All language subtitles for And While We Were Here 2012

(SILENCE)

(VOCALIST SINGING IN ITALIAN)

(VOCALIST CONTINUES IN ITALIAN)

(INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT
OVER P.A. SYSTEM)

(OBJECTS CLATTER)
MAN: Excuse me.

It's okay.

It's okay, it's okay,
it's okay.

Let me help you with that.

(VOCALIST CONTINUES
IN ITALIAN)

(MAN SPEAKING
ITALIAN)

I'm looking for
the concert hall.

I think we may
drive right by it.

There it is!

Very funny.

(MAN SPEAKING ITALIAN)

I think it's gonna be good,

Us being here.

(WOMAN ON RADIO
SPEAKING ITALIAN)

Shit.

What?

I can't find my wallet.

Put it in your suitcase?

No. It's not
in my suitcase.

Why would I put it
in my suitcase?

Well, it's got to be somewhere.

Maybe it's in the car.

Thank you.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

She's lost her purse.
Her purse.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

Will you just
give her a minute?

Uno... uno momento.
Uno momento.

All right,
okay, okay, okay, okay.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

When did you have it last?

The train station, I think.
The exchange booth.

Shit.
Oh, Janey, I'm sorry.

That bastard at
the train station stole it

When you dropped
all your stuff.

This is 170, not 70.

Where do we need to go?
We need 70.

Here we go.

Is this it?

I think so.

It's nice.

Yes, I have her credit card
numbers on file in my computer.

Yes, I have them here.

Okay, 5-5-3-3...

7-6-4-5...

8-7-8-7...

9-1-5-7.

5-7.

Yeah.

Expires 12-15.

No, she'll definitely need another
card sent out immediately.

We're here for two weeks.

No, I'm working here.

Yes, I'll hold.

You love how they ask?
As if I have a choice.

Do you know what I'm gonna
try to do while I'm here?

Besides learn Italian?

I don't know why you
think that's so ridiculous.

I don't at all.

I admire you. I just think
it's too late for me.

That's not true.

You can't teach
an old dog new tricks.

And besides, what's the point?

The whole bloody world
speaks English.

Well, I...

am going to finally
transcribe the tapes.

Yes?

All right.

Okay.

Well, if you can see it
through to the end,

I think that's wonderful.

What does that mean?

Nothing.
Nothing?

I think it's
a fantastic idea, Jane.

I always have.
You know that.

(OBJECT CLATTERS)

Just didn't sound
very supportive.

You have my support. I'm sorry
if that came out wrong.

I just know how emotional
listening to them can be...

has been for you.

I think enough time has passed.

Well, that's great.

(INDISTINCT LOUD VOICES)

Why do you think
he killed himself?

Who?

David Foster Wallace.

I... I...
I don't know.

You can't get a sense
by his writing?

You'll have to read it
when I'm done, darling.

Do you think he
recognized a blank infinity

Just stretching out?

He got to this point,
maybe, where...

it was just day
after day after day.

I really don't know, Jane.
Just so tedious.

And then of course,
he felt guilty.

Most people think life is
too short, and there he was,

All the talent in the world,
and it wasn't enough.

Jane, can I...
Can we not talk about this?

It's just a bit morbid.

(DISTANT SIREN BLARES;
DISTANT, INDISTINCT VOICES)

Love you.

Love you, too.

Do you feel all right?

You feel okay?
Yeah.

You sure?

Mm-Hmm.

(DISTANT SIREN BLARES)

(SIREN RECEDES)

(PASSIONATE GASPS)

(DISTANT MALE LAUGHTER)

(DISTANT,
INDISTINCT MALE SPEECH)

Are you sure
you won't come with?

You'll be so busy.

Might get boring all alone.

I think someone should be here
in case the card is delivered.

True.

And then I think I might go out,
see what the world has to offer.

Well, if you do,
leave me a message, okay?

So I can worry about you.

Okay.

I've left you some money here.

Thank you.

I'll see you later.
Have a good day.

JANE:
Testing. Testing. Okay.

Do you have any stories
for my book?

GRANDMOTHER:
What kind of stories?

Stories that you've prepared.

Or I can ask from a list of
stories that dad told me about?

Go ahead and ask from your
father's list, god rest his soul.

Let's start with the war.

We went into
an air raid shelter.

My mother, your
great-Grandmother.

She was shaking.

The sirens wailed and...

then there was the sound of a
bomb, and the man next to us,

He said, "I was in
a shelter last night

With my wife and my little boy,

And half of it
got blown away."

There was blood in his hair.

He was all alone. That nearly
finished my mother, you know.

Here we were in this
tiny town in England,

Miles from Germany,
from Russia,

From Italy,
from any frontlines,

And this man,

He had blood in his hair.

(SPEAKING
RUDIMENTARY ITALIAN)

(SPEAKING
RUDIMENTARY ITALIAN)

GRANDMOTHER: We were riding
our bikes to school

When the Germans
started firing at us.

We jumped into a hedge.

We were terrified, but...

afterwards we couldn't
stop laughing.

(CHUCKLES WISTFULLY)

It feels now as if I'm the
only one who remembers that.

It's as vivid to me
as if it happened yesterday.

Oh, hi, Leonard.

It's Jane.

I decided to take
an impromptu trip to Ischia.

Or, um, "ee-Schia,"
as they pronounce it.

See, I'm learning
a little bit. Um...

anyway, I'll be home later.

I hope you have
a good day. Bye.

GRANDMOTHER: Those friends
are all dead now.

There's no one left.

That's one of
my regrets, you know.

Sometimes I think I should
have had more children,

Not just your father.

You're all alone now that
your parents are gone.

No brothers, no sisters.

I'm upsetting you.

JANE: Let's talk
about something else.

You want to ask me more boring
questions about the war?

All right, then.

(SPEAKING
RUDIMENTARY ITALIAN)

The castle?

Castle?

(ASKING QUESTION
IN RUDIMENTARY ITALIAN)

No?
No.

Um...

(SPEAKING
RUDIMENTARY ITALIAN)

Ah.
(BOTH SPEAKING ITALIAN)

GRANDMOTHER: He'd been shot
through the neck.

The bullet went in one side
and came out the other.

And there were all these bomb
holes filled with water,

And he couldn't tell
which was the German side

And which was the allied side.

When he came home
after something like that,

You couldn't really
complain to him

About anything, now could you?

I'm actually going there now.

To the castle.

You speak English now?
Yeah.

Why, did you think
I was Italian?

Yeah.
Yes!

That's great, that's cool.

Hey, hey, hey.
Where you from?

London.
No, in America, come on.

Maine.
No shit.

I'm from Massachusetts.
That's crazy. That's weird.

Right?
Yeah.

Vacation?

Oh.
Are you?

What?
Are you here on vacation?

Sorry. I thought you were
saying you were on vacation.

Me? No.

So, come on.

My husband
is working in Naples.

What does he do?

He is playing in a concert
at the end of the month.

Cool. What does he play?

Viola.

Mnh mnh mnh!
The viola!

He any good?

Yes. Very.

How do you keep your
violin from getting stolen?

You put it in
a viola case. Right?

No, that's not funny.

What's the difference
between a viola and a coffin?

A coffin has a dead
person on the inside.

'Cause viola players
are dead, no?

Why is a viola solo
like premature ejaculation?

(SNICKERS)

Because even though
you know it's coming,

There's nothing
you can do about it.

I can't help it, I've got this
weird autistic mind for jokes,

And I went to this music-Slash-Nerd
summer camp when I was, like, 10,

And I played the triangle.
Right.

And I'm an only child, so...

you know, understand.

You look too young to be married.
Are you a newlywed?

No.

You're making me feel
like a stalker. Fuck.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

WOMAN:
Grazie.

Grazie.

Uno.

All right.

Uh, hey, have you got 50 cents?

If you can catch it.

Grazie.
Grazie.

What brought you
out here today?

The ferry. Ha! "The
ferry." I like it.

They have this device
down in the basement.

It's like a torture cage.
They'd lock you in there

Until you turned to bones.

But can you imagine dying by just
sitting there? That would suck.

In, like, the 1300s,

Thousands of families
lived in this castle.

Must've smelled pretty bad,

All those people
crammed onto this rock.

Wow.
I know.

I've been coming here every
day, and it still gets me.

If only we could
kill off all the tourists.

(SCOFFS) you're a tourist.

No I'm not.

I came out here
a few months ago

With this volunteer organization
dedicated to studying

The relic populations
of dolphins and whales

In the gulf of Naples.

I can't tell if you're joking.

I'm dead fuckin' serious.

No, I just didn't wanna go to college,
and they paid for me to come over.

Four connecting flights,
a 72-Hour plane ride.

But, you know...
it was worth it.

My first time
out of the U.S.

How old are you?
I'm 19.

It's my birthday today.

Is it really?
Uh-Huh.

Happy birthday.
Thank you very much.

Yeah, so, I left the program
after, like, a month.

Fuck the relic dolphins!

I'm still on the island
'cause I have this...

This awesome living situation.

I'll tell you
the short version.

Basically, I used to have
ancestors in Ischia,

So when I come over, I facebooked
this second cousin twice removed.

A second cousin twice removed,
in case you didn't know,

Is when one person's
great-Grandparent

Is another person's
great-Great-Great grandparent.

I'd love to hear
the long version.

Sorry. Anyway...

so this relative gave me
the name of this great uncle

Who lives on the island.
So I show up...

he answers the door and he's like
the oldest fucker I've ever seen.

Easily pushing 100.
100?

Yeah, if not older. He's, like, deaf
and blind and about four feet tall,

And he mumbles a couple things
to me in some crazy dialect,

Ushers me inside,
pours me a glass of wine,

And leads me
to this basement apartment.

And, uh, yeah, I never left.

(FEMALE VOCALIST
SINGING OPERATIC MUSIC)

(OPERATIC MUSIC FADES)

"Love teaches me
to feed on flames and tears,

"To turn withered hope
green through desire,

"To re-Enslave my heart
each time

Love frees his noble face
from that heavy disdain."

Who was that?

Vittoria colonna.

Ah. The woman
who lived here.

You read that in your
guidebook this morning,

Didn't you, Jane?

Sneaky.

Yeah, I've decided to learn
Italian by committing to memory

All the sonnets she wrote to
Michelangelo in English and Italian.

I thought Michelangelo was gay.

Ah, according to history

And the muscular thighs
of his sculptures, yes.

But that didn't stop her
from loving him.

Let's hear it, then.

In Italian.
Let's hear the poem.

Come on.
Okay, okay.

(RECITING HALTINGLY
IN ITALIAN)

(CLAPPING) whew!

I'm impressed.
Thank you.

You hungry?

Why? You gonna
take me out?

Yeah.

All right then.
Okay.

CALEB: Two pastas with
the house sauce, please.

Red, please.
MAN: White or... Red.

Uh-Huh.
Thank you.

Grazie.

So you're really not
gonna tell me what you do?

I write freelance articles about
parties and fashion trends

In town and country UK.

There's something else.

I'm writing a book...

about my grandmother's
experiences in rural England,

Living through two world wars.

I recorded her
for hours and hours.

But now...

I don't know.

What don't you know?

You wanna listen, a little?

Yeah.
Yeah?

Yeah, no, I love to listen.

It's all tangled up.

Hold on.
Okay.

GRANDMOTHER: Awful as it was,
it made you stronger.

These days people whine
about all sorts of things,

And I'm not one of those old
people who think my time

Had the only joy
and the only problems.

We all have our own
private wars, every era.

But it was nothing like...

It really brought
people together, the war.

We helped each other
during that time.

We had to laugh,
we had to smile.

Well, if not for ourselves,

Then for the people we'd lost.

Now shut that thing off,
would you?

Get it out of my face!

That is like...
It's like a window in time.

The sort of thing
you wish you always did

Before someone died, you know?

My husband thinks
I'm never gonna finish it.

You shouldn't care
what anyone thinks.

We met while
I was recording her.

Bonding over granny, huh?

You make it sound perverse.

That's what it was, right?

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

I got pregnant,
so we got married.

I lost the baby.

I'm sorry.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

I didn't go back after
that to the states.

Did you, uh,

Did you ever hear that story
about the red string?

I think I might have.
Tell me.

It's like this Asian proverb.

Says that anyone you're
destined to meet, like, uh,

Your soul mate or your
family or, you know,

Someone you bump into on the
street, we're all connected...

by this red string.

It can be tangled or stretched,

But it can never be broken.

There's this moment
in the tape.

I'm sitting, waiting,

In the airport bar
for my flight,

And I'm talking
into the recorder,

Rambling on about how
I'm about to embark

On this amazing adventure,

How I'm gonna show world war ii

From a totally
different perspective.

But?

I don't know
if it's that interesting.

That's the whole point,
isn't it?

Keeping it interesting
for yourself.

Maybe.

Maybe I just wanna
write about nothing.

Everything is nothing.

All the best.

(CHUCKLES)
(BOTH SPEAKING ITALIAN)

Make a wish, huh?

Make it great.

Okay.

Bravo.

Bravo. Hey.
(PLAYFUL GROWL)

Are you ready? What do
you mean, am I ready?

Grab my hand. Go, go, go!
What? Why? Oh, my god!

Go!
Oh, my gosh!

(SHOUTING IN ITALIAN)

Why? What do you mean?
Go!

(MAN SHOUTING IN ITALIAN)

(SHOUTING IN ITALIAN)

(INDISTINCT,
PANTING REMARKS)

It's the caribinieri!
What?

The police! Come on!
No! No! No!

Yeah! Yeah, yeah!

We can't go back! If we
go back, we get arrested!

Okay.
Run!

We can't pay if we
haven't got any money!

Oh, god. Come here.

Oh, god.

Hey. Hey.
What?

Would it make you feel better if
I said I set the whole thing up?

Yes, if it's true.

Is it true?

I paid the check when
I went to the bathroom.

(LAUGHING)

You're horrible.

You're a mean, horrible person.
Come on, let's go.

Come on, come on.
Quick! Let's go!

Why are we still running? I don't
know why we're still running.

(GASPING) oh, my gosh.

(LAUGHING)

It went up my nose.

(COMICAL SNORT)

Will you come back?

Maybe.

"Maybe" is not a "no,"

And since I don't have a phone,

You're gonna have to
give me your number.

For cheap thrills and
future crimes committed.

(EMPHATICALLY) no.

Fair enough.

I'd better go...

catch a ferry.

Hey.

Why do violists...

keep their viola cases
on their dashboards?

Why?

So they can park
in handicapped spots.

Oh.

Happy birthday.

Thank you.

(DISTANT,
INDISTINCT SHOUTING)

You're awake.

No, I've got so much of
this stuff to get through.

You bought fruit.

Nice.

GRANDMOTHER: There are
the great big events,

The things you think you'll
always remember, and you do,

But there are other smaller...

Picking a blackberry
that's been in the sun,

Or brushing
the fingertip of someone

You didn't know you loved
until you touched them.

Nellie was this little collie

Who wouldn't go on a leash,

So she had to
sit on a bicycle seat.

They stay with me, too.

(DISTANT TRAFFIC SOUNDS)

Jane. Janey?

Got some pastries.

You still asleep?

Jane?

GRANDMOTHER: My friends had
lots of American boyfriends,

And they used to bring us nylon
stockings and chocolates

And all sorts of things.

And we used to go
to London, and...

we saw glen miller one time.

Oh, we used to go
all over the place.

They were wonderful times.

I never had
an American boyfriend.

I liked some of them.

They were nice boys, but...

I didn't want
to leave my mum and dad.

I wish I had, sometimes.

JANE: You know when you were 19
and the world just felt so open

And carefree
and full of possibility?

He reminded me of that.

Of that time.

You were 19 when we met.
Yeah.

I wouldn't have described
you as carefree back then.

Not at all.

Well, I felt nostalgia...

Or something... for youth.

You're not old, Jane.

We ran out on the bill.

You just ran... What do you
mean, you ran out on a bill?

Perhaps I'm not explaining it well.
It was...

it was fun.

It was just fun.

(CHURCH BELLS TOLL)

How was work?

The conductor is
actually a descendant

Of Walter Legge,
which is fascinating.

The three of us should plan
a dinner before we leave.

I'd like that.

Jane?

Oh, my god. It's...

This is Caleb.

Hi. Leonard. We were
just talking about you.

We were. That's so weird.

Sit. Please,
sit down. Join us.

Well...

What are the chances of that?
I know, right?

I've actually got
to get back pretty soon.

That's okay. I already ate,

So I'll just grab
a coffee or something.

Can I have the check, please?

(ORDERS COFFEE
IN ITALIAN)

Oh, no, thank you.

Jane?

Jane?

You don't smoke.

Yes, I do.

Sometimes, at parties.

I didn't know that.

Well, I don't do it a lot.

Italian food's so overrated.

I love it.

There's no variety.

English food,
on the other hand...

Say what you like about it,

There's nothing like a
good steak and kidney pie.

I went to this party the
other day, in this villa

Owned by this
old drunk ex-Pat,

And they had, like, a private
chef and everything...

and they were serving
this, like, loaf of meat

Covered in sauce with
all these other loaves.

This girl came over to me
and said it was cat.

No!
No joke.

Like a roasted mommy cat
and her kittens.

That is disgusting.

True story.

(BOTH CHUCKLE)

Why don't you tell Leonard
one of your viola jokes?

Come on.

You sound like my aunt.

Come on.
Let's hear one.

I have one.

What is the definition
of "perfect pitch"?

What?

When you throw a viola
into the dumpster

Without hitting the rim.

(SNICKERING)

You didn't just make that up.
I did.

Well, I'm impressed
and I'm stealing it.

You can pretty much make that
joke about any instrument.

Do you play anything, Caleb?

This and that, you know.

Shall we?

What? Time to go,
already?

Yeah, I've got to get
back to work.

LEONARD: So, what's next
on your agenda, Caleb?

CALEB: Um,
I'm thinking Tibet.

JANE: Oh, Tibet?
Really?

Yeah, there's this thing
called the Shoton festival...

at the end of the summer.
I've heard about that.

That's where the Buddhist monks

Unroll all the tapestries
on the hill, right?

The monks, the monks,
the monks.

It's so pretty.

How do you support yourself?

Oh, bit of this, bit of that.

All right, then.

I'll walk you. Does anybody have a pen?
You got a pen?

Yeah, I have a pen.

Okay.

I have a piece of paper.

You guys should definitely
come over to the island.

I'll take you somewhere
fun, you know.

Don't knock on the front door.
Come around the side.

90 Regina...

Ischia.

Here you go.

Thank you.

And thanks again for yesterday.

Oh, no problem.

Okay.

How stoned are you?

Come on, Leonard. It was just one puff.
It's not a big deal.

So you're saying
you smoke back at home?

Occasionally.

Hey, can we do
something fun tonight?

Sure.

I'm fine from here.

Okay.
See you after work.

Yep. I'll be waiting.

Hey. Oh, god, you scared me.

Are you following me?

Maybe. Is that weird?

Yeah.

I couldn't sleep last night.

You told me you were
staying near the port,

So I got the first
ferry this morning.

I came looking for you.

And I can't believe
I found you.

What are we doing?

I think we're making out.

You're so sexy.

And beautiful.

I can't.
I can't do this.

Why? Why?
I can't do this.

Why?

Do you do this a lot?
What?

Do you seduce women?
Is this what you do?

You need to be less serious.

Don't follow me.

GRANDMOTHER: There was
one boy from Belgium.

He was lovely.

He had a mustache.

(LAUGHING) my mother
hated mustaches.

But he was shipped off.

I never saw him again.

Anyways, I met your
grandfather not long after,

And we got married.

JANE: Was it love at
first sight with grandpa?

Love at first sight?

Stop that thing. We're...

Leonard.

You're home early.

What did I do to deserve that?

I just missed my husband.

Jane, I'm sorry,
just give me a minute.

A hell of a rest of my day.

Sorry, darling.

Hey, do you still want to
do something fun tonight?

Yeah, absolutely.
I brought some dinner.

Thought we'd just stay in here.
The two of us.

I've just got to work this
thing out before tomorrow.

Okay.
Okay.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

(VIOLA PLAYING)

Leonard.

Leonard.

Can we talk?

Say cheese.
Cheese.

You should kind of
be in the middle.

Never mind.

Hold on a second.

Look at that.

That's what our living
room is missing.

(CAMERA BEEPS,
THEN CLICKS)

What did you do? I put
my hand over my mouth.

You did?
What did you do?

Just waved.
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

(VOICES ARGUING)

(ARGUING IN ITALIAN)

(PASSIONATE GASPING)

Leonard?

Do you have any fantasies?

What?

What?

Is there anything you want?

Just as you are, Jane.
Just as you are.

You're all I need.

(KNOCKING ON DOOR)

Oh!

Hi.

Did I wake you?

No.

I think I need
to be less serious.

Yeah. Let me
put my pants on.

Mm-Kay.

Leonard thought
you were lying...

about those cats.

He said that?

Were you?
They were delicious.

You make me feel nervous.

You make me feel calm.

You want a drink?

(MUFFLED FOOTFALLS)

Is that him?

Yeah, he just shuffles
around all night.

Must be lonely.

VOICES ON TAPE: # again
and again and again #

# again and again and again #

# once I was single,
my heart it would jingle #

# I wish I were single again

# again and again and again #

# bom bom

# again and again and again #

# fewp fewp

# once I was single,
my pockets they'd jingle #

# I wish I were...
GRANDMOTHER: # single again

# bom bom

I didn't sleep at all last night.
Where've you been?

I was walking.

All night?

I've been thinking.

You left your phone here.
I had to plug it in.

We need to talk, Leonard.

I have to go to work.

Can you be late?
No. I can't be late.

Leonard... Jane, whatever
you have to say to me,

I wanna hear it.
But I've committed myself.

People are depending on me.
I have to go to work.

Okay.

GRANDMOTHER:
If it wasn't the war,

It would've been
something else.

There's always something
else, isn't there?

But that's the thing. That's
the thing about struggle.

I'm going to make some tea.
Do you want some?

I'm all right.

You go out like that again,
just tell me. I worry.

Okay.

I can't seem to figure out
what's going on in your head.

Do you think everything we've been
through actually does us any good?

In the long run?

Or do we just make out "struggle"
to be something meaningful

Because that's all
most of us have?

I tell you, next time
we come to Italy...

we need to get
a proper kitchen.

I don't know what you
want me to say, Jane.

If one little thing had changed
in my grandmother's life,

I might not be here.

Sometimes I worry
I'm not honoring her.

With the book?

No, with my life.

This is it, you know.

It ends with me.

GRANDMOTHER: In the harvest
time we all went to the field

Where they were
cutting the corn.

Everyone was chasing rabbits,

And then we had our tea
in the harvest fields.

The horses.

Yeah?
Mm-Hmm.

The horses back then,
they were kept beautifully.

Dad used to dress them
all up...

Brass things and...
And little horseshoes.

He'd put braids on them.

(GASPS)
they used to be gorgeous.

What are your plans
for tomorrow?

Grandmother:
There was one,

Duke.
He was a Clydesdale

I used to ride
down to the marshes

Every night when
he finished working.

They were lovely days, really.

CALEB: Go!

GRANDMOTHER:
They're gone, for me.

LEONARD: Jane?

GRANDMOTHER: But not for you.
Jane.

You know, it's
different for you.

In some ways it's easier.

You haven't got the war.

People don't die as much
as they did back then,

But in some ways
it's more disjointed.

You've got to make
your own life,

One that you love, and you
can't be afraid of the...

the time.

Time is shiftable.

There are moments in my
life that I would trade

60 years to have back again.
That's the truth.

You'll know the truth
when you find it.

It'll come to you like
something you've known before

Rather than something you're
learning for the first time.

Oh, sorry.
That's okay.

Ahh! Bollocks!
What is it?

(LEONARD GROANING)
ohh, you fu...!

Are you all right?

You okay?
Yeah. I stubbed my toe.

It's bleeding.

It's fine. It's fine,
it's fine. It's fine.

You finished in there?

Yes.

Fuck!

CALEB: I met these backpackers
last night, frank and Elsa.

She's French, he's German.

They're going to Tibet,

And I'm going with them.

I want you to come with me.

Hi.
Hi.

How are you?

Knackered.

Long day?

God, when are they not?

I don't think I'd jump at doing
another stint like this.

How's the writing going?

I'm feeling inspired.

That's fantastic.

I think I've figured out the
key to finishing the project.

Are you listening?

You found the key
to finishing this project.

The water here tastes so funny.

Have you ever cheated on me?

Oh, Jane.
Have you?

Can we not?

Have you?

Absolutely not.

Why did you take such
a long time to answer that?

Because I'm sick...

of what, Leonard?
Of it being so hard?

Yes.
Tedious?

I hate talking
about sex with you.

Is that what
we're talking about?

Normal people
talk about sex, Leonard.

And we don't?

There's just huge vacant
lots that we don't discuss.

Like what?

Is there anything
you want to ask me?

Why? Is there anything
you want to tell me?

I just wanna connect.

So you don't feel that
we're connected. Do you?

I love you.

I get it, Leonard.

I get it.

It's always been this big,
serious, grave thing for us.

Sex has consequences, life
and death, mostly death.

Jane, please. Let me guess. You
don't want to talk about it?

No, that's not what
I'm saying. You're just...

Do you want to have children, Leonard?
Of course I did.

Not "did." Do you want
to have children?

So did you, but...

say it.

Jane.
Say it.

I can't have children, Leonard.

I never will.

And if we keep trying,
they keep dying.

Please, Jane. Please. Again
and again and again.

How does that make you feel?

It's not your fault. How does
it make you feel, Leonard?

How does it make you feel?

You will never be a father.

We can adopt.

That's not
what you want, is it?

Is that what you want?

Hm?

'Cause I think about it
all the time.

That the one thing
you always wanted,

I will never be
able to give you.

What are you
trying to do, Jane?

I just want to know that there's
a reason... for it all.

You're not curious
about me, Leonard.

Not really.

What do you want me to know?
You shouldn't have to ask.

I feel as if you want
me to be someone I'm not.

Someone that I've never been.

I'm leaving you.

I've been seeing someone else.

Seeing?

Caleb.

That kid?
Yes.

That kid, that child, that kid
you've known for two days?

It's been longer than that.
Please tell me you're joking.

Time is shiftable.
I don't get it.

Leonard.
I don't get it.

He's asked me
to travel with him.

Are you sleeping with him?

What do you think?

(GLASS SHATTERS;
CAR HORN HONKS OUTSIDE)

I kept waiting for you
to see it, to smell it,

To sense it!

So, what?
I failed your test?

You don't see me!

I'm sorry.
For what?

I'm sorry.
For what?

I shouldn't have done that. No.

Losing my temper. I shouldn't have done that.
You had every right...

...to lose your temper.
No, no, no, no.

If you think that this is what's
gonna make you feel better,

Then you should go.
You should go with him.

You've been
through a terrible...

terrible thing, Jane.
No.

That is not what this is about.
Of course it is.

You don't love me
anymore, Leonard.

You don't love me!
That's... That's rubbish.

This is your ticket.

The day after my performance,

Meet me at the train station.

Our train leaves at 4:30.

We'll go home together.

I want you to do
what you need to do.

And then come back to me.

No questions asked, no guilt.

This is good.

(CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING)

(CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING)

(CLASSICAL PIECE ENDS)

(FINAL NOTE LINGERS)

Hi.

Hi.

You want some?

No thanks.

Frank and Elsa are...

comin' over in a couple hours.

Frank bought a car,
so we're gonna...

we're gonna head out
in a couple weeks...

or so, you know.

We're thinking about, uh...

Driving through Romania,
then... then, uh...

Ukraine,
then down through Russia,

And through Kazakhstan
and straight to, uh, Tibet.

(SPEAKING ITALIAN)

Ciao.

(INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT
OVER P.A. SYSTEM)

Jane!

You've got to come
over to this side.

The train's gonna
be here in a minute.

FEMALE VOCALIST:
# it's four in the morning

# the end of December

# I'm writing you now
just to see #

# if you're better

# New York is cold

# but I like where I'm living #

# there's music
on Clinton street #

# all through the evening

# I hear that you're building #

# your house

# deep in the desert

# are you living
for nothing now? #

# hope you're keeping

# some kind of record

# yes

# and Jane

# came by with
a lock of your hair #

# she said that you gave it #

# to her

# that night when
you planned to go clear #

GRANDMOTHER: I wouldn't
want to live to be 100.

JANE: Why not? I'm not
telling you why not.

FEMALE VOCALIST:
# did you ever go clear?

GRANDMOTHER:
Now shut that thing off!

FEMALE VOCALIST: # ah, the
last time we saw you #

# you looked so much older

# your famous blue raincoat #

# was torn at the shoulder

# you'd been to the station #

# to meet every train

# but she never turned up

# I mean Lily Marlene

# so you treated

# some woman

# to a flake

# of your life

# and when she got home

# she was nobody's wife

# well, I see you there

# with that rose
in your teeth #

# one more thin gypsy thief #

# well, I see Jane's awake #

# mm-Hmm

# she sends her regards

# and what can I tell you?

# oh, what can I tell you?

# what can I possibly say?

# I guess that I miss you

# I guess I forgive you

# I'm glad that you
stood in my way #

# and if you ever
come by here #

# be it for Jane

# or for me

# I want you to know

# your enemy is sleeping

# I want you to know

# your woman is free

# yes

# and thanks

# for the trouble you took #

# from her eyes

# I thought it was there

# for good

# so I never really tried

# and Jane

# came by

# with a lock of your hair

# she said that you
gave it to her #

# that night when you
planned to go clear #

# sincerely

# a friend