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Tell me.

HE SIGHS

It's difficult.

Cat's been calling?

Do you want her to come round?

No.

HE SCOFFS

You have to mix the worlds at some point.

Do you want to be here?

Yes.

Yes.

I had a dream I was learning

Then your love took it from me

I had a dream I was learning

Then your love took it from me

I had a dream I was learning

Then your love took it from me

Ask me what I think I believe I need to see you.

Think I should start jogging.

You've been saying it for years.

THEY CHUCKLE

We could do it together.

Yeah, could get matching Lycra.

DYLAN LAUGHS

We could.

TOM CHUCKLES

As long as you wear the hot pink.

DYLAN LAUGHS

LAUGHTER ON TV

DYLAN EXHALES SOFTLY

Tips.

- AUTOMATED VOICE: - Thank you.

CHILD SQUEALS

What did you get?

They'll get to us.

They're busy. Everyone wants their time.

You trying to get me fat?

Trying? I'm succeeding, you big lump.

Speak for yourself. You're spilling over those trousers.

Thanks.

I don't know, I'm scared she won't be interested.

I don't know about that, man...

Er... Um...

Mum, are you...are you OK?

Yeah, you know, I'm good. I just... I was passing by.

Pa... Passing by?

Yeah, I was nearby, thought I'd pop in.

Are they... Are they your friends?

They look nice.

Um, do you want to, um...

Do you want to go to the cafe?

- Yeah. - OK. - Yeah

Yeah, OK.

Do you think I could have come to a place like this?

Mum, of course.

You would have been president of all the unions.

What's going on, Mum?

I've given you guys a bad childhood...

..haven't I?

We had a great childhood.

Everything we needed.

But your dad and the work...

Kids shouldn't be exposed to that.

You shouldn't have been exposed to that.

It was always Dad pushing that world into our lives.

I went into it with my eyes open.

And he gave you no other choice.

That doesn't mean you can't want something different now, Ma.

I've...no idea what I want.

That's OK.

Me neither.

Right, look.

That's Matthew.

He was shipped off to boarding school as soon as he could breathe.

Works away in here till 1am or 2am every day.

Obviously hates himself.

Her - had to grow up watching her dad verbally abusing her mum.

No idea how to navigate a relationship with men now.

Not sure what's wrong with that guy

but something definitely is.

SHE SNORTS

You did a great job.

Let's have some food. They do a great pasta.

Hmm, it's a bit carb heavy...

Oh, carbs, carbs, carbs! Come on.

Let's have a carb day for once.

OK.

SHE CHUCKLES

You were snoring again.

I don't snore.

The neighbours beg to differ.

Was it the nice kind of snoring or the bad kind?

The nice kind.

IMITATES DEEP GUTTURAL SNORING

Shut up!

MUSIC: Of Amber by Jacob Alon

SIZZLING

Mm.

Lovely.

You OK?

Not really.

I'm sorry, Mum.

Are you OK?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you...

..when dad said he was leaving.

I know. I know you are.

You had your own loss going on.

Dad came by.

To pack up his stuff.

I'm sorry, I couldn't bear to tell you.

I fucking hate him.

Me too right now.

Come here.

SHE SIGHS

Men!

CAT CHUCKLES

Ho, coneheid!

SHOUTING

It's cold.

Come back to bed.

Yeah, give me a minute.

You know what?

I like having you here.

- Luke? - Um...

- Hey, what are you doing here? - Um...

- This is my boy Luke. - Dad, can we talk?

Er...not really, no. I've got an appointment.

I can get myself there.

You can't get yourself back.

Well, that gives you a couple of hours to talk.

It's good to meet you.

You too.

We need to go, hurry up!

- Chloe. - I don't want to go! - Come on,

Mum wanted to come.

Said she's been calling.

She has.

Um...

Y-You liking it here?

Yeah?

- Um... Tea with milk. - Mm-hm.

- Black coffee. - OK. Any food?

- No, I'm good. - Me too.

OK.

Black coffee?

What happened to your hot chocolates?

LUKE CHUCKLES SOFTLY

Are you, then?

- Am I what? - Um...

Liking it here?

It's different.

Not as much football.

- Thank God! - Aye.

Aye.

And...um, Tom?

How is, um...that going?

Fine, yeah.

Um...

I-I think Mum's worried about Sam and Shannon.

Listen.

It's going to take a little bit of time to adapt.

She thinks Sam won't look out for them.

What if something happens to Mum or Shannon?

It's not...

- It won't. - You don't know that.

It won't, Luke.

Look, Dad, I want you to be happy. Truly.

Could you just answer the phone to Mum

so I don't have to be a go-between?

Call Nan back? Just something?

I can't right now.

- Thank you. - Thanks.

LUKE SIGHS

Were you and Mum ever happy?

Like truly happy?

We were best friends.

That's a lot of life to have sacrificed for you both.

What about you?

Are you happy? Do you like it here?

Do you think...

Do you think you'll end up staying?

- I like it here, yeah. - Yeah?

What do you like about it?

HE SIGHS

I don't know.

- I like the people. - Mm-hm.

I like being no-one.

I like my friends not being scared off by my family,

the girls I like not being scared off by Mum.

I guess I feel like I can breathe.

That sounds silly, right?

Feeling good.

You look good.

I'm concerned about your cholesterol, though.

I did just have a packet of crisps.

I don't think it'll just be the crisps. I'll send you home with

a list of things to keep an eye out for in your diet.

How are you feeling about starting the chemo?

OK. Yeah, ready.

When you come in next, it'll be the induction stage of the therapy.

Sorry, doctor, but, I mean, that's a big decision to make, no?

Seems crazy to decide that after ONE medical opinion.

There must be some other avenues we can explore, no?

I'm afraid the NHS doesn't really work like that.

I'm the only specialist in this hospital.

Look, we've got to go private.

No. I like it here.

It's shite.

I like my doctor. He knows my history.

You will get more care. Better care.

- No. - I'll pay.

Will you stop throwing your weight around?

It's my life and my health.

DYLAN SIGHS

I'll get the car. You get the prescription.

Oh, come on.

Pal?

Hey, pal, come on.

What am I, like ten, 20 minutes late?

It's a busy area and late's late.

I was in the hospital.

There's a lot of that around here. Somebody else might've needed

- your spot for an appointment. - Come on, give me a break.

You're just a fucking prick, aren't you?

Oi, watch your tone!

- Watch my tone? - Aye.

SOUND DISTORTS

Oh...

OK.

PHONE BUZZES

INAUDIBLE

You two, you should come over.

You know, the...the pork toast, it's incredible.

No, I can't, I've got to watch my cholesterol now.

Oh, well, they've got salads.

- Oh, my God... Let's get a taxi now! - Don't! - I need to eat that salad!

No, they're really good, honestly.

What about you? Do you like your food?

If it's beige then I'll eat it.

LAUGHTER

I can't get him to accept vegetables just yet.

I saw him inhale a multipack of six croissants this morning.

- French kwah-sonts. Croissants. - Croissants.

Sorry, darling. So cultured!

Yeah, always been a cultured boy, our Rich.

Certainly have.

I can't go to France any more. I start sneezing.

- I'm allergic. - To France?

To the grass, I think. I think it's like a hay fever problem.

Oh, right. Just in France?

I don't know that it's all the time but the last I was there,

- it was, like, bad. - That's weird.

That IS weird.

VOICES FADE

- Just going to get a refill. - OK.

You got any holidays booked?

She wants to go away...

- It was nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you.

- That was really nice. - Yeah. - Thank you.

- Take care. Bye. - Get home safe.

You OK?

I spoke to Cat.

Yeah?

HE EXHALES SHARPLY

That go OK?

Bit of shouting and swearing to begin with, but...

..to be expected.

Things aren't going well with Sam.

The family OK?

He's being impulsive.

Violent.

Acting without thinking.

He always had that in him, but...

..I guess I was able to keep it in check.

Now he's in charge...

Could you talk to him?

I think it's beyond that.

You're worried about them.

I can't go back.

I can't.

I know.

You don't have to right now.

I was so good at that job, but...

..I can't imagine doing it again.

HE INHALES SHAKILY, SIGHS

What made you good at it?

I was always willing to do anything for the family.

The kids.

The people I loved.

Anything.

I couldn't always talk to them but...

..but I could make sure they had everything, you know?

But then...

Well, after a while it just becomes...

..normal.

And the more you do it...

..the harder it is to step away.

Did you want to? Step away?

Not at the time.

I was always doing it for somebody.

My dad.

Then them.

BREATHES SHAKILY

Then I started to love the feeling.

Walking into a room...

..and everybody knows you're there.

The entire community treating you like a hero.

That feeling...

..I can't describe it. It's...

..pure power.

I've done things, Tom...

I've done...

I've done some bad things.

Do you think I'm evil?

I think you survived.

I think you found your place in a hard world.

I love you.

I love you for you.

VOICE BREAKS: Every part of you.

I love the Dylan inside my flat...

..and I love the Dylan outside of it.

But if this is the world that you truly want to be in,

then you need to let your family into it too.

DYLAN SIGHS HEAVILY

Hi, Shan.

Love, I'm sorry, I know you hate voice calls.

I want you to know that...

..you and Luke mean the world to me.

Shannon, I'm so sorry for what happened.

For what you've had to see.

And I know your heart must be breaking right now.

HE SIGHS

I've been so selfish.

I realise Arran meant a lot to you.

There are things about our family,

about me that you don't know.

Let me explain

why I'm in this world.

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MUSIC: Square Pegs In Round Holes by Franc Moody

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