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3, 2, 1.

Hey, man.

Say, bruh.

Hey, man.

Hey, you want to tell us what's going on?

Hey.

Hey, man. Yo!

What?

Now what?

What is that?

I ain't signing up for no Boy Scout shit!

Did you really come here for our children?

Did you think I was being disingenuous?

Maybe.

So, tell me what I really mean, since you've known me so well.

I think you blame me.

And you don't blame me? We were both home that day.

Both there.

Then, maybe I am to blame.

Carson, we need to bring trust back to our relationship.

How did you lose trust, hmm? How did you lose trust? Because, see, I didn't

betray your trust. I need to be free of your judgment.

You can't be throwing Sawyer in my face every time you don't like what I have to

say. I am just giving my perspective.

You're rigid in every aspect of life.

Our marriage has to look the way you think it should look.

I have to think the way you think I should think. I have to dress the way

think I should dress. Those were your choices.

You know what?

You suffocate me.

I had a life.

I was a dancer.

I was a... All you do is fight me.

On everything.

Every decision. Do you hear yourself?

Why can't you ever trust my judgment?

And just give up a little control? And just give me a little freedom! Yes!

Talk about hot.

God.

So do we just wait?

I mean, yeah.

What else can we do?

How come you never ask me about Carson?

About what we did?

Because I already know what y 'all did.

Nothing.

What the hell that supposed to mean?

You know, sometimes I think you are the smartest and the dumbest person I have

ever met before.

So you think just because we didn't have sex that nothing happened?

Well, let me tell you, Sawyer, I got fucked, okay?

And I got fucked very well.

They're called mental intercourse.

Jot that down in your little notebook.

Oh, you got fucked.

You think I don't see right through that shit?

You think I don't recognize what you're doing?

What am I doing, Sawyer?

You're trying to say that the connection that you had with Mr. Wimpy was as

strong as the connection that I had with Mags.

You wanted to bother me.

You want me to lose sleep over that shit.

You want me to hurt the same way that I hurt you.

So why isn't it working?

Maybe it is, Caroline.

That is bullshit, Sawyer.

Okay? Then lose it.

Yell.

Scream. Tell me that I've betrayed you, like, in some sort of way, because

that's what you would have done if you still loved me.

Then you have to fight, baby.

Fight for the life you want.

Maybe fight for him too.

You're talented.

What?

The artwork at your place.

What are you, some type of dabber kidnapper or something?

Homicide Metro PD.

Oh, fuck.

Great.

Wait, did you say homicide?

Mm -hmm.

Who died?

Harvey Kiedis is missing, a .k .a. Uncle Harvey.

Since when did homicides start doing missing persons?

Harvey's kind of a bad guy.

Underage prostitution, sex trafficking.

I transferred advice about a year ago, so it came to me.

What the hell does that have to do with me?

I've got questions, you've got answers.

Okay.

Where are we going?

You're not under arrest.

Noticed. No cuffs.

It's the watercolors of charcoal.

Which is your favorite, I mean?

Neither.

Both. I don't know. Tell me about Harvey.

Harvey is a means to an end.

An end to what?

Your life?

Okay, don't judge me, cop.

Well, you should know your client, Harvey's boss is long gone, whoever he

Cops infiltrating your business will do that.

Did you know his name?

No.

Wouldn't have mattered anyway. Used an alias at the hotel.

Wore a hat so you could never catch his face on the surveillance camera.

Did he do that to you?

Did? Mm -hmm. No.

Bad allergy.

You know him?

Got a whole kilo of reasons you should be nicer to me.

Guy got off on pay, okay?

Paid pretty good.

And would you recognize him if you saw him again?

You kidding?

The guy's face is seared in my brain like a brand.

All right, so here's the drill. We're going in there. You're getting looked at

by a doctor. The doctor's going to recommend a treatment program, and

going. No questions.

What if I say no?

Not always present.

Please sit down opposite your partner.

Why does it matter how we sit?

Whatever.

I feel like I'm in kindergarten.

So you're going to do this.

Please look into your partner's eyes and do not look away for three minutes.

Your time starts in...

I can't do this shit.

You afraid of what you're gonna see?

Fine.

All the time and I'm trying

Maybe another time I'm better prepared. Thank you so much.

Appreciate you.

All right.

Are you leaving?

Why do I feel like that's a mistake?

I don't know.

Why do I think I agree with you?

Do you know someone in the program?

This young lady here and I seem to have a connection.

I'm Connor.

D 'Andra.

Someone recently told me, D 'Andra, that's beautiful. by the way.

The best way to relieve a burden is to help someone else with theirs.

Here I am.

A man with a burden to bear.

That's me.

I come to the right place.

Your smile is amazing.

How am I supposed to do that?

That was pretty deep Funny how close I feel to you right now

And we didn't even say a word.

Why do you feel closer to me?

I felt like I saw you.

I really saw you.

What did you see?

I see that you carry something around with you emotionally

that's pretty heavy.

I feel that it was the baby.

Babies.

Betrayal.

Marriage.

Business. Deadline. This experiment.

It's just... Just what?

You know, I danced the other day.

Just me.

Myself.

In a room.

I just... I just felt like dancing.

And I didn't want it to stop.

That was my hope.

For such a long time.

I know.

Then we got married, started the business, our family.

You have no idea how overwhelming that was for me.

I mean, it was amazing, beautiful.

And horrible.

Have you said her name?

Who? I mean, I can't.

And I don't think that you can.

Why is that?

You just saw me.

And I think for the first time in a long time.

And I just saw you.

But I can't answer why neither of us...

and utter her name.

Can you?

This is nice.

Every man wants that best one.

Surely you can bring home to mom.

You and all your friends and friends.

Make me feel like the king I am.

Someone you can just hold on tight.

Late at night making things all right.

The feelings that I get from you. I got to tell you. This must be love.

Sweet love.

It's cause the way I feel about you.

Every time I think about you, this must be love, sweet love.

Cause the way I feel about you, every time I think about you, baby.

With you by my side, I'm never changing. Time and song will still remain, pure

and simple, baby.

That's how I want to be, don't you love me? Every day will start off right.

What are you doing here?

I thought about what you said.

Okay, can you be a little more specific? I say a lot of awesome shit.

About facing myself.

About how Deandra can't fix that.

How did you find me?

I could always find you, Sam.

The surveillance camera caught the license plate of the SUV on video.

The rest was easy.

I'm not sure how I feel about you being here.

Yet here we are.

Why?

Because maybe it isn't finished yet.

Maybe I'm supposed to figure it out for myself.

Someone recently said the same thing to me.

That I'm supposed to figure this out for myself. I didn't know exactly what it

meant, but now I have a question.

What is it?

The night you came to my place, where you cleaned up, you stayed.

I remember.

And you said, I'm not letting you go this time.

That was a long time ago.

And yet I can see you know exactly what I'm talking about.

If I answer that, how's that about you?

How does my answering that question help you better understand why you're here?

Seeing you better helps me see myself outside of you.

You're tied to me in ways no one ever will be, Dallas.

And yet, for the most part, I don't know you.

But you know virtually everything about me.

It's time to let me in, Dallas.

This is the part where you run?

This is

a great

place. It is, right?

But this is definitely the experiment.

Because no one else is here.

Nicole?

You want to go get your jacket?

Thank you, baby.

I'll be right back.

Where's your suit?

Look, are we doing what we set out to do by coming here?

What do you mean?

I'm saying, everything that happened at the desert, was that enough for us to

stay friends?

Stay married?

Get our gym back?

Sawyer, where is this coming from?

They're here, Caroline.

Who's here?

Who else?

Oh. So are you just asking me that to find out if we're on solid ground so you

can pursue Maggie?

Baby, at this point, I don't even know what pursuing Maggie means.

What do you want, Sawyer, huh?

Is it me?

Is it the baby? Is it fighting?

Is it writing? What do you want? Do you want it all?

What do you want? I want to stay married to you, baby.

Okay?

But I'm telling you now, if that baby is mine, then I'm going to be a father to

that baby.

Okay? So now what, care?

What do you want?

Is it me?

Another woman?

Is it punk -ass Carson?

Did you even think about this?

How long are you going to do what it takes for you to stay champ?

Huh? One year?

Three years? Five?

What did you see in the desert?

What did you see?

And sitting there staring in your eyes like that, I saw the one thing that

always had.

Our friendship.

Friendship.

Our friendship.

So what you're saying, you don't want to be married to me no more?

No.

That's not what I'm saying.

What?

I'm saying that I want it all.

I want to be able to explore anyone.

And I want to do it with you.

What does that even mean?

Honestly,

if I'm speaking honestly, I want it all.

I want to be able to be with whoever I want to be with, but I want to stay with

you.

And what if you decide to be with someone else?

Then you and I stay married.

But what if we fall in love with that someone else and then decide that we

want to be with that person?

Then we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Why are you so afraid to be alone, Caroline?

Huh?

You're saying that you don't want a relationship built on unconditional love

where there's no judgment, just acceptance for who you are.

partner in a journey of finding out who you want to be.

Now that you say that, it sounded like the utmost disrespect to our marriage.

But it's crazy because the way that I feel when I hear it,

it makes me feel good.

I swear it will kill me to watch you with another woman's baby.

That is not your child.

Baby.

And the hits just keep on coming.

Maybe he's been here a long time.

Excuse me?

Oh.

Sorry. I was just thinking out loud.

Someone's cousin, maybe?

Nepotism in the hotel industry.

Who would have thought?

An ugly truth they don't tell you about when you're filling out the application.

Let's see what he sees in you.

Sensory.

Would that be my husband or yours?

I googled you.

I think that went both ways.

Huh.

So what now?

What, do we kill each other? We hug it out? Pretend to be nice? What?

You leaving that up to me?

You don't consider yourself an equal partner in this relationship?

Dallas here.

You know, it's taken everything in me not to rip your eyes out of their

right now.

But then you speak familiar about my husband in front of me?

You got guts, D 'Andra.

I guess I can see what he sees in you, too.

That be my husband or yours?

If you could kiss before I say I would go, you'd have me, darling, saying

I do.

I wish that you could have my soul.

Hey, let's play a bit.

As long as I've been here, while longing all

too long.

I can understand that it bothers you to see her. What

bothers me is you pissing on my head. What exactly does she have on you? Oh,

must be getting desperate, dear, because I've never seen you deflect before.

Okay. You're right.

I think it's time she and I establish some boundaries, don't you?

Boundaries?

Boundaries? What, you're not going to tell me you're not a little bit moist

because Dallas is here?

Okay, now who's deflecting? You didn't answer the question. Neither did you.

All right.

Okay, you know what?

Let's just say I give you back all the money right now. Every dime, I give it

all back right now. Are you still here with me? Don't do that.

Don't put a hypothetical leash around me.

You either want to give me the money back, and if you do, do it. If you

fine. Or this wasn't about the money?

My God, you were good.

You were really good. I mean, I thought I was good. But damn, girl, you run

fucking big circles around me. Because I almost believe that shit, girl.

Was I the only one in the desert?

Huh?

I know you felt what I felt.

But you look me straight in the eye and you tell me it meant nothing.

Before we made our decisions, you asked me.

What it was that we would be fighting for if we stayed together. In the

I found what I was holding on to.

Through all of the lies.

Lie, D 'Andra, stop.

Okay, stop doing that. Stop making it seem like I lied to you multiple times.

Because the only time I wasn't truthful with you was before we got married about

who I really was.

Everything else after that was all me, boo. That lie was compounded every

day until the day that I found it. So it was thousands of fucking lies by the

end.

All right, fine. What's your point? My point.

It's your point.

It wasn't about how we got there.

But at one point, we were there.

Connor, I loved you.

Deeply.

And I saw that and I realized that when we were in the desert.

So what, I'm supposed to believe this is about love now?

Are you saying it isn't?

Deandra, I saw you. I saw your face when the money left the account, okay? Then

why are you...

you again.

Come in, you.

Oh, my God. I missed you.

So,

I mean, how are things?

You know, how are you?

I'm good.

Yeah? It's good to see you. You're looking good.

Okay, you're touching my stomach like you already know.

I do, though.

Okay. Where's little lunch meat? Where he at?

He'll be up here in a minute.

Yeah? Yeah.

I remember you.

Okay. Okay, but you know this is... Oh, hey!

Hey!

Um, you two have met, yeah?

Well, if it ain't little boy Wanda.

That's me.

You the man without a plan, right?

How's life look as a third wheel?

I'm the third wheel.

Now, don't get it twisted. I'm here fixing your shit, bruh.

Okay, okay. Everybody's got a big dick. Okay, but can we just leave it at that?

Maggie. No, no, no.

Listen, this has nothing to do with the two of you.

It's not about that. It's about me and this baby.

And I thought that we could be adults here, but I see straight away we can't

that. Look, look, Maggie. No, I can't look.

Sawyer, you can leave if you like.

But for the record, I really need for you to stay.

But if you choose to leave, I will understand. But if you choose to stay,

the fuck up.

Wow.

I need to say something, and I need you both to hear me.

I've had a lot of things go through my mind since the experience began.

The emotional rollercoaster has gotten to be a bit much, and I

think it might be time for me to get off.

Which means?

To me, it means freedom.

Freedom to live my life the way I choose to.

Freedom to take care of this kid the way I choose to, the way I see fit.

Freedom to fucking breathe.

Wait, hold on.

I'm just trying to make sure because I'm kind of confused.

I hate to say it, but I agree with him.

Are you...

Are you saying you don't want to be married anymore?

Or saying that you don't want none of this?

I think so.

You think so?

The biggest decision of our lives, and you think so?

I just need space, OK?

I just need space away from both of you. OK, well, so he and I are the

same to you now? Carson, I know this is tough.

Especially for you. But I am just too numb to take care of you right now.

So that's what this was all about, huh?

You brought us here so you could tell both of us that you're fucking walking

away from us? Okay.

And the baby?

Oh!

Thank you so much for bringing that.

Wow.

Okay, so I already know what this is.

Come on. You just have to put it in your mouth, swab inside your cheek.

So we came back for this.

You made up your mind in Houston.

We're not getting back together, are we?

No.

Not... Not right now.

I'm sorry.

Laugh again?

I really want you to.

Carson. Sound like you want some smoke, church boy.

I'll knock your ass back to choir practice.

You want pain?

I can do pain.

Carson? Carson?

Baby.

Maggie, I'll take the test, and I'm going to send you the results.

Because I don't want to know.

What? Enjoy your freedom.

In another life, you'll be begging me to stop the excruciating pain I'm able to

inflict on you.

Count your blessings.

Carson!

Where are you going?

Oh, shit.

I can give you pain.

I can give you pain.

I'll give you so much pain, you'll be begging for me to stop.

Every time you come, somehow I feel revitalized.

Your tolerance is seductive.

I'll make another appointment with you when I come back to town.

See you around.

I certainly will.

Did you hear his thoughts? Care about his mind? All you did was lie. Even

your eyes.

Told him to shut up when he asked you why.

But you knew the truth, baby.

The devil in disguise.

You made him fall for you.

An angel in his eyes.

But now you see clearly.

You look just like a gun.

It's running.

He said he's tired, tired of you.

Yes, girl, he's tired, tired of you.

He was always there for you.

Now it hurts to stay. No, he wants to hear from you.

Cause I'm sure him should just forget that his heart took up like a jet. Oh,

played him dirty cause you made up all the rules.

But you know the truth, baby.

The devil in disguise.

He made him fall for you, an angel in his eyes.

But now you see clearly,

he looks just like a gun.

He's running from the darkness and straight into the sun.

He's getting tired, tired of you.

Yes, girl, he's tired.

Warm again Feel the touch He's

missing Breathing back to life

And open