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I don't want to hear your name.

Shut your mouth now.

When I call your name, take a step forward and tell me your date of birth.

If you hear your name, you will be transferred to another cell.

It's there in court.

Charlie S.

Tomlin.

Stand in line.

Brendan Johnson.

Tahir Ibrahim Abdi.

No papers.

No.

And no other record sheet.

Nigerian.

Came in on a visa in 2008.

And has overstayed his welcome.

Okay.

Sign here.

Thank you, officer.

Sign here.

Thank you.

Sign here for your personal items.

Thank you.

You fucking with me?

No.

You are just doing your job.

No reason for me to be impolite.

Now the policeman who did this to my face...

That's another story.

You want to make a complaint?

You are phony.

I like you.

I don't like you.

Now get out of here.

I can go?

The charge was reduced to disorderly conduct, which is a civil offense, not a crime.

ICE says until you commit a crime, you are not a deportation priority.

Thank you, officer.

Okay, get out.

Jerry?

Jerry!

I had no choice, Tahir.

What happened?

There's too many of them.

What happened to my things?

You know, there used to be an understanding between our kind of code.

I watch your things.

Not no more.

You watch mine.

That's what we said.

Well, I'm sorry, Tahir.

But there was loads of them.

All right.

They're big fellas, too.

All right.

All right.

You're all right.

Jerry.

You are wearing my boots.

No.

No.

No.

No.

No.

What?

Those are my boots.

They'll make some good winter boots.

I know.

That's what I said when I got them.

They're my boots now, Tahir.

They're my boots now.

Come back again on Friday.

It will be a delight to see you both.

Assalamu alaikum.

Assalamu alaikum.

You come back for lunch any time you want.

Assalamu alaikum, Tahir.

Wa alaikum as-salam.

Good to see you.

Are you back?

No.

No, I just need some clothes and bedding.

My things were stolen.

How?

I left the door to my penthouse open.

Come inside.

It's a thousand degrees.

You don't want to come back into the program?

No.

Really, no.

I just need some clothes and bedding.

You can't just give out the clothes, Tahir.

The clothing pickup is on Thursday between 3 and 5.

You're welcome to come back then.

And we don't give out bedding.

It's going to rain this evening.

So why not stay here tonight?

Come back, Tahir.

I shouldn't be here.

This is exactly where you should be.

Excuse me, can you spare a cigarette?

Oh, sure.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Here's another one.

Hey,

can you spare a cigarette?

Thank you.

Can I have one more?

Hey, let's change.

Excuse me, can you spare a cigarette?

Thank you.

Stop following me.

What

is your fucking problem?

That is my jacket.

Your what?

That's my jacket.

You got it back at Jerry's Alley.

It's a hundred fucking degrees out.

It is mine.

You want your jacket?

You just want your jacket, then you're going to leave me alone?

I just want what is mine.

Now go!

Fucking bastard!

You fucking bastard!

You fucking...

You fucking bastard!

Why are you here?

Why are you fucking here?

I want... I want to go, please!

Stay here for a minute.

I made you a bed.

At the end.

On your own, you know?

I'll sleep here.

Good morning.

Eat.

That is nothing of me.

What is your name?

So, alright now, hit the drum.

Ready?

Go!

Come on!

Let's go.

Go.

Now here.

Now here.

You know, thank you.

Really.

We have no money.

Tell him, I just ate my son.

Ah?

What?

Why'd you eat my son?

You gotta be fucking crazy.

Let me.

What's the problem?

The bell, there.

You want the money.

Ha, ha, ha.

You fag bastard.

You must be kidding me.

This is the busiest dude I ever met.

Please, don't.

Good morning.

Good morning.

You could never pay me enough to fill your small bill.

Stop it.

You speak French?

Yes, why not?

Because I'm on the street?

Or because I'm a stupid American?

No, we just heard you speak French.

My parents are often passing by.

My little friend.

He just returned from his trip to Iraq.

He becomes very agitated, like his first time with me.

So... Why don't you show him how much you appreciate his music?

Of course.

Thank you.

Goodbye.

And welcome to America!

What just happened?

I just really liked your music and didn't know how to express it.

Do you like movies?

I do.

Do you like Robert De Niro?

I do.

You do?

Are you talking to me?

What?

I want to ask you a question.

Okay.

Do you really believe?

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

But I mean...

Do you really believe?

Hold my heart.

Okay.

What?

Seems a bit unwarranted, doesn't it?

Why?

Oh my God!

What?

You're a hobo!

You're a tramp!

So?

So he doesn't really seem to have blessed you very much, does he?

The Prophet said, I looked into paradise and

the majority of his dwellers were the poor.

So?

So, in heaven, the poor will have recompense.

After he died.

That's convenient, isn't it?

That's what you say.

That's what you say!

Besides, he blesses me all the time.

I'm sorry.

Just give me a few days.

Can you give me a few days?

A few days?

I can't do that.

Why would I do that?

Because I don't have it.

I can't give it to you.

You got something?

I got five fucking dollars.

Look, you want it?

You can have it.

Don't do it.

Five dollars.

So, give me a few days.

Or, you could be nice to me.

Tahir!

Stop!

I don't have money!

You shut up!

It doesn't matter how much you owe him.

Man, why you give a fuck?

Because she is my woman.

Yeah.

For the right price.

Fuck, man.

How much does she owe you?

Half a bundle.

What is that?

Fifty dollars, you crazy motherfucker.

Here.

Here it is.

Ten, twenty, thirty, fuck.

It's all the money I have in the world.

If I ever see you near her again, you see me again.

Thanks.

Do

you feel remorse?

I do.

Do you resolve never to commit this sin again?

Yes.

Have you made restitution for this sin?

Made recompense?

I can't.

The man you beat up?

Whatever this sin is, it is a private matter between you and Allah.

If your repentance is sincere, you need only ask, Allah forgive me.

He will forgive.

I pray to repent, not for forgiveness.

Allah forgives, Tahir.

The objective is to be forgiven.

Not to be judged and condemned.

But, you must make a restitution.

You must put it right.

Did you get what you needed?

Do you?

No.

Bad day.

We'll be hungry tonight.

What is it we are waiting for?

For God to provide.

What?

The

thirst inside me Has drained

me so Of love for you With amorous

love for you We gotta go!

This way!

Come!

Over here!

Let's leave it.

Someone's home.

That's why the door's open.

Rich people are careless.

That's why it's open.

Hannah?

Hannah?

Where are you, Hannah?

It's not much, but it's home.

We need to leave.

Now.

Why?

It's someone's house, Hannah.

But they're not using it right now.

What?

They're at the beach.

Put the drink down.

But they have kids.

It's summer.

They're rich.

They're at the beach.

The Hamptons.

Maybe even Europe somewhere.

No.

No, it's... Definitely at the beach.

No, Hannah, we can't.

To here.

We need something good.

This is something good.

This is wrong.

It's dangerous.

I want a cake.

I could kick in this place.

Found it.

Gone till September.

Okay.

But we keep our bags packed by the door.

Have you done this before?

Mm-hmm.

What do I do?

Not tonight.

Tonight always wins.

Start tomorrow.

Tonight we celebrate.

So I am barefoot and my shoes didn't fit.

I smell chicken.

Did you find chicken?

You feel unbelievably stupid suddenly.

You must look like a zombie Goldilocks.

This is where you should say something.

Actually, don't say anything.

I'm just going to peel potatoes.

I forgot how to speak for a second.

You are more beautiful than I have words for.

Let's not go overboard.

Why don't you set the table?

I found placemats and everything in there.

Just because something is hard to comprehend doesn't mean it's not true.

How old do you think the world is?

About four and a half billion years old.

Oh!

Okay, good.

So you're not a creationist.

Have you ever been to Nigeria?

I am from Lagos.

We have skyscrapers and a rail system.

You picture me running around in a loincloth.

Okay, fine.

So we've established that you're not a creationist and I am a borderline racist.

How long has man been on Earth?

About a hundred and thirty thousand years.

And God appeared when?

To Abraham about four thousand years ago.

So for a hundred and twenty-six thousand years of

uninterrupted squalor and disease, God was fine with it?

He just sat on his hands and then four thousand

years ago decides to do something about it?

I don't claim to understand.

But I know this.

When I pray, I am with Allah.

He speaks to me alone.

He talks.

Not to my mind, but to my heart.

What do you believe?

Well, I believe I need another drink.

I mean it.

What do you believe?

That there is nothing?

If there is nothing, then how do you explain all of this?

I can't comprehend it.

Well, just because you can't comprehend something doesn't mean it isn't true.

Now you are just being clever.

Answer the question.

I believe in the Big Bang.

Okay.

So who made the Big Bang?

Well, that's the problem.

Yes.

But I see no reason to solve it with an even bigger problem.

What do you mean?

What made God?

Well, Allah is eternal.

Hard to substantiate though, isn't it?

Why can't we see God?

Where does He live?

And why does He turn otherwise good people into murderers in His name?

You're funny.

In what way?

In a contradictory way.

I am not the first Muslim to drink.

I'm not talking about a sneaky beer before Ramadan.

You properly drink.

Well, you use this drug that harms you.

You're talking about cognitive dissonance.

Heroin dulls the pain, but it'll probably kill me.

But that assumes that I see dissonance and not cognizance.

I need to use the powder room.

Are you tired?

Not ready for tomorrow to come yet.

Come to bed with me.

I used to live in a place like this.

I used to sleep in a bed like that.

I was married.

It's all right, Hannah.

I know it's fucking all right.

He was a surgeon.

He enlisted in the reserves after 9-11.

And then someone came to my house and told me he was gone.

Just like that.

The coffee in my hand was still warm and he was gone.

He was killed in a terrorist attack on a military checkpoint.

I didn't know how to be in the world without him.

And now I've made such a mess.

I don't know how to be in the world at all.

It'll be different this time.

It'll be exactly the same this time.

Hannah?

Hannah?

Please don't come in.

Oh, this is bad.

This is bad.

Something's wrong.

I've done this before.

I'm telling you this.

I'm telling you something is wrong.

You know people hemorrhage from this.

You don't even have a fucking aneurysm from withdrawal.

My fucking head is dying here.

You've come so far, Hannah.

We're nearly there.

We're nowhere.

I'm the only person here in pain.

Fuck this.

I can do what I choose.

I choose out.

I choose out and you can't fucking stop me.

You're right.

I can't stop you.

That's right.

You can't stop me.

You're right.

I can't stop you.

Sleep would help.

Nothing lasts really.

Neither happiness nor despair.

Not even life lasts very long.

There'll come a time in the future when I shan't mind about this anymore.

When I can look back and say quite peacefully and cheerfully how silly I was.

No, no, I don't want that time to come ever.

I want to remember every minute.

Always.

Always to the end of my days.

I need to make some money.

Will you be alright all your own?

Excuse me.

I was watching you play.

You're good.

I mean, it was really something.

Thank you.

Oh, my pleasure.

What do you want?

Um, so I was talking to those, uh, those, uh, guys

over there and they said that they'd seen you with her.

This is my daughter, Hannah.

Is this your, is that your girlfriend?

I'm not with anyone.

I don't know your daughter.

I'm sorry.

This is really important to me.

Would you look again, please, sir?

Just, I mean, I'm sure she's changed.

It's an older picture, but I would think you could recognize her.

Please, just, would you just please look at it again?

I don't need to.

Those men just took your money.

I'm sorry to bother you, but really...

No, no.

You see, no, I, I, I'm sorry.

I don't buy it.

I don't buy it.

And I'll tell you why.

I've been out west and I, I retired out there a few years ago.

But every month for the people who come to me, I'm not going to buy it.

But the truth is I've been coming from all over

the world for the past three and a half years.

I've been coming back here to look for my daughter.

And I can't tell you how many false leads I've got.

You know?

Lots of people lie to you to take your money.

But nobody ever said that guy over there,

right, right over there, he knows your daughter.

Because that'd be a stupid lie, right?

Because then I'd go back and I'd come and get my money.

I believe you do know her.

So I'm going to ask you a favor.

Okay.

This is Jake.

This is Jake.

Jake... he needs his mother.

I'm sorry for your trouble.

Really, I... I don't know her.

If you concentrate hard enough, you can change the colors of the lights.

It's not faith, by the way.

It's willpower.

If you would say God can change the colors, I'm saying we can.

Come on, try with me.

No.

Didn't God tell us to try everything once?

No, he didn't.

Why didn't he?

Because some things are just wrong.

So...

He covered the Earth in highly addictive and highly

yummy heroin, but we're not supposed to use it.

Right.

Despite it growing naturally on his Earth.

That's right.

Sneaky little prankster God is.

Are you concentrating?

Stop now.

Shame on you.

Excuse me?

Shame on you.

You have a child.

And he has nothing.

No mother, no father.

And for what?

Because you are broken?

What are you doing?

Look at the photograph.

He is alone.

You have never seen a boy who looks more alone.

Look at him!

My grief is many things.

It has made me behave in ways that I regret

and in ways that I do not fully understand yet.

But the one thing I know it is is overwhelmingly my fucking business!

Talk to me.

Tell me.

How could you do this?

Who are you?

Who am I?

I am a woman with a murdered husband, a heroin

addiction and a child that I haven't been a mother to.

Who the fuck are you?

You know everything about me.

You've left me with no shade.

And meanwhile I know not one fucking thing about you.

Not a thing.

Who am I?

Who the fuck are you?

You don't want to know who I am.

I think I do.

I come from a place more violent than you can imagine yes I watched my wife pulled

from under our bed raped and murdered while I hid in a cupboard with our son the

whole time she looked at me and I looked at her my hand still over my Ibrahim's

mouth after we ran to the streets to hide in a

crowd but in that That crowded bullet chose my son.

I'd give anything to be with him again.

I'd give anything to see my boy again.

That's why I don't understand you.

I'm sorry, Tim.

I am not finished.

Why?

At the funeral, a man came to me.

And he said, Tahir, Islam is a beautiful flower.

But sometimes it needs thorns.

The next day, I joined Boko Haram.

What is Boko Haram?

I became a murderer of women and children.

I burnt churches.

I burnt schools, police stations, military checkpoints.

That's who I am.

I watched people burn.

And for nothing.

I watched people die.

Like your husband.

There is no peace in it, Hana.

Hana, I'm sorry if...

Please, no.

Don't.

You can get back to your life, Hana.

You can have it all back.

I recognize that I need something different.

I tried to disappear.

But my son held me in life.

What I did is unforgivable.

Can you help me get back to him?

Who are you?

Yae.

I

can't crappy

you if you can't fix my heart and soul .imme you can't go

to heaven if not means you cannot have a life of peace.

You are the light to take my life away from the cold.

Ai.

I won't be a coward.

Will I die?

All right thanks for sharing everybody.

Thank you.

Now remember this is your rooms y'all.

Keep coming back.

It works if you work it, right?

Hey hun, why are you running off to such a hurry?

I need to have that extension.

I didn't want to miss the meeting but I got to get it to the landlord before he

clocks off at 6 otherwise we're gonna be out of our area, you know?

So I really gotta run.

All right you run off but I want you to think about cheering some time, okay?

Okay I will, see ya.

All right.

Thanks for coming.

Take care.

Thanks for sharing too, man.

How did it go?

She was...incredibly nice.

She was a 10-day extension while our case is reviewed.

Which she reminded me would be denied because you

don't have your papers and we're not married but...

with the storm coming, I don't know.

She chose to be nice.

She even let me sign for you.

I came for you and I told her how sick you are.

You should have seen Terry's face downstairs when I handed him the extension net.

I thought he was going to break his teeth.

He clenched his jaw so tight.

How are you feeling?

A bit better, I think.

I'm going to make you a bowl of hot water to steam with.

So what are we going to do?

We need a plan.

We have a plan.

We're going to get you well.

And then I'm going to find us a place to move to in ten days time.

And then in three weeks I'll have finished my internship and I can get a proper job.

So if we cannot find a place in ten days, I will go to a men's shelter.

No, we stick together.

I just got us ten days.

Why are you trying to get rid of me before I've even tried?

I just need to know you are safe.

Like a grumpy old man.

Come on, grumpy.

Put your head down.

How do you feel today?

Did you make your meeting?

Mm-hmm.

Nearly missed, though, because of the whole extension thing.

You can't afford to miss, huh?

I didn't miss.

I'll tell you what I can't afford.

I can't afford to spend a winter in a women's shelter around a bunch of addicts.

Maybe you are ready to go home.

Would you come?

I'm not ready yet.

When I go home to him, I want it to be for good this time.

It's funny.

Today, I realized I can see the future.

I don't mean in a paranormal way.

I just hadn't given it much thought in a while.

Today, I was able to see myself back with Jake.

Then I saw him a little older.

He was walking down the street somewhere.

He was holding hands with you.

I saw us at his graduation.

And to hear I saw us all together.

Can you imagine?

I haven't been able to see past a day in so long.

And I just thought about what we would do.

And I just thought about what we would do.

Where we would go.

It was nice, you know?

Simple.

And it felt like there was magic in it.

Like I could move the horizon.

Mr. Um...

Mr. Abdi.

Abdi had a chronic asthmatic attack, which is probably due to a combination of

the flu that you say he was suffering from and perhaps the dust from the hotel room.

It's not impossible that the steam you say he was

inhaling acted as a trigger for the asthma attack.

It's very difficult to know.

It's rare, but we do see that sometimes too.

But he is stable now.

We have him on a breather mask and it's supplying him with oxygen and albuterol.

And he's also taking a steroid.

It's called prednisone.

It's to help him breathe.

It's one of the corticosteroids.

It mimics the adrenal gland and acts as an anti-inflammatory.

But he'll be fine, right?

Oh, he'll be fine.

Okay.

Thank you.

You're very welcome.

I just... Can I stay with him?

Um...

Are you married?

We're together.

Um...

What Mr. Abdi needs right now is rest.

I think it's best if you come back tomorrow during visiting hours.

I understand.

Okay.

Thank you.

Uh-oh.

Did I miss curfew?

Terry!

Terry.

I didn't miss curfew.

Well, it's not curfew.

Your status has changed.

Excuse me?

Your status has changed.

I have the room for two people.

You are no longer two people.

The receipt.

The extension notice that I gave you.

There's a sign.

For two people.

You're only one person.

Listen, I'm sorry, but I cannot in good conscience give you the room.

Why are you doing this?

Is that room even occupied?

You're missing the point, Hannah.

Evil-minded, you know that, Terry?

What ever happened to you, huh?

What ever happened to make you such an asshole?

Whatever it was, I hope it fucking hurt!

I hope it went from a night haunted, you sad fucking sadist!

Enjoy the street, Hannah.

Go fuck yourself, Terry!

Excuse me, miss.

Excuse me, miss.

Have you been through triage?

Sorry, uh...

No, I'm not a patient.

I'm sorry, miss, but you're gonna have to leave.

My boyfriend's here.

Upstairs.

I don't have anywhere else to go.

It's past curfew at the shelters.

Did he say your husband?

You're next of kin, right?

Yeah, my husband, that's right.

Well, okay, then.

But just for tonight.

I don't want to see you here tomorrow night.

You're not.

I will throw you out.

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

Hey.

Hey!

Sorry I haven't been here.

Been running around all day.

Where did you sleep?

I've been trying to sort out the Terry thing.

I don't think it's gonna work out.

Do you have a place for tonight?

Yeah.

I found a placement.

It was hard, though.

Everything's booked up because of the storm, so...

I can't even stay long, but... Get going.

You don't want to miss curfew.

Asshole.

You fucking scared me.

I missed you.

You won't have too much longer.

You're letting me go tomorrow.

We've been observing him for three days.

He's ambulant, and he's well enough to leave the

hospital if he continues to take his medication off-site.

Really?

Because it's 20 degrees outside.

And by the way, you are required to treat every patient.

Everyone, regardless of their immigration status.

This has nothing to do with his status as an illegal immigrant.

We've looked after him well.

He has had great care, and he is simply well enough to leave the hospital.

Excuse me, it's a crock of shit.

I'm sorry.

You know it.

You know it's about a bed.

He's not well enough to leave.

I'm sorry.

What qualifies you to make that prognosis?

You don't have to be a doctor to see that he's not well enough to leave.

Actually, yes you do.

I spent four years as an undergraduate.

Four years in med school.

Three years in residency, and a further two in fellowship.

All of which makes me a quote-unquote doctor.

And in my opinion, this patient, Tahir Abdi,

is fit and well enough to leave this hospital.

I got stuck at the hospital.

I'm sorry, Hannah.

It's just regulation.

It was curfew, and there was still a line of people.

I'm not allowed to hold your bed.

I know.

Just stay calm.

Let me make a phone call, see if I can find you a placement.

Tracy?

Did she speak to Tracy?

I don't know.

Okay.

Well, go have a seat.

I'll go see what I can find out.

Okay.

I don't know who she spoke to, but we are definitely full to the bursting.

But, I found you a place.

At the Tillery Street Women's Shelter.

In Brooklyn?

Okay, so I gotta get to Brooklyn.

It was the only thing I could find.

Usually, our van would be here to take you over there, but because of the storm...

Look.

Here.

You're going to want to take the R to J Street.

You look freezing.

I have good reason to.

Don't you know where to go?

Nope.

Not tonight.

It's a rough night to be out.

It's not fit to walk a dog in.

My daughter's about your age.

Oh yeah?

What's her name?

Listen.

I can't let you in here.

They have cameras all over the lobby.

And it's more than my job is worth.

But if you go around the block...

I can let you in the back and you can sleep in the boiler room.

Really?

Yeah.

Really.

So I'll meet you around back.

Okay?

Okay?

It's a big green metal door.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you very much.

Oh, you're welcome very much.

Couldn't have you get to your death out there, could we?

Oh!

I'm sorry.

It's not much.

Oh no.

It's perfect.

Honestly.

There's more blankets in there.

Okay.

So kind of you.

Thank you.

Really.

I'm beginning to feel my feet again.

What are you expecting?

Oh.

Well, now I'm embarrassed.

Um.

I mean, you're getting to bed for the night.

So we don't have to.

But you know.

This is New York.

It's not a something for nothing town.

Let me look at your face.

Look, since you aren't married, the city is going to

give you a hard time if you want shelter together.

We'll go to bat to get you guys a placement.

But for the best chance, we need to gather some documents.

And that'll take a few days.

Maybe even a week.

The best I can do right now is get you into separate shelters from the city.

For men and women.

Well, you couldn't get into a shelter.

They said he was a risk and disturbance with his coughing.

So they sent him back to the hospital who wouldn't take him either.

Yeah.

I see it all the time.

People push back and forth between shelter and hospital.

And finally, they give up.

It's just not an option.

He can't be on the streets right now.

Yeah.

That's why we really need a place where I can look after him.

Okay.

Look, we will do everything we can.

But there's just no place I can get you both into tonight as a couple.

Here's a list of some of the documents we'll need.

And in the meantime, I can arrange a place for you to stay tonight on your own.

Hey.

I got you a sandwich.

Thank you so much.

Any luck?

Nothing.

Not even Abdul had space.

You?

Not even for yourself?

No.

I couldn't find anything.

Not even for yourself, Hannah?

I want you to go home.

What's that you want?

It would be easier for me if you were not here.

How much medicine do you have left?

Enough.

I have enough.

I know a place.

I know a place we can go and stay together.

We are very grateful.

Thank you.

I'm not so sure this is such a great idea.

I mean, there was just one of you last time.

It'll be the same as before.

We'll be quiet.

And you'll be out of here every morning at five?

Yes, sir.

Thank you, sir.

Okay.

We'll try it.

I'd sure like to help you people, but I don't want to lose my job, you know.

Where is your inhaler?

No.

Where is it?

In the steroids?

All right.

I'm here.

I'm here.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Exhale.

So this is 50.

This will cost you 35.

And the steroids are 285?

285.

Um...

I know I lost his insurance card.

Is there any way that you could process it?

I can't do anything without a prescription.

Can you have your doctor call it in?

What are the last four digits of his social?

Hello?

Hello?

Hi.

Who's that?

Jake.

Who's this?

Is this your grandfather?

Is your grandpa there?

Gran!

Hello?

Hello?

Who is this?

Hi, Dad.

Hannah?

Hannah?

Is that you?

Where are you?

You're coming home.

Tell me you're coming home.

I want to come home.

Yeah.

Well, where are you?

I'll come get you.

Um...

I'm still in New York.

Great.

I can be on a plane by tonight.

No.

No, you don't have to do that.

Um...

Maybe you could just wire the money for a train ticket.

Honey, you know I can't do that.

Tell me where you are.

I'll come and get you.

I'm clean, Dad.

I swear to God.

No, I can't.

I can't.

Truth is, I need the money for my boyfriend.

He's sick.

He's run out of his meds.

No.

No, I can't wire you money.

I'm not using... And you know why.

I'm not using, Dad.

Well, you've said that.

I swear to God.

It's been four months now.

You've said this before, Hannah.

I know, I know.

I know I have and I know how it sounds, but I promise you this time it's true.

Well, why did you lie to me about the train ticket?

I don't...

I just...

He's... He's...

He... He needs his meds.

He's so sick and... I didn't think you'd believe me.

They cost $370.

I... Well, if he's that ill, then you should take him to a hospital.

We've been.

Look...

Dad, I...

I know you shouldn't believe me.

I know that I've given you no reason to.

I promise you... No, Hannah, you're lying.

You're lying, sweetheart.

Please.

Just this one more time.

No.

Please.

This time it's true.

I... I want to believe you so much, Hannah.

You can't.

Dad, you can't.

I just need a little bit of money and just a

little bit more time and I'm gonna be home.

If I give you money, then I'm part of the problem, Hannah.

And I can't be part of the problem anymore.

I can't help you, Hannah.

I love you.

I love you.

But until you want help, I can't help you.

I want help.

I want help.

I want help, Dad.

Come see us.

No, you're lying.

Come see us if you don't believe me.

I love you.

I love you so much.

I love you.

I love you, Dad.

But I can't.

I love you.

I love you, Dad.

Don't go.

Please.

I can't.

Fuck!

I, uh, put some cushions that I found in my garage in your place there.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I need some money for medication.

Can you help me?

Sure.

How much do you need?

Three hundred and seventy dollars.

Okay.

Okay.

What does three-seventy get me?

What do you expect for that?

I don't want to negotiate with myself, Hannah.

You just tell me what you need.

You tell me what you want to do for it, and then we'll come to a compromise.

Merry secular Christmas to you.

How did you do this?

Never in your mind.

No, really.

How did this happen?

It's a Christmas miracle.

Where did you get the money from, Hannah?

What does it matter?

Because it does.

I would be angry.

I want us to be happy tonight.

You're better.

I need to know.

I called my father and asked him to wire some money for a train ticket.

Hannah, you should have bought the ticket.

I called him back.

I told him that I lied and explained to him why.

He said tomorrow he's going to wire the money for two tickets.

Yeah.

I won't go alone to here.

I won't.

Alright.

Tomorrow we will go.

We're gonna live to hear.

I mean really, really live.

Tonight's our last night with you.

You know there's another storm coming.

We're going away.

Okay.

I'll miss you.

I mean it.

I'll miss you.

Where are you going?

Out West.

Beautiful.

I need $500.

$500?

Hana?

Not for me.

Not for me.

You fucking bastard!

No!

No!

No!

Here.

Eat.

I'm not hungry.

Just some soup?

While it's warm?

Please?

Stop.

Did you take your meds?

To here?

Yes.

They're not helping?

No.

Okay, let's go to the hospital.

Now.

And then what?

And then you'll get well.

Then I go to prison?

Don't.

And you spend the rest of your life waiting for me?

Don't!

We've tried too hard for you to do this.

Hana.

I want you to go home.

I won't leave you.

Listen to me, Hana.

I have a chance to do one good thing with my life.

Let me do it.

Lie down.

Come, Hana.

Please come, Hana.

Come.

Go

home to your family.

And I'll go home to mine.

Last night...

I dreamt...

Ibrahim put his hand in the river Ungada back home.

And the water that swirled around his fingers... made its way to Lake Chad.

And down the river Niger...

and into the Atlantic Ocean.

At that same moment...

I put my hand in the East River here.

And our fingers touched.

His little hand... in my big hand.

I would like to think I'm going to see my son again... and be with Isa.

But I am afraid I'm going to hell for the things I have done.

Or worse... that you are right... and there is nothing.

You are the kindest man... I've ever known.

You're an angel.

You're not going to hell.

Nothing as perfect as you could exist without a reason.