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Previously...

Whoa! What the BLEEP?!

..the group reunited for one
final dinner party...

In the letter,
it just basically said.

"I wish I had got down on my knees
and terrorised your bumhole."

What?!

..discovering which marriages
had stood the test of time.

Ross lives with me now. What?!

But for some, it was an emotional
reunion.

I put my life on the line for you.

I think I'm quite numb.

Oh, I just need five minutes.

He didn't want me.

It just killed me.

Whilst gossip amongst the group...

A comment that was made about my
daughter from yourself.

"God help her if she turns out like
her mother."

..reignited old tensions.

You're all BLEEP screaming at me!
Who the BLEEP are you talking to?

Oh, I'm fuming.

And as happy couples had cause
for celebration...

I want loads of kids. Little
Nathan juniors.

Whoa!

..it was familiar frustrations
between Polly and Adam...

Why are you bitching about someone
that doesn't want you?

Because I BLEEP want to.

We had sex three times for ten
weeks.

..that erupted into the biggest
showdown of the night.

BLEEP you!

Tonight...

Welcome, everyone, to the final
commitment ceremony.

..the couples come face-to-face
with the experts.

That really got me, that.

For some, it's a celebration.

He tells me he loves me.
I'm loving it.

We've got something really special.
We do. Yeah.

While animosity brews for others.

I feel like there was a real
sort of pack mentality.

Talk about my children, I'm coming
to war.

Failed marriages
go under the microscope.

Emma deserved a husband who could
give her what she was looking for,

and that's on me.

I felt like Ryan was trying
to keep me under his thumb.

You specifically used the term
"I want to terrorise your butthole."

Oh, God.

I don't think I've done
anything wrong.

Oh, come on, Adam.

Are you taking the piss out of me?

And the breakdown of their
marriage...

How much did it mean to Kieran?

Because it meant the absolute
BLEEP world to me.

To have her sitting, thinking that
I don't care about her,

it's shit. ..raises questions for
Kieran and Kristina.

Why are you not together?

CHURCH BELLS RING

Welcome, everyone, to the final
commitment ceremony...

..and the last gathering of what I'm
sure you can all agree

has been an unforgettable
experience.

Well, there is clearly a lot
to discuss from last night's dinner

party, but tonight is also
about celebrating the good times

and learning from the bad.

But before we dig in, let's
remind ourselves of where

this incredible journey began.

No! Stop!

No! Oh, my God.

Marriage is forever.

This is one of the biggest things
I've ever done in my life.

It would be everything to me
to start a new life with someone

who I adore.

I'm ready to have that missing
piece of the puzzle.

Love, a partner, and build
a life together.

The right person is definitely
out there.

I'm risking everything for love.

I never in a million years
imagined I was going

to be marrying a stranger.

I am looking for my knight
in shining armour.

I'm ready to meet the love of my
life.

I'm so close to giving up on love,
but I'm willing to give

it one last shot.

Oh! Wow!

What's your name? Sionainn. Nice to
meet you. Nice to meet you.

Are you OK? Yeah, yeah. Not bad.

Are you all right? Oh, I'm happy!

CHEERING

Hi. My name's Amy.
Nice to meet you.

Pleasure's all mine.

Oh, my God. Hi.

Hello. Oh, you're really cute.

I'm Stephen. You look stunning.
Nice to meet you.

I'm Kittitian. Saint Kitts?

Yes. You are a true Caribbean.
Yes, I am.

I promise to bring spontaneity,
a sense of adventure,

and an excellent loaf of bread.

Today I say I do, but to me
that means I will.

I will take your hand and stand by
your side through the good and bad.

I might be deaf, but I will always
hear you.

Oh!

Hugo!

Oh, my God! Oh, my God.

So this is Hugo. I love him so much.

It is time for you to share
your very first kiss.

CHEERING

Woo!

I'm so happy.

Just perfect.

Everything happens for a reason.

I genuinely feel like it
couldn't have gone any better.

This is everything I've ever
dreamed of.

Aw!

APPLAUSE

That was wild.

Oh, yeah.

Are you OK?

Lots of emotion in the room.

Holly, it's really hit you.

Surprisingly...

..it was seeing me and Alex
looking happy.

Yeah.

It just looked
like the perfect image.

That really got me, that.

Charlie, what's coming up for
you there watching that, my love?

I'm still living that moment
even today.

Where I remember, like, that initial
feeling that I had for Eve.

But I guess just seeing that today
has kind of made me realise maybe

I'm not over it as much
as I thought I was.

The grieving process has no
cap, so remember

that and allow yourself that.

Sadly, the relationship
didn't work as we had all planned.

Thank you for showing up
as your full self.

We can't wait to see what the future
holds for you.

Yes.

Be proud of yourself.

Thank you. Orson, obviously
Richelle is not here.

How are you feeling about,
you know, your reflection

on this relationship and where
it's brought you to today?

I came in with the intention to find
a wife, walk away with a wife.

Obviously, the relationship
didn't really go the way that,

you know, I wanted it to go.

I definitely underestimate
the experiment because I didn't

realise it was going to be,
like, that...intense.

I was actually looking forward
to seeing her, believe it or not.

So I wish she was here,
but I hope she's well.

Well, we're sorry that things
didn't work out the way

that you wanted to, but we also
noted that there was a bit

of a spark between you and Hannah.

Yes.

There was definitely
that spark.

I can't lie.

We just felt like there
wasn't enough for us to be like,

"Right, OK, let's make this work."

For me, the way that Orson
treated me and spoke to me

and the respect that he showed me
was huge, considering what

I had to deal with.

I don't think we just kissed
for the sake of it.

It was very much like, "Let's
see if this is a thing."

I do think we could have a really
nice friendship after this.

Yeah, I've got a lot of time
for him, and he's a really good guy.

Well, thank you, Orson.

We have loved having you as part of
this experiment.

Thank you.

APPLAUSE

ORSON EXHALES

OK, first up to the couch,
we have Amy and Luke.

Woo!

APPLAUSE

You're welcome, baby.

Hey, guys.
Hello. Hello. Hello.

Good to see you. Welcome back.
Nice to see you, too.

OK, so before we delve
into your journey and where

you are right now, should we take
a quick look at your final vows?

Magical.

Let's do it.

Amy, with all our highs,
there have been many lows.

I feel responsible for causing
many of these lows.

We have shared the most
special moments together, Amy,

and I do not want to give up.

Our future starts now.

Luke...

..you were my Prince Charming stood
at the altar.

You showed me you were a gentleman.

And it gave me a glimpse
of what could be.

There has never been a dull
day with you.

I came into this experiment
knowing exactly what I wanted.

And I'm leaving this experiment
knowing exactly what I do not want.

This marriage is done.

Dead.

Deceased.

I stand here in front of you today,
wearing black to mourn its death.

RIP.

Oh, that was fucking savage.

Wow. That was brutal.

That was quite an exit.

How do you feel watching it back?

Awful.

I feel like I had so much, like,
built-up anger and upset.

I felt like I needed to get
it off my chest.

I felt better after I did it,
but watching it back,

it might have been a little
bit savage.

And, Luke, how was that experience
for you?

It was very sad.

I was sad that I was the one
to make her feel that way.

So after the final vows,
what has happened since then?

Um, you sent me, like, a birthday
gift, didn't you?

With a letter in it.

Would you say that there's a part
of you that's holding out hope

that maybe Amy might change
her mind?

Of course.

I'll always have a fond memory
of the stuff we've done.

I know how I felt.

I know how you made me feel, Amy,

when we went on the honeymoon.

It was such a poignant moment that
uplifted me.

You gave me confidence like
no other.

Amy, you look irritated.

It just baffles me, like, this.

Because obviously the letter went
quite into depth about how much

he missed me, and he's always
thinking about me, referring to me

as his wife, and nice, rude
comment at the end of it.

A rude comment?

It said, "No regrets.

"Actually, just one.

"I wish I'd have got down on my
knees

"when you were cooking in the
kitchen...

"..and terrorised your bumhole."

Oh, God.

OK.

I do remember us having this
conversation about flirting

and about what's a turn-on and
what's a turn-off.

I suppose I'm curious
what your thoughts

were around terrorising the bumhole.

I mean, I know we're all laughing
about this, but I'm not saying

this with any kind of judgment.

In relationships, we have our
own codes of conversation,

we have our own banter and a bit
of flirting.

And it sounds like this is something
that maybe took place privately

between the two... No, it didn't.

No, it did not.

You specifically use the term
"I want to terrorise your butthole".

Yeah. Have you ever used that term
before?

I think we-we've...

You've never said
that to me before.

Yeah, but we've done it... I've
showed her.

You've not done that to me!

He's never done anything
like that to me.

Not your bumhole.

What?!

What the hell is coming
out of Luke's mouth right now?

My bumhole has never seen any action
in its whole existence.

Never mind with Luke.

And I'd rather it not be spoken
about again.

CHURCH BELLS RING

CHURCH BELLS RING

He's never done anything
like that to me.

Not your bumhole.

What?!

No, no, I'm just saying,
have you ever used the term before?

Um, probably not. OK.

Do you believe
that could be a shocking term?

I want it to be. It's some feeling
I have.

OK. There you go. So here's someone

who you've never used this term
with. You know it's shocking

and you drop it in a letter.

Why is that? It's a word!
Paul, it's a word.

I have to choose a word
that reflects how I feel.

And you went with "terrorise"?

Whatever I would do from day
one, from the marriage, almost...

..it was always misunderstood.

I'm a bit quirky.

I'm a non-conformer.
And that's what I've learned.

And I'm going to stop trying
to conform.

And there's something powerful
in that.

But can I just give you some
advice around relationships?

Yes, please. We're saying it's about
reading the room. Mm.

And what she has said consistently
is that those types of language

just don't do it for her.

I just wanted to let her know
that I fancy the pants off you.

And that's how you make me
feel sexually.

Oh, I'm really sorry for
really wanting you, Amy.

I sincerely apologise.

I just didn't understand the motive
behind it after what happened

at final vows.

Like, that book was closed.

Right. OK.

I think it is important also
for you, Luke, to be able

to acknowledge, you know,
how hurt and disappointed

you were, because you had really
hoped for a future with Amy.

We were always trying to please
each other,

but we weren't getting there.

And it was a big shame
because in the end, I look at Amy

and she has many qualities
that I asked for, and the person

walks away from me. And that's
painful because then I think

to myself, "Then what do I do?

"Do I change the way I speak,
or do I start thinking twice

"about what words I use?"

I'm not saying you're a bad person.

I don't know if you're saying things
and meaning another thing,

but there's been so many lies.

The trust was just gone,
and we were just, like, fighting

a losing battle.

And, Amy, what would you say
you've learned about yourself

throughout this process?

Um, I feel like I've learned
how to be very patient.

I've learned to have more confidence
in myself and speak how I feel.

Thank you for letting me
be able to do that.

You've helped with that.

I feel like I've grown as a person,
and thank you for that as well.

Lovely. It was amazing to meet you
both, and I really wish you all

the very best in your future
relationships.

Thank you so much. Thank you, guys.

Thank you. Thank you.

APPLAUSE

Thanks.

That was traumatic.

Of course I wish that things
turned out differently.

I just wish that Amy accepted me
and embraced my

sexualised nature.

I do wish to find someone
that accepts me for who I am,

with my quirkiness and...

..and everything that I embody,
I guess.

And my letter-writing as well.
That's very important.

OK, so next up to the couch,

we have Nathan and Lacey.

Woo!

Hello. Hello. Hello.

Hello. Nice to see you.
Welcome back.

It's nice to be back.

Yeah. Do you like our outfits?

You look beautiful together.

Coordinating. I love it.

So, how have things been?

Do you know what? It's been better
than I thought.

Nonstop compliments.

He tells me he loves me.
Like, I'm loving it.

It's good. Ah. So it sounds
like your relationship

is going from strength to strength.

Let's look at your final vows.

That special day. Here we go.

Nathan...

VOICE FALTER: ..you've opened up to
me... Oh, babe.

Sorry.

..and I believe you were brought
to me for a reason, Nath.

You make me feel safe, heard
and loved.

I love you.

There is so much I love about you.

I love how patient you are with me

and how you have grown
to understand me and how I think.

Uh...

One second.

Uh...

One sec.

I never get tired of spending
time with you.

I love you to the stars and back.
Oh!

Wow. Fantastic.

What a beautiful love story.

I still feel the same
as on the wedding day.

You know that buzzing...?
Do you know what I mean?

Have you seen any kind of
challenges at all?

Like, since you've been away
from the experiment.

I feel like I don't always
filter my words.

What I try to say properly.

Sometimes I might say something,
meant something completely

different, might come out
right, but it can come out

a little bit rude. Yeah. I think...
I hung up on him.

Yeah. So she can take that to heart.

I said, "I don't want
to talk to you right now."

I archived his chat and even
just his name.

Yeah. Yeah, sometimes...

Yeah, that can be a bit hard.

But I only gave him ten minutes.
I didn't...

Yeah. Like, I just needed a chill.

Think about what I was going
to say because I didn't...

Because I was a bit pissed
off at the time. Yeah.

And I suppose it's quite
normal, isn't it?

The expectation can't be that
it's always lovey-dovey

all the time. Yeah, we're not
perfect at all.

It's definitely different.

It's not every day you sit in front
of someone and talk about stuff

you're not good at and you struggle
with.

It's something that I'd probably run
100 miles away from outside.

So, yeah, it was definitely hard.

But when I was a bit down and sad
and that, Lace was always

there to pull me out of it.

So, yeah, I'm grateful to have gone
through it with her.

100%.

What I've reflected on as well
is in my past, when I've dated guys,

they've love-bombed me.

And, you know, he wasn't doing
that, which is normal.

Like, this is normal, healthy.

So I'm sorry that I wanted it all.

But you know what?

I wouldn't change it all
because look where we are now.

You know, he just makes me
feel confident and sexy,

and I could be my goofy self.

Thank you, guys.
Honestly, you done good.

THEY LAUGH

Oh, we know.

And so I know at the dinner
party, there were talks

of little Nathan Juniors.

NATHAN CHUCKLES

Did I say that?

THEY LAUGH

I'm in no rush, mind. Do you know
what I mean? It does take...

LAUGHTER

Yeah. It's nice that we're having
those conversations.

Yeah. That we are on the same page.

Lovely. Well, we are so excited
to see where this goes.

I'm so excited to hear
about any Nathan Juniors.

A bit hot now.

LAUGHTER

So, we've come to the end
for you here in terms

of this experiment.

So we wish you all the very
best, guys.

Thank you so much. Thank you.
CHEERING

Good job. Good job.

All right. We'd like to welcome back
to the couch

Polly and Adam. Oh, fucking hell.

Come on up.

APPLAUSE

Hey up. Good to see you.

There's a lot that we have
to unpack, but before we really get

down to business...

..let's think back to what happened
yesterday.

Things got heated between the two
of you. And, Polly,

you have admitted that your physical
outburst

definitely was unacceptable. Yeah.
Yeah, it was bad.

I shouldn't have done it.
What you did crossed the line.

Yeah. That was unacceptable
behaviour. Mm-hm.

Yeah. OK.

Now, let's go back.

I think we should take a look at the
Polly and Adam journey.

Can we? I feel sick.

In an ideal world, he'd look at me
and be like, "Oh, my God."

I'm hoping to turn around at the
end of the aisle and just

fancy the pants off her.

Hey. Are you all right?

Nice to meet you. I do fancy
him. Yeah.

The initial attraction's not
100% there.

She's not my usual type.

I normally go with girls
that I think,

"Oh, my God, you're unreal."

On the wedding day?

It feels quite natural sharing a
bed, doesn't it? Yeah.

There has been intimacy.

It happened really naturally.

Thinking about it, I realised
that maybe I shouldn't have done

it, just because I don't know
where my head's at.

It's a tricky one. And obviously she
really fancies me and I want to say

it back to her, you know what I
mean? But I don't want to give
her the wrong idea, because I don't

want to hurt her. But you're married
and you've had sex.

Oooh! Yes!

"If you could stick with your
current partner or twist with

"another, would you stick or twist?"

Twist.

Oh!

For you to twist is bullshit.

You're not very romantic.

It is something that I do
need to work on.

Shut the fuck up.

POLLY LAUGHS

Is it the most romantic thing
someone's ever done for you?

Yeah.

I do feel like there is love
in the air.

Three, two... Adam!

You cheater! You're such a cheat.

Seeing she's very family orientated,

it has been a nice insight
into how life could potentially be.

What size panties are you?

I think you'll look sexy in these.

No?

I don't feel like you want me
in any way.

I've put you first
through this whole time.

You've put yourself first.

Never once has it been about me.

Oh, mate.

Would any of you guys want
to have sex with someone that's

moaning at you all day? Well, you
did for the first three weeks.

We've had sex, like, three times.

You are such a fucking narcissist.

Narcissist?!

You've led me on.

You've fucked me about and you've
pissed me right off.

If you were emotionally
mature, you would have known

what you would have wanted
and not given me mixed signals

when it came to intimacy.

You used me to paint a narrative
that you could be a good man,

a good husband.

But all you've really done is show
that you're a good liar.

Childish. Oh, fucking...

You're walking away again.
You are a fucking joke.

Shit.

OK. That was a lot.

Watching that back, how does that
make you feel?

For me, I do feel very led on.

I feel like nothing was ever
really there on his part.

He's just shown me that
he's just not a nice person.

I just feel very, very lied to.

Adam, do you believe that you were
fully transparent to Polly?

Were you truthful
to her from the beginning?

Yeah, I was truthful from the start.
I always told her everything.

I gave her the heads up
on everything.

Do you feel that you were kind
to Polly throughout this?

Yeah, I think I treated her
well, yeah.

OK. It's important for us to spend
a moment in this space.

Because I think a common challenge
that the two of you had is the sex.

Adam, do you believe that the sex
was leading Polly on?

Do you regret having sex with Polly?

Probably on the first night,

it was probably, like, wrong
of me to do it before

I kind of knew where my head
was at and stuff.

But I didn't regret it.

So, Polly, do you feel Adam was
leading you on through the sex?

Yeah. But, Adam, was the sex
just physical for you,

or did it mean more?

No. It was trying to, like, boost
what was missing, you know

what I mean?

But when he was saying all the stuff
of, like, "Yeah, there is a

"potential, I do fancy you, like, I
do see a potential when we leave,"

is that not fucking leading
someone on?

I think on this issue,

question is, is the intention
of it. Right?

Polly, you're saying that you feel
as if the sex was happening

because we are in a relationship.
Yeah.

All right. So now, Adam, it seems
like what happened is, is that you

walked in, you were physically not
attracted to your wife,

but you said, "You know what?
I'm in this experiment.

"I'm going to give it my all."

And part of that was -
I'm going to give it my all.

So where did it turn for you, Adam?

The first day we got
back from home stays,

she was just being like mardy
and, like, bickering.

You're kind of like bigging me
up and then shutting me down...

You still weren't giving what I was
asking for the whole way through,

which was to be felt wanted
by your partner.

But that is the reason - I was just
drained. Every other day,

she used to say to me like, "Oh,
you treat me like a princess.

"You do so much, like, acts
of service for me."

And then ten seconds later she'll
go, "You don't do enough for me.

"I feel like I deserve better."

I got to the point where I was like,
"I can't do this no more, Polly."

I hear a lot of what you're saying,
but the one part I don't see

is how you have zero accountability

for the failure of your marriage.

Because he's 90% perfect
and he's such a catch.

And he can never do any
wrong until he's pulled

up on his behaviour, which
he doesn't like, and he ducks out.

I don't think I've done
anything wrong.

Oh, come on, Adam.

You're not taking accountability
for your behaviour again.

What...what have I done wrong?

Oh, Adam.

Anyone?

Are you taking the piss out of me?

CHURCH BELLS RING

CHURCH BELLS RING

What...what have I done wrong?

Oh, Adam.

Anyone?

Are you taking the piss out of me?

You still feel like you've done
nothing wrong for us

to be in the position that we're in?

I haven't done anything.
I haven't badmouthed you.

I haven't spoke about you.

You're the one that's been ripping
me in the girls' chat.

Ripping you in the girls' chat,

which was sending a video that I
found funny.

I've tried to reach out
to you multiple times.

And all three times, you were so
rude.

You just spoke to me like shit.

All you done last night was dig
and dig and dig and push buttons

and push buttons, which,
unfortunately, led you to be in the

position that you were in.

And I've never, ever been in that
position with someone to feel

the need to do that.

If something's said, you know
what I mean,

that hurts me, like, it is hard
to just forget about it. Yeah.

Adam, there's something
that Polly said that I could see

really impacted you. And that was
when she called you a narcissist.

Mm-hm. Why was that such a problem
for you?

I've always classed it as someone
that's, like, just a nasty

piece of work. You know what I mean?

So, you know, that's a big
statement.

So just so happens before
the commitment ceremony,

what I did is I went back
and I looked at Adam's profile.

He's not a narcissist.

Could you say there are things
that you could have done better?

Oh, 100%. I could have done so much
better.

Like? Like how I spoke to him
sometimes,

how I addressed certain situations,
how I spoke about him in a group

setting when I was a bit irate.

I'm not sitting here saying
that I didn't do anything wrong.

I know...I know I did.

What I'm just curious for the group
is, were there moments

where you all saw something
between these two?

Absolutely.

They got on like a house on fire.

There was that personality
spark between them.

Definitely early on. They were
really tight and really strong.

Yeah. Best relationships start
as friendships.

And that's what they started as.
Yes.

This is great feedback
because I think we all saw this.

So that is my hope for the two
of you in this moment as you walk

away from this couch.

Forget the marriage. Forget the sex.
Right?

Let's just... You were a team.

You had each other's back.

So the question is,
is the friendship more important,

or is the ego more important?

Polly? Friendship.

Adam? Friendship, yeah.

All right, so I think you two
have something to say to each other.

Sorry.

How sorry? I don't... Oh, fuck off.

I don't want to be in this position
with you.

Yeah. I'm sorry for things that I've
said and done that's hurt you.

It was never my intention.

I hope that we can obviously
just move forward

from this and just be friends
and be civil and amicable

and hopefully still continue
what I've learned

in future relationships.

And I'm just thankful for all of you
for being there throughout it.

We love you both so much.

Thank you for your honesty.

Thank you for your willing
to see hurdles and still

fight through them.

You know, I think a lot of people
are going to learn so much

from the two of you. I know that we
have.

So, thank you. Thank you so much.

Well done, you guys.

I do really hope that Adam and I

can move forward with how we left
things on the couch and to just keep

everything in the future
friendly and respectful.

Let's welcome to the couch
Emma and Caspar.

APPLAUSE

Oh, Jesus. Here we go.

Well, hello, you two.

We're back!

There they go. Welcome back.

Thank you. I swear we were the other
way round most of the time.

Do you want to go the other way?
You always had a side.

I always just followed your lead.

Maybe now we're over...

LAUGHTER

Shots fired. And they're still
laughing together.

This is good. Yeah. This is good.

Yeah.

So, for the two of you, looking
back on your relationship,

what would you say
have been the highlights?

There were some really good times.

I've been lucky to have Emma
through this process.

As much as it's been a struggle,

because we are very different
people,

it made me realise Emma deserved
a husband who could give

her what she was looking for,
and that wasn't fair on her,

and that's on me.

But I'm trying to get better.

I'm far more aware now of
what I would be looking

for in a future partner. Great.

So going through this process,
you've gained some incredible

insight from this that you can now
take into your next relationship.

Emma, how does that land for you?

I think the whole experience
has really taught me...

I think confidence is really,
really attractive.

I need someone who makes me laugh.

And I always vowed that I need
someone to put me in my place.

But I do need someone to put me
in my place every now and again.

You know, fit as well.

Thanks, Emma. No, no, no, no, no!

Have either of you been out there
in the dating world?

I mean, I think both of us
have gone on some dates, right?

No, I haven't had a man
of the month.

Can I give one a little bit
of advice? Yeah.

Don't label them the month
of the year

you're going to be dating them.

Like, give them at least
a six-month period.

Mr February can easily become
Mr March.

It's just... So there's scope.

Oh, yeah. There's scope there.
Definite. That's the dream.

So is it fair to say that
we have a nice friendship here now?

I think so. We've got a lot of
history together now. Yeah.

And I've got to say, I know
it's been hard, and I know there's

been pain along the way,
but I can see that you're both

extracting the lessons already.

And I know that you're both
just going to fly

in your next relationships.

I can't wait to see
that for the two of you.

Yeah. Thank you for being there,

you know, because it could
have been a lot worse, but I managed

to learn a lot about me.

Just thank you for being my wife.

Beautiful.

I think for me, I would never,
like, wish for someone else

to be there at the end of the aisle.

I think we had our own beautiful
experience that we'll share

for the rest of our lives.

And, yeah, hopefully we'll both
get married again

and that would be lovely.
I expect an invite, you know?

Are you saying I'm going to get
married first?

Oh, maybe. Yeah.

I love that.

Woo!

Thank you so much. Thank you so
much, both of you.

Thank you.

Woo-woo!

Oh, love you, guys.

All right. So, Hannah,
how are you doing?

I'm OK. How are you? You know what?

I'm disappointed that Stephen's
not here.

I mean, are we surprised?

Are you? No.

Why?

You saw the reaction at the wedding.

Like, his reaction was incredible.

And I just feel like on
the honeymoon, the first hurdle,

he just couldn't be arsed.

I just feel a little bit
like there was no effort.

And then I think it just got
to a point where we were just

flogging a dead horse. Mm-hm.

And as much as it went to absolute
shit for me, I don't regret it.

I'm glad I met some of the people
that I met.

And this is fair because
this is your perspective.

And one thing we have to acknowledge
is Stephen's not here, so he can't

defend himself in this.

And so let's try moving forward now.

We've seen it.

You've had your fair share
of conflict amongst the group.

It's interesting because
you have a lot of energy, Hannah,

and I think that sometimes
you intend to make it better,

but sometimes you enter
a room, things go left.

Yeah. Why do you believe that is?

I just feel a little bit
like I was very much misunderstood

from the beginning.

I think there were some
things that I did do wrong,

and I think my banter got took
the wrong way. With this group,

there was some of other people's
insecurities and other people's

situations that were then being put
onto me.

I feel like there was a real sort
of pack mentality.

Like, I walked into a room on girls'
night and got called "a slag"

and "look what the cat dragged in".

And...

..I just wouldn't treat
another woman like that.

That was, hands down, one
of the hardest nights

of my entire life.

I can't cope with someone playing
victim when they're not

owning their actions.

It's giving weak.

In my opinion, the whole group
wasn't against you.

It was you and Holly hashing
it out.

We was leaving you two to it.

Everybody was chipping in.

When this slag comment was made,
you two was on a different table.

You weren't even sat with us.
I walked into a room.

I got locked up and down
like a piece of shit, and Holly

looked me dead in the eye and said,
"Look what the cat dragged in."

I know I did.

Holly was coming for me.
Then Sionainn was piping up.

Then Lacey was coming. Everyone
just came for me from every angle.

I've only ever reacted
to your behaviour.

I don't do things out of, like,
being a mean girl.

I'm not a mean girl.
I'm just very honest.

So you don't think how you behaved
on both girls' night was mean?

You don't think that was mean
at all? No.

That was me responding
to your actions.

Because she's disrespected me
so much and pecked and pecked

and pecked and pecked,

she deserves everything she gets.

Holly, you literally bullied
and victimised me.

..this is the moral of the story.

So I went into yesterday's dinner
party with something in my head

that Hannah had said.

Now, say what you want of me.

Shoot bullets at me.

I always dodge them.

But talk about my children...

..I'm coming to war.

I was being calm.

And then Hannah said something
like, "Fuck off."

And I thought, "You know what?
You're fucking having it."

CHURCH BELLS RING

CHURCH BELLS RING

I was being calm.

And then Hannah said something
like, "Fuck off."

And I thought, "You know what?
You're fucking having it."

The fire lit. I lost my shit.

I was furious.

And then it went from zero to 100.

And I have to say that I was quite
disappointed because it started

to become aggressive. Yeah.

And that's not acceptable.

No, I take accountability
with my actions.

Hannah, is there anything
that you would like to say?

No. OK.

I'm done at this point with trying
to communicate with Holly.

It's like banging your head
against a brick wall.

Hopefully you both can reflect on
your contribution to this argument

and maybe think about maybe
how you could have done things

differently. We're very different
people.

I would not disrespect a woman
the way that Holly disrespected me,

and I stand by that.

We'll hopefully get to a point,

me and Hannah, where we can say
hello to each other and not

want to rip each other's head off.

OK, let's move on.

Next up to the couch, we have Ryan
and Sionainn.

APPLAUSE

Hey, guys. Are you all right?
Hello. How are we all?

Ryan, let's start with you.

How have things
been after the experiment?

Obviously, the way it ended
was not the way I expected.

And so it's took a long time
to get over that.

I'm still not over that now.
Yeah.

Will I ever? Probably not.

Yeah.

I suppose there's still some
sadness there and something

you need to process there.

Sionainn, how have you been feeling?

I...

..probably wasn't as honest as I
should have been with you

guys or myself. From the beginning,

I got kind of caught up
in the good things that I'd seen

and let red flags slide
that I wouldn't normally.

Because I really wanted it to work.

He would give me these compliments
and make me feel amazing,

but then 30 seconds down the line,
it'd be, "It's just a holiday

"romance for me."

And I expressed to him that I didn't
like it.

It wasn't funny to me.
It wasn't banter.

That was just a joke.
There was nothing behind that.

As soon as we were behind closed
doors, it was when the little digs

would come out. Things about my
weight.

I was insecure, I was timid,
little comments, and it felt

like Ryan was trying to keep me
under his thumb so that I would come

running back to him when he was
giving me the compliments.

I think this is all quite new to us.

Ryan, what are your thoughts
about what Sionainn is saying?

I did mention about her weight
and that. She was put on antibiotics

and I was saying, like,
"You're not eating properly."

I was trying to look out
for her. Since being diagnosed

with cancer, I think your health
is very important.

So if they was my intentions
that it came across,

I apologise for that.

But that was never my intention.

I just find it hard
that it's my red flags,

but I'm being told who I can
and can't speak to.

I never said that you couldn't speak
to any of the girls in here.

Certain people here know that I
couldn't speak to Hannah.

Do you think I'm going to stay
with somebody that's going to flirt

with somebody else? I wasn't
flirting.

There's been no flirting from me.

I've seen it happen.

And he said, "Did you see
Hannah stroking my foot?"

But you was annoyed about
what Hannah had done on the retreat.

Ryan's never flirted with me.
I'm just going to put it out there.

He hasn't.

You've made it out to the rest of
the group that I'm this bad person.

What?

And I've sat back and I've not bit,
and I'll continue not to bite.

I think what's really confusing here
is that the two of you didn't bring

some of these concerns to the couch,
and the two of you have literally

just walked away.

Do you feel that there's a tendency
in both of you to run away

at, maybe, the first sign of
trouble?

I think I do the opposite.

I hang on for too long,
and it was this time I realised

I'm not hanging on.

And it got to the point...
It was the most ridiculous argument.

We started arguing over shoelaces.

He told me all his feelings
were fake.

He never meant any of it.

And I thought, "I've done it too
many times and I'm not doing it
again."

So over a pathetic argument,
over a pair of shoes, made

you leave an experiment?

It was a multitude of things
that added up.

I mean, it sounds like quite
an abrupt end

because there was clearly a real
attraction between the two of you.

But some of these little niggling
misunderstandings weren't brought

here so that we could work
through them.

Whilst you've both got
this opportunity today,

is there anything you'd like to say
to one another?

Ryan? Absolutely nothing.

There's nothing you'd like to add?
No.

I think that says a lot.

Sionainn, there's nothing
that you'd like to add?

I am sorry for not
being completely honest.

I probably, on reflection, should
have been more open with Ryan

the day that I decided to leave.

Well, it's been a real pleasure
meeting the two of you.

And I really wish you all the best
with relationships moving forward.

Thank you. Lovely to meet you both.

Thank you, guys. Thank you.

APPLAUSE

Let's welcome to the couch
Ross and Sacha.

You're always so far behind me.

He takes ages.

Welcome back, you two.

Hello.

How have things been since
we last saw you?

Things have been really good.

Like, after we left the experiment,
Ross moved straight to Walsall.

Wow.

It was a bit rocky at first,
and it would get into arguments

and it would be like boom,
straight to Manchester, gone.

But we've kind of found, like,
balance now,

and we're in a really good place.

Ross, how have you been navigating
seeing your daughter?

You've been seeing her on weekends,
haven't you still?

Yeah. I have her every weekend.

I'm going to bring her up
to Walsall at some point as well.

And how's it been living with
Sacha?

Wow!

It's actually good, you know.

I love it.

Well, why don't we take
a look at the journey that the two

of you have had so far?

I can't believe I'm getting
married today.

I do want to find that amazing
relationship with someone.

Oh!

Hello. Hello. You all right?

He's tall, covered in tattoos,
and I can communicate

a little bit in sign.

So, maybe it was meant to be.

Ross goes above and beyond for me.

He literally can't do more.

Why are you so cute? I don't know.
It's the way I am.

I've got all this love.

It's just quite overwhelming.

I will protect her.

I will look after her and I will
respect her.

You've got my blessing, mate.
Oh, I love that, man.

Love that. Oh.
I have no doubt that he feels love.

I'll say it out loud if I have to.

Say it out loud!

Sacha, I love you.

SACHA GROANS

Me and Ross got into an argument.

He spent the night in a separate
apartment.

I don't know how we're going to go
forward.

When it comes to an argument,
we don't know when to stop.

I did write leave.

Ross, how do you feel about Sacha?

I just want to make this work.

I know we can. And I'm going to
fight for it.

And I'm going to bring you back
up here again, get this smile back

on your face again.

I was blown away, felt that
connection straight away and I knew

you were the one for me.

I'm going to move to Walsall
to be with you.

I can't wait to start
our lives together.

I love you, Ross.

Always.

Aw!

APPLAUSE

That was good, that.

How does it feel?

Do you know, it just brings
a lot of emotions.

Watching it puts it into perspective
of how much love we've got

for each other.

It was nice seeing him with my dad
as well. Good to watch.

Yeah, that got me quite emotional
because I hadn't seen that.

One of the things we saw
a glimpse of there

is you guys struggling
with emotional regulation.

Mm-hm. Things go from zero to ten
pretty quickly.

So can you tell us a bit
about how the conflict

has been happening since
you left the experiment?

I think it always starts
off as something, like, really small

and then it just ends up escalating.

Sometimes I feel
like I'm communicating it to Ross

and he can be quite passive
aggressive.

And then that irritates me.

And then it just gets to this till
it's like, "Argh!"

Do you know what I mean?

And then we're like, "Oh, shit,
is this...is this healthy?

"Is this all right?"

Have you guys ever tried any time
out when things are getting

a bit heated?

Oh, well, when we left,
Ross's favourite thing to do

was, "Five minutes. I want five
minutes. Five minutes."

At first, it kind of felt
like he was doing it to take control

of the situation.
It was almost like a threat.

It felt like, "I'm going to close my
eyes and not listen to you

"unless you give me five minutes."
But not in, like, a calm way.

It was like, "I said five
minutes! Five minutes!"

It just winds me up.

I do that sometimes.

Obviously I can't hear, can I? So I
want to go like that,

"Where is he?"

You all find it funny,
but it's the most aggravating thing.

It just completely takes all...

It takes your control away. Yeah.

I guess for you, Ross,
with Sacha describing some

of your communication there
as passive aggressive,

that's sometimes what happens
when you're not expressing

how you really feel.

I hold it in,

yeah, when I shouldn't,
really. I need to pull it out

and talk and communicate more.
Yeah, yeah.

It's really important
that it is in a loving way.

You know, it's not used
as a punishment.

It's not shutting each other out.

It's both coming together
and saying, "OK, I can feel

"this getting a bit heated.

"Let's both agree on...maybe it's 30
minutes, maybe it's a bit

"more than just the five."

We'll work on it. We'll work on it.

You've got to work on it.
Absolutely.

And this is one of the joys
of being in a relationship,

is conflict is inevitable.

In fact, it's important, you know,
that you're able to work

through it and heal from it.

No problem, yeah.
I will do that.

Wonderful stuff, you guys.

So what does the future
hold for the two of you?

I always said if we're in a really
good place, I'd be more than happy

to move to Manchester so Ross
can be by his daughter.

I just need to know we're going to
be good.

We've got something really special.

We do. Yeah.

Oh, I love that.

Certainly watching you, looked
like a united team.

Absolutely connected.

The two of you have been working
at this.

You haven't been cruising,
you've been listening,

you've been taking on the feedback,
and you've been giving it a go.

That's just beautiful to watch.

It's a testament to both of you.

Yeah, I just think we've been really
lucky to find each other

through this.

Well, look, thank you so much for
trusting us, for listening to us.

We are so pleased to see
where you've arrived.

The love that is brimming
over the surface here.

LAUGHTER

Aw! Thank you so much.

Thank you. Thank you. Wonderful.

Thank you.

APPLAUSE

OK. If I could have Kristina and
Kieran.

Come on down.

APPLAUSE

Hello, you two. Hi, guys.

Hello. Hello.

It is great for us to see
you both.

Now, last night brought up some
confronting issues,

but let's begin with your
Married At First Sight journey.

This needs to work.

I don't want to be single
for the rest of my life.

I deserve unconditional love.

I'm not settling for any less.

Oh, my God.

Are you OK?

What's your name?

Oh, you look petrified.

I think Kieran is hilarious.

You are my woman!

I'm feeling like I've just hit gold.

BOTH: Ay! Ay! Ay! Ay!

Kristina is the brightest coloured
pencil in the pencil case.

She just lights up every
room that she walks into.

We are building such good
foundations.

I am falling for Kieran.

Do you want me to say? Yeah,
you say it? Oh, OK.

Yes, we have been intimate.

KRISTINA LAUGHS

I'm sorry, Mam!

I am so open with my emotions
and I can't hide it.

Am I too much for you?

PMDD hit.

It just feels really just dark
and horrible.

And I just don't want it to push
you away.

We haven't got that intimate
connection at the moment, and I am

just feeling rejected.

I'm really questioning it
at the minute

if I'm able to sustain
a relationship with someone

that suffers with PMDD.

This is why I prepare myself
for the worst,

where it's fucking shit.

The more I'm realising
we're a little bit different

in pretty important areas
of my life.

You put a husband at the top
of the list of your priorities,

whereas I'll never give my whole
self to someone ever again.

Like, I'll always put my-my major
needs first.

You and me ex-partner,

it's actually scary how similar
you are.

I'm not his ex.

There's way more goods than
there is bads, but the bads

are very heavily weighted.

You could see yourself spending
the rest of your life with him?

Yeah, I do really like him.

We love each other as people,
but the dots just aren't connecting

at the moment.

I'm potentially risking
losing one of the best women

that I could ever wish for.

And that's one of the hardest
things to admit to myself.

You're bringing people smiles
everywhere you go.

And I was sitting grinning because I
was like, "This is my wife."

But if I can't see things moving
forward, I'm not going to lead

you on because I do care about you.

But at the minute it feels
like more of a friendship

than anything else.

And I never came in here
to hurt anyone.

I just don't want to see you lose
someone who is phenomenal for you.

I just don't know how much I've got
left in us for the amount

of emotional support Kristina needs.

I wrote leave.

I'm going to leave.

So that was... That hit everyone,
right?

Are you OK?

Looking at that...

walk us through, Kristina.

I could see a future with Kieran.

I thought, "Yeah, like, this is it.

"I've got a real husband."

But, um, you know, when obviously
the cracks started to show,

you can just see in our faces.

Like when we were crying.

Like, you can see how much,
like, it meant to us.

Kieran, how are you feeling
seeing that?

Um, shit.

Me and Stina both came into
this for the right reasons,

and it hasn't worked,
which is really sad.

And I'm forever sorry that it
hasn't worked.

It's OK.

I never meant to hurt you.

I know.

Let's look at the dinner party, OK?

You know, Kieran, you definitely
seemed shocked

at Kristina's approach,

should I say, to you and some of the
things that she had mentioned.

Is that the case?

Yeah. I think because I have really
struggled being home, to not

just be able to feel like I can
just pick up the phone and talk

to Kieran, just for a bit
of reassurance and support.

That was really hard and it was
hard to wrap my brain around it.

So, yeah, at the dinner party, as
soon as I saw Kieran, crumbled.

Literally, I crumbled.

My emotions just got the better
of me.

You know, what definitely seemed
to have an impact as well is Kieran

had mentioned that he's been dating
someone. Yeah.

So how did you take that?

Yeah, not well.

Hearing that just be so casually,

"Yeah, I've been... Like, I've been
dating someone."

And it made me wonder, like,
how much did it mean to Kieran?

Because it meant the absolute
fucking world to me.

So far, that was the best,

I would say, four weeks of my life
were with you, and that's never

going to change. No-one's going to
take that away from me.

And I'm really, really pleased
that it was you at the end

of the aisle.

I can't get words out of my head
sometimes.

But to have her sitting, thinking
that I don't care about her,

it's shit.

You know, there were times
in this experiment where,

without question, you two
were the strongest couple.

Yeah.

Why are you not together?

I mean, that's what I'm trying
to understand,

what the real reason is.

Kieran didn't want me.

CHURCH BELLS RING

CHURCH BELLS RING

Why are you not together?

I mean, that's what I'm trying
to understand,

what the real reason is.

Kieran didn't want me.

I would say one of the reasons
is how much I think Kristina relies

on a partner.

And I'm not saying I don't want
to be a shoulder to lean on, but...

..I've been there before,
and it's...

That's a trigger.

I haven't got the mental capacity
to help you when you need

that strength, because I haven't...

Sometimes I haven't even
got it for myself.

It's difficult to console
you as your ex-husband

when you're feeling the way
you're feeling.

That's why I sit and get emotional.
Mm.

What do we do right now?

The first thing that I think
we could do is between the two

of you, you could set
the boundaries of

what does it mean to be a friend?

His detaching isn't
because he didn't care

about you or he didn't care
about the relationship.

It's that this is how he is built.

This is what the relationships
that he's been in has taught him -

that he must rely on himself.

What are you thinking
about right now? I'm just...

I've never been able to explain
that before.

So for you to explain
that to Kristina means a lot.

When you have those boundaries
in place, what's beautiful

is that the boundaries loosen up.

Without question, you two
want to be each other's friends.

Yeah.

I do.

Just because I can't reply to you
every bloody minute of the day

doesn't mean I'm not your mate.

You know, if you're not able to be
in touch every single day, would it

help if the two of you arranged to
meet up so you've got something

to look forward to?

So actually, before I came in here,
I booked a festival, and I actually

bought two tickets because I thought
I was going to have a husband

to obviously take.

So...do you want to come?

I've never been to a festival.

I'd love to come.

APPLAUSE

MEL: I like that. Yeah, we love it.

All right, I love it.

Kristina, Kieran, that concludes
your journey...

Thank you so much. ..on Married At
First Sight.

So, thank you.
Thank you. Love you, guys.

Thanks.

Love you, guys.

Mine and Kieran's chapter,

it has ended now, but it doesn't
mean our story has finished.

Well, that concludes not
just our time together today,

but the experiment as a whole.

We hope that you've all learned
valuable lessons, regardless

of whether you're leaving us today
with a husband or a wife

or friends for life.

And we wish each and every one
of you all the very best

for the future.

Yes! Thank you so much.

Of course, I wish that things
did turn out differently,

but I have made a genuinely
beautiful, beautiful soul who is now

one of my friends for life.

Everyone wants that fairy tale
wedding and that dream, and I feel

like it's come true.

Come here.

I do have many regrets.

The fact that I made Amy
upset is what makes me sad.

It's just a shame it didn't work.

Hi, darling.

I try my absolute best in every
situation, and I stay

true to myself.
And I'm proud of myself.

Fuck, no.

I love you.

It's crazy that it all turned
out as I hoped.

I love you so much.

I love you more.
SHE LAUGHS

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