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N.K. JEMISIN: We instinctively
feel more connection
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with a person who we see going
through this process of trying
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to decide who they want to be
and then making that decision
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and then going forward.
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We like to root for an underdog.
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When you're trying to
create a new story,
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or when you're trying to create
the-- the plot of a story,
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you've probably
heard people refer
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to a typical
three-part plot arc.
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That's just basically
a beginning, a middle,
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and an end.
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You start off with the
character in a basic state.
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You carry the characters through
a period of rising action.
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You hit a climax.
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Usually that's where there's
a big fight or something that
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happens.
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Then there's a period
of falling action,
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and then maybe you have a coda
or a resolution thereafter.
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And a typical character arc
follows a similar format.
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A character plot
arc can take both
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the internal and external form.
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We're going to talk first about
the externally-driven character
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arc.
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Now, that also comes in three
stages, a beginning, a middle,
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and an end.
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What I use as
terminology for this
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is the character's
first in a steady state.
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It can be a kind of
complacent state,
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where they feel
comfortable, are just
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going about their daily lives,
their day-to-day commute,
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whatever.
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Then there's an
inciting incident,
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something that impacts them
on a-- on a huge level.
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Inciting incidents can take
a lot of different forms,
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and not all readers are going
to be interested in all inciting
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incidents.
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This is why when you do see
an externally-driven character
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arc, usually it's kind
of important to spend
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some time establishing
that this character is
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interesting and worth
following, worth caring about.
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So it's a good idea with an
externally-driven character arc
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to actually start in that
steady state with the character,
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because then you have time to
explore the person's character,
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make them someone that the
audience will empathize with,
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and then when this
terrible thing happens,
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then we care what
happens to them.
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There are all sorts of
disaster movies out there.
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There's so many disaster
movies that it's actually
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hard to care when a character
ends up in, you know,
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aliens attacking or whatever.
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But if we've had some time
to get to know the character,
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get to like the character,
then we can move forward.
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In the movie "Independence Day,"
we spend a good bit of time
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with the protagonist,
Will Smith.
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There are several
protagonists in that movie,
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but the most time that the
camera kind of focuses in on
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is showing us his life, his
partner, his relationships,
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his adoptive son.
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And then the inciting
incident happens in a moment
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that we can completely
empathize with.
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He's gotten up.
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He's going to the bathroom.
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He's just going about
his regular day.
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We see in every way
that he is an every man,
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and then we feel that kind of--
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the-- the visceral,
scary, disturbing moment
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when he realizes that his entire
world has changed forever.
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In order to talk about a--
a typical, internally-driven
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character arc, once
again, I'm going
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to refer to
psychological theory.
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There are several
theories out there
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about how particular kinds
of identities develop.
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And the most typical identity
development theory models
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have certain stages to them.
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And people progress
through these stages
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over the course of
their lives many times,
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sometimes repeatedly.
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They can regress at
some certain points.
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That's not necessarily
a bad thing.
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They can go through these
stages and then have to pause
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and kind of reconsider how they
resolved them the first time
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and then resolve them
again a different way.
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So don't feel like these
stages are in any way rigid
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or-- or constricting.
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But a typical identity
development theory--
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and identity development
models originated
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with Black racial
identity development,
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so this gives you a
kind of an idea of what
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we're working with--
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begin with a sort of steady
state of complacency,
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where you're comfortable with
the way that life has been.
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You have not had any reasons
to question what's going on.
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Things are safe.
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Things are-- they
seem "normal" to you.
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And this usually
changes when you have
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something called an encounter.
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Now, with racial identity
development theory,
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typically that's a person
of color's first experience
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with racism.
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For a white person, it can
be their first encounter
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with racism too,
noticing someone else
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going through that.
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But in-- regardless of the
identity development model,
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it's a traumatic moment,
where the person is running
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into something that tells
them that the world is not
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as normal and safe as
they once thought it was.
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This can cause a-- a period of
kind of groping and flailing
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to try and figure out
what the heck is going on,
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or a-- a feeling of just
generally not being happy,
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which we call disintegration.
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And during the disintegration
phase, in a lot of cases,
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you'll--
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you'll hear people questioning
their existing identity,
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wondering why their identity
is somehow unpleasant,
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or why this bad thing happened.
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For a lot of Black children,
for example, at this stage,
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they will question,
why was I born Black.
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And I'm sure many of you have
heard of the experiments where
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Black children would see
dolls, like little toy
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dolls of different races,
and would invariably
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choose the white
doll, because they
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identify with the white doll
and don't want to identify
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with the Black doll.
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That's an example
of disintegration,
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and it does typically
happen quite
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young in-- in some people.
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Reintegration,
though, is when you
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start to absorb ideas about
what this identity should be
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from sources around yourself.
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That can come from parents.
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That can come from
pop culture or media.
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It can come from books.
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And in reintegration, the
person begins to try and find
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a-- a sense of self
that feels more positive
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or at least reassuring.
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It may not necessarily
be a positive identity.
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They could latch
on to a stereotype.
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They could latch on to
something really negative
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about themselves and
decide to run with that.
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But it's something
that gives them
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a sense of power and control.
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And in the final stage,
which is resolution, you--
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you run into people
who are, basically,
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at a point, again, of--
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of steady state, of
comfort, of feeling stable.
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They may not necessarily
be in a good place,
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but they feel stable
again, and they
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feel able to deal
with future encounters
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if they do have that moment.
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So I decided to use a variation
of this identity development
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model, where a character who
is in a steady state basically
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encounters something
that forces them
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to rebuild who they
are as a person
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and decide on a new
path for themselves.
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This is the basis of the
internally-driven character
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arc.
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A state of complacency
is just simply
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a state of maybe not being
aware that your identity is
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meaningful.
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You know, for-- for a
great many white people,
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they go through their lives
not thinking of themselves
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as white, or not thinking of
themselves as racial at all,
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or racialized at all.
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And, you know, having that
moment where they're suddenly
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confronted with the
idea that you're white,
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and this means something-- not
necessarily anything negative,
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just means something--
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it can be a moment of
kind of shock and--
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and sort of discomfort
for some people.
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Identity development
models exist
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for queer people who
go through their lives
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maybe thinking of themselves
as straight and then
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suddenly have the moment
where they suddenly realize,
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oh, maybe I'm not.
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[LAUGHS] Or it can happen
with disabled people,
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often at the point--
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the encounter point is often
when they become disabled,
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or when they begin to realize
that their disability marks
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them as different
from other people.
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In general, the
state of complacency
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is the state that we expect
most people to be in.
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So you don't necessarily
need to explain complacency.
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Most people are expected
to just kind of go
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through life sort of
blithely, not aware of racism
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or other forms of bigotry,
or just being treated badly
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by other people.
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Most people expect that at
most points in their life,
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they're going to
be treated okay.
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But the-- the moment of
suddenly realizing somebody
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doesn't like you, or society
doesn't accommodate you
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because of who and what you
are, can be a real shock.
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And it's-- you know, for the
purposes of storytelling,
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it can be a very
dramatic moment.
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We instinctively
feel more connection
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with a person who we see going
through this process of trying
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to decide who they want to be
and then making that decision
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and then going forward,
and, if necessary,
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taking up arms [LAUGHS]
to-- to make that happen.
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Because, you know, we-- we
like to root for an underdog.
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And a person who is
at war with themselves
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or unhappy with themselves
in some ways is an underdog.
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We want people happy.
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We want to see people make
themselves better and--
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and stronger.
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To refer back to
the Mad Max model,
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Furiosa is past
complacency and encounter.
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It's very likely that the
period of the apocalypse,
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whenever that was, was
her encounter moment.
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We don't know whether she
was born after the apocalypse
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or-- or what, but, you know,
kind of coming up in the world,
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realizing that her
status as a woman
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puts her in a-- a
dangerous position.
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That life as a woman in
the post-apocalyptic world
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can be terrible, and
she's adapted to it,
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but we see she's not happy.
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In our first-- her-- our
first scenes with her,
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she just seems miserable.
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Definitely not in a state
of happy complacency.
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And she begins the
process of reintegration
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over the course of the film.
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She first decides that she
wants to rescue the other women
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around her and take them to
the place where she remembers
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last being happy, the place
where she was last complacent.
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But once she gets
there and realizes
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that that place has
effectively been destroyed,
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and her only choice is to
go back and reform the place
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that she came from,
reform Immortan Joe's
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community, that's her
moment of reintegration.
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She has formed a
new identity around,
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yeah, okay, the post-apocalyptic
world is terrible for women.
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We're going to change that.
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We're going to make it better.
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And then we see her resolution
throughout the course
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of the film, at the
end of the film.
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That's a great character
arc, and it's only
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like the last two stages of
that identity development model.
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[MUSIC PLAYING]
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We have to acknowledge
the fact that there
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are certain characters
in our society
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who have a much harder
time establishing empathy
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with the audience,
and that's largely
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because the audience
has not been introduced
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to certain kinds of characters.
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This is an issue of the
center and the margins again.
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Our society gives lots of
opportunities for readers,
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consumers, viewers, to empathize
with cishet white guys,
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with able-bodied people, with
young, attractive people--
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and when we say attractive, we
mean conventionally attractive,
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thin, you know, sexy, whatever
you want to call that.
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And our society does not
provide a lot of opportunities
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to empathize with
other kinds of people.
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For example, we see
lots of characters
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who are overweight depicted
as villains or comic relief.
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They're not
necessarily the people
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who you want to see as the
hero, powering through things,
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because that's not what
we've been seeing a lot of.
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We don't read a lot of that,
and so we're not used to it.
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And-- and there is a sort
of preprogrammed response
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as-- as a result
of that, where when
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the audience sees a
character who is overweight,
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they feel primed to
laugh at that character
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or primed to suspect that
character of villainy
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or something.
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And so it can be
difficult to establish
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that this character has stakes
that are worth caring about.
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But it's important
for us to do this,
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because without
actually showing more
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of these characters in
empathetic moments, then we--
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we find it harder to empathize
with these people in real life.
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All right.
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So now I'm going to read a
passage from the beginning
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of "The City We Became."
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"I paint the city.
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Back when I was in school,
there was an artist
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who came in on Fridays to give
us free lessons in perspective
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and lighting and other shit that
white people go to art school
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to learn.
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Except this guy had done
that, and he was Black.
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I'd never seen a
Black artist before.
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For a minute, I thought
maybe I could be one too.
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I can be, sometimes,
deep in the night,
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on a rooftop in Chinatown,
with a spray can
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for each hand and
a bucket of drywall
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paint that somebody left outside
after doing up their living
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room in lilac, I move in,
scuttling, crab-like swirls.
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The drywall stuff I
can't use too much of.
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It'll start flaking off
after a couple of rains.
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Spray paint's better
for everything,
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but I like the contrast of
the two textures, liquid black
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on rough lilac, red
edging the black.
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I'm painting a hole.
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It's like a throat
that doesn't start
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with a mouth or end in lungs.
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A thing that breathes
and swallows endlessly,
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never filling.
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No one will see it except
people in planes angling
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toward Laguardia from the
Southwest, a few tourists who
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take helicopter tours and
NYPD aerial surveillance.
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I don't care what they see.
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It's not for them."
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This is a kid whose
identities are only
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slightly overlapping with mine.
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I am not a queer homeless kid.
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I'm not a teenager anymore.
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[LAUGHS] I-- well, he's
actually in his early 20s,
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but I think at the
time that I wrote this,
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I never really
explained his age.
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But you know, I'm
not young anymore.
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I'm not an artist who does
exterior or outdoor stuff.
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I don't use spray paint.
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I don't know what [LAUGHS]
living room paint really
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feels like, [LAUGHS]
because I haven't
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tried using it on a rooftop.
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So, you know, in
a lot of ways, I'm
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appropriating the
identity of someone that
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is very different from myself.
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And in a lot of ways,
this is a person
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who is more marginalized
than myself.
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And so I had to
do a lot of things
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to try and make sure that
I was speaking accurately
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with his voice, if I did.
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I have a number of experiences
in working with populations
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of young people from
this background,
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so I at least have
spoken to people who--
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who speak like this and
who have these concerns
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and who have these experiences.
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I'm not using any particular
person or a real-life person,
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so I'm trying not to
appropriate real people here.
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But I am speaking in a
voice that possibly could be
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told better by another person.
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The story in "The
City We Became"
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is not about him being a
Black, queer, homeless person.
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That's background material.
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And I feel like all
writers have an obligation
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to write people from different
backgrounds into their stories,
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because that's what
we see in real life.
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This is a story that is meant
to be true to the New York
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that I live in.
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And the New York
that I live in is
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full of people who
aren't very much like me,
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so I'm going to write
about those people,
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and I want to write about them
respectfully and accurately,
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in a way that kind of
feels true to their voice.
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But I'm not going to tell
their specific stories,
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their identity-specific stories.
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And so, you know,
this isn't about him
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being a homeless person.
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At the end of the
story, he's not suddenly
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going to get the
ability to live in--
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in a fancy, nice place on his
own power and on his own dime.
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He's not suddenly going to
get whisked off to art school
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on a scholarship.
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[LAUGHS] That's not
what this is about.
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So, you know, it's
possible to write
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about people who
are not yourself,
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write people who
are the other, and--
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and not steal their
voices and not
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steal their story arcs
or the pieces that
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are fundamental to that--
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that identity, while also
still giving them a place
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that they deserve,
that they should have,
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in any description of humanity.
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