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# I look at her, and she looks at me

# In her eyes, I see the sea

# And I don't know What she'd see in me

# She says she loves me

# Her eyes, yeah, her eyes

# Her eyes are a blue million miles

# Far as I can see... #

Morning, you.

Morning. # She loves me

# Far as I can see

# You love me

# Far as I can see

# She loves me... #

SHE GRUNTS, PHONE RINGS

SHE GROANS, CLATTERING

HE GRUNTS

'Hey, hey... Yeah, no, I am a legend.'

SHE SIGHS

Your da is on his way. Shit!

Oh, fuck!

Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry. I'm just going for a quick piss.

I was here first. I was here first!

I don't care! You're such a little princess.

You're such a dick, just get outta me way!

Get out of my face, you'll be there for hours.

Are we gridlocked? I wanna wash myself.

Did we not do a rota? You use all the hot water.

You always leave your pubes in the shower! I'm gonna be late.

Oh, the pair of you, stop! HE GROANS

Shiv. Happy birthday, love.

Oh, happy birthday, Shiv.

Happy birthday, love!

Happy birthday, Shiv. Happy birthday, Shiv. Thanks!

Sorry, Ant. Ha! Bitch!

A bit early for that language, what?

DOOR CLOSES

Someone close, love?

Yeah. Yeah.

Though, sometimes, I just come for the peace.

Yeah.

It's a good reminder, isn't it? How quickly life goes. Mm.

You probably don't need reminding.

Not that you're near death or anything. I mean...

I just meant we're not here for a long time. I know.

And we're not necessarily here for a good time, either.

We're here to...

We're here to be the best versions of ourselves.

And it's a choice.

Be a better sister, be a better daughter,

be a better... human.

And, yes, it takes hard work, and, yes, it takes discipline,

but you've got to keep trying and trying and trying

every single day,

until eventually, you... Oh...

Would you like a bit of spliff, love?

Takes the edge off.

No.

No, thank you.

So...

I've been coming to these meetings

for... seven months now.

Don't usually say too much...

but I promised my daughter.

It's her birthday today.

Thirty-six.

How did that happen? RIPPLED LAUGHTER

Thirty-six! I mean, that's nearly 40.

LAUGHTER Yeah.

When I think of myself at her age -

four kids, a husband, a house...

a career...

But she's doing it her way.

Erm... I grew up at a time

when people didn't really talk about their feelings.

This country was like a conspiracy of silence.

And for women... SHE SCOFFS

Last year, my neighbour Pam was murdered by her husband.

And no-one even noticed... It's a disgrace! ..except me.

I'm going to be a witness at the trial.

But that's how little women's lives matter in this country.

We can be murdered by our husbands, and no-one even notices! Shocking.

Well, let me tell you something... I'm done being silent.

I'm done being buried!

I'm here. MURMURED ASSENT

I have a voice.

And from now on, I'm ready to roar!

APPLAUSE Wow!

Well done!

Whoo!

Thank you, Bernie!

Powerful stuff there!

You handled that really well. What?

Her share. What was wrong with it?

Well, it wasn't exactly about alcoholism.

Oh, well, it was about how society covertly silences and devalues women

to such an extent that a weight of toxic shame

is placed on their shoulders so extreme,

the only outlet for many is addiction.

You know?

Yeah... in a roundabout way.

Shiv. How do you think I did?

Yeah, good.

For a first time, that was...

I think it really struck a chord with people.

They wanna take me to lunch.

Who? Billy - very magnetic. And Therese.

They're practically fighting over who's gonna sponsor me.

It's mad! Yeah, it's really mad.

You didn't want to join? No, no.

Karen and I, actually, are going for some... Bernie, you're on Wikipedia!

No, I'm not. You are. Am I?!

I have to see this.

Oh, I'll see you tonight at the party, love.

Wear something nice.

DOOR CLOSES

You never thought of putting a little kitchen

out in the shed there, Tom, did you?

No. And it's not a shed.

Oh, I know but... HE CHUCKLES

..you know. Yeah.

It was only meant to be a temporary...

Have you seen the butter?

Butter dish to your left.

You could probably put one in now. Little galley job.

Don't think there's room. Oh, you'd be surprised.

You see some of these studios in New York and Hong Kong -

their use of space is inspiring.

Happy to lend a hand.

You may not expect it from a man of letters, but...

I do love me DIY.

Yeah, I'll keep it in mind.

"Good with a bit of wood", as they say.

Is this today's?

So great she's coming to meetings now, properly,

and making friends and... you know.

Do you think they were really fighting over her

cos isn't that against the...?

Listen, love, I know it's weird for you.

It's not weird, it's great.

But like I said at the start, if you wanna

do recovery with your ma, you gotta set some boundaries.

I have set boundaries. Firm... boundaries.

We always go to different meetings. So, what were you doing there today?

Moral support. She was nervous.

Well, you've done moral support now, you don't need to do it again.

So, let's let your ma stand on her own two feet,

and let's you and me talk about something fucking else

for five minutes! Hi, Alex!

Ladies! Hi, Alex. Oh, is that a new tattoo?

Mm, no. Don't think so, Karen. Oh.

I thought it was for Shiv. It's her birthday. Is it?

I won't ask you how old. Thanks. Appreciate that.

Any plans for the big day?

Er... just having a party, yeah.

A family party, not a cool party.

Aunts, uncles, brother, sister, mum...

dad... She's big into family.

Well, if you feel like mixing it up later...

a mate of mine's playing a gig in Vicar Street...

..and I've a plus-one.

Oh, God, right.

Er... I wish I could, Alex, but, erm...

this p-party could go on all night.

My family are animals. SHE CHUCKLES

He's playing Thursday as well. Thursday? Mm-hm.

Yeah...

No. No, I can't.

And next Saturday?

Saturdays are... bad for me.

Yeah. No worries.

Worth a shot, right? I'm free Saturday!

I mean, my husband's having a colonoscopy,

and I'm supposed to collect him from the hospital but...

what are taxis fuckin' there for? LAUGHTER

The usual, yeah? Yeah, great. No.

Thank... No, no, no. On the house.

Can't have...

one of my regulars paying for it on their birthday.

Here...

Happy birthday, Shiv. Thanks, Alex...

Good to see you. You too.

What the fuck is wrong with you?!

He's a fuckin' little beaut, he is!

Anthony, what are you doing?!

Er, market research.

You were looking up holidays to Crete.

Listen...

we'd all like to go to Crete, OK.

Get a bit of sun on our bellies.

I know you lads like to put the time in at the gym.

But we're in a serious situation.

A serious situation? Nothing to panic about. Oh, good.

But your job is on the line. What?!

We're a one-man band here, we're not some fat-cat chain.

Sales are down, properties coming through are...

So, what do we do? Up your game.

Big time.

When you put a fish on the table... you get to stay for dinner.

Get it? PHONE RINGS

Now... HE INHALES SHARPLY

..I need you to do a leaflet drop.

What?

Well, I thought we had a kid for that.

Oh, yeah, first of the cuts.

Pfff...

It's not that I don't wanna go on a date with a hot barista... Really?

Cos you're doing a great job of making it seem that way.

It's that, every time I've started drinking again,

it's been because of some guy. Pfff... One guy.

In a hat. No, there were others.

In London, all those false starts I had.

I had been doing great, be off the booze,

go on a couple of dates and then... bam!

You're different now. Karen, you are the one who said,

"No dating in the first year of recovery!" Yeah, but he's a ride!

Look, Karen...

..I've never been sober this long. I really don't wanna fuck up again.

You're right.

Just cos I've been looking at the same bald patch for 15 years

as me life slips by.

If you think a date with a hot man could risk your sobriety...

I think a date could risk my sobriety. I... OK.

Then we'll go somewhere else for coffee.

Well, no. We don't have to... Oh, shit! Here's my boss.

You're late, Shiv. See you.

Put these up around the college and do a mail out ASAP.

What's this?

Another bursary for young, emerging artists.

Seven grand... and a residency?

You'd swear it was the fuckin' Turner Prize.

Bibi, I'm locked out of my e-mails!

SWEETLY: Coming!

SOFTLY: Stupid bitch.

Marion, hi. Is Rory...? What do you want?

Er, just to, er...

Well, is he there or...? Rory!

That spunk-soaked evil slut is at the door for you.

Caroline?

CAROLINE SCOFFS

Er... what are you doing here?

The sub-letters moved out. I did the end-of-tenancy clean.

These are yours.

Oh... right.

Look, Rory, you can't keep...

SHE SIGHS

It's been over six months.

You know, it's not healthy to just...

SOFTLY: ..mope around the house with your mother.

You need to move on. I have, and... I gotta go.

No, I just meant that... Er, thanks for dropping this over.

SHE SIGHS

PHONE RINGS

Shane, hi! 'Hey.'

You left early this morning.

Is this all you got?

I dropped 80 euro. Hello, hello!

I got balloons. Oh, thank God!

Where would you be without him, eh?

Right! What?

We have sparkling water,

ginger ale... elderflower...

cranberry... You know...

SOFTLY: ..I was thinkin'...

we don't need to say anything tonight.

Oh, I'm not gonna make a big thing of it.

Oh, no, I know, but...

They need to know. Need to know what?

WHISPERS: Just trust me, OK?

DOORBELL RINGS

Hey, Rita. Is that Caroline's car?

I think so, yeah.

Fair play to her.

OK, I think we're getting a bit...

My family are right inside. Yeah, well, this is hot, though...

Yeah. Totally.

I mean, we could just pop in for, like, five...

Is that you, Caroline? Jesus!

Hi, Aunty Ag! Who's that in the car with you?

HE GROANS You're gonna have to come in now.

I'm gonna need to, er...

cool off first. You know? Oh.

Great.

Is that the engineer you were seeing? Shh!

Or the guitarist? I thought he had a moustache.

The guitarist was three months ago, Aunty Ag. Keep up.

WHISPERS: Can you keep your voices down?!

It was a goatee.

Aw, you got balloons! There she is! Birthday girl.

Thanks, Aunty Rita. So, tell us all your news.

Oh. Well, let's see, erm...

still loving the job. The admin, yeah?

Yep. Been doing power yoga every day.

Going to meetings, obviously.

Who isn't these days? Oh, don't knock it.

It's where I met this fella. Oh!

And I started a new... Hi. Caroline!

We just saw your fella outside.

Now, remind me, is he the dentist or the actor?

Which one was the actor?

His name's Shane, he's an investment banker.

We've been seeing each other for two months now.

And you met on Tinder? Tinder, Bumble, Hinge...

She casts a wide net.

I'm not making apologies for taking control of my life, Ant.

Good woman! Rory broke up with me.

Am I... sitting at home feeling sorry for myself?

No. I'm getting back out there, and...

I've got a timeline. A timeline? Yep.

I'm gonna make consultant, get married

and pump out two to three babies in the next four years

cos once you let it slide past 35, believe me, you're basically fucked.

Absolutely. Hear, hear! Someone talking sense.

Hello!

I'm not late, am I? Dad, you got a cake!

Ah, just a small one. Snap!

Great minds, eh?

Hey. Hey! There he is.

This is Shane, everyone. Hi, Shane. Hello.

Shane, Finbar... Hi. Hello, Shane.

And you're a banker? Yeah.

Can I get you a drink, Shane? Er, wine, beer, er...

something with flowers.

Nice one. Er, glass of red. Coming up.

So, er... there's something that I'd like to...

Actually, I-I-I might just, erm,

use this opportunity just to... to say a few words.

If you don't mind, Shiv?

You don't have to, Finbar. No, no, I'd... I'd like to,

it's, er, it's a big day. OK.

FINBAR CLEARS THROAT

As many of you know,

I haven't touched a drop of the hard stuff for well over 30 years.

Got sober, got published... the rest is history.

But I can honestly say those first six months

were by far the toughest.

Getting sober takes guts.

It takes humility.

It takes looking at yourself

with an unsparing eye every single day.

And that's why I have so much admiration...

..for Bernie. Hm?!

Oh, come on. No, no.

It's a very big thing she's done now,

at this stage of her life.

After everything she's been through.

And I think it would be a mark of respect to Bernie

and to this beautiful home that she's created for us

if from now on,

we made this house a booze-free zone.

A what-free zone?

I know we all want to be supportive.

So, if you could just put any alcohol

you've brought this evening... into this.

Are you serious?! Mum, what the...?

BOTTLES CLINK

I'll leave it at the front door,

and you can collect it on the way out.

No problem.

But in here... let's respect the rules.

I mean, finish your drinks, by all means.

It is a party after all.

Marilyn Monroe died at 36.

Hmm.

Princess Diana, too. Mm.

You in a cult? It's my mum's new boyfriend.

It's not normally this wei...

KNOCKING ON DOOR 'Open up! We've got booze!'

Aw, legend!

You're not doing drugs in here, Ant! Why?

It's a week night. Yeah, we're going to town. Yes!

No, I have an early start tomorrow.

Don't be such a fucking grandad! When was the last time we were out?

Oh, you're such a bad influence.

HE SNIFFS DEEPLY, HE SIGHS

Yeah, that's good shit.

Oh, this is gonna be good. Fuck off, Ant!

Oh, ah...

So, how are you, Tom?

Still in the shed?

LAUGHTER FROM BATHROOM

Yeah, what?

Er, do you guys...

wanna play a board game or something?

We're going to town. Mm. All of you?

Yeah. Sorry, Shiv. This party blows.

Our taxi's here.

Is everyone going? It's only eight.

It was just a flying visit.

We can just take these, yeah? Yeah.

Looks like it's just the two of us.

Er, cup of tea?

Er... just a sec.

Mum?

I have something for you. A...

A present. I know it's a bit weird,

me giving you a present on my birthday, but...

Well, let's face it, 36 years ago,

you're the one who did all the heavy lifting.

And it's, you know, it's been kind of a milestone this year

for both of us.

The last seven months haven't exactly been easy.

Jesus!

There are days when I think back on some of the...

God, I wanted...

Well, I-I think about you and, erm,

the changes you've made and the way you've accepted things...

..accepted me.

And, erm...

..you know, it gives me strength...

..knowing I'm not on my own.

Cos 36 years ago, we started one journey together, and...

..seven months ago, we started another, and...

..I guess...

..I guess I just wanted to say, er...

here's to new beginnings.

Will I... well, just leave it out here, or...?

DOOR OPENS

I can give it to her.

Didn't want to interrupt. Beautiful words.

TOILET FLUSHES

Shiv got you a present. Aw.

So thoughtful.

Can I open it tomorrow?

Mm-hm.

Good night, love.

BERNIE LAUGHS

'Ooh!'

SHE INHALES DEEPLY

SHE SIGHS

# There's a blue light Outside the store

# The bell chimes With the sliding doors

# Got my shark eyes So I won't be long

# Leave your car outside With the engine on

# We pass the flowers And the magazines

# You're turning heads Oh, I guess we've caused a scene

# In the spotlight But you wear it well

# I call you first prize You can probably tell... #

MUSIC PLAYS FROM CLUB

Shiv!

I was... just in the area.

Oh. Handy.

Can I buy you a drink?

# Take the next left Down the cul-de-sac

# If you get this one Then, babe, I'll hit you back

# Follow the porch light Climbing up the steps

# I call you first prize Cos I like you best

# But I ain't waiting on the outside Looking for your invite

# Wondering how the rules Might change the game

# I'll just say it outright I knew it the first night

# Everything from here's About to change... #

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