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Olivia: MY WEIGHT IS KILLING ME.
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James: IT'S DEPRESSING,
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BEING OVERWEIGHT
FOR SO MANY YEARS.
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Zsalynn: I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO
MUCH OF MY DAUGHTER'S CHILDHOOD.
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Christina: I FEAR THAT
I'LL JUST KEEP GETTING BIGGER
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UNTIL I DO DIE.
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Penny: THIS IS MY LIFE,
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AND I'M GONNA FIGHT
FOR THIS LIFE.
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ARE YOU IN PAIN?
[ GROANING ]
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WE CAN GIVE YOU SOME MEDICINE,
OKAY?
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COME ON.
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James: I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK
TO WHERE I WAS.
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THERE YOU GO.
WORK IT, GIRL.
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Chuck: THE VERY REASON
I PUT THE WEIGHT ON
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IS BECAUSE OF WHAT
I HAVEN'T DEALT WITH.
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Paula: IT'S BEEN EIGHT YEARS
SINCE I WAS ABLE TO DO
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A LOT OF THE THINGS
THAT I'M DOING NOW.
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Tara: IT FEELS LIKE A NEW LIFE.
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Zsalynn:
I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS,
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BUT WE ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH.
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Christina:
I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT
THE FUTURE'S GONNA BRING.
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YES.
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Zsalynn: I'M MISERABLE.
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[ Voice breaking ]
I REALLY HATE BEING THIS SIZE.
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I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
IS KILLING ME,
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BUT I CAN'T STOP.
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[ Voice breaking ] MY DAUGHTER
IS AN INNOCENT VICTIM IN THIS.
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I FEEL LIKE
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MY WEIGHT IS COSTING HER
A NORMAL CHILDHOOD.
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SOMETHING IN MY LIFE
HAS TO CHANGE.
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WITHOUT THIS SURGERY,
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I'M GONNA DIE SOONER,
RATHER THAN LATER.
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HE HAS A PHYSICAL PREFERENCE
FOR HIS SEXUAL NEEDS.
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HE WANTS A FAT WIFE.
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[ Voice breaking ] I KNOW
SOMEWHERE INSIDE OF HIS HEART
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HE MUST CARE.
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GUESS HOW FAR I WALKED.
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3 FEET?
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10 FEET?
MOVE.
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HE HAS NO IDEA
HOW CLOSE TO DEATH I FEEL.
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BIG CAN'T BE BEAUTIFUL
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WHEN IT MEANS MY DAUGHTER
MAY NOT HAVE A MOTHER.
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I NEED TO DO THIS FOR HER.
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I'M PROUD OF MYSELF
EVERY SINGLE DAY.
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IT'S REALLY AMAZING.
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IT'S BEEN LIKE 7 YEARS SINCE
I'VE WORN A PAIR OF JEANS.
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FOR HANNAH, I FEEL LIKE
WE ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH.
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MY LIFE NOW
IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.
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I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FAR
I'VE COME IN JUST A YEAR.
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HANNAH, DO YOU WANT ME
TO MAKE YOU A SANDWICH?
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YES? OKAY.
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A YEAR AGO,
I WAS ALMOST BEDRIDDEN.
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I WAS READY TO GIVE UP ON LIFE.
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BUT TODAY,
I'M RE-GAINING CONTROL
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OF A LOT OF PARTS OF MY LIFE.
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BUT IF I'M NOT CAREFUL,
IT'S EASY FOR ME TO GO BACK
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TO WHAT I FOUND COMFORTABLE
FOR SO LONG.
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I HAVE HAD TO REALIZE
AND ACKNOWLEDGE
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THAT I'M AN ADDICT...
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HANNAH, WHAT KIND OF SANDWICH
DO YOU WANT?
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...AN ADDICT WHO IS
AROUND HER DRUG ALL THE TIME.
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ANYTHING SWEET IN MY HOUSE,
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IF IT'S HERE,
I WILL OBSESS ABOUT IT.
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THAT FEELING OF COMFORT AND LOVE
WHEN YOU OVEREAT ON SUGAR.
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MMM!
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EVERY SINGLE DAY,
I STILL FIGHT THE CRAVINGS.
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IT'S REALLY HARD,
BUT IT'S WORTH IT...
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CHICKEN SALAD.
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AND LOOK, I CUT THEM
INTO PINWHEELS.
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YAY!
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...BECAUSE I'M CLOSER
TO MY DAUGHTER, HANNAH,
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THAN I'VE EVER BEEN.
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BEFORE, MY FRIEND BONNIE
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WOULD HAVE TO TAKE HER
TO DO EVERYTHING.
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BEING MUCH MORE ACTIVE
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HAS ALLOWED ME TO DO
SO MANY THINGS WITH HER.
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AND WE'VE BEEN ABLE
TO REALLY BOND OVER THAT.
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LET'S GO DO SOMETHING.
IT'S MY DAY OFF.
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LET'S NOT JUST STAY
IN THE HOUSE.
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LET'S GO TO THE DOWNTOWN PARK
TO FEED THE DUCKS.
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THAT'D BE FUN.
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OKAY. LET'S GO.
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YOU GONNA BRUSH
THAT HAIR?
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MNH-MNH.
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NOW I'M ABLE TO BE HER MOTHER,
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AND THAT HAS MADE IT
ALL WORTH IT FOR ME.
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DOING THINGS WITH HANNAH
IS WHAT KEEPS ME MOTIVATED.
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I JUST WANT TO BE ACTIVE
WITH HER.
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I JUST WANT TO BE A GOOD MOTHER.
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THERE'S DUCKIES.
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OH, YEAH.
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OH, LOOK,
THERE'S SOME BABIES OVER THERE.
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WHERE?
RIGHT THERE.
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THEY'RE SO CUTE!
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AW, I JUST WANT TO
CUDDLE THEM.
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Zsalynn:
I HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY
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SO THAT I COULD HAVE A LIFE
WITH MY DAUGHTER,
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SO THAT I COULD DO THINGS
WITH HER.
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NOW THAT I CAN STAND AND WALK,
I CAN BE PART OF HER LIFE.
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SORRY!
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BEFORE, I WOULD JUST BE
A BYSTANDER.
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I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH.
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AND NOW
JUST BEING THERE FOR HER,
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IT'S AN AMAZING FEELING.
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COME ON.
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ISN'T THAT FUNNY?
ADORABLE.
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I HAVE TO STAY ON TRACK
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SO I CAN KEEP HAVING
THESE AMAZING MOMENTS
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WITH MY DAUGHTER.
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BUT ALONG WITH THE GOOD THINGS
WITH THE WEIGHT LOSS,
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THERE HAVE BEEN
SOME HARD THINGS.
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GARETH WAS NEVER TRULY HAPPY
ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS.
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I'D RATHER HAVE A SALAD.
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I'M NOT BUYING YOU
A SALAD.
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IF YOU WANT TO EAT GRASS,
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YOU CAN GO IN THE GARDEN
AND GRAZE.
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THINGS WITH GARETH AND I
HAVE NOT BEEN GOOD,
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AND IT'S CONTINUED
TO DRIVE A RIFT BETWEEN US.
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I CHANGED IN A WAY
THAT HE DOESN'T LIKE.
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BYE.
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YOU'RE LEAVING ALREADY?
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IT'S BEEN HARD
TO STAY THE COURSE
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WHEN MY HUSBAND
HASN'T BEEN SUPPORTIVE AT ALL.
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DRIVE CAREFUL.
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I WANT TO GET HEALTHY,
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BUT HE DOESN'T WANT ME
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.
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HE RECENTLY TOLD ME HE WANTS ME
TO GAIN SOME WEIGHT BACK.
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I'M NOT PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY
THE WOMAN HE MARRIED.
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HE'S NO LONGER ATTRACTED TO ME
NOW THAT I'VE LOST THE WEIGHT.
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IT'S PUT A LOT OF STRAIN
ON OUR MARRIAGE.
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AND IT'S AFFECTED MY WEIGHT LOSS
AND MY PROGRESS.
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IT'S EITHER
MAKE MY HUSBAND HAPPY
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OR GET HEALTHY FOR MY DAUGHTER.
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I CAN'T DO BOTH.
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I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD HAVE TO
MAKE THIS DECISION.
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Christina:
I'M TRAPPED INSIDE THIS BODY
THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE IN.
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Woman: SHE TELLS ME
THAT SHE'S A BURDEN TO ME,
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BUT SHE'S NOT A BURDEN.
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SHE'S MY PRIDE AND JOY.
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Jessica:
[ Voice breaking ] MY FEAR IS
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THAT SHE MIGHT GO TO SLEEP
AND NEVER WAKE UP.
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Christina:
MY WEIGHT IS OUT OF CONTROL.
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Dr. Nowzaradan: SHE IS NOT
TOO FAR FROM IMMINENT DEATH.
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THIS IS
A DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY DYNAMIC.
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WE NEED TO SEPARATE CHRISTINA
FROM HER ENABLER.
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Christina: I'M READY TO CHANGE.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE.
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IT'S BEEN A HARD FEW MONTHS.
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BUT I THINK
IT'S COMPLETELY PAYING OFF.
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BE CAREFUL, BABY.
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[ LAUGHS ] YOU A LITTLE NERVOUS
ABOUT NOT BEING IN CONTROL?
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DON'T START CRYING!
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[ Voice breaking ]
I'M HAPPY.
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Christina:
I'M PRETTY DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF.
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I FINALLY FEEL LIKE
I'M GETTING MY FREEDOM BACK.
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LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW.
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IT HAS BEEN
SUCH A DRASTIC CHANGE.
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IT WAS HUMILIATING
TO HAVE SOMEONE
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HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU
ALL THE TIME.
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Zach:
I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF CHRISTINA
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IN THE FORMS OF CLEANING HER.
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IF SHE EVEN GOES
TO THE BATHROOM, YOU KNOW,
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I HAVE TO HELP HER IN THERE.
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Christina: TO HAVE TO HAVE
SOMEONE ELSE BATHE YOU
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AND HELP YOU GO TO THE BATHROOM,
IT WAS EMBARRASSING.
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I'M VERY EXCITED TO FIND OUT
WHAT EXACTLY I'M CAPABLE OF
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AND FIND OUT WHO I AM.
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THANK YOU FOR COOKING.
YEAH, THANK YOU.
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I LOVE MY LIFE.
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I HAVE A LITTLE NEPHEW NOW
THAT I ADORE.
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I LOVE THAT I CAN TAKE CARE
OF HIM WHEN I'M NEEDED.
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IT'S THE BEST PART
OF MY LIFE NOW.
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BEFORE I LOST THE WEIGHT,
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I WOULDN'T HAVE EVEN
BEEN ABLE TO HOLD HIM.
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BUT NOW I CAN DO WHATEVER
IT TAKES TO KEEP UP WITH HIM.
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COME ON, LET'S GO READ.
WANT TO GO READ?
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OH, NO.
HE'S SLEEPY.
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NOW I JUST WANT TO
GET OUT IN THE WORLD
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AND SEE AND DO EVERYTHING I CAN.
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[ LAUGHS ]
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WHEN YOU LIVE LIFE TRAPPED
AND HIDDEN AWAY,
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ALL YOU DREAM ABOUT
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IS BEING ABLE TO GO OUT
AND DO SOMETHING NEW.
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GO TO NANA.
COME ON.
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AND NOW I CAN.
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JESS, COME ON.
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MY SISTER JESSIE HAS BEEN
A GREAT SUPPORT TO ME.
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SHE PUSHES ME TO GET OUT THERE
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AND DO WAY MORE
THAN I WOULD ON MY OWN.
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Jessica: YOU EXCITED
ABOUT THE BEACH?
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YEAH, I'M EXCITED.
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YOU GOING SWIMMING?
YEAH.
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Christina: IT MEANS A LOT
TO ME TO BE ABLE TO DO
THIS WITH MY SISTER.
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I MEAN, BEFORE,
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WE WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE
TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS.
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IT PROBABLY WOULD'VE BEEN
HER GOING DOWN THERE,
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ENJOYING HERSELF, YOU KNOW,
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AND ME WAITING AT HOME
TO HEAR HOW IT WENT.
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TO ME, THIS IS NEW.
THIS IS ALL NEW.
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[ LAUGHS ]
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COME ON.
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COME ON.
HOLD ON.
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[ LAUGHS ]
WHAT IF I FALL, DUDE?
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YOU'RE NOT.
COME ON.
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I STILL HAVE MOMENTS
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WHERE I STRUGGLE WITH FEAR
AND INSECURITY.
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I WANT TO JUST CHICKEN OUT
ON THINGS.
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BUT MY SISTER PUSHES ME FORWARD.
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THE BEST PART IS JUST BEING ABLE
TO GET OUT AND DO THINGS,
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AND BE ABLE TO COME SWIMMING
AT THE BEACH WITH HER.
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LAST YEAR,
WE COULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.
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Christina: EVERY NEW EXPERIENCE
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JUST MAKES ME WANT
A LITTLE BIT MORE.
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DID YOU ENJOY TODAY?
I SURE DID.
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I'D LIKE TO COME BACK AFTER
YOU HEAL FROM YOUR NEXT SURGERY.
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OH, YEAH.
DEFINITELY.
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Christina:
SHE IS MY BEST FRIEND,
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AND I'M SO HAPPY I CAN SPEND
TIME WITH HER NOW.
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BUT THERE HAVE BEEN OTHERS
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THAT HAVEN'T BEEN SO MUCH
OF A SUPPORT IN MY LIFE,
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AND I'VE HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT.
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ZACH WAS A GOOD HUSBAND
AT ONE POINT IN TIME.
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STOP TOUCHING ME.
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IT BECAME CLEAR
THAT ME BECOMING INDEPENDENT
226
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WAS NOT GOING TO WORK FOR HIM.
227
00:11:58,800 --> 00:12:01,700
ZACH NEVER THOUGHT
I'D MAKE IT THIS FAR.
228
00:12:01,700 --> 00:12:04,233
AND IT'S KIND OF HARD
TO, LIKE, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
229
00:12:04,233 --> 00:12:07,200
WHEN YOU CONSTANTLY HAVE SOMEONE
TELLING YOU, "OH, YOU CAN'T."
230
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SO I HAD TO MAKE A CHOICE
TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.
231
00:12:15,600 --> 00:12:17,633
IF SOMEONE'S
NOT GONNA SUPPORT THAT,
232
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THEN I HAVE TO MOVE ON
WITHOUT THEM.
233
00:12:22,200 --> 00:12:25,967
ZACH AND I
ARE GETTING A DIVORCE.
234
00:12:25,967 --> 00:12:29,967
I'M LOSING WEIGHT A LOT FASTER
NOW THAT HE'S GONE.
235
00:12:29,967 --> 00:12:32,067
BUT THE EXCESS SKIN I HAVE
236
00:12:32,067 --> 00:12:34,067
IS REALLY GETTING IN THE WAY
OF MY PROGRESS.
237
00:12:34,067 --> 00:12:38,667
THE LYMPHEDEMA MASS RIGHT HERE,
IT'S PRETTY BIG,
238
00:12:38,667 --> 00:12:43,633
AND IT, I MEAN,
JUST HANGS THERE TO THE SIDE.
239
00:12:43,633 --> 00:12:47,533
ALL THE EXCESS SKIN RIGHT HERE,
AND THEN MY BAT WINGS.
240
00:12:47,533 --> 00:12:50,167
IT'S UGLY TO ME. HIDEOUS.
241
00:12:50,167 --> 00:12:52,500
I'LL BE GLAD WHEN IT'S OFF.
242
00:12:52,500 --> 00:12:56,767
THE EXCESS SKIN REALLY GETS
IN THE WAY OF MY PROGRESS,
243
00:12:56,767 --> 00:12:59,567
BUT THE DOCTOR WANTS ME
TO GET DOWN TO 350
244
00:12:59,567 --> 00:13:02,667
BEFORE HE'S GONNA QUALIFY ME
FOR SKIN SURGERY.
245
00:13:02,667 --> 00:13:05,367
SO I'M GONNA WORK HARD
AND GET TO THAT WEIGHT.
246
00:13:05,367 --> 00:13:07,100
I'LL STOP AT NOTHING.
247
00:13:20,833 --> 00:13:24,100
TODAY, I HAVE A CHECK-IN
WITH DR. NOWZARADAN.
248
00:13:24,100 --> 00:13:28,467
I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A SCALE
PROBABLY IN A FEW MONTHS,
249
00:13:28,467 --> 00:13:31,167
BECAUSE MY LIFE
IS NOW ABOUT BEING HEALTHY,
250
00:13:31,167 --> 00:13:33,400
AND THAT INCLUDES
A MENTAL HEALTH.
251
00:13:33,400 --> 00:13:35,333
AND I THINK IT'S REALLY HARD
252
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NOT TO JUDGE YOURSELF
BY THAT NUMBER.
253
00:13:38,400 --> 00:13:41,933
THAT NUMBER IS NOT INDICATIVE
254
00:13:41,933 --> 00:13:45,900
OF HOW I FEEL
AND HOW MY BODY IS DOING.
255
00:13:47,833 --> 00:13:50,233
ARE YOU GONNA LOOK?
NO.
256
00:13:53,433 --> 00:13:56,400
THE DOCTOR MAY WANT ME
TO GO FASTER,
257
00:13:56,400 --> 00:13:58,833
BUT I'M GOOD WITH THE WAY I AM.
258
00:13:58,833 --> 00:14:00,267
HEY, ZSALYNN.
HOW YOU DOING?
259
00:14:00,267 --> 00:14:01,467
HI.
I'M GOOD, THANKS.
260
00:14:01,467 --> 00:14:05,500
ALL RIGHT, SO,
FROM DAY ONE I SAW YOU,
261
00:14:05,500 --> 00:14:07,867
YOU LOST 286 POUNDS.
262
00:14:07,867 --> 00:14:10,833
WOW. THAT'S AWESOME.
I FEEL AMAZING.
263
00:14:10,833 --> 00:14:12,067
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT
264
00:14:12,067 --> 00:14:14,533
TO TAKE SOME EXTRA SKIN
OFF OF YOUR ABDOMEN?
265
00:14:14,533 --> 00:14:17,300
NO, NO. IT'S NOT SKIN.
IT'S STILL FAT.
266
00:14:17,300 --> 00:14:19,667
NO SKIN THERE.
IT'S STILL NICE AND FULL OF FAT.
267
00:14:19,667 --> 00:14:21,200
EVERYTHING IS GREAT.
268
00:14:21,200 --> 00:14:22,533
IT'S PERFECT.
269
00:14:22,533 --> 00:14:25,800
ZSALYNN GET
A LOT OF EXCESS SKIN,
270
00:14:25,800 --> 00:14:28,067
AND THIS IS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.
271
00:14:28,067 --> 00:14:30,067
SHE SAYS SHE FEELS FINE,
272
00:14:30,067 --> 00:14:33,467
BUT ZSALYNN ISN'T BEING
COMPLETELY HONEST.
273
00:14:33,467 --> 00:14:36,567
HOW IS EVERYTHING AT HOME?
274
00:14:36,567 --> 00:14:39,067
HOW IS THE SUPPORT THERE?
275
00:14:39,067 --> 00:14:40,900
I SUPPORT MYSELF.
276
00:14:40,900 --> 00:14:44,367
THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS.
I AM MY OWN SUPPORT SYSTEM.
277
00:14:44,367 --> 00:14:46,367
HOW ABOUT YOUR HUSBAND?
278
00:14:46,367 --> 00:14:48,067
HE WISHES
I WOULD GAIN SOME WEIGHT.
279
00:14:48,067 --> 00:14:49,867
GAIN SOME WEIGHT?
YES.
280
00:14:49,867 --> 00:14:51,300
[ LAUGHS ]
281
00:14:51,300 --> 00:14:54,267
SO, YOU KNOW,
IT'S JUST ONE OF THOSE THINGS.
282
00:14:54,267 --> 00:14:56,367
IT IS UNFORTUNATE
283
00:14:56,367 --> 00:14:59,533
TO HAVE SOMEONE
THAT ENCOURAGE FAILURE AT HOME.
284
00:14:59,533 --> 00:15:02,067
IT'S A TOXIC SITUATION.
285
00:15:02,067 --> 00:15:05,067
I THINK LACK OF SUPPORT
FROM HER HUSBAND
286
00:15:05,067 --> 00:15:10,433
IS LIKELY THE REASON
SHE'S HESITANT TO MOVE FORWARD.
287
00:15:10,433 --> 00:15:11,833
THANK YOU.
288
00:15:11,833 --> 00:15:14,067
NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN.
NICE TO SEE YOU, TOO.
289
00:15:14,067 --> 00:15:16,067
I WILL GIVE HER A COUPLE MONTHS.
290
00:15:16,067 --> 00:15:19,600
ZSALYNN IS CLOSE
TO MAKING A DECISION
291
00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:22,833
THAT WILL UNDO
ALL HER HARD WORK.
292
00:15:25,433 --> 00:15:29,633
Zsalynn: I'M HAPPY WITH THE PACE
THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT,
293
00:15:29,633 --> 00:15:32,333
AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE
SKIN SURGERY
294
00:15:32,333 --> 00:15:35,267
IS THE RIGHT OPTION
FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
295
00:15:41,700 --> 00:15:46,667
Christina: I AM SEEKING HELP
FOR THE PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE.
296
00:15:46,667 --> 00:15:51,100
THAT WAY,
I CAN GET THEM UNDER CONTROL
297
00:15:51,100 --> 00:15:54,567
AND EVENTUALLY REACH MY GOAL.
298
00:15:54,567 --> 00:15:57,533
TODAY, I'M GOING
TO MY LYMPHEDEMA APPOINTMENT.
299
00:16:03,067 --> 00:16:05,833
HOW ARE YOU FEELING?
YOUR LEGS ARE DOING GOOD?
300
00:16:08,933 --> 00:16:11,333
I'LL HAVE LYMPHEDEMA
FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
301
00:16:11,333 --> 00:16:13,667
THERE'S NO CURE FOR IT
CURRENTLY.
302
00:16:13,667 --> 00:16:16,667
IF MY LYMPHEDEMA GOES UNTREATED,
303
00:16:16,667 --> 00:16:20,433
IT WILL HINDER ME
FROM BEING ABLE TO WALK.
304
00:16:20,433 --> 00:16:23,300
IT'LL START GROWING,
MASSES WILL COME UP,
305
00:16:23,300 --> 00:16:25,600
AND THEN I'LL BE
RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED.
306
00:16:25,600 --> 00:16:27,267
PART OF THE REASON
WHY I GOT TO 700 POUNDS
307
00:16:27,267 --> 00:16:30,533
WAS BECAUSE
I'D HAD TWO HUGE MASSES
308
00:16:30,533 --> 00:16:31,867
AND I COULDN'T WALK.
309
00:16:31,867 --> 00:16:34,667
YOU'VE MADE
A LOT OF PROGRESS.
310
00:16:34,667 --> 00:16:37,167
I'M DETERMINED NOT TO LET THAT
EVER HAPPEN AGAIN.
311
00:16:39,067 --> 00:16:40,967
I'M TRYING TO DO
EVERYTHING I CAN
312
00:16:40,967 --> 00:16:43,200
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT THE DOCTOR
TOLD ME I HAVE TO LOSE
313
00:16:43,200 --> 00:16:45,633
WHERE I QUALIFY
FOR SKIN SURGERY.
314
00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:51,067
[ MACHINE BEEPING ]
315
00:16:51,067 --> 00:16:52,167
THANK YOU.
316
00:16:52,167 --> 00:16:54,067
YOU'RE VERY WELCOME.
317
00:16:54,067 --> 00:16:55,500
ANYTHING ELSE I CAN GET YOU
RIGHT NOW?
318
00:16:55,500 --> 00:16:56,567
NO, I'M FINE.
319
00:16:59,200 --> 00:17:01,700
IT'S JUST KIND OF LIKE
A MASSAGE.
320
00:17:01,700 --> 00:17:04,067
IT HELPS MAINTAIN
THE SWELLING.
321
00:17:04,067 --> 00:17:06,267
YOU KNOW
A BLOOD-PRESSURE CUFF?
322
00:17:06,267 --> 00:17:10,633
WELL, DOES HAVING YOUR BLOOD
PRESSURE TAKEN FEEL GOOD?
323
00:17:10,633 --> 00:17:12,767
SOMETIMES.
324
00:17:12,767 --> 00:17:15,067
YOU'RE WEIRD.
[ LAUGHS ]
325
00:17:15,067 --> 00:17:18,233
IN ORDER FOR ME TO MAINTAIN
A NORMAL LIFE...
326
00:17:23,333 --> 00:17:25,267
I'LL BE GLAD
WHEN THIS ONE'S GONE.
327
00:17:25,267 --> 00:17:26,533
BEFORE THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,
328
00:17:26,533 --> 00:17:29,100
I WOULD NOT
HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO THIS.
329
00:17:29,100 --> 00:17:31,367
BACK HOME,
THEY DIDN'T HAVE ANY PLACE
330
00:17:31,367 --> 00:17:34,567
THAT EVEN KNEW
WHAT LYMPHEDEMA WAS, SO...
331
00:17:37,533 --> 00:17:39,667
SLIP THESE OFF.
332
00:17:41,067 --> 00:17:45,233
MY LEGS FEEL
REALLY GOOD RIGHT NOW.
333
00:17:45,233 --> 00:17:48,067
THEY ALWAYS FEEL A LOT BETTER
AFTER TREATMENT.
334
00:17:48,067 --> 00:17:49,467
THANK YOU.
335
00:17:49,467 --> 00:17:51,767
AFTER SPENDING SO LONG
BEING MISERABLE
336
00:17:51,767 --> 00:17:54,067
AND NOT HAVING THE CHANCE
TO GET OUT,
337
00:17:54,067 --> 00:17:55,433
MY MENTALITY IS
338
00:17:55,433 --> 00:17:57,833
THAT I AM WILLING TO DO
ANYTHING IT TAKES.
339
00:17:57,833 --> 00:18:01,867
AND NOW I HAVE OPPORTUNITIES
TO DO WHAT I NEED TO DO,
340
00:18:01,867 --> 00:18:03,933
AND I'M GONNA DO IT.
341
00:18:17,067 --> 00:18:18,500
Zsalynn: HANNAH.
342
00:18:18,500 --> 00:18:21,233
IT'S TIME TO GET UP.
343
00:18:21,233 --> 00:18:24,533
I'M TOO TIRED.
344
00:18:24,533 --> 00:18:26,367
IT'S A SCHOOL DAY.
345
00:18:26,367 --> 00:18:28,167
I KNOW.
346
00:18:28,167 --> 00:18:30,967
Zsalynn: THE DYNAMICS HERE
AT HOME HAVE CHANGED A LOT.
347
00:18:30,967 --> 00:18:32,067
I KNOW.
348
00:18:32,067 --> 00:18:33,900
COME ON, HANNAH.
LET'S GO.
349
00:18:33,900 --> 00:18:37,300
I'VE BEEN SLEEPING
IN HANNAH'S ROOM.
350
00:18:37,300 --> 00:18:42,433
NOW GARETH AND I LIVE
COMPLETELY SEPARATE LIVES.
351
00:18:42,433 --> 00:18:44,967
YOUR BACKPACK
IS IN THE CAR.
352
00:18:44,967 --> 00:18:46,733
LET ME GRAB MY SHOES.
353
00:18:46,733 --> 00:18:50,233
I REALLY HARDLY EVER SEE HIM.
OUR PATHS DON'T CROSS.
354
00:18:52,100 --> 00:18:54,133
OKAY, YOU READY?
YEAH.
355
00:18:54,133 --> 00:18:56,233
THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY
356
00:18:56,233 --> 00:19:00,333
HAS REALLY FORCED ME
TO LOOK INSIDE MYSELF.
357
00:19:03,867 --> 00:19:05,633
I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.
358
00:19:05,633 --> 00:19:07,800
GARETH DESERVES TO BE HAPPY.
359
00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:10,900
AND THINGS ARE NOT GOOD
RIGHT NOW.
360
00:19:10,900 --> 00:19:16,133
I HAVE A LOT OF STUFF
TO WORK THROUGH.
361
00:19:16,133 --> 00:19:19,333
I'VE STARTED LOOKING
FOR A THERAPIST
362
00:19:19,333 --> 00:19:21,767
THAT WILL HELP ME UNDERSTAND.
363
00:19:21,767 --> 00:19:24,200
I FEEL LIKE I'M AT A CROSSROADS.
364
00:19:24,200 --> 00:19:28,733
I'M NOT SURE HOW WE WOULD
RECONCILE AT THIS POINT.
365
00:19:47,633 --> 00:19:51,367
Christina:
TODAY, I'M GOING TO SEE
IF I'VE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT
366
00:19:51,367 --> 00:19:53,267
TO QUALIFY
FOR MY NEXT BIG SKIN SURGERY.
367
00:19:55,500 --> 00:19:56,933
I'M NERVOUS.
368
00:19:58,667 --> 00:20:01,667
THE DOCTOR SAID I'D HAVE TO
MAKE IT DOWN TO 350 POUNDS
369
00:20:01,667 --> 00:20:04,667
BEFORE HE'D APPROVE ME.
370
00:20:04,667 --> 00:20:08,233
I'VE WORKED HARD
TO GET TO THIS GOAL.
371
00:20:08,233 --> 00:20:10,400
I NEED THE SURGERY,
AND IF I DON'T GET IT,
372
00:20:10,400 --> 00:20:12,800
I'M SCARED IT'S GONNA
SET ME BACK FOR TOO LONG.
373
00:20:16,333 --> 00:20:19,033
SERIOUSLY? AWESOME.
374
00:20:21,000 --> 00:20:23,033
I KNOW I'M READY
FOR THE NEXT STEP.
375
00:20:23,033 --> 00:20:26,167
I JUST HOPE THE DOCTOR THINKS
I'M READY FOR THE NEXT STEP.
376
00:20:26,167 --> 00:20:29,233
I NEED THIS SURGERY.
377
00:20:29,233 --> 00:20:32,300
HEY, CHRISTINA.
I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE YOU.
378
00:20:32,300 --> 00:20:33,400
HEY.
379
00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:36,067
SO, YOU'VE BEEN DOING GOOD
WITH YOUR DIET, HUH?
380
00:20:36,067 --> 00:20:39,133
HOW ABOUT YOUR EXERCISE
AND ACTIVITY?
381
00:20:39,133 --> 00:20:40,367
REALLY GOOD WITH THAT.
382
00:20:40,367 --> 00:20:42,800
I WALK ALL THE TIME.
I'M DOING THINGS FOR MYSELF.
383
00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:47,033
OKAY. NOW LET ME CHECK YOUR
STOMACH AND SEE HOW THINGS ARE.
384
00:20:47,033 --> 00:20:50,800
Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS SURGERY
IS GONNA BE DIFFICULT FOR HER
385
00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:56,033
BECAUSE A LARGE AMOUNT OF SKIN
NEED TO BE REMOVED.
386
00:20:56,033 --> 00:20:58,900
EVERYBODY HAS A DIFFERENT
TOLERANCE TO PAIN.
387
00:20:58,900 --> 00:21:01,833
CHRISTINA HAS VERY LITTLE
TOLERANCE TO PAIN.
388
00:21:01,833 --> 00:21:03,467
ANY STOMACH PAIN
OR ANYTHING?
389
00:21:03,467 --> 00:21:06,667
THIS WILL BE
A COMPLICATED SURGERY,
390
00:21:06,667 --> 00:21:09,867
AND IT'S GOING TO BE TOUGH
FOR HER.
391
00:21:09,867 --> 00:21:12,067
OKAY.
392
00:21:12,067 --> 00:21:14,567
WELL, YOU KNOW, IT'S GONNA BE
A BIG OPERATION.
393
00:21:14,567 --> 00:21:16,567
IT'S GONNA TAKE
AT LEAST SIX HOUR.
394
00:21:16,567 --> 00:21:20,633
BUT THIS EXTRA SKIN IS GONNA BE
A PROBLEM FOR YOU RIGHT NOW,
395
00:21:20,633 --> 00:21:24,400
SO I'M GO AHEAD
AND SET YOU UP FOR SKIN SURGERY.
396
00:21:24,400 --> 00:21:25,800
THAT'S AWESOME.
OKAY.
397
00:21:25,800 --> 00:21:26,833
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
398
00:21:26,833 --> 00:21:28,367
ALL RIGHT.
YOU'RE WELCOME.
399
00:21:28,367 --> 00:21:30,133
I CAN'T WAIT TO LOOK DOWN
400
00:21:30,133 --> 00:21:32,833
AND NOT SEE SOMETHING
THAT'S PAINFUL.
401
00:21:32,833 --> 00:21:34,400
AND THEN,
NO MATTER HOW HARD I WORKED,
402
00:21:34,400 --> 00:21:36,700
THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS GONNA GET
RID OF THIS SKIN ON MY OWN.
403
00:21:38,800 --> 00:21:40,100
I CAN'T WAIT.
404
00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:46,900
Zsalynn: THIS JOURNEY,
405
00:21:46,900 --> 00:21:50,067
IT'S ABOUT MAKING MYSELF
A BETTER PERSON.
406
00:21:50,067 --> 00:21:52,700
NOT JUST ABOUT BEING HEALTHY
PHYSICALLY,
407
00:21:52,700 --> 00:21:54,600
BUT GETTING HEALTHY MENTALLY.
408
00:21:56,533 --> 00:21:59,200
I KNOW IT'S TIME
TO WRESTLE WITH SOME DEMONS
409
00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:03,433
THAT I'VE AVOIDED FOR TOO LONG.
410
00:22:03,433 --> 00:22:06,600
NOW THAT WE DON'T SEE
EACH OTHER MUCH,
411
00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:07,933
I'M REALIZING HOW MUCH
412
00:22:07,933 --> 00:22:10,300
THE DISGUSTING THINGS
GARETH WOULD SAY
413
00:22:10,300 --> 00:22:12,433
REALLY AFFECTED ME.
414
00:22:12,433 --> 00:22:15,467
SO TODAY I'M GOING TO SEE
A THERAPIST.
415
00:22:20,667 --> 00:22:22,167
Madorsky: WELL, WELCOME.
416
00:22:22,167 --> 00:22:26,400
SO, LET'S START WITH KIND OF
WHERE ARE YOU RIGHT NOW?
417
00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:27,567
HOW ARE YOU?
418
00:22:27,567 --> 00:22:29,767
YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE,
419
00:22:29,767 --> 00:22:33,833
WHILE THINGS ON ONE HAND
ARE REALLY GOOD,
420
00:22:33,833 --> 00:22:36,800
I STILL HAVE THINGS
THAT REALLY BOTHER ME,
421
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:41,533
MAKE ME WANT TO JUST GO
AND, YOU KNOW, EAT WHATEVER.
422
00:22:50,833 --> 00:22:53,267
[ SNIFFLES ]
423
00:22:53,267 --> 00:22:54,833
I FEEL MAD.
424
00:22:54,833 --> 00:22:56,100
[ CHUCKLES ]
425
00:22:56,100 --> 00:22:57,833
GOOD.
WHAT DO YOU FEEL MAD ABOUT?
426
00:22:57,833 --> 00:23:02,067
I JUST DON'T FEEL VERY LOVEABLE,
I GUESS.
427
00:23:02,067 --> 00:23:04,067
I THINK IF I SEE SOMEONE
428
00:23:04,067 --> 00:23:06,233
WHO APPEARS
TO REALLY LOVE THEMSELF,
429
00:23:06,233 --> 00:23:08,067
I THINK
THEY'RE JUST FAKING.
430
00:23:08,067 --> 00:23:09,833
HMM.
I FAKE MY WHOLE LIFE.
431
00:23:09,833 --> 00:23:13,067
SO MAYBE I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE
ELSE FAKES THEIR LIFE, TOO.
432
00:23:13,067 --> 00:23:15,867
[ Crying ]
YOU KNOW, IT'S FUNNY,
433
00:23:15,867 --> 00:23:18,967
I JUST WANT TO FEEL LIKE
SOMEBODY LOVES ME.
434
00:23:18,967 --> 00:23:23,500
THAT'S SO STUPID.
I FEEL SO STUPID SAYING THAT.
435
00:23:23,500 --> 00:23:25,633
WELL, I'M SORRY
YOU FEEL STUPID.
436
00:23:25,633 --> 00:23:29,500
THAT'S, LIKE, THE MOST NORMAL
THING ON THE PLANET.
437
00:23:29,500 --> 00:23:32,167
YEAH.
438
00:23:32,167 --> 00:23:34,333
[ SOBS ]
439
00:23:34,333 --> 00:23:36,933
WHAT WOULD HAPPEN
IF YOU DECIDED
440
00:23:36,933 --> 00:23:39,733
TO GO OUT IN THE WORLD
AND BE REAL?
441
00:23:39,733 --> 00:23:44,333
I GUESS I'VE JUST BEEN
PRETENDING SO LONG,
442
00:23:44,333 --> 00:23:47,333
I DON'T KNOW
HOW NOT TO.
443
00:23:47,333 --> 00:23:49,533
THE MORE HONEST WE ARE
WITH OURSELVES,
444
00:23:49,533 --> 00:23:52,067
IT SEEMS LIKE
THE MORE LOVE CAN COME IN.
445
00:23:52,067 --> 00:23:58,067
'CAUSE INSTEAD OF TRYING TO LOVE
A PRETEND VERSION OF OURSELVES,
446
00:23:58,067 --> 00:24:01,567
WE GET TO LOVE, LIKE,
THE ACTUAL VERSION OF OURSELVES.
447
00:24:05,400 --> 00:24:06,867
ZSALYNN.
448
00:24:06,867 --> 00:24:08,067
RACHEL.
THANK YOU.
449
00:24:08,067 --> 00:24:09,967
IT WAS SO NICE
TO MEET YOU.
450
00:24:09,967 --> 00:24:11,600
OKAY.
451
00:24:11,600 --> 00:24:13,700
OKAY.
GO GET 'EM.
452
00:24:13,700 --> 00:24:15,700
OKAY.
[ CHUCKLES ]
453
00:24:15,700 --> 00:24:18,233
Zsalynn: [ Voice breaking ]
I JUST NEED TO CHANGE MY INSIDE
454
00:24:18,233 --> 00:24:20,433
LIKE I'M CHANGING MY OUTSIDE.
455
00:24:20,433 --> 00:24:22,633
I'VE NEVER FELT LOVED,
456
00:24:22,633 --> 00:24:26,967
AND I THINK I NEVER THOUGHT
I WAS WORTHY OF LOVE.
457
00:24:26,967 --> 00:24:29,833
GARETH DIDN'T HELP WITH THAT.
458
00:24:32,633 --> 00:24:37,233
IF GARETH WANTS TO STAY
SUCH A DESTRUCTIVE FORCE,
459
00:24:37,233 --> 00:24:40,900
THEN I WILL HAVE TO MOVE ON
WITHOUT HIM.
460
00:24:40,900 --> 00:24:45,233
I'M GONNA HAVE TO PICK MY HEALTH
OVER MY MARRIAGE.
461
00:24:52,767 --> 00:24:54,967
[ GRUNTS ]
462
00:24:54,967 --> 00:24:58,100
Christina: TODAY, DR. NOWZARADAN
IS GETTING RID OF THE EXTRA SKIN
463
00:24:58,100 --> 00:25:00,833
ON MY BELLY
AND THE LYMPHEDEMA MASS.
464
00:25:05,833 --> 00:25:08,067
I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS
ABOUT THE SURGERY
465
00:25:08,067 --> 00:25:11,300
JUST BECAUSE THE LAST SURGERIES,
I HAD A HARD TIME RECOVERING.
466
00:25:11,300 --> 00:25:13,300
I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE PAINFUL
AFTER THE SURGERY,
467
00:25:13,300 --> 00:25:15,367
BUT IT'LL DEFINITELY BE WORTH IT
IN THE LONG RUN.
468
00:25:15,367 --> 00:25:16,933
YOU READY?
YEP.
469
00:25:18,167 --> 00:25:20,933
WITH PAIN COMES STRENGTH.
470
00:25:23,533 --> 00:25:26,133
Dr. Nowzaradan: CHRISTINA GOT
A LOT OF EXTRA SKIN,
471
00:25:26,133 --> 00:25:29,300
SO GONNA GO AHEAD
AND REMOVE THAT SKIN TODAY.
472
00:25:29,300 --> 00:25:33,300
THAT'S GONNA BE
VERY BIG SURGERY.
473
00:25:33,300 --> 00:25:36,233
THE LARGER AMOUNT OF SKIN
THAT NEED TO BE REMOVED,
474
00:25:36,233 --> 00:25:39,200
THE MORE CAREFUL WE HAVE TO BE,
475
00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:42,067
MAKE SURE THERE IS
NO SIGNIFICANT BLEEDING.
476
00:25:42,067 --> 00:25:47,700
IT CAN AFFECT RECOVERY
AND MAY BECOME LIFE-THREATENING.
477
00:25:50,067 --> 00:25:52,633
PROBABLY, BY END OF THE DAY,
478
00:25:52,633 --> 00:25:58,267
WE TIE OVER 400 BLOOD VESSEL
TO GET THIS SURGERY DONE.
479
00:26:10,067 --> 00:26:12,200
SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.
480
00:26:12,200 --> 00:26:14,600
BUT IT'S GONNA BE A LONG ROAD
FOR CHRISTINA.
481
00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:17,333
SHE ALWAYS HAD
LOW TOLERANCE TO PAIN.
482
00:26:19,633 --> 00:26:22,800
SO, THIS NOT GONNA BE EASY.
483
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:40,900
Christina: I HAD NO IDEA
THE PAIN WOULD BE THIS BAD.
484
00:26:40,900 --> 00:26:42,400
OKAY.
485
00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:46,833
ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10,
MY PAIN IS ABOVE A 10 RIGHT NOW.
486
00:26:46,833 --> 00:26:48,100
IT'S TIME TO GO HOME.
487
00:26:51,367 --> 00:26:53,367
YEAH, I KNOW.
YOU'RE OKAY.
488
00:26:56,567 --> 00:27:00,900
MY ONLY CONCERN NOW
IS THAT SHE DOESN'T OVERDO IT.
489
00:27:00,900 --> 00:27:03,833
I DON'T WANT HER TO HAVE TO BE
RUSHED BACK TO THE HOSPITAL
490
00:27:03,833 --> 00:27:08,167
FOR OPEN STITCHES
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.
491
00:27:08,167 --> 00:27:11,300
Christina: IF I'D KNOWN
IT WAS GONNA BE THIS HARD,
492
00:27:11,300 --> 00:27:13,100
I'M NOT SURE I WOULD HAVE
GOT THE SURGERY.
493
00:27:17,833 --> 00:27:21,400
BUT MY FAMILY'S LOVE AND SUPPORT
IS WHAT KEEPS ME STRONG
494
00:27:21,400 --> 00:27:23,967
AND KEEPS ME MOTIVATED
THROUGH THE PAIN.
495
00:27:23,967 --> 00:27:27,067
IF YOU HAVE TO THROW UP,
YOU CAN.
496
00:27:27,067 --> 00:27:31,433
I'M READY TO GET HOME
AND SEE MY NEPHEW.
497
00:27:31,433 --> 00:27:33,067
THERE YOU GO, GIRL.
LOOK UP. LOOK UP.
498
00:27:33,067 --> 00:27:34,733
THE SOONER I HEAL,
THE SOONER I CAN GET BACK
499
00:27:34,733 --> 00:27:36,267
TO LIVING MY LIFE
THE WAY I WANT TO.
500
00:27:49,167 --> 00:27:52,833
Zsalynn: HANNAH, I'M GOING
RIGHT NOW TO THE GYM.
501
00:27:52,833 --> 00:27:53,967
WHILE I'M GONE,
502
00:27:53,967 --> 00:27:55,267
CAN YOU PLEASE PICK UP
YOUR DIRTY CLOTHES
503
00:27:55,267 --> 00:27:56,367
AND GET THEM TO THE GARAGE?
504
00:27:56,367 --> 00:27:59,367
OVER THE PAST MONTH,
505
00:27:59,367 --> 00:28:04,800
I STARTED DEALING WITH SOME OF
THE THINGS I LEARNED IN THERAPY.
506
00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:07,567
I WASN'T PUSHING
AS HARD AS I COULD
507
00:28:07,567 --> 00:28:11,167
BECAUSE I WAS BUYING IN
TO A LIE.
508
00:28:11,167 --> 00:28:14,300
I DO NEED TO BECOME HAPPY
WITH MYSELF,
509
00:28:14,300 --> 00:28:16,600
AND THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO.
510
00:28:17,933 --> 00:28:21,867
IN THE PAST YEAR,
MY BODY HAS CHANGED SO MUCH.
511
00:28:21,867 --> 00:28:24,833
I COULDN'T EVEN STAND BEFORE.
512
00:28:24,833 --> 00:28:26,733
MY THIGHS WOULD START TO SHAKE.
513
00:28:26,733 --> 00:28:28,967
I WOULD START SWEATING
PROFUSELY.
514
00:28:28,967 --> 00:28:32,767
NOW I'VE LOST
A CONSIDERABLE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT
515
00:28:32,767 --> 00:28:34,900
AND EVERYTHING IS EASIER.
516
00:28:34,900 --> 00:28:38,967
BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE
I WEIGH 600 POUNDS.
517
00:28:38,967 --> 00:28:42,367
I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT
A LOT,
518
00:28:42,367 --> 00:28:43,700
AND I FEEL LIKE
519
00:28:43,700 --> 00:28:47,700
I REALLY HAD A BREAKTHROUGH
IN THAT THERAPY SESSION
520
00:28:47,700 --> 00:28:50,533
WHEN I WAS LIKE,
"I'M SICK OF BEING FAKE."
521
00:28:50,533 --> 00:28:54,733
I'M SICK OF PRETENDING THAT
MY LIFE IS A WAY THAT IT'S NOT.
522
00:28:57,933 --> 00:29:00,967
THE LAST 8 OR 10 YEARS,
I'VE BEEN FAKING IT,
523
00:29:00,967 --> 00:29:03,833
'CAUSE I WAS JUST UNHAPPY,
AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO SAY IT.
524
00:29:03,833 --> 00:29:06,867
I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE
A FAILURE.
525
00:29:06,867 --> 00:29:09,867
I'M TRYING TO GET PAST
THAT FAKE ME
526
00:29:09,867 --> 00:29:12,100
AND JUST TRYING TO FIND
MY AUTHENTIC SELF.
527
00:29:15,133 --> 00:29:19,267
AND THAT REAL ME
IS READY TO BE HEALTHY.
528
00:29:19,267 --> 00:29:22,333
AND I'M WILLING
TO WORK HARD TO DO IT.
529
00:29:22,333 --> 00:29:23,700
BYE, GUYS.
530
00:29:23,700 --> 00:29:25,067
BYE.
HAVE A GOOD ONE.
531
00:29:25,067 --> 00:29:26,367
THANKS. YOU TOO.
532
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,400
Christina: OW.
533
00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:34,067
Man: ALL RIGHT.
YOU READY NOW?
534
00:29:34,067 --> 00:29:36,867
OW, OW, OW.
535
00:29:36,867 --> 00:29:38,733
WE JUST HAVE TO GET
TO THE WHEELCHAIR, OKAY?
536
00:29:38,733 --> 00:29:40,533
JUST GO
AT YOUR OWN SPEED.
537
00:29:43,367 --> 00:29:45,267
OW. OW.
538
00:29:45,267 --> 00:29:46,500
I GOT YOU.
OH, OW.
539
00:29:46,500 --> 00:29:49,200
Jessica:
THIS MORNING, CHRISTINA GOT UP,
540
00:29:49,200 --> 00:29:50,700
AND SHE WASN'T FEELING SO WELL.
541
00:29:50,700 --> 00:29:53,133
AND SHE FAINTED WHENEVER WE WAS
TRYING TO GET HER IN THE BED,
542
00:29:53,133 --> 00:29:55,067
SO WE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG.
543
00:29:57,333 --> 00:29:59,900
YOU GOT TO BREATHE.
YOU GOT TO BREATHE, HONEY.
544
00:30:04,700 --> 00:30:08,433
SHE JUST GOT SICK
ALL AT ONCE YESTERDAY,
545
00:30:08,433 --> 00:30:11,367
AND IT GOT WORSE.
546
00:30:11,367 --> 00:30:12,933
I'M WORRIED ABOUT HER.
547
00:30:36,633 --> 00:30:39,900
Christina:
I'M FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW.
548
00:30:39,900 --> 00:30:43,000
I'M TRAPPED IN A BED AGAIN.
549
00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:45,200
IT FEELS LIKE I'M ENDING UP
RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED,
550
00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:47,800
AND IT'S SO SCARY.
551
00:30:51,267 --> 00:30:53,833
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
552
00:30:53,833 --> 00:30:56,867
HI, CHRISTINA.
HI, DR. NOW.
553
00:30:56,867 --> 00:30:59,000
AND HOW'S YOUR STOMACH FEELING?
LOT OF PAIN?
554
00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:00,100
YEAH.
555
00:31:00,100 --> 00:31:01,233
IT'S LIKE TWO SHARP KNIVES
556
00:31:01,233 --> 00:31:02,767
JUST COMING IN
ON THE SIDE OF IT.
557
00:31:02,767 --> 00:31:04,267
ALL RIGHT. OKAY.
558
00:31:06,267 --> 00:31:09,133
Dr. Nowzaradan: CHRISTINA
HAS BEEN PUSHING HERSELF
559
00:31:09,133 --> 00:31:10,467
A LITTLE BIT TOO HARD.
560
00:31:10,467 --> 00:31:13,467
SHE MAY HAVE
A LITTLE BIT OF MALNUTRITION
561
00:31:13,467 --> 00:31:16,767
BECAUSE SHE'S ONLY BEEN EATING
PROTEIN SHAKES.
562
00:31:18,667 --> 00:31:21,400
AT THIS POINT,
I'M GOING TO KEEP CHRISTINA
563
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:24,067
IN THE HOSPITAL
FOR NEXT MONTH
564
00:31:24,067 --> 00:31:28,267
AND MAKE SURE THAT SHE GET
THE NUTRITION SHE NEEDS
565
00:31:28,267 --> 00:31:30,833
AND SHE DOESN'T PUSH HERSELF
TOO HARD.
566
00:31:30,833 --> 00:31:33,467
THIS IS GONNA TAKE
ABOUT TWO MONTH TO HEAL.
567
00:31:33,467 --> 00:31:35,467
IT'S GONNA BE
A SLOW PROCESS.
568
00:31:35,467 --> 00:31:38,900
YOU GOT TO BE STRONG,
AND YOU GOT TO BE GOOD, HUH?
569
00:31:38,900 --> 00:31:40,933
OKAY.
THANK YOU, DR. NOW.
570
00:31:43,667 --> 00:31:46,400
Christina: I'M FRUSTRATED THAT
IF I PUSHED MYSELF TOO HARD,
571
00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:49,333
THAT I CAUSED ALL THIS
TO TAKE LONGER.
572
00:31:49,333 --> 00:31:51,133
[ Crying ] IT'S HARD,
573
00:31:51,133 --> 00:31:53,900
BUT I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER
CHOICE BUT TO ACCEPT IT.
574
00:32:07,067 --> 00:32:11,167
THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF
THE HARDEST MONTHS OF MY LIFE.
575
00:32:11,167 --> 00:32:13,300
BUT THE PAIN HAS GONE AWAY.
576
00:32:13,300 --> 00:32:16,067
Tammie: BEEN A LONG MONTH.
577
00:32:16,067 --> 00:32:17,333
I THINK SHE'S PRETTY ANXIOUS
AND EXCITED
578
00:32:17,333 --> 00:32:18,400
TO GET UP AND GET OUT OF HERE,
579
00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:22,433
AND SHE'S LOST
QUITE A BIT OF WEIGHT.
580
00:32:22,433 --> 00:32:26,933
Christina: I FEEL LIKE I'VE MADE
A LOT OF PROGRESS HERE.
581
00:32:26,933 --> 00:32:30,100
BUT I'M NERVOUS ABOUT
WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY.
582
00:32:31,367 --> 00:32:32,467
[ GASPS ]
583
00:32:32,467 --> 00:32:34,567
OH, THAT'S AWESOME.
584
00:32:34,567 --> 00:32:37,967
DUDE, I'M ACTUALLY UNDER 300
BY, LIKE, A LITTLE BIT.
585
00:32:37,967 --> 00:32:39,467
299.60.
586
00:32:39,467 --> 00:32:40,733
THAT'S COOL.
587
00:32:40,733 --> 00:32:42,967
Christina: LAST YEAR, I WAS 708.
588
00:32:42,967 --> 00:32:45,967
IT'S OVER 400 POUNDS LOST.
589
00:32:45,967 --> 00:32:49,067
I REALLY,
REALLY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT.
590
00:32:49,067 --> 00:32:51,067
CHRISTINA HAS DONE WELL.
591
00:32:51,067 --> 00:32:53,233
I AM PROUD OF HER PROGRESS.
592
00:32:53,233 --> 00:32:57,833
I THINK SHE'S READY TO GO HOME
AND RECOVER THERE.
593
00:32:57,833 --> 00:32:59,567
THERE WAS TIMES
OVER THIS PAST MONTH
594
00:32:59,567 --> 00:33:02,400
THAT I THOUGHT THAT I MAY HAVE
MADE A MISTAKE WITH THE SURGERY.
595
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:04,433
NOW I KNOW
IT WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE.
596
00:33:06,567 --> 00:33:08,100
YES, MA'AM.
597
00:33:08,100 --> 00:33:10,267
IT WAS JUST HARD.
598
00:33:10,267 --> 00:33:12,333
I'M JUST EXCITED
599
00:33:12,333 --> 00:33:14,467
'CAUSE THERE'S SO MUCH MORE
THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO DO.
600
00:33:14,467 --> 00:33:17,567
I'M NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE YET,
BUT I'M GETTING THERE.
601
00:33:17,567 --> 00:33:19,433
BYE.
602
00:33:19,433 --> 00:33:21,933
AND I WILL GET THERE.
603
00:33:28,267 --> 00:33:32,767
EVERY DAY ON THIS JOURNEY,
I TAKE MY LIFE BACK,
604
00:33:32,767 --> 00:33:36,067
AND NOW I'M TAKING BACK MY HOME.
605
00:33:36,067 --> 00:33:40,600
GARETH HASN'T FOUND MUCH GOOD
IN MY CHANGES.
606
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:44,733
IT'S TIME FOR US
TO ADMIT IT'S OVER.
607
00:33:44,733 --> 00:33:47,267
FOR MANY, MANY YEARS,
I'VE BEEN TRAPPED --
608
00:33:47,267 --> 00:33:50,600
IN MY BODY, IN MY MARRIAGE.
609
00:33:50,600 --> 00:33:54,600
I WAS A PRISONER
IN SO MANY WAYS.
610
00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:58,133
SO TODAY, I'M PACKING UP
GARETH'S THINGS,
611
00:33:58,133 --> 00:34:00,133
AND HE'S MOVING OUT.
612
00:34:01,967 --> 00:34:05,100
OUR HOUSE HAD BECOME A WAR ZONE.
613
00:34:05,100 --> 00:34:07,100
I DON'T THINK GARETH OR I
614
00:34:07,100 --> 00:34:09,567
WANT HANNAH TO BE RAISED
IN THIS KIND OF ENVIRONMENT.
615
00:34:18,700 --> 00:34:23,300
I'M STILL PROCESSING THE WHOLE
"WHY AM I UNLOVABLE?" FEELING.
616
00:34:23,300 --> 00:34:27,500
GARETH ABSOLUTELY
MADE ME FEEL UNLOVABLE.
617
00:34:27,500 --> 00:34:29,767
[ Voice breaking ]
I HATE THAT FEELING.
618
00:34:29,767 --> 00:34:31,333
BUT I'M WORKING ON IT.
619
00:34:31,333 --> 00:34:33,533
NOT HAVING GARETH AROUND
620
00:34:33,533 --> 00:34:37,067
WILL DEFINITELY ENHANCE
MY WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY.
621
00:34:37,067 --> 00:34:39,733
I FEEL LIKE
HANNAH AND I ARE LUCKY
622
00:34:39,733 --> 00:34:42,700
TO BE ABLE TO STAY HERE
IN THIS HOUSE.
623
00:34:42,700 --> 00:34:45,167
IT'S GONNA FEEL LIKE
A FRESH START.
624
00:34:45,167 --> 00:34:46,833
GOING FORWARD,
625
00:34:46,833 --> 00:34:50,267
THIS HOUSE IS GONNA BE
THE HANNAH-AND-ZSA ZONE.
626
00:34:51,533 --> 00:34:54,433
I'M VERY SCARED
ABOUT BEING OUT ON MY OWN.
627
00:34:54,433 --> 00:34:58,967
THE IDEA OF BEING SINGLE
IS REALLY SCARY.
628
00:34:58,967 --> 00:35:02,800
BUT THE IDEA OF BEING STUCK
IN THIS SITUATION
629
00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:05,533
IS WAY MORE SCARY.
630
00:35:05,533 --> 00:35:08,967
THIS IS A STEP THAT I,
TWO YEARS AGO,
631
00:35:08,967 --> 00:35:10,767
THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER
BE ABLE TO MAKE.
632
00:35:10,767 --> 00:35:14,300
THIS STEP IS TREMENDOUS,
AND I'M READY FOR IT.
633
00:35:26,367 --> 00:35:29,100
Christina: TODAY, I'M GOING
TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN.
634
00:35:29,100 --> 00:35:32,500
I'M USUALLY A LITTLE NERVOUS
GOING TO THE DOCTOR,
635
00:35:32,500 --> 00:35:35,667
BUT I'M EXCITED TODAY.
636
00:35:35,667 --> 00:35:37,900
BUT I HAVEN'T MADE
SOME OF THE BEST CHOICES
637
00:35:37,900 --> 00:35:40,200
OVER THE LAST FEW MONTHS.
638
00:35:40,200 --> 00:35:41,867
WHENEVER I'D EAT REAL FOOD,
639
00:35:41,867 --> 00:35:44,133
AFTER TWO BITES,
I WOULD FEEL SICK,
640
00:35:44,133 --> 00:35:47,433
SO I'VE JUST BEEN RELYING ON
PROTEIN SHAKES THIS WHOLE TIME.
641
00:35:47,433 --> 00:35:50,333
I DON'T RECOGNIZE MYSELF
ANYMORE.
642
00:35:50,333 --> 00:35:52,867
I DON'T HAVE A MEMORY
OF BEING THIS SMALL.
643
00:35:52,867 --> 00:35:55,400
EVEN AS A 10-YEAR-OLD,
I WAS IN A SIZE 20.
644
00:35:59,067 --> 00:36:00,900
Woman: OKAY, IT'S 239.9.
645
00:36:00,900 --> 00:36:02,267
YAY.
[ CHUCKLES ]
646
00:36:02,267 --> 00:36:05,667
I CAN'T BELIEVE
THE DRASTIC CHANGE I'VE MADE.
647
00:36:05,667 --> 00:36:06,900
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
648
00:36:06,900 --> 00:36:08,900
HELLO.
HEY.
649
00:36:08,900 --> 00:36:10,433
HOW YOU DOING, CHRISTINA?
GOOD.
650
00:36:13,933 --> 00:36:15,467
468.
651
00:36:15,467 --> 00:36:17,467
THAT'S GOOD.
HOW IS YOUR PROTEIN INTAKE?
652
00:36:17,467 --> 00:36:20,267
EVERYTHING THAT I PUT IN
LITERALLY HURTS MY STOMACH.
653
00:36:20,267 --> 00:36:23,067
AND PROPER NUTRITION'S
GONNA BE ESSENTIAL FOR YOU.
654
00:36:23,067 --> 00:36:24,300
SO SOME OF THE FOOD,
655
00:36:24,300 --> 00:36:27,067
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
TOUGH IT OUT AND EAT IT
656
00:36:27,067 --> 00:36:29,067
OR YOU'RE GONNA HAVE
MALNUTRITION.
657
00:36:29,067 --> 00:36:31,067
OKAY.
OKAY?
658
00:36:31,067 --> 00:36:33,833
Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M GLAD ABOUT
CHRISTINA'S WEIGHT LOSS,
659
00:36:33,833 --> 00:36:36,600
BUT MY CONCERN IS
THAT IT IS DONE RIGHT.
660
00:36:36,600 --> 00:36:38,333
TAKE SMALL AMOUNTS,
661
00:36:38,333 --> 00:36:41,633
THEN GRADUALLY YOU CAN INCREASE
THE AMOUNT THAT YOU TAKE.
662
00:36:41,633 --> 00:36:44,600
ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU
IN A COUPLE WEEKS.
663
00:36:44,600 --> 00:36:47,633
SOMETIMES, THE PENDULUM CAN
SWING TO THE OTHER SIDE,
664
00:36:47,633 --> 00:36:51,067
AND THESE PATIENTS
BECOME ANOREXIC.
665
00:36:51,067 --> 00:36:53,633
OVERALL, I AM VERY PROUD OF HER,
666
00:36:53,633 --> 00:36:56,767
BUT I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT IS
NOT THE ROUTE THAT SHE'S TAKING.
667
00:36:56,767 --> 00:37:01,333
Christina: I NEVER THOUGHT
I WOULD MAKE IT THIS FAR.
668
00:37:01,333 --> 00:37:06,067
AND I AM NOT GONNA WASTE
MY SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE.
669
00:37:06,067 --> 00:37:08,267
I NEED TO TAKE BETTER CARE
OF MYSELF.
670
00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,933
Zsalynn:
OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS,
671
00:37:26,933 --> 00:37:29,700
IT'S BEEN JUST HANNAH AND I.
672
00:37:29,700 --> 00:37:32,267
AND I'VE LOVED
EVERY MINUTE OF IT.
673
00:37:32,267 --> 00:37:36,400
WITHOUT GARETH,
I'VE MADE SUCH GREAT PROGRESS.
674
00:37:40,433 --> 00:37:43,933
I'VE DECIDED TO HAVE SOME
PROFESSIONAL PORTRAITS TAKEN
675
00:37:43,933 --> 00:37:47,633
FOR MYSELF AND HANNAH
'CAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY.
676
00:37:47,633 --> 00:37:50,700
FOR THE LONGEST TIME,
677
00:37:50,700 --> 00:37:53,367
I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE WHAT
I LOOKED LIKE IN A PICTURE.
678
00:37:53,367 --> 00:37:54,967
HI.
HI. HOW ARE YOU?
679
00:37:54,967 --> 00:37:57,400
BUT WHEN KIDS LOOK AT PICTURES
OF THEIR PARENTS,
680
00:37:57,400 --> 00:37:59,533
THEY DON'T SEE "FAT MOM"
OR "SKINNY MOM."
681
00:37:59,533 --> 00:38:01,067
THEY JUST SEE MOM.
682
00:38:01,067 --> 00:38:03,100
PERFECT.
683
00:38:03,100 --> 00:38:05,167
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING
THAT I'VE LEARNED
684
00:38:05,167 --> 00:38:06,467
IS THAT I'M A GOOD MOTHER.
685
00:38:06,467 --> 00:38:07,867
LET ME
SEE THOSE TEETH.
686
00:38:07,867 --> 00:38:09,200
NNN.
[ LAUGHS ]
687
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:11,267
Zsalynn: TAKING PHOTOS
WITH MY DAUGHTER --
688
00:38:11,267 --> 00:38:13,633
NOT OF MY DAUGHTER,
BUT WITH MY DAUGHTER --
689
00:38:13,633 --> 00:38:16,533
IT'S ONE OF THE LITTLE THINGS
THAT REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY.
690
00:38:16,533 --> 00:38:19,867
AW, LOOK.
THOSE ARE REALLY GOOD.
691
00:38:19,867 --> 00:38:22,733
THINGS HAVE CHANGED A LOT.
692
00:38:22,733 --> 00:38:25,700
I'VE BEEN DOING WELL,
693
00:38:25,700 --> 00:38:28,067
AND I KNOW I'VE BEEN
GETTING HEALTHIER.
694
00:38:35,667 --> 00:38:39,300
I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE
HOW FAR I'VE COME.
695
00:38:39,300 --> 00:38:42,433
I JUST WANT TO
KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.
696
00:38:42,433 --> 00:38:44,067
HOW'S THE EXTRA SKIN DOING
IN YOUR STOMACH?
697
00:38:44,067 --> 00:38:47,333
IT'S JUST...
IT'S JUST THERE.
698
00:38:47,333 --> 00:38:49,267
LET'S GET YOU UP HERE
AND LET ME LOOK AT IT.
699
00:38:49,267 --> 00:38:50,700
OKAY.
700
00:38:50,700 --> 00:38:52,767
Zsalynn:
I KNOW THE DOCTOR THINKS
701
00:38:52,767 --> 00:38:54,933
I'M READY FOR SKIN SURGERY,
702
00:38:54,933 --> 00:38:56,167
SO I'M CONSIDERING THAT.
703
00:38:56,167 --> 00:38:59,600
I THINK THIS IS GONNA BE
VERY POSITIVE THING,
704
00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:01,200
TO HAVE THIS REMOVED.
705
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:03,333
Dr. Nowzaradan: I WAS CONCERNED
706
00:39:03,333 --> 00:39:06,267
ABOUT NOT HAVING SEEN HER
FOR SIX MONTHS.
707
00:39:06,267 --> 00:39:09,067
I'M GLAD SHE'S BACK,
AND SHE'S MAKING PROGRESS.
708
00:39:09,067 --> 00:39:12,533
ALL RIGHT.
I THINK YOU'RE DOING GREAT.
709
00:39:12,533 --> 00:39:15,067
THANK YOU.
710
00:39:15,067 --> 00:39:16,400
ALL RIGHT.
711
00:39:16,400 --> 00:39:21,433
I'M GRATEFUL EVERY SINGLE DAY
THAT I'M WHERE I AM TODAY.
712
00:39:21,433 --> 00:39:24,700
NOW I CAN REALLY BE HER MOM.
713
00:39:24,700 --> 00:39:26,833
I DON'T WANT TO MISS
ONE SINGLE DAY OF IT.
714
00:39:28,167 --> 00:39:32,567
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY
REALLY GAVE ME MY LIFE BACK.
715
00:39:32,567 --> 00:39:37,400
BEFORE I HAD SURGERY,
I WAS IN A DARK, LONELY PLACE.
716
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:39,067
AND NOW...
717
00:39:39,067 --> 00:39:41,900
I NEVER THOUGHT
LIFE COULD BE THIS GOOD.
718
00:39:49,767 --> 00:39:52,533
Christina: THE PAST COUPLE YEARS
HAVE BEEN AMAZING.
719
00:39:52,533 --> 00:39:55,100
I NEVER THOUGHT
I WOULD HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR.
720
00:39:55,100 --> 00:39:57,900
THIS IS NOT HOW I WOULD HAVE
IMAGINED MY LIFE AT ALL.
721
00:39:57,900 --> 00:40:00,100
TODAY, ME AND MY SISTER,
722
00:40:00,100 --> 00:40:03,200
WE'RE GOING FOR
AN INDOOR SKYDIVING EXPERIENCE.
723
00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:06,033
I WANT TO EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING.
724
00:40:06,033 --> 00:40:08,500
I WANT TO DO THE THINGS
I WANT TO DO.
725
00:40:08,500 --> 00:40:11,433
I'M PROBABLY MORE NERVOUS
THAN SHE IS,
726
00:40:11,433 --> 00:40:14,767
JUST BECAUSE I'M UNSURE HOW IT'S
GONNA GO BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT.
727
00:40:14,767 --> 00:40:18,667
I'VE JUST ALWAYS ASSUMED THAT
MY WEIGHT'S GONNA HOLD ME BACK
728
00:40:18,667 --> 00:40:22,533
BECAUSE IT'S ALWAYS BEEN
THE STORY OF MY LIFE.
729
00:40:22,533 --> 00:40:24,067
IT'S ALWAYS BEEN
"YOU'RE TOO BIG TO DO THIS,"
730
00:40:24,067 --> 00:40:25,067
OR "YOU'RE TOO BIG TO DO THAT."
731
00:40:25,067 --> 00:40:27,833
AND NOW I CAN DO ANYTHING.
732
00:40:27,833 --> 00:40:30,200
OF COURSE I GET NERVOUS STILL,
733
00:40:30,200 --> 00:40:35,067
BUT I PUSH MYSELF
A LITTLE BIT MORE NOW.
734
00:40:35,067 --> 00:40:39,033
A YEAR AGO, I LITERALLY
COULD NOT WALK EIGHT FEET,
735
00:40:39,033 --> 00:40:42,933
AND THERE WAS A POINT
WHERE I DIDN'T WANT TO LIVE.
736
00:40:42,933 --> 00:40:44,933
LIFE JUST WASN'T WORTH LIVING.
737
00:40:44,933 --> 00:40:48,333
AND NOW IT'S LIKE
I GET TO EXPERIENCE LIFE.
738
00:41:01,633 --> 00:41:04,333
KNOWING THAT I WAS ABLE
TO GET IN THERE
739
00:41:04,333 --> 00:41:08,367
AND THE AIR DID BLOW ME UP
AND I WAS ABLE TO FLY,
740
00:41:08,367 --> 00:41:09,933
IT HELPED MY MIND BE LIKE,
741
00:41:09,933 --> 00:41:12,367
"OKAY, YOU'RE NOT
THAT 700-POUND GIRL."
742
00:41:16,733 --> 00:41:18,567
YOU DID AWESOME.
743
00:41:21,467 --> 00:41:25,600
I'M CURRENTLY TRYING TO WORK
SOLID FOODS BACK INTO MY DIET.
744
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:27,100
THANK YOU.
745
00:41:27,100 --> 00:41:28,200
THANK YOU.
746
00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:29,600
IT'S A SLOW PROCESS,
747
00:41:29,600 --> 00:41:32,267
BECAUSE FOR A LONG TIME NOW
I'VE ONLY BEEN DOING SHAKES.
748
00:41:32,267 --> 00:41:33,800
I'LL JUST HAVE
GRILLED CHICKEN.
749
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:37,133
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD
HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED.
750
00:41:38,800 --> 00:41:41,700
I'M VERY HAPPY WITH MY PROGRESS.
751
00:41:41,700 --> 00:41:43,467
I TAKE CARE OF MY BODY.
752
00:41:43,467 --> 00:41:45,433
IF IT'S SOMETHING BAD,
IT'S NOT GOING IN MY BODY.
753
00:41:45,433 --> 00:41:47,300
OH, MY GOD.
YOU NEED TO TRY THIS.
754
00:41:47,300 --> 00:41:49,800
I KNOW YOU LIKE POTATOES.
755
00:41:49,800 --> 00:41:52,500
I LIKE WHO I AM NOW.
756
00:41:52,500 --> 00:41:54,400
IT'S PRETTY AMAZING
TO BE THE NEW ME.
757
00:41:56,967 --> 00:41:58,300
OH, YEAH?
758
00:41:58,300 --> 00:42:01,367
WHEN I WAS OVER 700 POUNDS,
I DIDN'T FEEL YOUNG.
759
00:42:01,367 --> 00:42:03,800
I FELT OLDER.
I FELT TRAPPED.
760
00:42:03,800 --> 00:42:07,067
I DON'T HAVE TO HIDE ANYMORE.
761
00:42:07,067 --> 00:42:08,733
[ LAUGHS ]
762
00:42:08,733 --> 00:42:11,667
I WANT TO FULLY EXPERIENCE LIFE.
763
00:42:11,667 --> 00:42:16,300
BEING ABLE TO LIVE LIKE
A 24-YEAR-OLD NOW IS AMAZING.
764
00:42:16,300 --> 00:42:17,333
HEY.
765
00:42:17,333 --> 00:42:18,600
WOULD YOU LIKE A RIDE
TONIGHT?
766
00:42:18,600 --> 00:42:19,867
SURE.
YEAH? HOP IN.
767
00:42:19,867 --> 00:42:23,133
Christina: THE FACT THAT
I DID WASTE ALL THEM YEARS,
768
00:42:23,133 --> 00:42:25,333
IT HURTS.
769
00:42:25,333 --> 00:42:28,667
AND NOW I GET TO LIVE,
770
00:42:28,667 --> 00:42:31,633
SO THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT
I'M GONNA DO.
57790
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