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If you wanna stay tonight...

I don't know how I could sleep right now.

How much gas do you have in your car?

[upbeat music]

- That's $500. - Yeah.

- Oh, oh! - Oh, my God, Danny!

- You won! - [laughs]

Oh, my God!

- Okay. - There you go.

There's this woman at work.

Nothing happened, but I think maybe I wanted it to.

What about Leigh?

[thunder rumbles]

[birds chirping]

- I'm just... I'm sorry. - I'm... okay.

You end up in some casino in the middle of nowhere,

and that's where you finally dream

about Matt for the first time since he died?

I know.

So can you just get to the part

where you tell me if you think it's any good?

I'm publishing it today.

- It's your day off. - Oh, boohoo.

- I'll get myself a treat. - [laughs]

What do you think of this as a title?

"My Husband Died Six Months Ago.

I Found Him Last Week at a Casino."

This makes it sound like Matt faked his death

so that he could leave me for a high-class hooker.

[laughs]

Clickbait or no one reads it.

Kay.

You okay?

Yeah.

I just... I can't get over how real

this dream felt.

I mean, I... I touched him.

It felt like this.

It must have been really something.

It was the most amazing thing that had ever happened to me.

I'm really glad,

because when I texted you the other day

and you said you were drunk off your ass

at some club, I was like,

"Hmm, it's Wednesday.

"What kind of crazy midweek bender

is Leigh off on?"

I wasn't on a bender.

Oh, you were on a something.

I read your essay, okay?

Great, well, I'm actually on the inside

of this thing, and I know what's going on.

Okay.

[exhales]

So, what do you wanna talk about?

- I don't know. - This hike kicked my ass.

Can we just get down the hill and eat sugar?

[gasps]

Kettle Glazed?

Oh, yeah, give me all da donuts.

Loser pays!

- No. - Come on.

I have the blisters on the bottom of my feet.

- Forget the blisters. - I don't like running!

[somber music]

[knocking at door]

Hey.

- Hey. - [laughs]

I brought you something.

[laughs]

- Ah, donuts. - [both laugh]

Drew and I got them after our hike.

Did you tell him about, um...

N... I thought I might,

but he was...

in a very weird, judgmental place.

Yeah, no, I got an earful from my mom this morning.

Wait, you... you didn't?

- No way. - She would have lost it.

Yeah, she definitely would have.

What are we gonna do?

Mm.

So, what's... what's this?

This is a TV stand with doors.

- Oh. - [laughs]

Right? You wanna help me build it?

You really know how to show a girl a good time.

Damn straight.

[laughs]

Okay. So where are the instructions?

[smacks lips] I threw 'em out.

I mean, if you think you need 'em...

I mean, yeah, I have this really out-there theory

that instruction manuals exist for a reason, but...

Oh, fun. Thank you.

They didn't have almond milk, so I got it with oat.

I can't believe you came all the way here

to bring me coffee.

I wanted to see you,

and you're always working, so...

- Hey, lady. - Hey.

- When do we get you back? - I don't wanna tell you.

It's too depressing.

Okay, well, we miss you class.

I miss you guys too.

I'm gonna be so out of shape.

By the time I'm back on my feet,

I won't be able to get through

the first five minutes of class.

[sighs] Okay.

What are you doing?

I am looking up strength training

you can do with a leg injury.

Looks like... bicep curls,

bench dips, and core work.

Okay. We got this.

Wait, you're not just gonna let me whine?

Mm, no.

Studio's empty. Come on, let's go.

- Come on. - Okay.

- Thank you. - [laughs]

So...

Drew is gonna publish another one of my essays.

But you... but you didn't, like, you know,

have another breakdown.

[laughs] No.

I did this one the normal way or kind of normal.

I, um, actu... I wrote it in the car yesterday

on the way back.

So thank you for driving.

It's... actually about...

a dream I had about Matt

on our trip.

I thought we said that was just gonna be about us.

Right, well, I mean, I can't control what I dream.

I just didn't want to not tell you

about the piece.

Yeah, that's fine.

[grunts]

[heavy breaths]

Ooh.

You are sexy when you're gasping for breath.

[laughs] I'm not gasping.

Oh, okay, well, then keep going.

Come on.

- [grunts] - [laughs]

I guess you're done.

Yeah, I actually have a ton of paperwork to do

while the studio's closed.

- Mm. - [giggles]

So, what are you doing after paperwork?

Chilling out and then having dinner with my sister.

Well, what if you did work later

and you, you know, chilled out now?

[laughs]

Uh...

- Come on. - Play hooky with me.

[groans]

Whoo!

[laughs] Thank you.

Hoo.

Hey, tell me about your Matt dream.

Oh, we don't have to talk about it.

Well, I want to.

Okay.

Um... well, he...

He was looking out a window...

And I walked up to him.

He was... I mean, he was there.

He was just right in front of me,

and I...

I had this feeling of...

being loved and taken care of.

Sorry, should I not have told you?

No, I asked you to.

It's just, um...

I've been dreaming about Matt too.

- Oh. - Not good dreams.

What happens in them?

[melancholy music]

Leigh?

This is your house?

It's my mom's, but she's, um...

It's not important.

Mm-mm.

[upbeat music]

[laughing]

[chuckling]

Are we missing a leg?

How?

This place is the size of a closet.

I don't know.

Maybe they just gave you three by accident.

It's gotta be around here somewhere.

Um, well, I'm looking.

You know, if you do ever wanna talk about

your not-good dreams,

I did take a class in college

on Carl Jung, so I'm kind of like an expert

[exaggerated] at dream analysis.

[chuckles]

- I'm good, thanks. - Okay.

Well, if you change your mind,

no one knows what you're going through more than me.

- I don't think that's true. - What do you mean?

We're not going through the same thing, Leigh.

That's okay.

You see Matt differently than I do.

How do I see Matt?

Like he went through life wearing a superhero cape.

How do you see him?

Not as the Matt that made everyone feel

loved and cared for, that's for sure.

- But he did. - Come on, let's be real.

He was a depressed mess

who brought everyone down with him.

Ooh, that is... that's just not true.

You know damn well that's true.

He had his stuff to deal with,

but we all have our stuff.

But that's just not what this is about, is it?

What's this about then, Leigh?

You don't have to be shitty about Matt

to feel okay about being with me.

I'm being this way about Matt,

because he was shitty.

- No he wasn't! - He was the greatest.

I mean, he... he made so many days

the best days of my life.

Like, ex... explain the night we met.

Explain the day he proposed.

Like, explain New Orleans.

- New Orleans? - Oh, my God.

I don't have to justify Matt to you.

Okay, I'm gonna... um, I'm just gonna go home.

Jules wants to have dinner.

So I'll just... I'll be on time for once.

Why does Jules wanna have dinner?

I don't know.

Maybe because she is my sister and she likes me.

Whatever.

I gotta find that stupid table leg.

[paper rustling]

[solemn music]

Okay.

Okay.

- Hey. - Hey.

Drumroll, please.

- Oh, what kind of a drumroll? - A standard drumroll.

Oh, good, 'cause that's the only thing I can do.

[laughs]

Whoa.

New Orleans.

This ticket's for tonight.

Yeah, you know, I don't have school Monday.

So I thought we could do 48 hours in Nola.

What's happening right now?

Well, I don't know.

I just... well, I just kind of feel like

we've been on different wavelengths lately.

Yeah.

I've felt that too.

Um...

I don't want things to keep going

the way they've been going.

So, New Orleans?

It's like going to France without a passport.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, when you walk down the streets,

music spills out of open doors,

and there's at least one parade

every day.

You hate parades.

Okay, so we dodge the parades

and we just walk and talk.

[giggling]

[smooching]

[chuckles]

- [smooches] - [chuckles]

Let's see.

You have a lot of dance music.

Yeah, that's what happens when you teach a dance class...

or did, when I could move without crutches.

- Oh, wait. - What's this?

"Which way to the market?"

[speaks Vietnamese]

Oh, I was trying to learn some Vietnamese.

Right on.

Yeah.

My birth family's from Vietnam.

Have you ever been back to visit?

I was thinking about it before Mom left

and the studio took over my life.

But honestly, I don't know if I'm ready

for I'd find there or not find.

Well, you may surprise yourself

with what you can handle.

I mean, I never thought I'd make it through prison.

[laughs]

Oh.

Um, the way you said that,

I thought it was a joke,

but it... was not.

Do you wanna know why I was in prison?

Um... only if you wanna tell me.

It was for assault.

I hadn't really dealt with any of my Catholic

and family stuff.

I was just holding onto a lot of anger at the time.

I was at a gay bar.

Straight guy walked in, sat down, he wouldn't leave.

And...

I don't know. I thought he laughed at me.

Maybe he did, maybe he didn't,

I don't... doesn't really matter.

But I hit him with a beer bottle.

He knocked his head on the ground,

and he was in a coma for a couple of days.

Um...

Wow.

Yeah, it... um, it took me awhile to realize

that it wasn't really about him.

Therapy helped.

And I'd like to think

that I'm not that person anymore.

I... uh, I know that that's a lot.

[sentimental music]

Where is this damn leg?

[phone clacking]

[phone whooshes]

[phone thuds]

[phone bleeps]

[buzzing]

[buzzing stops]

Hello?

Who is this?

Who the hell are you?

- I'm Tatiana. - Why'd you text me?

Tati, who you talking to?

Give me that phone. Who's this?

Sorry, I just, um...

was trying to get ahold of someone else.

Yeah, my daughter just got a phone.

This is her number now.

- My bad, won't happen again. - Yeah. Thanks.

- Yeah, you... - [line disconnects]

[somber music]

[phone clatters]

Have you heard from your national parks nerd?

When's the next road trip?

Yeah, I don't know

if I'm gonna see him again.

- Is everything okay? - Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

So, Mom... Mom sent a postcard?

Yeah, apparently, she's been snowshoeing

and chasing alpenglow.

What's alpenglow?

- You got me. - [both laugh]

So,

what's... what's up with you?

Um...

I met someone.

- That's great. - Yes.

Her name's Tommy like the musical.

[laughs]

She's smart and funny and hot.

Wow.

- Yeah. - Yeah, yeah.

[both laugh]

And I guess if she was telling her family about me,

I'd want her to be... I mean, I'd like to hope

that she wouldn't lead with "Jules is an alcoholic,"

but...

I'm sorry, I just lost ya.

Tommy was in prison.

Okay.

For... for what?

- Assault. - Oh.

But she's done a lot of work on herself.

Do you feel safe with her?

I really do,

and what's happening with us

feels really right.

Go ahead.

With what?

No, honestly, I am... I'm all out of judgment right now.

Come again.

It would make me really happy

to meet this person that makes you so happy.

Yeah, me too.

I'm... I'm really glad I told you that.

Um, I need to tell you something.

[clears throat]

I... I, um...

I didn't go out of town

with the national parks guy.

I went with Danny.

[fork clatters]

Um, wait, Danny Danny?

That's weird, you know, I'm...

I know I should be completely shocked

and part of me is, but...

the other part of me sees it...

gets it... I don't...

you guys shared this huge thing, and...

Yeah, I'm not sure

what we share anymore.

What do you mean?

I just thought that we were going through

the same thing, but...

Well, I mean, of course it's not the exact same thing.

You'd have to be the same person.

Right, well, I... yeah, I just thought...

I don't know.

What did you always say to me?

Um...

"You can't expect people to grieve

in ways that are convenient for you."

Don't act like the big sister.

You just stay in your lane.

[laughs]

[both laugh]

[solemn music]

What are you saying exactly?

Uncle Justin and Aunt Val have been married

for like, 20 years.

- So? - She's his third wife.

He's her second husband.

When you marry someone, you don't actually know.

You're just taking your best guess,

but you don't actually know.

- You're not Uncle Justin. - You're Matt.

- Yeah, I'm aware. - Are you, though?

Are you really?

Well, listen, whatever this is with Nina,

it just happened.

I didn't go looking for it.

That doesn't mean you should

seriously think about throwing your marriage away.

Are you actually gonna bat for Leigh?

I'm going to bat for you.

You're not acting like yourself.

You fell into a rut.

At least try to climb out of it

before you do something stupid.

- How? - I don't know.

Do something.

You got a three-day weekend coming up, right?

Go somewhere with her.

Like where, Santa Barbara?

Oh, my... no.

Take a plane, a real trip.

Dude, New Orleans.

What is it with you and New Orleans?

You go there once, you can't shut up about it.

It's like going to France without a passport.

Music pours from the buildings on the street.

Plus, there's a parade literally every day.

Dude, parades are for psychopaths.

Oh, my God.

Dodge the parades.

Just walk through the streets and talk while music plays.

I'm telling you, man, 48 hours in Nola.

Reconnect.

[tranquil music]

[knocking at door]

I read your essay.

Okay.

I'm trying to meet you halfway,

but you said you had a dream about Matt.

You didn't say it was the first you'd had since he died.

Well, you weren't exactly open to talking about it.

Well, I wanna talk about it now.

I mean, you come over here, we sleep together,

we go out of town, you have this dream.

- Coincidence? - I don't know.

- Stop it, Leigh. - You're using me.

- You're using me to get to Matt. - What about you?

You're so angry at him.

What does screwing your brother's widow

do for you?

[exhales deeply]

Is this it?

Are we done?

Do you want us to be done?

No.

Me neither.

Let's go out.

- Where? - I don't care.

Let's just get out of here.

- Yeah. - Okay.

[gentle pop music]

How would you feel

if I wrote about our relationship

in my next essay?

As long as you mention my fiery calves

and my ferocious stamina.

Goes without saying.

Check this out.

It's our summer calendar.

You'd be a rock star here.

You don't think that my job or my life are good enough.

Like, I'm a fixer-upper.

Did she want a job at the studio?

No.

And you tried giving her one anyway?

I'm an idiot.

- You're not an idiot. - You're just a Shaw.

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