All language subtitles for Beyond the Gates s02e54.eng

I'm sorry you have
to go through this pain.

I love you.

That's my prayer.

I promise.

My identity.

I love you, Anita.

Did you get
the "all clear" text yet?

By the time we're
done with our frittata,

she'll have her face on for us.

I never imagined Daddy playing
bouncer at our childhood home.

At least we have
your little lady on the inside.

Which has been
good for them and for Kat.

How's she doing
with the roomy withdrawal?

Change is not
Princess Kat's first language.

But faced with what Grands are
going through, she snapped to.

They're her entire focus.

Everyone's stepping up.

When Bill Hamilton showed up

on Mother and Daddy's doorstep
yesterday.

And he got past Daddy?

He came bearing a sweetener.

He had the construction
stopped at Leslie's house.

Ah.
So he came by to preen.

Daddy asked him to do it,
so he did it.

For now.

What else did Bill do?

He stopped by my place after.

Hoping to get rewarded
for his good deed

with some of your sweetness?

No.

He was... he was actually shook
by how Mother looked.

We joked, but...

he's had some real distance, and
he was struck by the difference

between the last time
he saw her and now.

Had him reaching back
to his OG trauma.

-His mother's depression?
-Yeah.

He knows it's not
the same, but...

watching her sink to the depths,

no matter how hard
he tried to love her...

You are not going to
make me feel bad for Bill.

Wouldn't dream of it.

And of course he's hit.

He's got
an extra layer of guilt.

Our parents took him in
like their own son

and he repaid them
by breaking your heart.

Mother and Daddy got

the "two bad son-in-law"
special.

Mm-mmm. We are not taking
this to the Ted place.

I am in very happy
single woman mode.

Now, that's where I want to go.

Tell me something good.

Mm. Do we have to?

We must.

Max Rodriguez.
He's a courier, room six.

There are guys waiting for him
outside the main entrance,

and they're not packing
balloons and candy.

He'd best avoid it.

Hurry up.

? ?

-Hey, ladies.
-Hey, yourself.

Was the guy in six
already taken down for tests?

Uh, no one's home.

Rodriguez, stab wound?

Yeah, that's the one.

Uh, Patel wants me
to rerun his blood.

I just processed Rodriguez's
discharge papers.

Now, riddle me this, Romeo.
What's Dr. Patel thinking

ordering new tests when the
patient's already out the door?

Good morning. Again.

I'm sorry I dozed off on you.

You needed the rest.
Hey, hey, don't get up.

Uh, we have, uh...

we have a date
with our daughters.

-And they can wait.
-No, there's so much to do.

Not when you're in more pain
today than yesterday.

I can see it now, I could
see it when you were asleep.

Well, then I'm just gonna
have to give back

those shiny statues
with my name on them.

Best Actress, my...

Oh! Mm...

That's it.
We're going.

No. No.

If I go in the hospital,
I might not come out.

How was the drop?

To be determined.

What do you mean?
Were you clocked?

Not me.
Rodriguez.

They put another hit out on Max?

Look, all I know for sure

is there were made men
outside of Garland.

I recognized one
from the truck drop.

He's not picking up.

Well, I need to go over there.

I think I got a message to him.

You think?

Ren already got
his pound of flesh.

We can't have him
or one of his thugs

from the Red Market Ring
circle back to finish.

-We have to get him out, now.
-Wait, wait. Hang on.

I asked Grayson to tell Max
so he can find a colder exit.

You told Grayson about Max?

Yeah, man,
I didn't have a choice.

The Rashad facade
works out here,

but on the third floor
of Garland,

-they see right through it.
-Hell of a way

to figure out
who Grayson Perez really is.

When Max's life
depends on the answer.

-Patel says jab, I jab.
-[soft chuckling]

Probably was just changing.
I would check again.

Will do.

I bet the lab's receptionist
and Patel's nurse

just got their wires crossed.

Hmm.
We'll see about that.

Max Rodriguez.

That was fast.

I wouldn't normally
ask for anything,

but this hurts like hell.

I'm not here
with your prescription.

I'm here with a message.

Look, uh, I-I...
Already received, okay?

-I...
-Relax.

This is from Rashad.

This isn't making
any kind of sense.

There's no order
for blood at all.

Hmm. Well, Dr. Patel's nurse
must have deleted it.

I'll catch Grayson.

Rodriguez doesn't need
to spill more blood.

Mm.

There's a service elevator
at the end of the hall.

You're gonna take that
down to the loading dock.

From there,
you get on the main road,

and you disappear.

Knock, knock.
Mr. Rodriguez.

I, uh, I'm here
to rescue you from this guy.

Hey, Dr. Patel, uh, deleted that
additional order for blood work.

Oh, yeah.
Thank you for catching that.

Yeah. Um, I'll just
get a chair in here

-and we can wheel you out.
-Uh, no, no.

No?

Uh, Mr. Rodriguez
is waiting for his prescription.

Oh, gosh.
Of course.

You know what, um, just-just
give me a few minutes.

Thanks. I-I...

You can thank me
by keeping your mouth shut.

If anyone finds out
that I tipped you off...

You and I both
will end up back here.

No. No, you're not
gonna have to worry about

the guys out there.
I'll finish the job myself.

Now go.

I let my fears
get the better of me yesterday.

Don't follow that example.

I'm being realistic.

You're refusing
to see the state I'm in.

Do you agree
that you're in pain?

I don't want to go.

Have you been able to keep any
of your medications down?

Vernon, listen to me.

I am listening to you,
and what I hear

-is the chemo talking.
-No...

The hospital is-

The hospital is where you can

get the help you need,

where they will manage
these side effects

and give you some relief.

Mm... [grunts]

Please, Anita.

I...
It's not what I want.

Well, you can tell me
how wrong I am

when we're on the way,
but we're going.

All right.

I'll go. Not because
I'm agreeing with you,

but I just don't have
the energy to fight you.

I'll have Titus
bring the car around.

[groaning]

One sec. I just, um, I need
to wrap up with Rodriguez.

Uh, he said his ride was here.

I would have told him to wait,
but he was getting anxious.

Poor thing.

Well, I know he can get that
prescription at any pharmacy,

but I would have wheeled him
past ours on the way out.

Well, however he got stabbed
must have been traumatizing.

He was so shaken.

I'm just glad he didn't
bolt out of here in his gown.

Yeah, poor guy.

I thought you had
the night shift.

Yeah. I just want
to finish some charts.

The chief gave me
a little nudge.

Lia's giving you trouble.

Eh, she just wanted
to light my fire.

If I want to move up,
I have to be perfect.

You already are perfect.

But I get
keeping our boss happy.

I should get back to the lab.

You can make me happy.
Lunch?

-You just pulled an all-nighter.
-I can rally.

MAN [over P.A.]:
Dr. White, dial 316.

Rain check. I got a lot more
going on today than I expected.

Max got out clean.

I'm gonna take him
someplace safe.

All right, yeah, I'll come with.

No, Rashad,

you've already taken
enough risks for one day.

Look, I'm still the cop here,
remember? And besides,

I don't need you
taking any more chances.

I'll watch my back.

Max is my source
and he helped us.

I'm not gonna let
anything happen to him.

I have to go.
He's waiting.

Just take care of yourself
out there, man.

ChelseaKat's
a little more Chelsea

and a little less
Kat right now.

You guys okay?

Chelsea's on board.

And living in my own wing
at the Grands?

If Naomi, Chelsea and Martin
weren't married or engaged,

all the third gen
would fight to move in.

I'd pay to see that
Dupree fight club.

-I'm small but I'm scrappy.
-Yeah, you are.

But you don't have to
put on your brave face for me.

She just has to get through
this rough patch.

But when you said
it would be hard

seeing her struggle up close...

I wish I'd been wrong.

I wouldn't trade it.

Gran's go-to is to close ranks
and not let

anyone see her like
this except for Granddad.

But...

she's starting to get
used to me being there

and letting down her guard.

Is it okay for me to say
I'm proud of you?

I honestly feel
so honored to be there.

And I feel honored being able
to talk to you like this.

Let me be where
you relax and let loose.

We'll do whatever you need.

We can go out or stay in,

salsa or slow dance.

We can work out
or eat breakfast.

Tell me what you need...

and I'll make it happen.

DANI:
If Carlton

and Kial were cars,

who would you drive
for 100,000 miles?

It is not a competition.

It is more of an exploration.

Oh, okay.

If Andre weren't the best thing
I had ever tasted,

I would be pulling up a chair
next to you

-at the sexy man buffet.
-Dani!

Where is the lie?

We both spent way too long
on our starter husbands.

No.
No, we have to be honest now,

in this post Bill and Ted's
not-so-excellent adventure.

So I am checking in.
Where's your heart?

Intellectually, physically...

Carlton and I line up.

We love the same movies, plays.

He's funny and sweet.

And after I see him,

I want to see more, you know?

And with Kial?

It's like no other man exists.

Oh.

Conceivably, you could
keep both,

but I don't think Carlton
would keep his cool that long.

He is the one
who wants to be Mr. Nicole.

Actually...

Kial made a couple
of surprising moves himself.

In the bedroom?

He just signed a lease
at Barrington Towers.

That new building that is
oh-so-close to Fairmont Crest?

And he gave me
a key to his place.

So, someone ended up
catching feelings after all.

He said it didn't
have to mean anything,

and he just wanted me
to have full access.

No strings, no expectations,
just whenever I wanted.

Just-just full access.

Sounds like
there is a frontrunner

in the Nicole bracket.

I don't want
to do Carlton like that.

He has been good for me.

But...

Kial is giving me something
that I've been looking for.

An open door.

Complete with your own key.

Mrs. Dupree. Senator.
What happened?

Yesterday, she hit her wall.

It's been worse by the hour.

New medication?

Can't keep it down.

All right, we'll-we'll
get you admitted

and contact Dr. Bauer,
with your permission.

Tell me what
you're experiencing.

The fatigue and nausea
have intensified.

VERNON:
So has the pain.

Where does the rank
of the pain happen,

-from one to ten?
-ANITA: Ten, ten.

Make that a 15.

We'll get you comfortable, okay?

-Yeah. Uh, Dr. Bauer?
-I-I'm on the with his office.

Dear, would you please stay
in case he has any questions?

Of course.

Right behind you, my love.

Max make it out okay?

Yeah.

Good.

But that wasn't cool, dropping
that on me in the elevator.

Listen, man, I owe Max,

and I couldn't make it to him
without raising suspicion.

But you- you could.

So, no harm, no foul.

That's not entirely true.

One of those guys
made it inside?

No, Ashley walked in on me
right after I warned him.

And Shanice's Spidey-Senses
were going up.

But you handled it?

But this is where this ends.

I don't owe anyone anything.

Look, relax, man.
Everything's gonna

shake out the way
it's supposed to.

Are you messing with me?

They didn't just nick Max, okay?

They marked him up good
to teach him a lesson.

Same thing could happen to me.

Or worse.

So, don't stand there
talking like you can

stop something
that's already happening.

Daddy. Just tell Mother
to throw on some lip gloss.

VERNON:
We're at the hospital.

Can you tell your sister?

She's with me.
What happened?

She had a bad night
and a worse morning.

We're on our way.

Don't try to stop us
from coming, because-

Come.
But there's no rush.

They're admitting her.

Uh, the doctor's here.
Bye, baby.

As you know,
Anita asked me to consult.

Dr. Bauer?

Is unavailable at the moment but
he'll be here as soon as he can.

I'm so grateful to have
someone of your expertise

on Anita's team.
What can you tell me?

Well, until we get
the blood work and run scans,

you know more than I do.
Fill me in.

I-I need to see Anita.

We can talk
while you take me to her?

Yes.

Hi.

We'll get you hooked up to some
pain meds as soon as possible.

[sharp inhale, groans]

It comes in waves, right?

More like squalls.

When it hits, just inhale.

And exhale through the squall.

Yeah, that's it.

Thanks.

Your heart rate's
slightly elevated.

BP's a little low.

You have a low-grade fever.

Your vitals aren't
cause for alarm, though.

No, just my entire body.

[laughs]

Okay, Bauer's ordered
a blood panel and a urinalysis,

plus an IV drip for fluids,
fever and pain.

I'll pull your IV
and get you started.

If you don't want any water,
how about some juice?

Mm. No, uh,

but I do need something.
Is-is Vernon out there?

Yeah, he's in the hallway,
talking to Dr. McCormick.

-I can grab him.
-No, no.

No.

I have the right to...

update my file without...

anyone being informed, correct?

Yes. You control what
information is disseminated.

Good.

Because I want to sign
a "do not resuscitate" order.

Max is safe, man.
You don't got to pop off.

I thought I could get my mom
into a good place

without this thing changing me.

What happened?

I warned them.

I warned Max not to tell
our friends outside about me.

Come on, man.
Max doesn't even know your name.

He knows my face

and he knows I work at Garland.

Max wouldn't rat.

He had the look on his face
after I threatened,

said as much.

Made me sick.

Grayson, man...

You know, I...
I justified doing this thing

by telling myself
that I would never

get my hands bloody for real.

But this is who I am now.

I may not have
laid a hand on Max,

but I might as well have.

[footsteps approaching]

We've taken blood,
and that drip's

starting
to make her comfortable.

She's miles from comfortable.

The medicine takes time.

But you can go hold her hand
and work your own magic.

-Can I talk to you?
-Yes.

I know you hate being
hooked up to all these.

But I hope you can see now

that it was best to come here.

Hiding out was no answer.

We have to face this.

I haven't seen that look
since my sister

told you no Spring Fling.

What I wouldn't give to have
those kid problems again.

I was updating the forms
we have patients sign-

insurance, medical history.
Medical directives.

You don't have to mind
your HIPAA with me, Shanice.

Mrs. Dupree
asked me to consult.

She wants to change
her advance directive.

She wants to stop treatment
and sign a DNR.

And that is her right.

Patients can make that choice
at any time,

so long as
they have the capacity

to understand the risks,
benefits and alternatives.

Our own personal beliefs
should not be a factor.

It is in my professional opinion

that she was
under extreme duress

and that temporary pain
shouldn't determine

if she stays in the world.

Please, just...

just make sure
this is what she really wants.

-I'll do what I can.
-Thanks.

But I want the forms on hand.

Good thoughts, sissy.

She's Mother.
She'll be fine.

Yes, she will.
Oh, Kat.

I don't want her
to be blindsided

when she shows up at home
and nobody's there.

Hey, Mom.

Granddad had to take Mother
to the hospital.

Did the pain get worse?

Yes, but we don't know
anything else.

Okay, um,

should I light up the Dupree

family phone tree
on my way over?

No.
I'm with your Aunt Dani.

Let us get the lay of
the land first.

Tell Gran...

Tell her I'm on chapter three.

And she's right.

Agatha Christie
is a bona fide genius.

I will tell her you love her.

We have rules
about excessive fawning.

We can make an exception.

Oh, I'm about to
get on the elevator.

I love you, Mom.

I love you too.

I'll keep in touch.

She's in the hospital.

I heard.
I'm so sorry.

Dani. Nicole.

They're in room three.
How's Mother doing?

They haven't completed
the full workup yet.

Senator.

Could I have a minute with Anita
so I can assess her?

Oh, my wife's not shy.

Baby, go and get some coffee.

And see if
Dani and Nicole are here.

Uh... I mean,
if it's just an exam, I...

My love...

I don't want you to end up
in this bed with me.

You think I won't jump in there?

I know you will.

Please, Dani and Nicole
might have questions.

You spoke to Shanice.

First, I need to ask you
some questions.

I'm not going anywhere.

Is the medicine
reaching your pain at all yet?

It is...

slightly less intolerable.

It's going to decrease.

All these years of research
and we're still

guessing at pain.

The medicine
"could" or "should."

"Sometime."

You know what I know, for sure?

I can't go through
another day like this.

I wish I could tell you that

tomorrow will be better,

but the pain may even get...
even get worse

before you turn the corner.

Well, then what's the point
of putting myself

and my family through that
if I'm just gonna die anyway?

Daddy.
How is she?

She's, uh...

Just give me a minute.

MAN [over P.A.]:
Dr. White, dial 316.

Oh, thank you.

Initiating a hunger strike
until you get back to Mother?

WOMAN [over P.A.]:
Orderly to 415.

The Duprees are in good hands-
mine and my auntie's.

I don't want to interrupt them,
but I just...

Go home.

And I'll tell them to call you
if they need anything.

WOMAN [over P.A.]:
Dr. Roberts, dial 821.

I'll be texting you.

You did this to help your mom.

It doesn't change
who you are at the core.

You did the right thing.

The rest was just
you trying to self-protect.

No, don't put a shine on it.
It's done.

But we're not.
We're still in this.

And we have to
rely on each other

or we're both going down.

One close call
doesn't make us friends.

"Alone" means you can't
watch your back.

Yeah, I've gotten
used to alone this year.

You've been in this for a year?

Yeah.

Well, I'm still new.

And I'm still trying to
figure out how deep this goes.

How many people at Garland
are involved in this ring?

The ring's designed
just so you know what you do.

Nothing else.

Well, you've got to have
a contact there, right?

I'm only contacted through text.

Because that's how
the guy at the top likes it.

And that's the way I like it.

I don't even like knowing you.

I got to get back to the lab.

Granddad was so sure
she'd be okay.

If-if I would have known, I...

Hey, hey.
What could you have done

that your grandfather didn't do?

Since you don't know
anything for sure,

stop what-iffing

and focus on helping
when your gran gets home. Yeah?

If... she comes home.

Cancer's a thief.

Stealing every which way
that she can manage.

She can't read
because her fingers hurt.

She has to lean on me
to take even a few steps

because she won't use a walker.

And this morning...

This morning, she could
barely sit up at all.

We're just... We're glad
you got her here, Daddy.

What is Dr. Bauer saying?

He's not here yet.

Monica's with her.

-Monica?
-Dr. Monica McCormick.

She's Shanice's aunt.

She's head of one of the, uh,

oncology departments
at MD Anderson.

Oh. That's one of the largest
cancer centers in the world.

And this Dr. McCormick-

she's given her something
for the pain?

Then she'll feel better.

And can accept that

the rest of her
extraordinary life

is just on the other side
of this dark chapter.

I'm not so sure about that.

This is not the time
to underestimate yourself.

I keep waiting to hit bottom.

That worst day,

before this turning point
you mythologized.

But it does not come.

I had a patient who compared it

to being in a holding pattern
on a plane.

You don't jump out of a plane
because it's circling,

especially when there are
still many moves to make.

There are medications
used with your current treatment

that can mitigate
the side effects.

But first, I want to pinpoint
the cause of your pain.

Pain isn't usually associated
with your current regimen.

So, what- I have
some other kind of cancer

or something else entirely?

I mean, I don't want to know.

Even if it could end this pain?

I have never
been more certain...

...that the body and spirit
are separate things.

I have loved this body.

It has served me well.

This is the body
I've enjoyed and employed.

The one that wined and dined

and traveled
and ran and swam and...

The one that danced
all over those stages

and belted out all that music.

The one that Vernon worshipped.

And gave me my children.

But right now,

this is a house of pain.

And it's smoking me out.

And Heaven help me, my spirit
wants to be free of it.

And what about
that man out there

and your big, fabulous family?

If Vernon keeps watching this,

he will not only
climb in this bed with me,

he will climb into my grave.

Isn't is it up to him
how much he can handle?

Up to all of them?

I can't keep
watching my family hurt

because I'm hurting.

This morning...

This morning...

...I...

...felt myself

losing that last piece

that ties me to this body.

What piece is that?

My...

I tried to sing.

But the chemo
has left my throat raw.

And scorched.

There was only this dry,
burning whisper.

That used to be
where my music lived.

Every breath
scraped across my throat.

Like glass.

My voice is me.

And it's gone.

I'm already gone.

My family
just doesn't know it yet.

Now... why don't you let
me see what's in that file?

Are you gonna continue
to stand there and act like

I don't know my own mind?

SMITTY:
I got Max settled.

Now he can start mending up.

Thank goodness.

Thank Grayson.

How's he?

Wound tight.

But I made some headway.

I pressed him for some info
on the hierarchy,

but he told me
he's completely in the dark,

that he only gets
his messages through text.

And you don't believe him?

Nah.
He's been at this for a year.

So I'm assuming he's met or seen
his contact at Garland

at least once.

Well, keep working him.

Something's got to give.
And hopefully that's Grayson.

This could just be a setback,
not the

You're right.
And you're late.

You shouldn't have to sit here
and watch me worry.

There's no place I'd rather be.

Nothing's more important
than you.

You called me
"the Anita whisperer" once.

Yesterday, I tried to shout down
your mother's fears.

You had a fight?

I was trying to lift her up.

But I had the opposite effect.

If Mother didn't have bad days
through all of this,

I would be worried.

This is different.

Then maybe it's time
we send this red devil packing

and get a new medicine.

It's more than that.

I know that woman's will.

I'm afraid she's
giving up her fight.

MONICA:
Here's the DNR.

But I want to make sure
that you understand

what "no extraordinary
measures" mean.

If your heart stops,
there's no CPR

or any resuscitation attempts.

And then there is
the question of nutrition.

Shanice filled me in
on all the inglorious details.

I had a patient- Charlotte-

who had the same
initial diagnosis.

Her cancer metastasized.

Name a cancer, she had it.

And we treated it
and she fought.

She was cured?

Her tumors shrunk enough
for her to go home.

But 18 months later,
they roared back.

[laughing]

[coughing]

Mm...

Oh...
That's your idea

of an uplifting story?

Every patient wants a cure.

But my goal is time.

Charlotte wanted
to meet her granddaughter.

She made it
to her first birthday.

Aren't there
Dupree events, milestones

that you want to be there for?

So many.

But how does that work-

me having a coughing fit
or passing out

while my great-granddaughter

is dancing at her cotillion?

I will not pull focus.

So then you don't
want to be there at all?

It's quality of time

that matters.

With any grace...

I could laugh.

Rather than
grit my teeth in pain.

Or I can hug,

instead of nearly breaking

at my husband's touch.

Or maybe...

...just maybe,

I'd be able to sing
at my granddaughter's wedding.

What if I were to tell you...

...that this, too,
shall pass, with certainty?

Would that be worth
today's pain?

Charlotte had a year and a half.

You could have
so much more time.

The operative
word there is "could."

You're Anita Dupree.

You have built your life
on defying every rule,

and that
is a double-edged sword.

Because you have
broken down every barrier,

and then everything
fell into place.

And on the other side,

you've been used to being
the exception to the rule.

Cancer does not care
what your name is.

We are trying
to give you more time,

but you need to give us
the opportunity

to find the right medicine,
to find the right treatment.

Time for you not to give up.

But no guarantees, right?

You'd have a chance.

And you are Anita Dupree.

And lady,
I'd take those odds any day.

-[knocking]
-[door opens]

Ladies.

Are you, uh, all caught up here?

MONICA:
All set.

I'll check on you.

Thank you.

Are you coming down
from the pain?

A little.

Good.

Nicole and Dani
want to hug their mother.

I want to hug them right back.

But first,
I need to talk to my husband.

My love, I've made some
decisions about my future.

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