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Hello? Pedro, you're still at the hotel?

What's going on?

You were supposed to be at CBS half an hour ago.

Hello? Who is this?

This is Cheryl.

Cheryl from MTV.

Listen, just go downstairs and helicab. There'll be plenty at this time of day.

Okay. Okay, get moving.

Sir Samora?

Sir Samora, hotel security.

Sir Samora?

Coming in.

You remember to get the tape?

Of course. Hi, my name is Peter Zamora, and I... Oh, my God.

No, no, no, no.

Just like giving a lecture, okay?

Rolling and action.

Hi, my name is Peter Zamora, and I'm 21 years old, and I came from Cuba in 1980

on the Mario boat lift with 125 ,000 other Cuban refugees.

I just got out of a three and a half year relationship with an asshole, I

to say it.

Okay, I guess I'm just looking for Mr. Wonderful.

I really like the feeling of sharing my life with one person.

My first wish would be to have my family together again and bring my brothers

over from Cuba.

My second wish would be to see my mother again, even if it was just for a little

while. My third wish would be to have a cure for AIDS.

I feel I can deal with anything as long as it's honest.

And that's one of the reasons I can do my job.

Because I like people to know who I am and what I am.

This is stupid.

No, it's not. It's sexy.

It's icing on the cake.

Don't be nervous. Who cares what these MTV people think?

Not that. I gotta go to the bathroom.

You have no belly again?

I can't hold it, Millie.

Okay, hold on. We'll find some more.

At least we know every fast food place in Miami, Pele.

All right, let's go home. I'll make you lunch. We don't need this thing.

No, we're going to the interview.

Pedro, es que todavía no sé por qué está haciendo esto.

Hermana Cabezona, if you're not going to join me, I will walk. I'm not kidding.

Yo, Cabezona. You're calling me Cabezona.

Pedro.

Fine.

I may be Cabezona, but I'm right.

So why don't you call yourself Pedro?

I only use Pedro with my family. All my friends call me Peter.

Pedro's such a great name. Would you mind using him for the show?

No, Pedro's fine.

But you're healthy right now.

Oh, yes. It never felt better. My T -cell count is way up. What would you do

one of your roommates had a problem with your HIV status?

Well, if you come up to me and you say, Peter, I mean Pedro, you're HIV

positive. And I really am having a big problem dealing with that.

Then I will tell you... You know, Mary Ellis, you have a right to feel that

But this is who I am.

And I don't have to apologize to anybody for it.

And we're going to have to deal with it.

What do you like to do for fun? Like, what did you do last night?

Last night I went to see Schindler's List, the Steven Spielberg movie.

Did you like it?

I loved it.

And you know, as I was leaving, I had this really great thought.

That it doesn't matter whether I die of AIDS or whether I survive.

In the big scheme of things, what matters is death.

I stood up, and I was counted.

And I said, I'm a person living with HIV, and this is who I am.

Are you always this on message?

There's no escaping it, John.

But I also like roller skating, Madonna, and Bush Black Men.

I heard they have those in San Francisco, too.

My name is Judd Winnick, cast member of the Real World San Francisco.

The cast moved in February 12, 1994, two years ago.

We all lived in this amazing house, cameras following our every move.

I've got Pedro and Corey.

Okay, we are rolling.

Thank you.

Okay, can I have a Dutch angle? Steve, can I have a Dutch angle, please?

Thank you, very nice.

Okay, Pedro and Cory are ready.

Okay, we are set. Please send them in. Send them in.

Okay, Polly, they're coming in. Remember, follow them to the next room.

Steve, you ready? Get ready.

Follow them as they go through frame.

Okay.

Fred, get ready for them.

Hi, I'm Pedro.

Hi, I'm Rachel. What's up?

Hi,

I'm Pam. I'm Cory.

My name is Rachel.

I forgot everyone's name already. Can we go over it?

Everyone had their own hook.

There was Pam, the cool med student chick.

Muhammad, a kind of famous rap singer in the Bay Area.

Corey, the all -American girl next door.

Pedro, of course.

Rachel, a young Republican.

And me.

A bedwetting liberal.

And we're missing someone.

We have Puck coming in.

Holly, catch him at the door.

There you go.

All right, Fred, you get ready for him.

Okay, he went the other way.

All right, catch him as he goes into the room.

Excellent. Hey.

Hi, I'm the Puck.

The Puck?

Yo.

I'm Rachel. Hi, Rachel.

I had a very trying day. I went to jail and got hit by a car, but sort of in...

Any other order?

Wow, all in one day. Well, we better keep an eye on you.

Not yet.

I don't... We're going to get some... You're going to give me a tattoo. I am.

I'm going to take you to Pop Francisco, and we're going to get tattoos.

You are such a dork, Pop. Oh, I'm the dork?

Well, I think you're the queen of dorks.

Oh, yeah.

Which is like a million times... No, a zillion times worse.

Oh, yeah.

And you don't even know it.

Unbelievable. You don't even know your fly's open. Which is like... You're

and open right there. For the world to see.

Oh, for me.

Look, skinny.

You've got scab.

They told you, right?

Somebody has it.

I think they told everyone.

MTV totally went down and picked somebody straight with AIDS.

You can't tell if someone's gay or has AIDS just by looking at them.

Of course not.

It's not me.

I know.

No, you didn't.

No, I didn't.

Sounds like a pretty dangerous job.

Being a messenger, my friend, is more than that.

I mean, it's a lifestyle.

Man, it's a pretty noble gig, man. And then this city would stop spinning if

didn't have us out there.

That is so gross.

What? It's bare in a tissue, didn't waste paper.

Yeah, but we're eating, Puck. I'm sorry, I didn't know you were such a prude.

A prude?

Oh, my God. Yeah, you're like Sister Mary Pruden or something, with a little

white hat on.

I'm a nun.

I'm a nun. I'm a nun.

I would like to make a toast, since this is our first meal together in our new

fantastic house, to good food, new friends, and... And new adventures.

Salud. Salud.

This house is amazing.

Have you told anybody yet?

No, not yet.

I think it might be harder to do this here than I thought.

Everybody's so on. My God, they're stealing Pedro Zamora's thunder?

No, I'll do it.

I just need to hear a friendly voice.

Hey, Judd?

Yeah? Can I show you something?

Sure. How about we go find the cameras?

Oh, my God, I've totally heard of you before.

Yeah, this is from all the work I've been doing.

This is Miami, and this is Washington, D .C.

Oh, sexy man with a shirt on.

These are all posters.

Super poster child.

Front page of the Wall Street Journal. Look how famous you are.

I know.

How long have you been an activist for?

Five years.

Look how many people are here to hear you.

speak living your life on camera you find yourself acting out in ways you

normally wouldn't there's definitely an expectation to perform rachel you're not

hearing him out he's the one with the disease he should be making me feel

comfortable and i know that's selfish but you know what that's how i feel

ratio it's not only selfish but it's wrong because every morning when i wake

and i say i'm gonna go educate my community on my disease That's the

making.

That's not something I have to do. No.

Instead, you want to go behind my back, bashing me to the other roommates.

I thought we were all in this together.

This is very scary to me. And I knew some of you were going to have problems

with it.

Which is why I brought the scrapbook. To make it easier for me to talk about.

Pedro, you weren't even interested in getting to know me.

You want to make me the bad guy.

But... The real world.

But Pedro, I'm thinking about what everyone else out there is thinking.

I'm not comfortable with this.

So go ahead, make me the bad guy, but you're just turning your back on a bunch

of other people out there too.

And then there's Rachel.

She's a cutie.

Oh yeah, she's like a little firecracker.

And then we got Mohammed, who looks like Predator.

And then Pedro, you have to say it. Pedro Zamora.

Look, this is a major newspaper, and they have all these quotes from people

scared for their lives about the HIV virus in saliva.

But what they forget to say is that there has never been a single case of

someone becoming HIV positive through just kissing.

It's true.

Let's just say I have AIDS.

Wish I do.

And I'm kissing someone who doesn't. Let's say you.

In the name of science, I will allow that.

So I'm kissing you.

And you have to have a really raw sore or a bleeding cut in your mouth. I mean,

bleeding and open it up so the saliva can get in. The cameras are gone.

I'm sorry.

No one here is scared of your spit, so just relax.

That was a really beautiful shot.

I told you I don't play. It was gorgeous.

I want to see it again. Okay, I'll see you guys later.

What do you get when you put together Pedro and a Chinese woman?

Someone who sucks your laundry dry.

Okay. What do you get when you put Pedro and Elvis together?

Elvis.

Hey, it's Pedro.

Hey.

As Puck took over, Pedro would just disappear.

Turns out he was seeing someone.

Sean Sasser, a fellow AIDS activist.

It gave him a place to get away from the stresses of the house.

So he went there more and more.

Hey. Hey.

Got an early call?

Yeah, I got to eat art this week.

Where have you been?

At Sean's.

When are we going to meet him?

Soon. I'll bring him around, I promise.

Look what I got you.

Cookie.

From Cafe Florida.

Oh, my God, again. Thank you.

Because I'm going to leave this show, I'm going to weigh 200 pounds.

Just don't let Buck get them. I know.

You know, he ate all of Muhammad's cereal.

Oh, my God. Don't even get me started on that. I want to kill him. Yeah, just

wait in line.

Bye.

Lucy, I'm home.

Ricky Ricardo.

Where have you been?

I had a date.

Again?

With Sean?

You're hardly here anymore.

Yo.

You're really not going to wear that, are you?

Why wouldn't I wear it? I don't know, because it's offensive, maybe?

Look, I don't give a shit if people find it offensive.

Well, I find it offensive.

I'm asking you, as a friend, don't wear the shirt.

See, the real problem is your interpretation, man.

This is an Indian symbol.

Yeah, yeah, it was, but then it was made a little more popular by this guy named

Hitler, who killed a whole bunch of people.

Well, I'm wearing the shirt, and you guys are going to have to live with it.

Just like I have to live with you.

This is for the producers only.

It's very clear that you put Puck on this show to make it impossible for me

do what I need to do.

I feel manipulated.

And lied to.

This is the artificial world, completely created to frustrate who we really are.

And you think I'm not participating enough?

Well then yes, I am isolating myself.

Puck's story is not why I'm here.

And you could not make me be a part of it.

I don't want you to leave.

Neither do I. I can't live with him. He does not respect me. He doesn't respect

any of us.

The only way to get Puck to respect you is to confront him on it. He can change

his mind.

I refuse to go down to his level. If he's here, I gotta leave.

You can't just keep running out like that. It's a choice I'm making. I'm

isolating myself from you guys as long as Puck is running the show.

But Pedro, that choice hurts you and it hurts us too.

Because for me personally, when everyone's in the confessional going,

I'm talking about is Puck.

All I'm talking about is you.

Pedro, I care about you.

And...

I don't want to lose that.

Just give him a chance to explain himself.

If you say that you don't want to go down to his level, then stop being as

bullheaded as he is.

Fine. Let's hear him out.

How's it going?

Oh, God.

World War III's a -brewin'. I heard.

Huck's here. Oh, yeah.

Uh, Fred, let me have a close -up on Pedro, please.

My problem is that all I've heard from Puck is that if you don't like this...

Not only am I going to do it, but I'm going to do it five times stronger.

And what I've heard you say, not only tonight, but since the first day, is

you don't give a shit about what I feel. So what can you do about this?

What can you do about this? Make me say I will not live with you. Okay, so I'm

moving out or you're moving out then? Because I'm not going to any place.

Yes, either I'm moving out or you're moving out. I'm looking at the back of

head. No, you're not looking at the back of my head. I'm looking at you right in

your face and saying I need to put up with your shit.

I've been trying to be the dog since I first got here. You're the one who's the

little kid. Don't make a grown -up decision, AIDS boy.

You know what? Either I'm out or he's out.

And the decision better be made when I get back.

You know, I like that. You're taking a stand. That's good. So take it, bro.

And have fun on your way home to Florida.

Let's be honest.

Puck and Pedro were both divas. You put two divas under one roof.

We had to make a decision.

Corey?

Muhammad. Pam.

And that's your final decision?

It is.

The next day, Pedro was back.

And on message.

Big time.

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

John H .Q.!

You say it's uncomfortable, or it doesn't feel the same, or it's too

If your partner tells you your condom is too tight,

have them see a doctor.

And if they see a doctor and it's still too tight, have them see me.

And if your partner insists on having penetration sex, anal or vaginal,

using protection, there's a simple solution.

Leave. No, it's okay to say to someone, no, I will not be with you without

protection.

When I was 14 years old, I didn't know I could say these things.

And when confronted with sex, unprotected sex, by people much older

was taken advantage of.

I really wish I had someone in my life who had told me how to protect myself.

Because AIDS is not a moral dilemma or a religious debate.

It's a physical and mental health issue.

This is about taking responsibility for our body, our partners, and our

generation.

What's wrong?

I'm wet.

Night sweat.

It's cool. We'll just... We'll strip the bed. I'll strip mine, too, and we'll do

laundry. Nobody has to know.

Yeah, right.

when people say that everything's going to be okay.

Because it won't.

And I hate it when they say it. They don't understand what I'm going through.

I was just trying to help.

I know.

There's nothing you can do.

I'm sorry.

Look, I won't tell the producers.

I mean, unless you want me to.

Let me do it my own way.

Okay, are you sure you want these guys here?

Yes, they're fine.

Okay.

Before we do the exam, I want to go over your lab results.

Unfortunately, there's been a drop in your CD4 T cell count.

As you probably know, a healthy person has about 1 ,000 T cells. How many do I

have?

32.

If you ever feel uncomfortable with having us all over you all the time and

need space, you got it.

I have something to admit to.

I knew my T -cells weren't that high when I came to the show.

I didn't think I'd go this low this fast.

Do you want us to send you back home to Miami?

No. I want to do this.

Just promise me you'll keep the cameras going every step of the way, no matter

how bad it gets.

All the way to the end.

Okay?

Okay. Thank you.

Mr. Zamora?

Mr. Zamora, hotel security.

Pedro. Pedro Zamora.

I'm Dr. Young.

You're at St. Vincent's Hospital in New York City.

New York City?

Yes. The people from MTV brought you here. Your sister's on her way up from

Florida. Can you tell me her name?

Millie. That's right.

And what year is it?

1994. Good.

And how old are you?

I'm 22 years old.

Good. You've had a little mental disorientation?

There's an interview I'm supposed to do.

Yes, that's long over. We're going to run some tests, but in the meantime, you

should just try to relax and get some rest, okay?

I'll see you in a bit. I need to take all your valuables.

They've been stolen here tonight.

Do you want me to take this for you?

No, I'll keep it.

Are you sure?

Yes.

Just warning you.

We come from a big Cuban family of eight kids.

We grew up in Havana. Pedro was the youngest.

And there was always something special about him. He was a miracle.

My mother, she had had surgery so that she couldn't have another baby.

But then the doctors in Cuba told her that she was pregnant, which, you know,

that was impossible.

They told her that she shouldn't have the baby because in her condition it

be dangerous. But my mother said no.

And on February 29th, 1972, Pedro was born.

Little Pedro Pele.

He came out feet first, you know. He never did anything normal.

And then when my brother was old enough, my mother took him to a santero.

And the santero said that the spirits had something, a very special plan for

him.

Los santos tienen un propósito para nosotros.

Pedro, pues, ha ido a este mundo para ayudar a otros.

Ah.

Pero cuidado.

Los ángeles y los espíritus malignos quieren arrancarlo de aquí.

Tengo algo aquí.

Tengo algo.

In 1980, we caught the Mariel boat lift and 125 ,000 Cubans were given

permission to leave, including our family.

We're a family. We can't travel separately. We're a family.

Get out of the queue now.

I think it's a good idea.

We're going to be fine.

They're going to be fine with me. I think it's a good idea. We're going to

fine. It's easier to go there and help them.

There's nothing to do here. Let's go to the next one. Let's go to the next one.

Let's go.

I'm with the boys.

I'm

with

the

boys.

I'm sorry.

Go ahead.

Oh, my.

When we got to Miami, it was like a whole new world.

I mean, we saw swimming pools, apples, Coca -Cola.

And me and Pedro, we loved it.

Pedro, he really loved being here.

Your turn.

She's my most important thing, Pedro.

You have to know her story.

Tell me your story.

Your turn.

Her life was very, como se dice, muy difícil.

Ella tuvo que vender su cuerpo para poder alimentar a sus hijos.

Cuando la gente se enteró, le quitaron sus hijos.

Así que ella solo se quedó con su vestidito blanco. De manera que tenía

todos los días al río a lavar su único vestido.

y muy pronto dejó de ser blanco, se puso amarillo.

Entonces un morilla que vivía en el río, cuando la vio, se enamoró de ella.

Y cuando ella regresa al río a lavar su único vestidito, como todos los días, él

salió del agua y le dio todo tipo de joyas y oro que él había encontrado en

fondo del río.

Y como ella vuelve a sentir amor por su vida, a apreciar sus tesoros, Sus hijos

le son devueltos.

Y ella, she did not have to do bad things again.

This is what love can do.

Y el color que la representa es el amarillo.

Como el trajecito que tú tienes puesto.

Pele, lo tengo.

No. You cheated. You take my kitchen away.

Si no estás pendiente al juego, cariño mío, no.

My mother, at first, she liked it here a lot. She liked it when she first got

here. But then she started to change because sometimes she would remember

you know, the other kids that were left in Cuba.

She was like any mother. She found it very difficult to live without her kid.

But Mama got a molar on her face, and it started to grow. It started to change

shape, so she had to have surgery. But the cancer came back, and when it came

back, it came back everywhere.

to tell you something because you are old enough to understand.

You're almost a man, verdad?

Si, soy un hombre.

Yes, you are, baby.

I'm very sick, Pedro.

I will be going away for a long time.

Are you going to Cuba a visitar a todo el mundo?

No, baby, I'm not going to Cuba.

I need you to promise me to be strong when I leave.

Be a good boy.

Be a good brother.

And remember,

even when I've gone, I will always be with you.

No matter what, always.

You said you don't want to go to the hospital to see her?

No, not that way.

I'm going to take you to the priest so that he can explain it, okay?

No, I understand.

Mama said when she passes away, we will be close again.

I'll show you.

What are you doing, Pedro?

Mama told me that when people pass away, this is what we do.

Please, God, if it is time, take my mother with you to heaven

like an angel and make her not feel alone or afraid.

Thank you, Lord.

Amen.

Amen.

She passed away that night.

And after that, Pedro, he never cried.

He didn't. He just became more perfect for her.

And he said that maybe his purpose was to become a doctor so that he could find

the cure for cancer.

Then he started to go out a lot.

A lot.

I mean, it was a lot.

Where are you going?

Out. With who?

Just some friends. You don't know them.

How come you never bring your friends over here? They can't be good friends if

they don't come over.

I have to go.

Don't stay up late.

What did I do? Te estoy hablando. What did I do?

Why can't you mind your own business?

You're not my mom, Billy. You are my business.

Now you're going to tell me right now what makes you think that you're like

this. I don't know. What makes you think you're a girl? You just start.

Pedro, look at how many girls like you. I don't like girls.

Look, but this is how I am. And if it's a problem for you, I'll leave right now,

okay? Billy, I don't want you to leave. I will.

Stop it.

You're not going anywhere.

So then why do you put things in the refrigerator?

For everybody to see.

It made me feel like shit, huh? My mom wouldn't do that.

I deal with me.

I read so many things about these people, all the bad things that are

to them, and you're not like them.

I am, Millie.

Don't worry.

I have good friends.

You still haven't told me where we're going.

Dancing. But where?

Hey, that's my new shirt. It's better on him anyway. Bye, Papi. Good night,

Papi.

That one's good looking.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

I can't say anything definitive just yet, but if I were to give you the most

probable diagnosis, it would be toxoplasmosis.

Toxo is something that's very common among people with AIDS.

It's the parasitic infection of the brain, and it is treatable. So we

him on the medication.

So he can make a full recovery?

If it's toxo, absolutely.

There are other possibilities. One of them is something called PML.

PML is very rare, much rarer than toxo, and it can only be diagnosed with a

brain biopsy.

A brain biopsy?

Yes.

Right now, he seems to be adapting well to the medication, and my advice is just

to wait and see.

Thank you.

When the show wrapped, Pedro, Pam, and I spoke every day.

And then all of a sudden, he was in the hospital.

It's strange.

Even though I knew he had AIDS, I just... I wasn't prepared for him to be

Judd, how are you?

Where's George and all the cameras?

He wants to know if it's okay to come in right now. Of course.

Really, fix my hair.

Who are you now, Antonio Sabato Jr.? Fix it.

You look fine.

It's a real riot here. A real fashion show, actually.

This one nurse was trying to match her lipstick with her eye shadow.

And, oh, my God, pobrecita.

I told her what a mistake she was making when I...

Pedro,

do you want me to keep going?

Pedro, are you okay?

Just give him five minutes, okay?

Pedro told me a lot of stories about growing up in Miami.

And, well, let's just say that while I was a particularly shy

teenager,

he was not.

You see, although it's true that a few innocent souls caught the disease

blood transfusion, the vast majority of AIDS victims are prostitutes,

homosexuals, and drug users.

Unfortunately, the disease can be transmitted to the heterosexual

through ways we really don't understand. So you have to be on your guard.

When he was 17, Pedro volunteered to give blood at a high school blood drive.

A couple weeks later, the clinic called him back.

He had tested positive for HIV.

What's the difference between HIV and AIDS?

Billy, I don't want to talk about it.

I know you don't want to talk about it, Billy, but if I want to take care of

you, I need to know everything about it.

I don't want anybody to take care of me.

Okay. Are there books that we can read about this? Because if there are...

Well, get on me and I'm going to go through all your doctor's appointments

you.

You're healthy now, so that's a good thing.

What am I going to tell Papa?

Don't worry.

I'll talk to him.

A few months before he was supposed to graduate from high school, he came down

with something.

I don't know.

Could be like crap.

Well, it's just shingles. It's like chicken pox. Anybody can get this.

They're not just shingles, really.

I know, Pedro, but it's not the end of the world.

It's for me.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I'll never go to college.

I'll never be a doctor.

Well, you don't have to be a doctor. You don't have to cure cancer. You just

have to get better for you, okay?

I wrote you a letter.

A letter?

But you can't open it till I tell you, okay?

Ay, come on.

Just promise me you won't open it till I tell you.

Okay.

You promise? Te lo juro.

I'm

angry.

Do you want to talk about it?

This shouldn't be happening.

It's not fair.

You know, I walk down the street and I see middle -aged people and old people,

and I think, why do they get to turn 40, turn 50, get gray hair, get fat?

HIV is not a death sentence, Peter.

Peter, there are a lot of young people out there who are at risk. We have a

school education project, and I just think that... Tell people about me?

Yes.

My family would completely freak out.

Let me answer your question.

What does someone with AIDS look like?

Skinny. They walk funny.

They pee in the bed.

Okay, let me answer another question.

Do you know someone with HIV or AIDS?

No.

Well, you're wrong.

I am HIV positive.

But guess what?

I don't think I walk funny.

And I can't remember the last of my feet in my bed.

It's not easy to talk about these things.

It's not.

But if you see me, I just want you to realize that people with AIDS are just

like you and mom and dad.

You don't have to be afraid of them.

I went to San Francisco after culinary school, but then I tested positive,

changed everything.

And when I met Pedro, I was training people to speak out publicly about HIV.

It was at the March on Washington, maybe about a year before he came out for the

real world.

There was this conference for HIV positive gay men of color, and Pedro was

keynote speaker.

I mean, there was this very handsome young man doing it all on his own down

Miami, more effectively than anyone I'd ever seen in New York or San Francisco.

So, was it love at first sight?

Are you kidding me?

I mean, I couldn't think of anyone else.

So, is your boyfriend back home positive as well?

Angel? No, negative.

It's good, but you know, so much work.

Yeah, I know what you mean.

I mean, people who are negative, they can empathize, but they really don't

what this is.

Like, sometimes Angel, he loses his patience with me, and I just want to

him in the nose and tell him he doesn't get it.

I never told this to anybody before.

Really. Sometimes I feel very isolated.

Work and who I am.

Miami is so different.

Nobody's so fun with you.

You should come out and visit us for a while in San Francisco.

I think you have enough speakers in San Francisco.

Maybe it's better I stay in Miami and keep getting the word out down there,

right?

Well, if you're ever in San Francisco...

Like

six months later,

word was out in San Francisco that you guys are looking for an HIV -positive

person to be a part of the real world.

I never thought it would be Pedro.

But when I found out he was going to be on the show, and that he had broken up

with his boyfriend, well, let's just say that he ended up using that napkin.

So, how do you like San Francisco?

It's beautiful, of course.

I bet it's different here than it is in Miami.

You can walk down the street holding your boyfriend's hand. Oh, no.

Really?

You wouldn't do that?

You can't expect me to go from an extremely homophobic environment and

to San Francisco and go down the street and hold someone's hand and feel totally

comfortable. You'd get used to it.

Part of me would always want to look behind to see the guy just passed. He's

going to come back and break my head open.

Excuse me?

I need to use the restroom.

I'll go with you.

Not you.

What are

we doing?

What do you mean?

I mean, was that a date?

Or was I just doing it for the cameras?

Date?

Yeah.

To me, that was a date.

You ever think about staying here after this, Bill?

Maybe. Depends.

Yeah?

On what?

Things.

What things exactly?

You know, just see how things pan out.

Rachel.

What?

I love you.

What did you say?

And I love you.

You said it! You said it!

I love you too.

Do you really think you're in love?

Oh, I know it.

So smart.

So good looking. He's gotten you to act more queen -y.

I am not queen -y. I'm butch.

We're both butch.

Fine. We're both butch.

There's something I want to tell you, but you can't talk about it to anyone,

including the producers.

I promise.

What?

I really care about Pam.

No. This comes as a complete surprise.

Fine.

But I don't think I'm going to tell her.

Not here.

Trust me, you totally don't.

But after the show, we can all get married and share babies.

You'd move here?

Away from your family?

She don't ask me to.

I'm thinking about it. Oh, my God, Ricky Ricardo.

The four of us can get a duplex.

And live happily ever after.

I go to sleep. I need my beauty rest.

Yeah.

Very, very good.

I'll still come back to visit.

Billy,

I'll come back home for a little while to pick up my things, but then I'm

back to live here.

There's nobody. It's just me.

Billy, we don't always have to agree on everything.

You're always gonna be my sister. You know that I love you always

I'll call you tomorrow

How's your sister

just fine

It's

not like we plan to have

biracial, HIV -positive, same -sex marriage on national television.

But despite all the pressure from his friends and family not to, we

did it.

In front of the whole world.

Okay, everybody, we're rolling.

Uh, everyone?

Everyone?

It's time for the adorable couple now.

So...

Okay, where do I start?

Okay, so when I went on my first date with Sean, I came back and I thought,

really cute, that's a wonderful smile, but there really wasn't anything there.

Give me that ring.

But I decided I would go on another date, just me and him, and we talked for

about hours.

And I sat there and...

There was nobody else in that room but me and him.

And I knew that I was going to be alone.

Sean basically makes life very easy for me.

And a lot easier for me to face my own fears.

Just knowing that he's there.

So...

I felt a connection and closeness to Pedro that I hadn't to anyone else

And one thing I knew for sure was I didn't want it to go away.

I love you, Pedro.

And production ended.

And we just began to settle down with each other away from the cameras when

show started to air.

They were all stars overnight.

But nobody more than Pedro.

Oh, my God. Oh, my

God. Oh, my God. You're Pedro, right? From the real world.

Hi, nice to meet you. I have to tell you, I just came out to my phone because

you, man.

Really? Really, man.

Hola, this is Pedro Zamora from the real world, man. You shouldn't have to be

waiting for the line.

That's okay, really.

You know him, right? Oh, I know him. Come on, let's go.

Then two weeks later, Pedro went to New York.

That's when he got sick.

How's it going?

She's really good. She, uh...

She can't wait to get out here.

She's coming. She's going to get here as soon as she possibly can.

Pedro, your agent asked if I would sub for your lectures until you're better.

I said I should just postpone them until you're out of here.

No. No.

Go.

They're worried college kids.

They may even be more comfortable with you. Pedro, I can't. I'm a cartoonist. I

don't give lectures about HIV.

Come on. Do it for me.

But I can't speak like you do. It's you who they want to hear.

You know my story.

Don't listen to you.

It's gonna be okay.

He's all right.

Millie's with him right now.

The biopsy wasn't that big a deal.

He's up and about.

Heather, once you get better, I'm going to try to see if we can go to Cuba to

see the family.

Everybody keeps asking about you. They see how famous you are being on TV.

I'm never going to get to Cuba, Millie.

Do you remember that letter I wrote when I found out I was positive?

I don't remember. That was a long time ago.

Find it.

Do everything it says.

You can't just tell me what it says?

So did you get your strip to the newspaper in time?

Yeah, barely. I had to overnight it this morning.

It's one of my best work, actually.

Really? No.

Hey.

Oh, my God.

I can't believe it.

Oh, I missed you.

What do I get?

Always so demanding.

I'm so glad you could make it.

You look good, baby.

So you heard?

Pedro got the green light to go into Miami.

Yeah, no sooner do I get here than you're all leaving on me.

You're going to come, right?

You got to come to Miami.

You're going to love it.

Are you going to be my tour guide?

Oh, yeah. I'm going to take you to Calle Ocho. You're going to have the best

arroz con pollo you ever had.

The test results have confirmed that Pedro does have PML, not toxo.

Wish it were the other way around.

There really is no proven treatment, so for the most part, we'll just

concentrate on trying to make this process as comfortable as possible for

Well, we have an appointment with Dr. Berger, a neurologist at the University

Miami. He has some kind of experimental protocol that Pedro might be a good

candidate for.

I know Dr. Berger very well, and those are pretty heavy -duty regimens. I don't

think that it'd be very wise. We want to try everything we can.

I don't know.

For someone with Pedro's compromised immune system... We want to try

we can.

Doctor, is this treatment, is it painful?

Yes.

Are there risks?

For someone in Pedro's condition... Most definitely, yes.

We don't want this treatment.

Well, don't you think that Pedro should be a part of this decision?

I know my brother. I know what he's going to say. We don't want this

Well, I know your brother, too.

And I think he wants something different.

You okay?

I just

want you to know there

are things we can do.

Experimental procedures.

Your family wants to take you home.

Is that something you really want to do?

I'm ready to take him home now.

Have a few minutes.

Oh, come on.

I used to change your diapers when you were a baby. Put it on.

Why don't you like him?

I don't know what you're talking about, Pedro.

Sean.

Pedro, I don't want to talk about it.

I just need you to get some sleep, okay?

Pedro, I mean it.

I read your letter, the one you wanted me to read.

I'm going to do everything you asked me to do. I'm going to talk to Papi and

Jesus, and I'm going to tell them all the things you wanted me to say, but I

can't bring the family from Cuba.

I wish I could, but I can't.

Did you go out in the sun today?

Hey.

I'm going to Alex's to get some more of your clothes.

You want me to get anything else?

Sean, we need to talk to you.

Yeah?

When you leave right now, you don't need to come back.

Excuse me?

San Francisco is over.

It is time for him to be with his family.

I'll miss family, too.

Please, don't come back.

I'm sorry.

But I can't do that.

I

mean,

it's hard for me to do it like him.

What am I supposed to say?

If it's still too tight, come and see.

Uh,

not quite.

I'm sure you found your own way.

Yeah, they clapped at the end. Must mean something, right?

There was this one girl, she came up.

She gave me a hug.

Really? Yeah.

Wish I didn't have to go to that one in Ann Arbor.

You'll be fine.

It's just a difficult time to leave.

I know.

But he totally wants you to go.

You're right.

I miss you.

I mean, this is just because.

Okay. If people are so stupid, they don't even know what they're talking

They don't know anything.

Come on, I have everything ready for your pass.

I spoke with Pam today.

I didn't know that she and Judd were staying in Alex's house in your old

I hope you didn't leave any dirty magazines.

What?

Sorry.

Papi told him to go.

Stop it.

Papi talked to him, and Papi told him to go away because you need to be with

your family now, your real family. Okay?

What do you

want me to do?

What do you want me to do?

Come on in.

Hi.

They fed it to me last night.

They really want you to see it.

Where do I start?

When I went on my first day with Sean, I came back and I thought, that's a

wonderful smile.

But there really wasn't anything there.

But I decided that I would go out on another date,

just me and him.

And we talked for about hours.

And I sat there and there was nobody else in that room but me and him.

And I knew that I was going to be in love with him.

And Sean basically makes life very easy for me.

A lot easier for me to face my own fears.

Just knowing that you're there.

So, I love you.

I felt a

connection and closeness to Pedro that I hadn't to anyone else before.

And the one thing I knew for sure was, I didn't want it to go away.

from the White House. The President would like to speak with Pedro Zamora.

Hey!

Hurry, hurry!

Hello?

I have the President of the United States for Pedro Zamora.

Yes, he's right here.

Hello, Pedro.

It's President Clinton. I just called to tell you I was thinking about you and

praying for you.

He might not be able to answer, but he understands everything.

I just wanted to call him and say hello and tell him how much I appreciated all

that he's done on the AIDS Action Council board and everything he's done

speak out about this. I really appreciate it so much.

Thank you so much, Mr. President. A lot to Pedro to hear that.

Before you go, Mr. President, there's one more thing we wanted to ask you.

You look so handsome.

You do.

I got something to tell you.

Judd and Pam have been hooking up in their own bed at home.

Hey, Pedro.

What?

He knows.

Why can't you ladies ever keep a secret?

Oh, you're ready? Come on, let's go.

Let's go.

I can't believe we did it.

All the way from Cuba.

Dear Pedro, I'm an 87 -year -old great -grandmother who lives in Grand Rapids,

Michigan, with a lot of time on my hands.

I never knew anyone homosexual, and I never thought much about AIDS, but

had your show on in the community room, and I got hooked on it. We all did,

dear.

Because of you, imagine that.

I think it was so brave of you to be part of that house, and it is... Breaks

heart that you're suffering without having really lived a life.

I pray they find a cure for this horrible thing soon.

We all love you here, Pedro.

Your friend, Amelia Clark.

Here we go.

You want it?

No quiere agua.

God save you, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you.

Blessed are you among all women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb,

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our

Amen.

It is a lot easier for me to face my own fears and face the uncertainty of my

own life knowing that He's there.

So I love you.

Which is all...

Holding me close How I always held close to your face

Remembering you While you popped through the night

You were bigger and brighter And whiter than snow

Thank you.

Thank

you.