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Fiction stories
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are one of the most interesting
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phenomena that human beings have. Human
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beings
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are storytelling creatures. We tell
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stories. Stories are vital. Stories are
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important. We can go back later to why
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they're vital. We can go back later to
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how they're important. We can go back
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later to how long they have been around.
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Um, but the important thing to
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understand is that stories are part of
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us and we convey truth with stories
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which is fundamentally the most
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gloriously giant contradiction that you
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can ever imagine. What we're saying is
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we are using lies.
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We're using memorable lies. We are
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taking people who do not exist and
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things that did not happen to those
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people in places that aren't
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and we are using those things to
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communicate true things to kids. Now
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whether you're looking at um and and to
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each other I mean with with not just
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kids but it begins with kids you tell a
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child the story of Little Red Riding
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Hood
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and there are lots of takeaways from
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that story but one of the takeaways that
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is always taken is you know there are
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people out there who may not mean you
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well.
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And there are people out there who when
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they say, "Where are you going? What are
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you doing?" You may not want to tell
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them. It might get your grandmother
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eaten. Might get you eaten. There are
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people it is best to avoid.
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Some some people some wolves are hairy
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on the inside and some wolves are hairy
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on the outside and perhaps you are best
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keeping yourself safe. And it's a it's a
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it's a true thing. It's a good thing to
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learn.
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It may be not something that we we are
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automatically told. So a story like that
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gives us that as information. You're
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telling a reader something that you hope
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will stay with them, something honest,
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something important, something vital,
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but you're using lies.
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Little Red Riding Hood never existed.
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Wolves don't eat grandmothers and then
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climb into beds disguised as
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grandmothers. And if they did, Little
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Red Riding Hood would walk in and go,
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"That is a wolf." She would not be
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sitting there going, "Grandmother, what
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big eyes you have. All the better to see
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you with my" and wolves can't talk.
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But we understand that we as human
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beings are really good at taking that
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information.
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That is the magic of stories. That's the
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magic of fiction because it's giving you
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something big and true and important
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that you might not otherwise get and you
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can carry it in your heart and you can
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tell it to your children and your
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children's children.
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I began Coraline with a quote that
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wasn't from GK Chesterton, although I
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said it was.
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Um, I said, "Fairy tales aren't true.
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Fairy tales are more than true. Not
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because they tell us that dragons exist,
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but because they tell us that dragons
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can be defeated." That
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for me was the important thing about
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Coraline.
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the idea
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that dragons can be defeated.
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I wanted to tell my kids something that
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it had taken me 30 years of living to
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figure out.
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So when I was writing Caroline
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um I wrote the first third of the book
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um and then we moved to America and I
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had been writing Caroline up to that
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point in my own time. When I had free
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time I would write it. Now we've moved
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to America.
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Um, everything has got a lot busier and
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there was no free time and
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nobody was waiting for it. I'd been told
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by a publisher that it was absolutely
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and utterly unpublishable what I was
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doing. So, the desire to keep going, I
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wanted to keep going. I knew that I had
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to finish it,
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but I was happy that I had a third and I
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knew that one day I would get to go back
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to it. And then
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I was walking with my children in the
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woods
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and I trod on a yellow jacket nest. The
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yellow jacket nest was under the ground
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and uh within a couple of seconds I was
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surrounded by a cloud of yellow jackets.
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They're like small wasps and they're
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mean
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and
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I shouted at my children to get away
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and stayed exactly where I was because I
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knew that if I ran after them, the cloud
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of yellow jackets around me would follow
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me and it would get to them. So, I
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waited till they were at the top of the
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hill
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and getting stung the whole time and
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then ran after them.
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And uh I remember climbing into the
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bath. I put all of the three of us into
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the bath. They were very small. And uh
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counted the stings. I had about 39
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stings.
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Um and
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each of them had been stung once or
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twice. And the problem was in shaking my
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head like that to try and dislodge some
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yellow jackets, my glasses had gone
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flying. which meant that the next day I
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needed to go down, go back to where that
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had happened and get my glasses back.
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And that was terrifying. Going back to
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get my glasses
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was scary.
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Standing there getting stung while my
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kids ran away was not scary. There was
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absolutely nothing brave about it. Going
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back the next day
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to find my glasses.
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That was brave.
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And that moment just sat there and it
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sat there for me informing everything
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that I felt like I wanted to write
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Coraline for. And I suddenly knew a
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third of the way in
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what the book was about.
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I'd been writing a scary book. I knew
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that it was about the idea that dragons
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could be defeated. I knew that I was
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trying to tell kids that yes, you can
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face up to the things that scare you.
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Yes, you can deal with it. Yes, you can
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triumph. But it was at that moment that
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I understood that actually what I was
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just trying to say to them. The entire
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message of this book was
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being brave doesn't mean you're not
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scared. It means you're scared and you
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do the right thing and you do it anyway.
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And that gave me a handle
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into the rest of the book. That gave me
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a place to walk into the rest of the
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book. And it meant that
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when I took Caroline back into the other
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world, now her parents had been
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kidnapped. Um, she knew they were there.
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That the action of going back was now
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scary and it should be scary. What is
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wonderful
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is now here we are almost 20 years after
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Coraline the book was published. And I
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will do signings and I will do events.
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At every event I do, every signing I do,
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there is a woman in her late teens, in
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her 20s, now even in their 30s
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who have a battered
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school printing edition of Coraline with
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them.
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And they're the ones who just stop and
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they tell me very very quietly that the
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book
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and Coraline saved their lives
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in their teens
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when they were going through a very bad
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place when they were being abused when
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parents' marriage falling apart, bad
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things happening at school. And they
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would tell themselves that if Coraline
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could get through what Coraline got
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through in the book, they could get
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through that. But the best thing is
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about it is I I told them a giant lie.
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Told them a story about a little girl
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who went through a door that didn't
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exist.
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Took about a girl that doesn't exist, a
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place that doesn't exist.
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On the other side of it is her other
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mother
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with buttons for eyes who definitely
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doesn't exist.
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And everything that happens in there
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was made up by me. It's not true.
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But it helps them. It carries them
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through. It is true. And they took the
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true things from it. And that human
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beings are able to do that is so
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important, so gratifying and so cool.
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All fiction
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has to be as honest as you can make it.
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This I believe this may not be true for
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every other writer out there. It may not
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be true for any other writer there, but
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it's true for this writer. You have to
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make it as honest as you can because
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that's what people respond to. As far as
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I'm concerned, any success
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I have achieved as a writer of fiction I
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have achieved because I'm an honest
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writer of fiction. Because my people are
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real people. Because you care about
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them. The hardest time for me was
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starting out
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as a very, very young writer.
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I wrote short stories
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and I sent them out to places that could
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conceivably publish them and they all
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came back.
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And I looked at the stories which went
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out and came back and went out and came
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back
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and I thought, okay, well, one of two
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things is true here.
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Either I'm not good enough
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or
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I don't understand
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the world. I don't there's stuff I don't
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get. There's stuff I need to know.
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And I thought, okay, so as of today,
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I am now
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a freelance journalist
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specializing in the world of publishing
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and fantasy and science fiction. And I
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decided I was a journalist because I
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thought that gives me license
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to ask questions.
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It gives me license to go out into that
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world
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and meet everybody,
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find out who everybody is,
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find out what they do, find out how they
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read to learn. And then I got invited to
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my first writer's workshop. It was the
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Milford writer workshop. And I was
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sitting there with a bunch of fantastic
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writers like Gwyneith Jones and Diana
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Win Jones and Mary Gentle. And I
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realized very very quickly that my
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reactions to stories were things like I
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like this or I don't like this or this
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is good.
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That wasn't their reaction.
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They were responding to stories on a
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much deeper level. They were reading
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different stories to what I was reading.
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And I realized I was reading the stories
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as an audience
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and they were reading stories as crafts
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people
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as people who built these things as
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people who did this. And I also realized
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I was wrong. I was wrong if I wanted to
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be a writer. And they were right.
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And that experience more than anything
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else I think changed me. And it changed
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me mostly because I realized that in
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order to write fiction,
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I needed to be honest.
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facility with voices.
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I could do essentially impressions of
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other writers. I could write things that
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felt
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kind of like things that other writers
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would have written and written well, but
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I didn't have anything to say. And that
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wasn't because I hadn't lived. That was
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because I wasn't really prepared to say
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anything true about who I was.
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I didn't want to be judged.
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I didn't want people reading any of my
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stories to know who I was or what I
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thought or to get in too close.
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write, if you're going to be a
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successful writer, at least if you're
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going to be the kind of writer who did
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the kind of stuff that I was going to
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do,
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you had to be willing to do the
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equivalent of walking down a street
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naked. You had to be able to show too
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much of yourself. You had to be just a
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little bit more honest than you were
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comfortable with. And if people judged
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you, if they felt they knew who you
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were,
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that was just something that you were
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going to have to live with.
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And what was strange is once I started
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doing that
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and I was expecting to be judged or
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shunned or or people's opinions or to
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have to deal with things and what I
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discovered was actually their opinions
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were we really like this. We love this
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story. It's a good story.
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It felt huge. It felt personal. And I
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realized that's because I was being
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honest about me.
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And some things when you get really
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specific
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apply to so many of us.
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So that was how I took my darkest period
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and eventually
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turned it around.
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The Ocean at the End of the Lane is my
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most personal novel. It's the one that
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really is about a seven-year-old me.
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And it was a very uncomfortable book to
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write because it had to be too honest
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about who I was, about what I felt when
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I was that age. The great thing about
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being an adult writer
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writing from the perspective of a
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seven-year-old boy is I was a
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seven-year-old boy.
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I have that in my armory. I didn't need
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to go out and interview seven-year-old
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boys, meet seven-year-old boys, talk to
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seven-year-old boys, because somewhere
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inside me is the seven-year-old boy that
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I was. So, I started writing a short
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story and the protagonist was very much
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me. Me, age seven. The family wasn't
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really my family,
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but the house and the environment and
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the place was my house. My environment,
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my place.
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What then started happening
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was the more that I wrote remembering
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what it was like to be seven,
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the more being seven came back to me.
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um things that I hadn't thought about
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for 40 years, for 50 years
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came flooding back in the same kind of
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emotional I guess space that you're in
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when you go back to a town that you
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lived in 30 or 40 years ago and the
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first time you're there everything seems
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very strange and then you go but hang on
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if you go down here that's that road and
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all of the spaces suddenly start to make
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sense again. You haven't been there for
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a long time. You didn't even think you
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knew it, but it's in there waiting for
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you. So, writing yourself
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and going back to your own past and
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visiting your own past,
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um, as a writer,
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you're not writing autobiography. What
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you're doing
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is lying.
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But you're using the truth in order to
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make your lies convincing and true.
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You're using them as seasoning. You're
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using the truth as a condiment
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to make an otherwise unconvincing
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narrative absolutely credible.
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It is it is vitally important
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that whatever engines you might have
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used to convince your teacher
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that your homework really was eaten by
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the dog now come out to convince the
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reader that your father really was
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having an affair with an
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extraterrestrial
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uh monster from another dimension who is
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about to destroy the earth. Um, and all
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of that becomes very very important.
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You're deploying truth and you're
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deploying emotional truth in a way that
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is convincing. And the strange thing
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about it is that once it was published
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over and over again, I had people coming
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up to me, people writing to me saying,
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"You wrote my childhood."
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None of those things happened to me.
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My childhood wasn't like that. But you
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wrote about my childhood. You wrote
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about me.
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And I did because I was writing about
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me. Because I was being honest. Because
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I was being specific.
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And if you're specific, then what you
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say that's true applies to other people,
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too.
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But you have to be willing to just open
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your chest a little bit too much and
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show rather more than is comfortable of
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your heart
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and of your mind.29704
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