All language subtitles for Hand Of God - S01E09

How'd you sleep?

Not much, you?

Some.

Not going in to work today?

Nah, maybe next week.

Good.

No need to push yourself.

So how much longer you gonna
sleep in the guest bedroom?

All these years, we
never got to the point

we slept in separate beds.

We've blazed a few new trails

these past couple of
months, haven't we?

Hm.

I wouldn't be here
if I'd given up.

But I can't forget what I know.

And if time can fix that...

I need more time, okay?

Is he there again?

- He's there.
- Is he talking?

No.

Maybe we should ask Dr. Langston

to change your meds, or up them.

She doesn't want to
give me anything

that'll turn me into a zombie.

She says I need to
learn how to live

with my... hallucinations,

until one day...

Maybe I should cancel the party.

This is all too much
to deal with at once.

No, we've pissed off
enough people this year.

I can do this.

Look at me.

He's not there.

Oh, he's there.

He's just not real.

Hey.

Hey!

I need to talk to you.

Tell me where Josh is.

I don't know where he is.
Bullshit.

I know that you were
with him before he...

What did you do, hm?

Did you pay him to go away?

I swear, I didn't do
anything to Josh.

Then just tell me that
he's okay, all right?

I don't need to know
where he went; I don't.

You just need to tell
me that he's okay.

Jocelyn, I know what
you're feeling.

Really?

You haven't given one
shit about my feelings

since PJ shot himself.

All you've done since
then, all you've done,

is torture me.

But I know why now.

'Cause you know something.

You know how this
is all connected.

Josh, PJ's suicide, the rape.

You know.

Jocelyn, you shouldn't be here.

Well, I'm not going anywhere

until Pernell tells
me what he knows.

I'm so sorry I did this to you.

- Stop touching me.
- I'm so sorry...

Stop it... you're lying.
You're lying!

Things are gonna be hard
enough in court tomorrow.

- You asked me...
- We don't need a preview.

About a stolen book
that I didn't even

know was missing until
you brought it up.

- How do you know about that?
- He is sick.

He knows less about
PJ than you do.

Then why was he PJ's last call?

What?

I found PJ's phone,

and it says Pernell
was his last call.

And do you want to know what
PJ did right before that?

Get out of here
right now, Jocelyn.

He watched this promo
video 23 times...

- Rudy!
- Over and over again,

and then he shot himself.

- Juan!
- Why?

I don't know why.

Then watch it.

Tell me, what does it mean?

Our founder Nathan Brooks,

he realized something,

that our most vital and
abundant human resource...

Get her out of here.

Don't fucking touch me!

If you don't leave here,
I will call the police.

I hate you.

What secrets could we unlock?

What disasters could we avert?

What prophecies
could be revealed?

Now, those are just a
few of the questions

that we intend to answer.

Enough, Pernell.

Enough.

The city of San
Vicente in our new...

This looks good.

I think we're as ready
as we're gonna get.

I don't know.

It still seems kind
of thrown together.

I think we should
at least paint.

That's exactly what Bishop
Bruce said not to do.

He says the authenticity of
this space is our strength.

I think he's right.

If we can save this
old sweatshop,

we can save your soul.

Why not?

We are only what
we appear to be,

a simple church uniting
people with the Lord.

Our honesty is our brand.

Speaking of brands,
we need to decide

on a toll-free number

for when people call
with donations.

It should spell out
something easy to remember,

something with a message,

like...

Hey.

You with me?

Yeah.

I just... I'm thinking
about tomorrow.

Tomorrow means that
all this is possible.

Now, if we have a child,

I don't know how we'd manage.

You know what?

You're right.

Watch where you're
walking, partner.

- Fuck you.
- What the fuck'd you say?

Fuck you, faggot.

Get the fuck out of here.

Come on, pussy!

What's up now, huh?

You're not real.

- You can't be here.
- I need to talk to you.

All right, then, let's
just go around the corner.

No, no.

We're talking right here.

What's wrong?

It was so simple, Pernell,
just the way I like it.

You call me, I come by,
you pay me, I go home.

You had to go and twist
it with that ring

and that wedding.

I thought it was the only way
for us to stay together.

Right, because you love me

and can't imagine
life without me.

- Yes.
- Mm-hmm.

Exactly.

But as soon as it
gets complicated,

- I don't rate for shit.
- That's not true.

Then why'd you call SWAT
on my brother, Pernell?

On my little brother.

Why didn't you come talk to me

before you sicced
the dogs on him?

That wasn't my decision.

I didn't even know
that was going down.

You see how the world
works for you, Pernell.

You make a mess, and people just
jump in and do your dirty work.

You don't have to
take responsibility.

Hell, you don't even
have to know about it.

So you're mad at me

for not knowing.

Well, did you know that Khalil
was trying to blackmail me?

No.

He's been sleeping
with the light on

ever since that night,

like a little five-year-old.

I'm sorry, Tess.

This should never
have gone down.

No shit.

Look, you tell me what to do.

Whatever it is, I do it.

What about my house?

What about your house?

It's ashes.

You don't know
about that either?

Do you want chips
with your sandwich?

No, thank you.

I'm not really that hungry.

Brother Pernell.

- Hey.
- Where's Keith?

I don't know; I
haven't seen him.

Brother Pernell, you
had us worried.

Can't tell you how happy I
am to have you back in here.

I'm not back.

I just came to see if
you've seen Keith.

You know if he's all right?

I'm afraid I don't.

He hasn't been around
the last few days.

If you see him,

would you ask him
to call me, please?

Sure.

Is that it?

That's most definitely it.

Did we do something
wrong, Brother Pernell?

Did I do something wrong?

That night...

when you approached
me in the bar,

did you know who I was?

Or was that just dumb luck?

And did you know about PJ?

Did you know what my son
had just done to himself?

Pernell, where's all
this coming from?

You sought me out

in my most vulnerable moment

to use me.

Not to use you.

To offer a helping hand
to someone in need.

To fill my fucking head with
whatever I wanted to hear,

just as long as I kept
making donations.

All I ever wanted to do

was to put you on the
path to salvation.

Did you ever stop to think
of what would happen

by filling my head with
all those delusions?

What do you mean?

I don't want to see you again.

Unless it's to tell me
that Keith is all right.

I did it all wrong.

From the very beginning,
I did it all wrong.

I just thought there'd
be more time.

Fucked it all up, PJ.

You're not giving up, are you?

You're not real.

You made a promise, Dad.

How about keeping this one?

For who? For you?

You're not even here.

I made you up

so I could believe that
I could wake you up.

You're not even here.

Shane Caldwell was real.

Julio Farkas is real.

The Eastwood
Residences are real.

- That book...
- Stop!

What's real is, I
killed an innocent man.

What's real is, I
can't wake you up.

All I can do is say good-bye.

You made a promise.

I can't do this anymore.

You said you'd make them pay.

He's going to have to at
least make an appearance.

Hey, I'm afraid of who else
is gonna make an appearance.

What if Pernell is chatting up Mr.
Brooks

and he sees PJ
sitting by the pool?

No, no, no, it's different now.

Before, he thought
they were real,

and how he knows they're not.

I mean, he's getting better.

Yeah, better, not necessarily
ready for prime time.

How's this one look?

Like a mask.

Muy guapo, senor.

Like Liza Minnelli
robbed a bank.

All right, no more sequins.
Alfredo, please.

Listen, Dr. Langston was right.

We did push him too far.

And don't forget,

we're gonna be coming
back from court.

Who knows what state
he's gonna be in?

¿Y qué piensa de éste?

- Esperete.
- ¿Cómo no?

- Un momento, por favor.
- Mm-hmm.

Listen, Brooks skipped out
on the President of China

just to check Pernell's
temperature.

Please, please, we're talking
about fucking with my...

Your concrete pour.

I am so tired hearing.

"Don't fuck with
my concrete pour.

Don't fuck with my
concrete pour."

You think I get a hard-on at
the thought of wet cement?

Yeah, I do, actually.

Until that concrete is poured,

Brooks can walk away scot-free,

no questions asked.

No penalties, nothing.

But once that gray
sludge hits the earth,

they are connected to
San Vicente forever,

no matter what Pernell does.

That's what gets me hard.

Pernell needs to
be at the party,

just to say hi to Brooks.

Maybe.

No promises.

We'll play it by ear.

Here, try that one.

- Really?
- Mm.

What do you think?

Always with us...

Be with us.

- Amen.
- ♪ With such a good ♪

How are you feeling?

I'm w... woozy.

That's the Dilaudid.

It'll wear off in
a couple hours.

You ready, Alicia?

Alicia?

Yeah, I'm ready.

You sure?

If you need a moment
to think about this,

now is the time to take it.

He's waiting for me.

We're gonna sit in here

for as long as if we
did the procedure.

And I am going to tell you

all about the
vacation I just took

and how my dad made me
buy an electric car

because global warming is real.

You can tell me
where you're from

and how you got that little
scar right next to your eye.

Whatever you want to talk about.

And then when the
timer goes off,

a nurse will walk
you back out there,

and then it's up
to you to decide

when or if he has to know.

How's that sound?

Sounds great.

Okay.

- Hey, Jocelyn.
- Hi.

- Thanks for coming in.
- Yeah.

Did you... did you find Josh?

No, we didn't.

But we found his car
outside of Martinez.

Okay.

It was burned pretty badly.

But you... you didn't
find a body, right?

We found evidence of blood
on the driver's seat.

There's enough blood

that we're opening a
homicide investigation.

Oh, God, I'm so sorry.

It's okay, it's okay, here.

- I'm so sorry.
- It's okay, we got it.

There's a bathroom
down the hall.

Okay, sorry.

You gonna tell her Judge
Harris is a suspect?

Not yet. We don't have enough.

We have his fucking fingerprints

on the wine glass in
Josh Miller's apartment.

What more do you need?

Oop, oop.

You look almost like
yourself again.

Do I?

Sure wish I felt it.

Yesterday Jocelyn
said something.

She said you were his last call.

PJ.

Yeah.

- Why?
- Why did he call me?

You mean instead of you?

Yeah.

I gave him everything.

I'm the one who raised him.

I poured love into that
boy every single day.

I was there for him,
always, no matter what.

You barely tolerated him.

And he called you.

What did he want?

I don't know.

I didn't answer.

The shrink thinks that's
why I keep hearing him,

because I didn't listen.

Guilt, not God.

Yeah.

Something like that.

I went to that church.

Told those hustlers to fuck off.

- Did you?
- Yep.

I'm never going
back there again.

Good.

Hey, kid.

Hi.

I heard.

I got to ask,

you sure you want to
go through with this?

Yes.

Without Josh's testimony,

they're not gonna
allow PJ's video.

We can try.

I don't want you sitting there
while they do a victory lap.

It's just a formality.

Pretty much.

Hey.

Are you sure?

I'm not gonna give
him the satisfaction

of watching me give up.

Seriously, if I bounce
and I don't die,

DNR all the way, man.

Your Honor, we're here

to decide what happens
to Pernell Harris, Jr.

They've presented their experts.

We've presented ours.

They're the parents;
She's the wife.

We could debate for years.

Except the man whose
fate is in question

has spoken with that video.

There's no question
that's PJ Harris.

There's no question
what he is saying.

The question is whether
that video is admissible.

And it's not.

It is impossible to
discern state of mind.

He could have said, "I'm going
to shoot the president,"

and we wouldn't know if
he's joking or serious.

He's right, Mr. Tramble.

Then we would like to
ask for a continuance

until we can bring
in Josh Miller,

the person who
filmed that video.

Why isn't Mr. Miller here now?

We cannot locate him at
this time, your Honor.

Mr. Tramble, isn't
it your client

who requested an
expedited court hearing?

Yes, but that was before...

You're asking me to
disregard the law,

which I will not do.

The video will
remain inadmissible,

and in lieu of...

Any further evidence,

- I must rule for the plaintiff.
- Wait.

No.

We don't have to
do this anymore.

Excuse me?

Pernell...

Pernell.

My son is gone.

I know that now.

Nobody's going to
win here today.

But if anyone should decide
when to pull the plug,

it's Jocelyn.

Mr. Harris, am I
hearing you correctly?

Yes, Your Honor.

We would like to
dismiss our action

on one condition,

that his mother and
I get to be there

when she takes him
off life support.

That's all I ask.

That's fine.

You're making too much of this.

- I'm fine. I can walk.
- Sit down.

- I'll make you some tea.
- Okay.

Hey.

Get out.

Please, I got nowhere to go.

I don't care.

How could you even think of
walking through these doors?

You almost killed Alicia.

I know.

Ohh...

I made a mistake.

Fuck.

I made a lot.

I don't want to... I don't
want to go to hell.

I want to be clean again.

Not here.

I want you out of this church,

right now.

KD...

Let him go.

- No, KD, wait.
- Alicia.

Why can't we help him?

'Cause he tried to burn down
a house with you in it.

No, he didn't, Paul.

He tried to save me.

From a fire he started.

Sometimes you can't
get in the way

of who people are.

Look at him.

God knows what he's done.

Yes, God does know,

just like He knows
everything that we've done.

You stop!

God loves us.

He forgives us.

He wants us to be more.

God loves all of us.

There's forgiveness for
everyone, isn't there?

That was brave,
what you did today.

So why doesn't it feel that way?

Because...

because we're not gonna
be parents anymore.

That's not how it's
supposed to be.

I should have let you
cancel this party.

I can cover for you.

Take as long as you need.

Oh, you're so sweet.

Gorgeous, gorgeous.

Oh...

I love this cornucopia.

There she is.

Hi.

You cannot leave here

until we have a chance
to catch up, okay?

Great.

Remind me of Cat Woman.

Doesn't she look a little
bit like Cat Woman?

Look familiar?

- Are those golf shoes?
- Speaking of which...

You wore those the first
time we met at Pebble Beach.

There's a steel trap
behind that mask.

Or I made a good
first impression.

Well, who could forget
your humiliating defeat?

Really, you just gonna shit
on my sentimental moment?

Well, I was gonna say,

look at us now,

getting ready to put San
Vicente on the map.

It was three years well spent.

Three.

I've been trying to make
something like this happen

for almost 20.

It might be another day at the
office for you, little lady,

but for me it's history.

Give it up.

Sorry, can you just hold that?

It's Guy. He's here with Mr.
Brooks.

- But they can wait a little...
- Hello?

Just gonna leave a man hanging?

You said you wanted me
to be designated driver.

You know where we want to
be when we figure it out?

The city of San Vicente,
in our new headquarters.

Brooks sees something I
think you're missing,

something a lot of
people are missing.

They're an emerging tech giant,

and we're the next
Silicon Valley,

two halves that make a whole.

Brooks Innovations is gonna
connect us to tomorrow.

Isn't that their slogan?

- Is it? How about that.
- I think it is.

Mrs. Harris, I'm
sure you remember...

Nathan, welcome.

So wonderful of you to come.

Thank you for having me, Mrs.
Harris.

Oh, please. Crystal.

We'll be neighbors soon.

Oh, just water for me, please.

Oh, I'm sorry.

This is your first
Crystal Harris party.

The water's in the pool.

Nathan just flew
in from Beijing.

I'm sure he's exhausted.

He's right.

One drink would
knock me right out.

I'll take tap if I have to.

No, no, no.

We will get you a
morning rooster.

And you will be wide awake

when you crawl back
to your hotel room,

in the morning.

I won't be here
until the morning.

Just long enough to say
hi to you and Pernell.

Where is he?

As part of Brooks'
exploratory team,

my main task was to research

the lifestyle and
cultural amenities here

and determine whether they
would be a good fit...

I heard some of
your colleagues...

Damn.

I hate when that boy's right.

Asa told me you were up here.

But I said, "No, he's not."

He's downstairs,
working the crowd."

Then I looked for you,
couldn't find you.

Then I thought, maybe
he's fucking a waitress.

But alas, no.

You're up here rubbing one
out to Internet porn.

Remember that Brooks promo
that made the news?

Last thing PJ watched
before he shot himself.

I'm sorry, I didn't hear that.

I got this mask on.

I think I heard you telling me

that you're ready
to go downstairs

and show Nathan Brooks
whose house this is.

He's here?

Yeah.

Flew in from China early.

He wants to see for himself
that you're still yourself.

Well, I'm not sure
he's gonna get that.

I heard what you did
in court today.

I think that's a hell of a
step back towards normal.

Yeah, it's not gonna
be just as easy

as putting on a tux, you know.

Probably not, but then
again, somebody once said,

clothes make the man.

I'll take a straitjacket.

You know what?

Fuck Brooks.

I'll tell him you
knocked off early.

All right?

He can get these nuts
if he don't like that.

Ah, fuck it.

I'm good.

Are you good good?

No.

But I can fake it.

Hey, it's a masquerade ball.

We're all faking it.

By the way, there's a
waitress in the closet.

I think she's into
bowlegged black dudes.

Shit, they all are, baby.

See you downstairs.

Are you ready, Brother KD?

Could we do something first?

What?

I need to confess my sins.

No, you don't, KD.

We don't have to
confess to anyone.

We just have to ask
for God's forgiveness

and let him take the
burden of our sins.

I know that's what
they say, but...

things I've done...

I think I need to
say them out loud.

I understand, Brother KD.

Whatever you tell me,
God will forgive.

I have followed the words
of a false prophet.

He said he was anointed.

He said I...

He said I was his Benaiah.

Are you talking about
Brother Pernell?

Yes.

I did whatever he told me to.

I hurt people.

I spilled the blood of
an innocent man... men.

And I did it all in
the name of the Lord.

What was your wish?

If I told you, it wouldn't
come true, would it?

Oh, no, no, that's just
for birthday cakes.

I think wishing trees
are foolproof.

Glad you could make it.

No mask?

Nothing to hide.

Well, I appreciate
you having me.

I didn't want to miss this.

And my mother taught me

never to come to a party
empty-handed, so...

this is for you.

- Both of you.
- Oh, thank you.

Wow.

That's... pretty.

Yes, but it looks like it's
for something illegal.

It's called a lachrymatory.

In ancient Rome, they were
used to collect tears

in a time of grief.

See how the stopper
fits loosely?

To let the tears evaporate.

Once the bottle is dry,

it's time to come
out of mourning,

and you bury that
with your loved one.

That's a very touching
gesture, thank you.

I know it's been a difficult
time for your family.

For our family or for me?

Well, losing a child, I'm sure,

would be a struggle for anyone,

especially someone with a
job as stressful of yours.

You've heard things.

You're worried about
our arrangement.

But what happens in my family
is none of your business.

Your family is San Vicente,
for all practical purposes.

Moving my business here is
like joining that family.

So is this the wedding feast?

Just an engagement party.

Ah.

But we all want to see
commitments made,

rings exchanged,

before anybody gets fucked.

Nobody wants any wedding
night surprises.

Mm-hmm.

Well, you picked a
good night, Nathan.

Everybody who matters
in San Vicente is here.

Some of them hate me,
some of them love me.

But they're here,

because I want them here.

You want to check me out?
Walk the room.

Ask anybody in here

if I've ever failed to
provide a river of money

flowing in their direction.

Ask anybody if they're
dissatisfied.

We good?

Yes.

Yes, I think we are.

Welcome to the family.

How'd you like that drink?

I liked it.

It made me hungry.

Right this way.

How deep are God's riches
and wisdom and knowledge.

How unfathomable
are his decisions

and unexplainable are his ways.

Judge not.

Not even yourself.

For today, through the power
of the Lord Jesus Christ,

you will be born again.

- Hallelujah.
- Hallelujah.

Be happy and rejoice,

for today your sins
are washed away

by the blood of the Lamb.

Amen.

Truly, truly, I say to you,

except a man be born of the
water and of the Spirit,

he cannot enter the
Kingdom of God.

Amen.

Amen!

Paul!

Keith Dennison,
God has freed you

from the shackles
of your old life.

Go forth and serve until
the end of your days.

He'll show you the way.

Oh, man, you're a
lady of your word.

I've got to hand it
to you, Pernell.

You made a very good impression on Mr.
Brooks.

Crystal got him drunk.

Now we'll just have ourselves

a nice extravagant
concrete pour,

and all our troubles
will be behind us, huh?

Well, I'm sure it's not gonna be
entirely without difficulties.

Hey, this is my big moment.

You give me any shit,
I'll have you deported.

Hey, you can't do that.
I'm an American citizen.

- Really?
- Mm-hmm.

I was only raised in England.

Well, who knew?

That's right.

You were born in...
Connecticut, right?

Mm-hmm.

What city was that?

New Canaan.

New Canaan.

Well, I guess you're safe, then.

How long you been
living in the U.S.?

I moved to London
when I was two.

You're barely an American, then.

Now, Anne, you're not
commuting back and forth.

- You actually moved here.
- Yeah, that's right.

As part of Brooks'
exploratory team,

my main task was to research

the lifestyle and
cultural amenities here

and determine whether they
would be a good fit...

Why am I suddenly worried about

what the fuck
you're about to do?

You heard what she said, right?

New Canaan?

Yes, New Canaan.

Richest part of Connecticut.

Old Canaan,

land of the milk and honey.

What the fuck are you
talking about, Pernell?

Straight out of the Bible.

No, no, Pernell, not
now, not here, please.

Before he shot himself, PJ watched
this video over and over again.

Okay, just go upstairs.

Go upstairs, lay down
until the party's over.

I had honey, she had milk.

- Crystal...
- Do you know the mayor?

Not right now.

I need to talk to
you for a second.

We have a situation.

Colleague stayed
at the Mondrian,

but you didn't; You
rented this condo.

Actually, I bought
this condo, yeah.

I felt that the only way

to truly get to know the
people of San Vicente

is to live with them.

What are you doing, man?

There's got to be
something I'm missing.

I felt from the start
that San Vicente

reflects the values
that Nathan Brooks...

Pernell, turn it off.

Shh.

And the people here
are really good,

honest, hard-working souls.

And I'm sure you hear
this all the time,

but the weather's wonderful.

You're not from
California, I take it.

No, I'm from England.

Oh, my God.

It's the book.

It's PJ's book.

Pernell...

There you are.
Finally got a drink.