All language subtitles for Rachel Rachel(1968).eng

Don't let it be day.

Get up.

Mmm, not yet.

I'm having a heart attack.

Every day is the same:
Heart attacks, cancer.

Get up.

I'm dead.

Can I move my arms?

Lazy Mary, will you get up?

Will you get up?
Will you get up?

Lazy Mary, will you get
up? Or you'll be late for.

What?
- School.

Good morning, Rachel dear.

Morning, Mother.

Say, I was wondering if by any
chance you intend to pass Shabab's.

on your way home from
school this evening?

Well, I don't intend anything
at the moment but I can.

Well, maybe you could pick me up
one of those nice chocolate bars.

All right.

It can be small.

The 5 cent one's plenty
good enough for me.

Good morning, Hector.

Morning, Rachel.

You're out on the job
early this morning.

I had the damnedest
nightmares all night long.

Guilty conscience?

Don't I wish.

Rachel.

Don't get me the milk,
you know. Get the plain.

- Not too much cholesterol in that.
- What?

The chocolate.

What was she doing up there?

She thinks of everybody
and now all the other.

Stupid thought.

Morbid.

I mustn't give houseroom in
my skull to that sort of thing.

Muriel Simpson says she'll die

For the want of
the Golden City

She is handsome, she is pretty

She's the queen
of the Golden City

Inside, Grade 2s.

Everybody at his seat
before the bell stops.

Come on, now.

Miss Cameron?

Boy, what a day, huh?

There's chill in the air now,
but it's gonna be a scorcher.

Yes, the summer certainly
seems to be upon us.

Yeah. Angela's working on
her summer cold already.

Every year like clockwork.

Hey, you know, your eyes
look a little red too.

Uh, the sandman failed to pay
his usual visit to me last night.

You know, you ought to
take a nerve relaxer. I do.

Once the tension's gone.

sleep can be a very
sensual experience.

Leighton, is there something
special you have in mind?

Oh, well, Angela
and I were wondering.

if you'd like to have some
supper with us at home tonight.

Well, she'd really like it.

So would I. I mean, we've been meaning
to have you for a very long time.

but Angela's been busy
with out-of-town relations.

and now summer's here and we
haven't had our little Rachel in.

Angela's been busy with
out-of-town relations.

and now summer's here and we
haven't had our little Rachel in.

for a single meal.

So if you could
see your way clear.

you'd be putting balm
on sore consciences.

Well, tonight is my
mother's bridge night. Uh.

Leighton, I'm awfully sorry.

I usually fix her
coffee and sandwiches.

Oh, what a pity.

So we're gonna
have a lot of fun.

And an old friend of yours
is gonna be there too.

Just the four of us.

- Who is that? Uh
- uh.

Too late now. Ha, ha.

Unless you change your mind.

James Doherty, will you get
off that swing this instant?

Or else.

James.

Look at you, the fastest gun in the
West and the slowest thing on two feet.

Now, look alive.

Hup, two, three, four.

That's a boy.

Thattaway.

That's very good.

Miss Cameron.

Just a minute. Get in line.

We're off to the library to
look at castles and keeps.

What are you off to?

- We're going to be fairies and butterflies.
- Ooh.

Oh, guess who invited me for
supper tonight and I said no.

The Groper.

He probably serves rat.

Come on up after, I
bought you a nothing gift.

What?

A companion that
needs taking care of.

but unlike your mother,
it doesn't talk back.

All right.

Have all my Walter
Raleighs died?

Drawbridges do not
open by themselves.

Thank you.

Psst! Outside.

Close the door.

Four times five equals 20.

Four times six equals 24.

I've been going over
your attendance records.

among other things.

James Doherty's
been absent too much.

Three weeks in March.

Ten days in May.

And again this week.

Yes, I know, it's tonsillitis.

James has too much
honor to play hooky.

I only wanna talk
to him, Rachel.

Now, would you send the young
gentleman out to me, please?

Leighton, it's his mother's
fault, she wrote the excuses.

Would you like to conduct
the entire investigation?

One equals nine.

Nine times two equals 18.

Nine times three equals 27.

Nine times four equals 36.

James.

Would you go to
Sr. Siddley, please?

He's waiting in the hall.

James, get your
things. Come along.

- Where are we going?
- Home, to my house.

Miss Cameron.

What?

Do I still have to call
you Miss Cameron anymore?

Darling, you can call
me anything you like.

Coward.

God, but I wanna
leave this school.

No, you don't.

If you wanted to
leave, you'd leave.

You'll never leave
anything, Rachel.

Rachel Cameron says she'll die

For the want of
the Golden City

She is handsome, she is pretty

She's the queen
of the Golden City

She is pretty, one, two, three

Queen of Golden City

Yoo-hoo!

Child.

Calla, I have asked you
before not to call me "child."

It sounds ridiculous.

Sorry, slip of the tongue.

You coming up?

I'd come down but I'm busy trying
to get my eagle back in his cage.

Jacob, will you get
your ass down here?

Just ignore him.

Where's my present?

May it watch over
you till fall.

Oh.

It's the one we saw
at the flower show.

Naturally.

I can't take that.

That's too much.

I'll borrow it from you.

Oh, shut up.

Look.

When things get glumpy, you
just hold it up to the light.

You get the feeling you're
actually sitting under it.

And everything gets
very calm and quiet.

It's too much.

I just wish I had
something to give to you.

What are you planning to do
between now and Labor Day?

Sit on the porch with Mama?

I guess so.

I am going to paint
my apartment lilac.

We bought a whole mess
of lilac paint on sale.

to use at tabernacle.

But nobody liked it but me.

I'm gonna get a good suntan.

No, I'm not.

Every summer, I say that and
I buy oodles of suntan lotion.

and at the end of the summer, I'm
still just as pale as a mushroom.

Yeah, well, we shouldn't
make too much of vacations.

They're just time
like any other time.

A dozen Sunday newspapers.

I'm in the exact
middle of my life.

What?

I'm exactly in the
middle of my life.

This is my last.

ascending summer.

Everything else
from now on is just.

rolling downhill
into my grave.

My life didn't even begin
until a year ago next week.

The eve of the Fourth of
July was my Dependence Day.

Independence.

Don't correct me. That was the
day I started leaning on the Lord.

Calla, we made a bargain
not to talk about that.

I think friends are more
important than bargains.

I'm not gonna listen.

I'm just gonna whistle.

Don't you wanna open yourself up
to life and loving experiences?

Calla, if I wanna hear people yell and
slobber and make fools of themselves.

I will go to an insane asylum.

You're certainly an authority.

for someone who doesn't
know a damn thing about it.

Well, I don't know whether
you're talking about God or LSD.

That's the second time
you've been bitchy today.

"Don't call me 'child,'
Calla. It sounds ridiculous."

You just made me aware of
how we talk, that's all.

Like Sidony Travis,
have you ever heard her?

"Rachel, dear, would
you be a good girl.

and pass me one of
those yummy cookies?"

Calla, I didn't mean
to hurt your feelings.

Well, back to our
respective cages.

I just wanna say one thing.

Every time we've ever
gone for an ice cream cone.

you've ordered vanilla.

That's not the
only kind, Rachel.

There are 30 other flavors,
plus a flavor of the month.

And there are more people
on this Earth than just you.

Calla.

When's the next...?

- What do you call it? Service?
- Tomorrow. Why?

If you want me to, I'll come.

Don't do me any favors.

Do you want your tree back?

All right, I'm gonna plant it.

Right here in the asphalt.

Oh, Rachel.

Nighty-night.

Nighty-night.

Slaughter, slaughter
Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Slaughter, slaughter

Undertaker's daughter

Rachel, is that you out there?

You ought to be
upstairs with your mom.

Are you Stevie?

No, I'm Nick.

You look just like Stevie.

Twins means you
look like somebody.

- Did Dad put him in the basket?
- Yeah.

Did you...? Did you watch?

They wouldn't let me.

Rachel.

Did I hear myself say to get
upstairs or was that my imagination?

Dad, what are you
gonna do to him?

I'm gonna make him happy
again and put back his smile.

Now, you best do what I ask
before I count to three. One.

What made him die?

He had the infantile, like all the
others. I'm counting, miss. One's used up.

You know what happens
when I get to three.

Two.

Two and a half.

Two and three-quarters.

Two and seven-eighths.

Three.

You're awfully late
this evening, dear.

I almost gave up.

I'm sorry.

I don't enjoy sitting here
entertaining the pots and pans.

- Where are you?
- I'm right here, Mother.

Don't kiss me, dear.

I'm all full of egg white.

Oh, I'm exhausted.

When it got to be 6:00
and you still hadn't come.

I thought, " Oh, my goodness,
she's correcting papers.

Shabab's will be closed and I bet she
forgot all about my chocolate bar."

Oh. I did. I'm sorry.

I'm not criticizing, dear.

We all forget sometimes.

Anyhow, I got it myself.

I took a nice long
walk in the heat.

Well, why don't you just lie down and
take a rest and I'll fix the sandwiches?

Oh, no, darling.

Really, I'm fine.

Truly, I am.

I just hope you're not
coming down with something.

Why? Should I be?

Well, dear, do that over
here where I can see you.

You have a fever?

- No.
- Here.

Give me your forehead.

Oh, just a little
warm, that's all.

Mother, I'm always warm.

I heard the most awful thing
about the Stewart girl today.

Cassie Stewart
has, shall we say.

been away.

Been away with
quotation marks?

Double quotation marks. Twins.

And no prospect of
a husband in sight.

Can you imagine
her poor mother?

She's a very nice
woman. Really, she is.

Not too cultivated
but very nice.

Oh, what a heartbreak for her.

Twins.

Yes, I suppose that must be
twice the heartbreak of one.

That's right, dear.

Just go ahead and
make light of it.

Life is just a comedy to you.

She going to keep them?

Oh, that's what's so
awful about it. She is.

I found out all about it.

It was Sra. Barnes
that told me.

I ran into her this morning on the porch
at poor old Sr. Shoemaker's funeral.

And I said to
her I said I said:

"Well, I thank my lucky stars.

I never had one moment's worry
with either one of my daughters."

Oh, Verla, you're
not going to no-trump.

Oh, girls, isn't she
the meanest thing?

Don't be a sore loser, May.

When you come to my
house, you can win.

Three hearts.

May I be a greedy piggy
and look at that candy box?

I think I'll just try
one of these peppermints.

Don't feel them, Florence.
You always feel everything.

I wish somebody would explain.

why they keep putting those green
ones in with the limey taste.

If they're going to look like peppermints,
they should taste like peppermints.

Don't you agree?

Excuse me, but I
have to go to bed now.

Oh.

Until later, dear.

Oh, my precious.

And I thank you so much.

Goodness, yes.

Well, those elegant sandwiches
were simply delicious.

So glad you enjoyed them.

Enjoyed them?

I'm not gonna be able to
haul myself out of this chair.

Good night.

Good night. Good night.

I think Rachel
is just marvelous.

I mean, the way
she manages things.

And anybody who teaches
is an absolute saint.

Oh, she's always
been wonderful.

Don't, Rachel.

Don't.

But it's just so I can sleep.

Don't.

Ok, everybody back. Come on.

Now, vacation hasn't
started yet. Don't push.

Goodbye, James.

"Some relations with
a double standard."

What are you gonna
have today, Rachel?

I'll have some,
uh, cigarettes.

and, uh, chocolate bars.

Oh, should I get
some suntan lotion?

Take a small one, Rachel.

I'll give you a check for
the whole caboodle, all right?

Rachel Cameron.

Nick.

Nick Kazlik.

The one with the
brother in the basket.

- You're staring.
- Oh, I'm sorry.

I don't think I
would've recognized you.

I mean, we haven't seen
each other since high school.

Thought we'd have your
company at Leighton's.

Oh, were you the one? Oh.

I'll give you a
chance to make it up.

- You wanna go to a movie tonight?
- What's playing?

What's the difference?

That'll be 4.02, Rachel.

Oh, thank you, Lee.

Well, actually, I
couldn't go tonight.

because I promised a friend that
I would go someplace with her.

Actually, I ought to be pointing my
nose in the direction of home right now.

Excuse me.

Thank you.

You still live
in the same place?

Oh, yes, I keep
house for my mother.

I have since my father died.

I didn't know he died.

There's no need
for condolences.

It was 14 years ago.

That's a lot of housekeeping.

You didn't get to college?

Yes, I went to college. But
when he died, I had to come back.

You see, my mother sold
the place to Hector Jonas.

for such a nominal sum.

that, uh, he allowed us to
live upstairs in perpetuity.

Or at least until we were ready to
take our business downstairs to him.

I'm sorry, what
did you ask me?

I'm a schoolteacher.

I didn't ask you.

But so am I.

Oh, in the city?

High school.

You teach high
school in the city?

Why did you come back here?

To see my folks.

They're beginning
to slow down.

Another look.

That's all.

Well, I hope you
have a nice visit.

Excuse me.

You wanna go to a
movie tomorrow night?

I don't like movies very much.

I mean, I see so many
of them on television.

How about your
sister? Is she busy?

Oh, Stacey? Stacey got
married and moved away.

We don't see much of her since
she, uh, had her children.

And you got left behind?

Oh.

I forgot my galoshes.

Hey.

Oh.

Thank you. Uh, no offense.

I was just looking for a little action.
I thought maybe you might be too.

Maybe I'll see you, Nick.

Excuse me.

Excuse me.

Oh, come on, Rachel,
we'll miss the beginning.

I'm a sleepwalker.

Have you by any chance had
yourself a little nipsy on the sly?

Sure.

First, an encounter
at Shabab's.

And then home to the
cooking sherry, that's me.

Nothing's real.

Nothing is now.

If somebody pinched me,
I wouldn't even hurt.

I don't know, I've
only got one life.

I say to myself, " Oh, maybe next time
this or that comes around, I'll grab it."

But nothing ever comes
around again, ever, does it?

Don't chicken out. It's
nothing to be afraid of.

I know myself. I can't make.

You don't know anything
about yourself. Trust me.

Welcome, brother.

Lean on the Lord.

Calla, good to see you.

This is my friend,
Rachel Cameron.

How are you? Two
seats right over there.

Love, baby.

- What?
- Love.

It's for you.

I'm sorry.

I don't know why I'm laughing.

Laughter's beautiful,
baby. Be free.

Brothers and sisters!

Calla.

Shh. I'm right beside you.

Brothers and sisters.

I'm just standing here.

feeling so.

blessed.

and I have to tell you why.

I can't keep the
joy inside me.

Listen to me.

Those of you who were
here one night last winter.

remember that
we had a visitor.

Yes. Yes.

A man who brought God
right into this room.

Brought the voice
of the living God.

right into this room like
a mighty rushing wind.

Praise God.
- Praise God.

- Praise God.
- Praise God.

He's here with us again.

Hallelujah. Praise the Lord.

That man is
sitting right there.

Right back in
that dark kitchen.

Oh, my God. I'm so grateful.

- Calla, who is
he? Do you love him?

He's so beautiful, I
can't even describe him.

And he speaks in tongues.

Praise God.
- He does what?

- He's got the gift
of tongues. Praise God.

Praise God.

Close the doors, please.

Please, everyone, sit down.

I've been a lot of places
and something's happening.

But something is
beginning to happen.

And not just
with kids but all.

All kinds of people, all ages.

All over.

Maybe for the first
time since Jesus Christ.

You see, there's this.

tremendous.

yearning.

to be.

words.

- Words.
- Words.

Words and walls. Walls.

between us. Chasms.

The animals are less
alone with roaring.

than we are with
all our words.

How we suffer.

How we.

languish in the deep and
lifeless dungeons of ourselves.

We're cut off from each other.

We're cut off from God.

and each other.

Oh, what can we do?

Can't we be what we are?

Isn't that our first
and final obligation?

To be more.

and more what we are?

More and more the image.

God made us? His? Mine? Man's?

Look at your neighbor.

The human being in front or next to you
that you don't know. Look in his eye.

Now, who is he?

He's you.

And you're him and
you're both suffering.

because you can't say what you want
to each other. What do you want to say?

What do you feel?

Love.

Say it again.

Love.

Oh, say it, people.

Say it.

Love. Love.

Praise God.

With all your
hearts, people, love.

Love.

Do you know what that
is to say that here?

In this life?

In this world?

It's happening.

Love that is given by God
through us to one another.

the greatest gift of the spirit,
don't you feel it happening?

Don't you love the Lord
with all your hearts?

Yes. Love the Lord.

Come out in front, old man.

Will you help him, please?

And you, will you help her?

And you, come right out here.

And you, ma'am.

Go on.

And you?

No. You mustn't be afraid.

Are you so
frightened of a hand?

No.

It's only a hand.

It won't harm you, don't
you know that? Five.

fingers to hold
with, to hold on with.

Would you hold onto me?

I think you want to.
Be willing, please?

Please allow what
you're feeling.

The door is open.

Love.

Say it with me. Love.

It's just a word, don't be
embarrassed. Say it. Love.

- Love.
- Love.

Again, love. Love.

Again, love.

Will you all stand, please?

Join hands.

Join hands in an endless chain of love
that our living God can pass through.

Oh, my friends.

I believe the Lord is here this
very minute wanting to help us.

Oh, please, Lord.

please free these people
from all their suffering.

The Church of the Apostles.

this very Church
did indeed enjoy.

and practice to the fullest
every gift of the spirit.

Yeah. Every gift
of the spirit.

Now there are diversities of
gifts but given by the same spirit.

For the one is given by the
spirit the words of wisdom.

Praise God. To another
the gift of healing.

To another the
working of miracles.

To another diverse
kinds of tongues.

Praise God. Oh, Lord.

above!
- Praise God.

Oh, Lord, Lord above!

Love me. Love me.

Love me. Love me.

Love me. Love me.

Love me.

Love me.

Are you all right?

Please. Say something to me.

Talk to me.

Say my name.

What happened?

Nothing.

Nothing bad.

I was on the floor.

Nothing bad happened.

Honestly, Rachel.

L Was I loud?

Did it take long?

It was a couple
of minutes maybe.

- But was I loud?
- Oh, no.

It was just a tiny little
voice, you could hardly hear it.

I don't believe you.

I am not a liar, Rachel.

In case you think God had something
to do with that, he didn't.

Oh, God, I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to snap, I just.

Oh, don't do that.

I feel so responsible.

I made a fool of myself.

Listen, we're all fools.

You can't be part of the human
race and not be a fool to somebody.

But I can't trust myself
anymore. I don't know.

Oh, honey, honey.

Honey lamb.

My poor honey lamb.

Oh, it practically kills
me to see you like this.

Oh, Rachel.

Oh.

Oh, I didn't I
didn't mean that.

Oh, God.

Oh, please.

Now I'm a fool.

I'm a fool.

The wind blows low,
the wind blows high

The snow comes
falling from the sky

Rachel Cameron says she'll die

For the want of
the Golden City

She is handsome, she is pretty

She's the queen of Golden City

She is pretty, one, two, three

In the Golden City

Yo!

Rachel.

Is that...? Is
that Nick Kazlik?

What are you doing?
Taking a walk?

I'm going down to the
river to read a book.

How are you?

I'll tell you tonight if
you wanna take in a movie.

I'll have to check with
my social secretary.

You do that and I'll
see you around 8.

Thank you.

What?

I said, ok.

Hi. Hi.

How are you?

How do you do?

How do you double-do?

Will you be with me?

Do you promise to be with me?

Doctors can't make promises.

Just try to let the
sedative take its effect now.

Oh, to think, Jim.

you'll be holding my
heart in your hands.

actually holding it
in your two good hands.

Haven't I always done that?

Hello.

I'm sorry I didn't
pull into the drive.

but if I parked behind that hearse,
I'd feel like I was next in line.

Oh, listen, don't I know.

Crawl up here slowly.

Put your face against mine.

Now look.

There. In the corner.

My God.

It's not.

It's not even human.

- Thank you.
- That's to make up for taking me so long.

Didn't you get
something for yourself?

Oh.

There's a technique to this because
these things go off like cherry bombs.

Now, if the manager hears,
no drinking on the premises.

That sort of thing.

So if it's a comedy, wait
until everybody's laughing.

But if it's quiet,
the way it is now.

you gotta create your
own diversionary action.

Tá-da.

Sorry, buddy, no
drinking in here. Out.

Out? Out.

Oh, that's what I said, out.

Come on, you too.

Cheers. Cheers.

Cheers.

Here's to you and here's to me and
if we ever disagree, here's to me.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Hey, Nick, your old
man's been in here looking for you.

He kept hollering your
brother's name. Steve, Steve.

Well, next time, tell him
to look in the graveyard.

Nick.

Three times this week,
he's called me Steve.

That's awful.

Don't waste your sympathy.

The wily bastard's
as lucid as I am.

It's part of a plot.

To make me take over the farm.

Aw, you're the bastard.

My heart really
bleeds for him.

I hate cows, that's all.

I'm not my brother, ok?

Ok.

Cows.

I don't like the way they parade
around nude in mixed company.

I think they should either wear
brassieres, half-slips or go to jail.

What about you?

We really.

go at each other like
mastodons sometimes.

We really tromp each other.

You and your father?

Well.

Don't you think people that
love each other usually.

Love?

I should have been
the one in the basket.

Father spiders and
brother spiders.

We all have our share.

Sometimes even the ones you
think are gone are still with you.

When you step on a spider, it
wriggles till the sun goes down.

I don't know. I
think that's snakes.

- It's the same thing.
- Oh.

I like you, Rachel.

Well, thank you, heh, heh.

Hey, Don, you wanna shoot
me over another beer?

Boy, when you look at a
person, you really look.

Was I staring?

Oh, right across to the
wrong side of the tracks.

What did you think of us?

Us bohunk kids way back then?

I envied you.

Why?

Did you think we spent
all our time getting laid?

And doing gay Slavic dances?

I've embarrassed you again.

Like when I said I was looking
for a little action. I'm sorry.

No, it's just that sometimes you don't
talk very much like a schoolteacher.

There aren't any
second-graders here.

Let's dance.

Oh, I only do the box step.

You wanna go
someplace with me?

Some place?

My mother has a
rather uncertain heart.

and she gets very worried about
me when I'm not home on time.

so I think maybe the evening
had better be over now.

Mother spiders weave
very sticky webs too.

"I wanna go, I wanna stay.

He loves me, he loves me not."

Should I make the
big decision for you?

Please.

Thank you.

How polite and well
brought up you are.

"Thank you. Please.
" For everything.

It's very thoughtful of you
to have brought that along.

Hmm, that's me.

Gallant to the end.

- Have a seat.
- Heh, heh.

You have beautiful skin.

Thank you.

Touch me.

The moon's so bright,
I can see the cemetery.

Well, that grave's a
fine and private place

But none, I think,
do there embrace

What's wrong?

I just want it to be so.

Don't worry, love.

It's never much
good the first time.

Is it so obvious, then?

Is what so obvious?

That it's the
first time for me?

You don't have to
play the virgin.

I'm not gonna go around
saying you're a whore.

Who's that?

Cinderella home from the ball?

Oh, you must've had a lovely evening,
dear, to have stayed out so late.

Well, we drove around.

It was a lovely evening.

Oh, I hope you didn't catch cold.
The wind seemed awfully chilly to me.

I opened the window
and closed it again.

Uh, did you have to
take your heart pill?

No.

And I forgot my
sleepy-bye pill too.

I just feel so wide-awake
and bright-eyed.

Does it show?

Can a miracle happen
and never show?

Rachel.

Look, honey, I'm not such
a whiz at saying things.

He didn't say "whiz" and
he didn't call me "honey."

He said, "Fix yourself
up when you get home."

That's all.

But how can I?

I can't just walk into the drugstore
and ask for, well, what I need.

Unless Mother has something.

Some antique rubber museum piece that
you can still smell the disinfectant on.

Oh, Nick.

I know I didn't do well.

It couldn't have been
very nice for you.

God, please.

Whoever you are.

please let him see me again.

So I can make it up to him.

Just so I can cancel
out the clumsiness.

Anyone seen that rotten thing that's
on at the Manawaka Theater this week?

"Not I," said the
Little Red Hen.

Florence, I think you're
sitting on the pencil.

I always said that Claudette
Colbert was so sweet and natural.

And she always had
such lovely hair.

And Marguerite Clark,
she was darling too.

Oh, that was years ago, Holly.

Years and years ago.

Well, it doesn't seem
years and years ago to me.

- Pass.
- Three hearts.

Yes?

Who is it?

Nick?

You're not exactly
invisible, Calla.

I left you a note but it
blew down. It's by the step.

I just hadn't seen you around anywhere
so I thought something might be wrong.

No, I've just
been kind of busy.

Yeah, well, I was
just passing by.

Oh, Rachel.

I've been so miserable.

Calla, it's my
mother's bridge night.

I'd like to stay out and talk but I
really think I'd better go back upstairs.

You don't know what it's like.

All I do is stare
at the phone.

I know it won't ring and I
don't have the courage to call.

You build things up
out of all proportion.

I'm not asking you to go out.

:::or even see me:::

but if we could
have just one talk.

I mean.

if this silence goes on,
it'll be impossible at school.

I don't see why.

You might as well
give me my note back.

I told you all that was in it.

and the rest of the
confession, you don't need.

You look wonderful.

You too.

Well, I'm just gonna
take that dirty old queen.

What do you think
of them apples?

Are you gonna discard?

Oh, look, there's Hector.

Hello, Hector!

How's my favorite big
gamblers this afternoon?

Oh, we're scalding.

Can't you do something
about the humidity, Hector?

If you're a real
friend, you would.

I have here two quarts of ripple
fudge ice cream in this bag.

and I'd love to accommodate
you girls before it melts.

Thank you, Hector,
but I'm a vanilla girl.

Or rather, I was.

Cold rich things on a warm day
only make you warmer, Hector.

I tried.

What's so funny?

Well, I finally
wormed it out of him.

Why he smells so much
nicer than your father did.

He smells just like
a pine tree, you know.

He told me that now
they're putting perfume.

into the embalming fluid.

Pine, cedar, rose, any
pretty scent you like.

Your father always
smelled of formaldehyde.

Stuck to his clothes, it
clung to everything he touched.

Just like those nasty wolverines I
read about in the National Geographic.

They leave their stench on everything they
catch so that nothing else will eat it.

When he died and we
aired out the house.

I realized that I hadn't taken
a decent breath in 25 years.

Did she think he carried
death upstairs with him?

Did she think it was catching?

Did I?

Well, I'm going to
go down with three.

What do you mean, "was"?

Don't you like
vanilla anymore?

No, as a matter of fact,
I think I probably hate it.

Hello.
- Mother, who is it?

Mother?

No, I'm sorry. She's
having her shower right now.

- Who's calling, please?
I'm coming. I'm coming.

Who's calling, please?

Just a minute. I'm coming.

He says it's a
Dr. Timothy Leary.

Hello. Hello.

Oh.

Oh, hello.

My folks are away
for the weekend.

so I thought maybe
you'd like to play house.

We've got, like,
three bedrooms.

so we can chase each other from
room-to-room between, you know.

Yes, I'd love to read that
book. It sounds very interesting.

Can you get it from
the public library?

Oh, you can't talk, right?

Right, at this moment,
I'm Venus Observed.

I'll pick you up in an hour.

We can go to the
store and stock up.

and you can cook us huge
meals in between raptures.

I'd love to see that
play at the university.

Uh, I hear it got
excellent reviews.

The only trouble is, do you think
we could get back at a decent hour?

I'm not planning to
take you back at all.

All we have to do is call your mother
and tell her something reassuring.

like the car
went over a cliff.

Oh, fine.

With you in it.

We don't wanna be too hard
on the old heart, right?

You're terrible.

Then what are
you laughing for?

Goodbye.

Hey.

Wanna go up now?

All right.

Try to relax.

I am. I'm sorry.

- Nick.
- Shh.

That's a comfortable chuckle.

Are you gonna keep it to
yourself or let me in on it?

I was just.

remembering.

a poem that my father saved.

He used to save funny things that people
wanted to have put on their tombstone.

And this one was, uh:

Your days away don't piddle
At every season strive

For once you're past the middle
You're more dead than alive

Isn't that awful?

It's apropos of me.

I don't know, a guy drops dead in
the middle of a piddle deserves.

to immortalize the moment.

I wanna say something
I've never said before.

What?

I'm happy.

You're just feeling smug
because you've improved a little.

You know what I wish?

For your sake.

So you wouldn't have all that
worry about your father, I've.

Have you ever considered
coming back here?

To live and teaching here and.

Nick?

You stopped breathing.

For a minute, I thought.

Thought what?

When I like somebody.

I get scared. I sometimes.

I dream about them
being already embalmed.

- Lf I hold onto you, nothing can happen.
- Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa.

What time is it?

It's 10:00.

and I haven't even fed you
yet. I'm a helluva host.

I can go downstairs.

and make you an omelet.

Or whatever you want.

I don't know what you eat.

Nick, I'm sorry. I didn't
mean to surround you like that.

I was only joking.

I'm not breakable.

See? All in one piece.

It's just such a new experience,
having contact with anyone.

Just feeling you
inside your skin is.

:::over.

Just a few cents'
worth of chemicals.

is all that's under my
skin and a lot of water.

We're 90 percent water.

That's not all that's
under your skin.

You're a loving
person, Nick Kazlik.

Babe, we've only had two
dates. You don't know me at all.

I know enough.

I know enough to say.

that I love you.

I want a child. L.

Look, I wanna
show you something.

I think you should see this.

I am not God.

I can't solve anything.

May I borrow your
bathrobe, please?

I'm sorry I didn't get
to cook you that omelet.

Well, you can do
that the next time.

You mean that?

Do I ever say
anything I don't mean?

Good night.

I'll see you, ok?

Don't forget to call
before the eggs get rotten.

Mother, I'm here.

What is it?

I had an attack,
that's what is it.

Doctor said I might have
died from such a shock.

What shock?

It's on your bed.

Why didn't you get married
like a normal woman.

and have children like
your sister Stacey did?

She watches the street like
a captain watches the sea.

praying for a funeral to
come by and cheer her up.

And I wait.

like Calla.

for the phone to ring.

Oh, Nick.

Hello.

Hello. Who is
speaking, please?

May I speak.

to Sr. Nick Kazlik, please?

Nick no here.

Could you, uh...? When
do you expect him back?

Maybe Christmastime,
maybe next year.

My son go away on Sunday.

Could you tell me where I could
reach him? Is he with his family?

Nick ain't got no family.

He never got married yet.

Who is speaking?

Who is speaking, please?

It's all right. I'm sorry.

Mother.

Can I buy you a drink?

What?

You looked like you
could use a drink.

Are you all right?

Yes, I'm fine.

Mama too?

Yes, she's fine.

Well, I only ask because I haven't
heard too much talk up there lately.

I was gonna ring the bell,
but, uh, I heard footsteps.

and the john flush.

I didn't wanna be a butt-in.

It's reassuring to know that
you're aware of us, Hector.

Oh, well, hell, hell, I mean.

Rye or sherry,
name your poison.

Rye.

Wait. You wanna go inside?
I got air conditioning.

No, I think out here.

I've only been in
there once and I.

Now, you stay put. You stay
there and I'll be out in a flash.

You came in. Oh, Rachel,
I'm really honored.

Here.

Let me know if
it's light enough.

It's fine.

That's the first time I
ever saw you take a drink.

Oh, I know you, you know.

I'm an observer of
human expressions.

I've gotta be
in this business.

Hell, I'm the one
who puts them there.

I wanna tell you.

whatever the problem is.

Uh, and I'm not asking.

You know what you're like?

You're like one of those
trick birthday candles.

that won't blow out no matter how
hard you try, they keep coming back.

You got real guts, Rachel.

Uh, do you like what
I've done to the place?

Well, you certainly
have driven death away.

Well, it's just
a question of, uh.

well.

presentation.

What am I selling?

I'm selling relief.

Did I tell you about relief?

- Not yet. Ashes?
- Ashes.

Did I tell you that I bought
a super-duper upright organ.

that plays all by itself?

- What, Rachel?
- Nothing.

Aw, what?

What?

I didn't know you could
just go out and buy those.

How nice for everyone's wife.

I'm sorry.

You know, you really know how to
make me lose my train of thought.

Hector, if a woman died.

while she was carrying a child,
what would you do about it?

In what sense
are you referring?

Would you embalm them.

together or separately?

You shock me, Rachel.

That's a terrible question.

I hope it was a
purely scientific one.

I'd like to see
where you do it.

In the name of God,
what are you doing?

Get up. Come on. Get up.

Get up out of there.
Come on. Get up.

May.

May.

May!

Come take her from me.
She's been in the room.

Don't stand there, woman. She
has to be scrubbed right away.

Hector.

would you mind putting
your arm around me?

Not at all.

Oh, God.

I wish I wasn't
losing my hair.

Hector, things like
that don't matter.

- Oh, they do, they do.
- No, they don't.

If you're getting bald.

They do.

Hector, help me.

How?

Sometimes I can't
even tie my shoelace.

I think I've done something
that's going to finish my mother.

You oughtn't to tell
me things like that.

I don't know. I
don't know anything.

If I gave you the wrong
advice, can you imagine?

But you know.

Oh, the only
thing I'm good for.

is to tell you where
to go to have it.

you know.

Killed?

Who is it?

It's me, Rachel.

Rachel?

Have you any ideia
what time it is?

Well, it's 3:00.

I think that's
a helluva nerve.

Well, I'm a very drunk, very
pregnant lady and I need a friend.

I'm out of saccharine,
can you stand sugar?

I just take milk.

You know, if I think about.

having it.

without considering
anybody else.

it just seems like.

What? Finish it.

More than anything I could
hope for in my whole life.

Without Nick?

Oh, he wasn't real.

I made him up.

But it's living
there, all by itself.

Inside of me.

I never thought anything.

alive could ever grow in me.

You think I could?

You think I'd dare?

If you did.

this could be the
first decision you made.

that showed any
respect for yourself.

Sra. James?

You look like a healthy
woman, blood pressure's normal.

Your heart's still beating.

That's That's nice.

Whoops. We don't want
that cotton anymore.

Ok?

Chicago? I know Chicago.

Where's Cannon Street?

It's, uh.

Oh, it's just out by the lake.

One of those ritzy North
Side neighborhoods, huh?

I guess so.

Any complications so far?

No, should there be? No.

- Thirty-five is just a
little late to start. - Oh.

Now, let's lie down.

What...?
- It's all right, just lie down.

That's it.

Try to think of his
college education.

Now, try to relax.

I am. I'm sorry.

All right, now try to
relax now, Sra. James.

Ok, you can sit up now.

You all right?

I'm afraid Junior's not
planning to visit you just yet.

but I'm glad you
came in when you did.

What do you mean?

It's not what we
thought it was.

There's something there,
it's causing the symptoms.

and it ought to come out.

What ought to come out?

It's just a small cyst.

It's nothing to
be concerned about.

Is that all?

It couldn't be anything else.

I'm sorry, Sra. James. Would you
like to be left alone for a minute?

Oh, God.

Rachel Cameron says she'll die

For the want of
the Golden City

Lazy Mary, will you get up?

Will you get up?

Rachel, is that you out there?

Come on, wide-awake now.

Good morning, Rachel dear.

You keep pining for
a life of your own.

but somehow, with you and her, it
always turns out to be bridge night.

Where are you? I'm
counting. One's used up now.

That's a girl. Come on, now.

You know what happens
when I get to three.

Two.

Two and a half.

Two and three-quarters.

The operation is over.

You're out of danger.

How can I be out of
danger if I'm not dead?

You'll be all right.

Well, just look at you.

All fed and rested.

Would I ever love to
change places with you?

Oh, before I forget.

I brought the stationery
like I promised.

And I forgot
something. What else?

Mother, I don't like to
plunge into this like this.

but there's just. Is no
graceful way of doing it.

Calla helped me to apply
for a teaching job in Oregon.

and I was accepted. And
I'm moving there next month.

Oh.

Drat. I forgot the stamps.

- I forgot the stamps.
- Would you stop fidgeting in your bag.

and look at me
for once, please?

Did you hear
what I had to say?

It's too silly to hear.

It's not silly.

- If you want a little change, I.
- I don't want a little change.

There's no reason
to be moving.

Move. Why?

Because it's time.

Now, I have already
gotten my ticket.

and if you want to go with me,
I'll give you the money for yours.

We'll discuss that when
you get home, you know.

You'll get to see
your grandchildren.

I don't want to move, Rachel.

Then don't.

- You know I can't be left alone, that's.
- Then come with me.

Doctor doesn't want
me to exert myself.

All you'd have to
do is get on a bus.

I don't want to, Rachel.

Please! Please. Please.

You don't want to what? You don't
want to go or you don't want to stay?

I don't want to.

You're the cruelest
thing that ever lived.

Don't you care
what happens to me?

After all those
sleepy-bye pills.

and chocolate bars and
sandwiches and walks.

can you ask me that?

Yes, I care.

But I can't keep you alive.

That's not up to me.

Never was.

Would I have to
sell my furniture?

Couldn't I even take my room?

Yes, you can take your room.

You can take
anything you like.

Mother. Mama.

Mommy.

All the way back.

Such a long, sad,
lonely, awful time.

The moment comes.

I'm always pushing
things out of their cages.

Calla.

Sometimes I wish I could've
been different for you.

Yeah, well, don't go
making a fool of yourself.

You know how you
feel about fools.

Maybe I'm proud to be one.

Calla.

Take care.

I hope you find what you want.

Not to worry. I'll survive.

The wind blows low,
the wind blows high

The snow comes
falling from the sky

Rachel Cameron says she'll die

For the want of
the Golden City

She is handsome, she is pretty

She's the queen
of the Golden City

She is pretty, one, two, three

In the Golden City

The wind said, "When?"
The wind said, "Soon"

The dream comes
flying from the moon

Rachel Cameron sings the tune

At the gates of
the Golden City

They are happy,
they are pretty

All who dwell in the
Golden City They are happy.

Where I'm going
anything may happen.

Nothing may happen.

Maybe I'll find a friend.

Maybe I'll even marry
a middle-aged widower.

and have children in my time.

Most of the chances
are against it.

but not, I think, quite all.

It may be that my children
will always be temporary.

never to be held.

But so are everyone's.

I will be afraid.

Always.

I may be lonely always.

What will happen?

What will happen?