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You're always there, sticking up for him,

fighting all his battles.

Going in two-footed, playing the bully.

We're not arguing about
who's gonna be your best man.

Although, just to be clear, if it was me,
it'd be an honor.

- How about we all go out somewhere?
- That sounds nice.

Is yours done yet?

I don't wanna bring someone
into Joe's life without asking you first,

and I would want the same.

Say what that comes into your head.

- Would you like to meet up sometime?
- Oh, right!

I think you're keeping your distance
because you don't approve.

I didn't want to be…
my usual controlling self.

Just tell me you're ashamed of me.

I could never be ashamed of you!

End of an era.

All those memories, eh?

Yeah.

I bet you're as choked up as I am.

Yeah.

We need suits.

- Wedding suits.
- Do we?

We do!

Thanks, pal. I won't let you down.

You know, when Eddie married Nicola,
he had Paul as his best man,

and we all know how that marriage
ended up.

I'll tell you what, I'll buy the suits.

- My treat.
- If you like.

We can't have the groom and his best man
looking like a pair of scruff bags, eh?

Ralph! All right?

- How's it going, man?
- Not bad. You?

- Yeah, not bad, man.
- Bloody London.

♪ Well, I stand at every corner
Of the world ♪

♪ And I stand in every corner
Of your heart ♪

♪ And I give you everything
That I call love ♪

♪ From the heavens
To the bottom of the sea ♪

-♪ Trampolene ♪
- ♪ I can't believe you're trampling me ♪

♪ You tell it to me softly
Then you disagree ♪

♪ Well, I stand at heaven's gate
Come see me cry ♪

♪ Heaven's gate is locked
They will not let me by ♪

♪ And so I walk a little mile
Into your dream ♪

♪ And tell me what is on your mind
My trampolene ♪

Thank you.

- ♪ Trampolene ♪
- ♪ I can't believe you're trampling me ♪

-♪ Trampolene ♪
- ♪ I can't believe you're trampling me ♪

♪ You tell it to me softly
Then you disagree ♪

-♪ Trampolene ♪
- ♪ I can't believe you're trampling… ♪

Okay, see you later.

- 'Kay.
- Morning, Brittany.

Good morning, Blaise.

Good morning, Zebra class!

- Good morning, Heather!
- Good morning.

Okay, so, whose turn is it

- to show the timetable today?
- Me!

Oh, so many volunteers.
I think it's Stacey's turn.

I think it is! There you go, Stacey!

So, what day is it today?
Can anyone tell me?

- Wednesday.
- Wednesday! Okay.

So good morning first, yeah.
And then circle time.

Snack.

- Snack, favorite bit.
- And tidy up, and then outside.

And outside, yes.
We've-- We've all done very well.

- Yeah.
- Okay, thank you, everybody.

So, after circle time, Joe's mum, Alison,

is gonna be telling us all about tomorrow.

Great!

So, your first stop
is gonna be with this man,

and he's called Maurice,
and he's a fireman.

- Where is Maurice's…
- This is Maurice here.

And he's also Joe's granddad.

Well done, Joe!

So you have to say hello,
and you tell him your name,

and then he's gonna tell you his name
and he'll give you a reward.

- What's a reward?
- And then what else will he do, Joe?

Point.

It's rude to point.

It is! It's rude to point.

But he's not gonna be pointing at you.

He's gonna be pointing the way
to the next station.

Oh! To the bakery?

It's the best one, isn't it?

And then we go around and get…

Yeah, and Heather and I, we're gonna
walk all the way around with you.

All the way around.

The Aardvark class are gonna come too,

so we can raise lots of money
for the new minibus.

Yay!

Thanks, everyone! Next rehearsal
is a run-through of the wedding songs,

so I need a full attendance, please.

I've put the arrangements in the baritone
and the soprano parts on the website.

Maurice, I just wanted to give you these.

- I really can't.
- No, they're not for you.

They're, uh, for your Rebecca.

- How far along is she now?
- Uh, seven months.

These are apparently
all the rage at ante-natal classes.

It helps with demonstrating latching on.

I've gone a bit abstract
with the colors, but…

Right, well, thanks very much.

I think she only needs one for the class,

but, erm, I've made a pair
just to be on the safe side.

One's knitted,
and the other's crocheted.

Well, it's nice to have a choice.

Uh, they're for Rebecca.

Oh.

- Thanks, Granddad.
- Mm, lovely.

They'll be an ice breaker if nothing else.

Did you make these yourself?

They're all the rage
at the ante-natal clubs.

- Well, what time's your class?
- 4:30.

- Why? Do you wanna come?
- No, yeah.

- I will, if you really want me to.
- I'm joking.

I know the thought terrifies you.

Tom's coming.
He's gonna hand out business cards.

Oh, right.

Well, as long as he's doing it
for the right reasons,

that's the main thing.

What about you?

- What about me?
- Does the thought terrify you?

Bit late for that, innit?

Is this a cry for help, Maurice?

They're all the rage, apparently.

♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey ♪

There's a customer.

Hate to be a stickler,
but you are the waiter.

She would like you.

- ♪ I know, I know, I know, I know ♪
- ♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

Sure you don't want to sit in?

- Oh, no, I'm fine. Thank you.
- Right.

So…

I expect you're wondering
why I didn't call

after our early-morning chat
at the camping.

Oh, no. I get it.

Euphoria of the barbecue,

words said in haste.

The heady perfume of the chemical toilet.

I was just waiting for the right event.

There's a talk at the library.

- At the library, eh?
- Mm. A travel writer.

He trekked through Nepal
and lost three toes to frostbite.

I thought if we had something stimulating,

we'd have a catalyst for conversation.

Sarah…

you had me at "library."

Right.

- Does that mean you want to come? Right.
- Yes. Yes.

Yeah. It was a joke.

- End of, uh, Top Gun.
- Oh.

- Jerry Maguire.
- Jerry Maguire.

Yes, I think… that would be lovely.

I brought a leaflet,
just in case you said yes.

Mm. Great.

Tomorrow?

Oh, shit.

Oh.

I'm at Joe's sponsored walk
in Manchester tomorrow.

- You can't miss that, can you?
- Sorry.

That…

Another time, then.

Another time.

You don't like her, do you?

I do like her. What?

D'you think it looked like
I didn't like her?

Your body language looked
like you don't like her.

That's just my body.
It comes out at odd angles.

Do you think she likes me?

I think she thinks she's your girlfriend.

Need to clean that table again.
You missed a bit.

Heather, what're you gonna dress up as?

- Oh, it's a surprise.
- Ice cream man?

- An ice cre-- That'd be cool.
- Maybe.

Is it a shark?

A shark? No, it's not a shark.

Well, I have written up

the risk assessment
for the pond in the park.

I've got brollies, Wellie box,
rain hoods if it rains.

All the volunteers DBS-checked.

I've sent sponsor forms home
with the kids,

- so I can chase it up--
- Alison, Alison, calm down.

This is the best-planned sponsored walk
I have seen.

It's a local park, not the D-Day Landings.

- You think I've over-planned.
- No.

You've come up with an activity
that all the children will enjoy,

and you've made the thing
that Joe does best the center of the day.

You still think it's a good thing
to base my assignment on my--

You don't think it's bad
that I'm using it for my uni course?

You've done a nice thing.
It's not a crime if it helps you too.

Now you've just got to add our kids
and see if it works.

- One other thing, though.
- What? What have I left out?

- Enjoy it. Try to enjoy it.
- This is me enjoying it.

You wanna see me when I'm tense.

We could read a book about it.
There's loads of stuff on YouTube.

Oh, yeah, YouTube would be
my go-to guide for childbirth.

I just don't want to sit
in a room with a bunch of people

who have nothing in common except
they all had a shag around the same time.

Well, you just sold it to me.

Might even be fun.

I think it is just in terms
of being really relaxed

and kind of-- just about being prepared.

Maybe if-- Oh, come in. Come in, Rebecca.
You haven't missed much.

We're just contemplating the mucus plug.

Have a seat, love.

I'd like each pair to use
the objects they have

to re-create a stage of the birth process.

I think the melon must symbolize the baby.

Any ideas?

Mainly that you're gonna
have to fight me for that donut.

Stages of dilation,
I would have thought.

Um, should we start with this one?

So, is, uh, this your first?

No. I'm not the father.

Oh!

Don't think I could raise
another man's child.

Me neither.

How is your birth plan coming on?

I've made a start.
I know what sandwiches I'm bringing.

And I've put down
for every drug known to man.

I mean, all that kit we need,
it's unbelievable, isn't it?

John Lewis is great for baby bags,
breast pumps, sterilizers,

and presenting blankets.

- "Presenting blankets"?
- Yeah.

Are you having a boy or a girl?

Uh, I don't know. I didn't want to know.

Oh, it's best to find out.
Then you can imagine how it's gonna feel.

Start to get to know the baby as a person
before they've even arrived.

We'll get a pint in there,

when we come out,
I'll run my speech by you.

I'm pulling your leg.
Here it is. Let's get in there.

By the time we come out,
we'll look like half the Rat Pack.

- What are you waiting for?
- Josh.

- Who the hell's Josh?
- My best man.

So, I'm not your best man?

No, it's Josh. He's a laugh.

♪ You're twistin' my melon, man ♪

All right, Josh? I'm Maurice.

♪ Call the cops ♪

Huh?

Thought you might be
in need of sustenance.

Come in.

There's a knack
with these kind of fittings.

Your hand is going against
what your brain is telling you is logical.

I'm used to that feeling.

Brilliant.

- Thank you.
- Pleasure!

Right, what's next? Chest of drawers?

Well, yeah, but we can have the cake
and I can do that later.

Do the things
you don't want to first, Paul.

That way, your day will always get better,
and you'll end it on a smile.

Okay, so, what are we looking at?
Phillips or Flathead screwdriver?

Tom and Jonathan.

So,

we thought the melon
represents the baby's head,

and the sleeve is the birth canal.

And here we have crowning,
ladies and gentlemen.

- Yeah! That's very good!
- Thank you!

Rebecca and Olivia?

- So, we're thinking stages of dilation.
- Uh-huh.

Uh, first contraction,

then bigger, bigger still,
and eye-watering.

Very good. Excellent!

- That was a bit of fun to…
- Have you really got everything ready?

Now I'm going
to come round and talk to you…

I mean, yeah. The way I see it is,

make yourself as prepared as you can
for the unexpected.

I think we all know what's expected.

What I mean is, when the baby arrives,

we don't actually know
what it's gonna be like, do we?

Now, Tom,
can you lend me your melon?

And if I can get two volunteers
to pull this scarf from either end,

we can start showing
just how much pressure the pelvic floor…

Oh, I see.

I'm being promoted
to station one then, am I?

I think that's a good idea, love.

'Cos Granddad can be a bit…

alarming, if you don't know him.

Okay, kiddo. I'm off.

I'll see you bright and early.

- Get some sleep.
- I'll try.

The cross, the map, the park, my class.

Do you remember what Heather said?
We have to enjoy it.

- Yeah?
- What if?

- What if what?
- What if it rains?

It might rain.

But we'll be all right
'cos we have a plan.

The plan, the cross, the map,
the park, my class.

All those things
just help the day go well.

They're not things to worry about.

There will be hats.

Maybe. If it rains. Or raincoats.

We need hats.

All my class, for the walk.

- Hats?
- Special hats. For the walk.

- So we know.
- The hats.

There's 12 hours to go,
and now he's saying we need hats.

- You all right, Ralph?
- Yeah.

- Josh?
- He doesn't say much.

Josh?

What's he doing in there,
working on his speech?

What sort of thing
are you looking for, sir?

The sort of suit a best man wouldn't wear.

You look like you should be
working the door at Wetherspoons.

What're we thinking, fellas?

- Not right.
- More of a classic line?

- Softer cut?
- You don't want double-breasted, Ralph.

- I know.
- You don't want those pleated things

that make you look like you've got
a book resting on your arse.

Try that on.
Have a look in the mirror.

Stop fussing. You're not my dad.

It needs to look good with trainers.

- Is he serious?
- I don't know.

Like he says, I'm not his dad.

Are you keeping it neutral then?

Not too busy?

Mm. That's the idea.

- Because of his autism?
- Because of his autism.

Which is ironic considering
as he's living at his Granddad's,

which looks like an auction house.

It speaks well of your family
that you can live

with your ex-father-in-law
without killing each other.

It's only a matter of time.

Bill's grandparents spend
their time shouting at him,

'cos of his hearing aids,
and saying with complete confidence,

but without a hint of medical knowledge,

"There's nothing wrong with him,"
and, "He hears you when he wants to."

"Oh, he seems to understand you
when you offer him an ice cream."

That's one of Maurice's favorites
with Joe.

They don't blame Bill. They blame me.
They think I worry too much.

And when I found out
there was something wrong with him,

I exaggerated it
until he needed hearing aids.

Do they actually say that?

I've always been a worrier,

and then fate gave me
a child to worry about.

I'm not sure it works like that.

You don't have to feel obliged

to have our date after this, Paul.

This can count, and we can say we tried.

Well, if there's another talk
at the library…

You don't mean that.

I do.

Really.

- Shall we get this job finished?
- Mm. Yeah.

Okay.

Oh. I'll, erm, just take an antihistamine.

I don't want the paint fumes
irritating my membrane.

Amen to that.

Thank you.

He was always first choice, right,
for best man?

Yeah.

Hmm.

I just thought he could be
a bit more outgoing, you know?

Well, or at least say
a few words now and again.

Oh, nice. Smart.

You look, uh…

the dog's bollocks.

Very nice.

You could at least have told me
you were gonna take a vow of silence.

- Sorry.
- It wasn't so bad though, was it?

Okay for you. Top of the class
with your melon installation.

Jonathan was a great leader.

I felt competitive urges
I never knew I had.

Olivia banging on
about all the plans she's made.

All the kit she's already bought.

She was a bit full-on, but…

perhaps she thought
she was being helpful?

Perfect couples do my head in.

Now, come on.

Couples don't come
much more perfect than us.

What is it?

Is it just…

that it's scary now it's really happening?

Yeah, that's it.

I've known you since double English
on the first day of year seven.

I know when you're hiding something
from me.

You're right. It's just scary, that's all.

Thanks for your help today.
Saved me loads of time.

Yeah, I'm never happier than when
I've got my hand on an Allen Key.

You're full of surprises.

Well, it's logical. It's reassuring.

And when it's done, it's done.

Although chipboard dust
has to be handled with care.

- Of course.
- Yeah.

I could come tomorrow if you like.

- To the…
- To the, um, sponsored walk.

- Oh!
- You said there weren't enough volunteers.

- Right.
- I'd like to.

You do know it's fancy dress.
What about Bill?

Um, Bill's with his gran this week.

The other one. The nice one.

- Right. Yeah.
- Only if you want me to.

Otherwise, you just have to say,
"Sarah, you need to re-tune your antenna."

No. No. You should.

Yeah, you should come.

- Okay.
- It'd be nice.

Goodness me.

What a day of surprises.

Do you have any herbal tea?

Not so much herbal, no.

I always carry a couple
for emergencies.

I reckon, between us, we're capable
of making a dozen hats, aren't we?

I didn't mean for you
to drop everything and come around.

- I just panicked.
- No, I know how that feels.

I can't believe you've ever panicked.

My first day at teaching practice,

I slipped on a mat,
fell over, banged my head.

I was demonstrating an obstacle course,

and all the kids laughed.

I panicked, wanted to cry,

so I pretended I'd done it on purpose.

Really hammed it up
so I could properly cry.

If the Smiths had written a song
about teaching practice,

- I would have been that song.
- Aw.

You stuck with it. That's the main thing.

Yeah, well, I had to.
It's what I wanted to do.

Why?

I mean, I know why
I'm obsessed with this stuff.

It's because of Joe, but…

why did you?

In the first place, I'm ashamed to say,
because I was a nauseating do-gooder.

I'm not being fair on myself.
When I was a kid,

there used to be this collecting box
outside the sweet shop,

a statue of a little boy
with a leg iron and a walking stick.

He might have been blind as well,
but I could've made that bit up.

And I thought,
"I could do something about that."

And when I left university,
I wanted to be a poet,

but I had to get a job to tide me over
before I became famous.

So I…

I got work at a hospital
for people with learning disabilities,

which was easy because
no other fucker wanted to do it.

First time I went up there,
I was frightened.

After six months, a nurse said to me,
"You like working here, don't you?'

And I hadn't even thought about it,
but I said, "Yeah."

And I knew then that
this is what I wanted to do,

not because I wanted to do good,
but because I enjoyed it.

- Do-gooders don't survive.
- Hmm.

No one's ever accused me
of being a do-gooder, so…

So, now it's my turn to say it to you.

You like doing this, don't you?

And not just because of Joe.

I don't know. It's kind of crept up on me,

the feeling that this
might be my life now.

I didn't know what I wanted
when I moved here.

I knew what I'd had,

knew what I'd lost. But…

For a while,
it was just about surviving,

but now…

I don't know.

Feels as though it might be all right.

You okay?

Yeah.

How was the baby class?

Great, yeah. How was the suit hunt?

Good. Got something. Quite plain.

You and Ralph didn't go
for electric blue mohair then?

We won't be having matching suits.
I'm not best man.

- How was the baby class?
- I thought you were.

I'm on the bench. How was the baby class?
I'm gonna keep asking.

I don't know. It was full of couples.
I'm not in a couple.

Full of women who had everything
planned, it wasn't my thing.

I know "need"
is the wrong word these days,

and we're all strong
and independent women and all that.

"Need" is not the wrong word.

Has it occurred to you
that you might need your mum right now?

So do you wanna go through the plan
with me one more time?

No, and neither do you.

Just get an early night
and then embrace the chaos.

It's guilt, you know.

The planning.

'Cos I can never be sure
where his autism ends and my…

bad parenting begins.

I think I can plan
my way out of anything, so…

I think if I plan,
it might make things better.

Listen, I have a son

who's got a First
in Modern Languages at Durham.

He's living back with us
in his old bedroom,

delivering fast food on a moped
so he can earn enough money

to get as far away
from his mum and dad as possible.

In the end, it's all bad parenting.

And on that cheery note,
see you tomorrow.

8:30.

Traffic permitting, yeah.

Traffic permitting? Do you think
you should set off a bit earlier?

I'm winding you up. I'll be there.

And…

I'll take this map with me.

- No, I can bring that.
- No chance. I know what you're like.

If I leave it, you'll still be tinkering
with it at two o’clock in the morning.

See you tomorrow.

Hey, mister.

I'm not awake, am I?

I've got the hats. For tomorrow.
Everything's ready.

What's all this?

I'm going to like the walk tomorrow,
aren't I?

Of course you are.

The cross, the map, the park, the class.

You don't have to worry
about any of those things.

All you have to do is walk.

And you walk better
than anyone I know, right?

There!

Now, stay in your pajamas till morning.

You'll sleep better, I promise.

I won't do it wrong, will I?

I won't do the walk wrong.

No.

No, it's not like that. It'll be fun.

Now go to sleep.
You will dream better in your pajamas.

It will be fun.

That's right.

Will Asif have fun?

Yes.

- Will Tanya have fun?
- Yes.

Will Abby, Jacob, Caspar, Flo,
Ibrahim have fun?

They will.

They will.

Hey, if I'd have known
you were this handy,

I'd have hired you
to build the extension.

I like to keep my hands occupied
at all times.

Indeed.

Otherwise,
who knows what mischief I'll get up to.

N…

- Bill's at his gran's.
- Yeah.

In case you were wondering about me…

getting back…

if things… get out of hand.

Could happen.

Both of us on the green tea.

Ooh. You okay?

Yeah. Ow!

Would you like me to kiss you again?

We could give it another go.

- It's my phone.
- I thought it was.

Hiya.

No, no, no, no. I'm…
…just busy.

- Two secs. Don't go.
- It's okay.

- No, no, no.
- Honestly. I'll see you soon.

I involved him because
I thought he'd understand it better,

but I've overwhelmed him.
And what if he has a meltdown?

- I've got the other kids to think of too.
- Whoa, whoa. Look. Listen.

Do you remember the time when he refused
to get off the ferry in France?

Or when he insisted on jumping from
the highest diving board in Center Parcs?

Or that time when he was three,
and he pooed in the ornamental carp pond?

He survived those, didn't he?

- It'll be fine.
- Will it?

Or it won't be fine.
Either way, we'll deal with it.

Yeah. You're right.

Thanks.

Thanks.

Bollocks.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

A walk in a park. A sponsored walk.

It will be okay.
It's nothing to worry about, is it?

We might have to move soon.

Do you remember what we said?
Out of bed by 8:00.

- It is too late now.
- No. It's not.

You've got time. We can wait.
D'you want me to help you?

- Do you want me to help you?
- Joe.

When you say "Joe," you mean "wrong."

I don't, love. I don't.

I just want you to know
there's nothing worry about.

I'll be there the whole time.

Put your clothes on, Joe.
You will have a lovely time.

You will, Joe.
You will. I promise.

It is twenty past eight, Ben.
He's still in pajamas.

There's no need to panic.
There's still loads of time.

Now, you see, that's exactly what I said
to Joe. I can see why that doesn't work.

What's the worst thing that can happen?

Joe doesn't turn up. I don't turn up.

I've promised something that I can't do.

Heather is there. The volunteers
will still turn up. It will happen.

But then Joe's day becomes
the day everybody remembers

because Joe wasn't there.

"Joe's day." "Joe's day"? Listen to me.

He hates being the center of attention.

I should've seen this coming.

Maybe he's just over-excited.
Look, shall I talk to him?

As long as you don't use the phrase,
"Big day ahead of you."

That'll be Rebecca.
She said she might come here first.

But that's good,
'cos then she can take the hats.

- The hats. The hats.
- Don't worry about the hats.

Okay.

Do you like my hat, by the way?

It's lovely.

Can you…

You said, "Fancy dress,"

we give you fancy dress.

Hiya.

You'd better come in.

Joe?

Joe, I won't come in
if you don't want.

I just want to know if you're all right.

Oof. I'm not sure how that's gonna help.

I'm just trying to get everything done
so we can leave when he's ready.

- I'll go and have a word with him.
- No!

He's not used to you being here.
He's anxious already.

If you go in, he'll feel pressured,
and then it'll be a crisis.

- This isn't a crisis?
- Look,

don't make this any harder
than it already is, Paul,

- I don't know what to do.
- I do know what to do.

Remember what he's like
when he's like this.

I know what he's like.
I see him all the time.

Of course I know what he's like.
Let me just go and have a word with him.

You're the adult here, Paul,
and he's the distressed child.

- Just try and remember that, will you?
- That helps. That really, really helps.

Dad.

Maybe Alison's right. I mean,
this is his and her space, isn't it?

It might just confuse matters if…

Ben. It's all right.

I'm just trying to help,
and on your side, by the way.

No, look, Paul, you and Ben go.

- Me and Ben?
- And we'll talk to him.

And If he won't come, I'll follow,
and Rebecca can stay behind.

- Is that okay, love?
- Yeah.

Joe?

Do you remember the map
that Joe's mum made for us?

So, there's the lake.
Can you see it behind us?

- Yeah.
- Let's look…

No sign of Alison yet, but…

I've given the course the once-over,
just to be on the safe side.

Glad to hear it.

I'm guessing you are the special school.

- One or two clues, yeah.
- I take my hat off to you.

I'm Maurice. Alison's dad, by the way.

I got that. Heather. Joe's teacher.

Right, do we all remember
our sponsored walk rules?

Has Alison told you what the hold-up is?
'Cos I've heard nothing.

First things first, toilet break.

So let's all walk over there nice
and sensible and quiet. That's it.

- You don't mind giving us a hand, do you?
- No, not at all.

Thanks for helping Alison, by the way.
I've never seen her this happy,

- for a long time.
- Don't be silly. She's helped me.

That's what you say,
but she's my daughter.

I know she can be hard work at times.

You know, when she talks about you,
I thought she was exaggerating,

but no, you're pretty much
living up to your reputation.

- Right. Good.
- Hello, Maurice!

- Hello.
- Hi.

Is this the sponsored walk

- for Joe's school?
- Yeah.

Right, okay. So Joe's dad said
that you might be short of volunteers.

And I am fully checked.
Have my certificate here,

as a matter of fact,
you always carry it around.

- Paul invited you?
- Yeah.

She's a neighbor of ours.
Knows the territory. Got a deaf kid.

Yeah. Yeah.

So where is everyone?
I thought they'd all be here by now.

Your dad and Ben,
they've gone to the park.

We're just gonna stay here
for a bit with you.

Will Dad be sad?

No, he won't be sad.
He'll have a good time.

"Fiery Jack."

The Fall, 1980.

You like to walk.

I like to walk.

So we could walk.

Where do you think we could walk?

The other way.

The other way?

That way, Joe,
with everybody else.

- Hey, hey, Joe. It's okay, it's okay.
- Why d'you have to be different?

Why do you always have to be different?

Right, I'll tell you what, Joe,
I'm gonna go now,

just to make sure the rest of your class
are getting on all right,

and Rebecca's gonna stay here with you.

Okay. I'm gonna go.

It's just us two now.

Just us two now.

I know what this feels like.

When something's gonna happen,
something good, even.

But then you start to think
what it might be like, and you worry.

And the worry chases all the good away.

I know what it feels like.

I know what it feels like.

Look, man, I'm sorry about back there,

about butting in.

You were right, really.

It's just, when he's distressed,
you get pulled into Joe world,

and all bets are off.

I wouldn't have liked it if it had been
Molly and some bloke I hardly knew--

You know what? You're right.
You were bang out of order.

One question.

Does this hat make me look
like a bit of a tosser?

If I'm being honest, it does a bit.

It's not a power play.

It really does.

Bloody hell. No Joe and no Alison,

and you're giving yourself
a pat on the back for turning up?

I can see where Alison gets
her anxiety from, Maurice.

Me? I'm not anxious.
I'm the calm at the eye of the storm.

If you say so. Who's this, now?

- What time do you call this?
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry, everyone.

It's fine.

- Oh, hello Sarah.
- Hello!

Paul invited her.
She's got a certificate. Where's Joe?

Right, everyone. Um…

Let's get to the start
of the Sponsored Walk.

I want you all in a nice line,
no bunching.

Where will they be?

They'll be just getting to the park.

The walk won't have started yet.

But I might need to get going soon.

Do you know the way?

What's the park called?

What's the park called?

The Sponsored Walk Park.

I don't know where that is.
I don't live here.

How will you find it?

I don't know.

Do you know where it is?

Maybe you could show me the way.

- "The Life of Riley."
- The Lightning Seeds. 1992.

- "Disco 2000."
- Pulp. 1995.

- "Station Approach."
- Elbow. 2005.

I will need a hat.

Okay.

Right. You all look fantastic!

So we are gonna head down this path
and follow those blue arrows

until we get to our first station,
and then we're gonna check you off,

and you might well get a reward.

You ready, Tanya?

Let's go!

Well done.

You owe me a fiver
for the bubble machine.

Right. Lead the way, fella.

Off you go!

Yes!

♪ Lost in the Milky Way ♪

Right. Yes.

♪ Smile at the empty sky
And wait for ♪

♪ The moment a million chances
May all collide ♪

Yeah, there you go.

There you go.

♪ I'll be the guiding light ♪

Here, young lady. How's it going?

Two, yeah?

Okay. Here you go, Joseph.
Good lad. Keep going that way.

♪ So here's your life ♪

♪ Here's your life ♪

♪ We'll find our way ♪

One toffee. Thank you.

♪ We're sailing blind ♪

♪ But it's certain
Nothing's certain ♪

♪ I don't mind
I get the feeling ♪

♪ You'll be fine
I still believe that ♪

♪ In this world
We've got to find the time ♪

♪ For the life of Riley ♪

Hey-ya. Got some fruit. Anyone like…

- Ew, no.
- Okay.

♪ The life of Riley ♪

- Didn't have time for fancy dress then?
- Oh!

No, it's nice. It suits you.

Me and Bill like to wear them
for our movie nights.

That's good to know.

Thanks for coming to help.

Oh. It's pleasure-- was a pleasure.

Whoo! Well done, Cristiano!

Well done, miss!

You're amazing.

Whoo! Come on! Come on, Tanya.

- Well done! Fantastic!
- Come on, Davidson. Come on.

- Bring it over here.
- Well done! Yay!

See, I told you,
it would be fine!

You did.

- Now you've just got to write it all up.
- Yeah, but you know me. I enjoy that bit.

I'm in control at last.

So not just Joe
who has found a positive outlet

for his obsessive behavior then?

- Well done! I'll see you later.
- See you later.

Yeah, pass it! Nice.

Ooh!

He did it, then.

Yep.

At the risk of breaking
my own resolution not to wade in,

I'm wading in.

I'm making a guess you're terrified.

It was the antenatal class.

It usually is.

I just-- I haven't done anything at all.

I haven't even got a presenting blanket.

Outrageous.

This woman in the class mentioned it.
I'm not even sure what it is.

It's nonsense. It's just a blanket.

They just call it that
so they can charge you more.

You were passed 'round wrapped
in a towel after you were born,

and you were beautiful.

No one looks at the blanket.

- Really?
- Really.

And that's it?
That's what you were terrified about?

That and everything else.

Rebecca…

nobody knows what to expect.
It's unknown.

Everybody's panicking in their own way.

Even the woman with the birth plan,

and the fully fitted nursery
and the presenting blanket.

Is every woman thinking,
"What if my child has difficulties?"

Is everyone thinking that?

Did it cross your mind
when you were having me?

What about when you were having Joe?

I don't-- No. No.

But look, this was maybe always
gonna be a question for you

because you grew up with Joe.

He's been your normal.

I looked at all the perfect couples,
and I thought,

"I bet you all have perfect babies."

And if anyone's gonna have
the less-than-perfect baby, it's me.

You know that that's not true.

The woman in the class, she asked me
if my baby was a boy or a girl, and…

I told her I didn't know.
I wanted a surprise.

But the truth is, I don't--
I don't want to know anything

because something might be wrong.

And if I say that
I don't want a baby like Joe,

then I'm saying that I don't
want Joe as a brother.

No. No, you're not.

All you're saying
is that you want a healthy baby.

You can want a baby without autism
and still love Joe.

It doesn't make you a bad sister.

It doesn't mean you don't love him.

You're not ashamed of me?

I could never be ashamed of you.

I wanted you to be ashamed of me,

to have a go at me.

Why, love? Why would you want that?

To…

give me…

something to fight against,
someone to have a go at.

That way, there would be no room
for regrets or doubt.

Well, I don't know a mother without doubt.

It's the first rule of parenthood.

Whatever you're doing,
you're doing it wrong.

- What's the second rule?
- That everyone else is doing it right.

You could help me with the birth plan.

Oh, boy, could I help with the birth plan!

Mine was 42 pages in a bound folder.

- Is that you volunteering?
- Yeah.

If you would like me to,
I would love that.

Of course.

Oh, my girl.

Missed a bit.

Thank you.

This was great today.

It was brilliant.

Well, not everyone at the school
mucked in, you now.

I know.

Sarah is an interesting choice.

I don't think either of us
actually made a choice.

Any, um…
Any allergies cropped up so far?

All right. All right.

Let's just say she's got
a well-hidden sense of irony

- that neither of us fully appreciated.
- If you say so. I'm not judging you.

- I talked to Ben.
- Well done.

What?

I just don't really know what to say
to you sometimes.

It's hard to do small talk
with someone you know this well.

Are you two gonna be long?

I could have made you both
a suit in this time.

Button flies. Why anybody
still insists on using these…

There you are.
Emporio Armani meets Emporio Penguin.

What? I thought I'd done them all.

I'll say this for you, Maurice.
You scrub up well.

- Ralph chose it.
- Well, he's got a good eye, my boy.

He's probably feeling bad,
leading me on like that,

- about being his best man.
- God's sake, Maurice, let it go!

I don't know what kind of speech
Josh is gonna make.

- I've not heard a word out of him so far.
- Maybe that's why Ralph chose him.

So he won't take all the attention
on his big day.

Well?

You'll do.

You'll do.

Now go and get changed
before I make a fool of myself.

Go on.

She likes it.
That's why she's sending you away.

Don't look at me for an explanation.
That's women for you.

You better get used to it.

Shall I go and get changed too?

You can give me a Frank Sinatra song
before you do, if you like.

Maybe at the wedding.

Those trousers are gonna need
taking up, Ralph.

Thank you for today.

It was fun… in the end.

Yeah. In the end.

I'm sorry…

for having a go at you
when you were backing me up with Paul.

I can't pretend I wasn't a little put out.

- But you're a family.
- Oh.

- You're a good man.
- And a top singer.

- You're not a top singer.
- A great lover?

- Better than your singing, yeah.
- Yeah?

- Kiss better?
- Mm-hmm.

Mm.

Who could it be?

- Oh, it's Rebecca. Sorry.
- Okay.

Hello.

Hello. How are you?
What are you doing right now?

Hello. I'm fine. How are you?

What are you doing right now?

I'm fine. I'm speaking into the phone.

Well, I asked for that.

What did you ask for?

It's just a saying.
Shouldn't you be in bed?

- Is Ben there?
- Yeah. Yeah.

Ben's here.
Do you want to talk to him?

- Is he sleeping in my bed?
- No.

- I'll probably sleep in your bed.
- Here's Rebecca.

Joe, you did really well today,
looking after everybody.

It's me. I'll tell him.

Oh.

Thank you.

We think Joe's got a future
as a card shark.

He plays us.
Maybe he's been playing us all along.

Yes.

Do you remember that time in Corfu?

- It was Italy.
- Uh, Dad says it was Italy.

Yes! That's right! That's right. It was.

Well, your dad's got a better memory
for these things than I have.

- Good night.
- Night, Mum.

And thank you for today. Thank you.

Night.

Dad?

Okay, okay.

Hmm… Is…

that your card?

- How're you doing that?
- Oh, I can't tell you that.

I'll get chucked out
of the magic circle.

My turn now.

Okay.

Okay. Go on, then.

Go on. Out into the hall.

No peeping.

Okay. Um…

Joe?

Joe?

Joe.

Yeah, he's gone to bed.

He's made himself disappear.
It's a better trick, in fairness.

- You okay, love?
- Yeah.

I'm fine.

I'm glad your mum's found someone.

All that stuff at the house,
that was just, you know…

Things were a bit tense,
but Ben seems nice.

And he seems good with Joe,
and your mum likes him, so…

Doesn't it make you sad to say that?

It makes me sad for you.

Not for me.

I'm sorry.

I'll always be sorry.

You gonna keep that suit on
till the wedding?

This isn't still about
not being his best man, is it?

He just wanted a mate to do it.

Josh has been his mate
since he was ten.

I could tell that by their repartee.

Do you think I drove Eddie away?

- What's brought this on?
- Something Ralph said.

- "You're not my dad."
- He was probably just being stroppy.

That's what young men say
to older men.

I'm not, though, am I?
I drive my own son away, and now, well,

what am I to Ralph
when all's said and done?

You're just gonna have to grin
and bear this, Maurice,

because this is Ralph's wedding.

Well, that's just it, isn't it?
When you think about it,

what's the point of me
even going to the wedding?

Ugh.

Hello?

- Hiya.
- Oh! Hello.

Um…

I was thinking about Joe
at Ralph's wedding,

'cos he's gonna need a--
a mate or two there

'cos kids get bored at weddings.
And I was thinking…

it'd be great if Bill could come.

And he can't come on his own.
So, maybe you could come, too.

To Ralph's wedding.

If you're free…

as my plus-one?

Well, plus-two with Bill.

Yeah, obviously.

- Would you like to come?
- Um…

Uh, well, uh, yeah. That would be lovely.

Great! Oh, and, uh, Sarah?

- Yeah?
- Maybe don't wear the onesie.

Okay, then. Right. Uh, okay.
Well, b-- bye, then, Paul. Bye.

Have you seen this one?

That's lovely.

Have you… seen this one?

I booked it.

Weekend after next,

if you fancy it.

Yes, I do. That's lovely.

Thank you.

Looking forward to it already.

- Are you coming to bed?
- Yeah, I'll be up in a minute.

Yeah. Sure.

In a minute.

Ben?

This is Doug. He's Ralph's dad.

- Hello, son!
- Sarah!

You like Bill's mum, Sarah, don't you?

I promise I won't get drunk
and disgrace myself.

I'll be disappointed if you don't.

- I should have stayed in touch.
- Yeah, you should.

He's not seen you for ten years!

This is the day before his wedding,
for God's sake.

You've got what you wanted.
I'm just not sure it's what Ralph wanted.