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time for breakfast

not this morning honey

but i woke up super early i know

i'm grateful

just go i understand

you look great have a nice day

and happy birthday thank you

i wonder if the sun was setting in on me

what did i know besides this life do i want kids a husband friends

so many questions i had stopped wanting to answer

would a man ever want me i couldn't dare tell him about this part of my life

who wants a hooker

could i ever have what my parents had

i don't know what to do anymore i tried all the sexy outfit

the freaky positions

i even offered to let him put it in my ass

i need to know what he wants so i can give it to him maybe it's not you i can't see myself without him and neither you do with what comes along with him Layla what do you want out of life

i don't know to be happy i guess

maybe a kid or two

he's not that excited about having kids because of the cancer running in his family

her life her decisions

her world revolved around a man i thought she was stupid for that but my life revolved around men too at least she had someone to love i had to explore myself what made my heart so callous

your parents they passed away when you were young

eighteen

was there a void of

course there was they were my best friends my pa loved me more than anything and my mom was like the woman i always wanted to be like you know

i was reading online that no matter how happy a man is a part of him will always be unfulfilled if he can only be with one woman

that made me think of my Paul he loved me mom

everyone could see it but sometimes felt that he yearned to be free i remember my mom telling me it's more important to occupy a man's mind than it is his heart why can't love just be enough

Chloe

it hit me then we all want to find a soul mate and be in love with them forever but we need more than that we need to be in love and in lust love will never be enough he has to lust you what

what do you mean

i went on to tell Layla about what my mother told me and that moment i felt comfortable enough to tell her what

i did as a profession what brought that on

i guess i was caught in the moment maybe what was her response she didn't believe me i told her i would take her with me one night to watch no more so to believe

i didn't want to babysit her and knowing Layla i felt this would happen so i just got a room beside mine just in case

hello

uh hello

may i come in

yes

thank you

he wanted me to trust him i don't know what was coming over me but i was

maybe it's because that time of the month was over i don't know but i was extra emotional and horny i felt teased i had to see how this man made me feel like this

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i wanted him to hold me and smell my hair love was coming over me

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and like that i was back to reality

it's nothing against you i'm not blaming you it's myself i hate

i love my girlfriend i betrayed her i'm wrong

he went on and on about how beautiful she is how much she loved him and how he was grateful for her but his own insecurities brought him to me that night

i want to talk to her and tell her how sorry i am but i'm too ashamed

she's the most wonderful woman in the world and i made her feel less like that i didn't know why he was telling me this

but for the emotional roller coaster i was just on i wanted him to keep talking

i've met all types cross dressers girls who just wanted to finger my ass men who wanted me to play mommy never met a man that didn't want to lie to his woman for some reason that brought me back to my father

that's Gary for you in some ways because my pa was such an admired man

but he was still a man it just shows the two sides to all of us we all have a light side and a dark

which side do we choose to

show to the world

but things aren't just black and white sometimes

they're gray and that gray area is where i found myself

hi honey

sorry i missed your call what were you doing you don't even want to know you could have waited though i'll be home in a little

where are you had to make a stop

after work the guys had a surprise for me you know

oh that's nice

did you like it

truthfully how'd the writer be at home with you

well i'm not home actually

where are you

well i was just planning a surprise for your birthday

honey

i don't want any birthday gifts just you and me and quiet dinner

okay

i'll be home

need anything

um yeah i'll text you you always forget i love you

Lily

love you too

that night i slept good

that's the best slept since i was a teenager in love i've forgotten all about Layla

come on blow your candles

this was the best birthday in a very long time

thank you for making it very special

decision that might

he doesn't tell him doesn't mean bad

okay

did i say that okay

you did honestly not sure how to react

i'm just like did i say okay

yeah yeah okay

they have to to go over the the the man get the eggs

alright i'm trying to like

been dealing with a different

i'm sorry this whole thing is like

wow i'm sorry

you're laughing

ha ha ha

it's been a while

哈哈哈哈哈

he's struggling with the rope

哈哈哈哈哈哈

not again

hahaha you were laughing over there

so funny you were laughing over there

so it was like oh

it's okay

哈哈哈哈

this is my first day

sorry sorry ah okay

when do you want me to touch this