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SHE SIGHS

Right.

# Everlasting

# Never changing

# Problem you have

# Stuck in my head... #

VOMITING

# I am older now

# So I sing soft and low Hear me out

# I'm still sketching it out... #

ALARM SOUNDS

# I want to paint you a picture

# Of a happy family... #

PHONE SPEAKER: 'Inhaling calmly through the nose.'

SHE INHALES

'Exhaling gently through the mouth.'

SHE EXHALES HEAVILY

'Repeating the affirmation - I envision a joy-filled birth.'

I envision a joy-filled birth.

'I envision an easeful, blissful, pain-free experience.'

I envision an easeful, blissful...

pain-free experience.

'I envision my birth canal opening to an ecstatic celebration of...'

Oh, fuck off.

Sure you don't wanna come in?

# I want to paint you a picture... #

Let's get this over with.

EDDIE: The sofas and chairs, need to clear the whole room, OK?

Sorry, Tom, gonna need that table.

What, this table? Yeah. Creating light and space.

That's what bidders want.

Great, lads. Ta.

Getting real now, isn't it?

Her stuff's in the bedroom.

Can't believe they're really doing this.

No, me neither.

Nice one - getting out of actually having to do anything.

Guess I'll just deal with Mum being a total fucking basket case.

How is Mum?

Total fucking basket case.

So... Australia.

Yeah. Well, I didn't get the bursary, so...

Does Alex know you're back on the piss?

I'm...

Yeah, Alex knows everything.

We both think a change is healthy.

How long you going for?

It's a three-month visa, so we'll see how it goes.

So you... you might be back for the baby?

They keep asking me about birthing partners.

Oh, my God, did you w... did you want me to...

Oh, no, Jesus, I need someone I can trust.

You know what I mean.

Well, what about Mum or Dad?

Like I've told them.

You haven't told Mum and Dad yet? There's kind of a lot going on.

Last thing they need's a daughter up the duff.

Caroline, you shouldn't have to do this on your own.

Start as you mean to go on.

Careful with that!

That was my grandmother's!

ALEX CLEARS THROAT

Just collecting Shiv's things.

Oh, is she here?

She's in the car.

Maybe I'll just pop out and... No.

I don't think that's a good idea.

Well, I just want to... before you...

We haven't had a chance. Everything's happened so fast.

Do you know what I think the best thing you could do

right now for Shiv is, Bernie?

Leave her alone.

Keep me posted on the auction.

Try not to fuck things up.

You too.

Did you see anyone inside?

Your ma was in there.

Oh. She say anything?

No. Not really.

CAR DOOR CLOSES

SHE CLEARS THROAT

Was Shiv here?

Briefly.

Oh...

She said not to come to the airport.

And I know she's feeling bad about herself, but I can't...

Do you want these?

What? Photos, Carl's trophies.

Do you want them, or will I bin them?

Er, er, no, no. Er...

No, don't throw them out. Erm...

I'm sure one of us will have some room.

Really? Which one?

Are you OK, love? Jesus, Dad.

If you're gonna be ruthless enough to sell our home,

at least have the follow-through to get rid of our shit.

Bit late for sentimentality.

Caroline...

Where's all our stuff?

Your pals took it.

My pals?

What happened to my little boy?

Which little boy are we talking about now?

The golden boy, or just me?

We used to be so close.

I never thought you could betray me.

I'm doing my job. And if we're talking betrayal here,

you might wanna take a look a bit closer to home.

What are you talking about?

FINBAR: Anyone seen the copy of my book?

Thought I left it here. Ask Shiv.

You don't think one of the removal guys took it, do you?

I doubt it.

Maybe you should put that away. Hm?

Sorry.

It's just... Carl, all the memories.

Trying to imagine what it'll be like when it's gone.

It's just a house, Shiv.

I know.

You're right. You're right.

CAR HORN BEEPS

He's here.

Here we go!

Here we fucking go.

PHONE CHIMES

Oh, my God! Mickey just found Karen's address.

Can we stop off?

Er... Cutting it pretty fine, Shiv.

Please, Alex, I just... I need to know she's OK.

Er... OK, yeah. Here.

We need to make a stop-off. DRIVER: No bother.

EDDIE: How are ya? MAN: Hi.

This way.

Good to see you.

Mike. Hi.

Claudia, love those shoes. Come on in.

DOOR OPENS FINBAR: There she is!

How you feeling?

My son died in this house.

I know.

How am I meant to feel?

I know.

You know, I meant to say...

..if you've any furniture left - you know, after the sale -

I'd be happy to take it off your hands.

Furniture?

For my place in the west, you know.

I'd have mentioned it before, but with everything going on, you know.

Yeah, so anything you don't want...

cutlery, silverware...

..throw it my way.

Waste not, want not. HE CHUCKLES

What? This is not my fault.

Course not. Nothing's ever your fault, Ant.

Max dumping you wasn't your fault.

You just fell into bed with Mum's sponsor (!)

He cheated on me, too. Can you blame him?

You're not a kid any more.

Take some fucking responsibility.

How you getting on?

Kick-off's in ten.

You all set to smash this? Mm-hm.

Here, do think you could have a word with your dad?

About what?

He's puking in the toilet.

It's just a bit off-putting, you know?

Dad... You OK?

Well, yeah, yeah. Just... needed some air.

We're doing the right thing, aren't we?

Selling the house?

What d'you mean?

We'll be all right, won't we... when it's gone?

Ah, never mind.

Don't mind me. It'll be fine.

Karen, I'm so sorry

about how I acted when you kissed me the other night.

I just...

I had no idea you were attracted to me.

I'm not attracted to you!

But... you seemed kind of attracted to me that night.

I've been with women before, Shiv - proper sexy ones.

You're not me type. OK.

Where the hell have you been, then?

I was hitting rock bottom.

I just didn't realise cos the other times I hit rock bottom,

I was off me tits.

But... when you're just living day to day, no drama...

Sorry, I don't understand.

I'm ten years sober next month.

Karen, that's... that's amazing.

Yeah.

But is this it, you know? Is this all there is?

No highs, no lows...

no big fuckin' party, just this for-fuckin'-ever?

What's it all FOR, you know?

It's...

It's for yourself.

It's for living a good life,

without chaos or pain.

It's for all the people you've helped along the way.

I mean, Jesus, I wouldn't be sober if it wasn't for you.

Seriously, Karen. You scared the shit out me.

Ah, you're just sayin' that.

You can't throw it all away now.

Ten years. Jesus!

If I thought I could make it ten years, I'd...

You just need to go back to basics.

One day at a time.

I know.

Progress, not perfection. In it to win it.

One foot in front of...

OK, I get it, Jesus!

I'd go back to meetings just to shut you up.

Promise?

CAR HORN BEEPS

Hey, Alex.

God, I still would.

Go on.

Karen...

Why aren't I your type?

Right.

Welcome to the auction of this 1970s four-bedroom family home.

She's a bit of a stunner, I think we can all agree.

I know the people who've lived here have had many happy years...

some ups and downs...

but we hope today she finds the right owner.

So, without any further... Eddie.

Sorry, er, we've got a last-minute bidder.

Who?

Er, he wants to remain anonymous.

Anonymous?

He's phoning in from Las Vegas.

Vegas?

He's there on business. He's a, er, businessman.

And it's legit? Yep.

He's loaded.

Oh, that's him there now.

Listen, sorry about that, folks.

Er, last-minute bidder...

from Las Vegas.

LINE RINGS

'Ant. Leave a message.'

No-one's picking up.

Something's happened.

Like what?

So, do we have an opening bid?

Can't have an auction without a bid, guys.

It's a great house, bangin' location.

Start off at 600,000.

No? Come on!

Five?

500,000.

Bit low. 550?

Do we hear 550?

550 from our anonymous bidder.

600?

At 600,000...

Come on.

Ah.

650. Now we're cooking.

Do I have...

FINBAR: I will not stay in this house another second!

EDDIE CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY

That's no reflection on the house, guys.

You're not the woman I thought you were, Bernie!

Can you keep it down at the back there? Yeah?

This is the woman I am, Finbar.

About time you saw her.

Are you drinking?

Oh that's it, yeah. Just walk away.

After everything I've done!

After everything you've done?

What exactly HAVE you done, Bernie?

You have lied, you have deceived, you have...

She loaned you a hundred grand to buy a house.

Which was given to me in good faith, Tom, as a gift.

It was a loan, until you finished your book.

Well, I'm not staying here listening to the ravings of a drunk.

What did you just call her?

I called her what she is, Tom - a pathetic... old... drunk!

750,000's where...

What did you call her?

Tom! Take it back.

Look at yourself, Tom, a man of your age!

You take that back. What's going on?

You miserable coward!

We're trying to have an auction here, lads.

Come back, ya baldie fuck!

Rory! Hey.

OK... Argh!

Tom? Tom, I don't believe in violence.

Come on!

There are other ways to make a point. Come on!

Stop this! Don't make me rise to it!

Oh, for God's sake. This is ridiculous!

Right! CAROLINE: Dad...

So, 800.

Nice. OK. 850.

Argh! Oh, my God! Guys!

Erm... Rory, do something!

Like two children. Will you stop it?

OK, that's enough. Guys, come on! BERNIE: Finbar!

900, anyone?

900, anyone?

Ugh! Argh!

Finbar, for God's sake! Finbar, let him go!

You're hurting him!

900, anyone?

One million. Seriously?

Yeah. That's... That's... what he says.

Well, folks, one million from our anonymous bidder.

Does anyone wanna go above?

No?

One million going once.

One million going twice.

He can't breathe!

TOM GASPS

What's going on?!

I'm sorry I had to do that, Tom.

I hope there's no hard feelings.

Dad?

Hey... Finbar.

Dad, stop.

BERNIE: Tom? Stop, stop. I've something to tell you.

Dad, I'm pregnant!

FINBAR LAUGHS

Just what the world needs - another fucking Sheridan!

Argh! THEY GASP

Sold! Sold! Sold!

For a million and 50! EDDIE LAUGHS

What?

No! No, no, no, no, no, no!

Hey...

Let's just get through security, OK?

Just give us a sec.

LINE RINGS

VOICEMAIL: 'Hi, you've reached Caroline Sheridan.

'Please leave a message.'

Ah.

Doesn't seem broken.

Good.

You should probably get an x-ray anyway, just to be sure.

Marie-Luisa broke up with me.

I... I told her we slept together.

Why?

Cos I wanted her to break up with me...

cos...

..cos I'm in love with you.

And I want to be with you.

And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

And...

I want to have your baby...

Caroline.

Rory.

Ow! Oh, God!

Sorry. I'm so sorry. Ooh!

I'm just gonna try one more time.

Shiv, this is getting ridiculous. MOBILE RINGS

It's my mum.

What do you think she's gonna say? "Sorry"?

Shiv, the woman has lied to you, she's scapegoated you.

She's never believed in anything you do.

RINGING CONTINUES

When are you gonna choose yourself and cut the fucking cord?

Yeah. OK.

Shiv?

I can't do this.

Shiv, if the house is sold, there's nothing you can do now.

I'm sorry, Alex.

Shiv...

This is the chance for something new.

I want to make you happy.

Please let me.

Sorry.

They're my family.

# This is just the left-overs Of the old me

# The one before you showed me

# I can do both

# Now I look at her

# God, she was so lovely

# Oh, I really sold me off

# And watched it all unfold

# Ooh-ooh-ooh

# Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

# Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

# Ooh

# Ooh. #

He was a charlatan, Bernie.

I know.

I just didn't wanna be alone.

You're not alone.

We don't have to sell the house if you don't want to.

We don't have to.

We do.

We have to move on.

I was calling you.

Was there something you wanted to say?

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry, Shiv.

I'm so sorry for what I did.

I'm sorry.

Are you still drinking?

I never really stopped.

I can't, Shiv.

It's too hard.

You just have to want to.

I don't want to.

I don't want to live the rest of my life

without being able to have a drink.

I'm not strong enough.

I'm not as strong as you.

Can you forgive me?

I don't know.

Well...

..this isn't my house any more, so...

I'm going to Rita's till it's all done.

Mum...

I know.

I love you too.

Well... this is depressing.

Thought we just sold a house.

Ooh. Youse made a killing, to be fair.

That was thanks to me.

Thank you.

Thanks.

Er, so, what are we toasting?

The house?

Oh, I've got one.

To grandparents.

Ah. BOTH: To grandparents!

Congratulations.

Thanks. Oh, it's not mine.

Congrats, man. Thanks.

It's... It's not mine.

Stop saying that.

SOFTLY: Sorry.

Why aren't you in Australia?

Long story.

Well, cheers!

ALL: Cheers!

So, now that the house is sold, what's the plan?

Where are you guys... No. Shh...

Oh.

There's a six-bed going in Sallynoggin for a million.

We could actually buy that now.

Let's see.

Oh, that's gorgeous.

Tom, look at the garden.

There's one here for only 950 with a guest house.

Oh, only 950 (?)

We're losing the run of ourselves here.

Sor... Are you guys not... getting a divorce?

Oh, we are, yeah. Absolutely.

What about Bray? Oh, I love Bray.

Or Greystones? Yeah. Greystones is nice.

It's not technically Dublin, though, is it?

What about Pam's?

# I wish I could save the day

# Told you I was doing fine this way

# On my own in my own way

# And I wish I could save the day

# But I can't

# I wish I could save the day

# But I can't. #

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