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Hello, my dear. Hello, Sister Rhoda.
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Tell me, what is the problem?
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I wanted to come talk to you today
because I always
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thought when people talked about impure
thoughts that
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men always were the victim, you know, of
that. And they were always the ones
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with the bad, dirty thoughts.
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And I never really knew.
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that females could feel that way, I
guess, until maybe the other day.
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I've been thinking about some things.
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What kind of things?
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Well, I'm not sure how they would, if
they're sinful or not.
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If you have thoughts about another
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girl, not sexual, nothing, Nothing quite
like that.
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But I have been thinking a lot about,
you know,
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spending time with her and sort of like
imagining romantic things, I
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guess, in my head.
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Are you feeling feelings in your body
when you're thinking about her?
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I think I do. Sometimes I feel different
than maybe just a friendship.
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And that's why you're coming to me. Yes,
I just wanted to know what you thought
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about it. This could very well be
approaching lust, and you have to nip it
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the bud.
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It's good that you came to me. You have
to be very, very, very careful.
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You have to keep your mind and your
hands occupied with other things, your
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skills, your craft, okay? Okay.
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Stay with the book.
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Mm -hmm.
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Just keep busy, so I don't... Keep your
mind off of her. Okay.
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Keep busy, and I'll see you in class
tomorrow at 3. Okay. Thank you so much,
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sister.
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I was just thinking about you.
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How's your trip going?
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Well, I miss you.
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When do you get back?
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I'd love to, but I can't.
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I'm off to a client's home in Northern
California to evaluate some art and see
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what else they might want to buy from
me.
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They won't even be there.
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Their spoiled daughter is supposed to
show me around.
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Now that I'm a consultant, I have to
meet customers when and where they want.
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But you know, I have a timeshare on the
beach next weekend.
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Would you like to join me?
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Okay, it's a date.
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Have a great time, and I'll see you next
weekend.
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Wow,
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I love the colors.
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Magnificent. Do you like it?
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I'm on this too. I hate that one.
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To each his own.
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Yeah.
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Wow,
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I love this piece.
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Beautiful fused glass.
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I think I may know the artist. I think
he's up in Tacoma.
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Cool.
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I wouldn't know.
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All right, let's look at the rest of the
house.
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Okay.
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Come on over here.
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Wow, what a gorgeous piano.
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Cool. Do you mind if I play a little?
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Jeff, go ahead. My parents just got up.
I don't know why they can't sleep like
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this.
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That was nice. You like it? Yeah. I can
go to the rest of the house though.
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Absolutely. I just love this piano.
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It's beautiful.
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I
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love
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the light coming through.
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It's so pretty. Yeah.
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Modern art pieces up here.
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So many beautiful pieces.
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I'm just so honored that your parents
want to commission a piece of mine.
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Yeah. Is this the elevator right over
here? Yeah, it is.
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Oh. Yep.
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I had to guess. If I know Jaime and
Rhonda's taste as well as I do, I knew
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must have been the piece they were
talking about. They said, this is the
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that must stay right here. Cool.
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I wouldn't know. I don't really pay
attention to this stuff.
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Yeah. Do you like a good scotch?
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Sure. Let's go drink.
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I don't really understand all this. It's
a little complicated.
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Well, this is how you drink good scotch.
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Okay. Give me a glass.
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Bring me how it's done.
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Now you take a bite of cookie. Okay.
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Wow. Cool.
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That one.
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Mmm. Oh, gooey.
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Good.
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Now you take a swig of scotch.
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You put it in your mouth and savor it so
it gets into your sinuses.
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Mmm.
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Wow.
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Mmm.
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And then you wash it down with soda.
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Mmm. You taste the chocolate.
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Oh my gosh.
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That's so good. You're right. Now you
know how to do a good scotch. That is
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absolutely the way to drink scotch. How
have I never known this? And then you
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wait like 60 seconds and you do it
again.
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All right. Is the 60 seconds up yet?
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No, you want to wait a minute.
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I don't know.
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Yeah.
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Are you sure we should drink some more
or are you going to tell your parents?
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Dude, you never tell your parents
anything.
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You treat them like they're snakes.
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It's my sister, Jordan.
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Hi.
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Does Dad know you're drinking his gotcha
again? He's going to kick your ass.
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Don't worry. I put apple juice in it. He
never knows.
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You're going to be in so much trouble.
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Go. Just get out of here. Leave us
alone.
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Whatever.
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My sister's a bitch.
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Sorry.
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Okay. You like a cookie?
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Yeah.
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Have you ever seen a strap -on before?
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Yeah. My sister Jordan has one. Really?
I'm going to show it to you.
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Okay. Do you have enough cookies?
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Mm -hmm.
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Mm. Oh.
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So good.
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This is Jordan's Jeff -on.
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And I know she's, like, really good with
it because a couple times a week your
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girl's really noisy up here.
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Really? Really.
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Yeah, and my friend Chuck says she has a
video of donkey sex.
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If you're going to talk about me, at
least talk about me behind my back.
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Where are you going? To go watch a
donkey sex video?
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Oh. Oh.
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I was getting in bed.
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Oh my gosh, that's so funny. You know,
like, a week ago, my mom was, like,
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really mad at Jordan because there was,
like, blood all over the seat.
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And I know she had, like, this really
young girl.
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I don't think she was a virgin, but I
told mom they were just really rough.
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Oh!
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Yeah.
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Oh my gosh. Yeah.
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And another time, like, a couple days
ago,
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She had the bed soaked because she had
some girl that squirted all over it. And
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I had to help her change it over because
mom would have really been mad at her.
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We had to flip the bed over.
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It was soaked.
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Wow. That's getting a lot of action,
huh?
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Yeah. Have you ever sucked a cock
before?
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Um, maybe.
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You want to try it?
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Um, sure.
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Bite it.
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Bite it? Bite it. I want to see you bite
it.
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You look good with a cock in your mouth.
Yeah? Just kidding.
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Yeah, it kind of doesn't taste so good.
It's kind of ugly.
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I like dark pussy lips.
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Yeah? Yeah.
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I think that's nice pussy lips.
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I want to teach you how to kiss.
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Teach me how to kiss? Yeah.
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Good way to do it, though, is with your
top off.
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Oh. Yeah. Take it off.
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Okay.
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You're going to teach me how to kiss,
huh?
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Yeah. Okay.
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Come on, take it off.
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You have nice boobs.
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I don't like it.
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I don't know.
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I had no bra on.
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I won't eat it very much longer.
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Thank you.
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um
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Bye.
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Watch this.
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I can't wait.
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Let's see this other one.
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That's what you're gonna do.
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Uh -huh.
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So good.
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Um...
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Hi Hayden, how are you?
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I'm good, how are you?
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I'm great.
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So I'm glad you joined the church choir.
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Yes, it's so fun. I love being here.
It's great.
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Awesome. So tell me a little bit more
about yourself. Why did you join the
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choir?
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I just like the feeling that I get being
around all these people, all the
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positive energy, and it's just a good
outlet for me, I think.
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That's great.
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Yeah. So tell me a little bit about
yourself.
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What do you want to do with your life?
Do you have a career choice or anything
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going on in your life?
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I do, actually. Well, like, you know, as
you know, my parents getting a divorce,
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you know, that's all. I've heard about
that. I'm really sorry.
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Yeah, it's fine. They're just, they kind
of keep themselves, and I do my own
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thing, which is whatever.
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So I've been doing a lot more, like,
looking, like, where am I going after
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school and stuff like that.
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And I'm actually doing beauty school, so
I'm thinking about doing that. Oh,
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beauty school. Oh, that's nice.
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Very nice. So I'm just working hard, you
know, trying to just be okay until I
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can get in there.
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Right. Wow. What makes you interested in
beauty school?
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Actually,
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I was going to be a counselor about
that, just to
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see, because when I do a girl's hair
and, like, just the feeling of it and
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touching her, it's...
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A little more than just, like, just
hair, you know? So I
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was thinking about talking to a
counselor about those feelings to see if
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were okay. A counselor at school?
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Or a beauty school counselor?
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Or, like, you know, I don't understand.
Tell me more.
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Just, like, somebody that, you know.
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listens and can say whether or not it's
a problem or not because um yeah I
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see and with your parents and the
divorce I'm I'm sure that it's got to be
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for you it is and uh it just it's made
me think you know there's been a
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few things that's happened lately that
just have made me think that I'm a
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bit different than other people like
what like um
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Well, you know that dance that's coming
up? You know, the semi -formal? Well,
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there's this guy that I went out with a
few months ago.
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Didn't really like him, but everyone's
like, for him. He asked me to do this
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dance, and they're all like, oh my god,
you know, great.
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But I don't really want to go with him.
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Why not?
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I'm not interested in guys.
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I don't want to be around him and stuff
like that.
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Are you more involved in your studies,
or is he just, like, not your type of
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that you're looking for?
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Well, I think I'm looking... I would
rather go with somebody that's not a
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Like?
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Like, I would rather... Would you rather
go with a girl?
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Yeah. I feel more comfortable with
girls.
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Oh. So...
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Well, do you have a lot of friends?
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Yeah. Do you have somebody in mind, a
girlfriend in mind that you want to go
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with?
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One of my girlfriends, Jenny, I really
like her.
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Awesome. Yeah. So you've known each
other for a long time?
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Yeah, we've been together since like
sixth grade. We've been best friends.
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That's awesome. So what kind of
relationship do you have with her?
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Right now it's like normal.
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We just do girl things like nail
parties, you know, makeup parties, you
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those things. That's probably why you
like beauty school so much.
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Yes.
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That's what first got me interested in
it. But I just, like, when,
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you know, when you do those kind of
parties and, like, you start with the
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like, you give massages and stuff.
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I don't know. I haven't actually.
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I've never been to beauty school and
I've never actually, you know.
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Like, part of it is the masseuse program
and everything.
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Mm -hmm.
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Me and Jenny, like, take it a little
further than just massage.
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Like, we... I like... We, like, do
frontal massages and stuff.
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And I know everyone looks so down on
this and stuff. And I was actually,
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Trying to see if I heard about this
program that you guys have.
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It's like a DU programming program.
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Oh. Yeah. I was thinking about. I see. I
see.
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Yeah. I see.
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It's okay. You can talk to me about
this.
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Because a lot of people, they get really
weird.
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I understand that.
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00:58:31,460 --> 00:58:36,020
Well, have you thought about whether you
just.
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Interested in girls more or less for a
girl -girl bonding situation.
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See, there's different types of
relationships between females.
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There's definitely being a lesbian,
100%, and knowing that you like sexual
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intimate contact with a woman.
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And then there's other relationships
that are just bonding and very close
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friendship.
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Hugs and...
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and things like that, holding hands,
going shopping, and getting your nails
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done, and possibly massage. I don't know
a lot about massage because I don't get
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massages from women, so I don't have
that kind of closeness. That's just not
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But, yeah, we do have that program at
church.
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Is that why you were thinking of being a
counselor in that area? Yeah.
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Okay, here's the thing.
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I think maybe you should figure out
before... Well, let
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me ask you this. Do you want to go into
the deprogramming program at church to
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see if you're a lesbian or not?
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00:59:55,070 --> 01:00:01,990
Well, I already have this feeling that I
want to basically be one of my
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girlfriend's boyfriend.
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I want to be the person that makes them
feel good.
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01:00:09,440 --> 01:00:16,400
I see. So I'm pretty sure, and I'm okay
with it, but it just
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seems like everyone else isn't.
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01:00:18,600 --> 01:00:25,480
So just to make society happy, I just
want to go through this.
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Right.
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01:00:27,920 --> 01:00:33,600
Okay, well, our pastor, he spends a lot
of money and a lot of time.
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on this deprogramming. So I don't want
to waste his time.
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01:00:38,330 --> 01:00:44,510
But maybe you should find out more about
your feelings and you should explore a
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01:00:44,510 --> 01:00:46,790
little bit before you just jump right
into the program.
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01:00:47,110 --> 01:00:51,730
Now, I'm very familiar with the program
because I do help out, so I'm glad that
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you trust me enough to come to me.
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01:00:55,190 --> 01:00:59,670
I could feel the hesitation in your
voice, and I know that it makes you feel
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01:00:59,670 --> 01:01:01,710
very uncomfortable, but it's okay.
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01:01:02,400 --> 01:01:05,340
You can tell me anything, and it won't
go any further than this house.
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01:01:05,640 --> 01:01:06,640
I promise you that.
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01:01:07,440 --> 01:01:11,500
But I think you really need to decide
before you jump into the program, as I
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saying, whether you need the program or
not, because maybe it's just the female
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bonding thing. I mean, maybe this is
just, I mean, you're young, so I'm sure
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01:01:20,540 --> 01:01:21,900
kinds of thoughts are going through your
head.
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01:01:22,800 --> 01:01:28,540
If you would like, we could go in one of
the other rooms in the house.
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01:01:29,150 --> 01:01:32,350
Nobody here, of course you know
everybody else has left, and I'm not
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01:01:32,350 --> 01:01:37,010
company or anything. Actually, my friend
just called, so I was actually on my
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01:01:37,010 --> 01:01:42,010
way out the door with some important
church business, but I feel that it's
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01:01:42,010 --> 01:01:43,870
important for me to give my time to you
right now.
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01:01:44,410 --> 01:01:48,350
So I'll put that off, and we can go in
one of the other rooms, and I can sit
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01:01:48,350 --> 01:01:53,670
down, and I can show you what I'm
talking about, the difference between a
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01:01:53,670 --> 01:01:57,550
bonding relationship and being a
lesbian, because you might not be a
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01:01:58,810 --> 01:02:03,230
so heavy petting and things like that.
We just need to explore that to find out
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01:02:03,230 --> 01:02:04,690
what's deep inside.
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01:02:10,130 --> 01:02:15,990
I don't know if I'm comfortable enough
to do that.
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01:02:18,050 --> 01:02:23,950
You know what? If you get uncomfortable
in the situation, then we can stop.
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01:02:24,470 --> 01:02:27,430
But you're going to have to go through
this in the program.
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01:02:28,880 --> 01:02:29,678
At church.
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01:02:29,680 --> 01:02:36,660
So this is kind of like preparing you
for what you're going to be around.
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01:02:37,040 --> 01:02:39,180
And there's a lot of people in the class
already.
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01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:42,220
So this is more of a private situation.
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01:02:42,820 --> 01:02:46,860
And, you know, like I said, if you're
uncomfortable at all, then, you know, we
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01:02:46,860 --> 01:02:47,860
can stop.
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01:02:48,300 --> 01:02:52,020
But I just, I really don't want to waste
the pastor's time. Like I said, he puts
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01:02:52,020 --> 01:02:55,440
a lot of effort into this program. And
you might not need it at all.
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01:02:55,740 --> 01:02:57,460
I understand.
323
01:02:57,720 --> 01:02:59,700
Okay. You can do that.
324
01:03:00,380 --> 01:03:02,920
Okay. You want to take your water with
you? Yeah.
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01:03:03,720 --> 01:03:08,680
I think I have an empty room down the
hall, so we'll go there. Okay.
326
01:03:12,320 --> 01:03:13,320
Yeah.
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01:03:21,700 --> 01:03:22,900
So you seem a little nervous.
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01:03:24,040 --> 01:03:25,040
A little.
329
01:03:25,320 --> 01:03:26,600
It's okay. Don't worry.
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01:03:27,240 --> 01:03:28,300
Everything will be fine.
331
01:03:28,700 --> 01:03:34,320
We're just going to really see if you
need to see the pastor or not.
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01:03:35,360 --> 01:03:39,400
Well, tell me about your little friend.
Did you kiss your little friend?
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01:03:41,080 --> 01:03:43,980
Yeah, we made out a few times.
334
01:03:44,240 --> 01:03:46,200
Really? How did that make you feel?
335
01:03:47,680 --> 01:03:53,840
I really loved how warm and wet her
tongue was, and it was so soft.
336
01:03:54,380 --> 01:03:56,610
Right. Yeah, it was unbelievable.
337
01:03:57,590 --> 01:03:58,590
Nice.
338
01:03:59,130 --> 01:04:03,590
So explain to me, like, maybe how it
made your body feel.
339
01:04:05,590 --> 01:04:12,510
It kind of made, like, my whole body
tingle all over, you know. And did you
340
01:04:12,510 --> 01:04:17,650
give each other massages, like, frontal
massages? That's what you were saying
341
01:04:17,650 --> 01:04:20,110
earlier? Yeah, we got more.
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01:04:21,120 --> 01:04:25,160
Like, instead of the standard massage,
we were more sensual about it.
343
01:04:25,760 --> 01:04:32,040
And just really, like, soft touches, you
know.
344
01:04:32,240 --> 01:04:33,520
Right. Yeah.
345
01:04:34,560 --> 01:04:38,800
So, um, maybe you could show me.
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01:04:40,880 --> 01:04:43,860
Um, how we were massaging?
347
01:04:44,240 --> 01:04:45,240
Yeah.
348
01:04:45,640 --> 01:04:49,620
Yeah, because maybe that's going to be
able to get your feelings out more.
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01:04:50,040 --> 01:04:54,480
You know, get your emotions kind of
stirred up. And then I'm going to be
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01:04:54,480 --> 01:04:58,920
tell. You know, I'm going to be able to
tell how you're feeling inside and what
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01:04:58,920 --> 01:04:59,920
this relationship.
352
01:05:00,160 --> 01:05:04,980
I think the relationship that you have
with your little friend, I think
353
01:05:04,980 --> 01:05:10,480
depending on whether she stimulated you
or not, is really, really going to tell
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01:05:10,480 --> 01:05:11,480
us something.
355
01:05:13,400 --> 01:05:14,400
Okay.
356
01:05:14,640 --> 01:05:19,240
So I'm trying to think of how we should
do this.
357
01:05:20,490 --> 01:05:21,850
I really want you to be comfortable.
358
01:05:22,570 --> 01:05:23,488
Mm -hmm.
359
01:05:23,490 --> 01:05:24,490
That's okay.
360
01:05:25,530 --> 01:05:30,870
You know what? You have so much on your
mind with your parents and all that
361
01:05:30,870 --> 01:05:33,490
stuff, and you don't need to worry about
anything.
362
01:05:34,150 --> 01:05:36,230
This is a very safe environment.
363
01:05:36,610 --> 01:05:37,810
Okay? Okay.
364
01:05:38,030 --> 01:05:39,030
You all right?
365
01:05:39,330 --> 01:05:40,330
Mm -hmm. Okay.
366
01:05:40,770 --> 01:05:45,770
So let's start with, well, not to make
you too uncomfortable.
367
01:05:46,540 --> 01:05:50,380
I will actually take my top down, and
you can show me how you guys massaged
368
01:05:50,380 --> 01:05:51,380
other, your little friend.
369
01:05:52,220 --> 01:05:53,220
Okay? Okay.
370
01:06:01,840 --> 01:06:02,960
Okay, open your hand.
371
01:06:08,360 --> 01:06:10,440
Just show me what she did.
372
01:06:26,160 --> 01:06:27,160
You're shaking.
373
01:06:27,360 --> 01:06:28,880
It's okay, sweetheart.
374
01:06:29,220 --> 01:06:30,560
It really is.
375
01:06:35,180 --> 01:06:36,860
How does that make you feel?
376
01:06:38,880 --> 01:06:40,820
Nervous. Yeah.
377
01:06:42,480 --> 01:06:43,980
What about physically?
378
01:06:50,440 --> 01:06:53,260
It's like a warming feeling.
379
01:06:53,580 --> 01:06:54,580
Yeah.
380
01:06:55,500 --> 01:06:57,680
I'm a little uncomfortable with those
straps.
381
01:07:00,860 --> 01:07:02,120
There, like that.
382
01:07:03,100 --> 01:07:04,500
May I try on you?
383
01:07:05,400 --> 01:07:11,600
Because I need to see how you feel when
you touch me and then how
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01:07:11,600 --> 01:07:13,820
you feel when I touch you.
385
01:07:15,140 --> 01:07:16,140
Okay.
386
01:07:30,920 --> 01:07:37,720
I feel like, well, I had
387
01:07:37,720 --> 01:07:43,140
plans tonight, but I think that you're
more important and your well -being is
388
01:07:43,140 --> 01:07:45,500
more important than my plans.
389
01:07:46,080 --> 01:07:47,440
So I want you to know that.
390
01:08:03,530 --> 01:08:08,350
Let me take your arm out of the sleeve
because the sleeve gets kind of tight on
391
01:08:08,350 --> 01:08:09,810
your arms.
392
01:08:12,290 --> 01:08:13,290
There.
393
01:08:25,870 --> 01:08:27,950
What do you think about when I touch you
like this?
394
01:08:30,210 --> 01:08:31,290
That it feels good.
395
01:08:31,529 --> 01:08:32,529
Yeah? Yeah.
396
01:08:42,279 --> 01:08:43,420
Very beautiful breath.
397
01:08:44,760 --> 01:08:45,760
Thank you.
398
01:08:55,240 --> 01:08:57,060
Is this how she massaged you?
399
01:08:58,279 --> 01:08:59,279
Yeah.
400
01:09:05,580 --> 01:09:07,200
What are you thinking about right now?
401
01:09:35,019 --> 01:09:37,120
Does it turn you on?
402
01:09:38,220 --> 01:09:40,740
In a sexual way?
403
01:09:48,649 --> 01:09:50,410
And boys don't make you feel this way?
404
01:09:51,609 --> 01:09:52,609
Yeah.
405
01:09:56,410 --> 01:09:59,710
I think you
406
01:09:59,710 --> 01:10:11,710
should...
407
01:10:11,710 --> 01:10:13,310
Are you nervous?
408
01:10:13,590 --> 01:10:16,370
Are you too nervous to do that to me?
409
01:10:17,430 --> 01:10:18,430
I'll try.
410
01:10:18,620 --> 01:10:19,620
Okay.
411
01:10:20,780 --> 01:10:22,020
No, take my strap down.
412
01:10:31,740 --> 01:10:32,760
Can you help me?
413
01:10:40,960 --> 01:10:42,000
Don't touch my back.
414
01:10:59,760 --> 01:11:00,760
Do you like that?
415
01:11:01,020 --> 01:11:02,020
Yeah.
416
01:11:04,880 --> 01:11:09,020
It was really nice.
417
01:11:14,480 --> 01:11:16,320
I think you'd be good in beauty school.
418
01:11:18,880 --> 01:11:20,460
At least in the massage part.
419
01:11:20,680 --> 01:11:21,780
You do a really good job.
420
01:11:26,840 --> 01:11:28,060
Does that make you...
421
01:11:28,380 --> 01:11:29,580
Feel wet down below?
422
01:11:32,860 --> 01:11:34,420
Yeah, it makes me turned on.
423
01:11:36,620 --> 01:11:39,880
And what is turned on to you? What does
that mean?
424
01:11:41,460 --> 01:11:42,800
The graphics? Okay.
425
01:11:43,760 --> 01:11:48,000
It's like, um... See, it's hotter.
426
01:11:49,220 --> 01:11:50,380
Hotter? Mhm.
427
01:11:59,470 --> 01:12:02,830
Like warm tingles in the face.
428
01:12:03,810 --> 01:12:05,410
Yeah? Yeah.
429
01:12:06,970 --> 01:12:07,970
Okay, good.
430
01:12:09,530 --> 01:12:13,190
And did your friend touch you down
there?
431
01:12:13,590 --> 01:12:14,590
Yeah.
432
01:12:15,410 --> 01:12:18,010
Wow. You guys went pretty far, didn't
you?
433
01:12:18,310 --> 01:12:19,310
Yeah.
434
01:12:27,980 --> 01:12:31,540
This is definitely bonding between a
woman and a woman.
435
01:12:40,040 --> 01:12:42,900
May I touch you down there to see how it
feels?
436
01:12:54,320 --> 01:13:00,060
You look very uncomfortable the way
you're sitting, so why don't we take
437
01:13:00,060 --> 01:13:03,860
shirt off and your skirt, and I'll take
my dress off, and that way we can just,
438
01:13:03,860 --> 01:13:04,920
like, be comfortable.
439
01:13:06,120 --> 01:13:08,480
All right. Okay, so is that okay with
you?
440
01:13:09,360 --> 01:13:10,360
All right.
441
01:13:16,440 --> 01:13:20,860
I'll take mine off first. You just be
there, because I want to see how the
442
01:13:20,860 --> 01:13:22,060
undressing makes you feel.
443
01:13:22,720 --> 01:13:23,720
All right. Okay.
444
01:14:21,309 --> 01:14:23,990
This. You turned on looking at me?
445
01:14:24,530 --> 01:14:25,530
Yeah.
446
01:14:29,810 --> 01:14:34,410
Okay, so let's pull this over your head.
447
01:15:15,690 --> 01:15:17,490
You said your little friend's name is
Jane?
448
01:15:18,290 --> 01:15:19,290
Yeah.
449
01:15:23,770 --> 01:15:27,290
Maybe one day you can even find her.
450
01:15:29,430 --> 01:15:36,010
Maybe two of you can show me what
451
01:15:36,010 --> 01:15:37,830
you did.
452
01:15:38,710 --> 01:15:39,870
But for now...
453
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:05,980
They're really nice hands.
454
01:16:26,360 --> 01:16:28,240
Yeah, that's better.
455
01:16:51,020 --> 01:16:52,440
Do you ever kiss your little girl?
456
01:16:53,460 --> 01:16:54,460
Yeah.
457
01:16:54,900 --> 01:16:56,060
Where did you kiss her?
458
01:16:57,860 --> 01:16:58,880
On her lips.
459
01:16:59,700 --> 01:17:00,700
Yeah?
460
01:17:02,380 --> 01:17:03,680
Like a little peck?
461
01:17:03,940 --> 01:17:05,040
Or a little tongue?
462
01:17:06,040 --> 01:17:07,200
How did you kiss her?
463
01:17:08,480 --> 01:17:09,680
No. Show me.
464
01:17:12,120 --> 01:17:13,960
It started like...
465
01:17:52,000 --> 01:17:57,720
Why don't you get on your knees and turn
around with your back to me and I'll
466
01:17:57,720 --> 01:17:58,720
just pull it off.
467
01:18:04,280 --> 01:18:05,380
Right there, right there.
468
01:19:11,020 --> 01:19:12,100
Very wet down there.
469
01:19:44,910 --> 01:19:48,550
Did your friend touch you like this yeah
470
01:20:24,560 --> 01:20:25,720
Have you ever been spanked?
471
01:20:26,720 --> 01:20:27,720
No.
472
01:20:35,440 --> 01:20:37,580
Do you
473
01:20:37,580 --> 01:20:44,820
work
474
01:20:44,820 --> 01:20:45,820
out?
475
01:20:58,120 --> 01:20:59,120
Does that make you tingle?
476
01:20:59,660 --> 01:21:00,660
Oh, yeah.
477
01:21:29,320 --> 01:21:30,320
You're really wet.
478
01:23:22,600 --> 01:23:23,600
Oh.
479
01:25:07,500 --> 01:25:08,760
You've got a beautiful pussy.
480
01:25:10,400 --> 01:25:12,220
Did your little friend tell you that?
481
01:25:13,260 --> 01:25:14,260
No.
482
01:26:13,480 --> 01:26:14,600
He's so beautiful.
483
01:27:03,120 --> 01:27:04,040
Feel how it...
484
01:27:04,040 --> 01:27:12,760
It's
485
01:27:12,760 --> 01:27:13,760
very good.
486
01:27:32,350 --> 01:27:33,350
Make yourself feel good.
487
01:27:36,070 --> 01:27:42,170
Let it go, just let it go.
488
01:28:51,310 --> 01:28:52,310
Put your finger down.
489
01:36:22,960 --> 01:36:23,960
Mwah!
490
01:42:32,300 --> 01:42:33,300
Have a sweet meeting.
491
01:42:33,500 --> 01:42:34,500
Thank you.
492
01:42:35,460 --> 01:42:42,000
So what's so urgent that brings you guys
out here today to see Pastor Michael?
493
01:42:43,900 --> 01:42:47,720
Well, it's been a couple of months since
Faye's been gone.
494
01:42:49,020 --> 01:42:51,440
And it's been tough for a lot of people.
495
01:42:52,220 --> 01:42:58,200
And I'd actually heard from Raveness
that nobody's seen Bobby for a while.
496
01:42:58,720 --> 01:43:01,840
And I was really worried about her
because that's not like her.
497
01:43:02,420 --> 01:43:08,540
And I went over to her place to check on
her, and she was very down and
498
01:43:08,540 --> 01:43:09,540
depressed.
499
01:43:10,180 --> 01:43:15,100
And I don't want to see her ending up
like Faye.
500
01:43:16,760 --> 01:43:19,040
And I think one tragedy is enough.
501
01:43:20,720 --> 01:43:26,460
So I don't know if you know this, but is
it okay to tell Cindy,
502
01:43:26,620 --> 01:43:27,800
Bobby?
503
01:43:31,910 --> 01:43:37,910
because you don't know this, but she's
been with several women and
504
01:43:37,910 --> 01:43:42,090
she's having a hard time dealing with it
in her mind.
505
01:43:43,410 --> 01:43:47,790
And I thought that it would be a good
idea for her to speak to Pastor Michaels
506
01:43:47,790 --> 01:43:53,290
about it and to try some reprogramming.
I know it didn't work for me, but that's
507
01:43:53,290 --> 01:43:55,110
not to say that it couldn't work for
her.
508
01:44:00,419 --> 01:44:02,800
Bobby, do you want to talk to Cindy?
509
01:44:03,920 --> 01:44:10,860
What got you, besides the lesbian thing,
what's got you so down about, or makes
510
01:44:10,860 --> 01:44:12,940
you feel so guilty about what happened
to Faye?
511
01:44:13,740 --> 01:44:14,780
I just,
512
01:44:17,300 --> 01:44:24,240
you know, there's so much that's
happened that is
513
01:44:24,240 --> 01:44:26,860
partially my fault.
514
01:44:30,139 --> 01:44:36,280
I participated in doing this stupid
stuff with Daisy and
515
01:44:36,280 --> 01:44:42,880
Dana, and now Faye's gone, and it's my
516
01:44:42,880 --> 01:44:43,880
fault.
517
01:44:45,200 --> 01:44:50,000
What kind of stupid stuff could have
been so much your fault that would have
518
01:44:50,000 --> 01:44:52,880
drove Faye to do something so drastic?
519
01:44:53,340 --> 01:44:57,340
I mean, what makes you feel so guilty?
Why do you feel so guilty?
520
01:44:58,090 --> 01:45:04,730
Um, Daisy knew that, well, it's okay.
521
01:45:08,510 --> 01:45:15,110
A while ago at, um, you know, Faye had a
birthday
522
01:45:15,110 --> 01:45:21,370
and I couldn't come over right away
because I was babysitting, but
523
01:45:21,370 --> 01:45:27,270
later I went by, um, and, uh, for the
rest of the party.
524
01:45:27,660 --> 01:45:33,960
And they hadn't come back from getting
dinner, but Maggie was there. And so she
525
01:45:33,960 --> 01:45:39,100
told me that I should just wait until
they got back. And she said, oh, you
526
01:45:39,120 --> 01:45:46,080
I could help her set the room up and
such. So we set up sleeping
527
01:45:46,080 --> 01:45:53,060
bags and stuff like that. And then she
asked me, you
528
01:45:53,060 --> 01:45:56,740
know, if I had ever thought about being
with.
529
01:45:57,000 --> 01:46:03,980
women before this is a long time ago but
and i had said no and then um she like
530
01:46:03,980 --> 01:46:10,920
showed me some pictures and stuff and um
of you know women together
531
01:46:10,920 --> 01:46:15,780
and she asked me if i liked them and you
know i said yes and
532
01:46:15,780 --> 01:46:22,680
so then she asked me if i'd ever kissed
a girl before and i said
533
01:46:22,680 --> 01:46:28,970
no and she asked if i wanted to kiss her
and um I
534
01:46:28,970 --> 01:46:35,630
didn't know but so she kissed me and
then
535
01:46:35,630 --> 01:46:41,010
after that day um you know we kind of
536
01:46:41,010 --> 01:46:47,310
would kiss a lot and then um
537
01:46:47,310 --> 01:46:53,690
I started you know like experimenting
with other girls and then
538
01:46:53,690 --> 01:46:55,210
finally you know
539
01:46:56,880 --> 01:47:02,400
She and I just kind of got closer and
closer, and Daisy knew this, and Daisy
540
01:47:02,400 --> 01:47:09,160
like, wanted to, you know, do bad things
541
01:47:09,160 --> 01:47:16,040
with, you know, that information. So she
told me that I should
542
01:47:16,040 --> 01:47:23,000
videotape it, and then, but then I
543
01:47:23,000 --> 01:47:26,160
should videotape her and I, you know.
544
01:47:26,540 --> 01:47:31,620
having sex and then i told her because i
felt bad about that because it's not
545
01:47:31,620 --> 01:47:37,360
right i knew that and then
546
01:47:37,360 --> 01:47:44,360
they um came over one day after she
547
01:47:44,360 --> 01:47:51,180
and i had uh just been together and then
right
548
01:47:51,180 --> 01:47:54,640
after that was when they went home and
549
01:47:57,820 --> 01:48:04,020
Anyway, I just, I think it's my fault if
I hadn't,
550
01:48:04,020 --> 01:48:10,440
if I just said, no, I'm not interested
in, you know, girls.
551
01:48:11,240 --> 01:48:16,780
A lot of things happen for a lot of
reasons, and this is definitely
552
01:48:16,780 --> 01:48:20,640
that you've got to spend some time
talking about and going through.
553
01:48:22,000 --> 01:48:25,560
Unfortunately, I was just on my way out.
I have another meeting with the family
554
01:48:25,560 --> 01:48:26,840
to do some mediation.
555
01:48:28,460 --> 01:48:32,940
The kids and alcohol and lots going on
there, and I really have to get over
556
01:48:32,940 --> 01:48:34,540
there to help mediate the family.
557
01:48:35,180 --> 01:48:39,980
But I'd really like you to come back on
Thursday around 4.
558
01:48:40,280 --> 01:48:43,140
Can you come back Thursday around 4 to
talk to me?
559
01:48:44,900 --> 01:48:49,620
I can't make it, but... I really think
it's important if you come back.
560
01:48:50,170 --> 01:48:51,170
On Thursday?
561
01:48:51,390 --> 01:48:55,110
You can come back, right? Come back on
Thursday, and we'll see if we can get
562
01:48:55,110 --> 01:48:57,750
some more sessions going for you.
563
01:48:57,990 --> 01:48:58,990
Okay. Okay?
564
01:48:59,110 --> 01:49:03,390
I really hate to ask you guys to run
because I know you really need to talk.
565
01:49:03,490 --> 01:49:05,270
thanks just for the five minutes.
566
01:49:07,050 --> 01:49:11,270
We'll talk again on Thursday. I really
would like to meet with you again.
567
01:49:12,170 --> 01:49:14,070
Okay. Okay, Cindy, thank you.
568
01:49:27,370 --> 01:49:29,490
I'm glad you came back today to talk to
me.
569
01:49:30,050 --> 01:49:31,890
So, what's going on?
570
01:49:32,430 --> 01:49:39,190
I just... I'm just not doing good,
571
01:49:39,330 --> 01:49:40,330
you know?
572
01:49:40,810 --> 01:49:44,810
I tell you what's sad. What's gotten you
so down lately?
573
01:49:47,090 --> 01:49:49,070
I feel...
574
01:49:49,070 --> 01:49:55,510
...irresponsible to face death.
575
01:50:00,610 --> 01:50:07,370
I need to change my life because it's
576
01:50:07,370 --> 01:50:08,910
not okay.
577
01:50:09,530 --> 01:50:11,730
I feel so guilty.
578
01:50:16,590 --> 01:50:23,530
Why do you feel so guilty? What makes
you feel like everything
579
01:50:23,530 --> 01:50:24,530
is your fault?
580
01:50:24,930 --> 01:50:27,290
I know it's...
581
01:50:30,120 --> 01:50:35,660
I know it's not okay for me to have
these feelings of, you know, being
582
01:50:35,660 --> 01:50:42,280
towards other women. And then, you know,
Daisy and Dana took advantage of that.
583
01:50:42,680 --> 01:50:47,560
I have actually had a lesbian affair
back when I was at Divinity College.
584
01:50:48,340 --> 01:50:50,120
It lasted for a while.
585
01:50:50,580 --> 01:50:56,380
I kind of had those same guilty,
complex, don't -know -what -to -do kind
586
01:50:56,380 --> 01:50:57,380
feelings.
587
01:50:58,600 --> 01:51:04,520
I met Pastor Michael, we got married,
and feelings kind of subsided for a bit.
588
01:51:05,240 --> 01:51:10,040
And then the desires and the want of
having another woman kind of started
589
01:51:10,040 --> 01:51:11,100
creeping back in.
590
01:51:12,180 --> 01:51:18,120
So then I started looking at videos,
watching some Muslim videos, and that
591
01:51:18,120 --> 01:51:19,120
of helped for a bit.
592
01:51:19,740 --> 01:51:25,680
I was able to kind of curb my desire,
not take any action on it, just...
593
01:51:26,410 --> 01:51:28,250
Kind of watched the videos for a while.
594
01:51:29,950 --> 01:51:36,290
And when that didn't quite work for me,
then the
595
01:51:36,290 --> 01:51:42,490
deprogramming program, I met a lady
there, and
596
01:51:42,490 --> 01:51:46,470
we've had a relationship going for about
the last year.
597
01:51:47,110 --> 01:51:52,890
So the feelings are not quite, I don't
know, don't look so shocked, but the
598
01:51:52,890 --> 01:51:54,530
feelings are not quite...
599
01:51:56,240 --> 01:52:03,000
so bad, but you can kind of suppress
them for a while if that's what you want
600
01:52:03,000 --> 01:52:07,440
do. The Bible doesn't say it's forbidden
or it's taboo. It kind of really
601
01:52:07,440 --> 01:52:14,320
doesn't say very much about
homosexuality. So don't beat yourself up
602
01:52:14,320 --> 01:52:19,360
bad about it. Everything isn't your
fault. Things kind of play out and
603
01:52:19,360 --> 01:52:20,360
for a reason.
604
01:52:21,360 --> 01:52:23,520
But I think maybe...
605
01:52:24,240 --> 01:52:30,640
If I got you those videos and you kind
of watch those for a while, it might
606
01:52:30,640 --> 01:52:33,700
you sort some feelings and ideas through
your mind.
607
01:52:35,300 --> 01:52:41,400
I don't know. I mean, shouldn't I not be
encouraging this? Shouldn't I be
608
01:52:41,400 --> 01:52:46,080
just make it go away somehow?
609
01:52:46,340 --> 01:52:49,600
You can't quite just make it go away.
610
01:52:50,890 --> 01:52:54,890
You got to kind of work through what
your feelings actually are.
611
01:52:55,450 --> 01:53:00,050
So I'd say maybe if you're not so sure
you want to keep going with the female
612
01:53:00,050 --> 01:53:06,070
thing and you want to kind of maybe see
if you're really not a lesbian, if you
613
01:53:06,070 --> 01:53:11,910
have other desires and you want to take
it from there, watch the videos. They
614
01:53:11,910 --> 01:53:14,530
help me a lot, especially in the
beginning.
615
01:53:14,790 --> 01:53:19,990
They really help me kind of suppress
those feelings and kind of...
616
01:53:20,560 --> 01:53:26,900
put things in perspective for a while
until I decided kind of
617
01:53:26,900 --> 01:53:30,600
what I want to do through the
deprogramming portion of it.
618
01:53:30,960 --> 01:53:35,140
So why don't we go up and let's get
those videos.
619
01:53:38,080 --> 01:53:42,900
Just let's get the videos and kind of
watch them and make your determination
620
01:53:42,900 --> 01:53:44,440
from there. Okay? Come on.
621
01:53:45,080 --> 01:53:46,080
Okay.
622
01:53:53,230 --> 01:53:53,989
will help you.
623
01:53:53,990 --> 01:54:00,890
I think if you kind of watch these
movies, they may kind
624
01:54:00,890 --> 01:54:07,070
of help you get over some of those
cravings and desires that you've had
625
01:54:07,070 --> 01:54:13,710
without the impulses of acting on them.
They've helped me quite a bit.
626
01:54:15,250 --> 01:54:16,730
For a while, anyway.
627
01:54:24,870 --> 01:54:26,630
I think you'll enjoy them.
628
01:54:27,410 --> 01:54:31,110
I think they'll make you see things a
little differently.
629
01:54:38,550 --> 01:54:42,850
I'll put these in here. It's a good
hiding place for them. Most people
630
01:54:42,850 --> 01:54:44,030
I'm going to leave them in that box.
631
01:54:54,670 --> 01:54:57,650
show you another one of my things that I
like to keep in hiding.
632
01:55:00,470 --> 01:55:07,170
That my friend and I have started to use
to kind of
633
01:55:07,170 --> 01:55:10,070
help things out.
634
01:55:13,410 --> 01:55:16,330
But it doesn't make you quite build.
635
01:55:27,850 --> 01:55:31,090
Think I guess
636
01:55:31,090 --> 01:55:34,890
Very
637
01:55:34,890 --> 01:55:38,750
pretty
638
01:56:51,790 --> 01:56:52,850
Relax a little.
639
02:09:10,510 --> 02:09:11,510
um
640
02:28:52,910 --> 02:28:56,690
So beautiful out. It's awesome out here.
I love it.
641
02:28:57,230 --> 02:28:59,070
I love the water. It's so nice.
642
02:28:59,670 --> 02:29:01,390
I could be out on the water every day.
643
02:29:02,890 --> 02:29:04,210
All these boats, man.
644
02:29:04,610 --> 02:29:07,650
If you want to buy a sailboat, sail off
with me.
645
02:29:08,070 --> 02:29:09,490
That would be so much fun.
646
02:29:09,730 --> 02:29:10,730
Never to be terrible.
647
02:29:11,070 --> 02:29:12,070
No reality.
648
02:29:12,370 --> 02:29:13,910
Yes, leave all the drama behind.
649
02:29:14,510 --> 02:29:15,510
Great.
650
02:29:16,030 --> 02:29:20,570
I love it. I'm so glad you came out with
me. Yeah, thanks for inviting me. I'm
651
02:29:20,570 --> 02:29:21,770
having an awesome time. Good.
652
02:29:23,410 --> 02:29:24,450
That's what I hope for.
653
02:29:24,890 --> 02:29:25,890
Aw.
654
02:29:27,110 --> 02:29:30,170
Keep your mind off things, you know.
Thank you. That really helps.
655
02:29:30,650 --> 02:29:34,570
Absolutely. So you never did tell me
about your trip with Maggie.
656
02:29:35,350 --> 02:29:38,770
Well, yeah, it was nice, you know. We
had some fun. Yeah.
657
02:29:39,710 --> 02:29:42,470
Did he tell you about us?
658
02:29:43,890 --> 02:29:48,750
Well, I heard, I know that you guys
aren't well.
659
02:29:49,450 --> 02:29:51,870
Right now, I guess something about the
art store.
660
02:29:52,090 --> 02:29:53,090
Something happened.
661
02:29:53,490 --> 02:29:54,710
She didn't go into detail.
662
02:29:55,110 --> 02:29:57,890
Yeah, we had an art gallery together.
663
02:29:58,210 --> 02:30:05,030
And, you know, after Faye died,
unfortunately, she just kind of stopped
664
02:30:05,030 --> 02:30:08,510
around. And it made things really hard
on me, unfortunately, because I was
665
02:30:08,510 --> 02:30:13,210
trying to, you know, take over the shop
all by myself and pay the bills and do
666
02:30:13,210 --> 02:30:16,870
all the work. So there's so much going
on with Faye.
667
02:30:18,000 --> 02:30:21,960
I know it's just a horrible thing she's
going through, so I'm trying not to be
668
02:30:21,960 --> 02:30:26,960
too hard on her, but I can't really
change things, so I'm just trying to
669
02:30:26,960 --> 02:30:30,820
with them and put on a happy face and
why you're so sweet. Move forward. Yeah,
670
02:30:30,900 --> 02:30:33,400
this will be fun. We'll have fun. Yeah.
Forget about everything.
671
02:30:33,720 --> 02:30:36,440
Yeah, forget about all of that. That'll
be good.
672
02:30:36,700 --> 02:30:38,160
You and I have a good time.
673
02:30:38,580 --> 02:30:39,580
Water.
674
02:30:41,660 --> 02:30:43,840
It tastes absolutely perfect. Wonderful.
675
02:31:57,249 --> 02:32:02,450
But I'm getting really tired from
warming out today. It was so much fun on
676
02:32:02,450 --> 02:32:04,450
boat. Thank you so much. You're welcome.
677
02:32:05,250 --> 02:32:07,310
I had so much fun. I can't wait for
tomorrow.
678
02:32:08,650 --> 02:32:11,650
Absolutely. I'm so glad you could come.
All right. Well, I'm going to head to
679
02:32:11,650 --> 02:32:12,690
bed, and I'm going to get up early.
680
02:32:12,950 --> 02:32:13,950
Okay.
681
02:32:14,050 --> 02:32:15,090
Bye. Bye.
682
02:32:15,350 --> 02:32:16,350
Bye.
683
02:33:22,539 --> 02:33:26,020
Hey. So, um, do you mind if I come in
and talk for a minute?
684
02:33:27,120 --> 02:33:28,420
I'm kind of lonely.
685
02:33:44,680 --> 02:33:46,580
I've been alone a little bit.
686
02:33:47,360 --> 02:33:48,360
Yeah?
687
02:33:50,670 --> 02:33:57,470
Make you nervous I don't care
688
02:33:57,470 --> 02:33:59,450
Not
689
02:33:59,450 --> 02:34:15,210
not
690
02:34:15,210 --> 02:34:16,650
so comfortable with this well
691
02:34:20,300 --> 02:34:21,300
Look what happened.
692
02:34:22,300 --> 02:34:24,200
Let's just get you nice and relaxed.
693
02:34:26,080 --> 02:34:27,080
It's okay.
694
02:34:27,300 --> 02:34:28,900
I don't want you to feel uncomfortable.
695
02:34:30,280 --> 02:34:32,200
Just get you nice and relaxed.
696
02:34:36,820 --> 02:34:38,080
How does that feel?
697
02:34:39,260 --> 02:34:40,260
That's nice.
698
02:34:40,360 --> 02:34:41,360
Yeah.
699
02:34:53,230 --> 02:34:55,350
Feel about you feeling good.
700
02:34:57,970 --> 02:34:58,970
Thanks.
701
02:35:40,300 --> 02:35:41,360
You're such a beautiful girl.
702
02:35:42,340 --> 02:35:43,340
Thanks, honey.
703
02:35:47,420 --> 02:35:50,080
You feeling relaxed now?
704
02:35:52,020 --> 02:35:53,160
A little bit.
705
02:39:17,770 --> 02:39:18,770
Hmm.
706
02:40:59,440 --> 02:41:00,440
It's not good.
707
02:41:00,920 --> 02:41:01,920
No.
708
02:41:02,260 --> 02:41:03,260
No.
709
02:41:03,840 --> 02:41:05,460
It's not perfect at least.
710
02:41:33,480 --> 02:41:34,480
Thank you.
711
03:01:05,990 --> 03:01:09,450
I like it like
712
03:01:09,450 --> 03:01:13,290
that.
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