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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:02:01,055 --> 00:02:03,156 My name is Andrea Werhun. 2 00:02:03,190 --> 00:02:06,027 I'm a writer and performer, and I'm... 3 00:02:06,060 --> 00:02:08,863 also a sex worker. 4 00:02:12,967 --> 00:02:14,535 In books, movies, 5 00:02:14,569 --> 00:02:17,170 and every syndicated crime drama imaginable, 6 00:02:17,204 --> 00:02:20,508 sex workers are typically portrayed as victims 7 00:02:20,541 --> 00:02:22,175 or villains. 8 00:02:22,209 --> 00:02:25,145 Shame and stigma can silence us. 9 00:02:25,178 --> 00:02:27,882 It's high time we told our own damn stories. 10 00:02:27,915 --> 00:02:29,617 Here's mine. 11 00:02:31,184 --> 00:02:32,720 In my early 20s, 12 00:02:32,754 --> 00:02:34,321 I worked as an escort. 13 00:02:34,354 --> 00:02:36,189 Clients hired me to a play a role, 14 00:02:36,223 --> 00:02:38,760 and I love to perform. 15 00:02:38,793 --> 00:02:41,161 It wasn't always glamourous. 16 00:02:41,194 --> 00:02:44,832 Can I jizz on your titties, baby? 17 00:02:44,866 --> 00:02:47,135 That costs extra, baby. 18 00:02:49,570 --> 00:02:53,808 And I wasn't always the professional you see here. 19 00:02:55,175 --> 00:02:58,112 Here it comes, baby. 20 00:02:58,146 --> 00:02:59,747 Here it comes! 21 00:03:02,116 --> 00:03:03,618 Once upon a time, 22 00:03:03,651 --> 00:03:06,386 I was a university student with a dream. 23 00:03:08,556 --> 00:03:12,259 A dream of making more than minimum wage. 24 00:03:12,292 --> 00:03:16,496 I quickly realized the power of a little unzipping. 25 00:03:35,248 --> 00:03:39,554 I went to university to study English literature. 26 00:03:39,587 --> 00:03:43,157 That was my major, and I minored in religion. 27 00:03:43,191 --> 00:03:45,459 The first time I went to a strip club, 28 00:03:45,492 --> 00:03:48,228 what I saw was a kind of sexy church. 29 00:03:48,261 --> 00:03:51,833 I saw these poled priestesses on the stage, 30 00:03:51,866 --> 00:03:56,771 being worshipped by this doting male congregation 31 00:03:56,804 --> 00:03:59,439 who are, you know, being given the opportunity 32 00:03:59,473 --> 00:04:02,744 to go to confession for like, $20 a song. 33 00:04:02,777 --> 00:04:06,581 And so I thought, "I want to do that." 34 00:04:06,614 --> 00:04:09,249 And I did eventually become a stripper. 35 00:04:09,282 --> 00:04:11,018 More on that later. 36 00:04:11,052 --> 00:04:14,454 I had a friend in one of the classes I was taking in school 37 00:04:14,488 --> 00:04:17,558 tell me that I should consider escorting instead. 38 00:04:17,592 --> 00:04:20,528 One night, I noticed that all the stories I'd penned 39 00:04:20,561 --> 00:04:22,329 for my creative writing class 40 00:04:22,362 --> 00:04:25,465 involved the exchange of sex for money. 41 00:04:28,236 --> 00:04:29,737 It became clear... 42 00:04:29,771 --> 00:04:32,907 Whoredom is your destiny... 43 00:04:32,940 --> 00:04:33,975 Whoredom is... 44 00:04:34,008 --> 00:04:36,177 ...your destiny! 45 00:04:40,515 --> 00:04:43,350 And how does one become a sex worker? 46 00:04:43,383 --> 00:04:46,554 Well, let me show you. 47 00:04:46,587 --> 00:04:48,756 Under the cover of darkness, 48 00:04:48,790 --> 00:04:51,826 I stalked the streets like a cat in heat, 49 00:04:51,859 --> 00:04:54,762 fondling for society's sexy underbelly. 50 00:04:56,664 --> 00:04:57,965 Password? 51 00:05:02,069 --> 00:05:04,138 Come in. 52 00:05:10,011 --> 00:05:13,614 Cloaked in the darkness of night and little else, 53 00:05:13,648 --> 00:05:17,552 I penetrated a secret set of sinful sluts. 54 00:05:19,153 --> 00:05:20,487 Just kidding. 55 00:05:20,521 --> 00:05:22,690 I looked up escort agencies, 56 00:05:22,723 --> 00:05:24,225 picked the best-looking website, 57 00:05:24,258 --> 00:05:26,594 and sent them an email. 58 00:05:29,030 --> 00:05:32,233 And they contacted me immediately for an interview, 59 00:05:32,266 --> 00:05:33,835 which opened with... 60 00:05:33,868 --> 00:05:35,036 You got the job. 61 00:05:35,069 --> 00:05:36,637 Oh. 62 00:05:37,638 --> 00:05:38,973 Great. 63 00:05:39,006 --> 00:05:41,474 The agency owners were a suburban couple 64 00:05:41,509 --> 00:05:44,178 - named Trina and Craig. - Here's how it works. 65 00:05:44,212 --> 00:05:46,714 We'll do your advertising for you. 66 00:05:46,747 --> 00:05:48,516 I'll pick you up, drop you off. 67 00:05:48,549 --> 00:05:51,118 You collect the money and text me that it's all good. 68 00:05:51,152 --> 00:05:52,954 I'll start the clock, you do the deed, 69 00:05:52,987 --> 00:05:55,289 and I'll wait outside and let you know when the hour is up. 70 00:05:55,323 --> 00:05:56,991 - Any questions? - Yeah. 71 00:05:57,024 --> 00:05:58,793 Do you provide the condoms? 72 00:05:58,826 --> 00:06:00,360 No. 73 00:06:00,393 --> 00:06:01,796 Okay. Um... 74 00:06:01,829 --> 00:06:04,799 How often should I get an STI test? 75 00:06:04,832 --> 00:06:06,334 Like, every month? 76 00:06:06,366 --> 00:06:08,870 Every month would probably be too much. 77 00:06:08,903 --> 00:06:12,306 And how likely is it that I would get an STI? 78 00:06:12,340 --> 00:06:13,975 Uh, not likely. 79 00:06:14,008 --> 00:06:16,711 That would be very rare. 80 00:06:16,744 --> 00:06:19,113 You know, some people get away from sex work 81 00:06:19,146 --> 00:06:20,681 without ever having had an STI. 82 00:06:20,715 --> 00:06:23,684 Me, I had chlamydia, I got gonorrhea, 83 00:06:23,718 --> 00:06:27,955 and then I did a seven-day, you know, round of antibiotics 84 00:06:27,989 --> 00:06:29,357 and they were gone. 85 00:06:29,389 --> 00:06:32,727 And that's because I got tested regularly. 86 00:06:32,760 --> 00:06:35,630 Also, I was wondering, is this legal? 87 00:06:36,731 --> 00:06:38,633 Yes and no. 88 00:06:38,666 --> 00:06:41,168 But the cops have bigger to fry. 89 00:06:41,202 --> 00:06:44,305 And we've never had a run-in with law enforcement. 90 00:06:44,338 --> 00:06:45,840 You're fine. 91 00:06:45,873 --> 00:06:47,909 The fact that she's saying she's been able to run 92 00:06:47,942 --> 00:06:51,646 a successful escorting agency doesn't change the fact 93 00:06:51,679 --> 00:06:55,182 that criminalization impacts us as workers 94 00:06:55,216 --> 00:06:56,884 in a way that it doesn't impact her 95 00:06:56,918 --> 00:06:59,452 as someone who is not sucking cock for money. 96 00:06:59,486 --> 00:07:02,990 How dangerous is this job? 97 00:07:03,024 --> 00:07:04,926 We've been in this business a long time. 98 00:07:04,959 --> 00:07:07,929 You're totally safe, nothing's gonna happen to you. 99 00:07:09,230 --> 00:07:12,633 She is not going to be transparent about the risks 100 00:07:12,667 --> 00:07:15,136 that I face, and the vulnerable situations 101 00:07:15,169 --> 00:07:17,004 she is about to put me in 102 00:07:17,038 --> 00:07:19,006 because she doesn't want to scare me away. 103 00:07:19,040 --> 00:07:21,842 So, what do you want to be called? You need a fake name. 104 00:07:21,876 --> 00:07:24,078 I'd thought about this a lot. 105 00:07:24,111 --> 00:07:27,949 I was taking a romantic poetry class at the time, 106 00:07:27,982 --> 00:07:32,119 and I had fallen head over heels in love 107 00:07:32,153 --> 00:07:34,322 with William Blake. 108 00:07:34,355 --> 00:07:37,024 In Visions of the Daughters of Albion, 109 00:07:37,058 --> 00:07:40,328 a virgin goddess named Oothoon walks in woe 110 00:07:40,361 --> 00:07:44,131 when her eye is caught by a marygold. 111 00:07:44,165 --> 00:07:46,233 "I see thee now a flower, 112 00:07:46,267 --> 00:07:48,035 "now a nymph. 113 00:07:48,069 --> 00:07:51,906 "I dare not pluck thee from thy dewy bed." 114 00:07:51,939 --> 00:07:54,775 Pluck thou my flower, Oothoon the mild. 115 00:07:54,809 --> 00:07:56,877 Another flower shall spring. 116 00:07:56,911 --> 00:07:59,580 Because the soul of sweet delight 117 00:07:59,613 --> 00:08:01,782 can never pass away. 118 00:08:01,816 --> 00:08:05,786 That virginity is forever. 119 00:08:05,820 --> 00:08:07,688 Marygold! 120 00:08:09,156 --> 00:08:10,558 Nah. 121 00:08:10,591 --> 00:08:12,526 How about Mary Ann? 122 00:08:12,560 --> 00:08:15,763 You kinda look like Mary Ann from Gilligan's Island. 123 00:08:18,165 --> 00:08:19,934 Sure. 124 00:08:19,967 --> 00:08:21,502 Mary Ann. 125 00:08:21,535 --> 00:08:24,038 The Virgin Mary, and her mother, Saint Anne. 126 00:08:24,071 --> 00:08:26,540 Two generations of maternal divinity 127 00:08:26,574 --> 00:08:28,943 to protect me on this whorish path. 128 00:08:28,976 --> 00:08:31,746 I remember signing an agreement, 129 00:08:31,779 --> 00:08:34,682 but I'm not sure what it said. 130 00:08:39,787 --> 00:08:42,690 Trina and Craig couldn't get me on the schedule fast enough. 131 00:08:42,723 --> 00:08:45,960 His name is Sanjay. He's nice. 132 00:08:47,094 --> 00:08:50,831 He's more nervous than you are. Trust me. 133 00:09:06,180 --> 00:09:08,182 Come in, come in. 134 00:09:08,215 --> 00:09:09,683 Hi. 135 00:09:14,855 --> 00:09:17,458 Jacket? 136 00:09:17,491 --> 00:09:19,794 Oh. Thanks. Um... 137 00:09:19,827 --> 00:09:22,029 - I'll be right back. - Sure. 138 00:09:40,381 --> 00:09:42,216 - Hey. - Hi. 139 00:09:46,521 --> 00:09:50,124 So, how long have you been doing this? 140 00:09:50,157 --> 00:09:52,827 Not very long. 141 00:09:52,860 --> 00:09:57,298 Um, this is actually my first appointment. 142 00:09:57,331 --> 00:09:59,100 You're my first client. 143 00:09:59,133 --> 00:10:00,367 Really? 144 00:10:01,836 --> 00:10:03,604 Wow... 145 00:10:05,272 --> 00:10:07,542 That's great. That's great. 146 00:10:24,024 --> 00:10:27,094 He was being kind, he was being respectful, 147 00:10:27,128 --> 00:10:29,630 and we were pleasuring each other. 148 00:10:29,663 --> 00:10:31,899 And I thought, "If this is what it is... 149 00:10:33,400 --> 00:10:35,069 "...that's kinda fun!" 150 00:10:36,403 --> 00:10:40,207 Sanjay leaves me in the room with half an hour left. 151 00:10:40,241 --> 00:10:41,742 Please lock up the room whenever you are done. 152 00:10:41,775 --> 00:10:43,578 Goodnight, Mary Ann. 153 00:10:43,612 --> 00:10:45,446 Goodnight? 154 00:10:48,115 --> 00:10:49,950 Okay, I've just, like, hit the jackpot here. 155 00:10:49,984 --> 00:10:52,820 I get to like, relax in a room by myself 156 00:10:52,853 --> 00:10:55,022 after this momentous occasion 157 00:10:55,055 --> 00:10:58,292 where I feel like I had just lost my whore virginity. 158 00:11:02,363 --> 00:11:04,165 Was it really me? 159 00:11:04,198 --> 00:11:07,301 A new friend, companion, and partner in crime 160 00:11:07,334 --> 00:11:09,303 smiled back at me. 161 00:11:09,336 --> 00:11:12,139 And her name was Mary Ann. 162 00:11:19,780 --> 00:11:21,616 Toronto Sirens. 163 00:11:21,650 --> 00:11:24,852 Well, hi there, Trina. It's Chuck from Texas. 164 00:11:24,885 --> 00:11:27,121 You have a gal for me this evening? 165 00:11:27,154 --> 00:11:29,658 Have I got the girl for you! She's new. 166 00:11:29,690 --> 00:11:33,694 Her name is Mary Ann, and it's her first night. 167 00:11:33,727 --> 00:11:35,095 You're gonna love her. 168 00:11:36,730 --> 00:11:38,432 Yee-haw! 169 00:11:40,267 --> 00:11:42,369 Who is next? 170 00:11:46,575 --> 00:11:49,443 So, Mary Ann, do you like Mozart? 171 00:11:49,476 --> 00:11:50,645 Yeah. 172 00:11:50,679 --> 00:11:52,313 Good, good. 173 00:11:52,346 --> 00:11:54,448 Do you like butt play? 174 00:11:54,481 --> 00:11:57,051 Um... 175 00:11:57,084 --> 00:11:58,620 I don't know. 176 00:11:58,653 --> 00:12:01,088 How about rimming? 177 00:12:01,121 --> 00:12:02,456 Uh... 178 00:12:02,489 --> 00:12:04,258 Uh... I... 179 00:12:04,291 --> 00:12:05,660 I don't know. 180 00:12:05,694 --> 00:12:08,229 Come on. Lick my ass. 181 00:12:08,262 --> 00:12:09,930 Please? 182 00:12:13,801 --> 00:12:17,004 I should have charged him extra for that. 183 00:12:17,037 --> 00:12:18,939 By the time I reached my final client, 184 00:12:18,973 --> 00:12:23,344 I was feeling like a triumphant sexual queen. 185 00:12:25,179 --> 00:12:28,482 Max and I were sucked into a flurry of mutual interests. 186 00:12:28,516 --> 00:12:31,085 Poetry, religion, politics. 187 00:12:31,118 --> 00:12:32,920 When he asked the dreaded-- 188 00:12:32,953 --> 00:12:34,221 What's your story? 189 00:12:34,255 --> 00:12:38,792 Oh, I'm just a travelling painter, 190 00:12:38,826 --> 00:12:40,662 passing through. 191 00:12:40,695 --> 00:12:44,999 Wow. I thought maybe you were in university. 192 00:12:45,032 --> 00:12:46,500 No... 193 00:12:46,534 --> 00:12:48,202 No. 194 00:12:48,235 --> 00:12:50,804 You have a really intellectual vibe. 195 00:12:50,838 --> 00:12:53,340 I've read a lot of books. 196 00:12:54,676 --> 00:12:56,210 Come here. 197 00:13:01,482 --> 00:13:04,719 We had some time left, so I read him some tarot cards. 198 00:13:04,753 --> 00:13:06,787 Max was smart and courteous. 199 00:13:06,820 --> 00:13:09,524 Had I just met my ideal client? 200 00:13:11,526 --> 00:13:13,894 I made $700, 201 00:13:13,927 --> 00:13:15,896 and that was life-changing for me. 202 00:13:15,929 --> 00:13:18,265 To go from minimum wage, 203 00:13:18,299 --> 00:13:19,300 where I worked at a cafe 204 00:13:19,333 --> 00:13:22,169 and I might get $700 on two paycheques, 205 00:13:22,202 --> 00:13:25,105 Here I'd made it in one night and had a ball. 206 00:13:26,807 --> 00:13:28,510 My new job was exciting, 207 00:13:28,543 --> 00:13:32,880 but the prospect of telling my friends and family was not. 208 00:13:32,913 --> 00:13:35,550 So I kept my whoring a secret. 209 00:13:42,122 --> 00:13:45,560 Max had been my ideal client when I met him. 210 00:13:45,593 --> 00:13:47,394 The next time I saw Max, 211 00:13:47,428 --> 00:13:50,197 I was selling tickets to a psychology conference 212 00:13:50,230 --> 00:13:53,802 when he showed up in line, and I almost had a heart attack. 213 00:13:53,834 --> 00:13:55,903 I was so freaked. 214 00:13:55,936 --> 00:13:59,106 I revealed that I was not, in fact, 215 00:13:59,139 --> 00:14:02,711 a travelling painter passing through. 216 00:14:02,744 --> 00:14:06,447 And was, of course, a university student. 217 00:14:06,480 --> 00:14:09,083 And that more than that, 218 00:14:09,116 --> 00:14:13,087 what I really wanted to be was a writer. 219 00:14:13,120 --> 00:14:16,023 You could come over, you know, just to write. 220 00:14:16,056 --> 00:14:19,426 You mean, you'd pay me? 221 00:14:19,460 --> 00:14:21,995 Yeah. Why not? 222 00:14:22,029 --> 00:14:24,833 Let's do a two-hour writing session. 223 00:14:27,736 --> 00:14:29,903 Okay. 224 00:14:29,937 --> 00:14:33,474 I thought, "Could my life get any better?" 225 00:14:35,008 --> 00:14:37,645 So I show up to this paid writing session, 226 00:14:37,679 --> 00:14:41,816 and as soon as I get there and we're sitting in his apartment, 227 00:14:41,850 --> 00:14:43,785 he starts asking me questions. 228 00:14:43,818 --> 00:14:45,854 What was your childhood like? 229 00:14:45,919 --> 00:14:50,057 What happened to you to lead you down this path? 230 00:14:50,090 --> 00:14:52,292 Are your parents still together? 231 00:14:52,326 --> 00:14:54,328 Were you abused? 232 00:14:56,330 --> 00:14:59,166 Mary Ann, I deal with people in your field every day. 233 00:14:59,199 --> 00:15:01,468 They either come from a broken home, 234 00:15:01,503 --> 00:15:04,405 or they have a long history of sexual trauma. 235 00:15:04,438 --> 00:15:06,940 You claim you have neither, which... 236 00:15:06,974 --> 00:15:09,143 I find hard to believe. 237 00:15:09,176 --> 00:15:11,111 You just don't fit the mould of someone 238 00:15:11,145 --> 00:15:14,214 who does this kind of work. 239 00:15:17,619 --> 00:15:19,821 Shall we go to the bedroom? 240 00:15:19,854 --> 00:15:22,657 I thought I was here to write. 241 00:15:22,690 --> 00:15:27,194 Come on. 242 00:15:27,227 --> 00:15:30,397 He was trying to enter me. 243 00:15:30,431 --> 00:15:33,033 You know, he was trying to open doors 244 00:15:33,066 --> 00:15:36,069 for which he had no key. 245 00:15:36,103 --> 00:15:38,573 He was trying to barge into me 246 00:15:38,606 --> 00:15:41,543 and I did not like it at all. 247 00:15:59,794 --> 00:16:01,729 Max. 248 00:16:01,763 --> 00:16:04,131 I'm not comfortable. 249 00:16:04,164 --> 00:16:06,266 That was great. 250 00:16:07,735 --> 00:16:10,738 Do you want to go home now? 251 00:16:10,772 --> 00:16:12,439 Yeah. 252 00:16:12,473 --> 00:16:16,109 I just felt like such a naive baby whore, 253 00:16:16,143 --> 00:16:17,745 to have believed a client 254 00:16:17,779 --> 00:16:21,081 when he said that he wanted a paid writing session. 255 00:16:21,114 --> 00:16:23,150 I would not go into it 256 00:16:23,183 --> 00:16:26,253 without being prepared to have sex. 257 00:16:26,286 --> 00:16:29,156 You don't get any training for this stuff. 258 00:16:29,189 --> 00:16:32,694 I mean, you kinda have to walk through the fire 259 00:16:32,727 --> 00:16:35,429 to learn these lessons. 260 00:16:35,462 --> 00:16:39,199 Bottom line, you can't trust clients. 261 00:16:43,771 --> 00:16:46,975 Personally, I don't think there is anything more important 262 00:16:47,007 --> 00:16:48,843 than community. 263 00:16:48,877 --> 00:16:50,578 You know, especially for an industry 264 00:16:50,612 --> 00:16:52,747 that's as isolated as ours. 265 00:16:52,780 --> 00:16:57,417 When sex workers get together and we talk shop, magic happens. 266 00:16:57,451 --> 00:17:00,454 Even if we are experiencing our work in isolation, 267 00:17:00,487 --> 00:17:02,991 we can hear each other and totally understand each other. 268 00:17:03,023 --> 00:17:05,425 My name is SJ Raphael. 269 00:17:05,459 --> 00:17:09,697 I have done everything from escorting to stripping, 270 00:17:09,731 --> 00:17:11,265 cam work, street work. 271 00:17:11,298 --> 00:17:13,935 I was mailing my underwear to weird men overseas 272 00:17:13,968 --> 00:17:16,771 for a really long time, until it didn't become lucrative anymore. 273 00:17:16,804 --> 00:17:18,573 You name it, I've done it. 274 00:17:18,606 --> 00:17:21,676 SJ, they are one of my most cherished friends. 275 00:17:21,709 --> 00:17:23,978 We met through advocacy work. 276 00:17:24,012 --> 00:17:27,247 I'm Vixen, I am a former escort. 277 00:17:27,281 --> 00:17:29,884 I've now transitioned into being 278 00:17:29,918 --> 00:17:32,319 a nude online cam girl. 279 00:17:32,352 --> 00:17:36,624 Vixen is a good friend of mine, and we met at an orgy. 280 00:17:36,658 --> 00:17:40,995 My name is Kitoko, and I am a former escort and pro sub, 281 00:17:41,029 --> 00:17:42,931 or professional submissive. 282 00:17:42,964 --> 00:17:44,699 Oh, and a current artist. 283 00:17:44,732 --> 00:17:49,069 Kitoko is an incredibly gifted artist and collaborator. 284 00:17:49,102 --> 00:17:51,371 We made a short film together. 285 00:17:51,405 --> 00:17:54,976 I'm Robin. I've been a stripper for five years now, 286 00:17:55,009 --> 00:17:57,812 and I am also a formally trained 287 00:17:57,845 --> 00:18:00,180 animator and illustrator. 288 00:18:00,213 --> 00:18:03,551 Robin is an amazing performer. 289 00:18:03,585 --> 00:18:06,420 We worked at the same strip club. 290 00:18:07,989 --> 00:18:11,191 Being white, cisgendered, and conventionally feminine 291 00:18:11,224 --> 00:18:14,028 has definitely benefited me in this industry. 292 00:18:14,062 --> 00:18:17,932 How have these factors impacted my friends? 293 00:18:17,966 --> 00:18:19,934 Certainly there is that archetype 294 00:18:19,968 --> 00:18:21,168 of what a "whore" should look like, 295 00:18:21,201 --> 00:18:22,503 what a sex worker should look like. 296 00:18:22,537 --> 00:18:24,572 The lingerie, the hair, the makeup, the clothes, 297 00:18:24,606 --> 00:18:26,975 the this, the that. As a gender diverse person, 298 00:18:27,008 --> 00:18:29,077 I present far more femme than I feel 299 00:18:29,109 --> 00:18:30,945 because I make more money doing it. 300 00:18:30,979 --> 00:18:32,412 It's easier for me to get clients, 301 00:18:32,446 --> 00:18:34,015 it's easier for me to have the long blonde hair, 302 00:18:34,048 --> 00:18:35,516 like, put on the dress, like, do the thing, 303 00:18:35,550 --> 00:18:37,451 and then make, you know, the money that I am charging. 304 00:18:37,484 --> 00:18:40,521 The way that I look, the way that I carry myself, 305 00:18:40,555 --> 00:18:44,692 isn't quite a reflection of who I am internally. 306 00:18:44,726 --> 00:18:49,496 But money talks, and I very much curate to the male gaze. 307 00:18:49,530 --> 00:18:51,699 I applied to a a bunch of different agencies 308 00:18:51,733 --> 00:18:55,235 multiple times, like, up to, like 20 times for some of them. 309 00:18:55,268 --> 00:18:57,705 They told me not to expect to be as successful as any of 310 00:18:57,739 --> 00:19:00,340 the, like, white women there or the Asian women there. 311 00:19:00,374 --> 00:19:02,910 They see Black women as like, kind of like, alien. 312 00:19:02,944 --> 00:19:05,513 Like, they're just like, "Who would ever desire you?" 313 00:19:05,546 --> 00:19:08,850 Or like, "We don't know to get people to, like, come book you." 314 00:19:08,883 --> 00:19:12,352 As someone who is mixed race and spent a lot of their time 315 00:19:12,386 --> 00:19:15,188 being told that I am barely Black to begin with, 316 00:19:15,222 --> 00:19:18,425 to walk into a strip club and face this, sort of, 317 00:19:18,458 --> 00:19:21,829 1970s style racism where I am told verbatim 318 00:19:21,863 --> 00:19:25,667 that I am too fat and too Black to work in an establishment 319 00:19:25,700 --> 00:19:27,334 blew me away. 320 00:19:27,367 --> 00:19:29,804 Walking into a change room and seeing that sign on the wall 321 00:19:29,837 --> 00:19:32,305 that just said "No braids, no buns, no Afros." 322 00:19:32,339 --> 00:19:34,709 And the only thing more offensive than that sign 323 00:19:34,742 --> 00:19:37,612 is the fact that it wasn't actually a rule for everyone, 324 00:19:37,645 --> 00:19:39,312 - it was a rule for Black women. - Yeah, 325 00:19:39,346 --> 00:19:42,550 I have never had trouble making money in a club 326 00:19:42,583 --> 00:19:44,317 no matter what my hair looks like. 327 00:19:44,351 --> 00:19:46,788 Customers love the hair, they love the beads, 328 00:19:46,821 --> 00:19:49,057 they love the dreads, they love the locs. 329 00:19:49,090 --> 00:19:50,792 It's managers. 330 00:19:50,825 --> 00:19:54,361 We'll get into strip club managers later. 331 00:19:54,394 --> 00:19:56,664 And now, back to escorting. 332 00:19:58,432 --> 00:20:01,268 And so, Mary Ann kept on whoring. 333 00:20:01,301 --> 00:20:05,506 Lucky lads across the Greater Toronto Area 334 00:20:05,540 --> 00:20:09,877 met the cutest little gal they'd ever seen. 335 00:20:09,911 --> 00:20:11,344 And boy... 336 00:20:11,378 --> 00:20:13,948 ...Could that cowgirl ride! 337 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:20,454 Soon, I had regulars 338 00:20:20,487 --> 00:20:22,590 who booked me regularly. 339 00:20:22,623 --> 00:20:24,525 Mmm. Mary Ann. That's very good. 340 00:20:24,559 --> 00:20:26,460 Mr. McAllister was an English teacher 341 00:20:26,493 --> 00:20:28,395 and a writer in his spare time. 342 00:20:28,428 --> 00:20:31,431 I really like it when you do that. 343 00:20:33,300 --> 00:20:37,004 We always had quick sex off the top. 344 00:20:37,038 --> 00:20:39,841 All the character development leads to the inevitable... 345 00:20:39,874 --> 00:20:41,809 Followed by talking about our shared love 346 00:20:41,843 --> 00:20:45,179 of crafting stories. Occasionally, he blurted-- 347 00:20:45,213 --> 00:20:47,882 I'm a lonely man, Mary Ann. 348 00:20:47,915 --> 00:20:50,184 A lonely... 349 00:20:50,218 --> 00:20:52,352 ...lonely man. 350 00:20:54,622 --> 00:20:57,692 Which, over time, became... 351 00:20:57,725 --> 00:21:02,362 I feel like you're my girlfriend, Mary Ann. 352 00:21:03,430 --> 00:21:06,134 I am like your girlfriend. 353 00:21:12,039 --> 00:21:14,509 I prefer new clients to regulars. 354 00:21:14,542 --> 00:21:16,309 People kind of like, fall in love 355 00:21:16,343 --> 00:21:18,146 or think they're falling in love and then suddenly, 356 00:21:18,179 --> 00:21:20,148 they are like, "What about this money? 357 00:21:20,181 --> 00:21:21,749 "Can we, like, throw it away?" 358 00:21:21,783 --> 00:21:23,450 And it's like, that's not the point of this. 359 00:21:23,483 --> 00:21:27,255 Yes, a regular is great until they get possessive. 360 00:21:27,287 --> 00:21:30,792 But they always do! I'm sorry, it always ends like that, right. 361 00:21:30,825 --> 00:21:32,059 Yeah. 362 00:21:32,093 --> 00:21:33,261 Don't be so good at your job, then! 363 00:21:33,293 --> 00:21:34,595 Well... 364 00:21:34,629 --> 00:21:37,765 I definitely broke the number one rule. 365 00:21:37,799 --> 00:21:42,170 I ended up dating my very first client. 366 00:21:42,203 --> 00:21:45,740 And, uh, we're not-- we're not together, 367 00:21:45,773 --> 00:21:48,176 so, probably made the wrong choice there. 368 00:21:48,209 --> 00:21:50,144 It's such an intimate thing. 369 00:21:50,178 --> 00:21:52,180 It's such an intimate booking. 370 00:21:52,213 --> 00:21:55,883 It would be crazy to think that people don't get attached. 371 00:21:55,917 --> 00:21:59,486 That people feel a deep emotional connection. 372 00:21:59,520 --> 00:22:01,756 Personally, I like regulars. 373 00:22:01,789 --> 00:22:04,725 My preference is to have long-term relationships 374 00:22:04,759 --> 00:22:07,261 with my clientele. 375 00:22:07,295 --> 00:22:09,163 For me, it comes down to whether 376 00:22:09,197 --> 00:22:11,032 a client respects your boundaries. 377 00:22:11,065 --> 00:22:14,669 We've established that clients can lie to our faces. 378 00:22:14,702 --> 00:22:17,905 But how do they behave beyond the appointment? 379 00:22:25,813 --> 00:22:29,050 Sex worker review boards are the domain of hobbyists, 380 00:22:29,083 --> 00:22:32,352 that is, men whose hobby is paying for sex 381 00:22:32,385 --> 00:22:33,888 and writing about it, 382 00:22:33,921 --> 00:22:36,657 employing a variety of colourful acronyms 383 00:22:36,691 --> 00:22:39,426 to degrade sex workers for fun. 384 00:22:40,460 --> 00:22:43,531 So, of course I searched my name. 385 00:22:45,566 --> 00:22:48,269 Mary Ann has a great sex body, 386 00:22:48,302 --> 00:22:51,973 very soft, but firm, if that makes sense. 387 00:22:52,006 --> 00:22:54,508 Mary Ann resembled Mary Tyler Moore, 388 00:22:54,542 --> 00:22:57,011 but with slightly bigger boobs. 389 00:22:57,044 --> 00:23:00,014 Mary Ann's legs were not memorable 390 00:23:00,047 --> 00:23:02,783 as they are fairly short. 391 00:23:02,817 --> 00:23:06,153 It's hard to describe the feeling of reading someone 392 00:23:06,187 --> 00:23:08,421 write about you 393 00:23:08,455 --> 00:23:11,525 and what it's like to have sex with you. 394 00:23:11,559 --> 00:23:14,328 This was, like, a genre of erotica 395 00:23:14,362 --> 00:23:16,664 that was written by men for men. 396 00:23:16,697 --> 00:23:20,735 A user named Don Juan posted my first review on the board, 397 00:23:20,768 --> 00:23:24,238 which was entitled "Wow." 398 00:23:24,272 --> 00:23:27,708 I had noticed Mary Ann ever since her photos 399 00:23:27,742 --> 00:23:32,647 went up on the Sirens site. My first impression was "Wow." 400 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:35,482 I would estimate her figure at five foot five, 401 00:23:35,516 --> 00:23:39,654 120 pounds, 34D-24-35. 402 00:23:40,621 --> 00:23:43,591 We started with LFK. 403 00:23:43,624 --> 00:23:47,228 I was gently massaging her breasts when she said... 404 00:23:49,063 --> 00:23:51,464 You intrigue me. 405 00:23:51,498 --> 00:23:53,968 Why, baby? 406 00:23:54,001 --> 00:23:58,139 Most guys want to take a look before they feel. 407 00:23:58,172 --> 00:24:01,842 I remember things a little differently. 408 00:24:01,876 --> 00:24:05,313 Don Juan told me he was a plastic surgeon from Florida. 409 00:24:05,346 --> 00:24:08,215 I went to school with Barack Obama, baby. 410 00:24:08,249 --> 00:24:09,984 What do you think of that? 411 00:24:10,017 --> 00:24:13,888 My duty was to act impressed, not to sniff out facts. 412 00:24:13,921 --> 00:24:16,958 I suspected the plastic surgeon thing to be true 413 00:24:16,991 --> 00:24:20,094 because Don Juan had a technical fascination 414 00:24:20,127 --> 00:24:21,395 with my breasts. 415 00:24:21,429 --> 00:24:22,797 I don't believe it, baby. 416 00:24:22,830 --> 00:24:26,701 These are too good to be real. 417 00:24:27,768 --> 00:24:30,470 Then we progressed to DFK. 418 00:24:30,504 --> 00:24:32,472 My tongue in her mouth... 419 00:24:32,506 --> 00:24:33,908 Her tongue in mine... 420 00:24:33,941 --> 00:24:36,510 Our tongues meeting outside of our mouths. 421 00:24:40,281 --> 00:24:44,251 Hungrily. Passionately. 422 00:24:45,619 --> 00:24:50,591 It did get her wet. 423 00:24:50,624 --> 00:24:53,260 Then she took me into her mouth. 424 00:24:53,294 --> 00:24:54,996 I propped myself up... 425 00:24:55,029 --> 00:24:57,465 On some pillows to get a better look. 426 00:24:57,497 --> 00:25:00,901 She told me that she wanted to taste me. 427 00:25:00,935 --> 00:25:03,938 Okay, I definitely did not say that, okay? 428 00:25:03,971 --> 00:25:06,073 I didn't say any of this! 429 00:25:06,107 --> 00:25:07,742 Cut, cut, cut, cut. 430 00:25:07,775 --> 00:25:09,143 All right, darling, you're doing great, you're doing fabulous. 431 00:25:09,176 --> 00:25:12,546 However, that's not the line. The line is... 432 00:25:12,580 --> 00:25:14,515 "I want to taste you, 433 00:25:14,548 --> 00:25:17,051 "I want to taste you." 434 00:25:17,084 --> 00:25:20,287 You know, pretend you're eating a, uh, portobello mushroom, 435 00:25:20,321 --> 00:25:22,556 you know, and it's in your mouth, and you can taste it, 436 00:25:22,590 --> 00:25:24,158 and it's swirling around in there. 437 00:25:24,191 --> 00:25:26,394 And then you just enjoy it all. All right, you got it? 438 00:25:26,427 --> 00:25:28,496 Good. Great. Action! 439 00:25:32,433 --> 00:25:36,003 I want to taste you. 440 00:25:37,071 --> 00:25:38,639 Yes! 441 00:25:38,672 --> 00:25:40,641 We finished with a mind-blowing... 442 00:25:40,674 --> 00:25:42,343 CIM? 443 00:25:42,376 --> 00:25:45,012 No. COF? Hmm. 444 00:25:45,046 --> 00:25:46,614 I'm not sure which. 445 00:25:46,647 --> 00:25:48,349 And I really didn't care. 446 00:25:48,382 --> 00:25:51,052 Whatever it was that Mary Ann did, 447 00:25:51,085 --> 00:25:52,620 oh, baby. 448 00:25:52,653 --> 00:25:56,557 Oh-ho-ho. It was fabulous. 449 00:26:03,030 --> 00:26:06,467 Everything that he says that the did and that he said 450 00:26:06,500 --> 00:26:08,369 just didn't happen. 451 00:26:08,402 --> 00:26:10,171 What do you guys think about reviews? 452 00:26:10,204 --> 00:26:12,740 I don't get to review them. 453 00:26:12,773 --> 00:26:16,110 I needed one review and that launched me. 454 00:26:16,143 --> 00:26:17,546 Mm-hmm. 455 00:26:17,578 --> 00:26:19,613 It can really make or break your career. 456 00:26:19,647 --> 00:26:21,449 The dark side of reviews is that they are definitely 457 00:26:21,482 --> 00:26:24,652 a form of coercion. Clients will take the threat of a bad review 458 00:26:24,685 --> 00:26:26,487 and use it to push your boundaries. 459 00:26:26,521 --> 00:26:28,155 There's, like, so much pressure, 460 00:26:28,189 --> 00:26:30,157 and you feel like you have to consent to everything, and... 461 00:26:30,191 --> 00:26:34,462 It feels like being a product in an Amazon review. 462 00:26:34,495 --> 00:26:36,363 - It's definitely violating. - Yeah. 463 00:26:36,397 --> 00:26:38,766 Reviews taught me that sex work is more 464 00:26:38,799 --> 00:26:41,702 than just what happens behind closed doors. 465 00:26:46,373 --> 00:26:51,546 There was something fun about performing this role for people. 466 00:26:53,681 --> 00:26:55,683 And then going back into my regular life. 467 00:26:55,716 --> 00:26:59,653 Mary Ann was me, but obviously heightened 468 00:26:59,687 --> 00:27:02,623 and more curious and more adventurous. 469 00:27:02,656 --> 00:27:04,959 It was sexy, it was sexy 470 00:27:04,992 --> 00:27:08,229 to have this little juicy secret. 471 00:27:21,709 --> 00:27:23,410 My secret life was fun until... 472 00:27:23,444 --> 00:27:26,380 Hey, baby! 473 00:27:26,413 --> 00:27:29,817 Yeah, baby! You lookin' good to me. 474 00:27:29,850 --> 00:27:32,753 Oh, yeah! 475 00:27:33,754 --> 00:27:36,157 Stupid ugly bitch. 476 00:27:36,190 --> 00:27:39,594 Until shame crept in. 477 00:27:42,062 --> 00:27:44,231 There's two sides to a secret. 478 00:27:44,265 --> 00:27:48,335 It can be incredibly emotionally taxing 479 00:27:48,369 --> 00:27:50,971 to hide from people, 480 00:27:51,005 --> 00:27:52,706 especially the people you love. 481 00:27:52,740 --> 00:27:56,877 We all have this internalized whorephobia within us. 482 00:27:56,911 --> 00:27:59,980 This is a prejudice that is, you know, 2,000 years old. 483 00:28:00,014 --> 00:28:03,284 This is nothing new. We are all born out of 484 00:28:03,317 --> 00:28:06,787 this whorephobic muck. And I have it too. 485 00:28:06,820 --> 00:28:09,957 The shame that I felt wasn't in the act. 486 00:28:09,990 --> 00:28:13,160 It was the shame of others, and it was inside me, 487 00:28:13,194 --> 00:28:16,297 and I could hear its voice, and it was awful. 488 00:28:16,330 --> 00:28:17,731 You think you're so great, huh? 489 00:28:17,765 --> 00:28:20,167 Making all that easy money. 490 00:28:20,201 --> 00:28:22,736 Shame believes that sex workers are lazy. 491 00:28:27,708 --> 00:28:29,611 And disgusting. 492 00:28:29,644 --> 00:28:34,381 What is the difference between a Corvette and a dead hooker? 493 00:28:34,415 --> 00:28:36,150 Shame likes dead hooker jokes. 494 00:28:36,183 --> 00:28:38,419 I don't have a Corvette in my garage! 495 00:28:38,452 --> 00:28:40,254 You're nothing 496 00:28:40,287 --> 00:28:42,957 but a dirty, stinky... 497 00:28:42,990 --> 00:28:45,459 Shame tries to make me hate myself. 498 00:28:45,492 --> 00:28:49,029 Trash whore! 499 00:28:50,731 --> 00:28:53,167 Shame makes you lonely. Like, it really does. 500 00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:55,369 And it's also, like, shame goes hand in hand with fear, too. 501 00:28:55,402 --> 00:28:57,104 That's the thing. It's like, I don't disclose, 502 00:28:57,137 --> 00:28:59,073 or I didn't use to disclose because I don't know 503 00:28:59,106 --> 00:29:00,874 what's gonna happen to me if I do. 504 00:29:00,908 --> 00:29:03,744 During the pandemic, I had to stop full-service sex work 505 00:29:03,777 --> 00:29:05,913 and so I was thinking about creating an OnlyFans, 506 00:29:05,946 --> 00:29:08,816 but I was like, super stressed out because 507 00:29:08,849 --> 00:29:10,652 if I have nudes on the internet, 508 00:29:10,685 --> 00:29:12,853 could that make it impossible for me to, like, 509 00:29:12,886 --> 00:29:17,191 adopt a child, or just pivot and like, teach? 510 00:29:17,224 --> 00:29:19,293 I feel like it's not so much that sex work itself 511 00:29:19,326 --> 00:29:21,829 oppresses me, but like, the stigma that follows it, 512 00:29:21,862 --> 00:29:24,231 um, is like, always a threat. 513 00:29:24,265 --> 00:29:28,969 I have never been very good at hiding. 514 00:29:29,003 --> 00:29:30,804 But I understand that there are risks, 515 00:29:30,838 --> 00:29:33,675 and so I continued to hide, 516 00:29:33,708 --> 00:29:36,377 and it took a great toll on me. 517 00:29:36,410 --> 00:29:40,347 Especially when it came to... 518 00:29:40,381 --> 00:29:42,049 My mom. 519 00:29:44,285 --> 00:29:47,421 You probably never expected we'd be here. 520 00:29:47,454 --> 00:29:49,023 Um, well, 521 00:29:49,056 --> 00:29:52,527 I wouldn't say it's beyond my imagination. 522 00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:54,729 You were always a free spirit. 523 00:29:54,763 --> 00:29:57,865 And I respect that. 524 00:29:58,667 --> 00:30:00,467 I learned from the best. 525 00:30:03,505 --> 00:30:04,972 No, you're more free, 526 00:30:05,005 --> 00:30:07,742 more free than I ever was, 527 00:30:07,776 --> 00:30:09,778 but I'm free in a different way. 528 00:30:09,810 --> 00:30:13,013 Ooh. In what way? 529 00:30:13,047 --> 00:30:15,482 No. This is about you. 530 00:30:15,517 --> 00:30:16,817 It's not about me. 531 00:30:16,850 --> 00:30:19,019 - We were always very close. - Mm-hmm. 532 00:30:19,053 --> 00:30:21,556 - At least I always felt. - Oh, definitely. 533 00:30:21,589 --> 00:30:23,190 Yeah. Like, I felt 534 00:30:23,223 --> 00:30:26,594 like I could always be myself around you. 535 00:30:26,628 --> 00:30:28,530 We could always joke around about stuff. 536 00:30:28,563 --> 00:30:29,930 Right. I don't think 537 00:30:29,963 --> 00:30:31,633 there was ever anything we didn't talk about. 538 00:30:31,666 --> 00:30:32,866 That's right, and so, 539 00:30:32,900 --> 00:30:36,805 when it came to doing sex work, 540 00:30:36,837 --> 00:30:38,439 that was the first time in my life 541 00:30:38,472 --> 00:30:42,242 that I really felt like I was keeping a secret from you, 542 00:30:42,276 --> 00:30:46,480 and that was really, really hard for me to do. 543 00:30:47,582 --> 00:30:49,784 My mom is a beautiful angel, 544 00:30:49,818 --> 00:30:52,886 and she's also a very religious person. 545 00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:54,723 She's a Catholic. 546 00:30:54,756 --> 00:30:57,057 There were always pictures 547 00:30:57,091 --> 00:31:01,830 of the Virgin Mary around in my childhood. 548 00:31:01,862 --> 00:31:04,932 I like to joke that she venerates a virgin mother 549 00:31:04,965 --> 00:31:07,535 so she got a whore daughter. 550 00:31:07,569 --> 00:31:09,236 No parent is like, 551 00:31:09,269 --> 00:31:12,139 "I want my kid to become a sex worker!" 552 00:31:12,172 --> 00:31:15,577 It's, like, kind of a nightmare scenario for a parent, right? 553 00:31:18,212 --> 00:31:21,616 I would say you were pretty devastated. 554 00:31:21,649 --> 00:31:23,884 Mm-hmm. Well, I was happy for you 555 00:31:23,917 --> 00:31:27,589 that you were not carrying that burden anymore. 556 00:31:27,622 --> 00:31:30,457 You know, you had been set free. 557 00:31:30,491 --> 00:31:32,025 So, I can deal with that. 558 00:31:32,059 --> 00:31:33,595 I can deal with truth. 559 00:31:33,628 --> 00:31:35,129 That's not a problem, 560 00:31:35,162 --> 00:31:38,899 but I do remember not sleeping for about three nights. 561 00:31:38,932 --> 00:31:40,134 You did call me in the middle 562 00:31:40,167 --> 00:31:41,503 - of the night-- - Mm-hmm. 563 00:31:41,536 --> 00:31:42,936 --you know, during those first three nights, 564 00:31:42,970 --> 00:31:45,005 and you were concerned about my safety. 565 00:31:45,038 --> 00:31:47,675 Right, and your soul. 566 00:31:49,443 --> 00:31:50,645 And my soul. 567 00:31:58,318 --> 00:32:01,488 En route to our respective appointments with a co-whore, 568 00:32:01,523 --> 00:32:04,659 I mentioned my most regular client, Walter Wack. 569 00:32:04,692 --> 00:32:05,894 He's the worst. 570 00:32:05,926 --> 00:32:07,695 Oh, my God. I know. 571 00:32:07,729 --> 00:32:09,430 He's so rough with me. 572 00:32:09,463 --> 00:32:12,266 Yeah. He does this thing where he, like, crunches me up, 573 00:32:12,299 --> 00:32:13,902 and it really hurts my hips. 574 00:32:13,934 --> 00:32:16,470 Yeah, well, he fists me, 575 00:32:16,504 --> 00:32:18,071 and he's rough. 576 00:32:18,105 --> 00:32:20,040 Okay. He's definitely never fisted me. 577 00:32:20,073 --> 00:32:22,577 And he calls me a dirty, stinky cum bucket trash whore. 578 00:32:22,610 --> 00:32:25,045 You name it. Weird guy. 579 00:32:25,078 --> 00:32:27,549 Okay. He's only ever called me nice things. 580 00:32:27,582 --> 00:32:29,651 Well, I guess he likes you. 581 00:32:29,684 --> 00:32:31,251 Violet. 582 00:32:31,285 --> 00:32:33,253 I was one of many escorts who saw Walter. 583 00:32:33,287 --> 00:32:34,254 Sarah. 584 00:32:34,288 --> 00:32:35,255 Addison. 585 00:32:35,289 --> 00:32:36,457 Rebecca. 586 00:32:36,490 --> 00:32:37,991 Uh, Andrea. 587 00:32:38,025 --> 00:32:40,528 I mean Mary Ann! 588 00:32:40,562 --> 00:32:44,699 Going to Walter Wack's place was, like, Groundhog Day, 589 00:32:44,732 --> 00:32:46,601 because it was always the same. 590 00:32:46,634 --> 00:32:48,903 His door would be ajar. 591 00:32:48,937 --> 00:32:51,338 He'd yell from the shower, "Come on in!" 592 00:32:51,371 --> 00:32:53,474 There'd be a boom box on the floor 593 00:32:53,508 --> 00:32:54,709 playing the same music. 594 00:32:54,742 --> 00:32:57,846 I always entered on the same song. 595 00:32:57,879 --> 00:33:02,349 I would undress and wait for him to emerge. 596 00:33:02,382 --> 00:33:04,017 We'd have the same sex every time. 597 00:33:05,319 --> 00:33:08,088 One evening, he did something unusual. 598 00:33:08,121 --> 00:33:10,491 He booked me twice in one night, 599 00:33:10,525 --> 00:33:14,428 bookending five appointments total, 600 00:33:14,461 --> 00:33:16,798 and by that fifth appointment, 601 00:33:16,831 --> 00:33:19,968 I was pretty sore. 602 00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:22,604 Walter was doing his usual plow, 603 00:33:22,637 --> 00:33:24,672 crunching up my hips. 604 00:33:24,706 --> 00:33:27,007 I was in pain, 605 00:33:27,040 --> 00:33:28,510 trying to be a trooper, 606 00:33:28,543 --> 00:33:30,077 get to the end, 607 00:33:30,110 --> 00:33:33,982 but finally, I felt like it was necessary 608 00:33:34,014 --> 00:33:36,083 to say something to him. 609 00:33:36,116 --> 00:33:38,185 And I was kind of scared to say something to him, 610 00:33:38,218 --> 00:33:42,690 because... it meant going off script. 611 00:33:44,626 --> 00:33:46,694 But I said, 612 00:33:46,728 --> 00:33:49,797 "Walter, you're my fifth appointment of the night, 613 00:33:49,831 --> 00:33:51,566 and it kind of hurts." 614 00:33:54,636 --> 00:33:56,771 And he said... 615 00:33:59,106 --> 00:34:00,909 "That just makes me want to fuck you harder." 616 00:34:03,745 --> 00:34:04,913 And so he did. 617 00:34:07,347 --> 00:34:09,751 Ten minutes of torture left. 618 00:34:09,784 --> 00:34:13,487 He called me every horrible name he'd called Sarah, 619 00:34:13,521 --> 00:34:16,024 but I was afraid to leave. 620 00:34:16,056 --> 00:34:19,059 You never have to see him again. 621 00:34:19,092 --> 00:34:21,128 Walter was blacklisted... 622 00:34:21,161 --> 00:34:24,264 for me, not for the other girls. 623 00:34:24,298 --> 00:34:26,400 If someone has had a client blacklisted, 624 00:34:26,433 --> 00:34:28,002 then there should be transparency 625 00:34:28,036 --> 00:34:29,604 so that everyone at the agency can choose 626 00:34:29,637 --> 00:34:31,873 whether they want to see that person or not. 627 00:34:31,906 --> 00:34:33,508 These guys, they're repeat offenders. 628 00:34:33,541 --> 00:34:36,310 They eventually do the same thing to every single one of us, 629 00:34:36,343 --> 00:34:38,178 and it's not fair that we don't get to decide 630 00:34:38,211 --> 00:34:39,681 if that happens to us or not. 631 00:34:39,714 --> 00:34:41,783 We're not trying to even punish the predator. 632 00:34:41,816 --> 00:34:43,350 We just want to not see them. 633 00:34:43,383 --> 00:34:45,385 We don't want to have to be prey. Yeah. Like-- 634 00:34:45,419 --> 00:34:47,321 But if, you know, sex work were decriminalized, 635 00:34:47,354 --> 00:34:50,424 we'd actually maybe be able to build a relationship 636 00:34:50,457 --> 00:34:52,694 with law enforcement if that's what we wanted to do. 637 00:34:52,727 --> 00:34:54,428 Or at the very least, labour, you know, sort of rights-- 638 00:34:54,461 --> 00:34:56,531 - Labour. - You know, which involves 639 00:34:56,564 --> 00:34:58,900 workplace safety, and this is a workplace safety issue. 640 00:35:00,668 --> 00:35:03,504 Exchanges like this one were rare. 641 00:35:03,538 --> 00:35:06,774 I worked at the same agency as Andrea, 642 00:35:06,808 --> 00:35:08,408 and we never met. 643 00:35:08,442 --> 00:35:11,478 And a part of me thinks it's by design. 644 00:35:11,512 --> 00:35:15,683 We were two opinionated girls. 645 00:35:15,717 --> 00:35:19,020 The conversation would have never stayed surface level. 646 00:35:19,053 --> 00:35:22,523 Having us have too much knowledge 647 00:35:22,557 --> 00:35:27,160 is never a good thing in terms of an agency perspective. 648 00:35:27,194 --> 00:35:28,896 Like, knowledge is power, 649 00:35:28,930 --> 00:35:31,099 and they don't want us to have that kind of power. 650 00:35:33,968 --> 00:35:35,335 Being an escort, 651 00:35:35,369 --> 00:35:39,373 you don't only see people physically naked. 652 00:35:39,406 --> 00:35:41,408 It's emotionally naked. 653 00:35:41,441 --> 00:35:45,445 To find out how much hate and negativity 654 00:35:45,479 --> 00:35:49,182 people carry within themselves, 655 00:35:49,216 --> 00:35:50,585 it affects your soul. 656 00:35:52,285 --> 00:35:55,455 We're supposed to keep your secrets, 657 00:35:55,489 --> 00:35:57,025 and that includes the secret 658 00:35:57,058 --> 00:36:00,394 of how you truly behave, you know. 659 00:36:00,427 --> 00:36:02,563 And that's why we experience so much violence from people, 660 00:36:02,597 --> 00:36:04,398 because there's this assumption 661 00:36:04,431 --> 00:36:07,101 that we're not going to tell anyone. 662 00:36:07,135 --> 00:36:09,037 We don't have anyone to turn to. 663 00:36:09,070 --> 00:36:10,571 There's no one to protect us. 664 00:36:15,076 --> 00:36:17,477 My mom was concerned about my safety, 665 00:36:17,512 --> 00:36:19,947 and she was right to be concerned. 666 00:36:21,549 --> 00:36:24,284 On the day that I graduated university, 667 00:36:24,317 --> 00:36:26,521 - we went out to lunch. - Mm-hmm. 668 00:36:26,554 --> 00:36:28,388 We sat down at the table, 669 00:36:28,422 --> 00:36:31,559 and the first thing that you said was, 670 00:36:31,592 --> 00:36:33,460 "When you going to quit that job of yours?" 671 00:36:33,493 --> 00:36:34,529 Right. 672 00:36:34,562 --> 00:36:37,598 And I'm like... ..."Okay. 673 00:36:39,399 --> 00:36:40,802 By my next birthday," 674 00:36:40,835 --> 00:36:42,537 which was a year from then, 675 00:36:42,570 --> 00:36:43,771 and you said... 676 00:36:45,338 --> 00:36:46,908 "I'd like to have that in writing." 677 00:36:46,941 --> 00:36:48,609 Yeah. 678 00:36:48,643 --> 00:36:52,279 And so I signed a contract with my mother. 679 00:36:52,312 --> 00:36:53,781 "I, Andrea Werhun, 680 00:36:53,815 --> 00:36:56,584 "vow to stop hooking on my 24th birthday. 681 00:36:56,617 --> 00:36:58,553 You have it in writing." 682 00:36:58,586 --> 00:37:01,288 I had one year of whoring left. 683 00:37:08,261 --> 00:37:09,429 With these appointments, 684 00:37:09,463 --> 00:37:10,698 these hour-long appointments 685 00:37:10,732 --> 00:37:12,033 with people you've never met before, 686 00:37:12,066 --> 00:37:14,635 it's like I'm a comet 687 00:37:14,669 --> 00:37:19,073 entering the stratosphere of somebody else's world, 688 00:37:19,107 --> 00:37:21,142 and then I get to see them naked. 689 00:37:21,175 --> 00:37:22,409 And then I get to have sex with them, 690 00:37:22,442 --> 00:37:23,611 and I get to make them come. 691 00:37:23,644 --> 00:37:25,278 And I, like, hit the Earth, 692 00:37:25,312 --> 00:37:27,181 and I'm gone. And that's it. 693 00:37:27,215 --> 00:37:28,750 You get to the core of a person, 694 00:37:28,783 --> 00:37:30,585 and then you're gone. 695 00:37:30,618 --> 00:37:33,320 There's just, like, something really fascinating 696 00:37:33,353 --> 00:37:36,190 about how close you can get to a person 697 00:37:36,224 --> 00:37:37,692 in such a short period of time 698 00:37:37,725 --> 00:37:39,761 and the level of intimacy that you can feel 699 00:37:39,794 --> 00:37:42,462 with someone you've never met before 700 00:37:42,496 --> 00:37:43,998 and then just be gone. 701 00:37:47,902 --> 00:37:50,437 You know, you have sex with a few hundred clients, 702 00:37:50,470 --> 00:37:52,573 and you start to notice a few patterns. 703 00:37:52,607 --> 00:37:57,277 So I think I could teach a class on sex work. 704 00:37:59,080 --> 00:38:00,380 No matter what you call them-- 705 00:38:00,413 --> 00:38:02,583 clients, johns, tricks-- 706 00:38:02,617 --> 00:38:04,852 the men who pay for sex have a bevy of reasons 707 00:38:04,886 --> 00:38:07,822 for procuring the services of a professional. 708 00:38:07,855 --> 00:38:10,625 Take your travelling businessman, for instance, 709 00:38:10,658 --> 00:38:12,827 tired and in need of a relaxing, 710 00:38:12,860 --> 00:38:14,327 no-strings-attached fu-- 711 00:38:15,630 --> 00:38:17,330 However, many of our clients 712 00:38:17,364 --> 00:38:19,066 are very much attached. 713 00:38:20,300 --> 00:38:22,036 Shocking, I know. 714 00:38:22,069 --> 00:38:23,403 Here's a line I often heard. 715 00:38:23,436 --> 00:38:25,206 I'm just paying you for a service. 716 00:38:25,239 --> 00:38:26,541 It's not like we're having 717 00:38:26,574 --> 00:38:28,441 a passionate affair or anything. 718 00:38:28,475 --> 00:38:30,077 Then why not tell your wife? 719 00:38:31,444 --> 00:38:34,048 Having a wife is too good a deal 720 00:38:34,081 --> 00:38:35,550 to screw up with a truth bomb like, 721 00:38:35,583 --> 00:38:38,019 "When I tell you I'm staying late at the office, 722 00:38:38,052 --> 00:38:40,054 "I'm really doing lines of coke 723 00:38:40,087 --> 00:38:42,857 with an escort in a motel room off the highway." 724 00:38:44,091 --> 00:38:45,660 Perhaps I seem like some kind 725 00:38:45,693 --> 00:38:48,395 of husband-humping femme fatale, 726 00:38:48,428 --> 00:38:50,898 the heartless, scheming villain 727 00:38:50,932 --> 00:38:52,233 of the story, 728 00:38:52,266 --> 00:38:54,001 but my madam would always say... 729 00:38:54,035 --> 00:38:56,336 I think we save marriages. 730 00:38:56,369 --> 00:38:58,072 It's safer for men to see an escort 731 00:38:58,105 --> 00:39:01,609 than have an affair with the secretary at the office. 732 00:39:01,642 --> 00:39:03,010 It's a lot less mess. 733 00:39:05,613 --> 00:39:06,981 But-- 734 00:39:07,014 --> 00:39:08,316 Enough about them. 735 00:39:08,348 --> 00:39:09,817 How about our clients with disabilities? 736 00:39:09,851 --> 00:39:13,087 My client Paul was a favourite of mine. 737 00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:15,189 His legs may have been paralyzed, 738 00:39:15,223 --> 00:39:16,724 but my word, 739 00:39:16,757 --> 00:39:20,360 that tongue was limber. 740 00:39:20,393 --> 00:39:21,762 And of course, 741 00:39:21,796 --> 00:39:22,964 the lazy bachelor, 742 00:39:22,997 --> 00:39:24,966 sometimes too lazy. 743 00:39:26,499 --> 00:39:28,603 Do you watch hockey? 744 00:39:28,636 --> 00:39:30,037 Sort of. 745 00:39:30,071 --> 00:39:31,839 I see you're a big fan. 746 00:39:31,873 --> 00:39:34,508 Oh, yeah, ever since I was a kid. 747 00:39:34,542 --> 00:39:36,611 How old are you? 748 00:39:36,644 --> 00:39:38,212 - Why don't you guess? - Twenty-seven? 749 00:39:41,749 --> 00:39:42,950 I'm older. 750 00:39:44,652 --> 00:39:46,354 A whiff of his dick 751 00:39:46,386 --> 00:39:48,956 conveyed notes of cheese and black mold. 752 00:39:50,191 --> 00:39:52,159 Why didn't I ask Gus to hit the showers? 753 00:39:52,193 --> 00:39:55,763 Why did I let his curdled cheese string into my mouth? 754 00:39:55,796 --> 00:39:57,497 We've got Mary Ann in the head zone. 755 00:39:57,531 --> 00:39:59,834 She appears to be struggling, Bob. 756 00:39:59,867 --> 00:40:01,102 She sure is, Tim. 757 00:40:01,135 --> 00:40:02,737 And the blow job 758 00:40:02,770 --> 00:40:04,639 comes to an end. 759 00:40:04,672 --> 00:40:06,574 - Is that it? - Mary Ann is now going 760 00:40:06,607 --> 00:40:08,209 into the cowgirl position. 761 00:40:08,242 --> 00:40:09,810 Oh! And it looks like Gus has got 762 00:40:09,844 --> 00:40:11,679 some stubble going on down there. 763 00:40:11,712 --> 00:40:14,949 It must be scraping the shit out of her you-know-what, Bob. 764 00:40:14,982 --> 00:40:18,586 Mary Ann is determined to ride this john through the pain. 765 00:40:18,619 --> 00:40:20,821 - Wow. - She is working for the money 766 00:40:20,855 --> 00:40:23,224 - tonight, boys. - Mary Ann is dismounting. 767 00:40:23,257 --> 00:40:24,625 - Your turn. - And it looks 768 00:40:24,659 --> 00:40:28,029 like Gus is remaining in the reclined position. 769 00:40:28,062 --> 00:40:29,363 He's going soft. 770 00:40:31,232 --> 00:40:33,500 Mary Ann's got her hand on the stick. 771 00:40:35,569 --> 00:40:36,904 He shoots! 772 00:40:36,938 --> 00:40:40,274 She scores! Mary Ann has done it again, 773 00:40:40,308 --> 00:40:41,943 proving why she's one of the most valuable escorts. 774 00:40:43,377 --> 00:40:45,780 Yes! Yes! 775 00:40:45,813 --> 00:40:50,318 And finally, there are the heartbroken newly single men 776 00:40:50,351 --> 00:40:52,720 in need of a bosom to cry on. 777 00:40:53,721 --> 00:40:55,122 I don't want to play games. 778 00:40:57,124 --> 00:41:00,561 I just want sex. 779 00:41:00,594 --> 00:41:01,963 I heard that Jeremy had seen 780 00:41:01,996 --> 00:41:03,364 every escort at the agency but me. 781 00:41:03,397 --> 00:41:05,700 Excuse me. What? 782 00:41:05,733 --> 00:41:07,368 He was a typical finance guy-- 783 00:41:07,401 --> 00:41:08,903 You got to be kidding me! 784 00:41:08,936 --> 00:41:11,105 Drunk, volatile, loves hookers. 785 00:41:11,138 --> 00:41:12,306 Is he always like that? 786 00:41:12,340 --> 00:41:14,308 Oh, for fuck's sake! 787 00:41:14,342 --> 00:41:15,743 For as long as I've known him. 788 00:41:17,678 --> 00:41:20,881 Jeremy was legendary for his multi-hour appointments. 789 00:41:20,915 --> 00:41:23,918 My co-whore Violet held the record-- 790 00:41:23,951 --> 00:41:25,920 36 hours. 791 00:41:25,953 --> 00:41:27,655 When she finally had to go, 792 00:41:27,688 --> 00:41:30,591 she was promptly replaced by another girl, 793 00:41:30,624 --> 00:41:33,894 and now, it was my turn to get to know the legend. 794 00:41:33,928 --> 00:41:35,196 What's your sign? 795 00:41:35,229 --> 00:41:36,630 Scorpio. 796 00:41:38,299 --> 00:41:39,567 Me too! 797 00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:41,635 We had a lot in common. 798 00:41:41,669 --> 00:41:43,471 Around the five-hour mark, I asked... 799 00:41:43,504 --> 00:41:45,539 So, do you have any children? 800 00:41:47,208 --> 00:41:49,343 My kid's birthday party. 801 00:41:49,377 --> 00:41:51,612 Drunk here. 802 00:41:51,645 --> 00:41:53,681 Really drunk in this one. 803 00:41:57,151 --> 00:41:59,186 That stupid fucking bitch! 804 00:42:01,188 --> 00:42:03,257 She's ruined my life! 805 00:42:03,290 --> 00:42:06,227 - Everything's gone! - Okay. 806 00:42:06,260 --> 00:42:07,495 - It's ruined! - Okay. 807 00:42:07,528 --> 00:42:11,632 Jeremy, you are a Scorpio, remember? 808 00:42:11,665 --> 00:42:14,268 And Scorpios are ruled by Pluto. 809 00:42:14,301 --> 00:42:16,404 That's the planet of transformation, 810 00:42:16,437 --> 00:42:18,606 of life and death and rebirth. 811 00:42:18,639 --> 00:42:23,277 If anyone could change their life, 812 00:42:23,310 --> 00:42:24,845 it's you. 813 00:42:24,879 --> 00:42:27,648 Though sex workers aren't officially therapists, 814 00:42:27,681 --> 00:42:29,083 we try our best. 815 00:42:30,651 --> 00:42:32,053 Let's do some coke. 816 00:42:37,625 --> 00:42:40,561 There's a certain suspension of reality 817 00:42:40,594 --> 00:42:42,997 in the time an escort and her john share. 818 00:42:46,767 --> 00:42:49,504 The time allotted is a sacred space 819 00:42:49,538 --> 00:42:51,072 in which both parties feel free 820 00:42:51,105 --> 00:42:54,341 to be themselves without judgment. 821 00:42:55,576 --> 00:42:56,545 What do you like? 822 00:42:56,577 --> 00:42:57,912 I like sex. 823 00:42:59,613 --> 00:43:00,781 I don't know about that. 824 00:43:00,815 --> 00:43:02,517 Oh, no! 825 00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:09,056 Jeremy demanded I cuddle him all night. 826 00:43:09,090 --> 00:43:10,424 Paid to sleep? 827 00:43:10,458 --> 00:43:12,460 A sex worker's dream. 828 00:43:16,730 --> 00:43:17,898 Mary Ann. 829 00:43:20,434 --> 00:43:21,602 Mary Ann. 830 00:43:22,837 --> 00:43:25,806 Mary Ann, that's very good. 831 00:43:25,840 --> 00:43:27,341 When I told Mr. McAllister 832 00:43:27,374 --> 00:43:29,009 I was leaving the biz, 833 00:43:29,043 --> 00:43:31,178 from the high horse of a john in the arms of a whore, 834 00:43:31,212 --> 00:43:32,379 he said... 835 00:43:32,413 --> 00:43:33,848 You know, Mary Ann, 836 00:43:33,881 --> 00:43:36,083 it'll be hard for you. 837 00:43:36,117 --> 00:43:37,685 Dating, that is, 838 00:43:37,718 --> 00:43:41,655 you know, having worked in this industry. 839 00:43:43,023 --> 00:43:44,625 What makes you say that? 840 00:43:46,127 --> 00:43:50,164 Well, a lot of people don't respect pr... 841 00:43:52,733 --> 00:43:55,636 Men are too jealous. 842 00:43:57,104 --> 00:43:59,907 Men don't respect... 843 00:44:00,708 --> 00:44:01,876 Women like you. 844 00:44:07,281 --> 00:44:09,450 I never told you this, 845 00:44:09,483 --> 00:44:10,918 but I have a boyfriend. 846 00:44:16,157 --> 00:44:17,358 You do? 847 00:44:23,030 --> 00:44:26,033 We have been together for... 848 00:44:26,066 --> 00:44:27,234 Thirteen years. 849 00:44:29,670 --> 00:44:31,640 How did we meet? 850 00:44:31,672 --> 00:44:33,440 Well, we met in university, 851 00:44:33,474 --> 00:44:34,842 last year of university. 852 00:44:34,875 --> 00:44:36,677 You came to a house party at my house. 853 00:44:36,710 --> 00:44:41,115 That was the first time I met you, and yeah. 854 00:44:41,148 --> 00:44:43,951 Then I kind of chased you a little bit 855 00:44:43,984 --> 00:44:46,053 for a few weeks. 856 00:44:46,086 --> 00:44:48,623 I knew, "Okay. This guy's a philosophy major." 857 00:44:50,090 --> 00:44:51,725 "He's got to be pretty bright. 858 00:44:51,759 --> 00:44:54,529 Maybe I'll just take a chance and tell him." 859 00:44:54,563 --> 00:44:56,964 So I said, "I'm an escort," 860 00:44:56,997 --> 00:44:59,568 and you were like, "Cool." 861 00:44:59,601 --> 00:45:02,671 Yeah. 862 00:45:02,703 --> 00:45:04,939 I thought that you were an interesting person. 863 00:45:04,972 --> 00:45:06,240 I did think it was cool. 864 00:45:06,273 --> 00:45:08,976 It was something unique and different, 865 00:45:09,009 --> 00:45:12,614 so I wasn't going to allow that 866 00:45:12,647 --> 00:45:15,482 to affect my interest in you. 867 00:45:16,717 --> 00:45:18,085 So mature. 868 00:45:19,787 --> 00:45:22,289 Why didn't it bother you? 869 00:45:22,323 --> 00:45:24,559 I see sex work as a job. 870 00:45:24,593 --> 00:45:27,861 It's a job where you use your body and you use your mind, 871 00:45:27,895 --> 00:45:29,263 like any other job. 872 00:45:29,296 --> 00:45:31,432 People use all sorts of different body parts 873 00:45:31,465 --> 00:45:32,967 to do their labour, 874 00:45:33,000 --> 00:45:36,103 and we're not concerned about it unless it's sexual. 875 00:45:36,136 --> 00:45:38,405 There's something about sex that-- 876 00:45:38,439 --> 00:45:40,808 I guess because it's so closely tied to love-- 877 00:45:40,841 --> 00:45:43,077 that people feel like it has to be controlled, 878 00:45:43,110 --> 00:45:47,881 you have to possess your partner or own them in some sense, 879 00:45:47,915 --> 00:45:49,950 and that it isn't real love unless you do 880 00:45:49,984 --> 00:45:51,919 or real commitment unless you do. 881 00:45:52,820 --> 00:45:54,822 Hello? 882 00:45:54,855 --> 00:45:56,323 Time's up. 883 00:45:56,357 --> 00:45:57,758 Okay. Thanks. 884 00:46:16,377 --> 00:46:20,649 โ™ช The light shines down the valley โ™ช 885 00:46:20,682 --> 00:46:23,551 โ™ช The wind blows up the alley โ™ช 886 00:46:23,585 --> 00:46:26,621 โ™ช Oh and I wish I was lying โ™ช 887 00:46:26,655 --> 00:46:29,156 โ™ช In the arms of Mary โ™ช 888 00:46:32,393 --> 00:46:36,598 โ™ช She took the pains of boyhood โ™ช 889 00:46:36,631 --> 00:46:39,867 โ™ช And turned them into feel good โ™ช 890 00:46:39,900 --> 00:46:42,704 โ™ช Oh and I wish I was lying โ™ช 891 00:46:42,737 --> 00:46:45,039 โ™ช In the arms of Mary โ™ช 892 00:46:45,072 --> 00:46:49,310 โ™ช Mary was the girl who taught me all I had to know โ™ช 893 00:46:49,343 --> 00:46:53,013 โ™ช She put me right on the first mistake โ™ช 894 00:46:53,047 --> 00:46:57,284 โ™ช Summer wasn't gone and I learned all she had to show โ™ช 895 00:46:57,318 --> 00:47:01,355 โ™ช She really gave all a boy could take โ™ช 896 00:47:02,724 --> 00:47:04,358 So long, Mary Ann. 897 00:47:22,209 --> 00:47:23,911 The perennial Marygold, 898 00:47:23,944 --> 00:47:25,714 plucked from its dewy bed, 899 00:47:25,747 --> 00:47:28,382 must die, and so did I. 900 00:47:28,415 --> 00:47:32,587 Mary Ann the whore lived, died, and was born again... 901 00:47:32,620 --> 00:47:34,154 on a farm. 902 00:47:38,192 --> 00:47:41,161 I had been working on a farm for a couple seasons 903 00:47:41,195 --> 00:47:43,897 before you came to live with me there. 904 00:47:43,931 --> 00:47:45,966 In a way, I went to the farm 905 00:47:45,999 --> 00:47:49,704 to escape my shame, 906 00:47:49,738 --> 00:47:54,174 to prove to myself that I was more than just a prostitute, 907 00:47:54,208 --> 00:47:56,745 but shame was with me. 908 00:47:56,778 --> 00:48:00,247 Hey, saggy titties. 909 00:48:00,280 --> 00:48:02,751 After my second season on the farm, 910 00:48:02,784 --> 00:48:04,952 I needed to stop. 911 00:48:04,985 --> 00:48:06,954 I think you enjoyed it, 912 00:48:06,987 --> 00:48:08,155 but it's not your life. 913 00:48:08,188 --> 00:48:09,557 It's not the life you want, 914 00:48:09,591 --> 00:48:10,759 and that's fine. 915 00:48:10,792 --> 00:48:13,327 - It wasn't exactly my calling. - Yeah. 916 00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:15,229 On top of the physical toll it was taking, 917 00:48:15,262 --> 00:48:17,498 I was not making any money. 918 00:48:17,532 --> 00:48:18,767 I was broke. 919 00:48:18,800 --> 00:48:21,135 Broke? You're a joke. 920 00:48:21,168 --> 00:48:24,672 You're a washed-up whore with no prospects. 921 00:48:24,706 --> 00:48:26,073 What are you gonna do, 922 00:48:26,106 --> 00:48:29,711 put "proficient at blowjobs" on your rรฉsumรฉ? 923 00:48:34,716 --> 00:48:38,218 So I decided to become normal. 924 00:48:38,252 --> 00:48:40,354 I moved back to the city 925 00:48:40,387 --> 00:48:43,023 and landed an entry-level nine to five. 926 00:48:43,056 --> 00:48:45,593 I worked during my lunchbreaks, evening overtime, 927 00:48:45,627 --> 00:48:48,929 and still never kept up or did things quite right. 928 00:48:50,364 --> 00:48:51,932 It was hell. 929 00:48:51,965 --> 00:48:56,036 Commuting in rush hour to a job that I hate... 930 00:48:56,069 --> 00:48:58,038 I would rather fuck a stranger. 931 00:49:00,174 --> 00:49:02,443 When you tried a regular job, 932 00:49:02,476 --> 00:49:05,212 you'd come home, and you'd be crying. 933 00:49:05,245 --> 00:49:08,081 Yeah. That's no life. No. 934 00:49:08,115 --> 00:49:11,786 So I quit and got a gig as a bike courier. 935 00:49:11,820 --> 00:49:13,287 There was no rรฉsumรฉ required, 936 00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:15,857 but there was snow and ice. 937 00:49:15,890 --> 00:49:17,291 I was falling off my bike, 938 00:49:17,324 --> 00:49:19,259 getting my tire caught in sewer grates, 939 00:49:19,293 --> 00:49:22,029 car doors being jut out in front of me, 940 00:49:22,062 --> 00:49:23,565 and so I wondered, 941 00:49:23,598 --> 00:49:25,265 what was more dangerous, 942 00:49:25,299 --> 00:49:27,434 working as a bike courier-- 943 00:49:27,468 --> 00:49:28,670 --or as a stripper? 944 00:49:30,237 --> 00:49:34,007 I think, like, work in general is exploitative. 945 00:49:34,041 --> 00:49:36,009 It's hard to be empowered under capitalism 946 00:49:36,043 --> 00:49:38,378 when we're all basically purchasing 947 00:49:38,412 --> 00:49:39,948 our survival. 948 00:49:39,980 --> 00:49:41,482 So, I'm disabled and neuro-divergent, 949 00:49:41,516 --> 00:49:43,618 and sex work was a really good fit for me, 950 00:49:43,651 --> 00:49:46,855 because it allowed me to build a practice 951 00:49:46,888 --> 00:49:49,156 that was specific to my needs. 952 00:49:49,189 --> 00:49:51,358 Sex work, for me, gave me a way 953 00:49:51,391 --> 00:49:53,126 to, like, do more than survive. 954 00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:54,796 It gave me a way to live. 955 00:49:54,829 --> 00:49:56,463 Do you feel like sex work is something 956 00:49:56,497 --> 00:49:59,767 that compliments your artistic practice? 957 00:49:59,801 --> 00:50:01,201 Yeah, definitely. I don't think 958 00:50:01,235 --> 00:50:04,606 that I could be an artist without sex work. 959 00:50:04,639 --> 00:50:06,373 Like, I'm not a nepo baby. 960 00:50:06,406 --> 00:50:07,675 I wish I was. 961 00:50:07,709 --> 00:50:10,778 My artistic skills make a lot of sense in sex work. 962 00:50:10,812 --> 00:50:12,947 Like, it is a performance. 963 00:50:12,981 --> 00:50:14,516 It's gendered performance. 964 00:50:16,518 --> 00:50:20,087 I had deliberately worded my agreement with my mom 965 00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:23,892 to refer strictly to hooking. 966 00:50:23,925 --> 00:50:25,325 I left stripping out of it. 967 00:50:27,494 --> 00:50:29,162 Alright. So, you work seven-hour shifts, 968 00:50:29,196 --> 00:50:30,565 minimum three days a week, 969 00:50:30,598 --> 00:50:32,366 three shows per night. 970 00:50:32,399 --> 00:50:34,301 Lap dances are $20 per song. 971 00:50:34,334 --> 00:50:38,138 Champagne room, $400 per hour per girl. 972 00:50:38,171 --> 00:50:42,142 Now, whatever happens in the champagne room... 973 00:50:43,778 --> 00:50:45,613 Stays in the champagne room. 974 00:50:45,647 --> 00:50:47,381 There's a security guard at the entrance there 975 00:50:47,414 --> 00:50:49,517 to keep an eye on the time so there's no discrepancy 976 00:50:49,551 --> 00:50:52,754 with the, uh, song counts, because sometimes-- 977 00:50:52,787 --> 00:50:54,488 --rarely here-- 978 00:50:54,522 --> 00:50:55,990 --customers, 979 00:50:56,024 --> 00:50:58,826 uh, they try and rip off the dancers. 980 00:51:00,327 --> 00:51:02,129 So-- 981 00:51:02,162 --> 00:51:04,364 --you want to start tonight? 982 00:51:04,398 --> 00:51:06,634 I texted with Maurice about my stripper name. 983 00:51:10,838 --> 00:51:12,574 Sophia means wisdom. 984 00:51:12,607 --> 00:51:14,008 The Holy Spirit. 985 00:51:14,042 --> 00:51:15,577 The divine feminine. 986 00:51:21,114 --> 00:51:23,952 I'm not the best pole dancer in the world, 987 00:51:23,985 --> 00:51:27,187 so I had to learn how to work my angles. 988 00:51:27,220 --> 00:51:30,290 For me, there is nothing more powerful than nudity, 989 00:51:30,324 --> 00:51:34,762 eye contact, and a smile paired with a few signature moves. 990 00:51:34,796 --> 00:51:36,698 Fireman! 991 00:51:36,731 --> 00:51:40,467 The Twirl 'n' Squat. 992 00:51:40,500 --> 00:51:41,703 The Floater! 993 00:51:42,904 --> 00:51:44,137 And Hollywood. 994 00:51:45,773 --> 00:51:46,975 Oh, and ATC. 995 00:51:47,008 --> 00:51:48,275 That's ass to crowd! 996 00:51:48,308 --> 00:51:49,744 Oh, yeah. 997 00:51:49,777 --> 00:51:52,245 But I wasn't always the professional you see here. 998 00:51:56,618 --> 00:51:58,519 On my second shift, 999 00:51:58,553 --> 00:52:00,521 I meet a guy named Bob Abrams. 1000 00:52:00,555 --> 00:52:03,323 He called me over to him, and he said, you know, 1001 00:52:03,357 --> 00:52:04,491 "Sit down and have a drink with me. 1002 00:52:04,525 --> 00:52:06,094 I'll make it worth your while." 1003 00:52:06,126 --> 00:52:09,229 So, what brings you here tonight? 1004 00:52:09,262 --> 00:52:13,433 You are so fucking hot. 1005 00:52:13,467 --> 00:52:15,202 Do you know what it's like having two kids at home? 1006 00:52:15,235 --> 00:52:16,504 Of course you don't. 1007 00:52:16,537 --> 00:52:19,473 Yeah. Oh, my. 1008 00:52:19,507 --> 00:52:21,542 I love you. You're fucking awesome. 1009 00:52:23,243 --> 00:52:25,345 His wife at home with their newborn, 1010 00:52:25,379 --> 00:52:27,115 Bob Abrams smelled of a man 1011 00:52:27,147 --> 00:52:29,784 who had everything handed to him. 1012 00:52:35,023 --> 00:52:36,591 We got wasted. 1013 00:52:36,624 --> 00:52:39,961 Up in the VIP, I gave Bob a passionate lap dance. 1014 00:52:56,044 --> 00:52:57,444 Bob took his dick out. 1015 00:52:58,746 --> 00:53:00,280 You are so hot. 1016 00:53:01,314 --> 00:53:03,450 Fuck. Let's fuck. 1017 00:53:04,786 --> 00:53:06,486 No. No. 1018 00:53:08,790 --> 00:53:11,125 We finally called it a night at 15 songs. 1019 00:53:12,392 --> 00:53:14,896 He wanted to see me again. 1020 00:53:14,929 --> 00:53:17,965 Bob emailed me to arrange our next meeting. 1021 00:53:17,999 --> 00:53:19,801 More on that later. 1022 00:53:21,268 --> 00:53:23,236 Soon, I had regulars at the strip club, 1023 00:53:23,270 --> 00:53:25,707 and Ron was the cream of the crop. 1024 00:53:28,442 --> 00:53:30,310 Hello, mysterious man. 1025 00:53:31,278 --> 00:53:32,647 Hello, Andrea. 1026 00:53:34,247 --> 00:53:36,818 Ron is one of my regulars. 1027 00:53:36,851 --> 00:53:39,020 He was known at the club by the other dancers 1028 00:53:39,053 --> 00:53:41,189 as being Sophia's guy. 1029 00:53:41,221 --> 00:53:42,957 We'd sit on a couch, 1030 00:53:42,990 --> 00:53:44,759 watch the game, 1031 00:53:44,792 --> 00:53:45,960 eat a burrito. 1032 00:53:45,993 --> 00:53:47,862 All the while, 1033 00:53:47,895 --> 00:53:49,063 baby, I'm being paid. 1034 00:53:49,097 --> 00:53:50,297 It was so good. 1035 00:53:50,330 --> 00:53:51,699 We'd get to the VIP. 1036 00:53:51,733 --> 00:53:52,900 I'd take my shoes off. 1037 00:53:52,934 --> 00:53:54,267 He'd give me a foot rub. 1038 00:53:54,301 --> 00:53:55,636 You were wearing those ridiculous heels. 1039 00:53:55,670 --> 00:53:57,304 - What do you call them? - Pleasers. 1040 00:53:57,337 --> 00:53:58,873 Pleasers. Right. And so you were complaining 1041 00:53:58,906 --> 00:54:01,408 about your feet being sore from wearing those all day, 1042 00:54:01,441 --> 00:54:03,376 so I just naturally started giving you a foot rub. 1043 00:54:03,410 --> 00:54:05,713 And that became, like, a regular thing, 1044 00:54:05,747 --> 00:54:07,982 and I took it really seriously, 1045 00:54:08,015 --> 00:54:09,650 because one time, I said, you know, 1046 00:54:09,684 --> 00:54:11,185 "Is this your first foot rub today?" 1047 00:54:11,219 --> 00:54:13,320 And you said, "Well, no." 1048 00:54:13,353 --> 00:54:14,822 So the next day, I went to YouTube 1049 00:54:14,856 --> 00:54:16,758 and started searching how to give foot massages. 1050 00:54:16,791 --> 00:54:18,325 I was like, "I'm going to give you 1051 00:54:18,358 --> 00:54:19,527 a really good foot massage if I can." 1052 00:54:19,560 --> 00:54:22,964 So... I started bringing in the creams, 1053 00:54:22,997 --> 00:54:26,500 you know, getting really, you know, professional about it. 1054 00:54:26,534 --> 00:54:28,603 You are one of the good ones. That is for sure. 1055 00:54:28,636 --> 00:54:30,638 What do you think is the secret 1056 00:54:30,671 --> 00:54:35,510 to the long-term relationship that we have here? 1057 00:54:35,543 --> 00:54:36,978 You're a good listener as well as having 1058 00:54:37,011 --> 00:54:38,513 a lot of stories to tell, 1059 00:54:38,546 --> 00:54:40,681 and I mean, in seven years, 1060 00:54:40,715 --> 00:54:42,784 I've gone through some major life events. 1061 00:54:42,817 --> 00:54:44,619 And there's been things that I've wanted to talk about 1062 00:54:44,652 --> 00:54:46,754 that I didn't feel comfortable talking about 1063 00:54:46,788 --> 00:54:48,856 to, you know, family or friends. 1064 00:54:48,890 --> 00:54:52,627 Ron is an ideal customer in a few ways. 1065 00:54:52,660 --> 00:54:55,897 You know, he understands the context. 1066 00:54:55,930 --> 00:54:59,901 He knows he's going to see you for a set period of time 1067 00:54:59,934 --> 00:55:01,969 for X amount of money, 1068 00:55:02,003 --> 00:55:03,436 and on top of that, 1069 00:55:03,470 --> 00:55:05,573 he's kind. He's respectful. 1070 00:55:05,606 --> 00:55:08,441 Well, to me, kindness and respect are my core values, 1071 00:55:08,475 --> 00:55:09,911 and I don't really understand-- 1072 00:55:09,944 --> 00:55:12,445 I mean, I've read your stories and heard stories 1073 00:55:12,479 --> 00:55:14,414 about clients who are not that way. 1074 00:55:14,447 --> 00:55:17,051 If only all customers could be like Ron. 1075 00:55:19,419 --> 00:55:20,855 I actually really don't even know this guy, 1076 00:55:20,888 --> 00:55:22,723 - if I'm being honest. - Oh, really? 1077 00:55:22,757 --> 00:55:24,792 One night, I was chatting up Stavros, an artist... 1078 00:55:24,826 --> 00:55:27,695 So, yeah. We actually met at an ultimate Frisbee tournament. 1079 00:55:27,728 --> 00:55:30,798 Okay. A couple of nerds. I like that. 1080 00:55:30,832 --> 00:55:33,234 ...and his friend Mark, a doctor. 1081 00:55:33,267 --> 00:55:34,902 Pretty much. 1082 00:55:34,936 --> 00:55:37,271 So, Sophia... 1083 00:55:37,305 --> 00:55:38,739 Who touched you? 1084 00:55:40,741 --> 00:55:42,743 Um, what? 1085 00:55:43,744 --> 00:55:45,046 Who touched you? 1086 00:55:45,079 --> 00:55:47,347 What happened in your childhood to bring you here? 1087 00:55:49,684 --> 00:55:51,451 Apparently, Mark would rather examine 1088 00:55:51,484 --> 00:55:53,588 my emotional wounds than my dance moves. 1089 00:55:53,621 --> 00:55:57,225 Um, that's an incredibly inappropriate question. 1090 00:55:57,258 --> 00:55:58,659 Dude. 1091 00:56:00,027 --> 00:56:01,829 Asking sex workers 1092 00:56:01,863 --> 00:56:06,033 to divulge previous traumatic experiences, 1093 00:56:06,067 --> 00:56:07,602 that's called trauma porn. 1094 00:56:08,769 --> 00:56:10,838 The questions run the gamut. 1095 00:56:10,872 --> 00:56:12,773 They may seem kind of innocent, 1096 00:56:12,807 --> 00:56:14,008 you know, like... 1097 00:56:15,643 --> 00:56:17,144 What was your childhood like? 1098 00:56:18,913 --> 00:56:22,415 "What happened along the way to make you this way?" 1099 00:56:23,918 --> 00:56:26,354 "What broke you?" 1100 00:56:26,386 --> 00:56:29,156 You think something's wrong with me 1101 00:56:29,190 --> 00:56:32,793 that I'm doing this for money, 1102 00:56:32,827 --> 00:56:34,494 that I am broken. 1103 00:56:36,964 --> 00:56:39,233 It doesn't make any sense why anyone would feel entitled 1104 00:56:39,267 --> 00:56:40,902 to ask us about our childhoods-- 1105 00:56:40,935 --> 00:56:43,004 - No. None of your business. - Especially in a situation-- 1106 00:56:43,037 --> 00:56:46,207 --especially in a situation where we're being hired 1107 00:56:46,240 --> 00:56:47,608 - to be sexy. - Mm. 1108 00:56:47,642 --> 00:56:50,378 You know, it suggests that, like, 1109 00:56:50,410 --> 00:56:52,346 our trauma is part of the sex appeal. 1110 00:56:52,380 --> 00:56:54,815 Yeah. Would you ask that of your server? 1111 00:56:54,849 --> 00:56:56,684 You know, would you ask that of, like, your dentist? 1112 00:56:56,717 --> 00:56:58,586 Like, I wouldn't do that. 1113 00:56:58,619 --> 00:56:59,921 I don't have to be a victim, 1114 00:56:59,954 --> 00:57:01,956 but now, I feel like you are victimizing me, 1115 00:57:01,989 --> 00:57:03,557 because you are trying to take things from me 1116 00:57:03,591 --> 00:57:05,226 that I didn't offer to you. You're trying 1117 00:57:05,259 --> 00:57:06,961 to take things from me. You're trying to take, you know, 1118 00:57:06,994 --> 00:57:08,763 my emotional labour. You're trying to elicit-- 1119 00:57:08,796 --> 00:57:10,564 What, do you want me to cry? Do you want me to sit here 1120 00:57:10,598 --> 00:57:12,900 and cry and tell you about-- Like, that's predatory. 1121 00:57:14,434 --> 00:57:16,137 One night, I was riding high 1122 00:57:16,170 --> 00:57:19,907 on a '70s set guaranteed to give any boomer a boner. 1123 00:57:36,223 --> 00:57:38,125 Fancy a dance in the VIP? 1124 00:57:38,159 --> 00:57:39,860 Soon as I finish this beer. 1125 00:57:39,894 --> 00:57:42,296 So, what brings you here tonight? 1126 00:57:42,330 --> 00:57:43,898 Well, you know, cat's away. 1127 00:57:43,931 --> 00:57:46,033 Our banter was solid, until... 1128 00:57:46,067 --> 00:57:48,803 So, um... 1129 00:57:48,836 --> 00:57:51,238 What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you here? 1130 00:57:52,506 --> 00:57:54,375 How do I actually respond 1131 00:57:54,408 --> 00:57:56,444 to people who are asking me for trauma porn? 1132 00:57:56,476 --> 00:57:59,513 Sometimes, I deflect. 1133 00:58:00,715 --> 00:58:03,751 And sometimes, I answer the question. 1134 00:58:03,784 --> 00:58:06,486 You know, I'll look a person in the eye and say, "Rape." 1135 00:58:06,520 --> 00:58:08,456 Rape? Yeah. 1136 00:58:08,488 --> 00:58:09,890 That doesn't happen here. 1137 00:58:13,728 --> 00:58:15,129 I told him my story. 1138 00:58:17,298 --> 00:58:18,699 Remember Bob? 1139 00:58:19,567 --> 00:58:21,569 Bob shows up at the club. 1140 00:58:21,602 --> 00:58:25,072 It's, like, a Monday night at 6:00 PM. 1141 00:58:25,106 --> 00:58:27,408 We go up to the VIP, and it's early enough 1142 00:58:27,441 --> 00:58:29,977 that there isn't even security up there. 1143 00:58:30,011 --> 00:58:31,746 We're alone. 1144 00:58:31,779 --> 00:58:33,214 Can I take it out? 1145 00:58:35,883 --> 00:58:39,186 I do my job, which is to get naked by the third song. 1146 00:58:41,722 --> 00:58:43,691 Let's fuck. 1147 00:58:43,724 --> 00:58:47,361 - No. - Oh, come on. Why not? 1148 00:58:47,395 --> 00:58:49,063 I don't want to. 1149 00:58:49,096 --> 00:58:50,531 It'd be fun. 1150 00:58:50,564 --> 00:58:53,234 I don't have any condoms. 1151 00:58:58,305 --> 00:58:59,840 But he doesn't listen. 1152 00:59:01,342 --> 00:59:03,044 He takes my hips, 1153 00:59:03,077 --> 00:59:05,479 forces me down, 1154 00:59:05,514 --> 00:59:07,648 and puts his raw dick inside me. 1155 00:59:10,117 --> 00:59:11,652 Don't do that again. 1156 00:59:11,685 --> 00:59:16,624 Because I don't have a good sense of my boundaries yet, 1157 00:59:16,657 --> 00:59:18,692 I do continue to dance for him, 1158 00:59:18,726 --> 00:59:21,729 and it happens two more times. 1159 00:59:28,803 --> 00:59:30,771 Then he stops the dances. 1160 00:59:31,806 --> 00:59:34,308 And I'm putting my clothes back on. 1161 00:59:34,341 --> 00:59:36,377 What's the matter, babe? 1162 00:59:36,410 --> 00:59:37,645 You look so sad. 1163 00:59:37,678 --> 00:59:40,581 And I say to him, 1164 00:59:40,614 --> 00:59:42,983 "I'm disappointed in myself 1165 00:59:43,017 --> 00:59:46,253 for letting you transgress my boundaries." 1166 00:59:47,621 --> 00:59:50,391 And obviously, there's such a big element there 1167 00:59:50,424 --> 00:59:52,059 of victim blaming, 1168 00:59:52,093 --> 00:59:53,528 as if it's my fault, 1169 00:59:53,562 --> 00:59:54,728 and he replies... 1170 00:59:54,762 --> 00:59:57,331 Why? Do you have something? 1171 01:00:01,402 --> 01:00:04,539 Oh, yeah. That's disturbing, 1172 01:00:04,573 --> 01:00:06,575 and I'm really sorry that happened to you. 1173 01:00:06,607 --> 01:00:10,545 - Thanks. - Yet, you came back. 1174 01:00:10,579 --> 01:00:13,848 I mean, it was an isolated incident. 1175 01:00:14,782 --> 01:00:16,183 Most guys are fine. 1176 01:00:18,419 --> 01:00:22,089 So, you want to go to the VIP? 1177 01:00:22,123 --> 01:00:25,359 Yeah. No. Not after that story. 1178 01:00:25,392 --> 01:00:27,128 I am thoroughly turned off now. 1179 01:00:28,429 --> 01:00:29,697 So why'd you ask? 1180 01:00:29,730 --> 01:00:32,333 Christ. I didn't think you'd been raped. 1181 01:00:32,366 --> 01:00:34,101 You don't look like the type. 1182 01:00:34,902 --> 01:00:36,670 The type? 1183 01:00:36,704 --> 01:00:39,073 What type of person looks like they've been raped? 1184 01:00:39,106 --> 01:00:41,475 And what type of person asks that question? 1185 01:00:41,510 --> 01:00:42,810 Dude. 1186 01:00:42,843 --> 01:00:46,380 Come on. Something must have happened. 1187 01:00:46,413 --> 01:00:49,383 Women don't just become strippers. 1188 01:00:49,416 --> 01:00:52,219 Man, I thought we were having fun. 1189 01:00:52,253 --> 01:00:55,723 You really want me to relive my trauma for your entertainment? 1190 01:00:59,360 --> 01:01:00,529 You know what? 1191 01:01:00,562 --> 01:01:02,129 Let's go to the VIP. 1192 01:01:02,163 --> 01:01:03,330 Now? 1193 01:01:03,364 --> 01:01:05,166 Yeah. Why not? 1194 01:01:13,440 --> 01:01:16,710 Look. I don't want a dance. 1195 01:01:16,744 --> 01:01:18,245 I want to apologize. 1196 01:01:20,681 --> 01:01:24,619 The only reason I asked you that question before 1197 01:01:24,653 --> 01:01:27,788 is because I was sexually abused as a child 1198 01:01:27,821 --> 01:01:31,292 and I was wondering if you were, too. 1199 01:01:34,328 --> 01:01:37,398 I'm sorry. I just thought 1200 01:01:37,431 --> 01:01:40,334 maybe you were as well 1201 01:01:40,367 --> 01:01:43,470 and I-- I don't know. 1202 01:01:43,505 --> 01:01:46,307 Mark is a doctor. 1203 01:01:46,340 --> 01:01:48,709 He's not a sex worker. 1204 01:01:48,742 --> 01:01:51,779 There's people in every industry 1205 01:01:51,812 --> 01:01:55,082 who have experienced some form of abuse. 1206 01:01:55,115 --> 01:01:58,085 I would guess that it's pretty equal across the board. 1207 01:01:59,019 --> 01:02:01,889 Uh, yeah. 1208 01:02:01,922 --> 01:02:03,424 I hope you can forgive me, 1209 01:02:03,457 --> 01:02:06,026 and you don't have to dance for me. 1210 01:02:08,996 --> 01:02:10,497 I don't know all the reasons 1211 01:02:10,532 --> 01:02:13,602 why people ask us these questions, 1212 01:02:13,635 --> 01:02:15,035 but I wish they wouldn't. 1213 01:02:21,008 --> 01:02:24,445 It didn't really occur to me what had happened was rape 1214 01:02:24,478 --> 01:02:29,016 until I realized I hadn't told my boyfriend about it, 1215 01:02:29,049 --> 01:02:30,784 which is always kind of a flag, 1216 01:02:30,818 --> 01:02:32,453 because it usually suggests to me 1217 01:02:32,486 --> 01:02:34,589 that there's some type of shame 1218 01:02:34,623 --> 01:02:37,157 and I'm afraid of talking about it. 1219 01:02:37,191 --> 01:02:41,262 I took the week off from work. 1220 01:02:41,295 --> 01:02:44,699 I talked to the manager 1221 01:02:44,733 --> 01:02:46,601 who hired me. 1222 01:02:46,635 --> 01:02:49,169 I think this is your fault. 1223 01:02:49,203 --> 01:02:51,372 There's security buttons in the booth for a reason. 1224 01:02:51,405 --> 01:02:53,474 If you felt uncomfortable, you should have hit the button. 1225 01:02:53,508 --> 01:02:58,078 You didn't, so that's on you. 1226 01:02:58,112 --> 01:03:00,881 Well, you go from "You can touch me here and here" 1227 01:03:00,914 --> 01:03:03,450 to something shoved inside you, 1228 01:03:03,484 --> 01:03:04,985 and it happens so quickly. 1229 01:03:05,019 --> 01:03:08,188 Men know that people aren't coming to the rescue 1230 01:03:08,222 --> 01:03:09,857 to sex workers. 1231 01:03:09,890 --> 01:03:12,192 Girls-- a lot of Black girls, particularly-- 1232 01:03:12,226 --> 01:03:13,628 are told to keep their head down. 1233 01:03:13,662 --> 01:03:15,195 You're not supposed to have any issues, 1234 01:03:15,229 --> 01:03:17,532 because it's not worth your job. 1235 01:03:17,565 --> 01:03:20,568 The more money a man seems to spend, 1236 01:03:20,602 --> 01:03:25,439 the more important he tends to become versus performers. 1237 01:03:25,472 --> 01:03:29,943 Did I think about reporting the incident to the police? 1238 01:03:29,977 --> 01:03:35,049 Ms. Werhun, the alleged incident occurred at a strip club. 1239 01:03:35,849 --> 01:03:37,284 Now, first things first. 1240 01:03:37,318 --> 01:03:40,287 What kind of decent woman works at a strip club? 1241 01:03:40,321 --> 01:03:43,123 - The kind that needs money. - Money! 1242 01:03:43,157 --> 01:03:45,326 And would you say that money is a prime motivator 1243 01:03:45,359 --> 01:03:48,429 - in your life? - Well, I need money to eat 1244 01:03:48,462 --> 01:03:51,398 and pay my rent and clothe myself, so yes. 1245 01:03:51,432 --> 01:03:54,636 Fascinating. Now, let me get this straight. 1246 01:03:54,669 --> 01:03:56,538 Did you write this book? 1247 01:03:56,571 --> 01:03:58,105 Yes. 1248 01:03:58,138 --> 01:04:01,643 Your Honour, Ms. Werhun's book is called Modern Whore, 1249 01:04:01,676 --> 01:04:03,177 and as she's clearly stated, 1250 01:04:03,210 --> 01:04:07,716 she is a modern whore motivated by money. 1251 01:04:07,749 --> 01:04:09,818 Ms. Werhun, is it possible 1252 01:04:09,850 --> 01:04:12,119 that you fabricated a rape allegation 1253 01:04:12,152 --> 01:04:15,055 against a married family man who earns six figures 1254 01:04:15,089 --> 01:04:19,126 just so you'd have another story to tell, you know-- 1255 01:04:19,159 --> 01:04:22,630 --for the money? 1256 01:04:23,964 --> 01:04:25,800 I got an email from Bob 1257 01:04:25,834 --> 01:04:28,969 asking when he could come in and see me again. 1258 01:04:29,002 --> 01:04:32,406 Smiley face, as if nothing had happened. 1259 01:04:32,439 --> 01:04:34,341 I responded back, 1260 01:04:34,375 --> 01:04:36,511 "Do not come to the club ever again." 1261 01:04:40,682 --> 01:04:44,284 On those nights where something did happen to me-- 1262 01:04:44,318 --> 01:04:46,320 - Mm-hmm. - I don't have to be afraid 1263 01:04:46,353 --> 01:04:47,921 for a single second that you're going to feel 1264 01:04:47,955 --> 01:04:52,192 like I must have done something to provoke it 1265 01:04:52,226 --> 01:04:56,029 or that I, you know, deserved it. 1266 01:04:56,063 --> 01:04:58,298 - Mm-hmm. - A lot of sex workers, 1267 01:04:58,332 --> 01:05:00,033 when they are open with their partners 1268 01:05:00,067 --> 01:05:02,403 about what they do, they get that kind of attitude. 1269 01:05:02,436 --> 01:05:05,573 You've never, ever, ever, ever been like that with me. 1270 01:05:05,607 --> 01:05:07,241 - Mm-hmm. - So, thank you. 1271 01:05:07,274 --> 01:05:08,777 Yeah. You're welcome. 1272 01:05:10,010 --> 01:05:11,679 And yeah. For a lot of people, 1273 01:05:11,713 --> 01:05:14,381 that reaction might be a fear reaction. 1274 01:05:14,415 --> 01:05:17,117 The response to trying to reduce the harm 1275 01:05:17,151 --> 01:05:20,454 is to coerce the person to not do sex work 1276 01:05:20,487 --> 01:05:23,390 or not put themselves in situations in the future 1277 01:05:23,424 --> 01:05:25,560 where those things are possible. 1278 01:05:25,593 --> 01:05:28,362 A few years later, I saw Bob at the club again. 1279 01:05:30,130 --> 01:05:32,332 He was with an entourage of people. 1280 01:05:37,505 --> 01:05:41,442 In that moment, I didn't feel like I could do anything. 1281 01:05:41,475 --> 01:05:44,478 I felt... frozen. 1282 01:05:47,549 --> 01:05:49,383 It goes without saying that the strip club 1283 01:05:49,416 --> 01:05:51,251 is a booze-drenched environment. 1284 01:05:52,587 --> 01:05:54,789 It's a bar, after all, and a pick-up line. 1285 01:05:54,823 --> 01:05:56,524 Hey, can I buy you a drink? 1286 01:05:56,558 --> 01:05:58,693 Um, yeah. 1287 01:05:58,726 --> 01:06:03,230 I was probably having upwards of 12 drinks a night at work, 1288 01:06:03,263 --> 01:06:07,000 and when I wasn't at work, 1289 01:06:07,034 --> 01:06:08,703 you know, I was partying, too. 1290 01:06:11,573 --> 01:06:14,809 I had a habit 1291 01:06:14,843 --> 01:06:18,178 of getting blackout drunk 1292 01:06:18,212 --> 01:06:19,647 and hitting my head. 1293 01:06:22,951 --> 01:06:24,117 For the first time in my life, 1294 01:06:24,151 --> 01:06:26,153 I was having seizures. 1295 01:06:27,120 --> 01:06:28,288 Ah! 1296 01:06:28,322 --> 01:06:30,525 Ah! 1297 01:06:30,558 --> 01:06:32,459 May I have another? 1298 01:06:32,493 --> 01:06:35,429 Why did I keep doing this to myself? 1299 01:06:37,164 --> 01:06:39,701 Late one night, I was drunk and riding my bike home 1300 01:06:39,734 --> 01:06:43,505 with a shopping bag dangling from my handlebars. 1301 01:06:43,538 --> 01:06:45,138 It got caught in the front wheel. 1302 01:06:45,172 --> 01:06:47,509 I flew off the bike. 1303 01:06:54,181 --> 01:06:58,553 I had suffered a traumatic brain injury, 1304 01:06:58,586 --> 01:06:59,954 a pretty bad one. 1305 01:06:59,988 --> 01:07:02,857 I'd scraped the entire left side of my face, 1306 01:07:02,891 --> 01:07:04,859 and if I hadn't been wearing a helmet, 1307 01:07:04,893 --> 01:07:07,094 I would be dead. 1308 01:07:07,127 --> 01:07:08,997 Given my history of seizures, 1309 01:07:09,029 --> 01:07:11,365 I was eventually diagnosed with epilepsy, 1310 01:07:11,398 --> 01:07:13,100 and alcohol was a trigger. 1311 01:07:13,133 --> 01:07:15,970 Andrea, if you have another drink, 1312 01:07:16,004 --> 01:07:17,739 you might have a seizure and die. 1313 01:07:19,406 --> 01:07:21,408 You want to write another book, don't you? 1314 01:07:23,377 --> 01:07:25,980 I was scared shitless by that comment, 1315 01:07:26,014 --> 01:07:29,517 so I haven't drank ever since. 1316 01:07:29,551 --> 01:07:32,452 Six weeks later, I was back at the club, 1317 01:07:32,486 --> 01:07:35,523 no alcohol, much less confidence. 1318 01:07:39,359 --> 01:07:41,094 Fancy a dance in the VIP? 1319 01:07:41,896 --> 01:07:44,264 Yeah. Yeah. I'll pass. 1320 01:07:45,432 --> 01:07:47,735 Come back in 15 minutes. 1321 01:07:47,769 --> 01:07:49,336 Maybe I'll change my mind. 1322 01:07:51,639 --> 01:07:53,073 Okay. 1323 01:07:53,106 --> 01:07:55,409 Strippers face a lot of rejection... 1324 01:07:55,442 --> 01:07:57,377 in lingerie, no less. 1325 01:07:59,313 --> 01:08:01,883 Sober sex work is always a really interesting topic 1326 01:08:01,916 --> 01:08:03,216 for me to speak on, 1327 01:08:03,250 --> 01:08:04,986 because I have done sex work 1328 01:08:05,019 --> 01:08:08,690 for my entire adult life and part of my youth, 1329 01:08:08,723 --> 01:08:12,994 and I've done it under the sort of auspice of sobriety now. 1330 01:08:13,027 --> 01:08:14,328 But I've also done it, you know, 1331 01:08:14,361 --> 01:08:15,930 while being an intravenous drug user, 1332 01:08:15,964 --> 01:08:19,132 while being, you know, someone that was a heavy drinker, 1333 01:08:19,166 --> 01:08:20,535 while being someone that, you know, 1334 01:08:20,568 --> 01:08:23,236 has done various other sorts of substances 1335 01:08:23,270 --> 01:08:25,172 and also hired exclusively to do 1336 01:08:25,205 --> 01:08:26,808 a lot of, like, pay-to-party events, 1337 01:08:26,841 --> 01:08:29,309 because men hate to do drugs alone. 1338 01:08:29,343 --> 01:08:30,578 What do you think of the stereotype 1339 01:08:30,612 --> 01:08:32,814 that we all use drugs to do our jobs? 1340 01:08:32,847 --> 01:08:34,015 I think that goes hand in hand 1341 01:08:34,048 --> 01:08:35,215 with a lot of different tropes 1342 01:08:35,248 --> 01:08:36,818 that come along with sex work. 1343 01:08:36,851 --> 01:08:39,353 Substance users are villains or villainized in society, 1344 01:08:39,386 --> 01:08:40,855 and so, of course, we are villains because we are 1345 01:08:40,888 --> 01:08:42,857 sex workers. So it sort of, like, ties in with that. 1346 01:08:42,890 --> 01:08:46,728 What are some of the pros and cons of sober sex work? 1347 01:08:46,761 --> 01:08:49,329 Start with the pros. My judgment is clearer. 1348 01:08:49,363 --> 01:08:54,334 I'm a lot less susceptible to my boundaries being pushed, 1349 01:08:54,368 --> 01:08:55,803 but then it's also, like... 1350 01:08:56,971 --> 01:08:59,439 I have to listen to their bullshit. 1351 01:08:59,473 --> 01:09:02,076 I can't, you know, numb the conversation. 1352 01:09:02,110 --> 01:09:04,078 I have to be engaged. 1353 01:09:04,112 --> 01:09:05,947 Another pro, I guess you remember everything, 1354 01:09:05,980 --> 01:09:08,116 but another con is that I remember everything, you know? 1355 01:09:09,817 --> 01:09:13,253 Bob returned... again. 1356 01:09:13,286 --> 01:09:16,858 He had started to earn a reputation at the club 1357 01:09:16,891 --> 01:09:19,694 for becoming belligerently drunk. 1358 01:09:19,727 --> 01:09:21,194 Want to give me a beer? 1359 01:09:21,228 --> 01:09:24,431 You know, he's becoming a very rowdy customer. 1360 01:09:25,600 --> 01:09:28,002 This time, things were different, 1361 01:09:28,036 --> 01:09:31,338 because I was sober, 1362 01:09:31,371 --> 01:09:34,008 and I felt like I was finally in a position 1363 01:09:34,042 --> 01:09:36,110 to be able to hold him accountable. 1364 01:09:36,144 --> 01:09:38,278 You know, I wasn't afraid anymore, 1365 01:09:38,311 --> 01:09:43,283 so I went to one of my better managers, Phil, 1366 01:09:43,316 --> 01:09:46,186 and I told him I wanted him out. 1367 01:09:47,789 --> 01:09:49,991 Well, I say we make sure that he settles up, 1368 01:09:50,024 --> 01:09:53,193 because, uh, I don't want to get in the way of anyone's money. 1369 01:09:53,226 --> 01:09:55,730 Then I'll inform him that he's no longer welcome 1370 01:09:55,763 --> 01:09:57,330 in the club. 1371 01:09:57,364 --> 01:09:59,266 I told the gals what was going on. 1372 01:09:59,299 --> 01:10:01,936 Do you want me to throw piss in his face? 1373 01:10:01,969 --> 01:10:04,872 There's nothing like stripper support. 1374 01:10:04,906 --> 01:10:06,406 Is this forever? 1375 01:10:07,575 --> 01:10:09,209 Yes. 1376 01:10:09,242 --> 01:10:10,410 Fuck you, man, 1377 01:10:10,444 --> 01:10:12,146 and your fucking place! 1378 01:10:12,180 --> 01:10:14,347 Phil was being a good manager, 1379 01:10:14,381 --> 01:10:18,485 and for that, I'll always be grateful. 1380 01:10:18,519 --> 01:10:22,456 When you don't consider a sex work workplace a real workplace, 1381 01:10:22,489 --> 01:10:25,727 it's going to be run by a different kind of law. 1382 01:10:25,760 --> 01:10:30,031 It's going to be run by a law that's outside law enforcement, 1383 01:10:30,064 --> 01:10:31,498 for better or worse. 1384 01:10:35,002 --> 01:10:36,436 I think the victim trope is prominent 1385 01:10:36,470 --> 01:10:41,109 because some people would prefer us that way. 1386 01:10:41,142 --> 01:10:44,846 Being a victim is a convenient title 1387 01:10:44,879 --> 01:10:48,049 when what you want to do is actually victimize us. 1388 01:10:48,082 --> 01:10:50,118 We can never get away from it. 1389 01:10:50,151 --> 01:10:53,420 The law also identifies us as victims. 1390 01:10:53,453 --> 01:10:56,057 It takes consent out of the matter. 1391 01:10:56,090 --> 01:10:57,592 It makes the assertion 1392 01:10:57,625 --> 01:11:00,962 that everything that we do for money is by coercion. 1393 01:11:02,964 --> 01:11:04,665 We're either victims 1394 01:11:04,699 --> 01:11:07,267 who have no ability to make choices for ourselves 1395 01:11:07,300 --> 01:11:08,770 or we're villains, 1396 01:11:08,803 --> 01:11:11,438 and the only choices we make are bad and harmful. 1397 01:11:11,471 --> 01:11:14,041 And all we want to do is hurt people, 1398 01:11:14,075 --> 01:11:16,511 particularly men. 1399 01:11:16,544 --> 01:11:20,715 But I don't think that sex workers are even permitted 1400 01:11:20,748 --> 01:11:24,852 the grace of having our work considered labour, 1401 01:11:24,886 --> 01:11:26,053 and I think that's wrong. 1402 01:11:35,630 --> 01:11:37,297 You know, there's things that I do 1403 01:11:37,330 --> 01:11:40,300 that keep me grounded and remind me of who I am. 1404 01:11:40,333 --> 01:11:41,736 A lot of that has to do with writing 1405 01:11:41,769 --> 01:11:44,404 and creative expression in general and performing 1406 01:11:44,437 --> 01:11:46,541 and being silly, being a little ham. 1407 01:11:47,775 --> 01:11:49,309 I'd like to be... 1408 01:11:50,111 --> 01:11:51,512 An artist. 1409 01:11:51,546 --> 01:11:53,648 I'd love to make a living with my art. 1410 01:11:55,216 --> 01:11:58,351 But I can't afford it, yet, 1411 01:11:58,385 --> 01:12:01,622 and so until that day-- 1412 01:12:04,058 --> 01:12:05,458 --I work. 1413 01:12:07,862 --> 01:12:10,531 So long as the laws don't protect us, 1414 01:12:10,565 --> 01:12:12,499 the stigma against sex workers remains. 1415 01:12:12,533 --> 01:12:15,236 I can see your cellulite, whore! 1416 01:12:16,771 --> 01:12:19,307 Alright, bud. That's it. Night's over. 1417 01:12:19,339 --> 01:12:21,474 What are you doing, man? I paid $10 for this beer. 1418 01:12:21,509 --> 01:12:23,778 - I'm not going anywhere. - You've been nursing this beer 1419 01:12:23,811 --> 01:12:25,546 for almost two hours, my man. Let's go. 1420 01:12:25,580 --> 01:12:27,548 - No. No. Come on! No! - Let's go. 1421 01:12:27,582 --> 01:12:30,585 I'll get you! This is not the last of me! 1422 01:12:33,855 --> 01:12:38,960 When it comes to my own shame in sex work, 1423 01:12:38,993 --> 01:12:40,294 I don't have any. 1424 01:12:40,328 --> 01:12:41,762 The reality is, 1425 01:12:41,796 --> 01:12:44,232 not only have I fucked for money, 1426 01:12:44,265 --> 01:12:47,467 I'm currently naked on the internet. 1427 01:12:48,970 --> 01:12:50,338 I have no shame. 1428 01:12:50,370 --> 01:12:53,107 Let's be fucking for real. 1429 01:12:53,140 --> 01:12:55,610 But when I fell in love 1430 01:12:55,643 --> 01:12:59,013 and what I did for work 1431 01:12:59,046 --> 01:13:02,449 was going to affect him 1432 01:13:02,482 --> 01:13:04,552 and how his family saw me, 1433 01:13:04,585 --> 01:13:07,521 that was the first time I felt shame. 1434 01:13:07,555 --> 01:13:10,691 There's whorephobia against the sex workers ourselves, 1435 01:13:10,725 --> 01:13:14,962 which, you know, brings us the closest to violence, 1436 01:13:14,996 --> 01:13:17,899 and then there's all this sort of, like, stigma by proxy-- 1437 01:13:17,932 --> 01:13:19,432 - Yeah. - That the people around us 1438 01:13:19,466 --> 01:13:21,636 have to experience just by loving us. 1439 01:13:21,669 --> 01:13:23,604 Mm-hmm. Yeah. People might have 1440 01:13:23,638 --> 01:13:27,508 a perfectly happy relationship with a sex worker, 1441 01:13:27,541 --> 01:13:31,379 and then they encounter some kind of outside stigma. 1442 01:13:31,411 --> 01:13:33,480 And they can't overcome it. 1443 01:13:34,715 --> 01:13:36,784 And they're missing out because of that. 1444 01:13:36,817 --> 01:13:39,086 Yeah. Yeah! 1445 01:13:40,554 --> 01:13:43,391 You taking the risk 1446 01:13:43,423 --> 01:13:46,560 and being brave and being open 1447 01:13:46,594 --> 01:13:48,763 has forced me to come to terms 1448 01:13:48,796 --> 01:13:51,666 with how I talk about it 1449 01:13:51,699 --> 01:13:54,434 and how open I am about it as well. 1450 01:13:54,467 --> 01:13:56,203 And is that a good thing? 1451 01:13:56,237 --> 01:14:00,574 Yeah, of course. Yeah. I think being truthful is important, 1452 01:14:00,608 --> 01:14:03,811 and I think being honest is important. 1453 01:14:03,844 --> 01:14:06,080 I'm, you know, sitting here on camera 1454 01:14:06,113 --> 01:14:08,716 because I hope that one day you can be face out 1455 01:14:08,749 --> 01:14:11,585 and not be assaulted, you know, 1456 01:14:11,619 --> 01:14:12,987 just because someone knows you're a sex worker 1457 01:14:13,020 --> 01:14:14,922 or not be stalked online or not be harassed 1458 01:14:14,956 --> 01:14:19,860 or, you know, banned from apartments 1459 01:14:19,894 --> 01:14:22,863 and banned from other types of work 1460 01:14:22,897 --> 01:14:25,700 and banned from, you know, social spaces, 1461 01:14:25,733 --> 01:14:27,234 which has definitely happened to me. 1462 01:14:27,268 --> 01:14:28,468 I think that that's the power 1463 01:14:28,501 --> 01:14:29,804 of, like, sex worker storytelling. 1464 01:14:29,837 --> 01:14:31,539 It's, like, reminding the public 1465 01:14:31,572 --> 01:14:33,240 that, like, we're actually just, like, human. 1466 01:14:33,274 --> 01:14:37,378 It's not like sex workers are these big, bad monsters. 1467 01:14:37,411 --> 01:14:38,779 Like, we're just people, 1468 01:14:38,813 --> 01:14:41,382 and, like, we deserve, like, very basic rights. 1469 01:14:41,415 --> 01:14:44,218 We need to tell our stories so that it normalizes sex work 1470 01:14:44,251 --> 01:14:47,121 and so that it normalizes the quest for safety in our work 1471 01:14:47,154 --> 01:14:49,056 and the quest for respect in our work and the quest for, 1472 01:14:49,090 --> 01:14:51,225 you know, basic, like, human dignity and human rights. 1473 01:14:51,258 --> 01:14:53,594 I would like sex workers-- 1474 01:14:53,627 --> 01:14:54,929 at least, like, full service-- 1475 01:14:54,962 --> 01:14:57,465 to kind of be seen like a chiropractor. 1476 01:14:57,497 --> 01:14:59,467 Not everybody believes in it. 1477 01:14:59,499 --> 01:15:01,501 But like, the people who love it love it. 1478 01:15:01,535 --> 01:15:02,903 That's right. That's right. 1479 01:15:02,937 --> 01:15:05,406 - And they swear by it. - And they swear by it. 1480 01:15:05,439 --> 01:15:06,941 I'm so grateful 1481 01:15:06,974 --> 01:15:11,712 that despite your own misgivings about my work... 1482 01:15:12,980 --> 01:15:14,148 You still love me. 1483 01:15:14,181 --> 01:15:15,583 Of course. 1484 01:15:18,886 --> 01:15:21,989 I just want to thank you for... 1485 01:15:24,492 --> 01:15:26,694 ...not abandoning me. 1486 01:15:26,727 --> 01:15:29,263 I could never abandon you. 1487 01:15:29,296 --> 01:15:30,698 Would not happen. 1488 01:15:32,299 --> 01:15:33,734 When you were born, I remember 1489 01:15:33,768 --> 01:15:37,872 just looking at you all night. 1490 01:15:39,040 --> 01:15:41,510 I would just watch you while you were sleeping. 1491 01:15:43,310 --> 01:15:45,846 I think I like being looked at. 1492 01:15:46,914 --> 01:15:48,517 Maybe that's part of it. 1493 01:15:49,950 --> 01:15:52,253 I think I associate it with love and care. 1494 01:15:52,286 --> 01:15:53,854 Yeah. 1495 01:15:53,888 --> 01:15:56,924 The greatest privilege of my life is being loved by you. 1496 01:15:56,957 --> 01:15:58,959 - Thank you, honey. - So thank you. 1497 01:15:58,993 --> 01:16:01,762 Thank you. That makes my life worthwhile. 1498 01:16:03,364 --> 01:16:05,499 Love you, Mommy. 1499 01:16:10,337 --> 01:16:14,041 This is the part of the film where the sex worker 1500 01:16:14,075 --> 01:16:17,611 is usually punished for her deviant ways 1501 01:16:17,645 --> 01:16:20,748 or saved from whoring by a white knight. 1502 01:16:20,781 --> 01:16:25,352 Eternally, we play the role of victim or villain. 1503 01:16:25,386 --> 01:16:26,887 We need a new archetype. 1504 01:16:28,055 --> 01:16:29,723 If the femme fatale-- 1505 01:16:29,757 --> 01:16:32,693 Is a bold, sexually powerful villainess 1506 01:16:32,726 --> 01:16:35,496 who destroys men to get what she wants, 1507 01:16:35,530 --> 01:16:39,967 the femme vitale is her positive opposite, 1508 01:16:40,000 --> 01:16:44,138 a person who loves themself and fights for their community. 1509 01:16:45,507 --> 01:16:48,642 They are loved and give love, 1510 01:16:48,676 --> 01:16:50,811 pleasure, joy. 1511 01:17:03,224 --> 01:17:05,826 When sex workers tell our own stories, 1512 01:17:05,860 --> 01:17:08,729 we become the heroes, not the victims, 1513 01:17:08,762 --> 01:17:10,364 of our own journeys. 1514 01:17:11,765 --> 01:17:15,803 I have a story that would remain hidden 1515 01:17:15,836 --> 01:17:20,040 if I let shame take over my life, 1516 01:17:20,074 --> 01:17:22,276 and shame is antithetical to truth. 1517 01:17:24,478 --> 01:17:25,913 Despite the odds, 1518 01:17:25,946 --> 01:17:28,415 sex workers are here. 1519 01:17:28,449 --> 01:17:32,086 We are alive and always will be. 1520 01:17:32,119 --> 01:17:35,489 One day, we will grow like wildflowers, 1521 01:17:35,524 --> 01:17:37,925 unruly and free. 1522 01:18:02,183 --> 01:18:04,685 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1523 01:18:05,786 --> 01:18:07,955 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1524 01:18:09,790 --> 01:18:11,593 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1525 01:18:16,797 --> 01:18:18,832 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1526 01:18:20,669 --> 01:18:22,369 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1527 01:18:24,305 --> 01:18:26,207 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1528 01:18:27,808 --> 01:18:29,611 โ™ช Ooh ooh ooh โ™ช 1529 01:18:35,216 --> 01:18:37,084 โ™ช Ah ah ah โ™ช 1530 01:18:40,421 --> 01:18:44,391 โ™ช Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh โ™ช 1531 01:19:02,443 --> 01:19:06,947 โ™ช Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh โ™ช 116101

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