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Hi, um, I'm here to see Chuck Palmer.

- Hannah Horvath.
- 4B.

Thanks.

Yeah, mm-hmm.

- Hi. Hannah,
- Hi, I'm Hannah...

Hannah. Yeah, I know.
It's, uh, nice to meet you.

- Shoes-off household, or...
- Ah, yes.

- Sorry, I'm... I'm that asshole now.
- Oh, yeah.

I mean, yeah, I ha... I have my, uh,

special slippers, but,
uh, these are just for me.

Um, if you could put them in the same
line as the others, that'd be great.

- Of course, yeah.
- Yeah.

Um... I'm sorry. If they could...

if they could not touch the suede
boots. It's just a whole thing.

Thank you.

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Are you sure I can't take your bag?

No, I'm good, thanks.

How about your red tote bag?

I'll hold on to this, too. I'm
not planning on staying so long.

Sure, fine. Yeah. Here, sit.

It was, um...

it's good of you to show.

Well, I wasn't gonna not
show. I was just surprised.

Surprised, what, that I wanted to talk?

Yeah. I just... surprised that you...

found the article that I wrote.

I mean, you must have an
ass-deep Google alert on yourself.

This was, like, a
niche feminist website.

It's not the front page of "The Times."

Well, let's just say I'm
hypervigilant these days.

Look, I'm not trying to
get an apology out of you.

- Okay, good.
- Okay, good.

I'm just looking to give
my side of the story.

Okay, but first, there's
something that I'd like to say.

Oh, sure. Uh, go right ahead, Hannah.

I'm a writer, you know?
And I may not be a...

a rich writer or a famous writer

or a writer with a picture of myself
hanging out with Toni Morrison.

Good catch.

Well, you put it right in my face, so...

Yeah, yeah, I did.

But I am a writer, and as such,

I think I'm obligated to use my voice

to talk about things that
are meaningful to me. And...

I read something about you that
troubled me, that troubled me greatly.

Namely that you were using
your power and your influence to

involve yourself sexually with college
students on your book tour. And...

whether all those sexual encounters
were consensual or not...

Okay, hold up, because that's where
this all gets pretty fucking messy,

when words like "consensual"
are thrown around.

That's why I'm not sleeping.

That... that is definitely
why I've lost 20 pounds.

Well, that sounds
lucky. I would love that.

Look, Hannah, you're
clearly very bright.

I could tell that from the
first sentence you wrote.

Uh, thank you. You printed out a blog?

No. I have assistants
who can do that for me.

"If one more male writer I love reveals
himself to be a heinous sleaze bag,

"I'm gonna do a bunch of murders,

"create a new Isle of
Lesbos, and never look back."

You're funny. That's a funny sentence.

Thank you.

But you should be using your funny
to tackle subjects that matter.

Me, who I may or may not have
got a blow job from consensually,

in a college town,
does not fucking matter.

But the thing is is that it does,

because if one of those
girls is saying she didn't

- want to give the blow job...
- By the way,

how exactly does one give
a non-consensual blow job?

A non-consensual blow job?
It would be very chokey.

It...

It would involve somebody sort
of holding someone else's...

head down and kind of, you know,

maybe holding them by
the hair, by the pigtails.

You've heard that old joke...

What do you call a
blow job with handlebar?

Just...

I'm sorry, I have to get this.
It's, uh... it's family stuff.

- Yeah, of course.
- Hi, Mayaan.

No, if Miranda wants to come over
for the weekend, it's fine, yeah.

Is she feeling better?

No... no, I don't have
her gymnastics bag.

Ask Graciela, 'cause, uh,
sometimes it's in her car.

Well, I'm not gonna let her sit here

and eat fucking Flamin' Hot Cheetos
and play Candy Crush or whatever.

She's gonna need to walk, you know, go
to a park, whatever. She's depressed.

Yes, I mean clinically.

I'm... I'm not calling you a bad mother.

Mayaan, I'm not... I'm not.

You know what? Would... would

this be a good time to talk
about summer, uh, custody?

Because I would love to bring her
to the Cape, um, for three weeks.

Maybe after the European
residency? But, you know,

I also don't wanna feel like
you're not getting your time.

Yeah, go grab your calendar.

No, I asked you, Mayaan. I 100% asked
you, because I always goddamn ask you.

Mayaan, I'm not gonna tell you
when you can see our daughter.

I'm gonna tell you when I want to see
our daughter, and then we'll take it

from there. And, being the
mother, no doubt you'll win.

Rest assured you'll win.

No, no, it's not a
swipe at you... it's not.

I... I know. I know. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, honey.

Yes, of course. I'll see her at 3:00.

Yeah, okay.

Bye.

So, I'm assuming that was Toni Morrison.

That's funny. No, it's my ex.

Very tortured woman.

But our daughter is a good girl,

so, you know, I have
to believe that this...

life, this mother, is
teaching her something,

you know, building her
up strong, because, uh,

she's had some depression stuff
this year and it got kind of serious,

but, um... she's good.

- Listen, I don't know you...
- No, Hannah, you do not.

But your work means a lot to me.

It has for a long time.

It's made me laugh and it's comforted
me. And my copy of "Shannon's Rock"

is so dog-eared and underlined, you
can barely read the words anymore.

So when I saw Denise's Tumblr, I was...

Isn't that the crazy
part about all of this?

Like, about... about
being alive right now,

that so much of your life,
your world can be destroyed

by something called
"Tumblr" without an E?

I mean, "destroyed" seems like
a little bit of an overstatement.

You got a great review
in "The Times" four days

- ago... that was a rave.
- Oh.

- You got this apartment. Your...
- Yeah, I'm fine.

- Yeah, I would say so.
- Thing is I'm not,

because I've been taking pills
to fall asleep. And guess what.

They don't fucking work.

I started therapy and for
the first time in 10 years,

thought I was done with all
that shit. Tried everything.

Different types of meditation. I've...

I tried to learn Spanish, rowing.

You know, I went on a juice
cleanse, did a silent retreat.

I am now having nightmares that
my daughter's friends will Google

and find out about whatever
the fuck this thing is

and that will hurt her.

Understand? It will hurt my daughter.

So what I wonder is
why am I being punished?

I wasn't trying to punish you.

I just think it's important to
listen to the voices of women

who have historically
been pushed to the side

- and silenced and...
- Do you know

the woman who wrote the article?

Do you know any of the
women who came forward?

Are you some kind of activist?

No. I don't even recycle.

Then why would a smart woman like you

write a very long and
considered piece of writing

on what is ultimately hearsay?

Because I don't consider the accounts
of four different women hearsay.

Really? Remember what happened in Salem.

Yeah, these four women are the witches.

- I'm the witch.
- I don't see it that way.

These women don't have
the reach that you have.

They can't get "The New York Times"
to hand them over the op-ed page.

That's why the Internet is so cool,
because it takes all the voices

- that have been marginalized...
- Oh, my God!

Is that why the Internet is so cool?

Because some might argue
it's a monster we've created

that will ultimately kill us.

Yeah, well, the people who argue
that are probably a generation

above me, but...

Fuck, I need a cup of coffee.

I'm not perfect, but I'm
not saying I'm perfect.

I'm a horny motherfucker with
the impulse control of a toddler.

- Oh, that must be hard.
- Listen, I get it.

There are kids dying in
Africa. Blah, blah, blah, okay?

But this is fucking hard for me.

I fucked around on my wife.

I've told women I've loved them
and didn't even call them back.

I even went to a couple of
hookers, and one of them had a dick.

I don't have any secrets.

None of that's illegal.

I mean, except the prostitutes.
That's technically a felony.

I have never fucking
forced anyone to blow me.

That is not my style.

These Tumblr girls who come
up to me at my lectures

and... I am sorry...
they hurl themselves at me

like I'm some fire
and brimstone preacher

who's gonna cure their mom's
bum leg with the touch of God.

I invite them back to my hotel.

We may drink teeny,
tiny bottles of booze

if a place is nice enough
to have a fucking minibar.

A couple of them might
stay, and then, voilà...

they have something to write
about. Because what do writers need?

- Money.
- Very funny.

Stories. They need stories.

So one of them starts talking.

"I met Chuck Palmer. He's a sad
man with a receding hairline.

"He made sad noises
while I sucked him off."

And all of a sudden, she
has something to write about.

She has a story... she
has an experience, okay?

She has something that
makes her different

from every other
creative writing undergrad

that was bussed in from Virginia.

Do you understand what I'm
saying about experience...

the way people crave it
and the way people use it?

- Yeah, I think I do, but...
- Denise, the one who started all this,

she practically ripped at my Dockers.

Kept asking if she could
come visit me in New York.

I probably nodded.

Probably indicated
yes. I didn't follow up.

That made her angry.

So you expect me to believe
that every one of these girls

came forward with a story just
because they had hurt feelings?

- Clearly haven't met my ex.
- Feel like I have.

That conversation was very long, and

pretty weird thing to do
in front of a stranger.

By the way, if you're
so sure you're innocent,

if you know that you're
this, like, perfect specimen,

then why can't you just let it go?

Did you just say why
can't I just let it go?

Yeah.

That's really great advice.
Uh, are you Buddhist?

Why do you need me to know all this?

Plenty of people wrote
about Denise's story.

Did you call all of them
to come to your apartment?

Which, by the way, is lovely.

I had no idea novelists
could make this much money.

No, I didn't call them. I didn't
call any of them. I only called you.

Why me?

Because you're smart.

You write well. You write sharply.

Like you're actually paying
attention. You even made me

believe what you were saying, and I'm
the one you're fuckin' lyin' about.

So, are you really
gonna use all this skill

to write for some shitty
website, being paid a meaningless

fee to slam some guy you've
never met but claim to respect?

If not me, who? And if not now, when?

Oh, my God. This isn't the Civil
Rights Movement, Hannah. It's me.

It's just me getting head in some
sterile hotel room in Rhode Island.

So, the larger significance is just
lost on you? You just don't even...

What larger significance?

- The power imbalance.
- Oh, my God.

You know what? I haven't
been offered a beverage,

so I think I'm gonna get myself one.

The part where she looks
like a Victoria's Secret model

and I didn't lose my virginity

until I was 25 and I was on
Accutane... that part's not lost on me.

Uh, no. I'm talking about the part where
you're a very fucking famous writer

and she's working really
hard to have just a little bit

of what you get every day.

So, you invite her back to your hotel
room. What's she supposed to say? No?

- Uh...
- She admires you.

Then you unbuckle your pants.

What's she gonna do next?

You got it wrong. It's
not so she has a story.

It's so she feels like she exists.

And, by the way, people don't
talk about this shit for fun.

It ruins their lives. You know that.

- Do you hear yourself right now?
- Mm-hmm.

I am a grown man inviting a
grown woman to my hotel room.

Did I put a gun to her
head? Did I offer her a job?

I may be stupid, but
I'm not evil, sister.

An invitation isn't
inherently wrong or dangerous.

Sexuality's very muddy. That's a real
Grey area. Or at least we say it's a

- Grey area so we can get...
- I am so sick of Grey areas.

When I was in fifth grade, I had
this English teacher, Mr. Lasky.

He liked me. He was impressed with me.
I did, like, special creative writing.

I wrote, like, a little
novel or whatever.

Sometimes when he was talking to
the class, he'd stand behind me

and he'd just, like, rub my neck.

Sometimes he'd, like, rub
my head, rustle my hair.

And I didn't mind.

It made me feel special. It
made me feel like someone saw me

and they knew that I was gonna grow
up and be really, really particular.

It also made kids hate me and put
lasagna in my fucking backpack,

but that's a different story.

Anyway, last year, I'm at this, like,

whatever, warehouse party in Bushwick,

and this dude comes up to
me and he's like, "Horvath,

"we went to middle school together,
East Lansing." And I'm like,

"Oh, my God, remember how
crazy Mr. Lasky's class was?

"He was basically trying to molest
me." And you know what this kid said?

He looks at me in the
middle of this fuckin' party

like he's a judge and he goes,

"That's a very serious accusation,
Hannah." And he walked away.

And there I am, and I'm just 11 again,

and I'm just getting
my fuckin' neck rubbed.

Because that stuff never goes away.

Yeah, I'm sorry that happened to you.

I mean, it gives me a greater
perspective on what triggered you,

to use the parlance of
our times, about my story.

I didn't tell you so
you'd feel sorry for me.

No, I'm just saying I'm sorry
because it's an awful story.

Yeah, but look at me. I'm smart.

And amazing.

And now I have a story.

Can I read something to you?

"Jessica had the straining body

"of someone who had very
recently worked far too hard

"to lose a negligible amount of weight.

"She was thin, had always
been thin enough to get by

"with low breasts and a tan clavicle.

"But it was as if her form wasn't
yet used to its socially imbued power.

"She moved slowly, awkwardly, as if
life was a china shop, and she a bull.

"She treated my hotel
room like a museum,

"the minibar like fine
sculpture from the Ming dynasty,

"delicately pouring
herself some vodka over ice.

"I asked her where she was
from. She said, 'Around, '

"as if someone had told her that's
what made women irresistible...

"being from nowhere and
standing for nothing."

Why don't you read?

- I'm okay listening...
- No, uh, read it aloud to me.

"I tried to ask her questions

"about what she was
reading, watching, thinking,

"about her home town
and her poetry workshop,

"about her mother and her roommate

"and the silvery scar snaking
quietly across her forearm,

"but she was silent, reticent,
almost angry when I pushed too hard.

"'Sit on the bed,' she told
me when she finally spoke.

"'Sit on the bed and
stop asking me anything.'

"And so I did as I was told
and she reached for my old belt,

"frayed from being the
only one in rotation.

"And as she unbuckled it, I
thought sadly of my sister,

"my daughter, even my mother and the
times they had resisted being known,

"guessing instead that the man
they were standing across from

"wanted something or
someone else entirely."

Is this fiction?

Is anything fiction?

No, I don't mean it like a
Cheshire Cat kind of riddle.

I mean, like, did you change the
names and identifying details?

Like, is this fiction?

I did change the names, but this

is what I wrote about Denise

before she published her
fucking Tumblr article,

before a website called The
Awl called me "Throat-Piercer."

This is what I wrote about
Denise before she told the world

that I was a menace and
a sleaze and a fraud.

She doesn't think you're a fraud.
She clearly respects you a lot.

Okay, this is what I saw
and this is what I wrote.

I saw a woman who was
lovely, lonely, and scared.

I saw a woman who didn't
wanna let anyone in.

And I see, now, in
myself, every fucking guy

who didn't care enough
to push a little further.

Hannah, that is what I am guilty of...

not pushing hard enough
to get to know Denise,

to get to the heart of her story.

Do you get that?

Yeah.

Do you wanna know why I think
I really wanted to meet you?

- Yeah, I do wanna know.
- To fix that.

I mean, it's spoiled with Denise. I...

I know it is, but I can ask you where
you're from, what you want, who you are.

I can... I can show you you're
more to me than just a pretty face.

So?

Where are you from?

- I'm from Michigan.
- Really? Which part?

I love Traverse City, chocolate-covered
cherry capital of the world.

I ate so much on a book tour once, I
had to stick my fingers down my throat.

- Really?
- Yeah, I know.

I'm not opposed to a little
casual bulimia from time to time.

- Who isn't?
- Well, it takes a toll on the enamel.

Um, no. I'm from East Lansing.

- It's not really that close.
- Right.

And what are your dreams
for the next five years?

Sorry to sound like a
"People" magazine interview.

No, it's okay. It's a good question.

I want to write.

I want to write stories that make
people feel less alone than I did.

I want to make people laugh about
the things in life that are painful.

That's what I wanna do.

Good goal.

That's a really good goal.

- So, maybe one day, you'll be famous.
- Pfft, maybe.

And a lot of people know
some stuff about you.

Some stuff.

I mean, they'll think they'll
know everything, but they won't.

- Like what happened to you.
- Like what happened to me.

You thought you knew
everything, but you didn't.

- No, I didn't.
- You listened to one source

and then you flapped your lips.

Your funny lips...

but all the same, you
made me the face of this

epidemic about literary men attacking
industrious, innocent, young women.

That's what two-bit journalists do.

And you're not a journalist, Hannah.

You're a fuckin' writer.

I can't believe you have a signed
copy of "When She Was Good."

God, everyone acts like this book
is Philip Roth being the worst,

but it's actually him being the best.

And I know I'm not supposed to
like him because he's a misogynist

and he demeans women, but I can't
help it. I fuckin' love his writing.

You can't let politics dictate
what you read or who you fuck.

Those are my rules. Write that down.

I'll do you one better.
I'll tattoo it on my body.

Better.

I heard an alternate title for
this book was "American Bitch."

I have no idea if that's true.
Can't find any proof on the Internet,

but, God, if it is,
fuck, that's so good.

Why don't you keep the Roth?

- Seriously?
- Yeah, seriously.

I like how happy it makes you.

But it's signed to you and everything.

God, I hope someone writes a book
about what a cunt I am someday.

- Do you?
- Yeah, obviously.

What would be better than
to, like, ruin someone's life

with your wanton sex appeal and,
like, icicle-sharp intellect? But...

I'm half-Jewish, so I don't
really see that happening for me.

You really are funny.

- Hannah?
- Yeah.

Would you lie down with me for a moment?

Just a moment.

And I'd encourage you to keep your
clothes on to delineate any...

any boundaries that feel right to you.

I just wanna feel close to someone in
a way that I haven't in a long time.

If you please.

Your bed smells like snacks.

I live alone, lady.

I'm sorry I wrote something about
you that, um, upset you so much

without considering all the facts.

It's all right.

I'm not angry.

Oh, I've got to go.

Oh, my fucking God!

I touched your dick.

You pulled your dick out
and I touched your dick.

What the fuck? And now it's still
out. You didn't even put it away.

I can see your dick.

It's right there.

Hey, Dad!

Hi, love!

Hi, honey.

Oh, my fucking God.

I'm just confused. I thought
that I was going to Mom's.

Mom thought you might
have more fun here tonight.

But I don't have my flash
cards or my book. I...

Hi.

- Hi. Hi.
- This is my friend, Hannah.

Why don't you go play
with your beads and things?

- I got you some new markers.
- Miranda: But I wanna show you what

I've been working on in
flute. It's really good.

Do you wanna hear?

Me?

Okay.

Excellent, cool. Okay.

- Sorry.
- Honey, take your time.

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