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May I Be at Peace

*Music: Please Eat by Nicole Dollanganger*

*If only I could give you enough*

*To give you what you need*

*If only I could be for you*

*The hand that feeds*

*cause I know you can only starve so much*

*Til you like how it feels*

*Sitting on a throne of bones*

*Staring at that cold meal*

*It's not your body that I love*

*But it's the shell you're inside of*

*And you're killing it*

*You're killing the only peice of you I can touch*

*It's not your body that I need*

*But that's what sleeps next to me*

*And you're killing it, you're killing it, you're killing it*

*Please eat*

Hey, you're back from your run early.

Yeah.

What would you like for breakfast?

I ate before I ran.

*laughs*

You know you're the only person I know who could do that.

Anybody else would have an upset tummy.

Whoa whoa whoa, shoes don't belong there, please take them to your room

to your room.

Thank you

I'm ready

You need to make a lunch.

Now I'm ready.

Are you sure you don't want to make a sandwich

or something? We have time.

Mommy?

What honey?

Can you pack me cookies today?

Oh my gosh, why do you want cookies?

Because you never pack me cookies.

Because they're not the best for you.

They're full of calories.

What are calories?

Something that you never have to worry about.

I'm going to pack you cookies today, but it will not be a regular thing.

Wahoo! Yay! Yay! Yay! Dab Dab

You're not even ready.

I have pants on.

Okay great. We're about to leave.

Just hold on.

Have you been playing that game all night?

No.

Okay when did you sleep?

At some point.

And that's your breakfast?

Better than yours.

*Game over*

Aw come on. That's so unfair

You're not going to need that jacket today.

It's freezing.

It's September... in Texas.

I'm cold.

Okay.

Ready

Finally.

*Music: Weightless by Mi*

*Hi my name is Ana and I'm here to save you*

*Very smart of you to call me*

*We will work together and we'll leave no footprints*

*We'll have wings eventually*

*I want to embrace you*

*I will help you to control*

*I will hurt like hell*

*I will swallow your sweet soul*

*It will be nailed to your jawbone*

*It is painted on the mirror*

*Stripped to the bone*

*To the soul, to the I don't know*

*Stripped to the core, to the matters of the flesh and oh*

*Stripped to the 4 in the morning laughs and lullabyes*

*ominous music*

*Thank you and goodbye*

*Toilet flushes*

*I want to embrace you*

*I will make you steal and lie*

*I will hurt like hell*

*I will kill you in no time*

Hey Emily

*It will be nailed to your jawbone*

Hey Emily!

Hey Travis

How was school today?

Boring as usual.

Hey Em- you feeling okay? You look a little-

I'm fine.

How 'bout you?

Um. Fine.

You sure you wanna go boxing today?

I'm positive.

*Music*

*Boxing gym*

Hey Emily

You up to spar?

Yeah...

I'll take it easy on you.

Remember keep your hands up.

I know!

Alright you got me you got me.

What? Aren't you to hit back?

Emily...

No, what's wrong?

I can't hit you.

Why not? We've sparred plenty of times before.

You look sick.

I'm fine.

I just really wish that people would keep their stupid concerns to themselves

Emily I didn't mean.

Leave me alone Travis

Emily!

Oh my God. No... Emily

*Sirens*

*Music*

I don't want this.

I don't want this.

And I don't want this.

I don't want any of this.

Hey.

Emily.

Go away!

We have to talk

I don't want to talk to you.

Honey we have to talk.

About what?

Emily. You almost died.

God, don't cry mom.

Please.

I don't want to lose you.

I'm sorry.

Oh honey.

There's nothing for you to be sorry about.

I'm sorry.

I didn't know anything was going on.

How long has what been going on?

How long has what been going on?

Emily.

What?

The doctors say have anorexia nervosa.

Travis says you haven't been eating.

Travis doesn't know anything.

We need to get you help.

I don't need help.

Yes, you do

No I don't.

It's not a big deal.

You literally just come home from the

hospital.

Emily.

You need to realize how serious this is.

The doctors who referred us to a place

for you to stay.

What?

No, I'm staying here.

It's called Paravel Court and it's a

treatment. It's a treatment center for children with eating disorders.

I don't have an eating disorder!

That's stupid.

The treatment center is in

Nevada, and you're going there to tomorrow.

Nevada? Tomorrow? No you can't be serious.

Oh I'm dead serious this is the best thing for you.

No no mom it's not and I'm not going.

Emily, please.

This is hard for both of us.

Your sisters are so worried about you.

You told them?

Yes I told them.

Scout and Ari care about you.

No they don't.

They do honey, they just

don't understand what's happening.

Scout does.

Scout knew?

No no.

Stop it.

Okay just just stop it right now.

Stop what? You need help.

I don't need help!

I don't need anything.

In fact I want you to leave.

Emily, please.

No I want you to leave me alone.

*music*

Can we take the stairs?

There aren't any stairs to the 8th floor.

They did it that way on

purpose.

That's stupid

Hi are you the Pevensies?

We are. We are

This is my daughter Emily.

Hi Mrs. Pevensie,

I'm nurse Katrina I'm just here to help with admissions. I need a minute to talk

with the two of you in my office.

Alright.

Was it a long trip?

Um yeah it was it was a long trip but we made it.

We're very

happy to have you here Emily the other girls have been talking about you all

day.

Talking about me?

Oh oh don't worry they just know a new person is coming in,

they're very nice all of them.

Okay, so first things first, I need a quick

identification photo

thank you- and I need you to fill out some

paperwork- just need a signature down at the bottom there.

Sure.

Can you please

be more mature?

I don't feel like it.

Alrighty that will work.

Mrs. Pevensie I'm going to have you talk to the

administration office now and Emily we get to go to the nurse's station.

We're gonna take your height, your weight, and some blood samples.

*music*

This way dear.

Hi are you Emily?

It's wonderful to meet you, I'm Jenna.

Great.

I'm your therapy group leader. Um why don't you take a seat next to Marie?

we're just doing some arts and crafts at the moment.

I like your sweater.

Nice drawing.

I'm Marie, also new, if you're wondering, I got here this morning.

I'm Jasmine I've been here the longest.

How long?

Two months.

Sucks.

So what am I

supposed to be doing?

Just coloring, it's pretty much a free draw day.

And how is

that supposed to help me?

It's therapeutic

Got it.

Nice shot.

How old are you?

16.

I'm 14.

Are you from Nevada?

It's Nevada-

It's Nevada.

I'm from Texas.

Really? I've never met a Texan before.

Where you from?

New York- my parents work for the Times.

I didn't know that.

I'm from California by the way so it wasn't a long drive for me.

I'm from Reno, Nevada

Would any of you girls like to share what you've been working on? Emily that's

a really pretty drawing you've got there.

It's really good.

No thanks.

Are you

sure?

Yeah.

Okay then Cleo, how about you?

Nope.

Okay anyone?

Me. This is me tonight

when I get my stupid feeding tube off. I'm gonna look so amazing.

I'm loving the

positive body image.

Yeah, well I'm real done with this thing

Well we're all very proud of you for continuing to give you a body nutrients.

As long as I don't have to wear this stupid thing.

I'll go.

This is me on the

trampoline practicing my tricks for gymnastics.

Wow I love how you express

your love for gymnastics Marie and I also see how you incorporated some

unhealthy behaviors in your artwork.

What?

Sometimes depicting exercise is

triggering to the girls.

Oh sorry.

Oh don't apologize we've all been new once,

right girls?

Right.

So do you get to take that thing off at night?

God, I wish.

I only have it in at night when it's active, but nothing's in it right now, they just

never take it out.

So um, how long have you had it on?

Since I got here it's horrible. But

you're getting it out tonight.

I am.

Hey girls, you all ready for snack?

Well start

getting ready. Blankets off, jackets stay behind do any

of you need to use the restroom?

I'll take them on my way out.

I don't believe we've met. What's your name?

Emily.

It's nice to meet you

Marie and Emily.

We're very happy to have you guys with us. Do you either be you

need to use the restroom? I do. Alright let's go catch up with

the other girls.

So we ask that you don't flush and have one of us come flush for you

it's just a precautionary measure. This is stupid

you might think that but it's just to keep you safe and accountable.

*toilet flushes*

Emily

Where's Eva? Oh she's eating with her therapist. Hey Richie. How was therapy? It was good.

Remember to keep your jacket in the other room. Jackets off the table elbows on the tables girls. Get your hands out of your laps. Cleo get your

head out of the bowl. You girls don't have meal plans yet so we'll get your

specific snacks after you meet with your dietitian. Who wants to ring the bell?

*bell rings loudly*

Cleo, we talked about this. Softer next time. Okay All Right girls you have 15 minutes

to finish your snacks after that we'll bring that supplement. What supplement?

it's weight gain shakes. Richie let's redirect that thought. Supplement is all

the nutrition that your body needs. Usually it comes in liquid form

I had it for lunch. Was it good? Let's not answer that question. Who

wants to play a game? I don't really feel like it. I do. Do you wanna play target? What's target? You

pick an item from Target and people guess until they get it. It's like 20

questions. It's fun when Cleo doesn't choose it every time. I already have my

target. Oh really? no way okay.

is it in the beauty section? The booty section?

the beauty section. no it's not in the booty section. I didn't say that!

is it in the dollar section? No. Did you just change your item? maybe. Cleo, you can't do that.

now it works that way.

Savannah? what's wrong you're so close to your

release date I don't want to see you take a step back. I just don't want to

today.

Can you take a bite?

why? because it's full of energy and nourishing. So? So, food is a good thing

no it's not. Would you tell that to Marie? No. Then why tell that to yourself? There's a difference.

Well here we want you to see that there's not one. Alright girls time's up what flavor supplement can i get you

I got chocolate strawberry vanilla. Neapolitan. Well I could only get

you one. Chocolate is the least awful. Richie that's another redirection. Sorry

Emily I'll get you chocolate please try to work on it and Marie what can I get you?

Chocolate.

Aright you girls have five minutes to finish your supplement. And what if I

don't? Then it gets reported to your dietician.

Screw this

This group is about anger and how we feel it in our bodies. Marie, where do you

feel your anger? I feel my anger in my chest. Good. If you had to draw anger for me, what would it look

like? It would be red and explosive like a giant fireball.

Sorry to interrupt. Is there an Emily I can snag? So I know that you just got

here all the way from Texas. How are you liking it so far? It sucks a lot. I

understand I know this can be a difficult change for you. You know it's

just stupid I mean you're dumb coloring and your dumb meal games aren't

going to help me get better. Okay what is gonna help you get better? I'm not

supposed to be here. Did you know if we went back in that room and asked each person

if they thought that they had an eating disorder, most of them would say the

exact same thing. Yes, but I'm telling the truth. What makes you think that?

I mean look at me- do I look like I have an eating disorder?

What does someone that has an eating disorder look like? I don't know. Emily

how you look doesn't determine whether or not you're sick. It doesn't determine

whether you need treatment or not. I look fat. People that have anorexia often

suffer from body dysmorphia as well. They can't see themselves for who they truly

are, both mentally and physically. Look, I think that you're a really smart kid- You

don't know that. What you don't know me, so you don't know whether I'm a smart

kid or not. Right off the bat you're lying to me do

You have to find it hard to trust people. This is stupid. I'm leaving. Emily I need

you to sit back down. Why? We won't talk anymore about the eating disorder, okay?

Let's just go through this paperwork. Sounds exciting

I need to ask you about self-harm. Have you ever tried to harm yourself? No. Emily

I have the nurses inspection. Have you ever thought about harming someone else? No, of

course not. Have you ever considered suicide? No. Are you sure? Yes. Hello Emily

I'm Maggie, your dietitian. I'll be creating your meal plan and putting you

on a healthy course to wait restoration. Weight restoration?

What's that? According to the nurse, your weight isn't in a healthy range so we

need to increase your food intake to make up for it. You're saying that you

want to make me gain weight? We want to bring you up to a healthy weight. No

No, no way. I'm not doing that. Your body needs nourishment Emily we're

here to provide that for you. Bullshit. You just want to make me fatter

than I already am. And what good would that do me? I don't know maybe it'd make

my mom happy? maybe she'd pay you more? I can assure

you that's not how things work around here. Well, whatever it is, I'm not eating your

stupid meal plan. Unfortunately if you choose not to comply we'll need to

proceed with a tube I'm not sure if you've seen them around here but girls

who don't eat the meal plan get a tube that goes in their nose and down to

their stomach. It's the worst we can do around here but it's all to ensure your

safety. This is stupid. I want you to understand

the seriousness of this Emily. Your vitals are just barely scraping by and

you're at risk of heart failure. If you don't eat you could die

Everyone here wants you to succeed. No one wants to see you go. I'm giving you a

meal plan that will be put in place tonight at dinner. Please try to eat

something or I will have to implement the tube.

Who wants to ring the bell? I will! Please not again

let's let someone else go this time. I'll do it

May I be at peace. Thank You Jasmine

You girls have 30 minutes to finish your

dinner. Please try. Why? What's the point of anything? The point is to keep going- I

guess. Look- I want to see you in the Olympics doing gymnastics some

Gymnastics is all I'm good at- I don't even have that anymore

Just eat it. That's the only way you're getting out of here. Cleo. What? It's true

That's the way I'm getting out of here. You have to eat to get out of here

That's how it works. You either eat now or get the tooth later. Girls!

I really don't want to have this discussion right now please eat your

dinner

Hi I'm your new roommate. Chill um I'm on this bed as you can see but that

one's yours. My old roommate left last week so I've

been on my own a while. Are you okay?

Yeah. Well I'm here to talk. I'm fine... It's just, I don't want to be

here. Yeah that's a pretty common phrase around here I guess. Trust me I know that

I need to be here sometimes it's just hard. How long have you been here? This

is my third week, but trust me it gets easier. I just wish that my parents

would pull me out of this place. My mom keeps trying to. Doesn't she want you to get better?

She doesn't think that I have a problem. I'm sorry. It's okay I believed her for the longest time. She was so obsessed

with me being the skinniest pageant girl so she put me in weight loss clinics and

when diet after diet didn't work she humiliated me in front of everyone that

I knew. I just remembered that it made me get worse started binging and spiraling

down and and so my dad finally put me in here... but they're separated now so

I'm not sure if she's going to keep trying to pull me out. Richie...

that's horrible. Can she even do that? I don't

know but my therapist is trying to figure it out. I didn't think that I had

a problem and my mom didn't know for the longest time she didn't know well I

never told her. I kept it a secret and I didn't really want anyone to know so I

think I just really miss her. Well hey we get phone calls tomorrow so

don't worry. I am going to call my boyfriend.

You have boyfriend? Yep. His name is Andrew and he's a senior

Do you? No. Never have. I don't have any friends either. No one? Well I do have a friend-

Travis. He and I do boxing together. Ooooh tell me about Travis. He's no one- he's no one

Um he's older than me and we just know each other with your boxing. Okay that

doesn't mean that nothing's going to happen

Nothing is definitely going to happen.

Okay.

*screaming* No Stop!

(Screaming) Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!

Hey who's next door?

I think Jasmine's getting her tube off.

That doesn't sound like Jasmine.

*continued screaming*

It's Marie.

Can you please eat your food Marie?

We get to watch a movie tonight don't we?

Is it Saturday already?

Yeah I want to

watch Hunchback of Notre Dame.

We watched your movie last week Cleo. It's our turn

to pick. Well pick Hunchback of Notre Dame.

I want to watch Friends.

You always watch Friends.

Friends is not an appropriate show to watch here.

Let's keep it PG.

Yeah I'm 12.

We know Cleo.

Is there anyone new coming

today?

I don't think so- but oh yes there's a boy coming next Friday.

A boy?

There's a boy coming here?

Yes boys do come here.

Where is he gonna sleep

Uh in a room probably by himself.

Lucky. I want a room by myself.

So do I.

What's his name?

His name is Noah and I'll be here Friday.

I'll be gone by then.

You got a release date?

Yeah, Monday.

Congrats that's amazing!

Yeah Savannah we're very proud of you.

Thanks.

So what should we watch tonight?

Hunchback of Notre Dame.

We are not watching a cartoon!

*Movie*

*Let the world honor you*

*Live forever amung the stars*

This isn't Hunchback.

Ha!

I love this movie.

*Go! Get to safety!*

*Thalia no!*

*Go Annabeth!*

*Take care of her for me*

Hey. You okay?

Dad's just angry.

He's angry?

Why?

He just thinks I'm not trying hard enough.

That I wouldn't have the tube if I just ate the food in the first place.

What the hell?

He doesn't know what this is like.

Do you think it's my fault that I'm here?

No.

Then why is it yours?

Richie.

Yeah?

Life sucks.

I know.

Life really sucks.

Well it gets better.

We've all been told that it gets better bullshit.

You know I used to think

like that a lot and then I started to think of the good things in life like

simplicity, the Bible, God all the things that I couldn't focus on if I was

binging or self-harming.

Is that what this place does to you?

What do you mean?

Richie- if in a month or so I become a Bible freak will you kill me? Hey, I am

Hey, I'm NOT a Bible Freak okay?

It just brings me peace.

Yeah right.

Good night Richie

In honor of Savannah's last meal at Paravel Court, We will offer her the bell

May I be at peace.

I was actually in a good mood today

So was I. I actually woke up thinking I could eat breakfast.

That's a really good

goal Marie I think you should try taking a few bites.

I think I will.

Emily what's up?

I just don't feel like breakfast today.

Do you think it would

help if we played a game?

Can we play target?

Not again.

Would if help if we took a bite together?

Good job.

I'm proud of you.

Thanks.

I heard that you completed your breakfast this morning.

That's excellent progress Emily.

I only did it to avoid the tube.

Is that the

only reason you did it?

I mean I want Marie to eat.

I was kind of a bad

example earlier and if she isn't eat then she'll never get off that tube.

That's very noble of you to do that her.

No, I'm just trying not to be a dick.

What about Marie do you think is worth fighting for?

I think she deserves to get

out of here.

Like she's a really good gymnast you know and she tells me about

all of her competitions in it it just sucks that she's stuck.

And what about you?

Anything in your life worth fighting for?

No.

You can't think of anything that you miss from your normal life?

I miss my bedroom.

Not too keen on roommates?

No I think I must have pissed mine off

somehow.

You can't think of anything else that you miss?

I'm a boxer, I miss that.

Okay. Do you think that's something that you and I could work towards?

No, I'm not

giving you anything you can dangle in front of me.

I'm not trying to dangle

anything in front of you Emily, I'm just trying to give you some motivation the

way you gave Marie. Nobody's gonna get you out of here but you.

Savannah wanted to come by and say goodbye to everyone.

Savannah I'm gonna miss you so much. Please don't ever come back here though.

I get a room to myself now!

You're beautiful, don't forget that.

Cute scarf.

Thanks! They finally gave it back to me after I promised I wouldn't hang

myself with it.

How are you always dressed so cute?

I mean honestly I was going to ask you that myself.

My grandpa used to say when you're

feeling crappy, put on something extra nice.

I wanna try that.

You should.

Hey want to join our game? Me and Emily can start over.

Oh no!

You are only saying that because you're losing!

I am NOT deal Marie in.

I really hope she'll be okay.

Savannah I mean.

Yeah she didn't seem too happy to leave.

Well

she's lucky she got on in one month. I feel like I'm never getting out of here.

You'll get out someday Jasmine, don't worry.

I mean I feel like I've already

been here in eternity.

Well they're not gonna let you leave if you don't eat.

I ate breakfast.

Well that's good but it requires completion or they're either

gonna put you on the tube, or more food later on.

Mail time girls. Cleo this

package for you, but hold on cuz I need to check it first. Jasmine a letter. You

girls probably have letters on the way it sometimes just takes a while for the

mail to go through our system.

Who's your letter from?

My mom. It's just her new column.

Yay I got a new doll.

How was your weekend?

Not great.

I saw you completed breakfast this

morning. That's really good.

Thank you.

Unfortunately your weight is still on a

downward trend and I'll probably have to put you on the tube.

You can't do that I

ate breakfast. I ate all of it.

But you hardly touched your lunch.

I ate most a morning snack and and I'll need dinner too.

Emily

If you can eat all of dinner tonight, then and only then will I not put you on

the tube- but if there's even a bite left I'll have to go ahead with the procedure.

Can it be lunch tomorrow instead? It should be lunch tomorrow too.

From now on I need to be seeing 100% completion from you. You're in dangerous

territory right. I can't eat everything. I'm sorry this is what it's come to

Listen, I believe in you.

The staff believes in you, you can beat

this disorder and we are fully prepared to help you do it.

I just want to get out of here.

Eating will help you do that too.

Can I go back to the group room please?

Yes you may. Remember 100% completion

Are you okay?

You can do this Emily.

I already ate breakfast this morning.

So did I.

I'm here for you Emily.

Thanks Cleo.

Can we play target now?

I have an item.

What do you think is stopping you?

I'm just scared I guess.

I understand but food can't do you any harm

I'm- I'm trying to think of it as like medicine I guess

I can't do this.

What do you need right now Emily?

I need to leave.

Please sit back down.

Emily you don't want the tube I promise.

I used to love rice.

Me too.

I don't even have time to finish this

You can do this, Emily

I beleive in you.

*Timer rings*

Good job, Emily.

*Ominous music*

What is this?

Cleo?

I didn't do anything!

It's the ghost

What ghost? The ghost of Resident 22.

What's that?

Oh, you haven't heard?

Resident 22 is haunted. You see Emily and

I, we're in resident 23 but at night we can hear ghostly sounds.

That's why there's never anyone in there.

Emily, tell me that's not true.

Tell them that's not true

They're telling the truth Cleo.

Resident 22 is definitely haunted. At night I can hear ghostly whispers

beckoning me to resident 22.

Alright girls, enough. Obviously we just

forgot to clean up before dinner. Let's get going.

Do you think resident 22 is real?

I don't know. Maybe the other girls are just poking fun.

Oh, I thought you were in the shower.

No.

The water is running.

I think it's coming

from the room next door.

There's nobody in that room, remember?

Resident 22.

Yeah.

Don't try to scare me. I know that we were just messing with Cleo today. Yeah

but somebody's definitely in that shower next door.

It was probably just one of

the cleaning ladies... deciding that now was a good time to take a shower...

at work?

Yeah

Well anyways it gives us good material to scare Cleo with tomorrow.

Hey Richie?

Yeah?

I'm sorry...

about what I said last night.

The whole Bible Freak thing... it was a bad day

Trust me, it's okay... most people make fun

of me for my weight, so it almost felt good to be made fun of for being too

into my religion.

Yeah but I wish people wouldn't make fun of you for anything.

Well it makes thicker skin. That's what my mom says.

Yeah but other times it just

hurts and for no good reason.

What are you doing?

Mom said not to eat ice cream anymore

Please don't tell mom okay? Please promise me Sydney, you promise me right

now that you're not gonna tell mom! Okay okay okay?

Okay. Okay.

So how did today's lunch make

you feel? Emily do you want to share?

Today's lunch was hard... but it's getting easier. A little. I-I still feel like crap

but I'm completing.

Emily that's incredible I'm so proud of how far

you've come.

Richie do you want to share?

I'm not

doing so great if I'm being honest.

What do you think is leading to these

negative emotions?

Honestly I think it's just hard for me to be the only one here

who eats because they can't stop eating.

No matter how hard I try or what I do

and no one really seems to understand it and that's frustrating. You guys are

always talking about how horrible it is to be gaining weight but imagine what

that's like for me. I mean if you guys stepped on the scale and saw my numbers

then you'd probably want to kill yourselves too.

And Emily, look at you

you're thin and gorgeous and everything that my mom wants me to be but I can't

be that because I'm sick. So if you guys think that refusing to eat helps your

body in any way then think again.

And Jenna, these negative emotions they never

leave and they never start or end because

they're always there.

I hear you Richie and I know it's hard.

Can anyone relate

to her?

I can.

I have bulimia and I didn't really talk about it because I didn't

think people would really want to talk to me if I said anything cuz I'm

different.

I see well that's very brave of you to

speak up about it now.

Yeah some girls at school told me about it and they said

it'd make me cool.

Well, I'm not exactly cool and I'm stuck in this dumb place.

I actually think it's really brave for you to tell us

Cleo and of course we wouldn't judge you for having a different struggle. We're

all here for the same reason and that's overcoming an eating disorder. That was

very insightful. What do you and Richie have to say?

I think I should be more sharing.

Yeah, well I think I should be skinny like everyone else.

Can you take them?

Yeah sorry about that.

Girls I'd like you to meet Noah, just

arrived from.. where'd you say you're from?

Kansas.

That's right.

It's the boy!

Noah come sit next to me!

Hi Noah.

So what are you girls working on?

Meal group.

Did you finish?

Yeah.

Guess what Noah? We have our own rooms isn't that great?

Sounds great.

Actually Cleo, you

won't be on your own for much longer. There's a new girl coming on Monday.

That's not fair.

Can't she just stay home or something?

I'm afraid not.

Jasmine said that we have different group leaders next week right?

Uhh I think it's Mallory and Kristen.

Mallory's the worst she hates children

Wait, we're getting different group leaders?

Yeah we rotate units every two weeks I'll

be on the adult side on Monday.

Mallory hates us.

Alright, Mallory loves you guys.

We're done for.

The ship is sunk, run for the shore.

Hey, Cleo?

Can i snag you?

Don't let her take us alive

I have a very important announcement to make

is it that you want to play target again?

No.

It's that I'm leaving on Monday

Congrats!

Good job Cleo.

Congrats

Cleo that's awesome

Wow you guys are such downers.

This means I only have to deal with Malory for one

more day and then I can do whatever I want

This doesn't include you setting off all the hospital arms and running through

the front doors like I know you been playing right?

No.

This means it's karaoke night.

*Karaoke Music (Fashionista by Jimmy James)*

*Everybody line up*

*The show is about to start*

*Places*

*The show is about to start*

*You have to show a look*

*Have a look*

*Or give a look*

*Faces*

*Beautiful*

*No one, ugly, allowed*

*Are you ready? Here we go.*

*Fashion is the art*

Maggie said I might get the tube off soon.

Really?

That's fantastic Marie, I'm so proud of you.

It makes me think about how much I must be completing, but also how much weight I must be gaining.

Yeah, I think about that too.

But uh, just remember it's what your body needs.

It's what's best for you.

Do you really believe that?

I'm trying.

Come join me!

*Sean, John, Calvin Klein*

*Donna Karan's fashion line*

*Valentino, YSL*

*Ferragamo and Chanel*

*Holsten, Gucci, Figla, Rucci*

*Don't forget my Pucci*

*Fendi and Armani*

*God I miss Gianni*

*Alexander Perkovitch*

*Naomi Cambell's such a bitch*

Get on the stage with me!

What are you wearing!!?

Everyone I would like you to give a warm welcome to miss Serena. She's our newest

resident.

Hi Sirena. Do you wanna sit with us?

So we're making stupid animals.

Spirit animals!

Do you wanna make one?

Okay.

Marie I suck at this.

You don't have to be good.

Serena. What are you making?

A dead person.

You're sculpting a corpse?

Yes.

Nice.

Just um don't let the group leader see you.

So um.

You just got out of the hospital?

Yeah, six weeks on my deathbed now two months in the looney bin.

She sounds a lot like you.

Yeah right

That's my roommate?

Serena, can you please try to eat something?

Come on Serena.

You can do it.

So who's parents are coming to see them on

visiting day?

Mine.

Mine are too I guess.

I think mine are

I'm sure mine are excited to pull me out.

Wait you're leaving too?

Well not officially.

Your therapist is the

ones who decides whether or not you're leading so I wouldn't worry about it.

Still worrying.

Please try eating something

Can you please try taking a bite?

Noah, what's wrong?

Can I please get some more water.

I'm sorry I could only allow you 16 ounces at meals.

I just really need more water the food is too salty, I really need more water I

Let's not talk about the food.

I really need more water.

I can't look at the food.

Noah. Breathe.

It's okay.

No, I hate this.

Noah I'm here for you.

Noah.

Girls stay here.

Oh Emily.

I have missed you so much.

I miss you too.

I thought Scout and

Ari were coming.

They're in the lobby. They just wanted me to see you first. So-

Did the doctors tell you how much longer I have?

You have to be a healthy weight

before they release you and that they may take a month or two but that's not

even addressing the psychological issues.

I hate this.

I'm so proud of you for staying.

It's not like I have a choice.

Did you get the schoolwork I've sent you?

Yes.

Are you working on it?

Slowly.

Good.

Your teacher seemed very understanding and they want you to get better

You told them?!

Honey I had to. They're not going to excuse you for no reason.

Can we come in?

Yeah? Girls come in hold on just a second listen this I think this is one of the

doctors trying to find me okay hang on just a minute

It's nice in here.

No, not when you're not allowed out.

It's like a vacation from

school and stuff.

I miserable Scout.

And that's your own fault isn't it?

Like all you ever did was stop eating the now mom's whole life revolves around making

sure you're well.

I'm sorry if my problems led to yours.

I just don't get it.

You're supposed to like eating. It's just food.

That's not how it works.

That's exactly how it works. You're being selfish

Emily that's all you are is selfish.

I'm sorry Scout.

I just don't understand.

Is that really all you came here to say?

You flew all the way across the United States just to make me

feel like shit.

It's worth it. Because you make me feel like shit every day.

Emily?

Yeah Ari?

Do you think I'm fat?

No.

No baby.

Don't ever think that. Okay?

It's just that Scout keeps talking about things and if you think you're fat then- No.

No Ari.

Please... don't even think that.

It's it's only what her body's look like on the outside.

Okay?

And it's got nothing to do with what's on the inside.

Mandy says I'm fat.

Mandy is lying.

Okay?

She's probably got her own

struggles that she's dealing with it and she's taking them out on you.

She says if I lost weight, I wouldn't be such a loser.

Please- please don't listen to her Ari.

Promise me that we're gonna go home and eat some cookies.

I just wish you could come home too.

Yeah, me too.

Is that Mallory?

Yeah.

Richie got a package for you

Wait did you check it?

Don't tell me how to do my job kid.

well I'm leaving tomorrow so I don't care what you have to say about me.

You want me to make that stay longer?

No ma'am

Now who's Emily and Marie? You guys are doubling like flies. Your

letters are at the front.

I'm Emily.

I'm Marie.

Group time ladies

and Noah.

Come on go it's group.

Noah come sit by me.

So I wanted to open up the

group - you ought to say something maybe it's how you're feeling or you just want

to get something off your chest.

I already wish I could go home.

Noah, let's

hear from you.

How's it been going the transition to

parallel court life?

It's okay I guess.

But I'm the only boy here and that's weird.

That's a change definitely.

Tell us how that's feeling.

Fine I guess I just

wish I wasn't so afraid of the food.

I'm sure everyone here has felt that way.

I've felt that way.

Thank You Cleo

and thank you Noah for sharing.

You're welcome.

Serena would you like to contribute?

Serena we care about you here.

Is it anyone going to go after her?

I don't think we're supposed to.

Fine.

Then I'll go get her.

Hey.

What's up?

So my my mom lied.

She said there were no stairs to the eighth floor.

Leave me alone.

I don't want you to be alone right now.

You have no idea.

Are you safe?

Okay.

Listen,

I don't know a lot about you,

but when I was 10 I had a lot of bad thoughts.

I want them to just let me die.

I know.

I know.

You know Marie was right she

said we were a lot alike.

I think we have a lot of the same thoughts but that

doesn't make them okay. Sometimes they want to hurt us instead of help us

And you're 10,

you have so much life ahead of you

it's it's a good life too

it's not stuck in some hospital or in some dingy

classroom it's it's happiness.

I don't want you to do this to yourself it's not

your time to go.

If I die here, no one at school would have to know.

You're completely right

but I would know

and your parents would know and your friends would know and they would miss you but

we both know that listing people that care isn't gonna solve the problem.

We both know people are going to miss us whether we admit it or not.

I don't know

I guess it's just the the guilt and shame that makes it so hard to keep living.

I'd rather die than gain weight.

What is so bad about weight?

I guess it makes you

a bad person?

But doesn't really?

I mean I weigh a lot more than you obviously.

Does that make me a bad person?

No. I I don't think so.

Exactly.

Serena you have a lot to live for

and I'm not gonna give you the that it

gets better bullshit we've both heard

and sometimes I think it's not even

about living for something

I think it's about the living through it and finding

the gems even in the darkest times.

I mean I got myself in this situation

right?

I started counting my calories when I was 10 I had hit nothing but a

spiral into this

but I already met so many amazing people along the way and that's how life is

it's finding those gems even in the darkest times

Promise me that you'll be safe tonight. Okay?

Where did you get that?

Mallory gave it to me to open a package.

I guess it just slipped her mind

And you're going to give it back right?

Yeah.

Right.

There's that sound.

It's coming for Resident 22.

Sure it is Richie.

I'm gonna go check it out.

*alarm sounds*

it's Serena, she actually escaped.

I'm going after her.

No don't! If you do then the police will probably go after you too.

But what if I don't.

Emily!

Marie, what is it?

Marie, I'm so sorry but I

have to go.

I saw my numbers.

My weight Emily. I saw my numbers.

I'm so sorry Marie.

And they're way too high.

I'm so sorry.

Mallory doesn't care enough to go after Serena

and she doesn't care enough to go after any of us either.

Serena's gonna kill

herself if no one stops her.

Hey.

Sirena!

What are you doing?

I don't know.

I don't know anymore.

Please come back inside.

No.

I don't want to. They're going to make me so fat.

They're not going to make you fat.

I'm so scared.

I know.

Will you come back with me?

Yes of course I will.

*Sirens*

Where's Marie?

I just have to check on her.

Emily- Emily.

No let me go!

Emily I'm sorry!

I'm sorry.

Where is she? Where is she?

She's gone, Emily.

No! no no.

Emily, you haven't eaten in three weeks.

I'm very worried about you.

I killed Marie.

You didn't kill Marie, Emily.

Again we're so sorry that

the hospital let this happen.

Mallory gave Richie a knife to open up her box with

but I took the

knife from Richie

and Marie got the knife from me because I left it out in

the open.

It's my fault.

Mallory has been more than fired.

Police are looking into it and investigating

the hospital. We're gonna make sure that nothing like this ever happens again.

But I had the knife last.

Things like this happen.

But you weren't supposed to let it happen!

Marie was supposed to be safe she had a life

Lillian!

I now it's over.

And it's my fault.

That doesn't your life has to be over.

Yes it does!

It's my fault. It's my fault.

It's not your fault.

I wish you knew that it wasn't your fault.

Your picture was kind of stupid.

It didn't have like a head.

Oh Sirena, Emily's back.

Hey.

I know what you're doing we think like remember?

I really can't do this right now.

You're trying to kill yourself by not eating.

I get it and I

don't want you to be alone right now.

You got your tube out.

Oh yeah it is.

I know you think you killed Marie you didn't but

you saved me.

Well I'm glad I didn't kill two people.

Seriously I don't know where

I'd be without you Emily.

Thank you.

Guys I'm leaving tomorrow!

You are?! Oh my gosh! Great!

That means I get to pick the movie tonight!

Uh! Wait a minute.

It's an important occasion

What if I wanna go first?

Well I'm just making this harder for you.

You guys wanna play the Target game?

Yeah sure.

Do you wanna start?

Because its just- I don't know!

The palm trees too- just...

Everyone

This is Bella, she's new.

Come sit with us.

Jasmine, would you like to do the honors?

No. I'm done with the bell.

I'll do it.

Thanks for volunteering.

May I be at peace.

Alright, you all have 30 minutes.

*music* 'Royalty' by China

*You*

*Are never too small*

*You are never not enough*

*No mountain's too tall*

*And you*

*Answer the call*

*But you're a diamond in a rough*

*You can shine right through it all*

*Make no mistake, just get ready*

*To go higher than you've ever been before*

*Don't try to run, just go steady*

*There's a future waiting with so much in store*

*Don't be*

*Moved if they should try to break your heart down*

*The things you face will soon turn into your crown*

*You'll make it if you just truly believe*

*That you're royalty*

*Don't cry*

*If they don't see the sparkle dance in your eye*

*The only praise you'll need comes from inside*

*Don't let them be the only ones to see*

*That you're royalty*

*You*

*Are beautifully made*

*You just need to love yourself*

*Stand unafraid*

*And you*

*Have a price that's well paid*

*So get rid of all your shame, let life be conveyed*

*Make no mistake, you might be the outcast*

*But that doesn't mean that you're out of the race*

Aleis, can you go stand on the 'T' please?

Yeah.

Action!

This is stupid.

I know baby.

Sofia.

Hi.

Do you have anything to say?

Um, check out Richard Lord's boxing gym.

I can give her a real black eye.

Everything you say hospital keep thinking you're saying hot-spital

What the heck?

The creator...

of the Snowman

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Heck yeah.

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