAN SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY
OVER P.A. ]

♪♪

I'M ALREADY FEELING WINDED,

AND MY BACK AND MY KNEES
ARE KILLING ME.

BUT I'M GONNA JUST FOCUS ON
WHAT I NEED TO DO

AND NOT THINK ABOUT
HOW HUMILIATING IT IS

TO HAVE TO BE PUSHED
THROUGH THE AIRPORT.

Man: OKAY, YOU GOT
YOUR BOARDING CARDS WITH YA?

OKAY.

♪♪

I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN RIGHT NOW,

SO I HOPE I CAN MAKE IT.

[ PANTING ]

♪♪

BUT THE PROBLEM WILL BE
IF I CAN'T FIT,

BECAUSE I WON'T HAVE THE ENERGY
TO GET BACK TO MY WHEELCHAIR.

AND IF THAT HAPPENS,
WE'RE GONNA HAVE A BIG PROBLEM.

ALL RIGHT.

[ PANTING ]

NOW I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE IT
ALL THE WAY THERE,

BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY HAVE
A CHOICE AT THIS POINT.

♪♪

BUT IT'S A DIRECT FLIGHT,

SO I ONLY HAVE TO MAKE IT
3 1/2 HOURS.

AND HOPEFULLY, THE WORST OF
ALL THIS IS BEHIND ME.

♪♪

I'M NOT FEELING WELL,

AND I'M SCARED THIS IS TAKING
TOO MUCH OUT OF ME,

SO I DON'T KNOW
HOW I'M GONNA MAKE IT.

BUT I'M TRYING TO NOT PANIC
AND JUST HOLD ON.

♪♪

THIS WHOLE TRIP HAS BEEN
SO MUCH HARDER THAN I THOUGHT.

I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN...

...SO I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THESE
SEATS AND OFF THIS PLANE,

BUT I'M COMPLETELY
OUT OF ENERGY.

♪♪

MY BODY HAS BEEN
PUT THROUGH TOO MUCH

TO BE ABLE TO DO MUCH MORE.

AND I'M NOT SURE
IF I WOULD HAVE DONE THIS

IF I'D HAD KNOWN
WHAT THIS IS GONNA BE LIKE.

[ PANTING ]

♪♪

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

I'M REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE NOW

'CAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE CHAIRS
WITH NO SIDES,

AND WE'RE WAITING ON
A WHEELCHAIR.

I'M JUST IN A LOT OF PAIN.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

OW.

BABE, CAN YOU MOVE ME OUT
SO IT'S NOT, LIKE,

IN THE FRONT OF EVERYBODY,
PLEASE?

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

HONEY, DON'T TELL ME
TO CALM DOWN.

YOU BE AS UNCOMFORTABLE
AS I AM.

[ GRUNTING ]

ME AND RICK SHOULD HAVE DRIVEN

'CAUSE I'M ALSO WORRIED ABOUT
HOW HARD THIS TRIP IS FOR HIM

BECAUSE OF HIS HEART CONDITION.

AND I DON'T WANT HIM
TO PUSH HIMSELF.

IF ANYTHING WERE TO HAPPEN
TO HIM BECAUSE OF THIS TRIP,

I WOULDN'T BE ABLE
TO EVER FORGIVE MYSELF.

SO I'M TRYING NOT TO PUT
TOO MUCH ON HIM.

BUT NOW THAT I'M HERE,

I'M JUST FOCUSING ON
GETTING WHAT WE NEED DONE.

♪♪

I JUST WANT TO GET THIS
OVER WITH.

OHH, MY GOSH.

I REALLY, REALLY HOPE
THIS ALL PAYS OFF

WHEN I SEE DR. NOW TOMORROW.

'CAUSE IF IT DOESN'T, I DON'T
THINK I'LL BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT.

THANK YOU, GUYS, SO MUCH.

Woman: OKAY.
WATCH YOUR STEP.

Brianne: BUT RIGHT NOW, I JUST
REALLY NEED TO GET TO THE HOTEL

AND GET IN BED

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
I'M GONNA PASS OUT ANY MINUTE.

♪♪

OH, BABE. I AM POOPED.

[ GRUNTS ]

BABE, I'M REALLY HUNGRY.

CAN WE STOP OFF
AND GET A BURRITO?

I WANT, LIKE, A BIG BURRITO,
BABE, WITH STEAK,

REFRIED BEANS, SOUR CREAM.

THE WORKS, YOU KNOW.

GET ME A QUESADILLA, TOO.

I'M FEELING REALLY HUNGRY,
AND I'M ALREADY, LIKE,

KIND OF STRESSING OUT
ABOUT TOMORROW

WHEN I FLY HOME,
'CAUSE I FEEL LIKE

I BARELY WAS ABLE TO MANAGE TO
SIT FOR THE THREE HOURS

I WAS JUST ON.

♪♪

-Rick: THAT BURRITO'S HUGE.
-YEAH.

MM. PRETTY GOOD.

♪♪

Brianne: TODAY'S BEEN
A REALLY LONG DAY,

SO I'M PRETTY EXHAUSTED.

MY ANKLES ARE REALLY SWOLLEN
TO THE POINT

WHERE THEY ARE, LIKE, THROBBING.

AND I JUST WANT TO GET
TO THE HOTEL.

HOPEFULLY, TOMORROW WILL BE
A BETTER DAY.

I SEE DR. NOW
FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT

AND MY MOM WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN
IN A LONG TIME...

[ GROANS ]
...SO I'M NERVOUS.

BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M GONNA
CLING TO THE HOPE

THAT I'M GONNA GET THE HELP
I NEED, AND THAT IT GOES WELL.

BECAUSE IF IT DOESN'T, THEN THIS
WILL HAVE ALL BEEN FOR NOTHING.

♪♪

Brianne: I FEEL LIKE I COULD USE
A LOT MORE SLEEP

BECAUSE I'M STILL SORE
FROM YESTERDAY.

BUT I HAVE TO GET TO
MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW,

AND MY MOM WILL BE HERE
ANY MINUTE.

BUT THE LAST TIME I SAW HER,
I WAS IN THE UPPER 400s,

SO I'M NERVOUS ABOUT
HOW SHE'S GONNA REACT

AT HOW BIG I AM NOW.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

Rick: HI!

-MAMA!
-HOW YOU DOING?

♪♪

[ BOTH CRYING ]

♪♪

BRIANNE, ALL THAT WEIGHT IS
CRUSHING YOUR INSIDES.

YOU CAN DIE.

I'M JUST SCARED FOR YOU...

I AM, TOO.

...'CAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
AND I WANT YOU TO BE SUCCESSFUL,

AND YOU JUST --
YOU GOTTA DO IT.

EVEN IF YOU NEED THIS HELP,
THIS PUSH FROM THE DOCTOR.

YOU GOTTA DO IT, BRIANNE.

I'M NOT READY TO...
I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO YET.

I DON'T WANT TO DIE.
[ SOBS ]

I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE, EITHER.
THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.

Bridget: I'M HEARTBROKEN
SEEING HER LIKE THIS.

SHE'S SO OVERWEIGHT.

THE LAST TIME I SAW HER THAT,
I'M AFRAID SHE'S GONNA DIE.

[ Voice breaks ]
AND I DON'T WANT HER TO DIE.

♪♪

Brianne:
IT'S NICE TO SEE MY MOM,

BUT IT WAS MORE EMOTIONAL
THAN I THOUGHT.

I JUST HOPE THIS ALL GOES WELL.

♪♪

MY BIGGEST WORRY IS THAT
I LET MYSELF GO SO FAR

TO THE POINT WHERE DR. NOW
CAN'T HELP ME.

SO I JUST HOPE
I'M STILL IN THE 600s.

BUT MY FUTURE AND MY WHOLE LIFE

IS RIDING ON HOW
THIS APPOINTMENT GOES.

BRIANNE DIAS?

Brianne: AND IF IT ENDS UP
LIKE I FEAR,

AND DR. NOW THINKS FOR ANY
REASON THAT HE CAN'T HELP ME,

THEN IT WILL LITERALLY BE
A DEATH SENTENCE FOR ME.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: I FINALLY MADE IT
TO DR. NOW'S

TO TRY AND GET HIS HELP.

AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT
WHAT I WEIGH.

I JUST HOPE I'M STILL
IN THE 600s.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

♪♪

[ BREATHING SHAKILY ]

THIS IS THE HEAVIEST
I'VE EVER WEIGHED.

[ SOBBING ]

♪♪

THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT CRUSHING
ALL MY ORGANS AND BONES.

I COULD DIE.

AND I PRAY THAT I'M NOT
TOO BIG FOR DR. NOW TO HELP.

IT'S REALLY SCARY.

I WAS HOPING IT'D BE LESS.

IT -- IT JUST...

IT'S BAD.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
-Brianne: COME IN.

-HELLO.
-HELLO.

HOW Y'ALL DOING?

-Bridget: FINE.
-Brianne: HANGING IN THERE.

ALL RIGHT,
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

-I'M BRI.
-HOW YOU DOING?

PRETTY GOOD.
NICE TO MEET YOU.

-I'M BRIDGET.
-AND YOU ARE?

-THE MOM.
-MOM.

AND I'M BRI'S HUSBAND
RICK.

OKAY.
NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS.

-Rick: NICE TO MEET YOU.
-ALL RIGHT.

SO, BRIANNE, YOU MADE IT
ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM OREGON.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

-GOOD.
-THAT'S GOOD.

AND TODAY, YOU WEIGH IN
AT 742 POUNDS, HUH?

MM-HMM.

ALL RIGHT,
AND YOU'RE 30 YEARS OLD?

MM-HMM.

IS THIS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT
YOU HAVE BEEN?

-THIS IS IT?
-MM-HMM.

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK GOT YOU
TO THIS WEIGHT?

MY EATING, FAST FOOD.

-FAST FOOD?
-MM-HMM.

SO WHAT DO YOU EAT
FOR BREAKFAST?

SOMETIMES WE HAVE, LIKE,

FROZEN BURRITOS
AND STUFF LIKE THAT.

OR WE MIGHT BUY, LIKE,
THE BREAKFAST FOOD THAT'S EASY.

AND THEN AFTER THAT,
I'M SETTLED FOR A LITTLE BIT,

AND THEN I'LL SNACK
THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

WHAT DO YOU SNACK ON?

MOSTLY, LIKE, CHIPS AND JUST...
JUST CRAP.

CHIPS AND CRAP?

OKAY, WHAT ELSE?

PROBABLY MORE FAST FOOD.

AND WHO GETS THAT FOR YOU?

HE'LL GO OUT AND GET IT.

WHAT FAST FOOD
DOES HE GET FOR YOU?

BURGERS OR SOMETIMES HE'LL
PICK UP FOOD FROM A RESTAURANT.

PIZZA.
-OKAY.

THEN DO YOU KEEP EATING
AFTER THAT?

I'LL PROBABLY SNACK AGAIN
LATER ON,

AND THEN I WAKE UP
AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN.

ALL RIGHT.

TO SUMMARIZE, IN YOUR OWN WORDS,
YOU EAT CRAP ALL DAY,

THEN YOU GO BACK TO BED.

AND NO ACTIVITY OR EXERCISE.
AND THAT'S IT?

THAT'S YOUR LIFE?
DOES THAT SOUND ABOUT RIGHT?

MM-HMM.

WITH HOW BIG YOU ARE,
YOU'RE BARELY ABLE TO WALK,

SO YOU'RE VERY CLOSE RIGHT NOW
TO BECOMING BEDRIDDEN.

AND YOU POINTED OUT THAT RICK
IS THE ONE WHO BRINGS YOU FOOD.

SO HE'S YOUR ENABLER, RIGHT?

I GUESS.

SO, RICK, YOU GETTING
ALL THIS STUFF

BECAUSE YOU THINK
IT'S GOOD FOR HER, OR...

BASICALLY
'CAUSE IT'S EASY.

I DON'T WANT
TO HEAR HER COMPLAIN.

SO YOU'RE HELPING HER TO GET
FOOD SO SHE DOESN'T GET UPSET.

BUT IF YOU LOVE HER, THEN YOU'RE
GONNA HELP HER STOP DOING THIS.

YOU GOT THAT?
-YES, SIR.

Dr. Nowzaradan: TO BE
OVER 700 POUNDS AT BRIANNE'S AGE

MEANS SHE'S BEEN EATING
PATHOLOGICALLY FOR A WHILE NOW.

SO BREAKING HER OF THAT HABIT
IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY.

BUT SHE'S AT A VERY CRITICAL
POINT RIGHT NOW,

BECAUSE THE FACT THAT
SHE'S BEING THIS HEAVY

WHILE SHE'S YOUNG
IS THE ONLY REASON

HER BODY HAS BEEN ABLE
TO STILL GET AROUND

AND FUNCTION
FOR THE TIME IT HAS.

SO IF SHE DOESN'T START TO MAKE
THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS,

THAT'S ALL GOING TO CHANGE
RAPIDLY VERY SOON.

BRIANNE, YOU'RE 30 YEARS OLD
AND OVER 700 POUNDS.

THEN WHAT IS NEXT STOP?
800?

I DON'T WANT IT TO BE.

WELL, RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE HEADED
TO ONE OR TWO SCENARIOS.

YOU'RE EITHER GONNA MAKE IT
UP TO 800 POUNDS

AND BECOME
COMPLETELY BEDRIDDEN SOON,

AT WHICH POINT YOU WON'T
SURVIVE MUCH LONGER.

THAT'S THE END OF IT.

THE OTHER SCENARIO IS
YOU'RE NOT GONNA EVEN

MAKE IT TO THAT POINT,

AND YOUR BODY IS GONNA GIVE OUT
IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS.

YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME
RIGHT NOW, OKAY?

YOUR ONLY HOPE
IS TO CHANGE NOW.

SO, HOW MOTIVATED YOU ARE
TO MAKE THE CHANGES?

I'M VERY MOTIVATED.

SO, I'M GONNA GIVE YOU
SOME STUFF.

IT'S A 500-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET
THAT IS HIGH IN PROTEIN

AND LOW CARB THAT I WANT YOU
TO START ON IMMEDIATELY.

AND THROW AWAY
ALL THE JUNK FOOD,

NO SUGARY DRINK.

AND YOU ONLY EAT
THREE TIME A DAY,

AND YOU START DOING
SOME EXERCISES.

30 MINUTES IN THE MORNING
AND 30 MINUTES IN THE AFTERNOON.

IF YOU DO ALL THAT,
YOU'RE GOING TO BE EASILY

ABLE TO LOSE 120 POUNDS
IN 2 MONTHS.

AND, RICK,
NO MORE ENABLING.

IT'S GONNA BE LIKE A DRUG ADDICT
COMING OUT OF WITHDRAWAL.

SHE'S GONNA HAVE SOME SHAKES
AND ALL THOSE THINGS.

IF YOU WANT HER TO LIVE,
YOU CAN'T GIVE IN,

NO MATTER HOW UPSET
SHE GETS, OKAY?

YES, SIR.

OKAY, THE LAST THING IS,
AT YOUR WEIGHT, BRIANNE,

IT IS NOT SAFE FOR YOU
TO BE TRAVELING

AS FAR AS YOU DID
EVERY TIME.

SO IF I ACCEPT YOU
INTO MY PROGRAM,

YOU WILL NEED TO MOVE DOWN
TO HOUSTON.

ARE YOU WILLING
TO DO THAT?

-100%.
-GOOD.

YOU NEED TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY,
AND YOU HAVE TO TAKE ACTION NOW

'CAUSE YOU'RE RUNNING
OUT OF TIME.

SO YOU'RE GONNA HELP ME?
[ CRIES ]

YES, IF YOU SHOW ME YOU'RE
WILLING TO WORK HARD.

BUT EVERYTHING START
WITH YOU.

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TAKE
FIRST STEP, OKAY?

I'LL SEE YOU
IN TWO MONTHS.

THANK YOU,
DR. NOWZARADAN.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS ISN'T GOING
TO BE EASY FOR BRIANNE

BECAUSE THERE ARE LIKELY
SIGNIFICANT ISSUES

THAT SHE'S GOING TO HAVE
TO DEAL WITH.

BUT SHE ALSO HAS
AN ENABLING HUSBAND

AND A FAMILY DYNAMIC
THAT WILL HAVE TO BE CHANGED

IN ORDER FOR HER
TO HAVE THE SUPPORT SHE NEEDS.

BUT IF SHE DOESN'T START
TO LOSE WEIGHT NOW,

THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET
VERY BAD FOR HER.

Brianne: I'M GLAD I HAVE
A CHANCE TO DO THIS PROGRAM,

BUT I'M A LITTLE SCARED

'CAUSE I KNOW
THIS IS GONNA BE HARD.

AND LOSING 120 POUNDS
SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO KEEP GAINING
AND EAT MYSELF TO DEATH.

AT LEAST THERE'S SOME HOPE
AS LONG AS I HIT THE GOAL.

SO I'M GONNA FOCUS ON THAT
TO MOTIVATE ME,

NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS,
BECAUSE I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE.

IF I DON'T, I'M GONNA DIE,
AND I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: THESE PAST FOUR WEEKS
HAVE PROBABLY BEEN

THE HARDEST OF MY LIFE.

NOT ONLY HAVE I GIVEN UP
ALL THE FOODS I LIKE

AND STUCK TO DR. NOW'S DIET
RELIGIOUSLY,

BUT I'VE MADE THE HARD DECISION

TO MOVE TO HOUSTON
WITHOUT RICK OR CAT.

I'M GONNA START
PACKING THE TRUCK.

-ALL RIGHT.
-ALL RIGHT.

Brianne: DR. NOW SAYS I CAN'T BE
ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW,

BUT WITH MY PARENTS THERE,
MY MOM AGREED TO HELP

AND COME BY EVERY DAY
TO MAKE SURE I HAVE WHAT I NEED.

AND WE FOUND AN APARTMENT
I CAN AFFORD FOR A YEAR.

SO I'M DOING THIS.

YOU'RE GONNA PUT THOSE
UP FRONT, HON?

-YEAH.
-OKAY.

BUT IT'S LITERALLY
THE HARDEST THING

I'VE DONE IN MY WHOLE LIFE,

BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG
IT'LL BE

BEFORE I SEE THEM
ONCE I'M DOWN THERE.

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA
BE AWAY FROM MY FAMILY LIKE THIS

FOR AT LEAST A YEAR.

BUT IF I HAD ANY OTHER OPTIONS,
I'D TAKE THEM.

CAN YOU, UM...
-IN THE CAB?

-UM, NO, MY PINK DRESSER.
-OKAY.

AND PROBABLY MY RED BLANKET
ON TOP OF THERE, TOO.

Rick: YOU DON'T WANT
THAT INSIDE THE CAB?

'CAUSE IT'S WAY HERE
AT THE BACK.

SO IF YOU'RE GONNA WANT IT
DURING THE ROAD TRIP...

-MNH-MNH
-YOU'RE SURE?

-I'M POSITIVE.
-OKAY.

RICK INSISTS ON HAULING ME
DOWN TO HOUSTON,

BUT I'M WORRIED
ABOUT HIM DOING TOO MUCH...

[ RICK GRUNTS ]

...AND THE STRAIN ON HIS HEART,

BECAUSE HE'S FEELING WEAK
AND RUNDOWN A LOT.

SO MARY SAID
SHE'D COME WITH US AND HELP.

CAN YOU PUT THAT
IN THE COOLER, HON?

YEAH.

Brianne: CAT WANTS TO, BUT SHE
HAS TO WORK AND CAN'T GET OFF,

SO IT'S JUST GONNA BE THE THREE
OF US TAKING A ROAD TRIP DOWN.

YOU'RE A PRO.

-YES?
-COME HERE, BABY.

YOU'RE GOOD.

YOU'RE AWESOME.

GIVE ME KISSES. MWAH.

I LOVE YOU.
-WE'LL MAKE IT HAPPEN.

-HEY, I SAID, "I LOVE YOU."
-I LOVE YOU, TOO.

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN PIZZA.

[ LAUGHS ] I HOPE SO.

GOT IT. ALL RIGHT.

[ CLICKS TONGUE ]
WAY TO GO.

TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES
IN THERE, OKAY?

I WILL.

[ SNIFFLES ] ALL RIGHT, SWEETIE.
I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU, TOO.

-ALL RIGHTY.
-ALL RIGHTY.

Rick: WE'LL SEE YA.

Brianne: THIS IS GONNA BE ABOUT
A 5-DAY DRIVE,

AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT BEING
ON THE ROAD FOR THAT LONG.

BUT I'M HOPING

ALL THE EXERCISE
I'VE BEEN DOING WILL HELP ME

TO BE ABLE TO GO LONGER
AND HANDLE MORE THIS TIME.

BUT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG
WHILE WE'RE ON THE ROAD,

I DON'T KNOW WHAT
I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO.

[ TRUCK DOOR CLOSES ]
[ SIGHS ]

-Rick: ARE YOU READY?
-YEP.

OKAY.

Brianne: SO I JUST HOPE
I CAN HANDLE IT.

AND THE SAME FOR RICK.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: AFTER SIX DAYS
ON THE ROAD,

WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON.

IT TOOK US A DAY LONGER
THAN WE THOUGHT,

SO IT'S BEEN
A REALLY LONG TRIP.

AND I'VE HAD SOME STOMACH PAIN

AND I'VE ALSO BEEN
A LITTLE QUEASY.

SO I'M READY TO JUST
BE OFF THE ROAD.

♪♪

MY MOM SAYS,
"STAY IN MIDDLE LANE."

♪♪

EVERYTHING GO OKAY?

YEAH.

♪♪

Brianne: I'M REALLY TIRED.

AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT THE STRAIN
OF ALL THIS TRAVELING

ON RICK, TOO.

WHEN HE'S NOT DOING WELL,
HE HIDES IT,

BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BE THERE
FOR ME AND TAKE CARE OF ME.

♪♪

BUT NOW THAT WE'RE IN HOUSTON,

ONCE WE'RE FINISHED
GETTING ME ALL MOVED IN,

MY MOM IS GONNA TAKE ME GROCERY
SHOPPING WHILE RICK RESTS,

SO I CAN GET FOOD
TO MAKE HEALTHIER MEALS

BECAUSE I'M WORKING HARD
TO STICK TO DR. NOW'S DIET...

...'CAUSE I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT
IT IS TO MAKE IT TO MY GOAL

AND THAT I GET APPROVED FOR
SURGERY ON MY NEXT APPOINTMENT.

SO, I'M READY TO KEEP
WORKING HARD AND DO THIS.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: MY MOM AND ME ARE
HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW

FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT

TO FIND OUT
IF I HIT MY GOAL OR NOT.

BUT SO FAR,
IT'S BEEN A HORRIBLE DAY.

EVERYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG
SEEMS LIKE IT'S GOING WRONG.

MY GREATEST FEAR
MOVING DOWN HERE

WAS THAT SOMETHING
WOULD HAPPEN WITH RICK

AND HE WOULD HAVE AN ISSUE
WITH HIS HEART,

AND I'D BE TOO FAR AWAY
TO BE THERE FOR HIM.

AND THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING
RIGHT NOW

'CAUSE RICK THINKS
HE'S HAVING A HEART ATTACK.

SO HE'S AT THE HOSPITAL,
WAITING TO FIND OUT IF HE IS.

BUT I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT'S GOING ON.

SO I'M JUST FREAKING OUT
A LITTLE BIT.

AND ON TOP OF ALL,
THE QUEASINESS AND STOMACH PAIN

I HAD WHEN I GOT DOWN HERE
HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE.

SO, I'M WORRIED THAT THE STRESS
OF EVERYTHING IS GETTING TO ME.

BRIANNE DIAS?

HOW ARE YOU?

BUT THE ONLY THING TO MAKE
THIS DAY WORSE IS TO FIND OUT

I'M NOT GETTING
WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY,

AND I'M DOWN HERE, GOING THROUGH
ALL OF THIS,

AWAY FROM RICK FOR NOTHING.

BUT I'VE DONE EVERYTHING
I FEEL LIKE I CAN

BECAUSE AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT,

I WAS SHOCKED TO FIND OUT THAT
I HAD GOTTEN UP TO 742 POUNDS.

AND DOC TOLD ME I HAD TO LOSE
120 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS.

SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO HAVE
MADE IT DOWN TO 622 TODAY.

♪♪

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

I COULD FEEL
I WAS LOSING WEIGHT,

BUT I STILL HAD NO IDEA WHAT
KIND OF PROGRESS I WAS MAKING.

AND IF I WAS ANYWHERE
CLOSE TO MY GOAL.

SO, SEEING HOW MUCH I LOST
IS JUST EXHILARATING.

BUT I'M STILL WORRIED
ABOUT RICK.

[ EXHALES DEEPLY ]

-ARE YOU GONNA CALL RICK?
-YEAH.

[ LINE RINGS ]

-Hi.
-HI, BABE. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

I still got a pain in my chest.

And the pain started to go away.

I felt really good, then it
started coming back, so...

-CRAP.
-I'm -- I'm in ICU

until they figure out
what's going on.

I'M NOT READY YET
FOR YOU TO GO.

Me, neither.

WELL, I GOT SOME GOOD NEWS.

Yeah? What's the good news?

I JUST WEIGHED IN.

-Yeah?
-I WEIGHED IN AT 604.

All right, awesome!
Good job, hon.

THANKS, BABE.

I'll give you a call later,
okay, hon?

OKAY. I LOVE YOU.

I love you, too. Bye-bye.

BYE-BYE.

-HE SOUNDS BETTER, THOUGH...
-YEAH.

...WAY BETTER THAN
HE DID THIS MORNING.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
COME IN.

HI, BRIANNE. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M HAVING
A PRETTY CRAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OKAY, WELL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU. [ LAUGHS ]

BUT WHAT'S WRONG?

I KNOW THE ISSUE
IS NOT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS,

BECAUSE YOU MADE IT DOWN
TO 604 TODAY,

AND THAT'S A WEIGHT LOSS
OF 138 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS,

SO THAT'S GREAT.

THAT'S -- THAT'S A DOUBLE FIST.

OKAY, GIVE ME THE OTHER ONE.

ALL RIGHT.

SO WHAT ARE YOU DEALING WITH
THAT'S KEEPING YOU

FROM CELEBRATING YOUR WEIGHT
LOSS AND YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY?

MY STOMACH HURTS A LOT,
AND RICK, MY HUSBAND,

IS IN THE HOSPITAL
BECAUSE OF CHEST PAINS.

AND I'M THROWING UP,
BUT WHEN I THROW UP,

IT'S, LIKE, JUST FOAM, LIQUID.

I'M SORRY TO HEAR
ABOUT RICK.

I HOPE HE'S OKAY.

NORMALLY,
WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS,

I WOULD BE APPROVING YOU
FOR YOUR WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY.

BUT I'M GOING TO SEND YOU
TO HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW

BECAUSE IF YOU CAN'T
KEEP ANYTHING DOWN,

IT COULD BE VERY SERIOUS,
AND AT YOUR WEIGHT,

ONE LITTLE THING CAN PUSH
YOUR BODY OVER THE EDGE,

AND THAT WILL BE IT.

SO THIS IS AN ISSUE THAT MAY BE
LIFE-THREATENING FOR YOU.

HANG ON A SECOND...

[ RETCHING, COUGHING ]

♪♪

YOU SHOULD TAKE HER
TO THE HOSPITAL.

AND I'LL MEET
YOU THERE, OKAY?

OKAY.

WHATEVER IS GOING ON,
WE NEED TO ADDRESS IT QUICKLY.

[ CONTINUES RETCHING, COUGHING ]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

AFTER RUNNING SOME TESTS,
WE WERE ABLE TO DETERMINE

THAT BRIANNE
CURRENTLY IS SUFFERING

FROM SOME FOOD POISONING.

SO IT'S RELATIVELY MINOR,

BUT IT'S STILL SOMETHING TO TAKE
SERIOUSLY FOR SOMEONE HER SIZE.

BECAUSE EVEN SOMETHING THAT
WOULD NORMALLY BE A MINOR ISSUE

CAN BE THE FINAL STRAW
FOR A BODY

THAT IS ALREADY UNDER SO MUCH
STRAIN WITH ALL THAT WEIGHT.

BUT WITH HER
HERE IN THE HOSPITAL,

IT WILL BE EASY TO TREAT.

♪♪

HI, BRIANNE. HOW ARE YOU?

SO, I DIDN'T LIKE THE WAY
YOU LOOKED IN THE OFFICE,

SO WE GOT YOU IN HERE TO
MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

BUT I JUST GOT
LAB REPORT BACK.

YOU HAVE A LITTLE BIT
OF FOOD POISONING.

IT SEEMS LIKE YOU HAVE
PROBABLY EATEN

SOMETHING YOU LEFT OUT
FOR TOO LONG.

BUT PART OF LIVING
ON YOUR OWN IS LEARNING

YOU CAN'T LEAVE FOOD OUT
FOR TOO LONG.

USUALLY,
IF FOOD STAY OUTSIDE,

AND BACTERIA GROW ON IT
AND GIVE YOU FOOD POISONING.

YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL WITH.

WHAT DID YOU EAT?
ANYTHING, UM...

-SHRIMP.
-SHRIMP? THAT WILL DO IT.

SO WE'LL GIVE YOU
SOME I.V. FLUID.

-PERFECT.
-AND IN A DAY OR TWO,

YOU SHOULD BE BACK
TO NORMAL, OKAY?

OKAY.

AND ONCE
YOU'VE FULLY RECOVERED,

THEN YOU'RE BACK
TO YOUR BASELINE

IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS,

WE'LL SET YOU UP FOR
WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY, OKAY?

[ Whispers ] YES!

AND WE'RE GONNA SCHEDULE IT
FOR NEXT MONTH

TO GIVE YOU A LITTLE BIT
MORE TIME TO RECOVER.

BUT YOU STARTED OVER
700 POUNDS.

-YEAH.
-YOU'VE COME A LONG WAY.

YOU HAVE LOST
138 POUNDS, HUH?

SO THAT'S VERY GOOD,

AND I AM PROUD OF YOU
AND YOUR PROGRESS.

SO, JUST KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK,
AND WE'LL KEEP YOU HERE

FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS
AND GET YOU GOING HOME.

AND THEN WE'LL FOLLOW UP
IN A COUPLE WEEKS, OKAY?

-OKAY.
-ALL RIGHT.

I'LL SEE YOU LATER, OKAY?

THANK YOU. YOU KNOW IT.

-ALL RIGHT.
-[ LAUGHS ]

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: I THINK BRIANNE
IS READY FOR THIS NEXT BIG STEP,

AS LONG AS SHE CONTINUES TO STAY
ON TRACK THIS NEXT MONTH

AND DOESN'T DO ANYTHING
TO START GAINING AGAIN

OR MESS UP HER PROGRESS
BEFORE HER SURGERY.

Brianne: I'M SO RELIEVED.

AND I'M ECSTATIC
THAT I'M FINALLY GONNA GET

MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY.

AND I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL RICK

'CAUSE I'M HOPING
HE'LL BE ABLE TO COME DOWN

AND BE WITH ME
WHEN I HAVE THE OPERATION.

IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO MONTHS
SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM,

AND WITH EVERYTHING
THAT'S HAPPENED

WITH HIS HEART YESTERDAY
AND WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH,

I JUST DESPERATELY NEED
TO HOLD HIM.

BUT I'M PROUD THAT I MADE IT
TO THIS POINT,

AND ALL MY HARD WORK
IS PAYING OFF.

♪♪

♪♪

RIGHT NOW, ME, RICK, AND MY MOM
ARE HEADED TO THE HOSPITAL

BECAUSE I'M GETTING
WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY TODAY.

AND I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT.

SO, I'M JUST GLAD THAT THIS DAY
IS FINALLY HERE,

AND THAT I HAVE RICK
BACK WITH ME.

♪♪

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

-HELLO.
-HI, DR. NOW.

-GOOD MORNING.
-GOOD MORNING.

HOW YOU DOING?

TIRED.

-TIRED?
-I DIDN'T SLEEP.

OH, YOU DIDN'T SLEEP?

I'LL LET YOU SLEEP
DURING SURGERY, OKAY?

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?

FINALLY GONNA DO IT, HUH?

-YEP.
-ALL RIGHT, GREAT.

BUT I'D HAD A BOO-BOO.

WHAT HAPPENED?

I, UH, HAD A LAST SUPPER,
I CALL IT.

I THOUGHT THAT WAS
WITH JESUS.

[ LAUGHTER ]

I HAD, UM...

MEATBALLS AND FRIED CALAMARI.

Bridget: WE NEVER GOT HER
A BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION,

'CAUSE YOU KNOW,
SHE SPENT IT HERE.

AND I'M, LIKE,
SHE WON'T BE ABLE TO EAT

ANY OF THESE FOODS ANYMORE,
AND...

WELL, YOUR WEIGHT LOSS
IS STILL GOOD,

SO GET YOU FIXED UP, OKAY?
-YES.

ALL RIGHT, GREAT. ALL RIGHT.

WE'LL GET YOU STARTED
IN A MINUTE, OKAY?

-OKAY. THANK YOU, DR. NOW.
-ALL RIGHT. OKAY.

♪♪

Brianne: I KNOW HOW MUCH
I NEED THIS

BECAUSE IT'LL GIVE ME THE LIFE
I'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF.

AND I'VE WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE
FOR THIS.

I'M NOT GONNA MESS IT UP.

I JUST KNOW IT'LL BE HARD.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY,
WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO PERFORM

A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON BRIANNE.

AND AS ALWAYS, WE HAVE
TO BE VERY CAREFUL

BECAUSE DOING
ANY SORT OF OPERATION

WITH A PERSON HER SIZE
IS VERY HIGH RISK.

ALL RIGHT...
[ SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ]

SO EVEN ANESTHESIA CAN PUT
TOO MUCH STRAIN ON THEIR BODY

AND CAN LEAD TO A SITUATION
WHERE THEIR HEART STOPS

OR THEY NO LONGER
ARE ABLE TO BREATHE.

GO UP.

SO WE NEED TO LIMIT
THE DURATION OF THE SURGERY.

AND IF YOU HAVE ANY INDICATION
THAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN,

WE WILL HAVE TO END
THE OPERATION EARLY FOR SAFETY.

BUT IF WE COMPLETE THE SURGERY,

THIS WILL BE A BIG HELP
FOR BRIANNE,

BECAUSE GASTRIC SLEEVE
IS AN OPERATION

THAT REDUCES
THE STOMACH BY 90%,

LEAVING A LONG, SKINNY TUBE
THAT LOOK LIKE A SLING.

SO THE PATIENT'S FOOD INTAKE
IS PHYSICALLY LIMITED,

AND THIS WILL GIVE THEM
AN OPPORTUNITY

TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT
LONG-TERM.

Rick: RIGHT NOW,
I'M REALLY ANXIOUS.

THIS IS REALLY DIFFICULT
FOR ME TO SIT HERE,

WAITING FOR DR. NOW
TO FINISH UP WITH BRI.

AND I'M WELL AWARE
THAT THERE'S A RISK

IN ANY KIND OF SURGERY
THAT'S DONE.

BUT BRI MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.

SHE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE,

SO I'M HOPING THAT
THE SURGERY GOES WELL.

OKAY. THE STOMACH IS SEPARATED,
SO WE CAN REMOVE IT.

I GOT IT.

GO AHEAD THEN,
JUST GRADUALLY TAKE IT OUT.

KEEP PULLING. KEEP PULLING.
GOOD.

LOOKS GOOD.

OKAY, CAN YOU TURN
THE ROOM LIGHT ON?

♪♪

ALL RIGHT, WE'RE DONE.

ALL RIGHT, BRIANNE'S SURGERY
WENT VERY WELL.

IT WAS A LITTLE BIT
MORE CHALLENGING THAN USUAL

BECAUSE OF HER THICK STOMACH
MUSCLE AND ABDOMINAL WALL,

BUT WE WERE ABLE TO COMPLETE
HER OPERATION SAFELY.

SO THIS WILL BE A BIG HELP
FOR HER NOW.

SHE HAS A VERY LONG STOMACH
THAT WE TOOK OUT.

AND NOW THAT SHE HAS HAD
THIS OPERATION,

SHE SHOULD BE ABLE
TO LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS

THE FIRST MONTH AFTER SURGERY,

THEN SETTLE INTO LOSING AROUND
30 POUNDS EACH MONTH AFTER THAT

UNTIL SHE GETS CLOSE
TO HER TARGET WEIGHT.

SHE DID GREAT, WORKING HARD
AND LOSING A LOT OF WEIGHT

THE PAST FEW MONTHS.

BUT EVENTUALLY, SHE WILL START
TO GAIN AGAIN,

EVEN WITH THE AID
OF WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY

IF SHE DOESN'T DEAL
WITH HER EMOTIONAL ISSUES

THAT HAVE BEEN DRIVING HER
TO EAT.

SO IF SHE DOESN'T, THEN WILL BE
JUST A MATTER OF TIME

BEFORE SHE STARTS TO GAIN AGAIN
AND GET BACK TO OVER 700 POUNDS.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne:
IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH

SINCE MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY,

AND MY RECOVERY HAS BEEN GOOD.

THE FIRST COUPLE OF WEEKS,
IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO DO A LOT,

SO RICK DECIDED
TO STAY DOWN LONGER.

IT'S BEEN REALLY NICE
BEING WITH HIM.

BUT NOW THAT
I'VE PRETTY MUCH RECOVERED,

RICK IS HEADING BACK TO OREGON,
AND I WANTED TO GO OUT

AND CELEBRATE
HOW MUCH I CAN DO NOW

AND SPEND
THE WHOLE DAY WITH HIM.

I GUESS THIS
IS GONNA BE, LIKE,

ONE OF OUR LAST HURRAHS
FOR A WHILE, HUH?

SHOULD BE FUN.

BABE, I'D HAVE FUN WITH YOU
IN A CARDBOARD BOX.

IT DEPENDS ON WHAT
CAME IN THE BOX.

-WHAT?
-[ LAUGHS ]

Brianne: I KNOW
I'VE ONLY LOST 200 POUNDS,

BUT I CAN ALREADY DO A LOT MORE.

AND I SAW THERE'S
THIS DOUBLE DECKER BUS TOUR

OF DOWNTOWN HOUSTON.

THAT WASN'T ON THE LIST
OF THINGS TO DO

WHEN I LOST WEIGHT,
BUT IT IS NOW.

-READY TO GO DO THIS?
-LET'S DO IT.

ALL RIGHT.

SO RICK AND I ARE JUST GONNA
HAVE FUN

AND ENJOY A TASTE
OF THE NEW LIFE

I'M WORKING SO HARD FOR.

Rick: I WONDER IF THEY'RE
GONNA SHOW US

ST. JOSEPH'S
MEDICAL CENTER.

-SHUT UP.
-[ LAUGHS ]

YOU SAID YOU WANTED
TO GO UP THE TOP?

I'M GONNA TRY.
HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE IT.

[ GRUNTS ]

THESE ARE STEEP.

[ GRUNTS ]

Man: [ over P.A. ] THANK YOU
SO MUCH FOR YOUR PATIENCE.

MY NAME IS ANTONIO, AND I'M
GONNA BE YOUR TOUR GUIDE TODAY,

AND I'M GONNA START A TOUR
IN A COUPLE OF MINUTES.

-WHEW.
-BEFORE WE START,

I WOULD LIKE TO MENTION THAT
FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY,

PLEASE ALWAYS REMAIN SEATED
WHILE THE VEHICLE IS IN MOTION,

AND KEEP YOUR ARMS AND HEAD
INSIDE THE VEHICLE ALL THE TIME.

YOU DID IT, HON!

I'M GONNA SIT BEHIND YOU, OKAY?
-OKAY.

Antonio:
ALL RIGHTY, MY FRIENDS,

I WOULD LIKE TO WELCOME Y'ALL
TO HOUSTON.

WE'RE GONNA START THE TOUR.
RULE NUMBER ONE.

SINCE THIS IS A BRITISH BUS,
YOU HAVE TO WAVE.

SO YOU KNOW, BE POLITE.
BE VERY ROYAL, ALL RIGHT?

SO WELCOME.

YOU ARE IN THE FOURTH LARGEST
CITY OF THE U.S.,

AND THE LARGEST CITY
IN THE SOUTHERN STATES.

OVER THERE TO THE RIGHT, THAT IS
THE HOME OF THE HOUSTON ROCKETS,

OUR PROFESSIONAL BASKETBALL
TEAM.

WE GOT BEAT
BY THE WARRIORS.

[ LAUGHS ]

...DON'T EXPECT TO SEE
VERY OLD STRUCTURES IN HOUSTON

BECAUSE HOUSTON
IS A VERY YOUNG CITY.

IT WAS BUILT IN 1836.

Brianne: I'M GRATEFUL THAT I GET
THIS TIME WITH RICK.

AND I'M VERY SAD HE'S LEAVING,

AND THAT I'M GONNA
BE ALONE AGAIN.

SO THESE NEXT FEW MONTHS
ARE GONNA BE TOUGH

BECAUSE DR. NOW SAID
I NEEDED TO START THERAPY

IF I WANTED TO BE ABLE
TO STAY ON TRACK

AND KEEP MAKING PROGRESS,

AND THAT HE WAS GOING TO
SET UP APPOINTMENTS

WITH A THERAPIST FOR ME.

AND I KNOW STARTING THAT ISN'T
GONNA BE EASY BECAUSE IT MEANS

I'LL BE TALKING ABOUT
A LOT OF HARD STUFF.

BUT I LOVE THE DIRECTION
MY LIFE IS GOING NOW.

YOU HAVE FUN?
-OH, YEAH.

Antonio: HOPEFULLY,
YOU ENJOYED THE TOUR.

THANK YOU AGAIN
AND GOD BLESS YOU.

JUST WATCH YOUR STEP AND TRY TO
CROSS FROM THE CORNER.

-Brianne: YOU READY?
-HOUSTON'S PRETTY COOL.

A LOT OF NEAT ARCHITECTURE,
THAT'S FOR SURE.

YEAH.

[ GROANS ]

WHEW!

I DID IT.
-GOOD JOB.

♪♪

Brianne: IT'S BEEN SO LONG
SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE

TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS.

I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I HAVE
A CHANCE AT THE LIFE I WANT,

AND I DON'T WANT
TO JEOPARDIZE LOSING THIS.

I'VE HAD A TASTE OF HOPE,

SO AS HARD AS IT WILL BE TO SAY
GOODBYE TO RICK AGAIN

AND START DOING THINGS
LIKE TALK ABOUT MY PAST,

I'M WILLING TO DO
WHATEVER IT TAKES

TO MAKE SURE DAYS LIKE TODAY
BECOME NORMAL FOR ME.

SO I JUST HOPE
I'M STRONG ENOUGH.

♪♪

♪♪

TODAY, I'M GONNA BE MEETING
WITH A THERAPIST,

AND I'M REALLY EMOTIONAL
RIGHT NOW.

AFTER RICK LEFT,
I'VE BEEN ON MY OWN,

SO I'VE BEEN EXTREMELY LONELY.

AND THAT'S MADE IT
A LITTLE HARDER

TO BUILD UP THE COURAGE
TO GO TO THERAPY.

SO I'VE BEEN AVOIDING IT
A LITTLE.

BUT I HAD ANOTHER APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOW,

AND I'M STILL LOSING,
BUT NOT AS MUCH.

AND HE TOLD ME IF I WANTED
TO STAY ON TRACK,

I NEED TO DO THIS NOW,
SO I'M GOING.

I'M JUST NOT
LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

-ARE YOU BRI?
-HI. YES.

-I'M DR. PARADISE. COME ON IN.
-NICE TO MEET YOU.

YOU CAN HAVE A SEAT
RIGHT OVER THERE.

SO...GOOD TO MEET YOU.

I WANT TO START BY FINDING OUT
A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU.

UM, I STARTED MY WEIGHT LOSS
JOURNEY AT OVER 700 POUNDS.

-OKAY.
-I'VE LOST OVER 200.

-CONGRATULATIONS.
-THANK YOU.

SO, WHAT WAS CHILDHOOD LIKE
FOR YOU?

MY PARENTS, THEY -- YOU KNOW,
THEY WERE IN THE MILITARY.

THEY WORKED A LOT.
-OKAY.

AND MY DAD, HE KIND OF
WORKED ALL OVER THE PLACE.

HE TRAVELED A LOT?

WELL, HE DID DO
A COUPLE OF TOURS, LIKE,

OUT OF COUNTRY WHERE HE WAS
GONE FOR ABOUT 14 MONTHS.

SO IT WAS JUST MY MOM
AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER AND I.

INTERESTING. DO YOU REMEMBER
WHAT THAT WAS LIKE FOR YOU?

YEAH. AS I GOT OLDER,
I'D SAY LIKE MIDDLE SCHOOL --

THE END OF MIDDLE SCHOOL
TO HIGH SCHOOL -- MM-HMM.

MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD
REALLY TURNED.

WE JUST -- WE JUST CLASHED
ALL THE TIME.

SO IT WAS THINGS
LIKE TALKING BACK TO HIM?

MM-HMM. LIKE, I DON'T KNOW
IF IT WAS SOMETHING I DID

OR SOMETHING THAT
I WAS DOING.

BUT I JUST FELT LIKE MY DAD
JUST DIDN'T LIKE ME OR LOVE ME

AS MUCH
AS MY BROTHER AND SISTER.

SO WHAT GAVE YOU
THAT IMPRESSION?

THERE WAS TIMES WHERE, LIKE,
HE WOULD SAY THINGS

THAT WOULD REALLY AFFECT ME.

THINGS ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT?

YEAH, AND IT JUST MADE ME
FEEL LIKE I WASN'T LOVED.

OKAY.

THERE WAS ONE TIME
HE CAME INTO MY ROOM,

AND I JUST REMEMBER
HIS FACE,

AND I JUST FELT LIKE
HE HATED ME.

I MEAN, HE HAD TO HAVE HATED ME
TO CALL ME NAMES LIKE, YOU KNOW,

FAT -- FAT NAMES AND...

THAT'S HOW A KID LIKE YOU
WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT, RIGHT?

WHERE WAS YOUR MOM
WHEN THIS WAS HAPPENING?

SHE WOULDN'T BE THERE.

SHE'D BE AT WORK, BUT SHE'D BE,
LIKE, "BRIANNE, YOU WERE WRONG.

"YOU SHOULD NOT BE
TALKING BACK

OR YOU SHOULDN'T BE
DOING THIS OR..."

BASICALLY SAYING THAT
SHE'S CHOOSING HIM OVER HIM.

IN A WAY.

HOW DO YOU THINK THAT AFFECTED
YOUR BEHAVIOR AFTER THAT?

I WAS SO ANGRY,
BUT ALSO JUST DONE,

SO I DIDN'T CARE ANYMORE.
-MM-HMM.

WHERE DOES IT STAND
WITH YOUR DAD NOW?

WE DON'T HAVE
A RELATIONSHIP.

THE LAST TIME I SAW MY DAD
WAS 2007.

TELL ME ABOUT THE LAST
INTERACTION WITH YOUR DAD.

I DON'T REMEMBER.

I KIND OF WONDER,
IF HE WAS SITTING RIGHT THERE,

WHAT WOULD YOU GUYS
BE TALKING ABOUT?

I WOULD JUST TELL HIM
HOW MUCH I MISS HIM.

MM-HMM.

SO MOVING FORWARD FROM HERE,
DO YOU HAVE A LOT OF HOPES

OF PUTTING THINGS BACK TOGETHER
WITH YOUR WHOLE FAMILY?

MM-HMM.

I'M ACTUALLY THINKING THIS IS
GONNA BE YOUR HOMEWORK.

I THINK LEARNING TO
STICK UP FOR YOURSELF

A LITTLE BIT
MIGHT BE REALLY HELPFUL.

AND I KNOW IT MUST BE
A CHALLENGE

GIVEN THE HISTORY
OF YOUR FAMILY

TO THINK THAT, LIKE, STICKING UP
FOR YOURSELF WOULD BE HELPFUL.

BUT I WONDER WHAT WOULD HAPPEN
IF YOU SHARE WITH THEM

SOME OF THE IMPACT OF YOUR
CHILDHOOD ON HOW YOUR LIFE WENT.

TALKING TO YOUR MOM
IS PROBABLY A BIG STEP.

COULD YOU OPEN ABOUT ALL THIS
STUFF WE TALKED ABOUT TO HER?

I MEAN, I'M NOT GONNA
LIE TO YOU.

I'D BE NERVOUS.

AND IF SHE REACTS
NEGATIVELY?

AT LEAST I TALKED TO HER
ABOUT IT?

MM-HMM.

AND MY GUESS IS, THERE MAY BE
AN OPPORTUNITY

TO TALK WITH YOUR DAD
ABOUT THIS AT SOME POINT.

-AT SOME POINT, I THINK.
-YEAH.

HE DOESN'T HAVE TO PARTICIPATE
FOR YOU TO DO THIS WORK.

YEAH.

IF YOU CAME AWAY
FROM THIS MEETING TODAY

REALLY BELIEVING THAT YOU
DESERVED TO BE TREATED WELL,

I THINK THAT'D BE
A HUGE VICTORY.

IT WOULD CHANGE THE WAY
YOU INTERACT

WITH EVERYBODY,
IN A POSITIVE WAY.

YOU GOT A LOT OF THINKING TO DO.
-MM-HMM.

AND A LOT OF WORK TO DO,
BUT YOU'RE GETTING THERE.

MM-HMM.

GOOD. GREAT TO TALK TO YOU.

GREAT TO TALK TO YOU.

♪♪

THANK YOU SO MUCH.
-THANKS FOR COMING.

-IT WAS GREAT TO MEET YOU.
-YEAH, GREAT TO MEET YOU.

TAKE CARE.

Brianne: I KNOW I NEEDED
TO DO THIS,

BUT THIS WAS SO HARD,

WHICH IS WHAT I WAS SCARED OF.

AND JUST THE THOUGHT OF EVEN
TALKING TO MY MOM,

MUCH LESS MY FATHER,

EVEN IF IT'S DOWN THE ROAD,
TERRIFIES ME.

BUT THIS IS SOMETHING
I HAVE TO DO

IF I WANT TO EVER BREAK
THE CYCLE

THAT ALWAYS LEADS ME TO FOOD.

SO THIS IS GONNA BE
A BIG CHALLENGE.

AND I JUST HOPE IT DOESN'T ALL
GO HORRIBLY WRONG

AND END UP MAKING THINGS
EVEN WORSE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne:
SINCE MY THERAPY APPOINTMENT,

I'VE BEEN WORKING UP THE COURAGE
TO DO WHAT DR. PARADISE SAID

ABOUT STANDING UP FOR MYSELF

AND TO START FACING
SOME OF THE EMOTIONAL THINGS

FROM MY PAST THAT HAVE BEEN
TIED TO EATING FOR ME.

SO I ASKED MY MOM TO HELP ME
RUN SOME ERRANDS

AND THEN GET SOME LUNCH WITH ME,
HOPING WE COULD TALK.

BUT BETWEEN PAYING BILLS
AND GOING TO THE STORE

AND SOME
MINOR CAR TROUBLE EARLIER,

THE DAY HAS ALREADY BEEN
A LITTLE STRESSFUL,

SO I'M TERRIFIED ABOUT
HOW THIS IS GONNA GO.

HOO! SHOOT, THAT HURT.

[ BRIDGET
SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ]

-THANK YOU, MAMA.
-YOU'RE WELCOME.

WANT TO SIT OVER THERE?

-SURE.
-OKAY. WATCH THIS.

ALL RIGHT.

WOW. WE'RE IN A BOOTH.

AND I HAVE ROOM.
YOU GOT ENOUGH ROOM?

-YEAH.
-WHEW.

Man: CAN I GET Y'ALL
SOMETHING TO DRINK?

-YES.
-WATER.
-OF COURSE.

WATER AND AN UNSWEETENED TEA
WITH MAYBE LEMON?

OF COURSE. ANY APPETIZERS
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT?

WELL, I CAN HAVE BABA GA--
WAIT, HOW --

-OH, YEAH, BABA GANOUSH.
-BABA GANOUSH.

-IT'S VERY GOOD.
-YEAH, LET'S TRY IT.

SOUNDS GOOD.
I'LL BRING IT RIGHT OUT.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

DON'T YOU HAVE TO,
WHEN YOU EAT, BE CAREFUL?

BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT
TO GET BACK TO WHERE YOU WERE.

YOU ALREADY LOST
A HUMAN OFF OF YOU.

-YEAH.
-EXCUSE ME.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

LOOK AT YOU.

YOU'RE SMALLER NOW THAN
WHEN I SAW YOU IN OREGON.

-REALLY? YOU THINK?
-YEAH.

I KNOW. I'VE COME A LONG WAY,
AND I WANT TO KEEP THAT GOING.

BUT TO DO THAT,
MY THERAPIST SAYS

I NEED TO DEAL WITH
SOME THINGS.

AND IT'S KIND OF SOMETHING

THAT I'VE BEEN WANTING
TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT,

JUST TO KIND OF
GET IT OFF MY CHEST.

LIKE...GROWING UP.

I JUST...I FELT LIKE

I ONLY REALLY HAD MYSELF
TO DEPEND ON.

AND I'VE JUST FELT LIKE
DAD DIDN'T LOVE ME.

I CAN SEE THAT.

BUT I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND
WHY YOU DIDN'T DO SOMETHING

TO STOP HOW HE TREATED ME.

I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T...
I CAN'T ANSWER THAT.

THE ONE WHERE I FELT LIKE
DAD JUST HATED ME

WAS WHEN WE WERE ALL RIDING
BIKES, AND HE GOT MAD.

AND I JUST REMEMBER, HE SAID
EVERY NAME IN THE BOOK.

LIKE...

AND I STILL REMEMBER, LIKE,
THE LOOK, YOU KNOW.

I JUST --
I NEVER GOT THAT OUT.

AND YOU CAME UPSTAIRS
AND YOU WERE PISSED,

BUT YOU STILL DIDN'T
DO ANYTHING.

HOW OLD WERE YOU?
TEENAGER?

I THINK I WAS, LIKE,
12, 13.

WE WERE YOUNG.
I MEAN, IT'S NOT AN EXCUSE.

WE LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES,

AND WE BOTH HAD
VERY STRESSFUL JOBS THAT,

WHEN YOU GET HOME,
IF YOU HELD IT IN,

AND ONE LITTLE STRESSOR CAN MAKE
THAT WHOLE GATE FLOOD, YEAH.

EXPLODE, YEAH.
AND I UNDERSTAND THAT.

AS AN ADULT, I UNDERSTAND THAT.
BUT I'M YOUR KID.

IT WAS YOUR JOB TO PROTECT ME,
AND YOU DIDN'T.

I'M SORRY
YOU FELT THAT WAY.

BUT I STILL REMEMBER, LIKE,
THAT'S WHAT MADE ME FEEL

LIKE HE HATED ME.

AND BEFORE THAT,
I THOUGHT I HAD YOU,

AND I FEEL LIKE THAT WAS
THE BIG MOMENT

WHERE I FELT LIKE
I HAD NO ONE,

AND I STARTED GOING
OFF THE RAILS.

DAD SHOULD HAVE
KNOWN BETTER.

I'VE TALKED TO HIM ABOUT THAT,
NEVER EXPLODE.

YOU KNOW I HAVEN'T
PHYSICALLY SEEN HIM

IN, LIKE, 11 YEARS.

THAT HURTS ME DEARLY.

AND THAT HURTS ME, TOO.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I COULD HAVE
DONE TO MAKE IT DIFFERENT.

YOU COULD HAVE
PROTECTED ME MORE.

YOU KNOW, I WISH, YOU KNOW,
GROWING UP

THAT YOU WERE JUST THERE
FOR ME MORE.

YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT FUN

FEELING SCARED AND ALL ALONE
WHEN YOU'RE A KID.

I FEEL LIKE YOU LET ME DOWN.

YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE
FOR ME.

UM, I DON'T...

I DON'T KNOW
WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THAT.

I REALLY DON'T.

I WISH I COULD HAVE
DONE THINGS DIFFERENTLY.

THIS HAS BEEN ONE
OF THOSE [BLEEP] DAYS.

[ UTENSIL CLINKS ]

I'M LETTING EVERYBODY DOWN,
YEAH.

I'M DONE.

♪♪

Brianne: I WAS AFRAID
THIS WOULD HAPPEN.

I JUST HOPE THAT I DIDN'T JUST
MAKE THINGS A WHOLE LOT WORSE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

I'M PACKING RIGHT NOW TO TAKE
A TRIP BACK TO OREGON.

RICK AND CAT DON'T KNOW
I'M COMING,

AND I'M HOPING TO SURPRISE THEM
WHEN I SHOW UP.

CAT'S BEEN HAVING KIND OF
A ROUGH WEEK,

AND LIKE, THE VERY FIRST THING
SHE SAID WAS LIKE,

"I WISH I COULD HUG YOU."

I MISS THEM BOTH SO MUCH,

AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SHOW THEM
HOW FAR I'VE COME,

ESPECIALLY CAT.

I HAVEN'T SEEN CAT SINCE I LEFT,

SO IT'S BEEN, LIKE,
SEVEN TO EIGHT MONTHS,

SO SHE SHOULD SEE
A HUGE DIFFERENCE IN HOW I LOOK.

MY WEIGHT LOSS HAD STARTED
TO SLOW A FEW MONTHS AGO,

BUT I PICKED UP THE PACE AGAIN
THIS PAST MONTH.

SO AS HARD AS IT WAS TO START
TO TALK TO MOM,

I GUESS THAT PROCESS
IS HELPING DEAL

WITH THE THINGS
THAT LED ME TO EAT.

I STILL HAVE HOPE THAT I'LL BE
ABLE TO WORK THINGS OUT

WITH MY MOM,
AND EVEN MY DAD, EVENTUALLY.

BUT I KNOW THAT'S GONNA
TAKE TIME.

AND THAT MEANS I HAVE
TO STAY FOCUSED

ON MY JOURNEY TO GET HEALTHY.

THANK YOU.

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

[ PANTING ]

OHH.

THE ONLY THING I'M NERVOUS ABOUT
IS THE AIRPORT.

I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA
BE ABLE TO WALK THROUGH

THE AIRPORT
THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME.

IT'S BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME

SINCE I'VE TRIED TO DO ANYTHING
LIKE THIS ON MY OWN

AND GO THIS FAR WITHOUT
ANY SORT OF HELP WITH ME.

MY LAST EXPERIENCE
WAS WHEN I CAME TO SEE DR. NOW,

AND I HAD RICK WITH ME.

BUT IT NEARLY PUSHED ME
TO MY LIMIT,

AND I ALMOST
DIDN'T EVEN MAKE IT,

EVEN WITH ALL THE HELP
I HAD THEN.

SO AS EXCITED AS I AM,
I'M ALSO WORRIED THAT

IF I START
TO REALLY STRUGGLE A LOT,

IT WILL MEAN
I DID TOO MUCH, TOO SOON.

AND IF THAT HAPPENS, I'M NOT
GONNA HAVE ANYONE TO HELP ME.

THE LAST TIME, THERE WAS NO WAY

I COULD WALK THROUGH
THE AIRPORT AT ALL.

SO THIS JUST SHOWS
MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS PAYING OFF.

WHEW.

SO FAR, I'M REALLY TIRED.

IT'S KIND OF TAKING
A LOT OUT OF ME.

AND I'M JUST FEELING
A LITTLE BIT WEAK.

I'M HOPING THAT MY BODY
CAN MAKE IT

THROUGH THE REST OF
TODAY'S TRAVEL.

I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING
TO GET TO MY LIMIT,

SO I NEED TO GET ON THE PLANE
SOON BEFORE I GET TO THAT POINT.

OR IT COULD GET BAD.

♪♪

Brianne:
BEFORE GETTING ON THE PLANE,

I WAS STARTING
TO GET REALLY WORRIED

THAT I WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE
TO PUSH MYSELF TO KEEP GOING

AND MAKE IT ALL THE WAY HERE.

BUT THANKFULLY, IT WASN'T TOO
LONG BEFORE THEY LET US BOARD,

AND ONCE I GOT ON, I WAS ABLE
TO CATCH MY BREATH A LITTLE.

SO I'M REALLY GLAD I DID IT
AND I MADE IT HERE.

BUT I'M FEELING REALLY EXHAUSTED
FROM ALL THIS ACTIVITY

AND I'M READY TO GET HOME.

BUT I STILL HAVE
A LONG DRIVE AHEAD OF ME,

SO I NEED TO JUST HOLD ON
A LITTLE LONGER.

THANKFULLY, MY FRIEND JAMIE
IS COMING TO PICK ME UP.

IT'S BEEN A WHILE
SINCE I'VE SEEN HERE,

BUT WHEN I CALLED HER TO ASK
FOR HELP GETTING HOME,

SHE TOLD ME SHE'D
GIVE ME A RIDE,

SO I'M REALLY THANKFUL FOR THAT.

BUT I'M REALLY EXCITED
AND ANXIOUS TO GET HOME

AND SEE MY FAMILY AND SURPRISE
THEM WITH MY PROGRESS,

AND SHOW THEM THAT I WAS ABLE
TO DO THIS WHOLE TRIP ON MY OWN.

DUDE, I'M SO [BLEEP] TIRED.

♪♪

RIGHT NOW, I'M FREAKING OUT
'CAUSE I'M SO EXCITED.

I CAN'T WAIT
TO SEE THEIR FACES

AND JUST LOVE ON THEM
AND BE WITH THEM.

I MISS THEM SO MUCH.

RIGHT HERE, JAMIE, IS GOOD.

FREAKING OUT.

Brianne: I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN,
AND I'M REALLY SORE,

BUT ALL I CARE ABOUT
IS I'M ABOUT TO SEE

RICK NOW AND CAT SOON, TOO.

AND I CAN'T WAIT.

THIS IS GONNA BE SO GREAT.

[ DOOR UNLOCKS ]

-Rick: HI!
-[ LAUGHS ]

-[ LAUGHS ]
-HI!

HI!

-SURPRISE!
-[ LAUGHS ]

-I MISSED YOU MORE!
-SO AWESOME.

OH! [ LAUGHS ]
SORRY TO MAKE YOU CRY.

OF COURSE.

Rick: I'M JUST IN SHOCK 'CAUSE I
WASN'T EXPECTING HER TO BE HERE.

SO I'M REALLY HAPPY,
REALLY HAPPY TO SEE HER.

[ PANTING ]

SO, HOW DID YOU MANAGE
TO COME BACK?

I HAD NO IDEA
YOU WERE COMING BACK.

I WOKE UP AT 5:00
IN THE MORNING.

YEAH.

FLEW OUT OF HOUSTON,
WALKED THROUGH HOUSTON,

AND WE LANDED AT PORTLAND.

JAMIE PICKED ME UP
BECAUSE I WANTED EVERYBODY ELSE

TO BE SURPRISED.

-[ LAUGHS ]
-AND THEN CAT HAS NO IDEA.

SHE HAS NO IDEA.

I WAS THIS CLOSE TO SURPRISING
HER AT WORK, BUT...

AND YOU KEPT TELLING ME
THE WHOLE TIME, "I MISS YOU.

I'M SO LONELY. I MISS YOU."
-[ LAUGHS ]

-[ LAUGHING ]
-I AM THE QUEEN OF SURPRISES.

MM-HMM.

Rick: I COULD TELL SHE'S LOST
EVEN MORE WEIGHT

SINCE THE LAST TIME
I'VE SEEN HER,

SO I CAN'T EXPRESS ENOUGH
HOW PROUD OF HER I AM,

HOW MUCH I LOVE HER,
AND HOW HAPPY I AM

TO SEE HER DOING SO WELL.

Brianne: I'M REALLY PROUD
OF MYSELF FOR MAKING IT

ALL THIS WAY ON MY OWN.

I KNOW I NEED TO TAKE IT EASY
FOR A BIT,

BUT I PLAN TO COOK DINNER
AND SURPRISE CAT.

THAT WAY, WHEN SHE COMES HOME,

I NOT ONLY SURPRISE HER
BY BEING HER,

BUT BY BEING UP AND ACTIVE
AND TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY

JUST AS I USED TO DO
AS HER MOM.

SO I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE
THE EXPRESSION ON HER FACE.

♪♪

[ DOG BARKING ]
-Catrina: HI, DAD!

HEY, KIDDO. HOW YOU DOING?
HOW WAS WORK?

-GOOD.
-GOOD?

ONCE AGAIN,
THEY OVER-SCHEDULED US...

-HI, BABY.
-[ GASPS ] MOM!

[ LAUGHTER ]

[ CRIES ] OH, MY GOSH!

WHAT'D I TELL YOU?
[ LAUGHS ]

I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!

SO MUCH. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH.
I JUST MISSED YOU SO MUCH.

SURPRISE!

[ LAUGHS, CRIES ]

ARE YOU SURPRISED?

UH-HUH. OH, MY GOD.

I AM... [ LAUGHS ]

I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING
ABOUT IT, EITHER.

-[ LAUGHS ]
-SHE SHOWED UP AT THE DOOR.

OH, MY GOD.
AND YOU LOOK SO GOOD.

-THANK YOU, CAT.
-I LOVE YOU.

-OH! OW!
[ LAUGHTER ]

IT FEELS AMAZING TO
SEE MOM HOME.

I'M SO HAPPY THAT SHE'S BACK,

EVEN IF IT'S FOR
A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME.

I'M VERY PROUD OF HER.

IT'S AMAZING HOW MUCH WEIGHT
SHE'S LOST

AND HOW HEALTHY SHE'S GETTING.

THANK YOU, MOM.
-YOU'RE WELCOME, SWEETIE.

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE TIMES
YOU COOKED ME DINNER.

THIS IS PRETTY NEAT,
HAVING MOM COOK FOR US, HUH?

-MM-HMM.
-YOU DON'T WANT ANY BREAD?

-NO, I'M GOOD.
-Brianne: GOOD GIRL.

THE HAPPINESS AND FULFILLMENT
AND HOPE I FEEL RIGHT NOW

ARE THINGS
I HAVEN'T FELT IN A LONG TIME.

AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THAT
BECAUSE I STARTED GAINING AGAIN.

IT'S NOT WORTH IT.

SO I'M DETERMINED
TO MAKE IT TO MY GOAL,

AND I KNOW THE SOONER
I GET THERE,

THE SOONER
I COULD COME BACK HERE

AND BE WITH MY FAMILY
FOR GOOD AGAIN.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: RIGHT NOW, I'M HEADED
BACK TO SEE DR. NOW

FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT,
AND FIND OUT HOW MUCH

I'VE LOST OVER
THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS.

I WENT UP TO OREGON,
AND I WAS GONNA STAY A MONTH,

BUT I ENDED UP STAYING FOR TWO.

IT WAS SO GOOD BEING
BACK UP THERE WITH MY FAMILY.

IT WAS JUST HARD FOR ME
TO LEAVE.

SO I MISSED MY LAST APPOINTMENT
A MONTH AGO,

BUT DR. NOW SAID IT WAS FINE
AS LONG AS I STAYED ON TRACK.

SO EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN AWAY,
IT HASN'T BEEN A VACATION

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD
TO DO THAT.

AND I'M FEELING CONFIDENT
MY WEIGH-IN WILL BE GOOD TODAY.

AND HOPEFULLY, I'LL BE ABLE
TO GET APPROVED

FOR MY FIRST SKIN REMOVAL

TO HAVE THE EXCESS SKIN
AROUND MY STOMACH REMOVED,

BECAUSE ALL THAT SAGGING SKIN
IS STARTING TO CAUSE ME

A LOT OF PAIN.

BRIANNE?

Brianne: BUT DR. NOW TOLD ME

I NEED TO GET DOWN INTO THE 300s
BEFORE I'M READY FOR THAT.

AND IF I STAYED ON TRACK,
I SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT.

BECAUSE AT MY LAST WEIGH-IN
TWO MONTHS AGO,

I WAS DOWN TO 447.

AND HE TOLD ME, AT THIS POINT,

I SHOULD BE LOSING AT LEAST
30 POUNDS A MONTH.

SO THAT MEANS I SHOULD BE AT
OR BELOW 387 TODAY.

SO I'M REALLY HOPING
I LOST WHAT I NEED.

♪♪

HOLY [BLEEP].

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

[ Whispers ] WHEW. HOLY MOLY.

I MAY NOT HAVE HIT MY GOAL
FOR THIS MONTH,

BUT I STILL LOST A LOT,

AND I'M SO EXCITED TO BE
IN THE 300s.

IT'S BEEN, LIKE, 20 YEARS
SINCE I'VE BEEN THIS SMALL.

SO SEEING THAT FELT REALLY GOOD.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

COME IN.

-HELLO.
-HI, DR. NOW.

-HI, BRIANNE.
-HOW ARE YOU?

DOING OKAY. HOW ABOUT YOU?

I'M DOING PRETTY GREAT.

WELL, I'M GLAD TO HEAR THAT.
BUT WHERE'S YOUR MOM?

I'M DOING THINGS
ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW.

-YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN NOW?
-YEP.

WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU
FOR TAKING A STEP LIKE THAT,

AND FOR NOT USING THAT

AS AN EXCUSE TO RUN BACK
TO FOOD OR DOING LESS.

BUT YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LOSE
AT LEAST 60 POUNDS

FROM YOUR LAST WEIGH-IN
BY TODAY.

YOU ONLY LOST 50.
-MM-HMM.

BUT CONSIDERING
YOUR WEIGHT LOSS SLOWED

TO LOSING ONLY AROUND 10 POUNDS
FEW MONTHS AGO,

I SAY THIS IS A MOVE
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

-WHEW.
-SO I'M HAPPY WITH THAT.

YOU LOST ALMOST 350 POUNDS
AT THIS POINT.

-WHOO-HOO!
-OKAY.

WAIT, I SHOULD GET TWO
FOR THAT ONE.

OKAY.
WITH HOW MUCH YOU HAVE LOST,

YOU ARE READY FOR YOUR FIRST
EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL.

HERE WE GO.

BUT IT IS A BIG OPERATION,

AND YOU NEED SOMEONE THERE
FOR YOU

TO HELP YOU
ONCE YOU GO HOME.

BUT YOU SAID THAT ALL YOU HAVE
IS YOUR MOM HERE,

SO DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA
OF REACHING OUT TO HER

IN THE NEAR FUTURE
AND SMOOTHING THINGS OVER?

WE'RE STILL TRYING.

YOU'RE STILL TRYING?

-YEAH.
-THAT'S UNDERSTANDABLE,

BUT ONCE YOU FIGURE OUT SOMEONE
TO HELP YOU WITH YOUR RECOVERY,

THEN WE'LL MOVE AHEAD WITH
YOUR FIRST EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL

FROM AROUND YOUR STOMACH.

IS THAT A DEAL?
-IT'S A DEAL. I LIKE THAT.

ALL RIGHT. YOU'RE DOING GOOD,
AND I'M PROUD OF YOU,

AND I'LL SEE YOU
IN COUPLE MONTHS.

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING,
JUST CALL US.

-OKAY.
-YOU'RE DOING GREAT, OKAY?

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN,
DR. NOW.

-YOU'RE WELCOME.
-YOU'RE A LIFESAVER.

OKAY. WE'LL SEE YOU THEN.

BRIANNE HAS DONE GREAT,

BUT THERE'S STILL A LOT
OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF HER,

AS WELL AS THINGS THAT SHE HAS
TO FACE AND DEAL WITH

THAT MAY LEAD HER TO STRUGGLE.

BUT WE'LL BE THERE TO HELP HER
GET BACK ON TRACK

IF THAT HAPPENS.

AND I'M CONVINCED
THAT EVEN IF SHE STUMBLES,

BRIANNE WON'T LET HERSELF
GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT.

Brianne: I WAS REALLY HOPING
THAT I'D BE ABLE TO GET APPROVED

FOR SKIN REMOVAL TODAY AND GET
AN ACTUAL DATE ON THE SCHEDULE.

BUT I KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT,

AND THAT THIS ISN'T GONNA BE
AN EASY SURGERY.

SO I'M GOING TO NEED THE HELP,

AND MY MOM IS
THE ONLY OPTION I REALLY HAVE.

BUT IT MAKES ME NERVOUS TO THINK
ABOUT REACHING OUT

TO HER RIGHT NOW.

BUT I STARTED A TRANSITION
TO A NEW PHASE IN MY LIFE,

AND I INTEND TO GET THERE,
NO MATTER WHAT.

♪♪

♪♪

WHEN I GOT BACK FROM OREGON,
I DECIDED I WANT TO GET OUT

AND START DOING MORE THINGS
ON MY OWN.

AND ONE THING I DECIDED TO DO

WAS JOIN
A LOCAL COED SOFTBALL TEAM,

BECAUSE I FIGURED IT'D BE
A GOOD WAY TO MAKE SURE

I EXERCISE LIKE I NEED,

AND I'D GET OUT
AND MEET NEW PEOPLE.

Man: HEY, BRI.
ARE YOU READY TO WARM UP?

SURE.

Brianne: I'M AMAZED AT HOW MUCH
I'M ABLE TO DO NOW,

AND I'M GONNA MAKE SURE I KEEP
MAKING PROGRESS, NO MATTER WHAT,

EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO FACE
THINGS I DON'T WANT TO

AND HAVE CONVERSATIONS
I PREFER TO AVOID.

I'VE ALREADY TAKEN ANOTHER STEP
AND REACHED OUT TO MY MOM

AND HAD ANOTHER CONVERSATION
WITH HER.

AND THIS TIME, IT WENT BETTER.

SHE EVEN APOLOGIZED
FOR LAST TIME.

SO THAT WAS REALLY ENCOURAGING.

[ BAT CRACKS ]
OH!

AND SHE ALSO SAID
THAT SHE WOULD BE THERE FOR ME

AND HELP TAKE CARE OF ME
IF I HAVE SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY.

SO I TOLD DR. NOW,
AND HE SCHEDULED MY SURGERY

FOR A MONTH AND A HALF FROM NOW

TO COINCIDE WITH WHEN MY MOM
CAN TAKE TIME OFF OF WORK

FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS
AND HELP ME.

AND I CAN'T WAIT BECAUSE
THIS IS GONNA BE

A HUGE STEP FORWARD FOR ME.

[ BAT CLANKS ]
-Man: WHOO!

Brianne: OH, [BLEEP]!
I CAN'T RUN.

AND I PLAN,
BY THIS TIME NEXT YEAR,

TO HIT MY TARGET
AND MOVE BACK TO OREGON

AND BE THE MOM
I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE.

MY LIFE IS STARTING TO LOOK
LIKE THE WAY

I DREAMED IT WOULD FOR
SO MANY YEARS.