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This programme contains strong
language, scenes of sexual nature
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and nudity, and scenes with
discussions of self-harm
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I'm nervous. I'm going to take it
one step at a time.
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In a world saturated with sex...
I'm absolutely petrified.
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...more young adults than ever
are living without it.
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The thought of having sex
with someone... Scares me.
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It gives me the ick.
I'm missing out.
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Terrified. Nerve-racking.
Gut-wrenching.
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Embarrassing. All I think about is
what I'm going to get wrong.
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{\an8}Can you point to the outer labia?
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Nope.
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Now... Oh, my God!
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...12 virgins are getting
a crash course in intimacy.
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Social media, porn, dating apps.
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There are so many negative messages
and we can help them blossom.
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{\an8}Use it by stimulating the area.
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They'll be guided by experts...
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You see yourself as... Repulsive.
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...to explore all aspects
of intimacy...
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...and maybe even have sex with
a trained therapist...
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Do you want to put a condom on?
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...or each other.
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Get a room, guys.
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THEY SHRIEK
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I really do need to change my life.
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Who will be ready...
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Desperate times call
for desperate measures.
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...to go all the way?
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Ahh.
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{\an8}Over the past few days on
Virgin Island...
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{\an8}I feel so connected to you.
Can I grab your butt?
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...learning the dynamics of dating...
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This is only phase three?
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LAUGHTER
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What do we do?
You have to stare into my eyes.
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...Led to Callum
and Katie becoming closer.
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Callum, you make me giddy!
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Tegan... You ready to look at
my ass?
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Mm-hm. ..found self-acceptance
in surrogate partner therapy...
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I'm definitely a lesbian.
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I think that's
the best I've ever felt.
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...and Bertie... You
can kind of be all the way up.
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And you can use my hips. Yes.
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...seems to be getting
over his inhibitions.
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All that thrusting
has made me hurt my bollocks.
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Now the group
face their biggest challenge yet.
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Baring all. Nudity is really
the phase that people dread.
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There are so many negative messages
around bodies
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that the thought of, like,
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looking at yourself in the mirror
can be really daunting.
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Noticing if you feel like you want
to continue getting undressed.
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Lack of body confidence gets
in the way of sex.
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Learning how
to relax around nudity is
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an essential step
in a sexual connection.
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Day seven. Almost the halfway point
on Virgin Island...
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Oh, no.
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Oh, my gosh. ..and for many
in the group,
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their biggest challenge yet.
It's time to face and conquer
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the thing that may have been holding
you back,
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as the next phase is nudity.
Please come to this workshop
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in as few clothes
as you feel comfortable wearing.
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This is what I've been most
scared for.
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It's a crucial stage.
Morning. Morning.
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What happens today could
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define progress
for the rest of the retreat.
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Have you read your letter?
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Yeah. I was hoping we wouldn't
be doing this one.
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I would like to feel less shameful,
anxious,
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about going fully undressed.
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I just don't think I would
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ever be able to do it.
How are you feeling?
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I'm freaking out. Yeah.
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I don't want to do this.
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I really hate my body,
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and I really hate what I look like,
so I'm really scared.
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My whole body just now
feels really tense.
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Good morning, Bertie.
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Is it a good morning? Really?
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Even when, like, I've worn a
chequered shirt in public,
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because I'm worried
that the bits, like, near
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the buttons expose the skin,
I've always worn a vest under that.
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That's how self-conscious I've been
about my body.
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I'm going to put my best sports
bra on.
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Oh, I just want to hide!
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You all right?
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Er, as I'll ever be. Yeah.
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In front of the experts
and their peers...
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Here we go, everyone.
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...today's workshop is an opportunity
for the virgins...
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Good morning. Hey, guys. Hello, hello.
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...to prove how much confidence
they have or haven't gained
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at the retreat.
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Welcome to the nudity phase of
the course.
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There are so many negative messages
out there
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that make us feel horrible
about our bodies,
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and we really want
to help you change that.
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Because at the end of the day,
if you want to have sex,
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you will need to be naked
in front of your partner
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and that can be very awkward
if you don't
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feel good about your body.
So in a moment,
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we're going to start going up to
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the mirror one by one
and then disrobe.
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We believe the more
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that they're willing to reveal
in this workshop,
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the more it can be rewarding,
because that barrier of, like,
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"Oh, no, I've never done this
before," finally is gone.
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Learning how to see their bodies
as beautiful,
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how to take a compliment,
and how to say, "This is my body."
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Who knows they want to walk first?
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For 22-year-old Millie,
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body image has been
a long-standing challenge.
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Hello.
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I've never been at peace with
my body.
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Over the past few years
I've just been, like,
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that should be toned
or that should be slim.
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Take your time, sweetheart.
It's OK.
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Take your time.
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And I think
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if I'm not liking my own body,
how can anyone else?
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Yeah.
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APPLAUSE
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I love your body.
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It's OK. You can let the feelings
come up.
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You can take it in.
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I don't really like my boobs.
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I just feel like they look weird.
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My boobs are very similar to yours.
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This serves me very well.
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SHE LAUGHS
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This is my body.
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This is my body.
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Who's ready?
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Callum.
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Go on, Cal.
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Last time someone's
probably seen me naked
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is probably, hmm... I don't know.
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Maybe when my mum walked in on me
while I was changing.
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I can't think of any time
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that I've been naked
in front of someone.
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Whenever you're ready.
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Anything you want to share
about your body?
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I've got quite strong shoulders.
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Can I take these off?
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Oh, please. Yeah? Yeah,
I didn't know you were going to.
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Yay! You only live once.
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Ooh!
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SHE LAUGHS
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Now you can say this
is my whole body.
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This is my body.
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CHEERING
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Woo!
LAUGHTER
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One by one, each group member
steps up...
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I'd like to be more muscular.
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Can I say you have,
like, the perfect proportion.
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...to face their reflection.
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Can you look in the mirror and say,
"This is my body."
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This is my body.
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While some have
the confidence to bare all...
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The first thing that I thought was,
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"Damn, she's fucking hot."
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LAUGHTER
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This is my body.
I'm confident by myself.
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This is my body.
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It's my body. It's all mine.
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It's my body.
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There's mine.
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Others can only reveal so much.
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The power
in your body is very attractive.
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Ed, would you like to come up?
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I don't
like being nude around people.
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Mostly down to, like, my scars
and my disability.
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My disability is Poland syndrome.
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I've got a smaller hand,
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bent fingers, no knuckle.
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Whenever you're ready,
you can disrobe.
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I don't particularly like any part
of my body.
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Certain bits stand out more.
Scars from surgeries.
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A lot of stuff I've done to myself.
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My first relationship
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fell apart quite,
quite badly for me.
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I was self-harming.
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I've come to terms with
the reason I did it
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and although people say
"no-one will notice",
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to me they will.
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You don't hear about
a lot of males doing it. Yeah.
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Um, it's quite a difficult thing.
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How would you feel if I just touched
your scars with some love?
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OK, OK. Yeah.
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And see if you can look at yourself.
Yeah.
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Let's take one more second
and you can just say,
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"This is my body."
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This is my body.
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The majority of the group
have faced their own reflection.
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Bertie, would you like to come up?
Bertie is one of the last.
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I don't like the way I look without
my clothes on.
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I tend to not look in the mirror
because it's...
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...I don't think it's a pretty sight.
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Take a moment and look at me, OK?
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Yeah.
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When you're ready, just
a glimpse at the mirror
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and if you need to come back
to my eyes...
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Yeah, good job.
You're doing it great.
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Can you say, "This is my body."
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This is my body.
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Katie, would you like to step up?
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I've always hated my
looks and my body.
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Back in school, I really struggled
with my confidence.
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I don't think there's anything
about me that I like.
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Especially looks-wise,
I really just don't like it.
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Um, I was always the monster.
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Um, I got bullied really badly,
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spat at, had things thrown at me.
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Um, social media pages made of me
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where they've edited my face onto,
like, different,
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like, animals and stuff. Um, yeah,
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I've always been insecure
and just hated the way I look, so.
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Thank you.
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Hmm.
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APPLAUSE
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OK, brave woman.
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Yeah. You're doing great.
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Do you want to start and just say
what you see?
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Wow. So you want to take a minute
and actually see
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if you can bring some loving eyes
to your body?
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Yeah. It's OK.
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Do you want to just say,
"This is my body."
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This is my body.
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APPLAUSE
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Woo!
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I feel like you are
the bravest people on the planet.
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One more step into self-reclamation
and self-love.
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Hi, guys. Hi. Hello. Oh, my God, you
guys have clothes on.
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I know! Who are you?
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How's everyone feeling?
Terrible. Terrible.
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Terrible. I'm just not happy
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about revealing my scars and stuff.
I really never noticed them.
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Also, scars are cool.
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I have so many which I love
on my body.
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I'm, like...
CLICKS FINGERS
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...and they look sick.
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I don't mean like accidental
or surgery.
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I mean my self-harm scars.
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My scars from self-harm and stuff,
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I don't think I'll ever be kind
of secure with them.
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They're kind of a memory of
a worse time, really.
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Fair play to everyone that
went naked. Yeah.
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I wish I could have done that.
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My boobs would have sagged down
to my knees if I took my bra off.
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Have you heard that song?
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♪ Do your boobs hang low?
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♪ Do they wobble to and fro? ♪
Yeah.
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♪ Da da-da-da...
♪ Can you tie them in a knot?
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# Can you tie them in a bow? ♪
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That was really hard.
255
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I didn't enjoy it at all.
256
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It was just mental games in my head.
I didn't want to do it, but I knew
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I had to, to just take this
process one step further.
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You're doing really well.
This is the phase
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that I've been scared about
the most,
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and now we're in it
and I just feel like shit. I know.
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Are you staying over here, Bertie,
or are you going over there?
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I'm... was going to stay over here.
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I don't want to leave you on
your own.
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Sometimes I like being in my own
company, but... Yeah, no,
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I get that.
266
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As long as it's not, like, an
awkward silence. Yeah.
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It's lunchtime on Virgin Island...
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I wanted to be a skinny legend.
Goal!
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Your weight is the least
interesting thing about you.
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...and for some of the group,
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the nudity phase has brought
up deep-seated emotions.
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But it's the first thing you see
about me.
273
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No. No, it's not. It's not.
It's really not.
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Your face is the first thing
you see. It's people...
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And you're also beautiful and your
body is great as well. Yes.
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So it's like... it's clearly. And
your personality is top tier. Yeah.
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Today we started the nudity phase
and so many of them found a mirror.
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For the experts, one person
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in the workshop
particularly caught their attention.
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I was super proud of Katie.
When she was a child in school
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people called her a monster,
so for her to come up and to be only
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in her underwear was
extremely brave.
283
00:15:09,240 --> 00:15:11,599
Yeah,
I'm really looking forward today
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to checking in and saying, hey,
what's happening here?
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She is indicating some deeper
emotions with regards
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to how she sees herself
and her self-worth.
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Mm-hm. With Katie's past still
shaping her self-image,
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she's meeting clinical
therapist Abby
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to explore what lies beneath.
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Everyone I watch on TV
or on social media,
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they're all these beautiful,
skinny model-looking people.
292
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I'm sat here and I'm
the complete opposite.
293
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I'm terrified to be naked
in front of someone.
294
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I feel like they're going to look
at my body
295
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and just pick apart
every single bad thing,
296
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like I do.
297
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Hi. Come on in.
298
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My biggest fear if things carry on
and I don't lose my virginity
299
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is honestly not being able
to have my own family.
300
00:16:05,040 --> 00:16:06,799
I want to hear from
your perspective,
301
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what are the things that you want
out of this work?
302
00:16:09,960 --> 00:16:13,239
I really, really would
like to be more confident.
303
00:16:13,240 --> 00:16:15,679
I feel like I've got zero
body confidence
304
00:16:15,680 --> 00:16:19,959
and it's bringing my
daily life down. Mm-hm.
305
00:16:19,960 --> 00:16:21,279
I got badly bullied, like,
306
00:16:21,280 --> 00:16:23,479
throughout the whole of
secondary school. Mm-hm.
307
00:16:23,480 --> 00:16:25,279
What have they made comments about?
308
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Just, like, how big I am,
how ugly I am.
309
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Do you find yourself big or ugly?
310
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You do?
311
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Yeah. I've always hated
the way I look. Mm-hm.
312
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And I always put myself down.
313
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Um, I don't like anything
314
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about myself, inside or out... OK.
...so I really do struggle.
315
00:16:45,760 --> 00:16:46,800
Yeah.
316
00:16:49,840 --> 00:16:53,479
What do we know about bullies?
Horrible people.
317
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Why is their voice
that important to you?
318
00:16:56,720 --> 00:16:59,119
I just feel like
because they just align,
319
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like, their thoughts and my
thoughts,
320
00:17:00,640 --> 00:17:02,039
they're just... they're the same.
321
00:17:02,040 --> 00:17:03,119
So if I'm thinking it
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and they're saying it,
then it must be the truth. Mm-hm.
323
00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:09,800
Because you see yourself
as... Repulsive.
324
00:17:11,560 --> 00:17:13,759
How does that feel,
hearing that out loud?
325
00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:14,800
Sad.
326
00:17:17,160 --> 00:17:18,200
Yeah. Yeah.
327
00:17:21,240 --> 00:17:23,600
You're the furthest
thing from repulsive.
328
00:17:25,040 --> 00:17:26,760
You're... you're a human being.
329
00:17:28,640 --> 00:17:29,840
I don't see that, though.
330
00:17:30,960 --> 00:17:32,000
What do you see?
331
00:17:33,680 --> 00:17:34,960
A monster?
332
00:17:37,080 --> 00:17:40,359
Yeah. And I've felt like this
for so long.
333
00:17:40,360 --> 00:17:41,399
I genuinely don't think
334
00:17:41,400 --> 00:17:44,799
I've ever looked at myself and been,
like, even, yeah, half decent.
335
00:17:44,800 --> 00:17:47,479
Like, not even like a "ooh,
we look cute today"?
336
00:17:47,480 --> 00:17:48,480
No.
337
00:17:53,120 --> 00:17:59,159
Change can occur
in incremental steps.
338
00:17:59,160 --> 00:18:02,999
Is there any part
of your body you appreciate?
339
00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:05,559
My hands.
340
00:18:05,560 --> 00:18:07,920
Take it a step further.
Your nails are done.
341
00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:12,199
Yeah. They look really pretty.
Can you appreciate the fact
342
00:18:12,200 --> 00:18:14,799
that I like taking care of my hands
and my nails
343
00:18:14,800 --> 00:18:16,160
because it makes me feel...
344
00:18:17,320 --> 00:18:19,279
Makes me feel good. OK.
345
00:18:19,280 --> 00:18:22,799
I think the more you practise it
and the more you give yourself
346
00:18:22,800 --> 00:18:25,560
that permission to get out of
that old language...
347
00:18:26,760 --> 00:18:29,959
It's going to take time.
And also, it's a practice.
348
00:18:29,960 --> 00:18:31,160
All right?
349
00:18:34,080 --> 00:18:35,120
Thank you.
350
00:18:39,120 --> 00:18:40,199
This phase is the hardest
351
00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:43,799
for me just because my own body
actually terrifies me.
352
00:18:43,800 --> 00:18:47,439
We just took one extra step today,
so I'm just hoping
353
00:18:47,440 --> 00:18:51,120
that I can accept it
and accept myself.
354
00:18:56,960 --> 00:18:58,559
How was your one-to-one?
355
00:18:58,560 --> 00:19:02,319
Um, I cried a little bit... Aw.
...when I had to bring up,
356
00:19:02,320 --> 00:19:05,519
like, all the old bullying
and stuff, but
357
00:19:05,520 --> 00:19:07,799
she just said,
say nice things to yourself,
358
00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:11,159
accept all the compliments
and... yeah. Really good that you...
359
00:19:11,160 --> 00:19:14,199
Glad you had a good one.
Mm. Yeah. If you're happy,
360
00:19:14,200 --> 00:19:17,279
we're happy. Yeah.
You look beautiful, by the way.
361
00:19:17,280 --> 00:19:19,919
You're, like, your skin's really
glowing.
362
00:19:19,920 --> 00:19:22,119
Thanks. Maybe it's like all the
vitamin D
363
00:19:22,120 --> 00:19:23,279
that you're getting every day.
364
00:19:23,280 --> 00:19:24,720
SHE LAUGHS
365
00:19:28,400 --> 00:19:31,439
Hello, mate. Go aim for it, Bertie.
366
00:19:31,440 --> 00:19:33,799
I've tried this on the first day, actually.
367
00:19:33,800 --> 00:19:36,079
Like Katie, this morning's workshop
368
00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:39,519
brought Bertie's body
insecurities into sharp focus.
369
00:19:39,520 --> 00:19:41,519
I wouldn't do that. Oh, OK.
What do you want...
370
00:19:41,520 --> 00:19:44,439
What do you want to train?
I have no idea. Probably the arms.
371
00:19:44,440 --> 00:19:46,759
Bring it behind your head.
372
00:19:46,760 --> 00:19:48,440
That's... that's good.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah.
373
00:19:49,600 --> 00:19:51,039
Go on, Bertie.
374
00:19:51,040 --> 00:19:52,040
BERTIE LAUGHS
375
00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:55,040
Actually, might lie down.
376
00:19:58,240 --> 00:20:01,559
I see myself as very overweight
377
00:20:01,560 --> 00:20:05,240
and not attractive at
all on a looks front.
378
00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:10,719
Whenever, if ever, I have sex
for the first time,
379
00:20:10,720 --> 00:20:15,359
it would probably be
horrendously awkward,
380
00:20:15,360 --> 00:20:19,279
and, yeah, the thought
of me having sex
381
00:20:19,280 --> 00:20:20,639
is even making me laugh
382
00:20:20,640 --> 00:20:23,480
because I can just imagine
it being so bad.
383
00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:33,159
When Bertie came up to the mirror
384
00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:37,359
it is such a hard step for him.
He was really proud of himself.
385
00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:39,159
It was a huge deal for him.
386
00:20:39,160 --> 00:20:42,039
Bertie is one of
the least experienced in the group.
387
00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:43,799
He's never kissed a girl.
388
00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:46,319
He just needs to connect
with his body.
389
00:20:46,320 --> 00:20:48,519
Yeah, I'm really excited to see
what we need
390
00:20:48,520 --> 00:20:51,799
to do to feel more connected.
It's so foundational
391
00:20:51,800 --> 00:20:55,520
to have body acceptance,
and it makes progress possible.
392
00:20:58,200 --> 00:21:01,319
Progress for Bertie
could eventually mean having sex
393
00:21:01,320 --> 00:21:04,079
with surrogate partner
therapist Kat...
394
00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:08,319
Hi, good afternoon. ..if he can
overcome his body issues.
395
00:21:08,320 --> 00:21:12,199
How did you feel about the workshop?
When I was wearing my boxers
396
00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:15,239
it was one of the biggest things
I've ever done in my life.
397
00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:18,559
I have, um... I have quite
398
00:21:18,560 --> 00:21:20,400
an insecurity about...
399
00:21:21,520 --> 00:21:22,760
...the size.
400
00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:27,679
Hmm. OK. That's what it is.
401
00:21:27,680 --> 00:21:31,119
To build confidence, Kat introduces
an exercise
402
00:21:31,120 --> 00:21:35,199
focused on boundaries and consent
called "may I, will you."
403
00:21:35,200 --> 00:21:37,759
Um, may I caress your arm?
404
00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:39,479
OK. Yes.
405
00:21:39,480 --> 00:21:40,879
Can I do it on both hands?
406
00:21:40,880 --> 00:21:42,679
No, because that was the ask,
407
00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:44,720
so we want to stay with
what you asked. Yeah.
408
00:21:48,800 --> 00:21:50,800
How did that feel? Felt very nice.
409
00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:54,159
May I
410
00:21:54,160 --> 00:21:56,239
suck your dick for five minutes?
411
00:21:56,240 --> 00:21:58,439
HE LAUGHS
412
00:21:58,440 --> 00:22:00,119
Er, no.
413
00:22:00,120 --> 00:22:02,079
Yeah, yeah. "No" is a great answer.
414
00:22:02,080 --> 00:22:03,719
Yeah. Do you want to say
a little more?
415
00:22:03,720 --> 00:22:05,919
I think we're not at that stage.
Yeah, good job,
416
00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:07,039
good owning, you know.
417
00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:08,519
HE CHUCKLES
418
00:22:08,520 --> 00:22:09,799
But I'm not ruling anything out.
419
00:22:09,800 --> 00:22:11,599
Um,
420
00:22:11,600 --> 00:22:13,720
may I kiss you on the cheek?
421
00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,160
Yes.
422
00:22:17,280 --> 00:22:18,320
Thank you.
423
00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:22,439
Will you...
424
00:22:22,440 --> 00:22:24,800
...I feel like I just want you to,
like, sit on me.
425
00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:30,879
Er, I've got quite a big bottom,
and I don't want to crush you, so.
426
00:22:30,880 --> 00:22:32,119
It's really, really important
427
00:22:32,120 --> 00:22:34,999
that Bertie feels
so much more confident with himself,
428
00:22:35,000 --> 00:22:36,519
with his body, and I don't
429
00:22:36,520 --> 00:22:39,159
think he'll feel safe being himself
in intimacy
430
00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:41,799
without a lot of permission.
And that's something
431
00:22:41,800 --> 00:22:44,399
that surrogate partner
therapy can really give.
432
00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:45,879
Just lay back.
433
00:22:45,880 --> 00:22:47,359
All the way. Are you all right?
434
00:22:47,360 --> 00:22:49,999
Yeah. Yeah. I'm all right. OK.
435
00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:51,239
HE CHUCKLES
436
00:22:51,240 --> 00:22:52,839
And guess what?
437
00:22:52,840 --> 00:22:54,560
What? You're not too heavy.
438
00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:01,199
Thank you. Oh.
439
00:23:01,200 --> 00:23:06,000
OK. Um, I have an idea in mind.
440
00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:11,679
It's something that
has never happened to me before.
441
00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:13,000
Um...
442
00:23:14,640 --> 00:23:18,920
I was thinking,
may I have my first kiss with you?
443
00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:24,319
I've not kissed anyone romantically,
444
00:23:24,320 --> 00:23:29,439
which at 24 is
a very strange thing to say
445
00:23:29,440 --> 00:23:31,679
when that is the very, like,
446
00:23:31,680 --> 00:23:35,039
almost the first kind of step
in a relationship
447
00:23:35,040 --> 00:23:36,440
and I haven't even done that.
448
00:23:39,240 --> 00:23:43,159
There's no shame. OK.
All right. And don't...
449
00:23:43,160 --> 00:23:45,719
I don't want any tongues
or anything like that. No. Perfect.
450
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:48,319
We're just going to do... Just
normally. Yep. It's our flip.
451
00:23:48,320 --> 00:23:50,319
And you don't have to, like...
You can just kind of relax.
452
00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:51,399
OK. OK.
453
00:23:51,400 --> 00:23:53,239
I don't want them to be too dry
or anything.
454
00:23:53,240 --> 00:23:54,279
No, don't worry about it. Right.
455
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:55,440
OK. OK.
456
00:24:02,720 --> 00:24:04,599
Good. That was my first kiss.
457
00:24:04,600 --> 00:24:05,680
You did great.
458
00:24:09,400 --> 00:24:11,199
Wow. That was fantastic!
459
00:24:11,200 --> 00:24:13,279
That was... Yeah.
460
00:24:13,280 --> 00:24:15,320
That... that. Yeah, um...
461
00:24:16,800 --> 00:24:18,999
Thank you. Thank you so much.
462
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:22,039
As Bertie's confidence grows...
463
00:24:22,040 --> 00:24:23,240
There we go.
464
00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:26,520
...he feels able to go further.
465
00:24:29,240 --> 00:24:31,519
Mm. Also, side note,
466
00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:34,319
I can tell just from
under your pants
467
00:24:34,320 --> 00:24:37,279
that you don't have to worry
about size, just so you know.
468
00:24:37,280 --> 00:24:39,959
What? Well, it's, er, it's... it's...
469
00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:42,359
I'll say... It's very stiff at
the moment,
470
00:24:42,360 --> 00:24:45,679
but when it's not, that's
the problem.
471
00:24:45,680 --> 00:24:47,359
It's OK. You're a grower,
not a shower.
472
00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:48,639
HE LAUGHS
473
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:50,559
Yeah, fair enough.
474
00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:51,680
Very, very well.
475
00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:56,200
Thank you very much, Kat. See you.
Love you, bye.
476
00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:01,359
I am feeling absolutely incredible.
477
00:25:01,360 --> 00:25:04,360
I feel like
the stress has been evaporated.
478
00:25:05,520 --> 00:25:08,239
The next session I could
potentially be getting
479
00:25:08,240 --> 00:25:10,839
my clothes off,
maybe even fully naked.
480
00:25:10,840 --> 00:25:12,560
We're making very good progress.
481
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:23,999
It's day two of
the nudity phase on Virgin Island.
482
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:25,599
We're halfway through now. Yeah.
483
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:27,639
I can't even think what's going
to happen today.
484
00:25:27,640 --> 00:25:30,119
It should be easier.
Never say that!
485
00:25:30,120 --> 00:25:32,360
You say that every time.
Never say that, Alex!
486
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:41,039
Building on yesterday's
body acceptance,
487
00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:45,119
today's workshop is designed to take
the group further...
488
00:25:45,120 --> 00:25:46,919
Oh, my God!
489
00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:50,079
...into more explicit territory.
490
00:25:50,080 --> 00:25:52,999
We have giant genitals on display
because we want
491
00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:56,279
to just normalise every
different kind of genital.
492
00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:57,479
Welcome.
493
00:25:57,480 --> 00:25:59,079
I don't know where to look.
494
00:25:59,080 --> 00:26:01,159
This workshop is all about
getting familiar
495
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:05,319
with your genitals and to understand
where the pleasure centres are
496
00:26:05,320 --> 00:26:07,479
and how to start to get
in touch with them.
497
00:26:07,480 --> 00:26:09,399
Any feelings that come up
with it as you..?
498
00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:10,639
Yeah, very uncomfortable.
499
00:26:10,640 --> 00:26:13,199
Mm-hm. Yeah. I'm less
uncomfortable,
500
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:15,279
it's more like intrigued, kind
of thing.
501
00:26:15,280 --> 00:26:17,679
I feel more comfortable
with this side.
502
00:26:17,680 --> 00:26:18,800
Hence why I'm sat here!
503
00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:23,319
First thing I want you to notice
504
00:26:23,320 --> 00:26:26,359
is they all look very
different, depending.
505
00:26:26,360 --> 00:26:30,239
We want to invite Jason up.
Oh, my God.
506
00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:33,799
If they want to have sex...
Didn't even notice.
507
00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:35,319
...the virgins are going to have
508
00:26:35,320 --> 00:26:38,599
to get better acquainted
with real live genitals.
509
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:39,639
I have touched, like,
510
00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:41,599
a penis. Couldn't see it.
511
00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:42,840
It was dark.
512
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:46,919
I think I'm comfortable
with female anatomy
513
00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:48,119
and male anatomy. I mean, maybe men
514
00:26:48,120 --> 00:26:50,479
are a bit more gross, but...
515
00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:55,279
I've pecked a lad before and that's
as far as any
516
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:56,879
physical contact has ever gone
517
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:58,439
with me and another lad.
518
00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:01,119
The first thing you'll see is
that I am circumcised,
519
00:27:01,120 --> 00:27:05,799
so my foreskin doesn't cover
the head or the glans of my penis.
520
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:09,879
This ridge here, where the head
meets the shaft,
521
00:27:09,880 --> 00:27:12,319
this is called the corona.
522
00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:16,839
And this spot here is the frenulum.
523
00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:20,199
And this is also very,
very sensitive.
524
00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:21,800
Thanks for going on this tour
with me.
525
00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:26,840
I don't like this.
526
00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:30,839
Kat, would you like to come join us?
527
00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:35,799
I've watched pornography and I think
the vaginas that I've seen,
528
00:27:35,800 --> 00:27:37,239
I worry that, you know,
529
00:27:37,240 --> 00:27:38,680
mine's not normal.
530
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:41,959
I think I know
what I'm talking about,
531
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,040
but truthfully,
I've probably got no bloody idea.
532
00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:46,199
All right.
533
00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:49,439
I obviously know what the female
anatomy looks like,
534
00:27:49,440 --> 00:27:54,680
but, um, I wouldn't know
where to go, put it that way.
535
00:27:56,160 --> 00:27:58,439
Here is my vulva.
536
00:27:58,440 --> 00:28:00,239
Here's the outer labia.
537
00:28:00,240 --> 00:28:02,400
And then in here you have
the inner labia.
538
00:28:03,680 --> 00:28:06,159
And here's the clitoral hood.
539
00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:07,720
And then there's the clitoris.
540
00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:11,799
I don't
want to see other people naked.
541
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:14,039
It doesn't come naturally
to everyone.
542
00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:16,239
I don't feel comfortable.
543
00:28:16,240 --> 00:28:19,199
{\an8}Also, where it feels good
to be touched can change
544
00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:21,879
{\an8}a lot within a sexual experience.
545
00:28:21,880 --> 00:28:23,959
So it's just important to be able
to communicate
546
00:28:23,960 --> 00:28:25,879
with your partners about
what feels good.
547
00:28:25,880 --> 00:28:26,919
Well done.
548
00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:28,880
APPLAUSE
Woo!
549
00:28:32,120 --> 00:28:34,959
Any feelings that come up?
I was uncomfortable at first,
550
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:36,759
but I feel like I've learned a lot.
Do you feel
551
00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:38,599
that your comfort level changed
a little bit?
552
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:40,319
A little bit. I still don't know
where to look,
553
00:28:40,320 --> 00:28:42,199
but. It is overwhelming,
554
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:44,000
like, don't get us wrong.
555
00:28:46,760 --> 00:28:50,160
Cheers, guys. Thank you. Bye.
Bye. Bye.
556
00:28:52,200 --> 00:28:54,199
That whole thing, I hated.
557
00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:57,559
It made me really uncomfortable just
from start to end.
558
00:28:57,560 --> 00:28:59,879
I'm glad they showed
a variety of different...
559
00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:01,399
Yeah, that's... that's what I think.
560
00:29:01,400 --> 00:29:03,999
It's the first time I've ever seen
a vulva up close
561
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:05,560
and I rather enjoyed it.
562
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:09,119
I'd be lying
if I said it wasn't weird,
563
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:11,759
but I actually found
it quite useful.
564
00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:13,039
How did you find it, Bertie?
565
00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:15,279
All of a sudden I've gone off
a Subway Mega Meat.
566
00:29:15,280 --> 00:29:16,520
Hahaha!
567
00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:25,679
So what did you think about
the naked pictures?
568
00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:28,239
I'm not going to lie.
From far away, it looked like trees.
569
00:29:28,240 --> 00:29:30,319
It is some kind of wood, isn't it?
So. Yeah!
570
00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:31,479
LAUGHTER
571
00:29:31,480 --> 00:29:32,600
Nice.
572
00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:35,719
I don't know if this is just
a male thing, but it just seems
573
00:29:35,720 --> 00:29:37,599
like vaginas have got
a lot more going on.
574
00:29:37,600 --> 00:29:39,839
I also know now I'll
never fully judge
575
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,759
a guy for not finding the clit.
There was a couple, I was like,
576
00:29:42,760 --> 00:29:44,080
I need to find it as well.
577
00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:48,599
I was like, OK, cool. Got it.
578
00:29:48,600 --> 00:29:52,319
Thank you to Jason and Kat.
Bless them.
579
00:29:52,320 --> 00:29:54,920
I feel, like,
a lot more confident moving forward.
580
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:02,919
It's not just the workshop
that is giving Will confidence...
581
00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:06,119
Feeling that touch land
in your body.
582
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:08,279
...as Aisha takes steps to help him
583
00:30:08,280 --> 00:30:11,239
with his fears
of premature ejaculation.
584
00:30:11,240 --> 00:30:15,479
What level of arousal
did you feel? Really pleasurable.
585
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:20,799
But, like, I wasn't
shooting over free, really. OK.
586
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:22,919
Meanwhile, Joy is building
587
00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:25,679
up her techniques
to overcome vaginismus.
588
00:30:25,680 --> 00:30:27,919
Touch your perineum. Yeah.
And if you kind of,
589
00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:29,879
like, come up from the perineum
590
00:30:29,880 --> 00:30:31,760
a little bit,
your finger will dip in.
591
00:30:33,360 --> 00:30:34,719
Yeah. Yeah.
592
00:30:34,720 --> 00:30:37,359
What are you noticing
as you're doing that?
593
00:30:37,360 --> 00:30:39,119
There is no discomfort.
594
00:30:39,120 --> 00:30:41,479
I didn't clench up in fear,
595
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:44,440
and I was able to experience
a little bit of pleasure.
596
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:47,679
I've shown, like, myself that
I can do it,
597
00:30:47,680 --> 00:30:49,799
even if it's just
for that one little thing.
598
00:30:49,800 --> 00:30:51,720
So see how next session goes.
599
00:30:53,120 --> 00:30:55,519
As Joy's confidence builds...
600
00:30:55,520 --> 00:30:57,759
It's more of
a practical session today.
601
00:30:57,760 --> 00:31:00,119
Yeah. ..so too does Tegan's work
602
00:31:00,120 --> 00:31:02,839
with surrogate partner,
therapist Risdon.
603
00:31:02,840 --> 00:31:04,559
She's showing me her vulva.
604
00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:07,440
This is the vagina. That is hot.
605
00:31:10,560 --> 00:31:12,600
As things escalate from looking...
606
00:31:13,720 --> 00:31:14,800
...into touch.
607
00:31:16,120 --> 00:31:17,160
Hello.
608
00:31:18,200 --> 00:31:20,639
Come sit and we'll chat. Absolutely.
609
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:23,399
We had talked about doing genital
touch today. Yes.
610
00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:25,679
How are you feeling about that?
Any..? A little bit of nerves.
611
00:31:25,680 --> 00:31:28,319
Yeah. But which is natural. But no,
mainly excited.
612
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:30,079
Let's get undressed. Cool.
613
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:31,999
Ooh. Do you mind unzipping me? OK.
614
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:33,479
OK, great.
615
00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:36,039
I've never been one-on-one with
616
00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:38,319
a woman in a bedroom
or anything like that.
617
00:31:38,320 --> 00:31:39,760
Can you pull this off? Yes, I can.
618
00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:42,199
There.
619
00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:45,720
I don't know how to initiate
the physical touch myself.
620
00:31:47,040 --> 00:31:48,399
There we go.
621
00:31:48,400 --> 00:31:50,999
And I want that sexual,
622
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:52,519
romantic, intimate connection.
623
00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:53,599
Start pulling these off.
624
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:54,879
Mm-hm.
625
00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:59,080
But I don't know how to get
to that stage.
626
00:32:02,200 --> 00:32:04,919
How's that? Yeah, yeah. Yeah?
Good. OK.
627
00:32:04,920 --> 00:32:06,599
The first thing I'm going to have
you do... Mm-hm.
628
00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:09,119
You're looking at me
and that's great.
629
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,279
I'm going to have you look at
my pussy. Mm-hm.
630
00:32:11,280 --> 00:32:13,560
Notice any feelings that are coming
up for you.
631
00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:15,719
It's hot.
632
00:32:15,720 --> 00:32:17,359
THEY LAUGH
633
00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:20,999
I would like you to, with
the backs of your fingernails,
634
00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,719
run your hands
up my thighs, very slowly.
635
00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:25,560
Mm-hm. Go super slow.
636
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:29,880
Like this? Mm-hm.
637
00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:34,759
See if you can
see my vaginal opening.
638
00:32:34,760 --> 00:32:37,799
Mm-hm. Can you see it? Yeah.
And with this finger...
639
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:40,039
So don't go in, but just put
the finger,
640
00:32:40,040 --> 00:32:42,239
like, right on the bottom of
the hole.
641
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:43,519
Mm-hm.
642
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:45,439
Yeah.
643
00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:46,440
That's nice. Mm-hm.
644
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:49,560
Mm. That's nice.
645
00:32:57,080 --> 00:32:59,199
All right.
I'm going to come cuddle you.
646
00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:03,079
I was nervous about giving pleasure,
but,
647
00:33:03,080 --> 00:33:06,399
yeah, I feel like a lot
of those nerves have dissipated now.
648
00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:07,560
Mm.
649
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:10,879
RISDON HICCUPS
650
00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:11,919
Hiccup.
651
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:12,959
Yeah!
652
00:33:12,960 --> 00:33:13,999
Do you know what?
653
00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:16,040
You fingered me and
I got the hiccups!
654
00:33:18,840 --> 00:33:21,839
Guess we've got to get back up,
haven't we? Mm-hm.
655
00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:23,639
Oh, I'm buzzing!
It was the first time
656
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:26,439
I had my fingers
inside another woman.
657
00:33:26,440 --> 00:33:30,040
I feel like a whole new person.
You do? Yeah. Yeah!
658
00:33:31,920 --> 00:33:35,319
I don't think I've felt happier
being on the island right now
659
00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:36,439
than right now.
660
00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:38,239
I feel it's big. I feel it's big.
661
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:41,239
It's a massive step forward for me.
662
00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:42,359
Bye. See you. Bye.
663
00:33:42,360 --> 00:33:44,839
That's a big barrier
that I've had in my way
664
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:48,920
and I feel like I'm a big step
closer to losing my virginity.
665
00:33:58,040 --> 00:34:00,839
{\an8}The sun is shining
on Virgin Island...
666
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:02,279
I hope you know which way
we're going.
667
00:34:02,280 --> 00:34:03,919
No. We're going down here.
668
00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:06,599
...and for the last afternoon of
the nudity phase,
669
00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:08,279
clothing is optional.
670
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:11,559
{\an8}We asked a group to take
nude photos in pairs.
671
00:34:11,560 --> 00:34:13,559
Who's going first?
I'll take your picture.
672
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:14,719
Go on. All right.
673
00:34:14,720 --> 00:34:17,039
It's all about the good shots,
Jason. You do you.
674
00:34:17,040 --> 00:34:19,879
This is all about
having fun.
675
00:34:19,880 --> 00:34:22,679
Oh, my God. Here we go.
676
00:34:22,680 --> 00:34:26,719
The goal is to help them feel
relaxed around their bodies
677
00:34:26,720 --> 00:34:28,799
and feel comfortable with nudity.
678
00:34:28,800 --> 00:34:30,919
For some of the group...
There we go!
679
00:34:30,920 --> 00:34:33,799
...improved body confidence
is on full display.
680
00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:35,719
That's it. Yeah. Ready?
681
00:34:35,720 --> 00:34:38,680
I've never felt this sexy
in my life.
682
00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:43,039
Please say you didn't laugh
until after.
683
00:34:43,040 --> 00:34:45,119
That just felt empowering.
684
00:34:45,120 --> 00:34:48,639
And I was like,
"Massive slay to me."
685
00:34:48,640 --> 00:34:49,880
Smile.
686
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:52,839
I thought there was
some power there,
687
00:34:52,840 --> 00:34:55,399
some sort of strength, and I think
maybe I hadn't seen myself
688
00:34:55,400 --> 00:34:56,879
in that light before.
689
00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:58,239
Good.
690
00:34:58,240 --> 00:35:00,959
I'm getting sexy vibes.
691
00:35:00,960 --> 00:35:02,079
Not bad.
692
00:35:02,080 --> 00:35:04,159
OK, take the bra off. Woo!
693
00:35:04,160 --> 00:35:07,439
I don't mind being nude in,
like, the ocean.
694
00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:10,919
And I wanted to prove to myself
I could at least do it.
695
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:12,519
Three, two, one.
696
00:35:12,520 --> 00:35:14,319
SHE EXCLAIMS
697
00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:19,279
But for others, baring all for
the camera is still a step too far.
698
00:35:19,280 --> 00:35:20,759
Let's try this, I guess.
699
00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:22,399
HE GROANS
700
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:24,960
Oh! Shit. Not that.
701
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:27,479
That's how you do it.
702
00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:29,239
I didn't feel like
getting naked today.
703
00:35:29,240 --> 00:35:32,279
And I'm glad that Callum told me
704
00:35:32,280 --> 00:35:34,879
he wasn't going
to get his willy out
705
00:35:34,880 --> 00:35:36,399
because, after the morning workshop,
706
00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:38,760
I think we've seen enough of those
for one day.
707
00:35:40,600 --> 00:35:43,839
After a tough time
in yesterday's mirror workshop...
708
00:35:43,840 --> 00:35:45,079
Oh, that's cute.
709
00:35:45,080 --> 00:35:48,239
...Katie's showing tentative signs
of progress.
710
00:35:48,240 --> 00:35:49,679
I wish I could show you.
It looks really good.
711
00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:51,399
I know, I'd love to be able to see!
712
00:35:51,400 --> 00:35:52,719
Your boobs look so good.
713
00:35:52,720 --> 00:35:54,639
It's just been a bit scary.
714
00:35:54,640 --> 00:35:57,320
But these little steps are
making me, like, open up.
715
00:35:58,560 --> 00:35:59,639
CAMERA WHIRS
716
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:02,159
Oh! That's it.
717
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:04,159
Like, Katie... This is going to be
very underwhelming,
718
00:36:04,160 --> 00:36:05,479
I'm telling you now,
719
00:36:05,480 --> 00:36:07,599
cos, like, I'm still
in clothes, so...
720
00:36:07,600 --> 00:36:09,439
I ain't getting undressed here.
721
00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:13,200
...the nudity phase has exposed
some of Ed's body insecurities.
722
00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:18,919
I'm just glad this phase
is nearly over.
723
00:36:18,920 --> 00:36:20,919
Anything's easier than this one.
724
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:25,279
My scars and my disability,
there's certain things,
725
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:27,079
especially with intimacy,
726
00:36:27,080 --> 00:36:29,919
{\an8}where I do feel like it's going to
727
00:36:29,920 --> 00:36:31,520
{\an8}negatively impact it.
728
00:36:33,520 --> 00:36:37,119
The scars are embarrassing.
It makes even, like, just cuddling
729
00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:39,359
with someone
a little bit more awkward.
730
00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:43,239
It feels like I kind of stalled
in life.
731
00:36:43,240 --> 00:36:45,039
I feel a bit like a kid,
to be honest.
732
00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:47,919
Having built up a relationship
with Ed at the retreat...
733
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:49,199
Hello!
734
00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:53,079
How are you? Better than this
morning. That's good.
735
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:56,279
...expert Kat feels she can
relate to his body issues
736
00:36:56,280 --> 00:36:58,440
from her own personal experience.
737
00:36:59,840 --> 00:37:01,479
I noticed that Ed had scars,
738
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:04,119
and that's something he was
really insecure about coming in,
739
00:37:04,120 --> 00:37:06,359
and I also do.
740
00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:09,319
And so it felt really powerful
to, like, share that space.
741
00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:11,079
I think something
that's really important
742
00:37:11,080 --> 00:37:17,039
for you to practise is, like, really
coming to people as equals. OK.
743
00:37:17,040 --> 00:37:18,839
And I saw your scars.
744
00:37:18,840 --> 00:37:22,719
It was confronting for me
because it's a part of myself
745
00:37:22,720 --> 00:37:25,199
that I still can feel
so much shame around.
746
00:37:25,200 --> 00:37:27,879
I get that.
But when I see them on you,
747
00:37:27,880 --> 00:37:31,079
I don't have any judgment. Like,
I only feel so much
748
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:33,039
love and compassion
749
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:35,919
and it creates more of
a sense of care.
750
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:39,479
It just felt really comforting to...
751
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:42,359
...not feel alone with it,
if that makes sense.
752
00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:45,079
Do you feel comfortable
taking off your shirt?
753
00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:46,120
Yeah.
754
00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:56,279
I'm going to take my bra off too.
OK.
755
00:37:56,280 --> 00:37:58,640
KAT EXHALES
756
00:38:00,680 --> 00:38:02,599
OK. How are you feeling now?
757
00:38:02,600 --> 00:38:04,159
A little bit nervous.
758
00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:06,200
Yeah. Just start by looking
and breathing.
759
00:38:08,760 --> 00:38:10,479
And is it OK
if I touch you?
760
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:11,679
Yeah.
761
00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:13,080
Will you touch me also?
762
00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:18,920
Can we sit down? Yeah.
763
00:38:22,360 --> 00:38:26,199
Will you touch my scars
while I touch yours?
764
00:38:26,200 --> 00:38:29,519
Yes? Does that feel OK? Yeah.
Yeah? OK.
765
00:38:29,520 --> 00:38:31,240
I have got one on my chest as well.
766
00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:34,639
The worst one is the one
down on my arm.
767
00:38:34,640 --> 00:38:37,679
That one. Mm-hm.
That's what made me stop.
768
00:38:37,680 --> 00:38:38,680
Mm-hm.
769
00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:44,559
I'm always worried
about people touching mine
770
00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:47,159
and not knowing how
it feels to them.
771
00:38:47,160 --> 00:38:52,720
So, with you, I feel like
I can be vulnerable as well.
772
00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:56,280
And, like, I'm not alone.
773
00:39:03,840 --> 00:39:05,440
Am I all right to touch your face?
774
00:39:13,320 --> 00:39:14,320
Thank you, Kat.
775
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:18,039
Knowing that we've both got scars,
776
00:39:18,040 --> 00:39:20,039
and possibly for similar reasons,
777
00:39:20,040 --> 00:39:24,639
I didn't feel any, like,
body issues at all -
778
00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:27,879
I completely forgot
that I have any -
779
00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:29,600
and I felt really good about myself.
780
00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:40,960
Go, Jason! Woo!
781
00:39:43,560 --> 00:39:45,039
This morning I was like...
I looked in the mirror,
782
00:39:45,040 --> 00:39:46,679
I went, "Katie, your eyebrows
look really good today."
783
00:39:46,680 --> 00:39:48,239
That's brilliant.
And also, I feel like
784
00:39:48,240 --> 00:39:50,359
after yesterday's exercise,
that's what you need.
785
00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:54,039
And obviously it's all positive
things, so I'm, like, clocked on.
786
00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:55,839
It's all mental.
787
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:59,080
While Katie makes tentative progress
on her body image...
788
00:40:00,640 --> 00:40:02,600
Jason, your hair looks lovely!
789
00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:07,159
Yay!
790
00:40:07,160 --> 00:40:10,559
...the experts want her to take
the plunge
791
00:40:10,560 --> 00:40:12,280
and move on from her past.
792
00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:18,519
I'm going to be seeing Katie today,
and the things that people have said
793
00:40:18,520 --> 00:40:23,399
to her about her body
and her looks are truly destroying
794
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:26,279
of a person's sense of dignity.
795
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:30,679
I would love to bring Katie to
the mirror, if she feels ready,
796
00:40:30,680 --> 00:40:32,319
and to start to find something
797
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:36,760
that brings her joy would be,
I think, a big step. Yeah.
798
00:40:38,720 --> 00:40:42,680
Aisha plans to revisit
the mirror exercise one last time.
799
00:40:47,160 --> 00:40:49,639
Social media is really hard
for bullying.
800
00:40:49,640 --> 00:40:51,519
People will just constantly
801
00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:54,160
pick you apart
and make you feel more insecure.
802
00:40:55,840 --> 00:40:59,319
I've had a lot of things
posted on me.
803
00:40:59,320 --> 00:41:02,839
I was scrolling through once
and someone had asked,
804
00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:04,919
"Who's the ugliest girl in school?"
805
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:07,000
and this person had written
my full name.
806
00:41:08,320 --> 00:41:09,560
That was really difficult.
807
00:41:14,240 --> 00:41:17,479
Hello!
808
00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:21,999
And just feeling which piece
of clothing wants to come off.
809
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,639
Um...
810
00:41:23,640 --> 00:41:26,160
...let's do my top. OK, great.
811
00:41:27,240 --> 00:41:29,959
I really don't like this.
I feel like...
812
00:41:29,960 --> 00:41:33,559
...I've got so much bad,
like, skin and stuff,
813
00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:35,600
so much hatred for myself. Mm-hm.
814
00:41:37,080 --> 00:41:42,840
See if you can remember being
with your body and not hating it.
815
00:41:50,920 --> 00:41:52,879
That must have been so nice.
816
00:41:52,880 --> 00:41:54,599
Young Katie did not care
817
00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:56,799
what others thought
or what others said.
818
00:41:56,800 --> 00:41:59,879
Yeah. And she didn't hate herself.
Yeah.
819
00:41:59,880 --> 00:42:02,159
Sometimes, Katie, what happens is
820
00:42:02,160 --> 00:42:05,799
when we live with people
who torment us,
821
00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:08,519
we can actually carry their voice
822
00:42:08,520 --> 00:42:13,639
in our head and we think
it's ours... Mm-hm.
823
00:42:13,640 --> 00:42:15,800
...but it's not ours.
824
00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:22,439
Noticing if you feel like you want
to continue getting undressed
825
00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:24,319
or if you feel good as you are.
826
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:26,560
Um, I could take
the shorts off. OK.
827
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:35,319
This is so weird. OK.
828
00:42:35,320 --> 00:42:39,959
What's happening now?
I'm sick of just hating every part
829
00:42:39,960 --> 00:42:42,000
and just looking at
the bad parts of myself.
830
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:46,919
How do you want your body to feel?
831
00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:50,079
I wish that I would have let go
832
00:42:50,080 --> 00:42:53,239
of nasty things created of me
on social media.
833
00:42:53,240 --> 00:42:55,759
Yeah. I've screenshotted it
and I've still got
834
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:59,999
the pictures on my phone
from many, many years ago. Wow!
835
00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:03,280
Cos I like to look back at them
and make myself feel bad again.
836
00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:07,159
What would letting it go
have looked like?
837
00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:09,159
Not even thinking
about it ever again
838
00:43:09,160 --> 00:43:11,119
because they don't deserve it...
Yeah.
839
00:43:11,120 --> 00:43:12,679
...and I don't deserve it. Yeah.
840
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:16,919
After years of criticism
shaping how Katie sees herself...
841
00:43:16,920 --> 00:43:20,039
Would you like to do it
dressed or undressed? Dressed.
842
00:43:20,040 --> 00:43:21,439
OK, great.
843
00:43:21,440 --> 00:43:25,239
...now Aisha challenges
her to push back.
844
00:43:25,240 --> 00:43:27,759
My hair. Ah-ha.
845
00:43:27,760 --> 00:43:29,719
It's so dead,
846
00:43:29,720 --> 00:43:31,480
but it grows really quickly.
847
00:43:32,720 --> 00:43:35,319
My stomach.
I hate how big it big is,
848
00:43:35,320 --> 00:43:37,999
but it fuels me every single day.
849
00:43:38,000 --> 00:43:40,719
You're rocking right now, Katie.
850
00:43:40,720 --> 00:43:45,479
My boobs are very droopy,
851
00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:49,959
but I feel like they suit my body.
Yeah!
852
00:43:49,960 --> 00:43:52,599
I want to be a mum so bad.
853
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:55,519
So, yeah, milk. Yeah.
854
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:58,200
Comfort for my babies.
Wow. Beautiful.
855
00:44:01,480 --> 00:44:04,599
Thank you so much. See you later,
Katie. See you later.
856
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,639
I really loved how relaxed
and comfortable I felt.
857
00:44:07,640 --> 00:44:10,399
This new growth and self-exploration
858
00:44:10,400 --> 00:44:13,959
that I've found has just
changed my entire life.
859
00:44:13,960 --> 00:44:15,199
I would love to be able
860
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:18,040
to just carry that on,
so I'm really happy.
861
00:44:24,680 --> 00:44:27,599
As the sun sets on
the nudity phase...
862
00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:29,560
Everybody, come on over!
863
00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:34,279
...the experts have gathered to give
the group one final opportunity
864
00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:36,439
to shed their inhibitions.
865
00:44:36,440 --> 00:44:40,279
You've just finished
the nudity phase
866
00:44:40,280 --> 00:44:42,799
and we are so proud of you.
867
00:44:42,800 --> 00:44:47,719
So many of you got naked
and felt a more comfortable
868
00:44:47,720 --> 00:44:50,119
relationship with your body and...
869
00:44:50,120 --> 00:44:53,879
As, like, a culmination
and celebration of this phase,
870
00:44:53,880 --> 00:44:57,359
we all take a little group swim
together.
871
00:44:57,360 --> 00:44:59,079
You can undress to your level
of comfort.
872
00:44:59,080 --> 00:45:01,319
I will be going full naked.
873
00:45:01,320 --> 00:45:02,400
Who's brave enough?
874
00:45:03,920 --> 00:45:06,479
CHEERING
He's thinking about it!
875
00:45:06,480 --> 00:45:08,800
Bertie, you're taking
your shoes off!
876
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:20,879
One, two, three!
877
00:45:20,880 --> 00:45:23,200
ALL YELP
878
00:45:25,680 --> 00:45:26,680
Woo!
879
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,159
CHEERING
880
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:34,519
When we jumped in the sea naked,
it was so freeing.
881
00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:36,480
The nudity phase is awesome.
882
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:41,319
I have absolutely no idea
why I did that,
883
00:45:41,320 --> 00:45:44,359
but, hey, I'm absolutely glad
that I did.
884
00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:47,279
It is definitely one of
the biggest things I've ever done.
885
00:45:47,280 --> 00:45:50,799
I feel like I've ended
the phase on a high.
886
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:53,239
I've learned how to be
a little bit nicer to myself.
887
00:45:53,240 --> 00:45:55,359
Every single person is different
888
00:45:55,360 --> 00:45:57,759
and every single body is different.
889
00:45:57,760 --> 00:45:59,119
It's crazy to think about,
890
00:45:59,120 --> 00:46:02,360
but right here, right now, yeah,
I feel like I could do anything.
891
00:46:06,600 --> 00:46:07,639
Next time...
892
00:46:07,640 --> 00:46:08,919
Hit my hand with the dick.
893
00:46:08,920 --> 00:46:10,159
LAUGHTER
894
00:46:10,160 --> 00:46:11,600
...things get hands on...
895
00:46:12,960 --> 00:46:15,119
You can put your finger inside.
896
00:46:15,120 --> 00:46:16,439
I'm just curious!
897
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:19,600
...as a special guest arrives
for the playtime phase...
898
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:22,399
Mmm.
899
00:46:22,400 --> 00:46:26,279
...and a fantasy... Get on
your knees. ..becomes reality.
900
00:46:26,280 --> 00:46:27,280
Good boy.
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