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I'm sorry you have to go through this pain.

I love you.

That's my prayer.

I promise.

My identity.

I love you, Anita.

Did you get the "all clear" text yet?

By the time we're done with our frittata,

she'll have her face on for us.

I never imagined Daddy playing bouncer at our childhood home.

At least we have your little lady on the inside.

Which has been good for them and for Kat.

How's she doing with the roomy withdrawal?

Change is not Princess Kat's first language.

But faced with what Grands are going through, she snapped to.

They're her entire focus.

Everyone's stepping up.

When Bill Hamilton showed up

on Mother and Daddy's doorstep yesterday.

And he got past Daddy?

He came bearing a sweetener.

He had the construction stopped at Leslie's house.

Ah. So he came by to preen.

Daddy asked him to do it, so he did it.

For now.

What else did Bill do?

He stopped by my place after.

Hoping to get rewarded for his good deed

with some of your sweetness?

No.

He was... he was actually shook by how Mother looked.

We joked, but...

he's had some real distance, and he was struck by the difference

between the last time he saw her and now.

Had him reaching back to his OG trauma.

-His mother's depression? -Yeah.

He knows it's not the same, but...

watching her sink to the depths,

no matter how hard he tried to love her...

You are not going to make me feel bad for Bill.

Wouldn't dream of it.

And of course he's hit.

He's got an extra layer of guilt.

Our parents took him in like their own son

and he repaid them by breaking your heart.

Mother and Daddy got

the "two bad son-in-law" special.

Mm-mmm. We are not taking this to the Ted place.

I am in very happy single woman mode.

Now, that's where I want to go.

Tell me something good.

Mm. Do we have to?

We must.

Max Rodriguez. He's a courier, room six.

There are guys waiting for him outside the main entrance,

and they're not packing balloons and candy.

He'd best avoid it.

Hurry up.

? ?

-Hey, ladies. -Hey, yourself.

Was the guy in six already taken down for tests?

Uh, no one's home.

Rodriguez, stab wound?

Yeah, that's the one.

Uh, Patel wants me to rerun his blood.

I just processed Rodriguez's discharge papers.

Now, riddle me this, Romeo. What's Dr. Patel thinking

ordering new tests when the patient's already out the door?

Good morning. Again.

I'm sorry I dozed off on you.

You needed the rest. Hey, hey, don't get up.

Uh, we have, uh...

we have a date with our daughters.

-And they can wait. -No, there's so much to do.

Not when you're in more pain today than yesterday.

I can see it now, I could see it when you were asleep.

Well, then I'm just gonna have to give back

those shiny statues with my name on them.

Best Actress, my...

Oh! Mm...

That's it. We're going.

No. No.

If I go in the hospital, I might not come out.

How was the drop?

To be determined.

What do you mean? Were you clocked?

Not me. Rodriguez.

They put another hit out on Max?

Look, all I know for sure

is there were made men outside of Garland.

I recognized one from the truck drop.

He's not picking up.

Well, I need to go over there.

I think I got a message to him.

You think?

Ren already got his pound of flesh.

We can't have him or one of his thugs

from the Red Market Ring circle back to finish.

-We have to get him out, now. -Wait, wait. Hang on.

I asked Grayson to tell Max so he can find a colder exit.

You told Grayson about Max?

Yeah, man, I didn't have a choice.

The Rashad facade works out here,

but on the third floor of Garland,

-they see right through it. -Hell of a way

to figure out who Grayson Perez really is.

When Max's life depends on the answer.

-Patel says jab, I jab. -[soft chuckling]

Probably was just changing. I would check again.

Will do.

I bet the lab's receptionist and Patel's nurse

just got their wires crossed.

Hmm. We'll see about that.

Max Rodriguez.

That was fast.

I wouldn't normally ask for anything,

but this hurts like hell.

I'm not here with your prescription.

I'm here with a message.

Look, uh, I-I... Already received, okay?

-I... -Relax.

This is from Rashad.

This isn't making any kind of sense.

There's no order for blood at all.

Hmm. Well, Dr. Patel's nurse must have deleted it.

I'll catch Grayson.

Rodriguez doesn't need to spill more blood.

Mm.

There's a service elevator at the end of the hall.

You're gonna take that down to the loading dock.

From there, you get on the main road,

and you disappear.

Knock, knock. Mr. Rodriguez.

I, uh, I'm here to rescue you from this guy.

Hey, Dr. Patel, uh, deleted that additional order for blood work.

Oh, yeah. Thank you for catching that.

Yeah. Um, I'll just get a chair in here

-and we can wheel you out. -Uh, no, no.

No?

Uh, Mr. Rodriguez is waiting for his prescription.

Oh, gosh. Of course.

You know what, um, just-just give me a few minutes.

Thanks. I-I...

You can thank me by keeping your mouth shut.

If anyone finds out that I tipped you off...

You and I both will end up back here.

No. No, you're not gonna have to worry about

the guys out there. I'll finish the job myself.

Now go.

I let my fears get the better of me yesterday.

Don't follow that example.

I'm being realistic.

You're refusing to see the state I'm in.

Do you agree that you're in pain?

I don't want to go.

Have you been able to keep any of your medications down?

Vernon, listen to me.

I am listening to you, and what I hear

-is the chemo talking. -No...

The hospital is-

The hospital is where you can

get the help you need,

where they will manage these side effects

and give you some relief.

Mm... [grunts]

Please, Anita.

I... It's not what I want.

Well, you can tell me how wrong I am

when we're on the way, but we're going.

All right.

I'll go. Not because I'm agreeing with you,

but I just don't have the energy to fight you.

I'll have Titus bring the car around.

[groaning]

One sec. I just, um, I need to wrap up with Rodriguez.

Uh, he said his ride was here.

I would have told him to wait, but he was getting anxious.

Poor thing.

Well, I know he can get that prescription at any pharmacy,

but I would have wheeled him past ours on the way out.

Well, however he got stabbed must have been traumatizing.

He was so shaken.

I'm just glad he didn't bolt out of here in his gown.

Yeah, poor guy.

I thought you had the night shift.

Yeah. I just want to finish some charts.

The chief gave me a little nudge.

Lia's giving you trouble.

Eh, she just wanted to light my fire.

If I want to move up, I have to be perfect.

You already are perfect.

But I get keeping our boss happy.

I should get back to the lab.

You can make me happy. Lunch?

-You just pulled an all-nighter. -I can rally.

MAN [over P.A.]: Dr. White, dial 316.

Rain check. I got a lot more going on today than I expected.

Max got out clean.

I'm gonna take him someplace safe.

All right, yeah, I'll come with.

No, Rashad,

you've already taken enough risks for one day.

Look, I'm still the cop here, remember? And besides,

I don't need you taking any more chances.

I'll watch my back.

Max is my source and he helped us.

I'm not gonna let anything happen to him.

I have to go. He's waiting.

Just take care of yourself out there, man.

ChelseaKat's a little more Chelsea

and a little less Kat right now.

You guys okay?

Chelsea's on board.

And living in my own wing at the Grands?

If Naomi, Chelsea and Martin weren't married or engaged,

all the third gen would fight to move in.

I'd pay to see that Dupree fight club.

-I'm small but I'm scrappy. -Yeah, you are.

But you don't have to put on your brave face for me.

She just has to get through this rough patch.

But when you said it would be hard

seeing her struggle up close...

I wish I'd been wrong.

I wouldn't trade it.

Gran's go-to is to close ranks and not let

anyone see her like this except for Granddad.

But...

she's starting to get used to me being there

and letting down her guard.

Is it okay for me to say I'm proud of you?

I honestly feel so honored to be there.

And I feel honored being able to talk to you like this.

Let me be where you relax and let loose.

We'll do whatever you need.

We can go out or stay in,

salsa or slow dance.

We can work out or eat breakfast.

Tell me what you need...

and I'll make it happen.

DANI: If Carlton

and Kial were cars,

who would you drive for 100,000 miles?

It is not a competition.

It is more of an exploration.

Oh, okay.

If Andre weren't the best thing I had ever tasted,

I would be pulling up a chair next to you

-at the sexy man buffet. -Dani!

Where is the lie?

We both spent way too long on our starter husbands.

No. No, we have to be honest now,

in this post Bill and Ted's not-so-excellent adventure.

So I am checking in. Where's your heart?

Intellectually, physically...

Carlton and I line up.

We love the same movies, plays.

He's funny and sweet.

And after I see him,

I want to see more, you know?

And with Kial?

It's like no other man exists.

Oh.

Conceivably, you could keep both,

but I don't think Carlton would keep his cool that long.

He is the one who wants to be Mr. Nicole.

Actually...

Kial made a couple of surprising moves himself.

In the bedroom?

He just signed a lease at Barrington Towers.

That new building that is oh-so-close to Fairmont Crest?

And he gave me a key to his place.

So, someone ended up catching feelings after all.

He said it didn't have to mean anything,

and he just wanted me to have full access.

No strings, no expectations, just whenever I wanted.

Just-just full access.

Sounds like there is a frontrunner

in the Nicole bracket.

I don't want to do Carlton like that.

He has been good for me.

But...

Kial is giving me something that I've been looking for.

An open door.

Complete with your own key.

Mrs. Dupree. Senator. What happened?

Yesterday, she hit her wall.

It's been worse by the hour.

New medication?

Can't keep it down.

All right, we'll-we'll get you admitted

and contact Dr. Bauer, with your permission.

Tell me what you're experiencing.

The fatigue and nausea have intensified.

VERNON: So has the pain.

Where does the rank of the pain happen,

-from one to ten? -ANITA: Ten, ten.

Make that a 15.

We'll get you comfortable, okay?

-Yeah. Uh, Dr. Bauer? -I-I'm on the with his office.

Dear, would you please stay in case he has any questions?

Of course.

Right behind you, my love.

Max make it out okay?

Yeah.

Good.

But that wasn't cool, dropping that on me in the elevator.

Listen, man, I owe Max,

and I couldn't make it to him without raising suspicion.

But you- you could.

So, no harm, no foul.

That's not entirely true.

One of those guys made it inside?

No, Ashley walked in on me right after I warned him.

And Shanice's Spidey-Senses were going up.

But you handled it?

But this is where this ends.

I don't owe anyone anything.

Look, relax, man. Everything's gonna

shake out the way it's supposed to.

Are you messing with me?

They didn't just nick Max, okay?

They marked him up good to teach him a lesson.

Same thing could happen to me.

Or worse.

So, don't stand there talking like you can

stop something that's already happening.

Daddy. Just tell Mother to throw on some lip gloss.

VERNON: We're at the hospital.

Can you tell your sister?

She's with me. What happened?

She had a bad night and a worse morning.

We're on our way.

Don't try to stop us from coming, because-

Come. But there's no rush.

They're admitting her.

Uh, the doctor's here. Bye, baby.

As you know, Anita asked me to consult.

Dr. Bauer?

Is unavailable at the moment but he'll be here as soon as he can.

I'm so grateful to have someone of your expertise

on Anita's team. What can you tell me?

Well, until we get the blood work and run scans,

you know more than I do. Fill me in.

I-I need to see Anita.

We can talk while you take me to her?

Yes.

Hi.

We'll get you hooked up to some pain meds as soon as possible.

[sharp inhale, groans]

It comes in waves, right?

More like squalls.

When it hits, just inhale.

And exhale through the squall.

Yeah, that's it.

Thanks.

Your heart rate's slightly elevated.

BP's a little low.

You have a low-grade fever.

Your vitals aren't cause for alarm, though.

No, just my entire body.

[laughs]

Okay, Bauer's ordered a blood panel and a urinalysis,

plus an IV drip for fluids, fever and pain.

I'll pull your IV and get you started.

If you don't want any water, how about some juice?

Mm. No, uh,

but I do need something. Is-is Vernon out there?

Yeah, he's in the hallway, talking to Dr. McCormick.

-I can grab him. -No, no.

No.

I have the right to...

update my file without...

anyone being informed, correct?

Yes. You control what information is disseminated.

Good.

Because I want to sign a "do not resuscitate" order.

Max is safe, man. You don't got to pop off.

I thought I could get my mom into a good place

without this thing changing me.

What happened?

I warned them.

I warned Max not to tell our friends outside about me.

Come on, man. Max doesn't even know your name.

He knows my face

and he knows I work at Garland.

Max wouldn't rat.

He had the look on his face after I threatened,

said as much.

Made me sick.

Grayson, man...

You know, I... I justified doing this thing

by telling myself that I would never

get my hands bloody for real.

But this is who I am now.

I may not have laid a hand on Max,

but I might as well have.

[footsteps approaching]

We've taken blood, and that drip's

starting to make her comfortable.

She's miles from comfortable.

The medicine takes time.

But you can go hold her hand and work your own magic.

-Can I talk to you? -Yes.

I know you hate being hooked up to all these.

But I hope you can see now

that it was best to come here.

Hiding out was no answer.

We have to face this.

I haven't seen that look since my sister

told you no Spring Fling.

What I wouldn't give to have those kid problems again.

I was updating the forms we have patients sign-

insurance, medical history. Medical directives.

You don't have to mind your HIPAA with me, Shanice.

Mrs. Dupree asked me to consult.

She wants to change her advance directive.

She wants to stop treatment and sign a DNR.

And that is her right.

Patients can make that choice at any time,

so long as they have the capacity

to understand the risks, benefits and alternatives.

Our own personal beliefs should not be a factor.

It is in my professional opinion

that she was under extreme duress

and that temporary pain shouldn't determine

if she stays in the world.

Please, just...

just make sure this is what she really wants.

-I'll do what I can. -Thanks.

But I want the forms on hand.

Good thoughts, sissy.

She's Mother. She'll be fine.

Yes, she will. Oh, Kat.

I don't want her to be blindsided

when she shows up at home and nobody's there.

Hey, Mom.

Granddad had to take Mother to the hospital.

Did the pain get worse?

Yes, but we don't know anything else.

Okay, um,

should I light up the Dupree

family phone tree on my way over?

No. I'm with your Aunt Dani.

Let us get the lay of the land first.

Tell Gran...

Tell her I'm on chapter three.

And she's right.

Agatha Christie is a bona fide genius.

I will tell her you love her.

We have rules about excessive fawning.

We can make an exception.

Oh, I'm about to get on the elevator.

I love you, Mom.

I love you too.

I'll keep in touch.

She's in the hospital.

I heard. I'm so sorry.

Dani. Nicole.

They're in room three. How's Mother doing?

They haven't completed the full workup yet.

Senator.

Could I have a minute with Anita so I can assess her?

Oh, my wife's not shy.

Baby, go and get some coffee.

And see if Dani and Nicole are here.

Uh... I mean, if it's just an exam, I...

My love...

I don't want you to end up in this bed with me.

You think I won't jump in there?

I know you will.

Please, Dani and Nicole might have questions.

You spoke to Shanice.

First, I need to ask you some questions.

I'm not going anywhere.

Is the medicine reaching your pain at all yet?

It is...

slightly less intolerable.

It's going to decrease.

All these years of research and we're still

guessing at pain.

The medicine "could" or "should."

"Sometime."

You know what I know, for sure?

I can't go through another day like this.

I wish I could tell you that

tomorrow will be better,

but the pain may even get... even get worse

before you turn the corner.

Well, then what's the point of putting myself

and my family through that if I'm just gonna die anyway?

Daddy. How is she?

She's, uh...

Just give me a minute.

MAN [over P.A.]: Dr. White, dial 316.

Oh, thank you.

Initiating a hunger strike until you get back to Mother?

WOMAN [over P.A.]: Orderly to 415.

The Duprees are in good hands- mine and my auntie's.

I don't want to interrupt them, but I just...

Go home.

And I'll tell them to call you if they need anything.

WOMAN [over P.A.]: Dr. Roberts, dial 821.

I'll be texting you.

You did this to help your mom.

It doesn't change who you are at the core.

You did the right thing.

The rest was just you trying to self-protect.

No, don't put a shine on it. It's done.

But we're not. We're still in this.

And we have to rely on each other

or we're both going down.

One close call doesn't make us friends.

"Alone" means you can't watch your back.

Yeah, I've gotten used to alone this year.

You've been in this for a year?

Yeah.

Well, I'm still new.

And I'm still trying to figure out how deep this goes.

How many people at Garland are involved in this ring?

The ring's designed just so you know what you do.

Nothing else.

Well, you've got to have a contact there, right?

I'm only contacted through text.

Because that's how the guy at the top likes it.

And that's the way I like it.

I don't even like knowing you.

I got to get back to the lab.

Granddad was so sure she'd be okay.

If-if I would have known, I...

Hey, hey. What could you have done

that your grandfather didn't do?

Since you don't know anything for sure,

stop what-iffing

and focus on helping when your gran gets home. Yeah?

If... she comes home.

Cancer's a thief.

Stealing every which way that she can manage.

She can't read because her fingers hurt.

She has to lean on me to take even a few steps

because she won't use a walker.

And this morning...

This morning, she could barely sit up at all.

We're just... We're glad you got her here, Daddy.

What is Dr. Bauer saying?

He's not here yet.

Monica's with her.

-Monica? -Dr. Monica McCormick.

She's Shanice's aunt.

She's head of one of the, uh,

oncology departments at MD Anderson.

Oh. That's one of the largest cancer centers in the world.

And this Dr. McCormick-

she's given her something for the pain?

Then she'll feel better.

And can accept that

the rest of her extraordinary life

is just on the other side of this dark chapter.

I'm not so sure about that.

This is not the time to underestimate yourself.

I keep waiting to hit bottom.

That worst day,

before this turning point you mythologized.

But it does not come.

I had a patient who compared it

to being in a holding pattern on a plane.

You don't jump out of a plane because it's circling,

especially when there are still many moves to make.

There are medications used with your current treatment

that can mitigate the side effects.

But first, I want to pinpoint the cause of your pain.

Pain isn't usually associated with your current regimen.

So, what- I have some other kind of cancer

or something else entirely?

I mean, I don't want to know.

Even if it could end this pain?

I have never been more certain...

...that the body and spirit are separate things.

I have loved this body.

It has served me well.

This is the body I've enjoyed and employed.

The one that wined and dined

and traveled and ran and swam and...

The one that danced all over those stages

and belted out all that music.

The one that Vernon worshipped.

And gave me my children.

But right now,

this is a house of pain.

And it's smoking me out.

And Heaven help me, my spirit wants to be free of it.

And what about that man out there

and your big, fabulous family?

If Vernon keeps watching this,

he will not only climb in this bed with me,

he will climb into my grave.

Isn't is it up to him how much he can handle?

Up to all of them?

I can't keep watching my family hurt

because I'm hurting.

This morning...

This morning...

...I...

...felt myself

losing that last piece

that ties me to this body.

What piece is that?

My...

I tried to sing.

But the chemo has left my throat raw.

And scorched.

There was only this dry, burning whisper.

That used to be where my music lived.

Every breath scraped across my throat.

Like glass.

My voice is me.

And it's gone.

I'm already gone.

My family just doesn't know it yet.

Now... why don't you let me see what's in that file?

Are you gonna continue to stand there and act like

I don't know my own mind?

SMITTY: I got Max settled.

Now he can start mending up.

Thank goodness.

Thank Grayson.

How's he?

Wound tight.

But I made some headway.

I pressed him for some info on the hierarchy,

but he told me he's completely in the dark,

that he only gets his messages through text.

And you don't believe him?

Nah. He's been at this for a year.

So I'm assuming he's met or seen his contact at Garland

at least once.

Well, keep working him.

Something's got to give. And hopefully that's Grayson.

This could just be a setback, not the

You're right. And you're late.

You shouldn't have to sit here and watch me worry.

There's no place I'd rather be.

Nothing's more important than you.

You called me "the Anita whisperer" once.

Yesterday, I tried to shout down your mother's fears.

You had a fight?

I was trying to lift her up.

But I had the opposite effect.

If Mother didn't have bad days through all of this,

I would be worried.

This is different.

Then maybe it's time we send this red devil packing

and get a new medicine.

It's more than that.

I know that woman's will.

I'm afraid she's giving up her fight.

MONICA: Here's the DNR.

But I want to make sure that you understand

what "no extraordinary measures" mean.

If your heart stops, there's no CPR

or any resuscitation attempts.

And then there is the question of nutrition.

Shanice filled me in on all the inglorious details.

I had a patient- Charlotte-

who had the same initial diagnosis.

Her cancer metastasized.

Name a cancer, she had it.

And we treated it and she fought.

She was cured?

Her tumors shrunk enough for her to go home.

But 18 months later, they roared back.

[laughing]

[coughing]

Mm...

Oh... That's your idea

of an uplifting story?

Every patient wants a cure.

But my goal is time.

Charlotte wanted to meet her granddaughter.

She made it to her first birthday.

Aren't there Dupree events, milestones

that you want to be there for?

So many.

But how does that work-

me having a coughing fit or passing out

while my great-granddaughter

is dancing at her cotillion?

I will not pull focus.

So then you don't want to be there at all?

It's quality of time

that matters.

With any grace...

I could laugh.

Rather than grit my teeth in pain.

Or I can hug,

instead of nearly breaking

at my husband's touch.

Or maybe...

...just maybe,

I'd be able to sing at my granddaughter's wedding.

What if I were to tell you...

...that this, too, shall pass, with certainty?

Would that be worth today's pain?

Charlotte had a year and a half.

You could have so much more time.

The operative word there is "could."

You're Anita Dupree.

You have built your life on defying every rule,

and that is a double-edged sword.

Because you have broken down every barrier,

and then everything fell into place.

And on the other side,

you've been used to being the exception to the rule.

Cancer does not care what your name is.

We are trying to give you more time,

but you need to give us the opportunity

to find the right medicine, to find the right treatment.

Time for you not to give up.

But no guarantees, right?

You'd have a chance.

And you are Anita Dupree.

And lady, I'd take those odds any day.

-[knocking] -[door opens]

Ladies.

Are you, uh, all caught up here?

MONICA: All set.

I'll check on you.

Thank you.

Are you coming down from the pain?

A little.

Good.

Nicole and Dani want to hug their mother.

I want to hug them right back.

But first, I need to talk to my husband.

My love, I've made some decisions about my future.

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