Original subtitles

Brianne: I CAN FEEL MY BODY GETTING CLOSE

TO ITS BREAKING POINT, SO I AM JUST WAITING TO DIE.

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Man: AT THIS POINT, I'M KILLING MYSELF.

Woman: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT,

YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE.

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Woman: [ Voice breaks ] I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET.

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[ CRYING ] WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE?

YOU ARE WAILING AND YELLING, LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT.

Woman: I KNOW THAT I'M DYING.

I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT.

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Brianne: IT FEELS LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD IS JUST FALLING APART,

AND I'M NOT SURE THAT I'M GONNA SURVIVE MUCH LONGER.

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CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS

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[ GRUNTS ]

[ SIGHS ]

Brianne: IT'S SO HARD TO FORCE MYSELF TO GET UP IN THE MORNINGS

BECAUSE WHEN I FIRST WAKE UP, I FEEL MISERABLE

AND I FEEL DEPRESSED

BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS A STRUGGLE NOW.

AND IT'S, LIKE, HERE COMES ALL THE PAIN.

HERE COMES ALL THE EXHAUSTION.

BUT I KNOW IT'S JUST THE START OF THE MISERY

TO GET THROUGH THE DAY.

AND EVERY DAY, IT GETS HARDER TO BREATHE,

HARDER TO MOVE, HARDER TO LIVE.

I HATE IT.

WHEN I THINK ABOUT HOW BAD THINGS HAVE GOTTEN,

IT JUST DEPRESSES ME,

BECAUSE MY WEIGHT ISN'T JUST DESTROYING MY LIFE.

IT'S AFFECTING THE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE

BECAUSE OF THE BURDEN IT PUTS ON THEM.

HEY, BABE?

YES, HON?

Brianne: ESPECIALLY MY HUSBAND BECAUSE HE HAS TO HELP ME

DO JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING.

OKAY.

Brianne: RICK'S OLDEST DAUGHTER LIVES WITH US, TOO,

BUT I DON'T WANT MY WEIGHT TO MESS UP HER LIFE

AND HER OPPORTUNITIES, SO RICK IS THE ONE

WHO HAS THE BURDEN OF CARING FOR ME ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.

BECAUSE I CAN BARELY MAKE IT A FEW FEET

JUST TO GET SOMEWHERE WHERE I CAN SIT DOWN.

GO. -READY?

Brianne: IT'S ABSOLUTELY HUMILIATING

TO HAVE TO RELY ON SOMEONE ELSE JUST TO DO BASIC THINGS,

LIKE GETTING UP OR USING THE BATHROOM.

BUT THE SCARIEST PART IS SITTING IN SOMEWHERE SMALL

AND REALIZING THAT I'M ALMOST TOO BIG TO FIT IN THOSE PLACES.

[ CRYING ] AND I'M WORRIED THAT ONE DAY,

I'M GONNA GO TO THE BATHROOM,

AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FIT IN THE TOILET.

BUT I HONESTLY DIDN'T EVER THINK I WOULD BE THIS BIG.

I THINK I'VE EVEN SAID TO MYSELF BEFORE

THAT IF I EVER GOT THAT BIG, EITHER I'D KILL MYSELF

OR I JUST -- IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN.

HEY, BABE?

YEAH?

OKAY. COME ON OUT.

Brianne: AND I'M ASHAMED

OF HAVING TO HAVE MY HUSBAND HELP ME WIPE.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE LET MY WEIGHT DESTROY MY LIFE.

AND IT'S ALSO PUTTING A STRAIN ON MY MARRIAGE,

BECAUSE I KNOW THIS ISN'T WHAT RICK THOUGHT HIS LIFE WOULD BE

WHEN HE MARRIED ME.

Rick: IT'S DIFFICULT TO HAVE TO TAKE CARE

OF BRIANNE DAY IN AND DAY OUT,

BUT IT REALLY KILLS ME TO SEE HER IN THIS CONDITION SHE'S IN.

SO I GET VERY FRUSTRATED AT TIMES

BECAUSE SHE SEEMS LIKE SHE'S ONLY GETTING WORSE

INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GET BETTER.

ALL RIGHT, YOU'RE GOOD.

AND IT'S LIKE I'M TAKING CARE OF A CHILD.

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Brianne: I'M NOT EVEN LIVING ANYMORE

BECAUSE THE SIMPLEST THINGS COMPLETELY WIPE ME OUT.

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AND ON DAYS THAT I TAKE SHOWERS, IT'S LIKE,

I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE.

IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF ME, AND AFTERWARDS,

I'M SO TIRED AND SORE BECAUSE IT'S A LOT ON MY BODY

TO TRY TO BE ON MY FEET FOR THAT LONG.

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I CAN'T JUST GO IN THE SHOWER, DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO, GET OUT.

I HATE TO STOP AND TAKE BREAKS.

SO I HAVE A CHAIR THAT I SIT ON, BUT I ALSO LEAN ON IT.

BECAUSE THERE'S JUST SO MUCH WEIGHT

PULLING DOWN ON MY BODY THAT IT GETS REALLY PAINFUL.

AND MY BACK FEELS LIKE IT'S GONNA GIVE OUT.

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BUT WHEN IT GETS TO THE POINT WHEN I CAN'T STAND ANY LONGER,

I KNOW I HAVE TO HURRY.

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SO I TRY TO CLEAN MYSELF QUICKLY.

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BY THE TIME I'M DONE, I JUST HAVE TO LAY DOWN...

...BECAUSE I FEEL EXHAUSTED IN EVERY WAY.

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AND ALL I WANT IS TO GET ALL OF THIS OVER WITH

SO I CAN FINALLY EAT SOMETHING.

BUT I HAVE A LYMPHOMA MASS UNDER MY STOMACH

THAT'S GOTTEN REALLY BIG THAT WEIGHS A LOT, AND IT HURTS.

IT GETS IN THE WAY ALL THE TIME, AND I HATE IT.

BUT IT RUBS UNDER MY STOMACH AND CAUSES ME THE MOST PAIN,

SO I HAVE TO HAVE MOISTURIZER PUT IN BETWEEN MY FOLDS,

OR I'LL STILL CHAFE AND BLISTER IN THOSE SPOTS.

SO RICK HAS TO HELP ME AGAIN.

SO MY LIFE IS VERY EXHAUSTING, AND IT'S JUST HARD FOR ME.

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I'M REALLY MISERABLE.

READY?

OKAY.

AT THIS POINT, FOOD IS THE ONLY REASON I GET UP.

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AND I KNOW AS SOON AS I MAKE IT TO MY RECLINER,

I DON'T HAVE TO GET UP OR DO ANYTHING ELSE

FOR THE REST OF THE DAY,

AND I CAN FINALLY REST MY BODY AND EAT...

[ GRUNTS ]

...BECAUSE RICK BRINGS ME WHATEVER I WANT.

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE FIRST BITE OF SOMETHING

THAT WILL MAKE ME FORGET

ALL ABOUT THE PAIN AND MISERY OF MY LIFE.

[ LINE RINGS ] -Woman: Good afternoon.

HI, IT'S BRI. CAN I PLACE AN ORDER?

-Yes, you may. -LET ME GET A LOADED FRIES.

Uh-huh.

UM, WE'LL TRY THE BARNYARD SANDWICH,

DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER.

The double cheeseburger, uh-huh.

YEAH, WITH CHEDDAR.

THE BRISKET SLIDERS. AND CAN YOU ADD BACON?

-Plus bacon, uh-huh. -YEAH. OKAY.

-Thanks, Bri. Thanks a lot. -SEE YOU IN A LITTLE BIT.

THANK YOU. BYE-BYE. -Okay, bye-bye. Bye.

GETTING THE FAST FOOD FOR BRI,

IT'S KIND OF LIKE A DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD.

I WANT TO MAKE HER HAPPY, BUT I WANT HER TO LOSE WEIGHT.

SEE YOU IN A BIT.

I WANT HER TO BE HEALTHY, BUT, YOU KNOW,

IT'S THE INSTANT WANTING TO MAKE HER HAPPY

AT THAT MOMENT THAT I THINK OVERRIDES A LOT.

AND I'M SURE I COULD PROBABLY SAY, NO, LET'S NOT DO THAT.

LET'S HAVE A SALAD."

BUT I KNOW IF I PUSH HER ON IT,

SHE'S GONNA GET ANGRY, ND WE'RE GONNA FIGHT,

SO I JUST DO IT.

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Brianne: FOOD HAS CAUSED ALL THE THINGS

I HATE ABOUT MYSELF, BUT IT'S THE ONLY THING

I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE THAT HAVE HELPED ME DEAL

WITH THE THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME.

AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN TO CHANGE THAT.

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WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG,

I DIDN'T REALLY STRUGGLE WITH FOOD.

AND MY EARLIEST CHILDHOOD,

I WAS JUST A HAPPY BABY, HAPPY KID.

THINGS WERE NORMAL, FOR THE MOST PART.

BUT THAT CHANGED AS I GOT OLDER.

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MY DAD WAS IN THE AIR FORCE, SO HE WAS GONE A LOT.

SO MY EARLIEST MEMORIES ARE MOSTLY OF ME AND MY MOM.

AND IT WASN'T UNTIL I WAS 5

THAT MY DAD STARTED BEING AROUND MORE.

BUT THAT'S WHEN MY MOM HAD MY YOUNGER BROTHER.

AND THE NEXT YEAR, SHE HAD MY SISTER.

AND WITH TWO NEWBORNS IN A YEAR,

I REMEMBER IT FELT LIKE MY DAD JUST DIDN'T HAVE TIME FOR ME.

AND AS THEY GOT OLDER, IT SEEMED LIKE

THEY HAD THIS CONNECTION THAT MY DAD AND I DIDN'T HAVE.

SO MY DAD AND I REALLY DIDN'T GET ALONG.

AND I ALWAYS FELT LIKE HE DIDN'T LOVE ME,

THAT HE LOVED MY BROTHER AND SISTER MORE THAN ME.

AND WHEN I WAS 13, ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER

ALL WENT FOR A BIKE RIDE.

AND FOR SOME REASON, MY DAD WAS UPSET ABOUT IT,

SO WE ALL GOT SENT TO OUR ROOMS.

AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER GOT A SPANKING,

AND THEN HE CAME TO MY ROOM.

AND HE WAS JUST, LIKE, TELLING ME, LIKE,

I'M AN AWFUL PERSON, LIKE, CALLING ME A FAT [BLEEP].

[ INHALES SHARPLY ] AT THAT MOMENT,

I REMEMBER FEELING LIKE HE REALLY HATES ME,

AND I WAS JUST HEARTBROKEN.

[ INHALES SHARPLY, EXHALES SLOWLY ]

WHEN WE FOUGHT, IT FELT LIKE IT WAS MY WHOLE FAMILY AGAINST ME,

EVEN WITH MY MOM BECAUSE SHE NEVER STOOD UP FOR ME OR HELPED.

SO AROUND THAT TIME IS WHEN I STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT,

BECAUSE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS THERE FOR ME, FOOD WAS.

AND IN JUST A YEAR'S TIME,

I HAD GONE FROM BEING A LITTLE OVER 100 POUNDS

TO BEING AROUND 180 POUNDS.

BUT BECAUSE I WAS STARTING TO GET A LITTLE CHUBBY

AND OVERWEIGHT, MY DAD FIGURED OUT

I WAS STEALING FOOD, AND HE WAS FUMING MAD.

SO MY DAD TOOK HIS GUN LOCK AND PUT IT ON THE FRIDGE.

AND MY WHOLE FAMILY HAD A KEY TO IT EXCEPT ME.

AND HE EVEN TOLD MY SIBLINGS NOT TO LET ME IN THERE.

BUT THAT ALL REALLY MADE ME WANT TO EAT MORE.

SO I WAS STILL GAINING A LOT OF WEIGHT.

AND I WAS ALREADY ALMOST 300 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 16,

AND IT KEPT CREEPING UP HIGHER AND HIGHER.

BUT MY WEIGHT GAIN MADE MY DAD EVEN ANGRIER WITH ME.

SOMETIMES HE WOULD CALL ME NAMES LIKE "FAT ASS,"

AND IT REALLY HURT MY FEELINGS. [ SNIFFLES ]

SO I COULDN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL

SO I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM HIM.

BUT THINGS GOT WORSE FOR ME BECAUSE AS SOON AS I TURNED 18,

I MOVED OUT OF MY PARENTS' HOUSE AND I WENT HOG WILD.

I DID WHAT I WANTED,

AND I STARTED PARTYING AND DRINKING A LOT.

AND ONE NIGHT, A GROUP OF GUYS WHO I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS,

THEY KEPT, YOU KNOW, TRYING TO GET ME INTO A ROOM WITH THEM.

AND I KIND OF DIDN'T WANT TO. I WANTED TO STAY

WITH EVERYBODY ELSE AND DANCE AND HAVE FUN.

BUT THEY ENDED UP PUSHING ME INTO THE ROOM

AND THEY RAPED ME.

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AFTER I WAS RAPED, I DEFINITELY STARTED EATING MORE.

THAT ALL HAPPENED WHEN I WAS 19,

AND I WAS ALREADY OVER 350 POUNDS AT THAT POINT.

BUT AFTER THAT, I STARTED GAINING EVEN MORE.

AND I WAS WELL OVER 450 POUNDS BY THE TIME I TURNED 20.

BUT MY LIFE CONTINUED TO GET EVEN WORSE FROM THERE.

AND ONE NIGHT AT A PARTY, I MET A GUY,

AND WE STARTED SLEEPING TOGETHER,

AND I WOUND UP PREGNANT.

AT FIRST, I WAS SCARED ABOUT BEING PREGNANT,

AND THEN I WAS REALLY, REALLY EXCITED AND I COULDN'T WAIT.

I THINK BECAUSE IT WAS GONNA BE SOMEBODY

THAT WOULD ALWAYS LOVE ME.

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

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BUT I TOLD MY MOM THAT I WAS PREGNANT,

AND THAT'S BASICALLY WHEN MY DAD CUT ALL TIES WITH ME,

AND HE HASN'T SPOKEN TO ME IN ABOUT 11 YEARS.

BUT I HAD A MISCARRIAGE, AND THEN AFTER THAT,

THE GUY THAT I WAS PREGNANT WITH

DIDN'T REALLY WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME ANYMORE.

I WAS REALLY DEPRESSED AND I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE.

AND MY GRANDPARENTS LIVED IN VEGAS,

AND SO I CALLED THEM

AND I ASKED IF CAN MOVE IN WITH THEM, AND THEY SAID "YES."

AND SO MY MOM BOUGHT ME A PLANE TICKET,

AND I LEFT TO GO TO LAS VEGAS.

BUT I THOUGHT WHEN I MOVED THERE

THAT IT COULD BE A CLEAN START FOR ME.

I WAS 21 AND GETTING CLOSE TO BEING 500 POUNDS,

SO I KNOW MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING TO GET OUT OF CONTROL,

BUT MY EATING DIDN'T SLOW DOWN.

AND I ALSO FELL BACK INTO PARTYING A LOT, TOO.

BUT THERE WAS ONE REALLY GOOD THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME

BECAUSE OF MY MOVE.

I STARTED WORKING AT A CONVENIENCE STORE,

AND THAT'S WHEN I MET RICK.

HE WAS MY SECURITY OFFICER IN THE STORE,

AND WE WORKED EIGHT HOURS A DAY TOGETHER.

SO WE NATURALLY STARTED GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER.

AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN, ONE DAY, HE ASKED ME

IF I WANTED TO GO OUT ON A DATE, AND I WAS, LIKE, "SURE."

WHEN I FIRST MET BRI, WE GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER A LITTLE BIT,

AND WE WOULD FLIRT IN THE STORE SOMETIMES.

YOU KNOW, I WASN'T NECESSARILY ATTRACTED TO HER BODY,

BUT BRI IS A FUN-LOVING, BIG-HEARTED PERSON.

Brianne: I WAS 22 AT THE TIME, AND RICK WAS 52.

BUT I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM,

AND I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT THE AGE DIFFERENCE,

AND THAT HE HAD A DAUGHTER FROM A PREVIOUS MARRIAGE

NAMED CATRINA THAT HE WAS RAISING.

IN FACT, WHEN HE INTRODUCED ME TO CATRINA, WHO, AT THE TIME,

WAS 12, I SAW MYSELF IN HER, AND I WANTED HER

TO HAVE SOMEBODY TO LOOK UP TO AND TO LOVE.

HAVING RICK AND CATRINA IN MY LIFE MADE ME FEEL LIKE

I FINALLY HAD THE FAMILY I ALWAYS WANTED.

IT WAS WONDERFUL.

BRIANNE STEPPED UP AND BECAME THE PERSON

THAT I NEEDED TO BE MY MOM.

AND HER WEIGHT DIDN'T REALLY MATTER TO ME.

BUT SHE STARTED SLOWLY GAINING MORE AND MORE AND MORE

AND GETTING HEAVIER AND HEAVIER AND HEAVIER.

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Brianne: OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS,

I GOT SO BIG THAT IT STARTED TO AFFECT MY ABILITY TO GET AROUND.

AND I REMEMBER IT WAS SHORTLY AFTER I HAD TURNED 25

THAT I CROSSED THE 600-POUND MARK

AND HAD TO START USING AN ELECTRIC SCOOTER

WHEREVER I WENT

BECAUSE I COULDN'T WALK ON MY OWN FOR VERY LONG ANYMORE.

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AND THAT MEANT I HAD TO QUIT MY JOB,

SO THEN RICK HAD TO SUPPORT ALL OF US.

AND AT THAT POINT IS WHEN WE ALL DECIDED TO MOVE TO OREGON

BECAUSE IT WAS MORE AFFORDABLE.

AND I ENDED UP SITTING AROUND A LOT,

DOING NOTHING EXCEPT EATING,

AND THAT'S PRETTY MUCH BEEN MY LIFE FOR THE LAST FIVE YEARS.

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I SPEND MOST OF MY DAY IN MY CHAIR

BECAUSE IT'S TOO HARD TO DO ANYTHING.

SO MY WORLD JUST KEEPS GETTING SMALLER

AS I KEEP GETTING BIGGER.

I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS, BUT I CAN'T STOP EATING.

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FOOD IS LIKE WHAT I LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY DAY

BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY

IN A WORLD WHERE I CAN'T GO OUT AND BE HAPPY.

AND WHAT I LOVE ABOUT EATING IS IT NEVER LETS ME DOWN.

AND I FEEL LIKE WHATEVER MOOD I MIGHT HAVE BEEN IN

BEFORE I STARTED EATING, IT'S GONE, AND I FEEL HAPPY.

SO I NEVER WANT TO STOP.

Rick: WHEN I WATCH HER EAT, IT BOTHERS ME.

I FEEL SAD FOR HER, AND...I DON'T KNOW,

MAYBE A LITTLE BIT OF DISGUST EATING THAT MUCH.

Brianne: I KNOW MY EATING IS AFFECTING MY WHOLE FAMILY NOW.

I'M ESPECIALLY WORRIED FOR CATRINA

BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN GAINING WEIGHT.

SHE MIGHT NOT BE EATING AS MUCH, BUT SHE DOES EAT WHAT I EAT,

AND I DON'T WANT HER TO END UP LIKE ME.

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Catrina: WOULD YOU LIKE ANYTHING TO EAT? ARE YOU HUNGRY?

[ YAWNING ] I'M REALLY HUNGRY.

I LOVE MY MOM SO VERY MUCH.

SHE IS MY ONLY MOM, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.

Brianne: I MIGHT HAVE A BURRITO, TOO,

WITH THE TAQUITOS, IF YOU DON'T MIND.

WITH CHEESE AND SALSA, TOO. -OKAY.

AND I'M SCARED BECAUSE SHE IS EATING HERSELF TO HER GRAVE.

AND... [ SIGHS ] IT HURTS.

I'VE ALREADY HAD MY BIOLOGICAL MOM LEAVE ME,

AND SO IF SHE DIES, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO.

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Brianne: WHEN I GOT MARRIED TO RICK,

I WANTED TO BE THERE FOR CATRINA AND BE THE MOM SHE NEVER HAD.

BUT I'M NOT ABLE TO DO THAT BECAUSE I WON'T STOP EATING.

AND I'M DEFINITELY HURTING RICK

BECAUSE HE DOESN'T NEED THE STRESS OF WONDERING

IF HE'S GONNA WAKE UP AND FIND ME DEAD.

AND LAST YEAR, HE ACTUALLY HAD A HEART ATTACK

AND HAD TO HAVE OPEN-HEART SURGERY.

SO HAVING TO DO AS MUCH AS HE DOES PHYSICALLY

IS HARD ON HIM.

SO I KNOW, I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE

I'M LETTING MY EATING HABITS

DESTROY EVERYTHING THAT'S PRECIOUS TO ME.

BUT WHEN I'M EATING, I JUST DON'T CARE.

-WELL, I'M GONNA GO. -HAVE A GOOD DAY AT WORK.

ALL RIGHTY. I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU, TOO. I'LL SEE YOU WHEN YOU GET BACK.

Rick: I NEED BRIANNE MORE THAN SHE KNOWS.

I CAN'T IMAGINE BEING WITHOUT HER.

SHE'S MY SOUL MATE.

AND MY WORST FEAR IS THAT IF SHE DOESN'T GET

THE HELP SHE NEEDS, SHE'S NOT GONNA LIVE.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO THINK OF HAVING TO BURY HER.

[ GROANS ]

AT THIS POINT, I AM DEFINITELY PUTTING NAILS IN MY COFFIN,

SO I AM JUST WAITING TO DIE

IF I DON'T FIND SOME WAY TO CHANGE.

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[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

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Brianne: ME AND RICK ARE PACKING RIGHT NOW

BECAUSE WE'RE GOING TO HOUSTON TO SEE DR. NOW.

I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC AT THIS POINT,

OR I WON'T BE AROUND MUCH LONGER.

BUT IT'S A LONG TRIP FROM OREGON TO HOUSTON,

SO I HAVE TO GO BY PLANE.

THERE'S JUST NO WAY I'D MAKE IT IN A CAR

FOR THAT LONG ON THE ROAD.

SO I'M TRYING TO MAKE THIS TRIP AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE.

SO I'VE GOT YOUR TICKET...

MY THREE TICKETS. [ CHUCKLES ]

IT'S BEEN OVER 10 YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A PLANE,

SO I'M NERVOUS ABOUT HOW IT'S GONNA GO

AND IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO EVEN DO IT AND FIT.

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SO, WE'RE, UM, FLYING IN TODAY TO HOUSTON.

UH-HUH.

TOMORROW, WE'LL MEET WITH DR. NOWZARADAN.

AND THEN WE SHOULD BE HOME...

IT'LL BE REALLY, REALLY EARLY FRIDAY MORNING.

-OKAY. -SO JUST PRAY

EVERYTHING GOES GOOD WITH DR. NOW,

'CAUSE HE'S MY LAST SHOT.

YEAH. WELL, I HOPE YOU GET APPROVED.

ME, TOO.

I THINK I MIGHT HAVE SOME OF THAT LEFTOVER PIZZA

FROM LAST NIGHT.

CAN YOU HEAT UP THAT PIZZA FOR ME?

-YEAH. -MIGHT EAT SOME OF THAT

AND THEN TAKE SOME OF IT FOR THE ROAD.

OKAY, I'LL DO THAT FOR YOU.

-THANKS, SWEETIE. -ALL RIGHTY. LOVE YOU.

LOVE YOU, TOO. E[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

Brianne: I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO DO THIS

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP,

NO MATTER HOW HARD OR SCARY THIS IS GONNA BE.

I WANT TO BE HERE FOR RICK AND CATRINA,

AND LOSING THE WEIGHT AND GETTING MY LIFE BACK

IS THE ONLY WAY I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THAT.

BUT IT'S ALL JUST GONNA BE REALLY HARD ON ME PHYSICALLY.

YOU GOT 'EM IN THERE? -YEAH. YOU READY?

SO I JUST HOPE I CAN ACTUALLY MAKE IT ALL THE WAY THERE.

AND THAT THIS ALL ISN'T FOR NOTHING

BECAUSE DR. NOW ENDS UP TELLING ME THAT HE CAN'T HELP.

I LOVE YOU, SWEETIE. -I LOVE YOU, TOO, MAMA.

-HOLD DOWN THE FORT. -I WILL.

Catrina: THERE ARE A FEW THINGS THAT HAVE ME A LITTLE WORRIED

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SHE'S PSYCHING HERSELF OUT,

AND THAT SHE MIGHT LET HER ANXIETY GET THE BETTER OF HER.

AND I'M AFRAID THAT SHE'LL SEE ALL THESE PEOPLE LOOKING AT HER,

AND SHE'LL GET DISCOURAGED AND BACK OUT LAST MINUTE,

OR SHE'LL BE IN SO MUCH PAIN

THAT SHE'LL DECIDE MAYBE THIS ISN'T GOOD FOR ME.

I LOVE YOU, DAD. -I LOVE YOU.

-LOVE YOU, MOM. -LOVE YOU, TOO, SWEETIE.

-Rick: TAKE CARE. -Catrina: SEE YOU GUYS LATER.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

I DO FEEL LIKE MOM HAS THE DETERMINATION TO DO IT,

AND I KNOW THAT SHE CAN DO IT.

BUT SOMETIMES SHE TALKS HERSELF OUT OF STUFF.

SO I'M WORRIED THAT SHE WOULD GIVE UP.

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SO HOW ARE YOU FEELING, BABE?

I'M PRETTY NERVOUS.

AND THEN I THINK I'M A LITTLE BIT WORRIED

ABOUT GETTING A WHEELCHAIR AT THAT AIRPORT.

THAT'S ALWAYS BEEN A PROBLEM FOR US.

YOU GET SOMEWHERE, AND THEY'RE LIKE,

"YEAH, WE GOT WHEELCHAIRS."

AND THEY'VE GOT, LIKE, TINY WHEELCHAIRS

FOR PEOPLE THAT, LIKE, YOU CAN BARELY SIT IN.

IF NOT, WE'LL GET A BAGGAGE CART. [ LAUGHS ]

THAT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY, 'CAUSE WHAT IF WE DO?

JUST KIDDING.

WHAT IF WE DO HAVE TO GET A BAGGAGE CART?

JEEZ, BABE.

♪♪

Brianne: I HOPE THAT THIS WHOLE TRIP ISN'T A BIG MISTAKE.

IT'S NOT JUST GETTING TO HOUSTON THAT HAS ME ON EDGE, THOUGH.

MY MOM AND DAD ACTUALLY MOVED DOWN THERE

AROUND EIGHT YEARS AGO,

AND MY MOM SAID SHE'D COME WITH ME

AND HELP ME GET TO DR. NOW'S ONCE I GET THERE.

HI. I NEEDED A PLUS-SIZE WHEELCHAIR OVER IN VALET.

Woman: Okay, we'll send someone out there.

-THANK YOU. -Mm-hmm. Bye.

BUT IT'S BEEN FOUR YEARS SINCE WE'VE SEEN EACH OTHER,

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA REACT TO HOW BIG I AM NOW.

SO, I'M REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF,

AND I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE THIS TRIP.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ] IS THIS...

Man: YES...

[ WOMAN SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY OVER P.A. ]

♪♪

I'M ALREADY FEELING WINDED,

AND MY BACK AND MY KNEES ARE KILLING ME.

BUT I'M GONNA JUST FOCUS ON WHAT I NEED TO DO

AND NOT THINK ABOUT HOW HUMILIATING IT IS

TO HAVE TO BE PUSHED THROUGH THE AIRPORT.

Man: OKAY, YOU GOT YOUR BOARDING CARDS WITH YA?

OKAY.

♪♪

I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN RIGHT NOW,

SO I HOPE I CAN MAKE IT.

[ PANTING ]

♪♪

BUT THE PROBLEM WILL BE IF I CAN'T FIT,

BECAUSE I WON'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO GET BACK TO MY WHEELCHAIR.

AND IF THAT HAPPENS, WE'RE GONNA HAVE A BIG PROBLEM.

ALL RIGHT.

[ PANTING ]

NOW I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE IT ALL THE WAY THERE,

BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY HAVE A CHOICE AT THIS POINT.

♪♪

BUT IT'S A DIRECT FLIGHT,

SO I ONLY HAVE TO MAKE IT 3 1/2 HOURS.

AND HOPEFULLY, THE WORST OF ALL THIS IS BEHIND ME.

♪♪

I'M NOT FEELING WELL,

AND I'M SCARED THIS IS TAKING TOO MUCH OUT OF ME,

SO I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA MAKE IT.

BUT I'M TRYING TO NOT PANIC AND JUST HOLD ON.

♪♪

THIS WHOLE TRIP HAS BEEN SO MUCH HARDER THAN I THOUGHT.

I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN...

...SO I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THESE SEATS AND OFF THIS PLANE,

BUT I'M COMPLETELY OUT OF ENERGY.

♪♪

MY BODY HAS BEEN PUT THROUGH TOO MUCH

TO BE ABLE TO DO MUCH MORE.

AND I'M NOT SURE IF I WOULD HAVE DONE THIS

IF I'D HAD KNOWN WHAT THIS IS GONNA BE LIKE.

[ PANTING ]

♪♪

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

I'M REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE NOW

'CAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE CHAIRS WITH NO SIDES,

AND WE'RE WAITING ON A WHEELCHAIR.

I'M JUST IN A LOT OF PAIN.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

OW.

BABE, CAN YOU MOVE ME OUT SO IT'S NOT, LIKE,

IN THE FRONT OF EVERYBODY, PLEASE?

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

HONEY, DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN.

YOU BE AS UNCOMFORTABLE AS I AM.

[ GRUNTING ]

ME AND RICK SHOULD HAVE DRIVEN

'CAUSE I'M ALSO WORRIED ABOUT HOW HARD THIS TRIP IS FOR HIM

BECAUSE OF HIS HEART CONDITION.

AND I DON'T WANT HIM TO PUSH HIMSELF.

IF ANYTHING WERE TO HAPPEN TO HIM BECAUSE OF THIS TRIP,

I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO EVER FORGIVE MYSELF.

SO I'M TRYING NOT TO PUT TOO MUCH ON HIM.

BUT NOW THAT I'M HERE,

I'M JUST FOCUSING ON GETTING WHAT WE NEED DONE.

♪♪

I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH.

OHH, MY GOSH.

I REALLY, REALLY HOPE THIS ALL PAYS OFF

WHEN I SEE DR. NOW TOMORROW.

'CAUSE IF IT DOESN'T, I DON'T THINK I'LL BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT.

THANK YOU, GUYS, SO MUCH.

Woman: OKAY. WATCH YOUR STEP.

Brianne: BUT RIGHT NOW, I JUST REALLY NEED TO GET TO THE HOTEL

AND GET IN BED

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA PASS OUT ANY MINUTE.

♪♪

OH, BABE. I AM POOPED.

[ GRUNTS ]

BABE, I'M REALLY HUNGRY.

CAN WE STOP OFF AND GET A BURRITO?

I WANT, LIKE, A BIG BURRITO, BABE, WITH STEAK,

REFRIED BEANS, SOUR CREAM.

THE WORKS, YOU KNOW.

GET ME A QUESADILLA, TOO.

I'M FEELING REALLY HUNGRY, AND I'M ALREADY, LIKE,

KIND OF STRESSING OUT ABOUT TOMORROW

WHEN I FLY HOME, 'CAUSE I FEEL LIKE

I BARELY WAS ABLE TO MANAGE TO SIT FOR THE THREE HOURS

I WAS JUST ON.

♪♪

-Rick: THAT BURRITO'S HUGE. -YEAH.

MM. PRETTY GOOD.

♪♪

Brianne: TODAY'S BEEN A REALLY LONG DAY,

SO I'M PRETTY EXHAUSTED.

MY ANKLES ARE REALLY SWOLLEN TO THE POINT

WHERE THEY ARE, LIKE, THROBBING.

AND I JUST WANT TO GET TO THE HOTEL.

HOPEFULLY, TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY.

I SEE DR. NOW FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT

AND MY MOM WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN IN A LONG TIME...

[ GROANS ] ...SO I'M NERVOUS.

BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M GONNA CLING TO THE HOPE

THAT I'M GONNA GET THE HELP I NEED, AND THAT IT GOES WELL.

BECAUSE IF IT DOESN'T, THEN THIS WILL HAVE ALL BEEN FOR NOTHING.

♪♪

Brianne: I FEEL LIKE I COULD USE A LOT MORE SLEEP

BECAUSE I'M STILL SORE FROM YESTERDAY.

BUT I HAVE TO GET TO MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW,

AND MY MOM WILL BE HERE ANY MINUTE.

BUT THE LAST TIME I SAW HER, I WAS IN THE UPPER 400s,

SO I'M NERVOUS ABOUT HOW SHE'S GONNA REACT

AT HOW BIG I AM NOW.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

Rick: HI!

-MAMA! -HOW YOU DOING?

♪♪

[ BOTH CRYING ]

♪♪

BRIANNE, ALL THAT WEIGHT IS CRUSHING YOUR INSIDES.

YOU CAN DIE.

I'M JUST SCARED FOR YOU...

I AM, TOO.

...'CAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I WANT YOU TO BE SUCCESSFUL,

AND YOU JUST -- YOU GOTTA DO IT.

EVEN IF YOU NEED THIS HELP, THIS PUSH FROM THE DOCTOR.

YOU GOTTA DO IT, BRIANNE.

I'M NOT READY TO... I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO YET.

I DON'T WANT TO DIE. [ SOBS ]

I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE, EITHER. THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.

Bridget: I'M HEARTBROKEN SEEING HER LIKE THIS.

SHE'S SO OVERWEIGHT.

THE LAST TIME I SAW HER THAT, I'M AFRAID SHE'S GONNA DIE.

[ Voice breaks ] AND I DON'T WANT HER TO DIE.

♪♪

Brianne: IT'S NICE TO SEE MY MOM,

BUT IT WAS MORE EMOTIONAL THAN I THOUGHT.

I JUST HOPE THIS ALL GOES WELL.

♪♪

MY BIGGEST WORRY IS THAT I LET MYSELF GO SO FAR

TO THE POINT WHERE DR. NOW CAN'T HELP ME.

SO I JUST HOPE I'M STILL IN THE 600s.

BUT MY FUTURE AND MY WHOLE LIFE

IS RIDING ON HOW THIS APPOINTMENT GOES.

BRIANNE DIAS?

Brianne: AND IF IT ENDS UP LIKE I FEAR,

AND DR. NOW THINKS FOR ANY REASON THAT HE CAN'T HELP ME,

THEN IT WILL LITERALLY BE A DEATH SENTENCE FOR ME.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: I FINALLY MADE IT TO DR. NOW'S

TO TRY AND GET HIS HELP.

AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT WHAT I WEIGH.

I JUST HOPE I'M STILL IN THE 600s.

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

♪♪

[ BREATHING SHAKILY ]

THIS IS THE HEAVIEST I'VE EVER WEIGHED.

[ SOBBING ]

♪♪

THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT CRUSHING ALL MY ORGANS AND BONES.

I COULD DIE.

AND I PRAY THAT I'M NOT TOO BIG FOR DR. NOW TO HELP.

IT'S REALLY SCARY.

I WAS HOPING IT'D BE LESS.

IT -- IT JUST...

IT'S BAD.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ] -Brianne: COME IN.

-HELLO. -HELLO.

HOW Y'ALL DOING?

-Bridget: FINE. -Brianne: HANGING IN THERE.

ALL RIGHT, I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

-I'M BRI. -HOW YOU DOING?

PRETTY GOOD. NICE TO MEET YOU.

-I'M BRIDGET. -AND YOU ARE?

-THE MOM. -MOM.

AND I'M BRI'S HUSBAND RICK.

OKAY. NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS.

-Rick: NICE TO MEET YOU. -ALL RIGHT.

SO, BRIANNE, YOU MADE IT ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM OREGON.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

-GOOD. -THAT'S GOOD.

AND TODAY, YOU WEIGH IN AT 742 POUNDS, HUH?

MM-HMM.

ALL RIGHT, AND YOU'RE 30 YEARS OLD?

MM-HMM.

IS THIS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN?

-THIS IS IT? -MM-HMM.

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK GOT YOU TO THIS WEIGHT?

MY EATING, FAST FOOD.

-FAST FOOD? -MM-HMM.

SO WHAT DO YOU EAT FOR BREAKFAST?

SOMETIMES WE HAVE, LIKE,

FROZEN BURRITOS AND STUFF LIKE THAT.

OR WE MIGHT BUY, LIKE, THE BREAKFAST FOOD THAT'S EASY.

AND THEN AFTER THAT, I'M SETTLED FOR A LITTLE BIT,

AND THEN I'LL SNACK THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

WHAT DO YOU SNACK ON?

MOSTLY, LIKE, CHIPS AND JUST... JUST CRAP.

CHIPS AND CRAP?

OKAY, WHAT ELSE?

PROBABLY MORE FAST FOOD.

AND WHO GETS THAT FOR YOU?

HE'LL GO OUT AND GET IT.

WHAT FAST FOOD DOES HE GET FOR YOU?

BURGERS OR SOMETIMES HE'LL PICK UP FOOD FROM A RESTAURANT.

PIZZA. -OKAY.

THEN DO YOU KEEP EATING AFTER THAT?

I'LL PROBABLY SNACK AGAIN LATER ON,

AND THEN I WAKE UP AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN.

ALL RIGHT.

TO SUMMARIZE, IN YOUR OWN WORDS, YOU EAT CRAP ALL DAY,

THEN YOU GO BACK TO BED.

AND NO ACTIVITY OR EXERCISE. AND THAT'S IT?

THAT'S YOUR LIFE? DOES THAT SOUND ABOUT RIGHT?

MM-HMM.

WITH HOW BIG YOU ARE, YOU'RE BARELY ABLE TO WALK,

SO YOU'RE VERY CLOSE RIGHT NOW TO BECOMING BEDRIDDEN.

AND YOU POINTED OUT THAT RICK IS THE ONE WHO BRINGS YOU FOOD.

SO HE'S YOUR ENABLER, RIGHT?

I GUESS.

SO, RICK, YOU GETTING ALL THIS STUFF

BECAUSE YOU THINK IT'S GOOD FOR HER, OR...

BASICALLY 'CAUSE IT'S EASY.

I DON'T WANT TO HEAR HER COMPLAIN.

SO YOU'RE HELPING HER TO GET FOOD SO SHE DOESN'T GET UPSET.

BUT IF YOU LOVE HER, THEN YOU'RE GONNA HELP HER STOP DOING THIS.

YOU GOT THAT? -YES, SIR.

Dr. Nowzaradan: TO BE OVER 700 POUNDS AT BRIANNE'S AGE

MEANS SHE'S BEEN EATING PATHOLOGICALLY FOR A WHILE NOW.

SO BREAKING HER OF THAT HABIT IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY.

BUT SHE'S AT A VERY CRITICAL POINT RIGHT NOW,

BECAUSE THE FACT THAT SHE'S BEING THIS HEAVY

WHILE SHE'S YOUNG IS THE ONLY REASON

HER BODY HAS BEEN ABLE TO STILL GET AROUND

AND FUNCTION FOR THE TIME IT HAS.

SO IF SHE DOESN'T START TO MAKE THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS,

THAT'S ALL GOING TO CHANGE RAPIDLY VERY SOON.

BRIANNE, YOU'RE 30 YEARS OLD AND OVER 700 POUNDS.

THEN WHAT IS NEXT STOP? 800?

I DON'T WANT IT TO BE.

WELL, RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE HEADED TO ONE OR TWO SCENARIOS.

YOU'RE EITHER GONNA MAKE IT UP TO 800 POUNDS

AND BECOME COMPLETELY BEDRIDDEN SOON,

AT WHICH POINT YOU WON'T SURVIVE MUCH LONGER.

THAT'S THE END OF IT.

THE OTHER SCENARIO IS YOU'RE NOT GONNA EVEN

MAKE IT TO THAT POINT,

AND YOUR BODY IS GONNA GIVE OUT IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS.

YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME RIGHT NOW, OKAY?

YOUR ONLY HOPE IS TO CHANGE NOW.

SO, HOW MOTIVATED YOU ARE TO MAKE THE CHANGES?

I'M VERY MOTIVATED.

SO, I'M GONNA GIVE YOU SOME STUFF.

IT'S A 500-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET THAT IS HIGH IN PROTEIN

AND LOW CARB THAT I WANT YOU TO START ON IMMEDIATELY.

AND THROW AWAY ALL THE JUNK FOOD,

NO SUGARY DRINK.

AND YOU ONLY EAT THREE TIME A DAY,

AND YOU START DOING SOME EXERCISES.

30 MINUTES IN THE MORNING AND 30 MINUTES IN THE AFTERNOON.

IF YOU DO ALL THAT, YOU'RE GOING TO BE EASILY

ABLE TO LOSE 120 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS.

AND, RICK, NO MORE ENABLING.

IT'S GONNA BE LIKE A DRUG ADDICT COMING OUT OF WITHDRAWAL.

SHE'S GONNA HAVE SOME SHAKES AND ALL THOSE THINGS.

IF YOU WANT HER TO LIVE, YOU CAN'T GIVE IN,

NO MATTER HOW UPSET SHE GETS, OKAY?

YES, SIR.

OKAY, THE LAST THING IS, AT YOUR WEIGHT, BRIANNE,

IT IS NOT SAFE FOR YOU TO BE TRAVELING

AS FAR AS YOU DID EVERY TIME.

SO IF I ACCEPT YOU INTO MY PROGRAM,

YOU WILL NEED TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON.

ARE YOU WILLING TO DO THAT?

-100%. -GOOD.

YOU NEED TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, AND YOU HAVE TO TAKE ACTION NOW

'CAUSE YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

SO YOU'RE GONNA HELP ME? [ CRIES ]

YES, IF YOU SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK HARD.

BUT EVERYTHING START WITH YOU.

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TAKE FIRST STEP, OKAY?

I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS.

THANK YOU, DR. NOWZARADAN.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE EASY FOR BRIANNE

BECAUSE THERE ARE LIKELY SIGNIFICANT ISSUES

THAT SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH.

BUT SHE ALSO HAS AN ENABLING HUSBAND

AND A FAMILY DYNAMIC THAT WILL HAVE TO BE CHANGED

IN ORDER FOR HER TO HAVE THE SUPPORT SHE NEEDS.

BUT IF SHE DOESN'T START TO LOSE WEIGHT NOW,

THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET VERY BAD FOR HER.

Brianne: I'M GLAD I HAVE A CHANCE TO DO THIS PROGRAM,

BUT I'M A LITTLE SCARED

'CAUSE I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE HARD.

AND LOSING 120 POUNDS SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO KEEP GAINING AND EAT MYSELF TO DEATH.

AT LEAST THERE'S SOME HOPE AS LONG AS I HIT THE GOAL.

SO I'M GONNA FOCUS ON THAT TO MOTIVATE ME,

NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS, BECAUSE I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE.

IF I DON'T, I'M GONNA DIE, AND I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: THESE PAST FOUR WEEKS HAVE PROBABLY BEEN

THE HARDEST OF MY LIFE.

NOT ONLY HAVE I GIVEN UP ALL THE FOODS I LIKE

AND STUCK TO DR. NOW'S DIET RELIGIOUSLY,

BUT I'VE MADE THE HARD DECISION

TO MOVE TO HOUSTON WITHOUT RICK OR CAT.

I'M GONNA START PACKING THE TRUCK.

-ALL RIGHT. -ALL RIGHT.

Brianne: DR. NOW SAYS I CAN'T BE ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW,

BUT WITH MY PARENTS THERE, MY MOM AGREED TO HELP

AND COME BY EVERY DAY TO MAKE SURE I HAVE WHAT I NEED.

AND WE FOUND AN APARTMENT I CAN AFFORD FOR A YEAR.

SO I'M DOING THIS.

YOU'RE GONNA PUT THOSE UP FRONT, HON?

-YEAH. -OKAY.

BUT IT'S LITERALLY THE HARDEST THING

I'VE DONE IN MY WHOLE LIFE,

BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT'LL BE

BEFORE I SEE THEM ONCE I'M DOWN THERE.

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA BE AWAY FROM MY FAMILY LIKE THIS

FOR AT LEAST A YEAR.

BUT IF I HAD ANY OTHER OPTIONS, I'D TAKE THEM.

CAN YOU, UM... -IN THE CAB?

-UM, NO, MY PINK DRESSER. -OKAY.

AND PROBABLY MY RED BLANKET ON TOP OF THERE, TOO.

Rick: YOU DON'T WANT THAT INSIDE THE CAB?

'CAUSE IT'S WAY HERE AT THE BACK.

SO IF YOU'RE GONNA WANT IT DURING THE ROAD TRIP...

-MNH-MNH -YOU'RE SURE?

-I'M POSITIVE. -OKAY.

RICK INSISTS ON HAULING ME DOWN TO HOUSTON,

BUT I'M WORRIED ABOUT HIM DOING TOO MUCH...

[ RICK GRUNTS ]

...AND THE STRAIN ON HIS HEART,

BECAUSE HE'S FEELING WEAK AND RUNDOWN A LOT.

SO MARY SAID SHE'D COME WITH US AND HELP.

CAN YOU PUT THAT IN THE COOLER, HON?

YEAH.

Brianne: CAT WANTS TO, BUT SHE HAS TO WORK AND CAN'T GET OFF,

SO IT'S JUST GONNA BE THE THREE OF US TAKING A ROAD TRIP DOWN.

YOU'RE A PRO.

-YES? -COME HERE, BABY.

YOU'RE GOOD.

YOU'RE AWESOME.

GIVE ME KISSES. MWAH.

I LOVE YOU. -WE'LL MAKE IT HAPPEN.

-HEY, I SAID, "I LOVE YOU." -I LOVE YOU, TOO.

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN PIZZA.

[ LAUGHS ] I HOPE SO.

GOT IT. ALL RIGHT.

[ CLICKS TONGUE ] WAY TO GO.

TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES IN THERE, OKAY?

I WILL.

[ SNIFFLES ] ALL RIGHT, SWEETIE. I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU, TOO.

-ALL RIGHTY. -ALL RIGHTY.

Rick: WE'LL SEE YA.

Brianne: THIS IS GONNA BE ABOUT A 5-DAY DRIVE,

AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT BEING ON THE ROAD FOR THAT LONG.

BUT I'M HOPING

ALL THE EXERCISE I'VE BEEN DOING WILL HELP ME

TO BE ABLE TO GO LONGER AND HANDLE MORE THIS TIME.

BUT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG WHILE WE'RE ON THE ROAD,

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO.

[ TRUCK DOOR CLOSES ] [ SIGHS ]

-Rick: ARE YOU READY? -YEP.

OKAY.

Brianne: SO I JUST HOPE I CAN HANDLE IT.

AND THE SAME FOR RICK.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: AFTER SIX DAYS ON THE ROAD,

WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON.

IT TOOK US A DAY LONGER THAN WE THOUGHT,

SO IT'S BEEN A REALLY LONG TRIP.

AND I'VE HAD SOME STOMACH PAIN

AND I'VE ALSO BEEN A LITTLE QUEASY.

SO I'M READY TO JUST BE OFF THE ROAD.

♪♪

MY MOM SAYS, "STAY IN MIDDLE LANE."

♪♪

EVERYTHING GO OKAY?

YEAH.

♪♪

Brianne: I'M REALLY TIRED.

AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT THE STRAIN OF ALL THIS TRAVELING

ON RICK, TOO.

WHEN HE'S NOT DOING WELL, HE HIDES IT,

BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BE THERE FOR ME AND TAKE CARE OF ME.

♪♪

BUT NOW THAT WE'RE IN HOUSTON,

ONCE WE'RE FINISHED GETTING ME ALL MOVED IN,

MY MOM IS GONNA TAKE ME GROCERY SHOPPING WHILE RICK RESTS,

SO I CAN GET FOOD TO MAKE HEALTHIER MEALS

BECAUSE I'M WORKING HARD TO STICK TO DR. NOW'S DIET...

...'CAUSE I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO MAKE IT TO MY GOAL

AND THAT I GET APPROVED FOR SURGERY ON MY NEXT APPOINTMENT.

SO, I'M READY TO KEEP WORKING HARD AND DO THIS.

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: MY MOM AND ME ARE HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW

FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT

TO FIND OUT IF I HIT MY GOAL OR NOT.

BUT SO FAR, IT'S BEEN A HORRIBLE DAY.

EVERYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG SEEMS LIKE IT'S GOING WRONG.

MY GREATEST FEAR MOVING DOWN HERE

WAS THAT SOMETHING WOULD HAPPEN WITH RICK

AND HE WOULD HAVE AN ISSUE WITH HIS HEART,

AND I'D BE TOO FAR AWAY TO BE THERE FOR HIM.

AND THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING RIGHT NOW

'CAUSE RICK THINKS HE'S HAVING A HEART ATTACK.

SO HE'S AT THE HOSPITAL, WAITING TO FIND OUT IF HE IS.

BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON.

SO I'M JUST FREAKING OUT A LITTLE BIT.

AND ON TOP OF ALL, THE QUEASINESS AND STOMACH PAIN

I HAD WHEN I GOT DOWN HERE HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE.

SO, I'M WORRIED THAT THE STRESS OF EVERYTHING IS GETTING TO ME.

BRIANNE DIAS?

HOW ARE YOU?

BUT THE ONLY THING TO MAKE THIS DAY WORSE IS TO FIND OUT

I'M NOT GETTING WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY,

AND I'M DOWN HERE, GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS,

AWAY FROM RICK FOR NOTHING.

BUT I'VE DONE EVERYTHING I FEEL LIKE I CAN

BECAUSE AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT,

I WAS SHOCKED TO FIND OUT THAT I HAD GOTTEN UP TO 742 POUNDS.

AND DOC TOLD ME I HAD TO LOSE 120 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS.

SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO HAVE MADE IT DOWN TO 622 TODAY.

♪♪

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

I COULD FEEL I WAS LOSING WEIGHT,

BUT I STILL HAD NO IDEA WHAT KIND OF PROGRESS I WAS MAKING.

AND IF I WAS ANYWHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL.

SO, SEEING HOW MUCH I LOST IS JUST EXHILARATING.

BUT I'M STILL WORRIED ABOUT RICK.

[ EXHALES DEEPLY ]

-ARE YOU GONNA CALL RICK? -YEAH.

[ LINE RINGS ]

-Hi. -HI, BABE. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

I still got a pain in my chest.

And the pain started to go away.

I felt really good, then it started coming back, so...

-CRAP. -I'm -- I'm in ICU

until they figure out what's going on.

I'M NOT READY YET FOR YOU TO GO.

Me, neither.

WELL, I GOT SOME GOOD NEWS.

Yeah? What's the good news?

I JUST WEIGHED IN.

-Yeah? -I WEIGHED IN AT 604.

All right, awesome! Good job, hon.

THANKS, BABE.

I'll give you a call later, okay, hon?

OKAY. I LOVE YOU.

I love you, too. Bye-bye.

BYE-BYE.

-HE SOUNDS BETTER, THOUGH... -YEAH.

...WAY BETTER THAN HE DID THIS MORNING.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ] COME IN.

HI, BRIANNE. HOW ARE YOU?

I'M HAVING A PRETTY CRAPPY BIRTHDAY.

OKAY, WELL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU. [ LAUGHS ]

BUT WHAT'S WRONG?

I KNOW THE ISSUE IS NOT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS,

BECAUSE YOU MADE IT DOWN TO 604 TODAY,

AND THAT'S A WEIGHT LOSS OF 138 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS,

SO THAT'S GREAT.

THAT'S -- THAT'S A DOUBLE FIST.

OKAY, GIVE ME THE OTHER ONE.

ALL RIGHT.

SO WHAT ARE YOU DEALING WITH THAT'S KEEPING YOU

FROM CELEBRATING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS AND YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY?

MY STOMACH HURTS A LOT, AND RICK, MY HUSBAND,

IS IN THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF CHEST PAINS.

AND I'M THROWING UP, BUT WHEN I THROW UP,

IT'S, LIKE, JUST FOAM, LIQUID.

I'M SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT RICK.

I HOPE HE'S OKAY.

NORMALLY, WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS,

I WOULD BE APPROVING YOU FOR YOUR WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY.

BUT I'M GOING TO SEND YOU TO HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW

BECAUSE IF YOU CAN'T KEEP ANYTHING DOWN,

IT COULD BE VERY SERIOUS, AND AT YOUR WEIGHT,

ONE LITTLE THING CAN PUSH YOUR BODY OVER THE EDGE,

AND THAT WILL BE IT.

SO THIS IS AN ISSUE THAT MAY BE LIFE-THREATENING FOR YOU.

HANG ON A SECOND...

[ RETCHING, COUGHING ]

♪♪

YOU SHOULD TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL.

AND I'LL MEET YOU THERE, OKAY?

OKAY.

WHATEVER IS GOING ON, WE NEED TO ADDRESS IT QUICKLY.

[ CONTINUES RETCHING, COUGHING ]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

AFTER RUNNING SOME TESTS, WE WERE ABLE TO DETERMINE

THAT BRIANNE CURRENTLY IS SUFFERING

FROM SOME FOOD POISONING.

SO IT'S RELATIVELY MINOR,

BUT IT'S STILL SOMETHING TO TAKE SERIOUSLY FOR SOMEONE HER SIZE.

BECAUSE EVEN SOMETHING THAT WOULD NORMALLY BE A MINOR ISSUE

CAN BE THE FINAL STRAW FOR A BODY

THAT IS ALREADY UNDER SO MUCH STRAIN WITH ALL THAT WEIGHT.

BUT WITH HER HERE IN THE HOSPITAL,

IT WILL BE EASY TO TREAT.

♪♪

HI, BRIANNE. HOW ARE YOU?

SO, I DIDN'T LIKE THE WAY YOU LOOKED IN THE OFFICE,

SO WE GOT YOU IN HERE TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

BUT I JUST GOT LAB REPORT BACK.

YOU HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF FOOD POISONING.

IT SEEMS LIKE YOU HAVE PROBABLY EATEN

SOMETHING YOU LEFT OUT FOR TOO LONG.

BUT PART OF LIVING ON YOUR OWN IS LEARNING

YOU CAN'T LEAVE FOOD OUT FOR TOO LONG.

USUALLY, IF FOOD STAY OUTSIDE,

AND BACTERIA GROW ON IT AND GIVE YOU FOOD POISONING.

YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL WITH.

WHAT DID YOU EAT? ANYTHING, UM...

-SHRIMP. -SHRIMP? THAT WILL DO IT.

SO WE'LL GIVE YOU SOME I.V. FLUID.

-PERFECT. -AND IN A DAY OR TWO,

YOU SHOULD BE BACK TO NORMAL, OKAY?

OKAY.

AND ONCE YOU'VE FULLY RECOVERED,

THEN YOU'RE BACK TO YOUR BASELINE

IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS,

WE'LL SET YOU UP FOR WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY, OKAY?

[ Whispers ] YES!

AND WE'RE GONNA SCHEDULE IT FOR NEXT MONTH

TO GIVE YOU A LITTLE BIT MORE TIME TO RECOVER.

BUT YOU STARTED OVER 700 POUNDS.

-YEAH. -YOU'VE COME A LONG WAY.

YOU HAVE LOST 138 POUNDS, HUH?

SO THAT'S VERY GOOD,

AND I AM PROUD OF YOU AND YOUR PROGRESS.

SO, JUST KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, AND WE'LL KEEP YOU HERE

FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS AND GET YOU GOING HOME.

AND THEN WE'LL FOLLOW UP IN A COUPLE WEEKS, OKAY?

-OKAY. -ALL RIGHT.

I'LL SEE YOU LATER, OKAY?

THANK YOU. YOU KNOW IT.

-ALL RIGHT. -[ LAUGHS ]

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: I THINK BRIANNE IS READY FOR THIS NEXT BIG STEP,

AS LONG AS SHE CONTINUES TO STAY ON TRACK THIS NEXT MONTH

AND DOESN'T DO ANYTHING TO START GAINING AGAIN

OR MESS UP HER PROGRESS BEFORE HER SURGERY.

Brianne: I'M SO RELIEVED.

AND I'M ECSTATIC THAT I'M FINALLY GONNA GET

MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY.

AND I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL RICK

'CAUSE I'M HOPING HE'LL BE ABLE TO COME DOWN

AND BE WITH ME WHEN I HAVE THE OPERATION.

IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM,

AND WITH EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED

WITH HIS HEART YESTERDAY AND WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH,

I JUST DESPERATELY NEED TO HOLD HIM.

BUT I'M PROUD THAT I MADE IT TO THIS POINT,

AND ALL MY HARD WORK IS PAYING OFF.

♪♪

♪♪

RIGHT NOW, ME, RICK, AND MY MOM ARE HEADED TO THE HOSPITAL

BECAUSE I'M GETTING WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY TODAY.

AND I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT.

SO, I'M JUST GLAD THAT THIS DAY IS FINALLY HERE,

AND THAT I HAVE RICK BACK WITH ME.

♪♪

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

-HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW.

-GOOD MORNING. -GOOD MORNING.

HOW YOU DOING?

TIRED.

-TIRED? -I DIDN'T SLEEP.

OH, YOU DIDN'T SLEEP?

I'LL LET YOU SLEEP DURING SURGERY, OKAY?

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?

FINALLY GONNA DO IT, HUH?

-YEP. -ALL RIGHT, GREAT.

BUT I'D HAD A BOO-BOO.

WHAT HAPPENED?

I, UH, HAD A LAST SUPPER, I CALL IT.

I THOUGHT THAT WAS WITH JESUS.

[ LAUGHTER ]

I HAD, UM...

MEATBALLS AND FRIED CALAMARI.

Bridget: WE NEVER GOT HER A BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION,

'CAUSE YOU KNOW, SHE SPENT IT HERE.

AND I'M, LIKE, SHE WON'T BE ABLE TO EAT

ANY OF THESE FOODS ANYMORE, AND...

WELL, YOUR WEIGHT LOSS IS STILL GOOD,

SO GET YOU FIXED UP, OKAY? -YES.

ALL RIGHT, GREAT. ALL RIGHT.

WE'LL GET YOU STARTED IN A MINUTE, OKAY?

-OKAY. THANK YOU, DR. NOW. -ALL RIGHT. OKAY.

♪♪

Brianne: I KNOW HOW MUCH I NEED THIS

BECAUSE IT'LL GIVE ME THE LIFE I'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF.

AND I'VE WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS.

I'M NOT GONNA MESS IT UP.

I JUST KNOW IT'LL BE HARD.

♪♪

Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO PERFORM

A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON BRIANNE.

AND AS ALWAYS, WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL

BECAUSE DOING ANY SORT OF OPERATION

WITH A PERSON HER SIZE IS VERY HIGH RISK.

ALL RIGHT... [ SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ]

SO EVEN ANESTHESIA CAN PUT TOO MUCH STRAIN ON THEIR BODY

AND CAN LEAD TO A SITUATION WHERE THEIR HEART STOPS

OR THEY NO LONGER ARE ABLE TO BREATHE.

GO UP.

SO WE NEED TO LIMIT THE DURATION OF THE SURGERY.

AND IF YOU HAVE ANY INDICATION THAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN,

WE WILL HAVE TO END THE OPERATION EARLY FOR SAFETY.

BUT IF WE COMPLETE THE SURGERY,

THIS WILL BE A BIG HELP FOR BRIANNE,

BECAUSE GASTRIC SLEEVE IS AN OPERATION

THAT REDUCES THE STOMACH BY 90%,

LEAVING A LONG, SKINNY TUBE THAT LOOK LIKE A SLING.

SO THE PATIENT'S FOOD INTAKE IS PHYSICALLY LIMITED,

AND THIS WILL GIVE THEM AN OPPORTUNITY

TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT LONG-TERM.

Rick: RIGHT NOW, I'M REALLY ANXIOUS.

THIS IS REALLY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO SIT HERE,

WAITING FOR DR. NOW TO FINISH UP WITH BRI.

AND I'M WELL AWARE THAT THERE'S A RISK

IN ANY KIND OF SURGERY THAT'S DONE.

BUT BRI MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.

SHE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE,

SO I'M HOPING THAT THE SURGERY GOES WELL.

OKAY. THE STOMACH IS SEPARATED, SO WE CAN REMOVE IT.

I GOT IT.

GO AHEAD THEN, JUST GRADUALLY TAKE IT OUT.

KEEP PULLING. KEEP PULLING. GOOD.

LOOKS GOOD.

OKAY, CAN YOU TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON?

♪♪

ALL RIGHT, WE'RE DONE.

ALL RIGHT, BRIANNE'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

IT WAS A LITTLE BIT MORE CHALLENGING THAN USUAL

BECAUSE OF HER THICK STOMACH MUSCLE AND ABDOMINAL WALL,

BUT WE WERE ABLE TO COMPLETE HER OPERATION SAFELY.

SO THIS WILL BE A BIG HELP FOR HER NOW.

SHE HAS A VERY LONG STOMACH THAT WE TOOK OUT.

AND NOW THAT SHE HAS HAD THIS OPERATION,

SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS

THE FIRST MONTH AFTER SURGERY,

THEN SETTLE INTO LOSING AROUND 30 POUNDS EACH MONTH AFTER THAT

UNTIL SHE GETS CLOSE TO HER TARGET WEIGHT.

SHE DID GREAT, WORKING HARD AND LOSING A LOT OF WEIGHT

THE PAST FEW MONTHS.

BUT EVENTUALLY, SHE WILL START TO GAIN AGAIN,

EVEN WITH THE AID OF WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY

IF SHE DOESN'T DEAL WITH HER EMOTIONAL ISSUES

THAT HAVE BEEN DRIVING HER TO EAT.

SO IF SHE DOESN'T, THEN WILL BE JUST A MATTER OF TIME

BEFORE SHE STARTS TO GAIN AGAIN AND GET BACK TO OVER 700 POUNDS.

♪♪

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Brianne: IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH

SINCE MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY,

AND MY RECOVERY HAS BEEN GOOD.

THE FIRST COUPLE OF WEEKS, IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO DO A LOT,

SO RICK DECIDED TO STAY DOWN LONGER.

IT'S BEEN REALLY NICE BEING WITH HIM.

BUT NOW THAT I'VE PRETTY MUCH RECOVERED,

RICK IS HEADING BACK TO OREGON, AND I WANTED TO GO OUT

AND CELEBRATE HOW MUCH I CAN DO NOW

AND SPEND THE WHOLE DAY WITH HIM.

I GUESS THIS IS GONNA BE, LIKE,

ONE OF OUR LAST HURRAHS FOR A WHILE, HUH?

SHOULD BE FUN.

BABE, I'D HAVE FUN WITH YOU IN A CARDBOARD BOX.

IT DEPENDS ON WHAT CAME IN THE BOX.

-WHAT? -[ LAUGHS ]

Brianne: I KNOW I'VE ONLY LOST 200 POUNDS,

BUT I CAN ALREADY DO A LOT MORE.

AND I SAW THERE'S THIS DOUBLE DECKER BUS TOUR

OF DOWNTOWN HOUSTON.

THAT WASN'T ON THE LIST OF THINGS TO DO

WHEN I LOST WEIGHT, BUT IT IS NOW.

-READY TO GO DO THIS? -LET'S DO IT.

ALL RIGHT.

SO RICK AND I ARE JUST GONNA HAVE FUN

AND ENJOY A TASTE OF THE NEW LIFE

I'M WORKING SO HARD FOR.

Rick: I WONDER IF THEY'RE GONNA SHOW US

ST. JOSEPH'S MEDICAL CENTER.

-SHUT UP. -[ LAUGHS ]

YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO GO UP THE TOP?

I'M GONNA TRY. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE IT.

[ GRUNTS ]

THESE ARE STEEP.

[ GRUNTS ]

Man: [ over P.A. ] THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR PATIENCE.

MY NAME IS ANTONIO, AND I'M GONNA BE YOUR TOUR GUIDE TODAY,

AND I'M GONNA START A TOUR IN A COUPLE OF MINUTES.

-WHEW. -BEFORE WE START,

I WOULD LIKE TO MENTION THAT FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY,

PLEASE ALWAYS REMAIN SEATED WHILE THE VEHICLE IS IN MOTION,

AND KEEP YOUR ARMS AND HEAD INSIDE THE VEHICLE ALL THE TIME.

YOU DID IT, HON!

I'M GONNA SIT BEHIND YOU, OKAY? -OKAY.

Antonio: ALL RIGHTY, MY FRIENDS,

I WOULD LIKE TO WELCOME Y'ALL TO HOUSTON.

WE'RE GONNA START THE TOUR. RULE NUMBER ONE.

SINCE THIS IS A BRITISH BUS, YOU HAVE TO WAVE.

SO YOU KNOW, BE POLITE. BE VERY ROYAL, ALL RIGHT?

SO WELCOME.

YOU ARE IN THE FOURTH LARGEST CITY OF THE U.S.,

AND THE LARGEST CITY IN THE SOUTHERN STATES.

OVER THERE TO THE RIGHT, THAT IS THE HOME OF THE HOUSTON ROCKETS,

OUR PROFESSIONAL BASKETBALL TEAM.

WE GOT BEAT BY THE WARRIORS.

[ LAUGHS ]

...DON'T EXPECT TO SEE VERY OLD STRUCTURES IN HOUSTON

BECAUSE HOUSTON IS A VERY YOUNG CITY.

IT WAS BUILT IN 1836.

Brianne: I'M GRATEFUL THAT I GET THIS TIME WITH RICK.

AND I'M VERY SAD HE'S LEAVING,

AND THAT I'M GONNA BE ALONE AGAIN.

SO THESE NEXT FEW MONTHS ARE GONNA BE TOUGH

BECAUSE DR. NOW SAID I NEEDED TO START THERAPY

IF I WANTED TO BE ABLE TO STAY ON TRACK

AND KEEP MAKING PROGRESS,

AND THAT HE WAS GOING TO SET UP APPOINTMENTS

WITH A THERAPIST FOR ME.

AND I KNOW STARTING THAT ISN'T GONNA BE EASY BECAUSE IT MEANS

I'LL BE TALKING ABOUT A LOT OF HARD STUFF.

BUT I LOVE THE DIRECTION MY LIFE IS GOING NOW.

YOU HAVE FUN? -OH, YEAH.

Antonio: HOPEFULLY, YOU ENJOYED THE TOUR.

THANK YOU AGAIN AND GOD BLESS YOU.

JUST WATCH YOUR STEP AND TRY TO CROSS FROM THE CORNER.

-Brianne: YOU READY? -HOUSTON'S PRETTY COOL.

A LOT OF NEAT ARCHITECTURE, THAT'S FOR SURE.

YEAH.

[ GROANS ]

WHEW!

I DID IT. -GOOD JOB.

♪♪

Brianne: IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE

TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS.

I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I HAVE A CHANCE AT THE LIFE I WANT,

AND I DON'T WANT TO JEOPARDIZE LOSING THIS.

I'VE HAD A TASTE OF HOPE,

SO AS HARD AS IT WILL BE TO SAY GOODBYE TO RICK AGAIN

AND START DOING THINGS LIKE TALK ABOUT MY PAST,

I'M WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES

TO MAKE SURE DAYS LIKE TODAY BECOME NORMAL FOR ME.

SO I JUST HOPE I'M STRONG ENOUGH.

♪♪

♪♪

TODAY, I'M GONNA BE MEETING WITH A THERAPIST,

AND I'M REALLY EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW.

AFTER RICK LEFT, I'VE BEEN ON MY OWN,

SO I'VE BEEN EXTREMELY LONELY.

AND THAT'S MADE IT A LITTLE HARDER

TO BUILD UP THE COURAGE TO GO TO THERAPY.

SO I'VE BEEN AVOIDING IT A LITTLE.

BUT I HAD ANOTHER APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW,

AND I'M STILL LOSING, BUT NOT AS MUCH.

AND HE TOLD ME IF I WANTED TO STAY ON TRACK,

I NEED TO DO THIS NOW, SO I'M GOING.

I'M JUST NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

-ARE YOU BRI? -HI. YES.

-I'M DR. PARADISE. COME ON IN. -NICE TO MEET YOU.

YOU CAN HAVE A SEAT RIGHT OVER THERE.

SO...GOOD TO MEET YOU.

I WANT TO START BY FINDING OUT A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU.

UM, I STARTED MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY AT OVER 700 POUNDS.

-OKAY. -I'VE LOST OVER 200.

-CONGRATULATIONS. -THANK YOU.

SO, WHAT WAS CHILDHOOD LIKE FOR YOU?

MY PARENTS, THEY -- YOU KNOW, THEY WERE IN THE MILITARY.

THEY WORKED A LOT. -OKAY.

AND MY DAD, HE KIND OF WORKED ALL OVER THE PLACE.

HE TRAVELED A LOT?

WELL, HE DID DO A COUPLE OF TOURS, LIKE,

OUT OF COUNTRY WHERE HE WAS GONE FOR ABOUT 14 MONTHS.

SO IT WAS JUST MY MOM AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER AND I.

INTERESTING. DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT THAT WAS LIKE FOR YOU?

YEAH. AS I GOT OLDER, I'D SAY LIKE MIDDLE SCHOOL --

THE END OF MIDDLE SCHOOL TO HIGH SCHOOL -- MM-HMM.

MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD REALLY TURNED.

WE JUST -- WE JUST CLASHED ALL THE TIME.

SO IT WAS THINGS LIKE TALKING BACK TO HIM?

MM-HMM. LIKE, I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS SOMETHING I DID

OR SOMETHING THAT I WAS DOING.

BUT I JUST FELT LIKE MY DAD JUST DIDN'T LIKE ME OR LOVE ME

AS MUCH AS MY BROTHER AND SISTER.

SO WHAT GAVE YOU THAT IMPRESSION?

THERE WAS TIMES WHERE, LIKE, HE WOULD SAY THINGS

THAT WOULD REALLY AFFECT ME.

THINGS ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT?

YEAH, AND IT JUST MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WASN'T LOVED.

OKAY.

THERE WAS ONE TIME HE CAME INTO MY ROOM,

AND I JUST REMEMBER HIS FACE,

AND I JUST FELT LIKE HE HATED ME.

I MEAN, HE HAD TO HAVE HATED ME TO CALL ME NAMES LIKE, YOU KNOW,

FAT -- FAT NAMES AND...

THAT'S HOW A KID LIKE YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT, RIGHT?

WHERE WAS YOUR MOM WHEN THIS WAS HAPPENING?

SHE WOULDN'T BE THERE.

SHE'D BE AT WORK, BUT SHE'D BE, LIKE, "BRIANNE, YOU WERE WRONG.

"YOU SHOULD NOT BE TALKING BACK

OR YOU SHOULDN'T BE DOING THIS OR..."

BASICALLY SAYING THAT SHE'S CHOOSING HIM OVER HIM.

IN A WAY.

HOW DO YOU THINK THAT AFFECTED YOUR BEHAVIOR AFTER THAT?

I WAS SO ANGRY, BUT ALSO JUST DONE,

SO I DIDN'T CARE ANYMORE. -MM-HMM.

WHERE DOES IT STAND WITH YOUR DAD NOW?

WE DON'T HAVE A RELATIONSHIP.

THE LAST TIME I SAW MY DAD WAS 2007.

TELL ME ABOUT THE LAST INTERACTION WITH YOUR DAD.

I DON'T REMEMBER.

I KIND OF WONDER, IF HE WAS SITTING RIGHT THERE,

WHAT WOULD YOU GUYS BE TALKING ABOUT?

I WOULD JUST TELL HIM HOW MUCH I MISS HIM.

MM-HMM.

SO MOVING FORWARD FROM HERE, DO YOU HAVE A LOT OF HOPES

OF PUTTING THINGS BACK TOGETHER WITH YOUR WHOLE FAMILY?

MM-HMM.

I'M ACTUALLY THINKING THIS IS GONNA BE YOUR HOMEWORK.

I THINK LEARNING TO STICK UP FOR YOURSELF

A LITTLE BIT MIGHT BE REALLY HELPFUL.

AND I KNOW IT MUST BE A CHALLENGE

GIVEN THE HISTORY OF YOUR FAMILY

TO THINK THAT, LIKE, STICKING UP FOR YOURSELF WOULD BE HELPFUL.

BUT I WONDER WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF YOU SHARE WITH THEM

SOME OF THE IMPACT OF YOUR CHILDHOOD ON HOW YOUR LIFE WENT.

TALKING TO YOUR MOM IS PROBABLY A BIG STEP.

COULD YOU OPEN ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF WE TALKED ABOUT TO HER?

I MEAN, I'M NOT GONNA LIE TO YOU.

I'D BE NERVOUS.

AND IF SHE REACTS NEGATIVELY?

AT LEAST I TALKED TO HER ABOUT IT?

MM-HMM.

AND MY GUESS IS, THERE MAY BE AN OPPORTUNITY

TO TALK WITH YOUR DAD ABOUT THIS AT SOME POINT.

-AT SOME POINT, I THINK. -YEAH.

HE DOESN'T HAVE TO PARTICIPATE FOR YOU TO DO THIS WORK.

YEAH.

IF YOU CAME AWAY FROM THIS MEETING TODAY

REALLY BELIEVING THAT YOU DESERVED TO BE TREATED WELL,

I THINK THAT'D BE A HUGE VICTORY.

IT WOULD CHANGE THE WAY YOU INTERACT

WITH EVERYBODY, IN A POSITIVE WAY.

YOU GOT A LOT OF THINKING TO DO. -MM-HMM.

AND A LOT OF WORK TO DO, BUT YOU'RE GETTING THERE.

MM-HMM.

GOOD. GREAT TO TALK TO YOU.

GREAT TO TALK TO YOU.

♪♪

THANK YOU SO MUCH. -THANKS FOR COMING.

-IT WAS GREAT TO MEET YOU. -YEAH, GREAT TO MEET YOU.

TAKE CARE.

Brianne: I KNOW I NEEDED TO DO THIS,

BUT THIS WAS SO HARD,

WHICH IS WHAT I WAS SCARED OF.

AND JUST THE THOUGHT OF EVEN TALKING TO MY MOM,

MUCH LESS MY FATHER,

EVEN IF IT'S DOWN THE ROAD, TERRIFIES ME.

BUT THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO DO

IF I WANT TO EVER BREAK THE CYCLE

THAT ALWAYS LEADS ME TO FOOD.

SO THIS IS GONNA BE A BIG CHALLENGE.

AND I JUST HOPE IT DOESN'T ALL GO HORRIBLY WRONG

AND END UP MAKING THINGS EVEN WORSE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: SINCE MY THERAPY APPOINTMENT,

I'VE BEEN WORKING UP THE COURAGE TO DO WHAT DR. PARADISE SAID

ABOUT STANDING UP FOR MYSELF

AND TO START FACING SOME OF THE EMOTIONAL THINGS

FROM MY PAST THAT HAVE BEEN TIED TO EATING FOR ME.

SO I ASKED MY MOM TO HELP ME RUN SOME ERRANDS

AND THEN GET SOME LUNCH WITH ME, HOPING WE COULD TALK.

BUT BETWEEN PAYING BILLS AND GOING TO THE STORE

AND SOME MINOR CAR TROUBLE EARLIER,

THE DAY HAS ALREADY BEEN A LITTLE STRESSFUL,

SO I'M TERRIFIED ABOUT HOW THIS IS GONNA GO.

HOO! SHOOT, THAT HURT.

[ BRIDGET SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ]

-THANK YOU, MAMA. -YOU'RE WELCOME.

WANT TO SIT OVER THERE?

-SURE. -OKAY. WATCH THIS.

ALL RIGHT.

WOW. WE'RE IN A BOOTH.

AND I HAVE ROOM. YOU GOT ENOUGH ROOM?

-YEAH. -WHEW.

Man: CAN I GET Y'ALL SOMETHING TO DRINK?

-YES. -WATER. -OF COURSE.

WATER AND AN UNSWEETENED TEA WITH MAYBE LEMON?

OF COURSE. ANY APPETIZERS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT?

WELL, I CAN HAVE BABA GA-- WAIT, HOW --

-OH, YEAH, BABA GANOUSH. -BABA GANOUSH.

-IT'S VERY GOOD. -YEAH, LET'S TRY IT.

SOUNDS GOOD. I'LL BRING IT RIGHT OUT.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

DON'T YOU HAVE TO, WHEN YOU EAT, BE CAREFUL?

BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO WHERE YOU WERE.

YOU ALREADY LOST A HUMAN OFF OF YOU.

-YEAH. -EXCUSE ME.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

LOOK AT YOU.

YOU'RE SMALLER NOW THAN WHEN I SAW YOU IN OREGON.

-REALLY? YOU THINK? -YEAH.

I KNOW. I'VE COME A LONG WAY, AND I WANT TO KEEP THAT GOING.

BUT TO DO THAT, MY THERAPIST SAYS

I NEED TO DEAL WITH SOME THINGS.

AND IT'S KIND OF SOMETHING

THAT I'VE BEEN WANTING TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT,

JUST TO KIND OF GET IT OFF MY CHEST.

LIKE...GROWING UP.

I JUST...I FELT LIKE

I ONLY REALLY HAD MYSELF TO DEPEND ON.

AND I'VE JUST FELT LIKE DAD DIDN'T LOVE ME.

I CAN SEE THAT.

BUT I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DIDN'T DO SOMETHING

TO STOP HOW HE TREATED ME.

I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T... I CAN'T ANSWER THAT.

THE ONE WHERE I FELT LIKE DAD JUST HATED ME

WAS WHEN WE WERE ALL RIDING BIKES, AND HE GOT MAD.

AND I JUST REMEMBER, HE SAID EVERY NAME IN THE BOOK.

LIKE...

AND I STILL REMEMBER, LIKE, THE LOOK, YOU KNOW.

I JUST -- I NEVER GOT THAT OUT.

AND YOU CAME UPSTAIRS AND YOU WERE PISSED,

BUT YOU STILL DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.

HOW OLD WERE YOU? TEENAGER?

I THINK I WAS, LIKE, 12, 13.

WE WERE YOUNG. I MEAN, IT'S NOT AN EXCUSE.

WE LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES,

AND WE BOTH HAD VERY STRESSFUL JOBS THAT,

WHEN YOU GET HOME, IF YOU HELD IT IN,

AND ONE LITTLE STRESSOR CAN MAKE THAT WHOLE GATE FLOOD, YEAH.

EXPLODE, YEAH. AND I UNDERSTAND THAT.

AS AN ADULT, I UNDERSTAND THAT. BUT I'M YOUR KID.

IT WAS YOUR JOB TO PROTECT ME, AND YOU DIDN'T.

I'M SORRY YOU FELT THAT WAY.

BUT I STILL REMEMBER, LIKE, THAT'S WHAT MADE ME FEEL

LIKE HE HATED ME.

AND BEFORE THAT, I THOUGHT I HAD YOU,

AND I FEEL LIKE THAT WAS THE BIG MOMENT

WHERE I FELT LIKE I HAD NO ONE,

AND I STARTED GOING OFF THE RAILS.

DAD SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER.

I'VE TALKED TO HIM ABOUT THAT, NEVER EXPLODE.

YOU KNOW I HAVEN'T PHYSICALLY SEEN HIM

IN, LIKE, 11 YEARS.

THAT HURTS ME DEARLY.

AND THAT HURTS ME, TOO.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE TO MAKE IT DIFFERENT.

YOU COULD HAVE PROTECTED ME MORE.

YOU KNOW, I WISH, YOU KNOW, GROWING UP

THAT YOU WERE JUST THERE FOR ME MORE.

YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT FUN

FEELING SCARED AND ALL ALONE WHEN YOU'RE A KID.

I FEEL LIKE YOU LET ME DOWN.

YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME.

UM, I DON'T...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THAT.

I REALLY DON'T.

I WISH I COULD HAVE DONE THINGS DIFFERENTLY.

THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THOSE [BLEEP] DAYS.

[ UTENSIL CLINKS ]

I'M LETTING EVERYBODY DOWN, YEAH.

I'M DONE.

♪♪

Brianne: I WAS AFRAID THIS WOULD HAPPEN.

I JUST HOPE THAT I DIDN'T JUST MAKE THINGS A WHOLE LOT WORSE.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

I'M PACKING RIGHT NOW TO TAKE A TRIP BACK TO OREGON.

RICK AND CAT DON'T KNOW I'M COMING,

AND I'M HOPING TO SURPRISE THEM WHEN I SHOW UP.

CAT'S BEEN HAVING KIND OF A ROUGH WEEK,

AND LIKE, THE VERY FIRST THING SHE SAID WAS LIKE,

"I WISH I COULD HUG YOU."

I MISS THEM BOTH SO MUCH,

AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SHOW THEM HOW FAR I'VE COME,

ESPECIALLY CAT.

I HAVEN'T SEEN CAT SINCE I LEFT,

SO IT'S BEEN, LIKE, SEVEN TO EIGHT MONTHS,

SO SHE SHOULD SEE A HUGE DIFFERENCE IN HOW I LOOK.

MY WEIGHT LOSS HAD STARTED TO SLOW A FEW MONTHS AGO,

BUT I PICKED UP THE PACE AGAIN THIS PAST MONTH.

SO AS HARD AS IT WAS TO START TO TALK TO MOM,

I GUESS THAT PROCESS IS HELPING DEAL

WITH THE THINGS THAT LED ME TO EAT.

I STILL HAVE HOPE THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO WORK THINGS OUT

WITH MY MOM, AND EVEN MY DAD, EVENTUALLY.

BUT I KNOW THAT'S GONNA TAKE TIME.

AND THAT MEANS I HAVE TO STAY FOCUSED

ON MY JOURNEY TO GET HEALTHY.

THANK YOU.

[ EXHALES SLOWLY ]

[ PANTING ]

OHH.

THE ONLY THING I'M NERVOUS ABOUT IS THE AIRPORT.

I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO WALK THROUGH

THE AIRPORT THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME.

IT'S BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME

SINCE I'VE TRIED TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS ON MY OWN

AND GO THIS FAR WITHOUT ANY SORT OF HELP WITH ME.

MY LAST EXPERIENCE WAS WHEN I CAME TO SEE DR. NOW,

AND I HAD RICK WITH ME.

BUT IT NEARLY PUSHED ME TO MY LIMIT,

AND I ALMOST DIDN'T EVEN MAKE IT,

EVEN WITH ALL THE HELP I HAD THEN.

SO AS EXCITED AS I AM, I'M ALSO WORRIED THAT

IF I START TO REALLY STRUGGLE A LOT,

IT WILL MEAN I DID TOO MUCH, TOO SOON.

AND IF THAT HAPPENS, I'M NOT GONNA HAVE ANYONE TO HELP ME.

THE LAST TIME, THERE WAS NO WAY

I COULD WALK THROUGH THE AIRPORT AT ALL.

SO THIS JUST SHOWS MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS PAYING OFF.

WHEW.

SO FAR, I'M REALLY TIRED.

IT'S KIND OF TAKING A LOT OUT OF ME.

AND I'M JUST FEELING A LITTLE BIT WEAK.

I'M HOPING THAT MY BODY CAN MAKE IT

THROUGH THE REST OF TODAY'S TRAVEL.

I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING TO GET TO MY LIMIT,

SO I NEED TO GET ON THE PLANE SOON BEFORE I GET TO THAT POINT.

OR IT COULD GET BAD.

♪♪

Brianne: BEFORE GETTING ON THE PLANE,

I WAS STARTING TO GET REALLY WORRIED

THAT I WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE TO PUSH MYSELF TO KEEP GOING

AND MAKE IT ALL THE WAY HERE.

BUT THANKFULLY, IT WASN'T TOO LONG BEFORE THEY LET US BOARD,

AND ONCE I GOT ON, I WAS ABLE TO CATCH MY BREATH A LITTLE.

SO I'M REALLY GLAD I DID IT AND I MADE IT HERE.

BUT I'M FEELING REALLY EXHAUSTED FROM ALL THIS ACTIVITY

AND I'M READY TO GET HOME.

BUT I STILL HAVE A LONG DRIVE AHEAD OF ME,

SO I NEED TO JUST HOLD ON A LITTLE LONGER.

THANKFULLY, MY FRIEND JAMIE IS COMING TO PICK ME UP.

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE SEEN HERE,

BUT WHEN I CALLED HER TO ASK FOR HELP GETTING HOME,

SHE TOLD ME SHE'D GIVE ME A RIDE,

SO I'M REALLY THANKFUL FOR THAT.

BUT I'M REALLY EXCITED AND ANXIOUS TO GET HOME

AND SEE MY FAMILY AND SURPRISE THEM WITH MY PROGRESS,

AND SHOW THEM THAT I WAS ABLE TO DO THIS WHOLE TRIP ON MY OWN.

DUDE, I'M SO [BLEEP] TIRED.

♪♪

RIGHT NOW, I'M FREAKING OUT 'CAUSE I'M SO EXCITED.

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEIR FACES

AND JUST LOVE ON THEM AND BE WITH THEM.

I MISS THEM SO MUCH.

RIGHT HERE, JAMIE, IS GOOD.

FREAKING OUT.

Brianne: I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN, AND I'M REALLY SORE,

BUT ALL I CARE ABOUT IS I'M ABOUT TO SEE

RICK NOW AND CAT SOON, TOO.

AND I CAN'T WAIT.

THIS IS GONNA BE SO GREAT.

[ DOOR UNLOCKS ]

-Rick: HI! -[ LAUGHS ]

-[ LAUGHS ] -HI!

HI!

-SURPRISE! -[ LAUGHS ]

-I MISSED YOU MORE! -SO AWESOME.

OH! [ LAUGHS ] SORRY TO MAKE YOU CRY.

OF COURSE.

Rick: I'M JUST IN SHOCK 'CAUSE I WASN'T EXPECTING HER TO BE HERE.

SO I'M REALLY HAPPY, REALLY HAPPY TO SEE HER.

[ PANTING ]

SO, HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO COME BACK?

I HAD NO IDEA YOU WERE COMING BACK.

I WOKE UP AT 5:00 IN THE MORNING.

YEAH.

FLEW OUT OF HOUSTON, WALKED THROUGH HOUSTON,

AND WE LANDED AT PORTLAND.

JAMIE PICKED ME UP BECAUSE I WANTED EVERYBODY ELSE

TO BE SURPRISED.

-[ LAUGHS ] -AND THEN CAT HAS NO IDEA.

SHE HAS NO IDEA.

I WAS THIS CLOSE TO SURPRISING HER AT WORK, BUT...

AND YOU KEPT TELLING ME THE WHOLE TIME, "I MISS YOU.

I'M SO LONELY. I MISS YOU." -[ LAUGHS ]

-[ LAUGHING ] -I AM THE QUEEN OF SURPRISES.

MM-HMM.

Rick: I COULD TELL SHE'S LOST EVEN MORE WEIGHT

SINCE THE LAST TIME I'VE SEEN HER,

SO I CAN'T EXPRESS ENOUGH HOW PROUD OF HER I AM,

HOW MUCH I LOVE HER, AND HOW HAPPY I AM

TO SEE HER DOING SO WELL.

Brianne: I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF FOR MAKING IT

ALL THIS WAY ON MY OWN.

I KNOW I NEED TO TAKE IT EASY FOR A BIT,

BUT I PLAN TO COOK DINNER AND SURPRISE CAT.

THAT WAY, WHEN SHE COMES HOME,

I NOT ONLY SURPRISE HER BY BEING HER,

BUT BY BEING UP AND ACTIVE AND TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY

JUST AS I USED TO DO AS HER MOM.

SO I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE EXPRESSION ON HER FACE.

♪♪

[ DOG BARKING ] -Catrina: HI, DAD!

HEY, KIDDO. HOW YOU DOING? HOW WAS WORK?

-GOOD. -GOOD?

ONCE AGAIN, THEY OVER-SCHEDULED US...

-HI, BABY. -[ GASPS ] MOM!

[ LAUGHTER ]

[ CRIES ] OH, MY GOSH!

WHAT'D I TELL YOU? [ LAUGHS ]

I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!

SO MUCH. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH. I JUST MISSED YOU SO MUCH.

SURPRISE!

[ LAUGHS, CRIES ]

ARE YOU SURPRISED?

UH-HUH. OH, MY GOD.

I AM... [ LAUGHS ]

I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT, EITHER.

-[ LAUGHS ] -SHE SHOWED UP AT THE DOOR.

OH, MY GOD. AND YOU LOOK SO GOOD.

-THANK YOU, CAT. -I LOVE YOU.

-OH! OW! [ LAUGHTER ]

IT FEELS AMAZING TO SEE MOM HOME.

I'M SO HAPPY THAT SHE'S BACK,

EVEN IF IT'S FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME.

I'M VERY PROUD OF HER.

IT'S AMAZING HOW MUCH WEIGHT SHE'S LOST

AND HOW HEALTHY SHE'S GETTING.

THANK YOU, MOM. -YOU'RE WELCOME, SWEETIE.

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE TIMES YOU COOKED ME DINNER.

THIS IS PRETTY NEAT, HAVING MOM COOK FOR US, HUH?

-MM-HMM. -YOU DON'T WANT ANY BREAD?

-NO, I'M GOOD. -Brianne: GOOD GIRL.

THE HAPPINESS AND FULFILLMENT AND HOPE I FEEL RIGHT NOW

ARE THINGS I HAVEN'T FELT IN A LONG TIME.

AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THAT BECAUSE I STARTED GAINING AGAIN.

IT'S NOT WORTH IT.

SO I'M DETERMINED TO MAKE IT TO MY GOAL,

AND I KNOW THE SOONER I GET THERE,

THE SOONER I COULD COME BACK HERE

AND BE WITH MY FAMILY FOR GOOD AGAIN.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Brianne: RIGHT NOW, I'M HEADED BACK TO SEE DR. NOW

FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, AND FIND OUT HOW MUCH

I'VE LOST OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS.

I WENT UP TO OREGON, AND I WAS GONNA STAY A MONTH,

BUT I ENDED UP STAYING FOR TWO.

IT WAS SO GOOD BEING BACK UP THERE WITH MY FAMILY.

IT WAS JUST HARD FOR ME TO LEAVE.

SO I MISSED MY LAST APPOINTMENT A MONTH AGO,

BUT DR. NOW SAID IT WAS FINE AS LONG AS I STAYED ON TRACK.

SO EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN AWAY, IT HASN'T BEEN A VACATION

BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD TO DO THAT.

AND I'M FEELING CONFIDENT MY WEIGH-IN WILL BE GOOD TODAY.

AND HOPEFULLY, I'LL BE ABLE TO GET APPROVED

FOR MY FIRST SKIN REMOVAL

TO HAVE THE EXCESS SKIN AROUND MY STOMACH REMOVED,

BECAUSE ALL THAT SAGGING SKIN IS STARTING TO CAUSE ME

A LOT OF PAIN.

BRIANNE?

Brianne: BUT DR. NOW TOLD ME

I NEED TO GET DOWN INTO THE 300s BEFORE I'M READY FOR THAT.

AND IF I STAYED ON TRACK, I SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT.

BECAUSE AT MY LAST WEIGH-IN TWO MONTHS AGO,

I WAS DOWN TO 447.

AND HE TOLD ME, AT THIS POINT,

I SHOULD BE LOSING AT LEAST 30 POUNDS A MONTH.

SO THAT MEANS I SHOULD BE AT OR BELOW 387 TODAY.

SO I'M REALLY HOPING I LOST WHAT I NEED.

♪♪

HOLY [BLEEP].

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

[ Whispers ] WHEW. HOLY MOLY.

I MAY NOT HAVE HIT MY GOAL FOR THIS MONTH,

BUT I STILL LOST A LOT,

AND I'M SO EXCITED TO BE IN THE 300s.

IT'S BEEN, LIKE, 20 YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN THIS SMALL.

SO SEEING THAT FELT REALLY GOOD.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

COME IN.

-HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW.

-HI, BRIANNE. -HOW ARE YOU?

DOING OKAY. HOW ABOUT YOU?

I'M DOING PRETTY GREAT.

WELL, I'M GLAD TO HEAR THAT. BUT WHERE'S YOUR MOM?

I'M DOING THINGS ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW.

-YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN NOW? -YEP.

WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR TAKING A STEP LIKE THAT,

AND FOR NOT USING THAT

AS AN EXCUSE TO RUN BACK TO FOOD OR DOING LESS.

BUT YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LOSE AT LEAST 60 POUNDS

FROM YOUR LAST WEIGH-IN BY TODAY.

YOU ONLY LOST 50. -MM-HMM.

BUT CONSIDERING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS SLOWED

TO LOSING ONLY AROUND 10 POUNDS FEW MONTHS AGO,

I SAY THIS IS A MOVE IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

-WHEW. -SO I'M HAPPY WITH THAT.

YOU LOST ALMOST 350 POUNDS AT THIS POINT.

-WHOO-HOO! -OKAY.

WAIT, I SHOULD GET TWO FOR THAT ONE.

OKAY. WITH HOW MUCH YOU HAVE LOST,

YOU ARE READY FOR YOUR FIRST EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL.

HERE WE GO.

BUT IT IS A BIG OPERATION,

AND YOU NEED SOMEONE THERE FOR YOU

TO HELP YOU ONCE YOU GO HOME.

BUT YOU SAID THAT ALL YOU HAVE IS YOUR MOM HERE,

SO DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA OF REACHING OUT TO HER

IN THE NEAR FUTURE AND SMOOTHING THINGS OVER?

WE'RE STILL TRYING.

YOU'RE STILL TRYING?

-YEAH. -THAT'S UNDERSTANDABLE,

BUT ONCE YOU FIGURE OUT SOMEONE TO HELP YOU WITH YOUR RECOVERY,

THEN WE'LL MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR FIRST EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL

FROM AROUND YOUR STOMACH.

IS THAT A DEAL? -IT'S A DEAL. I LIKE THAT.

ALL RIGHT. YOU'RE DOING GOOD, AND I'M PROUD OF YOU,

AND I'LL SEE YOU IN COUPLE MONTHS.

IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, JUST CALL US.

-OKAY. -YOU'RE DOING GREAT, OKAY?

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN, DR. NOW.

-YOU'RE WELCOME. -YOU'RE A LIFESAVER.

OKAY. WE'LL SEE YOU THEN.

BRIANNE HAS DONE GREAT,

BUT THERE'S STILL A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF HER,

AS WELL AS THINGS THAT SHE HAS TO FACE AND DEAL WITH

THAT MAY LEAD HER TO STRUGGLE.

BUT WE'LL BE THERE TO HELP HER GET BACK ON TRACK

IF THAT HAPPENS.

AND I'M CONVINCED THAT EVEN IF SHE STUMBLES,

BRIANNE WON'T LET HERSELF GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT.

Brianne: I WAS REALLY HOPING THAT I'D BE ABLE TO GET APPROVED

FOR SKIN REMOVAL TODAY AND GET AN ACTUAL DATE ON THE SCHEDULE.

BUT I KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT,

AND THAT THIS ISN'T GONNA BE AN EASY SURGERY.

SO I'M GOING TO NEED THE HELP,

AND MY MOM IS THE ONLY OPTION I REALLY HAVE.

BUT IT MAKES ME NERVOUS TO THINK ABOUT REACHING OUT

TO HER RIGHT NOW.

BUT I STARTED A TRANSITION TO A NEW PHASE IN MY LIFE,

AND I INTEND TO GET THERE, NO MATTER WHAT.

♪♪

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WHEN I GOT BACK FROM OREGON, I DECIDED I WANT TO GET OUT

AND START DOING MORE THINGS ON MY OWN.

AND ONE THING I DECIDED TO DO

WAS JOIN A LOCAL COED SOFTBALL TEAM,

BECAUSE I FIGURED IT'D BE A GOOD WAY TO MAKE SURE

I EXERCISE LIKE I NEED,

AND I'D GET OUT AND MEET NEW PEOPLE.

Man: HEY, BRI. ARE YOU READY TO WARM UP?

SURE.

Brianne: I'M AMAZED AT HOW MUCH I'M ABLE TO DO NOW,

AND I'M GONNA MAKE SURE I KEEP MAKING PROGRESS, NO MATTER WHAT,

EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO FACE THINGS I DON'T WANT TO

AND HAVE CONVERSATIONS I PREFER TO AVOID.

I'VE ALREADY TAKEN ANOTHER STEP AND REACHED OUT TO MY MOM

AND HAD ANOTHER CONVERSATION WITH HER.

AND THIS TIME, IT WENT BETTER.

SHE EVEN APOLOGIZED FOR LAST TIME.

SO THAT WAS REALLY ENCOURAGING.

[ BAT CRACKS ] OH!

AND SHE ALSO SAID THAT SHE WOULD BE THERE FOR ME

AND HELP TAKE CARE OF ME IF I HAVE SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY.

SO I TOLD DR. NOW, AND HE SCHEDULED MY SURGERY

FOR A MONTH AND A HALF FROM NOW

TO COINCIDE WITH WHEN MY MOM CAN TAKE TIME OFF OF WORK

FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND HELP ME.

AND I CAN'T WAIT BECAUSE THIS IS GONNA BE

A HUGE STEP FORWARD FOR ME.

[ BAT CLANKS ] -Man: WHOO!

Brianne: OH, [BLEEP]! I CAN'T RUN.

AND I PLAN, BY THIS TIME NEXT YEAR,

TO HIT MY TARGET AND MOVE BACK TO OREGON

AND BE THE MOM I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE.

MY LIFE IS STARTING TO LOOK LIKE THE WAY

I DREAMED IT WOULD FOR SO MANY YEARS.