All language subtitles for Virgin Island (2025) S02E01.en

af Afrikaans
ak Akan
sq Albanian
am Amharic
ar Arabic
hy Armenian
az Azerbaijani
eu Basque
be Belarusian
bem Bemba
bn Bengali
bh Bihari
bs Bosnian
br Breton
bg Bulgarian
km Cambodian
ca Catalan
ceb Cebuano
chr Cherokee
ny Chichewa
zh-CN Chinese (Simplified)
zh-TW Chinese (Traditional)
co Corsican
hr Croatian
cs Czech
da Danish
en English
eo Esperanto
et Estonian
ee Ewe
fo Faroese
tl Filipino
fi Finnish
fr French
fy Frisian
gaa Ga
gl Galician
ka Georgian
de German
el Greek
gn Guarani
gu Gujarati
ht Haitian Creole
ha Hausa
haw Hawaiian
iw Hebrew
hi Hindi
hmn Hmong
hu Hungarian
is Icelandic
ig Igbo
id Indonesian
ia Interlingua
ga Irish
it Italian
ja Japanese
jw Javanese
kn Kannada
kk Kazakh
rw Kinyarwanda
rn Kirundi
kg Kongo
ko Korean
kri Krio (Sierra Leone)
ku Kurdish
ckb Kurdish (Soranî)
ky Kyrgyz
lo Laothian
la Latin
lv Latvian
ln Lingala
lt Lithuanian
loz Lozi
lg Luganda
ach Luo
lb Luxembourgish
mk Macedonian
mg Malagasy
ms Malay
ml Malayalam
mt Maltese
mi Maori
mr Marathi
mfe Mauritian Creole
mo Moldavian
mn Mongolian
my Myanmar (Burmese)
sr-ME Montenegrin
ne Nepali
pcm Nigerian Pidgin
nso Northern Sotho
no Norwegian
nn Norwegian (Nynorsk)
oc Occitan
or Oriya
om Oromo
ps Pashto
fa Persian
pl Polish
pt-BR Portuguese (Brazil)
pt Portuguese (Portugal)
pa Punjabi
qu Quechua
ro Romanian
rm Romansh
nyn Runyakitara
ru Russian
sm Samoan
gd Scots Gaelic
sr Serbian
sh Serbo-Croatian
st Sesotho
tn Setswana
crs Seychellois Creole
sn Shona
sd Sindhi
si Sinhalese
sk Slovak
sl Slovenian
so Somali
es Spanish
es-419 Spanish (Latin American)
su Sundanese
sw Swahili
sv Swedish
tg Tajik
ta Tamil
tt Tatar
te Telugu
th Thai
ti Tigrinya
to Tonga
lua Tshiluba
tum Tumbuka
tr Turkish
tk Turkmen
tw Twi
ug Uighur
uk Ukrainian
ur Urdu
uz Uzbek
vi Vietnamese
cy Welsh
wo Wolof
xh Xhosa
yi Yiddish
yo Yoruba
zu Zulu
Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:05,040 --> 00:00:06,319 I'm nervous. 2 00:00:06,320 --> 00:00:08,559 I'm going to take it one step at a time. 3 00:00:08,560 --> 00:00:10,719 I'm absolutely petrified. 4 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:14,680 12 virgins are travelling to a unique island retreat... 5 00:00:16,080 --> 00:00:19,039 ...that could change their lives forever. 6 00:00:19,040 --> 00:00:21,239 This is maybe the strangest day of my life. 7 00:00:21,240 --> 00:00:24,959 Being a virgin at the age of 22 feels very lonely. 8 00:00:24,960 --> 00:00:27,240 I've just sort of given up all hope. 9 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:30,479 In a world saturated with sex, 10 00:00:30,480 --> 00:00:32,399 more young adults than ever 11 00:00:32,400 --> 00:00:35,239 are caught in an intimacy epidemic. 12 00:00:35,240 --> 00:00:37,039 The thought of having sex with someone... 13 00:00:37,040 --> 00:00:38,239 Scares me. 14 00:00:38,240 --> 00:00:39,439 It gives me the ick. 15 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:41,159 I don't feel confident. I'm missing out. 16 00:00:41,160 --> 00:00:43,279 Terrified at the thought of it. Nerve-racking. 17 00:00:43,280 --> 00:00:45,559 Gut-wrenching. Embarrassing. 18 00:00:45,560 --> 00:00:48,519 All I think about is what I'm going to get wrong. 19 00:00:48,520 --> 00:00:51,079 Can you point to the outer labia? 20 00:00:51,080 --> 00:00:52,080 Nope. 21 00:00:54,040 --> 00:00:56,639 Now.... Oh, my God! 22 00:00:56,640 --> 00:00:59,999 ...they're getting a crash course in intimacy. 23 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:02,719 Social media, porn, dating apps. 24 00:01:02,720 --> 00:01:04,639 There are so many negative messages 25 00:01:04,640 --> 00:01:06,319 and we can help them blossom. 26 00:01:06,320 --> 00:01:08,799 Use it by stimulating the area. 27 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:10,999 Guided by a team of experts... 28 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:12,999 You see yourself as... Repulsive. 29 00:01:13,000 --> 00:01:15,439 ...they'll confront their insecurities... 30 00:01:15,440 --> 00:01:18,319 I'm hiding how upset I actually feel. 31 00:01:18,320 --> 00:01:22,719 ...exploring intimacy in every form. 32 00:01:22,720 --> 00:01:26,479 Yes. Yes. Good. 33 00:01:26,480 --> 00:01:29,439 And maybe... Do you want to put a condom on? 34 00:01:29,440 --> 00:01:31,719 ...have sex with a trained therapist. 35 00:01:31,720 --> 00:01:34,799 Desperate times call for desperate measures. 36 00:01:34,800 --> 00:01:36,119 Or even one another. 37 00:01:36,120 --> 00:01:39,119 Why are you nervous around me? I don't know. 38 00:01:39,120 --> 00:01:40,600 That's so good. 39 00:01:41,720 --> 00:01:43,839 I really do need to change my life. 40 00:01:43,840 --> 00:01:45,559 The question is... 41 00:01:45,560 --> 00:01:47,039 Get a room, guys. 42 00:01:47,040 --> 00:01:49,399 ...who will finally be ready... 43 00:01:49,400 --> 00:01:52,519 Just, like, a bit anxious. ...to go all the way... 44 00:01:52,520 --> 00:01:54,679 Touching you here good? Mm-hm. 45 00:01:54,680 --> 00:01:56,000 ...on Virgin Island? 46 00:02:05,200 --> 00:02:07,959 It is such a beautiful day to show up on the island. 47 00:02:07,960 --> 00:02:09,479 It's perfect. 48 00:02:09,480 --> 00:02:12,479 For the next three weeks... Hi. 49 00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:15,199 Hi. ..this ground-breaking retreat 50 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:17,519 will be home to 12 young people... 51 00:02:17,520 --> 00:02:20,479 Would you like a hug? Yeah. Go on, then. 52 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:22,039 ...from all over the UK... 53 00:02:22,040 --> 00:02:23,879 Hello. You must be Tegan. 54 00:02:23,880 --> 00:02:26,279 Yes. ..who need help. 55 00:02:26,280 --> 00:02:27,719 Well, I didn't fall in the sea, 56 00:02:27,720 --> 00:02:30,879 so I've done better than I thought I was going to do. 57 00:02:30,880 --> 00:02:33,399 I've never kissed anyone. I've never dated anyone. 58 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:35,039 I've never had sex with anyone. 59 00:02:35,040 --> 00:02:36,879 I am a grade-A virgin. 60 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:39,279 My life just can't go on like this. 61 00:02:39,280 --> 00:02:42,199 I just need to take your phone. Yes, of course. 62 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:44,599 The retreat's rules include a full break 63 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:46,679 from the pressures of technology. 64 00:02:46,680 --> 00:02:50,039 So you can just, like, dive in. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 65 00:02:50,040 --> 00:02:51,599 You see sex everywhere. 66 00:02:51,600 --> 00:02:53,439 Sex sells is the old cliche, 67 00:02:53,440 --> 00:02:56,239 be it from social media, porn, 68 00:02:56,240 --> 00:02:59,399 but always playing on my mind is that I can't get an erection. 69 00:02:59,400 --> 00:03:01,319 Being a virgin at the age of 28, 70 00:03:01,320 --> 00:03:04,040 I feel almost a failure in many ways. 71 00:03:07,840 --> 00:03:10,479 The group will live on the island for three weeks... 72 00:03:10,480 --> 00:03:12,879 Oh, this is your accommodation. 73 00:03:12,880 --> 00:03:16,519 ...totally cut off from the distractions of modern life... 74 00:03:16,520 --> 00:03:18,959 Go ahead and get settled. OK? There's clothes there. 75 00:03:18,960 --> 00:03:20,359 Thank you. 76 00:03:20,360 --> 00:03:22,919 ...including the pressures of their appearance. 77 00:03:22,920 --> 00:03:26,159 Oh, wow. They're giving off jungle vibes. 78 00:03:26,160 --> 00:03:27,839 I've always hated my body 79 00:03:27,840 --> 00:03:31,359 and I've got badly bullied over it in the past. 80 00:03:31,360 --> 00:03:35,199 I'm terrified to be naked in front of someone. 81 00:03:35,200 --> 00:03:37,919 It does make me cry when I think about it. 82 00:03:37,920 --> 00:03:39,320 Yeah, it makes me really upset. 83 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:48,999 Before the course begins, the group have a chance 84 00:03:49,000 --> 00:03:50,959 to get to know each other at the hang-out. 85 00:03:50,960 --> 00:03:52,280 Hello. 86 00:03:53,520 --> 00:03:56,639 Callum. I'm Katie. Hi. Nice to meet you. Hi. 87 00:03:56,640 --> 00:03:58,719 Where are you from? Blackpool. 88 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:00,239 I'm from Peterborough. 89 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:02,519 Peterborough? Yeah. 90 00:04:02,520 --> 00:04:03,720 Shithole. 91 00:04:05,760 --> 00:04:10,239 I literally don't do anything other than sit on my computer 24/7. 92 00:04:10,240 --> 00:04:12,040 I'm definitely addicted to gaming. 93 00:04:13,320 --> 00:04:16,279 I don't really interact with any girls. 94 00:04:16,280 --> 00:04:18,839 It makes me feel alone. 95 00:04:18,840 --> 00:04:21,039 Where are you from? 96 00:04:21,040 --> 00:04:25,919 Oh, so, born in the UK but raised in South Africa but live in the UK. 97 00:04:25,920 --> 00:04:29,119 {\an8}I instantly don't trust men. 98 00:04:29,120 --> 00:04:31,079 Alex, nice to meet you. Hi. 99 00:04:31,080 --> 00:04:32,959 It makes me a bit sad 100 00:04:32,960 --> 00:04:35,720 and I don't really know what to do about it, to be honest. 101 00:04:36,840 --> 00:04:40,119 So how old are you? I'm 28. You're 28. 102 00:04:40,120 --> 00:04:42,239 I'm 23. I'm 22. 26. 103 00:04:42,240 --> 00:04:46,039 I'm quite robotic with... with women. 104 00:04:46,040 --> 00:04:47,839 I've had no girlfriends. 105 00:04:47,840 --> 00:04:49,559 That's a bit sad, isn't it? 106 00:04:49,560 --> 00:04:51,279 We've got another person. 107 00:04:51,280 --> 00:04:53,679 Hi. Oh! Hiya. 108 00:04:53,680 --> 00:04:55,879 {\an8}With sexual intimacy, 109 00:04:55,880 --> 00:04:58,479 {\an8}I feel a little bit broken. 110 00:04:58,480 --> 00:05:00,119 I can't have sex. 111 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:02,879 I have a condition called vaginismus. 112 00:05:02,880 --> 00:05:04,439 If somebody tried to touch my vagina, 113 00:05:04,440 --> 00:05:06,639 it would be pain and it would be discomfort. 114 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:09,519 And I'm living life in fear. 115 00:05:09,520 --> 00:05:12,159 The way that you're seen as a woman 116 00:05:12,160 --> 00:05:16,640 who can't physically have sex is like, what's the point? 117 00:05:18,280 --> 00:05:20,079 {\an8}One of the reasons that people are not having sex 118 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:22,279 {\an8}is there's just a lot more self-consciousness. 119 00:05:22,280 --> 00:05:24,719 {\an8}Everybody is being watched all the time, 120 00:05:24,720 --> 00:05:27,679 you know, by their parents, by social media, by their friends. 121 00:05:27,680 --> 00:05:30,479 Hello. So we're seeing a lot more people 122 00:05:30,480 --> 00:05:32,719 just not getting out there and connecting. 123 00:05:32,720 --> 00:05:35,439 There's lots of fear around being cancelled 124 00:05:35,440 --> 00:05:37,639 and they're terrified of failing. 125 00:05:37,640 --> 00:05:40,359 But we got amazing results last time, 126 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:44,799 and I have really high hopes for this new group of virgins. 127 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:46,519 Hi, everyone. I'm Ellen. 128 00:05:46,520 --> 00:05:48,559 THEY ALL GREET ELLEN Nice to meet you all. 129 00:05:48,560 --> 00:05:51,879 How old are you? Um, 35. 130 00:05:51,880 --> 00:05:54,879 Wow! Only just! 131 00:05:54,880 --> 00:05:59,919 I don't want to get to 40 and still be the virgin. 132 00:05:59,920 --> 00:06:02,639 The expectation of your marriage. You've got kids. 133 00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:05,999 And, at 35, I haven't got those things. 134 00:06:06,000 --> 00:06:08,439 I feel like a freak, really. 135 00:06:08,440 --> 00:06:12,239 And like, I've, you know, let people down. 136 00:06:12,240 --> 00:06:14,159 Yeah. 137 00:06:14,160 --> 00:06:17,559 So is anyone else in the LGBTQ+ community? 138 00:06:17,560 --> 00:06:18,799 Obviously. Yay! 139 00:06:18,800 --> 00:06:21,319 I'm not going to be the only gay on the island. 140 00:06:21,320 --> 00:06:22,919 Trust me, you're not. 141 00:06:22,920 --> 00:06:25,639 I grew up in a very traditional town. 142 00:06:25,640 --> 00:06:28,039 There wasn't a lot of open queer people. 143 00:06:28,040 --> 00:06:31,399 When I knew I was bi, I didn't tell my parents. 144 00:06:31,400 --> 00:06:33,359 I was actually quite scared. 145 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:35,039 I identify as bisexual, 146 00:06:35,040 --> 00:06:37,399 but I'm quite a late bloom. 147 00:06:37,400 --> 00:06:41,839 At school, it was a discussion about masturbation. 148 00:06:41,840 --> 00:06:43,919 I thought it was a game show. 149 00:06:43,920 --> 00:06:46,119 I thought it was Mastermind. 150 00:06:46,120 --> 00:06:48,279 Hello! Hello, hello. My name's Ed. 151 00:06:48,280 --> 00:06:50,199 What secret do you want to know first? 152 00:06:50,200 --> 00:06:51,280 What's your star sign? 153 00:06:53,320 --> 00:06:55,360 That's always a question. 154 00:06:56,760 --> 00:06:58,919 {\an8}I feel like an outsider a lot of the time. 155 00:06:58,920 --> 00:07:01,199 {\an8}A big part of that is my disability. 156 00:07:01,200 --> 00:07:03,559 I was born without a right pectoral. 157 00:07:03,560 --> 00:07:05,879 Restricted movement in my wrist and my arm. 158 00:07:05,880 --> 00:07:08,439 It has impacted the way I am. 159 00:07:08,440 --> 00:07:11,039 I wouldn't have the confidence to talk to girls. 160 00:07:11,040 --> 00:07:12,040 I find it really hard. 161 00:07:15,040 --> 00:07:16,519 Hey! You're the last one. 162 00:07:16,520 --> 00:07:17,679 Hi. My name's Will. 163 00:07:17,680 --> 00:07:19,560 I've just turned 30. I'm a virgin. 164 00:07:21,200 --> 00:07:23,719 Being a virgin, it's not something I'm proud of. 165 00:07:23,720 --> 00:07:25,919 Something I experienced when I was younger 166 00:07:25,920 --> 00:07:27,279 is premature ejaculation. 167 00:07:27,280 --> 00:07:28,959 I fear that may still be an issue now. 168 00:07:28,960 --> 00:07:30,759 So I think when I have sex for the first time, 169 00:07:30,760 --> 00:07:32,399 it's going to be really quick. 170 00:07:32,400 --> 00:07:34,439 HE LAUGHS 171 00:07:34,440 --> 00:07:38,599 The idea of, like, having sex is like, it's a faraway dream for me. 172 00:07:38,600 --> 00:07:40,639 Yeah, yeah. I've never had a girlfriend. Ever. 173 00:07:40,640 --> 00:07:42,239 Same. Yeah. 174 00:07:42,240 --> 00:07:46,159 One of the nicknames I have is Posh Bertie. 175 00:07:46,160 --> 00:07:49,199 I'm a very well spoken individual. 176 00:07:49,200 --> 00:07:51,759 I've not told anyone that I'm a virgin, 177 00:07:51,760 --> 00:07:53,879 but I think people would guess. 178 00:07:53,880 --> 00:07:56,400 "Yeah, he is a virgin to me." 179 00:07:57,640 --> 00:08:00,439 Definitely feel one step behind everyone. 180 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:01,480 Yeah. 181 00:08:02,840 --> 00:08:05,639 The group knows the weeks ahead won't be easy, 182 00:08:05,640 --> 00:08:09,359 but they have a determination to change their lives. 183 00:08:09,360 --> 00:08:11,640 Breathe into your own body. 184 00:08:13,160 --> 00:08:15,079 This unique course has been created 185 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:19,439 by pioneering sex therapists Celeste and Danielle. 186 00:08:19,440 --> 00:08:20,440 And let it out. 187 00:08:22,360 --> 00:08:25,959 The ethos at the retreat is very supportive. 188 00:08:25,960 --> 00:08:27,839 There's so much for them to learn. 189 00:08:27,840 --> 00:08:33,680 We have new exercises, new experts and some special surprises. 190 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:40,519 Supported by a team of sex therapists from across the globe, 191 00:08:40,520 --> 00:08:43,719 trained in a range of touch-based therapies... 192 00:08:43,720 --> 00:08:45,599 Which finger would you like to enter me with? 193 00:08:45,600 --> 00:08:48,399 ...they'll address the group's anxieties... 194 00:08:48,400 --> 00:08:52,119 She is terrified of lowering the mask. 195 00:08:52,120 --> 00:08:53,959 ...and push them to their limits. 196 00:08:53,960 --> 00:08:55,920 Amazing. 197 00:08:57,160 --> 00:08:58,799 Hidden away on the island 198 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:01,479 are dedicated therapy spaces 199 00:09:01,480 --> 00:09:05,680 and private bedrooms where they'll begin to explore intimacy. 200 00:09:06,920 --> 00:09:08,919 I'm hoping that everybody gets to find out 201 00:09:08,920 --> 00:09:10,839 who they are as a sexual being, 202 00:09:10,840 --> 00:09:12,759 regardless of being a virgin, 203 00:09:12,760 --> 00:09:16,439 but it is going to be a huge challenge. 204 00:09:16,440 --> 00:09:17,839 Each phase of the course 205 00:09:17,840 --> 00:09:20,400 will challenge the group like never before... 206 00:09:26,440 --> 00:09:28,920 ...as they take their first steps towards... 207 00:09:31,120 --> 00:09:32,920 ...sexual connection. 208 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:42,239 And it all starts here... 209 00:09:42,240 --> 00:09:45,559 Oh, my God. I'm so nervous. Yeah. 210 00:09:45,560 --> 00:09:47,079 Hello! Welcome. 211 00:09:47,080 --> 00:09:50,960 ...by confronting one of the biggest barriers to intimacy... 212 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:02,799 Welcome to Virgin Island. We're so excited to have you here. 213 00:10:02,800 --> 00:10:06,159 This phase is all about shame. 214 00:10:06,160 --> 00:10:09,999 Shame really interrupts pleasure. 215 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:13,119 And so we are shame warriors. 216 00:10:13,120 --> 00:10:17,479 We want to wipe away the shame that gets in your way. 217 00:10:17,480 --> 00:10:21,199 If I could shake off the shame of being a virgin, 218 00:10:21,200 --> 00:10:23,799 I'd feel a lot happier in myself. 219 00:10:23,800 --> 00:10:29,320 I feel judged and it's not something that I talk about, really. 220 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:33,759 First, Celeste and Danielle will perform 221 00:10:33,760 --> 00:10:36,079 an intimate demonstration designed 222 00:10:36,080 --> 00:10:39,519 to reveal the group's level of awkwardness and shame. 223 00:10:39,520 --> 00:10:43,120 So this demo is called Pillow Talk. 224 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:47,319 There's a bed. Oh, my gosh. Starting to feel a bit sick. 225 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:49,279 Yeah. Terrified. 226 00:10:49,280 --> 00:10:51,959 We want to find out who is comfortable watching intimacy 227 00:10:51,960 --> 00:10:55,799 and the different kinds of talk and touch that come with romance, 228 00:10:55,800 --> 00:10:57,639 that come with passion, 229 00:10:57,640 --> 00:10:59,959 that come with erotic energy. 230 00:10:59,960 --> 00:11:06,919 Oh, my God, your eyes are so beautiful and sexy. 231 00:11:06,920 --> 00:11:11,919 And the way you hold yourself turns me on so much. 232 00:11:11,920 --> 00:11:14,359 I think I'm going to have to smell you. 233 00:11:14,360 --> 00:11:16,360 Mm. 234 00:11:17,480 --> 00:11:18,480 Oh. 235 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:21,480 I feel so lucky... 236 00:11:23,960 --> 00:11:26,200 ...to be able to touch you. 237 00:11:28,240 --> 00:11:29,240 Mm. 238 00:11:33,160 --> 00:11:34,840 Ah. 239 00:11:40,600 --> 00:11:42,760 Any feelings watching it? 240 00:11:47,320 --> 00:11:49,639 Quite weird having to watch it with other people. 241 00:11:49,640 --> 00:11:50,679 It's a bit... 242 00:11:50,680 --> 00:11:52,919 Yeah, I think I just feel like a little bit guilty. 243 00:11:52,920 --> 00:11:55,679 I think, like, the idea of watching this 244 00:11:55,680 --> 00:11:58,559 and then being asked to, like, do that, 245 00:11:58,560 --> 00:12:00,120 that's like sinful. 246 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:05,759 Growing up as a Christian, you kind of feel you, 247 00:12:05,760 --> 00:12:07,039 you should be one way. 248 00:12:07,040 --> 00:12:09,559 Um, which is usually a very good way. 249 00:12:09,560 --> 00:12:12,679 I have to be kind. I have to be soft, 250 00:12:12,680 --> 00:12:15,959 but I have a sexual side to myself. 251 00:12:15,960 --> 00:12:18,159 It kind of brings on these feelings of shame 252 00:12:18,160 --> 00:12:20,399 and, and fear because you feel you're, 253 00:12:20,400 --> 00:12:23,239 you're doing something sinful for wanting to experience pleasure. 254 00:12:23,240 --> 00:12:26,560 And I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel right now. 255 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:33,079 We all have ideas and judgment and what we think we should be, 256 00:12:33,080 --> 00:12:37,079 and all those interventions frees us up. 257 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:39,919 The best way to work your way out of shame 258 00:12:39,920 --> 00:12:43,400 is to start to get a different reaction to shame. 259 00:12:45,760 --> 00:12:47,639 To help the group do that... 260 00:12:47,640 --> 00:12:50,439 You are going to get your scratch on. 261 00:12:50,440 --> 00:12:52,999 No, I ain't doing that. 262 00:12:53,000 --> 00:12:55,519 ...Celeste and Danielle start with a series... 263 00:12:55,520 --> 00:12:57,080 I am folding my arms. 264 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:00,439 This is just so awkward. 265 00:13:00,440 --> 00:13:03,239 ...of deliberately uncomfortable exercises. 266 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:06,039 Now, you're going to be a choo-choo train. 267 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:08,119 Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! 268 00:13:08,120 --> 00:13:09,559 Oh, my gosh. 269 00:13:09,560 --> 00:13:12,199 I see myself 270 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:17,959 as very socially awkward and sometimes weird. 271 00:13:17,960 --> 00:13:19,519 Shake it, shake it, shake it. 272 00:13:19,520 --> 00:13:21,799 I was diagnosed with autism. 273 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:24,399 I get nervous, I get stressed. 274 00:13:24,400 --> 00:13:26,799 My eye contact goes all over the place. 275 00:13:26,800 --> 00:13:29,639 Being a virgin, you just feel very isolated 276 00:13:29,640 --> 00:13:32,840 and you feel very ashamed of yourself. 277 00:13:34,560 --> 00:13:37,119 After the warm up, Celeste and Danielle raised 278 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:41,359 the stakes with a more challenging physical exercise. 279 00:13:41,360 --> 00:13:43,999 So I want a brave volunteer. 280 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:47,359 Somatic therapy is not just focusing on the brain, 281 00:13:47,360 --> 00:13:50,200 it's helping people in a more physical, experiential way. 282 00:13:51,560 --> 00:13:54,919 I'll do it. Go on, go on, Alex. 283 00:13:54,920 --> 00:13:57,639 For 28-year-old graduate Alex, 284 00:13:57,640 --> 00:14:00,999 going first is a chance to face his fears. 285 00:14:01,000 --> 00:14:02,999 Anxiety has played a massive part in my life. 286 00:14:03,000 --> 00:14:04,199 Going to private school, 287 00:14:04,200 --> 00:14:06,159 I put myself under a lot of pressure 288 00:14:06,160 --> 00:14:08,039 that if I didn't perform my best, 289 00:14:08,040 --> 00:14:09,319 I'd feel I'd let people down 290 00:14:09,320 --> 00:14:11,359 and never really knew how bad it was 291 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:14,439 until I tried to have sex and was too nervous to do it. 292 00:14:14,440 --> 00:14:17,519 Anything less than perfect is not good enough for me. 293 00:14:17,520 --> 00:14:20,839 So I'm going to start by touching you for my pleasure. 294 00:14:20,840 --> 00:14:24,239 And then you're going to touch me for your pleasure. 295 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:27,760 I'm starting by connecting with myself and feeling my body. 296 00:14:44,040 --> 00:14:45,040 Mm. 297 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:49,280 Ooh. 298 00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:52,319 Want to try? Yeah, sure. 299 00:14:52,320 --> 00:14:53,360 Mm. 300 00:15:07,360 --> 00:15:10,319 Was that OK? Really feeling it in your body, 301 00:15:10,320 --> 00:15:11,680 that's what we're going for. 302 00:15:13,240 --> 00:15:16,760 After Alex's attempt, others step up to give it a try. 303 00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:21,560 Can you, like, do it a bit harder? Harder. 304 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:28,280 While some get to grips with the exercise... 305 00:15:29,760 --> 00:15:32,200 How does that feel? It feels nice. Yeah? 306 00:15:33,520 --> 00:15:35,600 ...others can't even bear to watch. 307 00:16:08,320 --> 00:16:10,440 Anyone else want to give it a try? 308 00:16:13,440 --> 00:16:14,480 Counting one... 309 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:19,479 ...counting two, counting three. 310 00:16:19,480 --> 00:16:21,120 All right. 311 00:16:23,360 --> 00:16:25,799 Oh, my God. That's hard. 312 00:16:25,800 --> 00:16:27,919 Personally, that was a little bit creepy. 313 00:16:27,920 --> 00:16:30,039 I need to be able to be confident in myself 314 00:16:30,040 --> 00:16:31,839 to do the whole touching exercise. 315 00:16:31,840 --> 00:16:34,479 I believe the cool kids call it 'rizz'. 316 00:16:34,480 --> 00:16:36,279 I need to have good rizz. 317 00:16:36,280 --> 00:16:38,479 At the start, like, when they was doing 318 00:16:38,480 --> 00:16:40,239 all the "mm, mm, mm," you know? 319 00:16:40,240 --> 00:16:42,359 Oh, that, yeah. I thought we'd have to do that to each other. 320 00:16:42,360 --> 00:16:43,999 I was genuinely, I was petrified. 321 00:16:44,000 --> 00:16:45,239 No. Not today. Not today! 322 00:16:45,240 --> 00:16:47,239 That's intense for our first workshop. 323 00:16:47,240 --> 00:16:48,919 To throw yourself in as much as possible 324 00:16:48,920 --> 00:16:50,559 to experience all these cringe things 325 00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:52,959 and embarrassing things was a struggle. 326 00:16:52,960 --> 00:16:56,199 Joy, if you don't mind me asking, why was it so hard for you, 327 00:16:56,200 --> 00:16:57,679 the whole touching thing? 328 00:16:57,680 --> 00:17:01,119 Why did you get, like, a bit of a reaction to it? 329 00:17:01,120 --> 00:17:03,359 You don't want to talk? Yeah. Not really. 330 00:17:03,360 --> 00:17:05,039 No. No worries. 331 00:17:05,040 --> 00:17:08,479 That workshop was such an emotionally intense experience. 332 00:17:08,480 --> 00:17:10,319 To come on the island day one 333 00:17:10,320 --> 00:17:12,959 and be expected to have some kind of erotic energy, 334 00:17:12,960 --> 00:17:14,679 it's a really hard thing for me. 335 00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:18,559 I didn't realise how uncomfortable that might make me feel. 336 00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:21,480 Um, next time, I would walk out. 337 00:17:32,240 --> 00:17:34,359 It's so beautiful. Yeah, it is, isn't it? 338 00:17:34,360 --> 00:17:37,359 Oh! Come here. Come here. Lizzie! 339 00:17:37,360 --> 00:17:39,959 Oh, my God. I've never seen a lizard before. 340 00:17:39,960 --> 00:17:42,599 Ew! I don't like it. 341 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:44,039 Come out at night and nibble you. 342 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:46,679 I might have to tuck my trousers into my socks 343 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:48,279 in case it crawls up my leg. 344 00:17:48,280 --> 00:17:49,800 And he's gone. 345 00:17:50,800 --> 00:17:54,319 It's halfway through day one on Virgin Island. 346 00:17:54,320 --> 00:17:55,679 I don't want to name exact figures, 347 00:17:55,680 --> 00:17:58,599 but I think it was like one in eight people are virgins at 25. 348 00:17:58,600 --> 00:18:01,319 So in a room this big, it's like one and a bit people. 349 00:18:01,320 --> 00:18:04,399 Well, I think in this room, it'd be all 12. 350 00:18:04,400 --> 00:18:06,479 Oh, yeah! On an island, on a virgin island. 351 00:18:06,480 --> 00:18:08,200 THEY LAUGH 352 00:18:09,480 --> 00:18:13,039 Every day, the experts gather to evaluate progress 353 00:18:13,040 --> 00:18:16,359 and work out which therapies will be most effective. 354 00:18:16,360 --> 00:18:20,679 It's very interesting to see how they reacted to different exercises. 355 00:18:20,680 --> 00:18:23,879 Oh, they've got one-on-one sessions here, guys. 356 00:18:23,880 --> 00:18:25,119 Oh, my God. 357 00:18:25,120 --> 00:18:28,599 Afternoons are dedicated to individual therapy sessions 358 00:18:28,600 --> 00:18:32,479 for those working through specific intimacy issues. 359 00:18:32,480 --> 00:18:35,800 I don't know if I feel more calm or more stressed. Yeah. 360 00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:39,359 Everybody has this fear, like, "Oh, my God, 361 00:18:39,360 --> 00:18:41,519 "it's going to be so scary or uncomfortable," 362 00:18:41,520 --> 00:18:44,679 but you have to completely rewire your brain 363 00:18:44,680 --> 00:18:46,919 in order for change to really happen. 364 00:18:46,920 --> 00:18:48,080 Hi there. Hi. 365 00:18:49,720 --> 00:18:52,199 How do you feel? Kind of on edge, I guess. 366 00:18:52,200 --> 00:18:53,439 Mm-hm. 367 00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:54,799 The more you can be honest 368 00:18:54,800 --> 00:18:57,399 and drop into your truth without too much humour... 369 00:18:57,400 --> 00:18:58,599 Yeah. I can't promise you that. 370 00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:00,879 That is going to allow us to go somewhere. 371 00:19:00,880 --> 00:19:03,439 Oh, I don't like this. I don't like crying. 372 00:19:03,440 --> 00:19:05,399 I feel like I just can't relax. 373 00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:07,400 I'm still really scared and I'm not sure why. 374 00:19:10,720 --> 00:19:13,199 Out of all the reactions from this morning, 375 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:16,359 the experts were most struck by Joy's. 376 00:19:16,360 --> 00:19:19,599 When Will and Marianne were touching, 377 00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:22,999 I could see her... Some tears came out. 378 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:24,720 She really struggled with that. 379 00:19:28,120 --> 00:19:30,519 Something came up for you today in the workshop. 380 00:19:30,520 --> 00:19:32,919 Well, I feel like I have this weight on my shoulders 381 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,199 of like, I'm a Christian. 382 00:19:34,200 --> 00:19:35,759 You have to be good. Yeah. 383 00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:39,159 And experiencing sexual pleasure for, like, for fun. Mm-hm. 384 00:19:39,160 --> 00:19:41,359 How is that good? Yeah. 385 00:19:41,360 --> 00:19:43,119 But it isn't just feelings 386 00:19:43,120 --> 00:19:46,119 of religious shame that are holding Joy back. 387 00:19:46,120 --> 00:19:48,719 I know I have a sexual side to me. Mm-hm. 388 00:19:48,720 --> 00:19:51,359 But I have vaginismus. 389 00:19:51,360 --> 00:19:55,639 Vaginismus is a condition related to your pelvic floor 390 00:19:55,640 --> 00:19:58,319 and also has a psychological fear component 391 00:19:58,320 --> 00:20:00,959 around the idea of insertion or entry. 392 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:03,759 The moment I realised that I had vaginismus, 393 00:20:03,760 --> 00:20:05,759 it was like this whole idea of 394 00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:08,959 a sector of my life that could be just closed up. 395 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,599 I can't wear a tampon, I can't do a pap smear, 396 00:20:11,600 --> 00:20:13,639 and I definitely can't have sex. 397 00:20:13,640 --> 00:20:16,039 It's just, it's so hard. 398 00:20:16,040 --> 00:20:17,559 At one point, like, 399 00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:20,159 I literally thought that God cursed me with vaginismus. 400 00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:24,239 I thought he, like, I thought he did it to me to stop me from having sex. 401 00:20:24,240 --> 00:20:25,799 That's so intense. 402 00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:29,000 And I feel like it's hard to, like, undo that, that feeling. 403 00:20:30,200 --> 00:20:35,160 Maybe that first piece is about pleasure being good. 404 00:20:39,360 --> 00:20:42,319 I'm really tight. I'm really, like, anxious. 405 00:20:42,320 --> 00:20:43,879 I feel like I'm like, "No, it's not. No, it's not. 406 00:20:43,880 --> 00:20:45,159 "No, it's not." 407 00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:49,520 And that clench happens probably all the way into your vagina. 408 00:20:50,600 --> 00:20:54,039 So I want you to feel all of the tightness and the clenchedness. 409 00:20:54,040 --> 00:20:56,999 And then you can feel the contrast. 410 00:20:57,000 --> 00:21:00,000 Let's feel the clench. And then, uh... 411 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:11,239 Like a little shakiness happened in your... 412 00:21:11,240 --> 00:21:14,759 Did you feel it? Yeah. You know what that is? 413 00:21:14,760 --> 00:21:17,679 What? It's like a little tiny release of trauma... 414 00:21:17,680 --> 00:21:19,280 Oh, wow. ..from all the holding. 415 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:25,079 You deserve to have that circuit of pleasure. 416 00:21:25,080 --> 00:21:26,120 Thank you. 417 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:33,319 Shame gets in the way of sexual intimacy, 418 00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:37,759 and you cannot get to the other side of shame until you expose it. 419 00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:41,239 I feel a bit like in shock. It was... It was quite intense. 420 00:21:41,240 --> 00:21:43,879 I just hadn't even realised all the tension I'd been holding in my body. 421 00:21:43,880 --> 00:21:45,839 It just made me realise, like, 422 00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:47,960 how much I need this experience. 423 00:21:51,320 --> 00:21:53,039 For a gold-star lesbian, 424 00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:54,639 my mind is constantly in the gutter. 425 00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:56,399 What's a gold-star lesbian? 426 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,519 Gold-star lesbian is someone who has never had sex with a man. 427 00:21:59,520 --> 00:22:01,239 Ah, OK. 428 00:22:01,240 --> 00:22:03,199 The thought of a penis going near me scares me 429 00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:04,839 in a way that's like, "Ew, get away!" 430 00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:06,879 Nothing to do with you guys. No, no. It's cool. 431 00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:09,279 I get that. I'm like anything below their tummy, 432 00:22:09,280 --> 00:22:10,599 I'm like, nope. 433 00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:12,159 I mean, you probably all have amazing penises. 434 00:22:12,160 --> 00:22:14,239 I'm not saying that... Oh, my gosh. 435 00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:17,520 It doesn't matter, cos I come so quick, it don't matter. 436 00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:24,599 As the group starts to bond... 437 00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:27,999 Oh, this is really like giving hippy vibes, isn't it? 438 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:30,359 ...Celeste and Danielle aim to push them further 439 00:22:30,360 --> 00:22:31,479 in the next exercise... 440 00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:32,760 Hello. Hello. 441 00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:36,520 ...to help release their shame once and for all. 442 00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:39,519 All right. Well, as we said, 443 00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:41,919 this part of the course is all about shame. 444 00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:44,919 What we want you to do is write in your notebooks 445 00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:47,959 all the negative things people say about you 446 00:22:47,960 --> 00:22:52,679 and all the self-critical thoughts you keep repeating to yourself. 447 00:22:52,680 --> 00:22:54,239 We really need to get them out 448 00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,680 so that we can take the power away from them. 449 00:23:00,320 --> 00:23:02,359 Be careful. 450 00:23:02,360 --> 00:23:06,599 The group have been sent off in pairs to share their shame words... 451 00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:09,240 It's difficult. Yeah, I'm not exactly an open book. 452 00:23:10,360 --> 00:23:13,999 People see me as fat, ugly. 453 00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:17,039 ...and as they identify their insecurities... 454 00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:21,479 I don't like how I'm not at all that good socially. 455 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:24,359 It's why I've never been on a date before, really. 456 00:23:24,360 --> 00:23:27,599 ...their barriers come down. 457 00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,479 Ugly, unattractive to girls. 458 00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:33,959 Haven't been able to get a date in years. 459 00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,159 My anxiety, 460 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:38,519 particularly around intimacy and interacting with women. 461 00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:42,640 I...worry that I'm just not good enough. 462 00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:46,679 But 23-year-old Katie... 463 00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:48,959 Bad things people are saying about me. 464 00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,199 ...is writing more than most. 465 00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:54,359 I was once labelled the ugliest girl in school. 466 00:23:54,360 --> 00:23:58,519 Oh, my God. A whale, fat/obese, 467 00:23:58,520 --> 00:24:02,119 ugly, a liar, a monster, disappointment... 468 00:24:02,120 --> 00:24:06,279 ...and frigid, because I've never gotten with anyone before. 469 00:24:06,280 --> 00:24:07,280 Yeah. 470 00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:10,959 Oh, Katie... 471 00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,799 I know how it feels to have something horrible said to me. 472 00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:17,439 Sometimes I look in the mirror to make myself upset 473 00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:20,399 because I need a good cry - and it works. 474 00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:21,879 But I don't think there's ever been 475 00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:27,519 a time where I truly have felt good in my looks... 476 00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:29,799 ...ever, no. 477 00:24:29,800 --> 00:24:32,079 Are those things people have actually said about you? 478 00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:35,079 To my face or online - where I've seen. Online? 479 00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:37,719 Yeah, people that I know in person. Oh, my God. 480 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,120 Like, in real life. Have commented publicly? 481 00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,560 Yeah. Oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry. 482 00:24:53,640 --> 00:24:57,759 Figuring out the words, though, is only half the exercise. 483 00:24:57,760 --> 00:24:58,920 How did you find that? 484 00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:01,879 It was quite challenging. I was going to say the same. 485 00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:03,239 Yeah. It was quite hard. 486 00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:06,079 So, Joy, this one's for you. Thank you. 487 00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:09,999 Now the experts want them to write their words down on a T-shirt 488 00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,959 to confront and let go of their self-doubt. 489 00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:15,719 I'm going to invite you to narrow down, 490 00:25:15,720 --> 00:25:17,679 from all the things that you've written, 491 00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:20,079 which ones hold the most emotion, 492 00:25:20,080 --> 00:25:23,879 so that you can create a T-shirt that's a symbol of all of that. 493 00:25:23,880 --> 00:25:24,920 Mm-hm. 494 00:25:27,440 --> 00:25:29,999 I'm scared that I'm going to get upset. 495 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,799 Thinking back about all the memories and stuff from school, 496 00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:35,159 and all the bad things that I got told 497 00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:37,960 and I say to myself was quite difficult. 498 00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:44,800 But I really do want to be able to get as much out of this as I can. 499 00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:47,640 It's scary, though. 500 00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,399 Good morning. Good morning. Good morning. 501 00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:07,679 Hiya, guys! How are we going? 502 00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:09,119 Morning. 503 00:26:09,120 --> 00:26:10,799 Oh, we've got raisins. 504 00:26:10,800 --> 00:26:12,479 Don't tell me you're eating a lemon. 505 00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:14,999 I like lemons. SHE GASPS 506 00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:17,240 It's the morning on Virgin Island... 507 00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:20,559 I'm really nervous for today. 508 00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:24,039 ...and the sessions are set to become even more revealing. 509 00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:26,159 As we go through this phase, 510 00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:29,719 I do feel quite a big shame over myself, 511 00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:32,039 so I'm a little bit apprehensive. 512 00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:33,159 I was so nervous in the first workshop. 513 00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:36,159 My heart was going. I didn't realise how nervous I was. 514 00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,239 Sex and intimacy are meant to be natural 515 00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:40,079 and experienced by lots of people and enjoyed, 516 00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:42,639 whereas me, I sort of feel scared of them. 517 00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:44,559 Let's go. I never finish my food! 518 00:26:44,560 --> 00:26:47,719 I have no idea how far I'm going to go with this. 519 00:26:47,720 --> 00:26:50,520 You know, it's only going to get more intense from here. 520 00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:55,999 Having faced many hard truths... 521 00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:57,719 Hello! 522 00:26:57,720 --> 00:26:58,999 ...Celeste and Danielle's 523 00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:02,519 next exercise will challenge the group even further. 524 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:06,519 Oh, dear. What is this? A bed? Oh, no. 525 00:27:06,520 --> 00:27:10,719 ...with some exposure therapy, Virgin Island-style. 526 00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:12,879 Society gives these negative messages 527 00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,639 to us about what it means to be a sexual being. 528 00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:18,720 So it's really important to get comfortable with intimacy. 529 00:27:21,600 --> 00:27:27,319 Today you're going to be exploring erotic life drawing. Oh, no. 530 00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:30,359 We're going to invite our lovely models. 531 00:27:30,360 --> 00:27:32,320 There they are. Here they are. 532 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:37,599 {\an8}The only time I've seen a vagina or boobs is off, like, 533 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,399 {\an8}Sticky Vicky, when I went to Benidorm. 534 00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:43,239 {\an8}That is probably the only time I've ever really seen it in real life. 535 00:27:43,240 --> 00:27:46,799 I have seen some images online and I'm like, 536 00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:50,199 "Oh, actually, penises are a bit ugly." 537 00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:54,519 I know the different parts and the names of the female anatomy. 538 00:27:54,520 --> 00:27:55,639 But do you know what? 539 00:27:55,640 --> 00:27:59,839 I genuinely don't think I've seen one in person. 540 00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:04,479 I'm the most white-meat virgin you could possibly meet. 541 00:28:04,480 --> 00:28:08,480 Don't hide. Keep your eyes open and be curious. 542 00:28:24,120 --> 00:28:28,199 Oh, my God. So many naked parts right now. 543 00:28:28,200 --> 00:28:31,319 So, I don't want you to worry about showing off your artistic talent. 544 00:28:31,320 --> 00:28:34,519 It's really about looking at a naked body 545 00:28:34,520 --> 00:28:37,399 and letting yourself feel the sensuality of that. 546 00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:38,679 Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh. 547 00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:40,959 THEY CHUCKLE 548 00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:41,960 Just draw. 549 00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:46,679 I don't know where to start with this. Neither do I. 550 00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:48,999 Oh, we got this. 551 00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:53,839 We're expecting to see some discomfort, embarrassment. 552 00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:59,199 To be exposed to naked bodies, we can really see the comfort level. 553 00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:01,159 LAUGHTER 554 00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:02,640 Stop making me laugh, Jason! 555 00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:05,080 Embarrassing. 556 00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:10,119 I can't tell what's what. 557 00:29:10,120 --> 00:29:12,279 LAUGHTER 558 00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:14,280 All I can see is vaginas and boobs. 559 00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:21,080 Whilst the sight of naked bodies has everyone giggling awkwardly... 560 00:29:24,440 --> 00:29:26,160 ...Ellen is struggling the most. 561 00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:34,239 {\an8}Growing up, my parents would never talk about sex, 562 00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:38,239 and at the time there wasn't the internet, as there is now. 563 00:29:38,240 --> 00:29:42,639 I'm in my 30s, I am gay, and I've not had a relationship 564 00:29:42,640 --> 00:29:46,359 and I've not had experience around sexual intimacy. 565 00:29:46,360 --> 00:29:50,920 Sex - it's something that I feel anxious about. 566 00:29:55,960 --> 00:29:59,639 No one is seeing mine because it is absolutely terrible. 567 00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:01,239 You don't have to show me if you don't want to. 568 00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:04,039 One-second sneak peek. Done. 569 00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,439 Can I have a two-second sneak peek? No. 570 00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,799 So we really want to thank our beautiful models here. 571 00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:13,799 APPLAUSE 572 00:30:13,800 --> 00:30:15,520 Any thoughts that you want to share? 573 00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:21,199 I was instantly like, "Oh, my gosh. 574 00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:22,599 "Oh, my gosh, I shouldn't be watching this." 575 00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:25,360 I felt the discomfort of that. Yeah. 576 00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,879 It felt like you were literally watching, like, a group porno. 577 00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:34,119 I was like, "Oh, I want to look." 578 00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:36,479 But I was like, "Oh, it feels wrong to look." Yeah! 579 00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:40,879 The nudity felt a bit too soon for me. 580 00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,119 Despite being the oldest of the group... 581 00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:44,199 When you kiss someone, 582 00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:47,399 do you do it with your eyes open... No! ..or your eyes closed? 583 00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:50,039 Please don't be that person! LAUGHTER 584 00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:53,040 ...Ellen's lack of experience is clear to everyone. 585 00:30:55,560 --> 00:30:58,039 She was having a hard time to look at you. Yeah. 586 00:30:58,040 --> 00:31:00,919 I'm excited to have a session with her, 587 00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:03,520 to introduce her to the first steps of intimacy. 588 00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:09,559 With a storm approaching, Ellen's feeling a little flustered. 589 00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:11,280 Hello! It's windy. 590 00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:17,200 Ellen... 591 00:31:18,440 --> 00:31:21,880 ...you have a sexy smile. OK! 592 00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:27,639 We had a tiny, tiny little exchange of erotic energy. 593 00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:30,360 Yeah, OK. Yeah? Did you feel it? Um... 594 00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:34,879 No, but I guess I don't know what that feeling is 595 00:31:34,880 --> 00:31:36,879 because I've not experienced it before. 596 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:38,120 Yeah. Yeah. 597 00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:46,839 You know what I love? 598 00:31:46,840 --> 00:31:49,239 Awkward silences where you just look at each other. 599 00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:50,240 OK, yeah. 600 00:31:56,440 --> 00:32:00,079 A lot of times, that's what happens right before a kiss. 601 00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:01,080 Yeah. 602 00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:05,119 But I don't... 603 00:32:05,120 --> 00:32:06,359 I don't want that to happen! 604 00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:07,639 No, we're not doing that today. 605 00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:10,400 We're just talking in a flirtatious way. 606 00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:13,879 What do you think? Um... 607 00:32:13,880 --> 00:32:15,999 ...I'm thinking I'm fine as long as you're on that chair 608 00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:17,119 and I'm on this chair. 609 00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:18,839 I'm staying over here. Don't worry. 610 00:32:18,840 --> 00:32:20,960 CELESTE LAUGHS 611 00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:25,280 Thank you. Bye. 612 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:30,999 How was that, Ellen? Um, in my head, I was like, 613 00:32:31,000 --> 00:32:32,079 "OK, I'm going to jump in." 614 00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:33,999 And then, when I got in there, I was like... 615 00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:36,360 All of a sudden, just, like, my body closed up. 616 00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:40,319 I don't like the idea 617 00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:43,399 of someone coming into my personal space. 618 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,800 That's why I'm here. Like, I've never been very good at it. 619 00:32:46,920 --> 00:32:48,760 And I feel like a failure. 620 00:32:58,240 --> 00:33:00,799 So, are you into females, then? Or both? 621 00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:05,279 I am a straight, heterosexual male. Nice. You are...? 622 00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:07,560 You're bisexual, aren't you? Yeah. Yeah. 623 00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:09,999 Do you know what? It was so weird. 624 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:11,639 I had a dream last night of you guys. 625 00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:14,719 Mainly Alex. Weird. LAUGHTER 626 00:33:14,720 --> 00:33:18,159 I can't wait to tell Alex that! Hello! 627 00:33:18,160 --> 00:33:20,839 Did you know Katie dreamt about you last night? 628 00:33:20,840 --> 00:33:23,239 No, that's not... TEGAN LAUGHS 629 00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:25,599 So, what happened in the dream, Kate? 630 00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:26,639 She doesn't really know. 631 00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:27,640 I don't remember at all. 632 00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:32,559 Though Katie was dreaming of Alex, for him, 633 00:33:32,560 --> 00:33:35,559 yesterday's workshop was a nightmare. 634 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:38,559 I demoed with him yesterday. 635 00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:41,679 I felt he was really frozen. 636 00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:43,479 He can be a little in his head. 637 00:33:43,480 --> 00:33:46,039 So I'm curious, if we're going through exercises, 638 00:33:46,040 --> 00:33:48,439 if he's just going to perform them 639 00:33:48,440 --> 00:33:53,799 rather than actually experiencing sensation and emotions. Yeah. 640 00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:56,719 What did it feel like when you, like, touched him? 641 00:33:56,720 --> 00:33:59,399 Panicky. I don't know how calm it looked, 642 00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:01,879 or how I looked, but, yeah, my heart was going, 643 00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:02,920 I was shaking a bit. 644 00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:08,599 So Danielle's decided to dig deeper... 645 00:34:08,600 --> 00:34:12,919 Hello. Come on in. ...into what's holding him back. 646 00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:15,039 I feel your heart beating all the way to here. 647 00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:16,399 DANIELLE LAUGHS 648 00:34:16,400 --> 00:34:19,239 Sex for me has always been quite a nervous thing. 649 00:34:19,240 --> 00:34:21,919 I've always had anxiety. I've always had performance anxiety. 650 00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:23,879 Sports, homework, whatever. 651 00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:25,199 And so, the first time I tried to have sex, 652 00:34:25,200 --> 00:34:28,439 I couldn't get an erection because I was just too nervous. Mm-hm. 653 00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:32,759 Not being able to get an erection, it's constantly playing on my mind. 654 00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:34,599 It feels embarrassing even to say because it's like, 655 00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:37,159 "Oh, this is something that old people deal with." 656 00:34:37,160 --> 00:34:41,359 But I just feel, like, defeated by it. 657 00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:45,039 You spend a lot of time trying to control your body from your head. 658 00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:47,599 I want to invite you to start to let your body control - 659 00:34:47,600 --> 00:34:49,679 as opposed to the opposite. Yeah. 660 00:34:49,680 --> 00:34:53,199 So, what I want us to do now is for you to touch me... 661 00:34:53,200 --> 00:34:56,199 Mm-hm. ...and really let yourself enjoy. 662 00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:59,359 And do what feels good? What feels good to you. 663 00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:00,999 This time, Danielle wants to see 664 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:04,719 if Alex can fully immerse himself in his sensations. 665 00:35:04,720 --> 00:35:06,719 Are you OK for me to start? Yes, please. 666 00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:07,999 DANIELLE CHUCKLES 667 00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:09,240 OK, I'm going to start with your arm. 668 00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:28,639 DANIELLE EXHALES 669 00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:29,960 Then moving down to your chest. 670 00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:39,600 Mm. 671 00:35:47,160 --> 00:35:49,560 Mm. Penny for your thoughts. 672 00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:53,399 The main overriding thing is still 673 00:35:53,400 --> 00:35:55,799 that worry of not getting an erection. 674 00:35:55,800 --> 00:35:58,439 But this is like the building blocks. 675 00:35:58,440 --> 00:36:00,879 So I really want us to have soft goals - 676 00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:02,759 as opposed to hard goals. DANIELLE LAUGHS 677 00:36:02,760 --> 00:36:05,559 No pun intended! Yeah. 678 00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:08,639 Because your full body is like a big erection. 679 00:36:08,640 --> 00:36:12,839 You know, like, your full body is... a pleasure tool. 680 00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:17,479 It's not only your cock that's a pleasure tool. Do you get it? 681 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:18,880 Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. Yeah. 682 00:36:25,720 --> 00:36:29,199 What did you do? Just mutual touching, really. 683 00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,879 But I think I went into it thinking, "Oh, yeah, she'll cure me, 684 00:36:31,880 --> 00:36:34,399 "and I won't feel anxious ever again around women." 685 00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:36,719 But you're not going to get cured on the first session. 686 00:36:36,720 --> 00:36:37,720 Yeah. 687 00:36:41,200 --> 00:36:43,599 Oh, are you doing it like...? You do it like that? 688 00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:46,599 Really? I thought it was like that. 689 00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:49,799 Whilst the others start to embrace island life... 690 00:36:49,800 --> 00:36:52,719 ...Bertie is finding it harder to adjust. 691 00:36:52,720 --> 00:36:55,479 OK? I'm a mixture of all nerves. 692 00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:56,759 I don't like you sitting by yourself. 693 00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:58,959 I'm OK. 694 00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:01,719 I do feel like the weak link and the odd one out 695 00:37:01,720 --> 00:37:03,479 because I'm not very sociable. 696 00:37:03,480 --> 00:37:05,919 I'm still cautious. I'm still nervous. 697 00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:08,759 Are you OK, Bertie? I'm good. You all right? I'm all right, yeah. 698 00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:11,719 Just going to go brush my gums and do a dance. 699 00:37:11,720 --> 00:37:16,079 But what on earth am I going to be like in the days to come, 700 00:37:16,080 --> 00:37:18,480 when it gets more challenging and more intense? 701 00:37:19,760 --> 00:37:22,479 This whole island is... 702 00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:26,080 I-I-It's not just Virgin Island, it's Unpredictability Island. 703 00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:38,119 {\an8}Do you know what most women say 704 00:37:38,120 --> 00:37:40,440 {\an8}is the length they want to have sex for? 705 00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:46,199 4.5 minutes. Four and a half? Yeah. No! 706 00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:48,199 They WANT to have sex? No, surely not! 707 00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:50,159 Yeah. Yeah, they want sex - 708 00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:52,479 the actual P in V - to be 4.5 minutes. 709 00:37:52,480 --> 00:37:56,039 Really? What's "P in V"? Penis in vagina. 710 00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,320 Oh. That's good to know! WILL CHUCKLES 711 00:38:02,720 --> 00:38:05,359 It's mid-afternoon on Virgin Island. 712 00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:06,879 SING-SONGY: Bertie! 713 00:38:06,880 --> 00:38:07,999 How are you? Are you all right? 714 00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,759 I don't know. When everyone's all together, 715 00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:11,799 it just gets a bit awkward for me, you know? 716 00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:13,199 I like my... Oh, my God, I nearly fell off! 717 00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:14,639 I like my... 718 00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:16,319 My space a bit more. 719 00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:18,119 Just going to just take it easy for a bit, yeah? 720 00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:19,600 OK, I'll see you soon. No worries. 721 00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,359 In terms of sex, I've got no clue, 722 00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:28,359 which is pretty embarrassing coming from someone who's 24 years old. 723 00:38:28,360 --> 00:38:31,639 But I don't want to be alone my whole life. 724 00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:34,879 I just want to be able to live normally... 725 00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:40,319 ...and just find more confidence in myself. 726 00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:42,079 Hi. 727 00:38:42,080 --> 00:38:44,079 Celeste aims to start Bertie's route 728 00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:47,479 to intimacy by helping him with connection. 729 00:38:47,480 --> 00:38:49,280 Hello. Oh, hello! 730 00:38:53,120 --> 00:38:55,439 How do you feel about eye contact? 731 00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:56,719 A-ha! I knew that was going to come up. 732 00:38:56,720 --> 00:38:57,839 I am terrible at it. Yeah. 733 00:38:57,840 --> 00:39:00,239 My eye contact goes all over the place, 734 00:39:00,240 --> 00:39:02,439 no matter who I'm talking to. 735 00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:03,839 Well, I do feel like you... 736 00:39:03,840 --> 00:39:05,159 You think a lot. 737 00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,239 I am an overthinker. 738 00:39:06,240 --> 00:39:07,919 So I want too slow it down a little bit and, 739 00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:10,399 like, let your brain relax a moment, 740 00:39:10,400 --> 00:39:13,279 and then see what it's like to come back more deliberately 741 00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:15,200 and connect and look at me. 742 00:39:24,240 --> 00:39:26,999 This is a bit awkward, isn't it? Intimacy is super awkward. 743 00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:29,439 I know. That's not going to go away. Yeah. 744 00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:30,800 So let's just be awkward together. 745 00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:44,839 It's hard to take it seriously. It is. 746 00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,519 And you don't have to take it so seriously. 747 00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:49,279 You can think we're just having fun together. 748 00:39:49,280 --> 00:39:50,480 Yeah. Yeah. 749 00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:57,839 Yeah! 750 00:39:57,840 --> 00:39:59,919 You've got some good sexy eye contact. 751 00:39:59,920 --> 00:40:01,040 You might not know it. 752 00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:05,559 And now you're looking at me so much more. 753 00:40:05,560 --> 00:40:07,080 I feel connected to you. 754 00:40:09,360 --> 00:40:12,039 After Bertie perfects the sexy eyes... 755 00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:15,559 Great. So, if you want to scooch over a little bit. Yeah. 756 00:40:15,560 --> 00:40:18,360 ...Celeste decides to increase the intimacy. 757 00:40:20,880 --> 00:40:23,520 What if I, like, came in right there for a second? 758 00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:27,759 I mean, that was a bit weird, but OK. 759 00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:28,760 Yeah? 760 00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:33,959 Oh, that's so nice. 761 00:40:33,960 --> 00:40:37,319 You just perfectly, like, invited me and cuddled me. 762 00:40:37,320 --> 00:40:38,320 Wow. 763 00:40:41,120 --> 00:40:42,280 Mm. 764 00:40:44,720 --> 00:40:47,599 I really like it when you kind of rest your cheek 765 00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:48,959 against my forehead. 766 00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:51,199 Yeah, you're very nat... It feels natural. 767 00:40:51,200 --> 00:40:53,559 It feels natural - exactly. 768 00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:54,720 That feels good. 769 00:40:56,760 --> 00:41:01,560 It's not long before Celeste's technique boosts Bertie's confidence. 770 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:05,679 I was thinking of giving you a little kiss on the forehead. 771 00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:07,999 I felt that. I love that. 772 00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:09,039 What about... 773 00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:10,560 Can I... Go on. Yeah? 774 00:41:12,240 --> 00:41:13,240 Mm. 775 00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:17,199 Have I got a lipstick stain on it? Now you have a kiss. Excellent. 776 00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:21,599 You were hoping for a kiss. CELESTE LAUGHS 777 00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:22,959 Thank you very much. 778 00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:25,599 Love you! Bye! OK, bye! 779 00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:28,879 So, Celeste was... She was brilliant. 780 00:41:28,880 --> 00:41:31,279 And this has happened. 781 00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:34,919 And I feel a lot more relieved 782 00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:37,519 and a lot more at ease with everything. 783 00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:39,799 That was a bit of a confidence boost for me. 784 00:41:39,800 --> 00:41:41,999 Hi, Bertie. Hello! Are you OK? 785 00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:43,519 If you want to know how it went, 786 00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:45,919 what do you think? Let's go! Yay! 787 00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:47,800 LAUGHTER AND APPLAUSE 788 00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:50,359 Bertie is not going to wash his cheek. 789 00:41:50,360 --> 00:41:52,840 LAUGHTER 790 00:41:58,800 --> 00:42:00,959 As the sun sets on the retreat, 791 00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:03,320 the first phase of the course draws to a close. 792 00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:09,599 The first phase of the course has been really intense. 793 00:42:09,600 --> 00:42:11,959 Getting rid of shame is foundational to being able 794 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:14,079 to have a pleasurable sex life, 795 00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:18,399 but the way that they have taken it on, it's unprecedented. 796 00:42:18,400 --> 00:42:20,519 They all have challenges. They all have traumas. 797 00:42:20,520 --> 00:42:23,679 But every individual is beautiful and unique, 798 00:42:23,680 --> 00:42:26,560 and the sky is the limit in terms of what's possible here. 799 00:42:27,760 --> 00:42:31,959 To move forward, the group must let go of their negative emotions. 800 00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:35,079 Oh, my gosh, there's a fire! 801 00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:37,399 Hello, everyone! Hello! 802 00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:40,519 So the experts have arranged a ceremonial bonfire 803 00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:43,040 to burn away their lifetime of shame. 804 00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:48,399 We've asked you to face your shame directly. 805 00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:51,959 You have talked about it, put it on your T-shirts, 806 00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:55,279 and now it's time to let it go. 807 00:42:55,280 --> 00:42:58,199 The hope is this ritual marks a turning point 808 00:42:58,200 --> 00:43:01,279 and the start of the rest of their lives. 809 00:43:01,280 --> 00:43:05,799 So, for me, shame is feeling ugly. 810 00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:07,919 Um... 811 00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:09,559 Sorry. 812 00:43:09,560 --> 00:43:14,080 Um, yeah, I felt ugly, like, most of my life. 813 00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:21,399 And I feel ashamed of myself for, you know, putting on weight. 814 00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:22,559 So brave. 815 00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:24,919 APPLAUSE Are you ready to let it go? 816 00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:27,439 - Yeah, it's going in the fire. - Yes! ELLEN CHUCKLES 817 00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:31,799 Let it go, let it go, let it go! 818 00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:34,159 THEY ALL CHEER 819 00:43:34,160 --> 00:43:37,159 Physical appearance is a common theme. 820 00:43:37,160 --> 00:43:38,359 I look at everyone else around me 821 00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:39,999 and I think they're far more attractive. 822 00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:41,319 Never getting matched on dating apps. 823 00:43:41,320 --> 00:43:42,639 And it's... 824 00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:45,079 It makes me feel really crap about myself. 825 00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:48,639 Fat and ugly, unlovable, and I take up too much room - 826 00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:50,239 quite literally. 827 00:43:50,240 --> 00:43:53,479 I actually got voted ugliest girl in the whole school. 828 00:43:53,480 --> 00:43:55,719 Oh, my God! And depending on the people, 829 00:43:55,720 --> 00:43:58,719 I could be too loud or too quiet, so... 830 00:43:58,720 --> 00:44:02,959 Let it go, let it go, let it go! 831 00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:06,639 Woo! APPLAUSE 832 00:44:06,640 --> 00:44:08,919 NGE is "not good enough". 833 00:44:08,920 --> 00:44:11,879 I always feel like I'm falling short of a lot of things. 834 00:44:11,880 --> 00:44:16,839 Deep-rooted issues around self-worth are also shared across the group. 835 00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:20,319 I feel as though, like, I might be perceived as childish 836 00:44:20,320 --> 00:44:23,599 and that I'm a bit unambitious. 837 00:44:23,600 --> 00:44:27,599 I've been told I'm too loud, I'm too much for some people. 838 00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:29,759 And then that kind of leads on to the second point, 839 00:44:29,760 --> 00:44:33,759 which is that I'm unlikeable and unlovable. 840 00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:37,119 I've not had an adult relationship at all. 841 00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:40,799 I feel terribly unwanted - I seriously do. 842 00:44:40,800 --> 00:44:42,880 Are you ready to let it go? Yeah. 843 00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:49,519 Let it go, let it go, let it go! 844 00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:53,519 Let it go, let it go, let it go! 845 00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:56,520 CHEERS AND APPLAUSE 846 00:44:58,320 --> 00:45:00,999 JOY SOBS SOFTLY 847 00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:02,000 It's OK to cry. 848 00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:06,799 I think I've been carrying with me some feelings 849 00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,400 about myself since I was about 12. 850 00:45:11,640 --> 00:45:13,799 And I think having these horrible thoughts 851 00:45:13,800 --> 00:45:16,319 that I'm a horrible person 852 00:45:16,320 --> 00:45:20,839 and that people don't like me, and that I'm really dirty and sinful. 853 00:45:20,840 --> 00:45:22,599 JOY SOBS 854 00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:27,079 Let it go, let it go, let it go! 855 00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:30,999 CHEERS AND APPLAUSE 856 00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,359 Writing it down on the T-shirt was one thing, 857 00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:37,319 but to actually speak it out was liberating. 858 00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:38,399 Yeah. 859 00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:41,999 I found it really difficult to throw my top in the fire. 860 00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:45,680 I'm just hoping I can become more at one with myself. 861 00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:49,719 Shame is something that I specifically struggle with a lot. 862 00:45:49,720 --> 00:45:51,879 I feel a lot lighter. 863 00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:55,239 All of my worst things I think about myself are finally, like, out there, 864 00:45:55,240 --> 00:45:56,800 and I burned them. JOY CHUCKLES 865 00:46:00,160 --> 00:46:01,319 Next time... 866 00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:03,959 Your dick is connected to my pussy. Oh, God! 867 00:46:03,960 --> 00:46:05,519 ...it's the turn-on phase, 868 00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:08,279 where the group discover their animal instincts. 869 00:46:08,280 --> 00:46:11,240 There's another animal next to you. 870 00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:13,679 Oh, no! 871 00:46:13,680 --> 00:46:15,399 Emotions are laid bare... 872 00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:17,879 Quite sad that I'm still stuck with that feeling. 873 00:46:17,880 --> 00:46:19,119 MARIANNE SNIFFS 874 00:46:19,120 --> 00:46:20,279 MARIANNE SIGHS 875 00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:22,719 ...and for some, things are on the up. 876 00:46:22,720 --> 00:46:25,239 It felt really nice when you were brushing past my genitals. 877 00:46:25,240 --> 00:46:27,840 Would you like me to do that? Yeah, yeah. 67982

Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.