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she had him by the balls i'm not sure if she knew that yet but i knew but what i knew is that he loved her even more than she loved him she hated you for what happened

did you feel bad

maybe for thinking he was a wussie boy

but i still hadn't known at the time that this was her guy care to explain that now basically an insecure man who can't perform

but instead of admitting to it he blames the woman maybe he can't get it up so he says to the girl you're not sexy to me anymore but the real problem is he's overweight

not taking responsibility for your actions is the main trait of a wussie boy

so what was you guys friendship like

after that pleasant

she didn't tell me right away who he was but she did share that the relationship had gotten better and she was happier and that he was a lot more attentive and caring he even spent more time downtown

if you weren't in this business what would you be doing

no one has ever asked me that i don't know if i ever even thought of that

i know i wouldn't want to be bartending can we come back to that sure up for another

have you ever been in love

no one wants to commit to an escort i mean before all of this is there anyone constant in your life

i was in love

i guess i um had a relationship

unhealthy and abusive but

stop

Chloe what's wrong this time

to answer

your question

the first two years were perfect

we moved in together had plans on marrying and starting a family

i thought i found my knight in shining armor

i'm sorry what are you talking

i would sit on the phone and talk to my best friend Jenna

all day she was pregnant too

i felt so lucky because while Jenna didn't know who the father of her child was and things were getting harder for her

but to have my night be just as excited as i am about our life together meant the world

one day he took my phone by accident so

i carried his for the day

i went to the Jenna for lunch

i decided to call her

the doorbell was broken and my hands were already swollen

this Wi Fi connected to her

when i saw that phone everything began to make sense

i asked Mr Arthur

the night and shining armor what it was about

that night he beat me

my carpet was stained with blood the doctor said there was no way to save the baby without killing me

when we're all changed that day

i lost a soulmate

a best friend and my child

i had to do for myself

i was broken and i had to be reborn whether

i care or not i couldn't be trusted in times

i had to be around

i couldn't give myself my love my feelings away

my insides were black my heart was black my soul was black i was the black hole sun past the event horizon

hello

hey Chloe guess

what i'm getting married

we have to go over everything tomorrow let's meet up we'll plan everything

i'm so excited

you know what time it is i mean that's great and all

but um

why did you call me

so late

Whitney told me

she had great news so great

she couldn't tell me over the phone thank you for i met my soul mate no

well

you know i've been seeing one of the clients and we hung out twice before we even had sex we even have like a whole bunch of stuff in common we share the same values it's great

we have amazing chemistry

this is nothing to expect from Whitney leila may be but Whitney no she was strong minded you have to meet him he's everything are you sure you want to do this and why so fast

well

i'm only getting older and time isn't promised

have you ever been in love before

or have you forgotten

what it's like to be in love

i haven't forgotten so you understand what it's like to have someone complete you

i also understand that i'm not incomplete if i don't have someone but i couldn't say this to her she seemed truly happy i didn't want

to live up to the misery loves company cliche so i just i'm happy for you thank you

i want you to i want you to come to our wedding if it wasn't for you

i wouldn't be so happy

what is it about me

how come i can't find others happiness but i can't get it for myself of course

so why attack

um well

he has my name so i'll just get his and the date we met barely two weeks ago he says that the tattoo is gonna be the only pain that hurt ever cause me isn't that sweet very unlikely

something had to change i had to find myself my true self not the jaded black hole i had become

hmm

hmm

i found joy in cooking even though i sucked at it i tried my hardest

i hated eating alone i took up yoga meditation became a vegetarian

hahaha that's why

hahaha what's that

i watched movies on Saturday nights i wasn't as active in my profession hahaha that first one always feels so good i'm somebody believe in yourself life is beautiful

i control my destiny my life is in my hands listened to positive affirmations repeated them daily wrote them on my mirrors as a constant reminder i am somebody my life is in my hands i control my destiny

did those help until i realized

i had to make a living then i was back at square one i wasn't a slave to the desires i could care less about the sex most times but i needed the money i was slowly sinking into a depression

huh

Leila wouldn't leave me alone she came by every day she knocked for half an hour before i let her in she was a lifesaver i'm not sure what i may have done that day if she hadn't came

she got me out of my rut i felt loved and cared for

she bathed me sat with me and talked

we cried together

laughed together

drank together maybe she didn't understand me but she didn't judge me

when we woke up that morning Layla finally told me about jay i was surprised how calm she was maybe i took the edge off her what did you love to do

as a kid sometimes your first love is true love i gravitated to a lot of things as a child i used to draw as a little girl my pa was an artist

and he would take me with him to the studio sometimes we would go to the park and i would draw the leaves and trees at night he would put lights on the porch and we would go out and draw the stars and moon and i would

what is everything okay

when my parents died

the reason i moved to Barcelona is because of art i wanted to digest it my pa always talked about bringing me to the city

of picasso's youth this is my purpose i was so lost in a self distracting way of life that i forgot the very reason i am where i am now

i came here to create and to find my purpose but all i've done since i arrived is lose myself

the thing about guilt is it's not feeling that lasts long you have to use it to your advantage while it's on your side jay was back to his old ways

good

yes

thank you wait great

that's all gotta go

you're not hungry

she had it she was to the limit Layla wanted me to help i didn't want to

but she begged i guess i felt like i owed her she was there for me

and i felt obligated to do the same

she was getting wiser i couldn't just tell her bullshit to smooth her over Layla wasn't willing to go the extra mile anymore a part of her had a curiosity about women maybe that had to do with me

but i know this she was a different woman what changed she realized her worth confidence has a way of doing that to you she felt she could be happy without him so you ruined their relationship no

it wasn't over yet

did she enjoy the session you guys shared we never spoke about it it's like the elephant in the room

but neither of us are comfortable around each other so tell me what happened

with her and jay eventually

she decided she wanted to leave him she asked me to help her why because she still loved him and wanted to leave her happy does it make sense i understood what she meant did did

you agree yes

again i felt like i owed her and i was on my way out of this business so at this time you were sure what you were going to do

art was my passion it was what i loved more than anything

it brought me peace reminded me of the great times i had with my pa it kept my mind in a different space

the following day i honored my commitment with Layla

for some reason i was nervous since i fell in love with art again i completely lost my desire to manipulate and control men's desires with my body

but i had a commitment to honor keeping my word even when it's uncomfortable or it just hurts you was something i just had to live with

my nerves were on edge

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all i could think about is how hurt my friend must be she didn't look confident at that moment

she looked torn and broken but this is what she wanted

what happened next

she told him she was done with the relationship

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she wasn't going for it Layla was drained from the constant mystery his wishy washy love i would have done anything for you

she hadn't given her all and she did he said this was his first time stepping out on the relationship if i knew

there was your friend

i would never have done it

that comment only solidified things it opened her eyes completely to the kind of man she was in love with

all along she knew i wasn't the first or the only he had been with

did you ever ask her why she stayed no but when you love someone

you find a way to deal with what they did after he explained himself what did she do

Layla only wanted one thing and that was to take her power back

how did she do that

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she never saw him again she packed her stuff and stayed with me for a few until she got on her feet it worked out for both of us because my income is severely affected by changing professions

were you guys

oh no

we were two empty souls looking for love well

did she find it

the thing about love is you never have to find it it's all over you just have to learn to embrace it and she did so was her new boyfriend there was no new boyfriend

there was a new Layla she loved herself unconditionally it wasn't cheap it was a price that had to be paid but all it took was courage and she had that now seeing her transformation

was a wake up call for me

there are things i had to do things i had to commit to

in order to make this a successful step in the right direction i committed to writing in my diary

it was a way for me to look back over my life years from now and remember how far i came

for hours i would write

write and sketch

all day all night

and when my brain allowed me to stop i came to see that i was the happiest i ever been in my adult life

a lot changed for you i had to get out my own way with no experience was it hard finding work

i followed my passion it took me right where i needed to be

up until that day

my biggest accomplishment was my personal transformation i was happy who leila had become

but i believe sooner or later she would have gotten there on her own without my influence one thing i never told anyone is is that when i had sex at my old job most times i would see colors people no

you never shared that is it of some significance at first i didn't know what it meant

but now now it's like a sign those weren't just random colors it was art it was as if my calling was saying here i am i'm right here in front of your face now

it all makes sense

perfect sense

can you tell me about Whitney's wedding

no i didn't go

seeing Whitney reminded me of a big mistake i made i wanted to tell her sorry but what for this life seemed to work better for her than me

i'm so sorry

it's okay

i'm not hurt or anything everything happens for a reason right

i know it's past closing

but um would you mind

there's no more wedding

her soul mate didn't exist leading up to the wedding she saw signs of him that she didn't want to spend a minute around much less the rest of her life she got his name covered with a star so do you think

you'll ever go back no

i lost all desire the money just wasn't worth my unhappiness

i didn't know you knew how to ink

i'm not that good still learning it's my first day

haha just joking

we talked all night she told me she's moving to the states Nevada something about running her own business over there because it's legal i didn't know what she meant but said maybe one day i can come work with her

wow

it looks great

thank you so much what do

i owe you nothing

i owe you

i've learned that even in my darkest place during my darkest hours i can be a light to someone else

friends are like stars

they can add to your beauty making your light

shine brighter filling it with limpless beauty that all can see

i had my stars

but i still missed my sunshine

i've never had the pleasure of meeting you but knowing you those few short months bonding with you

loving you

i know when i see you our time together will be out of this world

decision that might

he doesn't tell him doesn't mean bad

okay

did i say that okay

you did honestly

not sure how to react

hahaha i'm just like did i say okay

yeah yeah okay

alright i'm trying

been dealing with a different life

i'm sorry this whole thing is like

wow i'm scared

you're laughing

hahaha it's been a while

哈哈哈哈哈

he's struggling with the rope

哈哈哈哈哈哈

not again

hahaha you're laughing over there that's so funny no one laughing over there

so it's like

oh it's okay

哈哈哈哈

this is my first day

sorry sorry ah okay when you