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-[announcer] Previously on "Suddenly Amish" -- -So you're cousins?

Third cousins.

[Kendra] I saw a lot of strange things with Emma and James.

Not normal cousin activities at all, no.

[Judah speaking]

James energized by Kendra's twerk, and then Emma's gaze at

James watching Kendra twerk. -She's a little jealous.

[Allen speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

[Emma] I have to be honest with you,

you and Kendra would not be

a good match. -OK.

We highly encourage a hands-off relationship.

If we were in the modern world,

I would have kissed Kendra by now.

You're an English guy trying to drag off our Amish ladies.

We decided to leave and go to a hotel.

What makes you feel entitled

that you don't have to follow the rules?

There's only one motel close by.

I need to go find them.

[theme music plays]

[reverent chant]

[tense music plays]

Yield not to temptation, for yielding is sin.

Temptation is a real thing for everybody, including Amish.

There's many ways to be tempted.

Serving the flesh, serving self.

It's so easy to be selfish.

Matt is being a bad example to everybody, particularly Kendra.

Kendra is somebody I want to protect.

Kendra has a future here. Kendra has great potential.

I don't want her to be defiled.

[Matt] I'm getting to a tipping point with James

with all this [bleep],

so we decided to leave and go to a hotel.

[tense string music plays]

[James] Anybody's first thought of two individuals going to a hotel,

I mean, there's probably only one thing happening in there.

[knocking]

It was time to go confront them.

[knocking]

We're getting ready to go to bed, and then all of a sudden

we hear, like, banging on the door.

[knocking]

[Matt] At first, I had no idea who's banging on the door.

So I thought maybe somebody was drunk and, you know, whatever,

so we, like, gave it a minute, and it just kept [bleep] going.

[knocking]

[Kendra] I don't know. I didn't know what to do.

I'm freaked out. Matt is freaked out.

Because, like, James has been banging on the door for

a long time, and it was like the walls were shaking.

[James] I don't think they wanted me to know that they were there.

I'm hoping they answer the door so I can talk to them.

I want to see what's going on.

[Matt] Just kept going on for a really long time.

[knocking]

This is, like, where the judgment comes in,

because, like, we could have been in the room

reading a Bible, for all you know.

And I feel like people just assume just because you're

going into a hotel room that you're, like,

going there to hook up.

And it's like, we actually did not do that.

Like, being caught made me feel dirty again

and, like, disgusting, because I'm like, "How is this gonna

come across?" Like, I can obviously say

nothing happened 100 times, and, like, people will believe

what they want to believe.

I might seem like the bad guy,

but I'm actually fighting for their souls.

[twangy music plays]

I support Kendra and Matt, you know, getting to know

each other, but I feel like they should have done it

the Amish way, done it correctly instead of

running off to go get a hotel.

Now it's just creating all this unnecessary drama

that we don't need at the house.

What's up?

Not back yet.

Mm-mm.

If he just communicated, just talked with us,

I mean, I feel like he misunderstands James.

I feel like he's not trying to

communicate with us as a family.

We just had the discussion about the rules of what to do

and what not to do on a date.

So for, the same day, to go to the hotel, it's just

breaking the rules.

Y'all chose to go to a hotel.

So if y'all want to go to a hotel,

you have to stick up to the consequences.

Allen literally said, "Y'all cannot touch."

Yeah. They broke those.

-It's that simple. -They broke those.

I don't have time for the rigmarole,

for the shenanigans. We got things to do.

We still here trying to decide if we're going Amish

or if we staying English.

So if they come back, if they not, I just hope

that they safe. -It's getting out of your hands.

It's out of both of our hands. It's in God's hands.

[tense music plays]

Well, Matt and Kendra going to a hotel was not the Amish way

at all, so I did not agree with it.

But I also didn't agree with

the fact that James went after them,

chased them to the hotel or whatever, and made

a big scene out of it.

What were you planning on doing when you went to the hotel?

Well, just ask them what they're doing there.

You're going to ask them what they're doing at a hotel?

And maybe have a discussion

about why it might not be a good thing.

Maybe you should have had that conversation before

they ever left.

At that point, you don't have a right to go knock on

their door and antagonize them.

To me, that was just so wrong.

Like, that's the only thing that makes sense.

[Billie Jo] Were you guys fake the whole time?

Because I was real. I love and care about you.

-[Billie Jo] That was real for me. -[Aaron] Of course.

This is not a vacation. What did you come here for?

That's -- it's that simple. Live it, be it, or don't.

I don't know. I just...

I'm just kind of flabbergasted, but...

I'll just say it again.

Everyone here feels like family to me, and I took it

very personally.

[piano keys play]

[Kendra] Matt has a flight to catch, because he's telling me

that he's going home.

And I'm like, "OK, well, like, what do I do?"

Like, do I even go back?

Like, I'm now terrified of homeboy.

It's like I don't know what to do.

I think this idea of...

living Amish and joining an Amish community feels

crushed right now.

This is so awkward.

I don't know, it's just time to go.

Kendra and I confided in the people in the house

where we were going, and I think

they are the ones that told James where we were.

Matt is giving me the cold shoulder right now.

I have no idea what's going on.

I wasn't even part of this whole thing.

I'm just trying to follow the rules the best that I can

because I care.

Him not wanting to follow these rules...

I mean, he looks like a child right now.

[tense music plays]

I'm just really [bleep] disappointed in a lot of people.

Um...

And I know Kendra's really upset.

So, um...

I thought we were a lot closer with the people in the house.

They are two-faced,

selfish.

They didn't have our backs with the hotel situation.

There's nine days left. It's just ridiculous.

-It's like a bad temper tantrum. -This [bleep] is crazy.

We didn't do [bleep] to you.

[Billie Jo] That is the most ridiculous, sad way of being.

[dramatic music plays]

[tense music plays]

To be treating all of us like we did you guys dirty is

so wrong. It's so wrong.

[Matt] I feel very betrayed by everybody in the house.

I mean, I don't care to ever

[bleep] talk to them again, so...

[sniffling]

[somber music plays]

[tense music plays]

That Amish experience wasn't for me.

I'll say that.

There are good stuff that I've taken away from this.

Like, I wouldn't have met Kendra if I didn't come here.

I don't know what's gonna happen between Kendra and I,

but I'm willing to explore this connection.

[mooing]

[Allen] I am very disappointed with James.

That's...typically not who we are.

I definitely think James did overreact.

We do our best to refrain from drama.

The best thing for the other English

is to keep them busy working.

-Well, hey there. -Ready for some work?

-I guess so. -Good.

-[oinking] -[bleating]

[mooing]

[Allen] About 5:30, 6 o'clock in the evening,

we'll feed the animals.

If there's daylight left, we'll either do more work in

the fields or do some repairs on the property.

Now we'll get the fresh feed.

[moo]

All right, come and get it.

[Aaron] Amish work ethic.

I really miss my daily routines in my English world,

but the Amish side is the simplicity of

everyday life here.

I actually don't mind doing this.

This is kind of fun for me.

This stuff,

as simple as it is, does kind of make me feel alive.

You tell me when we need to stop.

[Allen] Well, when it's empty. That's when we'll stop.

In this group here, Aaron avoids conflict,

and he's in control of his emotions.

I do sense that Aaron will be more likely to embrace

the Amish lifestyle.

[Aaron] I am very aware that Allen was judging my work ethic

and my integrity.

It makes me nervous, but I know as long as I'm pulling

my weight, knowing what I know, I've done my best.

I've not made my decision if I'm staying or not.

I'm still really digging deep for that.

This is something that I wanted for a long time.

But the hearing aids are huge for me.

And if I can't have my hearing aids, it's just I don't see how

it's gonna work.

I miss so much information in conversation.

I want to know what's going on.

If I can't live in the moment, that's very frustrating.

[Allen] He's definitely at a crossroad in his life where he has to

make a decision very soon, and he's getting close.

I honestly think he'd make a good Amishman, but who knows

what happens?

Good work.

OK, now what?

I want you guys to get your room cleaned up.

All right.

I might need your help hanging this bad boy up.

This is very heavy.

[gravel crunching]

I decided for myself, like, "OK, I need to leave."

I want to go back in the house

and give them an explanation as to why I'm leaving.

And I'm hoping we can end on good terms because we were all

very close in the house.

[suspenseful strings play]

Hi.

[suspenseful chord strike]

[Esmeralda] I'm literally speechless.

I didn't expect her to come back here.

I'm thinking we just have a lot to talk about.

[Kendra] Can we have a talk?

All of us?

If they want to.

I can talk to Sarah and Allen alone, then.

-That's fine. -Sounds good to me.

I thought our friendship was more than that.

I did, too. But the way that

you acted kind of showed that

it really didn't mean anything. -Let's not like, be like that.

You let me know when you're ready.

[Billie Jo] Okie Doke.

Not sure what her intentions are.

Maybe she's trying to weasel her way back in the house.

I don't want to hear it. I'm not listening.

I'm out. I'm gonna go do something.

There's plenty of chores to get done.

Sarah and Allen, I'll talk to you over here, then.

And then Esmeralda, if you're open to talking.

-Yeah, sure. -[Kendra] But if not,

then I didn't come out for nothing.

-[Esmeralda] Yeah, yeah, yeah. -So...

[Billie Jo] Judah.

Kendra just walked up.

She's like, "Can I talk to you, do you have a minute?"

And I'm like, "If they want to." She wants to talk to everybody.

-I'm shaking. -[Allen] You're fine.

I'm like, I'm actually so nervous.

Hi, boys.

Would you like to join in this conversation?

Kendra left. Not sure why she's here.

Guess we'll see.

[tense music plays]

You know, this whole experience,

it's supposed to be, like,

powerful and liberating, and I feel like

I've been knocked down.

Like, I feel like the light that I had for this whole thing

has just been, like, completely sucked out of me,

and, like, I've never had this much, like,

depression and anxiety.

It's just, like, it hasn't been great.

[Judah] I've gone through so much.

The food, I haven't been eating, no air conditioning,

and I'm still here.

If we can go through some stuff, y'all can, too.

BJ come upstairs and, "Oh, Kendra's here."

-And I'm like, "Yo." -[Billie Jo] BJ, what?

I said you came up. Come over here.

[Billie Jo] I don't, I'm not gonna engage, but I will say,

what makes you feel that you both are entitled to just

go have some alone time in a hotel room like you didn't

sign up like the rest of us to live Amish?

What Amish couple do you know

that just goes and spends at a hotel?

The [bleep]?

You don't feel like you owe all of us an apology

for how you both acted?

And now I think it's, "OK, I thought about it.

I feel like I should give them an apology."

I don't think it's sincere

and, respectfully, don't want to hear it.

But right now I'm so angry because I feel like

you should know me better. I don't take it [bleep] lightly.

So if we're just sincere in our actions and our everyday

one-twos, we don't have to second-guess it.

We don't have to worry about it.

I don't give a [bleep] if the cameras are watching me,

because I will say it if they're not or if they are.

-[dramatic music plays] -[door slams]

[somber music plays]

[Billie Jo] It's like, she's so [bleep] disrespectful.

I don't want to hear it. I got [bleep] to do.

I feel like we're wasting day.

I feel so, like, attacked because it's like,

again, it was nothing personal to any of you guys.

Like, I was just trying to get out of the house.

I mean, I don't think she attacked you.

I think she just hurt, and she kept it real.

You know what I'm saying?

She also is the person closest to you because she spent

the most time with you. So, I think she just,

of course, like, of course, she should take it personal.

[Esmeralda] I think what Billie Jo said definitely is something that

Kendra needed to hear, because, of course,

they spent the most time together, so she really

knows her, you know, from day one.

And I feel like she could have stayed here, and maybe,

like, she could have come out of this with a different

version of her.

I advise, as your friend, that y'all need to have

a one-on-one conversation. -[Billie Jo] Yeah.

Because you say your piece, and she can say her piece.

But if y'all -- y'all talking, but y'all not listening.

I was never intentionally trying to disrespect them,

or be rude to them at all.

Like, it was a selfish moment

for me because I just wanted to get the [bleep] out of here.

I wanted it to be, like, a genuine conversation

with everybody.

I'll talk to you, but away from everybody, respectfully.

-[Kendra] Yeah. -OK.

I have not been anything but a sincere and good friend

to Kendra.

We've shared so many things, so I will pull her aside

and tell her how I feel.

So, I'm obviously angry.

The way that you left, I felt, was super [bleep] up to me.

From our perspective, we were like,

"Obviously, they don't want to live the Amish life."

I felt like another friend, like, does what a boy wants

and [bleep] everybody else.

Yes, I was [bleep] mad.

From my perspective, you and I promised each other

we wouldn't leave each other. -It had nothing to do with you.

We went on a date.

And we wanted to get to know each other

without 20 people there.

That's why we went to the hotel.

But from a perspective of Amish, you just did something

non-Amish, dirty, and left all this Amish home for us.

But I'm not Amish. That's the thing.

I'm trying. Like, I'm learning.

And I feel like I got treated as if I grew up Amish.

Yeah.

-I can see that. -And they're holding me to this standard.

And it's like, it's not a normal thing for me.

-So like... -[Billie Jo] You're right.

No, you're right.

You know, and that's why I think that's what made me

you really realize, like, OK, maybe I'm not cut out.

Meant to be, yeah.

But I love you, regardless.

We've shared our most intimate --

don't cry.

I just don't want you upset with me.

[Billie Jo speaking]

[Billie Jo] Don't feel bad. It's over.

[Kendra] I just feel bad because, like,

you were the closest one to me in the house.

And I'm still the closest in the house.

I know, but then, like, hearing you, like,

talk to me like that. -I was just mad.

I know, but it's [bleep] hard.

[Billie Jo] And I'm sorry I yelled at you like that.

-But, OK, thank you. -You're welcome.

-I love you. -I'm sorry I'm not staying, but...

That's OK.

I feel like keeping Kendra somewhere that

she doesn't want to be

isn't helping nobody,

but also it's sad to see her go.

You know, I just, like, I genuinely appreciate

all you guys. -We appreciate you.

And I'm sorry I couldn't, like, stick it out

with you guys.

-[Kendra] I love you. -[Billie Jo] I love you.

[Kendra] Bye.

[James] It kind of sucks to see Kendra leave.

I mean...

all the time and effort is kind of wasted.

She has this potential to be a good Amish wife.

Would have been nice to have her around longer.

I think there's natural chemistry.

I think that if Matt and Kendra would have been

given an honest chance, if they would have been --

if we would have treated them right,

and then they would have stayed.

The biggest reason why they left is because of the way

that we didn't do our part.

We've done something extremely wrong, because there should be

no reason for them to want to leave.

[dramatic chord strike]

[reverent chanting]

[Allen] Our original plan is to start with six people

to build a community.

Right now we have four.

Right now the mission looks kind of rough.

Was this the right thing to do?

I'm not sure yet how we're gonna get back on the rails,

but we've committed ourselves to it, and we're just gonna

make do with whatever stays.

[music plays]

Today I'm giving Judah and Esmeralda a lesson

on fishing.

It provides food, and it also

is a time to connect with nature.

-Do you want to try it? -OK, I think I'm ready.

[Judah] Ew, that's nasty, bro.

I still have phobias about farm living.

I've grown so much, but I'm sorry, worms are still

grossing me out. -[Allen] You getting it, Judah?

[Judah] I'm trying to figure out how to wrap it around.

-Like, do I just double? -[Allen] Yeah, just double it up.

-You getting it, Judah? -I don't know.

Can you come look at it for me real quick?

Take the string back and hold it with your finger.

[Esmeralda] Oh! Oh!

Oh! Oh!

-[laughing] -[squealing]

-[Allen] There. -[Esmeralda] Ah!

Touch it.

[Allen] Just grab it. Just grab it fast.

You're doing it. You're doing it.

-[Judah] Oh, I'm proud of you. -[Esmeralda] Ew, ew, ew, ew, ew.

Oh, I'm so proud of you. Oh, I'm so -- oh!

Good job. Yeah.

[Esmeralda] Allen's a pretty patient teacher.

I would always think that my dad or, you know, someone

like that would have shown me how to fish.

But I obviously never grew up with, like, a dad that was

super present.

So I think it was nice to have Allen kind of,

you know, stepping in and playing that role.

OK, Judah, your turn.

-[Allen] Good. -[Esmeralda] Oh, that was a good throw.

-[Allen] There it is, get him. -[Esmeralda] Oh.

[Judah] He's trying to run off. Oh, yeah, slick one.

-[Allen] Jerk it. -Oh, I don't know how to jerk it.

Oh, jerk it. Wait.

Whoa, get the [bleep] away from me, oh.

-Oh. -[Judah] [bleep].

-[Judah] Get it. -[Allen] Judah, get it.

All right, all right.

-[Esmeralda] You got this. -[Allen] Oh, man, yep.

[Esmeralda] Just grab it. Just don't think about it.

Man, bro, this stuff's hard, bro.

-Esme did it, you can, too. -Yeah, if I can do it.

-[Judah] I got it, I got it. -[Esmeralda] You got it.

-[Allen] You can do it. -[Judah] I got it, I got it.

Close my hand, please. Close my hand.

[Allen] You can do it. Close it quick.

-[Allen] Close it quick. -[Judah] I can't.

[Judah] I literally can't. I can't.

I'm really trying. I'm really trying.

[Judah] [bleep].

[Allen] You're a man. Come on.

-[Esmeralda] Yeah. -[Allen] You can do it.

We got to get this little boy back in the water soon.

-I know. -I can, I can, I can do this.

I can do this, I can do this. I can do this.

You're like The Little Engine That Could, Judah.

Come on.

[nervous groaning]

OK, that's cool. Right there.

-Yeah, close it fast. -Close it.

-There you go! -[groans] -- throw it back!

[Judah] Oh, I'm doing it!

[bleep]

Get it! It's in its eye!

I did it! Yeah!

-[Esmeralda] There you go! -Yeah!

Ha!

-[Esmeralda] Yay! -I ain't scared of no fish.

Yeah!

[Esmeralda] Aw, I'm so proud of you.

I'm very proud of Judah for the tremendous effort that

he's made and put into this whole project.

I have personally seen Judah basically start growing up

and becoming a man. It makes me feel good.

I mean...

he is like...

I mean, he's like a son to me.

Allen, I do want to say, though, I appreciate you for

being patient and teaching me things while I'm here

and really accepting me through this Amish experience because,

you know, I'm not used to

people being patient and walking me through things.

Well, Judah, I have seen, I've seen a lot of growth in you.

You have come a long way.

I'm proud of you for that.

[Judah] Allen telling me he's proud of me is, like,

makes me want to cry.

You know, I'm out here doing things that I never

thought I would do.

I've grown so much, and when I first came here, I didn't even

want to eat off of people's plates.

You know what I'm saying? So the fact that

I'm going in barns, the fact that I'm taking

fish off the hooks and doing all this crazy stuff,

I'm so proud of myself.

And I started here, and I'm like,

now I'm just up here.

[Esmeralda] I have to decide whether I'm gonna remain here

and continue my Amish life or, you know, go back home.

And it's just such a big decision.

I feel like I've been away from home for so long

that I don't even know what life is like back there.

Coming here made me see maybe I don't need so much of,

like, the materialistic things,

but I also have, like, learned a lot.

I kind of found the confidence in myself, you know,

becoming more comfortable in those uncomfortable situations

a lot of the time.

I've never felt a sense of accomplishment and purpose

as I do right now.

So if you ask me right now if I'm staying Amish, hell yeah.

But at the same time, there's another voice

in my head that's telling me, like, "You have to have

"a conversation with these people about who you are

and what you're going through."

And you can't -- you got to just be real.

Ahhh.

Stop playing with me.

Yeah.

But I'm going to take my win today and be grateful for that.

[twangy music plays]

[ominous music plays]

[thud]

I feel like I did my best, um...

in setting a good example, but I need a better leader.

This is not what we're here for.

We're supposed to teach them how to be Amish.

And I just, I don't want to be a part of it anymore.

I don't really understand what you're talking about.

Whatever James does is up to him.

I'm done.

It's not worth it.

You're not gonna change my mind.

Just accept it.

-[music builds] -[suspenseful chord strike]

[rhythmic music plays]

[Aaron] There's a lot of unrest that you really can't see

on the surface.

I think that everything with Matt, with Kendra, with James,

all that drama, I think that...

we all came in this together, so...

I miss the presence of Matt and Kendra,

but at the same time, they made their choices.

[Billie Jo] The house is on edge.

Everybody's nervous, and all just, and we're all just trying

to kind of support one another and, like, make sure everybody

that's on deck is still OK.

And then James lets us know he wants to

talk about something.

[James] Um, Emma decided to leave last night.

Why?

[James] The way we handled some of the thing with Matt and Kendra.

She decided she didn't want to be part of it anymore.

What is going on? Where's everybody going?

With Amish and their secrets, who's gonna tell me, you know?

James isn't talking.

There's times when things happen

when it's out of control, and it does, it just happens,

and you can't stop it.

I don't know if Emma left because of how James handled

that Matt and Kendra situation.

I don't know if it's because

James is giving more attention to Kendra than her.

I don't know why anything's going on.

This is what a church split feels like.

I feel like Emma might have just been tired of all

the attention that Kendra was getting.

I feel like this whole situation with Kendra was maybe

just the last straw for her.

I think it would be fair to say that Emma felt like

the mission was...

maybe falling apart.

I guess partly, she felt like we weren't really,

truly representing the Amish.

Maybe Emma leaving...

has something to do with jealousy.

It doesn't feel like James is being completely honest.

We were given this opportunity to live and experience

the Amish life, which we're doing.

And unfortunately, we have people that have chosen to move

elsewhere, and they're not coming back.

They're gone. And we're moving forward.

Well, we've definitely made some mistakes, but we have to

pick up the pieces and keep going.

I mean, if the bishop starts blaming me for this,

he might not want to take me back into the church ever.

We don't want to lose more people.

-Right. -Exactly.

[Allen] I will tell you one thing right now that we really do

need, and that is more communication among each other.

[Billie Jo] Yeah.

I think things got a little too dramatic for Emma,

and that is the reason why she left.

I would totally agree with that.

The -- the drama was overwhelming for her,

and she was very frustrated.

It feels like the house is falling apart.

[tense music plays]

I do know that I'm gonna have to talk with

my brother, the bishop.

It's not gonna be good for James.

What James did, it's a little selfish.

Matt, Kendra, Emma leaving.

It puts the whole mission at stake.

[tense music plays]

[tense music plays]

[Allen] I'm gonna have to talk with my brother, the bishop,

about the drama that we've had.

We're just gonna have to figure out what we're gonna --

what needs to be done and what we can do.

[door creaking]

Welcome.

-[Vernon] So how are you? -Good.

How have things been going?

Oh...

Lately kind of rough. Matt, Kendra, and Emma left.

Um, why don't we sit?

Tell me what happened.

Well, what I'm piecing together is that

Matt and Kendra did...

go to a motel.

James went after them.

What happened after that?

They just grabbed their clothes, what they could find

real quick, and left. They left.

They were done talking.

That's kind of sad.

For Matt and Kendra to go to the...

motel was definitely not the highest level

of moral excellence that they could have achieved.

My biggest disappointment was that they didn't talk

to me afterwards. I didn't know it was happening.

I had no control over it.

But then having them leave disappointed me

simply because...

I felt like they needed some guidance.

How did Emma respond to all of this?

I think there's a lot more going on.

And...

With Emma and James.

[speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

So, Matt and Kendra were like,

"Well, if they do, why can't we?

Like, "What's the use? We can have this

back where we came from."

[Allen] Yes.

It's morally wrong to live in fornication.

Or adultery.

All of us face temptations, one way or another.

And I'm not saying that just for Matt and Kendra.

James and Emma had the same scenario in their own lives.

We face temptations all the time.

We're trying to give them tools, how to deal with it.

And obviously we didn't give them the right tools.

We only have a week left of this experience.

As house parents, it's your job

to try to get everybody back on track.

Can you tell me what's one change we could make?

[Allen] The only thing that right now that I could think of,

I do know that Kendra was...

missing her mom,

not having contact with her mom.

Would it be important to have them continue to have contact...

with family?

I think that would be a huge improvement.

For the four people left, I'm hoping they can connect

with their families at home.

That in return will help grow their love of the Amish

experience and embracing it and joining the Amish church.

[speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

[Allen, speaking Pennsylvania Dutch]

[Vernon] If we continue making the wrong choices,

We continue reaping a wrong harvest.

[birds chirping]

[Billie Jo] Esmeralda, what do you think so far?

I think so far, I feel like there's so much more space now.

Looks a lot cleaner.

[twangy music plays]

[Esmeralda] Oh.

Oh, I see someone rolling up.

[ominous music plays]

[Judah] I see this car pull up,

and it's my mama.

Last time I spoke to my mama, she was telling me not to come,

but I still made it here.

I'm like, "What are you doing here?

You ain't got no business being out here."

[Kierra] Hadn't heard from my son, it's been several weeks.

As a mama bear, this is what we do, especially when you love

your child, your family, anybody.

You go and find them, and you make sure that they're OK.

[Judah] I'm really intimidated.

This is gonna be tough.

[ominous chord strike]

[Kierra] I definitely plan on taking my son home with me.

If he doesn't want to go back home with me,

there will definitely be a fight.

[announcer] Still to come on "Suddenly Amish" --

I want to show my mama every inch of this damn farm.

[Allen] Come on in. You're fine.

They're having dinner.

I'm not trying to be on the menu.

My mission at the end of the day is to

get my son out of here.

So you always wanted me to be great.

And when I find something that I feel like I'm thriving in,

it's like you're trying to pull me away from that.

She doesn't want me to be here, clearly.

Hello? Oh, I'm just hanging out with some Amish people.

I don't understand how people can live like this.

I'm really worried for her, because she does not look good.

[indistinct speaking]

Ah. Ow.

Tomorrow is a big day.

The bishop is going to decide if you stay or not.

Me and Allen could put in a good word if we desire to.

Some of my best friends are gay, and if I were gay,

then I would not be able to be a part of the community.

Is that what you're saying?

[Aaron] With Reckoning Day, the community,

the Amish church, I'm literally surrendering

all my control to them.

Could each of you maybe stand and say your piece?

[Esmeralda] It's a lifelong decision to give up all that I love

to be part of the community.

[Vernon] Jesus said, "He who lays his hand to the plow and looks

back is not worthy of his kingdom."

It's a decision for life.

[suspenseful music builds]

[suspenseful chord strike]