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Do you get it now?

The person who should've gotten on that boat on that day...

was me.

If only I hadn't given your mother my ferry ticket

then...

so...

don't you ever forgive me.

Hate me and resent me...

and when you get tired of hating me...

when that time comes...

just forget about everything.

I'll forever live on...

without ever forgetting.

["In Search of Lost Time" by Marcel Proust]

[Shin Woo, I have something to tell you.]

[I'll wait for you at Firefly Bridge at 11 o' clock tomorrow.]

Everything started with this note

and everything...

ended with this note.

This makes no sense.

How is it that the only person who can't say...

that I'm glad that nothing happened to her...

and that I'm glad that she's safe...

is me, of all people?

How?

When, in the function f(x), x equals a...

and when the value of f(x) approaches the value of a...

- Huh? - Whose is that?

it becomes a divergent sequence.

Mr. Kang.

I think that's your phone.

Huh?

Oh.

Just a second.

Aren't you neglecting me a bit too much?

What kind of guardian are you?

You've been leaving a minor all alone by himself for several days.

I've been busy because of school.

What is it?

- They said that I can be discharged. - Really?

Want me to go to the hospital?

No. I took care of all of the discharge procedures.

I'll be at home.

All right.

Um...

have you seen Ji Soo lately?

I see her right now.

I'm only telling you this because I don't want to keep this bottled up inside me

but I haven't been able to talk to her properly these past couple of days.

Because...

she's been in the ER for the past couple of days without eating or resting.

You said that you wanted to see me, right?

Well, I...

lived all this time, hoping that I wouldn't see you.

Remember what I said last time?

About how we should never see each other again?

I meant that.

Me first, me first!

- Me first! - No, me!

- Me too, me too! - My name is Seo Joon.

Just a second.

Me too, me too!

Wow, thank you!

What are you all doing? Aren't you going back to the classroom?

- Ugh. - Man.

Eh?

Why did you come to school?

I told you that I was coming to the school today.

Oh.

Mokzart called me in.

He wanted me to do that thing... what's it called?

It's that thing... uh, "dotori!" (means "acorn")

You mean, "mentoring?"

Yeah, that! Yep.

Jeez.

I wonder if those kids know...

that you can't even tell the difference between "mentoring" and "dotori."

You're not going to tell them, are you?

Wow.

This really takes me back.

You must feel like you're back in high school every day

when you look at them.

Oh yeah, I went to Min Seok's house yesterday.

Do you really still like Ji Soo?

Hey.

Why not give it another shot with her, then?

It was really nice...

back when we were that age.

When we were out there together

and when I was watching you guys from here...

I was really happy.

That really was...

the happiest time of my life.

And so...

I've decided to be satisfied...

with just that.

What are you talking about?

I liked Ji Soo.

I liked her.

I have to go to class now, so I'll be going now.

You can look around the school more if you want.

Huh?

Wasn't that book your most treasured possession?

I'm going to get rid of it.

Because I'm never going to read it again.

Now, everything really is...

over.

My very, very long...

first love.

I no longer feel that I can be a useful contributor

to the goals and missions of the organization.

Oh, and the phrase, "no longer feel to" over here

means that they don't feel a certain way anymore.

Remember that part.

Memorize everything that we covered today.

We'll have a test on it during the next class.

What the...

- Which bastard is it today? - Goodbye, Teacher.

A blind date? A marriage meeting?

Or are you just using them?

Which one is it today?

What are you talking about?

That hairpin.

Who are you meeting up with that you have it on today?

A man, who else?

You told me to put it on whenever I'm meeting up with a man.

Yeah, so...

Who's the man?

A nice, new Benz.

What do you mean, "a Benz--"

Want to go somewhere to eat?

There's something I want to eat

but apparently, they will only serve two servings or more.

- Ms. Baek. - I'm going to drink alcohol, too.

Do you want to take off that pin before we go, then?

You can bite down on some other things instead.

- Ugh! - Ow!

Hurry up and get in!

What are you doing?

I really didn't take you for that kind of person, Mr. Kang

but you really are petty.

What do you mean?

You hid them on purpose, didn't you? The previous questions on the CSAT!

So that I couldn't see!

What are you talking about?

And here, I was planning to memorize all of the answers for the CSAT

and change how my life ended up.

I'm planning to head back.

To the year 2007.

I was so envious...

of my friends

who could have a drink with their parents

after they grew up.

Then, who did you learn drinking etiquette?

Jeez, how many times does your damned company have staff dinners per week?

Shut it!

Huh?

You got released from the hospital, I see!

What are you guys doing right now?

Well, um...

Mr. Kang said that it's best to learn drinking etiquette from an adult, so...

Hey! What are you doing to the kid?

Who the hell educates people on drinking etiquette with beer, of all things?

Isn't there any soju?

I'll teach him properly.

Give me a sec.

Take care of this situation.

It's okay! It's totally fine.

Oh, there's soju inside!

Yes!

Yes, go inside. Straight inside.

Now you see who you would've learned drinking etiquette from, right?

On the day that you turn twenty years old

you'll feel as if you'd be better off dead...

because you'll wake up vomiting from being so hung over.

It's such a relief to know that beforehand.

When you go back...

take good care of Big Sis.

You've already mourned over Mom while you were here...

but for Big Sis, it'll be the toughest time of her life.

All right.

Oh.

Is there anything you heard from Ji Soo?

I heard her say...

that she likes you.

Ji Soo said that she likes you!

So...

I'm planning to go back.

Everything ended well.

So I just need to try my best now.

Yeah.

I'll do my best.

But, you know, Mr. Kang.

Did you know...

that you can even be jealous of yourself?

Now, I've even found out that you're me from the future.

But even so...

I was envious of you.

Ji Soo's first love was you.

And the one that she likes right now is you, too.

The one that Ji Soo likes has never been...

me, at this age.

I never go to hear...

Ji Soo say to me...

that she likes me.

But, did you know...

that, in this world...

there will be some things that you wish you'd never heard?

That...

would have been the less painful of the two options.

You'll find out what I mean when you become an adult.

Ugh, go away, already!

I tend to sleep on my left side!

Do you think I'd tend to sleep on my right side, then?

Ugh, come on!

"Ugh, come on!"

Mr. Kang.

What?

Is college nice?

It's just whatever.

Is it nice when you become an adult?

No.

Not really.

But still, it's nice to make your own money, right?

Are you kidding me?

It's the best when someone else is making money for you.

You have to instill some hope in me about the future!

Haven't you ever heard of a "white lie?"

What did you actually enjoy in your life, then?

Waiting.

I thought that...

today, or maybe the next day...

or maybe the day after that...

I'd run into her, maybe just once.

And I waited.

For who?

Who do you think?

But now...

I know...

that...

I'll have to wait ten years to see Ji Soo again.

But still, you can cling to the hope that you'll see her in ten years.

That'll help you press onward.

You said that you heard it yourself.

And you told me that Ji Soo said that likes me.

So now...

wouldn't the future that's in store for both of us

that I don't know about be a happy ending?

That's a pretty hopeful future you've got waiting for you, don't you think?

Mr. Kang.

I...

was so happy to have met you.

Because I found out that I grew up to become quite a decent adult.

I'm sorry...

that I keep lying to you.

But the reason why I keep lying to you...

is because I want to leave it for you to deal with when you're an adult...

when you're ready to handle.

And let's not...

get angry...

or resent that thing called fate.

After all...

we did get to smile a lot...

and had our hearts skip a beat a lot...

and got to be quite happy.

That's more than good enough.

Right?

You've worked so hard.

Good job, Kang Shin Woo.

[Orthopedic Surgeon: Shin Joo Hwan]

Han Ji Soo.

Remember that promise you made me?

I want to use it today.

I get to have you today.

Yeah, the time will be--

What's your problem?

[No talking on the phone during appointments]

I'm a patient whose appointment is now.

Didn't you get discharged?

I'm here for my treatment.

Damn.

There we go.

Deok Goo.

Meet me at the front door of the hospital at 7 p.m.

Doctor.

I'm leaving today.

Leaving?

So...

Hang out with me, just for today.

Yes, this is the hospital, correct?

Please connect me to Doctor Shin Joo Hwan in the Orthopedics Department.

Whoa!

Let's go.

Oh, coming to places like this reminds me of the past.

Me too.

Hey.

There's a huge generational gap between us.

You grew up watching Pororo, right?

Back in our days, we watched "Young Shim" and "Ha Ni."

"Run, Ha Ni!"

Do you even know those shows?

Of course I do.

I watched those shows a lot back in kindergarten.

Huh?

They still aired that show when you were young?

Of course.

I even remember the times that they aired.

Sundays and Mondays, at 1 o' clock! Right after "National Singing Contest."

Yeah, that's right!

I watched a lot of other cartoons too, besides "Ha Ni."

"Fly, Superboard," "Pokemon," "Duchi and Puku."

Yeah, that's right.

But, why doesn't it feel like you're like the other kids your age?

It almost feels as if I'm talking to my friends right now.

I have no idea who's who when I watch TV nowadays.

Back in our day, the top idol group was

- Girls' Generation. - Girls' Generation.

But, isn't there anything that you want?

I want to buy you something since you're going far away.

Then...

give me that.

This?

Yes, as my birthday present.

Oh, it's your birthday?

No, my birthday has already passed.

But I still want this from you as a birthday gift.

All right then, I'll give you your present for next year early.

Happy birthday.

Now...

all of my wishes have come true.

And finally...

there's a place that I want to go to, with you.

I really wanted to...

say my final farewell to you here.

I once had a friend.

But I didn't even know that would be the last time I'd see her...

and I didn't even get to say what I wanted to say to her.

And we parted ways here.

What did you want to say to her?

"I like you."

"I..."

"really like you, quite a bit."

That friend...

was my first love.

I was happy that...

I was able to meet that friend...

and was able to fall for her.

Quite a bit.

It was the same for me.

Because...

I also had a first love.

By your first love

do you mean your homeroom teacher from high school?

You said that last time to your friends.

No.

The person whom I liked...

was my friend.

Kang Shin Woo.

That was...

his name.

I liked that friend of mine...

quite a lot.

Thank you for everything up until now...

Doctor.

I'm thankful too.

Whenever I was with you...

I felt as if I'd gone back to the past.

It felt like I could be happy again.

Just like I was back then.

Here.

This is a farewell gift.

I heard that it's raining this evening.

A long time ago, when I part ways with that friend...

it was raining.

So, for the past ten years...

in my memory, that friend of mine...

was always being rained on.

And that pained me so much.

Be healthy...

and take care.

You too, Doctor.

I must have grown attached to you in this short amount of time.

Doctor.

I...

would like it if you weren't in pain anymore.

So....

as soon as you leave from this place...

turn your phone on right away.

You want me to make it so that Ji Soo can leave Garam Island?

You have the power to do that.

You can get her back to Seoul

or wherever else that isn't here.

I just don't get it.

Didn't you like Ji Soo?

And yet, here you are, asking another man who likes this woman

to help her leave, when you like her.

To put it in your terms

I don't think you're "following the rules."

No.

This is the final rule that is left to me now.

To make sure that Ji Soo leaves here, no matter what it takes...

and make it so that she won't have to see me anymore.

And what...

is the reason for this?

Because Ji Soo will feel more and more unhappy...

the more she sees me.

But before that

I must know what happened between you and Ji Soo.

But...

did you and Deok Goo plan this, by any chance?

Deok Goo?

Why is it that both of you came to see me, and said the same things?

Doctor.

Yeah?

I have a favor to ask of you.

Isn't it too much of a waste to keep Doctor Han Ji Soo in the countryside?

I feel like Seoul suits her better.

Please make that happen.

If you do that...

then I'll give up my place as first in line to you.

[From: Senior Joo Hwan]

I told you that I'd tell you my name, right?

My name is...

is Kang Shin Woo.

Don't you ever forgive me.

Hate me and resent me...

and when you get tired of hating me

just forget about everything.

I'll forever live on without ever forgetting this.

Kang Shin Woo.

That was... his name.

I liked him...

quite a lot.

[One Month Later]

Ugh.

I don't want to go to school!

You have no choice but to go if you want to make a living.

What are you going to do if you don't go?

Are you going to dig up dirt and eat that instead?

Hurry up and get out here! Let's eat breakfast.

Don't you mean, "make breakfast?"

Ugh, I shouldn't have moved back here.

I should've lived alone in Seoul.

Ugh!

We lived together for only a couple of days

but it's become a habit already.

That punk went back.

But there were still traces of him left behind, here and there.

Hey, Kang Shin Woo!

I told you not to only pick out the stems and eat them!

Ow!

I thought you fixed that bad habit when you grew up

How much older do you need to get to stop doing this, already?

This wasn't me!

Only you and I live here, so who else would've done it?

There was one other person here!

Oh yeah.

Oh, as if!

You're trying to blame him, when his life is pitiful enough?

How could there be another kid with the same terrible eating habits as you?

Wow!

Is he doing well?

What about the loan sharks? Did they all leave?

Well... yeah.

Probably.

Aren't you even worried?

Why don't you worry about the brother that's right in front of you, instead?

He's doing fine.

It's because he's doing fine now that I'm doing fine now, too.

There were some changes that happened after he went back.

When we started occupying different space-times

the memories that he had from back then

were shared with me.

Mr. Kang! Tell us about your first love!

- Whoo! - Whoo!

How about you guys change up your repertoire?

Aren't you guys tired of hearing about it?

We heard that you told the other class about it!

About how you fell for your first love at first sight!

- Tell us! - Tell us!

Where did you meet her? And how, exactly?

Well, the thing is... um...

I caught her when she jumped from the gate--

Oh.

Oh, I made a three-pointer with a basketball, and--

Wait, no. Was it the bus?

- Oh, come on! - What the...

Did you go out with her?

Did you confess?

Oh, as for my confession...

when I met her for the first time in 10 years, in Seoul...

No, ten years ago, at Firefly Bridge...

Wait, no. That wasn't ten years ago.

- Huh? - What's with him?

Hey, there.

[My Honey]

So you are dating, Na Hee.

Oh my gosh! N-no, I'm not!

Oh, as if.

Who is that?

Is that the man that you went on a blind date with, last time?

That's a definite no!

I won't look, so chat away to your heart's content!

What about you? Have you been seeing someone lately?

You're always on your phone these days.

After he went back

I started getting letters from the past.

Hey there.

Hi.

Mr. Kang.

You were waiting for my email again, weren't you?

Because I'm probably the only one who contacts you.

Look at him, acting like the same doesn't apply to him.

[2007]

That's right.

Who am I kidding?

I'm the same as you in that regard.

Damn it.

I shouldn't have gotten it fixed after it got water damaged.

Huh? What is this?

[Voice Mail]

When did I get this?

Do they send spam through voice mails now, too?

At any rate, I'm only sending this because I feel bad for the 28-year-old me

who'll be all by his lonesome in the chilly autumn weather.

Oh yeah.

I almost forgot to tell you since things have been so hectic, but...

I think that there is something going on

between Geun Deok and Na Hee.

Or, as you'd say in 2017 lingo...

they're "flirting up a storm."

On the day that all of our friends met up together in 2017

I saw the two of them on my way back to the hospital.

Yeah.

That's right.

Of course I miss you, too.

I love you!

Then, the guy she was talking to before was Choo Geun Deok?

Oh gosh, I saw something that I shouldn't have seen!

Ugh, I'm getting goosebumps!

Where are you going?

What are you doing? Just focus on studying.

Come on, where are you going?

Ugh, I'm getting goosebumps.

Oh gosh, I saw something that I shouldn't have seen!

Mr. Kang.

You know everything now, right?

About how I lied and pretended not to know about Ji Soo.

But let's just agree...

to let that one slide.

After all, you lied too.

You really were great at lying.

You were really great at lying, Mr. Kang.

Number two.

- So... - X minus one...

how are you doing now, Mr. Kang?

I won't fall for your lies anymore.

Because...

right now, I...

am not okay.

So...

there's no way that you'd be okay.

[I told you that I'd tell you my name. It's Kang Shin Woo.]

Here's what you asked for, Doctor.

The only personal information we have on this patient is about his guardian.

You could contact his guardian if you need anything, couldn't you?

It's fine.

I just had a suspicion about something, but it would just make no sense.

But, Doctor.

I'm so sad that we couldn't have a proper farewell party for you.

Today's your last day here, isn't it?

Yes.

Today's my last day.

The plane is taking off tomorrow afternoon

so let's leave early tomorrow morning.

I'd want to have the airplane come here and pick us up, if I could

but that's not quite within my level of authority.

If you just endure the boat ride tomorrow

I'll make it so that you'll only ever take planes for the rest of your life.

It's too bad, though

since I don't know if I'll be needing to take a plane ever again.

I'm heading to the U.S. now because of the training program

but I'm thinking about staying there, since I'm making the trip over anyway

since my parents are both over there, too.

Then I'll come and settle down there with you.

Can't you be serious for once, Senior?

Last time, when I saw your text and came to meet you

I was so surprised since you asked me to come to the U.S. with you out of nowhere.

I told you, my father told me to go.

He said it'd be best for me to go far away, where he won't be able to see me

since he can't stand me.

How will you get used to living there, when all you eat is Korean food?

It's not important what I eat, whether it may be bread or rice.

What's important is that I'll be eating with you.

I'm sorry.

If I'd known sooner, I never would have brought you here.

I'm sorry I can't hang out with you when today is your last day in Korea.

I have to go say farewell to a lot of people.

I have a place that I need to visit, too.

It'll go well with your skin tone.

Welcome!

So Ra!

Oh, Ji Soo!

Here we go.

Are you enjoying your job?

It's not ever easy working for someone else.

It's just whatever.

But still.

You seem a lot happier.

I guess the working mom life suited me more than being a housewife.

But, what brings you here?

I'm leaving tomorrow, So Ra.

This time, I wanted to tell you properly before I left.

To where?

Are you going back to Seoul?

I'm going to the U.S.

And this time...

I don't think I'll be coming back.

Does Shin Woo know, too?

But I think that...

Shin Woo will be relieved that I chose to do this.

If you ever bring up Han Ji Soo in front of me, I'll kill you!

You got that?

You all better remember that.

I don't want to hear about a wench like her

so don't even say the "Han" part of "Han Ji Soo!"

But still, she must have had her reasons.

What reason?

What reason could she have for leaving without even a call, or showing her face?

Could you do that to us, if you were in her shoes?

That's a valid point.

Forget about us. I'm sure she knew that Shin Woo's mother passed away, too.

Exactly!

How could she do that to Shin Woo, too?

And after all that Shin Woo did for her, too!

Ji Soo actually did contact me.

There was a note inside of the book you gave me, Min Seok.

She wanted to meet up.

So?

Did you meet with her?

No.

Why not?

I knew what she would say, anyway.

So there was no need for her to relive such a miserable experience.

What do you mean?

What was Ji Soo going to say?

Just...

a confession that I didn't need to hear.

A confession that she didn't need to make.

Just something like that.

It would have just been painful...

for both of us.

So...

don't be too hard on Ji Soo, you guys.

Just...

think things like...

"she must have had a good reason..."

and "I hope she's doing well," okay?

Ugh, how frustrating!

What? What? What is it this time?

I threw away the food waste, and cleaned the bathroom!

And the kids are eating at my mom's place.

I didn't say anything.

What is it, then?

Want me to give you a massage?

I told you to use your hands for drawing, not for massaging!

Ugh, I can't stand it anymore. I have to tell him.

Despite what may have happened between those two

I can't just sit here and do nothing.

Ugh!

Yeah, So Ra?

Tomorrow?

Mr. Kang.

The fact that...

I didn't go to meet Ji Soo on that day...

was the right decision to make, right?

But, to be honest...

I wanted to see her one more time...

if only even like that.

I know.

Because I feel the same way right now.

Mr. Kang.

If...

If I hadn't met Ji Soo on the bus

on the day that she'd transferred to our school...

do you think that I wouldn't have ended up liking her?

Even if you hadn't...

I'm sure that you would have...

ended up falling for her at another time instead.

Because I went through that same thing.

Then...

is fate something that we can't do anything about...

no matter how many times...

we relive the same experiences?

If that's the case...

even if we turn back time again...

we'd probably end up like this again.

Ji Soo will feel miserable when she looks at us.

And we will feel pain again because we will have to let Ji Soo go.

This is probably our fate...

and Ji Soo's fate, right?

Mr. Kang...

I'm sorry.

That's why...

I will change the future.

The things that have happened to you already

are still in the future for me.

So, I...

will not meet with Ji Soo 10 years in the future, in Seoul.

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[Longing Heart]

Shouldn't you really throw that photo out, now?

I think I'll have to meet with a certain person, after all.

The fact that you always treasured that photo so much

was because of that friend, right?

Did you get a call from Mom on the day she got into the accident, by any chance?

No, I didn't.

I'll believe that.

I've decided to bet everything on that future.

Because I can't have your present life or Ji Soo's present life

change because of me.

But I finally understand what you meant, though.

Forever...

My last request...

I'm sorry.

I'm going to change the future.

Everything that happened between you and Ji Soo will disappear.

But I...

hope that we part ways with Ji Soo when we're eighteen

and never meet her again.

There's no need for us to repeat an encounter...

that will only cause both of us pain.