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Okay, everybody. We have a special guest today.

She's coming in to do one of our anti -porn PSAs.

Who is it?

Well, let's just say she's a young lady who years ago lost her way.

But she has seen the light.

And she wants to share her story to help others in need.

That's awesome.

Absolutely. In that case, everybody, it's time to spread.

Excellent.

I'll go check on her and see if she's done with makeup.

If you could go set things up, Jonathan, and get everything ready, I'd like to

be shooting by noon.

You got it.

Right.

In any porn movie, there are three things you will inevitably hear the

screaming as they're getting fucked.

The always popular, yes.

It's short, sweet, and to the point.

Directors and production companies like this one because it's an obvious sign of

verbal consent.

Oh, hey, Tammy.

You out ready?

Yep. Great.

And you know what you'll be talking about?

Yep. Wonderful.

Oh, please, just follow me.

Then there's the more descriptive fuck and all its offshoots.

Fuck me.

Fuck my face.

Fuck my ass.

Fuck my whatever.

This is a favorite of most girls.

It's more of a hybrid mix.

Part instructional phrase, part dirty talk, and it rolls off the tongue with

ease.

Well, this is where the magic happens.

And finally, and most applicable to my story, is the strangely ethereal, oh

usually said in repetitive bursts of three.

Oh god, oh god, oh god.

This one is a bit of an oddity, and obviously goes against the second

commandment. Not sure why or when it became a porn thing, but it has.

And now, even the least religious heathens among us call out the Lord's

the heights of passion.

I'm going to put you right over here.

All right, everybody. This is Tammy.

And are you feeling ready? You want to try one?

Sure. Terrific.

Jonathan, all set?

All set.

Terrific. Roll cameras.

Marker.

We have anti -porn PSA starring Carrie Munro. Take one.

And action.

Hi. My name is Tammy Dawson.

Some of you might know me as Carrie Munro.

I was a porn star.

I've appeared in over 300 X -rated movies, and I've fucked countless men

women.

Let's cut it right there.

Tammy.

If we could make it a little less graphic, you know, this may be seen by

young adults, you know, under the age of 18.

So if we can make it a little more PG.

Okay.

Terrific, thanks.

Okay, everybody, from there, cameras rolling.

Set.

Marker. Anti -porn PSA starring Carrie Munro, take two.

Beautiful. And action.

I appeared in over 300 X -rated movies.

You see, I grew up in a very religious household.

As I got older, I wanted to find my own way.

I drifted away from the church, and that was the beginning of my problems.

I'd always dreamed of being an actress, and when I finally got the chance, I

jumped at it.

I moved out to California, and I took my shot at stardom.

I really wanted to be famous.

Oh, it's going so great, Tammy. Really wonderful.

Now I'm wondering if this time you can make it sound a little more sad.

You know, not quite so exciting.

Okay?

Okay. Thanks. Just go ahead.

Unfortunately,

I began to realize...

that I was famous for the wrong reason.

I had lost my way.

I turned my back on God and everything that I was taught.

I was doing it all for the money and for what I mistakenly thought was the love

of my fans.

And on that day, I came to realize that God would never turn his back on me

and he would forgive me.

And there was still an opportunity to change.

So that's what I did.

He forgave me.

All I had to do was ask.

And let's hold it there.

If we could make it a little less glamorous.

You know, if you could focus more on how you were coerced into porn.

And I don't want to put words into your mouth, but, you know.

You really didn't want to do it.

And once you were in, you felt you were trapped.

That's not how it happened.

Yeah, but you see, we find that it plays better if the audience thinks the girls

were coerced or tricked in some way.

Because then the people, they feel sorry for you.

And it makes a much more powerful message.

Right? But I don't want to lie.

Oh, no, I don't want you to lie, sweetie.

I would just like you to emphasize the fact that once you found yourself in the

business, you felt, well, there was no way out.

And again, you were trapped.

But... I didn't want to do it anymore.

But I didn't know what else I could do for a living.

And my options were limited.

The business was changing.

I was changing.

And I knew that I needed to seek a different path in life.

Okay, cut.

Well, let's all take a little break, shall we?

Everybody, grab some lunch.

Oh, and Jonathan.

I'm thinking.

If we put some really dramatic music under this, that will help sadden it up

bit.

But, man, we've got to see if she can dig a little deeper after lunch, right?

Okay. I'll see what I can do.

Really appreciate it.

Take her out for a walk, someplace private where she feels more

then just see if you can open her up a little bit.

Because, man, we need it more sad.

We need some tears.

Right?

I mean, I'll talk to her.

Terrific. Work your magic.

Thank you, Jonathan.

So, um, how long were you in the business?

Um, five years.

It went by so fast.

Yeah.

Time does fly.

I've been here now three years.

Feels like just yesterday.

You know, I remember the first time I shot camera for them.

I was so nervous.

Yeah.

I was really nervous today.

I've been in front of a million cameras, naked, having sex, and every time felt

right at home.

Today was totally different.

Yeah, you know, I didn't notice you seemed a little...

Diff up there.

It's okay. Just relax.

We're all on the same team here.

We're just people trying to let others tell their stories and hope some are

to find their truth.

Yeah.

It's just a whole other world.

You know what? Let's help you feel at home.

I actually think I know something that might help. Something you can relate to.

You know when you're about to give a big speech and you get stage fright?

Yeah.

And you picture everyone naked, you know, to even the playing field?

What makes you think I haven't already been doing that?

Really?

Even me?

I'm sorry.

That's embarrassing.

Does that make me a bad person?

No. No, not at all.

We all have temptations from time to time. It's just not acting on it.

God always understands and forgives us.

What if I wanted to act on it?

What if I wanted to... Stop it.

I'm sorry.

It's so hard to be good.

Especially after being bad for so long.

God tests us.

Forsake our temptations.

To prove our loyalty to him.

Right.

Are you feeling tempted right now?

Um...

Very. Stop it. Stop it. Stop it. Please, please. What?

We have to pray for the Lord to forgive us.

Heavenly Father, please forgive us for our sinful behavior.

She knows not what she does.

She just came back into the fold, and she was weak and easily tempted. Please,

God, give her the power to refrain from this terrible temptation.

And please, God, help me resist her advances.

Amen.

Amen.

I don't think God is listening.

What? At least about the resisting part.

Oh, God.

Oh, God.

Please, Lord.

Oh, it's beautiful.

Oh, my God.

Oh,

yes.

Oh, my God.

Oh my god.

Are you sure no one's going to help you?

I hope not.

Oh, Lord.

Oh, God.

Bye.

That's so good.

Do you think God is listening now?

Thank you.

Oh. Oh.

Oh.

It made me feel incredible.

I'm glad you feel that way.

I felt kind of bad thinking that I was pushing you into something you didn't

want to do.

No, not at all.

I definitely wanted to do that.

I didn't know sex could be so... Amazing?

Yeah.

You know, if sex...

If he was so good, then why did you ever stop?

I've always been a super sexual person.

Porn didn't make me this way.

I was kind of built for porn.

So when that guy wanted me to say that it took advantage of me, I couldn't.

Did it use me?

Yeah.

But I used it too.

They were some of the happiest moments in my life.

Then why'd you quit?

I got what I wanted out of it.

I just bought my first home.

I own my car.

I have a huge chunk of cash in the bank.

I treated it like a business, and I saved my money.

I didn't start doing drugs or get caught up in spending my paychecks on

expensive shoes and purses.

But, like I said, the business has changed, and so have I.

Well, if you were so happy with your time and your business, then why are you

here?

Why are you doing a PSA about porn?

I think it's because even though I had a good experience in porn,

not everyone will.

And I just wanted to convey that message.

It is what it is, and it's not for everybody.

Let people know the facts.

That way...

If they do decide to take the plunge, then at least they'll know what they're

getting into.

Why don't you make that your message?

That's what the plan was.

And then he started trying to twist it around.

It's like he wanted me to be this sweet little innocent girl who'd been taken

advantage of by the big bad porn industry.

And that's just not my story.

He can't do it.

Yeah.

He likes to do that.

Well, what are you going to do? I mean, it sounds like you're having second

thoughts.

Maybe.

Maybe I did rush into this.

Maybe... It wasn't a good idea after all.

Fuck.

What am I doing?

I'm getting taken advantage of here more than I ever did in porn.

Isn't that so bad?

Actually, could you do me a huge favor?

After sex like that, anything.

Hey.

Did someone take the card to the camera?

Who has the card?

Did someone at least download the footage?

What's the matter? What's wrong?

The video card. It isn't in the camera.

What do you mean?

It's gone.

The footage is gone.

Where's Tammy?

Sometimes life has a way of righting itself before things can go really

With a little divine intervention, I came to my senses just in the nick of

What started out as a calling to help others turned into something else.

I felt dirty.

Dirtier than I'd ever felt on any porn set.

I still wanted to have God in my heart. I just think I'll keep it to myself and

not feel the need to share it with everyone else.

The porn industry had been good to me, and I was going to return the favor.