Original subtitles

Chay: I'M DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF.

IF I GAIN ANY MORE WEIGHT, IT'S A DEATH SENTENCE.

Man: I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE.

I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY.

Woman: I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE.

DON'T YOU DARE PUT IT ALL OFF ON ME!

LISTEN, SHE IS GOING TO DIE.

BOTH OF Y'ALL, STOP! JUST STOP!

Dr. Nowzaradan: WE GOT TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM.

OTHERWISE, SURGERY WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU.

[ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T DO THIS

WITHOUT SOMEBODY TO HELP ME SAY NO.

Chay: WE'RE REALLY DEVASTATED RIGHT NOW.

WITH MY GRANDMA GONE,

I JUST DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS.

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YOU NEVER CAN PREDICT HOW THINGS WILL GO.

BUT THE MORE YOU RUN FROM THE PAST,

THE HARDER IT IS TO FACE THE PRESENT.

I HATE MY LIFE.

I'M SO MISERABLE.

I HURT ALL THE TIME.

I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. MY CHEST IS TIGHT.

I CAN'T HARDLY BREATHE.

DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITIES ARE BECOMING MORE AND MORE WORK.

IT'S SO EXHAUSTING TO DO ANYTHING.

I GET VERY AGGRAVATED WITH MYSELF,

BECAUSE I THINK,

"HOW COULD YOU LET IT GET THIS FAR?"

EVEN TAKING A SHOWER IS TOO DIFFICULT.

I HAVE TO HAVE A SCRUBBER ON A HANDLE TO REACH EVERYTHING,

BECAUSE IF I DIDN'T HAVE THAT,

I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO WASH EVERYTHING.

I WOULDN'T GET CLEAN ALL THE WAY.

I'M 23 YEARS OLD,

AND I CAN HARDLY TAKE CARE OF MYSELF ANYMORE.

AND THAT SCARES ME.

HOW ARE YOU?

I LIVE WITH MY GRANDPARENTS TO TAKE CARE OF MY GRANDMOTHER.

SHE DEPENDS ON ME,

AND I NEED TO BE THERE FOR HER.

Chay: SO, YOU FEEL LIKE BREAKFAST?

YEAH, I'M GETTING KIND OF HUNGRY.

GETS EVER -- OOH!

GOT IT?

YEAH.

Verda: MY GRANDSON -- HE TAKES CARE OF ME,

BUT IT'S JUST A HARD, HARD STRUGGLE FOR HIM.

HE'S GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE HE CAN'T DO ANYTHING.

Chay: I'M HUNGRY.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I WOKE UP SO HUNGRY TODAY.

I'VE ALWAYS LOVED FOOD.

AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER,

FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME.

CHAY EATS TOO MUCH, AND PRETTY GOOD-SIZED PORTIONS.

AND WE EAT A LOT OF FRIED FOODS.

Chay: FOOD IS MY COMFORT BLANKET.

WHEN I EAT FOOD, I DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT

IF I'M HURTING OR IF I'M STRESSED OUT.

I CAN JUST THINK ABOUT THE FOOD.

I'VE ALWAYS LOVED FOOD.

I HAD A VERY DARK CHILDHOOD.

MY MOM AND MY STEPDAD -- THEY WOULD GET DRUNK,

AND THEY WOULD TAKE THEIR FRUSTRATIONS OUT ON ME.

MY MOTHER TOLD ME THE ONLY REASON I WAS BORN

WAS BECAUSE THE CONDOM BROKE.

THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS,

LIKE I SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN BORN.

I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MANY NIGHTS I PRAYED TO GOD

AND ASKED HIM JUST TO TAKE ME.

I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T BELONG. I FELT LIKE I WAS A BURDEN.

BUT WHEN I WAS EATING, I WASN'T HURTING.

Rona: CHAY WAS CHUNKY WHEN HE WAS LITTLE,

BUT, I MEAN, EVEN FIRST GRADE, YOU COULD SEE, YOU KNOW,

HE WAS BIGGER THAN THE NORM.

Chay: I HAVE A LOT OF PAIN AND ANGER TOWARDS MY MOM.

EVERYTHING SHE DID MADE ME FEEL LIKE NO ONE COULD EVER LOVE ME.

HE TOLD ME, YOU KNOW, "YOU KNOW, MOM,

I HATE IT, YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU WOULD DO THIS,"

OR, "MOM, I HATE IT WHEN YOU WOULD DRINK,"

BECAUSE I WOULD DRINK EVERY DAY.

Chay: SHE USED DRUGS AND ALCOHOL TO COPE WITH HER ISSUES,

AND WHEN I WAS 15 YEARS OLD, MY MOTHER WAS ARRESTED.

THAT'S WHEN I CAME TO LIVE

WITH MY GRANDPARENTS PERMANENTLY.

Verda: I TOLD HIM, "JUST COME STAY WITH ME."

WE WERE JUST GONNA FORGET THIS.

IF I COULD DO IT OVER,

I WOULD HAVE TOOK HIM WHEN HE WAS BORN.

[ SNIFFLES ]

I WOULD HAVE QUIT MY JOB AND RAISED HIM,

AND I'D HAVE TOOK HIM WHEN HE WAS BORN.

Jed: YOU KNOW, WITH HIS MOM GONE A LOT,

HE WAS ABLE TO DO WHAT HE WANTED TO DO.

HE WAS ABLE TO EAT WHAT HE WANTED TO EAT.

AND WHEN HE MOVED IN WITH HIS GRANDMOTHER,

SHE WOULD JUST LET HIM HAVE WHAT HE WANTED,

AND I THINK THAT'S WHEN

HE REALLY STARTED GAINING MORE WEIGHT EVEN.

Chay: FOOD WAS MY COMFORT.

IT WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER.

IT WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE

EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

AND 10 POUNDS HERE LEADS TO 20 POUNDS,

IT LEADS TO 40 POUNDS, AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT,

GEEZ LOUISE, YOU'RE 600 POUNDS.

I'M AFRAID IN THREE OR FOUR MONTHS,

I'LL BE SO BIG THAT I CAN'T GO OUT ANYMORE.

YES.

OKAY. I'M GONE.

I HARDLY GO OUT AS IT IS,

BECAUSE I CAN JUST BARELY FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL OF A CAR.

[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]

I JUST HATE GOING OUT.

GOING OUT IN PUBLIC MAKES ME REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE.

THE THOUGHT OF HAVING TO HAVE SOCIAL INTERACTIONS WITH PEOPLE

MAKES ME NERVOUS

'CAUSE I NEVER KNOW WHAT THEY'RE GONNA SAY.

MY WEIGHT DEFINITELY MAKES ME A TARGET.

PEOPLE ARE VERY CRUEL.

I DEFINITELY HEAR THE SNICKERS.

ALL EYES ARE ALWAYS ON ME, AND NOT FOR THE RIGHT REASONS.

BUT I WAS HURT SO MUCH AS A CHILD

THAT I'VE JUST BUILT UP SUCH A TOUGH, THICK SKIN,

AND PEOPLE'S COMMENTS DON'T REALLY AFFECT ME.

[ VOCALIZES ]

THIS IS MY FAVORITE SECTION. IT MAKES ME HAPPY.

FOOD ADDICTION IS VERY DIFFICULT.

IF YOU'RE ADDICTED TO GAMBLING, YOU DON'T GO TO CASINOS.

IF YOU'RE ADDICTED TO CIGARETTES,

YOU DON'T HAVE TO SMOKE.

WITH FOOD, IT'S DIFFERENT.

YOU'RE CONSTANTLY FACED WITH YOUR VICE.

IT'S SO HARD TO STOP,

BECAUSE IT'S HOW I'VE COPED WITH THINGS ALL MY LIFE.

I'D LOVE TO SHOP MORE,

BUT MY FEET ARE STARTING TO HURT,

AND I'M GETTING THE HURT SWEATS.

AND ONLY FAT PEOPLE KNOW WHAT THE HURT SWEATS ARE.

I CAN'T BE ON MY FEET FOR TOO LONG.

I GET WHAT I CAN AND I GO HOME,

UNTIL I EAT, AND THE CRAVINGS COME BACK,

AND THEN I GO GET SOME MORE.

MY GRANDPARENTS CAN'T TAKE CARE OF ME,

SO IF I GET TO THE POINT WHERE I CAN'T GO OUT ANYMORE,

THERE WILL BE NO ONE TO BRING ME FOOD.

[ GRUNTS ]

[ SIGHS ]

AFTER ONE TRIP TO THE STORE, I'M COMPLETELY WORN OUT.

BUT THEN I HAVE TO COOK DINNER, SO I DO IT SITTING DOWN.

I'M GONNA COOK SOME FISH FOR SUPPER.

CHAY'S JUST ALWAYS HURTING.

HIS HIPS HURT, HIS LEGS HURT, HIS FEET HURT.

HE HURTS SO BAD, POOR BABY.

Chay: I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING RIGHT NOW

OR IT'S GONNA GET REALLY BAD FOR ME.

[ SIGHS ]

I KNOW I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS.

Verda: I THINK HIS LIFE HAS COME TO A STOP.

NOTHING IS GOING ON,

AND I THINK HE'S SHUTTING HIMSELF OFF.

[ GROANS ] OH, MAN.

Chay: THERE'S SO MUCH I WANT TO DO,

BUT I CAN'T CUT MY WEIGHT.

I'M 23 YEARS OLD.

I JUST WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE.

OH!

I SHOULDN'T BE LIVING LIKE THIS.

IF I GAIN ANY MORE WEIGHT, IT'S A DEATH SENTENCE.

WHAT IS MY FAMILY GONNA DO?

THEY'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FIND

A COFFIN BIG ENOUGH TO BURY ME.

AND I KNOW IF I KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS,

I'M NOT GONNA BE ALIVE MUCH LONGER.

Chay: HOUSTON IS FOUR HOURS AWAY.

YOU READY?

I'M AS READY AS I'LL EVER BE.

I'M TOO BIG TO DRIVE MYSELF THAT FAR.

IT WOULD JUST BE TOO PAINFUL.

SO I CALLED MY AUNT AND UNCLE AND SEE IF THEY COULD TAKE ME,

BUT THEY AREN'T ABLE TO.

I WAS SURPRISED MY MOM SAID SHE WOULD.

I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU, TOO.

I USUALLY CAN'T RELY ON HER AT ALL,

SO I'M NOT SURE HOW THIS IS GONNA GO.

HE ALREADY CAN'T FIT IN THAT CAR,

SO THAT'S LIKE US BEING IN A BOX.

HE'S GONNA BE ALL RIGHT. HE'S GONNA TAKE IT LIKE A CHAMP.

Chay: IF I GET THERE AND THE DOCTOR DOESN'T HELP ME,

I'LL BE JUST DEVASTATED.

I HOPE THIS TRIP ISN'T A WASTE OF TIME.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S GONNA TAKE TO GET THE SURGERY,

AND I'M SCARED I WON'T BE ABLE TO DO IT.

Woman: MR. GUILLORY, CHAY?

[ GASPS ] WOW!

I KNEW I WAS CLOSE TO 600 POUNDS,

BUT I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THAT CLOSE.

[ KNOCKS ] HELLO.

HI, THERE.

SO, YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS.

TELL ME HOW DO YOU THINK YOU GOT TO THIS POINT.

THE PROBLEM,

ARE YOU HUNGRY ALL THE TIME OR WHAT?

I AM HUNGRY PRETTY OFTEN.

I EAT LIKE TWO MEALS A DAY,

BUT JUST, YOU KNOW, SNACKING.

WHAT DO YOU SNACK ON?

POTATO CHIPS.

I LOVE POTATOES.

POTATO CHIPS. OKAY.

[ LAUGHS ] POTATOES ANY KIND OF A WAY.

ALL RIGHT.

SO THAT'S YOUR DOWNFALL IS POTATO.

YEAH. I COULD GIVE MEAT UP EASIER THAN I COULD POTATOES.

BUT IF IT MEANT SAVING MY LIFE,

THEN I'D BE WILLING TO GIVE UP POTATO CHIPS.

WHY DON'T YOU GIVE THEM UP NOW?

UM, I DON'T KNOW. THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION.

I'M CONCERNED THAT CHAY THINKS THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

IS GOING TO SOLVE ALL HIS PROBLEMS.

WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU DON'T SNACK BETWEEN YOUR MEALS?

IF I DIDN'T SNACK BETWEEN MY MEALS,

I'D PROBABLY BE MORE SUCCESSFUL.

SO WHY DO YOU NEED TO SNACK BETWEEN THEM?

IT'S MORE OF AN EMOTIONAL CRUTCH.

HAVE YOU TRIED TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT?

I HAVE IN THE PAST. YES, I'VE TRIED OFF AND ON.

IT'S WHEN, LIKE, THINGS DON'T WORK

AND YOU GET DISCOURAGED,

IT'S LIKE YOU JUST KIND OF GIVE UP.

SO YOU THINK GASTRIC BYPASS

WILL BE THE ONLY SOLUTION FOR YOU TO CONTROL

YOUR EATING HABIT? YES, SIR.

BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA EAT POTATO CHIPS AFTER SURGERY,

YOU'RE NOT GONNA LOSE WEIGHT EITHER.

HE SEES THIS AS A QUICK FIX, AND THAT'S NOT GOOD.

YOU'RE USING FOOD TO COPE WITH LIFE,

AND THAT IS A CORE ISSUE THAT YOU NEED TO ADDRESS.

SO I WANT TO SEE YOU TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR EATING

BEFORE WE DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS.

ALL RIGHT.

SEE YOU SOON.

SURGERY WOULD ONLY HELP IN THE SHORT TERM

IF CHAY DOESN'T LEARN HOW TO CONTROL

HIS DEPENDENCY ON FOOD.

[ SIGHS ]

HOPEFULLY, WHEN I SEE HIM NEXT TIME,

HE WILL HAVE LOST WEIGHT.

IF NOT, CHAY WILL NOT GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

Chay: I KNOW I'M GONNA HAVE TO CHANGE

A LOT OF THINGS ABOUT MY DIET

IN ORDER FOR THIS TO BE SUCCESSFUL.

IF I DON'T DO THIS NOW,

IF I DON'T CONVINCE HIM AND GET HIM TO BELIEVE IN ME,

I'M AS GOOD AS DEAD AT THIS POINT.

Bodie: ARE YOU ABLE TO BEND YOUR KNEES?

LIKE IN THIS TYPE OF WAY? [ LAUGHS ]

OKAY, SO, NO. YOU CAN'T DO LUNGES AT ALL?

NO, NOT WITH MY BAD KNEES.

OKAY.

I KNOW I HAVE TO GET SERIOUS IF I'M GONNA HAVE A CHANCE

AT LOSING 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT COUPLE OF MONTHS.

MAKE SURE I'M NOT GONNA BUST THROUGH THE PANELING.

MY COUSIN BODIE IS TRYING TO HELP ME

GET MORE ACTIVE SO I CAN START LOSING WEIGHT.

WE NEED TO GO JOG. WE'RE GONNA DO A BLOCK, OKAY?

CHAY'S GONNA WALK. YOU CAN JOG.

WHATEVER. WALK AT A FAST PACE.

THIS IS MY PACE.

NOPE.

BUT I'M STARTING TO THINK THIS MAY HAVE BEEN A BAD IDEA.

I'M GONNA GIVE US FIVE MINUTES.

THIS ISN'T A LAZY STROLL THROUGH THE PARK.

THIS IS AS FAST AS I CAN GO.

OH, I HEAR EXCUSES.

I DON'T THINK MY COUSIN UNDERSTANDS

JUST HOW HARD THIS IS FOR ME.

PUT SOME KNEE GREASE INTO IT.

MY KNEE GREASE HAS ALL BEEN FRIED DOWN.

MOVING MY BODY OF 600 POUNDS --

IT'S A LOT, AND IT'S EXCRUCIATING TO GO FAR.

AND BACK. COME ON.

PICK UP THE PACE JUST A LITTLE BIT.

THE ONLY REASON I'M WILLING TO PUSH THROUGH AND DO THIS

IS I KNOW WHAT'S RIDING ON ME BEING SUCCESSFUL.

BACK INSIDE!

I NEED TO DO THIS.

I WANT TO GET MY LIFE BACK.

AND I KNOW THIS IS WHERE IT STARTS.

BEHIND THE HEAD. TRY TO TOUCH THE OTHER SHOULDER.

THERE YOU GO. NOW YOU'RE FLEXING.

SEVEN.

I'VE ALSO BEEN EATING BETTER.

IT'S HARD, THOUGH.

I REALLY LIKE FOOD.

A LITTLE EXTRA FLEX.

SO, IF I DON'T GET THIS SURGERY,

I KNOW I WON'T BE ABLE TO KEEP DOING THIS.

MY WHOLE LIFE DEPENDS ON THIS.

I NEED TO GO TO THE STORE. YOU CAN GO TOMORROW.

YEAH.

I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD,

BUT IT'S BEEN TOUGH FOR THE LAST COUPLE WEEKS.

MY GRANDMA HASN'T BEEN FEELING WELL,

AND SHE'S GETTING OLDER, AND I WORRY ABOUT HER.

THAT STRESSES ME OUT.

AND WHEN I'M STRESSED, I EAT.

Chay: I GOT FIVE LITTLE BUTTON MUSHROOMS

STUFFED WITH CRAB MEAT,

AND I GOT MINE BROILED WITH NO CLARIFIED BUTTER.

I'VE MADE SOME MISTAKES

AND EATEN SOME THINGS I SHOULDN'T HAVE.

FOOD IS WHAT I'VE KNOWN.

IT'S WHAT COMFORTED ME.

SO IT'S HARD NOT TO TRY AND GET THAT COMFORT.

Verda: I WANT THIS REALLY BAD FOR HIM.

HE NEEDS THIS.

AND I THINK HE'S AT THE POINT

WHERE HE'LL DO WHAT HE HAS TO DO TO GET IT.

Chay: MY GRANDMA HAS BEEN

MY BIGGEST SUPPORTER FOR LOSING WEIGHT,

SO I'M GONNA KEEP TRYING AS HARD AS I CAN TO DO THIS.

I DON'T WANT TO LET HER DOWN.

I'M REALLY DEVASTATED RIGHT NOW.

MY GRANDMA SUFFERED A HEART ATTACK,

AND THERE WAS NOTHING ANYBODY COULD DO ABOUT IT.

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE SHE'S GONE.

IT DOESN'T FEEL REAL RIGHT NOW.

LET ME PRAY.

FATHER, WE THANK YOU FOR HER LIFE,

THANK YOU FOR HER FAMILY.

GOD, MAY WE ALL LEARN FROM HER.

AND WE PRAY IT IN JESUS' NAME.

AMEN.

CHAY.

Chay: WE COULD NOT HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER GRANDMOTHER.

SHE WILL BE SO GREATLY MISSED BY ALL WHO KNEW HER.

THERE HAS NEVER BEEN

A MORE LOVING, KIND, AND COMPASSIONATE WOMAN.

OUR HEARTS ARE BROKEN AND OUR SOULS FULL OF SORROW.

WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, DUKE, FROM HERE TO THE MOON AND BACK.

MY GRANDMA WAS MY INSPIRATION.

IT'S HARD TO PICTURE GOING FORWARD

AND HER NOT BEING THERE.

SHE WAS A BIG PART OF WHY I WAS TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.

NOW THAT SHE'S GONE,

I JUST DON'T THINK THAT I CAN DO IT.

Man: GOD BLESS YOU. THIS WILL CONCLUDE OUR SERVICE.

Chay: I'M JUST SO LOST RIGHT NOW,

AND FOOD IS MY COMFORT.

I WANT TO EAT SO BAD RIGHT NOW.

Cindy: I THINK CHAY'S GONNA FALL APART.

MAMA WAS LIKE CHAY'S MAMA.

WHEN HE CALLED ME, HE COULDN'T EVEN SPEAK,

AND HE JUST COULD NOT TALK.

Chay: I JUST WANT THE PAIN TO STOP.

I'M DONE TRYING.

I'M DONE WITH ALL OF IT.

THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO DO IT.

Chay: RUNNING FROM THE DARKNESS OF YOUR PAST

WILL CAST A GREAT SHADOW OVER THE LIGHT OF THE PRESENT.

THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST MONTH OF MY LIFE.

MY GRANDMA WAS A BIG PART OF MY WORLD.

NOW THAT SHE'S GONE,

I JUST DON'T HAVE MUCH DRIVE TO TRY AND DO A LOT.

[ Voice breaking ] I JUST WANTED TO HAVE HER A LONG TIME.

23 YEARS WASN'T LONG ENOUGH.

I WANTED HER TO SEE ME GRADUATE COLLEGE

AND ACHIEVE SO MANY THINGS.

I WANTED HER TO BE THERE WITH ME.

BUT NOW ALL I HAVE LEFT IS MEMORIES.

FOOD IS THE ONLY THING BRINGING ME

ANY SORT OF COMFORT RIGHT NOW,

SO I'M NOT ABOUT TO GIVE THAT UP.

NO ONE BELIEVED IN ME LIKE MY GRANDMA DID.

SHE CHEERED ME ON, AND SHE'S GONE NOW.

I DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS WITHOUT HER,

AND I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT.

I JUST WANT THE PAIN TO STOP.

MY AUNT AND UNCLE HAVE BEEN CALLING ME.

THEY'VE BEEN TELLING ME

HOW MY GRANDMA WOULD HAVE WANTED ME

TO KEEP TRYING AND TO GET HEALTHY.

I KNOW SHE WOULDN'T WANT ME TO GIVE UP,

BUT THAT DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER.

IT'S BEEN NICE HAVING

SOME ENCOURAGEMENT FROM MY AUNT AND UNCLE.

SO I'VE BEEN TRYING TO BUY SOME HEALTHIER STUFF.

I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT TO GET.

I'M JUST TRYING TO RESIST TEMPTATION.

IT'S JUST REALLY HARD --

A LOT HARDER THAN I EVER THOUGHT.

I JUST HOPE I CAN DO IT.

I'M GOING TO SEE MY AUNT AND UNCLE SOON.

THEY SAID THEY'LL HELP ME

AND THEY'LL TAKE ME TO THE DOCTOR IF I GO BACK.

HI, THERE.

I'M GONNA TRY MY BEST OVER THE NEXT MONTH.

BUT THIS IS GONNA BE TOUGHER THAN I EVER IMAGINED.

Jed: OH, LOOK AT THEM ONION RINGS.

THAT'S A BRACELET. [ LAUGHS ]

THANK YOU.

Man: IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE I CAN GRAB FOR YOU GUYS?

Chay: IT'S BEEN REALLY HARD TO STICK TO EATING HEALTHY,

BUT I'VE BEEN LEARNING TO SAY NO.

NOT ALL THE TIME,

BUT HOPEFULLY ENOUGH TO LOSE WEIGHT.

I'M SO THANKFUL THAT MY AUNT AND UNCLE

HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING ME SO MUCH TO DO THIS.

IT'S MEANT A LOT TO ME TO HAVE THEM THERE.

Rona: WE'RE TRYING TO HELP HIM STAY STRONG.

IT'S VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME TO SEE HIM SUCCEED.

YOU GUYS ENJOY.

THANK YOU.

Chay: I JUST WANT TO MAKE EVERYONE PROUD.

[ LAUGHS ]

Jed: HE DID GOOD.

HE ENDED UP JUST ORDERING A STEAK, PROTEIN.

HE DIDN'T ORDER A DESSERT, SO HE DID GOOD.

Chay: I SEE THE DOCTOR VERY SOON,

AND I FIND OUT IF I'M GOING TO GET THE SURGERY

OR IF I'M JUST HOPELESS.

[ KNOCK AT DOOR ]

COME IN.

HEY. HEY.

SO, HOW YOU DOING?

OH, JUST PACKING UP.

Chay: TODAY, WE'RE HEADED BACK TO HOUSTON

TO SEE THE DOCTOR AGAIN.

I'M SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW

TO FIND OUT HOW I'VE DONE

AND WHETHER I'M GETTING THE SURGERY.

I HAVE BEEN TRYING.

BUT SATURDAYS IS MY CHEAT DAY.

I EAT A MEAL I WOULDN'T NORMALLY EAT DURING THE WEEK.

LIKE IF I'M JONESING FOR A HAMBURGER --

YOU CHEAT JUST ONE MEAL, OR...?

PRETTY MUCH, YEAH, JUST ONE MEAL.

OR IF I WANT SOME ICE CREAM, I'LL EAT SOME ICE CREAM.

'CAUSE IF YOU DON'T ALLOW YOURSELF A LITTLE BIT

EVERY NOW AND AGAIN, YOU END UP BINGEING.

AND WE ARE HERE.

[ SIGHS ]

YEAH.

IF I FAIL AT THIS,

IT WILL BE ONE OF THE WORST FAILURES OF MY LIFE.

EVERYTHING IS DEPENDING ON WHAT THE SCALE SAYS RIGHT NOW.

Chay: I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO FIND OUT HOW I'VE DONE.

I'VE HARDLY LOST.

[ SIGHS ] I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.

I THOUGHT I HAD DONE SO MUCH BETTER.

HELLO.

HI, THERE.

[ DOOR CLOSES ]

SO, IT'S BEEN FIVE MONTHS,

AND YOU HAVE LOST ALMOST NO WEIGHT.

WHY IS THAT?

I MEAN, I JUST TRIED TO STICK TO THE DIET AS BEST AS POSSIBLE,

EATING RIGHT.

THIS DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL.

THE REALITY IS THAT YOU'RE EATING TOO MUCH,

PLAIN AND SIMPLE.

WELL, I'VE BEEN EATING LOW-CARB.

I EVEN STARTED MAKING MY OWN WHEAT BREAD

SO I WOULDN'T HAVE TO EAT WHITE BREAD.

OKAY, FOR YOUR INFORMATION, WHEAT BREAD AND WHITE BREAD

HAVE THE SAME AMOUNT OF CALORIES.

I DIDN'T KNOW THAT.

CHAY'S NOT AT A PLACE TO CONTROL HIS EATING HABIT.

THIS IS WHAT I WAS CONCERNED ABOUT.

AND THAT MEANS HE'S JUST NOT READY FOR SURGERY.

YOU'RE NOT TAKING IT SERIOUS.

YES, I AM.

THIS IS NOT GONNA BE EASY ON YOU.

EVEN IF YOU GET THE SURGERY, IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY.

I KNOW IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY.

I KNOW THAT. YOU'RE JUST UPSET.

CLEARLY, THE PROBLEM ISN'T JUST A PHYSICAL PROBLEM.

MY GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY VERY SUDDENLY,

AND THEN, SO MY EATING IS FOR EMOTIONAL REASONS, TOO.

CHAY, LIFE IS FULL OF STRESS, AND LOSING SOMEONE IS HORRIBLE.

BUT THERE IS NO EXCUSE GOOD ENOUGH

TO LIVE LIKE YOU ARE.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.

HE'S USING STRESS AND EMOTION AS AN EXCUSE TO EAT.

EVERYONE HAS THESE THINGS IN THEIR LIFE.

YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO DEAL WITH THEM IN A HEALTHY WAY.

CHAY, I WANT YOU TO LOSE AT LEAST 30 POUNDS

OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS.

AND I'M GOING TO SEND YOU TO A THERAPIST

TO HELP YOU WITH THIS, OKAY?

ALL RIGHT? WE'LL SEE YOU ALL LATER.

THANK YOU. OKAY.

I WASTED MY TIME IS WHAT I DID.

NO, YOU DIDN'T. YOU'RE JUST DISAPPOINTED.

THAT'S ALL. YOU'RE DISAPPOINTED --

I'M AGGRAVATED IS WHAT I AM.

WELL, ARE YOU GONNA GIVE UP?

I'M NOT COMING BACK. NO, YOU'RE NOT GIVING UP.

WHATEVER.

Chay: THE DOCTOR DOESN'T GET HOW HARD THIS ALL HAS BEEN.

IF I WORKED THAT HARD FOR THAT LITTLE RESULT,

MAYBE IT JUST ISN'T WORTH IT.

MAYBE I'M JUST NOT MADE TO DO THIS.

I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO EXPECT.

I'M HOPING THIS THERAPIST CAN HELP ME.

I KNOW FOOD IS STILL MY COMFORT,

AND THAT I HAVE TO BREAK FREE OF THAT.

I FEEL LIKE NOTHING I DO WILL HELP WITH THE CRAVINGS,

AND IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE I GIVE IN.

HI, THERE. Chay: HI, THERE.

HI, CHAY, I'M STEPHANIE. NICE TO MEET YOU.

NICE TO MEET YOU.

COME ON BACK. OKAY.

WHAT WOULD BE KIND OF LIKE THE SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT THING

THAT YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT IN THE TIME THAT WE HAVE TODAY?

AS A CHILD,

I GREW UP IN A VERY EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE HOUSEHOLD.

OH, WOW.

I MEAN, I HAD A MOTHER

WHO WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND A DRUG ADDICT.

I HAD A STEPFATHER WHO WAS AN ALCOHOLIC.

AND SO MY GRANDMOTHER RAISED ME.

OH, WOW. OKAY.

AND SHE WAS MORE MY MOTHER THAN MY GRANDMOTHER.

IN DECEMBER, MY GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY.

OH, WOW. I'M SORRY.

YOU GUYS WERE VERY CLOSE. YES.

AND I REPLAY THE NIGHT SHE DIED,

'CAUSE I'M THE ONE WHO CALLED 911.

AND, YOU KNOW, I DROVE MY GRANDPA TO THE HOSPITAL,

AND THAT'S WHERE WE FOUND OUT SHE PASSED AWAY.

I LAY IN BED, AND THOSE SCENES REPLAY IN MY MIND.

OKAY.

SO I JUST BOTTLE IT UP, AND THEN I EAT.

YOU'VE MADE A REALLY HUGE DECISION

TO ADDRESS SOME THINGS PHYSICALLY.

AND AS YOU DO THAT,

IT'S GONNA BRING UP STUFF EMOTIONALLY.

AND WE'VE GOT TO BE ABLE TO RECOGNIZE, ONE,

WHAT ARE THOSE EMOTIONS?

WHAT ARE THE EMOTIONS I'M FEELING?

BUT, THEN, IT'S WHAT DO I DO WITH THESE EMOTIONS?

ANXIETY, TENSION BUILDS.

I KIND OF HAVE MY DRUG OR BEHAVIOR OF CHOICE,

WHICH IN THIS CASE IS EATING.

THE IMPORTANT THING TO RECOGNIZE

IS THAT THE FEELINGS ARE GONNA GO SOMEWHERE.

YOU SHOULD ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT YOU'RE FEELING

AND THEN LET IT OUT. I'M TRYING

AND WILL TAKE CONTROL OF MY HEALTH AND MY WELL-BEING.

GOOD.

THIS IS THE FIRST STEP.

WELL, I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN IT.

THANK YOU.

[ LAUGHS ]

WE SHALL SEE EACH OTHER SOON.

OH, MOST DEFINITELY.

BYE.

BYE-BYE.

I THOUGHT FOOD WAS HELPING ME GET THROUGH ALL THE PAIN,

BUT IT'S LIKE JUST STORING IT UP FOREVER.

AND IF I DON'T DEAL WITH IT,

THE CRAVINGS ARE ALWAYS GOING TO BE THERE.

I'M GLAD I CAME TODAY.

I KNOW I HAVE TO START DEALING WITH IT ALL.

I HAVE TO BE ALL-IN.

I'VE DECIDED NO MORE EXCUSES.

IF I'M GONNA DO THIS, I NEED TO DO IT 100%.

I'M GONNA FIGHT FOR THIS.

WE'RE GONNA START WITH A SAMPLE WARM-UP.

OKAY.

SO WE'LL GO AHEAD AND STEP UP HERE.

THERE YOU GO.

ALL RIGHT.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING AT THIS POINT?

GOOD. GOOD.

ALL RIGHT, WE'RE GONNA HEAD ON OVER HERE.

WE'RE GONNA DO 15 REPS, OKAY?

SO INHALE, EXHALE.

YOU'RE DOING GREAT.

[ Voice breaking ] WATCHING CHAY GOT ME EMOTIONAL.

YOU KNOW, IT DID.

AND I CAN ENVISION IN THE FUTURE,

YOU KNOW, JUST SEEING HIM IN SHAPE.

THERE YOU GO. PERFECT.

WE'RE GONNA DO 15.

I'M SEEING A CHANGE IN HIM MENTALLY ALREADY.

FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO WALK UP SOME STAIRS

TO DO WHAT HE DID TODAY --

MAN, THAT'S A BIG DIFFERENCE.

GOOD. GOOD JOB. THERE YOU GO.

MAN, GOOD WORK. THANK YOU.

THAT'S IT FOR THE DAY. OKEYDOKEY.

Chay: I'M READY TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK.

I NEED TO FIGHT TO GET TO A PLACE

WHERE I CAN GET A JOB AND GET MY OWN APARTMENT

AND WHERE A 23-YEAR-OLD LIKE ME CAN START TO LIVE LIKE ONE.

I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING A LOT.

I JUST HOPE IT'S ENOUGH TO FINALLY GET THE SURGERY.

Jed: YOU WERE SWEATING, BUDDY.

Woman: MR. GUILLORY.

I'M REALLY ANXIOUS.

I NEED TO KNOW IF I'M GONNA GET THIS SURGERY.

MY WEIGHT HAS TO BE DOWN TO AT LEAST 550 POUNDS

FOR HIM TO APPROVE ME,

AND THIS MAY BE MY LAST CHANCE TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

Chay: EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON THIS WEIGH-IN.

Rona: THAT'S CRAZY.

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST.

I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

[ KNOCKS ] HELLO.

HI, THERE. HEY, DOCTOR.

HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING?

GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

ALL RIGHT.

I SEE YOU DID GREAT WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS.

I FEEL LIKE YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY.

[ LAUGHTER ]

Dr. Nowzaradan: CHAY HAS DONE WELL

OVER THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS.

HE'S NOT RUNNING TO FOOD TO DEAL WITH HIS EMOTIONS.

THAT'S GOOD PROGRESS.

SO I'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND SCHEDULE IT.

OKEYDOKEY.

THANK YOU, DOCTOR.

Rona: THANK YOU.

[ LAUGHTER ]

Dr. Nowzaradan: HE HAS A LONG JOURNEY AHEAD OF HIM,

AND ALL THESE ISSUES AREN'T GOING TO GO AWAY OVERNIGHT.

IT WILL BE A PROCESS,

BUT RIGHT NOW, THE IMPORTANT THING

IS HE'S READY TO START.

Chay: I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

I KNOW MY GRANDMA WOULD BE SO PROUD OF ME.

I'M JUST SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW.

Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY

ON CHAY.

THERE'S ALWAYS A CONCERN

WHEN DEALING WITH A PATIENT THIS SIZE.

TURN THE ROOM LIGHT OFF.

THIS SURGERY IS A REALLY BIG STEP FOR CHAY,

BUT I'M SCARED THAT HE WON'T WAKE UP.

ALL RIGHT. THAT LOOKS GOOD.

ROOM LIGHT ON.

CHAY'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

HE WILL BE IN THE RECOVERY ROOM FOR A BIT.

WE'LL GET HIM HOME,

AND HE CAN KEEP MAKING PROGRESS FROM THERE.

HE SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM

LOSING AROUND 20 POUNDS A MONTH FOR THE FIRST FEW MONTHS.

THE BIG FACTOR IS GOING TO BE TO MAKE SURE

HE KEEPS DEALING WITH HIS EMOTION IN A HEALTHY WAY.

WE HAVE TO WATCH HIM AND SEE HOW HE DOES.

Chay: IT'S BEEN A TOUGH COUPLE OF DAYS.

MY MOM HASN'T COME TO VISIT ME.

I KNOW THAT I CAN'T ALWAYS COUNT ON HER,

BUT SHE'S STILL MY MOM.

IT'S MADE ME REALIZE

THAT I STILL HAVEN'T DEALT WITH ALL THE PAIN AND THE HURT

I HAVE FROM HER.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT.

I WANT TO RUN TO FOOD RIGHT NOW,

BUT I CAN'T.

Chay: OKAY.

I THOUGHT THIS SURGERY WAS GONNA FIX ME.

I ASKED THE DOCTOR

IF THE THERAPIST COULD COME SEE ME TODAY.

I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT.

HI, CHAY. HI, THERE.

IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU.

GOOD TO SEE YOU.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

I'M FEELING OKAY. A LITTLE PAIN HERE AND THERE.

OKAY.

SO, EMOTIONALLY,

WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT?

I KNOW PART OF MY PROBLEM

IS I DON'T REALLY TRUST ANYONE FULLY.

OKAY.

'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, MY WHOLE LIFE,

I WAS ALWAYS LET DOWN BY SOMEONE,

MOSTLY MY MOM.

'CAUSE AS A KID, YOU KNOW AND UNDERSTAND

THAT YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO TRUST YOUR MOM NO MATTER WHAT.

I DIDN'T HAVE THAT.

MY ENCOURAGEMENT IS YOU NEED TO OPEN UP

AND TALK TO YOUR MOTHER

AND THEN BE ABLE TO SAY WHAT YOU FEEL.

THAT'S WHERE YOU START IN ACCEPTING THIS IS HOW I FEEL.

AND THAT'S OKAY. I DON'T NEED TO HIDE THAT.

I'M SAD AND I'M HURTING AND I'M STRESSED.

I REALIZE I'M TEMPTED TO PURSUE FOOD HERE,

BUT I CAN BE SAD,

AND I CAN BE APPROPRIATELY STRESSED

AND NOT MAKE THAT CHOICE.

DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? IT DOES.

'CAUSE YOUR MOTHER'S BEEN SO NEGATIVE.

YOU KNOW, SO YOU NEED TO WORK THROUGH YOUR GRIEF WITH HER

AND CONTINUE TO MAKE HEALTHY CHOICES FOR YOURSELF.

YOU KNOW, THE WHOLE TRUST THING,

I THINK YOU'RE DOING PRETTY GOOD JUST BEING ABLE TO OPEN UP.

WELL, YOU'VE GOT TO TAKE A FIRST STEP SOMEWHERE.

YEAH. I THINK YOU HAVE. [ LAUGHS ]

THANK YOU FOR TODAY.

ALL RIGHT, YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

THANK YOU. OKAY. BYE-BYE.

IT WAS GOOD SEEING YOU. BYE.

THE PAIN FROM MY MOM HAS DRIVEN ME MORE TO FOOD

THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE,

SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO LET IT GO.

I HAVE TO TALK TO HER ABOUT HOW SHE'S HURT ME.

I HOPE IT GOES WELL.

I JUST DON'T WANT THINGS TO GET WORSE.

Chay: NO MATTER WHAT, I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS.

I AT LEAST HAVE TO START THE PROCESS RIGHT NOW.

I JUST HOPE THIS GOES WELL.

Chay: OH, YOU KNOW, I'M GRATEFUL YOU CAME.

IT MEANS A LOT.

I WAS UPSET BECAUSE I COULDN'T GO FOR THE SURGERY,

BUT, I MEAN, I WANT YOU TO KNOW I WANTED TO BE THERE.

THERE'S BEEN TIMES WHERE I COULDN'T EXACTLY COUNT ON YOU.

YOU WOULD BE GOOD FOR A WHILE AND THEN BAD FOR A WHILE.

YEAH, BECAUSE I'M AN ADDICT.

REMEMBER WHEN YOU TOLD ME, YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU WAS LITTLE,

I SAID, "WHY DO YOU ALWAYS WANT TO GO TO YOUR MAMA?"

AND YOU SAID, "BECAUSE I'M SAFE WITH MY MAMA,"

AND I REGRET THAT.

WELL, I DON'T HOLD IT AGAINST YOU.

I HAVE COME TO THE PLACE

WHERE I REALIZE THAT FORGIVENESS ISN'T FOR THE OTHER PERSON.

IT'S FOR YOURSELF.

I DON'T HATE IT. THAT DOESN'T DO US NO GOOD.

WELL, SEE, NOW THAT I AIN'T DOING ALL THAT BAD STUFF,

SEE, NOW I CAN COME DOWN

AND CHECK ON YOU AND TAKE CARE OF YOU.

YEAH, I LIKE THAT.

I LIKE THAT, TOO.

I LOVE YOU, AND I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.

I LOVE YOU, TOO. I'M GLAD TO BE HERE WITH YOU.

HEARING MY MOM

SAY THAT SHE COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER AS A MOM,

YOU KNOW, MADE ME FEEL GOOD,

BECAUSE I FINALLY FEEL LIKE SHE'S HEARD WHAT I'M SAYING

AND THAT MY VOICE IS FINALLY BEING RECEIVED.

Cindy: MY BIGGEST REGRET IS MY DRINKING.

I'M JUST GONNA BUY HIM ALL THE JUNK

SO HE CAN SIT IN FRONT OF THE TV AND NOT BOTHER ME

WHILE I WAS OUTSIDE DRINKING.

BUT THAT WAS MY DOING.

I CAN'T FIX THE PAST, BUT I CAN FIX THE FUTURE.

Chay: I'M VERY THANKFUL I DID THIS TODAY.

THE PAIN ISN'T ALL GONE,

BUT I THINK I'M IN A PLACE WHERE I CAN START TO HEAL.

Woman: GOOD. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

I'M GREAT.

FOOD IS STILL TEMPTING AT TIMES,

BUT I'VE BEEN RESISTING PRETTY WELL.

WHOO! GOOD JOB.

Chay: THE CRAVINGS ARE STILL THERE,

BUT THEY AREN'T AS BAD.

Rona: HEY!

CHAY, YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY.

YOU'RE DOING VERY GOOD. I'M PROUD OF YOU.

I'M HOPING THAT IT WILL GET BETTER

AS I DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS MORE AND MORE.

FOR THE FIRST TIME,

I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING TO GET MY LIFE ON TRACK.

I REALLY LIKE THIS PLACE.

I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR A PLACE OF MY OWN.

I COULD TOTALLY SEE MYSELF LIVING HERE.

I NEVER WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO IMAGINE

HOW LIBERATING THIS HAS BEEN AND HOW MUCH HOPE I HAVE NOW.

I CONTINUE GETTING CLOSER TO MY MOM.

I'M JUST THANKFUL FOR HOW THINGS ARE NOW.

SINCE 'CAUSE I ACT LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM.

NOW MY FUTURE IS WIDE-OPEN.

I'M HAPPY I'M GETTING MY LIFE BACK,

AND I KNOW MY GRANDMA IS HAPPY FOR ME, TOO.