All language subtitles for Naked.Snctm.S01E08.en

- Beverly Hills is home to
some of the most wealthy

and powerful people
in the world.

They drive the finest cars,

shop at the best boutiques,

and they live in the
most outrageous homes.

They also have access
to the most exclusive

and high end erotic club, ever.

I created that club,
it's called Snctm.

(upbeat electronic music)

Snctm is a secretive society

where we do a black
tie masquerade,

private dinner parties,
and an erotic theater.

It's a place for my members

to explore their
wildest fantasies,

and learn about their
true sexual selves.

Welcome to my world.

(upbeat electronic music)

- [Woman] I have some
like, gnarly marks

from being spanked and stuff.

- What am I gonna
do with you, Jacque?

What's like the craziest
kind of BDSM experience

that you've had?

Do you like to be choked?

- Oh yeah.

- [Man] Have you
ever been choked out?

- Um, almost.

- And was that something
you kind of enjoyed,

or were you like, what
the fuck are you doing?

- No I loved it.

It was an ex of mine.

- [Man] You do, you loved it.

- It was a lot of fun.

- You liked it.

- I feel like sexuality
is kind of a taboo thing,

and alternative interests,
sexually, especially,

and I feel like
Snctm allows people

to start that conversation
a little bit more.

- What's the most extreme
kind of fetish experience

you've personally had?

- To be honest I never
really had an extreme fetish.

- Come on.

- I never did.

- Come on.

- That's crazy, really.

- [Jacque] That's such bullshit.

- [Man] Okay,
what's the craziest?

- Yeah, I mean I like to
watch all kinds of fetishes,

I have like this
fetish for fetish,

so I like to watch
and create things.

I watch some porn, sometimes,

and like, I get like
ideas from there,

which are put into the shows.

I also like to talk to some
of the guests sometimes,

and like see like
what's their fetishes,

what they like,
would like to have,

what they would like to see,

so I kind of like trying
to create this vision,

this fantasy world for them.

I like to see
different fetishes,

and then, you know
base those stories

around those fetishes.

But never anything crazy
that I like really did.

- Tied up, spanked?

- I'm not into that at all.

- None of it at all.

- No.

- You look nervous.

- [Alina] What are
you thinking about?

- No I'm not nervous,
but I think I'm pretty,

vanilla when it comes to fetish.

- I don't think so, I
know what you're into.

- I don't know what
he's talking about.

- I mean you like to
eat ass and pussy and--

- Oh, Nick.

- And like anal, and all that.

- That's not a fetish like--

- But that is fairly advanced.

I mean you've got a
fairly advanced palate,

you know, you do.

I would not call you vanilla.

- With Snctm I've learned
that it's good to have desires,

and it's okay to be uncertain
whether your partner

will want those desires or not,

and if she doesn't,
or he doesn't,

then it's fine, you've said it.

And it goes for anything
from different positions,

to bringing other people
in your relationship.

There's a wide range
of desires and fetishes

and kinks that everybody has.

- So this is very interesting,
because I'm the same.

I would consider myself
pretty vanilla, myself.

Like I am, I love sex,

and I love sexuality,

and like I can tie
someone up and I enjoy it,

but like, I don't need it.

Snctm has begun a conversation
about the exploration

of our fantasies
and our desires,

and sexuality is still
incredibly repressed,

and I think Sanctum represents
the opposite of repression.

And this is weird, because as
the people who run this thing,

we're all pretty--

- Prude.

- I have an incredible
life, and it's beautiful,

and I'm grateful as fuck.

My philosophy on dating
right now lierally,

is just to be real,

and just be open and be honest,
and that's what I'm doing.

And I'm finding that I'm
with some really beautiful,

intelligent, wonderful people

who seem to really care for
me, and I care for them,

and I can feel
connections happen,

people get close to me,

but I'm not committing
myself to anybody.

There's a part of me
that feels uncomfortable

or bad about it, because I know

that I'm not really
giving anyone my heart.

But there's really not
a day that goes by,

that I don't wish that
I was falling asleep

with Melissa, and waking
up with my kids upstairs.

I found my person 20 years ago,

but we both changed so much.

We love each other deeply
and we always will,

and we talk about that thing
of getting back together,

but I don't know
if it's possible.

(upbeat electronic music)

- We're both very different.

We have like this,

we connect in a
different dimension,

is what I was saying.

I can talk with you about things

that I can't talk with
other people about.

- Like what?

Like what, our crazy
stuff at night?

Yeah, I know what you mean.

- My boyfriend is Eyal,

he is from Israel.

We've been together
for almost five years.

Bread looks good.

- I know you like it.

- We know, always when
we go to restaurants,

if the bread is good--

- So everything else is good.

I met Alina through a friend.

Her ex-business partner, she
was a friend of mine before,

and Alina used to
have a boyfriend

and I was just waiting for
her and him to separate.

Waiting on the side,
waiting, waiting, waiting,

until the day came,
and then we dated.

- I was following
the shoes, remember?

Like the ballet shoes?

And they supposed to be
black, they turned out blue,

so I have to like
fix it, like now.

- I saw the painting
at the apartment.

That's okay.

- I don't even know like
what to do for that.

- Stop being so stressed
on this, come on.

- It's what it is,
it's stressful.

- Yeah, but it always works
very good, everyone's happy.

- I know.

- I know that a lot of people

think of her as like very cold.

She seems very unintimidated,

at the beginning,
she's very stiff,

but I mean I see
her differently.

When she's home she's
like a marshmallow.

What is gonna be in the party?

Jonathan's working?

- Jonathan is working,

Arya, Jacque, Holly, the usual.

Tonight is the big
Allegma Creatives,

our big main party,

so yeah, there's a
lot of like stress.

- What else are you planning?

- So it's gonna use the unicorn
painting, the ballerina,

and then later for the main
show, I have a piano player.

So he's gonna play piano,

and then the ballerina comes
in, and she does like a dance.

I will try to do
it on the piano.

- Really?

What is he a porn star or

just some piano player?

What?

Who's gonna be the painter?

Johnathan?

- Yeah, I'm making
him a unicorn,

and then he's gonna
paint like a picture.

- I should make something like

on his dick, like with a brush,

like an extension or something.

- The best part of
the relationship with
Alina is the trust.

We trust each other,
I trust her 100%.

We're different, but we
also a lot of similarity.

She just understands me
and I understand her.

So where do you find
all these people?

- I know, right?

- I want to go to
the party, Johnathan.

- We have another event out
here in Los Angeles tonight,

and it's always a great
time, but there are times

that I have these roles at
Snctm that I'm not happy with,

and playing those roles.

You already know Alina.

She wants me to do a few
things I don't want to do,

and she's you know,

pushing for it, and
I'm pushing back.

- Are you comfortable
telling me like what,

what it is that she
wants you to do?

- I don't think your mind would
be able to wrap around it.

Being in a relationship
with Tracy,

while I do these
Snctm events is,

pretty hard.

I try to keep them
two separately,

and I always have to kind
of sugarcoat everything.

- I mean it can't be worse than

you being in the hot tub with
the naked girls the other day.

- Where are my floaties?

She's actually had me
do far worse things.

- You know she asked
me to come, right?

- Really?

- Why do you look so, uh,
stressed out about that?

- There's a reason why
I don't invite you,

because I know you too well.

- I really didn't even
know about this world,

until him, I've never
had a threesome.

I've never done anything
publicly, like I'm

for all intents and
purposes of a word,

like a conservative.

But I feel like I want
to find these things out,

you need to know,

even if it's gonna hurt
me, like I need to know.

- There are certain things that

are gonna happen that
you might not like.

I have roles to play,

and I have things that
I've got to take care of.

So, you've been warned.

Ok, what else do we have to do?

- When we do a masquerade
there's a lot to think about.

Whether it's LA or New
York, I've got work to do,

and I'm trying to be set
up the day before, already.

That one has a lip
gloss mark on it.

I'm gonna text
Sonja to make sure.

I have everything that I
need by the day before,

so on the day of,

I hit my checklist,

and all the way leading
up to 10 o'clock.

Ice is here?

- Yep.

- It just got delivered?

- He already delivered it.

- You have a Sharpie for that?

Okay that's good.

- You think you'll be able to
like, stand still for a while?

- Yes.

- The parties in L.A. they're
just like so much better.

The energy, the weather
is like the furnace.

It's a different feel.

So it's very easy to find
just more open-minded girls,

that are just more like,

you know a little
bigger boobies,

and they're much more
like, cutesy girls,

more easy going I guess.

Like how LA is.

- Bring my fucking pens.

I'm gonna need like
at least three.

For myself.

- No, actually we can't
have people drinking.

- I'm usually not (muffled).

- I can leave, it's
not a big deal.

It's okay.

- Worst thing that can happen,
we had this situation before,

where I had a lamp, she
was part of the show,

she's supposed to stand still,

and then there was a performance
happening around her.

She had one too
many drinks I guess,

so she was like, wobbly,
she couldn't even stand.

- So first you stay
lamp, for like,

a little bit longer.

It's not easy to be a lamp.

So, this is was like really
one of the bad situations,

where the lamp was like,

I was scared that she's
gonna fall or something.

Please, drink you
water, no alcohol, okay?

- You know about
us through Donna.

- No, I know about you through
kind of everybody in LA.

- Why have we not talked
before this moment?

- Probably because both
of our lives are insane.

- Okay.

Neil Strauss is a writer,

and has forums and
conversations around sexuality,

and what it is to be a man,

and how to, sort of,
navigate through

the rules that have been
set up around sexuality.

This butt.
-That butt.

It's all about this butt
right here.

So he's knowledgeable,

and we got to know each
other a bit before the party.

I don't know what's
right or wrong,

I just know that,

the sex, the endless
stream of sexuality,

is like eating so much lobster,

and burgers and mashed potatoes,
and never getting full.

- It's a black hole.

- Yeah, it's clear to me now
that that's not what I want.

Now the other side of
the coin is, is monogamy.

- Right.

- And, you know, that is also

hard for me.

- Right, 'cause
you're gonna be there,

and you're gonna wanna go
taste the lobster.

- Yeah, I mean,

and no matter how in love I am,

it's been challenging
for me to be monogamous.

Are we meant to be monogamous?

Or is it a wound that
needs to be healed,

that causes us to cheat

or to stray from our
partner, et cetera?

- We're not designed
to be monogamous.

That's the way that
we're designed.

- I know now, after two years of

full exploration,

I mean I've had every
fantasy fulfilled,

everything that I
could ever dream of,

with multiple
partners, I mean just--

- That's what I did.

- I know you did.

- I went, I tried living
with a girlfriend.

- Did it fulfill you?

- Absolutely not.

- It didn't fulfill me either.

So now I'm coming back to
this place where, I want love.

We need to have this discussion.

We need to like, you
know test the water,

and be honest and be real.

I mean that's part of the reason

I started Snctm
in the first place.

There was no one to talk to,

so I created like a
little world around me,

where I could talk about
it, and explore it,

and indulge in it with
other people that I,

must be asking the same
questions as I was.

- The question is,

do you really want to like
have love and intimacy,

or do you walk around
kind of saying you do,

but making the same mistakes
over and over again?

- Right.

I learned something
from that conversation.

All this stuff doesn't work.

And I've known it for a while,

but it hasn't stopped me
from walking this path.

I keep repeating this story,

about wanting to
be with my wife,

and wanting to put my
family back together.

I've told that story so many
times that I believe it,

but I don't know if it's true.

And I don't want to
be walking around

telling myself some
story that's bullshit.

I'm searching for
something right now,

and I'd be lying if
I didn't say that

there was a pain in my heart,

and I'd be lying if I didn't say

that I feel it every
day of my life.

But like, I don't know that
I'm a monogamous creature.

I don't know that I could just
give up all of them for one.

How are you tonight?

- Good.

- Welcome.

- Thank you.

- Hey, how are you doing?

Good to see you, welcome.

I'm doing great thank you.

-Where you from? You just
got here?

- I'm Johnathan's girlfriend.

- The painter, the artist?

- Yeah.

- [Woman] Oh.

- I've never been
to his work before.

- The way it felt,
by Tracy being there,

and me being a
unicorn and painting,

was the fact that I'm
facing a painting.

I know Tracy's in
the background.

- [Tracy] I don't know
what to do with myself.

- [Tracy] Oh my.

- I'm worried about
what she was doing,

how she was looking at me,

what she felt.

I don't know.

- [Alina] How do you like
Johnathan as a unicorn?

- It's very different,

I'm very grateful also
that you allowed me.

Like he really didn't
want me to come.

- Oh, really.

- So we were like kind
of fighting about it.

- So maybe that's why the
painting is not that great.

Because it just moves.

Let me know at the
end of the night,

like how you liked it, or
like if there was something,

I just hope like
you guys will be okay,

and you're not gonna flip out
if you see something wrong.

Please?

- Oh yeah, I will, thank you.

- But you know it
means a lot to me,

so I want everyone to be happy.

- [Tracy] It's just the only
thing is like when the guests

come and they're touching,
I just can't be seen.

Like that is hard
to get used to.

- Do I feel any special by
these women touching me? No.

It's just another day at work.

- [Tracy] Oh, oh, oh my.

- But having her there,

I'm afraid that
she might explode,

and create a scene,
while I'm working.

(piano music)

(group applauding)

(piano music)

(dramatic orchestral music)

(group applauding)

- How many minutes do we got?

- What do you mean?

No minutes, it's like now.

- Before my performance, I
wanted to check in with Tracy,

to make sure that
she's comfortable with
what they're doing,

and what's going
on in front of her.

So what did you think?

- You have to give me time
to like, warm up to this.

This is the first time
I've ever seen you do,

anything that you do.

It just makes me think
about everything.

- Well, I don't think this is
the right environment for you.

You know, I care
about you a lot,

and you mean a lot to me.

I just don't want
you to hate me, okay?

- [Tracy] Okay.

- I gotta get going.

I have to perform next.

- I should leave, but I
don't like to ever like,

just give up.

(dramatic orchestral music)

Everybody has their own
way of looking at life.

Everyone has their own way
of living their own lives,

but this is a whole
new world to me,

and some of the things,
this is too much.

He told me that, he
will do these events

as long as they let him.

If I were to be with him,

and want to have
a family with him,

I know that he would still
be doing these events,

and it's really hard because,

I've just spent so many
of my emotions on him,

and I feel like

like, sorry,

I get so worried and
upset and stressed.

It just makes me a mess and
I never used to be like this.

I do want him to
leave this lifestyle,

but I don't think
he's ready to do that.

So, I don't know.

(phone ringing)

- [Voice On Answering
Machine] Hi, you've reached

Melissa, leave me a message.

I'll call you back.

- Hey Mel, it's
Damon, how are you?

Just wanted to see you.

Give me a call when
you get the message.

Okay, I love you, bye.

You know, seeing Johnathan
and his girlfriend

unhappy and fighting,

and confused and hurting,
like I could totally relate.

Thinking about my wife and my
kids, and wanting that back,

and I start to feel sad or
lonely,

and the biggest thing
standing in between

me and her being back
together is Snctm.

I miss you, I love you.

- [Melissa] I know,
I love you too.

- My heart is
still with Melissa.

And I miss her and
my kids, every day.

But I've got to make some
changes if I want them back.

Hello?

- [Melissa] Hey Damon.

- Hey Mel, how are you?

- [Mellissa] Good.

(solemn jazz music)