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I would rather dive in head first...

Stay with me sir...

Maybe one day my friend...

Take a deep breath...

....doesn't have to be who you are big brother...

...don't be afraid...

...he's been stabbed...

Can someone help us?

Is anyone around? Can someone help us?

Yes I'm at Washington and 5th. A man's been hurt. Badly. He's been stabbed.

We're gonna do everything we can for you sir.

Tell me your name. What's your name?

Can you tell us your name?

Somebody help!

What's your name sir?

Can you tell me your name?

Tell me your name son.

Tell me your name son.

Charles.

Your full name.

Charles Murray Galloway Jr.

Does it make you proud when you say your name?

[Hesitant] ...yeah...

Don't just say yes because you think that's I want to hear, young man.

Tell me the truth.

Are you proud when you say your name?

Yes, sir.

Today is going to be...

...difficult, son.

I need you to help me with your sister.

All these people today will be trying to show us...sympathy. And pity.

We don't need their pity. You understand me?

Yeah.

We're still a family.

We need to be strong.

Dad?

Yeah?

Can I ask you something?

Of course.

Why do you never seem sad?

I'm very sad son.

It's just...

I refuse to give death the satisfaction.

Dad?

Is mom in heaven?

Charles.

If a place like heaven exists, I have no doubt that your mother is there.

♪♪ Slow instrumental music ♪♪♪

Static and indistinguishable sounds

Thunder and heartbeat sounds

Yells in fear

Mumbles and groans

Phone ringing

Yeah?

Hey little sister. Thanks for waking me up.

Yawns

Yup.

Running water, washing hands

Creepy screeching sounds

♪♪ Instrumental music ♪♪

♪♪ Rock and roll song ♪♪

Hand me that socket wrench, Chuck.

This is really not your thing, is it Chuck?

Charles.

Sorry. Keep forgetting. Charles.

Socket wrench.

Thank you.

You know, your sister and me are really happy you're here.

She was afraid you'd be gone forever now that you're a big time, famous writer.

Well, there were no more vacancies at the Cayman's.

I figured.

Seriously though.

It's good that you're back.

Colleen only sees a few patients these days.

You're a welcome distraction to our boring old lives.

How is she?

Colleen?

She's good Charles.

She worries about you all alone in your dad's old place.

She really didn't want you to be alone today.

She's had to look out for me too much.

Are you boys thirsty?

Yeah.

So...

You guys haven't told me what you thought about the novel yet.

Pretty weird if you ask me...

...maybe a little over my head.

That's because you have to be sober when you read it dear.

Jesus, I hope you didn't put yourself through that.

What is that a little humility I hear coming from you?

Never thought I'd live to see the day from the great wordsmith.

Well...

...it's a special day you know.

Colleen?

You haven't said anything.

You know I love everything you write.

Tell me the truth.

It was good.

She was just telling me this morning how much she liked it, Chuck.

Sorry...Charles.

Colleen, please.

I need you to tell me, are you okay with it?

I guess I don't know how much of it's fiction.

I guess I don't know how much of it's fiction.

Maybe I don't want to know.

You were gone all this time.

And now, I'm back.

Yeah...

I guess I want to know...

...why now?

Why did you wait all this time to write this?

Yeah, why wait til now?

Colleen.

Do you remember that lake by where mom was buried?

Of course I remember it.

If I hadn't screamed so loud, you would have drowned.

Dad wouldn't let you near that lake for years after that.

About a year ago...

...I had a dream about that day.

And I've been having the same dream ever since.

You're in it sometimes.

And there's this...

...man in black.

Sometimes I feel as though he wants to...

...hurt me.

And other times, he's just there.

The events play out differently every time, but...

...the setting is always the same. It's always me...

...and that lake.

I started...

...thinking more about...

...when...

...Marie...

...well, you know.

I lost so much during that time.

It's all just a haze in my mind.

I thought, if I could put it on paper...

...I could put it all back together again.

You never told me that's why you wrote it.

Well...

...you never asked me.

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Faint whispering

City sounds in background

Make way! Paramedics coming through!

Step aside!

Tell me what happened.

Sir? We're gonna to try and patch this wound up right here.

It's gonna to be too dangerous to move you.

I'm gonna to do everything I can for you sir.

Stay with me.

Stay with me sir.

Phone ringing

Water running

Phone rings

Hello?

Hey it's me. Something came up. Any chance you could cover for me?

Yeah, I can cover for you. What time?

In like an hour.

Alright.

Cool, thanks.

Mmhm.

Happy birthday.

What is it that you see now, Clare?

Their faces.

It's always their faces.

Why do you think that is?

It's like...

...they blame me.

All the people I've seen die.

That little girl's father.

The look of disappointment on his face.

They all look like that.

You need to accept the fact that you're just projecting those images, Clare.

Nobody is blaming you for this.

You've been an EMT long enough to know that.

It makes sense...when you say it...

...but when I'm alone...

...it just takes over.

Do you feel like the meditation is helping you at all?

Yeah...a little...I don't know.

Have you been keeping up with the meditation?

What about the alcohol?

That I have been keeping up with.

Okay, with the medication we have you on, alcohol is not...

I know.

I'm doing the best I can.

Are you?

Are you doing the best that you can?

I try to find something else to numb my thoughts, but...

You don't think that you're numb enough already?

It's getting harder to tell.

Meditation would help you get perspective...

I mean, this phase of the depression started with the little girl-

-can't you see that you didn't always feel this way?

It's not as if life was all sunshine and rainbows before that little girl died in my arms.

Look I'm not telling you that your life hasn't been difficult.

If anyone understands that, I do.

I need a cigarette.

♪♪ Slow instrumental music fades in ♪♪

Charles?

Charles?

♪♪ Symphinc music ♪♪

Hey, little sister.

Hey, big brother.

Thought I'd lost you there for a second.

Lookin' sharp! This is so cool. How many artists are on display here?

Uh...I don't really know. I only know about the one I reviewed.

Charles, I'd like you to meet Ralph. Ralph, this is my brother Charles.

Good to finally meet you Chuck. Colleen's told me all about you.

It's Charles. Pleasure's all mine.

You got it chief.

This is Cynthia.

Good to meet you Cynthia.

Pleasure's...all...mine...

So did you see the article?

I did! I saw your picture and everything, but I didn't read it yet. I wanted to come check out the exhibit first, but I heard you were pretty harsh.

I'm a little jealous...never had my face on a fancy magazine before.

Maybe one day, my friend.

[exhales] Maybe. If I can get so lucky.

Maybe we should check out the exhibits, drink some wine instead of just standing here.

What are you doing out here all alone, Charles?

Waiting for a mysterious woman to show up?

So, what did you think of the exhibit?

Do I know you?

You probably should.

You're probably right.

I'll tell you what. If you can guess my name, I'll let you kiss me.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. I don't know what you're all about but I'm actually here with someone, and she-

What, you don't want to?

Not even a little?

Alright, forget about it.

Hey, wait a minute, wait a minute.

Wait, are you afraid you're gonna get caught?

Do I get any clues?

Alright, you can ask three questions.

Perfect. What's your name?

Wouldn't you like to know. Next question.

Is uh, is that guy in there, is he your boyfriend?

I'm sure he'd like to be.

Was that your girlfriend?

Depends on the outcome of this conversation.

You have one question left so don't waste it. I'm getting bored.

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What were you telling those people in there about that painting?

I was telling them that...that particular painting, while it looks like it's just about urban landscape, it's actually about mankind's inherent vibrancy.

It's about man's connection with his environment.

Marie.

Your name is Marie Granger.

Bingo.

So Charles, when do I get my write-up?

Sooner rather than later, I hope.

So when do I get my kiss?

Sooner...rather than...

Oh wait! My birthname's Anne-Marie.

Sorry to speak so sharply.

Just...the alcohol, you know?

Why do you care so much? Aren't you supposed to be impartial?

Would you rather I didn't care?

So what's going on with that guy you're seeing? What's his name...?

Bobby.

How's Bobby?

He's...it's complicated.

Door slams shut

Can I get you a drink?

I have whiskey, beer, wine...what's your poison?

Uhm...whatever you're having.

Alright. Whiskey it is.

You've got a nice place.

My parents moved down south and I stayed here and took over the place.

They kind of...well, they gave it to me basically.

Did you know I used to be a bartender?

No, I didn't know that.

Why would you know that...I never told you that...stupid...

Are these your parents?

Yep, that's ma and pa. They're retired now and enjoying the orange state.

How about yours? Where do they live?

Phone buzzing

Can you...just...give me a second?

Hey...something wrong?

No, uh...I gotta be at work. Early. So I was just gonna go.

Okay. That's cool.

I had a good time. Maybe try not to talk so much next time.

Yeah definitely.

Uhm...

Shit...I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

No, it's okay. It's not you, I'm just...

No, we've been drinking, you don't even know me that well...

I get it.

Thanks.

You're sweet.

No pressure. Just one.

He's right near me when I turn to notice him, and he smashes me over the head with a beer bottle.

So I have a scar on my face for my picture from a dirty crackhead's beer bottle.

Oh my god...that's insane.

Right?

Yeah it's a good thing my partner and I were in uniform that day. Cuz any other day it could have turned out different for that guy.

So what about yours? I bet your I.D. picture is gorgeous.

Oh, I don't think so.

I'll bet it is.

Come on, let me see it.

Yup, just like I thought. Super sexy.

Hey somebody's got a birthday next week.

Yup.

Any big plans?

Uhm, probably just have a drink or whatever, you know.

Well, why wait.

[Giggling]

Happy birthday Clare.

Hm.

What?

No, nothing.

What? You can tell me.

No, I just...realized I haven't...laughed in a while.

What seriously?

Let me ask you something.

What?

What is it?

What is what?

What is that dark cloud you carry around...that weight you carry around your ankle...

I don't know... it's just...you're the sexiest sad person I've ever met.

What the fuck?

Who do you think you are?

No I didn't mean it like that...it's just that...

...I can tell there's something wrong with you.

Something wrong with me?

Clare...

I didn't mean it like that...

I'm sorry.

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[EKG machine beeping]

♪♪ Instrumental music fades in ♪♪

I remember he caught you doing that out here.

Which time?

I only remember...one time.

Must have been the time ne grounded me indefinitely.

Yeah. That's the one. Whole lot of good it did.

I don't know how he ever thought he could keep you locked up here.

Helps to have a little sister to lie for you every now and then.

Every now and then? More like...all the time.

What? This is my house now-I can throw a roach on the ground if I want.

That feels weird to even say...this is my house.

Feels weird without dad here.

Yeah.

So you gonna marry that guy?

I do like him a lot.

Does he know?

Not yet.

Hey just because you can't have kids doesn't mean you can't be happy. Look at me. I don't even want kids and I'm happy as a clam.

You don't want kids because you don't want to settle for one woman.

True.

I want to. be married.

And he's a good person.

I'm going to have to tell him soon.

I think...he likes you a lot. And he may want kids but he seems like the kind of guy who would stick around because he loves you so much.

And hey, you never know. I may settle down with one woman someday.

Like that redhead?

Maybe.

I want to talk a little about your work. I notice it's you out and about...in different environments, painting what you see. Can you elaborate a little bit on that?

Yeah of course I like to go out into nature and paint out into nature but...

I really like to go where people are.

Where I can paint their everyday lives, what they see and experience.

Well that sounds like a simple enough concept but...would you describe your work as being intricate?

My work is intricate, but I think it's simpler than that.

I think that primal might be the word.

It's kind of like that feeling that everybody has...

...but goes unnoticed.

It's not unlike the pine needles under my boots,

or the decaying leaves just under the muddy surface of the water.

Or the lichen that's inseparable from the stone.

When we feel nature, it feels us, and...

...I guess that's what I'm trying to show in my work.

Do you feel that you're conscious of all these connections? As in, more than other people?

I don't know that I would say that.

I think maybe you are.

Hey you're not gonna rip me apart like you did that last guy are you?

Hmmm...no.

Definitely not.

So when is this little article supposed to be published?

There's the real reason you brought me out here.

As opposed to the real reason you're doing the article in the first place? Come on.

I'm waiting on you to tell me I still owe you a kiss.

The thought had crossed my mind.

But?

It's not an act is it? You meant every word you said at the studio?

Every word.

I think I should go.

I think we should stay.

I'm no good for this. I don't want to hurt you.

Maybe you'll surprise yourself.

Hey. Come on.

We're watching a sunset with this beautiful city, and you're with a beautiful girl.

You don't want to walk away and regret this.

What if I stay and you regret it?

I would rather dive in head first and find out after.

Hi uhm...I'm sorry it's just such an honor to meet you, Mr. Galloway.

Well, thank you. I appreciate that.

Now, who shall I make this out to?

Oh, it's Tonya.

This is actually the second time you're signing a book for me.

Oh, when was the first?

I was only eleven. It was for wind chime.

I don't expect you to remember, but I'll never forget.

Wind chime?

My god that was a long time ago.

You must have been the only person there.

Did you say you were eleven at the time? Isn't that just a little bit young for a book like that?

Probably.

There you are. I hope you can read it.

Thank you.

So are you a writer?

Trying to be.

Hey there, stranger.

Oh hey Bobby. How's it going.

Eh, it's good. Just out walking the beat. How are you.

I'm fine. Actually, I gotta get to work.

Hey, why haven't you answered any of my calls?

Uh, well I lost my phone for a few weeks and...you know.

No, uh, actually I don't know. Why don't you tell me.

Look, my life's really complicated right now, okay?

Everybody's life is complicated, Clare. You can't keep hiding behind your problems.

I'm not hiding, I just don't want anything with you. Okay?

That's funny, because I had something that you wanted. Maybe that's all you wanted.

Fuck you!

Yeah, my point exactly. Oh hey Clare - happy birthday.

You don't think you deserve a good, funny guy with a nice smile?

Every time someone smiles around me, I see one of them.

Especially that little girl's face. I see their faces, and I'm the last thing they saw. I see their faces, and they're disappointed.

Why?

Why do you think that is Clare?

I mean everything you talk about comes down to self worth. Why do you loathe yourself so much?

You know why.

So I have this brother who has...

...run away for the last thirty-some years of his life. Running away from the pain.

I don't even think he remembers what it is he's running away from.

We did this thing growing up where he would call me "little sister" instead of calling me by my name.

and I would call him "big brother" it was just something we would do. I don't think we...really...

...yeah, he just...called me that this morning.

I bet he doesn't even remember that we used to always do that.

But that's my point Clare. Life is short.

You can't deny yourself even the possibility of a genuine connection because you're too afraid that they're going to abandon you that you give up without even trying.

Don't live your life in hindsight, Clare.

It's not your decision to make.

It should be our decision, you're not even hearing me out.

I don't need to hear you. I know what you want and I'm not doing it.

And I'm the stubborn one? Jesus Christ Marie do you even hear yourself I just want to talk about it!

No what you want is for things to be as easy as possible. You don't want to talk you just want me to listen!

And you should fucking listen to me! Do you wanna raise this child on your own because that's what I'm hearing.

I will if I have to but...

...I want us to be a family.

I just want to be with you.

You're all the family I need.

[sniffling]

And what about money?

We'd figure it out. If you wanted this the way I do, we'd figure it out.

We could always do this later. I just don't understand why it needs to be right now. If you could just give me some time...

You'll what?

You'll finish your novel? You've been saying that for two years.

I'm not gonna wait around forever while this is happening right now!

You are so selfish!

Oh my god there it is again!

We could totally do this together and you know it -

But that's not the real problem is it?

the real problem is you just wanna fuck around and be irresponsible your entire fucking life!

And you didn't hesitate for a second - a second - to try to guilt me out of it!

You don't want to be a father - you don't want to be a fucking adult!

You are so afraid to do anything for anybody other than yourself!

GOD!

Marie, stop!

Oh my god Marie - are you okay? I'm so sorry!

Marie no wait come back!

[sobbing]

Don't be afraid...

I won't lie to you Marie...

I never have...I never will.

I want to be happy.

I'm scared to have a child.

I'm scared of a lot of things.

More than. anything, anything at all...I'm scared to lose you...

I'm also scared you won't be happy.

So...

...if happiness to you....

...is having a family with me...

...then that's what I'm going to do.

That's what I will do.

You'd really look at my pages? I can't ask you to that, Mr. Galloway.

It would be my pleasure.

Now, just send it to my email address and I'll take a look at it.

And please, call me Charles.

But I just have to tell you it's a work in progress. My boyfriend's the only one who's read any -

Don't say that.

Everyone always says it's a work in progress.

Just send it to me.

And be prepared for a truthful critique.

I just...thank you so much.

And thank you for walking me home.

I was getting so bored in there, and I'd much rather be conversing with a fellow writer.

Hey.

Big brother.

Thought I'd find you here.

Well, it is our father's house...my house.

How much longer are you gonna do this to yourself?

Well, the money from my advance will run out in 6 months, so...

If I'm still alive...

Stop...talking like that.

Have you spoken to her?

Not in a while.

You need to get cleaned up by the time she gives birth Charles.

Whether she will take you back or not.

She deserves better...our child will deserve better.

You can be what they deserve..

You have to decide that is who you are.

I don't believe we choose who we are Colleen.

We are who we are, and there's no changing that.

If you really believe that, then you'll always be alone and there's no changing that.

So we're just gonna sit here then?

Alright.

We'll just sit here.

Hey big brother just checking to see how it went.

We'd still love to have you for dinner if you don't mind seeing us twice in one day.

I'm proud of you Charles.

Talk to you soon. Bye.

Son?

Son?

I have to go find Marie.

Do you mean Miss Granger?

Yes I mean Miss Granger what's going on?

Are you friend of family?

I'm the father.

Oh...I see.

Well, young man...why don't we sit down?

I don't want to sit down, I just want to know what's going on?

There were complications with the pregnancy.

I'm sorry. Miss Granger has...died.

Miss Granger died.

There were complications.

Tell me your name.

If a place like heaven exists...I have no doubt your mother is there.

Take a deep breath.

Charles.

This doesn't have to be who you are big brother.

I'm leaving this place.

Don't do this please.

I can't stay here.

Please don't leave me please.

I'm not coming back.

I don't know little sister. I don't think I've ever known.

[sobbing]

Thanks for meeting me.

Yeah. Thanks for reaching out.

So...I...just...

A lot of stuff that's...hard to find the right words...

Hey...it's okay.

I'm not going to pretend to understand what you've been through, but I know that you're in pain...

I'm sorry for being an asshole before. You don't owe me anything.

It's okay. I've heard worse. And I've deserved worse.

Look...I...don't really know how to do this...

I mean...I like you.

I can tell you're a good guy.

But I'm fucked up. Like, really fucked up.

I don't want to drag anyone down with me...

Let's just play it by ear...

I think right now you could probably use some help, and I'm willing to do that.

So we'll just take it from there.

I actually took the liberty of helping you out with something.

Before you say anything, there's something I want to tell you.

Okay.

I haven't told anyone about this.

Somethng happened to me last week, right after I saw you actually.

I was on my way to work, and I responded to this call for this older man who'd been stabbed and...

It was like...

I don't know...

It was like we...

It sounds crazy to say out loud.

It's okay you can tell me.

There were complications.

I'm sorry.

Miss Granger died.

...and...

...and the baby?

There were complications.

It's too early to say.

She is alive as of this moment.

But I can't make any promises.

Are you hearing me?

Take a deep breath.

It's okay you can tell me.

What's in that folder?

I know in your email you mentioned you want to try and find you biological parents... and you didn't know where to start.

I hope it's not over stepping. I have a friend who's a private detective...

He owed me a favor, so I had him do a little digging.

So...is that...

Uhm...it's...

Well we found out some information about your parents.

Come on, son...

It's time.

This doesn't have to be who you are big brother.