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Your life is your own little boat.

I would admit that

this degree of criminality

is something that I had never really imagined but

we do the best we can

with the tools that we have at hand.

Yeah?

I want you to get comfy, okay?

Because you're gonna be in this apparatus

for a day or two.

Provided your little man friend

is able to come up with the money that I need.

I'll tell you what,

I will take out the gag

tomorrow when we get away from the shore.

If you're good, if you're good.

Now, I've never understood people like you.

You're so committed to this

this very certain idea of right and wrong

and it's just very inflexible.

You know?

My own mother, she was exactly the same way,

she wouldn't let anything go.

It was a shame

because she didn't have to be that way

but it might not be too late for you.

Don't stay up all night gabbing.

Four door, and the license plate,

last seen south bound, Woolley Avenue.

Has been two hours, no further information.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Of course.

Where are you staying?

I just came straight from the airport.

Augy's place, I guess.

Can I go up there?

Absolutely.

It's not being treated as a crime scene.

Pretty sure he fell or jumped.

But it was his birthday,

he wasn't a sad boy.

I'm very sorry for your loss, ma'am.

I am.

But his

emotional state isn't something that

we can... Of course not.

It'll take 10 days or so

for the paperwork to clear

and then you'll be able to collect his personal affects.

Okay.

Alright.

My card.

Thanks.

Yeah, the bottom's my cell,

you can call me any time you want.

And you could just

sign the bottom here, where the X is,

it's for the coroner to release.

Can I help you?

I'm Anna Ellison,

I'm the mother of the tenant in 520.

August, yeah.

I'm,

I'm Jonas, I'm the,

please come in.

So, did you know August?

I try not to get too personal with my, I mean,

I knew him enough to know he was a good kid.

He didn't seem like that.

You mean, after he.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't talk about it, so.

It must be strange,

strange situation.

It is.

Thank you.

No, please, leave the lights off.

Okay, so,

take your time.

Stay as long as you want to.

I'll be at the front desk if you need to,

anything.

I'll just leave the key here.

Thanks.

Oh, you're eating,

I'll come back another time.

No no no, it's no trouble.

Are you hungry?

You look hungry.

I don't want to interrupt your evening.

No no no, it's nothing like that.

I always order too much.

Here, let's go to my office.

So you live here?

I keep a room upstairs but

it's mostly just a bed and a closet and a bathroom.

This is where the days unfold.

I sleep on the couch often enough.

I'd like to stay for a while, if that's okay?

In his room.

As long as you like.

You can just keep that key.

Thanks.

So you manage this whole place by yourself?

Yeah, keeps me occupied.

It's my old man,

was my old man's building.

So you must know the tenants a bit,

know their lives.

Most are pretty private.

I only knew your son in a passing way.

Friendly kid.

Yeah, he was always like that.

I haven't seen him in over a year.

Sad about time, takes apart our intentions.

I need to know him better,

know about his life.

He enjoyed company.

Never late on his rent.

Seemed happy.

Company?

Friends.

Lots of friends.

You know, you should talk to Juan.

He, they were,

you know,

friends.

Together, you mean?

They were together?

I think.

Like I said, I can't tell you much.

There's a memorial service flier above my desk.

Are you going to attend?

I try not to

involve myself in the personal lives

of the tenants.

You already mentioned that.

Thank you for, for this.

I just can't.

Don't worry about it, it's okay.

It's good to see the community coming together

to honor August and also support one another.

But we're here to celebrate a beautiful life.

I wanna begin

with a poem that feels like August.

It's called The Palm at the End of the Mind.

We're all here today because

we loved Augy.

He was immensely lovable, radiant.

A person with no meanness in him

and the rest of us, we,

we couldn't help but wanna be close to him

to have him in our lives.

The thing about it is,

that that boy's heart was perfectly clean

and that's what made him

so impossible to hold on to.

That,

that strange purity, that radiance

kept him at a certain distance from all of us.

We couldn't keep him for ourselves,

any of us, as much as we tried.

You can't keep light in a box.

We love you Augy.

- I'll see you later. - Yeah, of course.

Thank you for,

for doing that, it was lovely.

It gives me great comfort to know

that he had so many

people who cared about him.

He was well loved.

I wish I had been able to come down more often.

Well, some of us are heading

over to a bar Augy used to like.

Why don't you join us for a toast?

- Thank you. - Yeah.

- Thank you. - Of course.

Okay.

I'll wait.

Sure.

And we got to Lake Park,

right as the moon was coming out

from behind the clouds

and Augy gave me that crazy grin

and hopped off his bike.

And I was like, Augy no.

It's too cold, but he just tore off his shirt

and ran right into the water

and because it was Augy, I followed him.

What an adventure.

All August and I ever did was screw.

You're an asshole.

You know, Juan, you make jealousy look sophisticated.

I have to take some responsibility for that.

Whatever, they still would have found each other

if you weren't around.

Well maybe Sean was different when they were alone.

I hope he was.

I feel sorry for him.

Augy and I had something Sean couldn't ever understand

and I think it makes him a little crazy.

So you also dated Augy?

He was the love of my life.

Excuse me.

He needs an agent.

August dated him for a couple weeks,

right at the end, it was nothing serious.

Sean, no that was serious.

They were together for over a year

and broke up about a month ago.

Juan was just a rebound.

Augy never even told me he was gay.

Did you ever ask him?

No.

He liked women too.

He liked people and sex.

Augy had a gift for making you feel like he cared about you.

Instantly, whether or not it was true.

Would you tell me more about his life here?

I'll give you my number.

In the meantime, can I get you another drink?

Just ginger ale this time, thank you.

He's here you know.

All you have to do is think about him.

All I have been doing is thinking about him.

But it doesn't change things.

I know.

I think there's more

to this world than people will allow themselves to see.

Just try to clear your mind and picture him.

And then focus on that image in your heart and

ask questions, listen for the answers.

Sounds simple but,

you gotta be open to it.

It's more than just an act of faith,

it's an act of will.

Hey, I wanted to thank you again for everything.

You know, he was happy,

you know, he was perfectly happy and living his life.

I saw him at his birthday, so I just,

I don't why they believe this.

He didn't jump.

What are you saying?

I'm not saying anything.

I would hate to accuse anyone.

Accuse who?

I don't know, I don't know anything,

except that Augy would not jump.

Not him.

Not him.

Sorry.

I'm sorry I keep barging in on you like this.

Mac said it was my worst habit.

Your husband?

My ex.

Have you told him?

No.

He wasn't Augy's father

and they were never close.

He wouldn't do anyone any good here anyway.

It wasn't a suicide, you know.

What?

It wasn't a suicide.

How do you know?

He wasn't the type.

No matter how hard things got for him,

he never would give up,

he wasn't a quitter.

And then his friend Eric, he said something to me

that he didn't, he didn't believe that Augy jumped.

And I don't believe it either.

I think I might something a little stronger than tea.

But, detective I,

I just feel like you haven't taken into consider,

no, never, this is the thing,

I never knew Augy to be,

yes I understand, I'm just.

Yes,

I will.

Yes.

Alright, thanks, bye bye.

Can I show you something?

Is that Augy's computer?

Yeah.

Look, Anna,

I don't think this is something

I should be involved with.

Oh.

Of course.

I'm sorry, I'm not thinking clearly,

this isn't your problem.

I'm just a little out of my depth here.

I just need someone to hear me out on this.

Please.

I can do that.

Thank you.

This was filmed the night that it happened.

Are you, you're recording this?

Stop.

Happy birthday Augy!

Oh, good, a visit from the auteur.

How about a wish for the birthday boy.

I wish that you would get that thing

out of my face.

It's still luby from your last porn shoot.

I can't imagine why he left you.

You look like a retired catalog model.

Bye!

How about a word for the birthday boy?

I wish you a peaceful, lovely,

and perfect birthday, my dear friend.

And here's my birthday boy.

And does that look like somebody

who's about to take their own life?

Sometimes mood is different

after things wind down.

Someone had to have gone back to his place

after the party.

Just to throw him out the window?

Unless there was an argument,

someone got angry.

That night, did any of neighbors

report hearing any yelling or any shouting?

There's a couple of feet

of cinder block between them.

Rooms in this whole place,

not a lot of sound gets through.

What about Juan?

Where was he?

Why wasn't he at the party?

I mean, they were dating!

He lives in the building,

probably stepped out.

He lives here?

I mean, his ex Sean was there.

I noticed that.

He was happy.

They were all happy.

I mean, there was all those people there, it just,

this doesn't make sense.

I suppose,

but what can you do?

Hi, Juan, it's me, Augy's mom.

Yes, I know.

What do you want?

Well I've been thinking a lot about Augy,

and if I could just ask you a few questions.

It's something we all have to deal with

in our own private ways.

I understand that,

just one question, please.

I don't think I have it in me, even for that...

The night of my son's party, where were you?

Why would you ask that?

Look, I'm not trying to upset you.

But you come to my door and accuse me.

I have to go to work.

Hey!

Who do you think you are?

What do you want from me?

I'm sorry, I just want to know

where you were the night of the party,

why you weren't there.

I was at work!

Where were you, ever?

What about that?

I was his family.

I loved him more than any of you

and now I have nothing.

You leave me alone.

Hey.

Hey.

You must be getting kinda tired of me

just showing up and barging in like this, huh?

It's kinda nice to be needed.

You okay?

I could use some tea.

I think I may have a suspect.

A suspect?

Who?

Well I went to go talk to Juan.

He was acting, very.

What?

Well I asked him a question

and the way that he responded was

totally out of proportion,

he just blew up on me.

People get strange when someone they're close to is.

Well no, that's not all.

I followed him after he left.

Followed?

Jesus, where?

I don't know, wherever he was going.

But then he saw me and,

well there was a big confrontation

and he said some really awful things.

What, did he confess?

No, not in so many words.

He got very very angry.

I mean, his eyes

and if you'd seen the way he was acting,

it's completely easy to see

how he could be the type of person who...

Don't.

Don't trick yourself

into believing you have something here.

What are you saying to me?

You gambled your personal safety

and violated someone's privacy.

You're lecturing me?

What if you were right about him?

What do you think he would have done to you?

This was a mistake.

Anna.

Augy are you there?

Honey if you can hear me,

I just wanna know if you're alright.

I wish I could have done things right.

Yes?

Hi, Sean, it's me Anna, Augy's mom.

Of course you are.

Well it's about something

that you said at the bar the other night.

I mention a lot of things

to a lot of people at bars when I'm drunk.

So you're gonna have to narrow it down.

Well, it's your boat.

I was wondering if you might take me out on it.

Well that's unexpected.

I would like to distribute.

Augy's ashes out over the bay.

Distribute, huh?

It's a lot to ask, I know.

When?

Saturday.

Well I'm both impressed and put out.

I've probably got to move a couple things around.

Oh,

sorry I shouldn't have called.

No no no, it's fine, it's fine, I'm.

I just actually care about him you know?

Is it alright if I bring Eric

and one other friend with me?

Sure, yeah, why not?

Hey, make it a party.

Eric can give you the directions.

Noon?

Noon, okay, great.

Hey, listen, thanks a lot, I really appreciate it.

There's no need for that.

This is so sweet.

I've had it forever.

You want a drink?

Sure.

Thanks.

Augy always had this idea

that people who drank during the day were alcoholics.

He could do whatever he wanted after 5 p.m.

I'd call him a hypocrite,

but then he'd just get this disappointed look on his face.

I remember that look when he was a boy.

He had one of those faces, didn't he?

Like you could always see

the little kid he used to be.

Yeah.

He got that from his dad.

He told me about him.

No, he would have,

well, he would have told you about his step dad,

he'd never knew his biological father.

What was he like?

I couldn't really tell you.

He just vanished.

Really he was still just a boy, you know.

It's difficult.

It was, it was.

Not uncommon.

Sadly not at all.

But,

we weren't anything special.

Augy was.

Yeah, he was.

I wonder if that's what got him murdered.

It would be difficult to be his mother

and to not think like that.

Meaning what?

If it was, murder, it's the fault of that

deviant someone out there who committed the act.

But if it was suicide,

you have to shoulder more of the blame.

Yeah.

I don't mean to be callous.

I really don't.

But Augy wasn't killed.

I think he might have allowed himself to fall.

I don't understand, why?

Because, Augy was bright and sweet

but he was also dirty and sad.

More sad than he ever let on.

Look Anna, I'm sorry.

I'm angry.

Yeah.

Me too.

Oh.

- I wasn't... - I wasn't being.

I'm sorry I don't know what came over me.

That's not like me.

Well I should have been more understanding.

You're a,

I've just

seen people I've cared about vanish.

Well I'll keep you out it

from now on, I promise.

That won't be necessary.

Unless you need to.

Thanks.

Are those his ashes?

Yes, how did you know?

I've received that type of package once or twice.

Augy's friend Sean

is gonna take me out on his boat this weekend

to deliver them,

the ashes to the bay.

Would you like to come with me?

I would.

Thanks.

Augy, are you there?

Can you hear me?

Please talk to me.

I can hear you.

Are you alright?

I'm good.

Where are you, baby?

I'm with friends.

Will you forgive me?

I love you.

This,

it doesn't mean anything anymore.

It does to me.

Will you tell me how you died?

Think about how I lived.

I'm so sorry.

Hey.

I know you're gonna wanna

try to talk me out of this,

but Juan said that he was at work

the night that Augy died

and I need to know if he was telling the truth.

Come in.

Thanks.

It got really late and I just,

I forgot to tip him.

Thanks for checking for me.

I do, the gentleman's name is Juan.

I see.

He was.

Okay.

Yeah, thank you.

Bye bye.

Well, so much for that theory.

I find that as the years pass,

I have less and less patience for these somber events.

They remind you of your own mortality.

They remind me of other

equally uninteresting somber events.

You're a complete asshole.

You just lack the ware with all

to appreciate my level of artistry.

This is real for her.

You could stand to be a little more kind.

That's kind of presumptuous of you, isn't it?

Telling me how to behave on my own boat.

And how exactly did you buy it?

And I suppose that you just work like a mad man

and saved up your nickels

and that's how you bought a block size

apartment building, huh?

No help at all from daddy on that one.

To August.

We will all miss him.

We will.

Thank you, August.

Thank you, yes thank you.

Thank you for being gorgeous.

For always saying yes

to all the unseemly things that I asked of you.

Thank you for being such a willing participant...

That is enough.

This is his mother.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Am I violating the sanctity of motherhood?

Alright, gentlemen,

for Christ sakes, leave it be, okay?

Maybe we should let him go now?

I'm sorry for my part in that,

he and I just seem to rub each other the wrong way.

Augy did love him in some way so,

I think there's gotta be some good in him.

I don't see it.

Maybe,

maybe he did it.

Murdered Augy?

Say he did, how could you possibly prove it?

I don't know.

I've got a little errand to run.

You okay?

Yeah.

Actually, I'd really rather not be alone just now.

Wow, you grew up here?

Yeah, yeah.

Now I just come by once a week

to keep the place alive.

Well if you don't mind me asking,

why haven't you sold it?

It's still my legal residence.

I got rid of most of my parent's stuff.

I keep meaning to put it on the market but.

This is sweet.

There are no other photos here,

is this one of a kind?

Yeah, my old man wasn't much for photography.

Sometimes I wonder what might have

been going through his mind when he took that.

Maybe he was just happy.

That would have been a little out of character.

I like what you've done with the place.

No!

Great, so.

Tell me where Augy is.

He's dead.

You'll forgive me,

I have my doubts about that statement.

I threw his ashes in the bay yesterday afternoon.

And you are?

His mother.

Wow.

What did you want with him?

Nothing.

I want his boyfriend, Sean.

Why, what did he do?

It's about money and.

I don't like to discuss my finances

with new acquaintances.

However, when you scattered those ashes,

were you on a boat?

Where is it docked?

I can appreciate your situation, I really can.

But it is always a mistake to believe

that you have nothing left to lose.

Marina Bay, Young Harbor, dock F.

Thank you for your help.

One last detail,

I can't have you phoning Sean or the police,

warning them, anything like that.

In the event that either of those two things take place,

we come back, we find you again

and I pick up right where we left off.

That make sense?

Okay?

Must be moving packages for him.

Packages?

Trafficking drugs up and down the coast.

I found some in Augy's room.

Not a lot but.

I mean, do you think

I should even bother calling the police?

Did you get a look at what they were driving?

No.

Not a lot the police can do about that.

I called Sean.

I know they told me not to but I.

What did he say?

He said, "Thanks," and then he hung up on me.

Prick.

Jonas, they said they're gonna come back for me.

You told them what you could.

I doubt that they'd bother to

come back just to prove a point.

Why don't you stay in my room tonight,

just to be safe?

I can crash here on the couch.

Thank you.

Maybe tomorrow

we talk about moving you some place else.

My parent's place is open.

That's very kind of you but,

I have to stay here, I have to be near, in his room.

Alright.

Then I'll at least get somebody

to change the lock on the door.

Okay.

Lucky for you,

I changed the linens this morning.

I'll be down at the front desk if you need anything.

Can you stay?

I need you to stay.

I probably shouldn't.

Just to help me sleep.

Yeah, okay.

You just disappeared.

I didn't wanna wake you up.

Sorry.

Can I show you something?

There is hundreds of these.

I just keep going over them again and again.

There's a lot of this kind.

You know, I don't

remember things being like this at all

when I was young.

I don't know, I think risque is relative.

That's from the park right up the street.

Really?

Could you take me to where this was shot?

It would just be really nice to able to

picture him in a, in a happier place.

Okay.

Thanks.

It really is beautiful here.

The lake I mean.

This is about where that picture was taken.

I hope he was happy when he took it.

Might have been.

That's a rookie dealer.

He'll get arrested once or twice,

that'll teach him to be more subtle.

How do you know he's not just waiting for someone?

I'm sure he is.

A very special someone

with an inch he can't scratch

and a pocket full of cash.

Someone like Augy?

No no, Augy never had that,

that look about him, you know.

At least not that I ever saw.

You know a little bit about these things?

I knew a person with a problem.

She came here, I came here with her.

At first I was trying to stop her,

just to find her, to know where she was.

Were you in love with her?

I was,

compelled by her.

I like to think that love feels a little better

than what we had.

Anyway, it ended badly as these things do.

She took off.

I found myself coming to the park without her.

Told myself I was getting over her.

Do you know what ever became of her, what happened?

I got clean,

and when you get clean,

you lose track of a lot of people.

Maybe I'll just leave you alone with your thoughts.

I don't want that.

I don't wanna think anymore.

I'm sorry,

it's not you.

It's been a long stretch since I

been with a woman

and not since I was using.

I'm not really sure I know how without anymore.

It's alright.

Is it?

Yeah.

You know, he told me a story once about Mac.

I bet he had a lot of stories about Mac.

Mac really made him sleep outside

for three nights to toughen him up?

Out in the corner of the ranch,

about half a mile from the house.

Augy was afraid of the dark, you know,

but he still went out there.

He waited until they were over the crest

before he started crying.

But I still heard him.

Why would you let him do that?

Well, you have to understand,

before Mac was a part of our lives,

it was Augy and I all the time.

We were very very close.

He was my world.

And I saw so much of myself in him, that I just,

I worried, you know, how,

how is this kid gonna grow up to be a man?

I can't teach him those things

and Mac did care for me,

he did love me in his own way.

He was good to me.

And to be fair, there aren't a lot of guys

who would have taken us on.

I need to ask you something.

What do you think of Sean as a suspect?

Anna, I really shouldn't have said what I said that night.

No no no, you were absolutely right.

I mean, look at the guy,

his involvement with drugs.

Sean is often a pig,

but he's not a murderer,

and despite everything, he and Augy

had something about to as close

to a normal relationship

as either of them ever had.

Then why the breakup?

Well that was all Augy.

I think there was a lot about Sean's life

that he couldn't fully accept.

Maybe Sean just couldn't let him go.

Or maybe I said something I didn't mean.

And the truth is that Augy's death is

exactly the terrible accident it appears to be.

I'm sorry.

Maybe it's time to get some air.

I'm parked out back.

You lied to me about Sean's whereabouts.

All of this is on you.

You find Sean.

You call this number

and you tell me where he is.

Tell me where he is,

you have 24 hours, do you understand?

24 hours and then I escalate.

Read your statement.

So I guess the first question's kind of obvious,

why didn't you call us after the break in?

You had two armed men

waiting for you in your room.

It's not my room.

But I want every detail you remember,

every single detail.

From the break in

to the men who committed these crimes.

Do you think they had something to do with Augy's murder?

Do you?

She right about me, that detective.

What happened to Eric is my fault.

That's not true.

Okay.

Are you gonna be okay here for about an hour?

I just gotta go make a key drop to a new tenant.

Of course.

Do you have any tea I can make?

Yeah, first cabinet, all the staples.

Whiskey too, if you need it.

Jonas?

That was quick!

Listen, listen to me, time is money.

I need both, I've got neither, okay?

No, she's not hurt.

Don't, don't get macho with me, old man, okay?

You go to the cops, you screw me over,

she's long gone before anyone finds her, okay?

So on Friday at noon, there's gonna be a car

outside your building,

you just put the money in the back seat

in a briefcase, nothing tacky and

and we're done here.

Did you kill my son?

Goddammit, what is wrong with you?

Oh, don't you know, mommy?

Probably the same as that thing that was wrong

with your poor little murdered boy.

Don't.

Don't what?

Let me tell you, it's not that complicated,

just to tip somebody out a window.

You bastard son of a bitch!

You're right on both counts.

Why?

He kept nagging me.

He liked the parties

and he liked the boat and all the other trappings

but he just got these

these spasms of morality.

Probably something he got from you.

And he wouldn't party anymore.

Just started to sound like

some mouthy old hausfrau who had no respect

for my chosen career path,

and I got to sick to death of it and I.

Goddamn you, he was all I had.

You never had Augy!

You traded your chance to be a mother to him

a long time ago for some easy life

with a puritanical cowboy.

You didn't even know him.

Oh god.

Please.

I didn't kill your son.

I left that party and I went to the bar.

Lots of people saw me there, you can ask the police.

But the truth is that Augy and I, we,

we adored each other,

and we disappointed each other, horribly.

The way we all do with ones we love.

Don't ya think?

Quiet.

Slide your feet inside the bag.

Be a very good girl, Anna.

Very good girl.

Good girl, good girl,

good girl.

Anna.

Are you okay?

I think so.

Oh thank god.

Another couple minutes and I was gonna swing by the ER.

Thank you, Jonas.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Well, I guess this

little drama is about played out.

Did you pay them?

Considered going to the police,

after the way they treated you,

it seems easier to go to the bank instead.

I give them the cash,

he gives into his supplier,

they all go away, you get your life back.

Jonas,

I'm so sorry.

I've cost you a lot.

I've always thought of it

as my father's money anyway.

To be honest,

not much else I've found is worth anything.

You're a good cause.

He didn't kill him.

Somebody did though.

Could be that Augy killed Augy.

Maybe somebody else.

Might be that you'll figure it all out

and see that person see away forever.

What's that gonna get you?

Justice.

Not if you don't reach.

You're saying it's gone.

It's been gone since that night,

I'm sure of it.

You must have some crime scene photography

that can corroborate.

I'm sorry but there are a lot of people here.

Yeah, so?

So, anyone of these people

could have taken the photograph.

I'm sorry, this is nothing.

No, I saw that photograph

in Louise Smith's apartment.

Are you certain it's the same one?

I'm positive, it's hard to miss.

But she said she's had it for a while.

No, she told me she'd had it forever.

Why would she lie about something like that unless...

She's covering her tracks.

She took a souvenir.

What if they had matching photographs,

what if each had one.

What if someone at the party broke the frame,

I'm sorry but this doesn't prove anything.

I can't ask for warrants based on this.

Yeah, that does sound like a lot of work.

You know what, buddy,

you're not helping with this situation.

You should be comforting this woman,

not throwing fuel to the fire.

What I need is for you to do your job.

Nothing.

Listen.

His,

personal affects are ready to be picked up

in the evidence room.

I can walk you over there.

Not gonna get any further with her.

I don't intend to try.

Those are your options.

Look at this, Louise left a voicemail,

two days before Augy died.

Hey Augy, it's me.

I just wanted to, I don't know.

Last night was amazing.

I feel like I've been waiting a long time

for that, maybe my whole life.

Anyway, we can't just pretend like this isn't real.

We have to talk to Juan.

Well that's.

A motive.

Sure sounds like one.

Augy didn't forgive me.

There is nothing to forgive.

The storage.

Augy, I need more time.

Time, doesn't run out.

It's an ocean.

Your life is your own little boat.

Did she do it?

Did Louise push you?

I hit the ground

to make it from where I was to where I am.

Where did you go?

Here.

Here, mom.

Are you getting any answers?

You were whispering.

Sometimes I talk in my sleep.

Augy?

Yeah.

You weren't sleeping.

I've got to look Louise in the face

and tell her that I know what she's done.

You expect a confession?

I don't need one.

Well so what, you'll,

you'll just know,

and then what?

Take things into your own hands?

What if you're wrong?

What if it was an accident?

What if he really did jump?

No.

I can't.

Jonas,

I just have to do something.

Thanks for meeting me.

Of course,

what's going on?

There are a few loose ends still to tie up.

I'm sure there are a lot of emotions.

I know you slept with Augy

a few days before he died.

You don't, nobody...

I have his cellphone.

I heard your voice message.

He was popular.

And I know that you took the photo

from his place that night.

It was a gift.

Then why did you lie?

Why did you tell me that you'd had it forever?

You must have misunderstood something that I said.

No.

You went back there that night

to confess your feelings

and to see if he shared them, but he didn't.

He didn't care for you

any more than he cared about

any of the rest of them.

Well I think I'd better go.

I need to hear you say it.

I have no idea what you're talking about.

We're not fucking finished.

I think we are.

In fact, I think this is the last time

we will ever see each other.

Anna,

Anna, stop, Anna.

Anna, Anna!

You still have a life.

When Mac and I first got together,

Augy was just little still.

Mac started doing this thing,

saying these little things just,

you know, tuck in your shirt, straighten your back,

speak up, boy.

It was just little, you know,

at the time it seemed like

he was just trying to be a dad and

trying to show Augy how to be a man and

I thought that was something he needed,

you know, I was alone with him

and Augy was such a,

a tender boy, a sensitive boy.

I remember looking out the window

and watching him march Augy around this field

like a soldier for hours.

Just saying, you know.

Buck like a man, boy.

Buck like a man, straiten your back.

Just yelling at him.

And I didn't stop him.

I didn't do anything.

Mac never hit him, I mean he never,

he never was physical

with him or with me and you know, I think that,

had he been,

it would have been enough of a push

for me to get us out of there,

to leave him.

But I didn't.

I just let him

push my boy away from me.

Had I stopped him,

I know my boy will be alive,

Augy would still be here.

You don't know that.

No, I do.

I do know it.

And I'll never be free of it.

Can we go now?

What?

I was

just wondering if you're

planning on sticking around?

I'm thinking about it.

I mean,

this was Augy's home, so.

It's mine, too.

What do you want?

This.

Nothing else?

I'm here now.