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Wait, Mom, why are we going south and sending our kids north of here?

It's just a shortcut, honey.

There's just too much traffic on I -48.

I can't believe you're wearing the t -shirt of the band we're about to see.

Come on, it's from their first album and it's their last US tour.

I like the way you made it into a crop top.

Don't show off too much, though, okay? I don't want some other girl stealing you

away from me.

No girl could ever steal me away from you.

Separate!

Sorry, ma 'am. Sorry, mommy.

I can't believe we got the last tickets for this thing. Your connections are

amazing. Thank you so much for the best birthday gift ever.

This is going to be a night we remember for the rest of our lives.

Wait, where are all the people?

The stages?

What is this?

What's this place we're at, Mom?

It's just a pit stop, honey.

Go see.

Here's all of the signed release forms, and thank you.

I was just completely out of options.

Does anybody here want to fill me in on what the fuck is going on? Baby, don't

be mad at Mommy.

You're just in a facility where you can recognize God's love.

No! No! How could you? Take me home this instant!

No! No! Stop it! Stop!

work, Jordan. I'm impressed with this one. You're very welcome. Are you sure

she's going to be okay?

Let me go!

No!

Mother Sarah will be in to brief you on what will happen the remainder of your

stay. Someone will be in with your dinner later.

Our facility has a 95 % success rate.

Well, can I at least call her in a few days and see how she's doing?

I'm afraid that simply won't be possible. We have a strict no -contact

within the first two weeks of the program.

Contact with the outside world and the friends your daughter had before she

here could cause her to regress.

We'll be sure to phone now and again with progress reports.

Thank you, and I'll talk to you later.

Excellent work, Jordan. This is the third girl this year.

You'll be rewarded immensely.

Trust me.

Thank you.

I was thinking about getting back to LA tomorrow.

Do you want to get more recruiting weather?

Uh, not so fast. I have a feeling your little friend is going to be a hard one

to crack.

I think I'm going to keep you around for another week or two.

Miss Walker.

I'm sorry I couldn't attend to you earlier.

I had to check in with some of the other young ladies.

Tell me.

How have you been adjusting?

Could I offer you some literature, perhaps?

You can help me understand what the hell is going on.

Your mother dropped you off.

This is the number one conversion camp in the country.

Women of wholeness.

I won't bore you with the statistics, but your chances of becoming a

devout woman of God and finding yourself in a natural marriage with a loving

husband are greater here than... Stop! Stop!

I can't believe what I'm hearing.

There is nothing wrong with me.

2019, I'm getting out of here.

Not so fast, child.

Cell phones are not permitted.

Nor is there any service anyway.

You think I can't call for help because I don't have my phone?

I'm 19 years old.

You have no legal authority to hold an adult against their will.

Child, in the state of Utah, your parents can commit you if

you are harming yourself or you're harming others.

Oh my God, I have never been a threat to myself nor to others.

You are a threat to natural law.

You are a threat to God's...

and you are a threat to others' souls.

Like Lucifer, you seduce people into

thinking that your sin is natural, but it's not.

There is nothing unnatural about love.

and others to the fiery pits of hell every time you lay

with another woman. I'm going to figure out a way out of here, and when I do,

you and everyone else who works here are going straight to jail.

Who I love doesn't hurt anybody.

There's nothing wrong with me because I choose to love a woman.

That may be the case in other...

sinful lands, but I thank God that every state has its own jurisdiction.

Now, something you can look forward to?

At the age of 21, you are given the option to be released,

even if you choose to continue.

to lay with women.

But fortunately, I have faith

that your soul will be saved way before then.

You're fucking mental.

You're new here, so I will let your foul -mouthed transgressions slide.

But if you curse...

Or use the Lord's name in vain here ever again.

I will send you straight to the hole.

The hole?

So, this is practically a prison.

I'm being in prison for being gay? Is that it now?

Haley.

You're looking at this from a glass half -empty perspective.

We here at Women for Wholeness are in the business of saving souls.

And I truly believe that your soul is worthy of

being saved.

These. Yes, well.

Every time I look in the mirror, I'm reminded of my sinful past.

And now I stand here as a prime example of how anyone

is capable of change.

Speaking of change.

Put that on.

The first step is changing on the outside and soon your inside will match.

Remove your godless garments.

And begin your transformation.

Enjoy your evening.

Glad you could join us.

Now, everybody, take a cross and decorate it

as you wish.

We're going to be mailing these back to your parents back at home so they all

know how much improvement you've been making.

But just remember, no rainbow patterns.

You're new here.

Yeah, two days in.

It gets easier.

I usually use group time to zone out.

How long have you been in here?

A little over six months.

Listen, if you just play the part of the convincible, good Christian girl, it'll

make your time here a lot easier.

And you'll get out faster.

Thanks.

Would anybody like to share something with the group?

I have a few words I'd like to say, Mother.

My time here has been so rewarding, and I'm a living testimony of what happens

when you let go of your secular way of living and you surrender yourself to the

Lord.

I am so grateful every day that he has opened my eyes to the path I was on.

I want to be a shining example of his love and his grace.

I'm feeling very suddenly moved.

Can we all pray together?

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for allowing us to have a place where we can

honor you and rejoice in your name.

I pray for our future husbands, and I pray for the heart and mind of each of

your daughters here with me.

Amen.

Amen. Amen.

Thank you.

As God said in the Bible, when two or three gather,

In my name, I am in the mint.

You can feel him here, can't you?

It's fascinating.

Now, does anyone else want to share anything?

Haley, what about you and your progress?

Do you have anything you want to say? I haven't really heard anything about what

my next step is.

After my soul has been washed clean and I've been given a new outlook.

But the Lord has really been speaking to me lately.

I was in a dark place before, but I now have some hope for my future self.

Well, God speaks to all of us eventually.

Just take some time.

3 p .m. now complete your crosses and I'll see you all

at supper

So, what do you guys like to do for fun around here?

Sleep.

Isn't that right, Valerie?

I mean, yeah, basically.

Being unconscious is the only kind of enjoyment I get around here anymore.

If you need something for that, by the way, I've got you.

Sleep. Anxiety.

Didn't they confiscate all your things when you got in?

I mean, yeah, but I have my ways.

Ladies.

Mother Sarah has excused everyone.

Victoria, why don't you come help me in the garden?

I think Hayley has a bit of a big day ahead of her.

See you later today.

Yeah, see you.

For real.

Let me know if you need anything.

We all have to stick together in here or we'll totally lose our minds.

See ya.

See ya.

We can't keep hiding this anymore.

We've gotten so close to almost getting caught.

If Miss Reynolds were to find out what I've been doing, what you've been doing,

it could jeopardize everything.

I love you.

And I want to be with you.

We could leave this place and get an apartment in the city somewhere.

My aunt and uncle would help us.

No, we can't leave.

Mother Sarah has given me everything.

She's been a better mother to me than my own mom.

I can't just abandon her and the girls of this facility.

How can you say that?

They try to teach us that what you and I have is against the will to God.

I don't know how you can sit here in chapel service or in her group meetings

let her say that people like us are damned to hell.

You'll wake somebody up.

Good.

Maybe they need to be woken up.

Maybe if someone saw you here with me, sneaking around,

It would force you to take some kind of action.

Or to do anything just to show me that you care for me.

Never, ever say that I don't care about you.

I love you.

I would do anything for you.

I'll figure something out eventually.

I promise I will.

In the meantime, this time we've spent together, it's the only thing that keeps

me going.

These little moments when we block out everything else in the world.

That's all that matters to me.

Thank you.

I never understood why Mother Sarah made us wear these practically see -through

white nightgowns.

inside you.

Did you enjoy that little show?

I don't know what you're talking about.

No, you don't, do you?

What a shame.

I know you've only been here a few days, Hayley, but you do know it is a sin to

lie, do you not?

I'm not lying.

We'll see about that.

Take off the covers.

Spread your legs.

Excuse me?

Did you or did you not sign a waiver saying that you would adhere to all

of this program and heads of council at this facility?

Yes, I did, but I... Don't worry, I'm not going to fuck you.

Just spread your legs so I can check you.

So you did see everything.

It looks like you enjoyed yourself immensely.

Guess

we'll

have to use these for the night.

What's in there?

Just a little precautionary measure.

Make sure you don't commit any atrocities towards yourself.

You know, should any other sinful thoughts arise.

Okay, this is ridiculous. I don't need these.

Oh, you most definitely do, dear girl.

Little hands are the devil's workshop.

Little lips are his mouthpiece.

You know what? You're mental.

I saw you in Christina. You got... Shh!

You were dreaming.

You were dreaming sinful, devilish deeds and now you're projecting them onto me.

What?

Quiet.

It's okay.

The devil is inside your head and he's telling you to lie.

But we'll teach you how to listen to only the Lord.

I'll be back a few times tonight to make sure you haven't taken those off.

Wouldn't want you getting into any more trouble.

Second time offenders get put in the hole.

That was me, by the way.

Huh?

I'm the one who took off the mitts.

Lauren would have just left you in there, and Miss Reynolds would have come

to wake you up, and she would have seen you.

What were you doing in my room?

Saving your ass.

I heard Lauren yelling at you last night when I got up to go to the bathroom.

She sounded really pissed.

What did you say to her?

Or what did you see that you shouldn't have?

Ladies?

Are you ready for support group and daily reading?

Yes.

Now

everybody

bow your heads.

I'd like to say a prayer over breakfast.

Father, we thank you for this food.

We pray that it fuels us so we can continue to do your work.

We ask that this meal gives us nourishment for our bodies.

And we thank you for your continued love and guidance and

support that you give us each day.

In Jesus' name, amen.

Now, I'd like us to read some passages that God speaks to us through.

Okay?

Pay attention.

I'll begin.

Women shall not lie with a woman as one lies with a man.

It is.

An abomination.

If there is a woman who lies with a woman as those who lie

with a man, both of them have committed a

detestable act.

Well, amen.

Straight from God's book.

Who's next?

Haley, you're in charge of cleanup today.

Everyone else, feel free to enjoy yourselves throughout the day, but stand

for when I call you into my office for individual sessions.

Mallory, you may come first.

Come with me.

I'll help you.

Why are you being so nice to me?

I don't know.

I like you.

You remind me of me when my parents first dropped me here.

I remember how miserable I was, and I wouldn't want you to feel that way

I'm sorry for being so hostile. I... I just... I hate... This

place.

I miss my old life.

I just feel so betrayed by everyone that I ever loved.

Honestly, it just feels like there's no end in sight either.

At least you're not alone.

Um, do you know where the dish soap is?

Um, Miss Reynolds keeps all the cleaning supply refills in her office.

Paint thinner, computer duster, etc.

Although I haven't heard of anyone getting high on dish soap.

So, you're telling me I have to go in there?

But if you're not back in an hour, I'll send in the dogs.

I tell you about wearing that makeup.

Walk around here like some kind of godless Jezebel.

I'm sorry for my daddy, mother.

I promise.

I'm sorry.

Oh, hello, Haley.

Mallory and I were just finishing up.

Come on in.

I'm sorry, I don't mean to interrupt, Mother. I can come back.

Nonsense.

We were done here.

Mallory, you can be dismissed.

Just pray that the Lord lets me forgive you.

Yes, Mother.

Well, um... I'm just on a dish study with Victoria and I just came to grab

soap for that.

Mallory can hand it off to her.

She can finish up for you.

You.

individual sessions yet.

Aren't you excited for some more improvement?

Yes, Mother.

Sweet.

Tell me, Hayley.

Why am I failing you?

I don't understand what you're talking about

Lauren

told me that she

caught you masturbating during bunk check last night All this after I

thought you were doing so well this facility It's failing you.

If our group therapy and our prayers are not working, maybe it's time for some

more vigorous training.

No. No, she's lying. I caught her with another girl.

Don't you ever, ever say that about Lauren. Your obsession with Lauren.

sex is causing you to be delusional and you are full of lies.

Don't you ever, ever lie to anyone else in this building. You understand me?

I only help others.

I want to help you help.

I can't help you.

If you don't want to save yourself... I'm sorry, Mother. It won't happen

Ah, girl.

That's right.

Now... I have a slightly different...

It's a little bit unorthodox, but it's been proven to be

very effective with lots of other girls in the past.

During these sessions, I want you to listen to me.

You do not ask me any questions at all. You do exactly as I say.

Your only other alternative to this is solitary.

And maybe you can ask some of your girlfriends out there what it's like in

hole. You will know this is your only option.

Now.

stand up take

your panties

off

Put your fingers in your mouth and wet them.

Stick them inside.

What? I said you do not ask me any questions. You do exactly as I say.

Do not speak unless you are spoken to.

Touch yourself

See that?

Look at that.

your file.

And you've made some very vast improvements here.

Greater improvement than anyone else I've ever seen in this facility.

You're up for release in just a few weeks.

Do you think you're ready?

I do.

I feel like I'm finally at peace.

Whenever I've started to waver, I seek him for refuge and take a hold of his

promise.

I don't feel like I'm going out into the world on my own.

He's my companion.

He is with us, always and forever.

And, uh, what do you plan to do? when you return.

I would like to help other troubled women.

I was talking to Sister Lauren about possibly recruiting.

My heart rejoices.

It's beautiful.

But you know, it would be a failure on my part.

To send you back out into the world.

If I wasn't a hundred percent sure that you were transformed

in your mind and your body and your heart.

I assure you, I am.

I really am.

The mind can lie and deceive.

But the heart, the heart can't lie.

Now, stand up.

Take your panties off.

I want you to take a good look at this and tell me.

Does this arouse you?

No, Mother.

Please.

Please stop.

No.

Discomfort when the truth shines.

through. So tell me, Claire, do these women sinning against

each other arouse you?

No, Mother. I feel sorry for them.

Not my, but your body.

I'll tell the truth.

Take your dress off.

Pass your breath. Lift it up.

Remove it.

And let me see the truth.

Now, do you consent?

To me and the Lord.

For a different kind of training.

Yes, mother.

Look at your body.

Your nipples are erect.

You're lying, Claire.

You're lying.

You are aroused by these women.

You're lying to everyone here.

You're lying to yourself, and you're lying to me.

No, Mother, I promise.

I'm not lying.

This is not the time for modesty.

Is this what you missed?

Is this what you think of?

Mother, please.

like you to stop lying.

I'm scared, Mother.

Shush!

Mother? Let's see. Let's see how your body reacts to this.

Take your tongue out!

Oh. I see. You remember how to do that.

Quite. Well...

Continue.

Get this out of your system!

I can feel... I can feel your pussy throbbing.

I can feel that.

Do you admit that you're a liar,

Claire? Do you admit that you're lying?

I need to cure you.

Mother, I'm cured.

You are not cured.

Stop fooling yourself.

Shut up and be quiet.

I can't let all the other girls in here hear you sing.

Get this out of your system. Come on, let it out.

Let it out.

Stop lying to me.

Stop lying to me.

Mother, please.

Please lie to me.

Quiet.

Quietly.

Quietly.

right here, the very distility you came to to be cured.

Is that what you like? Is that what you enjoy?

You're a terrible student.

Mother,

please. Mother, you're making me so hurt.

Please.

Mother, please.

Let go. Let go. Let it out.

Put your fingers inside yourself.

Like this?

Yes.

What are you thinking about?

You can't lie to me anymore, Claire. What are you thinking about?

I'm not thinking about...

Um, no. I'm not thinking about it. This does nothing for you, then.

No.

Oh, you guys love this.

Don't you want it?

I don't want it.

I can feel

it.

I can feel it.

What?

Do as you're told, Claire. Do as you're told.

Don't ever lie to your mother.

Do you understand me, Claire? Don't ever lie to your mother.

What are you?

What are... are you?

Yes, yes, yes.

Please tell us lies.

Please tell us lies inside.

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes,

yes.

Oh,

you taste, you taste my vagina with such eagerness.

I'll do better.

I'll try harder. I'll pray harder.

I don't believe you. I don't believe you, my girl.

I can feel it. There's so much wetness inside of here.

You're looking at another woman.

You have a taste of sinning, don't you?

I do. I love her.

I feel you throbbing all over my...

Don't ask me any questions, Claire.

You do as you're told.

Yes, Mother.

Mother, where are you?

Are you scared, child?

What are you doing to me? Don't you trust your mother?

To be healed.

What is that?

This.

This.

Only this?

This is your husband.

Think of your future husband.

It's your wedding night.

It's my husband.

You are married under the eyes of the Lord.

With a man.

This is your husband.

Do you feel that?

This is the way nature intended you to be aroused.

The process of healing.

I see you like this.

I just feel good.

Yes. A good student. That is the student that I know that

thrives for improvement.

Yes.

This is what God intended.

That's it.

So proud of you.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes. Yes. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Yes.

Yes.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

Yes.

Come on. Until you're finished.

Come on. Learn to make yourself come in the natural way that God intended.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come

on.

Are you okay?

I can't. I can't do this.

I thought I wouldn't love separate girls anymore, but I haven't changed.

It's okay.

What happened?

I can't. I can't do this anymore.

I've been trying.

I've been praying.

Maybe I'm not trying hard enough.

Claire, I don't know what you're going through, but you want to be so hard on

yourself.

I can't help it.

I can't help but think how happy I was before I came to this

place.

Before my parents died.

I had a girlfriend.

I was happy.

My parents loved it too.

So perfect.

Then why did you ever come here?

I had no immediate relatives in the state, so

I got taken in by my grandparents.

They knew about me and Michelle, so they sent me here immediately.

They didn't even let me grieve.

Didn't even give me a chance to say goodbye.

I'm sorry.

You never told me your story.

I knew you came here about six months ago, but that's about it.

You don't want to tell me, though. You don't have to.

No, it's fine.

I was married at a really young age

to a man that my parents loved.

Looking back, I never loved him.

I just wanted to make my parents proud.

I always had feelings for my best friend growing up.

But I never acted on them because I was afraid.

What was her name?

Abigail.

Do you like a cup of tea?

Uh, no.

Don't go to any trouble.

Oh.

Sorry.

So...

You attended my bridal shower, my bachelorette party.

You even RSVP'd to the wedding.

I'm dying to know why you were a part of every important event in my life.

But you couldn't show up on the most important day that I needed you the

I am so sorry. I know.

I wait.

You hurt me.

You never gave me a solid reason why either.

I mean, are we even friends?

I would have shown up for you.

And everyone was like, where's Abigail? And...

I

love you.

I've always loved you ever since we first met and became friends, and I...

I decided to make a move, and I didn't want to lose you as a friend.

And I know this isn't fair to you.

I really... I do, and I'm so sorry. I just... I... I

thought I... I thought I could get over it.

I know it's too late. I just... I wanted to be there for you. The closer the day

got, the more it got under my skin, and I couldn't... I couldn't

do it. I couldn't do it. I couldn't watch the only girl I've ever loved get

married to someone else, and... I know it's too late, and I...

I'm sorry.

I never wanted to hurt you.

I love you

too.

I love you. I love you.

I'm tired of this.

Never did I ever think that you would be kissing on my breasts.

You are.

I think it's a shock.

I thought you were gonna hate me.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I'm gonna be happy.

Thank you.

Hmm.

Ugh.

Mwah!

I thought he would divorce me.

But he wanted to hurt me much worse than taking everything in a divorce.

He told my family.

He alienated me from Abigail.

He admitted me into this facility, claiming I'd gone insane.

We're still legally married.

I'm so...

I'm sorry.

We'll be outta here soon.

We have to stay strong.

I hate her.

I hate this place.

I can't stand to be here another week.

I'd rather die than do that.

Once I figure out a way to escape, I will let you know.

Believe me, I've tried many times and it's only ever resulted in me getting

thrown in the hole.

Okay, what is this hole I keep hearing everybody talk about?

It's a dark place where they isolate you from light, fresh air, human

interaction, everything.

It doesn't sound so bad at first, but believe me, it sucks.

You go crazy in there.

I mean, you start hearing things.

Worst of all, you really start to believe that you deserve all the bad

they do to us in here.

God, it sounds terrible.

How did you end up in here?

It's a long story.

But the short version is I was bullied in high school.

And once I was getting out, it had already spiraled out of control.

People were keying slurs into my car.

I remember someone had actually thrown a rock through my parents' living room

window.

I thought it might be best to let them know about all the shit that I'd been

going through for the past three years.

Their only solution was to drop me off here and completely forget about me.

Fuck.

I'm so sorry.

I can't even imagine.

I thought I had a bed.

I'm so, so sorry.

It can only get better from here, right?

Right.

No closed doors around here, Haley.

You know better.

Don't let it happen again.

I came to tell you that you'll be on laundry duty for the next two days since

you were unable to do the dishes this morning.

Okay, I guess I'll see you later.

There you are.

We have three new girls coming this week.

I've received payments from two of the families. One is still pending.

I just got off the phone with Claire's mother and father.

They're sending another three -month payment.

And they were happy to volunteer another three months, should we deem it

necessary.

Lauren.

Speaking with Haley this morning, and she seems to think she's caught you

fraternizing with one of the other lost souls here.

It was very dark. She couldn't have known what she was... I didn't say it

nighttime.

You're wrecked! Recklessness will be the demise of this facility.

After everything mother and father put into this place, I will not let you let

it fall to its knees.

I covered for you when we were younger, but I will not let you jeopardize

my reputation or come between me and God's work.

You may be blood.

But let me remind you, I have no problem cutting off a rotting limb to

save the rest of the body.

And Lauren, love you.

Jordan, please forgive me.

You never loved me. It was all a lie.

Dude, shut up. If they find out we're together, they'll throw us both in the

hole. I don't care.

You deserve every bad thing that's coming to you.

You know, I loved you.

I trusted you.

What did I do to deserve this?

They give me a reward for finding this.

How many before me?

Five.

But you were the first girl that I've fallen in love with.

Get out.

I never want to see you again. Just go.

I'll get out, sure.

But I'm not leaving unless you come with me. Yeah, and how could I ever trust

you again? I told you about my family.

My dad lost his job. My mom is still sick.

We have nothing.

If I didn't find a way to work, I don't know what would happen to us.

And how much did you get for turning me in?

Does that matter?

Please, forgive me.

You know, you say that we're thick in here.

I'm really starting to think that we are.

No, Bailey.

God loves us unconditionally.

I love you.

I want to be with you forever.

You're a liar.

Bailey, please. I need you.

I need your help to get out of here, okay? I'm losing touch with myself being

here. I need to get out.

But I'm not leaving without you.

Please, Amy. No, just go. No, please. I need you. I don't want you anymore. I

don't want to go without you. I don't want you, Jordan. Just go. No.

I love you.

I missed you.

It's okay. You're not going to hear that.

I'm turning 30 soon for a week.

Thank you.

They sent me to come get you for a bath.

Come with me.

Tonight's going to be a night we remember for the rest of our lives.

But you have to be 100 % with me.

Yes.

Tonight at 11, there's a five minute gap when the guard was switching positions.

I know it's a long shot, but there's a freeway about a mile away from this

place.

If we make it there, there's a chance of us escaping.

We'll never get away with it.

I mean, they'll catch us.

Or we stay and do nothing.

Claire just had her stay extended for three months.

They'll keep us as long as they can.

I'm not going if you're not coming with me.

Bye.

I love you.

Thank you.