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Will she do?

She'll do.

You're lucky.

Especially as I'm gonna be
your best friend as well.

- You're not trans, though.
- I'm a fat pig.

You can't deny her treatment.

We never say no,
we only say not now.

They won't support this
because you won't support her.

Don't go along with things if you're
not certain it's the right thing for him.

Well, it's actually you
that I'm interested in.

- Mum.
- Not now, darling.

- Please can you just listen?
- Please, not now.

At least it was about Maxine before,
but this is just about you and her.

I read that you took
your daughter to Boston.

- It's out of reach for most people.
- I'm starting my own business.

You need the money now.

- Thanks, Barbara.
- Thanks, Mum.

- Where we going, Mum?
- America.

Because I'm your mum and
I'll do anything for you.

You haven't heard from Vicky,
have you?

She isn't at home, she hasn't
come home. Nor has Maxine.

No, I haven't heard
from her all day. Sorry.

Dad. Some of their
clothes have gone.

Well, you must know where she's
gone, where she's taken him.

- Why would I?
- Because you're her friend, Paula.

I'll have a look online,
see if they've posted anything.

Stephen?

- Dad.
- What?

'Stephen?'

'Stephen?'

- Oh, my God.
- 'Stephen?'

Why would she do this
without telling anyone?

Telling anyone?

- She's done it with my money.
- What?

- The money that you gave her...
- For your business.

It's not just me she's cheated.

And she's left her own daughter
in the lurch, just ran off.

You all make it sound like
she's gone to Las Vegas.

She's gone to get
treatment for Maxine.

- Is that wrong?
- It's the way she's gone about it, Dad.

It makes her a crap wife...
It makes her a crap mother.

- Yeah.
- But if Maxine was desperate for it to happen...

Hang on a second.
Maxine is my child, too.

This should have
been OUR decision.

You must be Maxine?
I'm Dr Farrow.

Mrs Duffy, come on up.
The elevator's just over here.

Turn into, transform, become...
Blah-blah-blah.

No. Let me ask you a question,
Maxine.

Are you a caterpillar that
wants to turn into a butterfly?

- I've always been a butterfly.
- Oh! Yes, you have, by God.

Yes, you have.

OK, now, here's the thing.

I'm not a paediatric endocrinologist,
a tran-gender doctor.

I'm someone who helps children
give birth to themselves.

- It's so rewarding.
- You're amazing.

Let's get started.

Did your husband sign
the consent form?

Right there.

That's great.

Now, um, one of the most expensive
parts of this treatment is the...

psychological assessment.

Which won't be necessary if
you've got a confirmed diagnosis.

- We haven't.
- A letter from a gender expert

stating puberty suppression

- would be in Maxine's best interests?
- No.

The Ferrybank wouldn't.

Documentation from a school
counsellor, a therapist?

We're gonna have to do
the assessment here.

- I'll pay.
- Can we afford it?

It's my baby's only chance,
so...

I'll do whatever it takes.

Well, we need to do bone scans, a blood
test, tanner staging with the physician.

It all... It all sounds
very invasive, but it's not.

- We just need to get our ducks in a row.
- I'll pay.

Not all at once. OK?

Are you OK?

- Dad?
- Yeah?

Look, I know I've never had
as much attention as Maxine.

I've never been a problem.

But...

now I start to think maybe
I should start having some.

To see if you both
still love me the same.

Of course we do, darling.

I know, Dad, but you say that, and
then... and then it's all about Maxine.

And now, what, they're on
the other side of the world?

Yeah. And I'm here with you.

- ome here.
- No, Dad.

Lily.

Hello?

Vicky?

Mum?

Dad?

Hey, you all right?

Come on, you.

Hope you still like chocolate cake,
cos you're gonna help me make one.

And eat it. All of it.

Thank you for this, Barbara.

Vicky will be amazed when she
finds out Lily's staying with me.

Yeah. Yeah, I know.

What are you gonna do?

Well, goodbye, Maxine.

We'll see you soon,
in just three months.

We're coming back,
aren't we, Mum?

Yeah,
I've already booked the tickets.

Thanks, Dr Farrow.

Lily.

Dean said he saw you round here.

- Yeah, I'm staying at my nan's.
- Why?

What's it to you?

Well, it's not like anything
happened the other day.

Yeah,
because I didn't want it to.

- You seemed upset, I was just trying to...
- Comfort me?

- Yeah.
- Yeah, I'm fine now, thank you.

Are you, though?

I mean, look, last time
your mum was ignoring you.

Now you're living
at your nanna's.

What happened, Lily?

This can be classified as
parental child abduction, but...

But what?

If your child consented, is capable
of making an informed decision,

- then it's more complicated.
- How can it...

Maxine is 12. Yes?

I've got parental
responsibilities, too.

My wife didn't ask
for my permission.

Surely that's got to...

Surely that's got to
count for something.

The question is, do you really want
to pursue a criminal case against her?

Just try and stay awake...

- Victoria Duffy?
- Yeah?

We need to speak
to you in private.

Can you accompany us, please?

- What for?
- There's a side room there.

What for?

I'm arresting you under section
one of the Child Abduction Act.

You do not have
to say anything...

- Mum, what's going on?
- ..But it may harm your defence...

Where are you taking her?

- Mum! Mum!
- ...if you do not mention...

- What are you doing?
- ...something you may later rely on in court.

- What have you done?
- Anything you do say

may be taken in evidence.
Do you understand?

Dad, I'm scared. Daddy!

Maxine.

Where have you taken her?
Why have you taken Maxine?

She's being interviewed.

Is my mum OK?

Is she going to jail?

Do you intend on taking
Maxine abroad again?

Yeah, I have to.

Then you'd be reoffending.

You could only do so legally if
you have your husband's consent.

Maxine, did you know what
travelling to Boston would entail?

We'll have to seize
your passport.

Was that your mum's idea?

Yeah.

She knows how much
it matters to me.

She didn't want me
to get suicidal.

All that matters
is what she wants.

It doesn't matter what he wants.

What happened out there?

My... My treatment began.

Where have you taken Maxine?

What do you mean
exactly by that?

To get me ready for
puberty blockers.

I wasn't harming her,
I was trying to help her.

She'll tell you,
if you just listen to her.

She just wanted to help me.

That's what she's doing.

Help you what, Maxine?

I think I need a solicitor.

Become what I am.

I want to go home with my mum.

I want my mum.

Are you all right?

Just two more appointments.

So, what,
two more trips to Boston?

No. No way.
It's completely impractical.

Being in the wrong
body's impractical.

You know, punish me,
but please don't punish her.

You think you're a great mother,
don't you, Vicky?

Ask Lily.

Darling, I'm sorry.

You and Maxine, you both lied to
me, you both went off together.

But it wasn't about you.

I was your best friend.

You used me.

You used me and you cheated
and conned everyone else.

Cos we didn't want it to end
up like this, that's why.

You didn't want it to... I was
on your side the entire time,

and you didn't even
bother to tell me.

Do you hate me?

- I hate both of you.
- Sweetheart.

Please, darling, we only did
what we thought was best.

Well, you made a
terrible mistake, Vicky.

And you had me arrested in front
of everybody at the airport.

I was dragged away
like a criminal.

I was humiliated and
she was terrified.

- You broke the bloody law.
- I don't give a shit about the law.

Not like this, though.

You saw what she did to herself
and you didn't do anything.

Maxine, not like this.

You're leaving again.

Nanna wants her money back.

I can't talk to you right now.

Paula, please, I am sorry.
I'm really sorry.

I thought we were gonna
run a business together.

I know what I did is not
what a friend should do,

and I don't expect
you to forgive me,

but perhaps when you have a
child yourself one day, you will.

Don't you dare throw that at me.

All I'm saying is there's
nothing you wouldn't do...

Hello, Dad.

Jessica, you got the file?

Mrs. Duffy,
you can't doorstop me like this.

Our receptionist made
you aware of my schedule.

You're my solicitor.

The police and school have
already made a referral

to the local authority
because of what you've done.

It's like I'm some
kind of monster.

If you keep seeking treatment abroad
and Stephen keeps refusing consent,

the local authority might apply to
the court for an interim care order.

What exactly does that mean?

The local authority's first concern
is for the welfare of the child.

If they thought Maxine was at risk of
significant harm or emotional abuse,

they'd want to share
parental responsibility.

So they'll have a say
in what happens to her?

More than a say.

- They'd be in the driving seat.
- Yet she's my daughter.

And you'd be seen
as an unfit mother.

Everything I've done
is because I love her.

They'd say you behaved
irresponsibly to her.

I acted more responsible than her father
and they're gonna take her away from me.

Vicky, I'm on your side.

What do we do?

You're my solicitor
and I need your help.

I'm going to argue your case
with the local authority.

I'll ask them to leave
her in the family home

and allow you to keep
making decisions for her.

I can't lose her.

It's fine.

What do you want most
in the entire world?

What's your biggest wish?

To go back to Boston.

Are you sure?
You're absolutely sure?

Even though everyone at school, Molly,
they'll all be changing and developing?

You won't, you'll stay
exactly the same for three...

Three years. You...

You're OK with that?

If it stops me becoming more of a boy,
then it'll all be worth it, won't it?

I'm not stopping for you.

I thought you might
need a breather.

I don't have anyone
else to talk to.

- Where are you even staying now?
- Dad's.

God.

Yeah, it's been messy.

Going to family court now.

- Stephen.
- What choice have I got, Gemma?

You know, she accused the experts
at the Ferrybank of ignorance.

Called on my support and spat it back
in my face when it was the wrong sort.

I've done everything.

I can see that you're hurt.

But...

I'm wondering, do you really
want Maxine thought of as unsafe

or at risk of emotional abuse?

At least it will stop Vicky
from making all the decisions.

So you want them made
by a court instead?

Do you know what you can't
stand in all of this?

What?

She chose Maxine over you.
Unconditional love.

I know how a mother feels
about her kids, thank you.

You still want Vicky to love
you as much as you love her.

Don't you?

Sorry, Stephen,
I've got to get on.

I'll see you tomorrow, Isaac.

What are you doing here?

I went to the police station
to withdraw my statement.

Right, well,
the CPS have already said

- that they're not gonna prosecute.
- I know.

It was a gesture of goodwill.
What are we gonna do?

To find a way through.
A compromise.

Meaning what, Stephen?
We go back to Ferrybank

- and then we just talk about it again?
- Why not?

Why not let her talk about
making such a big decision?

It's still progress, isn't it?

She's still only 12 years
of age, for Christ's sake.

She needs her puberty suspended,

otherwise she's gonna get more
sick. I've already told you that.

God knows what she'll do.

I'm not gonna listen
to emotional blackmail.

She hasn't got cancer.

Well, thank you for the olive
branch but we don't need it.

We?

We're gonna win.
I'm doing what Maxine wants.

What does that even mean?
Go to court? Beat me?

You're not acting like a mother, you're
acting like a goddamn campaign manager.

Vicky!

- Lil, come on, let me give you a lift.
- No, I'm fine.

Thanks.

I know guardian sounds like I come
in here and I start taking over.

- I know it sounds like...
- Like I need guarding.

Well, the official term is
safeguarding your welfare.

What that really means is me
getting a picture of what's going on

and what's best for you.

That's all it's gonna be,
is it, getting a picture?

OK, not quite.

I will have to write a report for the
courts which will help them decide.

I can't go to Boston?

That's a decision that
will be taken by the court.

The court decides?

I just need to talk to you all,
get to know you.

Because your mum and dad
are divided on this, Maxine.

You said everything
would be all right.

You said.

Why has it become like this?

This is me.

Quite grown-up.

What did you expect?

Posters of Harry Styles?

Cuddly toys?

So, what inspired the look?

Zoella.

And my sister.

- Selfish bitch.
- Bitch?

Your own sister?

Yeah, that's right. My sister.

It's such a big thing, you know.

Now is not the time to
be deciding anything.

That's all.

Look, this is not about concern
for Maxine, this is about panic

because he can't stop it
and he can't control it.

No sign any boy
ever lived in here.

She's... She's reckless.

Irresponsible. Obsessed.

He's a coward.

Where's Max now, then?

Max is in here.

Is he?

Weren't you always
a girl anyway?

I don't know.

He couldn't cope with her
doing a dance routine.

He... He threatened to...

beat up two children because
they were bullying Maxine.

That could all just say she's got
Maxine's best interests at heart.

How? How does that even...?
She's...

She's become some kind of zenith and she
drags Maxine along in her wake. Come on.

Perhaps intervening like
that was just a clumsy way

of him trying to
be a good father.

No, it's because he couldn't
bear them calling her a freak,

he hated how the other
children treated her.

She obtained visas
behind my back,

she forged my signature to
make it look like I consented.

She, erm...

ignored the advice
of the Ferrybank,

took money under false
pretenses from her mother

to fund the trip. It's insane.

Honestly, I...

I think Vicky is using
Maxine's puberty to

blackmail everybody,
blackmail me especially.

She's going around saying, "I'm
her mother, I'm her mother."

But you know more than most, don't you,
parents, they don't always know best.

You think social services know
my child better than I do?

Do you know best?

Yes, I know best.

- No.
- What do you think Maxine wants?

Isn't that obvious?

She wants to be a girl.

To not have her family
torn to shreds like this.

Some might say that you're the
one tearing the family to shreds.

What would be your response?

I'm just saying not yet if
Ferrybank are saying not yet. Sorry.

It's OK.

How do you feel about your
mum and dad not agreeing?

Like I'm being ripped in two.

Is your marriage
irretrievably broken down?

What does he say?

What do you think?

Hello, Mum.

I've come to say I'm sorry.

That all?

And thank you.
Thanks for looking after Lily.

What did she say?

She's not talking to me.

No?

No.

All right, anyway...

Why don't you come in?

Really?

Then you can apologise properly.

Apparently it's not theft,
what you did.

Money was given willingly
to support my daughter.

It's not what you expected,
though, was it?

Well, I wasn't shocked for long,
though.

It is you, after all, isn't it?

Me?

You think I stole your
money so I could punish you?

No.

But you thought I owed
you something, didn't you?

What...

What has happened to us?

I gave all my love
to your father.

Terrified he'd leave me
for one of his other women.

Just made a fool of myself.

Yeah, and you made me feel like I'd
done something wrong, which is not fair.

I'd never leave
my child wanting.

Yeah, well, like I say,
it's not actually theft.

And according to you,
it's not even theft morally.

Why do you keep
going on about that?

What do you mean,
it's not theft?

How do you know it's not theft?

Because that guardian
came to see me.

The one who's writing the
report. She put me straight.

She didn't tell me she
was coming to see you.

Why should she?

What...
What did you say about me?

I thought that's why you came
to see me in the first place.

Because if your behaviour
gets you the thumbs down...

Mum, what did you tell her?

I told her...

I told her that I'd never
have fought for you like that.

Make such an effort.

Taking her all the way to Boston

on some mad mission that
you absolutely believed in.

I told her...

that I'd never
loved you like that.

Really?

Think I'd talk my daughter down
to an absolute bloody stranger?

Even if you are a nightmare, and I
don't agree with anything you're doing.

'Ey, careful.
You're spilling my bloody tea!

All right.

All right.

I started skipping meals again.

Going running.

Running to stay thin, or just...

running to just run away.

You never said anything.

You were in such a good mood.

I didn't want to spoil it.

Don't give up, Molly.

Don't give in to it.

Get better.

You're so strong.

It's a really difficult case,
so thank you for your time.

Up yours?

That a toast?

Not sure.

Please, I don't want to
lose your friendship.

I'm here, aren't I?

Besides, you've thrown bigger things
than us on the bonfire, haven't you?

Lily's trust.

Your bloody liberty nearly.

And your marriage.

- You regret it?
- I'm not proud of it.

At least you and Maxine have got
something good to show for it.

The treatment, I mean.

- What?
- We're not going back to Boston.

I can't afford it. I'd erm...

I'd probably get arrested again,
maybe even prison.

And social services would have
to step in for Maxine, and...

the worst of it is
that I have made her...

I've made her promises
that I can't keep.

She still thinks she's going
back out there for treatment?

She so wants that treatment.

How am I gonna tell her that...

she can't have it?

Dr Farrow is brilliant.

He doesn't keep asking why,

he just says, "OK, now,
this is what we're gonna do."

And in the middle of my treatment,
we're gonna do some sightseeing.

The New England Aquarium.

It's huge. And it's got
an IMAX cinema in it.

I'm looking forward
to going back, Dad.

Seven weeks and counting.

You know as well as I do

that Vicky can't get further
treatment in Boston, right?

Well, she hasn't told Maxine.

She's lied to her, lying to her.

I'll talk to her.

She's misled her.

Deluded her.

How's that gonna make her feel
when she finds out the truth?

If the court decides
that you've been...

unrealistic...

- Unrealistic.
- Misleading, even...

That's all your evidence.

Based on a truthful account
of what I see in front of me.

You've made promises to Maxine
that you just can't keep.

That's emotional abuse, Vicky.

Stephen abused her.

He didn't just walk out on her,
he actually hit her.

He used violence.

- And Maxine's never forgotten that.
- That was our secret.

That was all our secret, and
you've just gone and told it.

Everything I'm saying I'm
saying to protect you.

This is all about you.
I'm doing all of this for you.

This is all about Maxine. It's not
what I want, it's what she wants.

What are you...
What are you writing down now?

It's just going to be twisted, isn't
it, cos it's like you want us to fail!

You should be helping us,
not making things worse.

I think I've seen
enough for now.

Excuse me.

I'm sorry.

Can I come in?

We've made a mess of things,
haven't we?

Me and your dad.

You've just got to come together,
or Maxine won't become who she is,

she'll just be some...

court case.

What about me and you?

- I'm a big girl now.
- No, you're not.

I'm your mum and I'm...

I'm sometimes not a big girl.

I'm really sorry
that I hurt you.

I just needed you...

to stop me from making
a mess of things.

But you've just been running around
like you've only got one daughter.

What do you mean, making a mess?

There was a boy.

Right. Did he...
Did he do something?

I just...
I just wanted a cuddle.

I'll give you a cuddle.

I'm sorry.

Oh, Mum, we're gonna go in,
go have a look.

I'll be in in a minute.

Maxine's a beautiful
looking girl.

She's a beautiful
girl full-stop.

We haven't met exactly,
but I'm Gemma.

Ok.

You might want to
punch my face in.

I think one fight's enough,
don't you?

Love how she just marches
into the changing room.

And why shouldn't she?

I thought shopping might...

...cheer her up.
But it's not working.

I can't believe what's
happening is what Stephen wants.

You might think I've got
a cheek in saying this, but...

She's far too beautiful a person to
be caught up in something so ugly.

I agree, I absolutely agree.

Tell her I said hello.

I will.

Thank you, Gemma.

Safer in public, I suppose.

We could lose her altogether,
you know that, don't you?

Male or female, if they decide
that she's at risk of harm...

We are,
we're harming her this way.

Aren't we?

Yes, we are.

It's changed round here.

Second date, right?

- No, more of a walk.
- A walk?

No, it was a date.

I spent a month's wages
on that leather coat.

I pretended I was vegetarian
and deeply offended.

Cow.

Exactly, cow.

You're still funny.

I'm still here.

I'm still here.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I took
Maxine away from you.

I'm sorry that I left you.

I miss her.

She misses you.

So what about now? Can we...

...work together somehow? Please?

For her?

Yeah.

Let's see what we can do, eh?

How do we tell her that she
can't go back to Boston?

It's basically her only hope.

- You give her another hope.
- Like what?

Well, you go back to the clinic.

What's the point of that?

To challenge their decision and
make them change their minds.

How, though?
What more evidence can we give?

It's obvious. What you've
put yourselves through.

Come on.

I know how you feel,
I know Boston got your hopes up.

- Dr Farrow was on my side.
- I know.

But hopefully,
the Ferrybank will be, too.

- They'll be on our side.
- Last time they said no.

But now it's this time.

Listen to me. You're gonna
have your mum and your dad.

- I had my mum and dad last time.
- Properly now.

Really.

Listen to me.

I don't... want to lose you.

I don't care who you are,
how you are...

when you are.

I only care that you
get no more bad news.

Only girls hug you like this.

Only daughters.

And mummies.

- I'm making a recommendation to the courts.
- Saying what?

To make a care order,
so that the local authority

can share parental
responsibility for Maxine.

And they can also limit
your parental responsibility

in the interest of her welfare.

I'm also going to ask
for an order to be made

prohibiting any further
treatment for Maxine

- because you're so clearly at odds.
- You can't do that.

- Vicky, I warned you last time.
- Hang on.

Me and Vicky,
we've come to an agreement.

Really? Well, I would need to test
the strength and truth of that.

Bearing in mind that
you had Vicky arrested

and Vicky, you accused Stephen
of physically abusing Maxine.

The school and the police have
both expressed deep concern

about the division between you, and
the effect it's having on Maxine,

a child who has already been
hospitalised for self-harm.

And whose welfare might
best be served by...

...having her removed
from the family home.

- Stop it.
- I'm sorry.

But we...

- We are going to the Ferrybank.
- OK.

But if you don't get their
agreement, what happens then?

Vicky tries to take Maxine
back to Boston again,

or something just as desperate?

And you react like
you already have?

But if they say yes, if...

if the Ferrybank agree,
then what?

You and the local authority
will listen, at least?

Obviously we'd still be
keeping a close eye on you all.

But if the Ferrybank
say it's for the best...

we wouldn't stand in the
way of her treatment.

We'll just have to make
sure that they agree.

Right, let's stop hanging around,
or we'll miss this appointment.

All right.

I'm not gonna lie, I behaved desperately
because my child is desperate.

In order to make rational
choices about treatments, and...

embark on any type of
physical intervention,

Maxine and you have
to be in a good place.

Not one of crisis.

Well, we're here together now.

Stephen, you made a complaint
of parental abduction.

Why should we suddenly believe
that you're a united couple now?

Because we realised that we
could lose Maxine, basically.

We don't...

We don't want the local authority
making decisions about her.

We want to make them together,
don't we?

Maxine.

How have you felt
these last few weeks?

It's not the last few weeks.

It's the last few years.

What is?

I've been too silent.

If I was more honest
about how I felt,

I wouldn't have hurt myself
to try and feel better.

If I'd stopped trying
to please everyone...

- I could have been more true to myself.
- OK.

Be honest now.

It's OK.

I've been living as
Maxine for months now.

Stood up to bullies and people
who don't treat me as a girl.

It feels right.

In Boston,
there was a trans girl.

She got her first puberty
blockers injection.

You should have seen
the look on her face.

It was peace.

I want to feel that peace.

My mum and dad aren't
at war anymore.

But...

my body and brain still are.

Well done, sweetheart.

I'm so proud of you.

What sort of girl will I be?

How real will I be?

Will I be as real
as you and Lily?

I think you already are.

I'm not. Undressed I'm not.

That will come.

We've got a long way to go,
but...

it'll come.

Look.

You're beautiful.

- Does it hurt?
- I'll get used to it.